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[decamarks]

HE'S FINALLY HERE!!! happy belated anniversary to deltarune chapter 2, and my favorite big shot spambot!!

words cannot convey just how much i loved making both the model and this animation. spamton is one of my favorite characters ever, and bringing his cartoony antics into the third dimension was WELL WORTH the effort it took.

this is my first attempt at making any kind of rig like this, and i'm pretty pleased with the results and my efforts. keep in mind that this model is absolutely not as well optimized as it could be... but you're free to use it for LITERALLY ANYTHING!

DOWNLOAD PAGE: https://decamarks.neocities.org/spamton.html

[drippingheart]

howdy, worms and germs. this is an indie rp blog dedicated to Getō Suguru and Fushiguro Megumi from Jujutsu Kaisen [ and lowkey Jin Marito from Bucchigiri ]. my portrayal is both anime and manga based. manga events will not be spoiled.

! ! ! themes present but are not limited to: violence, gore, abandonment issues, childhood trauma, depression, mass murder, child soldiers. this is not to say all my threads and headcanons will be violent or solemn. I do enjoy the light hearted side of friendship and bonding, but the trauma of being a jujutsu sorcerer is very important in my portrayals.

also important : I do not condone Suguru's actions. this is fiction. I love delving into his psychology and motivation. I try to understand it to a point, but his actions and mentality are not a reflection of mine. I am pro villains; their accurate portrayals are interesting.

i do not have the time for yet another blog, so i'll be writing and exploring a non-jjk muse here. if he gains any attention, i may consider moving him to another blog.

𝟎𝟎 details on megumi. 𝟎𝟎 details on suguru. 𝟎𝟏 promo. 𝟎𝟐 megumi visuals. 𝟎𝟐 suguru visuals. 𝟎𝟐 marito visuals. 𝟎𝟑 plotting call. 𝟎𝟒 memes. 𝟎𝟒 meme call. 𝟎𝟓 character study. 𝟎𝟔 alternate verses. 𝟎𝟕 introspection.

Rules are below the cut.

I’ll spare you anything long winded though these are definitely subject to change and certainly up for lengthening in the future!

—   𝟎𝟏   I run a mutuals only blog. If I follow you, I want to WRITE with you. I don’t collect followers and like to keep a tidy blog of people who interact with me. Since you’re reading this, that means you care enough to do so. I won’t bite your head off; please feel free to send memes or hit me up for a thread idea. I often clean up my follow list through soft blocks.

—  𝟎𝟐   I don’t write one liners or semis. The more you write, the more I’m inclined to reply rapidly. Quality and quantity fuel my motivation! I truly enjoy world building and scene progression, so novella length threads are sought. Plotting and winging things are equally enjoyed, however for lengthy and detailed threads ( esp crossovers ), plotting is preferred. I have a plotting call linked above.

—   𝟎𝟑  This is an 18+ blog as I am nearing my thirties. I don’t foresee posting NSFW images, but I write heavily graphic scenes thus don’t feel comfortable writing with minors. Any suggestive aesthetics or sinday memes will be tagged as " after dark .".  I know it’s not everyone’s cup of tea, and I don’t want to make any of my followers uncomfortable. More regarding potential smut is below.

—  𝟎𝟒  I don’t have any triggers and don’t tag any triggers. Threads are generally rated M, but I can go PG-13 depending on who I am writing with. I do not shy away from violent and graphic scenes fyi; I really enjoy writing them actually! I encourage you to message me if you would like to write out something extremely graphic. Violence aside, smut may make an appearance. It is not the goal of my writing. If there's chemistry in the thread and between the writers, well ... who am I to say no. In the case of potential smut, aging up characters is fine; I know some people are sensitive about this. Smut will only occur with male characters as I am gay in real life and choose to depict Suguru and Megumi as gay, albeit not openly.

—   𝟎𝟓  When it comes to ages, I think it's vital to keep character ages canon. Yeah, JJk is great with all the lore and action, but the ages of the characters and the soul crushing and life threatening lives they live is the heart of the series. What everyone goes through as a child and as a teenager is incredibly vital. The only time I think aging up is alright is in terms of smut. Having said that, I'm not opposed to writing crushes or romances during their teens. 

—  𝟎𝟔  I do moderate edits and formatting. Formatting isn’t a deal breaker with me honestly. I prefer length over pretty aesthetics. I do ask that you cut posts; I won’t be following if you don’t cut your posts or fail to tag your posts — all of your posts especially your ooc ones.

—  𝟎𝟕 Crossovers are loooooved to other animes/mangas, video games, to shows and movies. Do not be afraid to reach out with crossover ideas. I am also very much interested in AU threads especially involving Suguru since there is a lot of potential with him. So far, I have FFVII verses written up for both of the dudes. Provided interest, I will write up verses for Bleach, Castlevania, and the Witcher among other things. 

—  𝟎𝟖   As stated earlier, currently I am all caught up with the manga. For those who are only watching the anime, I will not incorporate any manga elements in our threads. I do not openly discuss spoilers for the sake of other people. If I do discuss anything that may be considered a spoiler, it will be tagged as "!! manga ." and placed under a cut. Headcanons and drabbles including the events of the manga will be tagged with the aforementioned tag.

—  𝟎𝟗   Regarding Suguru, it is my preference to write him just as Suguru not as Kenjaku, however I am not opposed to it for the sake of an interesting thread. On that similar note, I am happy to write Suguru as a teenager.

—  𝟏𝟎   I encourage you to like the content you see. If you like the images, headcanons, songs I post, you are more than welcome to like them. Do not reblog my personal edits, headcanons, and even images I find and post ( still tag with art credit ) unless I have tagged you in the post. You are also welcome to tag me in posts; that would make me very happy! When it comes to memes, please reblog from the source. PLEASE.

—  𝟏𝟏   When it comes to asks/memes, I treat them as independent little snippets. Sort of like insights with some or no background information. Sometimes I write them intentionally vague because it's what comes to me at the moment. I do not treat ask responses as starters, however you are more than welcome to continue a response of mine if you like it enough! Also, I have an ask box call linked above, and you are always welcome to like and comment it whenever you want to be sent things. Seriously. You'll never pester me. You can like request ask box things 24/7.

[decompose1]

hey i've been seeing these 'object shows' here and there but i don't really know what they're about. i tried getting into hfjone and i don't think it's for me. but your analysis of a phone character's morals was really good and got me interested in them! could you explain the premise of these object shows very briefly? and recommend any series that have good/complex character development? it'd be really appreciated!

Aw sure anon!!

So ONE is definitely. This is a weird thing to say about silly object cartoons and i don't mean it in any elitist way at all, but ONE is what i'd consider an "advanced" object show. It's definitely sort of meant for people who already know the genre, because it works as a deconstruction of common object show tropes!!

I'll cover some of the big ones here, otherwise this is gonna get MEGA long, but know that there are a lot of object shows, and they vary a lot!!

Battle for Dream Island:

The one that started it all! This was the very first object show... ever!

Created by twin brothers Michael and Cary Huang in 2010, when they were just 12 years old!

Based heavily on shows like Total Drama Island and Survivor

The object contestants are competing to win Dream Island, which is a luxury island with lots of cool amenities.

This is both the oldest and longest show to date, i believe. It started the whole genre, so i DEFINITELY recommend starting with it if it seems up your alley!

General vibe: A more lighthearted, silly, whimsical show with a few hard-hitting moments and topics.

4 seasons

Deaths: Not usually serious. Characters die often for slapstick comedy, and are usually just revived without issue. There are only a couple times a death or near-death is ever plot relevant, this show focuses more on interpersonal conflict within alliances.

S1 is hosted by the Announcer, an alien in the shell of a speaker box. He's cruel and monotone and pretty funny. I cant say much on S2 without spoilers for the end of S1!!

S3 was cancelled after only one episode because Cary went to college

S4 is the longest (split into 4a and 4b), and is hosted by Four and X, two aliens taking the form of algebraic symbols ("algebraliens"). They're a lot more like.. wacky and strange as hosts, i like them a lot.

Inanimate Insanity:

My personal poison of choice. I make no claims about you liking it as much as i do. HEHE.

Created by Adam Katz in 2011, inspired by BFDI and TDI.

The second object show ever!

3 seasons (2 of which are ongoing. S3 is a side season that isn't canon to the timeline of S2!)

Contestants are competing for $1,000,000

General vibe: About 50/50 comedic and serious. There is a LOT of comedy, the show is generally pretty silly n goofy, but they also tackle some extremely serious, very real subjects (including capitalism, abuse, mental illness, and queerness. Yes i'm being serious)

Deaths: Mixed between comedic and serious. There's a fair bit of slapstick, but there are also some plot-relevant, upsetting, and/or permanent deaths. MePhone4 is the only method of recovery.

Hosted only by MePhone4, who is essentially this universe's iphone (4). There are other MePhones, but it's only 4 who actually runs the show (barring 5 specific episodes in which he isn't able to).

S1 is... quite old. It definitely shows its age. I love it to death and still recommend it to those who choose to watch ii, the plot is good, but please keep in mind it does have a few offensive jokes. The creators were bein' dumb kids, they've grown!

(I can clarify further, should you message me (feel free to! i'm friendly!). I have a CW list for those who'd need it!)

Late S2 is where it really picks up. It starts to take a much kinder hand to the characters and their problems. I will warn you that season 2 gets extremely dark. I went in blind, expecting it to be like BFDI, and ended up experiencing. like. the doki doki effect. Legitimately shocking. The topics brought up in late S2 are handled very well, though, IMO!

S3 (Inanimate Insanity Invitational/III) is a lot more lighthearted and silly as a breather while the crew finishes the darker story of S2. It's cute!

The Nightly Manor:

A smaller, shorter, but extremely serious and tragic object show.

Created by Allen Lee only a year ago, and still ongoing!

There are only 5 episodes out, but they contain multiple original songs and have already made me cry. TEARJERKER SERIES.

General vibe: Starts comedic, quickly turns to a murder mystery and then a tragic story about grief. It's so fucking good.

Deaths: ALWAYS serious. TNM does not have recovery.

A non-competition show- this one is a mansion murder mystery.

This one is a personal fave.

Honorable mentions i don't have a solid list for right now:

Sacriverse (particularly Obsolete Battle Show and Happy Star's Guide to Object Shows)

Animated Inanimate Battle

[zekekaiju]

The Batman 4/10

Spoiler free zone

I recently saw The Batman and I gotta say I'm not impressed.  Now some of my complaints are specific to plot details but I'll do my best to list as many as I can in the spoiler free zone. The three biggest complaints from a technical perspective is the writing, specifically the dialogue, the pacing and the light choices.

I get it, it's Gotham, it's dark, it's gloomy, but one light per household and nigh perpetual rain is over doing it. Seriously, it is almost always raining outside and is always overcast. Now to give credit where it's due the movie does a better job then many modern movies of making sure the poor lighting doesn't obstruct the action and, the use of shadows in a few scenes was well done. Overall the lack of light is not a deal breaker but it does make it less enjoyable.

More irritating for me was the pacing. Everything in the movie moves slowly. People walk pretty much everywhere all the time. They talk slowly, no one ever appears to be in a hurry to do anything. Even some of the chase scenes feel slow. The movie is 3 hours long and I couldn't help but think that the time could have been cut if someone had been willing to run somewhere. This could have been a really cool effect if only Batman was the one who moved slowly. It would have given the impression of being in control and methodical. But since everyone was doing it the effect was lost.

The dialogue is subpar. I don't want to spoil things but at one point Batman is asked " do you know my reputation" he responds "yeah I do, do you". Batman asks a man if he knows his own reputation and whatever they were going for there doesn't work. The dialogue frequently feels unnatural and stilted, like someone was trying to be clever but weren't very good at it.

So those are the negatives, what are the positives and what does this movie do well. Well to start off with as I mentioned earlier their use of shadows is effective. The movie showcases how Batman has turned the shadows into a point of fear for the criminal underworld. He uses them to pull his classic disappearing act and they are overall well utilized. 

The characters are written well enough. I don't dislike the heroes and I do dislike the villains so that's good. The fight scenes are reasonably well choreographed. They aren't anything really special like a more intense action movie like Jason Bourne but they are still pretty good. It also has some good messages, points about vengeance and how you go about helping people and righting wrongs.

SPOILER ZONE

Spoilers past this point

The main way this Batman movie fails as a Batman movie is in the villains. Now I didn't always love Pattinson's Batman and there were some definite things I would have done differently with him but he was recognizably Batman. The penguin and the Riddler were not recognizably themselves. The movie did also have Catwoman and carmine falconi in it and they were alright. Catwoman acted more as an anti-hero then a villain, and rarely actually stole anything. Overall I feel her characterization was just alright. She was obviously Catwoman but in my opinion she was neither a groundbreaking new rendition of the character nor a comfortable retred of old ground. She was something in between which didn't quite work for me. Carmen falconi was your stereotypical mob boss. He wasn't anything special and that's a good thing. When you have supervillains such as the Riddler, the penguin or even calendar man, your mobsters should feel fairly stereotypical and boring so your supervillains can stand out. The villains don't stand out; they actually seem to fade into the background. The penguin is a minor villian definitely not a major character, which in of itself I don't have an issue with. I don’t think for the most part you need more than one supervillian in the first movie of any franchise. My issue is that he is not recognizably a penguin. He is a portly cigar smoking mobster. There is no penguin-like laugh, there is no monocle, or tophat. His style of dress is not terribly distinctive and he doesn’t have an umbrella once throughout the entire movie. It is frequently raining. Go for the low hanging fruit. He wouldn’t have even had to use the umbrella as a weapon, just carrying one would have made him more like the penguin. DC comic has a tendency to embrace gritty realism to the point that it swallows up the distinctive aspects of their characters.

Now the penguin isn’t the main villain he is a side character. The main supervillain is the riddler, or as I like to call him lame nerdy joker in a trash bag outfit. There is nothing really that stands out as the Riddler. He is a man in a plastic bag talking through a voice modulator. He is insane which is unnecessary for the plot of the film cause his motivation makes sense outside of his insanity. He needs to only have a slightly lower sense of empathy or a slightly more misguided sense of morality and you have an intelligent foil with the same perceived values as Batman. This would force Batman to seriously evaluate his mission, it would actually push him to change from a symbol of vengeance to a symbol of hope. As it is Riddler is just a less unique and interesting joker in this movie. It's a disappointment as he could have been so much better. 

Overall the show had potential but it was stymied by interesting concepts not going anywhere and the general way dc handles Batman movies

[wendystales]

Memories - lrh (Chapter Eighteen)

Memories (also on Wattpad)

Chapter Seventeen ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ Chapter Nineteen

I remember the first time I really wanted to see New York. I must have been about 12 years old and was watching a random episode of Friends that was on TV. I saw those flashes of the city between one scene and another, and I thought it was amazing, the great stone jungle.

When I turned 16, my dad gifted me with a trip to New York, not because it was my favorite place in the world, but because it was on sale. There were 10 days where the only time I stopped to rest was bedtime. We went to almost every tourist spot, took thousands of photos and it was definitely one of the best trips I've ever been on.

Now, the city that I once wanted to know and live in, like the characters in Friends, felt like a prison. I wasn't there of my own free will or for a truly irrefutable proposal. I was there out of fear and passion, the most dangerous mixture.

I believe that at some point, a few months from now, I'm going to start loving New York, but right now, I can only feel contempt.

I pass through the arrivals gate, looking at those millions of unfamiliar faces, waiting for someone. I'm looking for a sign with my name or the logo of the Hastings Agency.

I find my name in the hands of a boy a little taller than me. Dark hair and fair skin, he needs sun. In an impeccable suit, but fumbling with his cell phone and notepad.

I approach slowly, able to hear his voice, replaying a million things. He said something about waiting for me to arrive and taking me to the hotel. Something about treating me kindly and not asking questions. I stop in front of him with a sympathetic smile, watching him widen his eyes and quickly turn off his cell phone.

“Miss McGonagall, welcome to New York.” he takes my hand, squeezing it and shaking it quickly. “I'm Edward. I will be responsible for your schedule.” I can't control the smile, noticing him nervousness. In other words, he was my Noah.

“Hi! Yeah, you can call me Marnie, that's fine. I prefer, actually.”

“Oh! Of course.” his cheeks turn pink. “Well, I'll drop you off at the hotel to rest and tomorrow at 8:00 am you should be at Valentino's studio for the rehearsal of the new bag collection. At 2:45 pm you should already be at Chanel's studio, they want to take your measurements and do some color and fabric tests for the fashion show at the end of the month. Then, at 5:00 pm, you will participate in the E! podcast, and I believe that after that you will be free for the rest of the day.” he passes it on to me as we head out of the airport.

“OK!” that's all I have to say.

“Sorry if I'm being nosy, but were you the one who required a lot of work for the next two months? I mean, you have a really busy schedule. If you don't want something, I can try to help.” he flips through the calendar while we wait for a car.

“No! It's OK. I was the one who asked. I was down for a while and I need to get back to work.” I give a slight smile, debating. "Hm, was the doctor I asked for by any chance be marked?"

“Yes! Wednesday at 3pm.” he smiles proudly, making me smile too. Edward seems like a nice guy.

We got into a silver car and went to the hotel. Along the way, Edward answers a few calls, closing in on his tasks. I seize the moment and close myself in my own world. I get my cell phone, turning it on and seeing that tsunami of people looking for me. Missed calls, messages, dm on twitter and instagram, everyone looking for me, but not him.

I lock my cell phone, trying to focus my mind on the new beginning I sought for myself. I admire the city through the car window, trying to find a piece of home there. I feel the phone vibrate in my lap with Kyleen's name, but I just decline the call. In seconds, the screen lights up again and several messages come in, I believe they are hers, but I don't even bother to look. I have no courage.

The car stops in front of the Intercontinental, and just like that, Edward jumps out of the car.

“Your loft, unfortunately, is not ready yet. So you're going to have to stay here for a few days.” he explains, heading towards the reception desk.

I stand behind him, taking in the details of the hotel. Before long, I'm entering a room on the 14th floor, with a beautiful view of the city. The bags are left in the small room before the bedroom.

I smile at my new “Noah” showing that everything is perfect.

“Good! I'll let you rest for tomorrow. Anything, these are my phones.” he gives me a card. "And you can call me at any time. I live near here, I will come in a few minutes.”

“Thank you so much, Edward. You are very kind." Again, your cheeks turn pink.

As he heads for the door, I start rummaging through my bags for pajamas.

“Hm, sorry if I'm not being professional right now, but since I believe we'll be working together in the next few months, I imagine a good relationship is essential, so you can call me Eddie.”

I open an even bigger smile, seeing that Eddie was willing to make a friendship, which is perhaps the thing I need most at the moment.

“Thanks, Eddie!” he smiles and this time he walks away, leaving me alone again.

I go back to looking for a more comfortable outfit, ignoring my cell phone blinking on the table as I muted it. I grab my clothes, heading to a shower and stay there for a long time, letting the water take everything.

When I get out of the shower, I pick up the bedroom phone, dialing my mother's number, I don't want to take the risk of answering any of my cell phone calls.

"Hello?" her lost tone makes me smile weakly.

“Hi Mom!”

“Hi, my love. How are you? Marnie, what's going on? Leah came here to say you left without saying goodbye. I called Luke, but he did not answer me and Noah said something about you being to move to New York, you told me it would be just a month.” I cover the phone, not wanting her to hear my cry, letting the tears fall. "Marnie?"

“I'm sorry, Mom.” I can't control my voice and pretend it's okay.

“Honey, what's going on? You can tell me. Mom will help you.” I realize she wants to cry too, and that hurts me more.

“I needed to do this, needed to get away from him.” the revelation comes out before I can see it.

"He who? Luke? Why? I thought everything was fine.” her desperate tone returns.

“I'm sorry I can't talk.” I close my throat, holding back tears. “I just want to let you know that I arrived well and that everything is fine.”

“Fine? Marnie, just look at your voice, your condition. I saw what you did to the apartment. Honey, things aren't fine.” now she was angry.

“Mom, please just trust me. I know what I'm doing.” Do I? I clear my throat, holding back the emotion. “I just wanted to call to say I got okay. Later we'll talk.” I hang up the phone before she asks anything else.

I head to the bathroom, drying my hair. I notice that yesterday's anger is still in me as I can't face my image in the mirror, refusing to look deep into my eyes.

With dry hair, I go back to my room, thinking about taking a nap, since I haven't slept all night and even less on the flight. I close my eyes, trying to focus my thoughts on something else. I think about that taxi I saw earlier, trying to park. Or people crossing the street without looking at the sign. At the cookie shop I want to see.

I manage to evade Luke's, my mother's, John's, and Noah's voices, giving myself more and more to the sleep that finally came. Far away, I hear someone knocking hard on the door, but I ignore it, as I had the same thoughts yesterday morning. But I wake up when the pounding comes back stronger and Leah's voice enters the room.

“Marnie Elizabeth McGonagall, open this shit now before I drop it and you know I'm capable of it.” I leap out of bed, running to the door.

She can’t be here.

I open the door, revealing Leah with perhaps the worst expression I've ever seen in the world. She was furious, if not more so. As she storms into my room without waiting for an invitation, I quickly look down the hall, seeing a couple look at me startled. I smile awkwardly, closing the door.

“What are you doing here?” I question, still not understanding.

"What are you doing here? And without warning anyone. Fading in the morning. Breaking up with Luke. What the fuck was that?” she screams.

For a second, I see that my amnesia was an issue with my plan. By not remembering my friendship with everyone, I really believed that I just left and everything would be fine. I didn't imagine anyone would cross the country for me, to understand what was going on.

And if Leah did it, it's a matter of hours before someone else does. They weren't going to leave me alone, they weren't going to forget me, and they weren't going to let this story pass. I need to push them away, but I don't know how.

"Go on, Marnie. What the fuck is going on? And if you tell me it's a job offer, I swear I'll fly at you without pity or mercy, and I'll slap the truth out.” she cross her arms.

I consider the last option a lot because I know she can do it. But I won't tell her the truth, that's not an alternative. I want to believe that if I don't back off, she'll see I'm not lying and won't attack me. And even if she tries, I just run away, I'm closer to the door and there's an armchair between us.

"But it is what it is!" I shrug.

“Stop it!” she screams. “Stop lying, Marnie. Everyone. Everyone knows you're lying, so why don't you tell the truth?” she waves her hands through the air.

“Because there's no other truth, Leah. Will I have to draw it for you?” I make the same moves she does.

“Be my guest!” she sits on the couch. I sigh wearily. I haven't slept for hours, I'm angry with myself and the world and now that I thought the situation was resolved and I just had to go on with my life, she comes and messes everything up.

“Why are you here?” I stay upright.

“I do not know! It must be cause you went crazy and disappeared without saying anything. Didn't answer my calls, no one had any answers about what was going on. So I took my father's jet and came to resolve this situation and I don't leave here without an answer at least.”

In the same way I laugh at Noah, I laugh at her, thinking it will fix everything. Leah carries the same expression as her brother, neutral, mocking.

“Why did you break up with Luke?” she asks quietly.

The mention of his name makes me shiver. I notice how my stomach turns and try to ignore it. I wonder if I can subtly extract some information from his state, but I don't want her to think I still care about him.

"Cause I wasn't in the mood anymore." I shrug, walking through space.

“My God, you've actually lied better.” I glare at her. “You know you're in trouble here, I know you better than anyone. I know you are lying and that you are going through some difficult situation. I even have my theories. So you're going to have to work a lot harder to trick me or get me out of here.” she cracks a smile, feeling victorious.

"Oh do you have? What are your theories?” I mock her.

“The first is that you really freaked out with amnesia and you can't handle it. The second is that you can't handle your feelings about Luke, it happened once before. And the third is that someone put some shit in your head and made you believe that everything would be better if you were out of the way.” I feel her gaze burning into me, looking for any reaction.

I let out a laugh, not forced, nervous that she got it right. Leah raises an eyebrow.

“You really traveled on your theories. Sorry, none are right.”

As if by magic, the answer appears to me. The only way I was going to get rid of everyone and go through with the plan without a hitch was to make her hate me. Make everyone hate me, just like I did Luke.

Just considering their hate for me makes my heart ache. But I need to do this. For Luke. For the boys. It's for their success.

“You know, a few months ago you were asked to be in a movie and you didn't take it cause you said you were a terrible actress. Isn't that right?” she gets up again. “Noah told me you said you were doing this for Luke, because you loved him. Marnie, what are you trying to hide?” she comes closer.

I feel dirty because of the attitude I'm going to take. It's low, very low, but I need her to hate me.

"Look who talks about hiding." I give a cynical laugh. Leah looks at me confused. "Don't you have anything to tell too?" she still doesn't understand. “You and Kyleen?”

Hastings freezes. The bitter taste of my act starts to fill my mouth. I’m sorry, Leah. I’m so sorry.

“How do you know?” she takes a step back.

"Who do you think closed the bathroom door on Ash's birthday?" I raise my eyebrows.

“Is not the same thing.”

“It isn’t? Aren't you hiding something from all of us?” I force a smile like hers a few minutes ago.

“No! Cause I'm not pushing everyone away, I'm not telling lies. And if you asked me, I would tell you the truth. Deep down, you know why I didn't say anything. You know my dad hasn't accepted Noah yet, that this is a problem in our family, and you know he wouldn't accept me either. You know that deep down I'm trying to protect both of us.”

“Oh! Do I?” I debauchery more. Right now, I feel horrible when I see your eyes water. I'm so, so sorry.

“I know what you're trying to do and I'm not going to stage it.” she walks past me to the door.

"Didn't you want to talk? I am talking.” Leah turns to me, straining the knife I carried in my chest, letting me see her crying face.

“You're trying to make me hate you.” now I'm the one who freezes. She laughs. “See how I know you? You are very predictable, Marnie. And as much as I know of your intention, I will not allow you to reach your goal. I hope that one day, not too far away, you realize what a big shit you're doing.” she opens the door, going. “Oh, and before I forget, since it's meant to hurt. Congrats, since your little chat with Luke, he's been locked in his room, needing Michael to keep an eye on him.” so Leah slams the door and strikes the final blow.

I bite the inside of my mouth, letting the tears fall. Honestly, I didn't even have the strength to hold back anymore. The rage burning inside me gives way to pain. I imagine Luke locked in his room, lying on the bed, hating me. Hating what we had and what we thought we had.

I walk over to my suitcase, pulling out a package, with the photos I'd taken from the box and the little white box he'd given me. I open it, holding the necklace with his name on it, the one he gave me.

Even knowing what I had to do, I wouldn't get rid of this necklace, I don't have the courage. It was easier to buy an equal one and put it in his hand. What he did to me would be kept with me forever.

““Closed eyes.” he fights.

"I have my eyes closed." I rebate. “Lucas…” I chide him, when I feel his lips on the back of my neck.

“Sorry, I got distracted.” I hold back the urge to laugh. “Closed eyes.”

"If you say it one more time, you'll get hit." I threat.

"How, if you can't see me?" right now, the urge to hit him is so strong that I follow the sound of his voice, trying to kick him. “Hey! No rudeness, otherwise you'll be left without a gift.” the false authoritative tone makes me angrier. “Good girl!”

“Go!” I kicked.

I'm startled by the icy touch against my neck. It's a necklace. Eagerly, I touch the pendant, recognizing the shape. He didn't do it.

“You can open it.” his hands move to my hips, hugging me.

With my eyes open, I run my vision to my neck, finding there a necklace just like his but blue.

“Happy Birthday!” he drops a kiss on my cheek.

I hold the blue quartz, seeing Luke's name engraved on the back. I let a stupid smile spread across my face, glaring at my boyfriend with the same.

"Want to explain why we're wearing practically identical necklaces?"

“It's a little obvious. Couples wear rings and I know what a problem you have with rings.”

“It’s not a problem.” I try to defend myself.

“It's just Alzheimer's. You know, in some people, it starts before they're 70 years old.” I hit him, and he laughs, before he hugs me. "Like I was saying, I know you're not into wearing a ring, so since I already had my necklace, I thought you'd have yours. That way we'll always be close to each other's hearts.” I rest my hands on his shoulders, standing on tiptoes.

"Have I told you I love you today?" I whisper, moving closer.

“Not after 5 pm.” he pouted, looking at the clock on the wall.

I don't know how I managed to kiss him with such a stupid smile on my face.

“Why do I like you, huh?” I question, stealing a little kiss.

“Because I'm cheesy and romantic. And even if you deny it, I know you get attached to it.” he opens a victorious smile.

"Don't ever say 'get attached' again." I beg laughing.

"What is it, bae? That was awesome.” he laughs.

“No!” I scream, laughing.

"What is it, babe girl? Don't you stick to my way of get in?” he keeps teasing me.

I place my lips on yours, determined to shut your mouth and thank you that it works. My mental reminder of “we're late for dinner” evaporates when his hands reach under my shirt. I scratch the back of his neck, pulling him closer.

“We're late for dinner.” he says against my mouth as I start to unbutton his shirt.

“Just say the traffic was like hell.” I suggest kissing his neck.

Luke accepts the idea, picking me up and walking me back to the bedroom."

It's not hard to know that we were late for dinner that day. But I didn't care, I had been given a necklace with his name on it, a necklace that showed how our relationship was getting more and more serious.

I also realize that the two times I got this necklace, at least once I ended up in bed with him. In fact, in both, but only one made it to the end.

“I hate myself.” I say tiredly, going to the minibar to get anything containing alcohol that makes me forget everything.

I call the front desk for two bottles of champagne and the biggest snack they have. I pick up the small whiskey bottles, turning one after the other, as if they were shot. I shake my head, wanting the effect to start faster.

“I hate myself. Leah hates me. Kiki must hate me now too. Just like Noah and everyone else there. Everybody hates me.” I turn the last one over, shaking my head once more. “Luke hates me. Hates me too much.” I comment, hugging the pillow.

I pick up a Polaroid of ours, staring at our happiness marked there. What am I doing?

I throw my head in my hands, lost. I wonder what might happen if I crawl into bed and don't go out for the rest of the month. Probably more people will hate me, but who doesn't hate me now? I mean, just get in line.

Awakened from the thought, when someone knocks on the door. For a second, I wonder who it was, then remember I ordered room service. I walk to the door, feeling the weight of the six small bottles.

My stomach churns and I feel an overwhelming urge to vomit as I land my eyes on the redhead in front of me. Red-haired?

"Bethany?"

[cancerfairy]

exchange reading

Hello there luv! I was like “omgomgomg” when I saw that you were actually thinking about me ahhh<33 but your reading was so good I couldn’t help but come back for more hehe

my questions : how is p.r.’s current energy/feelings towards me like has it changed or will it (is that two questions or one?? Sorry about that😅)? how should I go on with this situation with him, like how should I proceed I mean?

your reading ~ your life next month (in honor of Feb starting tomorrow)

Oh wow ok I see a lot of fulfillment coming in this February for you. I’m not sure if you’re a student, college I’m guessing, either way this month is bringing in a lot of abundance in terms of higher education. Either that or just a lot dedication towards learning and studying from your end. I see that there’s going to be a lot of “going to get things done right” energy here. Not only will you be able to do well in school or education wise but you might be able to find a balance within your life and work/education . Yet, I urge you to be weary of handling too many tasks at one time, remember that you are human and need time to rest Luv. Decisions also might need to be made this month that may cause you some internal struggle. Again, there’s quite a bit of ambitious energy within this ready. I see you’re ready to take on your tasks with strength and head on. I see there might be rapid movement in your education, maybe classes are going really fast, or even in career yet the difficulties will be less. You’ll soar through the sky with energy. There might be a theme of looking inward this month. Maybe taking a look at your own habits and behaviors that tie you down and figuring out how to let go and move forward. There’s the message of not letting yourself hold you back, take whatever fears and anxieties you have and confront them with the vigilant energy you have.

Cards : 3 of Coins, Two of Coins, Eight of Wands, The Devil (r)

Your future spouse current energy

Oof, ok so they might not be going through a good time right now. There might be some bad news that bogged them down recently or they’re having a setback with something or someone. There are so many different decisions laid out in front of them and what they can do about the issue yet they’re unsure on how to proceed, even overwhelmed. Yet they might be just now finding some clarity..actually maybe the issue , or “truth”, that was brought to them is what is causing them some trouble. Something that was hidden was just brought out and it may have caused them a lot of stress. Yet, whatever it is, is something that they are choosing to not run away from. They’re confronting it right then and there despite the confusion it brings to them. Yeah I’m sensing this issue is about someone else . They might be either leaning on someone else for help on this matter or even be solving the issue related to that person. Overall, they’re a bit unstable right now but slowly getting back up.

Cards: Page of Wands (r) Seven of Cups (r) The moon (r) Two of Cups

I hope the readings resonated! If not then I will not mind doing them again :)) Or if you have any further questions then feel free to ask <3 Honestly, I wish more cards came out but for some reason more weren’t coming out 🥲 Either way I hope you enjoyed <3

thank you for the readings bb <3 i'm not in school rn but i will be keeping an eye out and updating you if something you mentioned happens. but i definitely do think i'll have to make a bunch of decisions this month sigh bc i really need to confront my anxieties you're right :(

for the fs one.. oof seems like he's going through it rn but yk he'll probably get through it bc that's simply life

❁ your exchange:

᪥ your question: what are p.r's feelings about you and have they changed/will they?

༄ cards you got: the fool, the high priestess, nine of pentacles, the tower, the four of wands -- two of swords at the bottom

p.r wants to start new with you and wants a new beginning with you. i got the message "i want your forgiveness" perhaps he did something to you or confused you with his feelings before and it made you stressed but i'm seeing he felt bad about it. like i said before he still thinks you two have some sort of soul connection and it's something his intuition is telling him as well. i think he adores you and wants to build something with you.. something tangible and perhaps a relationship? but he's confused right now and kind of at a crossroads. i'm also getting he feels intimidated by you a bit. maybe you're someone who seems independent or you have this like "girlboss" aura LMAO but yeah he feels comfortable around you yet intimidated if that makes sense. i feel like his feelings will change and develop into a stronger and more stable energy. but i do have to empathize that his overall energy is very indecisive. because i got three major arcana i can tell he feels a lot for you and i believe it's only a matter of time before there's a stable offering with the four of wands as the last card.

᪥ your other question: what should you do in this situation/ how should you proceed?

༄ cards you got: queen of cups, death, king of pentacles rx, three of wands, the empress, page of pentacles rx, the hanged man -- the tower at the bottom

you're being asked to do nothing but be patient. you need to pour some of the love you have him for him back into yourself. you need to stabilize your own emotions, get in tune with them and then change your outlook and perspective on this situation. the more you try to force something to happen, the farther it drifts from you. change will happen eventually but you need to be more patient with yourself. worry about the tangible things in your life and things you can work on. search for ways to love yourself and recognize that you are lovable. you need to work on your codependency with this person or with things you're addicted to in your life because they affect your romantic life too. you also need to let go of control issues. it's causing stagnancy in your love life and you just need to let things unfold the way they're supposed to.

i'm sorry if this is short btw, i got pretty straight forward answers so there wasn't much to write about :(

[crankycorviknight]

(1) Hi, this is the insomnia anon, thank you for the tips you added to the post. Your advice is really good! The problem is, I panic pretty badly at night, so sometimes in the middle of my anxiety I just end up taking an extra pill because I'll be feeling too revved up to relax and fall asleep. You said you didn't know what I meant about not wanting to be dependent on medication, sorry for not explaining better, but I'll try to give you a better idea of what exactly is going on with me.

(2) I have been on a prescription sleep aid for a while. It was prescribed to me in 2014 after a traumatic event, but I always took it kind of on-and-off, and then towards the end of 2016 + all of 2017 so far, I have had to use it more consistently due to stress from a lot of things keeping me awake. Currently, I'm living a pretty isolated life (no friends nearby), I can't find a job, and am pretty sedentary (I take walks, but can't really do any heavier exercise due to physical health issues).

(3) I know people say there's no shame in needing medication, but I feel like at one point, I could have managed sleeping without needing meds, and I blame myself for it even though I really did try to get help. Like I tried to see a therapist at my university after my trauma, and the therapist specifically asked me if I wanted to make medication part of my treatment plan, and I said no, but then she said she couldn't keep meeting with me because I wasn't enrolled as a student at the time.

(4) Also, my best friend had moved to Korea a month before my traumatic event (she still lives there since it's where her husband lives and they are planning on starting a family soon). So, I think out of desperation for not knowing how else to deal with my trauma and insomnia on my own, and suffering so badly every night, I saw pills as the only way to get my sleeping patterns back to normal, and kept telling myself it would only be a temporary thing.

(5) But then other things started getting worse and unbearable for me, and by then, I realized, "Okay, my body has gotten used to depending on these pills to sleep now" so it makes me feel trapped. The problem is that I don't want to run into a situation where maybe I can't get my prescription filled on time and end up sleepless and feeling awful, or maybe in the future when I'm married and want to become a mommy, I know taking pills could possibly cause a risk during pregnancy.

(6) Plus I just really miss when I didn't have to put so much thought into falling asleep and could just go to bed naturally when I felt sleepy (I literally cannot feel sleepy anymore, unless I medically induce it), not calculate how many pills will give me how many hours of sleep, and all this nonsense. My doctors are pretty much useless because either they tell me to just get used to staying on the pills forever ('cause I guess they think I'm too messed up for anything besides that)

(7) or they tell me they think I should be off the medication, but don't tell me how to do it because "Whoops, sorry, I don't specialize in that." So I realize I am quite alone in this, except for God. He is the only reason I have been able to hang on this long. I don't know how else I would have managed to get through my trauma, my physical health problems, my loneliness, my heartbreak, and everything else that has caused me so much pain that no one around me seems to care about or understand.

(8) But this still feels like such a mess, and when I reach out for help from people in-person, either they don't realize what the problem is and act dismissive, or put all the blame on me for not being able to sleep normally, even though I would do literally anything NOT to suffer with insomnia, anxiety, depression, trauma, and all this other junk going on in my head that started this whole mess. Thank you so much for listening, I hope you're doing well! (End, sorry this ended up being so long)

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First of all, I’m so sorry that you’re going through all of this. This sounds incredibly frustrating, and that’s probably an understatement. I’m honored you would open up to me about this. Its not your fault, what you need is help and support, not a cold shoulder or to be told that you’re messing yourself up. You’re in a state of gradual recovery, and I’m sorry its taking so long.

Shoot man this would be the case I would suggest seeing a therapist because from the looks of it this whole thing stems from the event you’re talking about. I don’t want to risk saying something misleading since I’m frankly not an expert or experienced with that, but I hope that at least opening up here has helped a little. 

It’s definitely not the same as a therapist and it shouldn’t be a replacement for one but having a support group is important. Like I’ve said you’re more than welcome to talk to me, be it anon or IMs or discord if you’re open for that. And you’ve already messaged her but @my--darling--dear is a sweetie that’ll be more than happy to give you support or cheer you up with silly memes. There’s also @strawberry-milktea ! Rachel is a very kind and calm person, she’d be more than happy to talk to you.

I’m glad that you’re able to go to God with this, because sometimes? That’s all we can really do. I’ve had many, many silent battles. I recently got out of a really bad mindfunk where I had suicidal ideation every day. But I managed to get by every day, and for now, I’m okay. My faith and trust in God was just enough to make it. But I was also blessed with friends who kept me from the edge as well. Maybe I’ll lapse again, I mean, its a part of life to have ups and downs but I have faith that my friends, family, and God will be able to lift me up again whenever that happens. And resting in that helps so much.

It’s hard, sometimes it feels like there’s no response from Him. But logically, nothing can stay the same forever, with God as the exception of course. At one point, this will pass. There will be ups and downs in recovery, but day by day we do get better. Really, that’s the key. Take it one day at a time. Dwell on the promises of God. This dark time won’t last forever. And know you are not alone, and that people like me and Missy care about you very much and want to see you feeling better. 

I actually asked a few other family members what they do with their insomnia and I would suggest researching if these are right for you since I deeply respect your desire to be a mother one day and I don’t want to risk your fertility. My dad takes benadryl on a nightly basis and it seems to help him. Other allergy medications also have a drosiness factor to em, I don’t know if it’s strong enough to knock you out but it might be worth looking into?

Also a bud of mine does this, doesn’t work for me as much but ASMR seems to help with relaxation. Not the weird lip smacking stuff, more like rain noises and the such. Mynoise is great (x) since it plays indefinitely and there’s tons of customization and soundscapes. The mobile app is kinda crap though.

Here’s some youtube playlists though that might help. At the very least it could give you some nice tunes.

Abzu OST

Journey OST

Relaxing Twilight Princess Mix

Relaxing Okami music

Again, I’m praying for you, and please feel free to IM or message me whenever! 

[serenagaywaterford]

1) Feel free to keep rambling! Not only I love talking with level-headed fandom people, but our opinions seem to converge (even if my wording comes off as weird/wrong because of Tumblr's word limit). Anyway. I had many issues with S2, besides Serena's arc I mean (I'll get back to her). Blessed be the goddamned plotholes! Fred becomes a cockroach that just won't die (Red Center), because he's essential to the plot. Same goes for Aunt Lydia. (Although I'm kinda glad that she's alive, because

2) I LOVE Dowd’s acting and I’m excited about her background story.) Emily comes back from the Colonies and is smfh 100% healthy. Moreover, Gilead has been surprisingly lenient with Fred and Serena’s constant fuckups in S2 (mutilated fingers aside). June won’t leave with Emily, bc MOTHERHOOD (more like there’s a s3 on the horizon and drama is needed). And don’t get me started on that slow pace. The beginning and the finale were explosive of course,but some mid-season episodes?

3) They were dragging on and on. Examples? 2x11, where only 2 things happen: a) June gives birth to Nicole, b) Fred and Serena make it clear that they want to tear each other apart (duh). The only redeeming qualities of that episode was the wolf symbolism and the excellent cinematography. I get it, the series is successful and has more seasons ahead. But if only they had squeezed some episodes, it would have been so much better.

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OMG YAY!!! I’m gonna answer these in pieces since I’ll prolly flood a giant essay otherwise. Cos, lbr, if I didn’t know better, I’d swear I had multiple personalities and was secretly sending these to myself from a fugue state, that’s how much we agree! Cos I’ve just read through all your messages and sat here going “YES! YES!” lol. I think you, me, maybe 5 other people on tumblr, and 1 TV reviewer are of the same mindset and it’s such a relief to find others who are reasonable and critical about the show/Serena.

Yes, Fred not dying was just so fucking stupid I couldn’t deal. Like, it’s not even like, “Well, he didn’t die which is crazy but he’s horribly injured and disfigured cos I dunno, he was like 15 feet FROM A MASSIVE BOMB EXPLODING.” But noooo. Instead we get Fred in hospital with a scratchy throat for like a few weeks, and when he comes back he’s got a little bit of a limp. No burns, nothing. And, to top it off, he’s got all the strength and balance of a perfectly healthy man to whip the shit out of his wife. I get they needed to get him out of the way and out of service so Serena and June could have all sorts of treasonous hi-jinks together but surely… they could have considered having Fred not 15 feet from the bomb. It killed handmaids that were way farther away than that. Just a thought. Deffo an eye-roll moment.

Aunt Lydia I’m less irritated about simply cos, like you, I love Ann Dowd and think she’s done a fab job. And we honestly haven’t got enough of her backstory and I wanna know that too. I think this show can only really captivate if it tells ALL the women’s stories, not just the victims. Like how does a woman become an Aunt? How do they justify that? Or is it simply a type of socio-religio-politcal brainwashing, akin to a lot of Nazi Party supporters? Is she a True Believer? Like, honestly, wtf is up with her? Like, cos so many of us can empathise with the Handmaids and we understand how that came about–but it takes more sides to tell a full story. So, Aunt Lydia being back… I’m not too fussed about. I really do consider Emily so damaged that I would never trust her with a baby–but that’s me. She’s been so broken, so traumatized, and like I don’t blame her at all ofc, but she needs softness and patience and no stress ever again. Like, she is not well emotionally by any stretch.

Which leads into the Colonies bullshit. That was just really bad writing. She, Janine, etc, were there for MONTHS. Like, June ran away and was gone for 92 days (Thanks for that count, Serena!). And then add on whatever time passed between her being returned to the Waterfords house and when Lilly set off the bomb. That is a long ass time to be splashing about in radioactive waste. Emily’s teeth were falling out, right? Like, how she went from literally dying of radiation poisoning to “Totally healthy enough to pop out some totally healthy babies!” I’ll never understand. The loss of the Handmaids in the bombing isn’t a good enough reasoning. A dictatorship like Gilead could easily have just conscripted a bunch of Econowives with the sweep of a pen. That is how these militant theocracies work. They’re already half-indoctrinated anyway. It was dumb to put Emily and Janine there in the first place if you knew they had to come back, as they are main cast members.

I always thought Fred and Serena were getting away with too much but I wrote it off as Fred (and Serena lbr) being a HUGE part of bringing about Gilead in the first place so they get some leeway. But then, you see Warren and Cushing being dealt with fairly severely for basically hearsay. (Okay, Warren’s I get cos you had outcry from Janine in a massively public display and backup from Naomi.) I guess because Fred/Serena’s fuckups were a little more ~private, they could excuse/lie about them/cover them up them easier? Cushing was dealt with way to easily. Like… no. “Fred” signs some paper and suddenly Cushing is being disappeared immediately. I suppose Fred took over Pryce’s place in the hierarchy? Who knows. And from what I understand, nobody in SOJ knew about June’s escape to the big country house. But c’mon, one Handmaid kills herself, the new one another starting shit every where she goes with other Handmaids and is pals with two of the most notorious other Handmaids (Emily and Janine), then is “kidnapped”, is partners with the bomber, then runs away again, then again… Sigh.

June not leaving… I just… it was so obvious that she wouldn’t cos otherwise there is no show. But why bother with all that drama then. Like, what if Emily hadn’t been there??? June had no way of knowing she’d be meeting up with Emily. She would have just dumped Nicole in some van and run back? Ugh.

And the pace was bad. ITA. There are whole episodes I don’t even bother with on rewatches. I thought the season premiere was great, then it fell of a cliff and lost my interest until about the 5th episode? Then it got going nicely (altho 2x07 wasn’t great either), then took another nosedive in 2x10 and sort of coasted almost aimlessly until the finale. I don’t like to hate on June but honestly the really 100% June-centric episodes bore the shit out of me. 2x02/03 and 2x11 being the biggest culprits. I’m just tired of the excessive use of flashbacks that all basically say the same thing now. And Moss is a great actress but there’s such thing as too much of a good thing. Not to mention, Nick and June bore me to tears as well (SACRILEGE! Send the indignant rabid fangirls on a rampage into my inbox!) so when there’s a lot of focus on that clusterfuck of inanity, I tune out. I can’t help it. I find them so annoying lol. (Which is were I usually lose common ground with basically everyone in this fandom cos everyone loves Nick for some reason I just cannot understand. If you like him, I apologise! I just can’t. I liked him more at the beginning but as it’s gone on the less I give even the slightest shit about him.)

Also, like I found 2x02 and 2x03 to just be… a waste of time? Like, okay, we got to see the Econopeople and how they live or whatever but to me, there was zero point to the whole thing because we all know June isn’t going to get away with it. So, why waste 2 whole episodes building to something everyone knows ain’t happening just for the sake of some worldbuilding that I’m guessing could have been done some other more cogent way? 2x04 was basically just to show more breaking June down in various ways. Then 2x05 was just to show the Colonies and had a lot of filler in it about that. I still don’t understand the point of the “wedding” bits. It wasn’t uplifting or hopeful at all. It was still really dark, like killing the Wife. I only really liked watching Serena go apeshit because her babyslave isn’t making proper gossipy conversation. It’s just an interesting angle cos finally Serena gets what she asks for with a super obedient Offred, and low and behold, it actually sucks and she wants June back. Story of Serena’s life and she never fucking learns lol. And Aunt Lydia flexing on Serena was hilarious. I just enjoy watching them go head to head. Not to mention the grotesque child brides thing. Gross. Super gross. Like, a bunch of stuff happened but I’m not convinced it needed to be dragged out over 4 episodes like that. Not to mention it was all really depressing. I remember watching and going, “JESUS, this show is fucking depressing. Why am I torturing myself?”

But yeah, 2x11 was super slow and all the important things that happened (that you listed) could have taken 10 minutes. Like I get too that she had to see Hannah in order to… make her decision in the finale make sense??? Was that the reason? I still don’t know. All of this could have been dealt with way more quickly and with just as much emotional gravity had it been done well.

I really like Moira but she’s been given shit all to do. I liked how we got a little insight into her and Odette. A LITTLE. But a huge weakness is that the Toronto peeps are so divorced from the drama that it often seems, not pointless, but something like it. It definitely slows the pace down to a crawl. That’s why I thought 2x09 worked well because it married both worlds. (I will never understand why 1x07 exists the way it does. What a stupid episode. I do not care about Luke’s journey, tbh. I’m here for the women–good, evil, or inbetween; not an entire episode devoted to him–especially not when we could have had Moira’s instead. I accept that his is intertwined with June’s attempted escape but… meh. It’s just like I will never care about Nice Guy TM Nick’s backstory or character. I don’t care about Fred’s childhood, or Warren’s marriage, or Luke’s manbabying, or Nick’s manpain. Eek.)

I dunno. Personally I think it could have been tightened up a bit better. But again, what do I know? I’m just a viewer. I’m sure other viewers have completely the opposite opinion.

[ferix-writes]

Do you have any advice about writing dialogue? I keep running into the issue where the characters need to talk about topics A and B, but I can't figure out how to transition between them. Sometimes I'll try to come up with topic C that helps segue between them, but sometimes C has nothing to do with anything and I fear I'm introducing something boring. What do you do when (if) you have problems like this? The dialogue you write sounds so natural.

For your specific situation it’s a little hard to say because I don’t know what each topic is, but I’ll give you the best advice I can think of regardless! 

First of all, don’t feel bad about struggling with dialogue, because I’ve definitely found myself there many times! Second of all, I think the best advice I’ve ever been given about writing conversations is don’t be afraid to be ruthless in your cutting and editing. If it’s not relevant to the conversation or not in character, it doesn’t need to be there! Adding in unnecessary lines really distracts from the flow of a story, I feel, and getting to the point in a streamlined fashion is much more interesting. BUT that’s not to say that long conversations don’t have any place in a story. They absolutely do, because just like in real life, characters often need to hash out differences or resolve problems, or maybe they’re just having a nice, long conversation on a date. If it’s relevant to the plot and in character, there’s nothing wrong with it being there. 

As far as coming up with dialogue (like the transition you’re struggling with) one thing that really helps me is imagining the lines in the character’s voices. Does it sound like something they would say in canon? When speaking about X topic, what would be this character’s typical reaction? Prompto, for example, has a very casual speaking style, so you can’t approach his lines like you would Ignis’. Another example, Noctis has a lot of trouble expressing his feelings, so unless he’s speaking with someone he trusts and feels very safe, he’s probably going to be quite tight lipped and standoffish. If you’re struggling with a line and you can’t envision the character actually saying that, I would try to rewrite or reword it. Going back to the source material (playing the game or watching cut scenes) can help inspire dialogue, too. 

Kind of a side note on that, if I’m really struggling to come up with lines I’ll ask myself how I would reply/react to this situation, and that has helped me over some humps in the past. 

If you find that you still can’t come up with anything good, I’d suggest just going and doing something else. Something that is not writing. That could be going back to the source material, interacting with others in the fandom, reading (fic or a published book), taking a nap, going for a walk, whatever. Have errands to do? Go run them. Just get away from writing for a while. Truth is, it’s still going to be in the back of your mind while youre out and about, and you’ll find yourself thinking more freely when youre not staring at your computer screen. Eventually an idea will spark and you’ll find a way to work around the dialogue. I know this isn’t the quickest solution, but that’s just how creativity works sometimes! I’m a firm believer that you can’t force it. 

Something else you might consider is that you, as the storyteller of this story, are assuming that your audience already knows everything that you do. Even if you’re writing a story set in 100% canon, don’t assume they know everything. You probably have your outline somewhere with all the points you want to cover in your story, but remember that your audience doesn’t have access to that. Maybe the transition between topics A and B could be a character explaining WHY these two topics are being addressed, maybe because of an event that happened in canon or in the past. Leaving out details like that can make a story quite confusing and hard to follow, so proofread in detail to make sure there aren’t any plot holes that aren’t explained. Better yet, pass your story off to someone else in the fandom to look over, and see if the topics covered and the flow of the story make sense to them. 

My final suggestion is that it’s okay to have characters stop talking. We’ve all experienced times in our lives with our family, friends or significant others where we just…don’t have anything to talk about. That’s okay, and can even add more to your story. Maybe it’s a tense silence because two characters are fighting. Maybe it’s uneasy because they dont know eachother well. Or maybe its comfortable because they DO know each other very well. Not everything has to be portrayed in dialogue; exposition or going through a character’s personal thoughts can be a great story telling tool, too. 

I hope this helped! If you have any other questions, feel free to ask or message me!