#introveted talks

[introvertedphantom]

Aaaa! My pins came and they are more adorable in real life!

10/10 would recommend @starglowy store!

[kidron]

Not gonna lie, really needed to talk about this. Because eventally i get shamed by both sides.

Shout out to those who don't mask to please others, I understand you guys, It takes alot of energy and pain, You're brave for handling it all alone :]

And also for those who mask but deep down still remember who they're at least ! :D Y'all may hate me for this but anyway :

I think that masking is wrong, Not for anyone ! But for ourselves. It takes alot of mental effort and may have negative effetcs way more than the good ones.

Again i understand why people mask, I don't live in a pink cutie word with nice parents and society that accept me to say that i'm refuse to mask and that it's wrong, no, i live in society that still mainly see autism as something need to be cured and "autistic" is an insult that have a similiar meaning to introvet ( according to them ), and yes, this by doctors from where i live

But it doesn't feel right to shut ourselves down for them, you from the inside is the prettiest for sure, masking the way you shine while THEM live the way the please... you know, not fair

Ahhh since venting is allowed i have been wondering this for few months

Why do adults autistics ALWAYS ( maybe not always, most of the time ) shame people who don't up ?

For example those who have scientific interests, who are really good at math and loves it, who are not afraid of speaking of what the belive in even if it means that they may loose people around them, those who are won't go crazy mad if they got called childish ( come on, who decided that being childish is even an insult ? ) ...etc

And i can put it in other words : people who won't hide who they really are just to take apart of the society who never thought of them as real people and have "friends" just not to be lonely

Listen, i understand that they do it because of the harsh struggles they go through, and so does all autistics.

But what i'm trying to say is, why must they shame people who don't want to mask ? Like yeah, i knew i was going to get hated for the things i said when my teacher asked and i didn't hestate to say what i thought of honestly, i'm not an idiot, i'm aware of what will that cause me

i just prefer being honest to myself because the hell everyone see me as dump for not understanding their cummon sense, everyone including those who were supposed to understand how each of us feels shamed me for "sterotyping autistics".

Why should I mask myself up just to please them while the only person who loved and tried to do their best to get me to be better, aka me, will be thrown away behind that fake mask ?

Thank you for coming to my Ted talk ( autism memes aside, seriousily guys, stop this)

hi 👋🏼

i understand what you’re saying and it can be incredibly frustrating especially when you’re being put down by your own community

i have come across some autistics who judge other autistics based on whether or not they choose to mask

i think whenever they have a negative attitude towards non-masking, it’s mainly just internalized ableism (manifesting in shame) that they’re projecting onto other autistic people

i have also had some problems with “reinforcing stereotypes” about autistic people while non-masking before. whether that be from me hand-flapping, wearing headphones, having trouble verbally communicating, or something else

considering the generalizations, and thus stereotypes, that have arose from these decently common autistic behaviors, it can sometimes make me want to mask these behaviors to prove some type of mislead point that “we don’t all act that way!”

this mindset took a while for me to dismantle as i had to come to terms with the fact that showcasing my autistic traits isn’t a bad thing, and being “stereotypical” isn’t either

however, i do think that there are many factors that can contribute to people who mask—especially when they feel as if they have no other choice—but i do also think that people shouldn’t project the negative feelings they might have towards people who don’t mask, and vice versa

overall, it’s a complicated topic with many causes and many reasons, but it’s important to support our fellow autistics into doing whatever is best for them (whether that be masking or not masking) rather than shame one-another (edit: not saying you’re shaming anyone, i’m talking about in general with the autistic community)

[kosaru-m]

I got bored so I did this (I'm sure some can see you at the inspiration came from) I think it turned out pretty good

@ninjasmudge not exactly sure what it is maybe it's just a fact that you're Wukong has a similar palette to the Poncho I think that's what that's called

[letswritestories101]

CHARACTER INTRODUCTION - YASU AMANO

Spectrum: Introvet League: Platinum Age: 17 years old Role: Protagonist Favorite Thing: 🛌Sleep🛌

Yasu is a shy, hard-working, intelligent young man on the introverted spectrum who has many thoughts, questionable social battery, little disposition for smal talk, and perhaps a crush on the beautiful new student on the opposite spectrum. With life already a mess, there’s no way it can get any worse, right?

… it won’t get any worse, right?

Meet my son, a baby who never did anything wrong, the person I love to write: Yasu Amano! He is a boy who deals with emotions in his own way and knows that his spectrum does not prevent him from feeling them. And more than I can say for many people in this story.

🛌 CURIOSITIES 🛌:

Like Ana, Yasu is a platinum student, as well as the first in his class.

He would be, ethnically, Asian-American. Japanese-american, especifically.

Local boy works as a salesman in a crowded mall that usually sucks the social battery out of him every time, in addition to deals with a bullying of a lifetime. Results? Bitter thoughts and salty comments follow eventually.

His favorite fruit is blueberry.

Learn more about Yasu here!

[idjitlili]

Carol’s cookies

Lindir x reader

Request: @ifitaketwomoresteps​  said:

Hmmmm another request for a certain chestnut haired cinnamon roll named lindir? I really need some lindir fluff, not feelin too great.

I hope you are feeling better, I myself am not sleeping at all lately ,and my stomach is always upside down,it is horrible.

Summary:Being an elf that lived in the forests with your parents ,until they decided you need to get out ,by delivering some of your mothers pottery's to Rivendell, only to meet some dudes.

Word count:2058

Translations: ellen=female elf ellon=male elf nana=mother nin meleth=my love

You had been traveling to Rivendell for the past two days,with your horse and wagon,and in honesty ,you wished that your mother hadn't sent you. Do you realise how horrible it is to pee in a bush ,and you have to rush ,just in case someone steals your horse and your shit? It is terrible ,I tell you. You really disliked talking to other people especially people you did not know. Your mother had recieved a letter from Lord Elrond of Rivendell informing her that he would like some her pottery work.

You see your mother,father and Elrond used to been very close,your mother being one of the finest clay moulders he had ever seen in all his years, and your father being apart of the guard. Unfortantely your mother and father fell in love ,however there families forbid it ,so the left ,your mother already pregnant with you,she was young for an elf too, they eloped quickly.

Therefore you were brought up with barely any contact with others, your father would take you hunting for your dinner ,he had taught you how to defend yourself. Your home was small,but it was all you needed as afamily of three. Plus it was all you knew, so yeah,anyways you were indeed nervous to meet other elves.

It's not like you hadn't met anyone else apart from your parents ,they would take you one their delivery trips ,but you rarely talked to anyone. Though once when you were very young you had brought to Rivendell,to meet your grandparents. Uh yeah it didn't go well bringing your two sets of grandparents together ,however when you were just alone with your mothers parents they adored you ,but their hatred for your fathers parents were still clear.

Anyways this visit allowed you to meet an elfling like you,though with long chestnut hair,shy as were you. JUst a pair of introvets. You had been sat near a tree in the gardens ,with a bunch of cookies ;that you had baked with your father before the trip,looking at the clounds ,munching on your cookies. When a figure had approached you ,you hadn't even heard them approach you.

"oh..uh.hi.I didn't mean to disturb you,sorry" the acorn haired elf had stuttered nervously ,infront of the cute girl he had stumbled upon,you had looked up to see a cute elf turning to leave,you really did want to make friends , like your parents wanted. "oh you didn't- do you want to sit and have a cookie I m-mean you don't have to if you dont want to.."  the elf had  turned slightly around with a big grin on his young face ,nodding eagerly,before sitting down with you.

Thus began your life long friendship with Lindir.

You would write letters back to each other ,due to you living far away ,plus rarely visiting Rivendell.

By the time you were arriving at Rivendell with your mothers pottery, the last time you had seen Lindir was 400 hundred years ago ,you were now 600 years old still young ,but now was considered an adult. So when you arrived at Rivendell and Lindir had greeted you not recognising you,it was understandable you had grown into your looks ,well elf puberty hit you basically.  Lindir had grown two feet taller at least,his cheekbones much more defined ,his hair now neatly styled.

"Lindir?" you had whispered ,as he had welcomed you into Rivendell,his eyes searched your face ,brightening and widening when he had realised that it was indeed you."y/n?" he had questioned ,with that you had placed the crate of vases ,plates and cups on the ground carefully before embracing Lindir into a tight hug. In which he returns instantly ,you stayed like that for a few minutes before you both pull away. "i almost didn't recognise you,my lady,you have grown into a fine ellen." he had spoken smoothly taking in your figure,making a small blush appear on your face.

"as have you grown into a handsome ellon,but please ,just y/n, we have been friends for centuries.",youu had spoke grinning at your bestfriend, it was no lie as you grew , you had developed feelings for the shy elf. Even if you both rarely saw each other,those feelings were there for both of you ,even if the other didn't know."why have you journeyed to Rivendell" Lindir had spoken trying to act as if he hadn't blushed at you comlipment. "apparently I needed to get out more, thus here I am with the pottery that Lord Elrond had requested from my mother."Lindir had chuckled lighty ,picking up the crate of pottery,carefully in on arm,offering you the other.

In which you had taken ,looping your arm in his ,as he guided you towards where ever Lord Elrond was. "So that you are aware, Lord Elrond has guests..small ones." you didn't even get to question his words, soon you were upon them. Your eyes widen in surprise ,as they catch the sight of a bunch of dwarves, Elrond dinning with them and wizard , and one wearing no shoes and big hairy feet? Yet soon Elrond had risen from his feet ,approaching you and Lindir ,with a polite smile on his face. "Ah , Lady Y/n,It is lovely to see you again ,I assume you have brought your mothers beautiful pottery work?" you had nodded shyly with a small smile,gesturing to the crate Lindir held in his arms.

"Thank you for delivering them for me ,the items for your mother while be loaded in your wagon by the morning. Now if you will be so kind ,Lindir, will you take these to my study ,then accompany Lady Y/n to her room , and maybe give her a tour of Rivendell ,it has been a long time,since her last visit." he had spoken quickly , not wanting to keep the unpatient dwarves,that were already eyeing you up. "Yes ,it would be my pleasure ,my Lord."  Lindirs words quiet ,as your arm was still tightly clutched onto Lindir ,you didn't like the attention the dwarves were giving you at all.

"It was a pleasure to see you again ,my lady." he had bowed his head at you , in which you did the same '' as to you my Lord." and with that Lindir had lead you away from the glawking dwarves  to drop off the pottery.  Another elf had already dropping your backpack off ,with your overnight supplies  in them.

Lindir had opened the  pine door leading you into a room ,in which sat your bag at the end of the bed. "If you want to settle in have a bath and such ,I shall be back in an hour with dinner, I could have dinner with you ,o-only that is if you want,so you don't dine alone..?" blush painted on his cheeks,as did yours,looking into his bark coloured eyes . "Yes, I would love that." Lindir had smiled brightly ,turning to leave ,only for you to turn him back around hugging him tightly ,head in his chest.

"I have misssed you.." you had muffed into his shirt,he had stroked your h/c hair with his soft palm,before replying "As have I missed you...Nin Meleth" he had whispered my love ,so quietly ,like 110% more quietly than normally. Before he had pulled away ,to go get you some food ,while you bathed.

In fact you had finished much earler than expected ,so you had decided to take a walk in the gardens. Only for two dwarves,one brunette the other with hair like an lions ,to approach you almost straight away,they were handsome indeed ,but at least a head shorter than you. You was only wearing trousers and blouse type shirt nothing special.Before you could even say anything that had.

"Fili.."

"Kili"

"at your service." the blond one had joined in with his younger brother in before they both bowed to you,you just stared but quietly responding "Y/n .." you weren't sure what to say in honesty,their grins were large,you were nervous you hadn't had a personal experience with dwarves. "y/n? that is a beautiful name for a beautiful elf maiden." you had blushed ,at the brunettes words,Fili had chuckled. "as are KIli and Fili, let me guess your dads name is vili." you had sassed you really was hungry, just wanted to find Lindir and you didn't some dwarves trying to bed your or fall in love.

Their eyes had widened gasping in shock " how did you know?" the blond one had finally spoken up ,"shes obviously psychic,brother." you had giggled at them ,and King Thranduil said dwarves were terrible.  Father wasn't right about that , okay so he wasn't your actually father ,forgot to mention, your father had been slaughted horribly infront of you ,so your mother and you had seeked safety with Thranduil for a while ,until it turns out your father survived and finally found you 5o years later. Thus you moved to a different forest a safer one ,mirkwood wasn't the shit.

"awwwe brother ,isn't she a beauty?"

"Indeed ,Kili." you had flashed with a blush ,staring at your feet again "thank you." you had whispered ,still looking at the floor until a hand touched your shoulder,making jump ,tripping over your feet only to be caught,looking up to see a certain chestnut haired elf,you had blushed again,as he set you back on your feet."Why do you wait so light,,its clear I do not have the hearing nor the grace of an elf ,it is clear that you do." you spoken still in shock  from him scaring you to death. "that is not true,I just came to find you to take you for dinner." he had smiled down to you whilst the dwarves watched intensely. "I think they are  courting first she flirted with him then he has made her dinner in that balcony ,too bad  the other dwarves have already eaten it.." Kili had mentioned catching both elves attention.

"the food is gone..?" Lindir had quietly replied in disbelief ,he had made the food himself ,your favourite food aswell.. Kili had nodded harshely,Lindir's face dropped,you had placed your hand on his fore arm. "hey..Its fine ,I brought cookies , we can go eat them where we met as elflings.." you had resurred your bestfriend,who's eyes had brightened up as well as the dwarves eyes.

"Miss Y/n? Could we have a cookie?" Fili had asked with puppy dog eyes ,in which kili had joined in you had nodded pulling two cookies out of your bag passing them to them ,wishing them well on their journey. IN fact they hadn't left they had hid in a bush while you had sat with Lindir in the grass,eating cookies ,holding his hand.

"you know they are right?" you had broken the silence catching Lindirs attention,his eyes searched your face in confusion.

"about what?"

"me flirting with you.." and with that you had pressed your lips to Lindirs soft ones,pulling your hand out of his ,to place it on his ,as he kissed back.

"only been waiting 200 years to confess my love for you ,then two dwarves turn up,and i finally get guts." you had spoken again as you both pulled away for air.

"I love you too nin meleth ,your nana is going to be surprised ,when she finds out." you had giggled at his words while kili handed his brother five gold coins.

Any chance for eomer requests...

[the-togepi-man]

I started going on a few dates with an ENFP. What do you think are some "when dating an ENFP" pointers? I'm ISFJ for reference.

Well hello! Sorry, I've been a bit busy so I haven't had time to respond! So met me give it a shot now!

I'll start with this first and foremost to get it out of the way- MBTI isn't for everyone, second even if you are in to it, any typing can be compatible with the right amount of love, effort, maturity, and understanding!

Ok with that out of the way...

I'm pretty much a stereotypical ENFP, so I'll talk a little from experince! I'm not a huge fan of the "manic pixie dream unicorn girl" stereotype that usually is latched on to our type to describe what we find whimsical and interesting, but we do tend to have a love for our passions and other people. If we are taking interest in you, you'll know. If you find out some things we are passionate about, pick our brains about it. Like most people we love being asked about things, but paired with our _NFP we love bringing up topics that interest us because not only are we sharing them now with someone we like, but we are also exploring it again ourselves. Bringing me to my next point

Me and most other ENFPs I know really like talking through things out loud with someone we care about. If it's an idea, a feeling, or a frustration, having a sounding board sometimes helps us clarify our ideas outloud. Maybe it sounds dumber when it's not in my head, or maybe saying to you helped my brain click it in to place. I know often Sean will let me rant about something and by the end I'll say something like "ok so this part wasn't right but I do feel this way about a certain thing." And that's not to say we don't care about what you have to say, just try to work it out with us if you dont always agree with us, or don't always try to fix the problem for us. That drives me crazy. A lot of time I just need to get past something in my head so I can do what I KNOW is right. Silence, shutting us down, making us worry, those things make us go apeshit- and a lot of types like INTJ or ISTJ like a direct approach. And while we do want you to be direct with your emotions we have a hard time taking things as direct criticism. Not to say that we aren't worthy of it, but if you want to correct us and help us learn ask us how to do so. I bring this up because most relationships that have _S__ x _N__ have the hardest time communicating because sensing vs. Intuition is our primary world view so while S tends to be a little bit more literal ENFPs are very much living in the what if.

Also, while our main way of living is Extroverted Intution, we also have an incredibly high Introveted Feeling, meaning we also have a high personal moral system. If it feels like we draw lines in weird places it's because it's never really a traditional moral code, so talk to your ENFP and find out what they care deeply about and things that they love or do not love.

This goes for pretty much all relationships though. While we are sensitive to criticism, if you or I have an issue speak up and bring it up. Everyone has a "grass is greener" personality but for ENFPs it's incredibly important to know we like a LOT of things and seems like we're always flirting around, jumping from interest to intrest, passionate about x, then y, then z, and that's because we usually are. If you talk to us and show us you like or love us we will assure you that you are your own person in our lives and not just a place holder. However.. if you play the part of placeholder, you might just become one.

Honestly, if we are dating you, trust you're not like the others because as much as we love everyone and everything fully committing on something means we've locked ourselves out of something else and and generally that's not part of our nature. We have big hearts and big minds and usually a big head to go with it.

So those are my ENFP tips. And if they're anything like me, they'll want to find the commonality that they have with you and find a way that you two can both feel love.

I'd type more but I feel like I've rambled on long enough. Also I'm on mobile so if there are any typos I'll fix them soon!

Best wishes you two!!

[connormurphy98]

Hi, I don't know if you're still doing the deh ships but if you do then: I am pretty short, average teen guy. I like team sports like volleyball. I love discussing various topics just for the sake of it. I'm very introveted. I have my small group of friends and i'm not comfortable meeting new people. I'm not great at speaking out loud I prefer texting

Deh ships tagged as : Makennas ships

Hi honey! I ship you with Evan Hansen!

You two met through a mutual friend at a small birthday party and Evan loved what you had to say and valued whenever you spoke up. 

He was very thankful that he asked for your number before leaving.

Evan doesn’t actually live all that close, about a 40 minute drive, so you do a lot of your talking through texting, which neither of you mind. 

Evan will take the bus to make sure he can try and make it to at least see a part of your volleyball games, and he will always cheer you on even if he doesn’t completely understand everything yet. 

A lot of times because Evan doesn’t drive or have a car, he’ll set up little movie dates for you online. There’s a website called rabb.it where it shares screens so you can watch movies together without having to be together. It became your weekly tradition, and you switched every week who got to pick the movie. 

He loved your friends and would really cherish the weekends that you guys got to spend together and sleep over. 

You both help each other with anxiety, but you’re also amazing at knowing how to give space when needed. There's so much love and respect between you two!

[wgsy]

the corners of his mouth quirked up at the sight of approximately a year old munchkin cat rubbing against his calf with suji’s level of affection expressed through noisy purring, except this scenario wasn’t as strange to look at as the comparsion could’ve gotten at times. “how about this one?” he questioned natsu with finger pointed at the pet that was now lying flat on his feet. “minagam suits it, as well,” he pointed out, then looked up at her from below his large dark blue hood and continued with a suggestion once he’s rolled his back and lifted the cat up into his arms. “hey, hold it? it’ll look good with you.” it wasn’t that weonkee de facto did like that one the best, or thought the name would suit it noticeably more than the rest; it was way challenging to make a pick out of the dozens upon dozens of cats running around. this one was the only one who had come to him, though, so it’s scored the most total points yet by his book. it’s been great so far one way or another. he didn’t fancy crawling out of his rock too often, but sitting around constantly couldn’t have been pleasant for the laziest of introvets, and, unless it was for excessive physical activity, weonkee didn’t mind being dragged out of the house. even though he had enjoyed hanging out with natsu whenever they did, he was still just that, an introvert. he already noticed that he hasn’t talked much today and thought it suitable to put a bit more effort for a girl as lively as her. “several names into one, i like that; used to be my username technique.”  

[dovolnoroza-blog]

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Ask Me About Misha II Accepting II @contractaes

2. Where did you find inspiration for your muse?

Well to be perfectly honest, the whole reason Misha exists is because Libby wanted someone to love her precious boy and I was like well i can do that. So we sort of worked together to create Misha. The initial idea for Misha being a ballet dancer came from the fact that Eliot himself use to do ballet and I wanted a way for them to be able to interact with one another easy. 

As for his personality.. gosh idk man i just sort of had this image of a soft boy who loves to dance, who wants so desperately to be loved by someone. This boy who had to run away from his home because it wasn’t safe for him to even live there. I wanted a boy with a hint of sass and little shit nature.. and just honestly someone that Eliot Mueller deserves lbr. 

4. What’s your favourite headcanon about your muse?

Okay so I haven’t come up with that many yet, Misha is still in the infancy stages of being a muse. With that being said, there was this one headcanon that I came up with earlier today that I am pretty fond of currently: 

So occasionally when Misha is in between productions he has a habit of taking his favorite songs and creating routines to them, and they always tend to be songs that you wouldn’t expect one to be able to dance ballet moves to. When he is doing these routines he gets utterly lost in it and he is able to let go and be free in a whole new way that he isn’t able to normally do when he is doing dance routines for a production. 

However despite it being one of his absolute favorite things to do, he tends to do them in utter privacy. One knows that they are truly and utterly trusted if Misha allows them to watch him while he dances one of these routines. It means that not only does he trust you in his most vulnerable of moments, but that he wants to show you his own created choreography, and it’s something special. 

6. Are there parts of your muse that resemble parts of yourself?

Umm... We both wear glasses, and we both have some questionable music tastes. Our desire for snuggling and kisses too probably, maybe a shared bit of introvetness and avoidance of people. But really outside of that we don’t really have all that much in common. 

8. How did you choose the name for your muse? 

Libby actually picked out Misha’s name! I am the worst at naming muses, like honestly omg so bad. 

But okay so his whole name is actually 

Mikhail Aleksey Belikov, though he goes by his nickname now, that of course being Misha. His middle name was picked because it looked good with the name, and i honestly just googled russian names until i found something i liked. As for his last name.. it’s definitely not taken from my favorite russian muse, nope i don’t know what you are talking about. >.> 

[fuyuteki]

You people, you riajuu that talk to people on a daily basis, that share an apartment, house, whatever with a partner, roommate, you dare say you know what I go through? That, well, there’s also times when you don’t want to talk to people, you know, introveted times, oh YOU HAVE A CHOICE NOT TO TALK TO SOMEONE i DON HAVE AN EFFIBG CHOICE TO TALK TO SOMEONE

i’M SORRY just gukped down four mugs of coffee, I can’t witn this, I cant

[sithara-studies]

We texted a lot people 😭 I'm finally like having convos with him. So here's how it's going- me: wow we r relating today😭i have completely given up on my sci preboards tmrw

him: Oh we have chem board practical tmw😭 Dw um keep trying hard 👏☠️

me: you too!!

him: Oh i am trying hard To not fall asleep

me: coffee? does that help u?

him: I actually just drank coffee and it ain't helping cuz this shit ain't ending Bro I slept for 4 fking hours and I'm still sleepy this is shameful

me: Lol coffee doesnt help me too. I try doing pomodoro or animedoro. It releases the stress too Ahh fuck that's rlly bad

him: Shit it's been long since I watched any animes

me: Oh i recently started

him: Ikr... Cool what genre do u like

me: mostly action and smth mysterious So thts y rn I'm on death note

him: I watch romance mostly and not just any romance Like the saddest ones (even I like those types, but get really emotional at the end😭)

me: mhm never heard of them

him: Have u heard of "your name" or "weathering with you"

me: nope

him: I can tell u some but u shouldnt watch them or you'll just go into depression That's sad like it's so sad I felt bad for my existence after watching it

me: Lmao I'm already depressed due to cbse, so just tell

him: just watch the ones I told or maybe dont they're too painful bro

me: lol I'll give it a try tmrw and lyk (and I didnt </3 instead binged on 23 eps of death note and completed the series)

him: I can tell u the saddest anime of all but that'll be a crime so I wont

me: makes me look forward to it more :)

him: you'll um...best of luck

me: Uhh ty?

him: yeah mate yw😭

Next day

me: Oh hii how did ur practicals go?

him: hey they were so good I was shocked at how easily I could do them☠️ wbt u how was ur exam

me: oh damnn kinda gud i got set 3 which was the easier one so yeah could do good but there was like 2 or 3 qs which was which kinda tough

him: wow yall have sets in models? That's new ig cuz we didn't have back in 10th grade

me: oh yea we do hav bc in boards they give lik tht

him: bro even the extrenal I have no idea who she was but i wanted to hug her cuz she asked me the easiest stuff for viva😭 yea ik well hopefully you'll get the easier ones (he means the sets)

me: omg lmaoo tbh I'd not answer anything in viva out of anxiety😭 yea tyy 🤍

him: yall have viva? wtf wait ur in 10th right?

me: nah lol yea in 10th

him: I'll tell u a lengendary tip, never go first in viva always go in the last I was like the 3rd last and I got the most basic questions ever Bro the 1st guy omg I felt so bad for him the question she asked ☠️

me: Ayee you were in luck, tyy btw Oh btw how's science streak like?

him: It's um like idk wtf happened in 11th cuz obv it was online but 12th is like bw good and bad

me: oh you took bio or comp?

him: Bio Bio is so easy (guys this makes it more confirm that he's my soulmate😭)

me: ikrr

him: 11th grade bio is a bit hard but 12th bio is like a dream

me: my frnds says its difficult but lik it's easy guys just byheart and understand stuff 😭 Also if its okay, like where r ya frm? Like in india (I already know where he's from but like still for the blushes😭)

him: What bio? bro they're bluffing it's the easiest out of every subject fr omg hyderabad...wbu

me: ikrr 😭 FR????

him: yea why..☠️

me: same place 😭

him: oh wtf wow 😃 that's a coincidence lol

me: ikrr lol finding hyderabadis in our school is like finding a needle in a haystack

him: 😭kinda true ngl but there are like 2 people including me from hyderabad in 12th what are you gonna take in 11th?

me: Oh (insert a girl's name) is the other one ryt? pcb

him: Oh never heard of her. I know like only 4 girls from my grade It's probably cuz I really dont talk to many people...like I'm an introvert ifykyk 🚶

me: mine's like worse, ik lik one guy cuz we went to the same tuition whn we were little but now i dont talk cuz like I'm an introvet and you're the only senior guys I talk

him: Oh ur an introvert too? damn that's relatable then ig 😂 you should honestly talk to more they're really good guys Bro my situation is bad I just hate talk to anyone ☠️

me: idk how to start a convo lol like if i start talking to the other, like do they think I'm clingy or weird or smth like that

him: no ur pretty ok tbh even for someone who doesnt talk to anyone you'll probably need to find partners in 11th and 12th so u need to talk to them!

me: well u r prettier, like i am an introvert and I complimented u in the public so that beats

him: prettier?😃no no like i meant u have the ability to talk to anyone so dw abt it ☠️

me: oh 😭😭💀 ty but still i think ur pretty

him: wdym pretty..☠️ (srsly lik SRSLY he didnt get what i meant 😭)

me: dud like in looks or smth lik tht?

him: why..what no ones called me pretty I'm so confused but yeah mate thanks ☠️👌🏻

me: i mean like is usually used for lik complimenting the girls but I tend to use it to both lol idk y, but I think pretty like in handsome wise lik attractive wise (someone teach me how to say that you're pretty to this guy)

him: oh oh yea thanks I really dk how to responds to that but thanks😭

then he sends me like 6 snaps of spiderman edits and I say "Andrew tho 😍😍" and guess what THATS HIS FAV SPIDER MAN TOO 😭. Then we fangirled about andrew for a bit and the convo shifted to my introvertness because he asked if I saw batman and I was like no. He asked that becuase on insta he saw many people from my grade watch it and I was like first of all Idk that people watched it from my grade.

someone please tell him to give me hints if he likes me or not 😭 I hate suspense and this guy here is giving it too much 💀 Guess what? me and my guy are now in seperate buses </3 </3 so according to my theory, I'm guessing that we'll be on the same bus again next week monday because it would be holidays for the KG kids,

so currently manifesting that we both are on the same bus on monday and that he atleast says a hi or waves at me😭

First love???

Almost a month ago

Most of the scenes happen in my school bus (so the seating arrangements' divided half for the boys and girls, you'll know later why I'm saying this) Also the friend mentioned here is @aislingisstudying, I'm just too lazy to tag her everywhere so I'm referring her as friend

me: *looks at a boy and thinks his hair is really cute* *turns towards friend* Don't you think that boy's hair looks really cute?

friend: mhm yeah it is actually cute. Do you want me to go and say it to him?

me: What the fuck no, that's really embarrassing

friend: nahh i'll go and tell

me: bruh stop it would be really embarrassing

friend: fine okay then

10 minutes later

me: you know what, go. Go and compliment him from my side

friend: okay my guts level has gone poof you should have used to the chance before

me: mhm okay whatever

20 minutes later

me: you know what, i'll go and say it to him myself. Anyway I'll leave this school in like 3 or 4 months so i'll just say

friend: fine go ahead

5 minutes later

him: *getting out of this bus*

me: Hey dude!

him: *turns back*

me: your hair looks cute!

him: *traumatized or surprised eyes under the mask and leaves the bus*

all girls around me: *surprised eyes and giggling* you okay? have you gone out of your mind?!

A week ago

so me and my friend was sitting was the end of the girls side and my guy came and sat right behind us. OKAY LIKE RIGHT BEHIND US and the mf bus conductor and tells us to sit in front of the bus. So when we sat and settled down, behind us were our friends in 12th grade-

me: DUDE WE WERE SO CLOSE AND THIS CONDUCTOR CAME AND UGHHHHH

friend: I KNOW RIGHT YOU WERE LIKE THIS CLOSE *pinches fingers*

12th graders: okay what are you guys talking about?

*me and my friend narrates the story and shows the guy*

12th graders: Ohh we know his info, his name's ***** and he's in 12th grade PCMB and like he's an introvert and he watches anime and he's from hyderabad

me: INTROVERT??!!! HYDERABAD(im also from the same place and finding a hyderabadi in my school is like finding a needle in a haystack)???!!!! SCIENCE?????!!!!!!!!!!! *excited faces, hand gestures and noises*

friend: chill okay?

me: okay you have his snap?

12th grader: I have insta but like I'll give his snap too

me: omg thank youu!!!

Today

I actually got his snap 2 days back but I had my hindi exams going on so I sent him request today. So here's the texts-

me: *goes on snap, checks his snap id and takes a screenshot to send to my bsf*

after a few minutes

him: you took ss??...

me: *me realizing that people can see screenshots* Oh im sorry I actually meant to take my friend's but took urs btw hi

him: Oh ok hi

me: Um kinda awkward but do u remember like the compliment tht u got while leaving the bus?

him: yeah I do why?

me: oh well I said that 😅

him: oh thanks ig 😂

me: oh lol okay But lik I still wonder lik y u gave like a traumatised expression that day 😂

him: I was just trying to see who said that lol

me: Oh I thought u got offended or smth 😂

him: Nahh I can't remember who it was tho Like the face I just left cuz my stop was there How did u find my snapchat btw..?

me: Ahh I get it Uhhh that's sources lol i mean friends help to find socials??

him: Oh but I dont follow anyone from our school tho? It's a bit weird so that's why..

me: Oh okay

him: 👌

me: oh btw u up for streaks?

him: oh yeah sure i really need streaks i was about to ask *sends a picture of this fingers*

me: *internally crushing* oh ok

him: What😂? ur just there lol it's kinda creepy TYPE SOMETHING

me: Lolol I'm actually double texting on discord so 💀💀💀

him: oh oh makes sense ☠️

me: yea 💀

Idk what to talk next 😭😭😭 I wanna make convo but like idk what to talk about without being so awkward. Now I know ya'll will say to talk about anime but I dont watch anime too 😭 So give me tips <3 and he's my first crush (boys at my school mostly don't look attractive to me)

[the-pasemi]

Maybe this is just the Recreactional Stimulants talking, but I am one with everything. I am the sum total of human experience. All that is known to me is known to all, and goddamn these strawberries are good.

- Regards and well wishes,

The Extrovert (that’s me)

ps. Truly yours, still an extrovert

p.ps not introvet

….. god. this is such a Power Move. this is the funniest fucking thing i’ve ever read about anyone. your fave could never be this aloof.

[chocolatedetectivethings]

I never thought i will find a friend that will make me listen to "i'm only me when i'm with you" and think "oh this is about us" because i dont get close to people. (bad experience with "friends"....) but i finally found one. We started to be friends in seven grade (a religious school) but it was for fun, never talking about our feelings, only about comics and heros. only in senior year we started to really talk but i was still afraid to reveal too much because i'm gay and i heard her talking about the LBGTQ a few years ago and she wasn't a fan to say the least. anyway, we got closer during senior year and i felt like she's suspecting something but i said nothing. We finished school this year and we went to our own ways but we still meet whenever we can. Two weeks ago we where talking, i don't remember how we got there but she told me half joking that it's okay if i'm gay. I was suprised and we laughed it out but the feeling of exeptence was there. I tested it out again three days ago about talking about a favorite book of mine (a book about coming out, what a suprise) and she talked normally. i realised that she is waiting for me but i wasn't ready yet (i came to exept myself in a year ago during senior year). Anyway, i'm on my way home and i hear the song and i realise that i'm thinking about our friendship and how the song reflect it. I almost cried because i found a friend who i can truly be myself, with my introvet side, my anxiety, my obsession with taylor😏 and my sexuality. I felt so happy so happy i didn't know what to do so i decided to write this. Sorry, it turned to be really long. ( i feel so weird, i almost never talk about my feelings. But a good weird).