#its so bad im gonna kms

[skitskatdacat63]

For @sansebastinae and @boisinnot, my fellow saint seb truthers :)

+ the usual

Yayyyy finished a drawing! Haha only took me...2 weeks. I kept going back and forth on whether I could finish it tonight, and I really wasn't going to. But then I looked at the unfinished version on a different screen and was like oh? Not too bad actually?? So I finished it :) First of all, ofc, here is the process. Kinda weird seeing it for smth like this, it makes me feel like I'm the painter in rennaisance au, not Mark dhjfkf

Ah I was gonna draw a silly renaissance au comic to accompany this(read: lighten the mood), but it's 5 am and I've still not really drafted it well, so! I'd like to finish it at some point bcs I wanna draw more chibi comics, but when I finish smth, I can't help but immediately want to post it, so part 2 will have to wait. I'll show you the outline though so you can at least imagine 😭

^ So many renaissance and beyond paintings of Saint Sebastian are always the most horny thing ever. Like pre/early rennaisance, yeah he was naked and all that, but they were pretty chaste, and uhhhhh suffering?? Well the newer paintings are suffering, but in a different way, if you know what I mean.

So I feel like Mark's the type to be overly pedantic about it, and refuses to make borderline porn of a saint, I mean, god forbid, Seb!!! But then he just. Does anyways. Because he can't control his lust for Seb even when drawing him half dead. I just imagine him holding the paintbrush in a death grip like "must not be horny. Must not draw him sexy. Must make him chaste." And then he ends up with the one seen above. Seb is all smug about it. "Wow you'd wanna fuck me even while I'm all bloody and dying? 🥺"

Mark: "oh I'll make you bloody, alright."

But god so funny to imagine Seb doing all these different slutty poses, like arching his back as much as possible, the cloth nearly falling off at all times, etc etc. And Mark finally lands on this pose bcs he hopes the suffering will outweigh the horny. It doesn't. Also Seb is genuinely serious once he actually gets into the pose, focus mode on. And honestly that's even worse for Mark, bcs it's so much more arousing to see Seb in his element, focused. Tbf I think Seb could be drinking water, and Mark would still find some way to sexualize it. Don't look at his sketches!! They're just filled with Seb doing all kinds of random activities.

Also! Here is the painting I referenced this off of, must give credit where credit is due ofc

The Dying St. Sebastian by François Fabre

Also this isn't really relevant in the context of this drawing specifically. But I looked thru a bunch of Saint Sebastian paintings while trying to find one I could reference, and I came across this middle ages one that actually looks so much like boy king seb 😭 I guess it really is meant to be!

St Sebastian between St Roch and St Peter by Pietro Perugino

Lmao but do you see the difference between early rennaisance and later work???

[chiimeramanticore]

[mushed-kid]

i have winter break next week and i wanna have fun

[the-official-account]

I hate working but I actually really do love working with kids. Like how dare you interrupt my (barely kept) internal stream of complaints to very politely say "I've never been here before and I'm kind of scared can you help me?" Like of-fucking-course I'll help you!!!! and I'll heal a discombobulated little part of myself too while I'm at it or whatever. Damn

[blissfali]

Anyone ahve any tips on what to do if you have a dog but aslo need to go to college and if you dont take him with you your mom WILL get rid of him without telling you 😭😭

[mangosmoothiepussyv3]

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[lost-in-fandoms]

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[hadrianblackwaters]

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[gogtropica]

Two seconds away from crying

[odxrilove]

guys 😞😞 im almost done packing 💔💔 for uni 😓😓😓

[oneofthosecrazygirls-mp3]

pulling an all nighter not out of choice but out of necessity

[reverecurrent]

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[nururu]

hey btw it's cool of y'all to be like "different things to say when things go wrong instead of " I'm gonna kill myself"" and everything but stfu bc im still gonna say it and i KNOW gen z idiots hate when I do it bc they look at me like they're just DYING to teach me about self deprication and how it effects your mental health and I just want y'all to know that i don't care. and as someone who's worked very hard to find self love, I don't want people who have no confidence in themselves and actually hate themselves to be telling me how to have good mental health practices. absolutely bonkers.

[seraphim-soulmate]

okay I need to move out. I realized I can push myself to cook but already having to cross that barrier is hard enough and the reason I don't do it is bcs of my shitty roommate.

[bunnyb34r]

I know I should just block (and not OPEN) tags and posts ab '24 but my brain is stupid and likes to be informed even if it makes me worse

[gleesongtournament]

Song Tournament Update - Tie Breakers

Out of our 340 round 1 match ups, five resulted in ties. We'll need to break those before round 2 starts so

Saturday (5/13/32) at 12 am EST there will be a little tie breaker round

The songs will be matched up differently than they were initially and hopefully there's a clear winner with all of them!