#it just makes me sad tbhhhhhh

[prettygirlgerard]

man because why did I have to hurt so much only for my ex to lie to everyone about why I broke up with him and keep his friends and make everyone dislike me and victimize himself :/

[lovelykhaleesiii]

Tbhhhhhh i have kinda feeling estranged from Tom and his fandom. He is not active in socials, he has not been in any Sleep Walking Animals stuff lately (its clear the hiatus was mostly due to him). And just i have personally lost interest? Which also makes me sad. Cause i do not want to loose interest. But i have. Sorry if you take this as hate or something like that its not it is just how i feel (and i am not happy about feeling like this either)

no that’s normal! he’s probably just taking a break from it all which seems much needed. dw nonnie I too drifted a little for Josh H/Mike Schmidt but I still very much froth over him/his characters.

and I don’t think there’s a lot of TGC fanatics in this fandom as there is for Ewan, but hopefully next season that changes 🥵

[andyfairfaks]

Let me rant abt how i dont like jover again ahabsjshjahshsbsbab

GUYSH IDK IT JUST MAKES ME SO SAD LIKE CAN A BOY AND A GIRL NOT BE FRIENDS OR SOMETHING ESPECIALLY CONSIDERING THE FACT KJ SAID “IF I WERE TO HAVE JUST A RLLY VIOLENT SISTER I WOULDVE WANTED U” LIKE UGHGHGHHGHGGNGHGHGHHGHGHXHHSJAHAM AND LIKE SKME PPL SAYYY LIKKEEE “RESPECT PPLS SHIPS” BUT I RLLY DONT CARE IM NOT RESPECTING UR WEIRD BOAT ALSO YESTERDAY IM SCROLLING BACK TO WAHT THIS FNABASE WAS LIKE IN LIKE 2019 AND PPL WERE FIGHTING KVER JOVER WHAT THE HEEEELLLL AND ONE JOVERISTS SAID THAT THE FIGHT WAS STUPID LIKE W JOVERIST TBHHHHHH I HATE JOVER ENNYWAYYYYYS TYYY

[hanarchy]

idk what it is abt me like i might be too eager or too absent or not funny enough, or too honest or not honest enough or just weird but like… I get attached to people so fast and they’re just… not attached to me lol

and i’m grown and i’m ok and i do have friends and can deal with it but some days i just… hate myself a lot bc i’m not a person others get attached to? like am i that boring or that awkward or do i act too detached when i’m actually not or what is it??? thats what drives me insane, not knowing what it is. and whats funny is its probably nothing? relationships just move at their own pace? lol

but yeah i hold back sooooo much, like i wanna tell people i love them every day and that they can come to me if they need help etc etc and i dont say it bc i know its weird and aaaaaaahhh fuck

[imbellarosa]

Louis Tag Game

@foreverfanficaddict tagged me in the besttttt (read: hardest) tag game in a WHILE!! LOVE YOU LOTS AND LOTS <33333

Put in bold your preferred song (live version), and then tag 3 people to play! (I will also justify/comment underneath LOL I have Thoughts)

Best Cover: Through the Dark - Drag Me Down - 7 - Beautiful War - Little Black Dress

i think Louis ABSOLUTELY understands the assignment on this song. i fell in love with this one when i worked at the bar in ATX and i would listen to it while I swept, and then i heard louis sing it and i was like FUCK YEAH MAN (this is a bit before i went full on fandom) and now it's just a song that means a lot to me bc life (and i loveeee youuuu but I need another year alone/and i try to ignore it every time you phone/but i never come close). Beautiful War gets an honorable mention here bc 1. Kings of Leon and 2. What a gorgeous and relatable song.

Best Acoustic Song: Only The Brave - Perfect Now - Too Young

MADE 100000% BETTER BY THE VERY VERY CUTE MICHAEL AND ISSAC INTERACTION THAT WE GET EVERY SINGLE TIME THEY PLAY IT!!!

Best Rock Song: Kill My Mind - 7 - Fearless

See above! I'm just super fucking sentimental OKAY DON'T COME AT ME FOR IT

Best Sad Song: Two of Us - Beautiful War - Change

This one reminds me of my grandfather. The last thing he said to me in person was to live well, and the last thing he said to me period is that he hopes we see each other soon. And I'll be living well for both of us, and then I'll see him and tell him all about it. Also is Beautiful War a sad song? Is Change?? I don't think so on either count?

Best "Faith in the Future" Song: We Made It - Just Hold On - Through the Dark - DLIBYH

I think this is because this is what i so desperately want to feel vs. how life currently feels? I am trying to not let things break my heart and i CANNOT wait until i can be with someone loudly singing karaoke and being like 'you know what? we've done pretty great for ourselves'.

Best Crowd Interaction: Always You - Defenceless - Fearless - Through the Dark

I agree with Bells - Walls is clearly the winner and it’s not on this list! When he let's everyone sing "for every question 'WHY?' you were my becauseeee' is an absolutely killer moment in EVERY show

Cover/Live Version That Should Get a Studio Version: Beautiful War - Copyx3 - Fearless - Drag Me Down - 7

I just cannot WAIT to hear a studio version of Copy tbhhhhhh and the other two bc he's fucking amazing at them and the Kings of Leon are INCREDIBLE and they don't get enough love and EVERYONE should go listen to THEIR album called WALLS and then ask me about the time someone i know snuck backstage at a kings of leon concert before getting kicked out! that's a hell of a story hahaha

Song That Should Make It Out of the Setlist:

Hmmmmmm ready to hate me????? Just Hold On I could do without bc it doesn't really do anything for me other than it's fun to jump around to, and then also it would be okay if he stopped singing Drag Me Down that would be really cool actually and then he could put MORE FUN SONGS in like 'Miss You' and 'Home' and 'Steal My Girl' (her kisses like cream her walk is so mean and every jaw drops when she's in those jeans alrighhhhtttt)

AND!! I am tagging @so-why-let-your-voice-be-tamed @adorelou-28 @poppyroxton and @treatlouwithkindness

[filthyjanuary]

For the ask game: RK1K

I WROTE A WHOLE THING HERE AND THEN TUMBLR ATE IT THE FIRST VERSION WAS MORE POETIC FML SORRY THIS TOOK A BIT

001 | send me a ship and I will tell you:

when I started shipping it if I did: i think 1-2 months ago? not long after i got into dbh tbh. i was immediately drawn to their hunter/hunted to allies dynamic and THE INHERENT EROTICISM OF TRYING TO KILL EACH OTHER.

What makes me happy about them: i think there’s just SO much potential like they are literally red string of fate tied to each other, their destined to kill each other but they unshackle themselves from that and choose their own futures. they’re the only RK models in existence!!!! they understand each other in a way no one else can. if they don’t trust and believe in each other it literally ends in their deaths, the deaths of their people, the destruction of everything but if they do take that leap of faith they free each other, their people, they save the world. they just compliment each other so well like they’re so similar and yet entirely different, and like i am ALWAYS thinking about the look on connor’s face when he hears markus speak for the first time in stratford tower... the look on his face!! the way markus can convince connor to deviant with a few short sentences... even tho connor has actively been fighting that all game. THERE’S JUST SO MUCH POTENTIAL THERE. IT’S SO INTERESTING. also they are both so pretty <3

What makes me sad about them: uh well a) any scenario where they do not choose to believe in each other and thus uh kill each other!! like it’s compelling and hurts in a juicy angst way but it IS sad wtf. also like just the incredible work they’d need to do post-canon to even be in a place where either of them would feel comfortable in a relationship. i also think there’s a lot of sadness potential in having to unpack connor deviating, being taken back over, and then fighting free and both he and markus having to reckon with that and if connor can be trusted in his own body :( SAD

things done in fanfic that annoys me: i feel like fic connor is often written incredibly ooc? like he becomes this like shell of the compelling and nuanced character that he is. like he just becomes either this like fragile, helpless thing that needs markus to save him all the time or just acts like??? idk just so ooc. what i love about markus and connor is that they’re both layered in the sense that they both have softer, domestic sides to them but they’re absolute stone cold badasses when they need to me. turning them one dimensional turns me off. 

things I look for in fanfic: nuanced characterization. not villainizing north. NOT ERASING JOSH. i’m still too early in my dbh fandom experience to chase after AUs yet, so i mostly read canon stuff that explores markus and connor realizing they have feelings for each other and what that means. how do you even unpack then when having feelings is like a newly unlocked experience for you? meanwhile this is all happening on a backdrop of the android revolution, and the political minefield that is advocating for legislation that gives them rights. i’ve always been a big lover of plot and character exploration supporting each other, so i enjoy fics the most when the actual plot has meat to it too. canon compliant/post-canon is the best. also am a big fan of outsider pov fics or fics where their relationship goes public and they gotta deal with that on top of all the political stuff.

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: literally markus is incredibly shippable. i think the actual game could’ve handled him and north way better but in fanon people can make them so compelling! and i think both markus/josh on a pacifist backdrop and markus/north on a violent backdrop are rife with possibilities. i haven’t really explored simon/markus tbh and i don’t particularly feel compelled to YET but i do see the potentials in that i think they are very similar in a lot of ways: weighing multiple options, seeing both sides, but markus is more active and simon is more passive and i think that makes for interesting character exploration. tbhhhhhh i really struggle to see connor with anyone but markus, but i think connor/north could have a lot of potential in the sense that they are SO similar, but i also think after all the violence in connor’s life, connor/josh has the potential to be very sweet and heartwarming also.

My happily ever after for them: slowly coming to terms with what their feelings are, revealing them to each other, and taking a relationship slowwwww because they have a lot going on. leading the androids to freedom n equality and finally being able to just live in peace without being worried about another fight. supporting each other in figuring out after all this, what do they want out of life? and knowing they’re going to figure it out together. they get cats. 

who is the big spoon/little spoon: i don’t think they stick to strict designations like this. i bet they switch tbh depending on who needs to be held most that day, you know? connor has a lot of mental shit to work thru, markus is bearing an incredibly stressful responsibility on their shoulders. i think they both like being both the big n little spoon sometimes. [ariana grande voice] it’s equality.

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: i am a BIG SUCKER for markus teaching connor really mundane life things the way carl taught him so like playing piano or painting for fun and not off programming scripts, markus teaching connor to cook, really just spending quality time you know?

send me characters/ships

[br0ther-theloops]

a “should we know us a little better” tag 🌸

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people (i’m not going to tag twenty people are you insane)

Tagged by @hobisol​ thank you so much for tagging me!! 💕 💕

THE LAST:

1. Drink: water because we have nothing else in my apartment...

2. Phone call: UMMMMM my mom i think???

3. Text message: a group chat between @bangtanboysboo, @lol-hobi, @vrlskaserket, @bubblegumlookinass, and myself and it’s just me talking to myself rn UPDATE: we’re talking about teens making out in a line at cedar point lmao

4. Song you listened to: blackpink’s NEW SONG BECAUSE I FFHUEIWKFHWEukhjgwK

5. Time you cried: i answered this in an ask yesterday but i remember now that the last time i cried was like monday and it was because i was looking up pictures of corgi pups 

6. Dated someone twice: nope~

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: oh yeah, for sure, it’s what i would like to call, my first year of college 😬😬😬

8. Been cheated on: lmao yeah

9. Lost someone special: yep

10. Been depressed: 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: yeah the first and only real time was the saturday right before finals and my friends tucked me in and let me sleep on the bathroom floor 👌👌

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14: mint green/tiffany blue, pale pink, and either burnt orange or dark magenta 

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: yes yes yes~~~ i made some of my best friends this past year ❤️💞💘💝💖💜

16. Fallen out of love: oh yeah

17. Laughed until you cried: yeah probably

18. Found out someone was talking about you: ....have i really not?? well damn, either people really like me or im just great at being completely oblivious

19. Met someone who changed you: definitely!

20. Found out who your friends are: i mean, everyone’s my friend. i get the context and meaning of this question, but it’s okay to have friends who you’re not super close with that’s fine.

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: i mean yeah

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: i don’t give out my facebook to people i don’t know irl because it’s used for school and family.

23. Do you have any pets: i don’t have any pets and it makes me so sad ☹️

24. Do you want to change your name: it has taken me a really long time to like my name, so no

25. What did you do for your last Birthday: i got lunch with my family and my boyfriend at the time and then i had practice and did homework because my last birthday was on a sunday

26. What time did you wake up: around 10 but i didn’t get out of bed until almost 11 so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: what was i doing uhhhhh reading i think

28. Name something you can’t wait for: my life to finally seem put together lmao

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: my biological mom; it’s been almost a year in a half i believe? and then i saw my step mom a couple weekends ago lol

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: i want people to be loved for who they are and how they choose to present themselves and not be afraid of being harmed because of that. on a more personal level, i want to be better at saving money lol ooo or to love myself more

31. What are you listening right now: the ac unit in my wall. i rarely have music on as background noise when i’m writing or typing something up

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yeah when i was like seventeen or smth

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: uhhhhhhh the fact that it’s so humid in my apartment and the one ac unit is in the wall in my kitchen, which is closed in so the only place getting cooler in my apartment is the kitchen

34. Most visited Website: tumblr lmao rip

35. Mole/s: i have only one mole and it’s on my thigh kind of near my butt! it’s in the shape of an upside down heart!

36. Mark/s: listen, i have a lot of scars because i’m a delicate baby that accidentally hurts themself a lot, but as of what i know i have right off the top of my head: three scars on my forehead, one on my right knee, one of my left shin, one on my right thumb that looks like a crescent moon, two on my left arm which were the result of my clothing hating me, and i think that’s it? oh! and i have a bruise on my side that i’ve had since i ran into a dresser when i was younger.

37. Childhood dream: i wanted to be a singer!🎤 

38. Hair color: right now, a brownish, reddish, dirty blonde, but naturally, dark red!

39. Long or short hair: long. it’s down to my nipples. i haven’t had hair this long since high school.

40. Do you have a crush on someone: not really anymore i don’t think ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

41. What do you like about yourself: i like...my eyes and my ability to not take myself seriously all the time. i also like that i usually see and understand both sides of a situation!

42. Piercings: three on my nose 

43. Bloodtype: O

44. Nickname: most people just call me ashley, but sometimes people refer to me as ash (but like, please ask me first because i do like being called ashley and being called ash without permission makes me super uncomfortable. also ashley is p gender neutral!). my mom calls me ash ketchum, and my family calls me ashley lynn. 

45. Relationship status: 😬  no one likes me so lol

46. Zodiac: libra and i’m three days younger than jimin!

47. Pronouns: they/them/she/her. i don’t mind either!

48. Favorite TV Show: UMMMM i don’t really watch tv but i like steven universe and gravity falls and chopped and anything on the food network tbhhhhhh also stuff like hoarders and my strange addiction hold my attention like no one’s business

49. Tattoos: i have one!

50. Right or left hand: right handed 

51. Surgery: ummm i had two teeth removed and a root canal so do those count? i also had to get stitches twice for cut because i was young and an idiot

52. Piercings: two on my left nostril, and one on my right 

53. Sports: the only sports i have ever done is track and that was for like two years. i dance for fun and perform dance covers with my club!

55. Vacation: i haven’t been on an actual vacation since i was sixteen. 

56. Pair of trainers: like the shoes? um, i have one pair of adidas.

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: i was just chewing some gum, but hard boiled eggs?

58. Drinking: water

59. I’m about to: probably make dinner or write, who knows.

61. Waiting for: my ask-kimdaily stuff to come in the mail ;;;;

62. Want: pizza, but a lot of things

63. Get married: idk if i really want to get married, i just want to live with a partner for a while and be domestic and shit because that stuff 👌👌👌

64. Career: a writer or smth who knows

WHICH IS BETTER?:

65. Hugs or kisses: both?

66. Lips or eyes: i really like looking into people’s eyes, but i also have a slight eye phobia so 

67. Shorter or taller: both? it’s not that hard to be taller than me, though

68. Older or younger: a majority of my friends are younger than me, but both is fine

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: both??

71. Sensitive or loud: you can be both tho i’m so confused

72. Hook up or relationship: i mean both have their ups and downs

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: what is this even asking fam

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a stranger: surprisingly, no

75. Drank hard liquor: i’m an actual adult and a college student not to make generalizations but like yeah.

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: i lose my glasses every day of my life hekwjfhwilukgjr

77. Turned someone down: yeah a few times

78. Sex in the first date: yes

79. Broken someones heart: yeahhhhh....

80. Had your heart broken: lmaooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

81. Been arrested: nope but i have been frisked by a cop when i was 13 because someone thought i stole smth and i cried 

82. Cried when someone died: yep

83. Fallen for a friend: lmaoooooooooooooo rip me

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: is this some naruto stuff or what

85. Miracles: sure

86. Love at first sight: i mean, it was love at first sight when i saw min yoonji so i guess you could say so

87. Santa Claus: not any more. i don’t think i was ever told he wasn’t real, but i just had a realize and was okay with it

88. Kiss in the first date: fam i’ve slept with someone of the first date i think we know what i think--you should only do something, like kiss someone, or even have sex with someone, when you are completely comfortable with the situation and are able to give full consent and are okay with it. 

89. Angels: i think so? i’m not sure lmao

OTHER:

90. Current best friends name: names lmao bethany, becca, erin, julia

91. Eyecolor: hazel/green blue/sometimes they look gray

92. Favorite movie: this is constantly changing but spirited away, moana, phantom of the opera, ooo zootopia, harry potter and the chamber of secrets, and more!

do not feel obligated to do this, this took a long time even with minimal distractions but i tag: @minminyoongi @ahoneyyboy @nochucametru @otpvmin @giveemhelllex @1995winemom @blushguk @chocoulat @lqhani

[ushiiwakas]

FOR THE ASK GAME: Viktuuri, and the character is Otabek

thank u my dude i love u

send me a character/ship and a number? 

victuri

when I started shipping it if I did: the first fucking moment i saw the pv tbh. whenever that came out

my thoughts: a good and pure ship!! a canon ship that no one can take away from me!! i have a lot of emotions!!!

What makes me happy about them: THEYRE CANON. IT ACTUALLY FUCKIN HAPPENED AND IM DYING

What makes me sad about them:  i just want to hold both of them and tell them that everything is a-okay even when they’re not having good mental health days. but ill just let them do that for each other

things done in fanfic that annoys me: i dont really know. i dont think i’ve read enough fanfic for them tbh.

things I look for in fanfic: anything. gimme any of that good shit. 

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: honestly, not really anyone tbhhhhhh

My happily ever after for them: THEYVE GOT IT. THEYRE SKATING AND WORKING AND LIVING TOGETHER. i couldnt come up with anything better

who is the big spoon/little spoon: yuuri is totally the little spoon

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: dancing! any type of dancing tbh. they like to play music when they’re cooking and sometimes it just devolves into happy dancing. its good.

otabek!!! 

How I feel about this character: a good egg!!! my boy!! a wonderful character!!!

All the people I ship romantically with this character: yurio!

My non-romantic OTP for this character: i can see him becoming good friends with the russian skaters?? and also yuri

My unpopular opinion about this character: i dont really think i have one tbh?

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: i just want some more exploration of his character in general tbh. let him hang out with yurio some more

my OTP: otayuri. good shit goooood shit

my cross over ship: i dont think i have one??

a headcanon fact: he’s a terrible cook. i just decided.