I WILL BE WALKING OUT OF HERE IN ONE PIECE AND I DON'T CARE WHAT COMES AFTER!
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Sometimes I think I'm really emotionally intuitive and other times, like today, I'm literally the stupidest person on earth.
Am exhausted from sudden travel for unexpected funera. Have not slept nearly enough the last few days. Am staying with my father's family which means zillions of relatives I barely know or outright dislike, trying to follow conversation in a dialect I don't understand, or else standing awkwardly in the doorways. Basically just my one cousin who deigns to speak English to me, plus her 6 month old and the puppy. The food is terrible I haven't seen a vegetable in 3 days. Have been running the funeral home/wake/funeral mass/cemetery rounds for the last 2 days and while my grief isn't as severe given we weren't close, it's still a horrible tragic death, there's a crying motherless 5 yr old, and I'm surrounded by people grieving in an already EXTREMELY messy family situation. My dad's cousin has managed to make fatphobic and homophobic jokes within 24 hrs. Also the Casual Racism of this entire branch of the family. Missing work unpaid, job interview prep, my fkin artist hasn't gotten back to me abt my tattoos.
Also me. Hey I wonder why I'm so on edge and exhausted???? A mystery I'll never solve
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Why can’t my words and actions just not be horribly incorrect for one FUCKING SECOND
I can’t satisfy friends
I can’t satisfy jobs
I can’t satisfy anything or anyone ever everything every action I take every single thing I say IS ALWAYS WRONG WHY am I so FUCKING STUPID but have to stay alive???? WHY DO I HAVE TO BE HERE IF ALL I HEAR IS THAT I DISAPPOINT and am WRONG WHAT do you WANT
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damn. i really thought i already had the "youre probably never going to see any of your uni friends again after you move out this really and truly is the end of the most vibrant and healthy irl social life youve ever had. and likely will ever have again" breakdown done and shelved but i spent today hanging out with a few friends from my course who are leaving this week to say goodbye and i dont. know how to process it completely. im trying to make the most of everything while im still here but every interaction feels so bittersweet it's genuinely gnawing at me
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God. Even with everything yeah. Radiations still gonna fuck with him. Someone's gotta be Tricks' inner voice to stop him even when/if he's loose.
Divert the energy to Toshiko, doing everything he can but humans can't lose that much blood. Not from where she was shot.
Yelling for the Captain as Gwen does more, but Tricks would've known the moment he got there, there wasn't enough time.
And oh how that'd *haunt* him
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my baby sister accidentally dropped half a bourbon biscuit into my dog’s water bowl and bc he’s stupid he got rlly confused and just stared at it for 7 full minutes. I was facetiming my mum and she turned the camera round so we could just both watch him try and figure it out while we talked. Eventually he just tried to eat the soggy bourbon that was more like chocolate mush and we had to intervene. We are unsure how he is still alive though he shows no signs of kicking it so. you know. thats the update on the idiot.
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OO has me in a fucking vice grip with the urge to lunge at Seph's throat!!!!!!! I can't fucking believe he convinced Kadaj to join him!!!!!! I'm gonna go fucking feral!!!! Leave my sonboy alone!!!!! He has no free will!!! He keeps being used for what Jenova wants cuz of the cells and he keeps being used by Seph as a remnant!!! Daj can never truly have something of his own accord cuz of the very meaning of his existence!!!!! He can never be an individual cuz of them, but without them he wouldn't exist!!!! LET HIM BE HIS OWN PERSON!!!!
And to top it off, Team Ninja dangles a Loz and Yazoo tease in my face after I just said I need Kadaj to have his real brothers back!!!! FUCK!!!! I FUCKING HATE FINAL FANTASY!!!!!!!
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