#just a quiet little moment

[dregstrash]

a/n: Hands. Kanej. That’s pretty much it. 

Inej was staring at his hands again. 

It was a habit these days.

And she couldn’t quite decide if it was a good or bad thing.

She was sure he had noticed. There were very few things that Kaz Brekker didn’t see. But for her sake, he never said anything. Didn’t even tease. 

He went about his tasks as normal while pretending like he couldn’t feel her very eyes studying, examining the look and shape of them.

It might have been pathetic, maybe even obsessive. If she was any other girl and if Kaz was any other boy. 

But it was them. It has always been just them. 

So, it was neither pathetic nor obsessive.

It simply was a habit that had the same awe and reverence of seeing the shimmer of sunlight peeking through the dark gray clouds that has covered the sea. Like if you had taken your eyes off of the beautiful and rare thing in front of you, it might disappear completely and you would never know exactly if you’ll ever see it again.

Kaz’s hands weren’t beautiful, Inej thought. They were veiny and callused. Faint scars tracing the length of them. They were hands that were never meant to carry soft or comforting things. 

Those hands that have been washed in blood more than water. Those hands that have been raised to hurt instead of caress. Those hands that have been hidden away as a last defense against a world that had stripped away the ability to feel anything but pain and sorrow.

Those hands were not beautiful, but Inej loved them anyway.

And just because she could. Just because he was trying (trying for her). She took bold, intentionally loud, steps towards him, so he could hear her coming (he always heard her coming).

He looked up at her from his papers. His dark, dark eyes meeting hers in the closest approximation of affection and anticipation. He waited for her (he would always wait for her). And she made sure she touched his shoulder lightly before proceeding forward.

His eyes never left hers, while she watched that tenseness start in his jaw. The three swallows of breath that he tried to hide, and then the calm after the brief initial contact.

From his shoulder, she moved slowly down. Watching him as he was frequently watching her. Looking for signs to stop. Looking for signs that today was one of the bad days. 

But the sun was shining through the window, and Kaz stayed still.

Today was a good day.

She finally made it to the skin exposed at his wrist, and there she paused. Her fingertips light against the pulse there. It was erratic, she realized. Not in panic. But in something that belonged entirely to her.

Kaz gave the faintest of nods, and Inej finally smiled. 

She interlaced her fingers with his and moved around his desk so she could perch on the corner of it. Kaz gave a flash of a smile before bowing his head back to his work. His thumb working slowly back and forth against the back of her hand.

Inej was facing the window to his office, her legs swinging lightly as she admired the dirty city that looked so peaceful in the daylight. The crows at the window squawked loudly, and Inej’s smile widened. 

She squeezed Kaz’s hand, and he squeezed back.

It was a good thing, she thought. This habit of hers. 

She would stare at Kaz Brekker’s hands for as long as she wanted, because he let her see him without the armor he put on for the rest of the world.  

[meidui]

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[alluralater]

dark brown eyes and dark brown hair people— i would do anything for you. i adore you. i worship the air you breathe and the ground you walk on

[sketchy-tour]

A wilting flower is not always beyond healing. It'll just take time.

[doobledabbadoo]

tthe human mr nervous…; ouugh

[cartoonybus]

i hope in the revival we get a couple of sibling moments between candace and ferb

[arsenicflame]

Bootblacking is my favourite kink to give Izzy, because of course this guy would get his rocks off doing precise, repetitive, manual labour. OF COURSE he gets off on what is essentially just another chore on his list.

[shithowdy]

realized a drawing i'm doing rn is almost identically posed to one i did 8.5 years ago of a different oc, except the old drawing was instantly tainted by one of the players featured messaging me asking if i could take it down because their abusive, possessive rp partner saw it and got jealous of them "roleplaying behind their back" and i said "nah" and it became a whole Thing that i should have walked away from at that exact moment but didn't and the 6 months that followed contained some of the most truly condensed batshit i have ever witnessed in an rp community already well-known for its batshittery.

... anyway i love my friends. so happy to accidentally redeem the pose.

[solargeist]

for over a week now i keep thinking abt grian and kid xelqua. something abt him taking care of this alternate universe child version of himself. i just stare at the ceiling and my eyes blur

[dirtytransmasc]

concept, cause the dynamics at play would be super interesting:

when Tuk and Neytiri are sucked into the hold of the Seadragon, what if Spider, unwilling to watch another one of this baby siblings, nor his siblings mother (despite everything cause he's a good kid), die without doing anything, jumps in after them?

they're now stuck in a flooding ship, spider knows his way around to a decent extent, they're all tired, they're all scared, they're all hurting. they have to depend on each other for survival.

Neytiri has to not only trust Spider, but has to follow his lead, has to trust him to guide her around a demon ship, has to untrust not only her own life, but the life of her youngest child to this boy.

Maybe they're separated, they have to find one another (my personal favorite scenario is that Tuk and Spider are together and he has to try and find her/guide Neytiri to him)

Spider taking Neytiri and Tuk's arms so they aren't separated by stray currents and raging waters (a parallel to "Sully's stick together"). Spider talking them through the breath holds he learned as a kid in case his mask malfunctioned before bringing them through the depths of the submerged ship (parallel to Jake and Lo'ak)

anyway. I just can't stop thinking about it. think about it.

Neytiri is faced with the fact that Spider jumped in after her and Tuk. he came for them, he put himself in danger to save them, to save her daughter. even after what she did to him. even after she held a knife to him, after she cut him, after she intended to kill him even after Kiri was released. he still jumped to her aid, even if he could have stayed with Kiri above deck where he was safe, he could have just aided Tuk and left her behind, but he didn't.

and there's so many ways to play with it and the aftermath. like.

Spider dragging both Tuk and Neytiri up the surface, trying his best to keep the trio afloat (namely Neytiri who was much less adjusted to the water and is exhausted by the night they've had) as they hope and pray to be reunited with the rest of their family.

maybe the stress gets to them and Spider just starts apologizing. I should have fought them harder. I shouldn't have let Lo'ak and Neteyam try and leave with me, I would have been fine. I should have seen it coming, should have taken it myself. it should have been me. my baby brother shouldn't be dead.

maybe he becomes partly delirious as he too gives into exhaustion, the big brother in him being the only part of him left coherent, so he takes Tuk close, whispering prrnen tsmuke [baby sister] over and over into her braids, assuring himself that she's safe and unharmed. he keeps praying to the Great Mother for his siblings to return to him unharmed. maybe he keeps asking where they are, if they're safe as his awareness fades and his memory weakens. all of his siblings. asking if Neteyam is ok, only to remember he's gone the second the words leave his tongue.

Jake and Lo'ak finding them when they come up with Payakan, both worse for wear, exhausted, clinging to one another, the only thing keeping their heads above water being spiders life vest, Tuk cradled between them. what a sight.

Neytiri watching as Spider looks over each of his siblings, taking them close, holding onto them as if they will be ripped away from him. the realization that he would die before he let that happen again hitting her like a ton of bricks the second she sees the look in his eyes.

a peace being made between the two in the wake of this event. spider silently claiming the role of big brother (he always was, but he had to pretend he wasn't. with Neteyam gone, he can't pretend he's not anymore), Neytiri silently agreeing.

idk man. it would be interesting.

[hecksupremechips]

Come back home when you have some sense

You can throw your life away just not at my expense

You’re not the son I raised

[beneathsilverstars]

siffrin post-canon h/c is like "dw you're not actually mean, we love you!" and loop post-canon h/c is like "yes you are mean, and we still love you!"

[pitsommelier]

As an absolutely insane bitch I will say that being given a scar by someone you adore as an act of love so that you'll always have part of them writ into your flesh actually goes crazy

[sea-buns]

Forgive me if I'm a bit nervous about Gorgug this season. It's just that the last Zac Oyama pc was Colin Provolone, who was arguably one of his greatest D20 performances, if not the greatest.

Zac always does great with every pc he plays, but Colin was something else. He came out swinging with actions and words that were teeming with unspoken emotional baggage. The way Colin's presence affected the other pcs; there was this level of depth that I don't think I've seen in any of his other characters. It was understated and quiet in that signature "just a guy" way that he tends to be, while still captivating everyone instantly with just how raw it was.

Not to say we haven't seen emotional depth in Gorgug. It's just that, compared to the other Bad Kids, Gorgug's journey and progression as a character has been very... impersonal? Like, yes, he found his birth parents, and he found friends who appreciate him, and he faced his insecurities about his intelligence, and he navigated relationship troubles, and his trial through the claustrophobic bug-tunnels was a horrifically-uncanny parallel to how he's spent his entire life trying to make himself as small as possible.

But how much of that has actually changed him from the Gorgug we started with? I would agree that he's definitely happier with his life, given all the loving and supportive people that have been added to it when it used to be just him and his parents. And he's certainly grown into himself and become more self-assured in his abilities, even if he's still, and always will be, our anxious little guy. And there's nothing wrong with that. I've always liked how Gorgug was a representation of all the little things. The subtle acts and kindnesses that don't seem like much to most, but to some are everything.

We don't need another Bad Kid living in fear that their mouth could be shit-in at any moment. We've already got one-too-many.

All that being said, I just feel like Gorgug's personal story beats are much easier to sweep under the rug than everyone else's. He has the same soft and understated quality that Colin held, but they lack that extra oomph that pushed Colin over the edge from being just another guy in a series of dudes, to a character that the vast majority of us could not get out of our heads. He took someone who was anxious and softspoken, who ultimately never wanted to be violent— someone who is remarkably similar to Gorgug in many ways— and maintained that demeanor and core in Colin's character while still hitting us in the feels with character development at max velocity at every turn.

I think Zac gets better and better at this with every season that goes by. With each new character, there is always something that leaves me stunned in awe. And it's been, what, three? Four years since we last saw Gorgug?

I'm just,,, I'm cautiously optimistic but also going into a bit of a worry about what violence this man may inflict upon us

[hajihiko]

sorry if you explained this already and I didn't see but why in your profile background or whatever it's called, Hajime is so far away from everyone else?? Like, everyone is close and cuddling and he's just away from everyone else 😭

Alluding to the general feeling of not belonging yet and also the Horrors

[change-the-rules]

oh Wait A Second

Hang The Fuck On

Ive Got Another Thing Actually my beloved eloise Also came up with the dumbass plan to claim to be whistledown when she was backed into a corner by the queen it was a stupid plan then same as it was for cressida

the difference being eloise was confiding unwittingly To whistledown who immediately did everything in her power to shut that shit down for obvious reasons

ELOISE WAS IN DAMN NEAR THE SAME POSITION AS CRESSIDA WAS

at least in terms of personal desperation and impending doom closing in like for the love of fuck no one else could have possibly been in a better position to if not help then at the very Least EMPATHIZE

if everything went exactly as it had but *before* the dropping of the 'friendship soured' Out of Nowhere eloise had tried to comfort or reason with cressida Especially from this VERY RIDICULOUSLY SPECIFIC AND NICHE common thread but nuture and fear won out and cressida still went ahead with her ill-advised gambit?

and their friendship imploded accordingly

I would Not be nearly as annoyed as I am now because hey I like angst WHEN ITS GOOD STORYTELLING like damn

IT WAS RIGHT THERE Y'ALL ELOISE LITERALLY EXPERIENCED IT SHE HAD THE SAME THOUGHT WHY DID NO ONE USE THAT