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Merry Christmas @irisnsc​

robron looks through the years

[whatdoiknow]

Robron edition

requested by @irisnsc

[bartsugsy]

@irisnsc YEAH!!! 💜💜 i have a (rarely used at the moment) bts tumblr, but i spend most of my time hanging out on my twt

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Wildflowers ~ Tom Petty ~ Wildflowers Album (HQ Audio)

 @irisnsc

You’ve essentially created a playlist for Robron and this fandom, and I thought you deserved a song write-up in return. Wishing you a happy holidays and all the best in the New Year!

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Despite their chaos and intensity, Robert and Aaron have always made me think of this song.

You belong somewhere you feel free. Freedom a theme throughout their relationship, literally and figuratively. Living as out and proud men, being in prison, being free to speak their truth about previous abuses or past transgressions, etc. Robert and Aaron have found freedom in each other; a chance to truly be themselves.

Sail away, kill off the hours, you belong somewhere you feel free. Right from the beginning, Robert and Aaron realized they just wanted time together, much as they tried to deny it. They couldn’t get enough of each other, starting with quick hook ups but progressing to afternoons in the barn to overnights in the hotel, until finally a week together, and a chance at being “normal”.

I have seen no other who compares with you. They’ve both said this line to each other in a dozen different ways. You’re the strongest person I know. You loved me like nobody ever has before. You made it okay to be me. I know exactly what I’m getting myself into. You’re the best thing that ever happened to me. No one else comes close.

You belong with your love on your arm, you belong somewhere you feel free. Robert and Aaron got married twice. They had three (four? five?) proposals. And they’ll have more. They’re endgame.

Run away, go find a lover, run away, let your heart be your guide. Through affairs and outings and traumas and mistakes, they kept coming back to each other. They’re rubbish without each other.

You belong among the wildflowers, you belong somewhere close to me. Far away from your trouble and worry, you belong somewhere you feel free. “I think we deserve it, a happy ending.” One day, Aaron and Robert will have their chateau by the river with a veggie patch and their family running around. And yes, they’ll have deserved it. They deserve their freedom, among the wildflowers, where they feel free.

You belong among the wildflowers You belong in a boat out at sea Sail away, kill off the hours You belong somewhere you feel free

Run away, find you a lover Go away somewhere bright and new I have seen no other Who compares with you

You belong among the wildflowers You belong in a boat out at sea You belong with your love on your arm You belong somewhere you feel free

Run away, go find a lover Run away, let your heart be your guide You deserve the deepest of cover You belong in that home by and by

You belong among the wildflowers You belong somewhere close to me Far away from your trouble and worry You belong somewhere you feel free You belong somewhere you feel free

[robronanniversarycelebration]

Cold Feet

To the wonderful @irisnsc​. I hope you enjoy this little ficlet!

The decorations for the so-called wedding of the year are beautiful and the admiration of all the guests who filter into the park. A live band plays tunes as people start to fill the seats, awaiting the start of the ceremony.

Aaron sits sandwiched between Chas and Liv, stealing glances behind him as guests make their way into the park. Aaron has never been a huge fan of weddings, but Chas had insisted with the help of Liv. After much cajoling and pleading, Aaron had finally relented and now he sat with his mum and sister, wishing he was anywhere but here.

Minutes upon minutes have ticked by, yet the groom is nowhere in sight. No one seems to mind his absence, yet Aaron finds it a tad odd. He checks his phone - 13:50, ten minutes before the wedding is supposed to start - and still no sign of the groom.

“I need some fresh air,” Aaron says, standing abruptly.

Chas takes Aaron’s right wrist and gives a warning squeeze to it, “We’re outside. Plenty of fresh air here.” She replies with an unimpressed look. “You better not be leaving us.”

“I promise I’ll be back before it starts.” Aaron assures Chas with a tight smile. Chas and Liv share a skeptical look, but Chas releases Aaron’s wrist with a defeated sigh.

Aaron slips away from the crowd of guests as quickly as possible so as to not draw attention from the fact he is escaping the wedding festivities. He keeps his head down as he walks into the Woolpack, not wanting to make any eye contact with anyone. The Woolpack is decorated for the post wedding reception - a few people are still hanging decorations, and Aaron spies Vic talking to Diane. They’re both dressed immaculately for the wedding, but have worried looks on their faces. He quickly bypasses them without their notice, but catches the tail end of their conversation, “I don’t know where he went…”

Aaron legs it to the bathroom before hearing the rest of what Vic is saying. It seems he isn’t the only one who has noticed the groom is currently missing.

Aaron heaves a grateful sigh when he sees the bogs are empty. He turns on the faucet and aimlessly washes his hands as he looks at himself in the mirror. Chas had insisted on the suit he’s wearing, a deep blue suit with an ironed white shirt and tie. His face is a little flushed, most likely from spending too much time outdoors waiting for this wedding to kick off.

He hears someone laugh down the hall, close to the entrance of the restroom. Panicking, Aaron ducks into one of the stalls. He doubts anyone is coming into the room, but he doesn’t want to chance it. Plus, being alone in the stall gives him some time to reflect on why he left the park in the first place.

Frowning slightly, Aaron sits on the toilet for a while to collect his thoughts. He didn’t hate weddings, but they make him feel somewhat regretful. His parents divorced and that led to so much trauma and pain for him. Adam, his best mate, had slept with Vanessa the moment his and Vic’s relationship hit a roadblock. So many people in Emmerdale have ended up in divorce.

Aaron remembers once telling Vic marriage wasn’t for him. He doesn’t think that way anymore, but sometimes, when his demons get the better of him, he isn’t entirely sure he believes in the idea of marriage.

Despite knowing Chas will give him hell for this, Aaron leaves the stall with every intention of sneaking away to his bedroom. Just as he opens the stall, he notices someone else is in the restroom. The other occupant is hunched over the sink, preventing Aaron from seeing who it is. He’s bracing his hands on either side of the porcelain, breathing heavily enough that Aaron can hear him from where he’s standing.

The sound of the bathroom stall opening makes the other guy’s head snap up and make eye contact with Aaron through the mirror. It’s Robert Sugden, the groom. Vic must have found him, Aaron thinks faintly to himself as they stare at each other through the mirror.

“You alright, mate?” Aaron finally breaks the tension. Robert turns around to look at Aaron instead of through the glass. He’s wearing his wedding suit that Aaron supposes is fashionable. He really doesn’t pay much attention to suits or fashion in general, so if he’s being perfectly honest, Robert’s suit doesn’t seem all that dissimilar to Aaron’s own.

“I didn’t think anyone else was in here.” Robert sheepishly admits, running a shaky hand through his styled hair. Robert looks very fit, Aaron admits to himself. Robert has always been fit to Aaron, and stood in his wedding suit is no exception. If anything, he looks even better. One would not know Robert had just been caught hunched over a sink having what Aaron assumes is a slight panic attack. It’s slightly unfair how put together Robert always look.

Still, Aaron decides to ask, “You having cold feet or summat?”

“You what?” Robert looks offended by Aaron’s question, but takes a step closer to Aaron.

“It’s just…it’s your wedding day, and you’re in here.” Aaron says, mirroring Robert’s movements, getting closer to Robert. “Unless it’s common practice to freak out before a wedding?”

“I wasn’t freaking out. I…just needed a few seconds to clear my head.” Robert admits, still unaffected by Aaron crowding his personal space. He can smell some kind of expensive cologne Robert is wearing which Aaron appreciates.

“Right.” Aaron sarcastically nods. They’ve both gravitated towards each other, almost chest to chest. Aaron can see every freckle dusting Robert’s face, can admire the beautiful green of his eyes. Robert’s hair is still styled in his customary quaff despite him running his hand through it.

“What do you need to clear your head about?” Aaron whispers.

Robert has nothing to say to Aaron’s question, except to pull him by the lapels of Aaron’s suit jacket and plant a kiss on Aaron’s lips. At first, Aaron is shocked and does nothing. But the thought that this is Robert Sugden kissing him makes him dig his hands into Robert’s hair and kiss him back.

Robert presses Aaron closer and begins to pepper light pecks onto Aaron’s face. Aaron groans softly as his hands wander from Robert’s hair, down his neck to his shoulders, and down his back. This is the last thing Aaron expected when he fled from the park, but it is so much better. There’s probably some kind of irony in this, but Aaron pays it no mind as he latches his mouth onto Robert’s earlobe.

“Rob? Are ya still in there?” Vic’s rings from the entrance of the restroom just as Robert started to unbuckle Aaron’s belt. Robert pulls away from Aaron as if physically struck. The two of them stare at each other wide eyed. Aaron’s hands had found a home on Robert’s waist and he takes them off reluctantly.

“Uh yeah.” Robert clears his throat to get rid of the graveliness of his voice. Aaron tries not to feel too satisfied knowing he’s the reason for Robert’s gravelly voice. It’s inappropriate at best. “Yeah, I’m still in here.”

“Well come on! People are starting to think you did a runner or something!” Vic shouts. Aaron is thankful Vic doesn’t come in, he’s not sure they could explain this. Robert shouts back that he’ll be out in a minute and they hear Vic’s heels clack away from the restroom.

Robert exhales and scrubs at his face, “Well, I-uh should go…” Robert quietly says.

“Yeah me too. Me mum gave me a murderous look when I left earlier.” Aaron says, which makes Robert’s lips quirk up in a smile. “Surprised she hasn’t sent Cain to drag me back.”

“Why were you hiding in the toilet stall?” Robert asks with slightly narrow eyes.

“Oh…don’t matter anymore.” Aaron replies with a shrug. He doubted Robert would want to hear Aaron was about to sneak away from his wedding. They both still make no movement until Aaron sighs, fixes his belt, and turns to leave. He’s not sure if he’s made Robert’s freak out better or worse, but he knows if neither one of them leave now, Vic is going to come in here and drag Robert out.

Right before he leaves, he turns back to Robert, who’s watching him, “Is your head cleared?” Aaron shyly questions. It might be a weird question to ask after having his tongue down Robert’s throat, but it felt like he needed to make sure.

Robert chuckles, running yet another hand through his hair. “Absolutely.” He confirms and Aaron gives him a smile that Robert returns.

“Then I guess I’ll see you out there.” Aaron says softly.

“Yeah, yeah. See you.” Robert is still smiling at Aaron. He gives one last smile to Robert before ducking out.

Aaron makes a beeline to the back of the pub before Vic could see him walk out of the restroom. Quickly, he makes his way back to the park where the ceremony will take place. If possible, there are more people squeezed in here than when Aaron had left.

Chas gives him a suspicious look when he sits back down and he gives her an innocent, “What? Told ya I’d be back.” She just shakes her head indulgently but makes no further comment.

“A certain Sugden didn’t hold you up?” Liv teases, flicking her finger onto Aaron’s skewed tie. She knows him all too well.

“You’re such a wind up.” Aaron laughs, fixing his tie hastily before throwing an arm around her shoulders. Aaron tries not to notice that time is ticking, and Robert still hasn’t shown up. Maybe Robert just said that so he could get Aaron to leave.

But before a full-blown panic can settle into his stomach, the live band starts playing an acoustic rendition of The Love We Stole. Chas gives Aaron’s hand a squeeze as he retracts his arm from Liv’s shoulders. Taking a deep breath, Aaron gets up, turns, and faces the entrance of the park.

Robert is walking up the aisle alongside Diane, a soul splitting smile on his face as he looks at Aaron at the end of the aisle. Aaron returns the smile, his eyes beginning to prickle with tears as he watches his soon to be husband make his way towards him. Robert’s hair has been styled back to before Aaron messed it up, his suit matching Aaron’s. Aaron think he might be the most breathtaking person he’s ever seen.

When Robert and Diane make it to the end of the aisle, she gives his cheek a kiss. She goes to stand next to Chas, where Aaron had been sitting - Liv stands behind him as his best woman. Aaron and Robert stare at each other as everything else fades beyond them. Aaron can smell the cologne he bought Robert ‘for special occasions’. There’s love and wonder shining out Robert’s eyes and Aaron hopes he’s mirroring it to Robert.

“Hiya. Was beginning to think you were gettin’ cold feet.” Aaron gently teases.

“Cold feet? Never. A fit man in the bogs knocked some sense in me.” Robert says and steals a kiss to Aaron’s cheek that he’s sure everyone is going to make fun of them for later. But Aaron couldn’t care less as he gives Robert a wink and turns towards the registrar, hand in Robert’s.

“Good afternoon, and welcome. We’re here to celebrate Robert and Aaron’s union…” She starts warmly. Aaron’s heart is full and all the previous doubts from before vanish as he squeezes Robert’s hand.

[eternalbulletproof]

Hi! I want to add on to the love too! I love your love for for our precious boy. And I love how supportive you are towards other blogs. Whenever I see you on my dash, especially your og gifs, I'm never disappointed and I know I'm in for a visual treat! *btw I'm sending this ask from my main blog and my bts side blog is @earthstarmoon :)

Hihi!! aww thank you so much!! 🥺💖💗💞 I love how you love my love for the boys - that means you are the same! am I right? hehe

[escapingreality51]

irisnsc replied to your post “I fucking love writing people who fall in love. That discovery, that...”

Yes, please do! I will devour any fic you write ��

this is just what I needed to hear today <3 thank you 

[jonny-versace]

I watched The Crow in the cinema when it first came out. I fell asleep. Please forgive me ... I was stupid and younger then.

GASP.

I'll forgive this one time since it's you but I'm aghast *heart clench*

[amadya]

F, M, V

Thanks!! 😁

F- Share a snippet of your favorite dialogue and explain why you like it

"This might be crazy, but will ya marry me?" Robert asked, using his elbow to get up and look down at Aaron. They had spent the afternoon laying on the grass gazing at the clouds.

Aaron chuckled unbelievably, "You what?"

"I mean it. Will you marry me?" Robert repeated, looking intently at Aaron. It was one of the things he loved about Robert - his intensity.

"That's not even possible for people like us." Aaron said. He knew in the bones of his body he probably did want to marry Robert, which is daft since they've only known each other for a short time. Still, these weeks have been the best times of his life.

"Okay, then when it's legalized, you'll marry me?" Robert asked again.

When I started writing Love me Blind, I didn't know much where it was going, but I based a lot of the story around this conversation. I also remember writing this scene on my phone when I was in a train on my way to see the Neuschwanstein Castle so that's a fond memory of mine!

M- Any premises on the back burner you'd like to share.

I have two!

A sort of Count of Monte Cristo AU. I was watching the movie a few nights ago and started thinking of a fic. We'll see where it goes.

I want to write a fic where Aaron and Robert don't meet, but Robert still goes to jail. They meet after Robert's 14 years in prison.

V - Any sequels or prequels you'd like to write not written by yourself, which would you choose?

Oh wow, that's a tough question! I'm not honestly too sure, since I feel like I'm always pretty satisfied with what authors give us! Sorry, that seems like a cop out of an answer 😅

[rustandruin]

K, L, M, X

Hey Iris!

Thank you so much for the ask!!! Here are my answers: 

K. What’s the angstiest idea you’ve ever come up with?Answered it here! 

L. What’s the weirdest AU you’ve ever come up with?There’s a Red Riding Hood AU that I started forever ago and I intend to finish it. It’s a strange premise, and probably not what you’d expect. But I love fairy tales and I love deconstructing things, and I want to try and do that as best I can here? 

M. Got any premises on the back burner that you’d care to share?LOL. Um. My main concern is finishing white blank page ASAP and trying to get out the next chapter of jealousy, because that’s been languishing long enough. But there are a few ideas puttering around at the back of my head, and one of them I’m very excited about it. It’s been a while since I felt this way, and I’m really looking forward to that challenge! But here’s three I keep playing with, in the hopes that I get to them this year:

a) Teen AU. 

b) Co-worker AU, but not what you’d think

c) Rom-Com AU

X. A character you enjoy making suffer.Myself. Jk. I don’t think I make anyone “suffer” as much as just rake everyone over the coals lightly? 

fic ask meme

[yeah-sure-amanda]

35, 42, 43

Of course, you went for the super heavy questions! lol I’m sorry in advance if my answers are lame.

35. Who was important toyou this year but wasn’t important last year?

I think I gained peoplethat became important to me this year. Friends from work. Some interesting professional contacts.  Meeting lots of amazing people online. I gained more than lost which...is a first for me. 

42. What are you most proud of accomplishing? 

I guess participating in Nanowrimo and not being upset with myselfwhen I didn’t finish (50,000 words).  Inthe past, I would try and not get to the finish line and just berate myself andI would stop writing as punishment.  Ididn’t do that this year. Next year…my accomplishment will be soooo much better *fingers crossed*. Ihope to be celebrating that accomplishment this time next year. 

43. What have you learnedabout yourself this year that you didn’t know in the years prior?

I don’t know how to answerthis.  I don’t think I learned anythingnew.  I know I’m strong (especially whenI feel weak, I know I can do it).  I knowI’m lucky.  My family has been throughhell and back (and we might be going there again) but we haven’t broken. 

 I guess I learned that Ican adapt better than I ever knew.  I canadapt to awkward office situations.  Ican adapt to new situations and experiences with new friends.  I can adapt. I guess I can accept changebetter than I could last year. Still hate change but I can adapt to it better than ever before. Is that adulthood? I guess? I’m not sure. I’m 32 and I’m not an adult yet. lol 

Ask me: End of Year Meme

[robronfic]

Congratulations on your 2nd birthday! Your blog is a resource goldmine for Robron fics! I read nearly all robron fics on ao3 but I have a memory of a goldfish. Some fics I've even forgotten I've read, also I can never remember titles and who wrote what. Thank you for doing what you do. Long may it continue!

ah thank you so much for these lovely words! <33 

[whatdoiknow]

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[properlittlefamily]

@flawswelove replied to your post:

I think he’s the type of shy person who when they get comfortable with people, they let their funny/wild side out. I love them kind of people.

as someone who is exactly that kind of person, i honestly think he is.

@irisnsc replied to your post:

Wasn’t there also something about him hiding shoes in the ceiling? Ilhsm 

i never heard that but i believe it

[robronsecretsanta]

All I want for Christmas is you I don’t want a lot for Christmas There is just one thing I need I don’t care about the presents Underneath the Christmas tree I just want you for my own More than you could ever know Make my wish come true All I want for Christmas is you, yeah.

for @irisnsc, love from your secret santa!

[nooneelsecomesclose17]

irisnsc replied to your post: yorit1 replied to your post: ...

Remember the Mill pic taken by someone who went on the tour? That suitcase probably belongs to Cain.

I would laugh if we got all worked up over it and it was.

I love Cain so much and the idea of him generally getting in the way of Aaron’s desire to sit on the sofa and play video games all day to shut out the pain of losing his husband greatly amuses me.