#just feeling it extra hard today

[gobliiine]

Ashton Greymoore, patron saint of being vaguely flirty with everybody and then also being shocked when someone reciprocates (and maybe even accidentally leading people on sometimes) because you assume everybody is out of your league and no one in their right mind would ever be interested in you like that

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

why do spiders exist and how can i get rid of them. permanently. with no damage to the ecosystem just cut and delete

[eddiediaaz]

me: i'm gonna call my mom just to talk but i'm not gonna tell her about my new type 2 diabetes diagnosis because she has a lot on her plate and just told me my grandma is in the hospital again, and i don't wanna add yet another thing to it.

my mom: your voice sounds strange, are you sure you're okay?

me: starts sobbing and tells her everything lol

[delphiniumjoy]

I normally actually really like this holiday.

I like dressing cute in pinks and reds,

Like treating myself to tea and chocolates,

Like flooding my friends with appreciation.

And I don't know why it's different this year

But I can feel a looming dread,

A feeling that I'm being left aside

And a loathing for the things I'm not allowed to have.

This year, it feels like the one day I can't.

Can't dress up

(They'll all ask who it's for)

Can't eat sweets

(Just the thought of them is sickly)

Can't love my friends

(It's the wrong kind and it will never be right)

This year is no different than the last

But still, I'd like to carve my heart out

With one of Cupid's arrows.

[slutdge]

mmmmm. i wish someone would snipe me from the window right now.

[taeyungie]

😺

[flock-talk]

so proud of these boys tonight!

I brought out one dish of veggies this evening and they shared pretty successfully! Newt Took over the dish and was politely guarding it (giving a hard stare when Toto tried to take food out of the bowl), I helped out by dumping some veg out and scattering it a couple inches away from the bowl. After a couple more attempts at eating from the bowl and politely shuffling away when newt said "no" Toto turned to the scattered veg and happily ate that. Newt even allowed him to nibble at the debris newt had wiped on the edge of the veggie bowl.

Really reasonable levels of resource guarding, respectful response, ample patience, and both of them self-settling on a communal compromise. lovely!

and this was downstairs, just outside of the bird room. I switched up the routine a bit so instead of grabbing Toto and heading down I grab Newt, head up for Toto, then head back down. and that seems to have completely resolved the chasing problem.

Poor sweet noodle man was just feeling like he was second best :(

[orcelito]

Honestly why am I fucking Like This

[antisocialxconstruct]

goddddd I have GOT to start making livable money independently I cannot fucking do this "having a job" shit anymore!!!!!!

[pepprs]

new therapist update. we just had our first session and she is AMAZING in every single way. i feel so fucking lucky

[limielle]

idk i feel like so much discourse could be easily minimized if people learned to say "i think" instead of "it is"

[perfectlyvalid49]

The world post October 7th is worse in so many different ways, but one of the ones I’m really struggling with right now is the sheer amount of assholery that is being directed at Jews.

I went to therapy for YEARS to try to learn that 1) the world is not a terrible place and 2) people (in general) will not hate you/be mean to you for no reason. I still struggle with the idea that people are fundamentally good. Like, decades later, that idea is not something I believe, just something I remind myself is (hopefully) true when I’m feeling otherwise. I’ve gotten compliments for how patient I can be with people who are being antisemitic, and a lot of that stems from actively practicing looking for explanations other than malice for people’s behavior and knowing that giving people the benefit of the doubt is good for my own mental health.

But for the last six months, people have been hateful for no reason. I’ve given people the benefit of the doubt, and they’ve shown that they were choosing malice all along. Even large institutions that are supposed to be working for a better world are showing that their definition of a better world is one that doesn’t include me and those like me in it – that they’d rather side with the people who chose hate.

And it makes all the bad stuff want to come back. The cynicism, the nihilism, the part of me that wants to lash out first to gain a sense of control – they’ve all reared their heads in the last six months, and the longer this goes on, the harder it is to put those parts of myself back to sleep. I’m not going to let them win, that’s a choice I get to make, but it sure would be nice if they weren’t being actively encouraged by real life.

[liebelesbe]

i miss my school roommates... I remember when we went to get something to eat once when it was already late and dark out.. sigh

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Another day of getting paid to eat fries and read my little gay books

[ectoplasmer]

need him to call me pretty and have him fawn over me a little bit like i do him