#ive sat on this ask too long boop

[dunkinbublin]

personally i think big and storm should be besties

big is everyones friend

[magicalthoughtsendinterriblefics]

Fangirl, Interrupted - Becca’s Saturday

Summary: Have you ever felt like you’re too far up your fandoms that you’re not really living your real life? Well, that. But more.

Word Count: 1,817

Pairings: Dean x reader, Sherlock x reader

Warnings: You’re not gonna like it. Sudden fandom changes, bit of smut which is not really smutty, lazy writing, suicidal attempt, usage of drugs and alcohol, OOC scenes. 

Original A/N: Because of who I am, I like to exaggerate everything. With that being said, let me tell you that this is how I felt for many years, with multiple fandoms. I have lived a tortous life, therefore I was always seeking to live somewhere else. Almost all of my childhood and teenage years were an on-going loop between my fake life inside my fandoms and my real life. I barely remember anything now outside that make-pretend life I created for myself.  Now I am living my life, in a way that I can no longer hide inside that fake life. Call it what you want. Anxiety is coming back to me, fyi, and I tried to hide there but I just can’t. This is my way of expressing it. The Girl, Interrupted theme is because I watched it yesterday after performing Lisa’s monologue at my acting class - a way of giving therapy to myself through art. Anyway, I hope you don’t read this fic. I didn’t like it at all, but I feel the need, nonetheless, to share it somewhere. To have evidence that I went through that. Probably, someone out there has too. Idk.

New A/N: I wrote this MONTHS ago, long before I got diagnosed, and I got scared of posting it because it could be too depressing. But I hate leaving drafts all alone so here goes nothing.

Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought you were moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy… Maybe it was loneliness…

“Put her in restraints!” A woman yelled. “Withdraw blood… Give her five milligrams of Valium, IV”

“Turn her head so she doesn’t aspirate,” another woman advised. I felt my head being turned by a pair of terribly warm hands.

I was attacked. I had been attacked.

“You should check my hand. There’s no bones in it anymore…”

“What were you thinking?” The first woman asked.

“I was trying to save the world…” I replied, “Don’t worry, you’ll thank me later.”

Sometimes it’s hard for me to stay in one place.

“Hey,” I opened my eyes at the familiar voice. The image at first was blurry, but I could recognize the colors of their flannel shirts. My back was killing me, and my arms felt numb. “(Y/N) are you okay?”

“Yo, sweetheart! Wake up!” A rough voice called out. I could see his red flannel.

Red flannel. Dean was wearing a red flannel, and Sam had the green one. That could only mean one thing…

I looked down at my own clothes, I was wearing a brown flannel.

I smiled childishly, and my vision finally cleared. Both men were staring at me, worried. “I’m home,” is all I could say.

Dean sighed and rolled his eyes, Sam smiled back at me.

“Yes, you are,” he said, “you’re home with us. Where else would you be?”

“At a hospital or some shit,” I replied.

“We don’t do no hospitals, sweetheart,” Dean reminded me from afar.

“Did we get him? The djinn?” I inquired, with wide eyes.

“Yup,” Sam nodded.

Dean appeared back again, handing me a cold beer. It was closed. Sam took my hand and guided it to my forehead, so I could press the bottle to my forehead. I was probably wounded there too.

“We Jafar-ed the shit out of him,” Dean snorted. Sam inhaled profoundly, as an attempt to not slap his brother. “I Jas-min that we almost didn’t make it…” Dean continued, “but enough Abu me,” he giggled, “how was your daydream, sweetheart? Where’d Iago?”

“Please, stop,” Sam begged. Dean tried to argue but Sam was already looking back at me. “But do tell us where did you go?”

“I…”

“Where did you go?”

“(Y/N)” a strong light blinded me for a second. I suddenly felt something in my eyes, pulling them open. “(Y/N), we’re calling you!” The voice chanted. “Hello, Earth requires Ms (Y/N)...”

“Wha-what?” I stuttered, pulling away from the light.

The scenery had changed. I was no longer at a motel room with awful wallpaper, but instead at a very nice living room, though the wallpaper was still awful.

“Are you okay?” The man that had been calling my name asked. He kneeled in front of me.

“Are you real?” I tilted my head to the side, and he smiled tenderly.

“As real as your nose,” he said and booped my nose. His touch was soft and warm.

“What happened?”

“You fainted,” another voice answered. I looked back, only to see the familiar figure of Sherlock sitting on his desk, typing furiously on his computer. “I told you not to get too close to the evidence, but did you listen? No, why?” He gazed back, “Because ‘oh Sherlock, don’t be so stern, it’s just a flower bouquet!’ but I was right, as usual.”

“Let her breath,” Watson commanded. “We both smelled it too and nothing bad happened.”

“Yes, but so did the police officers… All male, I must remind you” Sherlock snapped. “The flowers were sent to a woman who, where is she now? Oh, yes, DEAD!”

“I don’t get it,” I interfered.

“I suspect the flowers are poisoned with some sort of chemical that only affects women, by reacting to their production of hormones.” Sherlock informed me.

“Right… And what does that have to do with your intoxication?” The female voice asked again.

I suddenly snapped back to the hospital. I was laying in a hospital bed, with lots of tubles connected to me. There was a woman in white, sitting by my side with a notepad on her lap.

“Well, obviously I’ve been affected… It’s the flowers, you see…” I spoke.

“Flowers? What flowers?” The nurse, she was a nurse, asked again.

“The poisoned flowers!”

“Do you see them now?” She inquired.

“Of course not!”

“No?”

The djinn stood behind her. “Say no,” he said with an ominous voice.

“No,” I obeyed.

The nurse looked behind her and the djinn disappeared instantly. “Are you seeing anything out of the ordinary at the moment?”

“No, why would I? I’m not crazy,”

“At this point, I wouldn’t be surprised if you were…” Dean sighed. He was sitting by my side, in bed, and was connecting his phone to the charger. “I am a little crazy too, you know?”

“Oh, yeah?” I trembled.

“Yeah,” he muttered and finally let go off his phone. He turned to look at me for a second before cuddling me. I was the small spoon, he was shirtless. “I’m crazy about you.”

“Smooth,” I replied sheepishly. I could feel the ghost of his arms around me… Ghost, because I couldn’t really feel him. He was hot, yet cold as if air was blowing over my skin.

“Are you okay?” Dean asked.

“I am.”

I wasn’t. I’m not okay.

“Good night, sweetheart,” he whispered and pecked my shoulder. Again, I felt it but not quite.

“Dean?”

“Huh?” I closed my eyes, not wanting to see what would happen after I said what I wnated to say.

“I feel like I’m still inside the djinn’s daydream,” I confessed.

Dean sat up and fixed a lose strand of hair that was falling over my eyes.

“You’re not inside a djinn’s daydream…” He said, calmly.

“How can you tell?” I asked, still not opening my eyes.

“Because djinns don’t exist, that’s why,” he said.

I finally opened my eyes. Black locks and blue eyes were all I could see for a moment.

“Djinns are mythological, and that is all…” Sherlock continued. I could hear his voice turning from Dean’s to his own. “I understand that maybe the toxins from the flowers could affect your perception of life, but there is nothing to fear. The effects will pass and you’ll be good as new.”

“I don’t feel good as new.”

“Clearly,” he grunted.

Noticing my state, he decided to go a little further from his usual behaviour. He pressed his head to my arm… I was still laying on my side, as if I was still being the small spoon.

“I will be here, by your side, as long as you let me.”

My heart fluttered, but not in love but rather in pain.

“I can’t control that.”

“The pills are having a positive effect on her now, we can get her to be conscious for a bit longer than before…” I heard a voice coming from the hall.

“What is that?” I asked. Sherlock tilted his head.

“What?” He furrowed, “I don’t hear anything.”

“Well, I do.”

I got up from bed and opened the door. At the other side of it was a hospital hall rather than Sherlock’s. All white, with blinding white lights. The nurse was talking to what I assumed was a doctor.

I felt like I would faint again.

Sherlock got up as well and dragged me back to the bed, closing the door behind us.

“You know what could help?” He smirked. “I know… Because I know you.”

He got me back in bed, facing up to the ceiling. I was about to talk, when I felt him pulling down my pijama shorts. A sigh left my lips, as I felt his tongue rubbing my clit in circles. I closed my eyes, filled with pleasure, and tried to keep it quiet so neither Mrs Hudson nor Watson could hear us.

“Come here,” I begged after a while.

I opened my eyes and saw Dean crawling up to my face. His tattoo was covered in sweat and his hair was ruffled.

“You thought I would just leave it there, sweetheart?” He flirted and, without a warning, he thrust inside me. “You feel good today… Tight, and so wet for me…”

I moaned, getting lost in his green eyes. I wanted to kiss him, but I couldn’t.

I didn’t even feel his weight over me.

I blinked.

TARDIS.

I blinked again.

Dean was looking at me, dumbfounded as he made love to me.

I shook my head and closed my eyes again, letting my body fall back into the pillows as I succumbed to the pleasure he… they were giving me. I called both of their names in between whispers until I climaxed.

I sighed and opened my eyes.

I was in my room. Darkness surrounded me. I was alone, and my fingers were still between my legs.

I wiped them quickly with the bed sheets and took my phone to googled Dean Winchester’s name, only to find out that he was not being looked at by the US government, but rather a fictional character. Not only that, but I saw pictures of him in the most intimate moments… Moments I could recall from living them with him.

I clicked on one of his pictures.

Jensen Ackles… Married.

I clicked on Sam’s.

Married.

I clicked on Castiel’s.

Married.

They were all married. Click by click I undercovered the lie I was living in.

“But what about Sher?” I thought to myself.

I googled him. Fictional character, based on the books by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle.

There he was, my Sherlock, next to others who had also played him.

“I thought I was in a hospital,” I whispered.

“Maybe it’s just your unconscious mind asking to be treated by a professional.” Castiel’s voice spoke.

“Maybe it’s because that is where you’re going,” Sam gestured to the side of my bed. A bottle of vodka laid there empty, next to empty sets of aspirins.

“Is there an end to this?” I asked.

“I’m afraid not,” Jim Moriarty spoke from the darkness. “But aren’t you having fun?”

“What if I die?” I insisted.

“You won’t,” Sherlock said, “you still got enough energy to call an ambulance for yourself.”

“Please do,” Watson begged softly.

I grabbed my phone and dialed the number.

“I need an ambulance…”

“We’ll see you on the other side, sweetheart.” Dean smiled with a glimpse of sadness.

“I love you, guys.”

Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought you were moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy… Maybe it was loneliness… Or maybe I was just a fangirl… Interrupted.

No tags for this one.

[vangoddamn]

Road trip

Van + y/n + car = road-trip

Warnings: none

You’d started the road-trip in your shared home in Leeds planning on going as south as possible to St Ive's bay. You had been there as a kid and wanted to share the place with Van, both deciding as it was a six-hour journey you’d spread it out.

 You’d gone through Chester, obviously visiting the zoo, where you’d make fun of Van when he got scared of the wild birds that flew around freely. “Babe, no they’re gonna attack me!” He screamed at you making you belly laugh in hysterics. 

“Awww, is my boy scared of the birds?” you cooed walking up to him as he wrapped an arm around your waist. You tiptoed to look up at him at eye level before booping him on the nose with your ice cream. “Come on, I wanna see the elephants,” You said, placing a kiss to his cheek and taking his hand leading him towards your favourite animals.

You took hundreds of pictures of him next to enclosures, enjoying it when the giraffe tried to eat his hair. You saved these for your next stop, Llandudno, where you’d show Mary whilst Van cringed into the crook of your neck, holding you tightly from behind. You always enjoyed visiting Vans home town, seeing all the places he grew up and chatting to his parents about the stupid things he did back then. It made you feel slightly weird though, to think that at some point you had lived separate lives. 

You carried on your journey, stopping in on little old English towns, taking Polaroids of Van doing stupid things in front of landmarks. He was sweet and made the trip even better than it already was. Taking in turns to drive, blasting out new and old tunes, in the evening letting you sleep until we found a hotel which would take you without booking. You could say it spontaneous or unorganised, but we didn’t plan each day, only with the end goal of that childhood beach.

Every hotel you chose was beautiful, some of them fancy and posh but most were homely and quaint. The kind of thing you’d see on the cover of country home magazine, big stone cottages with ivy growing up the walls. The smell of fresh flowers in every room and soft crisp linens. The people you had met were sweet and kind, offering you to come and stay another time always commenting on how” Your such a lovely couple” and pointing out the Van looked at you with “lovesick eyes”.

The last stop before Cornwall was Exeter. It was a beautiful city, full of history and building’s that looked like they all held their own story. You tried to stay there as long as possible, meandering through the streets finding little book shops and cafes where you could spend all day in. The streets were cobbled and there were fountains in the middle of wide alleyways in which independent shops lined. It was the sort of place you felt as though you fitted in, withyour summer dress on in the heatwave and woven sandals. Soon though it was late afternoon and you wanted to get to St Ive's today. 

Van smiled at you in the car as you stared out the window, knowing how much you were enjoying your little adventure. “You're so cute,” He drew you out of your daydream. 

“I didn’t do anything,” You giggled, confused at his little comment, feeling your cheeks tinged red.

“just are, aren’t ya,” he glanced at you, trying to keep his eyes on the road but failing.

“You're so dumb,” you commented back at him, smiling to yourself, turning up the music and returning your gaze out of the window. It was a day of blue skies and you were sad to swap your city ambling for the car, even if it was with the beautiful boy sat next to you.

The sun was starting to set in the sea, golden hour and everything seemed hazy. The light streamed through the car window and filtered orangey tones through Van's hair and brought out the features of his face. It made you smile, leaning into the window on your side watching your boyfriend drive in this perfect picture.

He noticed your staring, moving his left hand to rest on your thigh, rubbing it gently. His touch was cool, unlike the warm atmosphere which surrounded you both from the sweltering day. It was still hot outside due to the unusual British heatwave and it had created the most picturesque evening. Every night on your road trip had been beautiful but now that you were nearing your destination, it felt that little bit more special.

You'd planned on catching the sea before it got dark, excited to get in the water and swim around with Van. The scenery had changed half an hour ago, from the motorway to countryside back roads. The sea was visible and as you got closer you could smell the salt in the air, filling your senses and taking you back to your childhood. Van turned into a little cove, parking the car, looking in your direction with a cheerful smile on his face.

You practically dragged him out of the car, grabbing the bag which was ready to go in the boot. Van took your hand, letting you walk him down the small path, following the signs towards the beach. The path was small and it weaved steeply down through the shrubbery and vegetation to your beloved cove. The sun was still high enough for the light to be a warm glow surrounding the two of you. 

“Look how pretty it is,” you sighed, turning to look at Van, who was looking at you with adoration adorned in is eyes. He looked tired from the driving and you smiled when he pulled you into his arms.

“Nearly as pretty as you love.” He whispered in your hair, slowly moving to tilt your face up to look at his. 

you giggled at his comment, leaning up to kiss him before running off towards the sea laughing away, carelessly discarding your clothes on the empty beaches soft golden sand. He ran after you, him to undressing on his way over to you, ending up falling over after his skinny jeans wouldn’t come off. Van wasn’t what some may say ‘smooth’ in your words more ‘goofy’. as he rolled around half-naked in the sand calling for your help. You, of course, denied him of that privilege, running away into the ocean.

It splashed into your body, toes wriggling in the sand as the water got deeper and you adjusted to the temperature. It was quite cold now but the air was hot, the contrast meeting each other to calm both down. You hadn't noticed, more interested in the water, that Van had caught up and was now behind you. He wrapped his arms around your waist, resting his head in your neck. Kissing soft lines along the collar bone, sending shivers through your body.

"you cold?" He asked you, making you smile because he didn't know that it was him making you shiver, him alone.

"no, I'm perfect!" You replied holding the hands which had met yours on your belly.

"hmm you are," he mumbled into your skin, quiet for a second before lifting you up, laughing whilst tickling and teasing you. He tossed you around in the water, shocking you half laughing.

"Vaan!" You screamed at him, trying to break free, prying his fingers off your waist.

"fine then!" He huffed, you realised what he was going to do before it was too late and he let go of your body, dropping you into the water. It was colder when your whole body was in and you were furious at him, jumping on his back, trying to drag him under, but obviously, he was twice as heavy as you meaning you did nothing other than making him laugh at you. 

“You're so mean to me!” You whined in his ear trying to drag him down, although now you were just wrapped around his back tightly.

"I could never" he huffed, staring into the sun which was now nearly gone, reflecting orange into the sea. 

"Thanks for bringing me back here Van," You thanked him, placing a kiss to his neck.

"Thanks for letting me," He whispered back smiling up at you. And in truth, you probably wouldn't want to share this place with anyone else other than Van.

A/n: So.. this is adorable hope you enjoyed cause, I actually want a roadtrip with Van now?! So I’ve had a couple of you lovely people send requests in and I just wanna say thanks so much! It just warms my heart up when you guys send me your thoughts and dreams I just wanna write them all down for ya! So once again Thanks my lovelies xx Em

[oh-sweet-mama]

Leaving my side Pt.2 (Ben solo at the end)

T.W:Sex, talk of death, slight angst

TROS spoilers 

3rd person

Awaking with a soft sound of an alarm ringing through the room, y/n stretched, only to be pulled into a warm embrace.

"Don't leave." Kylo mumbled against her neck.

"I have to go on your scouting mission." She retorted.

"Mhmm 5 more minuets. That girl can wait." Kylo mumbled back.

Y/n reached out and set the timer for 5 minutes. Sighing in content Kylo rests his head on her chest. Listening to her breathing and soft thud of her heartbeat.

Y/n played with Kylo's soft raven hair. It was fluffy in the morning and silky. Kylo's nimble fingers lazily danced along the smooth skin of y/n lower stomach.

The alarm went off in a blink of an eye.

"Don't go." Kylo mumbled. "I have the day off!"

"Well- you wanted me out there finding your girl." Y/n stated.

"Wha- you're my girl." Kylo mumbled sleepily.

"Sure Ren, I'll be back shortly, enjoy your day off." Y/n kissed Kylo's forehead before walking into the bathroom and starting her shower.

Her stomach twisted. There was something wrong.

Listen here child-

Y/n's heart beat quickened.

Your boy will die at the end of this day- so will that girl- and it will be your fault.

She shook the voice out of her ears. Quickly getting dressed and rushed to the door. Before exiting the shared room y/n looked over at Kylo. Fearing this is the last time she will see him.

She knows this is true deep down, but she decided to not accept the fact. She boarded the tie fighters and set out following the coordinates.

Kylo awoke feeling nauseous. He got up and got ready for the day.

Walking up the bridge of his command ship he announced his brief speech.

"I'm going on a mission, tell me at once when Y/n gets back with the girl at once." Kylo's voices modulator boomed.

Boarding his tie fighter Kylo set out for a planet, hoping to find a way finder he'd been looking for far to long.

——— (skip to the battle of exogol)

Kylo's heart races he never heard from his command ship weather or not y/n got back. Fighting off the knights of Ren. Rey appears.

Nodding in reassurance, Rey passed Luke's lightsaber to him. A new fire burned in Ben. Eradicating Kylo. He sprints to the throne room.

A force brings him to his knees. His life force being ripped out of him. Evil cackles fill the room as palpatine rises.

Ben motionless on the cold stone. His breathing was shallow.

Rise Kylo you've got this I love you.

Y/n's voice rings in his ear. Getting up onto his feet he swings his saber only to be flung back.

——

A orange x wing swings in knowing an exactly where to hit the star destroyers.

Her gut churred. Kylo? Ben?

She reached her mind out.

Rise Kylo you've got this I love you.

She sensed Rey.

"Shit!" Y/n slammed her fist down on her dash board. "Fuck!"

Her heart was shattering. Knowing Kylo had found the girl. She punched her X-wing in to advanced war mode. Taking out yet another star destroyer alone.

The rest of the X-wing fleet watched in awe as the rouge plane took down star destroyers.

"Some one radio that X- Wing!" Poe demanded.

Y/n opened her radio to all channels.

"Listen. Resistance. First order. Rebels. I don't give a fuck. I will take every singe one of these star destroyers down. One. By. One." ———-

Ben cradled Rey. She lay motionless.

Ben slowly passed his dwindling life force to her.

"Ben?" Rey whispered.

"Yea- yea it's me."

Rey cupped Ben's cheek and leaned into to gently kiss him.

"Shit shit shit-" y/n muttered. Time seemed to slow. Her X- Wing was out of fuel. She had to land. Y/n felt the connect between Ben and Rey complete "Goodbye Ben."

She took the landing to hot.

Ben felt the gaping hole in his chest. Tears poured.

"No!"

"Ben? Ben what's wrong?" Rey asked.

"Nothing- nothing- I've got to get you home." Ben felt lightheaded, before letting go he falls back as the world fades out. Rey catching his head.

Ben- my son- rise. Your fight is not over yet.

The noise is the cave was silent. Rey watched in anticipation.

Ben took a breath. Opening his eyes. His face was colorless. Rey stood Bens' arm over her shoulder. Most of his weight on her. Limping back to Reys X-wing Ben settles Rey on his lap, taking off glancing over for one last look at the dying planet before jumping into hyper space.

Rolling onto her back, y/n watched as the last X-wing jumped into hyperspace.

"Ben?" Y/n whispered. She felt his pull slowly fade away. She couldn't feel her legs. Where are my legs? Limbs felt like they were cemented to the rough planet.

"Hey! Kid!" A figure loomed over her. "Y/n! Kid! What happened?"

"Perit? My- my X-wing..." the world was getting darker, and the surrounding world started to fade.

"Shit- kid! Let's go." perit gently picked the frail girl up and set her down on a cot back on the ship. "Damn kid we need to stop the bleeding on this leg."

———

"Alright master Ben, here are your personal quarters, meal time is anonymous and you may join when you wish." The small aid instructed.

"Thank you." Ben said softly.

"No problem master Ben, have a wonderful evening." The aid Instructed.

He sat on his bed after he heard the aid leave and her boots recede down the hall. That's when he let it all go.

Sobs bounced off of the walls. Bens entire being trembled with pain.

"Y/n... please-" Ben sobbed. He curled up into his pillow, on top of the covers and let the tears flow. "You- can't leave me here alone." —— Ben spent days in his quarters alone. Often crying silently. Only wandering the halls late at night to find small packaged snacks.

"Shit- ow-" y/n grumbled rubbing the back of her head. "Wha- where am I?"

"You're back at the resistance base kid- ya' did it kid- that wars' over." Perit congratulates.

"You got me back here?"

"Yea- I uh saw your X- wing go down- so I went down to scoop you up- I'm sorry about the X- Wing kid- I got your droid out fine though. An your-"

"Shit my leg!" Y/n panicked.

"You're fine kid I made you a prosthetic. Just try to wear shorts or baggy clothing I'll make you a better one promise." Perit soothed.

"Yea- we can rebuild the X-wing too, I've had my eyes on an old one from the first war for a while." Y/n chewed her lip. "Want to go back to base? I need to speak to a few people, how long was I out?"

"About a good 4 weeks, I feed you and got an Iv in but that's about it. I'll stick around here and fix up your leg some more."

"I- wow. Thank you Perit." Y/n slowly rose to her feet, regaining her bearings. She slowly waded out of the ship, often stopping and leaning on a nearby tree. Y/n had rightened her posture, slowly making it through a small crowd of people.

Ben followed Poe, Rey, and Finn. Quietly observing. Feeling lingering stares. His mother had left them a small 'scavenger hunt' to help them meet some of the important places and people around the base.

"The girl you're looking for stays at a ship outside the boundaries of the base. I haven't seen or hear of her since the battle of exogol." Demi explained.

"Shit- fuck!" Y/n stumbled around her leg getting caught on random items on the ground. "Hey! Lore!"

"Oh my stars you're ok!" Another blonde girl embraced her.

"Oh- there she is- her is name is y/n," Ben's stomach dropped. Y/n? "you should follow her back to her ship- she doesn't look to good. Make sure Perits' around."

"Thank you Demi." Poe thanked. "Damn Leia really has us following a drunk girl back to a ship."

Ben noticed her leg. It seemed to be a piece of hollow metal with very basic joints, connected to the base of her knee.

After collecting supplies, y/n had better bearings. Now walking straight and seeing clearly. However her force connection was still off, unable to sense the party of people following.

"I'm back Perit-"

"Hey uh- y/n-" Poe reaches out.

"Yea? Fuck! I don't have anything for you!" Y/n turned around to be faced with Poe's confused one. Her features dropped. "Sorry for my tone Admiral. I- I thought someone else was following me."

Y/n bowed at the waist.

She turned around, but tripped on a spare part. Dropping all of the supplies she had bundled under her jacket.

"S-sorry- I'll go get the letter." She stumbled away. Picking up loose supplies.

Ben watched in awe as his nimble lover walked away, she seemed to be raised from the dead.

She dug through a small basket of journals. Drawings falling out occasionally. Y/n retrieved the lose artwork.

Beep boop trill?

"Yes the letter I'm looking for the letter from Admiral Leia." Y/n explained to her droid.

The droid opened the panel on the belly then a formally wrapped letter popped out.

"Here sorry for the delay." Y/n apologized "I'm Y/n y/m/n Kenobi, I assisted Admiral Leia, I am not at your service, however I was formally asked to assist master Ben."

Ben's heart skipped beats when his named rolled off of her tongue like honey.

"You! You're the one that is messing with me and Bens' bond!" Rey stormed up to y/n.

"What do you mean?"

"Don't act stupid! You know!"

"Rey sit!" Ben demands.

"I didn't do anything. 3 years ago, admiral Leia sent me on a spy mission straight into the lions den. The first order. I knew she wanted me to bring her son back, but that was never an order. When I first came into contact with Kylo Ren I felt a pull to him. The force wanted me and Ben together. Not Ben and Rey. However I would never get Ben back to The light if I told him this. The force bonds began to connect us. I sensed Reys power of a palpatine." Y/n paused, rubbing her palms together.

Poe, and Finn leaned into Y/n intrigued in her story.

Y/n continued, "I forced a connection between Rey and Ben. To get Ben back. I sacrificed my life for this. I wasn't even supposed to make it off of exogol. Leia knew that Rey was just a scavenger with a complicated past. I was once a scavenger too, on planet of Tatoonie. I'm sorry. I was think about the fate of the galaxy. Not feelings. If I wouldn't have eradicated Kylo Ren, the entire galaxy would be gone."

It was silent. Quiet. Even the droids were holding their breath.

"Oh Y/n" Ben rose to his feet walking over to her. And wrapping his arms around her, "I- I thought I lost you. I felt you go down- I felt the X- wing go down. I felt the bond too, but I didn't know if it was just me falling for you. Which I did anyways."

Light airy chuckles escaped Ben.

"Ben. Ben not here. We must get you back to base. Quickly before the creatures roam their native land." Y/n quickly taking Bens hand and a flashlight. Her prosthetic was uneven from the other real leg. Causing her to have a limp.

——

After wishing goodnight to Poe and Finn. Ben felt Rey's lingering stare. She had fallen for him. But Ben is confused and hurt. He needed someone he could trust.

Y/n had controlled the information passed between the force bond.

Ben punched in his code gently pulling Y/n into his quarters.

"I- I thought I lost you." Ben repeated.

"I know, I know." Y/n soothed. Ben sobbed softly before gently pulling Y/n into his lap. Gently caressing the cool metal of her prothetic, it reminded him of when she used to kiss his mask.

"Be careful of my leg I don't want to hurt you."

"You'll never hurt me."

Flipping positions, Ben gently kissed down her neck.

"I better mark you up." Ben growled lowly.

Pulling her shirt off over y/n's head he kissed a faint line of hickeys down her chest. Before unclasping her bra.

Ben attached his mouth to her right nipple while applying pressure to the other one.

"Shit Ben-"

He traveled down.

"Only shorts huh?"

"Oh shut up- I can't wear pants till I get a better prosthetic."

"Mhmm trying to temp me?"

"Hmm no."

Ripping her shorts and panties off in one slide, Ben crawled back up to kiss her lips hungrily. Y/n wrapped her arms gently around his neck pulling him deeper into their kiss.

Though he kissed down her jaw leaving light hickeys.

"I've missed you." He moans lightly against her collar bone.

"So have I Ben-"

Ben makes dark hickeys down her sternum and along the valley of her breasts. As he makes his way to her heat, gentle love bite shook pleasure through Y/n.

"Shit- Ben." Y/n moaned. Truth be told Ben loves her moans, even as Kylo. He's never heard something so sweet and innocent even when he was sinning between her thighs.

Ben continued down her stomach and onto her thighs. Passing her throbbing core.

"Ben please-" Y/n hated to beg, but she needed. The burning desire and passion she's held back so long was finally freed. She was Bens' and Ben was hers'.

Ben finally landed a simple kiss to her clit. Before launching his attack of love. Licking a long stripe up her core she clutches the sheets. Every whimper goes straight to Ben's cock.

His pants getting tighter by the second. Teasing her entrance with his finger he sucks harshly at her clit. Earning her Moans and whimpers of pleasure to bounce off the walls.

Y/n's nimble fingers rake through Ben's hair lightly tugging.

"Ben- please." She lightly tugged him up to her face. The tip of his nose and lips slick with arousal .

"Always so good for me baby girl." The praise goes straight to y/n's awaiting core.

"Please- fuck me Ben."

"As you wish." He slips his pants off followed by his shirt tossing them somewhere in the room. Ben laces his fingers into hers, before slowly pushing into her.

"F-fuck. Shit- princess- always taking this cock so good." Ben moans. The praises wet y/n further.

"Ben!" Y/n moans, feeling complete with his hips flush against hers. "Please go-" Y/n whimpers.

Ben starts a slow maddening rhythm before starting to pound into her. Releasing his grip on her hands, on hand flies to her to the other resting on the head board.

Stars dance in y/n's vision. Before she knew it her high was within reach.

"Ben I'm close." She moans.

"I know princess go ahead I'm almost there." Ben bucks his hips into hers before coating her walls with his seed. Gently pulling out her fishes a new pair of boxers out of his drawer and one of his tunics. Followed by a damp cloth to clean the arousal off of both of them.

After getting cleaned up. Ben hands y/n his tunic, relishing how small she appears in them. He pulls the Boxers up his strong legs, the. Retrieved a fresh warm blanket to wrap themselves in.

Slipped into the bed with the drowsy Y/n.

"Cuddles?"

"Of course princess."

Ben cradled her in his arms the blanket snuggled close to them. Ben felt- happy? His heart was warm, just like her. He was truly happy and in love, for the first time.

[an-unknown-writers-world]

Expecting

Day Twenty-Four: Santa Claus

Part of @panicfob​​ 25 Days of Christmas Challenge

Warnings: Angst – because what’s a Christmas Eve without it.

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader (First Person, nameless)

Characters: Bucky Barnes, Sam Wilson, Pepper Potts, Morgan Stark, Bruce Banner (Not Professor Hulk because he freaks me out)

Word Count: 1619

A/N: So I lied- This will be a three parter, finishing up on Christmas day. I got a little carried away with this one. If you missed any of this series, you can find it here – Masterlist. Part one of this can be found here – Unexpected.

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Opening my eyes, I found myself in a dark unfamiliar room. A lukewarm ice pack on my forehead and the dull throb in the back of my head brought back my last memory. I had always known I could be a bit dramatic, but fainting was definitely a first for me. It was a lot to absorb, it shouldn’t have been so completely unexpected, but it was something I never thought possible with Bucky.

Bucky.

Did he know? Did Pepper tell him that’s why I fainted? Looking around I realized I must be in a guest room at Peppers. I needed to get up, figure out my next steps. I needed to find Bucky, I didn’t know what to tell him when I found him, but I needed him for my own comfort. With a heavy sigh I pulled myself up, my head throbbing worse.

“Don’t move too fast,” Bucky spoke softly. “You have a concussion.”

I screamed and nearly jumped out of my skin.

Moments like this where when I hated his assassin training the most. I thought the room had been empty, but in the shadows, I could see Bucky stand from the chair in the corner of the room.

“Sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you.” He hushed.

He sat on the edge of the bed, cradling my face in his flesh hand. It was warm and soothing, like chocolate chip cookies fresh from the oven on a cold day. Closing my eyes, I leaned into his touch, desperate for the comfort it provided. This could be the last of these precious moments between us for some time, maybe even the last ever. Once he knew, everything would change.

“How do you feel?” Bucky asked.

I hummed, “Better now.” I replied. It was mostly true; I was better with him around.

“Banner will be here soon.”

My eyes shot back open, “Oh,” I took his hand from my face, interlacing our fingers.

“It’s okay, he should be coming with some answers.” He assured me. “Pepper had already spoken to him about something, we did a blood sample while you were out. She had a currier take it to him right after.”

“Do you know what he’s looking for?” I asked hoping to get some insight into what Bucky knew.

“I don’t. I was too worried to ask.”

That statement broke my heart. “I’m okay, Buck.”

He looked down where our hands were intertangled, “I don’t know what I’d do if I lost you.”

I sighed, “Babe, c’ mere.” He laid his head against my shoulder. “I’m not going anywhere.”

“Tee, tee!” Morgan cheered running through the door.

Bucky pulled away and turned on the bedside table light.

“Sorry,” Pepper said coming to stand in the doorway. “She was too far gone when I tried to stop her.”

“It’s okay,” I smiled at Pepper. “Hey, baby girl.”

Bucky bent down to pick her up, setting her on the bed between us.

“Momma says I has to go bed,” Morgan stated.

“If you want Santa to come, she’s right.” I booped her nose.

She grinned ear to ear. “He’s really gonna come?”

My heart swelled at her childish excitement. “He sure is. Did you leave him cookies and carrots for the reindeer?” I asked.

“Momma, we gotta get busy,” Morgan shouted.

Bucky laughed, “Baby girl, the cookies for Santa are on the counter.” He reminded her.

“We’ll grab some carrots from the fridge.” Pepper said from the door. “It’s time for bed though. Say your goodnights please.”

Morgan crawled up in my lap wrapping her arms around my neck. It’s a good thing she wasn’t much bigger, or she would have strangled me. I squeezed her back, holding her tight.

“Merry Christmas baby girl,”

She pulled back and kissed my cheek, “Wuv you.”

I smiled back at her, “I love you more.”

“Come here, munchkin,” Bucky said grabbing hold of her.

“Tuck me in?” Morgan asked.

Bucky looked at me torn; I knew that he loved tucking her in.

“Go,” I said. “I’m fine.”

He scooped her up in his arms and took her from the room.

“Will you grab carrots for her?” Pepper asked as they walked by.

“Yes, where would you like us to put the cookies for Santa?” He asked.

“Next to the fireplace.” She replied. “Be good.” She directed at Morgan before kissing her forehead.

I heard their footsteps echo down the hall until Pepper came in and closed the door. I ran my hands down my face trying to clear my mind. Would Bucky be mad when he found out? He loved Morgan, and he was so good with her. Would it really be that different? I still couldn’t even get myself to think the words, let alone say them.

Pepper took Bucky’s spot on the bed.

“How bad is it?” I asked my hands still pressed to my forehead.

I could hear the emotion thick in her sigh. “I’m not going to lie. It’s not great. He was pretty upset when Bruce asked us to do the blood draw while you were unconscious. But it made sense for us to do it. Otherwise, he would have had to come over, do the draw and then go back to his lab and then come back again.”

I pulled my hands from my face, “Does Bruce know what he’s testing for?” I grimaced.

She nodded, “Bucky doesn’t though.”

“What does he think the test’s for?”

“Standard blood test to see if anything is out of the ordinary.”

I shrugged, “That makes sense.”  

A moment of silence passed between us. Hundreds of unasked questions passing between us.

“Thank you,” I broke the silence.

She smiled at me halfheartedly, “I wish it were under better circumstances.”

I nodded, “Me too. I really have no clue how he’s going to respond or even how to tell him.”

“I think he’ll be shocked at first, maybe even scared. Not that he’ll admit that. But I think he’ll be happy.”

There was a knock at the door.

“Come in,” Pepper yelled.

“Good evening ladies,” Bruce said opening the door.

“Hi Bruce,” I greeted.

“Please come in, close the door,” Pepper asked.

He closed the door and took a few steps to close the distance between us.

“Well, I’m just going to cut to the chase,” Bruce stated. “I’ve confirmed the results Pepper asked for. But you are severely dehydrated, and your iron is low which is part of your exhaustion.”

“Are you going to do an IV?” Pepper asked.

“I would like to.” He stated. “I know I haven’t been very present, but I feel like I need to ask this. Who’s is it?”

I laughed and Pepper looked at him shocked.

“You’re oblivious.” Pepper stated, shaking her head.

He still looked confused.

“Bucky,” I stated.

“Wow, I never.” He started and shook his head. “I never would have guessed that was possible.”

“Um,” I stuttered.

“No, no. Not the two of you. But for him, I didn’t think it was possible.”

“That makes three of us,” I mumbled.

Bruce’s eyes shot wide. “He didn’t think so either?”

“He said he wasn’t sure. But Bruce, please. He doesn’t know, I haven’t told him.” I explained. “I haven’t really told myself.”

“It’s not my place to tell him.”

I sighed, “Can you do the IV at the compound?” I asked.

He nodded. “Yes, I think I have everything I need in the lab there.”

“Okay, can you meet us there in about an hour?”

“Sure,” He agreed. “Is congratulation out of line?”

I smiled, “Not at all. Thank you, really. I hope I didn’t ruin your night.”

“I’ll see you soon. I’m assuming the code hasn’t changed?”

“Nothing's changed.” Pepper laughed.

He turned to find his way out the door, closing it behind him.

I let out a heavy sigh. “I guess it’s official.”

“I’d say this is a pretty great gift from Santa.” Pepper stated. “Not ideal timing, but all things considered.”

An idea popped in my head. “Do you still have the test?” I asked.

“Yes, I didn’t know what you wanted to with it.”

“I have an idea on how to tell Bucky.”

Pepper and I exchanged ideas and she offered to help prepare it before we left. She reassured me that everything would work out and told me how scared she was when she found out even though they had planned it. I wouldn’t have made it through this night without her and I was going to have to find a way to thank her.

When Bucky knocked on the door, Pepper excused herself to gather things for us to leave. Bucky told me about tucking in Morgan and reading her ‘The Night Before Christmas’. It was hard not to notice the way his face lit up when he talked about her; when I started to tear up, I blamed it on the exhaustion. Using that as a leeway into us needing to leave to meet Bruce.

Sam had pulled the car around the front of the house and took the cookie baskets Morgan made us to the car. We said our goodbyes and Pepper handed me a small gift bag; I whispered a silent thank you to her before stepping out the door. Only her and I knew the contents of that bag and it was terrifying to think about it. It was going to be a long drive back and an even longer night in the lab with Bruce. I would have to be sneaky about getting the gift bag onto Bucky’s bedside table while he was asleep. It would either be the best or worst Christmas present I ever gave, only time would tell.  

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Part Three- Christmas Wish 

[jflashandclash]

Traitors of Olympus IV: Fall of the Sun

Forty-Nine: Calex

Not Enough Lollipops

           Tension eased in Calex’s chest.

           “Oh titans, it’s a zombie,” the pile of Pax blankets squeaked. Pax’s head popped out of his bedding, looking a bit too close to the squirming kitten pile in Will’s arms. Calex could only see from Pax’s nose up, as he kept the rest of him buried thoroughly. His black and golden eyes were gleaming with hope. The crazy spikes of his overgrown fauxhawk spiraled out in wispy swirls. “You’re alive! I think! Please tell me you’re alive and not a ghost with a dead kitten! That would be way worse. Does that mean Ghost Boy isn’t spokes and shadows?!”

           Although everyone said that Will had died, Calex never saw the body. The idea of him being dead never really solidified and Will looked very much alive right now.

           “You,” Will growled. Pax squeaked and disappeared back into his pile of blankets. “You should be sleeping on your back. The position you’re in is going to disrupt the healing of your shoulder. You’ve already permanently lost mobility of one hand, do you really want to lose mobility of your whole other arm?”

           No response came from the Pax pile. Calex had to wonder if that dodgy prick was pretending to sleep.

           But the words hit hard. Permanently lost mobility.

           Calex tensed each muscle on his body. Although he was sore, he could feel how painful it was to move all of his limbs. When he glanced beside him and Merry, he saw a stack of bloody bandages, clean ones, and a pinkish tinted bowl of water.

           Will’s tired blue eyes narrowed at Leo. “This isn’t for a prank, is it? I have a lot of patients to tend to.”

           “Kitten cannons,” Leo said, “We’re testing new defenses since our old ones failed.”

           Will sighed and handed him the bundle of mewing kittens. “You’re lucky Chiron told me I needed to get out of the infirmary for fresh air.”

           This crowded room, Calex assumed, shouldn’t qualify as fresh air. He feared what the infirmary looked like.

           “Our party pony is up?” Merry squeezed Calex’s shoulder and said the question his mind was too slow to put together.

           “Yes, he’s been busy tending to the wounded.”

           Will did a quick examination of Lapis’s leg. Sloppily, he cut the pant leg away, revealing a deep gash that was stuffed shut with red sand. Will made a face, giving Lapis a look.

           Lapis raised an eyebrow and glanced to Sadie.

           Sadie cleared her throat. “I, uh, may not have thought to tend much to him. Being a villain and all.”

           Will sighed.

           A reverence quieted the room as Will cleaned and bandaged Lapis’ wound. Calex noted how Will didn’t hum or sing. Calex wondered if his healing powers didn’t bode well with Will’s resurrection. Calex assumed it had more to do with the number and severity of the wounded. Will probably couldn’t waste his powers healing minor cuts and scratches or dodgy blokes like Lapis.

           After Lapis, Will started at one side of the room and went down the line. He widely skirted the covered birdcage in the corner, glanced over Euna’s slumbering form, gave Axel a confused glance, then paused by Calex.

“You’re going to have some serious scars,” he said, gesturing to the pile of bloodied bandages beside Calex. “Merry’s been at your side cleaning your injuries for the last day, but it’s like something sucked your skin off your face and parts of your arms and legs. For you, bed rest isn’t as vital, but you will need to keep your wounds clean. Once you’re well enough, I expect you to report to the infirmary to help me. Your experience at a clinic is invaluable since we’re down so many healers.”

           The words were hollow: a doctor’s report. Calex remembered the shattered structure of the Apollo cabin and wondered if anyone had gotten out alive.

           Will’s blue eyes examined Merry. Their intensity softened. “Merry, are you—”

           “I’m fine, Doc,” Merry said, her voice shaking with the thinly veiled lie. “We’ll talk about that later. Not ready for that downer yet.”

           Before Calex could ask, Will had already moved on to Kally. He knelt down, delicately lifted the sheets around her arm.

Calex glanced at Merry. She touched her cheek and mouthed the word, “Later.”

Merry might open up more in private. He hoped so. Calex swallowed and sat up to inspect Kally.

Kally’s arm was wrapped from her elbow down.

           “No one is allowed to touch this arm. Assuming you two are leaving like you planned…” Will glanced at Leo and Sadie.

Leo gave him a thumbs up. “You got it, medic. Don’t you worry. The Valdezinator will be right back.”

           “Some of my mates from Brooklyn House can clean up this camp as fast as you can say the word, ‘Order,’ and we have a healer,” Sadie said. “And I want to see my brother panic when Leo comes with me to pick them up.”

Will looked back to Merry, Calex, and Axel. “With them gone, you’ll need to make sure Kally doesn’t touch her arm or move it when she wakes up. She has two broken ribs and her opposite hand is fractured, so she won’t want to move much anyway, but the third degree burns in her right hand required a skin graft from her leg. Don’t let it smudge.”

           Calex swallowed. He and Merry nodded. Merry began to tremble.

           Will pointedly skipped Pax and walked to Dr. Claymore. The middle-aged man set his book into his lap and raised his eyes to the healer.

           Will frowned at Alabaster’s still form as he replaced the IV bag. “He should have been up.”

           “Oh, he was, for a period of time,” Claymore agreed. He pulled the edge of his jacket open, revealing several syringes beside a pistol. “Do you really think he’d let himself get bed rest here?”

           Will sighed, closing his eyes. “Fine. Just let him wake up next time. Sherman, Clovis, and the Stoll brothers all wanted to talk to him.”

           “Alabaster will not appreciate their idea of streamers, get-well cards, and singing balloons,” Dr. Claymore warned, tilted his book back open.

           “Take that up with the Stoll brothers,” Will said. Then, he added, “Without using your pistol.”

           Dr. Claymore snorted something about the art of subtlety.

           The son of Apollo walked to the door, paused, reached into his pocket, and stepped back to Pax’s sleeping bag. He set a lollipop at the edge of Pax’s bed. “I found an extra one,” he said.

           Something poked out of Pax’s pile of blankets. It took Calex several seconds to recognize it as a hand. There was a massive blacken spot in the center of the palm, fading to gruesome greens and purples. The rest of the hand was swollen to the point of looking like a poorly made jello-prop. Pax didn’t grab the lollipop like Calex was hoping. Instead the dumb bloke used the side of his hand like a rake, dragging the lollipop into the depths of his nest.

           “Thanks,” Pax said from the inside. “Now I don’t need to sing the lollipop song for the next ten hours.”

           Will sighed again. “I’ll be in the infirmary if you change your mind about treatment.” He returned his gaze to Leo and Sadie, who were fawning over the kittens. “I’ll let the others know you’re heading out soon.”

           As soon as Will left, Sadie folded her arms across her chest and smirked at Leo. “We only needed one kitten.”

           “Yea, but who doesn’t want a blanket full of kittens to lighten the mood?” he asked.

           Axel nodded his head. “Kittens can add a certain amount of happiness and mischief to any situation.”

           Sadie carefully scooped a kitten from the pile and held it towards Axel. “Bast,” she chided.

           Calex flinched when Axel inhaled sharply. One of his hands clutched his chest wound while the other fumbled back onto the sleeping bag to catch himself from falling backwards.  

           Meanwhile, the orange and black kitten in Sadie’s hands grew. Sadie gentle set it onto the floor. At almost the same time the paws touched the ground, they had shifted into hands and feet.

           A woman knelt there. She was beautiful, with black hair and caramel skin. Her eyes were similar to Axel’s, glistening lamplights with slits down the center. A leopard-print leotard clung tightly to her gymnast body. Her gaze was both amused and concerned as she examined Axel.

           “Will the real Mr. Stoic please stand up?” Merry whispered playfully.

           “Don’t move too much,” Bast warned. She leaned closer to Axel, nudging his head and shoulders around to investigate his wounds. Calex remembered Axel trying to decapitate Aphrodite for less, but their leader moved obediently. He looked confused, disoriented, and a little sickly. His eyes flashed around the room, taking in everyone’s position. His chest fluttered.

           “I partially stayed to assure you had strength to recover. You’ll have more scars as honoraries for being such a seasoned warrior. But please, do take care of yourself. Our kind isn’t designed to process the burden of guilt for so long.” Bast ended her investigation by curling a finger behind his tufted ears.

           Axel shook his head, his eyes focusing on her. With a grimace, he sat up, squared his shoulders, and raised his chin. “Thank you.” His mouth tried to form a word, but didn’t seem to know what to say. “That was a massive gamble, but without your help—”

           Bast’s smile turned exclusively to amusement. She leaned forward and licked along Axel’s jaw line, ending at his ear. Sadie gasped and Axel went silent.

“Let me know if things don’t work out with that praetor,” Bast said, “And, regardless, don’t be a stranger.” She took his hand and used her finger to write several glowing hieroglyphs on his palm. “You can use this to contact me if you want to make some more intra-cosmic magic, my handsome Tomcat.” She ended by booping his nose with her finger.

           Axel’s face flared to bright red.

           Leo let out a low whistle. Merry, Calex, Pax, and Lapis all choked on laughs.

           When Bast rose to saunter to Sadie’s side, Sadie swatted her arm. “Bast!” she said gleefully. “You ruined the poor boy! How have I never known you to be so devious?! How have you not told me stories!”[1]

           “I try to keep my kittens out of that part of my life, but you should know all cats are mischievous,” she said with a massive grin.

           Sadie rubbed the remnants of tears from her eyes. She managed to stop smiling when she returned her gaze to Calex. “You better keep that promise. If you haven’t given Gretchen a ring by the time we get back, I’ll add you to Leo’s new lizard collection.”

           She pointed to a paperclip cage at Leo’s waist containing a tiny gecko.

           Calex nodded his head. “Right.”

           Bast, Leo, and Sadie left with that parting salutation. Considering they were in a room with Lapis Pax and the Triple A Chimera, he couldn’t believe they would leave them unguarded.

           “You’re up,” Leo said to someone in the hall. “And let me know if you need me to make some special restraints for our friends. I’ll make sure it smells bad and plays annoying music.”

           Two praetors and a centurion walked into their room. [2]

           Calex tensed. He could feel Merry do the same. He could see Axel pale. All he could think about was everything they’d been unjustly blamed for over the last few months. But, was all of it really unjust? Axel had confessed he and Pax had tricked Leo into recrafting Kronos’ scythe. Euna had killed a dozen mortals. The Triple A Chimera had worked for Kronos. Alabaster, Euna, and Axel didn’t do much to hide their disdain for the gods, and Calex, Kally, Merry, and Pax had actively been protecting them.

           “Time to finally decide what we’re going to do with you,” Reyna said, unsheathing a knife to twirl it between her fingers.

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Okay, last time I have Reyna twirl a knife for dramatic-end-of-chapter-effect, I promise XD Thanks for reading! I hope you enjoyed! :D Stay tuned for Kally’s chapter, Satyr Butts and Catching Up.

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  Footnotes:

[1] So, Bastet wasn’t just the goddess of protection in Egypt. She was also a goddess of fertility and physical pleasure, something Riordan—in his middle grade series—understandably skirted around. During Bast’s festival, women were freed from all social restraints to sing, dance, drink, and—yes—lift their skirts to show off their genitalia with pride. One of my former housemates worshipped Bast and loved doing just that no matter how often it sent one of our more reserved housemates into a panic.  

[2] How many Romans jokes start like this?

[jaunes-erotic-world]

Cure for Kitty

(A new Chapter in the Ebony Reznor story)

Ebony was nervous, Sakura and Carli held her hands smiling and calming her down as Jaune, Ruby, and Weiss looked over at them smiling. This was a big day they met someone recently who was able to get them the rest of the information they needed. Yes, today Jace and Ebony Reznor would have the dust in their bodies partially removed and the rest treated as to prevent to crystallization process.

They had made it to the lab the surgery would take place. When they got there, they were greeted by a man and a woman, who was holding a baby. Ebony rushed forward and wrapped her arms around them tightly “Mama, Papa, Genesis you’re here!” She was as happy and nervous as someone could be as were they this was a huge moment for her and her family.

The three had a short conversation before the two parents saw the man their daughter loved and who helped this all occurred, Jaune Arc. Alyss gave Ebony her baby brother and the two rushed to the boy and swept him up into a loving bone crushing hug. “It is so great seeing you Jaune this day is finally here. We can never thank you enough for all of this,” Jace said as his wife cried into the knight’s back.

“Honestly it’s no problem I’m really happy I was able to help make this happen,” Jaune said trying to breath.

“Calm down you two,” Carli said to her Aunt and Uncle. “You’re gonna kill your cute little savior if you don’t ease up.”

“Sorry son we were just so happy to see you and probably thank you,” Jace said embarrassed.

The parents went to talk to their niece while Ruby and Sakura went to check on Jaune. Weiss had made her way inside already to get things set up. The there was a cute squeak of a yell, “Genny stop there is no milk in there,” Ebony said as her brother tried to feed from her. Everyone laughed and Alyss went take Genesis back then the two parents got aquatinted with everyone else.

Jaune went over to his Pretty Kitty and wrapped his arm around her waist, “Nervous?” He asked.

“Yea I keep thinking what if something goes wrong, what if I don’t make it or dad doesn’t or…” her words of worry were stopped by Jaune’s lips on hers.

He broke the kiss after a few seconds and he told her what he was told when he was scared and unsure, “Nope.”

“But what i-”

“Nope”

Ebony tried to open her mouth to say something else when she was met with another Nope.

“I have faith in you, your dad, the info we got, and the surgeons, you’ll be fine,” he smiled and then pressed her nose with his finger, “Boop.”

Ebony giggled and pulled Jaune into her own tight hug and nuzzled into his shoulder. “I love you so much master.” The two heard laughing as they realized they had an audience. The two lovers turned red and looked away.

Then Weiss came out with a man in a white, “Mr. Jace Reznor Miss Ebony Reznor if you are ready it is time,” the man said

Ebony’s parents hugged one another before Jace leaned in and said to Alyss and said, “I’ll be out soon and this nightmare will finally be over,” he kissed his wife, “I love you, Pretty Kitty.”

“I love you, too,” she said putting her forehead to his chest.

Jace wiggled his finger playfully in front of his son’s face, “Papa will be back in a bit.”

  Sakura had tears in her eyes and was shaking holding her hand, “Ebby it’s gonna happen it’s really gonna happen I-I *sniff* waaaahhh,” she buried her face in Ebony’s chest while the cat girl hugged her.

Ruby gave her trademark warm smile and Weiss gave a reassuring one.

Carli swatted her cousin on the rear and said, “Kick some ass in there cuz.”

Ebony locked eyes with Jaune once more and pressed her lips against his. The two kissed over and over the passion admittedly made them both the smallest bit hard. They broke it off when the doctor coughed. When the strand of saliva broke the two pressed foreheads and said at the same time, “”I love you, see you in a bit.”” And with that the father and daughter walked off following the doctor to prep for the procedure.

The two were put on tables and hooked up to IVs, blood bags, and a device that resembled a dialysis machine. The IVs were filled with solution to break down the heavy dust clumps and build up in their blood streams, then the machine would clean their blood a put it back in and the bags were to add the new blood that would be taken away with the dust but also wasn’t able to exist/flow properly because of the dust build up. There was more to the procedure but this was the basics around it. The two were nervous but like Jaune said they had faith in the scientist, doctors, and most importantly Jaune that things would work out fine.

Outside the operating room, the girls were trying to calm down the panic attacking Sakura. Jaune was sat by himself looking at the floor until he felt someone sit beside him. Looking up he saw Alyss’ smiling face, “How are you dear,” she said.

“Fine just a bit on edge, I’m sure you can relate,” he said with a weak nervous chuckle.

She giggled, “I do but I know that everything will work out. A mother knows these kinds of things.” She giggled some rocking and bouncing Genesis in here arms.

Jaune smiled at her, her words, laugh and calming presence made him feel bit more relaxed like being with his own mother, “Thank you Mrs. Rez-,” he stopped seeing wagged her finger ‘No, No” and corrected himself with what she wanted him to call her, “Thanks Mom you really made me feel more relaxed.”

“It’s no problem dear, Mommy will always be there when you need her,” she said her hand on his thigh. He blushed then shook his head obviously reading too much into the gesture.

He then felt himself being watched by a single tiny eye. His godchild/ ‘brother’ was looking at him curiously. When Jaune looked down at him and smiled, “Hey there little guy.” The small faunus then looked away and curled into his mother’s chest.

“Sorry Jaune he’s just shy. Come on now sweetie no need to be scared,” she cooed. “He’s just like his big sister, so why not try and scritch scritch his wittle earsys,” she said in baby talk holding out him just a bit.

As Jaune moved his hand over Genesis began to shake, squirm, and flatten his ears all the while making scared sounds but as soon as Jaune started to move his finger nail gently as possible behind his ear the shaking stopped. As it continued the baby became relaxed and giggled. Soon enough Jaune was holding him as Genesis tried to grab the finger Jaune was wiggling in his face. Alyss smiled at the sight imagining how her grandbabies would look like.

About an hour passed and Genesis had just gotten used to all of the girls, it happened. The light above the treatment room turned off. The Doctor came out and took off his mask revealing a warm smile. Tears of joy welled up in everyone’s eyes. The doctor stepped off to the side and Jace walked out and Alyss rushed to him Genesis in her arms. The man hugged his wife and son kissing her as well.

Then an 8ft tall, cat faunus walked out her face a bit pink, her one pure black hair now had silver white tips like Ruby’s red ones, her ears had a few bits as well and so was the tip of her tail, but the most eye-catching bit was of the long streak of the silver white down it.

Smiling tears in her eyes, “Dig the new look cuz,” Carli said.

No one could hold back any longer everyone rushed her hugging and kissing her during which she began to squirm a bit. They all stopped and looked at her in concern but she assuaged their concerns, “Don’t worry, my breasts are just feeling a bit sensitive.” Naturally Carli poked her nipples causing her to moan.

The doctor went over the usual spiel about if anything abnormal happening let them know but Ebony and Alyss were more interested in rubbing their rears into their lover’s lap. The Reznor’s were hugging everyone as tight as possible tears flowing and the giggling of a confused but happy baby filled the halls of the Altesian hospital. Carli took her baby cousin from her aunt knowing what was about to come. “Good luck you two they seem friskier than they do during heat,’ she said to her uncle and her boyfriend.

She was indeed right and Alyss pulled her husband into an empty room. While Ebony picked up Jaune bridal style and ran to find a room for themselves not even wanting to wait until they got to Weiss’ place. The next few hours in a mile radius around the hospital you could Nyaahs of pleasure.   

(Tomorrow a short follow up will be written to discuss other things that happened to Ebony’s body besides her hair. Dont worry they are all good)

[dykedykegooses]

i'm askin u every single even numbered question for the lesbian ask game

at least you didnt bother with the algebra this time, for which i am thankful

Femme or butch?

i’m more femme but i try to act butch sometimes and i just end up failing hopelessly. ‘look mom i know how to put air in a tire!!’ ‘peyton thats like… not even right’ or ‘oh SHIT look at that blitz!! that was cool’ ‘peyton that was a sack’ ‘oh’

Do you have a “type”? If so, describe it

not really, mostly just like… humor. if u funny we click

Plaid button-ups or leather jackets?

why not both?

no but seriously plaid tbh

Describe your style

um yes

converse, (ripped? sometimes) jeans, and whatever top i feel is appropriate for the Big Aesthetic today

Describe your aesthetic

yes

ive tried going more punk but its just kinda , not worked

my physical aesthetic is very adultolescent. i got chub and look like a freshman but ive been told i pass as a college senior so like

my Big Mood aesthetic is yes

Favorite article of clothing?

either my converse or my “”combat boots”” (theyre not and it makes me sound like an edgelord just saying that) (can you tell im gay)

OH WAIT I FORGOT ABOUT MY JEAN JACKET its like baggy and light and ive started sewing patches from my favorite bands on it (super punk right)

Favorite pair of shoes?

^^^

oh my black strappy heels, theyre surprisingly comfortable

Current haircut?

ive got a bleached bob rn

Any haircut goals for the future?

i kinda want a pixie cut bc i cant handle long hair however long hair is so PRETTY and wow

Describe the best date you’ve been on

iiiiiiiiii dont really know. ive been on very few. i have a Perfect Date in mind, and i guess my favorite was my first date with my ex. we had gotten back from a successful science competition (HAVE I MADE IT OBVIOUS IM A NERD YET IM A BIG OL NERD) and it was like midnight by the time we got back and we were both starving so we went to taco bell and just sat there talking and laughing and i know we were pissing off the staff, but we stayed til like two in the morning and we went home and honestly we both considered it a date but we didnt like… tell each other it was a date? if that makes sense? idk honestly im triggered

Describe the worst date you’ve been on

ugh oh god i went on a tinder date and this girl like in the DMs was like ‘hey do u smoke weed’ and im like ‘lol no’ and then like we made plans to meet up at a coffee shop and she asks me AGAIN if i smoke weed and im like……………. no and shes like ‘oh right lol’ well THIS BITCH sleeps through the time we were supposed to meet, completely stands me up, and then texts me back like an hour later and was like ‘omg im sorry i overslept!!!’ and it was like….. noon but ok so we meet up after my class and we just sit there really awkwardly trying to make conversation and she asks me AGAIN if i smoke weed im like ‘honey no i dont’ and we just talked about drugs for a while and when i left because i had to gtfo she like gave me an awkward hug and like i sent a text later that night bc im courteous and im like ‘hey i had a great time today’ (i didnt) ‘lmk if you ever want to meet up again!!’ and she just. ignored me lol.

Single? Taken?

im currently in a polyamorous relationship with myself and my anxiety

If taken, talk about your girlfriend/wife!

:)

If single, what are you looking for in a potential girlfriend/wife?

someone who’s able to make me laugh and deal with my bad ideas and will let me cook for her and wants to travel the world with me

Describe your dream wedding

its small. outside. maybe in a field or in front of a lake. i dont personally want a big ballgown, just a short white dress will do. lavenders everywhere. R A I N B O W  C A K E. reception where we slow dance to all the sappy romance songs. its great.

Do you want kids?

not really, but ive considered being a foster parent. i feel like im here to do good; i don’t want to have my own biological children, and im not sure i want to have the permanent responsibility of adopting a kid, but i feel i could handle fostering once we’re financially stable and have the room to accept children into our home.

If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?

spain, definitely. somewhere in the north. i want to have a small farm with goats and chickens and vegetables and i want to be away from this american mess.

Favorite lesbian movie?

well ysee…………. the only two explicitly lesbian movies ive seen have been ‘all about E’ and ‘blue is the warmest color’ and i didnt like either of the lmfaoooo i prefer watching lesbian television shows tbqh (or, most commonly, just rewriting all the female characters in my head to be sapphic sooooooo dont @ me)

Favorite lesbian novel/story?

i mean same as above, i dont read as much as i like to. however, i did read “georgia peaches and other forbidden fruit” and that was Really Good and i did read another that was slightly better, but i forget the name but it was about a pakistani (?) girl who was struggling to come out to her parents bc they were very traditionalist but she joins the theater and her like really elite school and the girl she had a crush on basically outs her and is a bitch about it and GOD i wish i could remember it because it was really good

Favorite lesbian song?

ummmmmmmmmmmm i just recently listened to ‘honey’ by kehlani and that was pretty good and pretty gay, but my personal favorite is ‘girls’ by beatrice eli bc holy shit what a Mood

Favorite lesbian musician?

i love mary lambert and beatrice eli.

What lesbian stereotypes do you fit into, if any?

ummmmm now that im thinking of them i cant think of any. i used to play softball and soccer? i love cats. i immediately start planning out the next five years of our lives together anytime im remotely interested in a girl?

Ever been assumed to be nothing more than a gal pal?

i mean………………. no

If a woman wanted to woo you, what would a surefire way to accomplish that?

well bake cookies w me and lets go for a walk & go out and watch the stars at night in the bed of a truck

Be positive! What do you like most about being a lesbian?

I LOVE LOVING GIRLS!!!!!! I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT BEING A LESBIAN!!!!!! GIRLS ARE FANTASTIC!!!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!

Are you more of a cat person or a dog person?

why not both

idk ive never had a cat but i know i lov them

Turn ons?

i.......... dont know

yes

im gay

Turn offs?

long nails youch theyre pretty to look at but i mean at what price

not having anything to talk about

putting yourself down like a lot (i went on a date w this one girl and that was all she did like the entire date like......... im sorry ? :(???)

Do you usually ask other women out or do you wait for them to ask you?

if im being honest i would love for someone to ask me out but since that is Very Unlikely, i tend to be the one to message first and initiate dates and stuff

What is your dream career?

i want to be a psychological researcher in the field of social comparative psychology how sick is that!!!!! just play with dogs all day and record whether or not they boop their noses on a screen

also i wanna be a farmer and a bookstore owner but thats Farther down the line like , when im 50

Talk about your interests or hobbies!

im honestly such a psych nerd i love psychology what the fuck!! its so interesting like ppl are weird man idk brains are weird

im also having a really big green day phase like billie .. he so smol... and also anyone who wants to bash warning or the trilogy can fight me ok those are like My Favorite Albums

im going to a concert in february to see declan mckenna, a Giant Meme

im getting a tattoo w some lyrics of declan’s actually its gonna be sick

What is the most attractive quality a woman can have?

yes

idk for me its being able to have quick, witty, skillful jokes i just love listening to girls talk and tell stories and jokes like wow im gay

also long curly hair? thats always a Solid Look

Do you love easily or does it take time for you to warm up to someone?

i mean. do we really wanna open this can of worms rn

too late, its open

i get those microcrushes where you like see a girl and youre like ‘WOW IM GAY DATE ME’ however once it comes to actually being in a relationship i throw my full weight behind it and worry that im being too suffocating or that im pushing my boundaries etc and ive been told that makes me come off really cold and uncaring so lol choose ur own adventure, you decide

Ever fallen for your best-friend?

unfortunately

Ever fallen for a straight girl?

can you even call yourself a lesbian if you havent

The L-Word: yes or no? (love it or hate it?)

i havent seen it, im such a fake lesbian

Favorite comfort food?

mac n cheese

or pizza

or cheesy potatos

OR CHEESY TOAST

scientific conclusion: im a fatass

Coffee or tea?

coffer

Vegetarian? Vegan? None of the above?

im vegetarian!! have been on and off for like two years now

Do you have any pets?

i have one pup sittin right next to me and shes the prettiest girl in the world

Early-riser or night-owl?

yes

idk i get up at like 9 which is early for me but not as early as like. 5. so

more like night-owl. thanks teenage hormones!

What is your sign?

pisces

Can you drive?

yes

can i drive well?

no

but i do have a sense of direction so thats cool

Who was your first lesbian crush?

tbh.................... my best friend, but i didnt realize it was a crush at the time

the first Gay Crush i had that i knew was a crush was on my close friend at the time, now my ex girlfriend

At what age did you know you were a lesbian?

uhhhhhhhhhh lesbian specifically, like 15-16. queer, i knew in like fall semester freshman year (so like 13??)

At what age did you come out (if you have)?

i mean, i come out to people all the time. first time i came out explicitly as a lesbian was when i was like 15 or 16 (actually i came out to a close straight friend and my ex and they both said ‘congrats’ like it was weird but very nice) and the first time i came out as queer/questioning was to my then-best friend at like 13 and i came out to my mom (involuntarily) at like 17? ish?

Are you crushing on anyone at the moment (celebrity or otherwise)?

yes im crushing on every girl simultaneously at all times

just kidding

(not really)

i dont really have any explicit crushes that i can think of im just really gay

Talk about how your day went

it was fine. got free froyo so that was cool. found out i made an A on my bio practical, so that was cool too. however, i wore a crop top and it was like 55 degrees out and raining so i looked like a total Idiot but yk follow ur slutty gay dreams amiright ladies

Talk about your dreams/aspirations for the future

most of mine are career-centric, but a few are personal.

i wanna go to costa rica in may, i wanna go to yale over the summer, i wanna go to NYC pride in june, i wanna go to spain after i graduate, i wanna go to grad school, i wanna be a psychological researcher, i wanna move to spain or england or hell even france, i wanna have my own farm with the woman i love, i wanna own an LGBT bookstore/library, i wanna just live a quiet life near the sea and not have to worry so much after a while.

Least favorite gay celebrity?

this is a weird one to end on, but iiiiiiim not sure i have one? i can tell you ellen page is probably my favorite, but i cant think of many i dislike so

[rheasmirror]

Like PaperMoons

Rhea stood on top of the stage shivering. She looked out into the crowd for any familiar face, but none stood out. She took a sigh, and looked at the ground, her hands quivering with the microphone. "How did Ellen and Kailee drag me into this?" She asked herself. "RHEA!!" She looked up and at the entrance stood her friends, and Felix. They waved at her and moved to the front of the stage. She smiled and stopped shaking. "2, 3, 4" "I'm falling. Down into my shadow. Failing to control my breath, as I embrace the deadly night. If you are scared, never show it in your eyes. Near those pumpkin carriages. Cause all the witches see right through your lies." She took a breath and smiled into the mic. "See you in your dreams yeah. Baby. Cause I'll still be there! If it's a night mare. Fairy blue for you I'd steal the stars, and lay them at out feet. So we can own the night, like paper moons. I will be the light believe in me. When you're lost, here I am! Forever with your soul. Look above ‘cause you belong up there Beside the shining moon" She finished with a smile and bowed her head in respect to the crowd. The Argiderians applauded and she walked off the stage. "Rhea, that was amazing."Ellen complimented. "Yes, it totally was. You should go again" Kailee added. "Guys, I'm done for the night." "Even if I joined, Rhea?" She blushed. "Maybe I can do another." Felix laughed and wrapped one arm around her shoulder. "Great" He walked off with her as she looked back at Ellen and Kailee. It wasn't such a bad night after all. 

(Three hours later) (1st person)

      I woke to a knock at the door. After rubbing the sleep from my eyes, I stood up and walked to the door. Right when the palm of my hand grasped the doorknob, I heard voices outside. I stopped to listen. "Felix, I made up my mind. I'm transferring you to the Northwest base. Captain Petra will gladly await your arrival in the morning,I don't see any point in you staying any longer." I felt my heart shatter into thousands of pieces, but then Felix objected. "Kim, I'm not going anywhere. You may not see my use any longer, but day after day, I correct   postures, how they hold their weapons, even how they throw grenades while you sit in your little air conditioned office all day. These people will die without my help." Kim scoffed. "You're not giving any of them nearly enough credit. And my office is hardly air conditioned. They will get along fine. You're going. Unless, there was another reason why you refusing to leave?" I could hear the smirk in her voice. "I don't know what you're talking about." "I think you do. I see the way you talk to her, the way you look at her. The way you immediately look her way when she walks through the door. Almost like she is the only one." I choked up a little bit, 'who is her' I thought. I clasped my hand over my mouth to stifle any noise that could come out so I can listen still. "Felix, do you like, or even, love, Rhea?" 'Not possible. I mean sure, we had a few moments, but he definitely likes someone else. He sighed. "Yes" I gasped, but no one heard it. "That settles it. You're staying. I never was going to transfer you. I just wanted to hear you admit it. I'm sure, she feels the same way, right Rhea?" I froze. "Rhea?" Felix asked. I stepped away from the door, my cheeks flushing, and tears began running down my face. I knelt on my knees, and my hands placed in front of me. My emotions were erupting like a volcano that has been dormant for eons. "I will let you two have some time alone now, don't have too much fun, okay?" "Kim, that was a dick move" "I know" I heard her footsteps as they walked away. I heard the door open, and then close. Felix saw me kneeling. "Rhea, please look at me." There was a little hurt in his voice." I continued looking at the floor. I heard some shuffling, and then he was kneeling in front of me. I could feel his hot breath on my face as he lifted my chin. My blush grew worse as he did. "Please look at me" I looked into his blue eyes. The ocean blue eyes that made me fall for him. "Is it true?" I asked meekly. "Rhea," He held my chin, "I love you". The moment after, I leaned forward pressing my lips to his, and smiled. Felix looked taken aback, but I could feel him smirk into the kiss. When we finally pulled away, he was holding my hand and rubbing the back of my hair. "Rhea, are you okay?" I smiled and nodded. He smiled back."I'm sorry" I looked confused as he picked me up, and carefully laid me on my bed. I tried to hold on to him, but lost my grip. "Felix?" He walked towards the door, but before he could open it, i spoke again. "Please don't leave me. When your with me...Ive never felt alone. Felix please?" He sighed, looking a little sad, but came back to me. He laid on my bed, and looked at me. "Rhea, I'm not good for you. I've...done things. Terrible things. You deserve someone who will give you the attention you deserve." I shook my head and curled into his chest. He looked surprised. "No. There's only you. I like-no. I love you." I wrapped my arms around his neck, and felt his arms tangled around my waist. "My place is here." "Rhea" He started, "I love you too." I rested my head on his chest, and fell asleep. Slowly, so did he.        

Rhea stirred in the bed with arms wrapped tightly around her. She smiled in her sleep knowing that she was safe. But what she didn't know, was that the arms had some rather devious plans. "Mnnng" She moaned in her sleep. Felix smirked and nestled his face in the crook of her neck. Rhea giggled in her sleep. His arms found their way to her stomach, and held on. They began to ever so slightly knead on her skin. Little by little, she felt it, and began to start giggling. She woke up. "F-felix what are you doing?" She blushed and tried to pull away from him. When she finally succeeded, she sat up and he did the same. She looked up at him, and he looked down at her. "What gives?" He smirked and shook his head not saying anything. Rhea rolled her eyes. "What gives" She poked his stomach for emphasis. But something flashed in his eyes as she did. "NONONONONONO" he scooted away from her. She looked at him confused until she had a moment of truth. "Felix, the mighty mercenary. Is. Ti" Felix put his hand over her mouth,but he could still see the smile behind her eyes. She licked his hand and he quickly removed his hand with a grimace. "Felix" Rhea said flirtatiously. He scooted to his side of the bed protecting his sides from her. But Rhea already threw herself at him with the brightest smile, and began poking him wherever her fingers could get to. She slowed down and looked up at him with a sweet smile. His face was flushed but he too had a smile. Rhea rested her head on his chest, but he lifted her chin back up. "You will pay later." She blushed but he planted a kiss on her lips. After that, she rested her head back on his chest, and he held on to her tightly as if he was going to lose her again.

(Later the next evening) (3rd person)

        Rhea laid on top of the hill gazing up at the sky. The last hues of the sunset ebbed away and gave way to a sky sparkled with diamonds. She sighed contentedly, jumping when she felt an arm wrap around her shoulder pulling Rhea next to him. She looked at the owner of this arm. "Hey Felix" "Hey Rhea, are you okay?" She nodded. "I feel safe when I'm with you" His lips curled into a smile. "I'm glad." "It's so hard to believe" She murmured. "What?" Felix asked. "Nothing, just how they shine so bright, I want to touch one someday, but they would burn." Felix smiled. "Then get close enough to feel the warmth. "I think I will, and..." "And?" She sighed. "I want you to be there with me." And she cuddled against him as he wrapped his arms around her. "Of course." "Someday, I will remember how to fly, and we will both be there" "Dancing among the stars" Felix finished She shuddered but continued looking at the sky. "What was that?" He asked her. Rhea looked at Felix confused. "When you shuddered" "Oh...promise you won't... freak?" Felix nodded and she sat up taking off her hoody to reveal the tank top underneath. Two long scars protruded from her shoulder blades. Felix reached out and touched one of them. Rhea shivered. "I don't know what I am. Or remember....But they appeared to me after I passed through the portal." Felix smiled and sat up pressing his lips against her shoulder blade kissing it. Rhea's face flushed to fifty different shades of red. "Felix?" she whispered. "It's okay, Rhea. When I was in training, my higher ups tortured me so I was like a human weapon." She frowned. "They will pay..." Felix rubbed her shoulder and her eyes began to tear up as she turned to hug him. "Family is family." he told her. "Funny.... I don't recall family using torture-well that kind of torture- to be a family activity. But no matter what, I want to stay here with you." Felix gripped her waist tighter and replied. "Me too. You won't ever lose me." She smiled and looked back up to the stars. "I promise, you won't lose me either." Her hand was on the earth between them, and nearly jumped when he locked his fingers with hers. "There, now we're locked together" He grinned. Rhea giggled and blushed slightly. "You should throw away the key" "Already taken care of" She blushed a bit harder and enjoyed how his hand felt against hers and booped his nose with her free one. Felix booped her back. "Now what should we d-" Before she could finish, Felix pressed his lips against hers, and her blush was the worst it ever had been. She leaned against him, pressing her forehead to his, and he wrapped his arms around her so she couldn't leave. While Rhea's eyes were closed, Felix began to smirk, and let his hands rest on her hips. While she didn't suspect anything, he began to spider his fingers across her sides making Rhea begin to giggle softly into the kiss. She tried so hard not to laugh, but Felix could tell, and he only tickled harder, making her lean her back onto the ground. He followed her, not breaking the kiss and she became breathless so he stopped and finally pulled away. "You jerk" Rhea told him as soon as she caught her breath. "You know you loved it" Felix's smirk grew. "Too bad you can't prove it" she taunted. Felix rolled his eyes as he loomed over her. "Are you sure? I can start again, I only have to do this" He laid each hand on both of her sides menacingly. "NO, you don't have to do that!" He smirked even more. "Then admit that you love it" Rhea's face flushed. "Never!" Felix smiled and shook his head, "Wrong answer", and he began to knead into Rhea's hip bones making her jump and squeal while their small bunker at the bottom of the hill smiled listening to the laughter of the Addonexus angel.     

[josephstoontown]

Eat at Joe’s, Chapter IV

Chapter IV of Eat at Joe's, a Joseph's ToonTown story.

So, I'd like to mention… this was a nightmare to convert from the… 100-some posts… of the RP?  The writing was just fine… but. restructuring things so they had a flow… then, having to fight the page breaks… and, splitting the story several different ways… ay-yai-yai…  But, hey.  I got it, eventually.  And, I was only 13 hours behind schedule the first time I posted this. Not… that anyone would really know, of course.  But, hey…

Co-written with: shinkothetoongirl @ Tumblr Word count: 4,935 – Character count: 27,638 Originally written: April 5th - April 25th, 2016 Converted/revised: January 10th - January 12th, 2017 Re-split and revised on: August 14th, 2017

At the end of the day, some ideas… are best left in one's head.

Shinko the Toon Girl and related characters and properties created by and © her creator Tiana's Place, The Princess and the Frog, and related properties created by and © The Walt Disney Company

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    “Hey, Shinko…”

    Joseph quietly spoke up, his infernal brain not letting him stay cuddled up with her for too long.  There was one question that wouldn’t leave his mind… one question that demanded to be asked.  And so, he asked his question…

    “Are you… in any position for this sort of thing?”  He paused before clarifying, “Is everything in your life stable enough for an additional distraction like this, I mean?  Relationships have a funny way of changing things in a person’s life…”     He leaned back just enough to nuzzle her again, shivering slightly.     “Because, um… if I… I mean… if we… um…”     He slowly sat up, still keeping his hands on Shinko’s arms as he looked at her.  She looked more than a little confused… but, his face could not have been much redder…     “I’m really having a hard time putting two words together right now, aren’t I?  Must be my nerves…”     The ‘toon girl gave a slight giggle and a nod…  At that point, Joseph took a slow, long breath and calmed himself before trying to speak again.

    “Every part of me wants to give this a try, Shinko.  But, as adults – and I almost hate to use that term, even though it fits so well… we need to stop and consider everything else… things that might get in the way or otherwise prevent things from working like we want.  Like I said… stuff like this can change lives.”     He gently took the ‘toon back into his arms, hugging her close.     “And… I’d kick myself if everything went to the Void because of ‘wants’ over ‘needs…’”     He paused… then he let his cheek brush against hers, another thought popping up.     “You don’t have to decide now, by the way.  I just wanted to… ya know… make sure you really thought about this instead of listening to your heart.  Or… ya know…  O-other things,” he whispered in an unsure tone, giving her a playful nose-bump to the shoulder.

    There was another pause between the two before Shinko spoke up, speaking calm and clear, but with a sad smile on her face.     “It doesn’t have to be anything super serious,” she commented.  “I was thinking more like ‘affectionate friends’ than anything else.  Besides, there is one huge problem I can see…”     She glanced up at him, her smile fading ever-so-slightly…     “At some point… I’m sure you’ll have to go back to your own world…  That’s probably something that can’t be avoided.  I mean, as cool as it would be for you to stay here… it’s probably not gonna happen.”     The fox gave a blink…  He was starting to feel bad he’d even brought the whole thing up.  However, a giggle and a boop on the nose snapped him right back out of it and caused him to stare at her once more, his eyes crossing for that brief moment she’d poked him.     “In the meantime, I don’t see why we can’t enjoy the moments we do have together!  Make ‘em stuff that maybe you’ll actually remember this time, right?” she asked with a grin.

    His ears perked at her response.  Somehow, watching her be so chipper and playful after his dramatic display actually made him feel less bad about things… and more… silly.  He suddenly found himself laughing on the inside.  He should have known Shinko better than that…  After all… she was always pretty darn sharp!

    “I don’t know how I ever forgot you, Shinko… and…”     The fox leaned in with a grin on his face and tail wagging.     “You’re right.  About everything.  So, that being said…”     His grin widened…     “I think being ‘affectionate friends’ can be arranged…”

    Suddenly, he gave her a little lick on the nose, making Shinko giggle again!  He then blinked, staring for a moment as something caught his attention.     “W-wait a minute… that wasn’t there before, was it?”     Joseph slid his arm out from behind her and reached one hand up.  One of her eyes closed as his fuzzy digit gently booped her… nose…?     “On your smaller design, I mean.  I’m… pretty sure this didn’t just appear in the last five minutes… did it?”     Though he was kidding again, he once again sounded unsure of himself.     “Well, it actually came around during the late stages of when I was smaller,” she explained as he leaned back.     “Huh…  I guess I really did miss that, then.”     The girl giggled again as she added, “I still don’t have ears though.”     Joseph perked.  “No ears…?”     He reached up to the side of her head with his left hand, gently running his fingers through the almost-static hair on her right side, causing her to squirm.     “But how do you heeaaar…?” he playfully asked, being mindful of the volume of his voice as he leaned inward and nuzzled his way through the hair on her left.  She giggled a bit, her eyes shutting as his hand and nose seemed to tickle the side of her head.  Her shoulders shrugged a little after… but, it wasn’t in response to his question.  It seemed like she was preemptively keeping him from going near her neck… though, he didn’t notice.  After calming down from the slight tickling sensations, she managed to open an eye to look back at him.

    “I listen with my heart,” she replied, smiling back at him.     The fox’s ears flicked at her reply and he slipped back enough to look at her.  The blush from before returned to his face as he happily admired her.     “That…” he quietly said with a pause before smiling.  “Was so corny… but ridiculously sweet…”     She grinned at hearing him say that.  Whatever she could do or say to make him smile always made it worth it.  It was part of her nature as a ‘toon to try and make people smile, anyhow!  However, her eyes widened and she started to blush again as Joseph’s hands slid up, gently cupping her cheeks.  He leaned in a second later, cutely pressing his nose to hers and looking into her eyes with his own half-closed and full of fondness.  His own blush had found its way back to the surface, too…

    “Why are you so darn adorable, Shinko?” he asked the ‘toon girl with a purr to his voice.  “It’s a frustratingly irresistible trait…”     “I don’t know…”  She shut her eyes and giggled a bit.  “I thought all my adorableness left when I grew up.”     Her eyes opened again, a fond smile on her face as she looked to her friend…     “It’s nice to know someone still thinks I’m cute, though.  Or, maybe that just shows how kind you are…”     “Trust me, Shinko…” he whispered as he drew a little closer.  “If I was just ‘being kind…’”     For a moment, the fox seemed to hesitate in his actions… as if unsure of himself once again.  A second later, he closed his eyes, took a breath through his nose… leaned in close, and… did something.

    There was a moment of confusion for the young ‘toon.  At first, she didn’t really seem to know what was going on.  However, it didn’t take her long to realize what Joseph was doing…  However, she wasn’t exactly sure how to react to it…

    After a moment, the fox leaned back just enough to watch her face, his own still bright red under the fur and eyes fluttering open.     “Th… then I probably w-wouldn’t be taking this so slowly…” he said with a nervous smile, his ears somewhere between folded and perked.  He really did seem to be airing on the side of caution with Shinko, despite her not once telling him “no” the entire day…  Was he that unsure of himself?  Or… did he just care about her happiness that much?

    “A… aa…”     The fox gave a blink, his ears flicking as he heard Shinko make an odd noise.  As he watched Shinko react… his own eyes opened wide.  Akin to watching a thermometer rise in temperature, her skin slowly became redder-and-redder and her expression slowly displayed more-and-more surprise and shock.     “Aaaaa-aaaaa-aaaahh!!!”     Such was her sound of growing realization that Joseph had just kissed her where her mouth was.  The sounds never got too high that she would be considered screaming.  However, she couldn’t seem to stop herself from making the sound.  As a result, she quickly pulled a pillow out from her hammerspace and turned away to muffle her face with the pillow while her sound of shock continued.         Joseph’s his ears perked and his fur bristled while the girl as she did her best imitation of a tea kettle, both in sight and in sound.  A lot of emotions hit Joseph all at once then.  Concern… confusion… surprise… even a little bit of nervous amusement tucked away in the corner of his mind.  But, for the most-part, he seemed stuck on surprise.  And… that surprise caused him to lean back, albeit just a little… and, caused his mind to race!     I broke her, I broke her–!! he thought to himself.  Holy crap…!  What did I do…?!  Is she gonna… how do I… that… I… this… a-aah…!     Of all the reactions he could have foreseen… Shinko utterly breaking was not one of them!  Clearly, she was a ‘toon that had never been kissed on the lips, before.

    Slowly but surely, the noise Shinko was making seemed to die down the longer she kept the pillow in front of her face.  As the same time, Joseph’s face relaxed little-by-little and he leaned forward, just staring.  For a while, she laid there against the arm of the couch, not moving.  No new key frames updated and no sounds were made.  And, that… made the fox perked his ears and lean in a little closer…     Suddenly, she let out a gasp as her frame updated to one of removing her face from the pillow, sitting back up straight as she took a deep breath.  Finally, she glanced back to him, blinking twice as she noticed him practically tumble off the couch in surprise.  She wore a neutral expression on her face, then… as if she was still deciding on what she thought about what had just happened… and, briefly… if she’d wanted to do that again.

    “I know you already said you were taking it slow… but…”     She managed to put on a smile and shut her eyes happily before asking…     “Do you think we could take it slower-still?”

    The fox gave a blink.  He’d just calmed down from the start he’d given her, panting and feeling anxious from her neutral look…  He had started to relax when he saw her smile… but, as she made her request…     “Ah… uh… o-oh.”     Those were the first noises out of his mouth.  After a moment, though, he returned the smile and replied with something a little more coherent… but, a fair bit more nervy, as well.

    “A little too much all at once?  Heh, I understand.  I mean, you’re probably still getting used to that body and I just kinda popped in outta nowhere… and, I’m sure this is all new to you, besides!  I mean, I’m sure you’ve seen and read about things like that and been curious and stuff but if you’re not ready then you’re not ready!  We– we can definitely– I mean I can definitely slow it down a bit!  Absolutely!  Eh heh heh… heh…”

    Though he sounded cheerful enough and even wore a convincing smile, his body language did nothing to hide his disappointment.  His tail had gone limp and ears hung low.  The quickened pace of his voice was probably a dead giveaway, as well.  She may not have said “no” to what he had done… but, as far as he’d felt then, she may as well have.         As Shinko opened her eyes moments later, her smile turned much more sad, being immediately greeted by how disappointed he looked.  Thoughts entered her head, then…  She certainly didn’t want to leave him upset.  The ‘toon in her refused to let that be the emotion that lingered.  And so, she put on a patient smile and decided to comfort him.

    “It won’t be so bad…” she offered.  “You know what I think would be okay?  Stuff like this…”     Joseph’s ears perked as he was kissed on the nose.  A moment later, she sat back and tilted her head.     “And… maybe even a little of this.”     He then blinked his golden eyes at Shinko, tilting his own head as she leaned in again, kissing his cheek before sitting back and giggling again.     “That’d be okay… right?”

    “Baffled” would be an appropriate term for the look on the fox’s face as Shinko asked her question.  It wasn’t like he was going to say “no” to her… especially not when she was the one who was being affectionate.  But, for some reason…     “Guess Kris isn’t the only one who can read me like an open book…”     He sighed, offering a smile of his own as the redhead gave him a curious look.

    “In all seriousness, Shinko?  I did mean what I said just now.  Every word of it.  I think part of my disappointment comes from the fact I’m misreading you.  I mean, I have no doubt that you might be interested in a casual-friendly, affectionate kinda relationship with me.”     He paused, a look of realization coming over him.     “W… wow.  That sounded egotistical, didn’t it?”     Shinko giggled with a faint smirk and he chuckled a little before he continued.     “But, what I mean is that I have absolutely no reason to doubt what you said and still believe it.  However… my idea of ‘affectionate’ and your idea may be, ah… a little different?  Although…”     Joseph stopped again, bringing a hand to his muzzle, a thoughtful look on his face.     “No, no… I think you’re a pretty good judge of character… so, that kiss was probably no surprise.  I mean, I didn’t just telegraph that thing.  I sky-wrote it in glow-in-the-dark smoke!  But, when it actually happened…  Hmm…”     “Hey, don’t hurt your head over it okay?” she replied, trying to get him to calm down a little.  “Not to mention, a lot has happened today…”     The fox watched as Shinko slowly stood up.     “So, I’ll tell you what: I’ll order in some pizza, we can have some dinner, and then we can both get some well-earned rest and figure out what to do tomorrow, okay?  Just… try to relax.  And, have fun.”     “Well… I mean, I thought we’d pretty much decided.”  His ears flicked as his stomach suddenly growled.  “But… pizza does sound pretty good.  Meaty pizza, a movie, and thou.”         She nodded at his suggestion and took out an old-fashioned, red-cabled phone receiver from her hammerspace, placing it to the side of her head.  As she called and ordered the pizza, Joseph stretched and leaned back against the couch, resting his head against the cushion and closing his eyes.  All things considered, she was right…  They’d reunited and reintroduced themselves to each other… hung out… then, a lot of things happened all-at-once, while they were at her place… and, all within the span of under twelve hours!  It really had been one heck of a day with no real opportunity to…     “Relax…” he murmured.  “Yeah…  That’s what I need to do.  Just kinda… chill out.  Let my mind wander a little.”     As he started to relax, his ears flicked.  One eye opened and he glanced at the ‘toon girl.  He could feel his cheeks beginning to warm and tail start to wag again as he watched her.     “To other topics, I mean” he chuckled, keeping his voice low.  He then jokingly suggested to himself, “Maybe a cold shower would help, too…”

    After a brief conversation, Shinko tossed her phone over her shoulder, effectively making it recoil back behind her and disappear into hammerspace.  She then turned toward her friend, smiling as she saw him relaxing.     “That pizza place is really good on their service,” she said with a soft, reassuring smile.  “Why… you’ll know they’re here before they even get to the door!”     The fox’s ears perked and he sat up, blinking at the odd commendation.     “Wait, what?”  He chuckled.  “How does that work?”     “Oh, you’ll know…” she replied with a slight grin.

    Just as she spoke, they could hear a bunch of commotion going on outside… the kind of commotion that Joseph hadn’t heard too frequently in his life.  Upon hearing what sounded like a car crashing into something, he leaped up and started for the nearest window.  Sure enough… a car had crashed and even flipped somewhat, causing both the pizza and its driver to be sent flying up into the air!     “What in the–?!”     But, before he could finish his thought, his ears caught another noise… one of crash-after-crash getting louder and closer.  Confused and alerted, he looked to Shinko, blinking in complete disbelieve as she took a few steps toward the door and casually waved him over.  Not sure of what else to do, he walked over… and, almost immediately, he heard the doorbell.     Shinko looked back at Joseph with a giggle and opened the door.  Shinko seemed excited, for some reason…  However, what Joseph saw on the other side of the door didn’t really tell him why.  Or… maybe, it did?     On the other side, the fox could see… a pizza guy… the same one he’d seen rocket into the air, before!  If that wasn’t enough, he was hanging by the edge of his jacket from a sharp end of an opening that led to the floor above, the pizza box safely suspended in his hands!

    “That’ll be $15, miss…” he groggily told her.     With another small giggle, Shinko handed him a $20 before taking the pizza.     “Keep the change,” she told him, closing the door with a big smile on her face.  When she turned back to Joseph, she politely asked, “So, ready to eat?”         Once again, the fox’s ears perked and his fur bristled.  The comedic sight of the pizza delivery guy hanging there was enough to give him a start… but, the way he’d half-casually conducted business made Joseph all the more baffled.  Even after Shinko had exchanged her money for the pizza, the fox had to look at her with his head tilted…  After another moment, though, he crossed his arms and gave a smirk.     “I am…” he said, answering her question, “but, you didn’t tell me the pizza came with a live stunt show!  What a…”     He paused, running through adjectives in his head.  After failing to find an appropriate one, he decided to finish his thought with the word, “surprise!”     Shinko giggled a bit at that, grabbing a paper plate and napkin from her hammerspace and placing it on the counter along with the pizza.  She then opened the box, showing him that, despite everything, the pizza was completely undamaged by the stunt.

    “That guy’s really good with slapstick!” she commented.  “His squash-and-stretch is always on-point!  I know it’s not much… but, I always figure that, when he delivers pizza, he deserves something extra simply for being one of the most classically comedic ‘toons I know!”     She took out another paper plate and napkin and handed it to Joseph.  As the fox accepted the plate and napkin, he started to wonder just what else Shinko might be hiding in the invisible space just out of his sight… but, he didn’t ask, thinking it would be rude to ask, and instead looked to the hot, delicious-looking pizza.     “By the way, did you want something to drink?  Pretty sure I got some soda in the fridge. Or, if you want, I have water, milk, apple juice, and pink lemonade.”     His ears perked again as she got to the end of the list of choices.     “Pink lemonade?” he repeated.  “I haven’t had that in a long while…  Yeah… why not?  Set me up with a nice glass of pink lemonade, please!”     “Coming right up!” she replied with a smile, walking over to her fridge. She then retrieved two glasses from the actual cabinets and poured some pink lemonade with ice for them both.

    “Ya know,” he said as he helped himself to a couple of slices of pizza, “I’m really really glad nothing I’ve eaten today has had a face – like, an actual face.”     Shinko returned with a giggle, placing one of the glasses of drink near him and the other on the counter closer to herself before she went about grabbing a slice for herself.  He took a moment to thank her before continuing his thought.     “I was a little worried at the diner that, whatever Woody had ordered, would be staring at me like those buildings or the sun…  In fact, I was going to ask that walrus fella if they served ‘normal’ food there.  But, honestly?  There’s been no need.  At least, not so far!”     “This is normal food, silly,” she said with a giggle and a smile.  “It’s your food that’s odd!  Photo-realistic hamburgers and fried eggs without faces?  How weird!”

    Joseph rolled his eyes, causing her to giggle again.  A moment later, Shinko settled-in and took a sip of her lemonade.  The fox took a bite of his pizza slice, in the meantime, his tail wagging and a big grin on his face as a trail of stringy cheese stretched from the slice to his mouth.  It took him a minute to eat it but the look on his face seemed to say it was well worth the effort.         “Man…” Joseph started after finishing the bite, “ToonTown’s been 2-for-2 on food since I got here.  This pizza is really good!”     After taking another reasonably sized bite of his first slice, he set the pizza and plate down and reached for the lemonade.     “By the way… did you know that pizza guy personally?  Or, is he just a regular you see a lot or something?  You seemed keen to mention his comedic credentials,” he said with a grin before taking a drink.  That made Shinko giggle all the more before she answered.

    “Well, when I first moved in, I didn’t exactly have a lot of cash, so I ended up eating pizza most nights.  As it turns out, he’s the one that comes to my door every time!  He doesn’t always do the same routine, of course… but, really, I’d like to think he might’ve been an extra in some cartoon, somewhere.  His potential seems too big to simply be a forgotten character.”     She gave a nostalgic sigh before shaking her head.     “Anyways, he seems like a good guy.  And, he’s basically the reason I’ve almost become a regular customer for that place.  They have my address memorized by now and everything!”     With her thought finished, she finally started to dig into her own slice of pizza.  Her smile never left her face as she tasted the delicious baked good.

    “Huh.  That’s pretty cool…”  Joseph hummed, looking at the ice in his drink for a moment.  “You know… I like it when you talk about ‘toon history, cartoon physics, and things like that.  I’m not sure why… but, you make it seem really interesting!”     Joseph took another sip of his lemonade, contently humming as he did.     “Plus… I love the way the topic makes your pretty, blue eyes light up.  They really accent the radiant smile you get on your cute li’l face.”     “Ah–”  Her eyes widened a bit as her face turned red in embarrassment.  Joseph just offered a grin to the ‘toon girl.  He really could not help himself…

    “C-come on, now… that’s too many compliments in one day,” giving a little wave.  “Anyways, it’s not like I’m knowledgeable or anything.  It’s just… well…”     She paused… then shook her head.     “Never mind.  I really don’t want to talk about the past.”     The fox’s head tilted, one ear cocked and the other lowered as she said that.  Though he’d noted a sudden shift in her mood, again, he decided to leave it be, for once, simply giving her a nod and letting his ears return to a neutral position.  He then returned to his pizza, starting on the second slice while Shinko plated another for herself.

    “Anyways…” she said, keeping his attention, “I think I’ll be going to bed, now.  Feel free to help yourself to whatever and I hope you get a good night’s sleep.”     “Wh– um… sure…”  He scratched the back of his head as she kept a friendly smile on her face.  “And, thanks for letting me hang out with you today.  I… I really appreciate everything you’ve done for me, Shinko.  I really do.”     He gave her a warm smile, wagging his tail again.     “Plain-and-simple, you’re a darn good friend and a darn good person.  You get a good night’s sleep as well, ya hear?”     “Sure.”  She nodded, keeping her small, friendly smile.  “Goodnight, Joseph.”     With that, she headed into her room and closing the door.  As soon as she was out of sight, however, she leaned against the door, giving a light, somewhat exhausted sigh.

    What a goofy guy… she thought.  It certainly will be interesting to have him as a temporary roommate…     For a split-second, she wondered about something…  But, as quickly as a thought entered her head, it left.

    It should be fine…  I can trust him.  Plus, it will be nice to have some semi-regular company.  I just hope…     She turned her head toward the door, her smile giving way to a concerned frown, one last thought making its way to the surface.     I just hope… he’s not upset with me…

    With that thought escaping her head, the ‘toon girl decided to go about her business, finishing her pizza and busying herself until she was tired enough to rest for the night.  She really was tired… and, it wasn’t like there was any reason to stay up.  Right? –––––

    It was midnight as Joseph sat on the nicely-drawn couch of his friend’s apartment.  He’d finally finished watching the animated movie he was supposed to watch with her and, though he’d enjoyed it, he couldn’t retain much about it.  He’d let his mind wander in the middle of the movie and, since then, a scene from earlier that evening had been playing in his mind.

    He could remember feeling the rise in her temperature… seeing the brightening coloration of her skin…  He could recall the noise she made… and, how she seemed so dismissive of him and what he’d done, afterward…  Joseph hugged his legs to his chest, resting his head on his knees and curling his tail to one side.

    Why did you do that? he asked himself.  Why did you have to go and kiss her for?  You were having a good time just being friendly and affectionate and you had to go and… and… do that!  She obviously didn’t like it, with as quickly as she changed the subject… and, worse still, you made her feel bad because of her reaction!  What sort of friend does that?  No wonder she ran off to her room so quickly…     His eyes closed and his ears remained folded back as his train of thought continued.

    What’s the matter with you, Joseph?  She spends the day with you… invites you into her home… and, you go and try to make-out with her?  You just barely reunited with her… but, you’re already hitting on her?  Why…?  I thought you weren’t looking for that sort of thing after Kris dumped you?  Why are you falling back into old habits, like that…?     He growled at himself for a moment… then, he relaxed.

    She… she seemed interested, though…  At– at least until you… you took it too far.  Yeah, you took it too far.  Too much, too fast, too soon!     Joseph shook his head and whimpered.     As mature as she’s always been, she’s still a young, naive thing, in some respects, Joseph…  You knew this would happen but you pushed it, anyway!  What’s wrong with you?!  You even said it yourself: Your idea of ‘affection’ and hers are probably leagues apart!  I mean, it was probably her first time being kissed like that and–

    The fox’s ears perked, his eyes opening wide at his own realization…

    “Oh, Trinity Above…  I… I stole her first kiss.  I stole her first kiss…”

    Under other circumstances, being able to make such a claim might have been something that would fill the fox with joy… maybe even pride.  But, given how she’d reacted…     You’re the lowest of the low, Joseph Lithius… he berated himself, head lowering again.  You don’t deserve a friend like her.

    Joseph looked to the side of the couch, eyeing his backpack.     I should leave…  But… I don’t want to worry her…  But, I also don’t want to stay and make things awkward, again…     He gave a whine, digging his dull claws into his denim jeans, his eyes tearing up in frustration.     Gods… I… what do I do…?  Where would I even go…?     He couldn’t answer those questions, himself… but, maybe, he thought… maybe someone else could.

    After finding something to write with, Joseph wrote a note for Shinko on the top of the pizza box and left it somewhere she could find it.  He then grabbed his backpack and walked to the door.

    “I’m sorry for tonight, Shinko,” he quietly said as he opened it.  “I’m not sure if I can ever repair the damage I caused… but, I can at least do this much.”

    With that, he locked the door, silently closing it behind him, and hit the road.