#im so sick of looking at this. it's been DAYS! BUT IT'S DONE.

[stardust-sunset]

I’m just gonna ask this once but how come whenever brody is absent for more than two days IM the one getting harassed over it? I’m not gonna respond anymore because I think I’ve made my points clear and all I can say atp is check my pinned but like…why is it me? Are you trying to be like “i told you so?” or like are you trying to prove something? because my stance isn’t gonna change. I’m still gonna support him. And it’s fucking creepy the way some of you track his absences. He’s allowed to take breaks. He should take breaks and the reason WHY he takes breaks is not up for speculation and if he really “wasn’t in the show anymore” we would’ve heard about it by now. He’s entitled to his own privacy and I don’t know why i’m the one who has to deal with the brunt of the hate like I’m not him. I’m not connected to him and just because I’ve been vocal about my opinions in the past doesn’t mean i enjoy looking at dumb anonymous hate.

Let him take breaks without speculating why he’s gone. It’s creepy and frankly it’s an invasion if his privacy. You don’t know him. I know a lot of the cast is active online so it seems like people know him but you don’t. It’s okay to be worried but what I’ve been receiving is not okay. And you know who you are. He’s probably fine and just needed a while to take a break. A lot of the cast takes breaks and yet it’s just him that gets shit. Sure maybe he takes off more than other people but that’s his choice. And his part is the most involved and it’s NATURAL that he’s need a break. It’s his body. Not yours. He knows his body better than anyone and if he decides he needs a break, then he’s going to take a break. End of story, close case, don’t speculate. And if you hate it that much then don’t support the show.

I’m done being the one everyone goes to to be like “oh he’s absent again all he does is take breaks” or “oh he’s absent he shouldn’t be on broadway” because it’s gross. If you’re speculating that hard and tracking the absences of someone you hate so much then I’m going to assume you genuinely have no life.

Sorry for the rant. I’m just sick of waking up to hoards of anon hate and speculation. He’s fine. If something happened we would’ve known by now.

[bladewarde]

𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒅𝒐𝒆𝒔 𝒍𝒂𝒆𝒓𝒂 𝒄𝒂𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒆𝒎𝒐𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔?

anger. laera houses her anger in silence, and unseen, but there is not a single part of her being that remains untouched by the rage she's tenderly nursed for decades. she's mastered how to patiently live with it, ever aware of the inevitable eruption, yet it undeniably controls her: her motives; her choices, and at its centre lie her anger. there are glimpses of it hinting at what's to come. it appears in the downturning of her mouth; the rigidity of her face, and should she give in to the torrent, it rushes forth. her presence demands submission from others, unafraid and unchallenged, and the venomous words she screams are meant to hurt. it shakes her, and when the tides of her anger retreat, she simmers. laera often finds her quiet after these heated outbursts in private. a cathartic release of what she's held inside for far too long, but the unfortunate truth is that it's never enough to bring her peace. 

joy. the honesty of her joy is sweet, where in the rarest of moments, laera will allow her guards to falter. she is subdued in this expression of her happiness, pushing aside all the ill-feelings she carries in her chest, and permitting herself to express these feelings in truth. it hurts her face to smile; it hurts to pull a laugh deep from within her stomach. her words aren't so harsh as she teases, and her smile is genuine despite the effort to fight it back. having deprived herself of seeking out her interests as a child, laera is learning to find what brings her joy, and she deeply cherishes these little moments of discovery. embarking on a whirlwind romance in the pages of her favourite novel; spending hours picking through a shopkeep's wares to find the perfect wood carved statue for her shelf; watching the patrons of the market district go about their day while she eats ripened sunmelons -- for a few moments, she can be distracted -- content, as it were, by the simplicity of the things that are meaningful to her.

sadness. her sadness is intimately entwined with her grief, and like much of how laera presents herself, is masking her more vulnerable emotions behind her figurative armour. she's had twenty long years to grieve a life she'll never know, and in the private moments where she recalls the depth of her loss, and how most of her life thus far has been spent unhappy, it weighs on her. unfathomable in its breadth, her sorrows are such that she refuses to share them with others. they eat her from the inside, and laera becomes withdrawn. no amount of keeping her head up can hide the slow deterioration of her inner strength, until she can no longer stand it. it breaks her, and only with her closest of friends will she reveal what's troubling her, yet even in the trusted company of her loved ones, she holds back. she fights her tears through choked breaths, a grimace on her face, as the last bits of her pride roll down her reddened cheeks.

shame / embarrassment. laera will never allow her weaknesses to be used against her, and she viciously defends her shame and embarrassments from being scrutinised. it's too easy to mistake these for her usual abrasiveness; her shortness toward any line of questioning that she fears hover too close to the truth will have a reactionary reponse. she's snappy and rude -- more so than any exhibition of her usual behaviours -- and to the astute, a hint of desperation. a symptom of her self-preservationist qualities: she's desperate to protect her weak spots from being exploited, and will give little hesitation to drawing all attention away from what she's guarding. it's not that she is without humility, but being made aware of her faults so openly feels like a slight, and even if the intention is genuine, more often than not, she reacts negatively.

guilt. there is no room for a guilty conscious when the occupancy of what makes laera herself is at capacity. she has committed acts that most would be remorseful for; actions that would warrant a moment of self-reflection -- not laera. guilt, as she understands it, is an all consuming bother, and an unescapable weight she would much prefer to be without. she is flippant and unaffected, maybe even uncaring, because to dwell on the consequences of her actions would mean to take pause. she can't afford to sit still and think; she needs to be running, moving, constantly and always. 

fear / anxiety. fear is her greatest weakness, as it exposes parts of herself she wishes she could completely erase -- wishing they could be replaced with something unafraid and resistant -- but like her anger, laera is entirely controlled by it. the poignancy of her paranoia whispers to her that she will never be allowed absolute freedom; it threatens to strip away her worthiness; everything she has become and cherishes. facing judgement terrifies her because it would mean the end of herself. 

     ( based on this )

[reel-fear]

Genuinely so curious who Mike thinks is gonna be buying The Cage or the new DCTL GN bc with the way he tweets as far as he's concerned, it's not gonna be:

The queer people he has actively admitted he will never show any representation of in the games.

2. The POC he has actively fought against representing in his franchise. [Who he also mocked for thinking they would be represented in his franchise]

3. The Bendy fandom which has always been concerned with topics of diversity esp in the sense of queer people since its creation. Who he has responded to really poorly esp in regards to the GN.

4. The fans who critique him. [He blocked me for doing so lol]

5. His fans in general who he tweets about like this currently. [He's being vague about why people were mad at him or sent him 'nasty messages' because if you actually looked into why you'd see he was in the wrong. Either way, a very hateful way to speak abt ur own fanbase.]

Reminder while Mike is trash talking his fans he has always treated them rather poorly. The fans who won the fanart contest for Chapter 5 never got their posters actually in game due to it being rushed. Not only was chapter 5 a big slap to the face story wise, but it was literally so rushed he couldn't be bothered to add in the art his fans gave him for his game FOR FREE. [Meatly blames this on a crazy timeline, reminder him and Mike are the literal ceos of this company. The proposal of future updates here is also pretty cruel considering Mike nowadays happily admits he corrupted Chapter 5's source code and therefore literally can't update it At All currently. Because he is a moron]

At least they got to be in Boris and the dark survival, and by that I mean that was the Only game they got to be in so far, isn't that just treating your fans like you love them? Shoving their hard work into a spin off game almost nobody has played or addresses much. [Hell, who knows if with the Lone Wolf rebrand they'll even stay there. In which case they'll be in None of the games, only in the credits of BATIM]

6. The Bendy fans who just generally disagree with him on stuff. Like the new ink demon design where there is literally a public poll showing people generally prefer the old one.

7. The Bendy fans who can see he is actively lying to them. To their fucking faces.

He says this has always been the case, but screenshots and links to tweets regarding the books being canon prove it was not. Does he really think bendy fans are stupid or something? [Unless he's admitting here he lied to Kress when he told her the books were canon which sounds worse!]

8. Anyone who doesn't like the idea of giving money to a guy who laid off tons of employees then afterwards thought it was a great idea to express his anti-union views! Also brag about how good of an employer he was, according to his employees, he was not!

So in summary; Mike is an awful person who has not learned anything from the awful things he did. I will not be purchasing The Cage because, combined with this and his absolute refusal to take any kind of critique or see any differing interpretation of his franchise, I have no reason to think my problems with the franchise will ever be addressed or fixed. I probably will pirate The Cage along with any future Bendy Products [Including the movie] and will do my best to avoid giving it any kind of monetary support. Unless this changes any time soon, I can't see myself making anymore positive Bendy posts soon.

Mike has just managed to make it so hard to speak positively or optimistically of this franchise when he's so willing to broadcast how little he cares about it or its fans. I'm at the point where I refuse to pull any of my punches with my problems with it. What's the point of trying to play nice with my critique when either way the people creating it don't care?

So with this post, I want to invite anyone who feels similarly about the franchise to tell me, make a post or send an ask talking about how all of this makes you feel. It may not change how things are, but genuinely seeing other people share my feelings of anger makes me feel better. It feels nice to see when other people share our same concerns and worries. I'd also love to know if anyone else thinks they'll be avoiding purchasing Bendy products over this.

I'm not forcing anyone to participate in it nor trying to say anyone who doesn't supports mike but genuinely maybe if we can collectively decide to boycott things like the movie, graphic novel and The Cage... It might at least make the bendy devs acknowledge how much they have destroyed their own fandom's faith and trust in them.

The way Mike tweets about his actions like he had no control over why people were mad at him at least proves to me he takes NONE of it back nor regrets it. If you didn't know about his actions and only went off his tweets, you would be led to believe Mike has been needlessly picked apart by fans over things he couldn't control [or in his own words, had his words twisted and taken out of context]. That is not how you speak about your actions if you have actually learned better from them.

anyway, that has been my bendy dev callout post. This is an open invitation to anyone feeling similarly upset about the way the franchise is going to talk about it. It's genuinely nice to see how people feel about this and the more we talk about the more it's likely the bendy devs are forced to address our concerns. I don't think they will but hey, that's why I'm not gonna support them with my money anymore nor am I gonna be nice to them in any content I make critiquing Bendy. I mean I'm also basically making this post just in case anyone asks me Why I feel this way towards to bendy devs/as a way to respond to anyone who thinks I am too harsh in my critique in the future.

As always, it seems the best part of Bendy isn't actually anything about canon but about what the fan's are creating with the ideas Bendy failed to do anything interesting with.

Also the books, the books slap.

[hella1975]

in the showing up to the library with an overnight bag part of exam season

[alluralater]

super long rant incoming:

the joegoldbergification is super weird. like please please if you’re obsessed with me to an unhealthy and dangerous degree, just keep it to yourself. just don’t tell me, please. the amount of times someone has gotten like this with me and escalated things when i’ve told them to stop is seriously wild. and like wtf is this about saying how you didn’t want to have parasocial interactions like hello?? is my existence a performance to you? am i content created to be fed and consumed by you? and why WHY would you ever think it’s alright to take my kindness as an avenue to then start talking shit about femmes you had falling outs with?? what do you gain from that? certainly not respect from me and that’s why i called you out repeatedly on that shit. so so fucking weird. do you think you gain my pity or my sympathy?? you’re not a beaten dog so please stop. like oh my god the dog metaphor makes me wanna slam my head into a wall. like as someone who has literally been forced to watch animal cruelty take place, shut the fuck up. shut the hell up. your relationship ended and now you wanna demonize people and rewrite history thinking that if certain people don’t know the full story that they’ll just believe you. legitimately how the fuck and why the fuck would i do that when you position yourself as a blameless victim?? it’s so weird and odd. and on top of aaaaaall of that, to obsessively text me and try to like corral me into a corner and say all of this weird stuff like as if you’re spiraling about me when we’d only texted for three days (two of which i wasn’t even responding to you for) is seriously bonkers. like seriously thank fuck something told me not to sext you because i just know things would have gotten awful. it’s not normal and it’s not okay and it’s not healthy. please stop idolizing me. i’m just a person and i am no more interesting than the next person. your obsession is not my responsibility! to try and manipulate me with the way you talk about your ex is super super weird. like extremely weird. i have a mind of my own?? hello?? i make my own judgments myself and i use intuition for a great deal of that. took me all of five seconds after blocking you to check the femme discord and see that i should have already done so but i haven’t because i’ve been busy with family emergencies for like two months. very uncool. very weird, very strange behavior. not my job, not my problem. i am not all of these weird deified titles you like to call me. i don’t have to be ‘omnipotent’ to know that you are trying to bury her and scream your lungs out into the fucking grave as if she deserves it. god i fucking hate when people do this shit. like can toxic mutuals maybe just instead leave me alone?? ‘why are you mutuals with them if they’re toxic” BECAUSE I DIDNT KNOW AND I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO BE SOCIAL AND FIND OUT UNTIL NOW. like fuck dude i hate it here sometimes. if you’re just haha obsessed with me, GREAT. but please don’t start dumping all this weird shit about how i *make* you feel when im not doing anything and i’ve stated that im not encouraging anything and ive communicated that’s a you thing. i literally told you to focus on yourself and stop talking shit about her and you just kept doing it. the whole obsessed with me thing can be what it is, at this point it’s so normal irl and on here that i’m too exhausted to try and do it all, but the decision to keep going and keep talking shit about her and demonizing them and making yourself a blameless victim is fucking gross and no i actually won’t just sit there and listen to it in exchange for your attention or some weird shit like that. i find it super super weird your constant asking of me to tell you what i think about you and what i think about ANYTHING and everything about you. what the actual fuck?? and then to be like ‘i want to take accountability’ after i’ve already told you everything you’re doing wrong and locked my boundaries and said how uncomfortable i am?? that’s hilarious. anyways ugh okay that’s it bye

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

hai guys :3

[spotsupstuff]

Do you think ancients have nerves in their anemone hair? And if they wanted to cut it to a shorter length would they need to numb it first?

stars and heavens above you've no idea how much i had been mullin this shit over, fuckin.... cuz like Technically that hair is what a proper (our real life) sea anemones are. that's literally just it, the rest of the body is some weird ass evolution stunt circus that i've given up on tryin to explain to myself an hour into initial designing process. so by That logic they REALLY probably shouldn't be cutting it

but we don't have the evolution stunt circus rest of the body for nothin n they already do worrying body modifications so feckin hell might as well, right?

you can notice with Sparrows that she never really cuts it and it grows rather slowly

(and also i am shit at watching out for the hair length most of the time)

so "haircuts" would be probably pretty rare and usually done by the wealthy or smth

but Also when i drew Wind as an Ancient

my thought process was that the "hair" can be either pulled out completely (probably for those religious purposes again) or fall out naturally despite being a much more solid part of the Ancients than our own hair. es probably Some kind of medical condition

[dykeandballs]

nyello

[pyrriax]

ANYWHO goodnight tumblr i'll be back on the art grind tomorrow i think 🙏

[lilgynt]

my mom found the thing that started the fight that got me kicked out. so i was right. in my fantasies this happens and it’s great in real life im gonna jump her

[bl00dw1tch]

the way i have absolutely no business being the way i am

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[whomturgled]

:^(

[guinevereslancelot]

what if i ate something besides toast and saltines 🤔

[sugaroto]

Tiktok realized I was feeling off with my friend before I did

[devilofthepit]

i am so much more mentally ill than i was last year but also in different ways. the problems i had a year ago have not gone away but i care significantly less now #growth unfortunately my current problems are now worse.