#just ignore me idk why I'm so upset rn

[noxvee6]

It's 'hating my art' hours rn. I can't draw for shit

[innocent-until-proven-geeky]

i just think that maybe if your reason as a professionally diagnosed autistic person for hiding that diagnosis is that you don't like when other professionally diagnosed autistic people call something ableist... it's less that the thing itself isn't ableist and more that you probably have some internalized ableism to work through

[decolonize-the-left]

Idk if any of y'all saw this video yet, but rn there's a tik tok going viral of of this white woman who confronted her parents bigotry on Christmas and got sent home. She's an upset mess about but not in a white savior/validate me way which I can respect.

And as always I have something to say about it.

So she says she starts a war after she reminds her parents that people are people and that she

"probably shouldn't have said anything to begin with because there's no point"

And I've seen this sentiment of "there's no point" a LOT among allies. Not just white allies to BIPOC either but with allies across the board, queer allies, ND allies, etc.

To clarify by "that sentiment" I mean the idea that your personal effort to correct, inform, or speak up on an issue is not Worth it unless it will cause a Change in the person/people you're addressing that You will be able to see reflected. Because if they won't change then you're just putting up with their vitriol, hostility, and ignorance for nothing, right? And why put up with that for nothing. You're a person with feelings and limited patience so if you're gonna experience something awful, it should be for something, right? Especially if it's someone you have to put up with see regularly like your parents.

And besties...

The point is trying. The point is challenging bigotry and ignorance wherever it exists. The point is to show bigots that their ignorance isn't tolerable. It's to show them that their bigotry isn't tolerable. And as many times as they will be harmful, you will rise to meet their challenge.

The point is to challenge bigotry because it is bigotry and there's no room for it in the future we're building.

And as awful as it feels to have your family disown, belittle, and berate you there are So Many people going through this. BIPOC, immigrants, queer folk, Muslims, etc. We know what it's like to have people who should love you treat you badly, what it's like to lose community and support. You're not alone in this feeling, you know?

But everyday we still talk to our families and communities and strangers online and we still challenge their bigotry and yeah it hurts sometimes but we do it anyway so the next generation of our community won't have to.

Because they may not be here yet but we are.

In my tribe we have this concept of 7 generations being deeply significant. Part of that belief is that you and your choices will impact the next 7 generations of your descendants. And I want to be a good ancestor. Not just to the generations of my family that don't exist yet but to yours too.

I want to be a good ancestor to family I'll never meet and the friends I'll never get to drink with.

To queer kids that never had to answer to anyone for their love, to Muslim and Black boys who never had to be mindful of the toys they played outside with, to the loud brown girls who never felt out of place, to the disabled lady up the road who is the First and only voice her doctors listen to.....None of these people exist yet, but they will as long as I'm doing what I can for them today.

And absolutely everything I do is for them. It's for the future I won't get to see. For a world I'll never get to walk on. For laughter I'll never hear.

THATS THE POINT

[romanarose]

Puzzle Pieces Drabbles: part 2

Ben Miller x Fem!Reader

Fic Summary: You're dating Tom, a whirlwind romance that came at a low point in your life. Within months, you live with him and he's not as nice as he was in the begining. Tom does things that upset you, Benny finds a way to make it better.

Chapter Summary: Tom won't come look at your tomatoes. Based on a tumblr post I cant find.

Warnings: IDK what to call this but it's def shitty behavior throughout. Will progressively get worse during the series but let's start with this. Drinking. Someone not appriciating your excitment.

A/N: This will be a short series of comfort drabbles where Tom does something shitty and Ben makes it better. No smut. I'm at a low point rn and just want softness.

This is my submission for Triple Frontier Write-a-Thon !!! come join in the fun and follow @triplefrontier-anniversary to find more fics!!!

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“TOM!!!!!” You scramble up from your garden patch to where you were tending to your plants, standing to see Tom and Ben drinking on the porch.

Tom turns, looking worried. “What? What happened?!”

“My tomato’s bloomed!!!” You say with a wide grin, giddy with excitement.

He relaxes. “Oh my god. Is that it? Woman, you scared the shit out of me.” He went back to his grilling.

Your shoulder slump a little. “Sorry… I was just excited…” You point to your garden. “It’s just… the tomatoes!!!” Ben is watching curiously, but he doesn’t say anything.

Tom flips a burger. “Uh huh. That’s nice honey.”

Ben asks a question now. “The tomatoes?”

Muttering, Tom explains with a wave of his hand. “She was trying to get the tomatoes to grow forever.”

“So will you please come see them?” You try to get him to come over, but he just looks over the railing.

“Uh-huh, they look great.” 

Your hands drop to your side. “Tom, you can’t even see them.”

“They look… so cool” Is he… laughing? He’s laughing at you. You don’t turn to look at Ben, you couldn’t bear to see him laughing at you too. So, you simply go back to your garden, tending to the weeds, trying to immerse yourself in the classical music you heard helps plants grow. You don’t even hear him walk up to you at the garden bed.

“Oh!” Your startle when Benny kneels down next to you, getting in the dirt with you.

“Shit, sorry.” Ben chuckles, his floppy dirty blonde hair falling in his eyes. You wonder if he ever had an emo phase. “I wanted to see the tomatoes”

You roll your eyes but laugh. “You don’t want to see my tiny green tomatoes.”

He is completely sincere, blue eyes shining in the summer sun as he smiles. He has a pretty smile. “I do, actually.” You ignore the flutter in your chest.

So, you show them to him, Benny sounding very impressed as he looks. He tells you how his therapist wanted him to try getting plants to have something to take care of, briefly mentioning that he feels like he was always the one being cared for. He chuckles when he says ‘guess I’m not responsible enough to keep a succulent alive’, but you can feel the truth behind his words. You offer to help him if he wants to try again. Benny lights up at that.

You want to know what he’s in therapy for, why he feels like he’s not responsible enough for a plant, you want to know so much more about him… but you don’t ask. Ben isn’t your boyfriend, Tom is. You loved Tom, you were going to marry Tom. Ben… Ben was just a nice bonus, right?

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Remember, if they dont care about the things you care about, they arent the one!!! someon will care <3

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[crusty-chronicles]

HI, Ik i'm bothering u a lot rn n I am so sorry I am but my mind cannot rest since I binge read ur moon and sun fic and i'm now binge reading ur fixer upper fic but I have an idea. Since I see in ur cover the reader has long hair so imagine after killuas fight or maybe (since u straight up told us they will) gons fight the reader cuts their hair like extremely short or like above the shoulders short since idk if u ever heard of the "hair holds memory" trend but i'm basing it off that since reader just kinda wants to let go 😔 ignore this if u want I just wanna tell u abt this idea I have since I am currently obsessed with ur account ❤️❤️

Nah, don't worry about it. I like when you interact/comment or ask questions on my posts. Also- Fixer Upper isn't mine, but it is a damn good fic!!!

Now for the meat of this ask 😈😈😈. The cover for Moon and Sun is supposed to change with every arc, and because Reader is gender neutral, their gender changes with it everytime. For Greed Island, it was Amab. For the Chimera Ant Arc (the current one) they're Afab. And so on- So that's why reader appears female for the current header. As for if they'd get upset enough to chop off their hair, I try not to get too descriptive when it comes to their physical traits for this story. I feel like saying 'My long hair/ My straight Hair/ My Short hair/ My Curly Hair/ etc would take a little bit away from the experience for different types of readers.

But I do like the idea of them saying fuck it and start chopping during a break down 🤭. The only issue with that is I feel Reader would be a lot more self destructive when it comes to taking care of themselves and their health than trying to find an outlet for their grief.

With that being said, I do have a character sheet? Colored sketch???? Of my Y/n that I made during the first two chapters (maybe before?) to help me flesh out the character. Long and short hair, but male and female 🙃. I'll display below if you're curious. But really I don't mind when you guys have questions or just wanna bounce ideas off of each other!!!!!

[ifeltfree]

Hey it's popcorn anon (guess that's who I am now)

I hopped into your inbox because you're one of the only blogs I follow that's not all caps catastrophizing right now. You actually reblogged what happened and stuff.

I just wanted to expand because my last one looked a little flippant upon reread. I'm of the opinion that Frank is just ignorant, not actually an antisemite.

And also, this is coming down the way less than a day after people were telling Anthony to kill himself in the Dunes comments, this probably doesn't have any of them in a mindset to be. idk. kind or whatever. when they're being "attacked" on the internet.

I'm of the opinion that Frank should just shut up rn yes. But I also think everyone on every side should just chill.

Sorry this is long, I don't have irl friends to rant to. lol

yeah i think i agree with all this also. I know hes not actually antisemitic but the fact that he doubled down rather than just saying "sorry i didnt realize" is frustrating and yeah he should definitely put the phone away and shut up. for the benefit of literally everybody. and with the massively negative reaction to the old wounds video i could see why theyd all be upset but honestly theyre grown and if theyre that mad they should be able to self regulate and not take it out on people online yknow? the response post regarding that video seemed passive aggressive and snarky to me and then to see him acting like this is just so weird to me it really rubs me the wrong way but like. its not the end of the world. everyone says hurtful things sometimes and everyone makes bad choices sometimes and id like to see them all learn from it instead of just standing their ground which is the part thats worst to me personally

[jentasticart]

so Imma just say this, the story for mk1 was...interesting, I guess.

edit: ignore everything that's crossed out, after I read a post going into better detail as to why Bi would do what he did, I changed my mind about that stuff in the crossed out sections.

spoilers below

I did like Bi's screen time, they somehow made me fall for him even more cus of his angry attitude but the fact that they did him dirty was just stupid, like based on the trailers, I really thought it was going to have more stuff about the LK and not focused on Outworld so much.

but no

I was really hoping he was just being smart and plays along to trick Shang into believing he is on his side

they didn't do that, they didn't make him smarter than just a power hungry person, I heard that he was different in Mythologies and I know when he was Noob he got his humanity taken away so, if he really was different before then, why base Bi-Han on Noob's personality? it doesn't make sense to me.

one thing I like is that Bi doesn't see Tomas as his brother so ye, the ship is still on, it would make no difference if they were dating in this timeline or in the older one, it would basically be the same as Kuai already sees Tomas as a brother to him, Tomas would just be a brother-in-law to Kuai if Bi and Tomas were together like that.

also how did Bi-Han get the rest of the LK to be on his side on this if Kuai and Tomas took him somewhere to keep him from doing that? I guess Bi-Han just broke out wherever they kept them? for those two growing up with Bi, I thought they would have known how to keep him contained at least.

I'm also upset that Tomas didn't get his own chapter, he doesn't really have a personality either, I would've loved to see more stuff with him but they were lazy on that and just focused on the favorite ones.

and Nitara. absolutely horrible voice acting, just like that one DJ for Kuai in MK11, the delivery on the lines were so flat and boring, it was jarring to hear, especially right after a really good voice actor speak, I really wish they wouldn't use celebrities voices if they have no clue how to voice act at all, like yeah use they face if you want idc but the voice acting wasn't good at all, idk how they thought any of that was good.

but the most uncomfortable scene I ever had to sit through was the liutana kiss scene, it was unnecessary, it would make no difference if that scene was removed from it, it made me want to punch my laptop screen. like if you ship them, by all means go ahead, I'm not judging or hating on you for liking it, it's just not my cup of tea, not much of a fan of the ship.

anyway, that's pretty much all I got to say rn

[skinner17]

bro that was a lot of words to justify a straight ship, which is usually the norm anyway? idk let gay people dislike straight ships and not "acknowledge" it or whatever, most people enjoy their friendship anyway, fandom is actually really peaceful rn, and i'll be honest, posts like yours do kinda irritate me bc it assumes straight ships are equal to gay ships whem i've spent years dealing with censorship, hate and having to be thankful for "subtext" crumbs. meanwhile straight ships get called boring by gay fans and sometimes gay people dislike them. like, i'm not trying to start anything, i know you have good intentions with making everyone get along and such, which is why i decided to message you, you seem open to conversation, so i would ask you to understand why saying gay people HAVE to acknowledge that a man and a women who are canonly only friends have a relationship with romantic undertones when the big majority ship marcille with falin and already have to deal with pushback even though it's currently the most popular ship? i honestly believe that to be in poor taste. like ship and let ship, i guess, but also let gay people dislike straight stuff after a lifetime of being forced to deal with it

Hi Anon, thank you for writing, Its natural that ure upset by my writing since u ship the other sip. I write because I just want to take off anything in my brain at the moment. And at the moment I feel like there's not enough Laimar essay when there's plenty of moment on the manga to hype.

I write for fellow Laimar shipper. And accept that it will upset farcille shipper. I am not asking any gay or het ppl to like ship they don't like. Its impossible.

I feel Tumblr is a good space to talk and writing whatever abt ship that often ignored/hated on popular fandom social media like Twitter.

I easily hype any other popular ship, gay or het on my Twitter acc.

It's not politically correct? Maybe. but heck I am in the fandom for fun.

There's big possibility that my blog will continue to upset you, because whatever I like and I write will not consider to what others ship. And that kind of dynamic is normal when involved with ship.

I am kinda flattered that you scroll through my account because my writing. I also understand if you block me. The point of fandom is having fun and it will be such a waste to spend it being upset about what other's ship.

[leejihoonownsmyheart]

WE ARE BONDED...I THINK YOU'RE A GRYFFINDOR?? RIGHT?? IF IM WRONG ILL BE SO ASHAMED

OH MY GOODNESS YEAH I TOTALLY AGREE. LIKE WHY DO ALL KDRAMAS NEED TO BE KTRAUMAS 😭😭?? COULD WE NOT GET SOME FLUFF FOR ONCE...

HELP THAT ANIME IS SO FUNNY?? he's so relatable for turning into dust btw that's actually mad funny 😂😂😂

HAVE YOU SEEN THE ANIME OF THE GUY WHO'S VA WAS LAUGHING AT THE DUDE'S NICKNAME BEING DICK?? I DON'T REMEMBER THE NAME BUT THE VA WAS ACTUALLY LAUGHING IN THE STUDIO

no because cheol/hao/wonwoo (and- hot take maybe- shua and jeonghan??) totally give off that 'passive dominance' vibe

YEAH I TOTALLY LOST FEELINGS FOR THAT GUY....LIKE I THINK I MESSED UP IN THE BEGINNING BECAUSE I TEXTED HIM TOO MUCH 🙃🙃 it is what it is tho because i think im much better off without him...........

OKAY I HAVE A THEORY ABOUT PULLING DOMINANT MEN....you either have to act SUPER independent/borderline "leader" like OR you have to act like someone that could be a sub little housewife (like its the 1970s oops).... IM TRYING THOSE 2 OUT RN SO LETS SEE HOW IT GOES LOL

so many meds?? that sounds so complicated (and borderline terrifying 🙁) it must be so bad to be given something that's supposed to help but somehow makes things worse

would a sleep study actually help? here's to hoping it will because not being able to sleep must be torture brie im so sorry i hope you get through this in one piece (ONE PIECE MENTIONED!??!?!?)

PRINCESS SWITCH IS SUCH A GUILTY PLEASURE?? IM GLAD SOMEONE ELSE MENTIONED IT BECAUSE IM SO EMBARASSED TO SAY ITS...KINDA GOOD......

true. imagine ignoring your child's pleas for mashed potatoes... those creamy garlic mashed potatoes are actually a god given right, you can't convince me otherwise 😒😒

NO BRIE YOU DON'T SUCK! YOU'RE A WONDERFUL BEING THAT DESERVES THEIR PLACE IN THE WORLD.... AND YOU ARE PRETTY?? I THINK YOUR VISUALS ARE REALLY FRESH 😭

i'm doing great (besides finals.)!! YOU GOT THIS BRIE I BELIEVE IN YOU

-finals week or 🫨 anon's final week? stay tuned

Hufflepuff 😨

NO SERIOUSLY they should make a website like does the dog die but for what episode of a drama you should stop watching at if you want to pretend there is a happy ending

NO HAHAHA I DONT THINK IVE SEEN THAT ANIME BEFORE BUT IT SOUNDS SO FUNNY IF YOU REMEMBER THE NAME PLEASE TELL ME???

I actually really heavily agree on that Joshua take that’s crazy but i feel that

NO I THINK I REALLY MESSED UP WITH ONE OF MY FRIENDS i’m so stressed about it too she’s taking a break from social media and i’m going crazy like i feel like part of it is just that i’m too much for her now and i’m so stressed, every day i want to spam her and i have literally been crying every single night because i’m so upset cause i think i really fucked up but like is it worse that i think that she would just abandon me? IDK but i’m so upset it’s been a week now. What if she hates me, and also i went literally crazy and i don’t think she knows how crazy but crying every single night cause i think she hates me and left me is CRAZY like every time i calm down i see reason but i was rereading our interactions so much and analyzing all the things i did wrong so much i had to delete the messages

I’m crazy. I’m crazy actually. I want to just forget everything and move on but imagine i put all this effort into forgetting her because i had a maniac anxious breakdown in the middle of a depressive episode and she comes back completely normal expecting me to be completely normal 😭😭 that would be crazy right

I’m crazy right. I’m crazy.

OKAY THATS IMPORTANT RESEARCH RIGHT THERE ACTUALLY CAUSE I HAVE NEVER EVER EVER MET A MAN WHO WANTS TO DOMINATE ME AND HONESTLY?? IM SICK OF THIS BULLSHIT I KEEP PURPOSELY ACTING UP IN FRONT OF GUYS TOO LIKE PURPOSELY I WILL ACT LIKE A BRAT WHO CANNOT BE CONTROLLED AND NOTHING. NOTHING! PLEASE TELL ME HOW YOUR RESEARCH PROJECT GOES TODAY I LITERALLY TOLD SOMEONE THAT A MAN I FRIENDZONED LIKED TO BE DOMINATED AND TOLD WHAT TO DO AND THE GUY I FRIENDZONED HAS LITERALLY SEEN MY FUCKING BDSM TEST RESULTS AND THERE WERE NO REPERCUSSIONS 😭

Meds are meds i guess i’m just really hoping these new ones work. The sleep study SHOULD be helpful like if it’s a serious health problem. And it will help them know if it’s not like sleep apthia? Or something like that

I WAS TRYING TO TALK TO SOMEONE ABOUT THE HEIST ONE?? AND THEY WERE LIKE but the first one is so bad and i was like oh my god… they haven’t even met the third twin LIKE ITS GOOD???

I don’t remember why i said i suck but oh god so annoying i give myself the ick. TODAY I WAS LIKE i was like when i serve food out to people sometimes i like can’t explain this well but i smile and pose? Like when i turn around i’ll like IDONTKNOW POSE? ITS LIKE SUBTLE BUT ITS LIKE IM IN A MOVIE AND IM THE MAIN CHARACTER AND ITS REALLY ANNOYING AND SUBCONCIOUS SO IM ONLY AWARE AFTER IVE DONE IT AND ITS SO ANNOYING AND IT GIVES ME THE ICK SO BAD i have A SERIOUS pick me problem that no one will EVER acknowledge even when i say it i’m surrounded by LIARS

HOW HAVE YOUR FINALS BEEN GOING ARE THEY GOING WELL?! YOURE GONNA DO AMAZING YOUVE GOT THIS

[void-inked-pen]

UGHHH DON’T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON HOW THEY WROTE MIKEY.. MY BOY DESERVED BETTER. ESPECIALLY SINCE HE WAS CONFIRMED TO HAVE ADHD. as a person with adhd as well it just. idk i try not to think about it just because it doesn’t sit right with me, though it would be a dishonor to just ignore it.

to be honest they ALL deserved better, like you were saying, the character writing *definitely* could’ve done more right by the turtles. they literally make whole episodes based off of a potential personality growth of a specific character or flaws within the family (such as not listening to each other) and then basically backpedal the entire thing for the sake of drama and/or comedy. it’s so painful to see and a lot of fans sympathize with this. this is why i love and hate fanfiction in this fandom, because people either utilize/write their characterizations really well/more properly, or… just make it worse. but i’ve been trying to cultivate my experience so i only see the stuff i enjoy. there is some whacked up stuff out there, i’ll say that!

don’t get me wrong, it wasn’t my intent to neglect anything when just calling them dysfunctional without pointing out specific flaws (not that i necessarily think you’re trying to accuse me of that). i actually talk about this stuff with a handful of friends of mine that i met in a tmnt server. it’s really interesting to dive into, especially because while they would all die for each other in a heartbeat but if they have to properly express one (1) thing that emotionally hurt them they will literally jump through hoops to avoid it.

and lmao yeah, the current reincarnations of tmnt do tend to stray a bit from their roots. not always a bad thing, but i get what you’re saying. i really like the gritty stuff because i’m a sucker for angst, however i think it’s very important to find that good balance between humor and seriousness, which is sometimes a hard balance to strike even for good writers. though, good writing can and does get thrown because of what the producers want. i don’t know if that’s the case for 2012, but 🤷

I try my best to be open-minded, eheh. I’m not the knower of everything, after all. I am guilty of being a little hardheaded and stuck in my ways, but I also really enjoy having these conversations with people who are willing to just be chill about it. I have may have some differing opinions on 12 Leo than you, for example, but that doesn’t give me the excuse to be rude like some people have in your askbox. I’ve been working on getting more out of my shell (heh) and exposing myself to new opinions, so I love this kind of forum! you definitely have a follow from me. also, minor note, I think you should watch the 2007 tmnt movie. afaik it’s a bit more serious, but it’s done really well so i think you might like it based off of what you’ve said so far. cheers!

- sai guy

Appreciate you sai guy~

I would also like to note: im so critical of a lot of the characters in this franchise because I love them too, its not cause I only like one version over the other its cause I like how the different characters are written~

ah fanfiction.... how I both love and loathe thee~

(also on an aside, the character I'm the most upset with for how they are portrayed and written is Donnie because he's my favorite character and they basically made him an incel and also heavily dunked on just as badly as mikey and its so ANNOYING!! let that child rest and teach him how to talk to a girl like PLS)

I may watch that movie too but not rn lol my schedule is currently packed! thanks for chatting tho~

[songmingisthighs]

WHY I WENT MIA

spoiler alert : it's not alien abduction

tw : everything triggering, read at your own risk

so i almost comitted suicide several times around the 24th-25th

it all began when i was a child but we don't have time for that crap so i'm gonna cut to the chase.

Recently things has been pretty hard for me with financial issues and stress over what the fuck i'm doing with my life, not to mention the ridiculous pressure my parents put on me (in a way that i had told them would not be effective on me as it would just cause me harm esp to my mental health that both my parents, esp my mom, decide to ignore) and my extended family, and what i want, and it was all just ridiculous. Not to mention something specific happened recently that kinda just made me gave up because it felt like a betrayal, abandonment, and the way it happened was just so absolutely unfair and out of the blue like i wasn't even informed of what happened until i seek for answers myself. It was just horrible and i was really going to go through with it. I had suicide notes ready and everything and i could've decided to do it on the 23rd but it was yunho's birthday and i wasn't gonna miss that so my options were on the 24th or 25th bc my parents were gone and had anything happened, i wouldn't be rushed to the hospital.

I was alone and i felt alone despite having one last friend to talk to but that friend was just sooooo so so so far away and idk it felt hopeless. It wasn't until i accidentally hinted to someone about what i was gonna do and they figured it out and after a whole shenanadoodles (at first this person was like "i can't be selfish, i can't keep you here because who tf am i?") and some words used on me, that person accidentally canceled my self destruction. It was literally something that no one had ever said to me in a sense of the intention and the words used. It was literally "you can't go anywhere now, you're staying to write for me" and it wasn't the sentiment that i HAVE to live for this person now, but it was the fact that i was given a purpose. this person wanted me and they have plans for me and that gave me an immediate feeling of security. It's so stupid, i know but it happened. That was what happened and i'm still at shock because that person said they didn't even know that it would work.

if someone goes to you, telling you they wanna end their life, i implore you to NEVER say "don't do it, but i'm not gonna stop you". because that kinda feels like you don't care and by god, this person is already suicidal now you're telling them that YOU wouldn't care whether or not they leave ???????

i can't speak for other people with suicidal tendencies or behaviour but i'm so glad to have the friends that i have rn. I used to say i don't have much friends but oh my god after being open about this, i realized how many friends i have and how easy it is to ask someone to be your friend.

I'm sharing this to not upset anyone but because i want my blog to be a very transparent and open space. I don't feel normal because i don't see people sharing about their experience esp with suicidal behaviour and/or tendencies bc it's a taboo and it's potentially triggering. that's why i don't feel normal and it makes me think that since i'm not welcomed, i'm not like anyone, i should just not be here. Someone told me to remove myself from uncomfortable situations and i took it to a whole new level. It didn't occur to me how much people cared for me and seriously, i'm just so very thankful. I know i have a long way to go and i'm gonna have more hardships to come, but right now i feel like the people who i have around me can help me even by just doing stupid shit like sending ateez pics or telling a random annecdote or even frantically trying to find a topic that can distract me.

this space that i have created is a safe space. I personally don't get triggered by other people's experience but i get it. honestly, i want to make a safe, open space for people but i just don't know how to. but that's basically what happened to me this past week.

to everyone who are still with me today, i want to thank all of you so much and while i don't know how to thank each of you privately or directly, i just want you to know i love you so much. God the love i received these past couple of days has just been making my heart feel full and honestly it kinda feels like i'm gonna pee. but eh what do i know.

[spiteless-xo]

hi tiff! this is more of a personal question so obviously you can ignore it but how do you personally deal with jealousy in your relationship?

omg, don't worry! you are always welcome to ask me anything and i will do my best to answer 🥰 (but if it's a prompt/request, plz expect a wait time of uh.... days. weeks. months. idk i'm really struggling with writers block rn)

wall of text below

jealousy is an emotion, so you can't really control it. it's like being sad or angry or happy, so rather than trying to "control" your jealousy, what you should do is try to figure out why you're feeling jealous.

so for example, if i start to feel jealous when i see my partner talking to someone else, i'm like hmmm, why am i feeling this way? is it because i want him to talk to me instead? is it because he's letting her touch him? is it because i think she's prettier than me? etc. etc. etc.

and usually, for me, the answer is always: i'm feeling insecure. i need my partner to look at me, touch me, talk to me, compliment me, or SOMETHING to reassure my feelings. so personally, i usually just keep my thoughts/feelings to myself until him and i are alone and then i tell him like, "hey, it made me really jealous when you (talked to that person/let them sit on your lap/etc), can you please (include me in the conversation/don't let people touch you like that/etc.)"

when you're feeling jealous, that doesn't necessarily mean that your partner has done something wrong, but also sometimes it does? lol so don't be afraid to set boundaries like, "don't let strange girls sit in your lap at parties".

if you have healthy communication with your partner and you always let them know when you're feeling upset by their actions, then (ideally) they will work hard to change the way they act to help reassure you because they love you 🥺

i hope that answers your question!! ❤❤❤

[bemtevis]

Istg at this point I'm just going to rewrite tlh out of spite for how awful cc treated them

James all of the sudden is this asshole who we barely ever seen reading AND WHERE DID HIS CUTE GLASSES GO😭😭

Christopher gets like zero acknowledgment even tho at the academy Thomas and Matthew were constantly backing him up(and sure we see this in chot but after ignoring him for two books and then killing him with zero grief :/)

Matthew...I actually don't have an issue with Matthew BECAUSE WE NEVER SEE HIS POINT OF VIEW, and I also feel his character might be the most realistic to the situation aside from Alastair and Grace

Thomas...she literally gave all his creativity to James. He writes poems and songs?? Where did that go?? We also never see him read or spend any actual page time with his family for more than a passing sentence

Jesse was fine ig until that scene with Grace...it's giving the Matthew and Alastair scene at the end of choi

Ari felt in character but I wish we could have seen more of her growth that wasn't just coming out and moving out

Anna is probably the one I'm the most upset about though because like, she was so nice in her original short story. And now she's just this straight up bitch who takes women's virginity for fun? CECILY AND GABRIEL'S DAUGHTER? I think fucking not.

And I hate that everyone moved past how creepy Charles dating Alastair and Ari was like, dude was a whole ass ADULT with a JOB preying on barely 16 year olds(we all know he waited for Alastair to turn 16 for consent laws😒)

And also why are all of the tid parents not present in their kids lives??? Tid and gotsm will, tessa, gabriel, cecily, sophie, and gideon would NEVER. And about the fairchild twins, I fucking hate that she did that. They already fucked matthew up by forcing him to either raise himself in order to take care of his dad or was babysat by the herondales, and he's probably going to be forced to take care of the twins too(yet another math/alas parallel)

Sorry for the rant I just have so many angry feelings about cc as a fellow author rn, like how fo you fuck up your own characters THAT badly-

oh pls do, I'm sure whatever you come up with will be better than canon

I mean he was kind of an asshole beforehand but I figured it was because of the gracelet and all, but his behavior barely changed after it was off! it was so pointless

JUSTICE FOR CHRISTOPHER! he was done so dirty! cc tells us the merry thieves love each other like brothers but then one of them dies and they barely grieve! show not tell, it's one of the first things you should learn as a writer

while I'm sure I would've glazed over most of them, I'm sure having matthew's pov would add a lot to the story. instead, his development is seen only through other people's povs and it falls flat, imo.

something I noticed while reading was that if it was one of thomas' povs, it would be about thomastair. I don't recall any instance in which it isn't. there was the night at matthew's flat, but that ended up being thomastair as well. we barely see him interact with his friends or family or hear about his interests and dreams! cc had something great with him and she threw it away, and for WHAT!

Idk why cc bothered to write james and jesse and everyone being so mad at grace, only for there to be only a few paragraphs in the epilogue about her forgiveness. it was such a cop out, tbh.

same as with thomas, all of ari's povs were about her love interest, except for the first one maybe. look, I know there is a huge cast of characters and it's hard to balance it all out, but cc's books are so filled with amatonormativity that it's hard not to see the pattern.

the thing with anna is that in chot, she feels more like what she should've been. same with matthew imo. they're flawed characters, yes, and don't always make the best decisions, but they're closer to what the narrative wanted me to believe from the start. I loved eet anna, but chog came and ruined her! then cc tried to retcon it, Ig, and it was such an abrupt change that it felt off putting!

yeah yeah absolutely! I've said this before, but the problem with charles wasn't that he was closeted! it was his weird predatory behavior, and that was completely unaddressed. he, like anna and matthew and grace, had his arc rushed so the consequences of cc's writing couldn't catch up with her, but WE READ THE BOOKS! we know he's fucking creepy!

tbh if you told me all of the parents were trapped in a bubble for most of this trilogy, I would believe you. they were not present at all. gideon and gabriel lost their kids to their own sister, and they don't even process it. same with sophie and cecily. it's like they don't even exist.

dw about it! sorry for the equally long, if not longer, rant lol. completely agree; cc's great at creating great concepts then not knowing how to execute them at all. it's so sad

[hoonvrs]

Hey saint watchu doin 😊

Honestly had a really bad day today and Ur the only person I can talk to rn. Idk what's up with ppl forcing me to do things I don't like and telling me to stop doing things I love doing. As if whatever I wanna do is always wrong. My school has restricted me to do any crochet in the campus EVEN THOUGH I don't interrupt nor am I distracted during the classes. My mum has told me to solely focus on studies and do crochet in the holidays. BUT now they want me to do extracurriculars. Maybe I'm in the wrong but I have no interest in the acts of singing, dancing, art and other cultural activities. But I have to do them because I do nothing at home. Like I don't take extra classes for playing instruments, or go to other places for tutoring, nor do I learn anything involving self defense, dancing, singing, reciting. I don't even like sports. I just don't like these activities. But I have to do them and I'm being forced because they're 'good for me' and 'good for my future'. Which I get it's completely fine. But is crochet not? Infact I wanted to do a specific activity and my friend wanted to do photography. But since I chose that activity, she has to too because she won't do photography alone. And then she said it's my fault but when I said that I could switch for the sake of her not blaming it on me for the rest of the semester, she said no. I can't deny anything anymore. When they ask me if I want to do something and I say no, they ask why and I just say that I don't want to. But apparently that isn't a valid reason to say no. I would say all of this to my mum but she's friends with my friends mums and would try taking to them about it but I don't want the others knowing. Ill be honest saint you were the first person I could think of because no one else would just listen to me and not go tell someone else or start asking questions. I don't have anyone to talk to anymore. I just wish things were like before when in was like five and I wasn't allowed to meet my friends outside of school. When our parents weren't friends to the point they would steal away the only day my mum had a holiday I could spend time with her on. I wish I had someone to talk to. Now all I can do is look in the mirror, cry, and talk to myself. Saint you don't understand how much talking to u like this is helping me. We don't even know eachother personally but at least I can talk to you freely without any judgement. I just wanna live my life. I've never had a moment in life where I felt free since I was 5. I miss freedom.

-🌜(rant again 😭)

i can’t understand personally but i can definitely feel for you cause i have a friend in the exact same situation and honestly fuck them for not letting you do what you want in your own life, esp ur school cause in what world do they completely nan you from crocheting in school likes it’s really none of their business. honestly the advice i can give ( if you even want any ) is to not do it. nothing teaches a parent a lesson unless their kids rebel cause it honestly so much easier to ask for forgiveness then for permission, and they’ll see in the future all of that was so useless.

with your friend pls try and stand up for yourself, coming from someone who’s literally ignored her own cousins cause they were being bitchy it’ll be better to avoid and ignore her then to have to put up with her attitude. tell her no one told her to ditch photography and that she should learn some independence or she won’t get too far in life, and she might get offended but that’s her problem not yours.

i’m happy that you feel safe enough with me to share this but i’m so upset that you have to go through this, praying it’ll be js an emotional memory when you’re a little bit older with more independence cause parents will learn to give their kids freedom once they’ve hit an age where they can’t control them ( usually uni )

don’t let anyone try to talk you out of what you love or talk you down into staying in a toxic friendship just because you’re ‘parents are close’ or ‘you’ve known each other for so long’ they’re js manipulating you into wasting your energy and effort on stupid friendships and ik it’s easier said then done but you’ll feel so much better without that burden

[theteasetwrites]

Hey, what's up with Norman hate? I'm pretty indifferent about him and I don't really follow him or check out what he's doing or saying, but did he do something wrong? I only know people are upset that Melissa won't be in Daryl's show and they blame him for it. Idk if it's justified or not tbh. I know the show takes place in France and Norman lives in France so it's pretty convenient, but it's not the only reason the show is set there. I'm sure they wanted to film it somewhere in Europe to expand TWD universe beyond USA. When it comes to how he pictures Daryl I only remember him saying that "Daryl has no game" and that "Leah thing was rushed" and I agree with both so I enyojed that he understood Daryl as a character. Can you give me some source where he says something that doesn't fit Daryl as a character? And what are the "bad ideas" that Norman had that you mentioned in your post?

Hi, so I’m not super up-to-speed with the Norman controversies (I try to remain ignorant because I don’t want my illusion to be broken, but it’s kind of already happened unfortunately), but there’s kind of a lot.

I know Norman has hung out/supported known creeps (e.g., Marilyn Manson, Terry Richardson), and he once mentioned in an interview that he found it “hot” when he was doing a makeout scene with a co-star and she was nervous. He also has used the “t” slur (tho tbh I think this was more out of ignorance than hate) in an interview. I think there might be more things but that’s the gist of what I know and what particularly bothers me. Also Norman has just said a lot of weird sexual stuff that was unnecessary/sexualizing women in a very immature way. All in all, that leads me to refer to him with the term “douchebag.” Also the fact that he wrote a book and used the phrase “helium-filled balloon ass” to describe a woman’s buttocks. I don’t have any receipts rn (not because they don’t exist, but because I’m lazy and most of this is my opinion and I’m not trying to change anyone’s opinion so I don’t feel like I need to show receipts).

At best, Norman is just cringey and ignorant. I don’t think he’s harmful really, just kind of a douche lol. I mean, he’s also really nice to his fans and has done a lot of good stuff with his fame, but it’s good to be critical of things that are deserving of criticism. Celebrity worship is a real problem and they should be held accountable if they do/say something fucked up. Everyone makes mistakes, but how hard is it to just not say weird shit or hang out with creeps?

I don’t think I can point you to exact sources as to why Norman doesn’t understand Daryl, but that statement was mostly just my personal opinion anyway. I think the best example is when Norman said Daryl would “fuck you but wouldn’t cuddle afterwards.” That seemed very inaccurate to me lmao but that could just be me projecting my affections onto Daryl.

Norman’s bad ideas include pushing for the show to be called Daryl Dixon (lol) and also (allegedly) pushing for the show to take place in France. Those are both bad ideas, in my opinion. Basically most of that post was just my opinion.

Also I don’t hate Norman Reedus, but I am critical of him and I think he’s pretty cringey (like why did he have to write a book anyway? I mean he had a ghost writer for sure but still). I don’t think he deserves online hate because no one deserves that, but also, he’s a rich celebrity/grown man who can definitely take the heat lol. I don’t support coming after his family (tho Diane is also a public figure soooo I mean she’s kind of fair game to some extent). I also think a lot of the Norman hate is just c*rylers being upset that he wanted the show to be in France (allegedly) and that ultimately led to Melissa dropping out, but that’s kind of a stupid reason to hate him since there are plenty of other things he’s done/said that are worth criticizing him for.

So my ultimate point is that there are valid reasons to be critical of Norman, but being upset that he may or may not have done something to curtail your favorite ship that has been long dead anyway is a silly reason imo. I think a lot of Norman hate recently is from c*rylers wanting someone to blame, and Norman is there. Blaming the decline/direction of the show on one person is a stretch.

My other point is that it’s okay to be critical of Norman and to dislike him or even hate him if that’s what you wanna do, but Daryl is a different story. I think c*rylers are also projecting their hatred for Norman onto Daryl, which sucks because Daryl is a good character, even if he’s not always the best character.

I don’t hate Norman, but I also don’t worship at his feet. Ok yeah, I run a server called Norman Reedus Whores, but that’s purely to sexualize him ok? I have a right to sexualize cringey middle aged men.

[caught-the-lovebug]

hi I'm the girl who had a crush on the girl in my dorm and everyone and their mother thought the feeling was mutual!

Well now it's the very opposite. We barely even see eachother snd when we do we just do a little fake nod for a hello and we walk past eachother.

Ever since her ex found her way to our dorm things got very confusing. First why is she even here, 2nd are they back together? And 3rd why is my crush suddenly ignoring me. She literally went from showing me stickers she thought I'd like based on my lockscreen and phone case and telling me to pick one (unfortunately I couldn't get any its a long sad story) to tge next day bringing her ex to the dorm and disappearing like she died somehow.

God I'm sooooo disappointed! Like I went from 100 to -100 real quick I couldn't even realize how bad of a damage it caused. I was extremely thankful for the way things were rolling for me but idk WHY they went downhill all of a sudden.

Anyway, I wish I knew what made us like this tbh, like im not the clingy type so when I saw her being a bit cold to me I immediately got offended, however I tried to give her couple chances to see if I was wrong but I can't do it anymore. I can't act cool around someone I feel like they don't give a shit about me rn. So I'm ignoring her as well. Idk maybe that's for the worst actually but she doesn't seem like she wants to have a friendship anymore.

She added one of my friends to her close friend list but not me, and she is also posting alot of her and her ex who's probably now her gf atm.

Ugh, I'm sorry for the rambling but ig it's the end of the fairytale for me...

I'm gonna give my honest answer here but that doesn't mean I'm right.

It sounds like something is definitely going on that you're not in the loop for. Which is almost always the case because we don't get to see what's happening in other people's heads.

It sounds like she's purposely distancing you. Why? I'm not sure. I could think of some reasons (ranging from she knows you like her and doesn't want to hurt you (even though she is anyway), to there's a reason her and her ex broke up and maybe she's being manipulated into it because the ex feels threatened by you, to she's just a jerk) but I have no way of knowing.

It's always really upsetting when someone we like and hoped to be friends with (and maybe test the romance waters) suddenly doesn't seem to want that.

My advice is to take care of yourself. Let yourself be upset over what could have been. But try to move on. Be polite and friendly to her but let yourself move on to new friends (and your current ones!) and new people. Do things. Try new things and new experiences. Don't get caught up with someone who isn't being your friend.

And hey, if things change again maybe you two can talk it out and be friends. Or maybe you won't.

Good luck! And I'm sorry.