#its so great to be able to read them

[tea-cat-arts]

I simply think this fandom doesn't give Wei Wuxian enough credit for the various ways in which he saved Lan Wangji

[dafpork]

the thoughts are returning (making a comic adaptation of the actor au alongside the actual writing)

[firebirdsdaughter]

Sigh…

… Anyone want to listen to me rant about 'you're his aniki, what will he do if you give up?' bc that line has been giving me Emotions™ for years.

And forewarning, it'll turn into a rant about how much I love Fudou and his dynamic w/ Kenji bc it was SO GOOD.

[starlightkun]

I just binge read your ayakashi series and am currently giddy over it. How each route expands on the characters in ways I could not have possibly predicted from the prologue is immensely fun(jaehyuns was hilarious) and the setting overall is so cute and magical! If you ever want to post about it again, be that the planning doc or an update, I will be delighted(no need if you don't want to tho!)Thank you for sharing the beautiful words in your brain with us :D

hi, i didn't mean to leave this unanswered for so long, sorry! been having a time at work. thank you so much for reading and send such a wonderful ask, im rlly so happy ppl r still finding ayakashi. honestly, i do think it's time for me to finally let go of that world. i've been holding out on posting the planning doc in hopes that i'll return, but i think it's time.

so here's the planning doc finally, if anybody was still waiting for it. all 91 pages of it. lots of good stuff in there, including the first 5k of yuta's route that i never finished, an entire 6k flashback scene for sicheng's route, and outlines and other various scenes and tidbits for every other finished and unfinished route.

thanks so much to everyone who read and showed me love on ayakashi over the years, y'all made it so much fun. i know this kinda sounds like im saying goodbye, but only to this series, im still gonna be here writing just like i've always been, promise!

[jonquilandlace]

Someone should hire me for ideas on building a superior word processor specifically for dissertation writing I have so many good ideas

[milkbreadtoast]

me having entire conversations in the tags of posts w ppl by going "#prev ..." has the same vibe as me passing notes back and forth to someone in class that the entire class reads before the notes get there

edit: ...alternatively having convos w someone by like. writing a message on the blackboard or sidewalk and then checking later and someone else has added to it while i was away...

[fobnsfwdoodlesbackup]

pride asks woo !!

12, 15, 25

and for 35:

how do you deal with frustrating people like homophobes and transphobes or people just being generally shitty towards the lgbtq+ community?

Answers under the cut!

12) Name some queer artists/bands or songs you like most:

Dog Park Dissidents!!!! June Henry!!! Against Me!! Fall Out Boy!!! I definitely recommend finding as much queer music as you can, it's incredibly impactful to engage with art that shares your experience.

15) How has your identity changed overtime?

Overtime the main change is just that I've gotten more comfortable gobbling up any labels I want haha. When I was a teenager I identified as Bi, and then later as Pan. I came out as trans when I was 14 and that hasn't changed, but to me it coexists with identifying as lesbian/sapphic/dyke. Oh reclaiming of dyke/faggot is also a more recent change. Relating to the point below!

25) What queer discourse frustrates you the most?

The thing is. Queer history has to be sought out, and so many young queer people (or older, sure!) don't really have context around queer community struggling together and being intertwined. Discourse that feels very on-paper to me such as transmascs and lesbians not sharing community, bi vs pan, or discourse that weaves in other kinds of oppression like cis gay men being transphobic/misogynistic/racist etc. is frustrating. Our struggles are all woven together, and so is our liberation. And so is everyones!! Seeing in fighting online about how to appeal to cishet people or who's allowed to use what terms or be in what spaces feels like we're going backwards sometimes. We have important things that can be learned from one another, we have overlapping experiences and battles, we have been called overlapping slurs, and we must help one another to get anywhere in this god damn world. Talk to queer people that are older than you, younger than you, live in different parts of the world than you. Read anything you can online or at the library about queer history. We're all in this thing together and you can disagree with someone and still be in community with them.

35) How do you deal with frustrating people like homophobes and transphobes or people just being generally shitty towards the lgbtq+ community?

If it's online block their ass. Some Marco lore is that a guy in highschool stalked me for about 7 years and posted details about me on 4chan including pictures of me and where I went to school and worked. Just because I'm trans. Block them. I do think there is some value in arguing online, to practice getting uncomfortable and to signal to others that there's someone on their side, but I wouldn't recommend it generally.

A lot of my answers here are going to intertwine, but the best thing I can recommend is a robust support system. Friends, family, coworkers, pets, therapists, etc. Having people who love you helps with emotional battles, and with physical safety.

[arcane-vagabond]

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[unproduciblesmackdown]

also if only the physical copy of how to disappear completely & never be found i first encountered & read a few years ago (sort of [roughly avg age ten] reader book, not any similarly titled How To) hadn't disappeared completely & not been found since, probably b/c i put it somewhere i intended to be For Safekeeping, which is also how my binder vanished....b/c it's one of those like. those book for late elementary/middle school readers when they just weave in this unrealism which makes for a delightful range & unpredicability? and with a cynical protagonist girl like off to the races like wow her mom is depressed asf & smoking? and it's about A Family History Secrets Mystery so blatantly a haunting that the inciting incident is basically introducing a haunted [family history secrets mystery] house. and spoilers don't matter like it's stemming from there being this missing uncle who grew up so in contrast to the Winsome Winning Sibling Who Does It All Right while seeing his own affiliation with rats that he tried to disappear completely & never be found which led to this Tragedy which led to this more unintended disappearance of his & he haunts this house & wants to be left alone & only goes out at night with this [ambiguous Is That A Giant Rat Or Weird Small Dog (protagonist affected by these family situations who expresses her preoccupation with an awareness of how fate can Strike and Get you with this interest with roving packs of killer chihuahuas. people think she's weird though she spontaneously befriends this other girl struck with this bolt from the blue & a bit weird / outcast & then Insightful who i wish was in it more)] & plays into the hauntedness danger like playing into the [something's Wrong with you then] until having to take yet more action where the urge to express the truth comes out more both b/c living that hidden is more threatened but also b/c now the niece children are more threatened as well. ft. a sort of preternatural blurring of time b/c of only being communicated with through this uncle via his comic pages (that he paints?) of dubiously accurate translations of irl events that are created so quickly it seems to verge on foresight, imagine like "hmm what's this painting. it's me standing in this room looking at this painting??? as someone ominous lurks in the shadows right behind me?" in both [now how could you know this & paint it really fast ahead of time] and [horror]

[website-com]

devastating: the feminist essay didnt actually watch the movie

[astralmarionette]

finished rereading and annotating Great Gatsby. Daisy and Tom make me sick /non negative.

[killjoy-prince]

Fanfiction with dialogue so good you clearly hear it in the character's voice

[snaileer]

Let’s say it again, for the people in the back:

🎼✨✨If you are inconsiderate,

People are allowed to be annoyed. ✨✨🎼

not to be a killjoy but it's still crazy to me that it's considered mean to be like "maybe you should read / play / watch the source material before creating fanworks and diving into the fandom" bc every time i see somebody going "i havent played disco elysium or know anything about it tbh but uwu here's harry and kim kissing" idk maybe you should engage with it. maybe you should play the anti-capitalist surrealist game where you investigate the murder of a mercenary who led the gang rape of a foreign girl and process that for a bit? and then you can do cutesy mlm or whatever idc. but like at the absolute bare minimum you should understand what the source material involves otherwise we get the phenomenon of people joining a dragon age server and wanting content warnings for like, mage racism. like it's fine to ship and transform the genre into whatever but if you arent comfortable with discussions of the actual source content itself then maybe the fandom isnt for you and a different one is. peace and love.

[yossariansliverpain]

im forgetting japanese so rapidly but i have zero motivation for it anymore. i have absolutely no use for it so if i wanted to know it id have to spend hours studying every week n get nothing out of it really. like i have a japanese friend but my japanese skills have always been too shit to have a conversation so we just use english. my only motivations r being upset that im forgetting a skill n the embarrassment of not knowing it when i keep telling my friend im studying

its just way too annoying. i cant self-teach at all, the only lessons i could find were a nightmare to get to n i couldnt understand how to learn the material, im functionally illiterate n barely know any words so i cant practice w media, n learning kanji n vocab is completely impossible bc no matter how many times i go thru flashcards it just falls straight back out of my head. like i can study for hours then come back the next day n know nothing

theres other languages i want to learn but i think its just impossible. i dont think im capable of learning any complex skill or any kind of information. no amount of studying makes me learn anything bc i just forget everything immediately unless i have a continuous practical use for it. and u cant use languages for anything unless ur already semi-fluent. this is something im just going to die being upset abt and any time i struggle to use my pathetic skills i can remember how many pages i used to b able to write n what long conversations i had in exams

[mechanicalprincette]

hhhhhhhhhhhh

[1031am]

chat is it gay af for me to change my first name to spencer bc i imprinted on spencer reid at a young age like a baby duck? lmfao