#its jus t kinda tiring idk

[cloudcountry]

i think i may have created way to much pressure on myself when i tell people to send stuff that theyve tagged me in that i've missed. like yes i'd love to be able to read everything you guys send me but im gone most of the day now and its just not possible anymore. it kinda makes me sad because ive probably missed out on so much because of the sheer amount of things in my mentions.

[k3n-dyll]

Vouyer [Abby A.]

||Men, minors, and ageless DNI

CW: 18+, wlw, a lot of porn - a pinch of plot if you squint and turn your head, subbottom!abby, domtop!reader, Abby getting caught, masturbation, voyeurism cus reader watches her for a hot minute, fingering(A!receiving), tribbing, perv!reader and perv!abby kinda, overstimulation, Abby cries a lil bit

AN: I feel like my brain fizzed out near the end idk. I think I'm cooked. Anyways, hope this doesn't suck ass as much as my brain is telling me it does!

Masterlist. Divider creds DON'T FORGET ABOUT PALESTINE

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ "Just like that- fuck" the words escape her lips, sounding strained and breathless. A thin layer of sweat coats her toned body as she fills herself up to the best of her ability, her thick fingers ramming in and out of her used, sloppy cunt as she chases her orgasm for the third time tonight.

This was not how she had planned for her night to go, but if you could have only seen just how pretty you'd looked; drenched in sweat from head to toe, clothes sticking to every curve of your bruised and bloodied body after such a close call on patrol earlier that day. She'd almost compromised herself just to get a glimpse of you looking like that. Her piercing blue eyes tracked your every movement, once the threat - a pack of infected that had attacked while you were both searching for supplies - was gone.

Or at least she'd thought they were at the time until she felt a pair of gnarled and decaying hands grab onto her shoulders. She killed the thing herself, of course, knocking the stalker off balance with one hard whack of a steel pipe before throwing it onto the ground, forcing the heel of her boot down onto its sprouting head with a splat. Not realizing that it was you she had been distracted by, you gave her a disapproving eye roll and she winced.

It was her own fault you weren't that fond of her, the blonde has ignored you since you first showed up at the WLF a few months back. Even when you became roommates, Abby's demeanor towards you was always cold and disinterested. It was stupid but she figured it was best. She was unable to even think about saying a word to you without her palms sweating. She just knew she'd fuck up and stumble over her words, making herself look weak in front of you and she couldn't have that.

When Abby learned that you were going to spend part of your night drinking with Manny, Owen, and Nora, she took the opportunity to lie.

" 'm tired. Think I'm gonna just go to bed" she had mumbled, feigning exhaustion, going so far as to force a yawn out before she walked back to the room. Alone.

The girl didn't make it five minutes without touching herself, getting comfortable in bed, and shoving her hand down her underwear. Dumbly, she figured that maybe if she just got off once, she could get the image of you out of her brain.

That was how she got where she is now. Naked, driving her middle and ring fingers as deep as she can get them, pumping them in and out of her cunt, her other hand joining as she rubs feverishly over her sensitive clit. The scene is downright pornographic, the sloshing sounds coming from Abby's body as she fucks herself stupid on her own fingers, her jaw slack, your name spilling from her soft lips in sinful prayer.

She wants it to be you so bad, it's almost pathetic.

She can't bring herself to stop - she just knows it'd feel so much better if your hands replaced her own and the rest of her body seems to agree with that thought. So much so that every time she tries to stop or give herself a break that ache comes back full force, a heartbeat forming between her thick thighs. It gets so bad that she considers walking to your side of the room and grabbing one of your t-shirts because at this point your scent could get her there.

"Jus' one more, one more, baby pleasepleaseplease - holy shit"

That third orgasm hits Abby like a truck, her begging eventually becoming a mess of incoherent babbling under her breath, her body twitching as she comes down from her high. Again. And again, it isn't enough. She can't take her mind off of just how fucking good you would look on top of her - god - the mere thought of having your pretty pussy slotted up against hers is enough to make her crave more.

Abby lets out a deep sigh and plops her head back down onto the pillow underneath her as she tries to catch her breath, thinking maybe she should just try to sleep it off. Despite her better judgement though, she finds herself with the pads of her fingers back on her puffy, pulsing clit, stroking herself in languid circular motions.

You stood in the entryway of your room, peeking your head in the door to watch as Abby fucking Anderson of all people split herself on her fingers, letting out the prettiest moans as she chases her release. You knew that you should probably just close the door and quietly sneak away. Go back to the mess hall with your group, maybe pretend you forgot something, and then conveniently "lose track of time" while you were there so that your roommate could finish her little "session".

You really were going to leave. As a matter of fact, you were halfway through closing the door when you heard something that made you stop in your tracks. It was Abby.

And she was moaning your name.

The sound was unmistakable as it was one of the only words you were able to fully recognize through her stupor of bated breaths and blissed-out whining. The frigid, unstoppable force of a soldier that had been ignoring your existence for months was actually begging for you, crying out your name over and over again as she fucked herself.

You found yourself biting your lip at the sound, and before you knew it, you were tip-toeing all the way into your shared room. You practically held your breath as you closed the door behind you, freezing completely once it clicked shut and lightly punching the air in silent celebration once you had confirmed you managed to sneak in undetected.

It was all so perverted, and yet you couldn't stop staring

You were leaning up against the wall beside the door, trying your best to be quiet and resist the urge to shove your hand down your own pants as you watched Abby's naked body convulse under her fingers when she came, eyes trailing over her body as she rode out her high.

It became clear pretty quickly that she'd been at this for a while, unable to satisfy herself completely. You watched as she began to start herself up again, her hand making its way back down between her thighs, her legs twitching still from her previous climax. From what you can see of her face, she seems a bit frustrated, her eyebrows knotted together in almost anger as she lazily works her fingers on her clit. She looks and sounds so precious that, before you can fully think it through, you speak.

"Still not finished?"

Abby nearly falls out of her bed with how quickly she shoots upward, covering herself with her blanket, a deep red blush fanning out along her freckled cheeks. It doesn't take much for her to realize that you heard her, your expression telling her everything she needed to know.

"I was, uh-..."

"Yeah, I heard...and saw" you interrupt, making your way over to the blonde's bed, unable to contain your amusement at the situation as your eyes trail over her.

" 'S this why you've been avoiding me, baby?"

She just stares at you, not fully knowing why she can't bring herself to do anything - to deny your suspicion, yell at you, or do something that would make her stop feeling so vulnerable right now. But she just looks up at you, mouth slightly agape.

"You could have just asked me for some help with that if you wanted it, y'know." you continue, gently gripping her under her chin to make her look at you.

Her jaw clenches, and for a moment, Abby considers pulling away from you. Getting mad and reasserting her dominance or something but you both know that isn't going to happen. You catch a glimpse of her fingers, glistening and wrinkly from how long she's been trying to get herself off, and your suspicions are confirmed which only emboldens you to go further. You lean down a bit closer, your face so close to hers that your noses nearly touch.

"You can't satisfy yourself no matter how hard you try, can you?"

Abby squirms a little but she shakes her head slightly in response, eyes breaking contact with yours but your hand never releases her jaw. You've never seen her look this exposed before - not only in terms of her nakedness but she just looked so vulnerable and small right now, despite her actual size.

You press a kiss to her lips, and she practically melts into you, allowing you to lay her back down on the mattress and crawl on top of her, your hand caught in her loosened braid. The other hand wanders down between her legs, eager to feel the sticky mess that shes turned herself into over the thought of you.

The sweet little whines she gives you as you circle your fingers along her clit are so unfamiliar coming from her but oh so welcome as opposed to her usual stoicism. You almost feel bad for the fact that shes had to wait for so long to finally get that release shes in desperate need of. A release that can only seem to be triggered by your hand.

If Abby wasn't already embarrassed for having been caught, she was sure as hell embarrassed with how quickly you got her to cum on your fingers. You've barely gotten the chance to get them inside of her before her irises roll back, head thrown onto the pillow beneath her as her body twitches in ecstasy.

"S-sorry, I-"

You see her begin to apologize but she's cut off completely at the sight of you sucking her essence off of your fingers, her words being yanked right from her mouth as her arousal comes back with a force. She knows she's way too sensitive to do anything else, but the thought of saying no to you right now doesnt even cross her mind as an option once you start pulling off your clothes.

It's all she can do to keep her hands to herself while you strip. Those vivid blue eyes are glued to your body, enamored by the perfection being uncovered in front of her. You place yourself back on top of her, hiking her leg up over your shoulder and lowering yourself until her cunt is pressed flush against your own. You let out a simultaneous groan at the feeling, grinding yourself down onto her with little regard for how sensitive she is.

"Hnmn- fuck" Abby's hips buck upward involuntarily, her body telling her that she's had enough, but it feels too good to stop.

She couldn't tell you it was too much if she wanted to anyway, every attempted word coming out of her mouth as incoherent whines and half-finished syllables. You watch her face intently as a few tears begin to make their way down her reddened cheeks and it only makes you pick up the pace, pressing wet kisses against the side of her calf as your clit perfectly ruts against hers with each thrust.

"You've wanted this so fuckin' bad, haven't you?" You tease her through gritted teeth, the words spilling out without much thought.

"Want me to fuck you till you cant fuckin breathe, hm?"

All that comes out of Abby in response are breathless "yes's" all jumbled into one word followed desperate little whines, her fingernails digging into the flesh of your hips as if she's afraid you'll stop if she lets go.

"G'na cu- ohmygod" she tries to warn but the poor girl can barely think. You hear her loud and clear though, making a point to apply a bit more pressure, the sloppy noises coming from your bodies moving against one another in tandem bringing you close as well.

The orgasm that results sends electricity through your body, pleasure that's only heightened by the uncontained scream that pulls from Abby's throat when she cums with you, drenching your inner thighs even more. She doesn't even seem to care if anyone hears her, too fucked out to even try to keep her mouth shut. Mercifully, you take the responsibility away from her, crashing your lips onto hers and muffling the sound in the hard, wet kiss.

The euphoria lingers even after you've slowed to a stop, heavy, labored breathing and Abby's soft whimpers the only sounds that occupy the room. A low chuckle escapes you as you pepper soft kisses along her cheeks, your thumb accompanying to wipe up her pretty tears.

AN: One thing I suck at doing is thinking of a way to fuckin close these

reblogs appreciated☆requests open

Almost forgot, taglist: @half-of-a-gay, @porcelainmystery, @ikoinsblog

[lizzardson]

im too tired to form coherent thoughts right now but something something needing to apologize for your own suicide something dehumanization something only mattering because of how you affected others. this is about revivedbur

[rotshop]

frye > shiver

LITERALLY GRAHHHHHHH FRYE LOOKS SO MUCH MORE INTERESTING AND APPEALING. STARTS BITING SHIT.

ssorry i have so many thoughts and feelings.

ok while im pretty sure its just speculation the whole 'shiver nonbinary' thing just kinda makes me stare at the camera a little bit. like YES rep GOOD and awesome or whatever but also i am a little tired of pale skinny androngynous being the biggest trend for nby design .

idk im also just not a fan of the personality i'm assuming shiver has (mysterious guy who is vague and incomprehensible or whatever) so they're jus t kinda bound 2 be a miss for me ,,,,,,

idk i felt like i had more to say but uhh tldr of course you have blue hair and pronouns.

[nvcr]

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[dinosaurtsukki]

haikyuu!! characters as their zodiac signs (pt. 5)

whooo last part! if there are specific characters you guys want a zodiac sign analysis of my inbox is open!

kuroo - scorpio

tsukki's #1 reason for needing to have feelings are these scorpios right here

while yamaguchi is soft baby boy scorpio kuroo is basically daddy scorpio

if you constantly wonder why seeing him makes your mouth water its because of his intense energy

he is SUPER persuasive. very few people would say no to him 

calm, cool, and collected most of the time but get’s ticked off by people who know how to get under his skin

but this guy will hold grudges for years to the point that he vividly remembers how people wronged him

can probably read people like the palm of his hand 

the kinds of people he's attracted to are the ones who are super direct and honest 

also ones that kind of give him a challenge? if u know what i mean ;)

no one is clingier than he is. will literally whine and crawl into people's laps for attention 

he doesn’t look like he cries a lot but he cries on the inside while ‘liability’ by lorde is playing

someone tell him to stop wearing black because it’s Too Much

in conclusion: i think at this point its pretty clear that i ship with tsukishima for legal reasons

kenma - libra 

ohhh boy another libra

just thinking about libras makes me tired

but i find that in terms of personality he's pretty similar with tsukishima which is why i think they'd also be really great friends

kenma likes having things to fixate on and his mind is very active which is why he loves playing games so much

he prefers it when things have a formula or a pattern for him to follow so it would be easier for him to make decisions

he prefers not to rock the boat and let things be 

at the same time he's a very sharp thinker and like our other libras, whatever he says he truly believes in

and since he's very logical and observant, others would believe in what he says

he's motivational in his own way

the kind of person who thinks off good comebacks after an argument is over

blows on game cartridges even though he knows he’s Not Supposed To

although he's more introverted, he's very talkative around people he likes

in conclusion: tsukishima and kenma have a groupchat where they roast tf out of kuroo

yakulev - (leo × scorpio)

angeri boi duo 

both of them bicker constantly and since they have very strong personalities the bickering jus never ends

except for when either lev accidentally compliments yaku or when yaku gets lowkey attracted by how intense lev looks

lev is super fucking clingy and yaku will be a complete tsundere about how much he likes the attention

both of them are hella blunt and honest so no need to beat around the bush 

yaku is hella competitive and will pick fights for the sake of picking fights

at the same time he's extremely tenacious and will stop at nothing to win

he's also very self-conscious of how others see him except for his height since lev mentions it constantly that at this point yaku doesnt give a fuck about it anymore

lev on the other hand is also very competitive but its more of the 'i wanna score a shit ton of points all by myself'

like he doesn't compete against a person directly but he likes achieving a lot of things on his own

unlike yaku, he could care less about what people think of him 

both of them are pillow huggers and neither of them like to talk about That One Time they ended up cuddling each other in their sleep during a training camp

but kuroo has pictures of it on his phone

in conclusion: tbh fire and water sign couples are really intense and i want more yakulev hc's

bokuto - virgo 

okay so my theory is that his moon sign or rising is sagittarius so his virgo-ness isn't as apparent

but some of those virgo traits do shine through

for example his moodines when he's not able to get his spikes through are because he's very conscious of how he performs

he loves being recognized for his achievements 

at the same time he's either really proud of himself or questioning it 

• thanks to some fire or water sign placements he's not an eMOtIonAlLy rEpReSsed virgo

he's very stubborn but also very clear-headed when it comes to his goals

because of that he's such a hard worker but he never forgets to have fun with it

its very hard for him to let go of things, whether they're promises or grudges

he tends to focus more on the positive things though

he has such a great memory and he'll bring up the smallest, most minor details which would surprise everyone but also make them feel touched

he loves going all out during his friends' birthdays 

everyone wants to he his friend because they want a birthday surprise from bokuto

like yachi, he also has a lot of highlighters but that’s because he always borrows one but forgets to give it back so it kinda accumulated

he loves DIY-ing things but he’s not very good at them but still Very Proud

has made friendship bracelets for all of his teammates

in conclusion: validate him pls (akaashi)

akaashi - sagittarius 

he's a v e r y  t i r e d  sagittarius

most of his energy is spent taking care of bokuto and being the Best Setter He Can Be

he doesn't hate it though because seeing bokuto happy about his spikes is one more point for their team

he doesn't really express but he's super competitive but in a very sneaky way 

this boy is secretly very chaotic. like his braincell count goes down to one when he's alone

the kind of person who thinks pouring an energy drink into 6 shots of espresso is a good idea

its like groupthink but opposite because the bad decisions just come from him

once in a blue moon he'd agree with his friends' impulsive decisions for the sake of making memories

he really, really loves traveling, especially going to historical sites

takes the best selfies without even trying 

pretty much good at everything. at one point kuroo said that akaashi couldn’t possibly be good at singing on top of everything else and akaashi straight up mariah carey-ed him

only has one highlighter and it barely works

probably the scariest person next to takeda-sensei when he gets angry 

once snapped a pencil in two with his bare hand

in conclusion: idk keep him away from pencils ??

haikyuu!! characters as their zodiac signs series:  pt. 1, pt. 2, pt. 3, pt. 4, pt. 5

[getthembees]

fmfmfmfmfm sounds pretty fun!

(Link to Ask Game)

honestly it’s the one that’s the most fun for me to write rn but there’s not a lot that I’ve written </3. The backstory for it is basically me being unable to find any good PJO/fma crossovers and also virias’ crossover fanart (specifically the one with Leo losing his mind over automail) inspiring me and then. This was born. Also my friend hyped me up for it too. I haven’t read PJO in 6 years so I kinda am stumbling thru it, especially with Leo (the only traits I remember from him are sassy, insecure, and that hes an excellent mechanic and a goof.) It’s still fun for me. Also this is similar to the ff7 crossover in which I took some liberties with characterization for the sake of. yknow. humor. So I don’t think Riza would actually threaten a 16(? i forget leos age lol) year old. Context for this *gestures vaguely at snippet* is Leo gets arrested for basically the same reason Ling did in that he doesnt have immigration papers bc he just kinda showed up on Festus or smth. idk. havent thought it thru. im still vibing thru it. Gonna 100% make him go to Rush Valley tho.

I only have 300 words written or so, so I’ll just give u that as the snippet bc why not. :) This is very unedited and messy L

Also, i again wrote this at 3 am and got really tired so for my idea list to remember before I went to bed i just wrote “Roy meets him snaps, leo goes what the fckc bro” which i personally think is very eloquent of 3 am me.

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Leo sneezes, and his nose bursts into flames.

The blond woman places a gun at his temple.

“What the hell?!” He squawks, the fire on his nose blazing in sync with his surprise, before he snuffs it out entirely. Fire out his nose was a little bizarre, but not worth a bullet in his brain. “Why’re you putting a gun to my head! The hell did I do?!”

“Where did you learn that?” At his baffled look, the woman exhales through her nose, eyes sharp. “Flame alchemy,” she clarifies, “where did you learn it?”

“I don’t— alchemy?” He wracks his brain for the word, it sounds familiar, but in the panic of having a gun pressed to his head, the term slips his mind. “I don’t know what that is!” She narrows her eyes and clicks the safety off. He wonders how a woman that shows so little emotion could be so terrifying.

“I swear!” He nearly screams, hands grasping at his cuffs as he squirms to get off the chair, “you’re insane!” 

She sighs, her eyes going back to that dead, aloof look they had before, and removes the gun from his head. She doesn’t reholster it though, and she doesn’t even turn off the safety. Leo swears the second he can he’s going to dismantle the thing and steal its parts. Just to be petty.

“Do you have a transmutation circle?” 

“No? Obviously?” He says, though he has no clue in Hades what a transmutation circle is either. He leans his head back over the chair. “You think I’d hide that in my nose? Go and check!”

She looks unimpressed, and her hand flexes against the gun before she finally puts it away. “Explain how you did that, please.”

He thinks the please is a little out of place when she just threatened to shoot him in the head, and he snorts at her. He goes back to tracing the cuffs with his fingers, searching the lock. “Well I can’t give away all my party tricks,” he jokes, giving her an impish smile that he hopes his charming.

Apparently not, her fingers twitch back to her holster. 

“All right, all right— no need for the gun! Gods, you’re in love with that thing aren’t ya?” He huffs, and feels for a paper clip in his back pocket.

“Look it’s— it’s uh—” He stops. Searches for the word, “pyrokinesis.” Sure. Go with that. 

[ghosty1111]

does any other supermansion watcher feel like blacksaturn and groaners relationship is a bit.... idk how to say it, but its kinda all over the place and im only 3 episodes into the new releases and so far it feels bad ?

like i get the whole 'purposely sabotaging your crushes relationship while also being super needy' is a common trope, but... its not like we have a lot of healthy CANON gay characters/relationships in shows in the first place, and they were so close to that sweet representation man and it was a really good and new dynamic too!! but the way the writers have been going on about it is kinda making it seem like gay people could negitatively get in the way of straight relationships

not to mention the whole groaner getting a girlfriend thing was only put there to keep the gag going only when blacksaturn actually confessed was she introduced, ignoring the whole 2 seasons of build up between saturn and groaner before hand.

after that happened, theyve jus been making it like groaner never liked saturn in that way in the first place, completely throwing away that arc he had like Last Season

and then theyll put like a t i n y bit of hope in there but. jus. keep. going. i dont wanna jinx anything but im starting to suspect a bit of queerbaiting here

blacksaturn is canonly bi and im tired of it being used as a joke.

[undiagnosedautismfeels]

Not A Feel / Questions

- Is it an autistic thing to count your steps and have sort of an obsession with balance? Like if I do something with one side of my body (step on a leaf or a crack, touch a tooth, etc) I have to immediately do the same with the other side or it really bothers me and I feel off-balance and kinda shitty.

I think so. I do the same thing and I’ve heard other autistic people mention this as well.

- Iiaat to absorb the style of media you consume? Some examples of what I mean: I once read a book with a very distinctive narrative style and my thoughts were in that style for a while. When I listen to things with other accents I absorb some aspects of the accents. I watched death note and was really analytical for a while. Sometimes I absorb gestures from things I watch. It's temporary and usually isn't noticeable to other people but I never heard of this happening to anyone else

It wouldn’t surprise me if it’s because you’re autistic. We often mimic the people around us to try and fit in, so it would make sense if you had a similar reaction to media.

- is it an autism thing for many things to just kind of bore u cos you already intuitively know about some stuff and therefore just need s/t more interesting to u and in depth? is htis why we stim and have so-called 'limited' "special interests"? are they limited or expert knowledge on things that just so happen to stimulate you? which also just so happens to be not respected or perhaps understood by the medical community

I don’t quite understand your wording, but special interests are like any other interest, it’s just more intense for us because our brains cause us to hyperfixate and obsess over our interests.

- Again Im not trynna say I hav anythng pls don get mad @ me. Is semi/nonverbal strictly an autistic thing? I usually get nonverbal if I get tired or smthn but I’m usually more comfy w not speaking on a daily basis. If I make myself talk its a Rough time. advice lik How 2 get away w not talking/any other causes 4 being nonverbal? I’m not bilingual even tho my ma is. I’m learning Spanish& somtimes its easier 4 me 2 say words in it & I’ll say it then (Tagalog’s close 2 it)idk if it’s jus English🌺

My dude, calm down. I have no reason to be mad at you for questioning if you’re autistic. That’s kinda one of the purposes of this blog. I’m not gonna put all of your asks here cos that would make this post really long.

As for the nonverbal stuff, autism is not the only thing that causes people to be nonverbal. You said you’ve been through some stuff and that you don’t like people touching you, you have sensory issues, and you have trouble communicating. You also seem incredibly anxious and overly apologetic. That sounds like it could be PTSD.

That’s not to say you’re not autistic, cos I can’t tell you if you are or not, but from what you’ve said it definitely sounds like you have some trauma based issues that could be causing your symptoms.

As for the difficulties with maintaining fluency in multiple languages, I don’t know. I’m monolingual so I have no experience with that.

- so uh... I recently had an autism assessment and got diagnosed as not autistic. now I'm kind of lost. For a long time, I thought autism would explain the flapping, stimming, special interests, difficulty with social skills, etc., and it's not that I don't trust the assessor but a lot of that stuff didn't come up, and i feel like my upfront ability to do social stuff is just something ive had to learn to fit in and seem allistic. i don't know. Sorry, I just wanted to put this somewhere

Autism assessments are usually based around stereotypical symptoms. Just because that assessor didn’t think you’re autistic doesn’t mean you aren’t. Sometimes you need to bring up these other symptoms yourself because there’s an unfortunate number of therapists and psychiatrists who don’t actually understand how autism works because they have such a stereotypes view of it.

[pebbles-agere-blog]

tw vent, vent regression, medical stuff, school, thoughts of self harm/self harm mentions, possibly other stuff? idk read with caution

this isnt coherent at all, and i debated posting this for days before scheduling it to post in the middle of the night. hopefully i chose right :/

vent below cut

m feelin really bad an upset an i wanna yell an hit but i cant and m owy n my headspace is flippy between big n small a lot really fast an i wan a hug and m starting to think bad things an i wanna do the bad stuff i tell my frens not to an m scared an angry an upset i want my friends i just wanna be held n take care of i don now what to do all the stuff talkin about what to do with vent regressin are like distract yourself but i cant feel lik this ofen cuz my brain won lemme an i wanna be abel to feel bad sometims even tho its no fun an i feel like its my fault all of it

feel icky all day today an yeserday an it hurs feel like fire n stabby n ice n rocks inside an don like docters an scary but no one cares if scared cuz better more important an hard to exist going to school hard don like it but i gotta an too much work cant do it but no one cares i gotta do it m trying my best but not enough never enough

wan my frens an cuddels an be held n safe n loved n small with them but feel bad for doin it an they say they don mind but are they lying feel bad for no trust them cuz best fren they make me feel safest but scary. wanna talk with them more about my agere but hard an scary an bad an big me wants to take care of all my frens but when m small wan frens take care of me an feel like they no wan do that an feel like they get tired of me bunch an don wanna make them upset with me an if they get upset an leave then i hav no one an then ill really be alone

feel guilty an hypocrit cuz tell my frends no to do bad stuff an then i wanna do the bad stuff an i might be kinda doin it already? i dunno if what m doin is the bad stuff an i don wanna do the stuff m doin but i hafta but i don hafta do the stuff m thinkin of an i dunno if really want to or intrusive thought but either way not fun an scary an im the one who help my frends not do the bad stuff an try make them do self care an i wanna tell them that m feelin worse but they maybe get upset cuz i tell them not to an then i get worse an then i want to but i don want to but i dunno an the thoughts jus make feel worse an m scared. m scared of me an of the docters an of school an of talkin to my frends an of hurten more an of evrythin

my hedspace jus flipped around again an i think big me almos wants to do the bad stuff a bit an m scared i don wan people t be upset big me might show this to my frens soon but then they might get mad at me cuz m sposed to be the okay one m no suposed to be like this

[interstellerjay]

Some sorta tag game

tagged by @l-achrymose

[a]ge: 19 and growing

[b]irthplace: Seattle 

[c]urrent time: mmmm 11pm  

last [d]rink you had: mango juice sipped from my favorite goblet

[e]asiest person to talk to: probs my buddy @mad-rad-n-sad

[f]avorite song: oof i change this almost constantly but last time I declared a favorite song it was “Hang On Little Tomato” by Pink Martini 

[g]rossest memory: Any and all memories where I saw a bleeding wound.  Doesn’t matter how small.  Human bodies are gross. 

[h]ogwarts house: yooooo hufflepuff !

[i]n love? ,,nah,  still lowkey trying to put my heart back together from the last time I said I was.  jus kinda chillin for now [j]ealous of people? mmm not really.  I tend to get more self conscious than jealous in those kinda situations.  been remindin myself that its important to judge yourself by your own merits and that everyone has different deals going on so honestly comparing yourself to others is logically very flawed.  Its more important to just do the best you can and accept that is the best you can do, 

[k]illed someone? ,,,,,,probably not,,,  i killed a fish once.  went fishing, didnt even bait the hook cus i wasnt expecting to catch anything.  ,,I somehow found one that got snagged on my hook anyway and I couldnt throw it back cus the hook was deep in there and I’d cut myself and probably kill the fish anyway if I tried to pull it out,,  didnt have my tackle box or my “I’m Sorry” club so I had to wack it against the dock like that one scene with Golem from lord of the rings to try to knock it out cus i didnt want it to be awake when I gutted it.  ,,, that was my most brutal murder,, and i still feel bad for that fish, 

[l]ove at first sight? love is something that you need to work towards.  ya have to know someone to love them and knowing someone takes time.  ya cant get all that from just a look.  thats my thought anyway.  

[m]iddle name: ,,i aint puttin that out in the interwebs

[n]umber of siblings: none.  there can be only one. 

[o]ne wish: mmmm,, to have the ability to stop time without consequence so I can procrastinate as long as I want and jus,,,, sleep, 

[r]easons to smile: birds.  all the birds.  all of them.  

last [s]ong sung: mm probs “Patient is The Night” from the Over the Garden Wall soundtrack.  Its one of the only songs I’ve memorized. tho its more likely the last song i sung was something i was just making up as i was doin somethin,,  not sure that counts tho,  

[t]ime you woke up: m,, idk man, maybe 10??  most days I need to wake up at 5:30 am to catch the train so days I have off I just,,,, slumber,,  

[u]nderwear color: ,,,,,,,you just couldn’t think of a different “u” word could you...

[v]acation destination: m,,  someplace,,,, with,, trees,, n,,, a hammock ,, yes,

[w]orst habit: hm, prob,ably forgetting to message people back,, and then getting too anxious to do it later,,,  , and jus,,, losing contact with people that are important to me but i just get too wrapped up in work and anxiety and excuses to take the time out to reconnect with them,, , 

[x]-rays: ,,is,,  is this a question??  dont everyone get x-rays at the dentist?  are you asking me if I’ve had x-rays???  if,, i have them in my home and place of living????  are you asking me to reveal my extensive collection of laminated x-rays of peoples’ teeth that have been strategically stolen from various dentist offices over the course of 8 years is that what you are asking me?  ???  ?  because if so you are a fool. This entire story has been fabricated and it is I and I alone who will have the last laugh.  aHAHAHAHAAA!!! 

...im sprry im jus v tired, 

[y]our favorite food?  ,,s,salmon sashimi,, 

[z]odiac sign: capricorn.  i am the mermaid goat.  fear my power, 

none of ya’ll gotta do this unless you want to but

tagging: @mad-rad-n-sad @bossy-bugger @maxxy-cant-play-the-saxxy @kaaramel @theonlycampix @nursepuppo @ask-bowtieboi @pinkdisney @shy-yin @dragonscanbeplantstoo @sachikolair and anyone else who might wanna do this honestly

[lilbongwater]

reading my lesbian experience with loneliness made me realize how much i rly hate feeling like i have to  impress ppl or be a certainn way for ppl which is why i hate bieng on social media lately too i guess..

I feel like ppls image of me is extremely different to what im actualy like and i wanna keep up that image ppl have of me u kno but.. Its so tiring u kno?? Like sry  im not rly someome that can always b happy sunny bouncy bubbly dream girl u kno..

I feel lke i have to keep taht image up for everyone.. My parents, teachers, freidsn, even my bf (aahh mikey if u end up readin this… >m< !!!!!!!!!!!!) but like fuck guys im SAD and scared and hurt and confused all the time..

Im sad and im tired and u know what i honestly just wanna go into interior BC and live in soltude and eventually get eaten by bears.. Like iuhghf… my internet self n real sefl r so.. Differnt n idek why… like i DO like hello kitty n pink n sparkly things n shit but rly  honestly deep down more than anything i love being outside and camping and swimming and bugs and and andnandanda lOTS lots lots of thing s that contradict what i am now.. Like im syaing all this and i have!! Glittery pink acrylic nails!! Like!! Hhdhgfd!!

God my minds goign  all over the place sry

Idk man im just .. im a multi faceted person… im trying to b comfortable with that.. I feel lik theres pressure to b one kind of person all the time or else ur a fake but thats not!!! True!!!! Thats not truw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Honestly i kinda blame instagram n shit for tht kinda thinking tho… ppls instagram is so curated t b this… perfect life.. Idk how to put it into words uggghh…  also i wish i could criticize social media and its negative effects without feelinn like a Millienial Traitor but like…. Can we admt tht social media is like??? Knida shitty? Like its a great tool for rasing awareness but DAMN does it fuck with ur confiddence n self image n image of others… n thinking abt how rly young impressionable kids r growing up on this is almost   scary/?? The internet was an almost entirely different place 5 yrs ago  u kno??? Idk..

An d on the topic of change… i rly cannot keep up with everything . theres so mcuh pressure to do things FAST  n i just.. I cant do that. Evryones rushing to get things done as fast as possible, get new products as fast as possible… and i feel ike i get left behind. Ive always been kinda a late bloomer i thik but.. Aahhhhhhh

  Anyways i kinda wish i could write poetry but usually ppl mock ppl tht are trying to express themselves in honest yet artistic ways.. I jus wanna b genuine without beng mocked. I think thats what i mean after all this rambling

  Yeah i just wanna be more genuine

   I think i might remake again

[gh0stpkmn]

some appearance / clothing headcanons   (and a self harm hc sorry)

(warning for self harm mention/desc. i’ll put beginning/end markers around it in the post too)

said some of this iin a hc post ages ago but meh. might as well start a tag for lil bits relevant to this twit rp muse. my sweet son

1) his wardrobe is pretty much just comfortable clothing. comfort is the priority. he is a Cozy Boy.

mostly jeans and big, baggy knit sweaters / pullovers. (he likes cable-knit ones but he picks at the patterns when he’s nervous so he doesn’t wear them often lmao).  

most of his clothes are kinda,, dark, earthy tones. very.. subdued?? he doesn't want to look flashy or attract attention.

2) and he's vvvery reluctant to wear anything that shows his forearms, and won't roll up his sleeves. it makes him feel exposed & unsafe... partly bc there are scars there that he feels people shouldn't see. if a top has sleeves any shorter than to the elbows, he straight up Refuses to wear it. t-shirts are a big No. 

(!!! CONTENT WARNING for desc. of self harm/mutilation below !!! ) 

he mostly just doesn't want his tattoo to be visible to anyone, including himself? looking at it probably makes people uncomfortable, and it bothers him too. most of the skin covered by the tattoo is really rrrreeaally heavily scarred. there were Big, messy gashes all over that took a long time to heal bc they weren't neat, clean cuts?? he kinda just. went at it. because during some of his rlly bad meltdowns he jus t,, wanted it Gone. and they kept being reopened for quite a while bc it was a reoccurring thing.

he hasnt had one of those episodes for a while but it's not necessarily like a 100% done closed finished kinda deal. he's been trying really hard to stay away from that area when he self harms bc he's trying to let the scars heal completely and hopefully fade so they're less visible ?? its rlly Hard like,, he doesnt take very long showers. or take a long time to get dressed. idk it,, Rlly bothers him. but he’s getting better!!

tryin’ his best 

( !!!  DONE. it has passed. self harm ment over. ur safe now  !!!) 

so ye. he will absolutely not under any circumstances wear a shirt that shows past his forearms, and even that is pushing it.

it’ll be the middle of summer and everyone will be begging him to take his sweater off because hes sO hot and sweaty and uncomfortable. but he Refuses. absolutely not

3) as for like? all the edgy clothes n stuff... part of him does genuinely like that sort of style, but looking like that was mostly just to make himself as dramatically different from his brother as he possibly could?? and he’s a lot more self-conscious now.

sometimes maybe when he’s by himself he puts some of his old clothes on and looks at himself in the mirror for a lil while bc he looks Edgy and Badass and Cool as Fuck... but he doesn’t know if he’s ready to dress like that around other people again. not yet at least

4) and regarding makeup... if i’m being 100% honest with myself, i feel like the dark color under his eyes in canon are like... bags under his eyes?? because you see it on a few other characters when they’re supposed to look tired/exhausted or kinda,, creepy or w/e

but i love the hc that it’s makeup. i luv thinkin that he wears it. when he has the whole ‘unknown’ thing going on he def wore dark eye makeup

w/ my saeran i,, i don’t think he would really feel the need to wear it??? he used to be pretty good at applying it but now he’s too lazy to bother w/ it lol. he has better things to do.... except Maybe.. maybe a lil’ bit of mascara. sometimes. just a lil.

5) there’s nothing else to say really except for that his hair is always messy and he likes wearing fun socks w/ neat pictures/patterns on them. it’s a small guilty pleasure of his. he has a collection. he loves them. but no one can know that.

yeah

[theday]

hide and seek, fireworks, my style, coloured, your love, dream might (romantic or platonic? i love options), i'll be there, because it's you ((((:, you smile, with you, and better with you!!!!

thank you so much for aksing falen i love these and it also got super long lmao rip

Hide & Seek: what’s the first thing you notice when you meet someone new?

in real life, its probably their shoes/socks?????? LMAO and then their appearance but im trying 2 not let their appearance stop me from becoming friends with them :-o

online, i usually??? read ppl’s abouts first???? but idk like when it comes to actually talking to them i guess itd be their typing style?? and their use of emojis/the gif function (jenny) helps me to assess them although i do know that the way they type =/= how they are as a person but thats just what i notice first

Fireworks: name something astro’s done that has made your heart explode

falen u rly had 2 do it to me? ????? but hrm…. whenever they post selcas and when they just laugh every time myungjun laughs thats the shit that gets me the most bc its so/???? pur??e??? i love them a lot theyre always so happie and theyre all smiles every time they do a vlive it makes me happie

My Style: what do you usually wear out?

clothes not 2 sound like a loner but. i rarely go outside bc i only go outside when my family eat out and thats only on like weekends and if im hanging out with pals so i always get the chance to wear the same shirt, shorts and shoes lmao 

but its a black cat shirt (used to be a button up thing but singapore is 2 hot 4 me) and blue shorts and white converse 

Coloured: favourite MV aesthetic? 

ok real talk all of their mvs are so pretty and everything??? but my favourite has to be baby or csc

Your Love: top three astro songs

o w0rm

again

confession

every minute 

Dream Night: describe a dream date with anyone

idk?? smth ive always wanted 2 do with anyone is just walk through a park or just walk when the weather is not 2 hot or 2 cold (ike what binuki did in their recent vlive) 

if we’re getting more romantic mayb just??? cuddling???? idk i rly cant see this happening tbh 

I’ll Be There: fave astro vlive you’d watch over and over again?

but theres so many :-( but possibly all of eunwoo’s just 10 minutes with binnie :-0 the shrek vlive with the ice cream made me laugh so hard though mmMM

Because It’s You: why do you love your astro bias?

ur rly gna make me do all 6 members falen??????? ill try 2 keep it short

myungjun; binnie said he was sure mj wouldnt make it into astro and im assuming its because he was the one who was a trainee the shortest but??? look at him now with his strong vocals and even stronger personality!!! astro mightve done fine without mj but listen.. their vlives, appearance on variety shows, etc. would never be able to be as funny because mj is the reason for everyones laughter and it makes me so happy??? mj has that ability to crack anybody up with his laugh and the shit he says and does is so funny too pleaseth and i just?? appreciate mj for being there so fucking  much because he really resolves any tension in the atmosphere so easily and as the oldest member im so glad to see he doesnt find anything awkward AND despite the age gap between him and sanha, theyre like the closest?? lets not forget on that one radio thing yesterday they (astro) were asked who they were most comfy with in the dorm and 3/5 answered myungjun :_) im just happy myungjun exists? thank u mj i love u mister 777

PARK JINWOO; jinjin is the one of the sweetest leaders out there and i know every group has a great leader but jinjin is really that leader to me because as the rest of astro have mentioned before, jinwoo really buys them shit and they have said that he is the sweetest?? remember in the fan made fanmeeting i dont know what its called but i linked it and just??? jinjin is literally an angel!!! the one vlive he did with dogs? my heart melted off!!!!!! he really went and learnt the names of all the dogs present in the dog cafe!!!! he stopped the black dog which was biting hard on the table bc he was scared it’d injure itself/get in trouble and just??? jinwoo is so fucking nice just ??? if u look in the dictionary park jinwoo will appear as a synonym believe me ok and jinjin is part of dance line everybody lets not forget that he dances to release stress and that amaizng intro to again he did with rocky for their dream pt2 showcase because that was fucking so ?? i love talent and! AND i will never shut up but as a leader jinwoo takes care of his members so much and he also knows how to have fun with them and he jsut!!!!! i love him a lot

cha! eu! nwoo! (dongmin); i know 4 a fact that this will get so long lmao rip but first i just wanted to say that i am so proud of dongmin and how far he has come as a dancer and vocalist in astro ok so obviously i dont know the real hard facts tm and i can never tell the difference in anything so i dont know how accurate i really am but last year (and even now) i know eunwoo had a lot of personal schedules and he barely had time to practice? ?? i really dont know but im p sure that was it???? idk but dongmin has had to work so hard the whole of last year with the amount of comebacks astro did and i jus??? im so proud of eunwoo for being able to work hard for astro and still attend all those other schedules at the same time??? like i said idk how much time he did have/didnt have but i know it mustve been little with how late it would be whenever he arrived back at the dorm after his stuff and??? eunwoo had to practice his lines and the dance (astro’s choreography looks hard as shit and its tiring too) in time for their comeback promotions ??? and!! dongmin used to be that member (now its all of astro) who would constantly do vlives for arohas and lets not forget his just one 10 minutes where he would do vlives that were always over 10 minutes where he just talks to fans im eternally grateful for all the work dongmin puts in for astro and arohas and im sure he puts in more than 100% effort when it comes to his personal schedules too!!!! dongmin deserves the best and ive seen someone say b4 that he’d probably feel bad if he had more lines bc he was already “stealing” the spotlight by being a “face genius” and i just!! youre righ??t???? eunwoo is incredibly selfless and its easy 2 assume these kinda things tbh lee dongmin is so much more than his face and visuals he is a hardworker and!!! he loves his members and fans so damn much im !!! i love eunwoo so much i hope he knows how much we love him 

binnie; god with bin there isnt somethiing that made me love him??? all he did was go :) and my brain decided i was gonna love him forever ok but……hrm….. i guess i love him because hes such a dork?? like. .. when he laughs he just snorts and its so funny lmao i believe bin’s a good friend too well no shit ?? uMMm moon bin has a cute smile yall…… whenever he smiles my heart explodes hes just that powerful and also!!! bin has been a trainee for 7 years now and im just !! he made it!! like what the post i reblogged earlier said, he probably had other dreams but he still stuck with being an idol ??? in the end and that !!! im sad he didnt get to pursue the things he couldve liked better but im also happy hes managed to find a dream he likes and that hes basically living the dream right now??? and im so happy for him because 7 years may not be a lot to some but bin’s still young his childhood was basically training??? im just!!!!!!!!!!! so proud of him and now hes on the same kind of music shows his faves are on too nd it makes me rly proud (idk any other words my vocabulary is so fucking weak oh my god) he is having the time of his life with astro and arohas right now im so glad i forgot what i wanted 2 say im sorry bin i did u dirty im2 tense rn but i love u and i love bin bc of how much hes done and the amt of scarifies he has 2 have made in order 2 get 2 where he is tdy 

rocky swag (minhyuk); minhyuk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love him because !! hes so awkward but he tries his best for arohas!!!!!!!!!! in that first vlive he did alone he was so nervous but he managed to warm up and in the next vlive he did alone he did something that he was comfortable with (dance) and im glad he’s able to do vlives normally now even if there isnt any recent solo vlives i can see how much more comfortable he is on vlive now !!!!!! my love for minhyuk is similar to bin’s bc all he did was smile and suddenly????? im in love???? its the swag lmao but seriousy tho after finding out rocky did all sorts of dance i found him really??? respectable??? because he was able to learn so many types of dance and isnt that the coolest thing ever???? lets not forget how well he can sing???? im happy and so proud (jesus) that he sang on the recent album since previously he said that he didnt hvae any plans of singing in the albums so!!!! now!! hes singing!!!!!!!!!!! although the songs dont do him justice tbh its ok we all know how lovely he sounds when he sings especially in the binuki vlive where he sang wyls i swer my ear drums were blessed?? park minhyuk can do anything get urself a legend like rocky so basiclaly i love rocky aka park minhyuk bc hes just!!!!! outstanding???? hes handsome, he can dance really fucking well, he can sing and rap !!!!!!!!!!!!! and?? hes just a fool??? he’s warming up to doing vlives and just being himself and its the greatest thing ever i love him a lot

sanha; YOON SANHA!!!!!!!!! Love of my LIFE the baby i will protect for the rest of my LIFe??????? he is DAT boi .. the boy i love so much with my whole heart!! sanha is so cute and he just!! hes always making fun and bullying the older members i love it so much but ofc everyones weak 4 sanha bc b*tch is 2 cute honestly can relate if sanha punched or stole my money ill let him off bc hes just that cute . lets not forget he learnt how 2 play the guitar all by himslef jae is shaking ok and sanha is such a nice voice?????? every time he screams i lose my hearing its ok id do anything 4 this boy???? and to think hes only (1) year older than me is kinda??? wowie???? sanha is rly out here being a superstar and a student @ the same time and hes doing an awesome job @ being amazing !!! sanha is so cute and just?????? he loves his other members and family so much i love sanha a lot and i hope nobody will ever make him cry (sad tears) bc i will personally go to that person and we’ll have a nice chat :-) i cant think of anything atm but sh loves arohas so much and hes always doing aegyo 4 us idk its just . … thakn u young prince

You Smile: name three things that have made you smile in the past week

ok easy

mx comeback

daily astro vlives (its okay if they dont do vlives everyday they have 2 rESt)

becoming friends with lovely mbbs :_) 

with you: talk about a mutual without using their name

how long is this answer gonna be oh w0rm.. but here we go this is abt someone who ive never talked about but do talk 2 p often and theyre the other online person i am most comfortable with talking 2!!!!! 

theyre great tbh and rly good @ art and i know theyve gone through so many shit things in their life but im so glad theyre still hanging on even if their sleep schedule is totally wack still love u tho lmao at least theyre getting more than enough sleep!! theyre cute when they see sanha and it makes me soft seeing them go soft bc theyre never that warm??? when it comes 2 other ppl (kihyun crying) and im just so glad i managed to help them get (further) into astro!! being able to talk to somebody about astro has helped me so much and then i became friends with jen but im still so thankful to have a friend like [redacted] and im happy we’re friends!!!!!!!! i love them so much and i hope their days are filled with happiness even if it doesnt last for long i hope they have at least (1) happy time each day bc they deserve the BEST!!!!!!!!!!! 

even when i was still a young myday they helped me by providing links and everything just telling me where everything was and i was so :_) bc!!! they !! a bigger account was helping me someone who didnt even have 20 followers at that time and without them i wouldve never found anything tbh!!! even now when im the one whos been into astro longer, they still manage to find things so much faster than me and imlike?????? wow thats amaizng???? theyre amazing and i appreciate their presence on my tl/dash and in my dms so much thats one of the reasons why i thought they were older bc of how mature and just?? the older vibe they gave off was strong with they way they help people and whenever they comment on my tweets or someone else’s tweets im like !!!!!!!!! you’re doing amazing sweetie 

theyre so easy to talk to and even though our humor was something i thought was very different we manage to make each other laugh so much and i jsut!!! happiness!!!!!!! 

ok this was abt bell and i dnt think they’ll ever see this but if u do i love u a lot bell thank u for being alive ur so funnie and cute just thank u so mch!!! for everything

better with you: your favourite memory related to astro?

every time i watch them on vlive live i get so happy and thats my favourite memory

[breadboylovin]

im a normie so i decided to do this ‘85 truths’ thing i did like,,, 3 whole years ago just to see how shits changed (plus i like talking abt myself fgjkdfgdfh)

last beverage

water fdgjfgdfg i dont rly...... drink anything else.............

last phone call

uhhhhh probably to my mom or smth

last text

to my dad asking if he can get mcdonalds dfgjdfjgdfg

last song

plastic love by our girl mariya takeuchi

last time i cried

i think it was on july 4th?? unless i cried after that and just forgot about it

have you ever:

dated someone twice?

lol nah

been cheated on?

no but i think one of my exes cheated on someone to be with me ??? as far as i know but i cant confirm bc i dont talk 2 her anymore lol 

kissed someone and regretted it?

cant exactly regret stuff that you never do

lost someone special?

to death, no, but in general? probably

been depressed?

imma keep it real witchu chief,,, idk fgjkdfgfg

list your three favourite colours

salmon pink

wine red

turquoise

in the last year, have you:

made a new friend?

oh fuck lots of em yeah

fallen out of love?

........... presumably

laughed until you cried?

yeah dfgjdfgfg

met someone who changed you?

definitely

found out who your true friends are?

more or less

found out someone was talking about you?

yeah

kissed a stranger?

nah

drank hard liquor?

im 15

lost glasses/contacts?

i dont need glasses / contacts fdgjkfg

had sex on a first date?

im 15

broken someone’s heart?

yeah

been arrested?

nah

turned someone down?

no ones asked

cried when someone died?

i honestly cant remember if i did or not

fallen for a friend?

yeah :-////

random

do you have any pets?

2 cats!!! 

do you want to change your name?

i mean i like the name dorian ive had it for 2 years but i do want to legally change my birthname to dorian lol

what did you do for your last birthday party?

i jus invited friends to my house to do whatever

what time did you wake up this morning?

,,,, i woke up at 8:40 then decided i was too tired to do anything and slept for 3 more hours

what were you doing at midnight last night?

thirsting over greed the avaricious dfgjdfg

something you cant wait for?

going on t eventually

last time you saw your mother?

yesterday 

one thing you wish you could change about your life?

i just want to get top surgery lol

what are you listening to right now?

the wolf by siames

have you ever talked to a guy named Tom?

probably once at school lol

what’s getting on your nerves?

the uncertainty of my future

most viewed webpage?

either tumblr or youtube

pet name?

i mean,,,,,,,, my parents call me dosya which is just a cute version of dorian and i like being called baby boy but shhhhh

relationship status?

single owo

zodiac sign?

cap sun aqua moon libra rising

college?

i mean im not in college but when i go i wanna go 2 some art college in montreal 

hair colour?

chestnut brown i think

long or short?

short

height?

5′2″ or 5′3″?? idk

do you have a crush on someone?

ive been trying to subdue the one ive had for my own sake but there might be inklings of it still there

what do you like about yourself?

im cute bitch

tattoos?

nah im afraid of the commitment

right of left handed?

right uwu

first piercing?

i was too scared to get piercings when i was a kid so i dont have any FGJKDFGDFJG

first best friend?

some girl named katya that my parents knew the parents of. idk what shes up to now tho

first sports you joined?

i played soccer in like 1st grade?? i dont think i was good tho fdhdfg

first vacation ?

i think we went to san diego

first pair of sneakers?

im not cis i dont keep track of that

eating?

nothing rn 

drinking?

water uwu


about to

try to beat the watcher knight in hollow knight for the 50th time

listening to

smoke and guns by mr. natewantstobattle bc i went on a spiritual journey lst night going back to his youtube page to see if he still uploaded and finding out he was like. a legit musician

waiting for

honestly? idk

want kids?

kinda but im scared i wont be able to handle it

get married?

sure

career?

i wanna be a comic artist or a character designer

which is better

lips or eyes?

lips bc lips are kissable and eyes are not

hugs or kisses?

hugs are nicer bc u dont have 2 be romantic w someone to get a hug

shorter or taller?

taller bc its virtually impossible to find ppl shorter than me

older or younger?

older, but still around my age

romantic or spontaneous?

romantic

nice stomach or arms?

this is a really hard choice but arms bc ya boy likes being carried

loud or sensitive?

depends on the situation ig. i think i like loud more bc i just wanna go apeshit with a bro sometimes

hook-up or relationship?

relationship

trouble maker or hesitant?

,,, idk

do you believe in

yourself?

yeah most of the time

miracles?

very slightly. i think fate and shit is there for you when youre at rock bottom and that could count as a miracle ig

love at first sight?

nah. you can click with someone rly well immediately but i dont think sight factors that much into true love

heaven?

i would but i dont wanna get my hopes up too much

santa claus?

nah

5 random facts

i constantly forget which side of my face my mole is on

im rly tired rn and i dont know how i manage to be tired like that when i slept 8 hours last night

when i was a kid i thought adults didnt sleep bc i never saw my parents go to bed before me

im the next level of gays not knowing how to drive bc i cant ride a bike

i used to be a markiplier stan and ngl i still think hes cute :-/