#its just an uncontrollable automatic response to words like thise | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

girlypsyop · 1 year

Text

Giving urself a speech trying to convince yourself that you'll love & take care of yrself is so hard to do when u spent 2 years in a relationship w sb who constantly gave u that same fucking speech and then never followed thru 😊

#like truly i hear myself say to myself 'i will always take care of you'#'you are incredible and beautiful and ill do whatever it takes to makeyou happy'#amd immediately rolling my eyes like suuure ive heard that one before #loving myself used to be so so easy now its like pulling teeth #i dont trust her but i am her but i cant help it #its just an uncontrollable automatic response to words like thise #theyve been so empty for so long what makes me think i will ever make them full again #shes used to empty promises but i wont let her down i cant #bc again. i am her. i cannot let her down she got me out of that situation #i will make things safe and beautiful for her i will give promises meaning again #ok mentally ill moment over sorru #sometimes i just treat myself like another person #a degree of separation makes it easier to be kind #mirror lana is jyst a girlie in this world.... she is funny and cool amd smart and so fucking brave #she got me out she got me out ok i wont let her down

1 note · View note