#idk wether or not to put this in the bad tag

[caffeinatedopossum]

Me: well I don't have any counting compulsions

Also me: (anytime I have to count anything) *recounts it at least 3 times because I think I counted it right... probably. but now I'm not sure and I have to check*

[spookyscarydemonbabe]

Burn Baby, Burn…

A/N- Can you tell i’m a little touch starved…

Summary- After a day at the beach, you have to ask the boys to do you a favor. A very personal favor…

Genre- Fluff? Hurt/Comfort maybe?? Idk 😂

Warnings- Descriptions of reader being in pain, reader has female anatomy

Tag List- @thatsthewaythechrissycrumbles @munsonology @esme-viridian

(my tag list is always open, if you’d like to be added let me know!)

Word Count- 3.9k

Everything before this morning had been absolutely perfect.

Jeff’s family had been kind enough to let you and the boys stay up at their summer place for the weekend, and boy, did you take advantage of it.

The beautiful view of the beach from the back balcony, the day spent in the sun as you ran back and forth in the water, the perfect naps taken after being exhausted from the beach. Unfortunately, you wished you spent a little more time under the beach umbrellas, or at least reapplied your sunscreen more often.

Sunburns were common in summertime, it was almost as if they couldn’t go without one another. If it was summer, you were getting burnt. You just didn’t expect it to be like this.

You woke up the next morning with your body aching, a warm tingle spread all across your skin, and though you wanted to toss the blanket away from your body you could feel your skin tighten and ache with every move.

It took nearly a minute and a half before you were able to sit up slightly and move the blanket away from your body, your eyes widening and a quiet whimper of shock left your lips.

Red.

Bright red.

Everywhere.

The tops of your feet. your thighs, your hands and forearms, and you could only imagine how bad the damage was to your back and face, and everything else beneath your nightgown. Everything was hurting wether you moved or not and you did your best not to cry out for help from the boys. You didn’t want them to think you were in pain, but god only knows how much of a lie that was.

The more you looked at your crimson skin, the more it hurt.

You slowly and carefully tried to calm yourself, taking deep breaths as you turned to your side to check the clock on the nightstand.

9:38 am. The boys were probably just waking up.

A painful groan left your lips as you went to lay on your back, and it must’ve been louder than you thought because it only took a few moments before you could hear a gentle rapping at your door.

“(y/n)?” It was Grant, who must’ve been passing down the hall when he heard you, “You alright? Can i come in?”

You tried to speak but the pain on your cheeks was too much. You were able to muster a loud enough ‘Mm-hmm’ and Grant was unable to get even one word out before his eyes went wide seeing the state you were in,

“We’r- Oh, shit!” He opened your door all the way as he stepped in to check on you, seeing just how badly your burns were.

The look on his face could only be described as being in pure shock, a twinge of sadness in his eyes for not knowing how you could’ve ended up like this.

“What happened?!” He shouted out, alerting the other boys. You could hear their rapid footsteps approaching your room from down the hall.

You were able to whisper out a very quiet,

“I don’t know…” Before seeing the rest of the boys appearing at your bedroom door.

“Oh, god, (y/n)…” Jeff was the first one to enter behind Grant, and they all shared the same look on their face.

Shock. Worry. Sadness. They weren’t sure how to feel seeing the state you were in. They each had their own burns to sport, Grants shoulders and the top of his back were a light pink and Gareths nose and cheeks were a similar shade. Jeff had a bit of skin peeling at his shoulders, but Eddie had made the crucial mistake of putting sunblock all over, but of course completely forgetting the tops of his feet, which were a bright red close to yours.

“What the fuck happened to you?!” Eddie quickly came to your bedside, reaching his hand out and gently pressing his fingers to your arm to try and help you, but he was pulled back by Grant as a pained gasp left your lips. They all saw that just from the pads of Eddie’s fingers on your arm, your normal tone slowly converted back to its bright red state.

“Fuck…” Gareth leaned forward to look over your body before leaving your room, though no one was sure what for.

“How could she have possibly gotten like this?” Jeff asked Grant and Eddie, hoping that at least someone could piece together how you managed to end up in this state.

“I don’t know, i remember we all put on sunblock before we even left the house yesterday morning-“ Eddie started before being cut off by Grant.

“And i know she put it on at least once after we were at the beach, i helped get her shoulders…”

“(y/n), i know it hurts, but do you remember anything from yesterday that would’ve left you like this?”

You groaned again as you carefully contorted your face, just trying to see how much movement was allowed before you quietly spoke,

“I don’t know… i remember we put it on before we left yesterday, and me and Grant put it on again after the first time getting out of the water…”

Jeff carefully went to sit next to you at the edge of your mattress, pulling the blanket down below your feet to see the rest of the damage. He reached the tips of his fingers out, but quickly pulled his hand back. He wanted to help but he knew how painful it must be for you.

Gareth quickly came back into your room, a few bottles in his hands,

“Here, this was in the fridge,” He set a bright green bottle of aloe vera onto your nightstand, along with a cold glass of water with a straw for you to sip on, “and drink this as often as you can, you need to rehydrate.”

You gently nodded and did your best to reach over and grab the aloe off of your nightstand, but with each slow movement you could only feel the uncomfortable heat beneath your skin. You took a slow deep breath and tried to reach out again, only to give up after moving only a few inches, laying yourself back against the pillows.

“It’s alright, here.” Eddie stepped forward and grabbed the bottle off of your nightstand, placing it into your hand. He looked over to Gareth to see if he could remember anything from the day before, “Did you see if (y/n) put on any sunblock yesterday at the beach?”

“I don’t think so… Maybe once?” Gareth moved his attention back to you, “Did you put more on after that one time.”

Yesterday had been a blur. You remember bits and pieces of the day; bringing down your beach bags, coolers, and towels to lay out in the sand, having a few drinks and splashing around in the water, reluctantly packing your things up to bring back up to the house, and that was it.

“I guess not…”

They could hear the helplessness in your voice, quickly coming to your aid.

“It’s alright!” Jeff reassured you, “It’s not your fault, i know after all we did yesterday it probably just slipped your mind.”

“Is there anything we can do to help you?” Grant asked.

You glanced down at the bottle of aloe in your hand and even from gentle movements you were in almost complete pain. You knew exactly what they could do for you, and if it wasn’t for the redness already staining your cheeks they could see how much you were blushing at the thought of asking them to do this for you. They had all put sunblock onto your back at one time or another, and you had done the same for them, but this was different.

You sighed and slowly reached the bottle out in your hand to whoever would grab it before looking to them, hesitating a moment,

“…do you guys think you can put this on for me?” They could see the desperation in your eyes, and if you could move your body any further they knew you would get onto your hands and knees and beg for them to assist you. The pain was just too much.

They looked at one another, wanting to see who would be the first to offer, and though they all wanted to make sure you were in the last amount of pain possible given your current situation they knew that this was different than any other time you needed their help. They’ve seen you in bathing suits hundreds of times, but in your underwear? Never.

Not to mention the fact that they knew you didn’t have a bra on underneath your nightgown.

“Yes.” Jeff said, making the decision for them, “We will. Are you comfortable with that (y/n)? I know it’s all over, you really want us to get… everything?”

You nodded as best as you could,

“I don’t mind you guys seeing me in my underwear, but please make sure to be careful? I don’t want anything… slipping out…”

They understood exactly what you meant.

Each of them moved to a different side of you to stand at, Jeff had moved to kneel at your left side on the bed while Grant stood at your right, Eddie and Gareth moving to stand at the end of the bed.

Jeff and Grant looked at one another before looking down to you, each of them leaning down closer to you,

“We’re going to pull your nightgown up ok?” Jeff said as he and Grant each grabbed the hem of your nightgown, “Not all the way up, it’ll just be underneath…” He hesitated to finish his sentence, but you understood what he meant and nodded.

They both slowly moved the nightgown over your thighs, the cotton underwear you had been wearing were exposed to them before the nightgown snagged on your body,

“Do you think you can lift up just a bit? I don’t want to touch you, i just don’t want you to be in anymore pain…” Grant asked you.

You took a slow deep breath, doing your best to lift your butt and back off of the mattress for them to keep slowly moving the nightgown. With a shaky breath, you laid back down, Jeff and Grant had your nightgown bunched up just beneath your breasts to still give you a bit of your modesty.

Not a word was said, the silence in the room was enough for you to know how horrible they felt for you once they could see how bad the damage was to your body.

The tops of your feet, your calves, your thighs, your stomach and torso, your arms. They could only imagine how burnt the rest of you was. The state of your body was enough to bring you to tears, but you had to try your hardest to keep still. Any and every movement made your body ache, and the boys knew that too.

Grant gently took the bottle of aloe from your hand and squeezed some into his hand, passing it to Eddie who did the same, then Gareth, then Jeff. They each had a section of your body to cover, and they knew they had to be as gentle with you as possible.

“Don’t worry (y/n),” Eddie said at the end of the bed as he and the other boys rubbed the aloe over the palms of their hands, “we’ll be careful, ok?”

You looked down to him and nodded gently, taking a deep breath to prepare yourself for whatever you would’ve felt next. You had no idea if it was going to be painful, or if the aloe would help soothe the pain. Either way, you just wanted it to end.

Grant was the first to reach out, his hand lightly touching your stomach and spreading the aloe over your skin. It was warm to the touch, and although the aloe did help to ease the pain and uncomfortable aching, it still hurt to feel his hands on you.

Eddie was next, reaching up and spreading the gel over your thigh, with Gareth following soon after on your calf and the top of your foot. Jeff was last, carefully taking your hand in his and gently lifting your arm as he applied it.

It was a strange feeling to have them all touching you at once, being gentle and treating you so delicately. They had been doing their best to not cross any boundaries, always moving slowly as each of them neared closer to your intimate areas.

Eddie and Gareth slowed their movements as their hands inched closer to the inside of your thighs, Grants touch softened as it lowered down to above the hem of your underwear, and you could feel Jeff wanting to pull back as his hand brushed over the side of your breasts as he moved to your upper arm.

They knew that this wasn’t something that was going to lead anywhere inappropriate, they were your friends and they wanted to help you in any way that they could. They’ve just never seen you in such a state before, needing them to touch you so gently and so delicately.

And although it felt strange to you too, it made you feel closer to them.

You’ve asked them to do favors for you before, spotting you when you didn’t have enough money for food after a show or helping you get ready for a date was one thing. This was different. They had always treated you with kindness and respect. Not letting their eyes wander when you were wearing tight or revealing clothing, helping you get home safe if you had a little too much to drink, they’ve even seen you at your worst and have helped to take care of you when you were sick. But for some reason this just felt… different.

They would do anything for you, and all the wanted was to see you at your best, and though it was strange to see their best friend in such a vulnerable state they wanted to help you by any means necessary. And sometimes that meant doing things that felt a little awkward.

The cool aloe slowly soothed the burns on your skin, and though it didn’t get rid of the pain entirely, you could at least start to carefully move your body.

“How are you feeling now?” Gareth asked as he carefully moved his hands away from your leg as he aloe dried.

“Better.” You said with a gentle smile, glancing around at the other boys, “Thank you…”

“Do you want us to do your back too?” Jeff asked you as he placed your arm gently back down to your side.

“Would you? Please?”

Jeff looked at the other guys and they all nodded.

“Of course we will, just as long as you’re ok with it?” Eddie said to you.

“I’m ok with it. I might need a little help flipping over though…”

“That’s ok!” Jeff said, “We’ll help you.”

You gave them a gentle smile and carefully moved onto your side, Grant and Jeff helping you turn onto your stomach as Eddie reached up to help your nightgown still keep you covered. You let out a few pained moans from the feeling of your burnt skin shifting over the sheets, the boys waiting patiently for you to get comfortable.

With one final pained whimper you were laid out on your stomach, Grant and Jeff adjusting your nightgown once again, lifting it up over your shoulders while still making sure to keep your breasts covered. Your backside had the worst of it.

They could see the stark white line at the bottom of your back, the bright red cutting off where your bathing suit had kept a very small part of you protected. They couldn’t imagine the kind of pain you were in.

It was less painful to be laid out on your stomach and you took a few small, shallow breaths as you felt Jeff’s hand reach up, slowly petting through your hair to comfort you as best as possible.

Grant grabbed the bottle of aloe and once again it made its way around the boys, Grant to get your back while Eddie and Gareth got the rest of your legs. Jeff stayed next to you, being as gentle as he could be as he did his best to detangle your hair to distract you from the pain and discomfort.

“Ready again, (y/n)?” Grant asked.

With one last deep breath you nodded and a quiet gasp left your lips as you felt the cool gel against your warm skin once more.

You closed your eyes as you felt the aloe cooling the burns, trying to focus on anything else other than the pain. Their gentle touch was definitely helping, not to mention how careful they were all being with your body, not wanting to make the situation any more uncomfortable than it already was.

As they neared closer to the worst of your sunburn, a quiet cry escaped your lips, Eddie quickly reassured you just as he and Gareth were almost finished with your legs,

“Shh, it’s alright, we’re almost done…”

With one final application of the aloe to your shoulders, Grant quickly moved your nightgown back down over your body, Eddie and Gareth pulling it back down over your thighs. Though your body was still aching, the cooling gel had soothed the burn. At least for the time being.

“How do you feel?” Gareth asked as he sat at the end of the bed.

“Still hurts…” You replied back with a sniffle, “But it feels a little better now…”

“Do you want to lay on your stomach for a while? Or do you need us to help flip you back over?” Jeff said as his hand kept moving slowly through your hair.

“Can you help flip me?” You asked them all, and without hesitation, they each came to your aid.

They let you do the bulk of the moving, not wanting to put too much pressure onto your skin, still warm to the touch. Jeff had moved himself from the bed, grabbing the blanket from your bed and slowly dragging it over your body as you lay your head onto the pillow.

“Oh! Wait, just one sec…” Gareth stopped Jeff and left the room, returning quickly with a bedsheet in his hands, “I put this in the freezer as soon as i saw you, it’s not freezing cold, just enough to cool you down a little.”

He unfolded the sheet as Jeff moved the blanket away, Gareth carefully laying it over your body. A slight smile came to your lips and the boys smiled with you.

“Thank you,” You said as you looked over to them, “i’m sorry… i know that was probably a little awkward…” You quietly giggled, the boys following after you, a bit of pink at their cheeks.

“It’s alright,” Eddie said, “you’re hurting, you needed it.” He leaned over and gently kissed the top of your head.

“You didn’t do anything wrong,” Grant carefully placed his hand onto hours, giving it a gentle squeeze, “you don’t have to apologize. We should be apologizing, we were with you all day yesterday and didn’t say anything.”

“It’s ok!” You held his hand back and looked to all of them, “You don’t have to apologize either, it’s no one’s fault.”

“Do you want us to stay with you today?” Gareth asked.

“No, you don’t have to stay. Go and have fun, don’t worry about me.”

“(y/n),” Jeff said to you, “we’re going to be worried about you, i can’t imagine how painful that burn is. We’ll stay back today.”

You nodded and looked down at your body, covered by the cold sheet. The state you were in, the pain, the fact that you had those four boys helping you. You felt like there wasn’t much of anything you could do. Those boys would have to help you with every little thing that day…

You didn’t even notice the few tears that fell from your eyes until Eddie reached forward and wiped them from your cheeks.

“What’s wrong? Is it too much? Do you want us to put more aloe on?” He asked you with worry in his voice.

“No,” You said with a smile, sniffling, “I just… I feel bad…”

“Why? You have nothing to feel bad about (y/n).” Gareth said.

“Because…” You sniffled again and looked back to them, “i ruined the trip…”

“No!” Eddie reassured you, his hand moving to pet your head, “You didn’t ruin the trip. You didn’t ruin anything.”

“(y/n), we don’t mind it. Really.” Jeff said to you.

“Besides, we’re still trying to recover from yesterday…” Grant said with a smile on his lips, “I think we all just need a day to relax.”

You and boys nodded in agreement. After all, you had spent the last day and a half drinking, smoking, down at the beach. As relaxing as it was, it got very exhausting very quickly.

“Do you think you can make it to the kitchen table for breakfast?” Gareth asked you, “I’m making my biscuits and gravy, i know how much you love it.”

“I do.” You said with a smile, “But i don’t know if i’ll be able to move much, at least for the time being. It was hard enough just rolling onto my back, i don’t know how long it’ll be until i can move on my own…”

“That’s alright!” Jeff said, “We’ll make breakfast and then have it in here, i can even roll the TV in, we don’t want you to have breakfast all by yourself.”

You smiled a bit bigger, though quickly lowering it when you felt the aching in your cheeks,

“Thank you…” You looked them over, admiring their smiling faces, “I don’t know what i’d do without you guys.”

“Probably not much…” Eddie said quietly to himself, Grant giving him a nudge to his arm.

“There’s that attitude i know well.” You said to Eddie.

“Come on,” Jeff was the first to step away from the bed to cook breakfast, “let’s go get everything ready-“

“Wait!” You cut him off, he quickly turned his attention back to you, “Cheek.” You said with a smile.

He smiled and quickly came to your bedside, leaning down towards you. You gave him a gentle kiss to the cheek and he made his way back out of your room as you looked to the other three boys,

“You guys get one too.”

They were all smiles each taking their turn getting a quick kiss on the cheek from you. Eddie was last, cocky as ever, leaning down and puckering his lips up before you.

“Eddie…”

He rolled his eyes with a smile and turned his cheek to you,

“It was worth a shot…”

He shrugged and stood up, grabbing your door handle to shut it closed after he left, but quickly turning back and grabbing the bottle of aloe that was still left on the nightstand,

“Almost forgot! I’ll put this back in the fridge and we’ll put some more on you after breakfast.”

“Thank you.” You gave each other a smile and he left into the kitchen with the rest of the boys to help finish up breakfast.

You sighed and carefully moved each part of your body to see how much mobility you had. You still couldn’t move very quickly, your arms and legs only being able to shift slightly under the sheet, but it was better than nothing. With the boys help you were sure you’d be feeling much better later. Or at least by tomorrow you’d be able to get up on your own.

What would you do without them?

[tommyssupercoolblog]

IM SORRY THIS ISNT MEANT TO BE AGGRESSIVE i have not been on this part of the internet in a long time so things might have changed but.... last i heard the proship label encompassed things (in fiction) like inc/st, abusive relationships, p/do shit, etc... is that still correct? idk if thats what you were talking about in your tags because i do not know Anything about minecraft youtubers but usually when people put proship in their dni theyre denouncing that stuff. just wanted to clarify im understanding your complaints, no harm intended!

No problem!! it can be confusing lol, nothing wrong with being unsure. All-in-all, you're kinda close with that idea, but still not on target. explanations of proship vs anti, the d/mp fandom's take on it, and my thoughts on it all under the cut:

So proship as a philosophy is about wether or not things like that (in fiction) translate to real life, which is why it's connected to censorship like i mentioned in the post- if you believe that watching or reading something problematic will make more problematic things happen, that someone reading a book with a child/adult relationship makes them more likely to (or is on it's own already the same as) a person pursuing that in real life, that makes you an anti; and it also gives you a big reason to push for works like that being taken down or removed, and for people who make or read that stuff to be put in real prisons or face other real life consequences for fictional acts- because the idea is that, to an anti, these things bleed into each other.

being proship isn't equivalent to enjoying dark fiction like that, but it IS equivalent to believing that, similar to fictional violence, fictional crimes or acts of any kind can be created and consumed by artists and audiences without people actually condoning it IRL. a proshipper would say that if someone plays a video game where they murder someone, and then does it IRL, thats on the PERSON, not the media- and they hold the same position for fictional portrayals of incest, abusive relationships, and pedophilic relationships. the name comes from being pro- as in for- ships, and other content, as a whole; without it having to meet IRL moral criteria.

dark fiction freaks me out personally; the biggest ick (and actually a trigger for me) being incest; It bothers me and i stay away from it. but I don't think that people who read or make it are going to condone it IRL directly because of that media, and I believe that if they WERE to do something bad like abusing someone, it'd be an unrelated/seperate issue: an independent choice that only they are responsible for, not anything they made or watched or read.

That makes me fall under proship, even though I don't like any problematic (as in incest, abuse, adult/minor) ships. Personally, I literally follow people who like things that bother me in that way: i just block the tags so when they post something i really don't wanna see, tumblr tells me, hey, this post has this thing in it so we've spoilered it. If someone likes shipping their silly little blorbos and those silly little blorbos are kinda fucked up in a way that makes their brain go brrr, that's totally chill with me as long as they aren't hurting anyone- which, because i don't think fiction equates to reality, I believe they aren't when they're playing with their blorbos. (and since i'm pro-rpf, it's worth mentioning i feel the same about that. rpf is still FICTION, at the end of the day. you don't actually expect those people to do the things you write or draw. it's still removed from reality. that's personal preference though, many proshippers would disagree.)

So basically proship or Anti is a label that represents your philosophy on how human thoughts and behavior link to fiction. anti means you believe that consuming something fictional is equivalent to doing it in real life, or at least will make you do it IRL later, while proship means you believe that consuming something fictional is unrelated to doing it IRL, and you can enjoy something fictionally without actually enjoying it or condoning it when it's real people.

you will, of course, see more people who enjoy dark fiction under proship, and that's because they themselves consume it- so of course they're going to say it's not the same as doing it IRL. You will also, of course, see more people who don't like dark fiction at all under anti, because when you're disgusted by something like that then that reaction can be taken as "evidence" that it's morally bad. (personally, disgust-based morality doesn't hold up as a concept for me- it's a big reason why bigots believe the things they do, so using the same logic path makes me uncomfortable, but it is still common for people to use it as a way to measure wether something is okay or not.)

so, the part about silly block game.

there's lots of censoring in this part to avoid harassment, so bear with me.

In the early days of the d/mp, people decided that creating romantic content around the b-nchtr-o (Tmmy, tvbb0, and rnb00, who were all around 16 at the time) was inherently problematic. I'm not sure why, exactly, but the idea became that a fan crushing on one of them (at the exact same age!!!) or shipping them with each other, even as characters, was equivalent to being a real life child predator. again, even if the person doing it was ALSO a minor.

because it was seen as inherently problematic, behaviors like those were lumped in with other things problematic- shipping characters on the smp who had fought or killed each other, shipping characters who were related or were minor/adult, etc. there was no distinction; i was there!! it was all problematic, and all of it was seen as evidence that you were a real life predator of some kind regardless of age or disclaimers put under your content.

the label that developed for this group of "problematic content" enjoyers within the fandom became "poppytwt" or "ppytwt". (twt being there because it was mainly localized around twitter). as i explained above, because it could be because of dark fiction OR be//htr/o content, poppytwt content and ships doesn't even require it being dark fiction necessarily, nor does it require it being b//chtr/o; just one or the other, although usually the assumption is that it's both, since that combines the two reasons for being under that label. some people also call any proshippers in the fandom poppy even if they don't engage in anything problematic in-fandom, but that's generally the antis and not people themselves. if someone self describes as poppy, it's for the two main reasons above.

Additionally, the d/mp fandom has this concept of "maintagging". what this means is that if you make problematic content, you are NOT ALLOWED to tag it under the fandoms or characters it's about, because people don't want to see it in their results. ao3 has a tag filtering feature for this exact purpose, but people generally disregaurd that; you're still not supposed to tag it on the "main" tags, and doing so is seen almost like "asking for" harassment, like how some people talk about wearing crop tops alone at night.

Tntd/o managed to cross over, actually, from poppy to main/normalized in the fandom as the creators leaned into it with their characters. but for awhile even that was considered poppy.

different members of ppytwt have different opinions on RPF, but RPF was also considered poppy on it's own sometimes depending on who you were talking to and how militant they were on what got a pass and what didn't.

as be/chtr/o aged....it didn't stop?? all of them hit 18, but still, to this day, you can be cancelled for shipping them with each other or ANYONE else. it's why i'm so damn scared of the d/mp fandom, if i tagged a fic about my source with his character tag, with ANYTHING other than platonic relationships for him/me, I run the risk of being sent threats or doxxed- don't get me wrong, many antis keep to themselves, but there are also those who try to play vigilante- remember, if something fictional is equivalent to IRL, then attacking someone for enjoying a "bad" fictional thing becomes a charitable, heroic act; so sometimes antis might pursue proshippers with the goal of keeping people "safe". Many people in related fandoms or under the same creators also adopted the same ideals handed down from the d/mp fandom, so i'm wary of people who just watch my source too, or of people who like the q/mp.

people joke about the old fandom going crazy if they say tvbb0 and tmmy today, and that's because they would. they'd be furious at tmmy for doing this bit and putting himself in danger, they'd be cancelling anyone who ran with the bit in chat or had a photo of them hugging or kissing like in the music video as a profile picture, it'd be a whole mess. even today though it's still...scary.

((paused there to take a strawberry milk break, im back now))

the somewhat exception to this rule is Rnb00- people literally thirst for them and make nsfw comments openly, so while im not sure about the shipping aspect, i do know simping is widely okay- you couldn't even say you wanted to kiss them before, but now people are saying wayyy more than that...

inversely, i feel like my source has it the worst, because people won't even talk about him- or anything related to him- as an adult. it's always child this and child that, "who let him drink" and "get the alcohol away from the baby!", and of couse "don't ship him or his character with anyone that makes you a pedophile!!!" while the grown ass man they're talking about outright says he's alright with sfw fanfiction in a video where he reacts to someone's x-reader and then makes flirty nsfw jokes with every other adult man in the vicinity. every fanfic is platonic and almost all of them both irl and in game write him as sixteen. they take place in the past or, more commonly, they just straight up age him down. hell, sometimes they even age him down to like eight. even in fics where he IS an adult, he gets called a child or a teenager but never an adult.

poppytwt, like the stigma against writing for the creators or their characters, lives on. and even outside of benchtrio, again, ships between other characters that are problematic are poppytwt, so that also is still clinging on for dear life in some corners of the web. most poppytwt posts that are tagged as such usually include b//chtr/o, but not all of them; and it's worth noting many creators avoid tagging at all even if it's just the poppytwt tag, because they don't want to get swarmed.

because I ship myself with my husband of course, and also make fictional content with our sources as an extension of that (think dungeons and dragons but the character is just you...or, actually, SMPs are a great example of this since the appearance/name is generally the same, so think like an SMP!!!!!) I am poppytwt. I will always be poppytwt to most people who don't like poppytwt. and I have friends who are poppytwt and I like art made by people under poppytwt. I don't need to ship incest to be a part of that, i just need to not think the people who do aren't doing anything harmful when they ship that, and to write/draw....well, anything about septicinnit, which i do all the time.

if someone has poppytwt dni in their bio, i can't interact. if someone has proship dni in their bio, i can't interact. it doesn't matter if what they really mean is "people who like abusive ships because that triggers me", I still can't interact.

Because i think we SHOULD be tagging our content exactly so that we can filter it and find what we personally enjoy (and avoid what we dont), the concept of a DNI is technically something i'm kinda for- it is a way of monitoring and controlling your experience- but it also can be used as an excuse to harass people who forgot to read it, and i have no way of knowing if that's the case in advance.

ADITTIONALLY, because I know and care about people who consume dark fiction, I also don't want to be around people who think that makes them a bad person, regaurdless of wether or not they think i can stay. and "proship dni" is about proship, that fiction isn't reality philosophy- they are saying right out of the gate that they think it DOES make them a bad person. and I don't agree with that. it frustrates me and it makes me upset. those DNIs are based in a place of disgust and hatred for the people I care about, because of content that isn't real, and i'm never going to feel super okay with that...

there's people who don't understand what it means and use it anyway when it's really just about the content; but again, how am i supposed to know which is which?? ESPECIALLY on twitter, the anti philosophy is extremely popular and relevant and yes, trendy. people believe it, HARD, and so i can't assume they don't when they say they do. I've met real flesh and blood people in person who think that way, so if you are using these words, i'm assuming you know what they mean- that way I don't run the risk of making an actual anti upset and violating their boundaries.

you don't have to agree with me on this- if you're anti, then that's your worldview and i'm not going to change that. but that's what those words mean, the history of the block game side of things, and how they're correlated to censorship.

To Summarize:

Anti : Fiction Equals Reality so Fictional Crimes are Real Crimes (ergo we should censor them to stop the crimes)

Proship: Fiction does NOT Equal Reality so Fictional Crimes are Harmless (on their own)

Anti-Anti: Not sure if Fictional Crimes are Harmless, but Don't Like that Antis think Proshippers are The Exact Same Level as IRL Criminals

Poppytwt/ppytwt: Problematic silly block game stuff, OR things that have to do with these three specific block people being hot/dating someone. Sometimes both.

[timedoesntexistclocksdo]

Yello my names Barron, but Bear is snazzier call me Bear :3

Just a guy being a dude on tumblr and hanging out, I make posts sometimes??? Idk I’ve only just started interacting with people here.

I’m multi fandom and interact with posts including but not limited to Rtgame/Rtumblr, Ninjago, the Stanley parable, Undertale/Deltarune and others I can’t think of right now.

Apparently also a part of the Rtumblr Rp scene now?? Don’t know how that happened, but I’m along for the ride now! /Pos I’ll find a tag for those soon lol

I make art sometimes, I barely post it here but I think I made an art blog a while back? It’s uh @self-indulgent-art-blog not a lot there at the moment but I’ll probably put it to use soon. Otherwise on this blog my art is under #bearable art or #bearable sketches

Some boundaries:

I’m over 18 so suggestive jokes are allowed but only to an extent.

Asks and interacting in the tags are always appreciated! I really won’t mind, and I don’t bite! Unless you ask /j

Spamming likes is fine but rebloging is preferred, I don’t mind the notifs but just liking things is a little iffy to me (I’ll get to it below)

I’m not gonna make a DNI but I will block people if I feel like it or if you have bad takes. Empty blogs on thin ice, for the love of god just reblog stuff with no tags it’s not hard I’ve been doing it for years. /lh

But seriously for any blank blogs following me here are some easy steps so you can have a better experience on tumblr. Under the cut for your convenience. <3

1. Give yourself a basic profile picture, any public domain image will work. If you want to use fan art credit the artist please (headers are optional)

2. Reblogging is *necessary* on tumblr your likes mean nothing. Tags are not necessary, but are appreciated. Reblogging makes the post reach more people especially with art.

3. Take some time to process your emotions when you see something that upsets you, your feelings about something are valid but your actions are still your responsibility. Anonymity makes you think that you can do whatever you want and not face consequences, but there is still another person on the other side of the screen.

4. Put either “minor” or “adult” in your bio, this step is mostly optional but it helps NSFT (not safe for tumblr) blogs or just adults in general know if they should block you or not. NSFT blogs don’t want minors following them (obviously) and some people just aren’t comfortable with that either. It’s none of your business either way and you should respect peoples boundaries.

4b. Speaking of boundaries (and this is specifically aimed at minors) please respect if someone doesn’t want you interacting. I know you feel like you’re very mature for your age but especially with NSFT blogs it can make people very uncomfortable. Please wait until you’re over 18.

5. People have the right to block you. Wether it’s because your vibes are off or you’re on their DNI list, it’s not personal. Also don’t block evade that’s a dick move bro.

6. Have fun, and take some breaks! You control your internet experience and you don’t have to post anything! Ultimately it’s up to you to check in and take care of yourself!

Have fun and stay safe Bear cubs!

[cemeteryrocks900]

Some things to know about me pt2

-I’m a minor,17 to be exact

-she,her- straight female

-I’ve had a boyfriend for over 2 years I love him very much

-sh free for 2 years

-on and off e//d since I was 12/13ish

-I have adhd/add I can’t tell the difference sometimes, I have depression, anxiety, ptsd,4n4,arfid,body dysmorphia

-1 hospitalization for 4n4, 1 hospitalization for an attempt

-2 total attempts

-I’m very sensitive but also can put up with people shit at the same time

-the only things that make me cry lately have been yelling, food, death

-I’m in recovery but still struggle very bad and I’m not very good at recovery most days

-I <3 yogurt bowls

-I give everyone a chance unless you’re immediately rude, mean and nasty towards me or others

-I don’t have many irl friends, my only irl friends are in a different state now bc of moving, or in college/not in my school

-I have trouble saying my problems out loud, I can only seem to write them down

-I love coffee but can’t have it bc of my heart

-I have arrhythmia and lots of bowel and stomach problems

-I’m currently waiting on my intake meeting for php which is an inpatient program

-I hate and love school, I hate it because I get bullied, and I don’t understand anything and I have a very hard time learning, I like it because I don’t like being alone, I like having people around me, I also like it because I get to walk around a lot

-I have emetaphobia or ometaphobia whatever it’s called, which means I’m extremely scared of vomit and throwing up, wether it’s myself or someone else

-here’s some things I hate, people that huff and puff for no reason bc they’re annoyed or something like OMG STFU, people that chew with their mouth open, people that talk with their mouth full, chewing noises, screeching noises like metal on ceramic, people that gaslight, people that don’t get the hint and don’t stfu, people that act like they know everything and just constantly tell you you’re wrong when you know you’re right, and being sick. That’s just a few things

-I’m very very very quiet and reserved, I really don’t talk much unless I like you and you’re my friend, you’re my teacher, or I have something to add to the lesson, but I’m not inside school so that’s less talking

Here are my stats (idk how to do that read more thing I’m sorry)

Height: 168cm-5’6”-66in

Cw: 104.8

Lw: 92

Hw: 118

Gw: 107

Ugw: 110

I’m trying to gain some weight still because I’m still “dangerously underweight”

If there’s anything else you want to know you can comment or send me an ask <3

Trying out the new e🦋 tag, I stg if I get sniped for this ONE post I will lose it

[marvel-chubbybucky-hoe]

Hey, Can I request relationship headcanons about Thor with fem s/o pls? Thank you

This is so cool!

Relationship: Thor Odinson / Reader

Tags: exploring a relationship, fluffy Thor, implied smut, fluff, idk how to write headcannons, dates, dating, love, Thor’s being cute

Words: 1,888

A/n: I don’t have a clue about how you write headcannons, but I tried. It’s just kind of the beginning of the relationship, however I could make a part 2 if you like this. I hope this is okay and you have a good time reading this :)

The gif is not related to the story, just cool :p

You first met Thor after Loki’s attack on New York. He felt bad for the destruction his brother had caused, so he volunteered to help the medics with their rescue missions. That’s how he found you, with your leg stuck under a fallen down traffic light, refusing to let the tears that have gathered in your eyes fall.

He rushed to your side and quickly picked up the pole. You tried to get up, but tumbledback to the ground with a ground. “My lady, are you okay?”, his loud voice booms. You shrug and clutch your leg “I think it’s broken or something”

“It’s broken? Are you able to repair it? If not, I will ask the man of iron for help” You look at him with slightly widened eyes “Wait, you know Ironman? That’ so cool!”, you smile up at him. He mirrors your smile and stetches out his hand for you to take “I am Thor Odinson, prince of Asgard and the rightful heir of the throne. I came to Midgard to stop my brother’s mischief. I am deeply sorry for the suffering you had to endure during Loki’s games” You look at him weirdly, however you feel strangely drawn towards this man. You take his hands and he pulls you up.

“Do you feel like you are able to walk, lady...?”, he looks at you expactantely. You giggle “Y/n. And I think”, you try to take a step forward , but quickly crumble back into his arms, “the walking thing ain’t gonna work today”. Thor catches you swiftly and smootholy hoist you up on his waist “Hold on tight, lady Y/n” You grab his biceps and look at him “ Wait, what do you me-”, you can’t finish your sentence, because Thor wields Mjolnir and you take off towards the nearest medics that are providing first aid to the victims. 

You bury your face into his neck, tighten your grip on his arms and try not to scream as you are flown across the streets of New York. When you land, Thor sits you down on a makeshift bed, however you are still frozen and clawing at his arms. “Lady y/n, you may let go now” his deep voice rumbles. Blushing, you quickly let go of him. “Sorry”, you mumble.”It’s quite alright”, he chuckles and touches your shoulder softly.

That day Thor stayed with you, even after you were recommended to visit a hospital. He accompanied you a sat by your side until the next morning. He apologized profusely for leaving, but he explained he needed to accompany his brother home, but he will come to check on you again.

And he did. It wasn’t even three days later that he arrived at your door step with a bouquet of flowers. “These are for you, lady y/n. The Man of Iron said women like them, but I’m not sure I trust him, so I asked Sir Rogers and he agreed with the Man of Iron, so...”, he pushed the flowers forward with a blush. “These are for you. “

Ever since that day, you and Thor have grown closer and closer. He visited you at least once a month for a couple of days with a different activity planned.

There was that time he took you for a day on the beach and boy you weren’t ready to see your crush in tiny red swimming trunks and shirtless. You were sure at least three people were constantly staring at him and you yourself felt light headed. It didn’t help that Thor had been extremely touchy feely that day and constantly made sure to have a hand on your hip. “Lady y/n, you Midgardians have such fun places! We should replicate this location on Asgard.”

Asgard. He had told you about his home and true heritage and to say you were flabbergasted was an understatement. You could see that he was trying to gauge your reaction on wether you were okay with that or if you were about to cut all ties with him. You took a breath and gave him a toothy grin “This might actually be the coolest thing ever!”, you exclaimed. Thor let out a reliefed breath and smiled right back at you “I can’*t believe I got rescued by an actual god. My friend is gonna freak!” You giggled happily and hugged him.

You and Thor sat on the beach and ate ice cream until the sun began to set. That’s when Thor pulled you off your feet and towards the water “Join me, beautiful y/n. We have not been in the water yet and I would not want you to miss out on that”. The two of you sprinted into the cool water and you began to splash him. He joins in on your game and slowly moves towards you with a smirk on his face. You screech and quickly turn to flee from him, a huge grin on your face.

“No, please don’t!”, you giggle as Thor is coming closer. After a few seconds he reaches you and grabs your hips “Got you!”, he whispers in your ear and hauls you over his shoulder. You continue to giggle as you wiggle on his shoulder. He carries you deeper into the water, so it reaches to his abdomen and then gently throws you into the water. You squeel and take a last breath before you go underwater.

As you come up again you find yourself merely inches away from Thor’s face. He gently puts your hair behind your ears and cups your cheek with one hand and rests his other on your waist. “Has anyone ever told you how truly beautiful you are, lady y/n”, he asks. You hold your breath and put your hands on his chest while slightly shaking your head. “Well, it’s the truth:” His eyes flicker to your lips. “Lady y/n, may I kiss you?”

“Yes, please”, you breathe, rise to your toes and close your eyes. You feel his breath on your lips shortly before he meets yours in a slow kiss. He keeps it innocent and pulls you closer to him by your waist, the water sloshing around your bodys. Your hands roam up his chest and you put your arms behind his neck and reciprocate the kiss. Your lips linger for a few seconds before you pull away. 

“I really like you, Lady y/n. Your company brings me great joy”, he whispers and stares into your eyes intently. You play with the hair on his neck and smile “I really, really like you too”

And that was your first kiss. You shared many firsts together, your first dance, your first movie together and soon your first ‘I love you’s. You still remember that day clearly. 

You were at a botanical garden show. You were really excited to see all the plants and the different climates they live in. You were following the paths and read the details that were displayed. Thor was following you like a lost puppy, amused by your excited giggeling everytime you found a new interesting fact. You would turn to him with a huge smile and renarrate whatever you read and add “isn’t that cool, Thor?” He’d smile at you and grin “That does seem amazing, love”.

It was in the waterlily house when it happened. You were pointing at a big waterlily and told Thor “Look, it’s a Victoria amazonica. It’s the national flower of Guyana and it blooms in white and pink, depending on what night you are checking! That’s so cool. And it’s so pretty as well” You turned back to Thor with the biggest smile yet “I love it here. This is the best thing ever!” He grins at you and opens his arms in which you fling yourself into.

He hugs you tightly and sighs “I think I’m in love with you, Lady y/n”. You gasp and take a step back “You do?”. He smiles and nods, resulting in a huge smile on your face. You jump on Thor and he grabs you by your thighs to hold you up. “ I love you too”, you basically yell and pull him into a passionate kiss. Your lips move urgently against his, tongues meeting in a fight for dominance when a cough was heard. Your heads whipped around to see a middle-aged woman glaring at you, a little boy standing next to her. “My sincerest apologies, Miss. Lady y/n and I will retreat so we will no longer disturb your presence”

You took Thor’s hand in yours and ran away quickly, laughing loudly. “Oh my god, Thor! ‘We will retreat so we will no longer disturb your presence’? Really?”. Thor chuckles and hugs you once more “As long as it makes you smile”.

Soon after your confessions, Thor asked you to accompany him to Asgard to meet his parents and friends. You agreed happily, however some last minute nerves were keeping you on edge. “What do I wear?”, you asked Thor frantically. “Lady y/n, you look beautiful in all of your garnments:”, he responded. You shook your head at him, but smiled nevertheless “While I do appreciate the compliment, I have no idea what is acceptable on Asgard” Thor shrugged and pulled you into his arms “They’ll understand you are of Midgard and have different traditions to our own”. 

He was right. Frigga had accepted you with open arms. She stroked your hair gently and swayed you slowly from side to side. “I’m so glad my baby has found such a beautiful lady like yourself to love” Thor put a hand on her shoulder and laughed loudly “Mother! Take care, you will squish her. Midgardians are very fragile”

Odin shook your hand and smiled, although he was not as warm as Frigga, he welcomed you happily. Thor had been boasting about you to every Asgardian that would listen, about his favourite person. In the evening, everyone sat down together for dinner and you were shocked at how loud and rough everyone was. After your initial shock however, you had a blast. Surprisingly, you got along amazingly with Volstagg and you talked for hours before Thor declared it was time to rest for the night.

Now, you are laying in bed next to Thor, clad in comfortable satin pyjamas and smile at the man you love so much. “So”, he starts, “how do you like Asgard thus far?” You scoot up to him and put your chin on his chest so you are still looking at him “It’s amazing. The architecture and botany here is breathtaking. I can’t wait to see more tomorrow”, you both smile at eachother. You kiss up his torso until your lips hover over his mouth “Do you know what I also can’t wait for?” Thor smirks at you and pulls you on him, so you are straddling him “Why don’t you tell me, love?” you shoot him a sly grin and grind your crotch on his “How about I show you instead?” With that you connect your lips.

And how you showed him. Another first checked off. You’re not sure what the future will hold for you and Thor, but you are certain you can face every hardship with the man you love by your side. The gentle, protective and loving god of thunder.

[pacifymebby]

I have Ed too and im gonna go off on one abt this I think it’s ur responsibility as the adult to decide wether it should remain between me and you and also if it’ll trigger you pls don’t read this who am I kidding you want it to trigger you you fucking love it i don’t blame you but I don’t wanna hurt you. Anyway it’s mental to think that some people like live yano? Like there’s people in the world who live and like move forward and feel joy instead of spending every day coping not living. I remember when the stupid fucking cahms lady told me I had bdd, she gave me a leaflet on “how to cope with bdd” and just fucking sent me on my way because I’m not fucked up enough to be medicated or detained but yet too fucked up to leave without a peace of paper that just reinforces the fact that life from now on will be fighting against my primal urge to starve and thus coping. Why the fuck would I want to cope? I want to do whats easiest I want to do whats living to me surely I should be allowed to do that? I’d literally rather die then spend the next fifty years so focused on coping that I can’t move past the shit that ruined me. Like fuck that.

Hi anon, this hasn't triggered me but I'm guessing it could trigger other people so I'll tag it anyways

I know what you mean, sometimes I stop and remember that other people just live, I had a friend once who told me they'd never really experienced mh issues or anxiety or depression and it knocked me for six because WHAT?!

Anyway I mainly wanted to reply to u to tell u that I know this feeling u describe of wondering why ur even bothering with coping. But lately, maybe like the last year (and it could have everything to do with having finally been put on an anti D) that feeling of like despair has gone. My issues haven't and I'm very much still fluctuating depression / ed wise, however I think I've very recently come to accept myself as having long term conditions. I feel like maybe when u accept that this is how u are and that actually yeah, sometimes there is no point tiring yourself fighting something that will never really leave u, you stop feeling that despair?

Like when u stop struggling against the sea and u just lie on ur back and let yourself float instead. Ur still in the sea but ur not as tired and ur not panicking so much anymore?

The meds have helped me because my anxiety isn't as bad as it used to be, but also I think making peace with myself has helped a lot too. Like deciding not to constantly fight and like, let myself have down days and let myself be tired and accept that relapses come and go and that if I have a bad day it doesn't mean I've failed.

Idk, basically hang in there my dude because I really never thought if feel any kind of peace and lately I've been feeling something like the beginning of that.

[buppypaws]

i guess i’ll make an update on how im doing. i feel like its probably good to write out some of the things ive been thinking about. speaking of thinking, i really wanna know what percy knows about me. like what did apollo tell him about me. and also does percy like me as much as i like him???? mayhaps not. hes got his own life, its ok tho. i cant expect him to wanna be too close to me depending on how much he knows about me, but like he lives in utah anyways and lowkey i already have enough internet friends already. me n jayd are still doing great, but i still feel the need to find someone in the area to dump affection on. lowkey really glad me and eliott are talking again even if its just a little. thought it was gonna be , , , ,,,, ,,, a bad idea. and it might still be! we dont know. i just like talking to that bonch cause she gets me and we have similar interests, even if the me she knows is the worst possible version of me, its still kinda nice to have someone around who just Knows You, you know???? im still doing fine without talking to apollo. its kinda crazy to think about that situation still. cause i felt very similar feelings about apollo as i did with eli, so like, by that logic, ill run back to him in no time, right? but i think even if i had my heart set on running back to him, he’d say something like “what makes you think this is a good idea? what makes you think id say yes?” id get “back together” with him only for him to keep me at an arm’s length and he’d probably just do it out of pity. he just genuinely thinks lowly of me. and after me and apollo had that very last fight, i cant help but wonder how much i hurt him throughout the whole relationship. idk. even when i stopped talking to him for a week, he didnt check up on me or say hi.... he just jumped to conclusions and thought i was being petty. like, i did kinda wanna see if he’d message me first, but i more importantly wanted to see if i could actually manage to live without talking to him for once in my life. god, that was the worst week of my life. id be lying if i said i didnt miss him from time to time. its nice to think of some of our memories. all those times he was drunk and he’d tell me he loves me. those were so recent too. i just.. i didnt feel good about our relationship anymore. writing this out might have been a bad idea. im really starting to second guess myself now. i didn’t make a mistake. nobody in my life ever got good vibes about him. fuck. i probably hurt him so bad. i never knew how much he loved me or liked me or hated me, even after 3 and a half years, i just never knew. he always kept me guessing. why cant i just like people normally. why do i have this all or nothing mentality when it comes to relationships. idk. im glad i have jayd. it feels so much more mature than any relationship ive ever had so far. i just wish they were here. they’re so open about their feelings. they’re not afraid to tell me whats right and wrong without making me feel like shit every time like apollo did. any interest i have is met with support, and not deemed as childish or cringey. i just... i like the way they treat me. we’ll call and they’ll tell me how great it is to hear my voice after a long day. its so nice. jayd treats me the way i feel like i deserve to be treated. and as much as i hate how busy they are sometimes, i almost feel like i kinda need someone who ISNT convenient to talk to all the time. back when i was with apollo and eil, i could spend all day talking to the both of them, and they were both really easily accessible, so i could just lean on them all the time. i can still lean on jayd when times are rough, but the distance is allowing me to build so much trust in our relationship, and even individuality. if jayd’s busy all day, they’ll tell me, and then apologize and say that they love me and that they hope i have a great day as well and i just,,, this is how i deserve to be treated. even if me and jayd somehow dont work out, the one thing i need to take out of this relationship is that i know how i should be treated now. i shouldn’t accept any less. this rant went places i didnt even realize it was gonna go into but like fucc, when u start writing, you REALLY start writing, u know what i mean, boss. like this if you read it.

[mintbees]

Whats ur favorite and least favorite thing abt being relatively well kmown on tungle

i only have 2.4k followers (which dont misunderstand me is still INSANE) so idk about the “relatively well known” status people have at most seen some of my shitposts or the obama dnd post buuuutfavouritei get so many people who send me asks and talk to me and its so interactive!knowing so many people like my content is also really validating and this might sound silly but it gave me confidence in how funny i am! ive grown up having people either not get my jokes or being the joke, and now ome of my posts get THOUSANDS of tags of people laughing at things i said!!! thats just so validating in a way i cant explain. the same goes for art, you guys have motivated me to improve constantly for 2.5 years now and its done so much good. if you’ve been around for maybe a few months you probably wont recognize work from 2 years ago as mine at all and that says a lot.

least favouritethis kind of links into the first one but its the way i have been idolized and put on a pedestal.ive had countless of people ask for my opinions on drama, political things and the like when i have no interest in or proper knowledge to talk about said things. People come to me to ask what to think and thats not only very stressfull its also harmful to the people who do so.you shouldnt depend on one persons opinion to shape your thoughts, especially not of a teenager who, wether you like it or not. isnt perfect.i’ll mess up and say wrong things sometimes, i might have some really shitty opinions i dont even know are bad yet.the idolization puts both me, the “performer” and audience at risk, im not allowed to slip up because ill ruin the perfect image everyone else has of me and upset people. Thats really dangerous and stressful and i wish that would stop, because ive seen others my age try to go along with this plan, and it messes with you.

absolute least favourite im somehow mutuals with glumshoe and every time theyre on my dash i feel pure fear of them seeing my stupid shitposts. sometimes they like my posts and it scares me because i dont know what they think of me and at this point we either need to start talking and break this ice or they unfollow me. this torture must end its been going on for months, please help me

[monlunetaeil]

Get to know me hehe

tagged by: @adriana-willnever-cook (thanks qt! hehe♥)

Rules: tag 10 followers (or people) you want to get to know better!

Star Sign: Gemini (i promise i'm not MEAN)

Height: *big sigh* 150cm (4"11)

i'm very small i cry

Put your playlist on shuffle and list the first 4 songs:

Danger: Taemin (♥♥♥♥)

Girl Girl Girl: Triple H (i love this song :()

Heat shaker: Twice

Timless: NCT U (the best song ever)

Grab the nearest book to you, turn to page 23, whats line 17?

It was geuninley my bible pFFF

"Then the man bowed down and worshiped the lord"

Ever had a song or poem written about you?

never :((

When was the last time you played the air guitar?

I'm not sure but probably like 4/5 years ago??? Idk

What's a sound you hate? One you love?

THE SQUEAKY SOUND OF TEETH,,,IT IS SO GROSS I HATE IT. i LOVE any sound a cat makes,,, violent meows, soft meows, purrs,,,,, i love em all.

Do you believe in ghosts?

do i believe in them? no

am i petriffied that i'll be haunted by one? absolutely

Do you believe in aliens?

Hmm not in the covenstional way, but im pretty sure there is some other form of life out there. Wether they still excist or not.

Do you drive? if so have you crashed?

I don't drive!!! The uk driving age is 17 (which i am hehe) but i just haven't got around to learning,,, oops

Do you like the smell of gasoline?

YES!!! I have no clue why, also the smell of nail shops is amazing!

Whats the last movie you've seen?

I have a confession,,, i hate movies. I just don't have the attention span for them,, but the last one i saw which coicidentaly was 1 of 2 movies I actually like, was dirty dancing. (MY ABSOLUTE FAVE IS GHOST THO)

What's the worst injury you've ever had?

Hm well i split my lip roller skating once,,, but i already have a clef lip so i didn't scar or anything. I also cracked my head open at legoland,,,

Do you have any obssessions right now?

Hmmm my obssessions tend to not change often but at the moment i'm really into collecting kpop albums,, mostly Taems and Nct hehe.

Do you tend to hold grudges?

Nope! I really hate arguements so I have a really bad habit of letting things go, even when i shouldn't.

Are you in a relationship?

Nope! I never have been hehe

People i'm tagging!: Hmm i don't have friends so i'm sorry!! i feel creepy tagging y'all (you obviously don't have to do it if you don't wanna hehe♥) @uwulei @chrrybombhyuck @yukihyuk @tensify @fullsunmark @pbandjaemin (i was gonna tag others but i think they changed their @'s i'm sorry :()

[bux-n-azu]

Rules: Tag 10 followers you want to get to know better!

Tagged by: @tazmilyxfamily​

Tagging: @aplushemporium, @electricea and anyone who wants to use it

Name: Sto (Pronounced Stu) No that isn't my real name fuck you

Star Sign: Cancer

Height: 5′9

Middle name?: not giving it out

Put your itunes/spotify/youtube on shuffle. What are the first 6 songs that popped up?

iFlicky - Psychic, Wilter, and Uproar

Jump Out EX - Bob & Bosip OST

iFlicky - "Uproar" ft. longestsoloever | Friday Night Funkin' Mind Games Mod OST

Sky - Vs. Sky Friday Night Funkin’ Mod OST - by b/bpanzu

DROWNING | Annie VS Daddy Dearest (Friday Night Funkin' Mod)

School (Custom/Fanmade Song)

(yes these are all fnf songs SHUT UP IM 14-)

Grab one book nearest to you and turn to page 23. what’s line 17?:

PANG (from Bad Kitty: Camp Daze yes i still read those yes this is a sound effect and technically not a line)

Ever had a poem or song written about you: no lol

When was the last time you played air guitar: never do it because i feel like a dumbass when i do

Who is your celebrity crush?: don't have one lol

What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?:

I don't think i have one??? random glass shattering noises are either funny to me or concerning depending on the context

Do you believe in ghosts?:

no but i like the concept of ghosts. i believe in an afterlife tho!

How about aliens?:

i don't (says the guy with 2 ocs that are literally fucking aliens-)

Do you drive? if so have you ever crashed? :

no haven't learned how to

What was the last book you read?:

Bad Kitty: Camp Daze

Do you like the smell of gasoline?:

Kinda?? it smells ok but i feel like sniffing too much of the scent makes you sick or whatever so I'm kinda split on wether or not i like the smell

What was the last movie you saw?:

idk??

What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?:

one time back in middle school i twisted my ankle. It healed tho. Either that or that one time i got bit by a dog in the leg when i was young

Do you have any obsessions right now?:

don't know if i would call it an obsession but funky Friday and ragdoll universe lookin pretty fixatable rn. tbh funky Friday is the reason why i haven't really been active on here lately

[spookyscarydemonbabe]

15 questions about me!

@esme-viridian thank you for the tag my love!!

1- are you named after anyone?

kind of 😅 when my mom was pregnant with me she was listening to Love Line (idk if anyone will remember what that is) and there was a guy that called in that had my name and she liked it so much she just decided on it

2- when was the last time you cried?

about two days ago 😂 i don’t cry often, but i was so overwhelmed with being sick for the first time in 2 years and i was in so much pain and i didn’t really know what to do

3- do you have kids?

NO absolutely not. i don’t want to have kids of my own but when i’m older i’d like to adopt older kids out of the system as soon as i have the means to. even when i was younger i never really liked kids, i only liked babies because at least they slept most of the time 😅

4- do you use sarcasm a lot?

not really :p i never really have a use for it

5- what’s the first thing you notice about people?

their attitude. i can always tell when someone wants to come into a situation with a bad attitude and i do my best to avoid them because you’re not about to ruin my good time

6- what’s your eye color?

i guess it’s like a grey blue 🤷‍♀️

7- scary movies or happy endings?

both i guess :p i love scary movies, it’s been my forever special interest so i can’t really remember a time when i didn’t like scary movies, but i do enjoy a happy ending every now and then

8- any special talents?

i’m AMAZING at trivia, and i love going out to trivia nights :p we actually played a trivia game at home a few weeks ago and i’ve been given the title of ✨Smartest Person in the House✨ don’t ever underestimate the amount of useless facts i know

9- what are your hobbies?

writing obviously :p but i also love reading, thrifting, and i’ve just recently picked up cross stitching again :)

10- where were you born?

Midwest born and raised 😍 my family takes pride on being white trash

11- do you have any pets?

i’m not much of an animal person but at home i’ve got three chihuahuas, all of them are old and really needy so they’re super snuggly :p i still live at home so they’re technically my parents dogs but i guess they’re also mine

12- what sports do you play/have played?

when i was younger my mom tried to get me into tons of sports but i’ve never been a sports kid. she put me in soccer, swimming, horseback riding, tennis, badminton. i think it’s been about 5 years since i’ve played an actual sport 😅

13- how tall are you?

i think around 5ft4 last i checked but i’m about 5ft8 in my favorite platforms 🥰

14- favorite subject in school?

i always loves english, writing has always been a passion of mine wether it was fanfics or short stories or essays. my parents would always say it was math but just because i’m good at it doesn’t mean i like it 😂

15- dream job?

i mean my DREAM JOB dream job would probably be to open up a halloween themed candy store but i know i’m never going to be able to get there 😂 i’ve never really liked considering writing a job, as much as i would like it to be, but if i had to pick a second one i would probably say my dream job is to be a horror screenwriter

i’m going to tag @imagine-all-the-imagines @aidansloth @thatsthewaythechrissycrumbles @manyfandomsfanvergent and anyone else who would like to do this 🥰 no pressure of course!

[ufointhesky]

Reality’s harsh man you got like so many people creating analogies to keep going like the one Rushia posted today about the jar to help people understand it but like what struck me out today was that judges convict ppl of crimes but… they are never convicted of convicting them… like what? And then this weird song plays with the lyrics going It’s a show and tell, art wouldn’t sell to everyone unless you fucked every authority so what that means is peoples tastes are authoritative and represent their moral values… so one thing could be bad if your a noob but good if you know what it’s purpose is.. but then it goes along with who’s selling it, Wether it’s a duo or a single seller then the people would be Bonnie and Clyde’s or like a real artist telling you their dreams are to break hearts with your money.. basically just getting lucky until they don’t anymore and seeing as there will never be a ceo richer than Elon musk the reality that we live in is collaborative like jury duty but a la masse of each other in society. And we’re this destructive conscious judging others on all criterias but never funding anything bc we don’t know the numbers behind their talents or attributes but we do for like games and stuff.. so some clarity in artistry is necessary like the image of the burning house with the kid selling for like 400k would mean it’s value is high in society and that’s probably the only benefit of nfts.. ranking of art.. instead of followers/likes tho that’s a good way to see what’s good or not. I also thought about the national debt hitting 30 trillion and am wondering how that is bc the S+P 500 hit 20 trillion but they never disclose if those ppl on there are already ceos or in manager positions.. so reality is a harsh lie.. but the thing is this is always going to be the case bc inventory floors are always supposed to have more than they can actually display to create wages.. and on top of them they have interest if they’re using loans to keep the lights on.. so that number will always be negative but the stocks will always be positive bc it’s impossible for a stock to be negative the way that society thinks. it’s also impossible to know the future but I think that people just need to relax and enjoy the sounds of waves… I think numbers are shit but I know for a fact that curation is a sorta painful thing to do.. so people you know on the internet should tell you like this piece of art is sleepy or for morning people.. it won’t cause you harm.. that sorta thing. That’s what I’ve been trying to say like using meta tags with emojis for example rushia is calm and happy when she does asmr so you can trust her to put you to sleep so emoji meta tags of sleep hearts and a moon would be used by YouTube of the future.. and we would be able to filter things by opinions comments and not just likes and stuff.. I think this would fix mental health bc also social media has none of these filters in the timelines and it’s repetitive in digital nature.. so we can only trust the curation processes of every person on the internet… but me… I’m usually a loaded analogy machine.. so if you’re looking to have mental vitality this page is like a toxic field for girls obviously because I only select things that are… idk they have a certain drive against their sorta advantageousness they have on us even tho the guy just said sucking a dick for a hundred per day is literally 36,500 dollars and that’s literally the same as a minimum wage job at Starbucks with two years on the team probably and between the gasoline costs you’re better off at Starbucks and doing your own thing even tho the consensus is Starbucks sucks bc they dismiss shareholder votes even if they’re the ones buying the fucking stock so fuck Starbucks. I love sleepy lushy things. I hope that people see through the lines that this is what I’m after the entire point of the site is mental vitality to sleep well 😅 not to have shit analogies about the use of anime characters or porn when I have lewdy eyes cause of something kyley or I said.

[highway-stars]

I was tagged by @bipalium to write about my top 10 favorite characters from 10 different fandoms and why! (A lot of these aren’t really fandoms per se but I’m not in 10 fandoms so I just picked 10 different things)

THESE AREN’T IN ANY PARTICULAR ORDER

PUTTING THIS UNDER THE CUT CAUSE AS YOU ALL KNOW I DON’T KNOW HOW TO KEEP ANYTHING CONCISE

1) Jay Gatsby from The Great Gatsby: The kind of character you wanna reach into the book and strangle for making such terrible decisions. You feel bad for him, but its arguable as to wether or not he’s really a good person, or sympathetic. He’s not a bad person either, but almost all of the characters in the Great Gatsby fall into that grey area between good and bad and it makes their motives so much more interesting, especially Gatsby’s and I could discuss him and his motives forever 

2) Sokka from Avatar the Last Airbender: I just relate to Sokka alot okay like I feel like he’s the perfect example of a comic relief character that isn’t just a goofy laughing stock and is actually super capable and super important with his own goals personality strengths and flaws that I just relate to a lot idk

3) Melkor from the Silmarillion: Melkor was instantly one of my favorite characters as soon as I started reading the Silmarillion. He’s literally the embodiment of chaotic evil and I just fuckin love how he just ruins things purely for the sake of ruining things, and he’s just so straightforward and dedicated to what he’s doing that I just find it so likable and even funny and I can’t get enough of him tbh 

4) Hamlet from Hamlet: He’s just another incredibly well-rounded and complex character that I could talk about for hours. He’s the kind of character you still find yourself rooting for even after he starts killing people and you’re like “...wait a minute” and I fuckin love that 

5) Rohan from JJBA Part 4: I will always love Rohan like stfu I can’t even explain myself he’s just great

6) Asami Sato from The Legend of Korra: She had to go through some serious shit, from finding out her father was evil, to dealing with douchebag Mako, to being distrusted by everyone and was so incredibly strong the entire time. And she was super pretty and feminine without being fanservice-sexy which I appreciated a lot

7) Dr Manhattan from Watchmen: Again, his philosophy and actions aren’t something that I agree with but I’m just enthralled with the dynamic of a human trying to cope with becoming a literal god who everyone is trying to exploit, and who ends up rejecting humanity but is ultimately unable to entirely do so

8) Deadpool: I don’t think I really have to explain why I love Deadpool; he’s fucking great like just admit it

9) Gandalf from LOTR: I don’t have to explain myself for this either Gandalf is fuckin awesome idgaf 

10) Jotaro Kujo from JJBA Part 3: I didn’t want to include double jojo characters in here but I had to. I love Jotaro too much. I love my quiet marine biologist boi. I did a lot of flip-flopping between favorite jojos but at this point I can confidently say that Jotaro is my favorite 

I’m gonna tag @finyb @barad-doom @verymaedhros and uhhh whoever else wants to do it!!! And if you don’t feel like doing it then of course it’s all good!

[thepalegoldmoon]

All 60 asks~!

get to know me, pick some numbers. 1. selfieNone ATM, but you’ll see my face when I con update, (pro procrastinating on that haha)
2. what would you name your future kids?I’m trying to get a new baby Guinea pig from a friend and I’m gonna try to name it Roadie, if that shows anything haha (I’m never gonna have human children, but other animals probably haha)
3. do you miss anyone?Tbh is this even a question? When don’t I miss someone haha, yeah.. Kinda tbh
4. what are you looking forward to?Cons, moving out, making more money, just chilling with the only person I ever really hang out with anymore haha
5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?Yeah like one or two people, one and probably the most important one and the one of them being the cool ass mf who sent me this ask c;
6. is it hard for you to get over someone?Depends on alot of variables recently 
7. what was your life like last year?Lonely, terribly quite, have really no one, maybe like two people, and they kinda just became by closest and probably most reliable (in the best kinda ways) friends I’ve ever had..
8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?Yeah I think? I bottle up alot of my emotions. So when I get annoyed enough to cry. It’s that one thing that sent me over the breaking point and everything just happens in one big messy fit. It’s gross. •-•
9. who did you last see in person?Besides my immediate family (I see those annoying fucks everyday so they don’t really count I love them but eh) ummm I think it was this really cool guy, his name is Jay, I tag him in a ton of shit, yeah he’s really awesome!~ and my fave, but yeah I saw him for a con and it was amazing!~
10. are you good at hiding your feelings?Idk some people say they can’t tell certain emotions. Or they don’t notice them, others say the exact opposite, it all depends on the people and emotions
11. are you listening to music right now?Nope shockingly, I’ve been jamming out to my old childhood anthems these past few days haha
12. what is something you want right now?Probably to just chill with someone, just kinda cuddle with someone and watch movies and conspiracy YouTube videos tbh haha maybe do some other cool shit with? Idk but that would be nice haha, and money to pay off some people haha,
13. how do you feel right now?Kinda lonely, a little tired, but over all calm and just veggin out doing nothing haha
14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you? Two weeks ago I gave my friend Amanda a hug good bye, I ran into her at the fireworks show down the street from my apartment
15. personality descriptionYikes, a mess. I’m a scrappy cinnamon roll with a low key Lex Luther complex 😈Kinda explains why I want to legally change my name to Alyxxander… Hmmm haha
16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn’t?Tbh yeah, there’s lots of shit I’d love to say but don’t, wether for their protection or my own, sometimes some things are better left for better times or just never said
17. opinion on insecurities.They’re shit and we all hate them tbh but as long as you can find ways to get past them and have friends that support you and beat those insecurities down rather than make them worse, all is good!~ 
18. do you miss how things were a year ago?I don’t really know, like maybe some things, but tbh not much is really too different from last year. There’s a few things different hut tbh idk if that’s a good or bad thing anymore. I don’t really know haha
19. have you ever been to New York?State: yes, a few times, passing through and I’ve been to Buffalo.City: passed through but didn’t stay. I’d love to go one day though
20. what is your favourite song at the moment?hooked on a feeling (I make snapchat memes from that song haha,)
21. age and birthday?18 and May 28th!~
22. description of crush.A have a few key words. L E G S. E Y E S. S M I L E. has the tiniest flatest butt, but I love it and think it’s real nice!~ ( Tbh doesn’t have the flatest ass out of all my friend group, but put of my closet friend group does XD) and once it’s relevant again H A I R. (( gee golly guys, I wonder who I described???)) haha
23. fear(s)Hahah many. Mostly personal ones but one I’ll be alright making a public one. Never being able to be there for my friends or those I care most about in any way at all.. Or to constantly cause them pain in some way.. 
24. height5'5/ 5'6? It’s been a while since I last got my height checked 
25. role modelProbably Chris Evens, that gorgeous man, he’s the true captain frickin America 
26. idol(s)I have alot but I can’t think of any of them ATM…
27. things i hateMany things.. But tbh just when people take credit for shit other people do, when someone bitches about how they should get something when they’ve literally done jack shit to get it, or when people act like a total douche just because something won’t go their way, wether it be a giant thing or the tiniest fucking thing…
28. i’ll love you if…Enjoy my forms of affections, I enjoy lots of hugs and cuddling kinda stuff.. Haha that or if we can do cool shit together and just be open enough to connect on some form of level. You gotta have the vibes man, ya know?
29. favourite film(s)The Danish Girl Lots of horror movies Any Tim Burton film The crow 
30. favourite tv show(s)Voltron Steven UniverseAnd a bunch of old cartoons from when I was a kidEspecially invader ZimOmfg that was my shit 
31. 3 random facts1.) I’m complete total trash, I named my most recent animals after overwatch characters, I have 6 now, 3 Guinea pigs (Dva(f) Aki(m) Oreo(m)), 2 gerbils (Mercy(f) Widow(f)), and a mouse he’s Junkmouse he’s such a Sweetie!~ and he’s teeny!~That awesome guy that sent the ask, Jay, yeah his idea with naming junkmouse and then I just kinda couldn’t help but keep it going cause it just fit too well, soon I’m gonna run out of names I know it haha

2.) I feel like this should go out, cause this wasn’t on the ask lost but it should be hahamy favorite color is blue, but the color I feel with is usually yellow or orange

3.) I’m really into witchcraft and things associated, and I want to get better at it haha
32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?Ehhhhh, even cause I can only think of the three people I converse with the most or at all, I have one friend who identifies as female, another who identifies as female(I think) idk she’s a all over the place, and then one who identifies as male, so it’s kinda even but leans more towards females
33. something you want to learnMany things, mostly how to be a better friend, every language I can get for free on my Rosetta stone app, and ASL, 
34. most embarrassing momentEhhhhh there’s two but they’re insanely personal haha
35. favourite subjectArt. Science. Spiritual/religious shit. Sociology. Animals. Games. Shows. Conspiracy shit. Scary spooky shit. haha (I’m not in school anymore so these are just random things I talk alot about haha)
36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?1.) like to visit Asia or at least one other country over seas2.) get better at art or photography and maybe make a job out of it3.) just make it through life and enjoy what I can about it
37. favourite actor/actressActors: Johnny Depp, Allan Rickman, Eddie Redmaine.Actress: Helena Bonham Carter
38. favourite comedian(s)Adam Grabowski (seriously check this guy out, he’s a riot, the Disney princesses skit he does, one of the best, if not check out the board games one, 10/10)
39. favourite sport(s)Swimming and hiking are what I count as sports and I barely even do those tbh.. Sleeping and see how long I can stay in my house uncovered by society are my true sports. Tbh I went out for fireworks, and a con so far this summer, I’m doing great haha.
40. favourite memoryOoo idk any right now haha
41. relationship statusSingle Pringle, but I’m stick in the can, cause I ain’t ready to mingle. I got my eyes set on someone even if it won’t happen. But it’s nice to try at least c:
42. favourite book(s)I used to have one but I can’t think of it off the top of my head, I used to be hella into the Percy Jackson series though, Rick’s a good author haha 
43. favourite song everYikes, I don’t know dude haha
44. age you get mistaken forEhhhhh either 14/15 or like 20/21 so not entirely off but like I’m either hella legal or hella illegal XD
45. how you found out about your idolI don’t really know, 
46. what my last text message saysI K R ! ! ! ! ! ! LIKE SEE!!!
47. turn onsMmm not sure, but I’m up to find out physical ones c; haha but in all seriousness, just consent, respect, and open minded vibes. Just of I get the right vibes off you.
48. turn offsI don’t get the right vibes off you.Really extremely bratty kids. Rich or not. Just bratty ass kids. And people who have no shame or humility 
49. where i want to be right nowTbh, my own apartment, either chilling with a close ass bud, or maybe traveling around, just somewhere else that seems more exciting or comforting.
50. favourite picture of your idolN/a
51. starsignGemini!~ haha
52. something i’m talented atI’ve heard??? I’m good??? at art??? And then I have negative ones but Imma keep those put of here ahaha, but I’m good at art??? And cooking??? /baking??? From what I’m told haha
53. 5 things that make me happy1.) My pets2.) Not being bothered when in playing my games/ When my house only has yours truly scurrying around the place3.) food, and chilling with a good show or movie4.) getting to chill with my friends and do cool ass shit,5.) getting the chance to give cheesy ass affections, whether it’s platonic or not, I LIKE TO SNUG ALRIGHT!?!?!? SNUGGINS ARE WHAT MAKE THIS WORLD GO FUCKING ROUND MAN LIKE SHIT.(Imma throw in a sixth one cause this is important)6.) getting to get turnt with some good friends and the Devils sweet green grass when I have the chance, (GONNA FOR MY MED CARD SOON B, HMU I’M EXCITE)
54. something thats worrying me at the momentTwo things, money (always), screwing shit up beyond the point of no return with my closest friend.. 
55. tumblr friendsI got like three? One of which is the only one I ever tag, or talk to haha, that’s this cool dude at the very top of this post here, yeah him!~ that little stud!~ c:
56. favourite food(s)All?????????
57. favourite animal(s)Ehhhhh, all?????????But mostly cats, and my pets haha 
58. description of my best friendEhh mm, Well I’ll do my two closest friends ATM, Ok one super chill dude, described him a bit at the top, he’s got LEGS alright, and those eyes, fucking end me haha, but yeah, he’s really awesome, but hell he’s super complex, and that’s probably the coolest thing about him, he’s on a whole bunch of other levels my guy

Then the second one, she’s cool, she’s pretty quite, but low key really adventurous and pretty open minded and grounded, but she’s a cancer. So there’s that… Haha she’s reliable tho, she’s been there since kindergarten, so I feel bad not giving her a little credit.
59. why i joined tumblrMostly for my childhood friend Liz, but I didn’t know how to use this god forsaken site, but I found a new reason to back in like sophomore/ junior year, cause again Jay XD. I needed my daily fix of memes and this guys got the best quality memes alright? He is the meme king!!!~ XD 
60. ask me anything you wantN/a

Thanks my guy!!!~ it was fun answering all the asks!~ (even if I lost them like five or six times haha)

[glossierap]

70 QUESTIONS

tagged by @satansonyeondan thanks a lot! ♡

1. do you have a good relationship with your parents? actually yes but i hate so many aspects of their thinking (especially my fathers he’s the worst). but since i try not to aruge with them about those things it’s fine

2. who did you last say “i love you” to? i don’t remember

3. do you regret anything? having so little experienced in my life? wether it’s relationships, partys or anything just not living my life to the fullest i guess

4. are you insecure? about certain things yes

5. what’s your relationship status? single

6. how do you want to die? peacefully and without any regrets left

7. what did you last eat? it says “milk chocolate with puffed rice” on it idk

8. played any sports? i played volleyball for like 3 months but that’s it

9. do you bite your nails? i did a lot as a child (to the point where my father put my hand into the toilet to make me stop - didn’t help tho) but now since i have gel/acrylic nails i don’t

10. when was your last physical fight? a few months ago? with my sister but just a light one nothing too serious

11. do you like someone? no i don’t think so

12. have you ever stayed up 48 hours? i think the most i stayed up was 35 hrs so no

13. do you hate anyone at the moment? no

14. do you miss someone? not really i just kinda miss hangig out with my friends

15. have any pets? no

16. how exactly are you feeling at the moment? tired but i don’t wanna sleep yet also some kind of excitement but idk where it comes from

17. ever made out in the bathroom? nope

18. are you scared of spiders? no

19. would you go back in time if you were given the chance? if it’s like back in ancient times or around 1700 -1900 hell yes but also only if i can return whenever i want

20. where was the last place you snogged someone? i had to google what that means and if it’s what google said it is it was 5-6 years ago in a bed

21. what are your plans for this weekend? i’m bleaching and dying my hair and also maybe going shopping at my workplace with my mother and sisters

22. do you want to have kids? how many? not really

23. do you have piercings? how many? 2 lobes, 2 upper lobes and i wanna get a tragus and a helix but that’s it

24. what is/are/were your best subject(s)? english, german and at some point i was kinda good at biology

25. do you miss anyone from your past? no

26. what are you craving right now? ice cream an i’m gonna get some after i finish this

27. have you ever broken someone’s heart? i don’t think so

28. have you ever been cheated on? can’t get cheated on if you’ve never been in a relationship

29. have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? am I the only person on this planet who hasn’t been in a relationship yet… these questions aren’t made for me lmao - copying this one from allie lol

30. what’s irritating you right now? nothing i think

31. does somebody love you? i hope so but idk for sure lmao

32. what is your favourite color? pastels are my shit but also black

33. do you have trust issues? hell yeah i’m rarely opening up to someone in rl

34. who/what was your last dream about? i have no idea

35. who was the last person you cried in front of? probably my parents when they make me so angry i can’t do anything but cry. but that’s VERY rare i usually never ever cry in front of others

36. do you give out second chances too easily? i don’t think there’ve been occasions where i’d have to so idk

37. is it easier to forgive or forget? neither but i think it is harder to forget

38. is this year the best year of your life? nothing much has happened as of now so no

39. how old were you when you had your first kiss? 14, it was my first and last kiss to this day

40. have you ever walked outside completely naked? noo??

51. favourite food? sushi, pizza, stews are hella nice too, many many diff asian dishes too

52. do you believe everything happens for a reason? kinda yeah

53. what is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? i was probably either on tumblr (or twt or insta)

54. is cheating ever okay? no never

55. are you mean? no i can’t be mean (on purpose) i’m feeling/i’d feel so bad afterwards

56. how many people have you fist fought? does pulling each others hair at 10 count? otherwise none

57. do you believe in true love? i don’t believe in one true love but that one can have feelings of true love towards a person

58. favourite weather? i like rainy, chill but not too cold days, sunny days with a clear sky and a little cool breeze and i also love thunderstorms with a lot of rain, flashes and thunder at night, and i also LOVE fog

59. do you like the snow? it’s more like mud here after 10 minutes but i like watching it snow when i’m home

60. do you wanna get married? i’m not aiming for it but i’m also not aginst getting married

61. is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? i like babe better tbh smth about the word baby bugs me - also copying this one

62. what makes you happy? music, learning more about the things i’m interested in, my fave weather (fog, it makes me so happy whe it’s foggy, receiving the things i ordered lol, tv shows, when i get friends/family into the things i like/ i recommended them

63. would you change your name?   i, when i was a stupid kid, wanted to change my name to Selina because of Selina Shirin Müller from Freche Mädchen, but now no my name is pretty rare and i used to hate that but i’m fine with it now

64. would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? yeah considering it was 5-6 years ago it’d be petty awkward now

65. your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? idc what sex but if someone i don’t like in that way would like me i’d tell them and hope they understand. i’d never start a relationship with someone i don’t like just because that person likes me, it has to be mutual

66. do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? i don’t have any male friends

67. who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? probably someone at work

68. who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? one of my colleagues at work but i also kinda consider her a friend

69. do you believe in soulmates? somehow yes, but like in a friendship way. someone who thinks like you do, feels the same, has the same thoughts, someone you don’t necesary have to talk to about something to understand them. that’s what a soulmate is be for me, nothing romantic

70. is there anyone you would die for? some members of my family maybe. tbh i have no idea because sometimes i’m thinking “they’re precious to me” but other times i think i’m not so attached to them? i don’t have such a strong bonding with people i guess, which is kinda sad

i’m tagging @beaniebangtan @r4ch3lb @k-popastrology @honeypanda @seventeens-noona @yoongissoftgf @yehet-is-not-my-style @shupahmin @hobisoo (just tagging some of my mutuals, hope u okay with that)