#irrational levels

[oswaldthatendswald]

do you ever think about how doflamingo never knew that law was in the treasure chest? do you ever think about how he never learned that roci's "i'm sorry i lied, i just didn't want you to hate me" WASN'T actually for him? do you think he ever thought about that, in the years afterwards? do you think it ever haunted him?

So, it's taken me a few days to answer this ask, and the reason for that is the same as my answer: every time I think about Doflamingo's reaction to Roci's apology, I get so emotional I have to lie down. Because, like--

You get your brother back. More than ten years, and you thought he was probably dead, but you get him back. He's the only blood relative you have left, and you're a Donquixote, so blood matters. Your brother is back and you fold him into your life, because you trust him. Of course you trust him: he's your brother.

Then suddenly, he leaves inexplicably to save a kid he's never even liked and whatever, okay, fine, but the problem is, the moment he leaves, the Navy stops being able to find you every time you dock. And he's your brother, but you're no fool. You can put two and two together. You shouldn't have trusted him. Then you get proof that he tried to pass on information about your plans to the Navy.

You have to kill him. He's your brother. He's a traitor. He has to die.

Even when you confront him, he's unrepentant. He stole your chance at immortality to save that kid. He's kept the kid from you. He says the kid is better off without you, that he'll be better than you, that you're monstrous. He's a Marine, he's a traitor, and he hates you.

Except in the middle of all of it-- he apologizes. Not for betraying you, but for lying about it. I just didn't want you to hate me, he says.

You kill him anyway.

But as you walk away, wouldn't you think about it? Wouldn't you wonder why he'd done it all, if he didn't want you to hate him?

Do you hate him?

You have to hate him. He was a traitor. You killed him, and if you don't hate him, then how can you live with killing him?

Wouldn't those words come back to you, in quiet moments? Every time you doubt yourself, wouldn't you think about the absurdity of it? It wouldn't make sense to you, that's the thing. A paradoxical apology in the middle of all that vitriol.

I'm sorry I lied. I just didn't want you to hate me.

You'd wonder, eventually, if your brother chose to live in the same lie he fed you. Maybe your brother imagined, between selling you out to the Navy and lying to your face, that he could really be part of your family. Maybe he lied to himself, too.

You're not the sort of person to doubt yourself. But maybe you'd wonder if you could have fixed it. Maybe you'd vaciliate between hating him, hating his lies, hating that you trusted him-- and wishing it hadn't come to this. If you'd held your fire, what could have happened?

You couldn't have, of course. He was a traitor. He had to die.

But before that, he was your brother.

Yeah, I think it'd be haunting. I don't think you'd ever get out from under that ghost of your own making.

[not-a-font]

Welcome to demon school iruma kun is such a great anime/manga for a lot of reasons but something that particularly stands out to me is how it highlights the importance of the entertainment industry in society.

Since every demon has an evil cycle triggered by stress that increases their violent tendencies, having things like dem dolls or amusement parks is critical so that demons have places to blow off steam without causing untold damage.

Entertainment is presented as a need rather than a want, and I think that's pretty cool.

[sneefsnorf]

every time i see one of those posts that incorrectly identifies echidnas or quolls as herbivores i get so irrationally angry. how dare you not understand the dietary requirements of an animal that isnt very well understood by international audiences. im going to kill you. why dont you know ANYTHING about australian wildlife. are you some sort of moron

[mr-ladystardust]

psychology revision has me failing to function adequately <33

[canisalbus]

kinda going off of what you said in the tags of a recent ask, of how you've been worrying about being self-centered by just drawing for you: please keep doing it. it's one of the biggest reasons i managed to dig myself out of a long art slump, because all of the vascheteposting was just so full of joy, and enthusiasm, and love for your characters and the world youve built around them... it reminded me of why i started drawing in the first place. it helped me shoved aside the critic in me that kept saying "no, that doesn't look right, that needs to be better, you can't show that to people you're a disgrace you need to make that perfect" and just have fun drawing my own silly little guys again. so if you worry about drawing too much of the same thing, or about being self-centered... please remember that it brings others joy. your followers are here because they want to see what you make. thank you for letting us into your world, sincerely - it means a lot to me.

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[luv-again]

sea shanties/tavern songs my beloveds <33

[decisions-at-3am]

Maybe I stopped smiling, When I looked around. Finally realising, No one cared if I did.

[bununuu]

might as well call me #1 shun defender bc that is my SON

[faithinlouisfuture]

real talk: teared up during walls live from buenos aires because of obvious reasons but also because this is the same guy who’s beautiful voice was always doubted, who was made to believe that his voice didn’t add anything to the collective, made to believe that he’d never be able to go on doing this live on his own, so much so that this “image” of him is still what gp believes but he literally said fuck that and fucking watch me and “who the fuck is gonna stop us now” here’s a whole fucking live album

[lost-where-the-forest-would-grow]

I really think posts that say things like "you need to feel more angry" or demand any specific emotion are not actually useful forms of activism. Telling someone they need to feel a certain level of upset or they aren't doing enough is not actually how you solve anything and not even really how emotions work.

[megafaunaknight]

[lelianasbong]

the way Rezaren says "I'm not a violent man" then proceeds to Force-choke a woman and slam her against a wall

the very specific way he refers to Hira as "the woman you so irrationally desire" when it's clear Miriam wants less than nothing to do with him

the way he threatens to make Miriam watch as he kills her girlfriend because, um. Hira has the gall to be more important in Miriam's life than him??

[collgeruledzebra]

been a while since ive had a spell of anxiety bad enough i genuinely can't tell how much im overreacting

[the-demon-prodigy]

dazai is somebody who is so heavily affected by his circumstances. he's so smart, so astute that he can pick up on what everyone else wants from him, what needs to be done, which he uses to his benefit in the agency.

however, that same trait must have put him through the wringer as a child. fifteen years old, and everyone around him calls him a demon, a monster, a wraith. blacker than the deepest evil. a torturer, a killer.

and the worst part is that's pretty much what he was. he didn't want to be, but what does it matter? he had to be, to survive just a little longer until he found out how to live. that's what was necessary.

and now he's 22. but will he ever shake those words? can he ever put those actions behind him, when the whole world saw him as that, and made him that way?

[onceuponatimeinerebor]

Seeing people romanticize Hades and Persephone is already one of my bigger personal pet peeves, but seeing them call out Demeter as a BAD GUY??

None of you no anything about the history and culture you're talking about shut up shut up shut up I fucking hate it here!!

[squilfmybeloved]

guys if im a little inactive for a bit its cause i finally caved and made one of those silly character accounts