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simple-and-cozy-life · 2 months

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I know I'm always going to be busy, but I cannot wait until I can either just come home to a family, even if it's just my future husband and I and enjoy our time together, or stay at home and make our place a home worth living in.

Even with private violin/viola/cello/bass lessons that will most likely take place at my house, I am really looking forward to the solace of somewhere I can call home with a family.

Hopefully this will be my last big adventure before I settle down and marry the love of my life.

#tradlife #tradwife #catholic #tradblr #im so exhausted #i love teaching but it really wears you down #im not sure what the solution is #I'm really going to enjoy being a sahm #im moving in two months for grad school #i love my boyfriend dearly and im looking forward to beingn wed to him #maybe ill adjunct teach at a university?#i probably need more experience as a violist and violinist #i just want a good home and family #im so tired of apartment living #its so dark in my apartment #and i haven't had the opportunity to eo a proper clean because im busy from 7am-10pm #or the rare times im home i just want to rest #it wont be forever at least #i really do crave a simple life where i can clean bake cook craft and be a homemaker #ill still have symphony rehearsal and have to play #but i really hope that one day i can have a more relaxed job #or maybe just a better job #i have to teach outside my content area and it give me so much stress #i also have a difficult 7th grade group #we're going to gave a cone to jesus talk tomorrow #its a shame because its a handful of them that just cant get with the program and im not aure what to do at this point #alas alas #small steps

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figofswords · 4 months

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anybody remember the stephanie brown essay I was working on under a research grant fully last summer? yeah it’s not done yet it super needs to be done and I’ve been avoiding working on it for weeks. someone tell me to just do it already

#the problem is. actually there are several problems #1) I’ve been out of the Batman/dc comics phase for almost a year so I don’t care that much about the topic #2) I am fifteen pages in and have not touched it in months so I’ve completely lost my train of thought #3) I can’t just reread it because I hate first five pages or so and I know I need to change it but I was trying to finish before editing #so now my only solution is I need to open up a new doc and completely restructure the whole thing by splicing together the existing writing #so that I can figure out where the hell im going with this and make sure things fit together better #unfortunately that sounds fucking exhausting #but I told my mentor I would have an update for him by the end of the week and. well. it’s the end of the week #I have to present it in April. I have to write and submit an abstract in March #the school gave me $1500 for this stupid essay and if I don’t have anything to show for myself.#well. I don’t know they can’t take the money BACK but it’s not a good look #and also I would feel bad #I did the research!!! i interviewed comic writers even!!! I just haven’t finished WRITING IT DOWN #and I KNOOOOWW once I get started it’ll be fine once I’m going I’m going #but STARTING is hard because I feel like I have to finish it in one go which makes it so huge and daunting #I’m like. slamming my head into a wall. just write a couple sentences Jess something is better than nothing #just start it you don’t have to finish just START just MAKE the new DOC #I know!!!!! that is what my therapist would say!!!! Jess you’re trying to oneshot it bc of your dumb adhd brain!!!!#stop looking at it like that and making it scarier!!!#but even tho I know that logically I’m still like oh I should put away the dishes o should make bread #I should work on my six different art pieces I should do laundry i should play with the puppy I should go for a walk I sh

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skitskatdacat63 · 1 month

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Here is a badly drawn comic of my terrible, awkward group project experience from yesterday. I thought it was very absurd so I wanted to share it other people lol :)

Let me know, how do you find their conduct 😭

#i tried to small talk #and they werent rly listening and were like i just wanna get this done w so i can eat #yet talked to me abt smth random after #but the moving the laptop is what made me draw this 😭#like is that not absurd????#i dont wanna rewatch the video #but i wanna see what the camera frame looked like #bcs from what i saw my drawing is p accurate #but yeah they also talked for the majority of the time #even tho i did more research bcs they took up most of the slides #AND ALSO TOOK MY IDEAS #im like uhhhh im p sure [insert slide topic] is required!!!#and i went to go start writing it #and theyre like oh okay ill do that slide #and even tho i kept reminding them of the slide requirement #they kept being like ugh i cant think of anything #and then would take my ideas when i proposed them #like the conclusion part was to write a proposal abt what solution can be made for the current event topic #AND i took notes the night before and wrote down the idea for the solution #and i told them and theyre like oh yeah thats okay and started writing those slides #i know i should be more assertive but im so conflict avoidant and was kinda like oh. okay. ah.#lmao i hope this doesnt make me come off as someone victimizing themselves #im just annoyed 😭😭#and also this person was on my abroad trip and we all hated them #but i felt bad abt how much we hated them and theyre(I THOUGHT) much more chill in a classroom setting #so i kinda softened my hate for them and theyre the only person i know in my class rly #so im like ahhhh we should work together!#and now i remember why i dislike them 😭😭#catie.rambling.txt #catie.art.

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inniave · 6 days

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so fucking sick of the constant misgendering. it's exhausting. even from fellow queer people??????? who know me?????????? HELLO?????????????

#sorry i don't fit ur idea of queer but can u still show some basic respect & decency #pre-covering my hair i was constantly seen as non-binary or as a man or as intersex #and now??????? no matter what #i get referred to as a woman #by the same fucking people!!!!!! preaching “clothing has no gender”#ARE U SURE?????? CAUSE UR SURE AS HELL NOT TREATING ME LIKE I EXIST OUTSIDE MY CLOTHING CJOICES #most days i try to make myself not care but lately i've been realizing just how much i want to die because of how people perceive me #i don't want to change myself #but it's suffocating me #nobody sees me for who i really am except for spouse #and i am so so grateful for them #but when every single other interaction is just #so fucking transphobic and intersexist #i just want to curl up and die #changing the way i dress makes me want to die #getting misgendered for the way i dress makes me want to die #not having a place in the queer community makes me want to die #do u know how hard it is to be disabled intersex queer with DID which means constantly shifting identity #i'm lesbian im gay im trans both ways im ace im hypersexual im aromatic im poly it's EVRRUTHING #and so i fit nowhere #because i don't fit the mold :/#when i say queer in every way i mean it #and there's no real solution outside of finding community that accepts me and i cant even manage to get far enough into one #to even consider bringing up DID & the complexities it adds #cause y'all see someone in a modest dress & head scarf and go WOMAN #or see wheelchair and look the other way or continue booking in inaccessible places or not wearing a fucking mask #or don't want to be seen with someone visibly mentally ill #like..... i cant win. the only way i can get respect from my OWN FUXKJNG COMMUNITY is to change everything about myself #i'm so fucking over it #happy pride month ig

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jonny-b-meowborn · 10 months

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Okay I've been thinking about the lil cute therian fic I've been writing, and I think I know how I wanna end it and it's like. Very much self indulgent not really accurate to the mechanisms canon and way too cute but the thing is I can do whatever I want forever so I think Im gonna do it (I'm only like idk 1/3 done tho so don't get too excited fjdnfjndn)

#okay like im gonna spoil it in tags #this is my warning there will be nothing else in the tags #so basically in the fic youre a dog that got kidnapped by the mechs with a bunch of your coworkers #a heist just for fun and to kill some random people out of boredom #but you survive on the ship bc you hide #but then Tim finds you and at first jonny tells him to kill you like the rest #but tim is like. hold on. that person is not a human i dont think. i don't wanna kill an animal #and jonny is like this is stupid. but whatever. were gonna put it back on earth were not keeping it timothy #and thats pretty much all i have for now #but then you just kinda. hang around on the aurora while youre going back to earth and you meet a few of the other mechs #they all have different reactions to you but in the end everyone somewhat accepts that youre a dog #and i wasnt sure how to end it #one option was to just go back home and be done with this silly little adventure and go back to living a normal life as a person #but youre happy you finally met some people that accept you for what you are even if for a moment #the other option would be to stay on the ship kind of as a pet #but that felt a bit off to me because youre not a literal dog youre a human that is a dog yknow. and that feels a bit too. idk weird #but i think i got the solution #what if. you get mechanized #and your human body is replaced with an anthro dog. so you can still be a thinking person you were but with a body that makes sense #like kind of like a permanent fursuit but more metal #and yeah that doesnt make much sense in the mechs canon like thats too nice of them and ill have to think of a good reason for that #but wouldnt that be just. so cute #like thats honestly the dream #i love robots and i am a dog so. if i could get mechanized to be a steel furry id agree right away like not even think about it #kind of like in that one love robots and death episodes with the kitsune #that scene where she transforms into a robot fox is my favorite in the whole ep i think and it honestly gives me species euphoria #so yeah i think im gonna ignore canon for that one but and give the reader/mc a sweet happy ending #and now youre a doggy pirate in space surrounded by people who are okay with that!!! isnt that the best #therian #bee buzz

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gifti3 · 9 months

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I like some of the makeup changes theyve done in time princess but some of them unfortunately do look worse (on my doll anyways)

Dress up games seem to struggle with making makeup work for all skin tones and the only solution ive seen is in life makeover where we have the option to change parts of the makeups color and brightness (and even then the options are too limited imo)

#different skin tones work better with different colors in my opinion #but making sure the blush is blended well makes it look less jarring at least and sometimes thats also enough to make the makeup work #i like the idea of being able to change the colors for the makeup but it will probably also make the game files bigger #but the game is already pretty big so idk if it will make THAT much of a difference #im honestly just bringing this up cause one day id like too see a solid solution #i wonder what dress up game will come up with it first #dutp #life makeover #dress up time princess #maybe an opacity option would be good cause then people can decide how bold they want certain parts of the makeup to be? idk #maybe different versions of the makeup hmm

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doyeons · 3 days

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um in reality i’m so lonely tht i think my soul is starting to erode but at least classes are over soon 👍

#bella.txt #idk how to break out of this and i’m too busy w/ school to even think abt it too much anyways #i just lie abt being fine with it when my mom asks bc otherwise she’ll chastise me for not being social even though like #^_^ not rly sure what a solution for that is! i’ve tried to get myself out there i just don’t rly know what to do anymore!#but whatever i think im destined to be a lonely little husk #also yesterday i literally had a professor say building ur community is importwnt bc lonely ppl die sooner like?? 😭😭 hello?#i mean i get he’s trying to encourage ppl to branch out but holy shit #also bring it on! ^_^

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marsbotz · 12 days

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BIG things happening right now

#AARRAGGHHH ITS SO FUN. ITS SOOOO FUN #its soooo broken rn i have one billion pics of stuff i need to fix tmrw #but omggg. so facking cool #lol the nose looks so fucking weird here cus u cant see the colour.. next time i wld deffo have it separate like the eyebrows #actually. u know what. ill do that #I CLD DO THE PAW PADS TOOOOOO. ok wait. probably not worth it BUT itll look great #not too much effort. whataver ill just do it #no expressions or anything yettttt. but he can blink and look around. and talk #idk why the mouth was stuck open like that. maybe i fucked up my visemes #but OHHHH WELL i will fix it B]#it looks kinda shitty as just part of the texture so itll look cleaner and nicerrrr #i already had to redo the eyes that way for Blinking reasons #OHHHH i can just do the shrinkwrap/solidify thing. SO easy #my polys r so low anyways im at like 15k. soooo epic #sorry i keep posting abt this its literallyyyy. the coolest thing ever. to me #ALSO i met two rlly nice ppl yesterday which let meunlock the sdk ^^#you may wonder why the lshes and eyebrows r not outlined. Well its because i fucked them up so the outline doesnt work LAWL #but theyre fine without so idc #idk how to fix the gaps in the hair but honestyllyyyy its not an issue for me rn. maybe someday ill fix it #on the face im sure its where things overlap. the tips i think its bc of the sharp angle..?#ACTUALLY. found the solution rn. the tip wasnt closed LOL #thought i did that but i guess i missed a few #anywayyyy. night night

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freakazoidstate · 24 days

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god i wish there was a way to prevent growing facial hair on t cuz thats literally the only thing holding me back. i desire a deeper voice and more hair everywhere else.....

#evan.speaks #either that or i need to overcome my gender dysphoria about facial hair #i dont know if thatll happen tho #i think thatd give off an idea i dont want to give off #in the sense of my identity #OKAY THIS POST MADE ME LOOK UP WHAT FINAGLE IS #ITS ABOUT DISHONESTY?#whatever im sure science will figure out a solution. targeted t or some shit #or i could also do voice therapy

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computer-boy · 27 days

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me giving advice: 'honestly just say what you mean! being honest is important in relationships'

me when i have to be honest and say what i mean:

#peests #LONG RANT INCOMING: so im going to a concert and so are two of my other friends and one of them asked me to go with her #and i didn't say no or yes but i honestly don't want to go with her she's nice and i really like her but she's overbearing #i don't mean to be mean but going with her will ruin the night for me it's not her flaw it's just how it is #and i havent asked my other friend yet but i really want to go with her and im pretty sure she'll say yes #possible solution: tell friend 1 i can't go and go anyways with friend 2 #flaw: what if i see her there it would be awkward and i would seem like a fucking dick (which i would be. this is a dick move)#possible solution 2: tell friend 1 i don't want to go with her #flaw: aurguhdj... dont wanna... she's real nice and i don't wanna be mean to her cuz i know she takes rejection hard...#im just gonna hope she doesn't get tickets which seems mean but yk #i wish i just told her i was already going with someone else . head in hands

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235uranium · 11 months

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back from the barbie movie and I certainly have Thoughts on what the movie was doing but overall I do think it's worth seeing! it's fun

#☢️.txt #spoilers in tags!#i think what they did with ken is actually really fascinating and while i do get why the movie doesnt focus on his motivations #or the fantasy politics of barbieland #i AM personally interested in them #like his frustration is coming from a legitimate place and the movie does acknowledge that both barbie (margot) and the barbies overall were #Not In The Right and its not the actual solution to the issue of feminism #in the same way that the movie acknowledged that barbie didnt solve feminism and in many cases ended up playing into #the very ideas that prevent women from pursuing the jobs barbie is often shown in #im sure ppl will critique the movie for not going far enough but like. i dont think their point was to make a massive statement?#so much as it was to make a campy blockbuster that gently acknowledges the ways people can so often feel left out #its not the feminist piece of a generation so much as it is a love letter to barbie that acknowledges how shes #an inherently flawed consumerist brand. but one thats deeply cherished by generations and has left a massive pink stamp on our culture #(its probably worth noting that i have generally positive memories of barbie)#(despite being a weird fat kid i never personally felt alienated by barbie and my memories are extremely fond)#(i didnt like baby dolls bc. i never have liked kids but barbie was a fantasy in sparkly dresses)#(she was married to my dinosaur toys. ive always known what im about yes)#my favorite barbies were swan lake a halloween witch barbie and a halloween ghost barbie #(also idk is this an autistic thing for me to only learn most young girls compared their bodies to barbie at like 14?)#(like it just never dawned on me to compare my looks to a toy tbqh. i was more upset by the actual lack of clothing in my size)

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darkhopping · 1 year

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least hubristic major admonition character

where were u wen essophyscial anomaly delet

i was at site making deranged solution when phone ring

"timeline is kil"

"no"

#i only know her from admo but i love what ive seen from her :]#her splashing water on grease fire swag <3 #foundationposting #admonitionposting #wait is she from anywhere else? i forgor #i think ive heard her name elsewhere?#gonna b real im not quite sure what she did in blackbox but im assuming its similar to what she did in 6820 which is like #decommission essophysical anomaly etc but like to the left . using an anomaly essophysical in nature 2 decommission other anomalies #glad we got to see her do it again its fun :]#doesnt seem to be as motivated by a particular flavor of admo hubris like we see hishakaku or place? i think ???#like there was that weird hatred effect in 6820 and the thing about anomalous baby boom in 6183 #but she does respond to the problems she has to deal with with fucking . batshit solutions #its easy to go haha hubris now but if i think about it im like #what the fuck #yeah i like this flavor #not motivated by personal gain or inability to deal w negativity in ones life but like

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dandyshucks · 2 months

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rattling the bars of my cage and gnawing on them as i try to decide if i want to post a little fic or not and how exactly to go about that because the three different options that i can think of all seem less than ideal

#TUMBLR PLEASE STOP PUTTING SHIT INTO SEARCHES WHEN THEY AREN'T TAGGED AS THE THING #but i guess that'd make it difficult to find posts. HMMM. idk what the solution is #i just dont want to have to censor names so they don't show up in ppls searches 😭😭#but i suppose thats how websites normally work so ... shrug. not sure what the answer for this would be #anyways maybe i'll have to post stuff to ao3 but i think theres a lot of issues w that place so im urgghghh afraid of doing that #and then the other option would be to keep it in google docs and use a share link but i think that would be not ideal fjdskl #maybe i'll just have to use ao3 blech waugh patooey. sighs and kicks a rock.#dandy.cmd

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pallases · 3 months

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my prof giving us an exam on content he can’t even do himself <3

#every time he does an example problem w this stuff he fucks it up somewhere and we never reach the correct answer and he’s #just like okay well. moving on!#like hello??? i still have barely any idea how to do this #also im sick of the hw in this class. it’s on a program where the prof can reveal the solutions after the deadline but not every exercise #actually has solutions to reveal and he keeps assigning problems like that so there’s no way to check our work. and when he himself grades #the stuff he does it purely on participation like he just looks to see if we did it and doesn’t tell us where we went wrong so again no way #to check or even know if we were incorrect. it’s so bad and this guy somehow has like a 4.5 on rate my professor which im pretty sure is #only bc he majorly curves exams but he wouldn’t need to curve them sm if he taught the material right to begin with 😐 anyway wish me luck #personal #the engineering chronicles #okay hold on while i was typing that a comma somehow found its way in there and i deleted it bc i didn’t want a comma there but now im #wondering how i got it in there to begin with ? like it didn’t start a new tag it was just a comma there that you could see plain and clear #what did i do to allow that… secret comma keyboard shortcut on mobile keypad??

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coloursofaparadox · 11 months

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im still not over the sleep thing one sec i gotta rant about this shit

#i think the problem now is that historically my sleep habits have been Really Messed Up by what can loosely be called insomnia my whole life #its always kinda just been a given that if im in bed and i cant sleep there is absolutely nothing that can be done to help #and thats not for lack of trying i have tried every meditation and suggested solution possible. it does not happen.#if i cant fall asleep and try to force myself w/o distractions i will be awake staring at the ceiling for hours. usually till the morning #thats not an exaggeration it happened often before i gave up on it. so i figured out coping methods!#namely 1) making sure my body is taken care of as well as possible to make sure its not caused by pain or hunger or anxiety #and 2) not trying to force it and accepting itll happen when it happens. and then reading a book or watching a show on a dim screen #until i physically cant keep my eyes open and then i can fall asleep. if i try any earlier than that no dice. my brain wakes itself up again #these worked for years! but now thanks to adhd meds that actually make my brain quiet. uh. these same coping methods are. not working #im physically tired and start my usual routine and wait to pass out while reading but i just. dont. ever.#like. the physically tired feeling has never made a difference in my body cooperating with sleep. but now apparently it will????#and ive been ignoring it??? bc im used to it not working? i tried just. closing my eyes and trying to lay still yesterday and it WORKED #after like. 10 minutes or so. it was fucking crazy. i thought media and pop culture was lying about people doing that.#anyways. apparently i can fall asleep like a human and not some kind of weird chronically exhausted cryptid now.#(because of new adhd meds to be clear) but i havent been because i didnt even think to TRY it. since. yknow. cryptid status.#shits weird.

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pepprs · 1 year

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<- girl with WICKED abandonment issues and zero emotional object permanence. btw if you couldn’t tell

#purrs #SICK and tired of myself tonight. like am i ever going to get better and not be like this. i don’t think to. the response to which is ‘not #with that attitude’ but no genuinely. no solution sticks. i just end up like this over and over and over again. not to say there is no hope #for women out of context edpeifislly when im not 100% sure what the context actually is but there is no hope for women. ♥️#delete later

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