#im aware of the faults already but if you ask me about my interests im not here to talk about the bad parts of them

[vurelly]

sometimes i do not want to consume a media and justify my liking it by making it known that im aware of it's faults and loving it despite, sometimes i just want to love things wholly and unapologetically because it made me feel something and even if it was a little fucked up it did nothing to reduce the amount of love i held for it

im aware it's not perfect, but let me love it like it is, if only because it makes me happy

[dappledpaintbrush]

What do you think of the SPM villains as a whole? I'm going to make a wild guess and assume your favourite is Dimentio based off only my obvious mind reading intellect-

Please go into as much detail as your heart desires. I love this game a lot and hearing about it makes me very happy. It's my special interest, and I am deprived of obsessive rants over this game that aren't my own.

I hate dimentio fym. Let’s kill him.

LMAOAOAOAOAO but real talk: ANOTHER PERSON WITH AN SPM SPECIAL INTEREST?;?? WOOHOO!!!!! HIP! HIP! HOORAY!! we are now Blood Brothers

I apologize if I’m misinterpreting and you have already seen the post, but I have answered an ask before that is what you’re looking for- here it is! :3 I went into hefty detail on each member of Team Bleck. Trust me, it’s very long LMAOAO

HOWEVER… if you are not talking about just Team Bleck and are referring to the other villains as well- then…

Fracktail/Wracktail:

Fracktail has always. Stuck with me. First of all, his theme goes HARD????? Good lord, go ACTUALLY listen to it if you haven’t. It’s the equivalent of this

Anyways, Fracktail has always made me feel sad. And when I was younger, he scared me. It scared me that he died for something that wasn’t even his fault. Like dude usually when characters get brainwashed and they eventually regain control, they get a happy ending and stuff. Fracktail BLEW UP??? I personally just can’t stand it when characters reap something they never sowed- and this applies to characters as minuscule as Fracktail.

Now. Wracktail. He is. Interesting.

Both Fracktail and Wracktail are incredible examples of how INSANELY POWERFUL Ancient magic is, but Wracktail is a bit different. Wracktail refers to himself as a god multiple times. Is this actually true, or is he “making it up” or exaggerating? Were the Ancients capable of CREATING DEITIES? Were Grambi and Jaydes former Ancients who turned themselves into gods? Are the Pixls classified as gods? After all, both the Pixls and Wracktail are immortal unless harmed, and they were both created by the ancients. But if you can die from an injury, are you really a god? Or, like I stated before, is Wracktail not actually a god?Something else interesting is that Wracktail seems to be aware of Shadoo’s existence. HOW? Does Wracktail posses some kind of omnipotence? Did Shadoo reveal herself to Wracktail out of pity because they were both created and ruined by the Ancients? HOW. WHAT. WHY. Ugh I could go on FOREVER. It’s not that deep, sure, but it’s fun to ponder.

Bonechill:

Bonechill. Was. Wasted.

One of the MOST intriguing parts about Super Paper Mario is- and I’ve talked about this a lot- the extremely bold references to Christianity. Bonechill is a carbon fucking copy of Satan, and he was BOOOOOOOORRRINGG

WHY . WHY DID THEY WASTE THIS CHARACTER. WHY CAN YOU BEAT HIM SO FAST IT CAN BE TURNED INTO A GIF. HOW DOES HE KNOW ABOUT LUVBI BEING A PURE HEART?? Oh yeah, I know, BECAUSE HE WAS A FALLEN ANGEL, AND CLEARLY HE HAD TO HAVE BEEN EXTREMELY CLOSE WITH AND TRUSTED BY GRAMBI TO BE AWARE OF LUVBI’S ORIGINS. HELL, EVEN IF BONECHILL SPIED ON A CONVERSATION OR SOMETHING, HE STILL HAD TO HAVE BEEN VERY CLOSE WITH GRAMBI TO BE CAPABLE OF DOING THAT. IS THAT WHY HE WAS CASTED OUT OF HEAVEN? BECAUSE HE BETRAYED GRAMBI? YOU KNOW WHAT THEY SHOULDVE DONE? THEY SHOULDVE HAD A SCENE BETWEEN GRAMBI AND BONECHILL ABOUT THIS. BUT NOOOOOOOOOO MY NAME IS BONECHILL IM EVIL MWHAHAHAAH OHH IM DEAD DAMN NVM! FUCK.

But on a funnier note this part in KoopaKungFu’s let’s play always made me laugh as a kid

But What do you mean Bonechill was just. Standing there. I know nobody commented on it because this is a video game (it’s funny regardless LMAO). BUT WERE GRAMBI AND BONECHILL TALKING (I say talking, but this doesn’t mean they were calm about it) ABOUT THEIR PAST? OR DID THEY FIGHT BECAUSE GRAMBI IS INJURED. DID THEY DO BOTH? WHY. WAS . THE FACT. BONECHILL. KNOWS. ABOUT. LUVBI. AND. THAT. HE. WAS. A . FALLEN. ANGEL. NEVER. TALKED. ABOUT. MY BLOOD. PRESSURE. IS. RISING.

Blumiere’s Father:

I wish I could say a lot more about him, but surprisingly I’ve never gotten around to making headcanons for him/Blumiere. It’s crazy because you know that in his head he believes he is doing the right thing for his son and for the Tribe of Darkness as a whole. What kind of indoctrination did he have to go through to believe that KILLING somebody simply because she and his son loved one another was a rational and reasonable course of action. God I wish we knew at least a LITTLE more about him- but the minuscule amount of scenes he has makes his impact on the story that much more harrowing.

King Croacus:

I fw King Croacus heavy. My favorite drag queen of all time. God he’s so cool.

As somebody who is lore obsessed, I ADORE the fact we got so many details on the rulers of the Floro Sapiens. It’s something the developers did not have to do yet they did it anyways. Every time I walk through that hall in the game I read every single plaque.

It’s also? Really disturbing how we KILLED this guy? I know he comes back post-game but like regardless we did kill a guy who’s mind was deteriorating because of polluted water. Like that shit wasn’t his fault. He died for the faults of the Cragnons, who basically got off scot-free (unless you killed some of the brainwashed individuals). It’s an interesting metaphor for a variety of things that occur in reality.

Also, his theme is REALLY underrated. I know it’s simple, but I love it so much. King Croacus fans ASSEMBLE!

Francis:

When you’re trying to save all worlds but this fuckass Redditor downvotes you

Francis was one of the most genius parts of this game. Holy shit. I don’t even know what to say. He was so ahead of his time it’s actually scary. That whole chapter is one of the funnest parts of the game. All the niche references, the poking fun at Francis-like people, god it’s PEAK.

Something that’s interesting is that his Castle is implied to be where the Tribe of Darkness lived. Which is fucking hilarious. I personally prefer the idea that Castle Bleck was the old TOD home but that’s literally wrong. Carson said the TOD lives in a castle in the woods. Where do we see a castle in the woods. Uh huh. (I can get even more insane- the podium where Tippi’s cage was held. The podium that for some reason has a mechanism to hide it deep in the ground. Hmmm. A book can fit there. Can’t it. HMMMM) (I’m scraping the bottom of the barrel man somebody save me).

Also. Wokackness aside. Francis is terrifyingly smart. He created a PIXL. That’s something that I feel like is incredibly overlooked. How did he do that. How. ? HUH. ????????

Pixl Queen/Shadoo:

well you see uh

(no but seriously. I don’t even know where to begin. She’s one of my favorite characters in the game and we never ever get to see her. She’s heartbreaking. She’s devastating. She’s terrifying. She has nobody looking out for her. She is alone. But she fights so hard to be seen. She starts a war. She tries to kill every walking Ancient and the heroes of the Light Prognosticus. She screams and she cries and she begs and she pleas but nobody can hear her nor is listening. She is punished for being loved. She is punished for her wrath. She is still here in the form of shadows in the cracks on the Trial walls but is that even her anymore? She did not deserve to die so young, but that death was infinitely more merciful than all that occurred after. She was born to die. It’s why she is still alive.)

Big Blooper:

blooooop lmao

[alostlittleriverlotus]

The thing I hated most about my obsessive need for control with OCPD is probs just...how much it affected my safe person. Like they aren't like me at all. And so when we played things like ACNH or Stardew Valley together back before I knew about my disorders and they were heavily unregulated and I was just starting to come out of this toxicity of untreated trauma responses and disorders, I was extremely controlling. And it heavily affected their enjoyment of the games that were our special interest. I would design things, ask them why they hadn't completed things already, ask how they could even enjoy the game without completing stuff. It also doesn't help that my obsessive need for completing things came from my brothers criticizing the way I played as a child. Heavily so.

But just, it came off as so guilt trippy, annoyed, and I would often take control and organize things. So much so that even playing now, they'll reference some of it since it still affects them and it breaks my heart. I feel so damn bad. That was a few years back when I was still unlearning some of my more toxic behaviours so some of the ones like my OCPD still went unnoticed.

We've improved a lot and now most of the time, I'll just joke about it and try to regulate it. I still help put with organizing sometimes since MA is VERY disorganized and I'll give tips and tricks and advice, but im also leaving a lot of choices up to them and let them take the lead. Even then, the most ill say is "that's not how I would do it, but that's fine, cause it's just a game." I've really improved a LOT over the past few years and I'm helping MA to enjoy games since I kind of ruined a few for them by being so controlling and stressful with my need to accomplish things which also would come from an autistic excitement to share special interest.

Things have improved a lot and I'm learning to use my OCPD organization and work ethic and need for control in helpful ways when we play and been really working on asking before just doing things as well as mentioning that they can ultimately do whatever they want, that's just how I would do things. I've seen them have more fun and enjoy games a lot more again. Especially when they accidentally deleted their main farm in Stardew. They were miserable and we've been rebuilding the farm together, making memories against and reliving some of our old memories on that farm.

I just notice a lot more of my OCPD stuff comes out during video games. I haven't paid attention to some of these disorders as much since they're not as intense as my other disorders like NPD and HPD and ASPD and shit, but they are very heavily present and I'm trying to spot them more and work on them. I'm just so tired of seeing how obsessive and controlling I get just to feel a fucking sense of safety. It's stressful when you actually start seeing the patterns and it's even scarier when you realize how you've done it for years with no idea while also being self aware to a fault due to trauma.

[spaciebabie]

PLEASE tell me about your oc lore that comic was SO INTERESTING I'm on my hands and knees begging for more pls

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU FOR THIS ASK I LOVE TALKING ABT MY OCS SM

I HADTA GET MY NOTES OUT FOR THIS ONE!

RANT UNDER READ MORE CUZ IT CONTAINS SPOILERS (EVEN THO IM PURPOSFULLY VAGUE) AND ITS ALSO A LOT

my GOD katherine quin- MY TRAGIC PROTAGONIST BABY WHO FEELS LIKE SHE ALWAYS HAS TA DO SOMTHIN ABT THE SITUATION EVEN THO SHE'S JUST A KID

i LOVE slow burns so everything in the story takes a moment ta kick off. you have katherine, "curiosity killed the kat" quin n her perfect parents, perfect friends n perfect life. everything is good. she's a kookie middleschooler abt ta go ta highschool, she's president of the history club, she's designated as the LEADER of the rexica manor field trip b/c of how dedicated she is ta learning abt their history.

she goes on the trip! it goes great, stupendous even! she comes home!! her parents are unreasonably upset for no reason b/c of a specifc thing that happens that i dont wanna spoil EERURUERUGUEGUEUGR

and she ends up learning a horrible truth. she's like, "i feel like we should do something now, with this thing i aquired maybe i can do something." n ppl keep telling her ta, "leave it ta the adults" "what are you even going ta do?", "everything is already in motion you just hafta wait till it all falls inta place" but-

FROM HER POV THE ADULTS HAVE BEEN STAGNANT, AWARE OF THE PROBLEM FOR 20+ YEARS N HAVENT BEEN DOING ANYTHING (spoilers? this is the incorrect mindset)

so she goes n does something STUPID. she directly puts herself in harms way, she puts herself in the forefront of the action b/c she thinks she can do somthing and the adults are forced ta acknowledge her b/c of this. they're forced ta include her even though they dont want to. again another child has decided that they want ta b involved in an ADULT MATTER and the only way they can make sure she n the other dumb kids stay alive is ta involve them so that they can watch over them.

time passes, a new character joins the fray. a deranged lunatic who will stop at nothing ta get what they want. they fucking flip the WHOLE WELL PLANNED OUT OPERATION THAT HAS BEEN IN THE WORKS FOR 20+ YEARS ON ITS HEAD AND KAT TURNS INTA A DIRECT TARGET.

people are hunting her. they want her dead. the police are aligned w/a new corrupt government that are after the thing she has designated herself ta protect (notice how i said, "herself" THE ADULTS DO NOT WANT HER TA PROTECT THIS THING) she's a fugative. she's an outlaw. she's protecting something the public percieves as dangerous, but she knows its not. her parents cant help her, n while she does have adults there ta aid her its obvi not the same. she misses her parents so much, she's stressed trying not ta get caught n die, having ta move from place ta place b/c of the threat of being recognized n the constant raids on the places she's at. i think that her birthday falls w/in this timeframe so like,,,,imagine trying ta celebrate your sweet 16 when your government is actively out hunting you.

AWFUL ANGSTY JUST THE WAY I LIKE IT

I HAVE HAD THIS WHOLE STORY PLANNED OUT SINCE I WAS 14 OH MY GOD I FUCKING LOVE THIS ARC!! ITS THE ANGSTIEST ARC OF THEM ALL AND AFTERWARDS THE CHARACTERS HAFTA SPEND THE NEXT ARC HEALING FROM THIS HORRIBLE THING WHILE DANGER STILL LOOMS IN THE DISTANCE.

THEY'RE IRREPERABLY SCARRED. PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY, KAT IS NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO SUFFERS FROM THIS!

and the best part of it is that some of it is her fault

[daigina-3]

first off this is SO FUCKIN CUTE sammy is just the sweetest and the whole thing was very wholesome & it totally spun me off into a very similar thought (where i thought yours was heading) & i apologise im boutta drop a whole ficlet in ur asks

inspired by eddie's ritual, some memory cracks deep in steve's mind of something done for him as a child. an old chinese tradition that had carried into the west as a way of predicting your child's future. it takes a day of silent musing, turning memories over and over -- and by evening, steve thinks he can recall all the items needed.

eddie's lounging on the couch, sammy sat on his tummy when steve finally scrounges together all the bits and bobs. he crouches and sits leaning against the couch, eddie watching him absentmindly but intrigued. steve sets them out in front of him, equally far apart and just out from where he sits cross-legged. a pen, a coin, and a toy.

"what's this?" eddie muses, sounding a little amused. steve turns, already grinning at him and rescues sammy from the little pokes eddie has been jabbing lightly into her side. she's giggling and it only magnifies when she's lifted - she's squeals happily and steve thinks he could just melt. he drops a kiss that gets lost in her curls.

"your little ritual today," he plops sammy down as he speaks, opposite him and eddie and on the other side of the toys. "reminded me of somethin' my dad did when i was a kid. supposed to predict the future or somethin'."

he's doing that tone of voice when he's a bit embarrassed, as if eddie going to tell him the idea is dumb. its pure habit and none of it eddie's fault. hearing it, eddie sits up, shuffles off the couch to land beside steve - and makes an effort to show steve his interest.

"whadda they mean?" he asks, eyes trained on sammy. she's blinks across at her dads, a little affronted to have been moved off her comfy position. she's sat down, her little arms waving about as she watches them back.

steve smiles and coos at her, his baby voice leaking into the words. "money is, well, money. pen is supposed to be intelligence-- guess you can guess what i didn't pick, huh?"

eddie smacks him in the arm, just hard enough to regret saying it - which is the point. then soothes in with a quick kiss, in the same spot. he continues, "and the toy?"

"fun? leisure? i don't remember exactly. i think my dad cheated by putting the toy further away." steve snorts and shakes his head. any bitterness of the memory is sapped away as sammy shifts, leaning down onto his hands and beginning to crawl towards the objects.

steve feels himself take a breath, eddie growing a bit tenser beside him. it doesn't really matter what she picks, they both know - she could grab the toy and she'll still be the smartest baby in the world to them and vice versa. her curls bounce as she swings her head, seemingly aware of the choice at hand.

maybe that's why steve's feels tears spring up when she babbles something in baby and crawls forward, decision made, right into his lap. one of her arms lifts up, like she's asking for a hug. steve doesn't waste a moment to scoop her up, cuddling her into his chest with a loud sniffle, heart aching in the best way. her little hand pats his face, some baby attempt at a soft touch and steve chuckles, the sound a bit watery.

"what does that mean? love? family?" eddie asks, voice fond. sam lurches for him at the sound of his voice, one hand finding purchase on a curl and tugging. it brings eddie in closer with a quiet qince, the three of them crowded in and she babbles happily with a wiggle as she looks between her dads. steve admits, voice weak, "i didn't even know that was an option."

ANONNNN that’s SOOO CUTE the perfect companion ficlet tbh 😭 I do love a family and love starved Steve getting everything he deserves!! “I didn’t even know what was an option” really hit me in the chest omg THANK YOU so much for writing this I love it and I can’t wait for everyone to see it!!

[chanyoungies]

vity and tbz?!

hi bibi <3 (it got long so. it goes under the cut)

crabs

first bias: serim (& jungmo)

current bias: woobin / wonjin / jungmo / serim

album ranking: season 2 (hideout: the new day we step into) > liberty: in our cosmos = new wave > season 3 (hideout: be our voice) = season 1 (hideout: remember who we are) > the awakening: written in the stars (> vivid > boogie woogie)

how i got into them: i was interested when i heard they were going to debut bc. it's always exciting to see new groups debuting i think (nd partially because of the pdx/x1 guys but like not Really bc . i didnt rlly remember that i liked them during pdx AND i didnt like mini/hyeongjun when x1 was. a thing) + brina was posting abt them when the teaser pics were coming out nd all that so they were on the dash for me to see y'know. then batr came out and i hated it so i thought that's where my adventure w the cavities was done but after a while i finally listened to the rest of the album AND STAY WAS THE BEST SONG IVE EVER HEARD............i listened to Only her on loop for like DAYS . n here we are now

which member would be my best friend: id pester mini until he agrees to be friends w me . also wanji !! best friend energy off the charts

something i associate with them: crabs. cavities. brina & eri. the phrase brand deals bc of how many times ive said that mini deserves all the brand deals in the world. bubblegum w hyeongjun. orangeade & sewoon songs with wanji. pitbull (dont ask). randall the lizard thing w jungmo (this is brina's fault blame her). meteors, honestly.

bring the boyz back

first bias: haknyeon (& hyunjun)

current bias: ?????? (chanhee/sunwoo/hyunjae)

album ranking: reveal = breaking dawn > the start = chase > maverick => the sphere = dreamlike > the first = thrill-ing > the only > tattoo = be aware > bloom bloom (= last man standing = all about you > christmassy! => drink it > white) + still haven't heard the she's the boss album oops..... as u can see. very different from my title track ranking

how i got into them: see it's a long, long, long story........ was really excited when they were rumoured to have their little snack shop show/be debuting because i liked hak from broduce. i made another twt account just specifically for the to-be-tbz stanning purposes. saw hwall fantakens n i was like Oh Whos that. nd then suddenly i stopped going on that account n kinda forgot? abt them? i would listen to every release they'd put out but without much more bc as much as i LOVED boy. song of the century. i absolutely hated giddy up so i was like well too bad :/ rip my interest in them :/ and i think i disliked right here at first as well (i love her now. shes my beloved.) but i was absolutely INSANE about no air shes the best song ever i've been in love with her from the first second i heard her. so i ended up watching the showcase stage n someone caught my eye (i ended up finding out it was hak which was rlly funny it was a . destiny kinda moment). i think it was around that time that i saw their right here era weekly idol appearance. got a small crush on sunwoo. but then nothing much more happened rlly? i still kept watching their mvs whenever they'd release one and i Was a p big fan of their music!! and . i must have seen some more content at Some point before rtk because i remember already having a better idea of who each of them were before rtk started but. it was rlly during rtk that i rlly got Into them . but like . Rlly into them like . the amount of vlives i watched in the span of a few months (while rtk was airing, even though i wasn't watching the actual show, only the performances, and for a while after it ended im p sure)......yeah

which member would be my best friend: chanhee bestie shaped.... also possibly moonbae . or hyunjae/eric

something i associate with them: betrayal plotlines. flower emojis (esp in spam format). horses & pigs w hak. pink hair, chanhee's natural haircolour. big pools during summertime. winter releases (they probably have the best ones overall all things considered). sorry to taemin but danger is their song. also u w kyu & léks w cob & sarah w eric

[gumy-shark]

GUMY DOES UNNECESSARY ANALYSIS ON A BOOK HER 10 YEAR OLD SISTER MADE HER READ: THE RANT my younger sister recently finished the book Jinxed by Amy McCulloch, and she decided in her infinite ten-year-old wisdom that I would really enjoy the book. i read it cover to cover and need to tell someone other than her my thoughts bc she likes the book a lot and I don’t want to make her feel bad for liking it. so, my thoughts under the read more

First, I should explain the book’s premise. it’s sci-fi kid’s fiction, and yes, that does mean I’m being anal over children’s literature for no reason. im fully aware. i just like being nitpicky, and analyzing exactly what elements you like or dislike in a story and why is a very valuable skill to have. BUT YEAH. In this book, everyone owns a “baku,” a customizable robotic animal that is basically a cross between a smartphone and a digital home assistant. Lacey, the Main Character Girl (she is 12 btw so keep that in mind) stumbles across a damaged baku and repairs it herself. she then goes to the official Nerd School, sponsored and run by The One Big Apple-Stand-in Which Has Completely Monopolized Baku Technology (literally nobody is suspicious of this at all). however, her cat baku, Jinx, is not like the other bakus- he’s autonomous.

honestly, the story’s pretty ok. not perfect by any means, but not necessarily bad. yeah it’s cliche. yeah, there’s an unnecessary romance subplot. yeah, the group of friends is not given any sort of proper buildup to justify the friendship levels. it’s a kid’s book, and the relationship between the two main characters is decent enough (although still somewhat lacking). it’s not the story I’m annoyed with.

THE WORLDBUILDING AND TONE HOWEVER, HAVE NO EXCUSE! one look inside this book told me it had a #girlboss Let’s Get Women Into STEM! message, with healthy dashes of “kids and their cellphones” and there is neither subtlety nor any sort of reconciliation of these ideas! it should not take more than half the book before even one character expresses the thought that maybe the tech conglomerate that literally takes over and owns entire company towns all over North America, might not have everyone’s best interests at heart! even then, the corruption is alluded to be because of one singular guy, instead of, i don’t know, a flaw in the system of entire education systems being owned by one megacorp from the ground up! and let’s not even get started on the implication that asking for help makes you a worse engineer.

the worldbuilding is about as shaky as jello on a fault line, btw, bc there is 1) little if any cohesion between worldbuilding elements, 2) bootlicky exposition on already-explained topics which does not add anything at all, and 3) a corresponding lack of development into other introduced parts of the world, including but not limited to the pokemon-style baku deathmatches that middle-school children compete in and are forbidden by NDA to tell even their parents about.

furthermore (this one’s really nitpicky btw just annoying to me) despite willy wonka and the chocolate factory being directly referenced, our “Charlie” characters trust the obvious Slugworth copy, and the opposing megacorp he represents, to have their best interests at heart as well.

[incessantwhine]

I’m significantly less depressed which is good BUT the catch is that now I have energy to yearn instead of wallow.

just gonna scream about it here cuz this is rly a journal it just HAPPENS to be text posts but omg

i really do deserve a big pat on the back for being relatively normal and regular interacting with my friend(?) [dom] despite how like carnally i desire them LMFAO. like i am sort of an angel for not making it weird when i hear abt her crushes and love life or whatever despite the fact i can no longer ignore my big fat raging crush

i think the only reason im being a very brave little girl is because it’s just SO far out of the realm of possibility. I mean they’ve spoken at length about how ugly ppl should not be shooting their shot and I definitely am Aware of my place in the pecking order. and honestly as much as we talk or are friends or whatever there’s still the unspoken thing of like “this is still fueled by our working relationship which is subject to end at any time” and they’re so clearly head over heels with like everyone else in their lives that’s important to them. we literally just had a conversation abt how asking out a stripper is still asking out a stripper when ur gay. which is Correct! there are so many reasons why i should NOT even display any interest moreso than i already have/attempt to nudge things further. and I’m a boundary kinda gal above all. and i also know the SECOND I even come close to violating them it will be a mess and i will lose someone I’ve somehow grown to care abt very much and I’d be super sad. so it’s really illogical and very silly to even express a desire in a way that MIGHT cross a line. especially just like given what they’ve gone thru with all their friends who are shitty or subs who catch feelings…I want so desperately that to not be me. at this point im being different out of spite. like I refuse to be a part of history repeating itself. but it’s SO HARD

So really I have very good reasons to keep everything to myself. for all intents and purposes my feelings are not part of the equation here unless they prevent me from like being a good supportive friend. and like I refuse to let them do that. because at the end of the day i care abt them and want to be in their life in whatever way is good for them. BUT

And there is a but!! There are so many times I contemplated just being like “call it off before u get in too deep”. I was crying last night thinking about what I could say. but honestly if this is a life lesson I have to learn (and it seems like it is) then I am resigned to learning it the hard way.

Cause I KNOW at this point i rly do like her as more than a friend. I brushed it off before but like it feels stupid to deny it any longer. Im incredibly sexually attracted to them which i was from like the beginning so that has little impact but over the course of getting to know them im like…the feelings are getting gayer and gayer and im really running out of excuses.

and I know just how pathetic and stupid it is to start having Big Feelings for someone who YOU sought out in a professional context. to be fair i never asked to be relatively close; that was like a delightful little surprise; but I DID say I was okay with it and have given zero indication this far that im not. So it’s rly my fault.

and if I were to cut things off now I have no idea how I’d do it without giving a reason. like if I were to lie and be like “hey I’m gonna have to take a step back cuz finances” that’s not a reason to not talk. and the talking is the issue. But on the other I think like spilling all ur caught feelings onto a SWer is fkn weird (even if they’re ur friend) and puts them in a bad spot because it’s literally not their problem and they’re just doing a job. if I wasn’t such a bleeding heart this would be no issue. like I’m pretty sure normal people would handle it just fine. I just happen to have lovey dovey bitch disease

And part of the other problem too is that yes I think they open up a fair amount but honestly I’m so much on the periphery of their life I have no idea how to gauge that. like our relative level of closeness is Unknown. idk who they talk to every day!! idk who knows what!!! cause like sometimes we’ll have a conversation and it’s like “cool :) secret info :)” and then ten seconds later there’s a tweet about what we were just talking about so. I think what we discuss is not very private. And then other times we’ll be talking about extremely personal things (re: love life!! breakdowns!! disability!! feelings!!! Idk!!) but I really just Do Not Know where my place is. like if someone’s social circle is a circumference idk where the fuck i fall in relation to them at the center.

And it’s not even like ohhh i want to date them so bad. I can do all the cute things I want to as a sub (kind of). the relationship is fulfilling as it is. i just hate the little blips of jealousy or annoyance I get over shit that has nothing to do with me. Im only human and i pine and I reALLY fucking like this person. it’s like not always the easiest to hear abt how great and awesome having sex with their crush is. i mean, i literally SPIRALED when they accidentally sent me that photo of someone they were crushing on lmfao hearing about it first hand is like….I really have to put on my brave face for that

But at the end of the day I rly just want to make them happy and add a little positivity in whatever context I can. I can continue to ignore the sparks or butterflies or whatever I personally feel because I know it’s one sided. I can be a really good friend. I know that I can

I just also wish it wasn’t tearing me apart :) because that really makes me feel no better than everyone else who does the same thing w/ her. Granted I think I’m better at playing it cool and being respectful but it’s kind of agonizing at times. unrequited love?? Not even in a flexing way but that has NEVER happened to me before

The other weird thing is that like. I don’t know how she rly feels abt me honestly. sometimes they’ll come out with stuff like “youre so sweet” or “youre very charming” or “youre so funny” and idk if im reading too much into it because that is like normal friend things. I don’t want to let my feelings let me be literally delusional and affect how I perceive their words. but sometimes the closeness feels like a little bit more than platonic?? but the difficulty is that BY NATURE it’s more than platonic because I pay her to give me forced orgasms lmfao?? we were never gonna have a normal friendship. like…we established a while ago we can just be friends who also have a D/s relationship. and I did think that I was okay with that. And I am okay with that or at least I really really want to be. but like I said…lovey dovey bitch disease…

and like “I think part of the reason I like you so much is because you were the only good thing to come out of my last trip to NY” is burned in my brain. forever. so that always brings me back to reality when i get a little too swoony. because…i mean im glad i was a good thing but also, ouch, it’s interpreted as like if u had not been going thru an immensely shitty time we would not be friends. like i don’t rly want to feel like an option out of desperation

the WORST part of it all though is that none of that matters. none of the mixed feelings or ambiguity or honest to god sometimes resentment even makes a difference. because im in Too Deep and im completely enamored with like…everything about her as a person. they’re so sweet and so kind and we’re alike in a lot of ways but also very different. i already feel so strongly about like wanting good things for them and get horribly angry when someone does wrong by them. i see the relentless hopeful optimism in her/romantic and i love it and i also somewhat see like the darkness it took to get to that point. the whole “this is ur dream sadist” thing is a bonus and sparked the initial attraction (altho it’s funny I had no idea they were like actually kinky in a lifestyle context when we started I just thought like it was a Job) but. she’s so smart and so cool but also a huge dork and so cute. and they’re not perfect because there are definitely some things I’ve been like 👀 at but idk. why does anyone like anyone?? i cant explain it adequately. but it just feels like when we talk they Get it in a way that no one else really ever does. they give so much to their friends and they work really hard and i can tell what motivates them to do rly cool organizational stuff/get involved with their community is just love and it’s so rare to see that and have it not be an ego thing. I cannot sing their praises or gush about them enough. Like I’m so genuinely over the moon to just be able to call them my friend, not out of a clout thing or a “I have a hot friend” thing…they’re just like, a really great person!! and underappreciated tbh!! even outside the context of friendship, purely from a professional standpoint, idk anyone who is as mindful and thoughtful about their clients and genuinely cares the way they do. and that’s so unbelievably special

and I know like based on all that, if we met outside the provider-client relationship I would not have a chance in hell. cause i have good things to offer for sure but im not nearly smart or interesting enough to keep up. but i want to be! i want to be. i wish i was.

idk. I think that because of who I am, I’m doomed to fall in love a little bit with anyone I get close to. I can’t NOT honestly!! but it’s hard when i have to be so so careful about how much of that i let on to and display. i want to be as affectionate as i feel and i want to be honest but it’s a very slippery slope and easily interpreted as “wanting more”/going down the same path so i physically can’t. but it is TORTURE keeping it all in.

[imlonelyalt]

hello :] i was wondering if you could do a platonic yandere uncle bruno with a niece s/o? general headcanons will do, but if you have any extra ideas to add then that would be great! if not that’s totally okay! i hope you have a wonderful day or night :D also your writing is AMAZING, keep up the great work!

꒰ ➼ ❝ platonic bruno ❞ ꒱

warnings: yandere, unhealthy (platonic) relationship

bruno x reader

a/n :: of course you can 😈 i tried to do this to the best of my ability, and thank you so much?? you’re so kind (*´▽`*) ALSO REQUESTS ARE OPEN AGAIN!! also there is a little story bit at the end cuz i felt so bad for writing so little

:: he would’ve been there every step of the way with you, like he would’ve been so proud of you at your gifting ceremony.

:: if you were there before he disappeared, and he was aware of you, he would communicate to you through the walls.

:: he just wants to keep you safe, because even though he is your uncle, he thinks of you as if you were the daughter he never had.

:: you go out into town and he is still in hiding? he can’t keep an eye on you to make sure your safe? rats are pretty useful friends sometimes.

:: he was terrified that you would be ridiculed if you were seen with him, so he only really talks to you in private. he cares for you, but he doesn’t want you to be an outcast.

:: he doesn’t try to be possessive and protective over you, but he’s just worried that he will lose you! so sure, it might be a pain to have to tell him what happened every time you go into town, but it’s just for good measure, he promises.

:: if you look up to him? he will be over the moon. but that doesn’t mean he won’t stress. he is worried that he won’t be a good enough role model, or have your impression of him tainted by townsfolk.

:: you are his favourite child (duh,) among the kids in the family, but he doesn’t tell anyone that — everyone has figured it out already though, because his actions shout it out anyways.

:: you like rats? he would bring you into his abode and shows you cool tricks his rat can do.

:: if you find a love interest, he will evaluate them and make sure they are the best of the best because that’s only what you deserve. from a distance, of course. (this is in a platonic way btw, because if it wasn’t. 😟)

you entered the casita, humming a silent hello before sneaking into the kitchen in hopes of finding one of julietas famous arepas. as you entered the section of the house, you saw a figure that had already beat you to it. noticing your appearance, he stuffed one last arepa into his mouth and fixed his posture.

‘julieta! i was just—‘ he paused, examing you more closely before he let his posture relax. ‘oh, it’s just you — you scared me, y/n.’

‘it’s your fault for sneaking food in the first place!’ you countered, moving a hand onto your hip. raising an eyebrow, he looked unamused.

‘and you were here because…?’ he paused, as if thinking hard. ‘oh, yeah. i was just about to ask you were you had even gone. we were searching for you.’

we?

he always said we, referencing the rest of the family. it wasn’t true, you knew, he was just trying to cover up the fact he was so worried about you.

‘i just went into town, to get some groceries for julieta.’ you responded, hauling a bag onto the table, in which he responded with a grunt. ‘you don’t need to worry about me.’ you added, eyeing him.

he looked shocked. ‘what - no! i wasn’t worried about you! wait, that’s not what i meant.’ he took a deep breath, searching his mind for answers. ‘ah- right! pepa told me to look for you. you know how your mother can get sometimes.’ he rubbed his arm and spoke sheepishly.

‘bruno. i told you, you don’t need to worry.’

‘don’t you know how those people can be, y/n?’ he uttered, ‘im just trying to do what’s best for you, to keep you safe.’

‘to keep me safe…?’ you echoed.

‘i just don’t want you getting hurt. not like i did.’ he confirmed, closing his eyes and shaking his head. julieta then entered the kitchen, both of you snapping your attention to her. she took a look at the tray and then send an accusing glare to bruno.

‘i wonder who stole my freshly baked goods?’

but bruno wasn’t listening. not at all. he was just watching from a distance now how julieta helped you unpack the groceries, wondering how lucky he was to have a child like you.

[enhypia]

HS ; couples

couples answers questions with the choice of drinking instead of answering

pairings: lee heeseung x gn!reader

genre: fluff, angst if you squint really hard

words: roughly 1.4k

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~guides and warnings~

italics - reader speaking

bold - heeseung speaking

[enclosed] - interviewer speaking

italicized bold - both reader and heeseung speaking

[enclosed bold or italics] - question (depends on who's speaking)

heavily inspired by: rec.create lie detector games, cut truth or drink

warning: contains and mentions of !!! drinking, swearing

i don't promote underage drinking, save your livers

-ˋˏ✄┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈

hi! i'm (y/n)

hello, my name is heeseung!

and we're together

we're couples!

[you guys were invited here today as couples for a fun little drinking game, you guys were aware of that right?]

yes

we are

[okay, for this game, questions will be asked and if you refuse to answer, you drink, it's that simple. should we start?]

let's go, i can't wait to drink

so you won't be answering the questions?

i mean, it's free alcohol

*hee shakes his head in disbelief

[how long have you been together?]

we actually just had our 3rd anniversary last week

so 3 years now <33

[how did you two meet?]

pffft- *(y/n) laughs

can we just choose pass

shot!

*hee offers the shot glass to (y/n) and both take a shot, laughing after

we're drinking this early on damn

we met through a mutual friend

i was brought as a wingman

i think you can guess how it went

[but how did you guys become a couple?]

we got closer after meeting and i think it was obvious to the both of us that we were interested in each other

yeah but it still took a lot in me to ask you out

he stuttered the first time he asked me on a date

did i?

*(y/n) laughs at the memory

you went "hey, so uh you wa-"

*hee cuts (y/n) off by squishing their cheeks

we don't need a reminder

*(y/n) swats his hand away

but it was cute, don't worry

*(y/n) pats his head making heeseung smile

[okay, how about we officially start the game now?]

*both nod and played rock paper and scissors to determine who gets to ask first, (y/n) wins

*(y/n) reads the card and chuckles

[was it love at first sight?]

it wasn't

like i said, i was supposed to be a wingman so in my head, they were already off limits

i don't believe in love at first sight so *(y/n) shrugs

[do you have/did you have doubts with us being together?]

goddamn *(y/n) drinks

*heeseung is wide-eyed

no honey, not like that, i will answer, it's just that i need the alcohol boost

*the shock goes away

i was about to shed tears not gonna lie

*(y/n) rolls their eyes

when i agreed to becoming heeseung's significant others, i had no doubts, i knew what i felt was true and i knew his was too. the doubts were mainly on myself?? like "what if he just wakes and he doesn't love me anymore" but everyday heeseung proves to me that that will never happen

*(y/n) smiles at heeseung

*heeseung looks away trying to hide the smile and blush appearing on his face and he takes a shot refusing to meet (y/n)'s eyes

*(y/n) picks up a card and laughs

[if i become a zombie and had to eat people to survive, would you stick by side?]

heeseung gets scared easily i don't think he will

but if it's you...

*(y/n) raises an eyebrow

wait let me think about this more clearly

see! *(y/n) laughs

*heeseung continues to think

omg just say no!

but it's you !!!

i know it's me but baby we both know you'll run the other way once i start to eat people

...... you still love me right?

yes heeseung, i still love you

*hee :D

okay! next question!

*he picks up a card and laughs

oh i like this one.

[would you date any of my friends?]

*(y/n)'s mouth drops in shock

*(y/n) ultimately decides to play with heeseung

i mean.. *(y/n) reaches for a shot

*the grin on his face disappears

yah!

*(y/n) bursts into giggles and takes a shot

yah~ !!

[would YOU date any of my friends?]

*hee's eyes narrows and takes a shot for revenge

*both laugh at their antics

the answer is no guys, i love his friends but they're pretty much like annoying siblings

sorry (y/n)'s friends, (y/n) is the only one for me

but i'm pretty sure someone who used to be in my circle would jump at the chance

really ?? who ??

*(y/n) gives the look

AH! -

*scene cuts as he says a name

moving on.

*(y/n) picks up a card and laughs

[do you wish i offered to pay for more dates?]

MAN I WISH I COULD PAY MORE ON DATES

i like paying for our dates, but arguing with them is hard

yeah there was one time we spent 10 minutes bickering about who will pay, so we just made an agreement

we take turns per month, like for this month i'm the one paying for all the dates, then on the next month (y/n) will be paying

but everytime it's his month, he always tries to go out a lot, and when it's my month he opts to stay in

hehe

hEHE ??

*heeseung picks up a card and reads the question intently

*he is in deep thought

what is it?

[will you agree to an open relationship?]

ohhh

open relationship is when it's okay if you see other people right?

yup and i don't think i'd agree to it. you?

me as well

sorry im selfish, heeseung is mine, i do not share ;)

*heeseung laughs

yeah, sorry it's not for me, i don't think i can stomach seeing another one hold (y/n) , find your own

*(y/n) raises glasses to cheers and both take a shot

[it's okay not to drink if you answer]

yeah we know

but it's free alcohol

and drinking makes it more fun

*they hi-five

okay! next question,

[if i had to move away for many years, would you wait for me?]

yes.

wow no hesitations

yes i would wait for you

*(y/n) :O

yes

okay we get it

*they laugh

but i will, you're worth waiting for

your patience says otherwise

are you doubting my ability to wait?

do you hear yourself when you're playing?

that's with games, you're not a game, you're not something i play

*(y/n) blushes making heeseung laugh

shut up okay i get it

i also do not actually trust my patience

SEE ?!

*heeseung bursts out laughing

so instead of waiting i'd probably just go to them and/or visit them a lot

or just move in with me

*(y/n) avoids heeseung's stare

is this still related to the question or the present

huh? *(y/n) acts clueless

WAIT-

*camera cut

*we see both of them sporting a blush with big smiles on their face, and the alcohol evidently lessened

[freestyle! ask any question you want]

wah, i don't know what to ask

*he is thinking, everybody shut up

just keep it simple

no i want it to be hard

i can just actually follow the rules and drink instead of answering

*hee pouts

no you won't

*(y/n) :P

okay!

[did you like ... when we first met?]

oh the 'friend'?

yeah

*(y/n) drinks

*heeseung :O

*(y/n) xD

no heeseung, i did not like them, i really just saw them as a friend

ohh ouch sorry buddy

*they share a laugh

oh it's the last one

[question for both: what does loving each other feel like?]

awww that's a cute one, i'll go first

loving heeseung feels like the comfort your favorite songs bring you. it feels like the excitement you get whenever your favorite show releases a new episode. it's the deep sigh in content you release whenever you smell your favorite scent. it's just, loving him feels like everything your favorites make you feel.

*heeseung is not tearing up, definitely not, that's just sweat, he is also 100% not blushing, it's just hot

*he takes a shot and (y/n) laughs at his antics

now how am i supposed to beat that?!

let me be more romantic gosh

respectfully, no.

*both laugh

okay uhh, loving (y/n) feels like riding a rollercoaster. from all the emotions while waiting in line to exiting the ride. loving them is like the feeling of hitting a high note you previously couldn't. it's winning multiple prizes at the arcade. loving (y/n) is like the softness of a sunrise and the absolute wonder in staring at a night sky.

*(y/n) takes a shot not even bothering to hide their blush

why are we so cheesy and poetic when we're intoxicated damn

*heeseung laughs and agrees

forgive us if we're cringey

not our fault you're single

heeseung! :O

*he stays unapologetic

and that's it!

thank you for having us~

bye~

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bonus: youtube comments

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a/n: sorry this took so long, i caught up with everything i missed in my classes, i'll try to update the series more frequently. i will also be posting timestamps later since it's been days since i last posted. i hope you also like this one!! jay's will be posted next, please look forward to it <33

[saintobio]

Chapter 11 blew my mind, and now I get the "wtf" plot twist you're talking about lol! This is the first time I'm asking you hehe. I can't believe Eula and Naoya hooked up and they have their own personal hidden agendas that would affect the future of the Gojos akskakwjoahwja OMG. Naoya really stayed in his own dirty habits. I wonder what he's plotting again? I'm sorry if I forgot but can I ask why Eula's been plotting Satoru's downfall and she was really REALLY looking forward for Yuuta's inheritance for the title of the company? Is Naoya plotting something for the mc as well? Implying to what Toji said to him, I still don't know what he's plotting in his mind after Toji said that.

I also love how Toji's been concerned for the mc and he's been aware of what's happening to her life.

Also SERA, my god she's so fucking desperate and delusional what happened to her HAHAHAHAHA she needs a freaking therapist. She really went down bad to the point where she wanna babytrap Gojo and how she's saying she'll kill herself because she can't do it alone. However props to you Gojo for having the balls for trying to break up but at what cost? She's so manipulative and desperate people are disturbing asf. Also why did she panick like, whats wrong? She's so goddamns suspicious.

I wonder what she's plotting for the mc lol she said she's gonna pay for everything and for destroying her supposedly "happily-ever-after".

Nevertheless, thank you for the meal Ai! As always! You can now finally sleep i guess jajskaah have sum good schlep gurl..!

Anonymous said

lmaooo naoya, i dont know what you're planning but it better not hurt mc💀

yn, i hope she's okay, maam's having a heart attack on god then we all just suddenly get a scene change ejndnsnsns, it would be real interesting if she gets hospitalized right then and there while gojo's at the hospital, not only could he find out but he'll be in crossroads. if sera's actually pregnant (not to say if the kid would be gojo's) and if he finds out yn has a fatal heart problem, i wonder what he'll do. one thing is for sure. he would HAVE to choose (well ig he already kinda did, seeing he's already breaking up with sera, FINALLY)

now, sera. fckin SIGH. everything is falling out of her grasp (unsurprisingly) and OF COURSE she blames yn, it's getting boring but nonetheless frustrating with how she refuses to see her faults and chooses to blame everything else. (her sheer audacity my god)

and i don't think she's pregnant (like with her cycle and how she's quick to refuse a pregnancy test) and even if she is, she'll find it hard to fake it. gojo is many things, but he isn't dumb and he isn't gullible (he could run a business empire by himself ffs), plus if he has shoko as the one testing sera, i doubt that shoko would lie and deceive him abt sera being pregnant (plus i don't see her getting cahoots with sera), and would sera even have the money to bribe anyone??? i doubt it, with how many times she complained abt being poor. 🙄

can't wait for sera's downfall uwu

and as much as gojo is an asshole here, im worried abt him. feelings aside, he worked hard for that business and seeing it fail and seeing his step-mom plot against him gets me worried....

@mephiis said

oh shit its getting fucked up 👁👁 like eula and naoya and sera is going to team up to bring downfall of gojo. Now yn saw gojo and sera for pregnancy test 😭😭

Gojo i love u stay strong HAHAAHGHAGAYAV I CAN'T-- I CAN'T BE MAD AT HIM ANYMORE AFTER ALL HE WANTS TO END HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH SERA

For naoya : tf you dick down a 43 years old woman? *wheeze* your taste legit worst.

@atsunflower said

Bruh why do I feel like Naoya is plotting something for the 50 anniversary? And I actually like him???? What did u do to me, miss Saint??

Sera keeps shoing her true colors and ugh, I relate a lot to Y/N, Gojo trying to redeem himself is getting on my nerves. Alsoooo, why do I feel like he is gonna find out about Y/N's condition next chapter??? So so so many questions

Anyways, it was another amazing chapter and I already look forward to the next one. Have an amazing week, Saint <3

Anonymous said

THAT TWIST OMG. I never expected Naoya to be the character who took the limelight. This particular part had me curious

“But this, he decided to turn a blind eye on it for personal reasons. Eula was different—that was all that mattered.”

What were his personal reasons and how is she different? She should drop a master class on how to bag rich men. But fr though, isn’t she mad old 💀 like his moms age. Is she actually that attractive?

Also, why did Naoya ask Toji what he would do if Y/N was his wife and why was he pleased by Tojis answer?

Ik Toji also said that if Y/N had waited a little longer she would have had a bunch of men asking for her hand in marriage, would Toji have been one of them if he wanted to remarry?

Anonymous said

NAOYA WITH GOJO’S STEPMOM I GASPED SO HARD I HAD TO PUT MY PHONE DOWN HELP. everything revealed in that part was so crazy, i seriously wonder who will actually expose gojo for all the shit he’s done 👩🏽‍💻 i think naoya is fully capable of doing it, imagine him exposing gojo at that business anniversary 💀

also y/n buying the shoes for toji IN FRONT OF GOJO LMAO. gojo seemed so childish this chapter it’s so funny to me. anyway gojo is actually trying for y/n…the flashback scene was so shocking, i hate sera for trying to keep him by saying she’d k1ll herself 😐 I KNEW SHE WAS PREGNANT TOO i mean it hasn’t been confirmed but the fact that gojo seriously doesn’t believe her and is taking her w ieri…idk 🏃🏽‍♀️ she might be lying considering that her attitude changed when gojo started questioning her but if she actually is pregnant it’s either gojo’s child or maybe someone else’s. HE TRIED BREAKING UP WITH HER TOO OMG IM NOT READY FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER YOURE SO GOOD AT WRITING ty so much for feeding us <3

Anonymous said

Naoya— I had some suspiscions when I looked at the theories about the plot twist. I knew the Naoya X Stepmom idea would really make me say "Wtf!?". Hah I must admit I forgot about Mei's love for money for a bit there hahah

Welp now I can tell why you couldn't express your agreement on my previous ask about Gojo's dad 😅 He does give off that selfish vibe that even if he adores his side pieces he'll only favor those of his own blood, although discreetly/twisted.

I'm honestly nervous that the two (Toji x Y/N) are starting to think about each other, although their thoughts are still on the platonic side, I can't help but feel that Gojo's chances of getting Y/N back is already at the critical level of 10%.

I know he's sincere with everything now but I can't blame Y/N for not believing his actions at all. Heck I would've started not believing every affection he's shown the moment he declared that I will never be in his heart 🤷🏻‍♀️ Hopefully he'll get through the "veil" she has started to build around her to keep him away 👀

Ohohoh it's evident that she isn't pregnant ( I eat lies for breakfast JK 🤣) but in case she is when Ieiri checked it's probably someone else's, maybe Naoya has something to do with it. He did say he wanted to meet her and to leave the dirty work to him. He seems like he's gonna help Toji get Y/N 🤔 Like she's gon be beneficial for their group, too, yk. But oh well, too late, Y/N saw the scenes at the hospital already and has assumed the worst, oh man, and to think he's been annoyingly sweet throughout this chapter 😅

Also, I wanna trust Ieiri honestly but if she ever reveals that misstres is indeed preggo I have a feeling she's threatened by the fact that mistress might potentially harm Y/N knowing her heart condition but again I hope she's a wise and strong as I see her.

I'm honestly glad like 🥲🤧 that he said those things to Sera, that's a HUGE step hun. But now I feel bad because there's a lot of misunderstandings in their relationship then add to the mix that the mistress lied to baby trap Gojo and Y/N seeing all that and running away without confirming anything 😢

unfortunately i cannot answer all of ur asks abt naoya’s intentions. wouldn’t it be better to let the story unfold itself? :) everything will make sense soon. i do agree with the reactions abt naoya x eula tho sjndjs remember when i told u guys i have a plot twist 😭 only one person managed to guess but it was a great guess!!

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"Seonghwa I was kidnapped."

"What the fuck."

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There was more silence in the line. Seonghwa didn't know what to say, and the half bottle of wine he had just had was starting to kick in.

"Are you serious!? Y/N are you okay!?"

"Y-yes yes I think so, I'm not harmed. I know it's a bit much to ask but, can you come get me?"

"Yes, of course, share your location and I'll be there in a minute. Are you in danger!? How many people should I bring!? Do we need guns?"

"Just you should be fine, it's just one asshole and his friend..."

"What?"

Seonghwa was visibly confused, and rightfully so.

"I'll explain everything once you're here... I'm sorry."

"No, no don't be, I'm in my garage already, I'll be there in a second."

Once you hung up you felt a little unsafe, so you walked a little further to get away from the house, and, in a blink of an eye, Seonghwa's red SUV pulled up right beside you.

He came out of the car and held your shoulders, examining your body for any bruises, scratches, or blood. Fortunately, you had nothing but a couple bruises on your knees and hips, that he couldn't see.

"Are you okay?" He asked, looking into your eyes.

"I'm okay now."

You gave him a small smile, which he returned. He put his arm around your waist and helped you seat on the passenger seat of his car.

"So," he said, as he started the car once more "what the fuck happened?"

You sighed, there was a lot to unpack.

"I've kept some really close friends from high school, San, whom I'm sure you've heard of, Jongho, Mingi, and Yunho. We were always very close, and I was particularly close to Yunho. We grew a little apart after we graduated 'cause professionally we were looking for different things, but Yunho and I realized we couldn't be apart, so we started dating. Everything was going well but towards the end, we started having more fights, more arguments,... So I decided it would be better to break up while we could still be friends before it became more toxic and our group of friends would fall apart. But he started having some really shitty behavior... He would scare and push away anyone who tried to date me or to flirt with me, but I never mentioned anything and never made much of a fuss because I really cared about him still, after all, we had been such close friends for a long time, it was hard to let go. Once I applied to your company and learned about you I was a little... starstruck and amazed, by you."

You could see him blush slightly and smile (a smile he tried to hide) from the corner of your eye. But he kept quiet and listened.

"I talked about you to my friends, and Yunho hated it. But there was nothing he could do because unlike everybody else he didn't have direct contact with you, to try and scare you off. And once I announced I was hired, he hated it cause it meant I'd be closer to you. He straight-up called me a whore. A couple days after that he apologized in a very weird way, it was creepy, so San told me he'd pick me up after work 'cause it was dark and not very safe anyway, but today- yesterday" You reiterated, after noticing it was well past midnight "I told him not to pick me up because I'd be meeting you after work, so I'd just be riding an uber anyway. I don't know if Yunho found out about me going to your house, or if he just waited every day until San didn't pick me up, but a black van pulled up in front of me and someone pulled me inside. I had no idea what was going on, I passed out and when I woke up I was in a dark room alone. Yunho barged in some time after and came with the 'see, I'm here and Seonghwa isn't' type of conversation, and that's when I found out he had orchestrated the whole thing for me to notice how much better he supposedly is..."

Seonghwa sighed and rested his head on the car's seat.

"Shit... That's a lot to unpack."

You hummed in agreement.

"I'm sorry I know it's a lot to deal with, you can just... drop me off at home."

"No, no absolutely not. He knows where you live, doesn't he? If he's insane enough to fake kidnap you, he's crazy enough to pull up to your house and do God knows what. I'm taking you back to my house, you can take a shower and I'll lend you some clothes, I'm sure something of mine fits you."

You smiled at his kindness. You really didn't expect Seonghwa to be like that. Deep down you thought he would be the classic 'work above anything' type of CEO, one that really didn't care about others, but you were surprised.

"Seonghwa, I don't know what to say... We have known each other for no longer than a week."

"Well that's true but... How do I say this without seeming too forward, we seem like a nice match. Texting you is the most fun part of most of my days and I like the way you're able to separate personal life from professional life. I'm not going to lie after we exchanged some... texts, I was afraid you'd start sprawling on my desk naked and I really didn't want to have an awkward conversation with you about limits and boundaries."

It was hard to contain your laughter. Although he was a confident man, you could tell he was a little awkward when talking about certain issues just like that. You smiled and brushed his hair away from his eyes.

You got to his house quickly, but the engine going quiet didn't stop your conversation. He gently took a hold of your hand and guided you inside.

"I'm glad you think like that, after Yunho talked to me I was afraid you'd be using me just for sex."

Seonghwa chuckled.

"I guess that's the general idea..." He sighed before continuing his sentence "Maybe I shouldn't be telling you this, I have never told anyone, not even Wooyoung 'cause he would yell at me, but it's actually the other way around. Women come to me and I happily have sex with them, not gonna lie, and then they end up ghosting me or telling me to fuck off after I try to become closer to them. I guess it's my fault, I'm a little dense when it comes to understanding what women want."

You could tell he was a little embarrassed for admitting that. He was looking away as if the wall was the most interesting thing in the world, and his cheeks had a little pink tint to them. You grabbed his hands and looked into his eyes.

"It's okay, I'll make sure to send understandable messages."

You both smiled widely at the joke, but then everything was serious. You were staring deeply into each other's eyes and you were suddenly aware of the closeness of your bodies. You could tell Seonghwa was hesitant, and you wanted to follow through with your promise.

You got on your tiptoes and kissed the corner of his lips, signaling that you wanted the same he did.

He cupped your cheek, gently yet firmly, and brought your face closer to his. Seonghwa teased you for a second, not quite closing the gap between your lips. You groaned quietly, revealing your restlessness for him, and he finally connected your lips, in a soft, innocent, yet long kiss. It soon turned into something else, something rougher and full of meaning, His hands were stiff on your waist, gripping you tightly as if preventing themselves from roaming somewhere else.

"You know, you don't need to hold back, Sir..." You said when you broke apart.

He groaned at the little pet name you knew he loved.

"I know doll, but I promised no funny business, you need to rest, it's been a long day."

Seonghwa kissed your lips gently and rubbed his thumb on your waist. He then kissed your neck and approached his lips to your ear.

"Plus, I have plenty of time to test you out, don't I?"

[anonil88]

Malcolm and Marie live blog

I don't usually do liveblogs for movies but yea.

Spoilers ahead!!

I love that its modern timed but very 70s stylized.

A tune indeed.

When you are high and drunk on success and

How the white critic reacts is why I feel like gatekeeping my scripts. At the same time some things I do make are about race or involve.

Marie sitting on the patio smoking is a mood whenever men are talking.

So he's pretentious and unaware.

Whoever chose the music for this, I feel like we would be Spotify mutuals.

Can this nigga stop pacing.

Also can he stop talking;

Marie is so tired and unimpressed.

Also little booties matter and are to be bitten.

Oooo the tension and the jazz.

Title Card over mac and cheese.

Shitty boxes mac and cheese but still mac and cheese.

Tbh i always wonder if spouses/significant others get upset when their spouses don't acknowledge them during speeches.

John sounds so much like his dad but I really hope his acting style differs from his dad a lot.

Guilty confession?

He did not profit off of his partners backstory and then not even acknowledge her.....I.....

If that ever happened to me catch me cussing my partner out during the beginning credits, the end credits, in the car, and at home.

GASLIGHTER!

The way I'm excited for Zendaya to give me some, oooo can she work with Regina King. Please on my knees I pray.

Um no that's not your job to coddle your lead.

He's a dick and the type of dick who makes himself look like a good person around other people.

If Sam Levinson is trying to make his viewers more of misandrist, it's working.

I feel like Marie has her flaws probably a lot of them and we will surely see as this continues, but Malcolm needs to learn how to apologize sincerely.

70s vibes! 70s vibes!

Them kissing and talking about criticism and dreams makes me miss a partner. A partner that I've had and haven't had.

Women really are behind every great man.

Yea sir you fucked a happy moment.

Oh visual allegories for looking in from the outside and cat and mouse chasing and looking from the outside in.

She's saying she doesn't feel noticed by you.

Gas lighter :0 he called her an emotional support dog, bruh.

I would LOVE to co-write or take a writing class held by Sam Levinson. The fights i write are very much in this same realm of reflection and anger and monologue.

Sam.....sam.....are all the sides inside of you doing okay sir?

The ugly side of dating and being in a relationship with someone who struggles with their own demons.

Honestly I could close my eyes and listen to this script being read without seeing these characters visually. Just close my eyes and get a sense of these characters like it was a radio story.

Oh. Oh this is a new wheelhouse of Zendaya acting; a different voice is like breaking through here and her expressions aren't the same we are used to. You can literally hear another character in there....hmm.

Mans is outside really fighting with his invisible demons lmfao.

Selfish ass, how after everything she said you came out of it thinking about your own craft and self instead of how you hurt her.

So she's conditional.

Me: did sam (a white man) say nigga this many times in his script or are the actors adding their own inflections. Not just the lingo used but the topic of race and directing etc. being written by a white writer about black characters is always gonna be a critique when you're writer is a white person.

Alexa play Broken Girls by Saba

He is so hurtful.

A clown nigga a clown look in the fucking mirror you bozo head ass looking like you need some Mehron clown white and a size 16 in clown shoes.

John is doing a really swell performance and reading of these lines.

He is reading her for her insecurities by bringing up his experiences with other women and that.....is yikes.

Arguments can get messy like this in real life but it takes a lot of maturity and control to either not let it get to this point or have a healthy conversation afterwards.

This film is really shot on some very crisp lenses.

They sitting there like 🚬🧍‍♀️🧍‍♂️.

Leftover Mac and Cheese and unfinished cigarettes.

The nyt etc. pay walls are so annoying, but there is a work around look at the articles on incognito or add a period at the end of the url.

He sounds like his daddy so much here, weird, this is the only part I'm eh on the dialogue it feels real but a bit out of pace in how they are bouncing off one another.

Nail scissors? So the end is not the only part he based off of Marie. 🙄

ITS A GOOD REVIEW YOU DINGUS but also its a full review they are going to critique things. She isn't wrong though he did profit off of a woman's story that was not his own to profit from.

Yes Malcolm because unfortunately all marginalized people look through a lens of life that is inherently political because of the world they live in.

He is so mad and upset and had a lot on his chest. But I think he Malcolm and Sam are talking about something thats an issue and a non issue. Being critiqued for you art is hard but also Malcolm is not super self aware. He's like a stand in figure of for example rich depop sellers who wanna be oppressed so badly they yell at others instead of examining their own personal behaviors and ethics.

Oh Marie, when you know the spark is gone and you pick fights because.

He ain't even ask her to read?

One critic I have for most of hollywood actors is they learn their cry and that is it. A change from this is Margot Robbie, I adore her fluctuations of crying being similar but the crying is carried differently for each character. If I had to say any actor that does a cry scene amazing its this woman right here (Amy Adams)

You stole her story from her and gave it away, she has a right to be upset and angry and a rubber band ball of emotions.

Citizen Kane, not the cinematography, but the story is it even that good? (Unpopular opinion but meh, maybe in my rewatch it will be better.)

But that is what people want authenticity and whatever authenticity means to them. What is real for one is false for another.

To be honest look at the criticism of Euphoria, well earned, but a lot of people were like this isn't real even though he literally wrote about his own life. People said it was inauthentic like....wtf.

Ahh the smoking is just a habit, he quit and she didn't.

CAST ZENDAYA IN A HORROR MOVIE PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING. Get Lupita and Zendaya and some more black actors preferably less known ones in a horror movie. One with a interesting script and story, directed by Regina King. Please and thankyou.

I love Marie yep that was amazing.

Behind every great man is a greater woman, one that deserves her credit for how she has stood behind. I wonder the stories of those women, what they have sacrificed or not sacrificed. Their thoughts and feelings when the world is surrounding their partner and views them as a plus one. (I'd write a short script about this but I think do I have the time, can I, or am I equipped ?)

He is a shitty person for bringing up his exes, like she even said I don't wanna know any of that.

Imagine being on anti depressents and rarely having a sex drive and then when you do your partner starts talking about their exes and tearing you apart for all your faults.

I love when you see peaks of Zendaya's cadence in roles.

Tension, what if's and he didn't even bring her up in his speech.

Marie to herself and the audience:

He is not afraid that he will loose her but as my character says in my unreleased story, "i can't wait til you give me a fucking reason to leave your ass." Malcolm expects everything in order for not even doing the bare minimum and she is only asking him for something as simple as consideration. She just wants him to be considerate. He wants to get married and considers their relationship like rolling down a hill at full speed and he cannot apologize, he cannot be considerate, and he cannot admit his wrongs. He can only offer her I love yous that he probably does mean but he does not back up outside of what he's done for her in the past. The past which was more of her experience than his and he sees his part in it as a burden. He doesn't use his own vantage point of the past to further his career he uses her. He does all of these things without a real apology or thankyou because he is not afraid to loose her.

The restrictions of quarantine and the panorama have made Sam's writing very no frills. I wonder how other films from other directors and writers that are filmed in small contained crews like this will be structured. But this was a very good movie gonna add to my letter box 3.3-3.5

Oh shit this is my song,

Ratings/overall thoughts:

Script is like a C+, B- : I could go into my heavier big brain thoughts on the script but I don't feel like it. You catch hints of it above it centers conversation on race and privilege, mainly the writers and questions i have that won't be answered but Sam did make me grow disdain for Malcolm over a short time. Which is sometimes hard to do because im one sympathetic person but the sympathy i have for Malcolm is at 0. Maybe a 2 at some scenes but then it quickly goes back to 0. Some parts of the dialogue miss the mark or hit the are off balanced. While some of it like Malcolm's bathroom speech albeit mean is really strong or their conversation when he comes back from peeing really shines for me.

Performances: B+ to A- because they carried the script further than it could of gone with less talented actors. The monologues do well to showcase their current skill levels which are already high af and leave room for anticipation in where these actors go next.

Zendaya holding a knife: A+ with a gold star. That switch on and off and on is delectable.

John being a shitty boyfriend but following Marie like a lost puppy: B+ with a good job written at the bottom of the paper, Malcolm being nervous a frantic dialed up with more realistic nervousness would have sold me completely on Malcolm's anxious waiting.

Cinematography: A and a participation award.

The mac and cheese: A+ for the easy mac. Wish it was like Annie's or Velveeta.

Cigarettes: Participation award and their picture hung up for student of the month. Why the grill lighter? Everytime Malcolm opened up his mouth Marie was like sparks fly.

The music: A++ with a prize. Whoever picked the music probably makes good Spotify playlists.