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#it's not even a 'nobody likes me' problem it's literally a 'people DO like me' problem-- if nobody liked me I wouldn't disappoint them
anemoiapollo · 3 days
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Its 12am and im sick but i have suddenly gained the urge to talk about my tdp headcanons, so in no particular order here’s a list of them:
Ezran woke up before Callum did the morning after Rayla left, originally planning to get bait to wake him up early so they could organize a birthday breakfast with Lujanne. After looking for Rayla himself and asking around, he found and skimmed the first few sentences of her letter before waking up Callum and gravely showing it to him
Modern AU Rayla would be the type of kid to roleplay warrior cats on the playground and hiss at people
Sometimes after doing the Manus Pluma Volantus spell, Callum finds little fluffy feathers in his hair.
Callum had at least one gender crisis during the two year gap while recovering from a spiral. After that he stops correcting people who call him other pronouns than he/him, he just accepts any. Learning magic is more of a priority to him than thinking about his gender identity.
He brings it up briefly in casual convo with Rayla exactly once before changing the subject immediately and saying he’ll think more about it when the aaravos situation is over. Several years later he remembers it randomly and decides on either genderfluid or NB.
Amaya is the one who introduced Harrow and Sarai to each other
Ezran sometimes has nightmares about the fake Viren trying to stab him aswell as the scene that played out afterwards, and it was a big contribution to the heavier emphasis on peaceful resolutions and not turning to fighting he takes on in s5
Soren genuinely wants to ask Corvus out but he can’t think of how and thinks he’ll mess it up if he tries.
He’s probably told Ezran about this at some point because there’s no way he isn’t determined to be the therapist friend to everyone he knows (except Callum who never talks about his problems unless they’re Rayla related)
On a related note, Modern au Ezran would love Steven Universe. he’d definitely own the star shirt merch
Actually now that i think about it all three of the protagonist trio would have ‘cringey’ fandom phases. Callum would probably be the only multifandom one with no particular main one and could categorize periods of his life based on media he was obsessed with alone (just like me fr)
Modern au Callum would be on Tumblr, with an popular AU art blog. He would fiercely deny even knowing what Tumblr was in real life though. He would often have an internal crisis because Claudia was also on tumblr and would use inside jokes in daily conversation with her oblivious dad and brother, but he could never join in on the joke because he’d be forced to admit he’s on Tumblr.
Literally nobody in katolis castle knows who the actual crow lord is. There’s conspiracy theories among the guards that he was never real, or quit and never told anyone.
Moon phoenixes were originally connected to the sun arcanum at one point, but dark magic + humans killing them for their warm feathers made their population dwindle and they had to be crossed with a different moon arcanum bird to survive, which changed the species to their current state.
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coockie8 · 2 months
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i once had an anti tell me to stop sexualizing their trauma on a story i wrote that was a word for word retelling of my own actual trauma but with names changed and its been 2 years and i still cant stop thinking about that
Ah, yeah... Unfortunately a non-insignificant number of antishippers seem to genuinely believe they own the concept of trauma, so any story they read that they believe to be portrayed in a romanticized or sexualized light therefore must be romanticizing/sexualizing their trauma specifically.
I couldn't tell you the amount of times I've gotten the "stop sexualizing my trauma!!!!!!" or adjacent comments from antishippers that universally garner a response that basically boils down to
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Like, bitch! I'm talking about my trauma! I literally did not even know you existed until you fucking commented!
#proship#proshipper#anti bs#just anti things#glad to know antis assuming every story about trauma must be about them specifically seems to be a universal proshipper experience lol#like *how* am I sexualizing *your* trauma when I literally do not even know who you are?#like if you hadn't commented I would've gone my entire life not knowing you even exist#if I had omnipotence like that I certainly would not be using that power to sexualize the trauma of some random fucking stranger! lol#you think my petty ass would be doing *that* instead of the infinitely more infuriating thing of spoiling every show you love at any chance#jokes aside though like seriously get fucking real#I hate to burst your main character syndrome bubble but nobody fucking cares about you#not in the ''nobody loves you and you'll die alone'' sense#but in the ''you are just Some Guy™ and the 8 billion other people on the planet have their own problems to worry about'' sense#if someone is writing about trauma maybe take your self-centred goggles off for 5 fucking seconds#and maybe you'll realise that it is 1000000% more likely this random stranger is writing about *their* trauma#and *not* the trauma of a person whose entire existence they are not even aware of#I do believe the tiktok trend of referring to strangers as ''NPCs'' has at least contributed to this epidemic of main character syndrome#people you don't know are *not* ''NPCs'' you fucking robot!#they are human beings just like you with lives and dreams and loved ones#you just don't know them#sorry but I genuinely think I'd go to jail for murder if I ever heard someone refer to me as an ''NPC'' out in public#'cause genuinely who the fuck do you think you are!?
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rocketbirdie · 2 months
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i would love to enjoy everything that stardew valley has to offer but unfortunately i approach this game the same way i approach real life: avoid all social interaction and tend to my garden in belligerent silence
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jakejeffreyperalta · 10 months
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girls will literally be happy until their brain randomly convinces them that all their friends hate them because someone's text was a little TOO serious sounding which means they find you ugly and stupid and hate you with a burning passion
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blujayonthewing · 5 months
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a fundamental problem with me is that I do like people and I like being around other people and I like hanging out with my friends but I also almost exclusively like doing completely solo activities, which isn't, you know, how anyone expects or wants socializing to work
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dirt-str1der · 1 year
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Love characterising nishikiyama as a booze hound drug hound meth addict high every day body mass 75% alcohol hands constantly shaking literally spacing out while driving fifty over the speed limit using elderly folk as speedbumps one hand on the wheel and one hand free to do more drugs and coming into work while functionally deaf and blind and he is still leagues more competent at his job than kiryu
#Yakuza loveblog#i dont talk about nishikiyama enough because im kazamapilled and hate him a little bit but im also kiryupilled and love him so much so you#see my problem? like i adore when nishiki is just. better in every way than kiryu and nobody ever sees that because theyre all too busy#sucking kiryus cock like okay nishiki had the rest of his life planned out when he was twenty and he was an extremely successful criminal#and getting himself noticed in many many circles then kiryu steps outside and gets into a street fight immediately and the entire tojo clan#surrounds him to throw cash at him like nishiki was actually doing so well for himself before his life was ruined. nothing is his fault#like i love just accepting that nishiki has one hell of a substance abuse problem and nobody cares enough about him to talk to him about it#and kiryu thinks its normal because hes the only one who can see that nishikis doing some great work out there so he must be doing#everything right. inconceivable that nishiki has any sort of ‘problem’ hes the real screwup and kiryu knows he makes life harder for himself#but he refuses to change because hes convinced that thats the only thing hes good at. like i believe that nishiki has a coke snorting#mechanic in game like harry db and without his coke buff he cant do as much damage like with it his output is on par with kiryus whos just#been blessed since birth by the violence gods. anyway kiryu is the only person in the world who thinks that nishiki is great do you get it#nishiki has lived his entire life in kiryus shadow and he doesnt care that kiryu has a natural charisma that he will never have. he has to#get out there every single day networking and socialising and hustling and nonstop landing interviews with cool magazines to get his name#out in the world while kazama takes kiryu out and drags him by the elbow to meet people like this is my son kiryu who has every disease and#everyone claps and cheers like i cannot stress enough how on top of the game nishiki is compared to kiryu. he has a car. kiryu doesnt even#have his own lighter. they are not on the same playing field and yet nishikis always trailing behind him because opportunity is always#knocking at kiryus doorstep whether he likes it or not and nishiki gets fed scraps and nothing else and hes the one with ambition he wants#the view on top and most importantly he wanted his brother there with him but nobody ... likes him ... nobody likes nishiki nobodys in his#corner he onky had kiryu and when he lost him it was quite literally him against the world. it always made me laugh how at the end of yk1#harukas paying her respects at nishikis grave when the only time he ever cared about her was because he wanted her little pendant and he#(actually fucked how alone nishiki was he didnt even have his own fucking men to rely on he was basically working alone with someone he knew#was using him like ??? he was fucking desperate) anyway i really love to think that kiryu being nishikis only friend and the last person in#the world who thought kindly of him (barring like ... kashiwagi) was grieving terribly over his death and haruka being a sensitive and#sweet little girl took the initiative to ask about nishiki and i think kiryu would tell her stories every night of the kind of stuff he and#nishikiyama would get up to when they were her age. he would tell her how amazing nishiki was and how he always looked out for him how he#took care of his sister and how he would always be the one to remind them of impending birthdays and the like. nishiki cared about the#little things .. and he made kiryu want to care about them too but theres just something different between them because nishikis always#been a better person than him .. and he would tell haruka in a voice that sounded like he was begging her to understand that nishiki wasnt a#bad person.. though he did bad things he was a good man and he still wishes with all his heart that he could have done more to save him ...
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doctorwhoisadhd · 11 days
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also another reason i play picc despite it causing my migraines is because i can use it to win arguments. Like any other instrument you have no right to complain about piccolo being "too high" when i am playing it and it gives ME migraines. like. ok coward. what do u even have to complain about
#also its literally NEVER the flutes or oboes (who sit on either side of me) complaining even though they are third closest lol#(first two closest being my right ear and my left ear respectively btw)#ive had them be like wtf thats so high when im on a REALLY stupidly high note but its always in solidarity with me lol#complainers are always like trumpets and low brass and its like Damn that sucks dude.#It must be so hard for u to be like 20+ feet away from it at all times. Sounds like the hardest thing in the world its a good thing nobody#in the ensemble has to specifically be exactly that distance closer to it. Say about 3in away Per Ear. That would just be. Awful#disclaimer picc is fun i love playing picc its great#other benefits include: small i can just put it in my backpack :) flute can also do that but only if i dont have a ton of stuff in there#actually easier to play faster passages than on flute bc the keys are smaller and therefore lighter#marching picc is great cause you dont have to worry as much about rain cause its so little#and also people Will hear u#fun fact my picc that i own has problems with the cork in the headjoint being loose#and therefore the crown and everything can just. Come out. (NOT supposed to happen)#so their name is Lottie which is short for. Lobotomy.#which reminds me i need to take her to a repair shop again bc not only is that cork loose AGAIN (i dont think they actually replaced it the#first time which is Annoying) But Also the glue on the pad on the A flat key has come out a few times. Which strictly speaking i can fix#myself bc its just hot glue and a lighter but it gives me an excuse to be like Hey. Replace the fucking cork this time okay? ive soaked it#about 8 million times and it didnt work. Its dried out i PROMISE it just needs replacing#maybe ill mention im a music student so they believe me
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tunnels-end · 4 months
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sorry. guess I'm blogging trans drama now. But I still don't know what a baeddel is and at this point I really just don't super care
#my impressions from the vague things i've heard is like. vocal neoradfem transfem movement#that's kinda annoying and jerkfacey but fundamentally right in a lot of their assessments but fundamentally wrong in others#and got mocked into obscurity#and like. who cares? do they have any serious institutional or social power to weaponize?#does this matter at all outside of niche tumblr drama?#idk i can think of like 10 other kinda problematic angry movements that 'we' at least are sympathetic to#and aren't nearly this hostile towards. even though they result in much more tangible harms#idk. just kinda feels like a mix of the 'angry women aren't fulfilling their role' deal that got classic radfem seen as#a serious threat to whiteness-gender with the pressure in some contexts for trans women to be inoffensively feminine and 'fit in.'#... which brings me to i feel like The Left™️. particularly in social media contexts. very much has a problem with an economy of#who is worth critically allying with and who is worth driving off#in the popularity economy of social media. you don't need to consciously hold bigoted beliefs to create discriminatory outcomes#you just need to subconsciously make a discriminatory judgement when something makes you uncomfortable#which you totally do! yes! i mean you! literally nobody in this society is above it! that's just how culture works!#it doesn't even have to be much. when hundreds of thousands of people are. even little bits add up#so you get this weird self-reinforcing filter where even if everyone is consciously against oppressive systems. and is correct in their#assessments and analysis. and is critically engaging#a status quo forms manifests in what actually reaches you. which then of proceeds to further reinforce itself since that impacts#what even exists in the first place *to* filter.#and in a lot of ways. reflects 'ambient' culture's biases.
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alexjcrowley · 1 year
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You know what? Fuck it. Four Rooms is fun as hell, yes, even the first two parts that aren't written and directed by two great directors people are afraid to criticise. I don't care what the critics say, I had a lot of fun watching it.
#four rooms#it's because I am always on the side of the critis somehow I mean#that's what I want to for a job being a cinema critic#and I usually have no problem having different opinions on movie from the majority of people#but in cases like this I am just...I don't know I feel genuinely like I am on a whole another wavelength#I have read multiple people on letterbox calling it an anticomedy#I won't even assess how it feels they all took inspiration from the same review but okay#but the point is no the movie is literally not that bad and you know why I can say that?#Because I don't think someone could look at me in the eye and tell four rooms is worse than the latest Netflix raunchy comedy#or some of the worst Adam Sandler production#it's literally not you don't need to be dramatic nobody is saying it's a masterpiece but god the snobbery#tim roth delivers and you can fight me to death on that#Also Madonna won a prize for worst actress??? If she had 7 lines jn the whole movie it was a lot#And I agree that the first segment is probably the weakest one and the Rodriguez segment is maybe the best one#But I do feel like a lot of people are just afraid to say anything bad on Tarantino and Rodriguez so they're just going#'the movie is shit but they were goos obviously!'#Four rooms is not perfect by all means and I do think it could have given a lot more but fuck it was alright it was fun#I hadn't had good laugh in a while#and Tim Roth again is hysterical#I am sorry for the pented up frustration#I don't want all people to liked this movie I just wished it wasn't one of those movies it's cool to snob
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minecraft-steve · 9 months
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cannot escape trans community infighting and discourse and i am screaming and clawing at the walls begging y'all to realize our problems coexist
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elytrafemme · 9 months
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everyone please manifest that i wake up a normal person tomorrow because i am treacherously close to going on a fucking warpath
#nightmare.personal#omg ha ha ha classes are starting soon orientation is over isn't this going to be so fun <- on the verge of killing someone#it's not even classes that's the issue it's the fact that college is like. oh time to reinvent yourself#but like that's so not working. people aren't LIKING me.#and it's not that people hate me like i've made good connections with a decent group of people#spent all day with these two guys basically. my roommates seem to appreciate me. have a few others in the bag.#but they're not liking me that much. like. okay. i'm just going to say this#because i have a girlfriend i don't WANT people to try shit with me#and because i have a girlfriend people DON'T want to try shit with me#and that is The Fucking Problem I Think#because i can't feel attractive if nobody is telling me i'm attractive#because it sounds so. fake. from my girlfriend. like she obviously doesn't see it. obviously.#but people finding me attractive is the basis of how i can function as a human being#it's so fucking frustrating. i'm doing EVERYTHING i can. i'm being adaptable and spontaneous and reliable#and i'm funny and honest and i'm validating. i'm hitting everything.#and it's not working well enough. and classes will start and nobody's going to give a shit anymore#and it's like if i killed myself or something literally nobody here would care. because we don't know each other yet#and nobody at home would know for a handful of days aside from my family like obviously they exist so that's an issue#also i like being alive so that's kind of the main barrier to this plan but the point stands that like#something could happen to me and nobody would care#also side note it's really cool that i've balanced online stuff and real life stuff so now#i barely talk to the people i know online who would actually support me and mostly talk to real life people who probably wouldn't#isn't that so cool. hashtag living. being on tumblr makes me actually want to kill myself i want to delete discord SO bad#because that actually wouldn't make a difference for more than like 3 people here. what's my argument actually i'm contradicting myself#the reason i'm not being liked is because i'm not a likable person and that is definitely the crux of this issue#but if people don't start wanting me right now it's actually going to be so bad for so many people#if i go into college with no friends i cannot express to you in words how much i will take down with me#i will library of alexandria myself i do not even care. someone call me attractive and mean it. give me a fucking chance#suicide tw
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marklikely · 1 year
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barbarian fans have rapidly become the actual most insufferable people in the horror community
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sylvieons · 1 year
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my desire to make more money vs my inability to hold down a steady job vs the countless other things i have to do that interfere with holding down a steady job even if my mental health were 100% fine vs new physical ailment that plagues me every few months that is mysterious and undiaganosible and then doesn't go away
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oglegoggle · 1 year
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Weird double emotion of lonely and longing & too mistrusting of others to really even want to attempt to date now (if ever again tbh)
#this is goggles#just tired of relationships that make me feel like I am the sun to them when really they’ve lit me on fire and are burning me up#so they can in a way pretend to be tragic Icarus who flew too close#I continue to feel like a MPDG to the people I date#like I’m eccentric and handsome and dreamy and fun yeah#But I am not always my best traits#and often I have weird and tricky needs that nobody I’ve been with has really be able or willing to accomodate#I know that I’m very very hard to love at my most raw#it hurts so much to warn someone of this and they insist that they can in fact love me when it’s hard#but then when my hard time love times roll around whoopsie doopsie guess you were right after all#and just I put a lot of work and effort into my relationships desperately wanting to milk even a tenth of the effort in return back out#and I’m tired of it#I’m tired of putting work into others who think I’m some perfect dreamboat who is going to swoop in and fix their life#I tired of putting work into people who won’t put the work into me#couldn’t even schedule fucking counseling for us immediately after his evil cat slashed my literal eyeball#pathetic slob an absolute manchild a sorry excuse for a partner or a son#I sure as fuck felt like a crazy hybrid of partner and dad to him as much as I tried to convince him to do his chores and do them right#this isn’t even the first time that this shit has happened don’t know why I keep letting it#I’m the nameless love interest in your back story that was sooooo dreamy and romantic and good in bed that you dream of him for life#the one you fantasize about when you’re inevitably having problems in your 23 year marriage decades down the line#think about what ever happened to him and wonder if you could’ve made it work#but I’ll be long long gone#you won’t know whatever happened to me or if you could’ve made it work#you’ll go back to your unhappy marriage and tell yourself it’s what you deserve for fucking it up with me#me? I’ll have probably asphyxiated on my vomit or something by then ol’ Jimi style#because let’s be real I’m probs gonna lose grasp on my little Habit eventually#it gets worse and worse with each major trauma I endure#I need the traumatic experiences to stop please I am so so tired#may solitude in the Parks give me peace#may peace give me detachment
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doodlebloo · 2 years
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My hope is that c!Ranboo comes back, learns that c!emeraldduo left him to die so an abuser could be set free, realizes how awful c!emeraldduo are, gets pissed, and then either ditches their asses and drags Tubbo out along with Michael(because goodness lord if those fuckers sink their fangs into MY BABY BOY and try to turn HIM into a bloodthirsty violence crazed mini ctechno BEAST-), ooooooor just straight up kills them so they can't help Dream ever again.
I think he should choose his family and only his family. And that c!Tubbo should get a talking to about endangering their son with leaving him alone with people who set their boy(ctommy's) abuser free. It'd be real neato, me does thinks
Eh I don't think c!Ranboo should kill c!emerald and I also don't think he has to choose between them and c!Tubbo really? Like whether we as fans agree w the writing or not, within canon c!Tubbo has forgiven c!Technoblade for the hurt he's caused. And I also think it'd be kind of fitting with c!Ranboo's whole "people vs sides" thing if he stayed close with all of them? Like these people in his life have proven that they can and will put their differences aside for his sake and that's kind of lovely to see. So like I definitely agree that Michael_B probably shouldn't grow up in the Syndicate and that c!Tubbo and c!Techno should probably keep their distance, but I don't feel like c!Ranboo should have to choose between them in the end
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yourthirdparent · 2 years
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how is jason both an older brother figure and a father figure? good question. have you ever played obey me
#unfollow me rn i'm hyperfixating#i won't share content about it other than this post but i can't promise i won't randomly hop in the tags of a post and mention a character#but if i say lucifer it's referring to my friend luci i do not give a shit about the obey me character and will never mention him#not tagging fandom or character#sorry about all the tags rip#allfatherly guidance#also yes i know there are. issues with obey me. i've played the game. i've seen the problems. i'm hyperfixating anyways#whatever i'm practically a pjo blog you guys are familiar with media with Oddities c'mon#also to that one person who follows me who's dni includes obey me fans i'm so sorry#bonus pologies for tags tag#also i will elaborate on what the fuck this means if asked OR if i feel like it#bonus BONUS pologies for tags tag woah#i cannot shut the fuck up wow#still into jj though! if i make original posts or reblog any fandom content it will probably still be about him#i will come out of my shitty demon dating sim induced haze if i see him he's more than just a character to me he's like a person#it's like how i'll reappear from the woods if i hear my children calling my name yk#wow i literally don't shut up i should make a tag for when it gets this bad so people can block it so tumblr will warn them of my tags#or so they don't have to see what i rambled about for so long it needed a tag ever again#i want it to be a reference to this post actually but like so stupid that nobody who knows this post or even the context would get it#so not even i'll get it later#so uuhhhhhh block uhhhhhhhhhhh#the devil is the father of fathers and brother of brothers and god is satan's chippering son#← block that one that's for if i ramble on for like 20 fucking tags like now that's my shut the fuck up god tag#literally just block it and never read the rambling it's not worth it the post wouldn't be worth it#i should make a pinned post just to tell people to block that tag#could explain anything about who i am (probably should considering i haven't even officially posted my name) but no#it's just gonna be like ↓BLOCK THIS TAG↓ and the only tag is that#actually i'm gonna make that pinned. first i have to figure out how to pin a post
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