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sunnydaleherald · 6 months

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The Sunnydale Herald Newsletter, Tuesday, April 9

Cordelia: Somebody is after me! They just tried to kill Ms. Miller? Uh, she was helping me with my homework. And Mitch! And Harmony?! This is all about me! Me, me, me! Xander: Wow! For once she's right! Buffy: So you've come to *me* for help. Cordelia: (nods) Because you're always around when all this weird stuff is happening. And I know you're very strong, and you've got all those weapons... I was kind of hoping you were in a gang.

~~Buffy Episode #11: "Out of Mind, Out of Sight" ~~

[Drabbles & Short Fiction]

the spark (Spike, unrated) by ialwayscomewhenyoucall

Try to Keep Satisfied (Buffy/Spike, E) by ClowniestLivEver

Birthday Blues (Buffy/Spike, E) by RavenLove12

What I Like About Spike (Buffy/Spike, E) by RavenLove12

Play Thing (Buffy/Spike, E) by Maxine Eden

[Chaptered Fiction]

Catching Heat Ch. 1 (Buffy/Tara, E) by mabus101

The Witching Hour: Ch, 1/25 () by TheLightdancer

In the Company of Witches and Slayers Ch. 4/200 (Willow/Tara, E) by VladimirHarkonnen (TheLightdancer)

A Reincarnation in Sunnydale Ch. 35/? (Buffy/Angel, M) by DracoRim98

Goodbye to Everything That I Knew Ch. 28/30 (Buffy/Spike, M) by My_Barbaric_Yawp

Angel Doesn’t Know Ch. 1/? (Buffy/Spike, E) by My_Barbaric_Yawp

With Arms Wide Open Ch. 28/? (Buffy/Giles, E) by jaybird023

Ripped Stockings Ch. 1/? (Jenny/Giles, E) by TheClowniestLivInExistence

The Reason Why Ch. 7 (Buffy/OC, M) by Xyex

Switch Swith Ch. 1-10/10 COMPLETE (Buffy/Spike, E) by sunalso

Ashes to Ashes, We All Fall Down Ch 1-2/2 COMPLETE (Spike/Drusilla, unrated) by Scar_Eve

hit rewind Ch. 47/? (Buffy/Spike, M) by untiljanuary

49 Cemeteries Ch. 21 (Buffy/Spike,, T) by firemanwhenthefloodsrollback

Early One Morning , Chapter 31 (Buffy/Spike, E) by all choseny

The Neighbor's Point of View, Chapter 98 (Buffy/Spike, G) by the_big_bad

Celebrating You, Chapter 7 (Buffy/Spike, E) by RavenLove12

Sculpture of Dance , Chapter 11 (Buffy/Spike, M) by Desicat

Hope is the thing with feathers, Chapter 2-9 (Buffy/Spike, E) by will_

Her Villanelle, Chapter 1 (Buffy/Spike, M) by Geliot99

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[Reviews & Recaps]

BTVS/Angel Rewatch Chronicles: Seasons 5/2, Part Two by QualifiedApathetic

Mothman’s Buffy Rewatch, Season 2, episode 22, Becoming (Part 2) by mothmans-wedding-photographer

[Community Announcements]

Spring 2024 Round - Pick a Theme by seasonal-spuffyAs promised we are back for the spring round. We still haven't found a new home for Seasonal Spuffy. The sad news is that this round will be our last round on lj/dw. We hope you help us spread the word, so we can go out with a great last round.

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I run a discord server for Buffyverse rarepairs. by riley-summers

[Fandom Discussions]

Was thinking about Riley being an annoying character and something came to mind. by clockwards

Sorry thinking about Buffy breaking down to Tara again and Spike and Tara’s gentle friendship. by clockwards

“came back wrong” trope except she came back normal by thirstghosting

Ughhhh ew who is this Riley bitch. by loonyoz

what if faith during her redemption arc tried being a dog walker by annieofhearts

Summarizing the shit I’ve been ranting about to my buffy freaks this week re: “you arent the source of me” by breezybeej

Oh man, the Nice Guy energy radiating off Xander when Buffy turns him down for the dance is insane. by nicnacsnonsense

Literally one of my all time favorite interactions in btvs by hersterical

nothing makes me more evil than seeing someone misinterpret daniel “oz” osbourne of buffy the vampire slayer fame. by joe-spookyy

My favorite part of Buffy The Vampire Slayer by transgender-spiderman

What if Buffy fell in love with Spike first and was the one running around like a crazy weirdo by skyegraves21

maybe i don't understand how relationships work. by momsforroadhead

Bangel and Cangel parallels II by oveliagirlhaditright

Some Bangel and Cangel Parallels I've Noticed and Decided to Compile Together for Fun by oveliagirlhaditright

these are my picks for the best Buffy episodes in every slot of each season. by coraniaid

People in whose image The First should have appeared at least once during Season 7: by coraniaid

I feel like After Life did a great job at showing depression/loss by Anyanka_Tin

Bronze: 2024 music update by thepalebeast91

Rewatcher: anyone else annoyed with Ash&Angel episodes? by Prestigious_Olive_19

How was Angel enter into the apartment Faith broke into in s1e18 “Five by Five”? by dude19832

The loose ends - and how should they have been tied up? by artmalique

What are the best storylines in your least favorite season? by sadhungryandvirgin

First time watch by BlazinAsianNation

Was Faith justified in her anger at Buffy in "This Year's Girl"? by jdpm1991

Does Angel have photographic memory? by Slayerette444

I love these dresses Willow wears, but have no idea what to look for to find them. by Xandertheokay

Would The Key's identity be safe with you if you were Tara or Spike? by PristineSituation498

What happens to watchers after their slayer dies? by Helpplease49257

Are the monks in S4 complete morons or am i missing something? by FormerlyKnownAsBeBa

How could a Giles/Joyce storyline work? by jogaforacont

Watching Buffy for the first time. About to start Season 2. by Stradiwhovius_

Xander is fine. I don't know what my problem was. by LeoraJacquelyn

Buffy/Angel Relationship Timeline by BeneficialGrade8930

the Prophecy Girl speech by BPD-and-Lipstick

"Reptile Boy" and Wolfram & Hart by SvenVersluis2001

4x2/4 a problem I have with each by ukcountrylover

Some highlights from my Sunnydale Sims 4 save file by missssinister

Unpopular opinion… by Happycatmother

Mark Metcalf as The Master by Smykster

This sub is really hostile at times. by telomeres-

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PUBLICATION: Before Willow, Larry Was the Gay Representation on 'Buffy' by Instinct Magazine

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ao3feed-spuffy · 2 years

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I Was Here

by TemperanceCain

Set after the events of BTVS'S "The Gift" and Angel's "There's No Place Like Plrtz Glrb." In the hours after Buffy's funeral, Angel and Spike inevitably quarrel over their shared love of the Slayer...and who was there when she needed them the most. Mentions of both Bangel and Spuffy. One-shot. Mild Angel bashing. This is a sad one, folks. Be warned.

Words: 1987, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Buffy the Vampire Slayer (TV), Angel: the Series

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Major Character Death

Categories: F/M

Characters: Angel (BtVS), Spike (BtVS), Dawn Summers

Relationships: Mentioned Buffy/Angel, Mentioned Spike/Buffy - Relationship, Angel & Spike (BtVS)

Additional Tags: Crossover, Two vampire in love with the same Slayer, Anger, Grief/Mourning

source https://archiveofourown.org/works/44394418

#ao3feed #ao3feed-spuffy #spuffy #buffy x spike

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twosomeofcuteness · 2 years

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I posted 2,369 times in 2022

That's 1,856 more posts than 2021!

375 posts created (16%)

1,994 posts reblogged (84%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@chasingfictions

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I tagged 1,473 of my posts in 2022

Only 38% of my posts had no tags

#rupert giles - 256 posts

#jenny calendar - 194 posts

#calendiles - 154 posts

#buffy summers - 112 posts

#btvs - 107 posts

#willow rosenberg - 60 posts

#faith lehane - 49 posts

#save for sad - 48 posts

#xander harris - 42 posts

#< prev tags - 38 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#cabe would spend the whole time telling walter to keep focused on cleaning and stop making snarky comments about how the task was below him

I sent 4 gifts in 2022

My Top Posts in 2022:

Finished! Only took 90 minutes and it was worth every second

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I saw this as a Calliette post but it was so so perfect for them that I had to recreate it.

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Rating the Scoobies on how I think they'd shovel the driveway:

Buffy: Slayer strength, she could probably knock it out in like 30 minutes, but she'd hate doing it 8/10

Xander: I don't think he'd have any problems, but he'd drag his feet about doing it. Probably take 45 minutes, 7/10

Willow: She'd try to clear it with magic first and when that didn't work she'd wrangle Buffy and Xander into helping her. 4/10

Cordelia: Wouldn't lift a finger. 1/10

Oz: Oz has a snowplow. 20 minutes. 6/10

Giles: Complains about doing it, throws out his back halfway down the driveway. 2/10

Jenny: Clears it like a boss, but doing it solo takes forever, so at least an hour, and she'd be pretty sore afterwards. 7/10

Faith: She's the first one outside when it snows. Knocks out the driveway in 30 minutes. 10/10

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My #1 post of 2022

No but she's so attractive

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ironwilledfuckup · 4 months

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I’m showing buffy to my wife who hasn’t seen it in over 20 years & she HATES joyce so much that when i let it slip that she dies she referred to the episode as the ‘Joyce summers eats shit hour’ & has promised she won’t feel any sadness. we’re two episodes away from The Body

#btvs #tagging this to record her reactions #joyce eats shit hour

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gyokujyn · 5 months

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Music Asks! 27, 11, 3

Ooo, I'm excited about this ask game because I love music so much! I can and will go on and on about my favourite songs and playlists I've made and be the happiest little lamb! Thank you for playing, friend! 💚💜

27: a song that breaks your heart

Okay, so, I know this is maybe a little pathetic, but I remember when they used this song on Buffy the Vampire Slayer when Angel gets his soul back just as Buffy has to kill him and it broke me a little. I can't listen to this song without thinking of how that felt and it kills me a little.

Honorable mention: both The Highwayman by the Highwaymen (cause it's a beautiful representation of the circle of life and reincarnation) and The Highway Man by Loreena McKennitt (because it's a lovely, sad ballad) and I only bring it up because I think it's funny they are almost the same name, but completely different songs and I need a moment of levity cause I just listened to this fucking song.

11: a song you never get tired of

So, I am one of those people who will listen to the same song on repeat for 17 hours straight as long as it's still giving me ✨ The Dopamine ✨ and this song has been an almost constant source since the first time I heard it. Delightful.

3: a song that reminds you of summertime

I'm not sure I have an explanation for this one, but I made a whole summer energy playlist around this song. It makes me imagine being poolside at summer sunset with a little umbrella drink watching the fireflies come out.

#answered asks #gunshou #it me

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frankierose · 3 years

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its valentines day.

you know what that means!!!

thinking (and writing) about all my favorite btvs ships and the songs that remind me of them!!!!! *heart shaped confetti flies in the air and pollutes your brain*

this is going to be a hell of a long post so i'm cutting it off in case you dont want to scroll for 20 hours. lets get started!! (there's no specific order for the ships btw. i did not feel like organizing them)

Willow/Tara

Why Do You Let Me Stay Here? by She & Him Why don't you sit right down and stay a while? / We like the same things and I like your style / It's not a secret / Why do you keep it? / I'm just sitting on the shelf

i could go on and on about this song its SOOO FUCKING GOOD, but overall it just reminds me very much of willow as a whole tbh. i think it fits both willow/oz and willow/tara, but certain lines just work better with the latter so thats why its under tillow! it just fits the homey little sweet vibe that the two of them have. also the lines I think you're just so pleasant / I would like you for my own reminds me of this ICONIC scene between the two of them I LOVE THEM SO MUCH YOU GUYS

Spring Cleaning by Jack Stauber You don't wanna listen / You just wanna always sing the words I say / So you can tuck them all away (way) / And save them for a spring cleaning day

yes i said i love them and yes this song is terribly sad and angsty. it just makes me think of the fucking flower that willow uses in a spell on tara to make her forget about being angry at her, and then the whole tabula rasa thing......... AHH :(

Xander/Anya

Love Grows (Where My Rosemary Goes) by Edison Lighthouse She talks kinda lazy / And people say she's crazy / And her life's a mystery / Oh, but love grows where my Rosemary goes, and nobody knows like me

xanya is actually not one of my fav ships simply because i cant STAND what xander did to her at their WEDDING in front of all those PEOPLE. BUT. this song literally fits them so well - it's about an average joe (like xander) being positively absolutely in love with a girl who's said to be weird and crazy (like anya!) but hes okay with the crazy because nobody knows her love like he does the lines I'm a lucky fella / And I just gotta tell her / That I love her endlessly make me melt because xander would totally fucking say that AAGGHH its such a sweet song and i think it highlights the nicer parts of their relationship

Willow/Anya + Willow/Cordelia

Puppy Princess by Hot Freaks Hold me / Hold me, I'm your bunny / Tell me I'm not funny / Tell me I'm legit

i couldn't decide if this fit willow/anya more or willow/cordelia more so i'm putting it in BOTH. in my mind the song is from the perspective of willow, trying her best to ignore her feelings for anya/cordelia when they're in their relationships with xander, but she ends up fantasizing about being with them in the chorus and its very messy because she knows it'll never happen :( also, i think the bunny line is funny because of anya's inescapable fear of bunnies. anyways all of xanders exes (if you could call willow an ex?) should be dating. WLW FTW WOOOO YEAHHH

Darla/Drusilla

Always Forever by Cults You know you've got me in your pocket / You don't just have to wait around / You know I've got you in my locket / Just come here and we can settle down

i actually don't have much to say about this one LOL. i just think the lyrics fit them really well as per usual the eerie, sort of unhealthy and vaguely codependent vibe of the song reminds me of them! thats all!

Buffy/Angel

When the Day Met the Night by Panic! at the Disco So she said, "That's okay / As long as you can make a promise not to break / My little heart or leave me all alone / In the summer."

i think i've spoken on here about my distaste for bangel but sometimes it does manage to enthrall me (like dracula) and this is definitely one of those cases i am just a sucker for moon/sun parallels dude - while normally angel would be the moon and buffy would be the sun imo cause... yk, creature of the night, blonde fiery kickass lady; they're switched in this song (which i also feel oddly fits them?) but honestly if you haven't listened to this song before i suggest listening to it rn because you'll see what i mean when it reminds me of bangel ITS SO BANGEL-Y. just look at these lyrics: Well, he was just hangin around / Then he fell in love / And he didn't know how / But he couldn't get out you can't tell me that that doesn't remind you of angel and his curse!!!! you cannot i won't believe you

Faith/Buffy

Twilight by Bôa Your feelings and mine are all holy but / You know and I know it's untrue because / When day dawns, you're there lying with me / And the dawn can fly away

i made a fuffy post with lyrics from this song a few days(?) ago so i think this was kind of to be expected but OH WELL i THINK the song is literally about a girl who's having an affair??? with a man who's in a relationship with a woman. he loves his spouse/girlfriend, but he also loves the singer (and the singer loves him back) thats what i gathered, it's a kind of confusing song BUT i read it as faith singing about buffy, who takes the place of the 'man' in the song, dealing with her feelings for buffy and being jealous of angel because buffy seems to love him more than she may love her. it's gay and angry just like faith! very good song All I Wanted by Paramore Think of me, when you're out, when you're out there / I'll beg you nice from my knees / And when the world treats you way too fairly / Well, it's a shame, I'm a dream

i just cannot help but imagine faith screaming this song at the top of her lungs i think the song's about a break up but to me it's about faith missing out on her chance to become (girl)friends with buffy because she sorta. yk...... was evil and killed people she just wanted someone who understood her :( buffy was her best shot at that considering they had the whole slayer thing in common, but everything got messed up AND ITS SAD

Spike/Buffy (buckle your seatbelts people. these bitches are gonna have a lot)

First Love / Late Spring by Mitski One word from you and I would / Jump off of this ledge I'm on, baby / Tell me don't so I can crawl back in

is mitski an obvious and stereotypical choice for spuffy? yes. am i writing about it anyway? also yes because AAGHGHHRHGHHJJJJAH this song is actually in my buffy playlist because a lot of it just feels like HER and not spuffy, but i'm obligated to put it here because it is spuffy...esque. the chorus makes me think of buffy trying desperately to cut things off with spike in s6 but she keeps being pulled back. for example: Please hurry, leave me / I can't breathe / Please don't say you love me these lyrics remind me very much of that one scene (i cannot remember what episode it was from for the life of me) where spike starts to say i love you, but buffy cuts him off because she just can't bear to hear it very spuffy-y. thats all

Introduction to the Snow by Miracle Musical A part of thee in the key of what we know to be every part without me / Knows only two can make it light / You'll live forever tonight

That Scene in chosen. do i have to explain myself any further than that

No Children by The Mountain Goats And I hope when you think of me years down the line / You can't find one good thing to say / And I hope if I found the strength to walk out / You'd stay the hell out of my way

i contemplated putting this in the spangel category for a moment but then i thought nah. this is spuffy at its core, at its rawest moments if you haven't listened to this song before once again i suggest you listen to it because i don't think it needs much explaining once you hear all the lyrics hand in unloveable hand you guyyyys :(

The Masochism Tango by Tom Lehrer Bash in my brain, and make me scream with pain / Then kick me once again / And say we'll never part / I know too well, I'm underneath your spell / So if you smell something burning, it's my heart

the joke is that buffy beats spike up and he probably gets off on it. buffy knows this.

Spike/Angel(us)

Tear You Apart by She Wants Revenge I want to hold you close / Skin pressed against me tight / Lie still, close your eyes girl / So lovely, it feels so right

originally i thought of this as an early spuffy song (i still kind of do, esp with the lyrics It's only just a crush, it'll go away - very spike-y) but then i thought about it in a spangelus sort of way and i was like. yeah. the song is about wild evil sexy .... sex. angelus and spike definitely had Relations we all know this and i think their relationship would be wild and evil and probably dangerous!!!! that's it that's the whole segment

Cordelia/Willow

Giving Into the Love by AURORA Someone out there is trying / To find somebody whole who is not dying / But everybody cries and nobody comforts / The television lies and now my mind hurts

i love this song and this ship so fucking much for me the way the song could be interpreted as wildelia is that they're both letting their walls come down together and giving into the love, not caring about anything anymore or how they could be perceived by the world cordelia, as we know, before she gets with xander, is very conscious about her social status and always wants to be wanted and loved, even if she doesn't have any real friends. she was very lonely willow was also very lonely for other reasons - she was unpopular and practically just another face in the crowd - her only friend was her childhood friend, xander and i think they could bond over that loneliness! i think together they could be free!! like the lyrics say: I've never had the world, so why change for it? it could also be interpreted as them understanding the fact that they're both queer and have feelings for each other. at first its scary and confusing, but eventually they get together and are the happiest they've ever been :]

She by Dodie And I'll be okay / Admiring from afar / Cause even when she's next to me / We could not be more far apart

to me this song would be sung by a crush-ridden willow who is so annoyed at herself for falling for her biggest bully, cordelia she tries to convince herself it's nothing but she can't help listing off all the things that make her beautiful in her head. eventually they'd become quiet allies and even friends, and her crush just grows, even though she knows it will never be requited :( (OR WILL IT?!?!?!?! DUN DUN DUN)

The Way I Feel Inside by The Zombies In your mind / Could you ever be, really close to me? / I can tell the way you smile / If I feel that I / Could be certain, then / I would say the things I want to say tonight

basically the same premise as the previous song! i think it could be taken as either cordy or willow singing though OR BOTH OF THEM! they're gay and they don't think either of them like the other that's the idea i'm going with

Joyfulthought by Mom I know it's weird / To say you changed me / But things have been really hard for me lately / I don't need anything, just when you talk to me / I can't believe anyone would ever be that nice to me

i LOVE this song, it makes me think of cordelia singing about/to willow it starts out as this sort of reluctant like... 'you make me feel so weird but it's a good weird' feeling for her whenever she's around willow, and then she starts to realize that she loves her, and she really enjoys spending time with her and that she's made her a better person even though she didn't think she needed it. and then they kiss and muah muah muah and they love each other happy endings for all

Buffy/Tara

Chiquitita by ABBA Chiquitita, you and I cry / But the sun is still in the sky and shining above you / Let me hear you sing once more, like you did before / Sing a new song, chiquitita

this song makes me think of tuffy because of the pure happiness it brings me just how tuffy does :D /hj for reals though, it's about the singer comforting their 'chiquitita' - which is spanish for 'little one' - but it reminds me of when tara comforts buffy semi-regularly in.... i THINK season six. its a sweet and kind song just like tara! it makes me imagine them dancing in a field and laughing and now i'm tearing up cause i just love them so much!!! arrhghhghhh!!!!

Spike/Xander

If We Were Gay by Ninja Sex Party You know, a lot of people come up to us and say / "Hey Danny Sexbang Xander and Ninja Brian Spike / You guys wear a lot of spandex and live together / Are you gay?" / Pfft, I have to laugh

could you imagine that? if they were gay??? i love spander very much and i think that xander would totally sing this to show his 'support' to a very embarrassed but grateful willow and also make fun of his boyfriend spike that's literally all the reasoning i have

Buffy/Willow

Ugly by Nicole Dollanganger You said they make fun of your body / Humiliation in your eyes when you told me / Well I'm gonna find them, don't you worry / I'll make sure they're really fucking sorry

this would be really early billow, like s1. buffy is really protective of her best friend who she totally isn't in love with and knows how much shit people give willow at school and she's this close to bashing all their skulls in another tidbit of lyrics from the song that really sounds like buffy: Anything that is beautiful / People want to break / And you are beautiful, I'm afraid

We're Going To Be Friends by The White Stripes Walk with me, Suzy Lee / Through the park and by the tree / We will rest upon the ground / And look at all the bugs we found / Safely walk to school without a sound

this could also be a willow/xander song but i do not like willow/xander i think they're much better as friends so BILLOW IT IS! this song just makes me feel all cozy like buffy and willows friendship :] i just think they're neat! it's a very cute song for very cute ladies

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that's all i've got for now but i may post more songs later if this post does well and you guys enjoy it!!! happy valentines day :D

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prose-for-hire · 4 years

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Tomb-mates

Pairing: Buffy Summers x fem!vamp!reader

Request: If you're accepting requests at the moment could you please write a story with a female vampire reader that goes to college and ends up being Buffy's roommate (Buffy doesn't know the readers a vampire and the reader doesn't know Buffys a slayer), at first Buffy and the reader are feuding over petty roommate drama but then their suspicion of each other grows and the drama becomes more intense, ending in romance please?

Requested by: Anon

Warning: Swearing. Fighting/ violence. A little heated kissing.

You were new. New to vampirism. New to dating women. You felt like a fish out of water. You were adapting, but slowly. You always known you liked women, but you had never gotten enough of a chance to explore that side of yourself when you were living.

You may be thinking this a story of repression, perhaps you were growing up in a time where you had to marry a man rather than initiate any relationships with women...

But you had been sired last week.

The week before you moved to college. Luckily you were taking night classes. So, you weren’t ashamed. Or completely pious or virginal. You just hadn’t dated much, expecting everything to change once you got to college.

Now here you were. Trying to adjust to the bloodlust and the tenuous grip you had on your soul (as well as your attraction to your new roommate). You had never really met many other vampires and so you weren’t aware that you were a lot different than most. Human blood tasted horrible to you. Like rotten fruit. And it made you feel kind of sad inside.

So you ate animal. It was sweeter, not by much. But it was better than nothing. Your sire had dropped you, leaving you to it. She, the vampire you weren’t even sure the name of, went to LA because some store had a rare unicorn figurine she was dying to get her hands on. Or she ‘would totally die… again to get my hands on’ as she had so eloquently put it.

Ever since you moved in with Buffy, things were a little rocky. She could be fun to have a conversation with, she could make you laugh at times and she was honestly the most beautiful woman you had ever met. But there was something missing. Something you couldn’t figure out.

Without realising until it was too late, a gradual tension had permeated the air around you. In every conversation. Every glance when the other wasn’t looking. Every heated comment to or about the other.

The tension became more obvious a few weeks after you moved in together. You were brushing your teeth when she ran in. Teeth meaning fangs. You had changed into your vampire form knowing from experience that it wasn’t good to neglect the teeth that grew when you changed.

You panicked, your face and the reflection would tell her something you really didn’t want her to know. Your face changed back and you shouted at her to get out. You stood closer to her, blocking her vision from your lack of reflection.

She explained that she had wanted to know if you would like to hang with her and her friends. At noon. Also known as sizzle o’clock when you were a vampire.

You stared at each other. You could cut the tension with a knife. Eventually she just backed out and you closed the door behind her, breathing heavily despite the fact you didn’t need to.

You made it up to her after this, you did meet her friends at the Bronze after class one evening. Her pizza delivery guy friend kept eyeing you. You didn’t know if this was because you were under suspicion or otherwise. You didn’t go out with them all again. But you did spend a bunch of time with Buffy.

It was strange, your relationship with Buffy. You were flung together, reliant on each other in some sense. And completely infuriated by the other almost every other hour. But in that alternate hour… God, you would be lying if you said you didn’t enjoy just being in the same room as her.

You arrived back after your night class and dropped your bags to the floor. You didn’t notice that she had stopped still, her eyes wide until you took a second glance at her.

You then realised what she was holding, and then concealing behind her back. A heavy set mace, complete with angry looking spikes.

“What’s that? A mace? Y’know I think they meant the spray kind in the campus talk” You laughed, shaking your head.

“I-It’s for an elective!” She rushed, a panicked look before she pointed as if she had found a better excuse, “They were just handing them out!”

“…You got a free mace?” You questioned, as if it being free was the least believable part of it.

“Well, you know what they say…” You shook your head as she came up with it on the fly, “Maces prevent assault-cases”

“Sounds like it would increase assault cases, but I mean what do I know” You muttered, eyeing her a little confused. She fidgeted under your gaze. You made her a little confused, she loved women. She knew this. But if she had been honest she had never really expected to find someone like you. That she could picture pressing up against a wall and kissing so urgently it made her dizzy with want.

She would never act on it, she told herself. She was scared that you would be uncomfortable. Didn’t want to bring you into the danger that was her life.

Besides, at times you would fight. Pretty heatedly at that. She wasn’t sure if it was tension, her lying or you being hard to live with at times. Perhaps a mix of all of them.

You squinted at her for a moment but then nodded slowly, just letting this one slide. It never crossed your mind that she could be a vampire slayer. You didn’t know they existed. Which, is understandable considering you were fresh-faced and just out of the grave.

It annoyed her how perceptive you were. How interested in her life, in the hours that she kept. It bugged her that you were inquisitive. But mostly, it bugged her that she couldn’t be honest with you. That she found you so insanely attractive and she felt as if there was nothing she could do about it.

You both frustrated her and excited her. She had had more than one dream about you by this time. Luckily for her, it had been early morning and you hadn’t heard her whispering your name. Either way, at the moment all of her attention was on you. She was evening starting to annoy Willow with the amount she would talk about you.

Both of you were becoming suspicious of the other. You could sense something, neither of you entirely able to put your finger on it. Instinct told you that there was something off. Some danger or confusion that made your senses flare around each other.

One afternoon it had become too much for you. You had stepped into her side of the room and started rooting through drawers and cupboards. Just as your hand touched a heavy duffel bag (that contained weapons and thick books on vampire mythology) she stepped into the room.

She caught you. Snooping. Crap.

She pulled you back and asked what you were doing. You explained you were going to a party and thought she wouldn’t mind sharing clothes. She didn’t like this excuse.

She became mad. And weirdly defensive which made your instincts tell you that you had been right to snoop. And you told her this. Which infuriated her more.

“That’s it! My side. Your side” Buffy gestured to a line in the floor that split the two halves.

“Fine” You muttered, tension in the air rising and whipping around you.

“Fine!” She replied. You stared at each other, holding the gaze. The room started to heat up and you weren’t sure if you were imagining it or not.

Neither of you knew whether you wanted to shout or kiss each other. The attraction and frustration was growing more and more.

“You’re impossible!” You muttered grabbing your coat, leaving and slamming the door closed.

Yes, you had been caught out. Yes, you were in the wrong. But I mean you lived with her without her ever revealing anything about herself. What were you supposed to do?

Buffy, despite being angry would feel incredibly guilty if you got hurt because you left in the middle of the night. She didn’t realise but you would usually leave the house for blood and the like in the early morning just before sunrise (so you wouldn’t be disturbing her).

She had actually started to grow weirdly fond of you. She thought you were pretty, so pretty. It was hard getting used to living with you but she found herself almost enjoying the petty arguments. Some days she envisioned holding your hand, maybe asking you to go with her to the Bronze. But, not now you had been snooping.

She had followed you through the night, you went to the library to swap some books. The 24 hour superstore on the corner. You even met up with a friend. Buffy came along with you for all of this, without you realising.

You made one final stop before going back. The local demon bar. They did takeout and some days you really didn’t want to go breaking into a butchers in the middle of the night.

It was a good job too, considering there was a slayer on your tail.

She squinted, frowning slightly. What would you be doing in there? Did you know what kind of clientele actually went in there? She wasn’t sure what to do without having to explain to you the whole demon and slayer jazz. She stayed and waited and you left without an issue.

The only problem was, she couldn’t bring it up without you realising that she had followed you almost all night after your argument.

It was a week or two later and there had been more suspicion. And definitely more arguments. Some petty, some just filled with a tension you couldn’t name. She had arrived late into the night, just as you were curling up with a book. You had finished your classes and began to rest before you would go out after she slept. She sighed twice as she got ready for bed but you just focused on your book.

Buffy left to the bathroom and then came back, sighing again loudly. When you ignored this, she spoke up.

“Turn the light off, Y/n!”

“I’m trying to read here – you’re the one that only just came back!” You warned her, the tone in your voice expecting an argument again. It had annoyed you because it gave you less time to do your errands. She had the entire day to do things she wanted, why did she have to take the night too?

“Well, I can’t stay here in the day you’re always taking those long naps”

“I live here, don’t I? I’m allowed to sleep sometime without your constant interruptions!”

“God! It’s like you don’t even sleep at all at night!” She bit back before turning away from you. She had started to lift back her bedclothes but stopped. She was thinking.

It’s like you don’t even sleep at night… The way you stood in front of the mirror to hide your reflection… The demon bar…. She barely ever saw you eating human food…

Buffy’s eyes bulged at this realisation. Of how you had hidden it for so long. What was your plan? Were you sent to seduce her? She had definitely seen you walking around in a towel more than once and her mouth had dropped every time, her eyes not able to look away.

You had turned off your light and pretended to sleep. You had a habit of doing this, waiting to hear her breathing softly. Imagining her inviting you to slide in beside her. To hold her in those surprisingly strong arms of hers. You often waited until she was properly asleep and then you would get back to whatever activity you wanted. You may even go on a walk and take in the night air if you were in the mood.

But she never got into her bed or allowed you to conjure up your vivid fantasy of holding her while she slept. Lazily staying in bed on a Sunday Evening. Sleepy kisses. Oh God, you had it bad.

No, she didn’t even allow you to imagine so far as her inviting you into bed before she grabbed your shoulder and harshly turned you over to face her.

“What the fuck-!” You shouted, “What happened to my side and your side!?” you gestured from one side to the other your frown setting in almost as deep as when your vampire form changed.

“Up. Now. I can’t believe I didn’t see this!” She rolled her eyes at herself as you got out of bed, only now she realised you had only put on your pyjama top on to pretend you were sleeping.

She tried to punch you several times and you dodged her. You weren’t a fighter but there was something within you now that meant that you were better than a human at least. You didn’t really make any offensive blows, however. You didn’t really want to hurt her.

That was, until she took out a wooden stake. You knew enough to know this would be the end. Like, the real one this time. Your eyes widened and you started to throw desperate punches. She shoved you backwards and you almost had something close to an equally matched fight.

The room was a mess, no counter was safe. The room shook and almost felt as if it would crumble around you. The air was thick, heated. Fuelled by your fight. Your frustration. Your… incredible attraction to her when she became feisty.

“Those things are actually really dangerous – get it off me!” You screamed as the stake came too close to your heart again. You slammed her hand against something leaving her dropping the stake. But she already pulled another from somewhere before you even had time to celebrate this win.

“Introductions. Slayer, meet vampire. Vampire, meet slayer. Me” Buffy stated, a self-satisfied grin that frustrated you as she rushed you.

Both of you now throwing wilder punches. The fight raging on, heatedly. You were trying to get her off you but she was so strong.

“I thought the whole van helsing thing was a myth” you said a hint of humour but you weren’t sure where this was going. You really enjoyed the contact with her but you had kind of hoped she would want to embrace you instead.

“Well, you were myth-taken” She quipped, “A vampire who doesn’t know the slayer? God, you are new”

“Aw, what, you don’t wanna be my tomb-mate?” you teased and she flipped you over your head, leaving you sprawled on the floor. Before you could even think (your brain was left somewhere above you), she was on top of you. The stake had been lost, flung far away by your defensive movement in the fight.

You were so conflicted as she descended on you. You could become so annoyed with her and yet so unbelievably attracted to her at the same time. It was infuriating. And now you weren’t sure what was coming next.

She straddled you, her face agonisingly close to yours. The way her body heaved, her desperate intake of breath. You saw the glint in her eyes, the one where she knew she was right. Knew she had won.

But rather than moving, doing anything to hurt you she stopped. Your wrists pinned where she held them.

The moment slowing down. Time standing to a stop.

You felt her hands slide up, now on resting on your once curled hands. Her fingers locking with yours. The most life, most alive you had felt. Her grasp on you was firm. She was incredibly strong.

But her brow furrowed deeper. She was debating something. Deep within, you could almost hear it her mind was so loud. You started to breath deeply, from habit and anticipation. Your own chest heaving at the proximity. Her eyes dropped to your lips. It was only brief but you willed her to do it again.

Willed her to give all of her attention to you, even if it was to say goodbye. To end your very short unlife.

You would take it, you would take any of it. You licked your lips, eyes scanning her face. Daring to hope.

Your hands, rather than curling into fists were now holding hers just as tight as she gripped you. There was an intimacy to it, no other way to describe it.

Within moments, life rushed back into motion. Her lips instantly on yours. It was passion and urgency and she near knocked the breath back into your body. Her mouth willing yours open, her tongue meeting yours. Desperate for you and willing you to stop her at the same time.

The room around you was on fire. Crackling with the ember of desire that was starting to rise. The room surrounding you was igniting. It could burn down for all either of you cared. You only had eyes for each other. Hands, mouths, everything. For each other.

Her lips sloppily kissing down your jaw, along your neck. You sighed in pleasure, her lips felt so good. She relaxed her grip, only for a moment. As you began wrapped up in the kisses she pressed against your neck you decided to wrestle against her. Managing to roll her onto her back. Allowing you to move on top of her. Your thighs either side of her heavenly body.

The kiss waged on, hands tangling in hair. Grasping at skin. The touch sizzling, warming each other inside and out. You were addicted to her. Her lips. Her hands.

Just as she was to you. It was gradual and sudden. Every sense of hers was wrapped in you.

You knew then. This wasn’t the end. Not of your unlife, not even of your relationship with Buffy. It was just the beginning.

The beginning of the intense and intricate dance you would choreograph together. Weaving between such animal attraction and adoration that blurred into one.

You adored her even when you shouldn’t. She couldn’t get her mind off you, even though she tried.

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experiment-000 · 4 years

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My Top 10 Ships of 2020

It's been a weird year but I've seen other people doing this. Plus this year I've been way more into gen fics (love a bit of found family especially in clone wars and marvel) than anything shippy. So I genuinely don't know what imma put on here aside from two ships for sure. Sorry this post is super long idk how to do the below the cut thing and I've had this app for 5 years...

10) Viktor Nikiforov and Yuuri Katsuki - Yuri!!! On Ice

It was a real toss up between this, supercorp, kanera and wolfstar cos they're all very integral ships to my fan heart but this son because of the Yuri on Ice fandom's rebirth this year. I've never stopped shipping this, never stopped reading fanfic of them for any extended period of time, they're still my most bookmarked ship on ao3 (although I think now star wars - all media types may have overtaken them for fandom). They were one of the first things I watched where the queer ship I loved became canon and I can't wait for the film (and hopefully someday a season 2). Heck I even made my mum watch Yuri on Ice with me so I think that says it all.

9) Edelgard Von Hresvelg and female Byleth - Fire Emblem: Three Houses

My first fire emblem game was fates when I was like 14 (and finally gay awake lol). I was so disappointed that I had to be with a guy character because the only female option was kinda creepy and also I wouldn't get the character of kana. So when three houses came out I was so happy because finally there were beautiful incredible female characters my female byleth could romance (I'm so sorry mlm you deserved so much more than you got). I got the game as soon as it came out (had to search a lot of shops let me tell you) and started on black eagles. I was actually kinda disappointed back in 2019. I didn't like the explore the monastery bit (still find it kinda tedious) and the battle mechanics weren't quite the same as fates (no pairing up?! Aka my main battle technique for protecting the weaker units). So I got like 20 hours in and put it down. Came back to it in lockdown and finally finished it! I'm so proud of myself I virtually never finish games. And I fully fell in love with the useless lesbian edelgard in the process. When I started back playing in 2020 I was like eh I wish I'd picked a different character to romance (like shes an emperor that's morally very shady) but then the romance stuff started with edelgard and I fell the heck in love.

8) Cory Matthews and Shawn Hunter (and Topanga Lawrence) - Boy Meets World

Disney+ was released in the UK this year and I finally got the opportunity to watch boy meets world in its best quality (aka not on YouTube). I watched it back when I was like 12 or 13 and it's such a nostalgic show for me. Watching it again I still absolutely adore it (and my bi ass was low-key crushing on Shawn especially in chick like me - I'm 18 btw and I got so scared for a sec but rider strong was 18 when chick like me came out so it's fine woah). And of course now I see the possibilities of the beautiful Cory and Shawn relationship like they were so bromance it was basically romance and throw in topanga it's the perfect ot3 (but I'm also fine with just Cory and Shawn or just Cory and Topanga). Read some good fanfic for them this year. My favourite was one about Shawn stealing makeup and stuff and exploring gender (need more fics like this I'm biiii).

7) Steve Rogers and Bucky Barnes - Marvel Cinematic Universe

I rewatched all the MCU films this year too. And got really into Peter parker whump and irondad. Plus my eternal obsession with identity and relationship reveals of course led me from Spiderman identity reveals (and found family cuteness) to stucky coming out. Especially when it involves the internet and social media. Not my favourite ship but it's been significant to my year due to the sheer amount of marvel stuff I've read.

6) Satine Kryze and Obi Wan Kenobi - Star Wars

I rewatched clone wars in prep for season 7 and wow Satine's death was sad and sudden. She first appeared in S2 E13 I think and just the sheer sexual tension of their bickering. "The sarcasm of a soldier. The delusion of a dreamer." Just ugnnhhh my bi ass can't take much more of this. And Anakin just sipping his wine in the background grinning. And I fully believe korkie is a Kenobi.

5) Commander Cody and Obi Wan Kenobi - Star Wars

I am very much an Obi wan multishipper. I don't really have a favourite but I fully believe he was with satine and Quinlan in his life. I don't think be would've actually done anything with Cody because of the whole superior officer thing. And this probably isn't even my favourite Obi wan ship - that honour probably goes to quinobi or obitine. However the most popular ships in the fandom are codywan, quiobi and obikin. No offence to anyone who ships these they're just personally not to my taste, but I can't stand quiobi, and obikin I find only slightly more tolerable and I think that's just because there's so much obikin content so if I like the concept of a fic that happens to be obikin I'll read it. I'm just not a fan of the mentor/student relationships. So I generally favoured the codywan fics when there was shipping involved meaning I read a lot of them this year. Needed that nice fix it content post season 7.

4) Zuko and Katara - Avatar: the Last Airbender

Again I am a multishipper I have nothing against zukka it's cute. But I'm a zutara shipper first and foremost because when I first watched avatar I was like 13 and denying my gayness and gayness in general so I shipped the straight things and the straight things only. Most of these ships I stopped shipping - dramione, spuffy, some my little pony ones which we don't talk about. Zutara stayed. (I have nothing against any of the things I used to ship I just stopped shipping them so much/shipped new things more). I've continuously shipped zutara since I first watched avatar even if I didn't necessarily spend that much time on it it has always been here as one of my favourite ships. It has such good fanfic I swear including my favourite ever fanfic from any fandom - love thy enemy. Plus like the black games (reread this for the millionth time this year), a delicate subterfuge (which I read for the first time this year and damn it's so good) and so many more. With the avatar resurgence this year I haven't actually rewatched avatar aside from my normal random episode every now and then when I feel like it. But there's been a lot of avatar on my dash from people I follow getting into it and people I followed for avatar returning so naturally I returned to the fandom and read quite a lot of fanfic. I also read just a lot of avatar gen fics which were great at the whole found family thing I've been so obsessed with this year.

3) Catra and Adora - She Ra and the Princesses of Power

Catradora is canon! They kissed! What more is there to say. Arguably they should've been top but I never shipped them that much since I was always very much a multishipper when it came to she ra so yes I was very happy it became canon because we actually won for once but also I've never read much fanfic for them etc. But they are very much a dynamic I love and watching she ra all again in prep for season 5 I really enjoyed the build up of their relationship. The other two only go above because Buffy is my favourite show ever and damn there's some good fuffy fanfic and Aphra and Tolvan is both fresh in my mind and star wars owns me. Would love some catradora fic recs btw if anyone has them tho.

2) Buffy Summers and Faith Lehane - Buffy the Vampire Slayer

I didn't realise it was last year that I got super into them but according to my ao3 bookmarks it was lol. 2020 I swear it's lasted an eternity. I got into them about a month before lockdown (which feels like another lifetime). I've loved Buffy since I first watched it when I was 13. It's arguably still my favourite TV show. I've been through a lot of ships for Buffy - bangel to spuffy and now fuffy. I still think angel and her were a beautiful ship back in season 2 and especially in the angel episode I will remember you. But faith and Buffy had so much chemistry in season 3 - she would've been a fresh start for Buffy and the amount of fix it fics I read I swear. My favourite has to be one where they met in LA during Anne and how that changed everything feat Buffy's internal homophobia.

1) Cheili Lona Aphra and Magna Tolvan - Star Wars

I read Darth Vader (2015) and Doctor Aphra (2016) for the first time at the end of 2020 (got a comic subscription which has served me very well already I've nearly finished the star wars canon comics). Just to see canon queer ladies in star wars was so magical for me as a queer lady. I didn't think star wars would be so overt yet as to have a queer kiss in canon (even if it's in the comics) and especially not with the main character of arguably their main comic series. Now we just gotta hope that we'll get it in live action someday soon. They weren't the ship I consumed the most content of in 2020 but they were the highlight of my 2020 because star wars did that and I finally found out about it

Honourable mentions: Vivian and Elle - Legally Blonde, Candace and Vanessa - Phineas and Ferb, Stevie and Alex - Wizards of Waverly Place, Xander and Spike - Buffy the Vampire Slayer (I actually don't ship this but damn some authors are good - this was the ship that made me realise I don't need to like a ship if the author is good enough to write it well), Eli Vanto and Mitth'raw'nuruodo - Star Wars (started reading the books last year but finished this year and only started with fanfic this year), Villanelle and Eve - Killing Eve, Kanan and Hera - Star Wars, Barriss and Ahsoka - Star Wars, Remus and Sirius - Harry Potter, Kara and Lena - Supergirl (let's hope this becomes canon next year!) (Those last four are ones I've shipped forever some of my og ships but nothing particularly big has happened for me this year with them so)

I got Disney+ this year so rewatched a fair few things from my youth and though hey my obsession with that character may have been a little gay.

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the-lemon-is-in-play · 3 years

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it's my birthday today! tbh it's been kind of a sad one, so in an attempt at cheering myself up i'm going to do my recent birthday tradition - looking back at the past year and making a list of all the lovely things i've had a chance to do!

- go to the zoo with a uni pal i hadn't seen since The Before Times - go on my first solo long-distance drive to see said friend, feat. an 8-hour long driving playlist that spanned at least 17 genres - attend my second pottery class, where i got to make slightly wonky bowls and flirt with my very cute pottery teacher - become an aunt! - start bouldering, where i met a couple of the sweetest people alive, as well as discovering a really fun and challenging hobby - go on a leisurely stroll round York with my pal Lauren - attend her wedding!! to her gorgeous wife, and dance drunkenly with my pal, then eat my bodyweight in cake - watch a thousand fireworks explode into colour across the city on bonfire night - try out being a blonde for the night - play samba in the park with a group of lovely people - eat many meals and drink many pints after samba finished - sit in some sunbeams (not nearly enough, more of this next year please!) - hang out with my pals in the lake district, feat. a very fancy dress and nsfw pictionary - complete the world's biggest embroidery while watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer and fully falling in love with Spike - explore more of the peaks with my dad - somehow manage a three-point turn on an icy bend while another car slowly slid down the hill towards me without having a total panic - get extremely drunk on lemon drops in the jacuzzi - meet the tiniest of kittens - custom paint the most extra dungarees of all time - go on a super sweet and fun date with yet another Boy Who Lives In Another Country - acquire some Very Funky Trousers - get more than a little bit addicted to tiktok - dance until 4am in my new friend's store - the first time in a year i'd got the chance to experience the heady mix of tequila, good music and loving friends - pierce my ears! and immediately unlock the wlw urge to make everything into earrings - get vaccinated! - play the most surreal and entertaining dnd adventure with a really old friend and some very new ones - find a super fun way to keep habits that actually works (spoiler: it involves tiny stickers) - not have to work my old job at all! (this one's underrated) - get rosé wine drunk in my new friend's garden in the quietening heat of a summer evening, as she encouraged me to unabashedly pursue my dreams

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chubbyreaderchan · 4 years

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Technically No | Jacob Black x witch!Reader | Twilight/Buffy the Vampire Slayer Crossover| 1

jacob is over 18+ in this as well as reader! It's also a slight modern au because technology makes life easier man. And no I don't know what timeline this is. It's after Jacob phases and before Buffy dies again. So you might see Glory in this. Also it’s under a cut because this introduction/beginning is super long.

"Did you make it okay?" Buffy asked over the phone.

"Yes, Buff. I'm in my new house. I am going to my new job Monday" (Y/n) said with a soft sigh as she leaned against her new counter, having just moved from one small town to the other.

Sunnydale to Forks.

"Good. I'm glad you are safe." (Y/n) smiled a small yet sort of sad smile at the prospect of leaving the scoobs but there was a job offer in Forks that was just to good for her to not take and she was damn lucky to find a house for rent. She wondered if it was haunted. Not that was a big deal for someone who went to high school on top of a literal hellmouth.

"How's Dawny?" (Y/n) also knew that Dawn's first day back to high school was coming up as well as Buffy's first day of college for the year. "And did you get your course schedule yet?" She stated sitting in the empty living room floor eating her favorite fast food meal. Her moving truck wouldn't be there with her stuff for at least another day or two.

It wasn't exactly a house full of stuff yet, of course. She had just gone from living with her parents to on her own within a flash it seemed. It was as if the universe was pulling and placing her right in the middle of now where Washington.

"Yeah but I didn't get some of the courses I wanted. Have to try next semester." She sighed over the phone. Was it normal to talk to someone you had just left the day before as if you hadn't seen them in months? Maybe not but a lot was happening as the end of summer was coming to fruition. "Dawn is excited to go back to school"

"Interesting... She wasn't yesterday." Buffy sighed over the phone as her friend teased her. "Oh! So I'm going to try to get some essentials tomorrow!" She said suddenly remembering what she called Buffy about in the first place. "What color do you think I should decorate my kitchen in? Green? Red?" Buffy almost laughed again at one of her closest friends.

"You'll know when you actually go to the store. It's not like I can see the house." "Not yet! But you all are going to come visit me some day!" She laughed a bit. Her phone buzzed at her to charge. "Hey... Buffy. I gotta go. Phones is dying. Tell Willow and everyone I miss them."

"Will do." With that, the phone was hung up and placed on its charger.

(Y/n) sighed picking up her trash and began the work to make the floor as comfortable as possible until she could actually buy a decent bed.

The next morning, (Y/n) woke up at a fair hour for a Saturday and took a shower. It was nice to wash out some of the travel and sleep stink off before she slipped on her clothes for the day. Then she went to grab her phone as well as keys and her wallet. There was no way she could sleep on the floor for one more day and eating fast food everyday wasn't exactly a healthy option even if she did just arrive in town.

Sure she was still tired from the plane ride but she would stay tired. She need to find at least an air mattress. The car ride was short, it was nice. Familiar. It wasn't a huge change from one small town to another... Minus the demons and vampires. She hoped. It was simple enough to find the small plaza that had a few small shops and even a diner within walking distance of each other.

It was not even remotely difficult to find the things she oh so desperately needed. It was wonderful. (Y/n) was even able to add to her growing collection of magical artifacts when she stumbled into an antique shop. She thanked the gods that her family had loaned her a bit of cash to help her get by until she was fully working again.

Her day was going great... That was until she was hit with pangs of hunger. 'Did I even eat breakfast?' she asked herself before glancing at the time and gasping. She had been out a lot longer than she had realized.

Didn't she see a diner? She walked to her rental car and started a vague drive. Ah-ha! There was a diner.

She pulled in and was seated quite quickly. It wasn't long before her meal was ordered and her attention was drawn to her phone as she waited. There was a text message from Anya complaining about an argument she and Xander were having. (Y/n) laughed softly before responding with her opinion.

While she was distracted she didn't notice the small group enter. Especially a young man who had a slight staring problem. His eyes were locked on (Y/n) as she fiddled around with her phone. The young man was known by most as Jacob Black. A good kid who was madly in love with Bella Swan, his childhood friend.

"Jake... You okay?" Bella another member of the small group asked with concern on her face. An older man in a wheelchair who was previously chatting with the other older man in the group looked at the one named Jacob. A small knowing smile flashed over his features as he looked at his son.

'It's about damn time' Billy the man in the wheelchair thought. "Jake!" Bella's voice called him again, finally snapping the dark haired young man from his thoughts.

(Y/n) who was finally served food sat her phone down finally not even noticing the set of eyes on the back of her head.

"Is she-?" Bella whispered to Jacob just low enough for her father to not hear. "I... Think so... I think..."

"Son..." It was Billy who joined the conversation. "If you don't go talk to her... I will." Jacob's eyes went wide. How embarrassing would that be? His dad talking to his imprint before he could.

Jacob looked at the girl happily eating her dinner and playing around with her technology. Then she giggled. Oh God.

How could it be that just the day before he was trying to convince Bella not to turn into a vampire? That he was so madly and so deeply in love with the vampire girl that he defied Sam his pack leader for turn into dust and be replaced instantly by a young woman he hadn't even spoken to?

Jacob was so distracted by his thoughts he barely caught his father moving to go introduce himself. "No, wait. Dad. I'll go." He quickly stood up and wandered over to the table nervously. What was he going to say? What if she didn't like him? What if he said something dumb?

"Hey I'm Jacob." He said awkwardly, causing her to jump from what she was doing. Her face scrunched up in confusion before she finally looked up. Their eyes locked and it felt like everything stopped. Her heart beat hard against her ribcage at the very tall and dark haired man before her. "You looked lonely. Uhm. I know we just got here. But..." What was he doing? Inviting her to sit with his dad and his dad's best friend for dinner? That's weird isn't it? Especially since he was going to have dinner with a girl he was in love with.

"I'd love to join you." Why did she just agree to crash someone else's dinner? It looked like a family affair of sorts. "I'm (Y/n)!" She suddenly remembered her name. It felt like her face was on fire. He shifted from slightly nervous to having a large smile on his face. How sweet.

He even helped by carrying her stuff to the table. "This is my dad Billy. His friend Charlie and his daughter Bella." Jacob introduced allowing her to sit down. Something in the back of her mind told her that this was weird.

Something was off.

It felt... Magical. She knew magical.

But then Charlie began to talk about how he was a sheriff and the weirdness seemed to disappear. "So...where are you from?" Charlie asked trying to judge if this new girl was going to cause him trouble later. "Oh. Sunnydale," she paused. "California. Also graduated from Sunnydale high." She explained with a small smile.

Maybe it wasn't so bad joining their little dinner. It was nice having people to talk to, especially when one was so new. "What do you like to do Jake?" She said looking over at him before taking a bite of food.

"Oh, uh. I buy and flip cars right now. It's more of a side hustle really." He smiled at her. "Really?" She said with a smile on her lips. "Because the car I'm in is just a rental... If you find anything good will you think of me? I can't pay the rate they are wanting forever." She joked, gently and playfully touching his arm.

It was like fire. Both literally and figuratively. If it weren't for the people she could almost throw herself at him. But then his skin was so hot that it almost burned. "Absolutely." Jacob smiled. "What's your phone number?" He looked almost like a puppy who was just given a treat. She took his phone and put her number in and he sent her a text. A wolf emoji.

Her eyes looked him over again. Then the phone in her hand began ringing. She answered it quickly, it was the moving company.

Jacob watched as she excused herself to talk to whoever. Her once happy self was instantly deflated. Jacob did not like that at all. He felt it. He actually felt the sadness in her. Is this what it was like to have an imprint? Actually feeling their pain? She walked back in and sighed.

“Are you okay?” Jacob asked with what (Y/n) could only describe as genuine concern.

“My moving truck is going to be late. On Monday while I’m at work instead of on Sunday.” She shouldn’t be so easy to talk to someone she had only known for 20 minutes. Jacob didn’t like the look on her face one of distress.

Jacob looked her over again, hardly getting tired of looking at her face. “I have some friends on the Res. Maybe we can meet them. Help you out..” Jacob offered without a second thought.

“Really?” she looked at him unsure at first.

Jacob nodded, a bright smile on his face.

“O-okay” She agreed.

a/n: Stopping this one here and writing part 2 next. If I didn’t this would be 3000 words. Don’t worry I’m literally going from posting this part to writing the next bit because I already know what I’m going to do. Then I’m going to write a Paul version of this.

#twilight reader insert #jacob black x reader #Buffy The Vampire Slayer #btvs reader insert #part 1

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sunnydaleherald · 5 months

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The Sunnydale Herald Newsletter, Tuesday, April 30

Riley: You're melting. Dawn: Oh, um ... guess I'm not hungry. Riley: Maybe I'm not making this any better. Dawn: No, I just ... this is better. I had my tenth birthday party here. Riley: Really? Dawn: Mm-hmm. We'd just moved to Sunnydale, and ... Mum rented the carousel for an entire hour for just me and my friends. Except I hadn't made any friends yet, so ... it was just me and Mum and Buffy riding it by ourselves, over and over and over again... for the whole hour, just so Mum felt like we'd gotten our money's worth. She's ... she's not gonna get better, is she? Riley: Absolutely she will. Summers women are tough.

~~Buffy Season 5 Episode #86: "Shadow"~~

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How Soon is Now? (Buffy/Willow, T) by Xyex

Just Another Day (Buffy/Spike, T) by LiraelClayr007

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People Always Leave (Они всегда уходят) (Dennis, Wesley, unrated) by holy_paw

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Entropy Ch. 1/? (Buffy/Spike, unrated) by Enigmatist

We Could Be Kings Ch. 1-2/? (Spike/Andrew, M) by Laqt15

An Impossible Task Ch. 1-3/? (Spike/Andrew, T) by Laqt15

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hit rewind CH. 52/? (Buffy/Spike, M) by untiljanuary

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Early One Morning , Chapter 37 (Buffy/Spike, E) by all choseny

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rainbow-dot · 4 years

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A list for what I’m gonna do after and before the last episode.

•Things to do before the last ep of supernatural:

-Get emotionally ready.

-Take lots of handkerchiefs w you

-Buy what you wanna eat/drink while you watch the show

-Get emotionally ready.

-Look up lots of Supernatural humor videos edit.

-Look up Supernatural bloopers.

-Get emotionally ready.

-Look up interviews w the cast.

-Watch crack videos.

-Get emotionally ready.

-Post your conspiracies theories wherever you want, let it all out bro.

-Watch cute videos of the cast cause why not?

-Get emotionally ready.

-Watch the Hillywood parodies with the cast.

-Get ready for two intense hours where you already know that you are gonna cry non-stop.

•Things to do after the last ep of Supernatural:

-Cry ur heart out cause you are very emotionally unstable.

-Watch edits of Destiel, Sam & Dean, whatever you want.

-Read fanfics, cause you are gonna crave for more content.

-Literally just keep crying.

-Don’t go out in a week (it’s not like you even can go out when you are in a lockdown)

-Spend your next month staying up until late at night thinking about how this show has literally been with you for 10 years and has literally changed many things in your life.

-Keep crying, u go girl.

-Leave warmful messages to the cast, thanking them for the beautiful show they gave you.

-Because we know you are a very emotional person you are gonna watch edits of Spike and Buffy, cause you just like to suffer bro.

-Ya, keep the tears coming.

-Rewatch these episodes from Spn: 4x01, 4x10, 4x16, 4x20, 4x22, 5x14, 5x18, 10x06, 12x23(the way he looks at Cass is just-) 13x05, 13x06, 15x18.

-I’m pretty sure you are gonna want to watch another super sad show so watch Buffy again lol.

-The next 3 months you are gonna be sad, but don’t worry, in summer you are gonna rewatch everything cause you like the pain.

I’m prepared for hell.

#supernatural #spn #spn s15 #spn spoilers #spnfandom #dean #sam #castiel #jack #destiel

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thestorybrookeclocktower · 4 years

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I’ve been abused. This is the first time I admit it to myself.

I’ve been abused several times, psychologically, mostly, but also phisically and sexually. It’s hard to admit it. It’s been harder to realize it.

I was an abused child. Before I dig into it, I’d like to point out that I’m managing to do this only thanks to She-Ra, to Catra, in particular, to Adora, and to this video: https://youtu.be/arsKPegw1Tg . So thank you, Noelle Stevenson, and thank you, whoever made that video.

I’m frightened, right now. I’m scared as fuck. I think I don’t know myself, I think I never did. But I must go on, I must find out who I really am. I owe it to myself. I’ve been hiding for too long.

I was an abused child, and I have to write it down because my mind keeps escaping that. It’s hard to stay focused, and that never happens to me, I’m a writer, when I write I’m concentrated, focused, but now... now it seems like my brain’s floating away. And I can’t let it do it.

My parents divorced when I was two or three years old, I’m not sure about it. I clearly remember the day my father went away, the door slamming, my mom crying and myself trying to reassure her, telling her I was there, she had notHing to worry about. I was always way older than my age.

After that, I guess (my memories are a bit confused in the timeline), my grandmother (so I was told) convinced my father to build a wall during the night in the middle of our house to split it in two. I remember waking up and finding this rough, grey wall. My mom lied and told me there had been a earthquake and that the wall fell down. I didn’t know how a collapsed wall would look like, and believed her. My father left us without a kitchen. As I said, I was two or three years old. Thinking about it now, it hurts me to think of how hard it must have been for my mother to face all of this. My father used to beat her, when they were together. She told me that he broke her cranium, once. I cant remember it, I don’t even know if I ever witnessed when it happened. But still.

Later, my mother fell in love with the man who became my step-father. He was our neighbor, they worked together so they already knew each other.

My father disappeared for two years. I spent one year living with my grandparents in another city, because my mother worked and wasn’t home for days, so che couldn’t leave me alone all that time. I remember missing her, and nothing more.

Then, I remember growing up with my mother’s partner trying to be a father. He couldn’t. He was mean to me. His idea of education was based on yells and threats. He continuously told me that I wasn’t his daughter, that I was nothing, that I was worth nothing.

I also remember that I wanted to be hurt. I wanted to hurt myself and, in my fantasies, when I played alone in my room or in the garden, I imagined my “enemies” kidnapping me and me sacrificing to save my friends. That thing lasted. I would always want to sacrifice to save someone I cared about, but who didn’t care about me as much as I did. I still have to understand why. I just need some time, I guess. After all, I just found out I have wounds.

We moved. My father came back, at some point. He started sending the police at our new home, accusing my mother of child abuse, I guess, and trying to claim me as if I was some kind of property. I guess I started feeling like an object when I spent my weekends and summer or winter vacations with him. He had the right to spend time with me, I didn’t have the right to choose. I don’t think he never treated me bad, he was simply unable to be a good father. He just left me with his friends’ children to play. I had fun with them, anyway. I always insisted to be the victim in our playtime, though. Something bad would always happen to my character. I often played the villain (they were happy with it, none ever wanted to be the villain but me), but my villain always had a reason, a past, a complicated story that led them to the dark side.

I guess I was never really happy. There was always this shadow, this weight on my soul. I still can’t name it. I only know it’s there, but it’s lighter today. Maybe because I see it for the first time.

When I went to middle school, I was depressed. I kept saying “we’ll die anyway, what changes if I do or I don’t do this?”. I also developed a passion for swords and daggers. I always read a lot, especially fantasy books, so I guess it was just natural that I started loving blade weapons.

I also felt guilty for continuously feeling sad. I thought I didn’t really have a reason. My family had money, I went to holiday four times per year instead than just twice, everything I asked they would just buy it to me. But my stepfather would always rub it in. He made me feel like I owed him everything I had, because he was the one who paid the bills. He is an alcoholic. He freaks out every time he gets drunk, and he starts drinking at ten a.m.. He would walk naked at home. I was way too young to see a naked man when it happened the first time. He also spied on me when I was in my room, so I was always anxious that he was watching me and could never relax.

I wasn’t good at school, I only liked mathematics but was terrible at all the rest. I just couldn’t concentrate, and now I know that I had locked myself in my fantasies, in another world, where I was strong, powerful, where I was happy. No, no, sorry. I’m lying to myself again. It didn’t go this way, actually. I locked myself in another world, it’s true, but that world was horrible. I was becoming a teenager and I started watching Buffy, so I was pretty obsessed by vampires at the time, and also I was starting to realize what sexual desire is. The thing is, in my fantasy I was powerful, yes, I was strong, but I was always defeated. I would get captured by this beautiful vampire woman who would torture me to death and then turn me into something different, with magic. I would become her sexual slave. I fell in love with her, in my mind, and I would submit to her. It’s embarrassing to admit it, yeah, it sucks, it’s rape, torture and Stockholm syndrome. But that’s the truth. As I said, I wanted to be hurt.

Also, despite this I never admitted to myself I liked girls. I didn’t even consider it as a possibility, I told myself I was in love with Angel (surprise, with the bad guy trying to redeem himself! Who would have thought that?).

At the same time, my mom got a bad self-immune disease and lost her job. Also, in the same years, one of the teacher at school started targeting me. I was shy and insecure and she would take advantage of it and humiliate me in front of everyone. She seriously damaged me, my self-confidence (as if I had any), and my stepfather made it only worse. I got bad grades from her (even when I was prepared I was so anxious that I couldn’t speak when she questioned me) and he got angry and yelled at me that I was stupid, that I was unable to do anything, that I was an imbecile and that I was worth nothing. Once he threw a school book at me and broke my lip.

My mother tried to comfort me, but I always hid what I was feeling. I was really, really depressed. So much that one day I grabbed one of my collectible daggers and aimed it at my stomach, and I pushed. I wanted to die. I wanted it to end. And I wanted a slow, painful death.

But I stopped. I didn’t even get a scratch, not because I changed my mind, not because I couldn’t find the “bravery” to kill myself, but because I didn’t want to hurt my mom. I knew she would be devastated if I died, and that is the only reason why I didn’t push harder. She still doesn’t know about all of this.

I guess I made myself a promise, that day: I’d be stronger. And it was a mistake, because I locked the doors of my heart doing so.

Years passed by. I learned Kung-Fu, I made some friends, just a few, lost others, this is not the point. They didn’t abuse me.

I started dating guys. Older boys, usually, and I convinced myself I was in love with them. One touched me without asking my permission, and I didn’t stop him. I was so stupid... gah. I wanted people to like me so much that I pretended to be like them. I told them I liked music I didn’t like, stuff like that. Silly, silly young me. I was lost and I didn’t know it.

Other years, more boys. I’m pretty, and I know it, and I used it to flirt with basically any guy I found. Shame on me, I know. I only kissed them. After all, I wasn’t even attracted by them. I liked girls, even if I didn’t want to accept it. I was already different, I didn’t want to be even more isolated.

I also spent a lot of time online chatting and gaming. I used to play to this online role play game by chat, I had found the perfect, fake, fantasy world there. My first character was an elf with positive alignment. I stopped playing her because she bored me. My second character was a sociopathic girl, a sadistic villain. I still have that character, even though I don’t play her anymore. I made her torture and try to kill innocent people several times. She was my dark side. I used her to take out my darkest instincts. I’m ashamed of who I was, now. I became a bully for a couple of years, a dangerous person, a mean person. I hate myself for that.

I was in high school and I was a little more equilibrated when this guy I knew since first grade asked me out. I knew he liked me since then, so I thought I had power on him (because that’s why I flirted with guys, I liked the power I had on them). He took me on his minicar and we found ourself in an isolated parking lot. He was never a healthy person. He was unstable since he was a kid, but he had always been kind with me. He was kind and pleasing even that night. And manipulative. And abusive. He used my ever-present sense of guilt, he told me I had to because he took me in his car and drove for me and waited all of those years, and he insisted for maybe half an hour until I gave in (I couldn’t leave the car, we were in a dangerous block and far from home). I had my first and only oral sex experience with a boy. It disgusted me so I stopped after like three seconds, but he forced me to masturbate him, he phisically did pushing my hand on his d*ck. When he came, he also said I wasn’t good at it. He then offered to give back the favour, I refused and asked him to take me home. Two day later I texted him saying it was over. God, this was hard to write. My heart is pumping in my chest. I need some water.

By the way, I was eighteen then and I still hadn’t had sex yet, and I was the only one in my class and between my friends in general. About them, I lost them all along the way. They simply let me down, not repaying everything I did or gave to them in terms of affection, or treating me like shit when I came out, or just disappearing slowly. I have trust issues for this, it’s hard for me to open up to someone now, but I’m trying.

I found this boy at a party, at that point I felt nothing, I was just curious about sex. We started dating. I didn’t like him, I approached him just because I thought his ass looked good. Yeah, how romantic of me. But, as I said, I felt nothing. I didn’t care about him. He fell in love with me, even though I told him many rimes I didn’t love him. I felt nothing for him, or with him, even in bed. Sex was a delusion to me, and I treated him like shit. But still, he would stay. Poor guy.

During those years (yes, we spent four years together somehow), I finally realized I liked girls. Fate brought me to a convention, where I met the love of my life. I ended the relationship with the boy and started my new life with her.

She changed me, a lot. I was a mess when we met. I was rough, selfish, the bad girl I always wanted to be, unable to love, to have a healthy relationship, unable to find the strenght to be vulnerable. She was patient with that broken, confused me, and I’ll never thank her enough for this. I don’t deserve her. She always supports me and shows me how much she loves me everyday. I’m so grateful for her.

I learned to be humble, I learned to be vulnerable, selfless, a decent humang being. I learned to love. I learned to protect her, not (only) myself. I dismantled almost all of my walls. I don’t know if this one I’m tearing down right now is the last one. I do hope so. I’m so tired of those cold walls. Today, I don’t want all these swords and daggers. I don’t need them anymore.

I wish I was strong as Catra and Adora, strong enough to face myself and let myself be happy. Thank you, Noelle, really. I always believed in the power of stories, but I never thought an animated show could give me so much, that I could relate so much to someone (let alone the importance of their relationship on screen for the LGBTQ+ community, it’s a true revolution). I was attracted to Catra since the beginning, I completely fell in love with her during the fifth season, and now I understand the reasons behind it. I just feel her, deeply. And I also deeply admire Adora, her pure soul, her strenght, her bright heart.

Sorry for the long post, sorry if there are any mistakes, English is not my first language. Thank you again.

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