Guess who made a QSMP AU about Martyn being on the Island?!
This is just some barfing I did while dealing with Carpal Tunnel, so if you see some of them and think, "Why is the lineart so bad here?" That's why. I developed Carpal Tunnel and refused to stop and/or remove my brace.
Anyway, I still have no idea how Martyn would have gotten to the island within the logic on the island, like I'm sure Doc sent him there, but I have no idea if he would have being already there or was sent on a boat by the island or what. I do know that they will probably contact him because of his experience dealing with Watchers as someone who seemed to break out of their grasp, and the Federation thinks what they have on their hand is a Watcher since, you know, tricked a bunch of people into a secluded area and forcing to kill each other for its entrainment is all very Watcher-y behavior.
What they didn't know is that he seems close to the notorious Federation hater and anarchist Philza, like, sure, they look similar, but you can't blame them! All white men look the same!
I FUCKING (S)CREAMED. the screech i let out was akin to a prehistoric BEAST. Cecil nation, we are so back. my wife is in his bitchiest glory and glam. but ntm on kate now ..
sick and fucking tired of people going 'i love the 1975' and they mean ONLY matty, or ONLY matty and ross, like. jfc hello? what about the rest of the band? the way people always ignore adam is going to push me over the edge one of these days i swear to fucking god
What frustrates me about the "but astarion is popular with women for a reason!" Is that it so blatantly disregards two key things. A) his flagrant racism often goes unmentioned in this scenario. Can you see why he would be as equally offputting to women because of his racism? Can you maybe see why people neglecting to mention this in terms of his "character design" have the privilege to disregard it because it doesn't personally affect them?
And B) what they're really getting at is that they resonate with his struggle for autonomy, particularly sexual autonomy, but... everyone's stories are about their own autonomy. He's not really that special.. Yes, I'm a survivor, yes I've been taught to use my body as a bargaining tool, yes I also personally have the same difficulties he has. I resonate with him a lot. But I ALSO resonate with Karlach! Who was physically altered w/out her consent, who was told she was only good for her body and the damage she could cause, who had to make sacrifices to stay alive but has worked on a truly radical kind of positivity so she can live her life the way SHE wants to live it. I also resonate with Wyll, who has been told his only worth is what he can offer to others, who has incredible burdens placed upon him that he tries desperately to fulfill, who has been sexually harrassed and violated by Mizora, who longs for romance and companionship despite it all. I resonate with all of them. The idea that somehow "well women like him" is a talking point at all simply proves to me that people are legitimately not understanding the actual content they've been given.
Girl where is my joy where is my whimsy why am I tired everyday why don't my interests satiate me 😭 I'm not even depressed why can't I get my enjoyment :////
isekai is such a popular genre right now, and its taken a clear shift from 'i got isekai'd and now im a fantasy hero!' to 'i got isekai'd and now i get to live a quiet and happy life in the countryside/as a librarian/pharmacist' and obviously a lot of it is just......someone wrote this to kill time and draw boobies, but Parallel World Pharmacy was so good???? i cried so many times, and i love the shift in tone the genre has gained with stuff like that
// i was gonna write something today like i was gonna write literally anything just Something.... but my meds are changing and im not feeling too hot actually so i just. Didn't write anything at all i guess... getting brain zaps from coming off sertraline and also just not coping well with life atm i guess. sorry for the lack of content i'm just in a very weird place right now and i really don't know how to cope with it tbh
its upsetting how much social media has really made it easy for people to be ableist. for people to spread ableist shit and content made by disabled people so other people can laugh at it and marvel at how "weird" or "unnerving" they are. whats worse is that because people spread it it shows up in disabled peoples feeds. it gets spread and the creator gets a lot of engagement that they may not know how to handle. people begin trying to exploit the creator. videos get made of them. forums and threads and all sorts of shit. and its all just. how can anyone do this? dedicate hours at a time to laughing at disabled people just existing on the internet? who taught these people that this kimd of thing was okay?
idk how to phrase this but I wish there was a way for me to filter out fics on ao3 that describe Bill as "incapable of feeling love" in a "woe is me, the nonhuman character cannot feel this random emotion, Ford would be so much happier if only Bill was Capable of Feeling Love" way
There are so much I want to talk about, but I can't really find the words to. This isn't exactly meant to ask for your forgiveness. I just want to meet and talk. Only if you want to.
I'll see you at my old house the day you succeed, if you chose to find me.