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fizzbot · 3 days

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APOLOGY TOUR SPOILERS / HELLUVA BOSS CRITICAL POST

(please just dont read if youre a fan/are gonna be annoying in my tags/replies)

i LOVE verosika. i was super excited to see an episode all about her. she has EVERY right to be mad at blitz, and i do enjoy seeing things from the perspective of his victims. BUT.....i was really disappointed in her portrayal in apology tour. MOSTLY just because i was dissapointed in stolas portrayal in apology tour, and think this ep wouldve been better if it was more about BLITZ instead. rant under the cut

im not gonna give the whole rant about how annoying it is that stolas is constantly woobified, because 100 critical blogs have done it much more gracefully than i ever could. but it is just SO dissapointing to watch a man that couldve been SUCH a compelling villain be the ONLY one who is EVER sympathized with in the show. we are supposed to feel bad for him and believe that both sides are wrong in the stolitz situation, when stolas' crimes are SO MUCH WORSE than all of blitzs bad deeds combined. he co-erced blitz into a sex contract as the only means of doing his job, and then made HIM feel guilty for not falling n love with him during it. the 'both sides are in the wrong' comment gets particularly frustrating when the show has, tme and time again, only let stolas be the one with support. blitz is made to look unreasonable, no matter how right he is. and, in this instance, stolas is the one getting invited to this party to celebrate being ""wronged"" by blitz.

back to verosika. especially now that the episode is out, i am even more firmly on her side. the fact that blitz broke up with HER because things were getting too serious is interesting (albiet not as interesting as i think it couldve been but thats a rant for another post). im not saying she should forgive blitz, but i do struggle to fully agree with her because of how she treated stolas in the episode. she is the first to comfort him, the first to try and encourage him to shit-talk blitz, etc etc and i just dont understand.....why?

ive already had problems with her character since the sexual assault ""joke"" from spring broken, but this also really left a bad taste in my mouth. i totally understand her desire to party and sympathize with other people who were harmed by blitz, but its frustrating that stolas was invited to be among them. stolas, the man who is very much NOT THE VICTIM in his relationship with blitz. this is more the fault of the writers than verosika herself, but it is SO FRUSTRATING that she gave him the spotlight and is trying to help him heal from a situation that is ENTIRELY HIS FAULT. stolas didnt just hurt blitzs feelings, he sexually coerced and abused him. of all people, shouldnt verosika understand how terrible that can be? the kind of hurt that can do to a person? im not saying that this terrible relationship FORGIVES blitz's wrongdoings, but you shouldnt be giving his fucking abuser a stage and a microphone to talk shit about his victim. this becomes so much more insidious to me with the conversation she has with blitz on the balcony, later. this was actually a pretty good scene imo but it could certainly be better.

this is much more opinionated and i wouldnt be surprised if even the critical community isnt with me on this one, but i long for an alternate verson of this episode thats focused on verosika being on blitz's side, instead. its been over 5 years since they dated, and even though she is still allowed to be mad, it would be nice to see that shes moved on. maybe give her a new partner like barbie wire and let her throw these parties just so she can look back and laugh and help blitz's other victims heal in the same way that she has. not to bring up an also not-great show, but in rick and morty, we see a relationship between rick and one of his ex-partners named unity. they were really terrible for each other, enabling bad/unhealthy behaviors, generally being awful. their break-up was messy, but in recent seasons, we see unity coming back, upon hearing that rick was doing something self-destructive. they worried about him, because a part of them still cared, as much as they were hurt by his actions. i would have LOVED to see a similar thing with blitz and verosika, where verosika finds out about the relationship blitz is trapped in/just got out of. i think it would be SO MUCH MORE naratively interesting, for her to be supportive of his little apology tour, and maybe even inviting HIM to the "blitzo sucks" party. not everyone (or anyone) needs to forgive him; in fact, i think coming to this party would give him perspective. his relationship with stolas has hurt him so badly, he can finally step back and understand the harm that he did to all these people. the apologies that he gave, as he admits in the episode, were shallow. but i think framing stolas as the toxic one would be better in helping him realize that he has done wrong more than what the show is currently doing. and maybe some people at the party WILL forgive him. maybe he can apologize on the stage, and some people will empathize with his situation and believe that the apology is genuine, because hes finally had to be on the other end of his own hurt. and maybe THAT would be the first step in helping blitz realize that maybe he isnt completely unlovable, because there are people who cared about him enough to be THIS DEVASTATED upon getting their heart broken by him. a conversation with verosika about what he did to her would hit so much harder after this, imo

anyway. im sorry if this is completely incoherent/a bad point. i was just thinking about it and i am so sick of everyone being a stolas apologist </3

#helluva boss critical #helluva boss critique #helluva boss criticism #vivziepop critical #anti-vivziepop #anti-helluva boss #hb #critical #hellaverse critical #anti-stolitz #anti-stolas #stolas critical #stolitz critical #anyway. i have more problems with this episode but i didnt outright hate it in the way i did full moon #it was actually kinda fun to watch!!! i hated the MESSAGE of st*las' song but it was pretty and catchy i suppose #ver*sika was absolutely gorgeous as per usual #ALSO STRIKER MENTION RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#id love to hear the critical communities thoughts on this but if youre a fan and are just gonna argue i dont wanna hear it. lol #i will simply block you and delete it

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glitzybunny · 1 year

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Me trying to catch up on 3d modelling at Uni: Omg guys the Bratz movies were on crack wtf are these *watches Bratz Super Babyz movie on youtube WHERE THE INTRO IS EDITED AS HAS THE ALIENS MOVIE INTRO LIKE WHAT LMAO*

#im awful at doing the thing im supposed to be doing #went on about the burger king menu again #BFSJDJIDJFSBdjdjdj #and the eshays and bogans #💀#terrible #ill get it done somehow tho its okay #I usually somehow always manage #DNSKXJAKDJFKJG #my powers are cray cray

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basketobread · 7 months

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is lotus a durge? i think they are so fucking hot

thanks! but no, they're just like that 👍

#i think the funniest part about this is that...#i made lotus waaay before i was aware of what the whole durge thing was #i just wanted to play a super chaotic and evil character #in fact i actually sided with the goblins during my first playthrough #now im actually experiencing the game like i was supposed to but with lunara DFSIHUSFDIU #i DO really want to play lotus as a durge tho but resist the urge so its like their redemption arc HAHA #also again im sooo in awe that people are taking an interest in my tavs #thank u guys so fuckin much i am so happy #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 oc #baldur's gate oc #lotus posting #bob the artist #ask bob

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monochromatiica · 2 years

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#my art #ensemble stars #enstars fanart #enstars #mika kagehira #minor chromatic aberration #digital art #procreate #drawing a character is supposed to give gacha luck right. right #i need this card so so bad #almost downloaded cnstars for it when it was first announced #very scared for tonight #anyways im never drawing holo again that was awful #do you see the things i go thru for you mika. come home

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shepards-folly · 11 months

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Like an angel crushed underneath god’s boot [+ wip images under the cut]

#shep arts #content smp #csmp #arathain #mason arathain #tw eyestrain #cw gore #<- its very mild I’d say. i kinda just fucked up one of their arms... in my defense it was annoying to draw so I just didnt draw part of it #the eyestrain isnt too bad either in my opinion i just wanted to tag it just in case #honestly just tell me if this needs more tws I'm awful at knowing what I need to trigger warning and what I dont #okay uh art rambling time so i made him a bug for this one honestly just cause i thought it looked neat #this was a really fun for a drawing that took like an hour to sketch and a million years to finish #it's just an experiment in coloring a lil different and using layer styles other than multiply and add...#there are add and multiply layers in there if i remember correctly but its mainly color/linear burns and hard/soft light i think #fun fact there was supposed to be more paint but uhm I got lazy and it was already a pain trying to balance the values on this one #so yeah its just the pink splatter behind his head there. imagine that there's more pink paint there for me pretty please #I have a dozen versions of this with various overlay layers will probably end up adding those to this post in a rb or something #this post was supposed to go up earlier but yeah I was comparing overlays for like two hours...#honestly im surprised my procreate didnt crash in the middle of this since it crashes everytime I do anything with a lot of overlays #it did die immediately after I finished it though so then I had to wait several hours to just sign the damn thing :/

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lucyvaleheart · 3 months

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#supposed to log good things #most of day was negative feelings and sadness #then. i remember feeling good #and then. tthe good went away #rreplaxed with the usual self doubt and loathing #the feelings of undesirability #the wish that i was. attractive in any way to anyone close to me that anyone wanted to. touch me #that i wasn't horrifically gross and disgusting #do the people who hold me do it out of pity? am i really so awful #pictures get a lot of praise #sometimes #less so lately #maybe the novelty of my personality has worn off #maybe seeing how broken i am #such a shambling wailing mess of a girl #....has made people realize how ugly i am #i don't know. its hard to care most nights #I'm supposed to feel better in the mornings #i don't usually #I used to #now i just feel..... dead inside #like a walking corpse #some part of me wants to make that reality #sigh.#anyway.#im sorry you had to read this whoever you are that's made it this far #it's a cry for help but my discord status says don't message me so it's. probably not gonna get much lol #.....i guess uh. if you've read this far and do want to say something you can take this tag in particular as a one time pass to do so #....i make no guarentees I'll respond but i will guarentee that i won't kill myself. at least not tonight or even any time this week

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bunnihearted · 3 months

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#sorry gnna sound like a shit person now but im not feeling well i just need to rant #nothing good ever happens to me. every aspect of my life is a mess. im constantly miserable w nothing to pull me out of it #it's been getting worse nd worse for years nd if it keeps getting worse im not gnna be able to take it much longer #ofc there are sooo many others who have it way way way worse than i do. so i feel weak nd pathetic for being so affected by it when i know #it could be literally sm worse than it is now. like i get that. i know im not nearly as bad off as many ppl are #but idk still it's rlly tough to have *nothing* that makes me keep going. the literal only thing is that i dont kms bc i dont wanna hurt mom #bc im poor so i cant do ANYTHING. i cant go anywhere. not the cinema not concerts not to the mall not to the bookstore not an amusent park #i cant even go to cafées bc i dont have any money at all to spend on that #i have no friends to hang out w. even if i couldnt afford going anywhere i cant even just take a walk or sit nd talk to them bc there r none #my sisters havent talked for me in over a year #and like yada yada i dont have anything to pull me out of my misery bubble. no friends to comfort me no family to hang out w #nothing to do or nowhere to go. hell i havent even been able to eat for 8 months so i cant even like eat smth yummy nd watch a movie lmao #i cant even read bc of the constant noise! i cant go out into the forest bc there r always subway construction work or choppers or gun shots #i know im 'focusing on the negative' but what am i supposed to do when theres nothing positive to focus on lol?????#im always physically uncomfortable bc of pain nd health issues nd im always anxious nd stressed too so like... yay #and. this is where i sound mean but like after years nd years of nothing good happening to me... idc for others anymore like #when they talk abt their loving relationships and their kind friends nd them going to concerts im like.. wow !! u get to be happy!! i dont!!#im just envious nd jealous nd bitter bc why cant i have ANYTHING good???? not just ONE fkn thing?#other ppl get to have multiple things but i get nothing?????#and its not exactly like i hate them or wish illwill on them im just like wow kinda dont feel sympathy for u bc u have sm things #i've never had :))) nd u can never understand how awful it feels to be deprived of it so idc :))))

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charmixpower · 2 years

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#winx club #rus chatters #winx season 5 #the posters....of all of them....in their most recent outfits in their rooms....#implying that they made them when they first got back to aflea for some god forsaken reason #the fucking Bloom shelf #the dance table #aren't these supposed to be dorm rooms??? how are they doing that with their beds and shelfs??? you cant install things in a dorm????#Bloom's room is actually a nightmare. but the reference to her love of drawing is cute #Stella's room is probably my favorite because shes the only one who would #they visably gave up with Flora's room...like I'm pretty sure this begun and ended with plant lady #I can at least appreciate the aesthetic of Tecna's room. it looks like a home office and bedroom and i kinda love the vibe #the same person who designed Flora's room designed Musa's room #i can at least appreciate the mix of femme stuff and sporty stuff in Aisha's room. her bed is gorgeous #this would be so much more tolorable if these were theyre own room in their own house but!!!!#OH MY GOD I JUST SAW THE REFRENCES TO THE BAND SUBPLOT. I WILL BREAK THAT KEYTUAR OVER SOMEONE'S FUCKING HEAD #omggg s5 designers. i forgot what everyone's gimmick was. wanna beat me over the head with it in the background design??? thanks!#i am still not. and will never be. over those awful awful posters. i can tell im feeling angry or another negative emotion but by god #Rus liveblogs

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youngpettyqueen · 1 day

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booking a doctor's appointment for next week so that I have a week to come to terms with and accept the fact that im going to be asking about getting a cane