#im nonbinary but im a boy. im not a guy though im not a trans guy

[bugsoda]

i am not a female or a male, but a secret third thing: a boy

[lovebloods]

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[isuggestforcemasc]

I feel like I'm a boy. I wish I were a boy. I've been in a lesbian relationship for almost a year now and the whole time I've been worrying that I might be a boy, and even before that I wished I was a boy. My girlfriend is bi and transfem and I told her and she's accepting and she wouldn't end the relationship in a million years, so there's at least one person who'd support me but it's just so scary. I used to be in online circles where people were told they can't be a boy just because they like reading mlm fiction because they just "absorb the boy" even though they're just girls so I guess I internalised that... I've used they/them for years and I'm probably nonbinary too but sometimes they/them just doesn't feel quite right anymore. Being a boy is just so much scarier than being nonbinary. And nobody other than my girlfriend would ever see me as a boy anyway even if I tried to pass so what's the point. I do like pink and skirts and occasionally makeup so I don't exactly wanna not do those things for the sake of passing, which is unattainable. I do like the idea of being a drag queen or something though, so I can still dress the way I do but be a boy. But then nobody would even see me as a boy. I wanna be a boy but I'm scared and if I'm a boy nobody will ever acknowledge it so I can't even really be a boy... I'm already nonbinary so what's the point... I'm just scared... sorry...

Imma give myself a random anon name

- Florian anon

Ok Florian anon, I am going to be real with you.

From what you’ve told me, you do sound like a boy. Being a boy, finding out or simply going by different pronouns can be a hard thing and regardless of the theme of my blog, this I serious and you don’t need to give away the things you like or love in favour of being ‘believeable’. While I understand passing can be a security risk, even if you don’t care about that, passing doesn’t define wether or not you deserve your identity and it’s not about wether there is a ‘point’ or not. Hell I don’t pass I haven’t even gotten my hands on testosterone. I am likely never going to pass, but do you believe that just because it would be “easier” for me to identify as something else, does that mean I don’t get to live how I truly want to? That a caterpillar should stay as such because being a moth is scarier?

And on top of that, I see a lot of self doubt so let me tell you: even if it is “JuSt A pHaSe”, everyone is allowed to experiment with their gender and sexuality free of discrimination and if you do happen to not wanting being a boy any longer or found another, more fitting label, that doesn’t make you any less trans or any less of a person. You are worthy of happiness and to be comfortable in your own skin.

Right now, the future might seem hopeless. Nearly nobody acknowledges im a guy outside of the internet as well, but you can’t let that stop you. You will be alright and one day you will look back and think that you’re much better now, if that serves as consolation. You can be a happy boy. Believe me.

[velvetvexations]

This is a protective ask. It encourages you to check whether you really want to answer the asks beneath yet. Be good to yourself, you do good work for all of us <3

Thank you, anon. <3

sick of feeling like queer spaces seem to expect masculine people to be protectors and supporters without ever expecting to have to give us protection and support too. it's always how trans mascs can be allies to trans femmes and never the other way around. it's what about the scary trans man in the women's bathroom and little discussion of the threat we are under in these scenarios. it's always use your masculinity to protect me, but nobody can give without receiving. support and protection are features of community and community needs to be at least somewhat mutual. I refuse to constantly put myself in danger to protect someone who sees my suffering simply as an inherent duty of my presentation. let me be butch and slow and gentle for a change. let me be scared and held please.

I'll hold you. It's okay. You don't have to put yourself in danger to be a man, I promise.

people love love love to be blatantly misogynistic towards trans men/mascs and be like "well actually its subversive because he's a man! teehee!" was it subversive when i got told to shut up because i was the only women present (post coming-out) was it subversive when i got told i had to wear a dress to show off my feminine figure (post coming-out) was it subversive when i got called shrill mid-argument (post-coming out) was it subversive when nobody except me would clean the communal areas in the flat because i "did it so well" (post coming-out) was it subversive when i had my music taste made fun of when i was a 13 year old girl? is it subversive now that im a 20 year old trans guy? am i not the same person? is it subversive when people talk about trans men the same way people talk about teenage girls. is talking about teenage girls like that subversive if they come out as trans men later. or is it maybe a little different?

I'm sorry anon, you deserve so much better.

This discourse is always so fucking bizarre because IRL I'll be hanging out with trans women, getting fun updates from my friend on how her E dosage is going and her first foray into wired bras, spending time with the only other transmasc I know IRL at a 'women + nonbinary people' event because that's literally the only queer space near us intended for transmascs, and it's just incredibly obvious people perpetuating this discourse don't go outside

touching grass is vital

The shortest line joke reminds me of the fact that when I was more femme presenting & the women's toilets were blocked off, I went into the men's bathroom and a man went 'Ah! You scared me' and I was like at last, I am the threat <3 I haven't tested to see what will happen if I go to the men's bathroom now that I've started getting weird looks from women from being in theirs. Probably more of the same. It's hard out here being a bathroom liberation free the nipple communist

so true

i spent an hour arguing with a TRF and i'm exhausted. there's a reason i have a boundary with myself about getting into discourse. i don't know how you do it, but thank you for doing it from those that can't <3

I do what I must because I can <3

oh and then the same person said she think its funny to call trans men ‘birthday boys’… i neeeeed to mock and infantilise all trans men because a couple of them disagreed with me!

context

if someone treats you that way call them a slur back until they stop

(do not do that)

Yo it hit me over the head just now- i think there's a large portion of transfems who never did any gender work beyond their own. Like the running joke of 'of course every guy secretly wants to be a girl'; I'm not sure they can conceptualize us wanting to be masculine for any reason so there has to be some sort of 'ulterior motive'

Correct, though stupid selfish assholes with the same lack of comprehension or desire to comprehend the experiences of others come in all kinds.

[pussyspanks]

gender rambleeeeee

i know i know i know people can be wrong or change their gender after coming out. recoming out. thats for other people though not me!!!

sometimes i feel like i came out as ftm too fast and idk. when i was a teen and figured that out i did feel strongly as male and wanted to get away from being a girl as hard as i could. maybe it was the time or the people i knew. i wasnt like the nonbinary/genderfluid/etc people i knew or saw online. i didnt want that and still sort of dont. i dont relate to them. nothing wrong with what they have but its not me. i still relate to trans guys and overall am one but its like. idk. i dont care as much as some of them. i'm happy where i am but wish i could explore femininity more but im scared.

i think about how i could be perceived/refered to in various situations with this. i could not go as fem as i would want without getting seen as girl in real life. which is. like something i would only want to be refered to by specific people. other queer people. transitioned and went an extra step to being girl but also being a boy at the same time. in a transgender way.

i think about names and pronouns. my chosen name is so far masculine and its just eh to me. its fine i can live with it. but would i choose it again? no. and pronouns. i would take a step to using he/she with some people but again. in a trans way. and i worry about taking the first step and the posibility of going backwards if i dont like it. not that any of my friends would be mean about it but its scary. its like i need to put myself into a new group of people i dont know and experiment. and just disappear if things dont work out.

i think thats a way this account has helped me out. i dont know anyone here. no one knows me. i can try out things and explore my gender in regards to sexuality and switch it up if i dont like it. no problem. but it is lonely to not be able to see how i am perceived by others.

but! instead of telling anyone i know these things i will just keep looping i/me/myself my will wood and posting porn 👍👍👍👍👍

[wasyago]

some rambles about gillion trans headcanons and other stuff

im realizing that i write these posts because i have no one to talk about riptide with, so this is like a monolog that is meant to be a dialog? sort of? the point is, the thought process is unpredictable and this is just everything that goes through my head and not like a structural point or anything and some things are random and not uhhh pretty(?). i dont even know why im writing these disclaimers, no one cares probably?

anyway. so, if gillion was a trans man, how would that work?

did he know from the young age, before the elders even, that he was a boy? was it just an obvious thing for him and his family? was he loved and accepted? and when the elders took him away, did they accept him as well? did they even see him for a kid/a person he was, or did they only think about the prophecy and didn't care what gender The One was? when gillion got older, did he get his top surgery inside the walls of the palace without anyone questioning him or looking down upon? or did he have to sneak out? probably definitely not sneak out, im not sure gillion ever left the palace or seen the world outside much. did he even get top surgery?

that's an interesting question to me actually, because if tritons (in this campaign at least) hatch from eggs, do females even have bigger boobs? technically no, right? do they even have boobs? i mean, they do have chest muscles and stuff, but do they have nipples? the one time i drew gill without a shirt i didn't draw him any, so im gonna say "no" for now. sorry im huge bore when it comes to these types of questions, i don't even know why actually... is it weird?

uhh what was i talking about... so i guess yeah, if female and male tritons don't have that different of a body structure, gillion probably didn't even need a top surgery to begin with. and maybe he didn't experience much in terms of dysphoria, which honestly? good for him, he had enough going on already...

but if gillion wasn't trans before the elders? if he was fine with his gender, he was only five after all, he had better fiveyearold things to worry about. what happened after he was taken away? was it his own realization, just at an older age?

or was it forced on him by the elders? (its definitely a darker concept and would be out of character for the elders, but as an alternative universe I think its interesting as well). because "the chosen one", the hero of the prophecy, the one who will decide the fate of the world and who will protect the undersea, in the eyes of the elders could've only be a man (if they were misogynistic). and when they come to this family and they see a 5 y.o. girl, what can they feel except disappointment? they will try anyway though, because what are they supposed to do? and if they need a man for a prophecy they will get him one way or another...

again, a darker concept, and i think i like it like an au better than a headcanon for the main campaign. because it's ooc and brings up slightly different topics from the original.

at the end i think i wont headcanon gill as trans? (although who knows, maybe I'll come around eventually, we'll see) maybe as nonbinary or a secret third thing though. gillion to me doesn't feel like a "man" man, his gender is "a guy" i don't know how to explain it hdgsbbs (maybe im just projecting idk o_o)

I love it when people hc him as trans tho, its very sweet!!!!!!! and i believe he does have the top surgery scars in the official art? so like, pop off king lets go???? (actually i just checked and no he doesn't, but im gonna think he does anyway)

im a little scared to re read this post and i think i'll delete it later probably, but uhhh yeah... again, just rambling and thinking out loud (not out loud but you get what i mean. writing all this down or drawing something really helps me to think and figure things out, so that's why)

[bearballing]

A Thing I have Noticed recently, is that most (emphasis on most) of the trans men who are transmisogynists tend to be transmedicalist too, or otherwise they're very big on binary physical transitions (esp. surgeries), being "seen as a man" in overall society, etc. Meanwhile the trans men who are willing to defend trans women against the other group are either: A) trans men who are also some form of nonbinary, B) trans men who are "non-passing"/non-transitioning for various reasons. Hmm...

you’re definitely right that there’s a large truscum overlap, though i’ve seen plenty of trans men pushing back against transmisogyny that are like. actively transitioning and or several years in (me for example i’ve been transitioning for 15 years). ime most truscum/transmeds were guys who were pre-everything or early into transition. tbh i don’t think there is much of a correlation between guys who believe in transandrophobia and like. the specifics of their medical transition. i think it’s more to do with how predisposed someone is to getting upset at being told they’re wrong and/or not the most specialiest boy in the room.

[hermanunworthy]

okay im finally FINALLY gonna do an official teens gender hcs post so u guys can understand my view of these weird little guys. spoilers theyre all nonbinary bc im nonbinary and i love them

normal: he/him but open to trying other pronouns (hes too afraid to ask though). wishes he could just be a binary trans dude (bc that would be easier for him) but in actuality has no idea what his gender really is and the thought of putting a label on it stresses him out so whenever he gets asked about his gender hes just sweating nervously like "aaahhh idk man im just a teen idk haha" (hes like dood. just. teengender)

scary: she/they/goth/dark/etc. transfem girlflux so sometimes shes very girl and other times shes very not girl. this is part of why she says shes not like other girls

lincoln: he/him. bigender. a boy who is a girl sometimes (but tries not to think about it too hard)

taylor: he/ze/sword/flame/etc (neopronoun hoarder like scary but nobody can remember all of them). transmasc demiboy but also a xenogender hoarder (likes to coin his own xenogenders)

hermie: pronouns of the character theyre playing but otherwise they/them. genderfraud (aka "genderfluid but in a fake way"). finds it easier to "play" a gender than to address the fact that they dont have one of their own

[kaithesillygoose]

KARASUNO QUEER (AND DISABILITY??) HEADCANONS WOO

Daichi - starting off strong with my literal fave. Trans FTM and He/Him (WOO) because I self project, and bisexual male-lean because bisexual daichi is *chefs kiss* Transmale daichi is very important to me.

Has asthma, uses an inhaler (that suga covered in stickers the moment he saw it). Also has problems with his knee joints, especially his left, and often has to use a stick outside of school (but I do love a hc of amputee daichi using a prosthetic leg knee-below on his left.) Oh and he has some form of AuDHD probably (never been tested) oh and insomnia

Suga - not sure for this guy because I don’t actually know. Probably Nonbinary or Genderfluid, He/him pronouns but probably doesn’t care, likely fw They/Them too Also gay/likes boys/boy kisser mwah

has a condition that made his hair loose colour at a really young age, used to be hazel-y brown. used to be insecure about it.

Asahi - *foaming at the mouth* love this guy a normal amount. Either a cis guy or demi, maybe agender. Frankly i love almost every asahi gender hc. (Transfem asahi i love you but sadly dont hc) Pansexual. Likes the person, gender is just…there ig.

Anxiety Disorder, self esteem issues, depression, :((

Noya - transmasc, he/they pronouns. frankly uses anything but she most days. bisexual. has kissed ryuu behind the gym before.

ADHD.

Tanaka - cis male, probably, but i LOVE transmale tanaka tbf. also bisexual. Kissing Noya made him realise some things. Had claimed to be the token straight for a while. Has also kissed Yamamoto

ADHD again

Ennoshita - A STRAIGHT! nope. Bro is the bisexual guy who everyone thinks is an ally. he’s only such an ‘ally’ cause hating the gays would be hating himself He/him, cis male.

Has issues with his shoulder joints, nothing bad, they just hurt alot

Narita - Cis guy tbf, he/him, also gay as balls. had a FAT crush on daichi for a while. (same bb)

Celiac disease. Not too fussed by that, though does miss pastries (not really a disability but ehh)

Kinoshita - kisses boys. not too fond of labels, bro fucks with most pronouns, and he will wear a skirt. Has practiced kissing with Narita. Probably poly too (i need poly rep)

lactose intolerant (you bet your biscuits he ignores that) (ik this is another food allergy)

Kageyama - gay but didn’t realise it forEVER (*talking about hinata to miwa* “dude you’re gay?” “what the fuck is that” *cue one explanation later* “…oh shit.”) He/him pronouns but poor bb doesn’t understand much.

Dyslexia, Anger Issues, mild Anxiety

Hinata - He/him, probably trans FTM, tried some neopronouns for a while a didn’t hate them. Pansexual too. Look me in the eyes and tell me he would care about the gender of his lover. Exactly, you can’t.

ADHD part three, Dyscalculia

Tsukki!!! - my og self-projection. (*screaming*) Trans FTM, He/him pronouns STRICTLY (feels dysphoric otherwise). Gay as hell bro. Has kissed Tadashi before for ‘practice’.

Autistic, (probably AuDHD tbf), hypermobile, insomniac

Tadashi - AMAB, nonbinary, pansexual. Simple. Had a phase where he used a ton of specific and often unknown labels. Comfortable with his identity now.

General Anxiety Disorder.

Yachi - lesbian. Tell me she isnt. no im not listening to your argument. cis girl, she/her, but will respect your pronouns till the day she dies and beyond.

Social Anxiety.

Kiyoko - Also a lesbian. Had a boyfriend in middleschool that was so horrible she took one look at women and never looked back (definitely not a self projection…heh…) also she/her but isn’t fussed with they.

Didn’t learn to speak as a child until quite late on in her childhood. Not a disability but yk

Takeda - TRANS FTM RAH i love tranny ittetsu im sorry. i just love my ftm rep, and him. He/him pronouns because they feel affirming to him. always has period stuff stocked up in his bag for his trans and female students (*sobs*)

Autism. WOO

Ukai - He/him, cis male (though i do fw a ftm hc of him occasionally). He claimed to ‘not gaf’ about the whole ‘LGTQB-whatever-the-fuck bis’,’ cause it didn’t affect him. (since meeting ittetsu and coaching a team of fruitbowls and transformers, he’s secretly memorised as much as he can)

Claims he doesn’t but needs hearing aids. (He had to get them before his grandfather did and never once had had a moment of peace about it from Ukai senior.)

:)

[harukirai]

Queer history of Final Fantasy

I am replaying all the old final fantasies(mostly psp psone releases), first time with english localization and not the original jp.

Now i get it.

It all make sense now.

I couldn't understand the wave of "why shove the gays in our face" backlash of 16(even though, the non homophobic felt it was lacking since they didn't want to 'push it in yall face'). Like apperantly moat of the implication or straight up fruity moments in the old game was completely removed, or changed to the point of it being a 'silly thing'.

So lets clarify -

*Cecil(iv), your homeboy- an Non-binary (language is the best indication, but yeah i think it was a decision made for both female and male players to be able to relate to them, but yeah funny outcome non the less)

*Bartz(v)- outright bisexual, they didnt even hide it- next person on this list gonna make it make sense.

*faris(v)- an ftm transgender( at least in the original version, i know in some new iterations they scrapped the whole concept, but left it in in others?)- mainly speak about himself with (ore/boku- which is conventionally usally by male speakers), after finding out soem of the cast either use a female pronounce on him, but bartz constantly either avoid it or use male pronounce(or the nonbinary version which is usually reffered to kidz) but yeah, bartz was crushing on faris where he thought he was a cis male and unlike the other guy didnt shy away.

Lets jump a bit to 8-

Irvine(viii)- even though considered very handsome to the point he could get with any girl hed want, was even flirted with by selphie i think i need to remember, but he usually brush it off.

If anything he is either asexual, or gay(its very subtle, but its what called queer coding, and well see that allot from now on cause japan caught up to westerns norm on media)

Quina Quen (ix)- literally, a nonbinary- but i think they kept it in eng as well cause they are not human, but like black mages they have no sex, but unlike black mages they are 'genderless' and dont care for human norms.

Kuja(ix)- either gay/intersex/both.

Look at him.

Seriously that character confused a whole generation sexuality.

Like sephiroth, but unlike sephiroth he also have effeminate mannerisms, and until it was revealed by text it wasnt so obvious.sephiroth in jp have a confusing language because he himself is possed by jenova, so evem though i love this headcanon, sephiroth isnt trans actually.

Auron(x)- ahh yes, your favourite broody guy and probably where im gonna get tons of hate.

Auron is very subtle, but once you notice it its hard to deny.

I think Auron is gay, unlike jecht or braska- he did not have kids, denied arranged marriage, and followed jecht to dream zanarken just to save jecht only son- it was pretty obvious that auron loved jecht. He also loved braska but not as much, and it shows- that for auron it was more than friendship. You can see it with his attitude towards yuna vs tidus- with yuna he is nicer, politer. Liem you act when you babysit your friends /cousins child.

But to tidus, he is a full father figure.In their journey together they grow, and i think if he wasnt the boy of the man he loved he wouldn't treat tidus as his own. With all the scoldinngs in mind.

Paine(X-2)- qlmost forgot her, but yeah she's pretty gay for riku

I dont remember much though because if the mission structure of the game.

Larsa(xii) - ohh i see you boy, i see u. He is sus as hell. He is a kid so its pretty innocent(and relatable to us queer kidz)

Its pretty obvios that he is crushing on basch, innocently though. I know some ppl who shipped him with penelo, but canonically by spinoffs at least she and vann are an item.

Also they made sure it was obvious cause japan have this thing that a young character is crushing on a teacher,mentor , older characters in general(aka cc sakura- her friend crushing on a teacher, syaoran & sakura crushing on yukito, also happens in tons of pop culture media at that time, so im not surprised, but im happy this time its one sided, THANK GOD)

But yeah if you reached the ending its pretty obvious.

Fang & vanille(xiii)- the first lesbians couple! Terra(VI) was supposed to be the first but they were afraid it will make her less marketable so they scrapped her gf. They made them clear, but at the same time they tried to make sure pple wont be fetishizing them(they tried, at least).

I want to explain their story more but i think ill mess it up since i tend to mix up 13's lacie, falcie and all that jazz.

So ill just say that basically there are 2 world in 13, pulse and cacoon. Pulse is basically earth and cacoon is the moon. There is a god for each world called a falcie.

Few of them but ine for each major ones. Our main gand from cacoon, branded by a falcie to be slaves(lacie) vanille and fang are from pulse, and slaves of pulse lacie, so basically they are with the task of creating Ragnarok which is like the end of time and but limw they dont know cause the gods in this game is like 'yeah imma give you a mission but wont tell you beside weird non undersandable feaver dream and you need to figure out and fast or youll become this universe version of zombie, and if you do complete it you become a ceystal living forever but like, sleeping beauty style. So lose lose situation.

The focus of them both is different from the gang, caus the falcie of cacoon is evil so he gove them focus destroying cocoon while if fang& vannile mannaged to ruin that falcie and bring ragnarok theyll become a crystal, and they used it to save coccon from falling and crushing killing all the people in it, basically became a pillar in eternal sleep when they hheld each other.

But they are saved in later game only to... Lightning return which we wont talk about cause i hate timers.

I love the story of xiii, big part of it is vanille & fang, i havent played in english yet, but i will say, their story is one of the more meaningful on this list, very well developed and i will do it disservice if id try to explain it in few sentences - so do yourself a favour and play or watch the playthrough.

Ignis& gladio(xv)- here is when localization ruimed it. I know cause i palyed on jp dub with eng sub and heard the differences live- first of all gladio and ignis are completely different in jp, as individuals and as a pair- they were supposed to be the first dion& terrence moment, but it got scrapped and they went the vannile& fang route, only that bec they are men, the localization team missed the mark.

Gladio got pissed at noctis in the train because of ignis.

In jp its clear their bond is beyond friends, and not mention the fact that their AI is always stuck together, and that gladio isnt a womenizer in jp at all, and there is no fiancee/girlfriend.

In jp he said suggested there is someone he wants to be with but bec of the state of the world and them both being constantly in the battlefront he couldnt ask.

(and ignis clear his throat when everyone is like oh great, very subtle but it was leading to that)

Every stop of the train or erea post blindness gladio was with ignis not leaving him .

Also tabata san also said that they are more than friends. So there's that too.

But its no secret 15 localization is tereible, the massacared prompto, he is so cringy in english, in jp yeah he is funny but like he says more stuff then random pop colture references, he breaks the 4th wall occasionally but not on the same level of the localization. Also, jp noctis is a little shit because he can and will, in localization he is more relatable while ignos and gladio are kimda mean. In jp its the other way around and up until chap 13 (when he is alone) noctis is a bratt. He has some moments when he is nicer, but when struggle shows he is a bratt about it- and its done purposely since he is a spoiled pronce who never done anything alone in his life.

Thats why in chap 13 he has a change of heart, because he was alone and learned to appriciate his friends when he was stuck alone in the dark with no weapons and i think it was a good call storytelling wise, but yeah the english localzation ruined it and made the whole chapter pointless .

Those are the implied/canon gays of final fantasy up to 15(we got a kiss so its obvious).

The series has always been kinda Fruity and i know some of yall will be like, 'but there's no proof'. Well, japanese speakers(who arent homophobic at least) will agree with me that we tend in media that is not specified like BL or GL to make things subtle. So what in the west is called 'queer coding' is very common in japanese media and it comes in way more shape and forms.usually implied with a desper conncetion relationship or linguistics.its funny cause in the 80's and very early 90's gay pple wasnt hidden in jp pop culture (no kisses or anything but it was straight out told to the viewer/player)

And only later 90's there was a trend of removing us completely from the media, but around that time a specific genre was created so it wasn't out completely.(like yaoi/yuri as erotic mangas existed aince the 80's but usually only love stories or main gay characters were mixed in with the straight media, kimda like what netflix does today, but around 96, 97 the shounen ai and shoujo ai genres rose in popularity(mainly cause of clamp) and things got seperated. In games- because it became a bigger deal in the west square took caution with how clear they gonna make stiff not to piss of the christians after the backlash of Pokemon (idk how it was really but through japanese media and news it seemed at the times that the american patents were pissed so game companies started sensoring their games from all things might piss off christians/monotheistics ).

*also i dont live in japan but i am mixed so i grew in a jp speaking house and family from there always sent games on holidays and birthdays+nhk was always running in the backround to check on the motherland😂

[cringefaecompilation]

I know it wasn't the focus of your misogyny post so if I'm overstepping please ignore me, but it also really makes me mad when people "conveniently forget" that Ashton is nonbinary, especially when it justifies their shitty opinions (ie he's One Of The Boys™ so he's always correct and can do no wrong thanks to his male-based intellect unlike the awful evil women or he's an Evil Manipulative Man™ who's going out of his way to use his male-ness to harm these poor innocent helpless women because he said/did anything negative towards them). Like please y'all, they're not a man PLEASE they said their pronouns IN THE FIRST EPISODE PLEASE. Feel free to like/dislike Ashton all you want cause that's perfectly fair, but for the love of god don't be transphobic (especially to be sexist) when you do it??? Is that too much to ask??? Idk if I'm making sense/getting upset at nothing because I've seen a lot of people dismiss this as being silly or getting mad at nothing, but idk as a masc enby a lot of discussions around Ashton feel so gross? Idk though, once again ignore if I'm overstepping or anything

you are not being silly and you are not getting mad at nothing or overstepping. it's a huge problem.

i've seen way more of the former where he is misgendered as a cis male as a positive trait, so i'll be talking more about that. will be reposting my tags about this trend in fandom because i've already said my piece on it.

ashton is "schrodinger's man" to these people when they're bored with ignoring/erasing orym's respect and care towards the women in his life. they're nonbinary and trans when they're being directly defended against fans who only like the women, and they're a cis male who is a victim of violent misandry when complaining about previous drama or shipping laudmo/ore (willing to give the benefit of the doubt that maybe some of that blending is them including cis male actor taliesin jaffe but then again). the idea that shardgate was Feminism Going Too Far is an actual statement that i've seen going around the fandom, and it's gotten worse now with swordgate.

didja know there are people insisting laudna should have been abandoned by the hells or fearne should have gotten "harsher punishment" when her dad nearly killed her because both women did something selfish/impulsive and ashton was yelled at and punished for doing something selfish/impulsive? the They Only Were Upset With Ashton Because He Is A Man argument is so fucking dumb. bro almost nuked himself without telling anybody else and was the only one not forcing the shard down fearne's throat, of course they'd come to blows. and you wanna know why they didn't scream at fearne or laudna? BECAUSE THEY LEARNED TO NOT DO THAT. THEY HAD A THERAPY SESSION SPECIFICALLY TO AVOID DOING THAT SHIT AGAIN

and it really does make it obnoxious because i like him and orym's dynamic but it's so fucking frustrating seeing people make them into bell's hells leaders and Voices Of Reason just so they can say "orym is always correct because dead husband and imogen is a salty selfish bitch" or "ashton is always correct because tough love & street smarts and imogen is just a salty selfish bitch" that it immediately sets off red flags for me if someone says those guys are their favorite bh characters. and it sucks because i love orym and ashton too!

obligatory "both sides though" mention: yes. there are im/odna shippers that fantasize about "punishing" or murdering ashton. they do that to dorian and orym too. i am aware of them and i have seen them. i have 90% of them blocked lmao

and i have also talked about this before but the amount of people i've seen insisting callowm/oore is a bad homophobic cishet ship that erases fearne's pansexuality is BIZARRE. this argument was used to prop up fearn/iture which makes no fucking sense to me since chetney is, as far as we know, cisgender. we might not know ashton's sexuality proper but it's safe to assume they aren't heterosexual as they've flirted with people of many genders. also there was this genuine debate if as/hrym was a homophobic ship because orym only dates men... and. well. i don't think it'd be the same as shipping keyleth with orym, let's put it that way lol

[strawberriesshi]

fuck it. enstars gender/sexuality headcanons (and some others) for fun. long post so under cut

eichi - sick ill cis gay man both mentally and physically wataru - whatever's funniest or suits the role he's playing tori - i could not tell u honestly if hes just gnc cis or transfem. shes just silly mean rich. yuzuru - not straight but he has to be tori's butler so its not important to him rn

hokuto - "dressed as a girl to disguise himself as a kid" yeah right happyele thats a trans autistic gay theatre boy subaru - cis and pan, adhd probably makoto - somewhere on the arospec me thinks. also autism mao - transfem mao is real to me idc once she stops overworking and has free time that egg's exploding tetora - trans male. manliest man of them all and we love him for it. t lets go. bi probably. midori - shes transfem like girl why u hate getting tall so much...also autistic as all hell shinobu - cis, he's unlabelled with his sexuality but its not that important to him rn and guess what autism to u too chiaki - cis pan guy, though he wont really care if u get his gender wrong kanata - fish more important than gender or sexuality. hes kanata. hiiro - transmasc, but also i do fw the transfem hiiro headcanons. i think he's aroace too actually. also autistic as all hell aira - if uve ever known me u know im the no.1 trans girl aira truther. she's so fucking ASEDRFVBNILJ and also shes bi and because im autistic shes autistic :3 mayoi - gender and sexuality is an enigma to both me and themself tatsumi - used to be cis tatsumi but saw a really good transfem tatsumi fic and now i cant see her as cis. i think hes amab but is somewhere in gender soup hell

nagisa - aroace, agenders, autistic, its racking up the a's hiyori - annoying gnc cisgender gay, like SLAYYYYYY characters, will be a girl if feeling silly ibara - estrogen could def fix this trans woman jun - he likes men for sure. cis or transmasc either works. shu - transfem nonbinary shu lets gooooooo. i dont think she'd label her sexuality, though i def think shes demiromantic mika - transmasc but like. in a he/they girly way if it makes sense? he loves girly things and feminine stuff but like, doesnt wanna be one yknow? also lesbian

hinata - bigender. i mean come on she already switches up her gender in canon when its funny yuuta - nonbinary gay fr!! growing out their hair did things. also i think itd be funny if hinata had adhd and yuuta had autism for adhd vs autism twins

rinne - annoying ass gay ass FA- himeru - dumbass tried to identity theft without realising theyve gotta be a man when theyre agender kohaku: yeah u already know what im abt to say. transfem lesbian kohaku. nikki: could not tell u abt the gender honestly but hes gay with horrible tastes in men (rinne) rei - nonbinary transfem they/she vampire bitch. lesbian prob. like to think she was a lot more confident in herself pre-war and those close to them helped them to regain that confidence post-war kaoru - girl why u hate men so much if ur not a trans girl. come on u look like a girl in canon. ur a lesbian in denial. well at least in ! era she comes out some point in !! era and transitions confident in herself :3 koga - i cant tell you if hes cis, transmasc and dont even get me started on sexuality all i know is that he likes men and is a furry adonis - i think he's unlabelled with both sexuality and gender, he doesnt care all that much and we love him for it tomoya - obvious cis gay who says hes cishet what else is new nazuna - transmasc :D ex valk's gender is fucked. likes guys prob mitsuru - i could not tell you his, he likes bread and probably all genders hajime - gnc cis fr! a pretty pansexual too :3 keito - pathetic cisboy gay kuro - hes also cisboy gay but not at all pathetic souma - cis but gnc, he embraces his feminine side and we love it. probably unlabelled with sexuality hes got more important things tsukasa - amab who drank the genderfluid but is too stupid to realise it. also autistic as SHIT leo - whats up with knights' kings and being genderfluid because this guy is too. also lesbian and has adhd izumi - she is transfem idc will die on this hill transfem sena is always on the mind its crazy. i think shes lesbian btw or at least chooses to label her sexuality that way ritsu - bigender as fuck. unlabelled with sexuality she'll like whatever maa-kun identifies as. arashi - we all know it, canon trans girl bi <3

natsume - afab but is now transmasc agender. cool with anything BUT she/her it will riot against u. tsumugi - cisboy awful and pathetic gay sora - hes sora and thats all thats important to him, autism too btw madara - i dont think he'd label anything abt himself hes just mama and we love him esu - i think hes cis gnc. sexuality hes still figuring out rn kanna - hes 12 he can figure it out later yume - yeah yume is transfem we all knew it our bitchy lil princess :3 raika - sewer rat whos probably questioning their gender and sexuality. likes women though. ibuki - nonbinary (tm), probably like men Jin - beer enjoying gay, cross dresses if funny Akiomi - in denial abt being gay since fucking modelling days Seiya - id cishet jumpscare but hes also lowkey having a gay affair with the younger hotter nice Nice - speak of the devil, gay Gatekeeper - gay freak Anzu - aroace transfem <3

[balladofthelamb]

tbh... post shower trans journal time:

i feel miffed and upset rn.... personally cheated by the universe on my flesh vessel. and also mad at myself bc i feel like, i should be trying to pass rn, but tbh i havent tried at all since the pandemic started. its funny cause in quarantine i figured out, yes, im a dude, but im also, not a dude. nonbinary, whatever you wanna call it. butch for sure, but my expression changes in waves. but its like, ive come to be okay (somehow!) with being fem in public, and thats good to a certain degree, because in quarantine i wished i could just be a dude who wears dresses sometimes. but at the same time, when i was in hs, all i did was try to pass, and it was so painful, all the time, the complete lack of respect everyone gave me. people see you differently, that's just the end of it. id go home and cry and cry bc not only did i get treated horribly, but also no one saw me for who i was. so im not like, crazy. i know why i dont try anymore. its bc it sucks. trying to pass (for me now) feels stupid. ive got other things to focus on. its a blackhole of effort and i doubt i will ever get to a point where people see me and think im a dude without question. it's also painful, fitting yourself into boxes for cis people so they can even understand a sliver of who u r. im not someone who breaks myself for others. i dont want to be someone who only wears fem stuff in private for the sake of passing. or, like before, when i would be terrified in social interactions that the other party would piece together that im not a dude. but at the same time, when the efforts worked and people did think i was a guy, its euphoria i haven't experienced in years now... i think its isolating to think, very few if any will ever truly see me, and yes there are those that do and of course that's important to me. but, it does make me feel incredibly disconnected to everybody else and with my gender in general. it would be easier, at least, if i was a gender conforming ftm. but im not even. and then with the autism, my gender is already creature like. this summer, the thought has occurred to me several times to try to pass again, to put myself in the box, at least for the joy of having people think im male, even if only sometimes. though, admittedly i immediately push away the idea bc it would require a masculine name, and i actually happen to like the name ive chosen for myself now. changing it would be a drag. also, part of me wonders if passing would be impossible now bc i think, realistically, what i would even pass as would be a teenage boy, and it wouldn't make sense among everyone i know whos an adult. anyways, i am going to get high now 🧓🫶

[sonkfan005]

queer headcanon for sonic characters time hell yeah

btw i have asks open id love to hear headcanons from anyone else, too <3

sonic - quoi-biromantic (as in, cant easily differentiate between platonic and romantic affection, and biromantic) and ace. most asexual guy ever. cis guy, but honestly transfem sonic is based as hell. she would keep her name Sonic lol

tails - hes just a little guy. trans boy tails is one of my favourite headcanons

amy - aroace amy is awesome. i think she just has really strong platonic feelings, which she has taken to be romantic. (but biromantic heterosexual amy is a close second) cis girl

knuckles - gonna be honest transmasc knuckles is fucking epic. straight

shadow - transmasc shadow is also a good one. aro, heterosexual.

rouge - bi QUEEN. cis. my beautiful bisexual latina queen.

silver - nebularomantic (as in, has a hard time differentiating platonic from romantic affection due to ASD) and gay. hes the type to be super in denial about it. if nobody has written a fic about him coming out to himself ill write it myself. agender he/she if he had the time to figure it out lmfao. he doesnt know what the hell that means though. amy totally had to explain what being nonbinary was to him.

blaze - lesbian. butchy.

espio - homoromantic ace. cis guy. i have a hard time seeing hi as anything but that. i think hes like silver in that, he was also super in denial. tried to prove he wasnt gay lol

vector - not enough transmasc vector in this world, i think hes transmasc. came out to himself late in life. i think espio met him before he transitioned.... thatd make for a good fic. straight

big - he/him nb ace lesbian tbh

jet - in denial about bi. he gets a crush on a guy for the first time and hes like Wow Hes So Cool I Need To Beat Him Up. cis

wave - cishet. she keeps trying to get jet to admit hes bi but he wont listen

storm - aro heterosexual. no strong opinions. he thinks women are good-looking but i dont know how much hed be into romance... cis. gives awful dating advice to wave and jet.

eggman - most aro homosexual man to ever exist. cis. i do love seeing artworks of egg-woman though. if eggman were a woman shed also be aro homosexual/lesbian lol

whisper - trans girl whisper holds a dear place in my heart. lesbian

tangle - cis lesbian. she was a little lemur and saw a beautiful woman on tv and said Mom(s) I'm Marrying A Woman. i think she has two lesbian mothers too.

belle - heteroromantic ace. i like to imagine shes the type to sit around and picture her wedding when shes got nothing else to think about. cis, and hasnt given it much thought.

mimic - aroace. easy. cis

starline - transmasc and gay. good for him

lanolin - cishet, but honestly itd be funny if she were like, Oh Yeah Im Straight. Everyone Thinks Women Are Hot So That Doesnt Count and Belle just fuckin. stares at her lmao

vanilla - cishet also

sally - cis, bi

surge - ace lesbian, but she is far from ready to even think about romance,,, cis

i cant think of any more characters lol. i dont know anything about archie characters so i dont wanna include them

[ymbly]

me explaining my identity to trans people: so i use the word girlboy a lot for myself but im not really a girl and yeah im kind of a boy but also not really. Im absolutely a guy but still not a man. I am sort of a woman though. I am actually sort of a girl? I am but im not. still not quite a boy though. I’m transmaculine and nonbinary. I use he/they publicly and they/them online mostly but honestly don’t mind she/her that much. but I only want people to call me she if they see me as a man. my gender is fluid to a degree but I wouldn’t call myself genderfluid and-

me explaining my identity to cis people: im a trans guy

[disruptxrr]

if it's causing you genuine regular distress that you aren't a boy... you just like. you might feel like a boy sid. and be distressed because of it. im not gonna put any words in your mouth or assume anything about you —— but:

as a trans guy, i spent a lot of my life wanting to be a boy, loving how boys look, wishing i was a boy, wishing i was born a boy, etc. i didn't know i didn't have to be a girl just because i was born one. i know a lot of other trans guys felt this same way. i know a lot of people who are in general not cis women (nonbinary, genderfluid, etc) who feel the same way you do!!! im not trying to slap any label on you, i just think you seem to be distressed about your gender but you haven't considered "be a boy" is an option, whatever that means for you personally! it's hard to explain.

i just see you struggling with it a lot and wanted to suggest like. exploring isn't something bad, you know? you're a kid, go crazy. maybe the things you end up exploring — whatever they are! — aren't for you and that would be okay too. i don't know how much freedom to explore you have in your life irl, it seems like not so much, but i just wanted you to know lots of other people do feel this same way. you're not alone in it! im sending you positive psychic vibes okay? :)

you're really fucking sweet. thanks for worrying about me n stuff.... but yeahh, i don't know, i really don't think i'm trans... i mean i never even considered it before. i do wish i were a boy sometimes but i was born a girl so fuck it, y'know? sometimes it really does get to me but generally speaking i wont "die" because of it. it's whatever.... i can't even tell my parents i like girls imagine if i turn out to be trans. my parents would probably kill me... i already dress like a guy most of the time anyway so it doesn't really matter... thanks, though (we need more people like you in the world... i know i do) <3