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no27-autonation-honda · 4 months

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congratulations to Mme. Pascale Leclerc, who has surely just experienced both the funniest and most unhinged weekend a mother could ever have. Dear fucking christ, I hope your middlest son brought you a bottle of champagne for yourself, ma'am.

#kazoo noises #charles leclerc #cl16 #monaco gp 2024 #zoomies posting #sports posting #like man. where to begin. one of your racecar children is back in town for the weekend. he has yet to have a truly good work #weekend it seems in town. now this year. we're feeling ourselves a bit. we're feeling optimistic even. and then ur son becomes talk of town #because he keeps doing fucking bits on twitter about adopting his coworker who is friends with your youngest son. this goes on long enough #for actual reporters to comment on it. no one is willing to blink first so by friday night we've yes-anded ourselves to a grandson #(congratulations mme leclerc)#things go well. and then at qualifying they go DAMN WELL #BETTER THAN EVER REALLY! but man. im superstitious. i dont trust shit until its over and the dust has cleared #(the adoption jokes have continued by the way) and MEANWHILE everyone is eyeing that starting grid. were humming. we're making vague hand #gestures when commenting. we're all thinking. Maybe? (the streets can hear u tho. keep it down)#race starts. lap one CHAOS. so many fucking crashes. i'd faint if i had a child even in karting honestly.#(every parent in this sport deserves a prescription for laudanum)#but he's not in it. hes at the front. and he. well. he just Stays There. Through It All. and the laps tick down. until the race is run. and #there he is. your middlest son. cross the line and into the books. first place. home town. what curse indeed. thats your boy!!!!!!!! THERE!#they play the radio of him winning and the audio is peaked because he screams out so loudly. you can hear the water in the laughter.#later theres gonna be videos and photos taken of him pushing his boss into the harbor and diving right in after the man. those photos are #gonna be fucking studied in photography classes one day. and STILL! everyone involved with that goofy joke about him adopting his coworker #(who. despite all the silliness of the race stayed second place and got a podium) is still carrying the bit like a baton relay. Do you have #him over for family dinner? might as well add a plate i guess! people are joking about your youngest son having two nephews? a dog born #maybe a month ago and a man born about... what twenty three years and about a month ago? fuck it! family dinner #sorry this bit got away from me but as someone who loves my homecity and my mom so much it might actually be like.#a visible growth inside my body if they do an autopsy on me at time of death or like. my love will eat me alive. sometimes the charratives #gets to me #anyway cheers mme leclerc i hope you party so fucking hard this week

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sollucets · 3 months

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hi everyone :’) i havent been on tumblr much lately because i am 1) not watching anything and 2) still dealing with the effects of a bunch of fun medical stuff! i am doing ok but my body hates me so so so much lately. i have the energy and ability(?) to do only a few very specific things right now (play elden ring, let youtube forcefeed me kpop videos, languish) and that does not include watch show or make gif or even write no matter how much i might want to. so. this is how it is haha. miss u guys

#it feels silly to make a post like this when im still on here nearly every day but i Feel disconnected. yknow #like i rb something once a day. i hardly talk to my mutuals. idk #i post vaguely often about my Medical Situation but. i think it might be good if i clarify so #this year since april ive been dealing with a sudden and long-term resurgence of pain that ive had before #originally we thought it was ovarian cysts (which ive been troubled by before)#but that got ruled out mostly. so #my doctor ‘diagnosed’ it as endometriosis (note quotes; it’s apparently not possible to diagnose endo without a surgery which i havent had)#(and so this is just an educated guess on her part and on mine. but a decent one)#i went on hormone meds for that which dont seen to be working for the endo but do regulate other things #but that significantly worsened my depression #so im on ssris now #theres also some other issues with me i dont care to disclose here #and its really just been A Lot #right now the ssris are on a very low dose but they are making me brutally dizzy and nauseous also.#i keep trying to be optimistic and then i get dunked on. but i will keep hoping #it will pass but fuck could it pass faster #rowan chatter #i have actually managed to write some despite all this. but show watching has fallen to the wayside

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glittertimes · 3 days

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I keep feeling like I’m not going to survive if I have to keep living in this house and every attempt I make to get out of here never works out and then I feel like the only escape is ending everything and I don’t want to do that :(((

#I’ve always been a very hopeful and optimistic person #but I’m losing that bc this house makes me miserable and school makes me miserable #and I feel really isolated here and people keep blaming me for struggling and still being stuck here and all people do #is look down on me when I’m really smart and creative and kind!#and it’s just hard :(((#I think the pressure of graduation is getting to me and I’m scared for what comes next #I just want out of this house one way or another you know :(((((#personal

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stillfruit · 2 days

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i love not knowing if i'll ever be healthy again i love all of the time i've used to move my body become nothing i love spending my adulthood wasting away year after year for various reasons baby!

#i know i'm being dramatic and privileged etc etc right now but i hate living like this #i probably had covid in the beginning of august and since then my heart and lungs have just been fucked #so now i'm probably looking at at least 2 years of long covid and maybe permanent neurological damage #could i be lucky and get better in few more months? maybe. do i believe that will happen? no. optimistically maybe next summer id be better #my symptoms are not that bad considering what i know other people have suffered but at the same time that makes it feel not real #otherwise i'm pretty much fine except i feel like fainting alot after standing up or excerting myself and anything beyond walking #spikes my hr to 160 and right now even laying down my hr is around 80. this comes with the associated shortness of breath etc #what fucks me up about this is that my normal hr is low with my rhr being under 50bpm and i'm physically active #so basically i've went from regular running and half marathons being no issue to not being able to jog 1km at the slowest pace possible #without spiking my hr to zone 4 #so now with the recovery time of this being however long if properly ever i'll have to basically start all over again with everything #i biked to the grocery store yesterday and that took me out for the rest of the day because my heart rate just didn't go down afterwards #outwards i look fine and i wouldn't be as affected if sports and moving wasn't a part of my life and relationships but it is #i've read studies about recovery times and a lot of them don't feel applicable because the test groups are either very different from me #based on the baseline health info such as activity levels or they're elite atheletes which i am not #some have given me hope that keeping my hr under like 130 by doing activities like walking until maybe someday things get better works #but who knows and even if it does this will be yet another thing that takes the littlest bits of muscle tissue i have on me away once again #because besides deconditioning muscle loss is yet another symptom. so i will be even weaker than i am right now #i don't know how much of what i'm experiencing in terms of mental effects is from anxiety over my physical health and how much is brainfog #but we'll see i'll just have to start walking a lot every day and keep up with simple and slow strenght training so i'll want to die less #i don't think my family will ever properly understand because almost all of them are athletes and the one who isn't never does any excercis #so either i just look like i'm weak but i was always weak so it's not a big deal or my experience isn't really that important #this is so so so pathetic both my reaction and the issue but it's difficult to not feel this way especially with the uncertainty #shit talking

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heartshattering · 2 days

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My mom is like "You don't need both the TV and the radio turned on :/" like she doesn't understand that the whole point is that the inside of my head is so loud that the only way to fight the 'inside loudness' is with 'outside loudness' but :') this is fine I'll just keep going insane :') no need to worry about me :')

#I took my meds so hopefully that helps dial down the inner loudness a bit but I'm not optimistic tbh #if I'm too worked up then they don't work as well on me #idk why I just feel like I've been going crazy all day long!!!!#I'm losing my grip on things and everything feels wrong and fake #I feel so bad both physically and mentally #I'm really hoping it's just from not getting my injection yet and it'll all go away once I get it again #but I mean it's true I'm also mentally ill so idk?#for sure it's been feeling even worse than usual for me though and idk why that would randomly be happening now #and like. 2 severe headaches a day every day is not normal for me #waking up panicked from vivid nightmares literally EVERY night is not normal for me #I am extremely exhausted both physically and mentally and literally do nothing but still feel like shit #I get headaches when I wake up but they usually go away but the ones I've had recently are debilitating and won't stop #like I had to skip an online meeting because one had me feeling so terrible I just couldn't power through #I keep feeling like I'm going to die like just drop dead finally #even though that's illogical but it's how my body is making me feel #idk it just sucks #kind of tempted to ask on reddit about it but like #people go on there to share the worst of their experiences and I have enough health related phobias already #I did enough skimming to find out that it probably *is* from missing my injection though #ughhfuhfh

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deadtower · 10 months

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i do have to say in this shitshow of a world currently that i've started wearing my magen david out again recently and i've gotten a ton of compliments on it which is... really nice. like it's so sad that the bar is basically underground re: being nice to jews but

#tbh i think if the type of people saying it is any indication it's probably pro-israel supporters which is (frowns)#(the type of people saying it is mostly white middle-aged goyische women)#buuuut it might also be people who have seen how vitriolic people are getting towards jews who have nothing to do with anything #and wanted to give me a little reprieve from the shit i'm blasted with on the daily #anyway regardless of what type of people these people are it does mean a LOT to get those compliments #it's a magen david inside of a hamsa :) which i got bc i lost my other one on the street HGFDHGA it was like #right before the war started so it was good timing #but then when it came to getting a new one the hamsa one really spoke to me #considering it's protection against the evil eye obv and i was like. jfc do i need some of that #and then its tie to the five pillars of islam makes it feel like unity with our muslim cousins and my hope for i/p peace and coexistence #ya know? idk not to be optimistic and a dreamer and all that but it just really resonated with me

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tired-momfriend · 1 year

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I am like 30 pages out from finishing a book (and the series) and AAAAAAAAA

#JOHN RODRIGUEZ MY BELOVED #IM GONNA MISS YOU ONCE YOU TURN INTO A RABBIT GODSPEED OLD FRIEND #southern reach trilogy #control my poor baby meow meow #SAUUUUULLL #i just read the bar scene where everything goes fucking Crazy and AAAAA the thought of it just..#i was really hoping things would be ok thats the optimist in me but wow it was so much worse than i thought it was gonna be #and control can feel the brightness and hes not fully human aaAAAAAAA CONTROL NOOOOO #i feel so deeply for this poor guy #his entire life has just been so fucked up #i might make a separate post exploring how tragic of a character control is #but well see

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barbieaiden · 1 year

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hey! just wanted to let you know your sims and their story and stuff is like so cool to me. i know it can be nerve-wracking to post things but if you're worried cause you don't think it's good enough, just remember you're always gonna be more critical towards things you've made but that doesn't mean they're bad. i really love your renders and they're so pretty and cool!! sending some love your way!! because you're really cool!!! <3

(sorry if my wording's at all weird, i'm running on minimal sleep lmao)

aaaah thank you so so so much<3<3 the fact that my characters and writing is involved just makes it a thousand times more nerve-racking because i do take that more seriously than a render, plus the fact that these story posts take much longer to make and the lighting is a lot more difficult for some reason, idk lmao. hopefully when?? if?? i get more into it it won't be as bad as it is right now because it's like i'm-going-to-throw-up anxiety lmao

#i don't think these story posts renders are really even close to my standalone renders in terms of quality and it really is bothering me #but it's very different so i feel like if i can just get used to it it'll get there eventually #this turned into a very rambly vent lmao sorryyyyyyy #i'm trying to be optimistic though i THINK it's going to get better. i HOPE it will because i have a lot of fun making the posts #i love sharing my characters in an actual writing format like. talking about them is one thing #actually showing them like?? in action?? speaking with their own words?? is another #ask

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searidings · 2 years

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Wow 108 books, that's amazing!!! I definitely need to check out the bold/italicized ones on your list at least

My goal for this year was 52 and I'm trying to make it in these last couple days lol do you have any specific recs that are shorter? Or maybe good audiobooks for variety? I just listened to This Is How You Lose the Time War in a sitting from like 8 pm to 2am and it was so good and visceral I felt like I was going insane

hmmm idk if you like sci-fi and/or if you've ever tried becky chambers (who i would recommend regardless) but to be taught, if fortunate is a charming little sci-fi novella that restored my faith in humanity in the most touchingly beautiful way

for great audiobooks i will NOT stop screaming about the locked tomb series by tamsyn muir, the narration is EXQUISITE like these are not short books nor are they straightforward but i'm not a big re-reader yet as you can see from my list, i read/listened to that series 3 times in one year (twice in a month) because they're just That Good

#bro before i saw that you'd already read this is how you lose the time war i was gonna rec that for SURE #that book will never not own my entire ass #other good short ones i've read include almond by won-pyung sohn #but check that one for trigger warnings definitely #and hot milk by deborah levy. nice and gay #and for great audiobooks i've really like jeffrey eugenides' work #i mean he's one of my faves anyway but i specifically remember the audiobook for middlesex was great (again: check warnings first)#and the marriage plot was one of my fave books from this year #also all becky chambers stuff makes me feel so great like. never read more genuinely touching optimistic sci-fi in my life #hope that gives you some ideas!! if there are specific types of books you like lmk and i can try to tailor my recs a bit more #good luck with your goal bro!!! happy holidays #book recs #asks

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toytulini · 1 year

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hit tag limit on the last post cos i started talking about roller coasters again 😔