#innermost being

[brother-hermes]

Wisdom: Water & Spirit Revisited

Bridal mysticism is an integral element of my spiritual journey. By breaking down the symbolism of water and spirit we're internalizing a connection between the All and our being. Please feel free to share any wisdom you have and ask questions. Share this

“If any of you lacks Wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. For that person must not suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.” James…

[tonyjwash]

Cultivate a Healthy Heart...

Cultivate a Healthy Heart…

Guard your heart with all diligence, for out of it flow all the issues of your life. (Proverbs 4:23) Your heart, your innermost being, that great citadel of your life is formed by the thoughts you hold onto and persist with day by day. People rarely make the connection between the thoughts they entertain and the things that come to pass in their lives. Instead people think or conclude that life…

[kaitcake1289]

IMPLIED TVC SPOILERS !!

"[...] so she could stay in the same flat-chested, hairless-crotched 14-year-old baby doll body as her mind and spirit turn 19, 20, 25, 63, 358..."

[nightswatchdisbandmentera]

Jon becoming KiTN in Winds (specifically) would actually be bad as far as themes go

[healersadjust]

AAAAAAAAA I SAW ALL UR TAGS ABT JULES MY KITTY OC... Thank u for all the nice comments abt them I'm so glad u like them 😭😭😭😭

dude they’re so cool!!!!!!! literally in love w them,,,,, i am humbly requesting to learn about their tattoos/markings they have on their chest/back/arms(? iirc?)!!!!!!!!!

i am weak always for kitties, but i absolutely combusted seeing jules,,, and your art of them is amazing!!!!! i look forward to seeing more~ feel free to tag me, if you get the chance! i’d absolutely love to see!

[bacon-sandwich-of-dionysus]

American Werewolf In London and Guilt

Ah... where to begin with American Werewolf? I love that film so much, it's humorous, it's gory, it's bizarre at times, and it's got some cracking special effects by the legend Rick Baker.

However, what also enthrals me about American Werewolf is the way it portrays David's guilt. He quite literally has the ghost of his friend, Jack, who didn't make it, haunting him, telling him he should have been the one who died by going on about what a mess his funeral was as well as how miserable limbo is. Jack then goes on to tell David he needs to die. His newfound lycanthropy is going to cause further disaster otherwise. Jack implies David doesn't deserve to live. When David slaughters some more people during his "carnivorous lunar activities," he encounters their ghosts, which too tell him he should do the world a favour and die. You could see the ghosts as sort of a form of David's inner thoughts. More importantly, they're manifestations of his guilt. Jack is the guilt of the survivor, the one who made it, who just happened to make it, while the other ghosts are David's future guilt as a result of future mistakes, which join forces with Jack to haunt David, to demand he join Jack like he should have.

Isolation is also a big theme in American Werewolf. David is literally isolated, an outsider, a tourist in England. His support network and family are back home in America and he can't return until he's fit to travel. He's trapped and surrounded by strangers. Although he does manage to find friendly and romantic company in nurse Alex, he's still alone in an unfamiliar place for the most part. Alex does help David a lot in his recovery, but she also dismisses his distress at first. She only realises the severity of the situation when David almost loses it, harassing a policeman to arrest him, screeching that he's the one who killed the victims in the paper, and when someone else, aka the doctor, tells Alex that there must be something more than trauma messing with David's mind.

David is essentially left to fester with his guilt until it's too late; until the full moon appears. It's an explosion! The breaking point if you will. David's inner beast, inner emotions which he's bottled up and buried in the hopes of getting better faster, come rushing out in this tsunami of blood and violence.

Because, unlike those around were to believe, David is not crying wolf. He's been traumatised, he's in pain, and he needs someone to believe that his dead best friend is a ghost haunting him.

When it reaches that breaking point, only then do people start confirming their suspicions that something's wrong. However, it's too late. David doesn't want help anymore. He's moved on. He's accepted the isolation. The werewolf won, and David, in the final act of the film, has been consumed by his guilt.

I love the final scene where Alex tries to reach out to him. It's an ambiguous one. Everyone has their own interpretation. Some people think it's a part of David surfacing before the beast resumes control and lunges at Alex. Others believe it's David surfacing and remaining, choosing to lunge at Alex so he can be shot, feeling as though he is past the point of no return. Both are valid and I think both feed into the same idea of being consumed by your guilt. Either way, whether the wolf takes over or it's David choosing to be put down, David still dies and he dies pushing someone away because he's afraid for what might become of Alex otherwise. It's the guilt. The guilt of losing his best friend, the guilt of killing those victims, the guilt of remaining alive when the ghosts demand he end it all in the name of preventing further pain and suffering.

The wolf is guilt thriving.

I love a lot of werewolf films, but American Werewolf just does it for me. I always love it when people look at the werewolf as a concept and see something they can do with it to make it their own. Werewolves are such ancient monsters, and they can mean different things to different people. So, yeah, that's my little ramble about American Werewolf.

[corallapis]

in mawdryn undead when the doctor grabs turlough’s hands and says “you’ll be quite safe. the mutants won’t harm you” but like. he’s not safe is he

[raineyraven]

can i just say that it's very obvious when a good omens s3 theorist isn't a writer

[jaarijani]

yknow the difference between our rampant horniness and that on twitter/insta/tiktok is that i believe we're all old and sensible enough to understand that we wouldn't say any of the depraved shit we think to their faces, and as far as i know most tumblr fans are just kinda down to earth, whereas on twitter i feel like fans like to get up into their faces and just shout whatever they're thinking like

friends have some respect, yes im attracted to these men but i at least have the decency to keep my umazane misli in my brain and on my silly little tumblr blog these guys are people too and if someone randomly went up to you to tell you they wanna fuck you you'd be uncomfortable too

all that to say that if any of the guys do come here

please do not

and absolutely do not look at my tags 🫡

[brother-hermes]

Merkhabah & The Five Levels OF Soul

Let's take a look at the Five Levels of Soul in relation to Merkhabah. With so much information available it would behoove of us all to return to the source of the teachings and refresh our understanding. Rock with me as we take the journey within.

“Man is a microcosm, or a little world, because he is an extract from all the stars and planets of the whole firmament, from the earth and the elements; and so he is their quintessence.”-Paracelsus When we hear Kabbalists speaking on the Levels of Soul it’s easy to get confused. A- we’re hitting a language barrier with terms that don’t easily translate into English B- most of us aren’t…

[debtsunpaid]

i'm still going apeshit over my new guy while i write their backstory but i'm being a perfectionist about it, so in the meantime here's a few lil things about klavier:

formerly an astrophysicist working for the ESA (and one-time astronaut, but that wasn't always the plan). their colleagues remember him best for their mental math prowess, his ferocity in advocating for their team & their project, the six separate times he almost knocked himself out on the wing of their own spaceplane, and the very, very formal weekly dinners they hosted that no one ever expected to be that formal bc he brought them up like inviting friends over to watch the game on sunday.

re: the dinners: they love to cook for people. love it. very picky about the process and doesn't often like other people helping them (he takes hosting and courtesy towards houseguests very seriously), but doesn't mind people watching or taste-testing. he doesn't do it as much these days, because all the joy was really in the social aspect & he considers themself too dangerous to get close enough to people to invite them over, but they'll still pull out absolutely flawless cutting technique when applicable.

met their fiancée (magdalena) in university bc he was arguing with a professor in the law library where she worked. she came over to tell them to shut the fuck up, and he jumped so badly that she felt guilty later & went back over to apologize, to which he Also apologized & suggested that hitting him with one of the heavier books would have been equally effective. they started talking about each other's work & majors, were going to part ways when the library closed, then awkwardly ended up walking the same way home. to the same apartment complex. for a while after that, whenever klavier went to the library while magdalena was working, she'd catch his eye and pretend to line up a shot with the heaviest book she had on hand, which always made them laugh.

currently a drifting adjunct professor & substitute teacher, as well as an occasional german, spanish, & math tutor. he tends to focus more on teaching/talking about mathematics these days rather than astrophysics, though they've done a few physics lectures here and there; if asked why, they'd say it's because he's still hiding from the german government + MI-6 and it's smarter to avoid being found within his field of expertise. but really it's because the last time they knew what was real & what wasn't was in 1990, the world's ideas about the cosmos have changed drastically since then, and he no longer feels like an expert in anything, or like he even knows the world they're standing on, let alone any worlds elsewhere.

CLIFF NOTES ON THE GOD PROBLEM: klavier was psychically bonded with jallakuntilliokan during his first (and only) spaceflight on the spaceplane hermes because their orbit put them Directly over the geotroniks facility where the magi caecus were firing the fear machine, at the exact moment when john constantine, zed, and marj were completing their ritual to summon its anima (other godly half) and negate its intended damaging influence on the world. but while the beings themselves balanced out, the summoning rituals did not (pagan nation involved 3 people, geotroniks involved 2), and they could not co-exist unevenly in the world, so jallakuntilliokan had to draw on more psychic energy in order to even things out.

luckily for jalla, there was a spaceplane with 3 powerful potential psychics perfectly aligned with the ley lines that it drew its power from, courtesy of string-pulling and secret testing led by the UK magi caecus and klavier's own mother for over a year prior. it was a flimsy backup plan based on the (so they thought) astronomically slim chance the summoning would fail, with the intention that the spaceplane would be intentionally crashed into the facility and some poor suckers would be sacrificed for enough psychic potential + public shock & alarm to rev the fear engine all the way up to its purpose. they just didn't count on jallakuntilliokan sniffing out the supply first.

the other two astronauts were fried, but klavi survived; the burst severely damaged the hermes and it crashed back to earth, veering off course and hitting the baltic sea. all klavier remembers is the burst, seeing his colleagues burn out, the agonizing sensation of something segmenting their brain like an orange, and then being dragged out of the ocean later. he was then secretly held by the german government for three years in the hopes of determining what the fuck had happened & what was now wrong with him, until jallakuntilliokan shoved their consciousness into the Dreaming long enough to take hold of the body and bust out. he's been on the run ever since, all but convinced there's an alien living in his skull, unaware that he's playing host to a god.

[van-del]

The state says my three months in juvie wiped my slate clean, but my soul tells me different

- Terry McGinnis

[apollos-boyfriend]

every time one of my irls asks for/follows my tumblr i have to give them the “are you prepared for what’s about to flood your dash” speech

[goodobservationshirley]

I hadn’t read His Dark Materials in years (well over a decade), but I watched the show with my mom who hadn’t read the books, and I think the only change that I noticed that kind of bugged me (again assuming I’m remembering right) is Roger’s attitude in the land of the dead upon first seeing Lyra. That said, I completely understand why they made that change since I had to look up his actor to make sure it was the same kid, and clearly they needed a reason why he’s now like the same size as Lyra, but I do miss his unwavering faith in her that was in the books. I’m now planning on re-reading the books and am very curious if I am remembering the mulefa description correctly because the show is not how I pictured their legs at all.

the whole land of the dead thing is very different in the book

part of it i would say is just that it's a different form of storytelling and they had to rethink it to make it work in the time frame they had

but also the land of the dead, in the book, is kinda a huge moment for lyra's journey. she suddenly can't rely on what she does best (lie) and finds herself completely out of her depth. the problem is that we can spend a lot of time on this in the book because lyra lying almost by default and in a sort of childish easy way has been well established by that point, it's basically her defining characteristic

in the show? not so much. it is mentioned a few times that she's a liar, yes, but show!lyra is a bit older, hence less childish from the get go, and she's not so much of a fanciful liar as her book counterpart is. all these changes make sense for the show, but lyra-not-lying is only a meaningful part of the story if lyra-lying was an important part of it. it is in the book, but it isn't in the show

all that to say, yes the land of the dead scene is very different and i understand how it's the point where your memory would have been like 'wait a minute'. because of other changes they made, they kinda had to rework this moment to give it a bit of a different emotional weight. the change in roger's attitude to lyra is part of it

[hypergryph]

*sends loving support to you because you still an amazing artist, writing really fun and fascinating stories, and you are definetly one those people I look up to a lot*

I hope you have a good day and summer!

Reading this makes the heavy lifting feel light as air :D thank you for supporting my work for as long as you have, and for sticking around after the account move. It's truly a blessing seeing a familiar face (icon? Haha) and getting to share and exchange such creative lore ideas and questions with you!

I hope you have a wonderful summer as well ^^

[kuuyandere]

The high priestess?

II. The High Priestess- How is your innermost self like?

Much more of a depressed, emotional wreck than how I outwardly appear. He craves violence because he doesn't know how to process pain and loss, and he needs control because he is afraid. Such a greedy, desperate thing. Tries so hard too. You can typically see him lying on the ground and staring blankly upwards in an empty, dissociative state as tears drip down the sides of his face for reasons he can't recall. Or curled up in the fetal position with blunt chipped nails clawing his skull open as he screams soundlessly.

(We are working on it.)