#its just. ouhhhhhh

[ccrv-7]

little bit insane over mithan again bc it IS just emotionally vulnerable guy x toxic masculinity girl which is like. THEE archetype everrrrrrrr to meeeeeeee

[lesbianraskolnikov]

Im making a website called raskolnikov.net . All that will be on it...is....an image of a crouton.

[mechawolfie]

already 2 days till my bday. is anyone else scared...?

[j-crow]

oh my FUCK dude

[micksniperr]

YAYAYAYAY I AGREE, LOOKING SO GOOD

WIP

I don't like the way his face came out, gotta tweak it.

IDK when I'll find the motivation to finish.

@professional-sniper-lover

@micksniperr

Crop top Sniper with autopsy scars WIP be upon ye.

[csiccus]

i love how much they dont trust essek. like just wait a little caleb and essek are gonna hardcore makeout trust.... also caleb immediately talking to essek with fascination about the sky. ouhhhhhh WAITING FOR A SHIP TO ACTUALLY GET TOGETHER OR LIKE EACH OTHER OUHHHHHHHHJHJJJ ITS SO EXCITING

[awweshuucks]

BROTHER U UNDERSTAND YOU COCOA COOKIE AND DARK CHOCO COOKIE SIBLING ANGST

I JUST KNOW THIS GIRL IS GOING THROUGH IT DURING THE BEAST YEAST EPISODES WITH MYSTIC FLOUR

YESSSSS OH MY GOD

IN MY HEAD THEY SEND LETTERS EVERY FEW WEEKS TO EACHOTHER JUST TO CATCH UP BUT THE LAST LETTER SHE RECIEVED WAS ABOUT THE ILLNESS TAKING OVER THE KINGDOM AND HOW HES BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT AND HOW HE SHOULD TRAVEL TO A LAND WHERE HE THINKS MIGHT BE THE ROOT CAUSE (HE DOESNT EXACTLY SAY WHAT BECAUSE HE DOESNT WANT HER TO WORRY TOO MUCH SO HES VAUGE BUT STILL TELLS HER THE TRUTH) AND THAT WAS THE LAST LETTER HE SENT TO HER BEFORE LEFT FOR BEAST YEAST AND SHE SENT A LETTER RUGHT BACK BUT HE DIDNT RESPOND AS QUICKLY AS HE NORMALLY WOULD AND IT MADE HER WORRIED SICK.

that was a whole rant and DOESNT make sense but shhhhh

AND OH MY GOD DARK CHOCO AND COCOA SIBLING ANGST

THEY MAKE ME SO SICK NOONE UNDERSTANDS. DESPITE HER BEING THE NICEST AND CUTEST CHARACTER IN GAME I STILL FEEL LIKE SHE WOULDNT FORGIVE HIM AS QUICKLY YKWIM??? OFC WHAT HAPPENED WASNY HIS FAULT BUT SHE SPENT SO MANY YEARS BELIEVING IT WAS AND WAS PROBABLY FINALLY STARTING TO ACCEPT THAT, BUT RANDOMLY SHE FINDS OUT HES ALIVE AND NOT JUST THAT BUT HER DAD FORGIVES HIM?

NOT ONLY JUST BECAUSE OF HER DAD BUT SHE PROBABLY THOUGH HE LEFY HER. DARK CACAO LOVES HIS KIDS BUT IF HE WAS A BIT NEGLECTFUL TO DARK CHOCO ITS NOT IMPOSSIBLE HE WAS A BIT NEGLECTFUL OF HER, BUT SHE NEVER FELT LIKE SHE *HAD* TO GET HIS ATTENTION BECAUSE HER BROTHER WAS THERE, BUT HE LEFT HER?? HE NOT ONLY ALMOST KILLED THEIR FATHER AND KILLED MANY INNOCENT PEOPLE BUT HE LEFT HER AND LEFT HER WITH TRAUMA

OFC SHE DOESNT HATE HIM BUT I FEEL LIKE SHED HAVE YEARS OF PENT UP FRISTRATION AND ANGER SHE COULDNT IGNORE AND IT WOULD TAKE LONGER FOR HER TO FORGIVE HIM. AND HE UNDERSTANDS THAT BECAUSE SHE WAS JUST A YOUNG GIRL /EARLY TEENS WHEN IT HAPPENED THAT IT WAS EVEN MORE LIKE TRAUMATIZING TO HER YKWIM???. SHE STILL LOVES HIM THOUGH ITS JUST VERY COMPLICATED FOR HER OUHHHHHH IM GETTING SICK IM GETTING SO SICK

I’m so sorry @pj-was-here this rant is long and unreadable and not grammer checked at all but I’m SO happy u said something…. Mwehehe

[mochiwrites]

Ouhhhhhh imagine how sad itd be if Scar never knew he was a Vex throughout his time in tcd. Blue-grey skin? Yea that happens sometimes, usually when he’s on the verge of a panic attack because a crowd of zombies got a little too close for comfort. White hair? Still pretty normal, but he’s only caught a few glimpses of it in broken glass and he kept his hair VERY close cropped after it got grabbed by zombies one too many times when it was longer. He wasn’t really sure how often it’s brown vs. white. Wings? He never let them out because that’s just something else for zombies to scratch and bite at. The few times he managed to phase through walls were out of sheer terror for his life, and he never properly figured out how to control his own abilities. Yes he stayed perpetually hungry and aching for food in tcd, but that’s just because there wasn’t enough food at all, right?

The thing is, he had no idea he wasn’t even fully human. Zombies don’t exactly look much like humans themselves anymore underneath all the rot and disease. Any memories he might’ve had of his parents discussing his blood and culture with him are long lost to the years of living in the moment of survival, and Scar gave up on trying to remember a long time ago.

He doesn’t really understand what people on Hypixel are talking about when they call him a Vex, but he’s far too busy trying to charm them out of their diamonds to really worry about that anyways. It’s not until Grian calls him the same thing that he finally bothers to ask why people keep calling him that.

That little question combined with how Scar talks about his dreams probably leads to a really serious conversation about where Scar even came from in the first place, followed by Grian dragging him off to a trauma therapist and a doctor, because holy shit, how did this guy not even know his own species? When was the last time he even ate properly? Does he even know what Vex are???? How is he still functioning properly after going through that for so long? Is that why he’s always so jumpy and hyperactive? Is that why he hoards food in his room but barely eats it??

It’s not a fun time for Scar, but at the very least he has someone who cares about him and his well-being now. It’s a whole struggle on its own learning about his own species and especially what his diet is supposed to be (it certainly explains why his teeth are so sharp, and it’s a relief to find out that raw meat like steak and mutton suffices just fine, but it’s still harrowing for Scar learning that his species tend to exclusively consume human meat). Grian even going out of his way to buy books about Vex and their culture for the both of them to read and learn about, which only brings them closer together.

SOBBING SO LOUD AT ALL OF THIS,,,, /pos

GOD both ideas for how scar is vex work SO well. the only thing here is,,, with how old scar is when the outbreak even happens, he probably would know that he’s vex because of his family. but OUGH…..

[lazareneblessing]

3 and 8 for Nat, 7 for Malcolm!

THANK YOU SO MUCHHHH MWAH MWAH SMOOCH

3. What is their Ambition? How are they planning on achieving that goal?

kay so by the virtue of being a SPC, nat doesn't have a clear cut ambition always updated on their sheet. but currently what's at the forefront of their mind is finding and capturing gaspard, a tzimisce who sired their thinblood bestie zoë. and also did a bunch of other stuff. they've got long-standing beef. but pretty soon after we started our chronicle (shadows of berlin) nat tried killing him again and thought they succeeded but couldn't really confirm the death cuz they made a promise to keep one of the PCs on the scene (@deenomilk's zasha <3) safe as they interrogated him about some plot stuff. but alas it seems like gaspard somehow got rescued, and zoë is looking into different ways to become human again. the whole "kill your sire and you will get your mortality back" thing came up in her research. and nat kinda fucked her over by trying to murder him in secret in the first place so they want to make up for it by delievering him staked and ready to kill for her like a cat bringing a wounded rat as a thropy to its owner. sorry if this is a lot and makes barely any sense but if i were to go in deep about this whole plotline we would be here forever LOL . but im willing to share in a separate post maybe if anyones interested.

8. What annoys them the most about other vampires? How about specific clans or sects (specify)?

i think a major point of annoynance for nat when it comes to other vampires is when they behave like they're better than they are when it comes to moral matters. nat's doing pretty good humanity-wise at this point in our game, but a lot of it comes from the radical acceptance of who they are. which is. well, a parasitic monster. and they don't really shy away from it, or speaking of their past which includes giovanni shenenigans, sabbat shenenigans (war crimes) or just their general being a menace towards everyone shenenigans. so they don't like it when other cainites act all high and mighty and better than the others for whatever the reasons may be. excessive pride in one's perceived goodness irks them.

sect-wise, they find camarilla annoying for the reasons stated above pretty much, and also for their hypocrisy. like, are they all that better than the sabbat? nat has their doubts. they left the sabbat for very interpersonal reasons and also kinda blinded by rage, but when they were a part of it they didn't enjoy the lack of coherent and reasonable planning. didn't mind the bloodshed at all, just how wasteful it usually was.

and if we are speaking of specific clans... they disdain most of the main clan giovanni, which goes beyond typical annoyance LMAO. and then the tremere annoy them with their occult knowledge elitism and gatekeeping.

7. What are some of the most evil and fucked up things they've done? Was it a big deal for them?

ouhhhhhh so. important thing about malcolm is that he's a ghoul and he became a ghoul under some very specific circumstances and his brain was pretty much broken by his domitor via a mixture of dominate and the blood bond. like dude had all of his personhood pretty much taken away from him, and he was working for one of the giovanni running a very hands-on mafia operations. so as far as consciously making choices to do evil and fucked up things, nahhh he's clear. some questionable stuff maybe but there were lines he wasn't and/or isn't willing to cross as of now. but under his first domitor everything was on the table cuz he was like a shell of a person pretty much driven entirely by the domitor's orders. so he was doing a lot of typical mafia violence shit, beating people up for extortion/threatening/whatever purposes, killing whoever his domitor wanted disposed of (including malcolm's own boyfriend, rip), doing hit and runs with a death toll, committing arson, terrorism, running whole families over with his car. like there is a lot and he didn't remember most of it in the first place cuz he was getting his memories ereased, and what he did remember his brain repressed to protect itself. he feels Terrible about it, cause even though he didn't do those things out of his own free will, they still happened and theres no way he can make up for any of it. but he is slowly coming to terms with all of that although the guilt Will haunt him forever!

[bmpmp3]

ive loved it since i first heard it in project diva x years ago, but listening to Tsumi no Namae again (with slightly higher quality headphone audio rather than my vita speakers <3 ) i didnt realize just how crazy the production choices of this song is. wait hold on lemme hashtag musicpost for a minute. im busting out the timestamps

immediate tone setting. bagpipes??? or something like that right out the gate which is wild. clock winding, gear crunching, and real human woman whispering (i think in english but ive never been able to find official lyrics of that section) as well <3 im a sucker for using human voices with synth voices i think it adds a lot of neat texture

the instrument choices lean into a fantasy musical-esque soundscape for obvious reason (the whole song is basically a little original fable or myth type story complete with trickster goddesses and breaking fate's curses etc etc) but the composition is plenty pop rock which is a fun juxtaposition im always a fan of but like SPECIFICALLY those drums that start around a minute in. im not sure what it is, the speed? how loud and hard the drums are? it works so well to give it a forward momentum while also being a bit uncanny. maybe im just imagining how tired the drummers arms would be hitting at that speed and with that amount of power for this long........ but yeah it gives it this unexpected, sorta otherworldly feel, like its just a fraction of a fraction faster than you'd assume. theres like hints of clapping and stuff in there too i think? so much all together but so so so good

and speaking of how tired those drummers arms would be, i do love that this song is six and a half minutes, i love stuff over 5 minutes like YES i am going to waste SO MUCH TIME staring into space and listening really hard (i like to listen to songs on loop <3 half an hour is gonna go away in just a few plays) i love love love love love it

1:38 mark THE BANJO????

1:43 ouuhhhh that we-will-rock-you-type boom-boom-bap-type clap-clap-stomp percussion. ouhhhhhh yesssssssssssssssss.

1:50 the banjo and the flute are now making out in the background. they are making out sloppy style

2:00 there's like this drum breakdown thats incredibly poppy and rock-y which also goes back to the like fun blends of instrument choice and composition

2:23 am i crazy or is there like a tiny tiny little bit of like a static sound as a piece of percussion in this quieter bit... love a mix of fantasy with digital artefacting

2:45 IS THAT A HINT OF SOME MANNER OF BASS INSTRUMENT IN MY LEFT EAR I HEAR..........

3:50 WHAT is that little sound near the right.... it sounds like one of those medieval instruments but i cant remember which one.... and the banjo has made a return

3:58 THE BASS COMING IN ON THE LEFT

4:35 okay the whole bridge section is crazy but first of all. the dynamics between the deep bass-y sounds going between the two ears.

4:40 and what on EARTH is THAT. like a glitchy static-y bit of vocals going on both sides. AND the flute-y sounding thing is going NUTS up there

4:45 and this is what always makes me lose my mind. that really REALLY deep, circular, almost string sounding instrument? is that a god damn hurdy gurdy. i dont know much about instruments can you tell...... BUT for real that like again adds this haunting, extra bit of synthetic uncannyness to the medieval fantasy fable story

5:18 WHAT is that long like droning sound. is that also bagpipes. whats that classical piece thats supposed to teach you how to differentiate the parts of an orchestra. i need to drill that in my head im fighting for my life out here. ANYWAY those background notes with also these bits of like chattering? people talking or playing?

5:24 RANDOM BIT OF MEDIEVAL VIOLIN

6:08 and ending off with the glittering little chimes.... awesome

i dunno just holy shit man. this song goes everywhere it wants to. theres a banjo.

[porcubus]

reverse unpopular opinion meme ryodon and/or ryoshu & don separately..!!

RYODON well..heh...... i invented ryodon im so serious i was the first ryodoner i swear to god i made some corny twitter thread on what i think their dynamic could be like when there was 0 shippy fanart/fic i had to dig to find these roots So im crazy biased. but they really should let them interact heavily in-story more because i still cant stress enough to this day how well their characters could clash together. how are you giong to put someone who seems so purely violent and uncaring for human life on the surface and the self righteous jolly herogirl who also seems surfacely one note but is also clearly hiding something on the same bus and not have them goof and gaff more often. i want don to know about her daughter. we know for a fact don has a soft spot for kids specifically too. please please please plese please pelase please pelase if shes revealed and don doesnt comment im blowing up the world. ok?

don Herself well im still torn on that twist so im closing my eyes right now and saying. i really love her humanity i love how shes just some woman and whether its delusional or not she still wants to be good and she still wants to be a hero despite the city she lives in i really love that in a character...also shes voted most likely to make me smile as soon as she pops up in a story shes so cutest and funny ALSO ALSO i love girl knight characters so again. Mad happy that they made don quixote of all characters into a cute knightgirl. my butchling

ryoshu Ouhhh ouhhhhhh ryoshu i love you. i feel like at least in the earlier days ryoshu was really often mischaracterized as a pure stoic yaoiseme sadist type of character Which does still kind of happen but like. her more careless or utterly silly moments are such a big part of her and what draws me in the most. i hope she fails on a grander scale more often in the future. im always saying this but i love her sadomasochism as well sorry i love sadomaschist girls awesome pain forever ALSO ALSO. im really excited to learn more about her relationship with her child and also what started her relationship with violence and art. definitely another of my most anticipated cantos. I fucking adore her spiral of contempt look btw one of my favorite ego looks of one of my favorite abnormalities and she definitely deserved it!!!!!!!!!

[8cfc00]

Mike and Edgar for the ship bingo!

(ignore me trying to write with markup im on mac and idk how to edit images good. also i don't care that its one of the big ships its STILL UNDERRATED TO ME!!! MORE MIKE AND EDGAR PLEASEEEE)

frothing at the mouth just thinking about them... sometimes i'll be walking around chilling and then i imagine edgar and mike and i just smile so widely. i love their names for each other, its so cute, theyre so cute, fuck,, all mikes and edgars as a species are just so aughhhhh. aughhhhhh so soft,,,,

i don't really care that in some ways they aren't a perfect couple, like i get it but also i cannot stop rotating every time they interact in my head.

as for specifically latvia mike and his edgar... ouhhhh deary me. the way edgar's death hangs over them. ouhhhhhh my. edgar continuing to work despite it, etc. i have no coherent thoughts rn just. dear lord.

also shoutout to how they specifically like. come in a pair. "edgar from mike and edgar" crazy. its like soulmates except the universe keeps severing that bond and proving that force keeping them together is never strong enough or smth... will they find each other in every universe... who knows! but they will miss each other.

ALSO SHOUTOUT TO PAINTED GLASS.... that song makes me CRAZYYYY dear lord. i was hoping you would, ignore the fault lines, and pass over the flags, that sayyy who i am!! i love how mike thinks he's not a good enough person for edgar its so. its so interesting. call me ty betteridge the way i need to study them. i feel nauseous they are so................

[lux-epidendrum]

( I love your Pure Vanilla! He’s so warm and inviting and lovely!! ( just like a sunbeam huhu ) Your Truthless Recluse is also just as nice; paranoid and scared and afraid to let others in!! You handle the insecurity and fears really well, and it feels like you have a firm grasp on his voice no matter which Pure Vanilla you happen to be writing :D!! )

How's my portrayal? | Accepting

|| ouhhhhhh this is such a huge compliment from you who also plays such a great pv!!!! Awaaa thank you so muchhhh ||

|| TR is a lot more fun to rp than I expected because I can just bleed so many tropes I love into him. I try not to rp him as like "Angry TR" but more just. If he lashes out its more out of fear and paranoia than actual anger! He just wants to be left alone to sulk fr fr ||

[transbeeduo]

so i woke up and chose angst. that means you get to hear something about Ranboo from my au!

they had a heating pad that they loveddd. they loved it so much, especially when it was winter or the sun wasnt out. it was like their makeshift little sun, right?

cue their death. going out one day to read in the sun. they hear noises. they put their book down and go by the forest line to investigate because they know forest noises and that is Not It.

big mistake. they get freaking stabbed in the abdomen. in the warmth of the sun. the sun they love. they get found and taken to the hospital but it is just too late.

anyways they get revived a couple months later. Tommy's attempt to revive them just resulted in Ghostboo, so that was technically a failed attempt. but! they get fully revived.

this comes with so many issues and they're so different from who they once were, mainly because of their limbo. which was not a block in the middle of the ocean. it was instead them having to roam the house they lived in while everyone else was there, alive, complaining about how much they hated Ranboo. except that isnt reality. but when they get revived, it feels like it.

anyway, Tubbo grabs their heating pad one night cause it used to help them calm down. but instead, now it just makes them upset. here is what Tubbo says about it word for word:

"Their heating pad used to make them go all droopy. Now it just does the opposite. They tense up immediately whenever it warms up."

does none of this make sense? oh well! also its not Sam that stabs them in this one. and theres so much backstory n stuff. that im not explaining because it falls into 'cringe' even though cringe-culture is dead i still dont wanna explain it to anyone except my co-creator.

OUHHHHHH thats so good what the hell,,,,,

[aurorathedragon45]

i am NOT talking about those who dont like bugs and want trigger warnings btw. you guys are fine

its when people get rude or insulting about it that just really rubs my scales the wrong way

especially when im not sharing a *gross* fact or anything (which i add trigger warnings for, as well as when i send images of them) its just an interesting, tame fact and ouhhhhhh just augghg

i NEEEDD people to stop butting in to say "ew bugs we should kill all of them ew i hate them flamethrower gif" whenever i try to talk about bugs.

i said "hey did yall know that not all bugs are bugs :)" because only a few species (~80,000, but thats small compared to over 1 million species of arthropod) actually count as "true" bugs which are the name for the order hemiptera who's defining feature is piercing mouthparts for sucking juices and sap

and someone was like blah blah blah theyre not bugs cuz theyre monstrosities blah blah blah i hate bugs eewwwwBEEEEE QUIETTT‼️ i can get behind someone not liking bugs. i will NOT get behind being *rude* about it when i or someone else is trying to share a silly fact about them‼️‼️

[nonbinarychaoticstupid]

hi im going to rant abt this a bit more (tell me if you want me to stop !!) but like the way adora and catra didnt want to be separated as kids just like mal and alina, mal and catra both being worried that the other had to sacrifice themselves and hating it, just adora and alina being the chosen ones and mal and catra.... not? every part of this fits so perfectly i cannot

KJNDJCNDJ dw ur good!! and also. LSKJCSKJLKDCRMKC OUHHHHHH YEAH EXACTLY THEYRE SO GOOOOOD ITS MAKING ME FEEL INSANE THEIR ARCS WORK SO WELL WHEN U PUT THEM TOGETHER...........