#im not vagueposting about any one person

[theneighborhoodwatch]

i would be a fool to deny that wally has, as the kids like to say, a touch of the ‘tism, or that i find him an ultimately sympathetic character, but i must admit i dislike the implication i’ve seen from a few folks that either:

A) because wally is autistic, he cannot possibly be doing anything morally dubious

or

B) if he Is doing anything morally dubious, then we can no longer count him as an example of Good Representation™, and must instead rely on the other characters to pick up the slack

maybe i’m jumping to conclusions here, but like, i dunno, aside from the obvious fact that disability rep shouldn’t be treated like a competition between characters - i like wally in part because he’s given a level and a Type of moral complexity/ambiguity that i rarely see in visibly autistic characters, even in indie productions. i have a hard time imagining the kind of person for whom that’s a bug and not a feature.

[mothbeasts]

actually I will say something. tired of being in fandom spaces and seeing the women get demonized while the men with the same/similar character traits either get sanded down and excused OR get called "babygirl" and such.

[teaspoonofdragons]

Come on guys.

[firelordhotman]

friendly reminder that even if youre open about something on your blog, even if you think its so obviously right in your about/description/pinned/whatever, most of the people who will interact with you are not even looking that far at your blog. they dont know your name or your pronouns or your disabilities or your interests or your credentials or whatever you think is just *so obvious* that they *must* be intentionally ignoring it just to hurt you. ESPECIALLY not if theyre a random stranger who youve never interacted with once before, has never interacted with you once before either, and has absolutely zero reason to care about you. its not a personal attack, its just a fact. this is literally the internet

[transprince]

Thinking about dropping the hell out of a friend because theyre friends with a dickhead from highschool who went the way of the cops..

[rusted-phone-calls]

fear

[sniper-tf2-teeth]

Gotta confess something, the person who accused your and the dear heavy tf2 tummy person of fetish farming made that post because I spoke in a space we share about how excited I was to have received your ask, and they really didn’t want me to draw it, I have anyways because I enjoy it and I know it’s practically a trend at this point, and also because I’m an independent person capable of making my own choices. So I just really wanted to say I’m sorry if that alls been causing you trouble still. Especially since that trouble is partially, and unintentionally my fault. Hope that all makes sense. I’m incredibly sorry. I loved getting your prompt :) I can only await the day I get my heavy tf2 tummy one as well

You're not responsible for that person's actions; if you werent going to tip them off, something else would have (assuming the series of events did go down how you said it did). It was only a matter of time before someone called the trend problematic anyway.

Plus it was funny to get accused of fetishfarming and harassing artists just to see all the reblogs be along the lines of"yeah that would be really bad IF IT WERE to happen" and "oh i should look out for that" and "woah is that really happening?", because that post was moreso making up a problem to get upset over and most people instinctively recognized that that wasnt happening at all. There was also a vaguepost about it that got some traction, which I admired.

Fetishfarming would be more like asking for a closeup of Sniper at the dentist, or requests for Medic preparing Heavy for surgery (implying Heavy would be shirtless). All the asks in that trend were literally based on being extremely forward and direct with what the asker wanted, the opposite of fetishfarming or artist exploitation.

Requesting art isnt harassment-- it becomes harassment if the artist has asked you to stop or has otherwise indicated that they wont partake in the trend or wont take requests and you still choose to send the request. I heard through the grapevine that some people think art requests were entitled and exploitative, which were also the arguments used for that fetishfarming post and MAYBE a much earlier and long-forgotten post about the heavy tf2 tummy anon (dont quote me, though), which is just plain wrong. Requesting art in any way isnt entitled either (unless, like said before, the artist has indicated they do not do requests). Thats what having a public art account is like. People will interact with you and get excited when you draw stuff they like, so you set boundariies. If you don't, thats on you.

The only fair point that person really had was tagging the posts, which I couldnt really do until now. Ill add that caveat to my pinned, but Im not sure how much good itll do now

Glad you liked the prompt, anon! Thank you for sending this ask, it was a good oppurtunity to address that post. I hope you get the heavy tf2 tummy ask soon <3

[cupcraft]

I think there's a lot to be said about how though people as in the Audience should hold content creators accountable when they do bigoted and other fucked up shit. And I mean literally dropping them. But there's also more to be said that other content creators also need to be a part of the equation in accountability.

I don't just mean ccs saying one critical tweet, one vaguepost, one twitlonger about their moral high ground. I mean ccs actually holding their fellow ccs accountable esp when they are in the same streaming spheres.

It means consequences. It means not inviting them to events. It means quitting events in which they are allowed in/teamed with you. It means saying something if possible (though theres nuance here). It means not streaming with them. It means not platforming them even if "its just a debate guys 🤓". It means standing up for how you think the platform you're on should run in holding people accountable (twitch/youtube/etc).

I say this because I'm sick of ccs being fucking cowards esp those that don't think it affects them or their audience and they have no responsibility about anything. And no I'm not asking every content creator to do a video essay/long post detailing how awful of a person x streamer is and no I'm not asking private matters to be discussed publicly. And no im not asking for drama like videos like its goodbye sister era of youtube. I'm saying if you are a cc who wants to hold someone accountable they fucking do it. Don't say "oh I'm against X bad action" then invite cc number 1 of x bad action to your stream. Don't say bigots deserve no platform then "debate" one. Stop allowing abusers and bigots into your events.

Because yes an audience contributes a lot to a cc still having power as you are their monetary source, but I'm sick of ccs not thinking they have any responsibility in platforming their shitty coworkers the end esp if you're a cc who claims you would stand against said shitty actions.

Stop being performative.

[chonnysinferno]

tumblr deleted my ask :( anyway first n most importantly, could you listen to bopgil https://youtu.be/rORI1sZM-9I?si=wwaYyY82DnO9VLHk

anyway can i send you odd asks more often

anyway anyway i thought that was a completely one sided thing like. yeah. sometimes i just rotate people in my mind for a bit n then stop . pokes you with stick

juke’s towers of hell is a tower styled obby game. while you may be cascading down the social spiral, perhaps you will be able to ascend one of these trauma inducing towers

my head hurts so much but i got fries i think it’s because of malnutrition i don’t eat enough

fuckin like. i made a vaguepost about you. just two star crossed tumblr users. i guess that’s probably weird whatever

at first i saw cjshippers on your dni and i was like ok. goodbye then. and then it’s just like that one time you horribly interpreted my post about aro mind which i definitely said in a way liable to misinterpretation when i maintagged it aka i should’ve known better and then someone i admired at time took your misinterpretation n that was so fear and then i avoided you and now you are just like. oh it’s that person again. in my notes. on occasion. youre a cryptid tawa mi… i spin my pencil sometimes. badly. so sometimes when i am thinking now i get the urge to spin my pencil and i am thinking abt it right now. spinning fry gets fry seasoning in my hands so. i wrote loveless aro heart but it’s in a fic i definitely didn’t intend platinically. it’s this thing right. shipping is so weird because i’m aromantic and when it comes down to it, the difference between romance ala romance just seems like wording. a label. cause friends can do everything that partners can and there’s no depth difference so like wh huh? i call it a shipfic but it could be considered as just thing different than how i usually write thing like. i make them kiss. whatever. i focus on how close an intimate they feel. but i could also do that when romance li lon ala. so. allos are so weird to me. still figuring out what i think of the word love but still. allos……. ? ? ? anyway writing relationships where it not being love ISN’T A FLAW is so so enrichment i should do it more

pokes you with a stick pokes you with a stick pokes you with a stick hiiiii hi hi hi hiii

it’s like the mutual i would usually send writing asks has established it likes ‘weird violence’ and complicated dynamics n such so i can send stuff w/o fear i know it a little bit however i don’t know. what is up. with you. i literally saved something i sent to it so i could just put that here however that feels like cheating and or betrayal. you turn the corner to your kitchen and i’m standing there. consuming ice very loudly and aggressively. recklessly even. ‘so do you think about the transient nature of any positive hms relationship’, i ask. what do you do (also i have plugged my own ice maker in btw)

also i’ve already convinced three (3) mutuals to watch centricide so if you do i will feel even more powerful like ohhhh wawa mi li kama suli…. surprisingly they didn’t eviscerate me very cool

it’s like showing up to the function like oh so you rbed that post you like those types of relationships. writes something down. ok so can i write about [paragraph redacted cause i realized maybe there’s a reason you shouldn’t put gore and cannibalism in someone’s inbox without permission. so can i put gore n cannibalism in your inbox :3]

NEW CENTRICIDE THEORY: radcen is called the ringleader of the centrists cause he

i forgot the joke fuck

i am so sorry im like. drawing funny objects (when im not supposed to0 be but SHHHHHHHHHHHHHH shhshshshshhb) and watching centricide rn sodfsdfkjkljddmklslmk im like. really scatterbrained im sorry HGAHAHGHAS yea im already watching it btw feel more poiwerful in return you should watch hfjone if you havent tho. like a trade of interests i get into yours you get into mine >:-)c sorry for like. misinteruptting that one post that one time. hides away i n shame i think that was like. the time i actually knew you existed. for a negative reason ^_^''''''''''' i try not to think about it cause i dont think ur still mad at me for that. hopefully this is goign to be like not arranged in the order of the ask (aka im not reading this in the way this is written. things are being answered in a way that makes no sense) PLEASE SEND ME ASKS even if they are odd. actually the odder the better im going to be honest with you i do not get much interaction askwise so. it brings me joy it wasnt a one sided thing LMFAO i guess i can see why ud see that. no its weird idk whats going on anymore. hi tho!!! is continously poked with a stick. youch. twitches like a bug uhjhmmhmhmhmh ill try jtoh i rememebr you ranting about it sometime but i dont rmemeber any of it i am so sorry also dont vaguepost about me. coward /JOKE that is funny thjo HAHAHAH also eat more. or i will find you. dont malnourish yourslef /silly idk about the shipping thing. i dont get shipping either im going to be honest with you romance is like. just not understandable to me??????????? i cant comprehend why this happens. what is romance continues to be poked more. stares at you i dotn know whats up with me either maybe someone else knows. i dont know much about myself so ^_^ being called a cryptid is probably the best way to describe me i feel. yeag put anything you want aslong as its not. nsfw or smth. ill smite you also can i have some ice pls ice is great wdym by relationship do you mean like. platonic??? romantic????? what do you mena byt his i think ive answered everything i keep having 2 scroll up LOL also edit (once again i know) i did enjoy the video link u sent thank u

[cloverstarsys]

Woo-hoo first time an anti endo has told us to "stop faking a serious disorder 🥰" (with that emoji lmaoooo)

Add it to the bingo card/s

In all seriousness, we do not claim to have DID/OSDD or any other form of disordered plurality. In order to be "faking", we would have to claim to have DID/OSDD. You can't fake something you don't say you have. Even if everything anti-endos say was true (which it's not), that would still be a fact.

Telling someone to "stop faking" does nothing. Especially if they're not even faking to begin with. If someone thinks they're, idk, "awakening" someone to the truth of their actions by saying they're faking, that's not how that works. Faking anything is a conscious choice. It's impossible to be truly faking something unconsciously. (<-there are situations where things aren't true and you are doing something unconsciously, but faking something is separate from that, if that makes sense.)

I'll never understand why so many anti-endos say endo systems are "faking". It's literally impossible to know what's going on inside someone's head, especially in the sense of, well... being a random person on the internet. It's one thing to claim someone's faking when you know them irl (still, don't do that), it's another when all you know of them is the text they wrote on the screen.

I know all of this has been said before, but I wanted to put it out there. I do not take kindly to anti-endos invading my space. I mean, I'll just block them, but I will vaguepost about them and reiterate our stances on this.

All of this over one silly post about stealing a rq's alter pack (which, btw, we are only calling an alter pack because thats what they called it)(and, i checked, they dont have a dni, so its not like im breaking it),,,, geez.

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[softness-and-shattering]

If something looks like bait. If its so ridiculous that your immediate reaction is disbelief and rage - take a minute. Count your breaths. Ask yourself if its bait, ask yourself if sharing it will do any good at all, especially if names/accounts are attached. And then probably dont share it unless youre near certain that a practical good outcome will come of it, (the personal catharsis of passing down the ragebait to someone else doesnt count as a good outcome). If youre not sure, wait an hour, a day, a few days.

Someone wrote that because they want you to be angry, they want to enforce your existing fears and prejudices, they want to manipulate you. Dont let them, and certainly dont pass on their manipulation to anyone else.

Youre not an awful person for geting upset and sharing bait, a shame spiral isnt helpful or effective. You got got thats all. Try be more levelheaded next time. I sometimes make vagueposts about stuff instead of reblogging. Right now Im writing this instead of reblogging ragebait or howling in the comments. You can express the feelings without passing on what caused them. Its much healthier imo and no one comes into your comments to fight you or wind you up about it mostly because they dont know what exactly youre talking about.

[vorareromantic]

okay instead of vagueposting my breakdowns like usual im going to try something different. i feel really lonely lately. a lot of the time i feel like no one would talk to me if i didn't say something to them first. i feel like a lot of my life has been me forcing friendships and then wondering if anyone cares and sometimes i do get into these moods where it feels like nobody would notice if i just stopped posting or replying and just dropped off the internet. im way too addicted to tumblr to cave in and test that but it just feels really isolating. i always feel like i care more about other people than they do about me. being autistic is isolating on its own, it's also really isolating having the level of c-ptsd that i have because i know it permanently altered how i view my interactions and connections with other people and everyone always tells me it'll get better once i find good people but i don't know how to do that. the vast majority of my friends only text me when they need to vent and ignore me the rest of the time. people tell me how great of a friend and person i am and how i deserve great things but then they never give me the time of day. it really sucks because the vast majority of the time i don't even need to talk about whatever's bothering me. i dont even know where id start with that because people dont really care enough to let me get into it and im not used to talking like that. i usually just want to have any amount of conversation with someone. about anything. i dont think i really could get into it if someone even did ask, or id probably apologize profusely afterwards and assume the person hated me now. i dont really know because it doesnt happen a lot. i just realized earlier today when i was having an episode that i dont really have anyone to text and tell that i needed support. the more it happens the less safe i feel with people. at this point it genuinely feels like everyone will get sick of me and there's no point trying to bond with anyone because they only ever want to be around me when they're struggling. and that doesn't do good things for me either to talk to most people in my life only when they're unhappy. and im too much of a people pleaser to say no because then they wont talk to me EVER. or they'll lash out because they always seem to. because i said id be there for them and they could always come to me but if im not up for it one time i get guilt tripped or harassed. it just feels so lonely and isolating and i just wish i had people i could rely on without being scared of them. sometimes it feels like caring about other peope comes so naturally to everyone unless it's about me. and i know a lot of people dont even see me as a person, they've told me that even. that they see me as a reward for their hardships because ill deal with anything or that im just a free therapist to them or that they dont care about me but they keep me around because i help them so much and they dont want to live without me. which is fucking horrible to feel and hear by the way, it makes me feel like a commodity. i just wish people cared about me but it feels like i wasn't made for that

[beehiveofblorbos]

ok today to ~~torture~~ my very first mutual im vagueposting about DRA franchise

It would be accurate to describe a character as “Chiaki part 2 electric boogaloo,,, but her plot beats got turned upside down”

the priest fans are so unholy good god

remember that time that one character decided to commit crime ahead of schedule??? is it Really a crime if it’s defying the wishes of that one guy who is the Worst!

i mean but is he the worst though? I can forgive rampant child abuse + mass murder, but i draw the line at hurting 2ndChiaki in any way. i loved you once and that made it so much worse

tbh that one scene in ch4 almost beats the original if you ask me

why is SDRA2 ripping off V3 (/lh)

results without a process except i hate the results and love the origin

being talented is Sooo outdated just hurry up and get to the result already (if y’all know who this references then you know ;))

a certain character is infinitely better than hinata,,, no im not biased shut up about their backstory and my preexisting feelings about it

that one 16th student’s name is so fun to scream like y’all know what i mean

kanade’s murder plan failing made me wish a certain character didn’t exist and then i immediately had to apologize to them so sorry boo

the flashbacks did not make me like the class anymore and they really were trying so hard

one of the culprits rly did pull a taka and i hate them for it lol DIE MAKE THE EXECUTION WORSE

oh wait there was that one other culprit why did you even kill killing is bad my beloathed do better

the sea is great what do you mean drowning is bad

that one evil person’s FTEs were undeservedly bad stop trying to make them teruteru when they were angie but Bad

wizard outplays mage but y know we all already knew that

all my least favorites get the best sprites (except 2ndChiaki + Rei you’re doing great sweetie)

[arsen1cs4ng0]

serious post, please read

i think im comfortable enough to talk about my experiences with the chip fandom from march 2022 until february 2023, and how much it really affected me.

i never really wanted to publicly open up about this shit due to past experience and what i had to witness with many of my friends, but im kinda sick of pretending everything is fine and great on here!!

some of the shit i'll be saying under the keep reading cut may be really upsetting, please keep that in mind before proceeding (tws for suicide and harassment) doubt anyone will read this seeing as im such a small account, but hey fucking ho lol

ughhh where the fuck do i begin i created the starlandspoons account in the hopes of trying to warm up to the chip fandom again after enduring so much on the twitter side of it (hoping the tumblr side would be a little better) but... even with me trying to create good memories like i was able to in early 2022.... the pain i felt never subsided.

this is the part where val moans about their chip trauma!! the main shit (im not calling this """drama""". this shit is serious) started in late february of 2022. a controversial figure in the chip fandom, gremlin, came out with an ""apology"" for her actions (i go in detail about her actions here), blaming her actions in 2020/21 on shit like "i was doing it to piss people off" and much more that i dont really want to think about. admittedly, i initially fell for this, being too naive to understand exactly how bad she was (i knew she was bad, but didnt realise how bad)

now heres where the shit really started. back in march of 2022, i witnessed one of my friends on twitter (not naming who, i dont want them to get harassed again) get bombarded with hate + get vagueposted for not forgiving her. people started block-evading them, one person started being enbyphobic towards said person... you can get the idea here. the first time, it did a bit of damage on the way i viewed chip. i lost my taste in it temporarily. that was, until a few days later, where i had a new hyperfixation related to chip (lil guy), which kept my love for it going for a little longer!! that hyperfixation was so strong (stronger than any of my other ones had been) it was able to keep me mostly distracted from the bad shit. mostly.

everything was cool. great. as far as i remember... until late may/early june 2022. back in may of 2022, i became friends with someone called yuzu. they ran an account on twitter where they posted chip songs, tts songs, a/e songs, you get the picture... i became really good friends with them for a while, they were always there to listen to me, we'd talk a lot, yknow. what stood out was that nobody else i knew was that understanding. i was bullied a lot irl, and it was comforting to have that person there for you. i felt.... great!!!

the night of june 9th came, where they got blocked by my friends for "recommending a song from a bad person". they let me know about this, i checked what happened, and... it was a song from gremlin. this didnt bother me too much until i tried to explain to them that they were both problematic... they didn't listen. i dont remember the exact details now as my brain blocked out most of it, but i remember this almost made me spiral into a meltdown, and i suddenly couldnt stand them. i blocked them because i was too uncomfortable and i was on a brink of a meltdown.

june 10th, they made a whole vent about me. guess who had a meltdown!! multiple meltdowns in the span of 2 weeks!! how did i know?? twitter bugged out on me. the vent completely broke me. i was reminded of my ex and how they talked to me. i started getting scared of myself. i felt like a monster. i seriously wanted to kill myself. at that point, i was waiting for my chip friends to block me because i started all of the shit this time!! shit people wanted to move on from!! my brain was convincing me that my chip friends hated me!! (and to this day i still feel like that sometimes)

i had so many more meltdowns from that time. late june, i had to defend another friend (who i'll refer to as bones, for privacy reasons) from being manipulated by them. i was so angry one of my friends went to calm me down through dms. i was so stressed out of my mind that i even went non-verbal one time, which rarely happens!! this continued on and on and on, spending my time and energy defending my friends. i found out so much more about gremlin, even more gross shit, seeing she was friends with someone who is very openly radf*m/a t*rf (+ blamed bones for their own personal family problems), someone who was openly proshit (+ was one of the people who harassed one of my friends)... you get the picture.

this ate away at my mental health more, to the point where i started contemplating suicide. shit i dealt with irl really didnt help either.

the worst part was in january of this year where i had a really bad panic attack because i was scared bones was going to kill themself and there was nothing i could do about it. after that i gave up with the fandom because i finally accepted no matter what i did, nobody would listen. to bones, the friend im talking about, i hope you're okay and i'm sorry i chickened out. im sorry i failed you.

i attempted to try to step my toe into the chip fandom a few months later again by creating the starlandspoons account as my vosim hyperfix was still there and i really missed the good times, but... i still felt unhappy. i have nightmares about the chip fandom sometimes. i am constantly reliving the shit i had to witness in my head. im still feeling the anger i felt those months ago. im still getting angry at myself for not doing more to defend my friends. im still feeling suicidal (not just from the chip fandom, but its contributing to it). it all hurts so much, to this day.

im still going to post on the starlandspoons account for as long as my vosim hyperfix continues. yall are not taking that from me.

sorry for such a heavy vent post, but ive just been needing to let this out for such a long time. it's 4am, i desparately need to sleep. i will say this a thousand times more: thank you to the chip friends who have stayed by my side despite all the shit i endured. thank you so much, you guys really mean to me. seriously, you guys do. i dont know what i'd do without you guys. and to 3 certain people from the chip fandom (you 3 know who you are), thank you especially.

for those who read all of this, thank you for listening to silly little val. i'll be okay, i think. i hope you guys have a good day/night/whatever time it is for you. ;___;

[emiko-love]

Welcome! This is an ask/RP/pseudo personal blog for my VTuber character Emiko Watanabe. You'll find 'personal posts' from Emiko, as well as roleplaying with other characters and answering asks sent in both IC and anonymously. My name is Mysty! This blog will be largely in-character; if a post isn't labeled "#ooc" then that means it isn't me, the writer, talking.

Rules for interacting with the blog are under the cut!

Emiko is 26 years old. Mature themes may be present. If I feel something is getting too graphic, it will likely be put on the sideblog to keep this one clean for those who'd rather not see that.

I'm open to interacting with pretty much any fandom, as well as OCs. I will be posting verses for her in fandoms I'm familiar with, but as long as you're willing to talk to me about how you see your muse meeting Emiko, I'm open to fandoms I'm not familiar with as well.

I keep drama away from my writing spaces. If you feel I need to know something, you can message me. Otherwise, I do not vaguepost, make call-outs, or reblog them, and anyone I see doing so frequently will not be followed or may be unfollowed.

By default I keep anon on, but I'm not afraid to turn it off if I feel it's being abused.

I love exploring all kinds of relationships. If you have an idea of how your muse could interact with Emiko, or if you want them to already know her, just let me know! My IMs are always open to plotting.

As far as RPing, I'm mutuals-only. I'm happy to answer asks from people I'm not following (in fact, I encourage it) but actual writing threads are for other RP blogs I'm following.

I will be posting about actual events such as streaming and IRL events that I, the mun, am going to. Despite this, please remember that Emiko herself is a fictional character.

[dolokhoded]

not people who have never seen/listened to great comet saying they hate the majority of the actors??? like just the,, literal people who happened to be in the show??