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cha-melodius · 2 years

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Lokius whump prompt requester here 👋

Seriously how does your brain work because what you wrote is totally unexpected BUT SO FITTING to the prompt and freaking AMAZING 😭 Thanks for taking the prompt and introducing me to time-loop trope because I can already feel the WHUMP!

Hello anon, thank you again for the wonderful prompt, and I'm sorry it's taken me apparently a month to get to chapter 2 (a month! how did that happen?!). But I am happy to finally have it for you, although there's still a chapter 3 to come, hopefully sooner than later! So here it is:

It's Been a Bad Day Lately, Chapter 2

Chapter 2 on AO3 | Chapter 1

Loki doesn’t actually tell anyone about the device or his apparent foreknowledge of the day the first time through. After all, even if it seems that everyone else is completely ignorant of what the hell is going on, that doesn’t mean the TVA isn’t behind it somehow. They’re the Time Variance Authority after all. Repeating days feels like something they’d traffic in. He wants to trust Mobius at least, but he can’t help but be reminded that this Mobius still doesn’t know him, not really, and he can’t rule out that Mobius is purposefully being kept in the dark. It would track with how things were running before.

He can’t even be sure if he’s truly reliving the day—which doesn’t really seem possible, given what he knows about timelines and traveling among them—or if he really did dream it all. The device, of course, suggest a more tangible explanation. It’s not unreasonable to think it’s somehow related to the whole mess, but it also seems to be, well, broken. Whatever happened when Loki got shot also put a large crack in the face of it, and he hasn’t been able to get it to turn on or do anything. The strap had also snapped when he pulled it off of Richards’ wrist (did he really? he must have), but the idea of leaving it behind makes something crawl uncomfortably beneath his skin, so he loops what’s left of it onto a chain like a pendant and tucks it safely under his TVA-issued shirt.

The day goes about as well as it did before, which is to say, pretty terribly. Despite knowing it was going to happen, he still loses track of Mobius, and the knowledge of the outcome of that sends him into a panic that ends with some poor decisions and him staring down the barrel a truly monstrous gun.

It’s easier waking up the second time. Or is it third? His hand goes automatically to the device still hanging around his neck, but this time he also can’t help but wince at the phantom pain of the chest shot that took him out. He’s alive, there’s no hole blown in his ribcage, but the ghost of it lingers like an echo in his memory for a few minutes before it fades. B-15 frowns and tilts her head at him clutching his chest like he’s having a heart attack, but makes no comment beyond the words he’s already come to expect.

He doesn’t wait for her to finish before he takes off to find Mobius.

Normally they don’t meet up before the briefing, but this time Loki storms into the wing of the building reserved for the senior analysts’ apartments and pounds insistently on Mobius’s door until the man himself pulls it open. For a moment, Loki entirely forgets why he’s there, because Mobius is half dressed in slacks and a thin, sleeveless undershirt that clings to every curve of his torso and leaves precisely nothing to the imagination. He’s barefoot and his short hair is still tousled from bed, and the whole thing should not be as attractive as it works out to be. Even the annoyed purse of his lips is alluring. Fuck.

This is, sadly, not the first time Loki has found himself experiencing a tug of not-entirely-unexpected desire for the analyst. Look, he isn’t blind, anyone can see that Mobius is a handsome man, made even more intriguing by the interplay of the hard edges and soft spots of his character. How he won’t let Loki get away with anything while at same time giving in all the time to Loki’s little eccentricities. Loki’s never quite seen him like this, though, all enticingly sleep-rumpled, and it’s kind of a lot to deal with considering everything else going on.

“Are you just going to stand there, or are you going to tell me what the devil couldn’t wait for another thirty minutes?” Mobius demands, frowning. It’s a fair question, because Loki is pretty sure he’s been staring for the last two minutes, which is precisely one minute and 59 seconds too long for such things.

Loki manages to blink himself back to reality and clears his throat, shoving whatever that is deep, deep down where he decidedly will not examine it any time in the next millennium. “What do you know about time loops?”

“Like in the time cells?” Mobius asks, his brow furrowing.

“No. Like, reliving the same day over and over again.”

Mobius shakes his head. “Not possible.”

“What do you mean ‘not possible’?” Loki asks.

“Not sure I can be any clearer,” Mobius huffs. “That kind of recursive loop in an active timeline is impossible. You could travel backwards a day I guess, but then there’d be two variants of you in the same timeline.”

This is pretty much what Loki had figured, given what he had learned about the multiverse, but it does nothing to help him figure out his particular problem. “So you’re not aware of any technology that would allow someone to completely reset the day after being killed and try it again in the same body, with all their memories from the previous day?”

“What?” Mobius says, clearly dumbfounded. “Of course not. A variant that dies—not pruned, but killed—is dead, Loki. There’s no coming back from that.”

Loki hesitates, but there’s no one else he can talk to about this. He reaches up to touch the device under his shirt absentmindedly, carefully choosing his next words. “What if there was?”

The problem is, Mobius is a stubborn man. He knows far more about how timelines work than Loki ever will, and he refuses to believe Loki experienced anything more than a very vivid dream. Timelines don’t work that way, he insists, and there’s no way to make them work that way. Even the broken device in Loki’s possession doesn’t sway him, probably because it’s, well, broken. Not terribly convincing, as it turns out.

Unexpectedly, Loki coming to talk to Mobius apparently perturbs the timeline enough that things seem to be going differently. It’s enough that even Loki starts to doubt himself, even though he already lived through this day twice before, even though he can vividly remember the pain of dying twice, even though he knows that he took the device directly from Richards’ wrist himself. Maybe it means that this time will go differently, though, that the future isn’t as written as it seems to be, that today won’t end with both of them dead.

But then, right before they depart through the time doors, Mobius says, “It’s gonna work this time, I can feel it.”

Shit.

“Mobius, listen to me,” Loki says urgently, grabbing him by the arm. “If this goes the way I think it will, it’s going to be a bloodbath.”

Mobius sighs, because they’ve been over this. “You can’t know what’s going to happen out there. We’re outside of time right now. No one can travel to a previous time point in the TVA.”

“But if I do know—”

“Then something very strange is going on, yes,” Mobius finished for him. He hesitates a moment, still frowning. “What do you think is going to happen?”

“Richards is dug in with an army of very well-armed men around him. What it takes to get to him…” Loki trails off and looks down at his hand, even though he knows he won’t find Mobius’s blood on it. He can still picture it, though, still almost feel its warmth. “Promise me you’ll stay near me,” he finally says as he meets Mobius’s gaze again. “That you won’t run off.”

“I don’t need a babysitter, Loki,” Mobius scoffs.

Loki’s hand shoots out to grab his wrist, fingers automatically shifting until he finds a pulse. “Please, Mobius,” he begs. “Promise.”

He doesn’t want to know what’s in his eyes that makes Mobius blink, looking slightly taken aback. “Ok,” he answers softly. “I promise.”

Later, Loki thinks back to this moment and can’t understand how it could be such a difficult promise to keep.

~~~~~

“It’s gonna work this time, I can feel it.”

“I wish I could share your optimism.”

~~~~~

“It’s gonna work this time, I can feel it.”

“I’ll wager you it won’t.”

~~~~~

“It’s gonna work this time, I can—”

“By the Norns, would you stop?” Loki snaps. “Nothing is going to change. I’ve been through this five times before, and nothing ever changes!”

Mobius stares at him, his mouth still hanging slightly open. “What do you mean you’ve been through it five times?”

“I’ve literally lived this day five times, Mobius,” Loki hisses, trying not to draw attention from the hunters nearby. “Every time, we fail. Every time, I die, and every time, I wake up again, here, at the beginning of the same day.”

“That’s—”

“Not possible, I am well aware. But it’s happening all the same.”

“Why didn’t you say anything before right now?”

Loki groans in frustration. “Because you never believe me. You say it’s impossible, that time doesn’t work that way—”

“Because it doesn’t,” Mobius cuts in.

“—and so nothing about the operation changes except for what I do. And it’s not enough,” Loki huffs. It’s never, ever enough. It took him four loops just to figure out why Mobius kept disappearing—an attack on the third sub-basement divides their meager forces in half, and somehow Mobius always ends up in the other group, forced to retreat down a hidden side passage—but he can’t do anything when the hunters and minutemen won’t listen to him.

“Huh,” Mobius says, looking oddly thoughtful. It’s certainly not the response Loki expected.

“What’s that supposed to mean?”

Mobius shrugs. “If this is really happening to you—not saying it is, but if—it sounds like you need to find a way to convince me earlier, so we can come up with a new plan.”

“I— what?” Loki boggles at him. “And how, pray tell, am I supposed to do that?”

“You’re a clever guy. I’m sure you’ll figure something out,” Mobius says with a grin as he claps Loki on the shoulder.

If only it was as reassuring as Mobius no doubt intends it to be.

~~~~~

“Loki, what—?” Mobius sputters when Loki pushes past him into his apartment the next loop.

He hasn’t come here every morning since the first time, mostly because trying to explain everything is already starting to get tiresome. Still, he’s become familiar enough with how things go.

“Watch the table,” he says offhandedly as he disappears into Mobius’s bedroom to retrieve a shirt, jacket and tie.

“Huh?” Mobius says, right as he shuffles into the coffee table and stubs his toe, then hobbles away swearing.

“That’ll be the coffee,” Loki continues when he reemerges, moments before a beep sounds in the kitchen. He shoves the clothes at a bewildered Mobius and heads in to retrieve the mug from under the coffee maker and grab the cream from the fridge. Mobius appears in the doorway—Loki knows without checking—and leans against the frame as he buttons his shirt. “Stop frowning, I know how you take it.”

“You’re not even looking at me.”

“Don’t have to,” Loki replies without turning around. “You’re going to ask how I can be sure you still take your coffee the same as the Mobius I knew before, to which I will respond that, even though you do, it doesn’t matter because I’m well aware of how you take it, and then you’ll insist that I’ve never seen you prepare it, which was true before today, but no longer. I think that about catches us up, don’t you?”

Mobius is, predictably, gaping at him when he finally turns, and Loki can’t resist the pleased smirk that tugs on his lips. Perhaps he should have tried this earlier, but then again, he needed a few repetitions to be completely sure of how the morning would go. He walks over and hands Mobius the coffee mug, which the other man takes automatically, then tugs at the ends of the tie looped under his collar and begins to tie it while Mobius is still seemingly stuck staring at him.

A moment later, Mobius appears to come back to himself, and he swallows. “W-what are you doing?” he asks, his voice oddly tight.

“Plenty to do this morning,” Loki replies lightly, letting his lips tip into a smirk. “I’m afraid we can’t afford to dawdle.”

“And how did you know all that other stuff?”

“Easy,” Loki says as he finishes tying the tie and gives it a little pat before stepping back. “I’ve lived this day before. And before you protest that it’s impossible, know that I’ve had this conversation with you five times before and am very familiar with every possible argument about how the timelines do or do not work.”

“That’s…” Mobius begins, trailing off for a long moment as his eyes search Loki’s face. Loki readies himself for the inevitable impossible, despite his warning, but instead Mobius finishes, “amazing.”

Loki cocks a skeptical eyebrow at him. “Really?”

“I mean, you’re right, it should be impossible, but… I dunno, Loki. There’s something about you that feels different. Can’t put my finger on it.”

“Huh,” Loki huffs, frowning. He hadn’t considered the possibility that the looping might change him in some way, although now that he thinks about it, he supposes it’s inevitable. He’s living out days and remembering them, moving forward in his life, even if no one else is.

“When you say you’ve been reliving, you mean the day resets when you go to sleep?” Mobius asks.

“When I die,” Loki answers bluntly, and Mobius’s eyes go wide. “So far I haven’t lasted long enough to go to sleep.”

Mobius swallows hard again. “I think I need to sit down.”

Without really thinking about it, Loki takes ahold of Mobius’s elbow and steers him back into the living room. They both sit on the couch, close enough that their knees knock together when Loki turns slightly toward him, and he doesn’t let himself contemplate the fact that he feels better when they’re some kind of in contact. That there’s a strange kind of reassurance in the solidity of Mobius’s body next to him. Each time he wakes up everything feels a little more unreal, but this helps. Even if he has to force himself not to reach out and press his fingers to the pulse point on Mobius’s wrist.

Loki explains how the day goes as quickly as he can—what goes wrong on the operation, and how he thinks they might do better—and Mobius just listens, taking long sips from his coffee at regular intervals. The biggest issues is the weapons, but Mobius still resists him on that point; the minutemen are good in hand-to-hand combat but haven’t been trained with firearms, and with only an hour before the operation is scheduled to depart, there’s little time to change that. Loki already guesses that pushing back the operation is probably a long shot. He might be able to convince Mobius, but the TVA here isn’t run by one person, there’s a team making the decisions, and there’s no way they’ll listen to him. Loki and Mobius talk about different strategies until they can’t put off joining the rest any longer, and he can’t help but feel a little hopeful as they gear up. Things will be different this time.

Too late, he realizes that he sounds just like—

“It’s gonna work this time, I can feel it.”

Loki scrubs a palm down his face and sends a little prayer to the Norns that when dies this time, it might be quick.

~~~~~

Don’t get him wrong, dying sucks. Most of the time whatever wound he gets isn’t enough to kill him instantly. Once he drowns in his own blood, and he thinks nothing could be worse until he’s slowly crushed under rubble after an explosion. But none of it, he thinks, is as bad as watching Mobius die over and over again. Every one of those deaths is indelibly etched in his memory, along with every time Mobius calls him a good man right before the end.

If he was good, he’d be able to get them out of this mess. If he was good, he’d be able to protect his— his— friends. Loki is well aware that he’s started giving up, letting himself be killed, when Mobius dies—maybe he has been from the beginning—but no, he would not like to examine that too closely, thank you.

Once, after a particularly brutal loop, Loki barely waits for Mobius to open the door before surging forward and enveloping him in a crushing hug.

“Loki, what—?” Mobius huffs, but he also hugs him back immediately, and something unknots in Loki’s chest at the feeling of Mobius’s broad hand rubbing reassuring circles between his shoulder blades.

Loki tucks his face against Mobius’s neck, which is probably too intimate a position for what they are to each other, but he can feel his pulse throbbing there, steady and real, and he doesn’t really care. “If I told you not to go on the mission today, would you listen?” he asks, his voice muffled.

“You know I couldn’t,” Mobius murmurs, and Loki knows, he knows he’ll never convince Mobius to stay behind, but he doesn’t know how much more he can take of this. Mobius holds Loki a minute longer before he pulls back slightly. “Now what’s this all about?”

Even with Mobius’s help in planning, they can’t seem to break through Richards’ defenses. Every time they think they’ve cracked the pattern, that they’ve anticipated every attack, another one pops up that they never foresaw just because they’d never gotten that far before. Richards is simply too dug in; they’d need to go back further than a single day to really catch him unawares, and that’s just not possible.

“What if you just took two of the best hunters, say B-15 and D-90—”

“Not D-90,” Loki interrupts, wrinkling his nose.

“—Fine,” Mobius sighs, “G-35, then, like a targeted strike team. You could slip past a lot of these obstacles, and the rest of us could draw their attention away.”

It’s basically what he did the very first time through, when he actually made it to Richards’ inner sanctum, which is why Loki knows it would work. But that doesn’t mean it would be successful. He shakes his head. “No, I can’t do that.”

“What do you mean? It doesn’t work?”

Loki stares at the man across from him, blue eyes unflinchingly holding his gaze. It should be easy to lie to him, Loki is the prince of lies, but when he opens his mouth what comes out is a strained, “I can get to him. I still died.”

“But if you can talk to him—”

“It doesn’t matter.”

“How many times have you tried?” Mobius demands, frowning like he knows exactly what Loki is holding out on him.

“It doesn’t matter,” Loki repeats insistently.

“Loki.”

“Once, ok?!” Loki snaps, leaping to his feet. He strides off across the modest living room until he can go no further, then slumps onto one hand against a bookshelf and stares at the ground as he quietly adds, “The very first time.”

Mobius, of course, is not about to let this go. Out of the corner of his eye, Loki sees him stand. “Well, why haven’t you tried again?”

“It’s not—” Loki starts, then breaks off with a sigh. “The costs are too high.”

“You can’t possibly know what will happen to the team that gets left behind,” Mobius argues. “Maybe it’s not so bad.”

Loki groans in frustration as he finally looks up again, folding his arms across his chest. “I know you died the first time, Mobius.”

“But you can’t be sure it’ll happen again.”

“I can’t be sure it won’t.”

“So?” Mobius challenges, a determined fire glinting in his eye. “Maybe it’s worth the risk, if it means getting Richards. If it means getting you out of this loop.”

“It’s not,” Loki insists stubbornly.

“Maybe it is for me. Did you ever think to ask?”

“I don’t care, because it’s not worth it to me.”

“It’s my life, Loki! I can’t see why it matters whether the risk is worth it to you!”

“Because I can’t lose you again, Mobius!” Loki nearly shouts, finally pushed to the breaking point.

The apartment is deathly silent for several long minutes after that, and Loki squeezes his eyes closed. There it is, then. The truth he’d been trying to hide even from himself. Maybe he’d been in love with Mobius even before the reset, or maybe he hadn’t been, but it doesn’t matter now. Spending as many loops as he had with him—working with him, joking with him, being with him—had done the necessary damage. And to make matters worse, Mobius remembers none of it. Loki is barely better than a stranger to him.

“You can’t… you don’t mean me…” Mobius finally says, much closer than he’d been before, and when Loki opens his eyes he finds him standing right in front of him. Staring up at him with an expression full of confusion and trepidation.

“Yes, I mean you,” Loki sighs. “Not some other you who doesn’t even exist, or the person you were before, because there’s no difference. I’ve been doing this for more than a month, Mobius. There’s only you.” He turns away again, then, because he can’t bear to see whatever pity or disbelief might be wrought on Mobius’s face. This isn’t the point, anyway, they’re wasting time they don’t have when they should be focused on the operation. “There has to be another way. Something we’re not seeing—”

A hand on his arm stops him. “Loki, look at me,” Mobius says softly. He tugs gently, pulling Loki around to face him again, and before Loki really understands what’s happening he’s stretching up and pressing their lips together. It’s not much, just a chaste brush, but it sends little zips of electricity sizzling along Loki’s skin.

“What— what was that for?” he manages after Mobius pulls back, unable to make sense of what’s happening. It shouldn’t be possible, that Mobius would be the one kissing him.

“Thought it’d be obvious,” Mobius answers with one-shouldered shrug and a lopsided half-smile. Tentative. Hopeful.

“But— you barely know me.”

“It doesn’t feel that way.”

Loki blinks at him. “It doesn’t?”

“Nope,” Mobius says easily, like that makes any sense at all.

Could it possibly mean that everything—all the memories, all the loops—are still inside him somewhere? And if they are, could that mean—

Mobius interrupts his snowballing thoughts by reaching up and thumbing across the arc of his cheekbone before pushing a lock of hair behind his ear. “Can I?” he murmurs.

Loki’s not even entirely sure what he’s asking, but he doesn’t care. He nods, and Mobius pulls him down into another kiss, one that lacks all the hesitation of the first. Their lips move together, pushing further and further until Mobius’s tongue licks at the seam of his lips. Loki opens up readily, letting their tongues tangle together in an intoxicating give and take. One of Loki’s hands curls around his waist, drawing him closer, as the other slides up behind his head, digging into the short hair at the nape of his neck. They kiss for minutes, for hours (who knows in this place), unhurried, as if they have all the time in the multiverse. When they do finally pull apart, Mobius stares up at him with such wonder on his face that Loki is quite unhelpfully slammed back to the reality of their circumstances.

“What’s wrong?” Mobius asks at the distress that must be written on his face. Loki lets the tips of his fingers skim lightly along the edge of Mobius’s jaw. “You’re not going to remember any of this.”

“I dunno. Seems like the kind of thing that might stick.”

Loki sighs. “That’s not how it works, Mobius.”

“You don’t know how it works,” Mobius counters. “And who knows, maybe this time we’ll be successful. No more loops.”

“I wish I could believe that’s possible.”

They’re still no closer to a plan that works, one that ends with them getting Richards and surviving at the same time, and while this morning has taken a rather unexpectedly delightful turn, it’s sadly not going to help all that much.

He’ll try, though. Norns know he’ll try like Hel.

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tarabyte3 · 2 years

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I Want You to Show Me Weak

Fandom: Andor

Pairing: Kino Loy/F!Reader

Chapter 14/27 (3.3k words)

->start at chapter 1<-

<- Chapter 13 | Chapter 14 | Chapter 15 ->

Summary: You're pretty sure Kino Loy hates you. He screams at you, grabs you, and shoves you against the wall, and it's becoming a problem because, well...it shouldn't fluster you as much as it does.

Warnings: Explicit rating, Smut, Prison, Prison sex, minor non-graphic injuries, Dom/Sub, sexual tension, dirty talk, praise, hair-pulling, light choking, unprotected sex, oral, angst, orgasm denial, humiliation, slut shaming, references to domestic abuse

A/N: I hope everyone had a lovely, peaceful holiday weekend. I severely underestimated how much of my time and effort my family Christmas gatherings would take up, but I did it 😅 Heads up about a new, minor warning. Work title is from "Poison" by Vaults. Chapter title is from "I Wanna Be Adored" by The Raveonettes. Chapter links above.

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Chapter 14 - I don't need to sell my soul, he's already in me. I wanna be adored.

The next morning, you're lying on your bed, your hands pressed flat against your temples, with both elbows sticking up, and you're trying to convince yourself you can make it through today. That you can focus and be normal and not moan every time you see Kino. You can behave. Because you need to be focused. Like, desperately need every ounce of focus to not fuck up.

That's how Alis finds you when sticks his head around the wall and into your cell.

"Hey, you find out anything more about Vage for Taybus?"

You groan loudly and let your hands slide to your face. "No! I'm a terrible friend." You peek over at him from between your fingers. "Did you?"

"Yeah." He moves so he's leaning against the wall in the opening of your cell. "I found out he likes holonovels and racing speeders."

"Oh," you flop your arms down, "is that where he got that?"

"Nope," Alis shakes his head, amused. "Bro found that out all on his own. I didn't get the chance to tell him because he was already chatting him up. So I've basically done nothing either."

"Well, damn." You sit up and swing your legs over the side of your bed. "Maybe we don't have to do shit anymore. Maybe he's got this."

Alis sniffles and pretends to wipe a tear away. "Our little man is growing up so fast."

You chuckle. "It helps that Vage is obviously totally into him. You saw that, too, right?"

"Yep. Lit up like a communications panel when I said his name."

"And from his place at Table 1, who is directly beyond me in his line of sight? The little shit. It's a slam dunk."

"He really is an idiot and I'm so proud of him."

You both stare at each other for a moment. You know exactly what he's thinking because you're thinking the same thing and you're both waiting for the other one to say it in a weird game of chicken. So of course you cave first.

"Wanna bet how long it takes before they're messing around at the other end of the hall?"

"You know I do!" He bounces on his feet in excitement. "Nine days. He's shy. It'll take him a bit to work up the courage to make a move, and then a few days to get past kissing and holding hands."

You jump up from your bed and slide onto your bench. "Four days." You grin mischievously.

"Four? No way. You're dreaming." He shakes his head and looks down the hall.

"Yes, four." You lean forward to make your case. "Because Taybus isn't going to make the first move. Vage is. He's the more confident and experienced one. He's been eyeing Taybus for a while. He's gonna stick his tongue down his throat tonight or tomorrow night, and then his hand in his pants a day or two after that. And Taybus will happily let him take the lead because he's never done this before, he has it bad for him, and Taybus is gonna be the passive one in that relationship."

Alis sighs as he mulls your points over. Then he throws his head back with a, "Fuck! You're probably fucking right, god damnit."

"I know I am," you grin. "What do I get when I win?"

"Now, hold on. IF you win, thank you. Taybus's inexperience could still slow them down."

"Okay, IF I inevitably win like I'm going to."

Alis rolls his eyes, but thinks for a minute. "We don't really have anything to bet, do we?"

"We really don't," you sigh.

"It's gotta be a wager of action, then. How about…if you win, I gotta walk naked from the showers all the way to the other end of the locker room."

"Okay, okay, promising start. Very embarrassing, continue."

"And if I win, you gotta walk up and kiss Kino in the hallway."

You hesitate. "Kino won't like that."

"No risk, no deal. Besides, weren't you just overly confident you would win anyway?"

"Yeah, but…he would be really upset with me. I don't want to make him angry." You recoil, unsure, and Alis gives you a calculating look.

"Okay, then how about if I win, you tell me what the fuck is up with you two. Is he controlling or something?'

"No!" You protest. Probably too quickly because Alis looks even more concerned and suspicious. "I swear it isn't like that! Though," you wince, "I can see how it looks from the outside."

"My sister dated this real piece of work that…" Alis winces, "that hurt her." Then his voice becomes serious and intense, which are things you've never heard from him. "You promise me you're okay." You feel touched that he cares so much about you.

"Alis," you look directly into his eyes and give him the most sincere expression you're capable of. "I promise you, Kino would NEVER hurt me or do anything without my consent. He could never be that person. He's a good man. I trust him completely and without hesitation. I am okay."

"Good." He relaxes and nods. "I believe you."

"Good."

"So it's some dominant and submissive thing, then."

You stiffen and look at him in alarm. "I never said that," you hiss.

"You didn't have to. You forget, I got around out there. I've experienced the galaxy. I've seen some shit, is what I'm saying," he says, amused.

"Okay, I get it! Keep your voice down!" You say in a harsh whisper and look around to make sure no one is listening.

"It's nothing to be ashamed of. Not my thing, but it's pretty normal. I get it." He shrugs, unphased. "Makes sense with you two anyway."

"Yeah, well, I don't think most people are as experienced as you are, Alis, and they fucking wouldn't." You're trying not to freak out because he's being casual about it, but also, that's one of your biggest secrets. And you've been anxious someone would find out someday and be disgusted with you or that it would ruin how they look at you. That it would ruin the imitation of a life you've built in here. So you can't help but react with panic.

"Fair. Can't imagine Sorrek wrapping his head around that," he chuckles. "Though I bet you he and his wife were a little freaky. Like, he's gotta be intense in bed, right?"

"Probably, and also I refuse to think about Sorrek sexually." You give him a nauseated look and suddenly feel empathy for Taybus. "Did you know he used to be a fighter?"

"Yeah. You didn't?" He looks surprised.

"No! Kino told me. I teased him about being afraid Sorrek would kick his ass."

"Oh, I don't blame him for being afraid." Alis winces. "I thought he genuinely might when you were so upset." He pauses to think for a minute. "Wait, why were you so upset, then? What was up with that?"

"It was a misunderstanding," is all you say.

"What the fuck does that mean?" He whispers. "Taybus made the spanking comment and you freaked. I'm starting to think he wasn't that far off."

"Fine," you sigh. "He thought we, you know, had something and I'm a fucking idiot and thought he hated me. So he…did some things that, uh, well…"

"Oohh, he thought you were into it and you weren't."

"Oh no, I was still very into it, which was the worst part. Imagine really wanting to fuck someone and you think they hate you and are trying to humiliate you for it."

Alis lets out a long, stunned, heavy exhale. "Damn."

"Yeah."

"Okay, I get it now."

"He apologized and told me it would never happen again. And it wouldn't have happened in the first place if he'd realized." You sigh and shake your head. "You know, I swore none of you would ever find out about this and that I would never talk about it. Ever. Because the truth is a lot different to accept than finding out we're a thing. But it's actually a relief getting it out."

"Hey, man. I'm glad." He punches you lightly on the shoulder. "I won't say shit to anyone and it doesn't weird me out, I promise. I have done and had friends into some actual wild shit. Takes a lot more than that to crush my delicate sensibilities."

"I honestly thought Threl would corner me first. I can see his wheels turning up there all the time. At the very least, he knows I like it when Kino gets worked up, but I don't think he's connected any dots yet. Hell, I don't know if he would. Like maybe this is too far out of the realm of his experience, I don't know."

"Mine were turning, too, I'm just better at subtlety." He grins. "Kind of wondered if that wasn't what was going on from day one."

"I should have known," you laugh. "You wanna know something kind of sad?"

"What's that?"

"Even taking everyone I knew before this hellhole into consideration, I think you might be the best friend I've ever had." You grin at him, but still blush in embarrassment at the admission. "You get me."

"Wanna hear something just as sad? You're probably mine, too. Most of my friends were assholes, but in a shitty way. You're an asshole in a good way. I'm really glad you're stuck slowing my ass down."

"Hey! It's not my fault you're freakishly fast!" You slap him on the arm.

"Ow! Careful with the goods, lady!" He recoils playfully. "Seriously though, I finally have someone in here that can keep up with my wit and appreciate my hilarious jokes."

"Keep up with? Please. You wish you were as hilarious as me."

"Being hilarious by accident doesn't count."

"I take it back, you're the worst friend." You glare at him.

"You love me." He nudges you with his elbow.

"Maybe, but you're on thin ice."

"I thrive on thin ice, baby!"

You roll your eyes at him and the two of you settle into a companionable silence, looking down the hallway to watch everyone else talking and getting ready. Threl and Jevid are a cell down having a conversation that makes Threl chuckle, and his deep rich laugh makes you smile. Someone from Table 6 is talking to Edii and Sorrek, though Sorrek seems to be doing most of the responding. Taybus is missing and you hope that means he already went to see Vage.

"Soo," Alis says casually, breaking the silence, "you get laid yet?"

"Oh my god," you whine, "no! I'm about to lose my god-damned mind, dude."

"What's he waiting for? Marriage?" You give him a panicked, horrified look. "I'm kidding! Terrible joke, sorry," he laughs. "Seriously, though, what's his hold up?"

"If I knew, I would have done something about it. Or died trying. Like, don't get me wrong," you lean in and say in a half whisper, "I'm still getting my shit rocked every night."

"Hell yeah!" He holds his hand up for a high five, and you slap his hand with a smug grin.

"I told you about Lene, right? The girl I was with before I got locked up in here?"

"The one you were going to propose to, but caught with your friend, and I casually asked what planet she was on and definitely not because I was gonna stink bomb her place and put fish guts in her vents. Yeah, you mentioned her."

Alis laughs, "That's her. Before that, though, I really wanted to get everything right, you know? Like, I always wanted things to be special and to put in effort because I wanted it to last. Maybe that's what he's doing. Waiting for the right moment or something."

"Hmmm." You try to imagine Kino fretting over how to make you happy. Fretting over making things special just because they involve you. You wonder if there's a future he thinks about that includes you. It's a lovely, painful thought because you don't know how you would feel if there wasn't. "You think?"

"I don't know, but I got nothing else. Otherwise dude has willpower of steel."

From halfway down the hall you hear Kino yell out, "Alright everyone, let's move! Time to line up!"

"You have no fucking idea," you say as you push yourself down from your bench. "It's a blessing and a curse." You keep close and your voice lowered as you both go to stand in line. "But if we get first today and I, by some miracle, keep my mouth shut and behave, I think my chances are finally decent." Kino's words the night before echo in your mind.

"Say no more, girl, I got you."

The morning goes by smoothly. Table 7 and Table 3 pass first place back and forth for a while. You think you might have a chance, even while you, Alis, and Threl grill details from Taybus about Vage, and he describes the plot of some holonovel about a murder mystery for an hour. It's either too crazy to be plausible, or Taybus is really bad at remembering details. Either way, it entertains all of you for a bit. You and Alis don't even poke holes in the plot to irritate Taybus.

Finally, you ask, "So, have you kissed him yet?"

"No," he mutters as he blushes.

"No rush, man, do what feels right." Alis glances at you with a grin, pleased with himself.

"But I want to!" Taybus whines. You give Alis a bigger grin and he scowls back at you.

"Get him to kiss you," you offer innocently.

"How?? I don't know how to do that!" He says helplessly.

"Okay, here's what you do." You make sure your hands are still tightening bolts and moving as you talk. You really can't afford to let Table 3 widen their lead, even if you want to set Taybus up for success. "Make sure you stand a little closer to him. Make it intimate. And don't cross your arms! Leave yourself open. If you're sitting, make sure your knees are turned towards him, like he has your full attention. Like you're drawn to him and you want to be a little closer. Look at him like he's the only person in the galaxy. As if everything he says is the most interesting thing you've ever heard." You hit the top of your joint to let Jevid know you're done. "Smile shyly on occasion and look at his lips when he talks. And blush! Make yourself think about him kissing or touching you if you have to, that will get you all flustered. That's all you gotta do."

"That's…actually excellent advice." Threl says without looking up.

"What can I say? I know how to flirt." You wink at Taybus, who looks a little overwhelmed.

"That's all? That's a lot!" He neary shrieks and stands there, staring at you.

"Keep moving! Lock the joint." You point down at his wrench and he fumbles as he gets back to work. "Also, no it's not. It's all the things you want to do naturally anyway, you just don't because you're nervous. Just follow your instincts."

"She's right, bro." Alis sounds disappointed and you try not to laugh. "All of that will work."

"How do you know?" He pouts and Edii slaps the part.

"Clear!"

You take a step back and sigh. "Because he's into you, dude!"

Taybus blinks at you in shock as the center of the table moves and lifts the next piece. "What?"

"He's so into you." Alis agrees. "You're the one he was checking out."

"He looks at you a lot. I see him." Edii nods. "You are worried for nothing."

You give Edii a thankful, knowing look. Then you watch Taybus's face change from panic and insecurity to disbelief.

"Oh." He says quietly.

"Yeah. That feeling right there is overwhelming, huh?" You remember sitting down on your bed in shock when you realized Kino wanted you.

"Yeah. It is." A goofy smile spreads across his face. "But it's nice."

"Feel better?" You smirk as you wait for Alis to fetch the arm part.

"Yeah. Thank you." He beams at you. "Do you do all that stuff with Kino?"

"Uuuhhhhh." You aren't prepared for the focus to suddenly shift onto you. "Kind of? I don't really have to flirt unless it's tactical," you clear your throat uncomfortably. "He knows I'm into him.."

"Yeah he does," Alis snickers.

"Hush, you, and hold the arm still, the hole keeps moving." Which just causes him to laugh harder. "Alis!" You scold. "I'm serious! I can't get it in." You immediately groan and the rest of the table erupts into laughter at that. Even Edii is smiling in amusement.

"Dude, I'm trying, you just gotta be faster at getting it in." They all laugh even harder.

"Ha ha, you're all very mature men." You roll your eyes. "I expect it from the rest of them, but this betrayal cuts deep, Sorrek."

"It was funny," he shrugs.

"Edii is the only one of you not annoying me right now."

"Thank you."

"No, thank you for actually working so we can get first place."

"I'm working!" Taybus protests. Then he opens his mouth to add something else, but instead his expression falls. "Kino incoming."

"Shit. He look pissed?" You whisper, concerned, but trying to stomp down your excitement as well.

"No." He rushes to get to work on the part.

You help Alis set the piece into position just as you can feel Kino behind you. Not directly behind you. Maybe two steps back. You wait for him to say something, but he doesn't. He just watches quietly while you struggle to stay focused and do everything perfectly. Ignore him ignore him ignore him oh god ignore him.

Several minutes pass and he still hasn't spoken or moved. You know he hasn't, even as you fight the urge to glance back at him to prove yourself right. You also know that he knows you're aware of him. And how could you not be? Not after last night. Not after what he said. Your wrench slips and you curse as you fit it back over the bolt.

Oh, you realize. He's trying to fluster you. Well, you think as you help your table lift the finished product to take to the cart, it's not going to work. Probably. At the very least, he's going to have to try harder than that.

On your way back to your spot, you finally meet his eyes as your heart speeds up because it's Kino. He's right there, and he's untouchable. He stares at you impassively. So you let your gaze drop to the front of his pants and quickly lick your lips, then look back up to his face just before you take your position. As you work, whenever you bend over to grab a tool or reach across the table, you stick your ass out further than necessary until he mercifully moves on.

Two can play that game.

As you're walking to the bathroom during a break, you catch his eye across the room and give him a suggestive smile. Then you disappear without waiting for a reaction. Either he follows you, or he doesn't but he's thinking about you as he stalks around. It's a win for you either way, you tell yourself. You'll be okay with either outcome, you think.

He doesn't show.

And you're fine as you head back to your table. You're fine as he doesn't meet your eyes on your way back. You're fine that he only passes by behind you so you have to look around for him if you want to see him, only to be met with the back of his head.

He's still trying to fluster you and it's not working. It's not! You're fine.

Because why would Kino not want you to get first place?

A/N: Boy, I bet you were all expecting a much different chapter, huh? 😏😇

NEXT CHAPTER->

#andor fanfic #kino loy #kino loy x reader #kino loy x f!reader #i want you to show me weak fic #andor #fanfiction

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leatafandom · 10 months

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20 Questions For Fic Writers

Thank you so much for the tag @incorrectcoldflashblog! This was really nice to think about and look at the stats since I don't normally look at them. It was a pleasant reminder.

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

I've been writing on Ao3 since '19 and I have 116 works right now, hopefully, it'll be 117 by the end of the weekend if I can get my shit together

2. What’s your total A03 word count?

843,577

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Supernatural, Spideypool, Merthur, and Buffy Verse (mainly Spangel though)

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Distraction: Scars - Rated Mature (1,173 Kudos)

This is a Bad Idea, Rated Explicit (920 Kudos)

Waiting for the Perfect Time, Rated Teen (654 Kudos)

Distraction: Voice(s), Rated Explicit (614 Kudos)

Breakfast, Rated Explicit (427 Kudos)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yes! Always! I might be slow sometimes, but I always respond to a comment. I appreciate them so much. It always makes my day to know someone else besides me enjoyed a story I wrote. I also just love talking about my stories.

6. What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Hahaha, I write so many sad and angsty things. I normally try to make a happyish ending cause I know people enjoy that (not sure if I always hit the mark, but I try). So this one took me a while to dig through stuff. I think it would be Foolishness? It's pretty sad and tragic. I enjoy it.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I live in the bitter-sweet and I don't think I have many that are purely happy. I feel like the happiest of endings will not be published till next year though. I think The Valley Kingdoms is pretty happy. Even if in my mind it's not an end more like a middle, but it is the end of that part of the story.

8. Do you get hate on your fic?

No, not yet.

9. Do you write smut?

Yes. So much smut.

10. Do you write crossovers?

Hehe, I write crossovers of my own stories. But no not of fandoms.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I'm aware of as of now.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes, I've had two fics translated, and I am beside myself with joy that someone wanted to take the time to translate them for others. Wine and Dine is available in Russian as well as some of Learn (I believe they have only done up to chapter 5 of Learn on Ficbooks)

13. Have you ever co-written a fic?

Nope, not yet.

14. What‘s your all-time favourite ship?

I swoon for Spideypool every single time, forever.

15. What’s the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Dude this question is evil right now. I am currently trying desperately to empty my drive of my WIPs (not counting my multi-chapter fics) before switching how I store my stories. I still have so many not-posted works, and I want to finish them all. But, I know I won't. I probably won't finish Once and Future Soulmates. It's an angsty sci-fi meets fantasy Merthur idea I started writing that has a few chapters written, but it's a big project and idk I just haven't gotten to it. As far as posted WIPs I plan on finishing them all.

16. What’s your writing strengths?

World building and that blend of happy sad. I think I'm pretty good at that

17. What’s your writing weaknesses?

Word choice and like lack of repetition with body movements. I struggle with body movements and tracking.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I typically don't, other than like phrases I know. Writing in character dialogue is hard enough, to be completely honest.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Lord of the Rings! I still have some of it posted on my Ao3 but my old drives and the internet ate the rest of the story and my prequel ;-;

20. Favourite fic you’ve ever written?

It would be a tie between any of the Monster Eater Verse fics and the Common Deadpool Distractions series. I love those verses so so dearly and I re-read them often.

Thank you so much for tagging me this was truly a pleasure to sit and think about and look over the things I've written over the years.

No Pressure Tags: @idabbleincrazy, @hobbyistauthor, @fantasticstoryteller, @maggot-monger and anyone else who would like to <3

#tag games #long posts #writer tag games

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simp999 · 1 year

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Bloopers/Notes from "A New Home!"

☆I don't have anything too silly until ch. 15 :(

Ch. 1, Where am I?:

☆I started this fic at like, 2 am, just on complete impulse. Everything here just summoned itself from my 2 am brainrot.

☆I didn't really chat this chapter out with any friends, so nothing too silly.

Ch. 2, Meeting New People?:

☆I was planning on making reader more of a Simp, but I talked to my friends and we decided against it, since it would be difficult for reader to get along with characters more genuinely.

☆At the end of the chapter, "If I go to sleep here, will I wake back up in the real world?...", I was thinking of just posting chapter 3 where it said: You wake up, story over. The end.

Ch. 3, We are the Army.:

☆Army was an octoling since the beginning! You can see that in the banner. The background is made up of octopi instead of squids, and you can see a bit of a tentacle.

Ch. 4, If memory serves wrong...:

☆Bro I suck at writing flirty stuff. End me now, Aloha's difficult for me to write

☆The "nothin' personal, kid", was a total reference, and I plan on adding many more. I'm going to try my best to add some iconic vines that still suit the scene.

Ch. 5, Descisions, decisions.:

☆On the other hand, I looove drawing aloha! He's so cute and silly! I like to draw his tentacles very round and bubbly and man, his eyes are so pretty!

☆This was the chapter that made me start thinking about giving reader teammates, mostly because they needed someone other than a bench to sleep.

Ch. 6, Hoooow Anoooying.:

☆mASK MY BELOVED

☆Can you tell he's my favorite?

☆I wanted to make him a little silly, giving him more of a personality. He can't be scary all the time, I really do think part of it is an act.

☆Another anime reference: the lens of his gasmask shining, just like in an anime.

Ch. 7, SUB WEAPON HELL!:

☆I was torn between what to do for the banner. I already used Mask with his mask on for chapter 6, and I planned on using his maskless version for what's now chapter 13. But then I remembered another one of my favorite boyos, Desi! I know he isn't featured too much in this chapter, and I'm sorry, but I needed something!

☆Anyways, I know this entire battle by heart. I know all of Mask's voice lines. Save me.

☆I try my best to not show bias in my fics, but I will relentlessly show it outside of em'.

☆Ugh, can't wait for team cyan moments fr

Ch. 8, Newfound Family.:

☆THE GUYS FR

☆I was stuck between just giving reader nameless teammates, incase ya'll already had your own ocs in mind of something, but I HATE nameless characters. And characters that don't have a personality. I figured that I'd already have to give them personalities, so why not go all in.

☆Soooo, I threw in my beloved OCs! I've had these guys around for YEARS, so I know them and their personalities like the back of my hand, which makes writing for them super easy and fun!

☆bro they look so cursed with splatoon 1 hairstyles to me. I didn't have the heart to snatch their iconic hair, so ignore that.

LOOK AT HIM!! ITS NOT EVEN MILO ANYMORE HE'S JUST MARCUS SMH.

Ch. 9, Shopping Spree!:

☆I actually wrote this and the last chapter at 1 am by accident. I was like oho let me write a few notes down for tomorrow so I don't forget. But here we are 2k words later.

☆After seeing that the next day, I realised that the squad tm would take up 2 chapters total. There's 3 of them. So then I had to figure out how to do the banners. I worked it out, though!

☆Tasha's hair's longer I swear, it just didn't fit on the banner smh

☆Damn she and skull look a lot alike, huh

☆L

Ch. 10, Skull's Territory.:

☆I knew I couldn't have reader simp, but that doesn't mean I can't have some simpery!! So I have Milo, Leo and Tasha to do it!! They get to express my true emotions <3

Ch. 11, A Misunderstanding?:

☆sTEAAAALTH!!! <3333

☆My sweet boy

☆So the poll for background characters was mostly for him ngl

☆THOSE DAMN GOGGLES WERE SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS TO SHADE WAAAAH

☆I also may have colored them green by accident the first time and had to start over.

☆I reaaaally hate making characters like Rider go OOC, but I need the story to continue! I'm sorryyyy

Ch. 12, Getting Too Comfortable.:

☆FINALLY WE'RE GETTING SOMEWHERE UGH

☆Also, blushy rider. ♡♡

☆He wants that battle, dude

Ch. 13, Player Two?:

☆aaaAAAA MAAASK

☆May have made a 9 hour mask playlist to write to.

☆Ahem.

☆I was planning on going in official meeting order for these uhh "getting closer with the S4", (Rider, army, aloha, mask, skull.) but my clear bias for Mask got me to write for him first.

☆I struggled to choose which song, but the idea came to me because I learned all the lyrics to Kick Back(chainsaw man), not too long ago. But I figured I'd just go with one of the most well known series/openings.

☆Didn't make the cut:

-Was gonna have reader and Mask walk in the rain together. That's why reader grabbed Milo's umbrella, cause it was the biggest one.

-c'mon, that would have been cute

Ch. 14, ...You Didn't See that.:

☆I was planning this since the start to be honest. Not exactly this scenario, but I knew I wanted to throw this headcannon in there.

☆After seeing how much love my fic was getting, I was almost going to abandon the idea, afraid that my readers wouldn't like it, and leave.

☆Jeebus those tentacles took me way too long to draw.

Figuring out what to do for Army's meetup+scrapped ideas:

Ch. 15, Sweetheart.:

☆I only made it to 1k words with Skull's part, he really doesn't talk a lot so it's hard to fill up space.

☆Soooooo

☆You guys asked for it: Avi time!

☆Now finally, here's some of the discord chats I had with my friends. Plans for story along with memes. Blanked out hints for the next chapter.:

Ch. 16, An Unexpected Meetup.:

☆I completely winged it. I knew I wanted like- a dummy kinda where we'd see all the S4 at once

☆Sorry for minimal aloha time, we got him earlier in the series though! (Bias game strong, he's not my favorite s4 member :( )

☆I'll try for more aloha time soon I'm sorry

☆The kind of rivalry/jeasoulsy between them wasn't planned and I kinda don't like it, but it is canon that they don't really like eachother so

☆Eh

Ch. 17: Not Much of a Choice, Huh?

☆Ughhh this feels like a dating sim now and I hate it

☆But characters catching feelings ♡♡♡

☆Not to figure out how they deal with them and how readers gonna figure that out

☆Wah

Ch. 18: Challengers Approach!

☆ oOoo they catchin' feelings!!!

Ch. 19: The Freshest Squid on the Block!

☆ YOOOOO LEO FANBOY!?!?!

☆ Hehe, we love making Leo happy

☆ Ugh, Emperor. I was not looking forward to writing him. I personally don't have him as a favorite, I was never able to like his kingly attitude. (I looove his design as somebody who draws nd does character design, though! Well made character.) Buuut...(see ch. 21)

Ch. 20: The Absolute King.

☆Yesss! Reader showing more emotion!!

☆Someone's gettin' angyyy

☆Ohoho does this count as angst? Berly, but I'm enjoying it

☆ Did you guys know that I half specialise in angst? Yeah enjoy that info

Ch. 21: A Crushing Defeat.

☆ Making you guys hate him off the bat is a lot dunner to write! He was shitty and mean in the first bit where he was shown anyways, so suffer! He'll have to go through some character development eventually, but until then, he's your most despised rival mwahaha

☆I hope the wat I write him makes you wanna deck him in the face :)

Ch. 22: It Only Gets Tougher, I Promise

☆ ... what no, what makes you think mask is my favorite. I show no bias ever. (How many times have I said that, now?)

#x reader #fanfic #splatoon manga #splatoon manga x reader #splatoon #splatoon 2 #splatoon 3 #splatoon manga rider #splatoon manga mask #splatoon manga aloha #splatoon manga army #bloopers #notes

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fic writer tag game

thank you for the tag @palmviolet ! love things like this. blessings upon you and all your sheep

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

five! my ao3 account is but a baby

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

63k. in approximately ten days this is going to jump by ~15k so perhaps i should have waited to do this tag but alas. impatience

3. What fandoms do you write for?

currently only les mis. so many themes to explore... so many characters to sink my teeth into... so many dynamics to look at and so many situations into which i can drop people...

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

i mean. this is going to be all of my fics but here's the ranking

suckerpunch

visiting hours

restoring the balance

tech week

the two sides of monsieur valentine (the perils of rarepairs)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

yes!!! i love comments. fuel. life blood

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

well. there's a major character death marinating in my drafts, yet to be unleashed

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

currently all of them have pretty happy endings, which is something i'm sort of trying to change because i'm starting to get a little bored of writing that all the time. sorry. scared of getting myself into a funk! all things considered though, it's probably tech week. those final lines were in my head from the very start of the fic, and with the whole christmas vibe... yeah. that one, i think

8. Do you get hate on fics?

not so far! hoping that will not change!

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

not as of yet and i can't see myself doing so if i'm honest but i'm also a big believer in never saying never because i don't know who i am (or more importantly, who i will be). so. not at the moment. but in ten years maybe i'll look back at this and laugh. you know

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

again, not as of yet! not a full crossover, with characters from each thing intersecting, anyway. i've got some AUs for les mis that are specific to other interests, but nothing closer than that.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

i don't think so.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

i don't see many fics in the les mis fandom getting translated at all anymore! the fandom is so lovely but it's definitely quieter than it has been in the past, so it doesn't surprise me. i'd love for it to happen, but no, not yet.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

nooo. i like the idea of it, if there was someone i think i worked well enough with -- but i don't know anybody over here well enough for that yet, i don't think. i am currently bad at messaging people/interacting on any level deeper than reblogging posts or commenting on their fics, which is really something i should work on. open to the possibility though!

14. What’s your all time favourite ship?

enjolras and grantaire, oh my god. living in my brain for goddamn YEARS now. years upon years. with that said, i do have certain Feelings about them -- maybe i'll go more into detail with this someday on some other post but really i think that the way they're done in canon is kind of perfect, which is why i don't write canon era fic for them. there's nothing i can do to that that would make it worthwhile, to me. but putting them in different time periods or situations? ohhh yeah

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

i've got bits and pieces of a les mis AU for the BBC series race across the world which i am still sort of attached to but can't see myself doing anymore, purely because writing the logistical parts of how the race etc functions in that show was boring me, and i don't want to be bored by something that i'm doing for my enjoyment. but maybe i'll do a post at some point laying out the main plot points if anybody's interested because i do still like the concept

16. What are your writing strengths?

probably still nailing this down, if i'm honest. i like descriptions.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

i always think i'm not great at dialogue, but i've been told the opposite, so who knows! i think my issue with it comes more from wondering where the conversation should go/what should go in the middle of two points i want the characters to make, rather than making it sound realistic. i think i'm fairly good on the realism front.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

occasionally i'll make characters say the odd phrase in another language, but nothing more than that. i'm not fluent in any language other than english, so unless it's something i'm sure of in spanish i think i'd just be worrying if the translation is correct, which isn't worth it to me (and there isn't much use for spanish in what i'm currently writing lmao)

19. First fandom you wrote for?

fanfiction dot net days are ones we do not talk about... a haze in my mind... banished to the darkness... but i actually do know the answer to this -- it was dracula, for some fucking reason. (i know the reason. but i'm not sharing)

20. Favourite fic you’ve written?

i'm quite fond of suckerpunch, just because i think it's sort of speedrunning my personal exr manifesto, but i don't know! seriously no answer to this! taking that as a good sign: maybe my favourite is yet to come.

no pressure tags go to @pumpkinspice-prouvaire @sereendy @shamedumpster and anybody else who wishes to do it!

#tag game #my fics #got to do two of these sort of things recently what joy

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nelly-wants-to-b-skinny · 1 year

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I've been wanting to do this but I'll just do it all together :)

1. weight- 185, chest- 41.2, waist-34.0, hips-44.0, thighs- 28.0

2. 5'5, yes im totally okay with my height tbh

3. we have a very similar body type so i feel like it's the most realistic for me

4. tbh just losing my dd boobs that's it.

5. im tired of being the big and ugly friend, i owe it to my young chubby self to finally be pretty.

6. define binge lol. to me if I eat normally i define that as binge. but tbh I don't think I actually binge idk.

7. yes they do, however they don't know how far I'm willing to go. but they don't. they're actually happy I am.

8. i would do cardio 3 times a week, and then do core 2 times a week, but now im doing chloe ting workouts so :))

9. 100% all the time, I've hears it ever since grade school tbh, and it's literally ruined who I am and my relationship with food.

10. i guess my love for baking, it's been really hard baking for my friends and family and not having the opportunity to have these things yk.

11. lol i don't have one hahaha.

12. hmm that's a good question, i usually stick to fruits i try to stay away from meat and dairy, however it's not always easy. but for a good day, I'll have my black coffee in the morning and then like a garden salad in the afternoon.

13. definitely unhealthy lmao, I will starve myself until I lose as much weight as I can.

14. 120lbs, it used to be 140 but that's how much my sis weighs and I wanna be smaller than her

15. I'm neither but I seriously am considering going vegetarian bc I didn't eat meat for 3 days and lost literally 7lbs so I just might.

16. I've always tried to lose weight, yk go on a diet, work out, however this year I realized I was going to go on vacation and I needed to look pretty for my pictures so I decided to go back to my old habits and I triggered my ed, it took some time like 2 months until eventually in the end of March I started thinking the same way once again. I would starve and calculate calories.

17. im not sure. I don't want to say yes since I'm not diagnosed, but I will say I have disordered eating 100%.

18. cheese. ik ppl are gonna scream, but I love it so much lol.

19. hmm actually a while back I think like a couple weeks ago maybe I month.

20. ballerina diet ahhh or maybe the iu diet.

21. triggered. lol I'm usually a L/XL for jeans I'm a 14. bra size is 38DD.

22. damn idk bruh, I remember when I used to be 160, that's the lowest number I can remember, that's when I started weighing myself and it ruined me. I don't remember gaining weight tbh, I think it was when I was recovering.

23. absolutely. growing up I watched eugenia a lot and i loved kpop in ms so I would always wonder what it would be like to be skinny like them.

24. uh i don't like them, but that's me personal. I'm not someone to encourage this illness to someone else.

25. yes. I've done it multiple times. my first time was at a party actually. I had eaten 3 slices of pizza and my stomach hurt rlly bad I had told my friend and she told me she'd find me laxatives or smth I told her no. so I hard searched up what to do and I found a reddit form about purging I did exactly that and threw up as much as I could. it was so bad I was crying bc I felt to bad but my stomach felt better. I think that's when I realized I could enjoy my food but also not consume calories.

26. CLOTHES. finally getting to wear what I want and look pretty no matter what. ugh I can't wait.

27. i try to slip into a mentality of like food isn't fuel it's trash, and it's gonna make you rot.

28. I'd love to, i want to lose as much thigh fat as possible I don't think i could think bc of my family genes

29. anything but me. I don't think beauty can be defined. to me beauty is a subjective what is beautiful to me is not beautiful to you.

30. im hispanic. i have curly hair. im bi. i have a gf. i like to bake. i can't swim. i have insomnia. i have social anxiety. i love kpop. coffee is my bsf.

#bonespø #ed but not sheeran #i wanna be thinner #tw ana shit #ana and mia #st@rve #i wanna be perfect #tw ana diary #tw ana fast #i want to be small #skinsp0 #tw ed diet #tw ed implied #tw restrictive ed #eating disoder trigger warning #tw disordered eating

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Hi hello those ships asks are so much fun!! So here's a bunch: 11, 22, 27 for Vanyla/Leliana, 3+13 for Sky and Atton if you feel like it, 7+24 for Rosemary/Fenris, and 12-15 for Meg/Ashley? <3 WAIT also 1, 23, 30 for Aelisay/Bull

aHHHh thank you!! my blorbos and THEIR blorbos <3 (and right?? these are so fun skdfgj I love answering these, even if they take me a hot minute)

putting under a cut bc I ramble <3

Vanyla/Leliana

11. What good do they bring out in each other?

I think that what Leliana brings out of Vanyla is more obvious than the other way around, for one thing. Vanyla is way nicer and softer when Leliana is around, puts more effort into not being quite so sharp and mean as she normally is. (which, in all fairness, is a thing that she learns in general during the Blight, but Leli brings it out more often lol.)

on Leliana's end, Vanyla helps her to be more accepting and at peace with herself and what she's done. Vanyla is very firm that no matter what Leli's done in the past, it doesn't dictate who she is now, and that Marjolaine's comments were worthless, cruel jabs to lower her guard.

22. What's different about their backgrounds? Do those differences affect the relationship?

so you've got Leliana, orphan who was raised by a noblewoman turned bard turned runaway turned Chantry sister. Vanyla, meanwhile, was a noblewoman who lived in the total lap of luxury until very recently. I wanna say that it affects the relationship, but it also doesn't? as in - obviously they have different backgrounds that shaped their views on the world. I can only speak for Vanny since she's my OC, ofc, but she was deeply spoiled and self-absorbed before becoming a Warden. this woman stomped her foot and threw a fit the first time she had to actually pay for something and didn't have the coin or family name to her name. (Alistair saw it. he's been judging her for that moment ever since.)

so it affects her relationship w Leliana, but it also affects, like, everything about the Blight and her growing up as a person during it, lol. does that make sense?? learning to be less spoiled and arrogant was a big thing for her. listening to Leliana talk about her background might be one of the first times Vanyla gave much of a thought to the lives of her castle's servants, and it was a deeply uncomfortable realization that kept her up that night.

27. What interests do they share? For interests they don't share, do they ever participate anyway?

fun fact: they actually first bonded w each other because they were talking about shoes or hair, lol. they're both very feminine and fashionable, they love pretty frilly things and shoes. Vanyla is a proud Fereldan ofc, but if there's anything Orlais does better in her opinion, it's the shoes. and fashion. they go shopping together a lot whenever they're in Denerim or a major city that allows it, and though the Blight probably isn't the best time to lug around some cute dresses like that... it's fine, it's all fine, it's going to a good cause. the cause of looking great. :^)

Vanyla also loves reading and whatever the Thedosian equivalent of brain teasers are, and I would hazard a guess that Leliana enjoys those as well? yeah.

Sky/Atton (rest assured that I am always down to talk about them skdfjg I'm just lazy and haven't added the KOTOR crew to my OC page yet bc idk what to do for images?? somebody remind me to get on that sometime)

3. What's their favorite thing to tease each other about?

idk if they have a favorite thing, but they affectionately tease each other about a fair amount? piloting skills, pazaak skills, Force talents, you name it. Sky's glowing red eyes came up in conversation once when it was pitch black and Atton was able to see her anyway. gotta love the Chiss.

13. How do they express love for each other? Do they have compatible love languages?

I talked about it a bit on my old blog, but a thing before I answer bc I feel like it affects it: they never actually get together. they're in love w each other, yeah, and I think they spend their lives together after Sky returns from finding Revan, but it's strictly in this officially platonic capacity. they're best friends who understand each other and their respective dark sides better than anybody, they're loyal to each other and would die for the other, but there's also... never any romantic resolution to their relationship. neither of them can forgive themselves for what they've done enough to let themself be loved, I think. idk if I'm explaining it well haha. and in Sky's case, she doesn't know if Atton would actually want to be with her or if the Force bonds would make him fall for her. it's complicated.

anyway! to answer the actual question! I would peg them as both being quality time and acts of service - the former bc, well, they spend p much all their time together when Sky gets back from finding Revan and she reconciles with Atton. the latter bc they might never actually say the words "I'm in love with you" to each other and stay officially platonic, but they still do what they can for each other anyway. nobody has their back like the other does.

Rosemary/Fenris

7. What's their most and least favorite thing about each other?

for Rosemary: man, what didn't she like about him? his strength, his sense of humor, his cleverness, she loved p much everything. his stance on mages caused some friction, but they were able to come around and see each other's point of view after a while.

for Fenris: I'd say that he loved her compassion and humor most of all, and that what he liked the least was how much she was unable to stop blaming herself for bad things that weren't her fault. :/

24. How did they fall for each other?

I feel like they were both attracted to each other from the start, but falling in love was a thing that happened gradually over the years as they became friends and got to really know each other. idk if there was any one big event that prompted it, but they both became much more aware of their own feelings and started to explore the possibility of a romance between each other just a bit before act 2 started.

Meg/Ashley

12. What struggle have they seen each other through?

*gestures to the whole Reaper thing*

but that's a cheap answer sdkfghsjgk. Virmire is a heavy one for them both - they were both close friends with Kaidan, and his loss never really stopped being painful. it just became easier to deal with.

Meg had to deal with her former gang on Earth becoming xenophobic as they pushed into space, as well as learning more of the circumstances behind Akuze, and Ashley was present for both of those. Ashley had to deal with the loss of her sister's husband, which Meg was there for. on a much, MUCH lighter note - there was some anxiety and fear about the rules and regulations back in ME1, but by the time ME3 rolled around, they both decided they didn't care. they could be written up when the Reapers were gone.

13. How do they express love for each other? Do they have compatible love languages?

not verbally, for one thing. they'll both say it in big moments, I think, but otherwise they don't say "I love you" as much as other couples might. not that they don't feel it, ofc, it's just not who they are (and Meg in particular has a very hard time verbalizing how she feels). so I'd peg them as quality time and acts of service? spending a lot of time together while going out of their way to do things for the other that'll make her life easier.

14. What little things remind them of each other?

Meg re: Ashley: phoenix armor, shotguns (or boomsticks, as they're lovingly called), poetry, discussions of faith

Ashley re: Meg: the color pink, pretty shoes and fashion in general, biotic charges, hilariously deadpan/stoic responses to weird stuff

15. What habits or characteristics have they picked up from each other?

idk if this one counts as a habit, but Meg's become a lot more expressive after she and Ashley have been together for a while. she's still largely a stoic person lol, but she shows emotions more often than she used to. also she smiles more, which takes everybody by surprise the first time that happens.

Ashley feels a little bit harder to pin down? maybe a bit of Meg's rather clipped way of speaking, but that's about all I can think of? 🤔 she doesn't really strike me as the type to easily pick up stuff from others, she's very uniquely herself lol.

Ealisay/Bull

1. What do they think of each other's family? And how does the family feel?

the Ostwick clan just loves that one :^D jk no uh, the Trevelyan family isn't terribly thrilled as a whole? Ealisay's parents would really rather that she agree to marry some nice noble and secure an alliance, but I'm also reasonably sure there's jack squat they can do about it since their kid is LITERALLY the Herald of Andraste. they come to be more accepting over time, and even approve a little bc Ealisay is obviously happy, but it takes a bit for them to get there. Ealisay's siblings are kind of mixed - at least one is the same as their parents, at least one just plain doesn't care and is ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ about it, and I know Ealisay has a mage twin brother (you heard it here first, folks) who's happy for her. that said, Ealisay isn't really close to her family in general and doesn't actively seek their approval anymore. she's happy with Bull, and that's what matters to her. I get the impression that Bull probably wouldn't want to get involved with that scene?? which works fine for Ealisay, bc she doesn't really want to get involved anymore either.

long paragraph woo

on Bull's end, obviously biological family is trickier bc the Qun but! he sure does have the Chargers! and Ealisay gets along with them VERY well, they're family as far as they're both concerned. complete with meddling sister vibes as she plays matchmaker for Krem and Maryden.

23. What was their first impression of each other?

Ealisay internally: m u s c l e s

basically that he was A) enormous B) good in a fight C) hot D) BIG MUSCLES. idk if it's been mentioned before but that girl is heart eyes for big muscles. it's hot. she also thought he seemed like he'd be enjoyable to have around, just from his general demeanor, so she liked him p much right away? admitting that he was a Ben-Hassrath didn't really deter her lol, she thought it was nice that he was upfront and didn't really think about that until waaaay later.

on Bull's end, I will assume that he also noticed Ealisay being good in a fight bc that lady is a solid tank lol. also that she was... ehh "silly" isn't the right word, but not as serious as one might assume the Herald of Andraste to be? he knew who she was right away, ofc, but she was a lot more relaxed and playful than one might have assumed a noblewoman turned Herald to be.

30. Where is their relationship the strongest?

w their muscles bc they're both buff warriors 💪🐮💪👩

jk no, I'm gonna say that it's in how plain supportive they are of each other? Bull's is obvious from his romance, how much he goes out of his way to help the Inquisitor feel good and grounded, and I love him for it (as does Ealisay). Ealisay is similar in that regard - she's the first to tell him that he's a good man without the Qun and that he doesn't need it to be a good person, she'll just shrug and pick up the stick and go to town when he's doing those fear exercises, she distracts him so he'll have a nice birthday surprise even tho they both know he knows what the Chargers are doing. they're very ride or die for each other.

#if you read all of this ily #ask tag #etoilebinaire #DA blogging #KOTOR blogging #ME blogging #OTP: Dove and Nightingale #OC: Vanyla Cousland #OTP: Thought You Were a Dream #OC: Skysargas Starbrac #OTP: The Thought of Losing You #OC: Rosemary Hawke #OTP: Aye Aye Skipper #OC: Meg Shepard #OTP: Where Armor Ends #OC: Ealisay Trevelyan

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lucigoo · 6 months

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20 Questions for Fic Writers

Thank you so much for the tag @sunnyrosewritesstuff. This looks so much fun and agreat way for us to share our fics!

1. How many works do you have on A03? i currently have 120 fics

2. What’s your total Ao3 word count? 443,720 (not bad considering i've not quite been writing fanfic for a year I dont think)

3. What fandoms do you write for? The Hobbit (Mostly Bagginshield) and Harry Potter (Mostly Wolfstar)

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Stop me Fading- The Hobbit (it needs serious reediting, just an FYI), Defying Death (or at least the ones in charge) - The Hobbit, Who's is the tie Harry? - Harry Potter, Breeding my B.... - Harry Potter (pure Wolfstar smut) and I'm coming Petite Étoile - Harry Potter

5. Do you respond to comments? I do. I tend to to wait until I have 25+ otherwise I feel a bit overwhelmed doing it every time they come in, or letting them get so many that I can't bring myself to do it. So I will anwer, just bare with me <3

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? ummm .... I have a fair few ....

Bagignshield wise would be The Demented King Under the Mountain Check the tags because thers NO HEA for anyone. Harry Potter wise, again I have a fair few with MCD, but I think the most emotional one for me is It's over, they're all gone , again mind the tags

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Most of my fics have some form of Happy Ending, or it implies they do. As for the happiest, hmmm....

Bagginshield wise id say Changeling Child Harry Potter wise, i'd say this little series (two short fics), it just hiits all my fav tropes lol. - I finally have a family and they are all here

8. Do you get hate on fics? Only ever on the Wolfstar ones. Apparantly Remus shouldnt have been taller then his little Welsh mum, someone was VERY upset about it lol.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? I don't usually. I have 2 smut fics and one the was supposed to be smut, but ended up being fade to black (opps lol)

Breeding my B.... (Pure Wolfstar P without P), Are you a werewolf?��(Jegulus P with P) and Wait, you're the wolf? (Is implied Wolfstar smutt but the smutt wasn't smutting that day lol)

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? I actually have one atm as a wip on A03. Its a Hobbit/HArry Potter crossover and im very excited for it. I want you right here, where you belong:Home with us

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not that I know of.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? I have, its linked on my "Breed my B...." fic. A wonderful person translated it ito Russian

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? I have not. I would love to though

14. What’s your all time favorite ship? It really is a tie betwee Bagginshield and Wolfstar, I adore both

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? So, i dont tend to not fiish wips, they just stay in my computer for a long time lol. One i am slowly (like snails pace slowly) working on is called King of Azkaban and it's a pretty dark fic.

16. What are your writing strengths? I feel like i can put the characters in any situaiton and try keep thempretty close to their canon characterisations within the sitution

17. What are your writing weaknesses? Editing!! I have a paid editing app and also run things through a TTS and there are still so many bloody typos 😭

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? Do it!! If oyu can get someone from that language to help (of it's a real one). I oftne use Romani chib (I'm Roma) inmy Bagigshield focs for the hobbits and have Kuzdhul and Sinderian in there too. I also have a Wolfstar fic where I have English, Welsh, French and Punjabi in it.

19. First fandom you wrote for? Were talking over 20 years ago here, but it was Wolfstar then and it's Wolfstar now lol.

20. Favourite fic you’ve written? I dont know 😭. Im going to put two Bagignshield ones and two Harry Potter ones as I don't have a favourite but ones I like more then others.

Heather (Wolfstar), You're Floo Was My Emergency Contact (This is my latest HP one and im so proud of it ) A heart of stone and Fire in his soul (Pre Bagginshield but this one felt so powerful to me, Defying Death (or at least the ones in charge) (Bagginshield Afterlife fic, soo pure gold to me)

I'm gonna tag @brandileigh2003, @blueberryrock @fishing4stars, @chaoticfandomtrash And of course anyone and everyone who wants to join and share their fics. Id love a tag if you want so I can admire all the fics!!!

#tag games #share your work #boost one another up

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sacred-stanning · 6 months

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Chapter 7 Part 2: Neimi stops crying and just goes apeshit. (Also, Sommie math)

So we left off with Ross about to take on a soldier, and Joshua about to take on a fighter and (maybe) dodge a mage's attack.

Fighter result: Dodged, almost finished him off

Pretty good

Soldier result: Dodged, did some good damage in return

(But you need to work on your form, Ross. I don't think that's how you hold an axe.)

Mage result: Dodged

Excellent!

So the next step is to have Neimi move up towards the ballista. On her way there, she shoots the fighter with 1 HP out of existence.

I send Vanessa up to take out the mage. She's got good res, and she needs to be up here to ferry Neimi across the river later. Joshua's job up here is done, and he'll be joining the rest of the army.

Oh boy! We got another pure water!

I put Ross up on this hill to attack the soldier to give him more avoid, but he has 100% accuracy and takes the guy out in one hit, so I didn't really need to do this.

Nice. The only thing I want to see from him is more speed at some point. You need +4 speed to double in GBA FE, so with only 3 speed, even if a unit isn't weighed down by their weapon at all, there's no way to double since effective speed can't go below 0.

The mage to the right moved towards us last turn, so I put Lute up front to trade with him.

And to prevent Moulder from getting totally left behind, I send Seth back to pick him up.

The mage moves in towards Lute and does some damage, but gives her a level up.

Unusually, she didn't get magic, but she got speed, which is her other important stat.

Also, defense?? Lute has like a 15% def growth, but in four levels, she's gotten two points of defense.

I want to keep moving forward, so I move Lute slightly to the side and hit the mage again.

Notice that she doesn't double him. Why is this?

Well, I will take a moment to do the other thing--aside from checking enemy ranges--that we all love doing in GBA FE:

checking stat screens and doing basic math! Yeah!

So a fire tome weighs 4.

(4 what? Good question. I personally think that the unit of measurement for weight in Magvel is "peaches". So since Sommie in Fire Emblem Engage weighs as much as 2 peaches, the fire tome is the same weight as 2 Sommies. That clears everything up, right?)

Lute has only 3 con on joining, and since you can't level up con in this game, she is stuck with 3 con until she promotes into an advanced class.

This means that she loses at least one speed no matter what when she attacks since even the lightest tome in the game, the fire tome, is heavy enough to weigh her down.

Lute currently has 8 speed, so her effective speed with the fire tome is actually 7.

The generic mage on this map has 6 speed, so Lute wasn't going to double him even if she hadn't been weighed down. But notice that this scrawny little dude still has 6 con.

So this guy can run around with 3 Sommies in his pockets without even noticing, and Lute gets out of breath from only 2 Sommies?

I still love Lute, but she is absolutely a skinny, little nerd.

At any rate, Lute not doubling the mage means that she sets him up so that Ross gets the kill and a level up.

I still want speed, but I'm pretty happy with strength and defense.

Now, as the title promised, it is time for Neimi to go from being the bullied, to the bullier.

Once she's in the ballista, she has this big range to work with.

I check out her hit rates and decide to go for the left one since she can hit him more easily.

And she hits!

Yeah, get him, Neimi! Shoot that fool!

So then I take a look at this mage and have an idea.

Checking his range, I see that he can indeed reach farther than either of the soldiers thanks to his two range weapon.

I check his stat screen. I'm pretty sure he won't hurt Vanessa too badly, but I just am curious about the numbers.

Wait, what? He has an energy ring!?

...I guess I should have brought Colm after all.

Oh well. I'm kind of upset about the energy ring, but not enough to start the map over.

I put Vanessa just in range with a javelin equipped, and then I remember that she has a pure water that we just picked up!

YES. Come at me!

"Bring your pitiful 12 attack against my mighty 13 res!!!" <- Vanessa, probably

Meanwhile, on the other front, I send out Franz to tank a hit from the axe fighter.

Next time: We continue to punk on soldiers with Neimi

#fire emblem #sacred stones #fire emblem the sacred stones #fe8 #ファイアエンブレム #聖魔の光石

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theorist-influencer-untitled · 8 months

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1.28.24 Sunday

8:49 am

I'm in the house now, I accidentally went to Robinson or SM pala2x, I was sleeping in the bus when I woke-up I was in SM pala2x... So, I went back again, waiting for a ride going back to Salitran.

I still have windblow... My off today and laundry day.

Well, I'm thankful I got a job on H&R Block but on my personal life, I have so many complex and frustrations....

Hmm... About my job yesterday I had client who asked about the difference of Box 19 & Box 20 on his W2 form... I tried to look for the answer and I got it on google.

Box 19: Local income tax withheld. Box 19 reports the total amount of taxes withheld from your paychecks for local income taxes.

Box 20 will indicate the name of the local or city which reported the withholding in box 19. ( google )

Glad Lay and Yam were there to assist...

Hoping to save money for my travels and dog show and vanity. I still feel fat and ugly.

12:19 noon

Done,eating lunch....Will sleep again and do some task later.

1:14 pm

Still have windblow....Later I need to do some task... This laundry thing... Grrr....

Still, resting.... It is a split off angels :( But next week it will be Saturday and Sunday. It is hellish if it is split off like this week coz we had transition.

I feel fat and ugly...I need to diet and do my abs again.... But I need to sleep it is a long travel all the way from Cavite to Ecom Conduent.... Grrr... I need money2x... I need to work...

Looking for Daddy-Bf... I feel like I wanna have sex... Grrr... Cravings for flesh... But I have to control.

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1:29 pm

So,damn tired....I stopped on act 5, the sex act of Borgy and I....I can't think of the next scene coz I'm tired... I'm a romance writer... I just used Borgy as a main actor of my sample novel... It is a summarization of expression of love on an artful ways... The main theme it is about the tall guy and a shorty woman.

In "Kama Sutra" there are thousands of love position that you can do and it has healthy beneficial effect on your inner system. But ordinary people,ordinary lifestyle sometimes it will not take effect on the situation.

1:40 pm

I still have this crush on the black american guy but I think it is a big boss who probably just checking something or a client who simply visited the company that day that I saw him...

Ate Wena ( one of the securities ) asked me about him ( that guy ) if the guy is handsome. I said yeah! The guy is cute most specially when he smiled at me... The black man smile ;)

Still,looking for Daddy-Bf...

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1:54 pm

If there is no Daddy-Bf, I have to work... I have plans, I wanna leave Cavite... I need to do my abs again...

I wanna have a career path... More time for fixing... Can I still do perfection? I wanna perfect my nose... Whew! For my golden aging... I still believe on "golden aging".

I still think of a twist on uphill....If I can't find someone I like.... I will have breast implants probably coz I wanna go uphill and I wanna feel pretty again.

I'm not yet fixing guys or angels... I just love vanity and I was pampered.

2:15 pm

Life is not a piece of cake for me now...

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2:27 pm

Black it is... Fear or Fearless...

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8:40 pm

I'm tired... I need to diet again... I need to keep a job and I need money. I feel so fat and ugly... I have windblow ... Hoping I can find a Daddy -bf but if there is none....I need to keep a job....I want older than me, I want something that will look like that I'm a daughter to my Daddy-bf... I need a wall, like an american black man that I saw in Conduent...

I wanna remove my deep smile lines coz I aged for nothing... I feel bitter and I have self-pity in a way...

Again, if there is Daddy-bf good but if it will take time, it is fine... I need to keep a job but if there is chaos again, I will go to other call center again, hope not...

A Daddy-bf must be but it must be mutual meaning there must be love or a lil attraction.

A handsome black Daddy-bf....It must be mutual if there is none,then I have to wait...

I want to remove my deep smile lines...

9:42 pm

I feel heavy... Argh... I need to do my abss... Grar!! I wanna bite... I feel heavy....

Oh! Where is my Daddy-Bf...

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Wolvden Blog - November 12-18, 2023

It was a little bit of a busy week, and I'm just going to do a quick write-up of what has happened since last post.

Tuesday, November 14 - Pup Batch; Adols Grown

On this day the pack expanded by quite a bit!

New Adults

The leader's litter that lost their father last weekend grew up to adulthood. The leader's sister's litter, the same sister that decided to leave the pack last week, also grew up. Their father remains in the pack and will very likely become the leader's new mate.

In addition, the sub-pack's leader's pups grew up.

New Pair Bonds

All these adolescent growths brought many more Royal wolves to adulthood, and with that, three more breeding pairs could be formed.

Helena, the leader's daughter, chose Redwood of Runner's Legacy as her mate, choosing based on Redwood's high stats.

Locke, the leader's brother, chose Frostbite, a daughter of Runner and a Raffle Wolf, as his mate, for her beauty.

Marla's Legacy, a wolf unrelated to the royal family, chose Sly, a newly befriended wolf with a Tier III coat, as her mate. She hopes to bring rarer genes into the pack at higher stats.

Helena and Frostbite became pregnant.

New Pups

Sasha, the pack leader, and Beach, the sub-pack leader, both gave birth to new pups.

Sasha's pups are named Clotis, Hallel, and Vivian. Clotis inherited his father's raffle-exclusive eyes. Vivian inherited a large number of marks, has the highest stats, and is now two categories leader in Leader options for next generation. Hallel inherited a Tier II base.

Beach's pup is named Filip. He has a decent number of marks.

New Friends

With the increased number of Royal wolves, there was also an increased minimum of non-royal lines in the pack.

Opal and Lentil joined the main pack.

Sly and Lapis joined the sub-pack.

There was an extra slot beyond what NBWs I had lying around, so I waited until the next morning to bring in an Enclave pup.

Wednesday, November 15 - Enclave Pup and Coigreach Progress

I woke up incredibly early this morning (like 2am my time) so I rolled early to pick up an Enclave pup. I picked up one with Total Eclipse eyes since I think they're cool. She's called Aksina.

The original final part of the Coigreach event ran today. Sasha chose to adopt some additional Enclave pups to give to the spirit, resulting in a Clover Base Applicator. Maybe someone in the pack will have that applied (still workshopping how I want to handle this when anyone but the leader can leave/die, and Sasha is too pretty as-is to have her base change).

I am a little confused by the ending, though. So you give pups to the spirit to try to convince her to give the wolves she's stolen back and. . . you don't get them back. But everyone's happy anyway. What?

I guess we'll see what happens in the extension that was added last year.

Thursday, November 16 - Winter

It became Winter! The pack started hunting prey that is most easily caught, per their voting.

Friday, November 17 - Lunar Event Day 1; Heidi's Pups Adols

A couple of the non-royal pups became Adolescents. They began training as Chasers.

November's Lunar event began! The pack voted the following as far as shop priority:

Decor->Claws/Nose/Skin->Eyes->Base->Markings

However, as how this works is that I buy everything in each category before moving to the next, and there is a lot of Decor in there, we're probably only getting Decor this month. Still, there is some pretty stuff in there.

Saturday, November 18 - Frostbite and Helena's Pups Born; Weekly Pack Shrinkage Roll/Weekly Voting Roll(s)

New Pups

Yep, more pups!

Helena gave birth to Petro, Kamalani, Anni, and Maja. They are main-line royal wolves, but are not high-stat or good-looking enough to displace anyone in the next leader options.

Frostbite gave birth the Aurel, Evelin, and Havva. They are side-line royal pups and Havva is green.

Weekly Pack Shrinkage

I didn't write this live so all I have is their names.

Rolled for how many, and it was only three. All three were from the main pack.

Max was Sasha's brother. He went out to do his own thing.

Sir was a rather elderly NBW with an aggressive disposition. He had a fight and ran off, and no one saw him again.

Skipper was one of Runner's legacies I believe. He didn't really appreciate being a second-class citizen and left.

The number of royal wolves shrank to the point where there is one less allowed breeding pair and one less mandatory NBW. Helena and Redwood are no longer eligible to breed.

Weekly Voting

The pack voted how to hunt during Spring. They will go after the Largest prey they see.

Next Week Preview:

Sunday - Sasha's and Beach's pups will wean and be trainable.

Monday - Coigreach Story concludes

Tuesday - Aksina will become an adolescent

Wednesday - Spring will come; Marla's Legacy will be in heat. I will not breed her today.

Thursday - Frostbite's and Helena's pups will wean and be trainable.

Friday - Nothing of note, other than news/raffle drawings. I guess it's probably the Black Friday sale, isn't it?

Saturday - Final Coigreach Shop Tier will drop and I will finally be able to shop there. Heidi will be in heat. I will likely breed both her and Marla's Legacy.

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