#it’s definitely a Monday jfc

[hellfireeddiemunson]

Customers at my work have one more chance before I explode today oh my god

[loumauve]

I snapped today at work, and by snapped I mean I politely commented on a help desk ticket by summing up an mess of an (type of) issue that's come up for at least the fourth time in the 2+ months I've been managing user accounts, and asked the person responsible to fix it (himself for once) because last time I fixed his mess-up it took me two whole days to work out the details with at least four other colleagues from different departments and I really don't want to do it again. there's other shit that needs doing, I've been working 10+ hour days for most of this week already, so I need to cut down not add on more.

(good thing tho - at least we managed to fix the issue where the dataset of a newer employee got mixed up with another one of the same name and therefore wasn't able to apply for any of the access/accounts she needed. technically not entirely my area but it does impact us not being allowed to create an account for her so I figured I might as well track that issue down. took three days and at least three other people, but hey - it should all work out now. yay for that)

[mikuni14]

Life returned to the desert that was Monday and Tuesday. And at once with a whole jungle, with rich, lush greenery 💚

I don't know what it is about JBLs that they can make such series that I might not like in another country, but which I like so much in the Japanese edition. This week's new BLs from Japan are so much in the old school yaoi style that I like, they have so many classic tropes, possessive and crazy semes and all of this is done in such a light, smooth and chill style that I'm totally satisfied, happy and invested.

Sugar Dog Life - Ep 1 I really liked the first episode, a lovely pairing of a very nice and caring seme, who is also completely unhinged lol and a sweet, a bit wild, lonely but managing most of his life and reality uke. Both have their own lives, their existence is not conditioned by the other person, by "being someone's love interest": one is a policeman, the other is a student, worker and an amazing cook. Fortunately, it's not like the seme as a policeman dominates, rules and leads his "silly little uke" by the hand. Isumi makes his own decisions and shows initiative. The series is nicely done, the actors are charming, Isumi is so lovely, he will soon be a competition for Taichi in my little ranking of beloved boys with big eyes 💖🥺

KKKKKKKKAAAAWAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIII🧁🧁🧁🧁🧁🧁🧁!!!!!! Anyway Sugar Dog Life is very much my style. I also immediately thought of Honto Yajuu, one of my favorite mangas, which has a similar type of unhinged policeman seme.

Cosmetic Playlover - Ep 1-2 (First of all, I must warn you that at some point I will call this series Cosmetic Playover, because my slightly dyslexic brain keeps reading it that way 😑). This series does not hold back at all and does not hold back its seme 😩😆 Dear lord what a classic couple! Possessive, jealous, obsessive seme, "compensating" his perfection in many aspects with his unhinged and crazy behavior (a bit like the seme from SDL). This character in a different version could be unlikeable, but in this series he works brilliantly, maybe because he is so old school yaoi - and you know, the classics always work! And uke: also very old school - serious, responsible, noble, always knows how to behave and to do the right thing, very devoted to others and his work. I really like that he is clueless enough to be charming, without taking away his agency and reason. Natsume is smart and strong, he can take care of himself, when a problem arises he tries to solve it himself in a calm manner, not relying on others. When Sahashi constantly crosses his boundaries, Natsume is angry (and he shows it!) and tells him off, he constantly gets mad at him with his inner voice, he is not a victim of his aggressive advances. Natsume is the kind of character that if he really wanted to, he would put Sahashi in his place, and Sahashi is the kind of character that would definitely stop immediately. But the rules of the genre dictate that the seme should push the quiet but feisty uke, and you know what? I fully embrace that 😤 I've read TONS of these types of yaoi mangas, and I'm over the moon to see this adapted 🥳 I'm not kidding that I spent most of my time listening to Sahashi and his killer one liners like this :OOOOOOO This series is SO my style.

Jfc, Sahashi 😍😍

Also, both series have high rewatching value. I'd watch them again right now if I wasn't at work lol and if it wasn't WEDNESDAY OF BL DOOM.

[odinsblog]

Hoo boy 🤯

One of my aunts had children much later in life (auntie is almost 60 and has a daughter who is 12) and I stopped by yesterday just to say hi, and I walked into WW3

Like I’m just sitting there, minding my own business and being a good nephew 😇 when out of nowhere, my 12yr old cousin just blurts out, “Odin please tell her that 12 isn’t too young to be on birth control!”

Like, JFC. Are you … are you being serious rn??

I’m positive that the slow motion side eye I gave her was fucking severe enough to kill

Me: Well y’all, I’ll be right back

*me to myself: I have no intention of ever returning to this quadrant of the universe in the foreseeable future*

My auntie: No Odin, don’t go anywhere. You two are about the same age. I’d love to hear your thoughts—(again, my little cuz’n is 12, I’m almost 40, I’m a cis/het Black man, both my parents are Black, the 12yr old identifies as “biracial” and as “bi” period, and how tf am I anywhere close to being helpful? My ex gave me a cactus plant bc she knew I could never successfully grow plants in my house, and she said a cactus was a safe plant for me. And then I killed it!! I don’t even have any children! How am I remotely qualified? Why are I here??)

Auntie: Well, Odin??

Me, to myself: *Okay. No escape routes handy. Try to say something intelligent, and don’t cuss*

Me: *ahem* So talk to us. Why are you sO determined to get on birth control, and why NOW? Is there a boy? Has your mother met him yet? Please talk to us. This is a no-judgement zone, okay?? *staring intently at my aunt*

Yes, there is a boy. Yes, she’s “in love” 🙄

And by now the absolute gravity of the situation is dawning on me, and I’m starting to forgive my aunt for not letting me escape from their family convo. She was, apparently, taken by surprise as much as I was. She didn’t know about any of this, and she needed a buffer to compose herself, and I guess it was me that day

It’s such a long ass story

Anyway, after what seemed like hours of listening to the 12yr old wax on about how mature she believes she is, my aunt actually said, “I’m glad that you felt you could trust me with this,” and I think I almost fainted. Was definitely not expecting auntie to be so calm about it (sn: she’s an old, Black Pentecostal church lady auntie, so anything other than extreme anger + slut shaming is wayyy off brand here - hopefully it was genuine and not just something she said just bc EYE was present)

Then auntie asked her daughter to step outside so that the adults could talk (lol, I almost thought she meant someone else other than me and I nearly left the room with the 12yr old)

Here’s where the problem comes in: my immediate reaction was, if the kid truly thinks she’s in love + has clearly considered having sex, then put her on the pill or some other birth control immediately. But Auntie thinks it’s too early bc she doesn’t think her daughter is emotionally ready for sex, and not mature enough either (my 12yr old cuz’n thinks that if she takes a birth control pill on Monday, then she can have sex on Tuesday. I was stunned at how difficult it was to disabuse her of this notion - which apparently is “common knowledge” amongst her peers)

My aunt thinks putting her daughter on birth control would be encouraging a child to engage in intercourse, but I kept trying to drive home the fact that she IS going to have sex anyway, with or without contraception, and with or without auntie’s consent—that’s just a matter of fact, like taxes and physics and gravity

I kept saying, “just be glad she came to you beforehand, or at all, because now you have a chance to act and to protect her”

But then we found out about the boy. He’s a fucking mess, and almost 4yrs older than her

My aunt is leaning towards something like, “If she can demonstrate that she’s ready and mature enough, then maybe I’ll let her go on the pill when she turns 13 or 14,” and I’m like, what happens if SHE doesn’t wait until then?? Nobody can watch her 24/7/365 and if she’s determined to have sex, then she absolutely will

…I honestly do not know what the right answer is here, but I think I’m right?

And young Black girls “falling in love” and having babies with the first guy who is halfway nice to them, before they graduate high school, is already a thing™ in Pentecostal churches. I’m like, auntie what you have here isn’t a setback—this is a golden opportunity to help break a cycle

I know I’m old af, but kids seem to grow up so damn fast nowadays. At 12 all I wanted to do was play basketball, read comic books, and hang out with my friends. Don’t get me wrong, I liked girls and I knew they existed, but SEX? “Sex” was that blurry thing that you occasionally saw on the cable channels you couldn’t afford, as you were flipping through the channels to get to the X-Men cartoons. And I understand that I’m extremely slow here. After all, I was a Pentecostal church boy who took a “purity oath” and was a virgin until I was 25yrs old

Idk how parents deal with this kind of shit. I always thought that one day I would make a great parent, but every time I hear about the problems some of my family encounter with their children, it just chips away at that belief of me being “good parent” material. Lmao, my confidence that I would be a good parent USED to be bigger than Plymouth Rock, but now it’s about the size of a pebble

[raideo]

Issey drama anon here, please tell us about Romance Doll because I have not heard anything about it

also, have you heard of Quartet? I've seen like 50 gifsets from it and it seems legit funny as hell

UMMM WELL- I'll put my thoughts on Romance Doll under a break at the end because the movie is pretty nsfw and weird and yeah...

Quartet is on my list! I'm definitely going to watch it at some point, but I also really wanna watch Miracles! Honestly that one has been the most interesting to me from the beginning but my adhd is just causing me to watch whatever's convenient first, not the ONE IVE REALLY WANTED TO WATCH THIS WHOLE TIME. I still have to finish Koisenu Futari too... I stopped that one cuz I was watching it with someone and we had a long period of time where we couldn't watch it. And then also it's just VERY HEAVY as a person who happens to be demi who has gone through periods of feeling like I could be aroace in the past. It's so realistic and deals with the painful things as well as the funny things and I am scared to finish it bc I KNOW THERES MORE HEAVY SHIT TO COME but it's an amazing show AND I DO WANT TO FINISH THAT ONE TOO.

And on a completely polar opposite note: ROMANCE DOLL, LMAO

Ok so, this movie is very much one of those WEIRDLY REALISTIC stories where all the characters are so real and flawed and HUGE MISTAKES ARE MADE by characters and it's just such a wild ride. You probably haven't heard about it because its FUCKING WACK.

Without giving too much away in case you wanna watch it (netflix dropped it last monday, which is actually why I ended up watching it over the weekend at all, but it's still available to rent on amazon 🙄) Issey plays Tetsuo, an unemployed art college grad who is desperate for a job. His friend gave him a tip about this sketchy job opening but told him literally nothing else about it. He shows up and this old woman greets him and shows him around and he's a bit shocked to find out it's a shop that makes SILICONE SEX DOLLS. The woman is like "your friend didn't tell you that???" And Tetsuo was like "he literally just said there was a job here-" and she laughs and says "Some friend he is then!" Honestly I loved the old lady she's great, I wish I could remember her name I'm too lazy to go look it up rn.

Anyway so yeah, he takes the job even though the interview was super awkward and there's this gross pervy old guy who works there and he doesn't really care about the subject matter he just needs money (mood)

One thing and another happens (and a lot of me wanting to slap the old man into next tuesday, seriously he's the worst) and a little bit later Tetsuo meets the love of his life through some bullshit connection to his job, and they end up getting married some time after, but she doesn't know what he does for a living and ITS ALL VERY HARD TO EXPLAIN WHY HE KEEPS THAT FROM HER without spoiling things but just- the movie is wack, I really didn't like it in the beginning but it pulls a complete 180 and ends up being this weirdly emotional and AT TIMES, a holesome wholesome slice of life movie??

Don't get me wrong it doesn't sugarcoat things like objectification of women and there's some degree of realistic portrayal of that bc of the whole Tetsuo working at a sex doll shop thing, it is very true to life- how men can be gross even if they aren't going so far as assaulting anyone. It doesn't excuse it either it just presents it as it is, which is good I think. But then there are OTHER moments where the movie is very sex positive- so its a wild fucking trip tbh. Definitely don't watch it if you have sensitivities to the things I mentioned above bc bro omg the first half almost had me like "yeah I can't watch this" a couple times jfc.

BASICALLY by the end of the movie the message is that communication and being open with people you love (and not getting bogged down with anxiety and guilt) is important, because on top of not being fair to the people who are important to you, hiding things from them can eat you up inside and make you act irrationally and hurt them even more whether you realize it or not. And also, you never know how someone will feel about the things you don't want to tell them. Something that could be huge to you could be no big deal to another.

Its just a very interesting movie. I don't know if I'd recommend it, theres some NUCLEAR SECOND HAND EMBARRASSMENT CRINGE MOMENTS like oh my god i wanted to die- and like I said above, there's lots of intense subject matter and some not so pretty moments that a lot of people may want to avoid. Id for sure check one of those sites that gives content warnings before watching bc hoo boy...

But all that aside, once again Issey is an incredible actor and his range is apparent in this movie. I saw some like- borderline SLAPSTICK physical comedy moments that had me so surprised bc he did them so well but its so new and different from anything else ive watched him star in. Dude is just unstoppable tbh. He HAS 👏 THE 👏 RANGE!! 👏

Also you get to see him naked a lot. So there's that!

[jake-kiszkas-smirk]

Jfc it’s definitely Monday

[fractallogic]

Today I had an ANNOYING day at work because I felt very stupid and spent WAY too much time on a stupid troubleshooting task, and then (probably) because I was rushing to finish a task for one of the engineers, they were like “uhhhhhhhh are you SURE you actually did the thing” and I’m like GOD WELL IM 33 YEARS OLD WITH A FUCKING PHD you don’t need to talk down to me like that

And then I decide to try the sub at yoga because she was there for the second week in a row and my joints HURT and maybe it’s from not doing yoga enough, but she was very medium and felt very new, so she had potential but only if this studio has a robust practice of other instructors taking classes and giving feedback (which at least for the Monday night, Saturday morning, and Sunday evening classes, it definitely does not)

So then I thought about trying to get hired as a sub at this studio, but I think they want everyone to be RYT certified and I ABSOLUTELY let my certification lapse sometime in LBG because that studio owner didn’t care (reasonable tbh, she was like all I can tell is it’s basically a cash grab for them and RYT-certified vs non-RYT-certified instructors aren’t any different except for who can afford it and who can’t), and idk I don’t know if I really want to go through the work of bringing my certification back up to date when it’s not going to be my ~CaReEr~, you know

And then I came home and I was STARVING and I just wanted to be left alone for several hours to eat my dinner and fucking go back to work, but, you know, scone lives with me now, so that didn’t happen, and that made me remember that I need to get therapy appointments set up, and who tf has time and energy to teach yoga, even as a sub, when I clearly need to have more therapy instead so that I can like, be in a happy relationship with my partner who insists on doing dumb shit like a keto diet and wanting to fight me on topics like “keto cured their cancer” “they don’t know that in this self-published book from what looks like 2004 with WIKIPEDIA REFERENCES jfc, all they can see is a correlation” “…but they SAID…”

And then I had to go to work and that was nice, actually, because I could make some pivot tables and Google sheets formulas and feel smart and say “this is my recommendation” in time for the more senior, customer-facing person to do some kind of reporting to the customer in her morning eastern time tomorrow

And I ate a crappy brownie that came with my lunch (because for $10, it was cheaper to get my JJ’s meal deal with one of everything than say “no dessert please because they have all sucked except for the one cookie you ran from June through July 4th”) and watched TV and went fuck, I need to go to bed AND ALSO FINISH THE FUCKING BOOK CLUB BOOK for the book club I’M leading with MY book suggestion during lunch tomorrow UGH

Today was just so fucking irritating. I don’t like feeling stupid. I don’t like it when men talk down to me. I don’t like being annoyed by scone. I don’t like it when yoga teachers are just meh at their job.

At least I have my business trip plane tickets and hotel booked for Dallas next week, and I am VERY much looking forward to getting ALL of my skin scrubbed off at the K-spa in Dallas (and hopefully a massage too—I should make my way out of the K-spa at 5-5:30, and if I have to stay for the work thing ending at 2, well…) afterward before I get on the plane back home as a treat

I am really hanging onto my grumpiness by my fingernails and it is really, really fighting me to get free and wreak havoc

BUT HEY it’ll be DIFFERENT tomorrow at least (I hope)

[skinni-girls-eat-books]

Monday, March 4th, 2024!

6:18pm: A VERY successful day of doing fuck all nothing *guilt-freeeeeee* YASSSSSS I fucking love spring break without a dumbass man trying to dictate wtf I'm doing 🤣 I did NOTHING all day it has been absolutely glorious.

Meanwhile, lil man over there having a meltdown cryfest about "having to stop talking to me because it's causing fights with his gf" ahahahahahahh I'm sorry but like I just called him when he started texting me like ok say this shit over the phone and he was just crying blubbering clearly not doing well, saying how difficult this is for him blah blah blah.... And like I just didn't really feel bad or whatever for him, I wasn't really upset, I'm so over him and that part feels amazing. He is free to do whatever he wants and I'm free to do whatever I want. All I know is that 1) I'm positive that hello this isn't the last time we'll ever speak, god willing and such. 2) forcing someone to cut someone out of their life like that just breeds resentment and also it's like I'm the thing he can't have now so great lol. Such a healthy, non-toxic relationship amiright?? Go off y'all, bc I definitely want my partner micromanaging my life and making me feel upset like she is making him upset. Wow so glad I didn't have to deal with that emotional MESS jfc. It's so performative, it just feels like an act and none of it feels genuine like it's crazyyy. But whatever time goes on and time will tell ig. Those ppl that stay in an unhealthy relationship way too long or bc "they can't handle being alone with their own thoughts"..... Couldn't be me.... But it's a lot of people 👀

Also, couldn't be me having to worry about the "oh yeah I haven't taken my psych medication in like two weeks but I took it this morning and I'm really feeling it"..... Ok I'm literally a pharmacist and that's not how it works but, once again, go off King 😬 literally giving yourself emotional whiplash for why for what. **** Always requiring that you are the victim in a situation that YOU PUT YOURSELF INTO !! NOBODY GIVES AF WE HAVE ALL TRIED TO HELP YOU AND IT GETS OLD !! It's not cute to never fucking hold yourself responsible for the shitty things you do or have done to people, and people get tired of dealing with your abuse, even friends, it doesn't have to be a partner. You're exhausting to be around. It's a shame. He said he feels bad for all the shitty things he did to me, ok that's cool *I forgive you* (which I said again) but you still fucked me over time and time again so the sympathy is gone, empathy doesn't exist because I wouldn't do the shit you've done to me, so how can I even relate to your shitty behavior. All I can do for myself is forgive and move on bc you're unable to be helped now.

[defiantscribe]

Feeling Lost

As the title implies, I'm feeling lost these past few days and it's culminated in me having to write because my brain is just too busy and I'm tired of depression napping.

So, Monday I decided that I didn't want to work so I took a "mental health day" and just decided to sleep in and bum around. Pretty normal for me to do about once a month, twice depending on stress levels. But it also stems from the fact that I'm not enjoying my job. Now, this doesn't mean I hate my job, but I've said it time and again and I'll say it again: I hate having to work.

Work sucks, plain, simple, to the point. I don't like the idea of having to do something for someone else to earn money to just live. I understand that's how the world works, doesn't mean I have to like it. Lately, my biggest complaint with my job is the people calling in and what I feel is them feigning ignorance when it comes to certain things with computers.

I understand there are certain things they aren't going to be well versed in, especially the more elderly people within the org, however it's when I get the 20 something's calling in and acting as if they've never touched a computer in their life and I have to walk them through simple fucking tasks on a computer or getting pushback when I'm attempting to troubleshoot. "Oh I already tried that". Oh really? You're trying it again so I KNOW you did it instead of you pretending you did it because you think you know better.

It's a constant battle with these bankers. I'm not working with the general public (thank fucking god), but it's about as bad some days. The worst is the need for audit paper trails. Anything these people need typically requires a request be filled out as a papertrail back to the need/request. I get it, I just think it's dumb when one team fucks it up and requires the user to do this when they shouldn't have had to in the first place.

So that was Monday.

Monday night we had a pretty bitchin rainstorm pass through our area. Tuesday morning, I get woken up by my son well before my usual wake up time and open my front door to see one of my fucking trees diagonally across my yard. Now, don't get me wrong, was super happy it didn't hit my house, my car or was even in the street, but I now have a very LARGE problem in my front yard.

Contact a tree removal service and spend more than I was comfortable with to have it cut into pieces and removed. Stressed the entire day about the cost of the removal, but they did a good job, gathered up all the bits and hauled it away.

Come Tuesday night, wife comes home after taking son out practice driving and says something's wrong with the car. About to have a spaz, when I ask if she had been running the AC in the car. Running the AC does have a tendency to tax the car's system and cause it to act different. She says yes, so I chalk it up to that.

Wednesday.

First day of school for my kids, so I get up extra early to get my son to school so he can catch a bus to a vocational school as those are where his morning classes are. Get in the car, turn it over, immediately see that it was NOT the AC causing the issue. Something is definitely wrong with my car. Can't really come to full stops as it feels like it's going to die. Get my son to school just fine, come back home, call up my boss and say I'm out again today as I have to get this resolved as it's the only vehicle we have and can't be without.

Spend the morning attempting to call mechanics, but after a few no answers, find a place that says I can bring it by Thursday afternoon and they'll take a look and then talk price. I say fine, but can only imagine what the price tag of this shit is going to be.

Now, I don't have much in the way of savings, but what we did have is quickly being exhausted by all of this BULLSHIT currently happening and I'm losing my fucking mind. Make my appointment, schedule with others to help get my son to school and meet me at the mechanics tomorrow so I can get a ride home, but JFC, I'm so fucking stressed out I took a fucking 5 hour depression nap today because I just could not deal with this. I'm up typing at 2:37 a.m. because I just have to get all of this out of my head, put somewhere because any time I'm looking for sympathy, no one's there and what sympathy I get has the vibe of "oh well, least it's not me, sorry it's happening to you, but not my problem" and that burns.

I just feel like life is doing it's damnedest to try fuck me over and it's getting the best of me right now. And then I'm questioning my direction in life. I'm fast approaching that midlife crisis, but I'm trying to find a way to make it far more…. productive than me getting a fancy car or some other stupid shit.

I've always said family first, work second. I'm starting to feel like I'm going to flip that here soon as my children are far more independent, they're not in sports or musical academics so much anymore and the need to have that kind of flexibility is waned. My wife drives now, so going places isn't dependent upon me, so I have far more ability to not be relied upon for certain things in life and with my son learning to drive, it's going to become even less.

It's hard for me to potentially change my pattern (I have to have some ADHD or Aspergers or something), but I feel like I may have to abandon some of my more favored habits to put change in my life that is necessary. I don't want to, but if I continue this pattern, I'm doing no favors to my family for the most part (or so I believe).

I just really needed to get all of this out as it just sits in my head, stewing like a pot of sauce that never finishes. And not really having anyone beyond my wife, who's going through the same paces, stinks, so I just put it here for anyone to read. No one will, but it helps me at least release it as if someone really wants to know, I can point them here and don't have to go into grand detail from point zero with them.

Life, please, things have been quiet and they've been good, I don't need sand in the face, it's not helping.

[randomestfandoms-ocs]

okay besties on a genuinely serious topic here – my sink just kind of exploded. (I say my sink, it’s not exclusively my bathroom I’m just the only one who usually uses it) Specifically, one of the pipes came disconnected so it’s draining fine but if I turn on the tap, the water just comes out the end of the pipe instead of up into the tap.  I put towels underneath all the pipes and stopped using my sink and it seems temporarily fine.

However.  My entire family has to leave early tomorrow morning to go to a family thing for the entire day, which means I won’t be at home to actually deal with it properly tomorrow (and y’all, I can problem solve in a crisis but god knows I don’t trust myself to actually fix it)

so I need to decide if A) I wake up one of my parents now – both of them are terrible at sleeping, stressed about tomorrow, and will probably stay up all night worrying about it

B) if I leave it until the morning and then tell them – risking adding even more panic to what will definitely be a high high stress morning trying to get out of the house

C) I wait until we’ve actually left the house so they can’t do anything and we’re already passed the getting out of the house stress, risking stress for the rest of the day

D) I wait until we get home to tell them, meaning that there’s a very solid chance it won’t be working until Sunday or Monday and my own stress about it will explode (and I’m already going to be exceptionally high stress on Sunday because of fucking work bullshit i hate my new manager)

Rn I’m already kind of super high strung over work shit – and also a sink leak explosion flood something at work ugh – while also so exhausted and fed up that half of me is spiralling anxiety that it’s going to explode overnight and destroy the entire house and the other half of me is just like jfc who even cares at this point, so I’m crowd sourcing for some more reliable judgement than my own

[wikiangela]

911 lone star 4x06

ngl, I'm not a fan of this season 😂

my thoughts on the episode under the cut

watching it late bc with all the excitement about monday I completely forgot about ls 😂

oh wow we're jumping right in the action huh

jfc I was so confused and it was just a drill 🤦🏻‍♀️😂

I just... listen, I have been enjoying Owen lately, especially in s3 he became less unbearable and sometimes fun to watch - but I'm starting to get fed up with him again, can we please give someone else the focus for more than one episode 🙄🙄

wtf is he even doing rn, jfc he's such an idiot

I'm bored

I thought we were done with the boring episodes now bc 4x05 was great, but I'm bored again

honestly, if they're arresting Owen, he should stay arrested and not show up in at least a few episodes, give us a break from him (again, I have been liking him more and now they're ruining it again) - like I said before, Rob Lowe is better at comedy, and Owen's comedic moments are so enjoyable, but when they're trying to make him feel like he feels like he's the most important person in every situation, it's just.... uggghhh

oh shit a bomb 😳😳

I'm tired of the whole FBI and honor dogs storyline ngl

so the bomber from last episode is the nephew, okay, I guess that's kinda interesting, but also... eh

Carlos is here!!!! yaaay!

I am excited for the rescues etc bc we're gonna see the whole team and I miss them hahah (I am begging for a Paul storyline that would take more than one episode - or Mateo or Nancy - or Marjan whenever she comes back)

oh my god I'm only halfway through the episode, I feel like I've been watching it for hours

normally I love storylines like this and shows like this, but rn I'm so fucking bored and idk why 😂 idk, maybe it's me, because lately it's been taking a lot for shows to actually excite me and get my attention, maybe I'm not in the right headspace for this rn 😂

maybe I'd enjoy it more if it wasn't 99% about Owen 😂

I really don't care about O'Brien's nephew and why he did all that etc, and I really fucking hope we're done with this storyline now

aw but I love Owen popping by Carlos and TK's place - can we please finally get more dad Owen and not.... whatever this episode was? 😂

that last scene was cute, and definitely my fave out of this episode

but overall, oh my god I was bored out of my mind 😂

did not really like this episode sns 💁🏻‍♀️

idk if it's that this season is weak or if it's me, because I've had problems with not getting bored with shows lately 😂

so far, it's my least fave season and it sucks, I hope it's gonna pick up bc I don't know how long I'm gonna keep watching otherwise 😂

also, watching the promo: I am excited for a Tommy focused episode, and it seems fun, so I'm hopeful 😂

[shirozora-draws]

First, a new sketch drop! Spent most of the week plotting in detail and sometimes I just really need to draw some plot things out. Kafrene will be a setting and disguises are needed, and drawing helps me figure out if the disguises will work. Chitter chatter led to pilfering TLJ!Luke's look and further googling landed me on an alt. take on Luke's cape/poncho thingy. Then there are thoughts about how Din safely carries Grogu around, and thoughts about Grogu turning his treasured toy into a weapon.

There are a lot of thoughts, but also an unfinished outline. The plot is longer than actual fucking fics jfc.

Fun story! I rearranged a whole fuckton of my room with all-new furniture and now there are blank spaces everywhere, and not for the first time people have talked to me about prints so..... I am looking to do some test printing and, depending on how successful they are, maybe possibly limited print runs for a few of my arts. These two are part of the first test but god, I am so slow and so busy so we'll see how long it'll take.

Time has no meaning and it is definitely not 15 minutes (as I write this) to 3AM on a Monday morning. Yolo and all that.

[pannacottawarrior]

tfw your teacher gives you a shit ton of homework to do in a day and is already 5am and you still haven't finished everything you needed to do and you have an exam the next day too;;;

i love school

[blissfali]

(all /rp /dsmp)

ALRIGHTY THE BUTTERFLY C!TOMMY TIMELINE HAS BEEN SORTED (I THINK?? ITS A WORK IN PROGRESS ig)

anyway so tommy was abandoned by his parents at 2 years old. im thinking both of his parents were butterfly hybrids too, and they weren’t sure about raising a son because of how rare butterflies were, and if tommy got into the wrong hands... well... they basically assumed the worst. so, after traveling for a while away from nearby servers, they found the SBIs middle-of-nowhere hybrid house and they left him at phil’s doorstep!! A+ parenting you guys, great job. dont have another kid jfc 

ok so phil opens the door and theres a child... sitting there... MENACINGLY. anyway phil adopts him when tommy is still 2 and assumes hes a human (by this point, tommy shows absolutely no hybrid traits except for faint freckles and abnormally small ears, as well as an abnormally large tongue. obviously his parents DID know he was a butterfly, but phil wouldnt have known) so tommy lives as a human for a bit, with a tendency to run outside in the middle of the night and get lost looking for flowers. phil decided this was normal behaviour. afterall, techno was a piglin and wilbur was literally the angel of deaths son and DEATH itself’s son, so... 

THIS all changed when tommy turned 4! a few weeks after his birthday, he basically went into sort of like a hybernation pretty much. technoblade recognized some of the signs, and he was still alive so they just kept an eye on him. over the course of 3 days, tommy began forming the lil chysalis thing (I DONT KNOW HOW THEY form i just know the caterpillar curls up just use your imagination its magic.) once hes in the chysalis, he’s in there for about 2 1/2-3 weeks and then he BREAKS out and BOOM. BUTTERFLY. its undeniable at that point, since theres a four year old walking like a newborn deer in his living room with gigantic wings on his back, that tommy is a human. this is when phil begins searching for his research.

tubbo is adopted when tommy is 6 (and he is 7), the ol’ box on the side of the road thing you know

when tommy is around 6 and a half, thats when technos voices start getting antsy from staying in once spot for so long. he really wants to get out and travel but phil doesnt want him to go alone, and by this point he’d barely found out anything about tommy. phil speedruns his research and settles on tommy being a blue morpho and hands it off to wilbur pretty much before he and techno leave for other servers around 2 months after tommys half birthday. (btw tommy is not a blue morpho but he definitely looks like it, his bio parents were two different types of butterflies) 

phil never had time to finish looking for how to properly take care of tommy (somewhere between tommy getting his wings and he and techno leaving, phil meets dream but thatll be another post) and so phil basically decided on using an avians way of life before he left since he was looking after and making sure techno was ok. he and tommys wings were wildly different of course, but there wasnt much else he could do. he didnt want to try guessing and fuck something up but he inadvertantly fucked things up anyway when he decided to have tommy live like a bird pretty much.

anyway moving on, wilbur leaves their childhood home when tommy and tubbo are 12 and 13. he moves on to explore other servers, much like techno and phil had, and supposes tommy and tubbo will be ok on their own.

tommy eventually leaves about 3-4 months after, saying bye to tubbo (and probably joining smp earth idk much about it but i want to include it if it doesnt work i might scrap it)

tommy joins the Dream SMP when he’s 13, and tubbo joins about a month or so later. wilbur ends up joining later too, cue dsmp plot (well not really i have more details but this is the basic timeline leading up to canon)

AND yeah This is the timelineTM hopefully maybe idk i seem to get a lot of butterflyinnit stuff done during school and tomorrows monday if i change anything then blame me being bored in class

[draconicmaw]

Mmm rant time below the cut. Mind the tags.

Rescued a shelter kitten last weekend. So we have had Aruna for a week.

Pic of the gorl for your viewing pleasure.

The shelter got her when she was 10 weeks old and had her for 2 weeks. Thus making her 12 weeks old when we got her (Jan 23), 13 weeks old now (Jan 30). (The math matters.)

We have been keeping her separate from Sunny to help acclimate them to each other (just installed baby gate so that they can see each other through the doorway. They are getting along).

She had what the shelter called a "sinus infection" when we got her. Sneezing, watery eyes, etc. They had stopped giving her her antibiotics so it was getting worse but gave the rest of her prescription to us. We have been giving her the meds. She was getting better but has currently plateaued. So there is my first charge laid against this shelter. You do NOT stop antibiotics just because "they seem to be getting better." JFC

Tonight, we have noticed grains around her anus. Like little grains of rice. Which means 1 thing.

HOLY FUCKING SHIT. THIS KITTEN HAS TAPEWORMS.

Okay, yeah, stray kittens will have worms, that shit just happens, but. They gave her 1 dose of dewormer when they got her (Jan 4) and called it good enough. You are supposed to give a 2nd dose 10-14 days after the first to make SURE that the worms are fucking dead.

I KNOW she has worms from before because she sure as hell didn't get them here (no contact with Sunny until today and no contact with Sunny's feces, and Sunny receives regular parasite prevention medication, for "just in case." Y'know, because of shit like this).

And her sneezing isn't getting better because I definitely think it isn't a sinus infection. I think she is just having a general immune reaction to, y'know, HAVING A FUCKING PARASITE.

Ugh. It is currently Sunday. The shelter is closed Monday. But they are definitely getting a call Tuesday. They said they would cover the bill if her sneezing didn't go away and I fucking hope they will cover deworming because yeah. Not our fault.

Either way, Sunny has her spaying appointment Friday, and the vet would probably give us some dewormer if we asked nicely lmao. Will still be giving Aruna her antibiotics just in case.

RANT OVER. THANK YOU FOR READING THIS IF YOU DID AND PLEASE HOPE FOR THE BEST FOR MY 2 GORLS.

(also, complementary Sunny pic, because she is The Best Bun:

[hoe-imaginess]

Please please please Dabi/Hawks threesome with reader relationship headcanons??? With NSFW if you’re feeling up to it.

💦 👅💦 ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) 💦 👅💦 💦

Dabi x reader x Hawks relationship !!

•Hot, but possibly the worst decision of your life ngl 

•Dabi... just ain’t about it. Like, he won’t consider it a relationship so much as it’s just an arrangement. Because if it were a relationship and that meant you were with him then you are going to be with him and him only, screw that other guy

•Hawks isn’t overly fond of sharing either but it’s... doable

•You’re definitely going to be around Hawks more often (despite the fact that he’s a busy guy) because he is just... so much nicer to be around lmao

•Sure Hawks is a little spastic sometimes, and his idea of romance is pulling like... 14 things of yakitori out of his pocket at any given moment and suggesting you two have a “quick lunch date” on some rooftop somewhere, and by quick he means like five minutes so better hurry up and CHEW—

•Still so much better than hanging out with Dabi though sksksk

•Dabi will just... laze around and completely forget you’re with him. You breathe too hard and he’s like DAMN bitch you scared me how long you been sitting there tf?... don’t sneak up on people like that

•Most of the time when you three are together, it’s you and Hawks having an actual conversation as you’re snuggled up on a couch somewhere, while Dabi is lounging on the opposite couch and insulting both of you/making crude comments when he sees fit

•Especially if Dabi is trying to sleep and you two won’t shut the hell up he will actually tell you to the shut the hell up. And Hawks is like “Dude there are other rooms to sleep in. Just leave.” And Dabi is like “...You leave”. 

•Dabi is a dick sorry. He may or may not make you cry at any given time because he’s just so... mean. Okay even if you’re not crying, he can very easily destroy your mood and just ruin your whole day

•Which is when Hawks gets to swoop in and cheer you up. Dabi will see this and be a little annoyed but at the end of the day... whatever. If you wanna be babied you can hang out with Hawks. Good riddance in Dabi’s opinion

•Basically Hawks pampers the hell out of you and treats you like his little angel and it makes Dabi nauseous 

•Okay I really do not think either of them would ever jump at the idea of a threesome because they... just... can’t stand each other

•Dabi is going to constantly complain about not being able to keep his dick hard because “This stupid chicken can’t keep his wings to himself” and always smacks them out of the way (Hawks is very bad about keeping his wings under control during sex. You make one hot moan and they flutter out in excitement, and Dabi is at constant risk of getting accidentally shanked by a feather because of it)

•And meanwhile Hawks can’t concentrate on doing what he needs to do when Dabi is saying the absolute filthiest words he has ever heard in his life come from any human being’s mouth, ever. How is that dirty talk allowed? Hawks is like?? Is anyone else hearing this shit??

•Hawks will be between your legs giving you that Signature Head™ and Dabi is suddenly telling you how hard he’s gonna fuck you and how loud you’re gonna scream for him and how he wants to hear you cry and beg for it and that he can’t wait to mess you up— then Hawks will pop up, like, absolutely horrified??? Like?? WHO SAYS THAT?? 

•(Hawks will never fully believe it if you tell him that this type of dirty talk actually turns you on... yet.. he will start trying to dirty talk you too. It’s hot as shit but it’s not as fucking filthy as Dabi. Dabi just... it comes so naturally it’s scary)

•So yeah expect most of the sex to be... separate. Everyyyy once in a while you’ll be having sex with one of them, then the other suddenly walks in like... oh... welp *starts unzipping his pants* don’t mind if do—bc he’s too horny to leave now. So he jumps in to join the fun, despite the other guy’s complaints

•They’re both so goddamn annoying sometimes though jfc. Dabi will ignore you for a week straight then bust down the door when you’re trying to nap, because suddenly he’s bored and wants attention and it’s almost always sexual attention, the same attention he’s been neglecting to give you, but don’t tell him that because... he won’t give a shit. And if you don’t wake up and give it to him, he’s gonna slide under the sheets and start pinching and groping and rubbing you everywhere those hot hands can reach, and/or physically kick you out of bed when you still don’t respond

•Meanwhile Hawks will be having a conversation with you about... literally... the paint on the wall and then suddenly he’s like!!! Hey... so... want sum fuck?

•They’re both randomly horny and it is a mess

•(Ok I lied Hawks is always horny.) (Dabi is horny like... every third Monday of the month and it has to be a full moon and the stars have to be aligned and—... but yeah ok, since he’s finicky and only fucks you every once in a while, when he finally does want in your pants, it’s sooooo wild. You’re getting fucked until you can’t walk for three days)

•So basically between the walking aphrodisiac (Hawks) and Japan’s Number One Sadist (Dabi) you somehow get no break, and honestly idk if it’s physically healthy to be having as many orgasms as you do have between the two of them

•Dabi can be pretty crude and inconsiderate, and after fucking you, will probably tell Hawks he can go ahead have his “sloppy seconds”, which um... is obviously pretty degrading for you. Fuck Dabi.

•But Hawks is like fuck it bro do I look like I care?? He just wants to give you some luv (and head especially, since SOMEONE... *cough* Dabi *cough*... will rarely go down on you). Hawks will take the sloppy seconds. He wants you that bad it doesn’t matter

•Which is when Dabi starts calling him a cuck

•But... nothing some shower sex with Hawks can’t fix if you two wanna be fresh for each other. Sloppy seconds his ass. And Hawks isn’t overly competitive, but this is usually when he wants to really rile you up to as a big “fuck you” to Dabi.  Hawks not only makes you moan loud but also tickles you or make funny jokes that’ll have you laughing loud enough for Dabi to hear. Just to prove that he can make you cum and make sure you’re having a good time. What a King

•Dabi does hear it, but rarely gets jealous. He’s just like... ew... disgusting... get that uwu shit away from me