#it’s sad and revolting

[nullians]

About that misogyny in fandom post. I think it’s like… a complicated enough net of “what people want to see in fan creations”, “what people can relate to in fan creations”, “what kind of people make up for most of the creative side of fandom” (remember that “all men do in fandom is make power level tiers and theories” post? It’s bad but like. Shows the general sentiment), “what will give an author interactions”, and “how do people approach each other about their favourite things”. Like there are many factors, and I think sexualisation and fanservice should be counted in too, and the diversity offered to male vs female characters. I’ve said it once before but it’s generally much harder to find a female character who has the same freedom of expression as a male character. And a lot of them are not made with the same enthusiasm as the male ones. Like yeah, that is misogyny but I think it’s not like. A fandom-root problem but a source material problem too? And imo the audience will subconsciously or not react to that.

Plus, maybe this wouldn’t be so visible if fandom wasn’t mostly ship-centric… Because as it stands, even if there is a voice to explore non-romantic and sexual relationships oftentimes it just ends up being a very sad/isolating experience still. Hmm

[revoltpark]

compare and contrast?…

idk I don’t rlly like how any of the redraws came out but it’s whatevr, I think I might go back to the hellpark looking style but I don’t at the same time idk what to do AGHDHHDH

[peachybatim]

so have you guys already developed 7 different 'sammy lived' or 'sammy plays a bigger role' aus in your head or are you Normal

[captainsavre]

I hate being alone. Carina DeLuca || Station 19 (4.02 Wild World)

[acknowledgetheabsurd]

My dear child, with what sadness I read your letter! At least it was a sign from you, and I could finally locate you in the midst of the dreadful fog that has surrounded you for three days. I know a little of what you feel. And that was what I missed the most: I could not imagine your heart. To such misfortunes, one can react in a hundred ways and pain has all the faces. Now I see more or less and I know that I would be like you. The noise of men, the horror of these barbaric and ridiculous rites, the ugliness of the days and the torn love we carry for the one who leaves, yes, I understand you and I share your revolts and your suffering. 

I would have laughed too, and so would he, you are right, if he could have seen. He was intelligent, really intelligent, a rare quality that remains, if only, as it was the case, it is not separated from goodness. I knew that you admired him and that you loved him, I knew that he deserved it and that you were right to be proud of him. That's why I always trembled, without telling you, for his life - because I trembled for the most secret part of your heart. That's why I'm unhappy as if I came to lose an infinitely dear being. I understand that you want to remain worthy of him (worthy of her too, but that's another thing). I'm not sure I'm worthy of helping you, but that's what I'd like to do, and I would like you to let me. 

For the rest, do not fear. I look after myself and I will heal, because I have more than ever the will to heal. Everything that I didn't want to do I will do now, thinking of you. And I hope to bring you new strength that we can share. I accept this gift without reservation that you give me. It fills me up but I know that it is not only about me: I will help you to live. Forgive me for not going further. My heart is terribly tight. But I cry out to you here my love, my sorry tenderness and my expectation. Live, I beg you, however hard life is for you. We will resist together, from now on, I kiss you, I embrace you, for a long time.

Albert Camus to Maria Casarès, Correspondance, February 20, 1950 [#203]

[zeynatura]

SHORT HAIRED EDMOND!?

[whenmemoriesfrost]

100 days of productivity // day 47

planned a surprise day trip + hike for my partner’s bday :)

finished knitting the left shoulder on my jumper

[nerdlycrying]

heeeeeeyyyyyyyyy so i’m a federal level criminal(again) and idfk if y’all will ever see me after a few weeks because i paid bail. sooo i just wanted to say confidently that i love y’all even if nobody ever noticed my blog and thank you all for making me happy while i needed it most.

[izacore]

I'm so tired of Harry. I don't hate him, I'm just really tired of his face, his shows, movies, scandals, girls, supposed boyfriends, weird interviews, pap walks, etc. At this point he's just a walking advertisement.All these big blogs that praise him for any crap he does just amazes me. I think part of this fandom has lost the ability to think rationally at some point. And that part of the fandom hates the other part that has a different opinion/ that doesn't pray to the ground Harry walks on. Thank you for not looking at the world through rose-colored glasses and always giving an honest opinion :)

hellooo! I think this is a perfectly normal and reasonable reaction to have to all the over-saturation of Harry that we have been experiencing the past few years. I agree that somewhere along the way hshq and well, Harry too, kinda lost it, and made him into a shallow brand that I personally struggle to connect with nowadays.

I don't really get the policing of people's feelings regarding this situation because for me, if somebody is able to compartmentalize and focus only on the good then great for them and I am jealous! But what is so hard to understand that others may not be able to do that, that they be more emotional and sensitive and just sad about whatever is happening. I am tired of hearing words and phrases like "entitled", "you hate closeted people", "take a step back" etc. all the time, tired that people can go all soft how cute it is hl cannot stay away from each other for more than 5 minutes and then in the same breath make fun of people who are sad they'll be apart like 90% of the year because suddenly it's "come on, it's a normal relationship, couples may not see each other and actually, their careers are what matters the most!!!". I don't know what is wrong with having discussions, as long as it's in a respectful manner that don't invalidates anyone's feelings or isn't hateful. Why is it suddenly being seen as hating hl? It drives me insane how the twitter total obedience stan culture is dripping onto tumblr.

Idk, like I said, it's a me problem and probably some parasocial issue comes into play here haha, but I just see them as humans first, musicians second, and I simply wouldn't mind if they took a break, disappeared and just lived a happy life together away from this. It's devastating if people around them made them believe that that's the only way to have what they have because it's the biggest lie ever, and they're walking through this hell simply because no one around them can admit they are so wrong.

So yeah, if that makes me entitled and hateful person just because I don't think that it's not wrong to not only focus on the good then so be it. HL's actual happiness matters to me most and it's sad that them having to live these lives and wasting time (that they'll never get back) have become so normalized.

[bandzboy]

no way they are actually justifying bombing that hospital and what is worse is that western media is gonna eat this up i'm genuinely sick

[borrowingcapybaras]

When you see this, post 5 songs you actually listen to and tag 10 of your favorite followers/mutuals

Thanks for tagging me @paradoxesofgalaxies and @soullikethesea ! :D

1. That Summer at Home, I Had Become the Invisible Boy - The Twilight Sad

2. Beautiful Smell - Spleen ft. Coco Rosie

3. Talking Shit About a Pretty Sunset - Modest Mouse

4. Balance - Future Islands

5. Mattresses Underwater - Color Revolt

Trying to think of folks who haven't been tagged yet... I tag @healing-lee @chatter-of-birds @there-will-be-a-way @faramirdyke @daggerfagger @terryfuckingturniptruck @barking @system-splintered @silentalltheseyearsnomore @feridthesassygayfriend

[makedamnsvre]

jumping up and down excitedly The Character

[beljar]

For sadness is the form of my revolt and my resistance.

"Revolt Against the Sun - A gift for the rebels" 7/8/1946 by Nazik Al-Mala’ika

[acknowledgetheabsurd]

Gloomy day, the sky is grey and cold. We are waiting for snow, almost. I'm in bed, as always at this hour, and I hear on the road goats quivering from cold. I don't have much to tell you. I worked yesterday afternoon and finished everything concerning my book of political writings*. I will be able to send it to composition (I'll send you the preface when it's typed), but I have to come up with a title, and I'm embarrassed. I had thought of Forced Testimonies - but I'm not proud of it. After that, I can't see anything. Do you have any idea?

I had a bad night. It took me hours to fall asleep and you know that insomnia is not pink. I've been waiting. This morning, wake up grumpy. But then I went to work and started clearing the ground for my essay. In the morning I'll do some reading and documentation. In the evening I'll write. Let's pray it works out. At noon, your letter, which seemed to me to be asleep and not very clean, was delivered to me.  I'm glad you're playing Martha in The Exchange. Yolande Laffon can't help it, the play is unplayable. It's a long poem in four voices, often verbose. Next to Tête d'or and Le Partage, it's a tartouillade. But the fashion is to admire all of Claudel. Whereas few creators, by the very form of genius, have left as much waste as he will. That said, bon appétit! And I hope to hear your performance. As for Gorky, he's not a great writer. He's a moving writer, something different. That's why his best book is The Mother. (Great writers are moving plus (+) something else - in my opinion, at least.)

Life together here is painless. It's a harmonious lapping. It's curious, but the infinite possibility that M[ichel] and J[anine Gallimard] have of not being in pain scares me sometimes. Soft-spoken monsters - that fascinate me a little. Life and death with the same smile. I always live at the level of those with whom I live with. It's a weakness that I always blame myself for. Only in this case I have revolts, absurd ones, which make F[rancine] laugh (who shares them, by the way).  But I'm very close to these bad feelings.

20 days! I dare not count the remaining days. I close my mouth, I blind myself, I stop my blood so that I don't feel the emptiness, the fear, the boredom, the terrible boredom of living without you. At least I kiss you, in the warmth of my alarm clock, with all my weight. At 7 a.m. I wanted to write to you a little before giving this letter to post, but my breakfast didn't want to go by and I spent the afternoon in bed with a hot water bottle on my stomach. Ah, I'm not the Tristan type, but I just heard an admirable love duet by Mascagni on the Italian radio and I was really moved. So I send you, quickly, the thought of the heart of the soul. Ah! To live close to you, and in front of what is beautiful...I am sad and happy at the same time. But close, close to you, my dear love.

Albert Camus to Maria Casarès, Correspondance, January 20, 1950 [#138]

* Actuelles I, Chronicles 1944-1948.

[cr0ws-cha0t1c-c0llect10n]

uughhghghg typing this so PISSED and SAD while wearing all of my braces instead of sleeping hours after i got into bed cause my NEW medication meant to MAKE ME TIRED ENOUGH TO SLEEP AND BE IN LESS PAIN ISN’T DOING SHIIITTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!! FUUUUCKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!! IT’S ONE WEEK AWAY FROM AN ENTIRE YEAR OF 24/7 PAIN AND LITERALLY NOTHING HAS HELPEODLEVRNTNTHUHGHHFBYJJGBDNBDHDGRHHRHRJFJGJGJJGJGJFHDHHHGGDHDGEGRGGRGDGDGG KEYBOARD SMAHSH OF RAGE TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER AGSBBFHRJGBGNJGKGJGNGKGBFNBRJRHRHHRGRHFHRHTHTHTJGJHGJRJTBTJTHTIJYJYJYJYKJYJTNRITBTNIDUYEHFIJFJJGIGYRBEISUEBKFJGNLDUEJFJFHHRJFJ BUT I’M NOT ACTUALLY SMAHSING A KEYBOARD CAUSE IT’S LATE BUT AGRESSIVELY TAPPING MY PHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that was pretty awesome actually <3 now i’m just a lil pissed off <3