#just reading my writing in past posts & the posts in my queue rn

[absyntthe]

People you want to get to know tag game

Was tagged by @layalu :3

Last Song: I've been listening to a lot of video game soundtracks. I think the very last thing I listened to was Bismarck's theme from FFXIV. I think it's really neat that the boss themes in FFXIV aren't what you'd expect from boss music. Bismarck had no right to be that groovy btw. I don't know if that's the case across the rest of the Final Fantasy series as I've only played 14 & uhh Kingdom Hearts idk if that counts lol. I also have been listening to a Resident Evil Chill playlist on Spotify.

Favorite Color: You cannot ask an artist this. You just can't. I love all colors idk if that's a cop out LOL. It's probably easier for me to tell you the colors I don't like.

Last Movie/Show: I don't watch a whole lot of stuff. I think the last movie I watched was My Big Fat Greek Wedding with my one IRL. And the last show I watched was The Walking Dead with an internet friend. I kind of view watching shows and movies as a group activity I suppose? It's hard for me to sit down and watch something all the way through on my own, which is wild because I used to binge TV shows on my own when I was a teen. Plugging my Letterbox'd.

Sweet/Spicy/Savory: Maybe I'm just an indecisive person because I can't answer this one either. I think right now I prefer savory or spicy more. I eat way too many sweets and I need to cut down on that but they're the only easily-grabbable snack foods we have in the house rn 😩

Relationship Status: In a relationship.

Last Thing I Googled: Urth's Fount boss guide. It's an FFXIV base game boss and I am queueing up for it atm (been waiting for AN HOUR because it's dead content). I need it for my Wondrous Tails quest book tho 😩 As I was writing this post one of the DPS's gave up waiting...I will never forget u queue friend

Current Obsession: FFXIV i dunno if you can tell... 👉👈 I'm still sporadically playing Palia (and running a blog for it) My Dragon Age playthrough with the bf is kind of on hold because we're obsessed with/playing different games atm

Last Book: I've been trying to read more this year because after college I just don't read books anymore :( I'm currently reading Counting the Cost by Jill Duggar. I'm not religious by any means but I've found myself scrolling through Fundiesnark content and researching fundamentalist religions and cults the past few years. (they're scary)

Looking Forward To: I started up my rock-tumbling hobby again, so I'm looking forward to Wednesday when I get to check them! They will more than likely need to go through stage 1 again but it's cool checking on them and recognizing the rocks through each cycle. Also looking forward to TWD: The Ones Who Live in February, and D&D kicking back up with my group on Saturday.

Tag nine people whose answers you are interested in!

I get so nervous about tagging people. If we're mutuals consider yourself tagged.

Totally forgot to add a blank, here it is:

Last Song:

Favorite Color:

Last Movie/Show:

Sweet/Spicy/Savory:

Relationship Status:

Last Thing I Googled:

Current Obsession:

Last Book:

Looking Forward To:

[piorrai]

y’all ever scroll down ur blog & strongly consider deleting every post u have ever made bc. yeah

[bathroombreaks]

ok so... biting the bullet and taking a break again. not exactly sure what i’m taking a break from given what i’m about to say but maybe just saying it will help allievate the stress lmao not under a read more (sorry) bc i want people to see it, but feel free to scroll past or wtv.

anyways. yeah, taking a break. still gonna be on top of the nbcgoodgirlsdaily queue. but i’m gonna stick to doing it the way i said i would (x), which i still haven’t been doing it up until now.

i am frustrated and disappointed with the show. i am exhausted with trying to keep up with everyone’s posts and being scared of missing one. i have never once been in any way upset with an admin of a source blog for accidentally missing my post and pretty much everyone in this fandom is older than me so i assume more mature and therefore no one will actually be upset with me the way my anxiety makes me feel like they will if i miss a post.

i am only going to check #goodgirlsedit, #nbcgoodgirlsdaily and #goodgirlsmeme (x). i am not interested rn in going through a thousand posts in the general show tags talking about how much people love things i hated or how much they hated things i loved. i just don’t have the headspace for that right now. if you don’t care about being reblogged by nbcgoodgirlsdaily, that’s fine, tag however you want. if you do care, then please use #goodgirlsedit and #nbcgoodgirlsdaily (and #goodgirlsmeme for the good girls meme).

if you don’t use these tags and i see your posts on my dash, they’ll still get reblogged (unless you tell me to stop reblogging from you or block me). but i’m going to stop checking specific tags specific people use and people’s blogs to make sure i don’t miss posts. that’s just too much, i don’t have the energy to keep it up.

i’m still gonna be on here a lot procrastinating uni work as usual, so feel free to come talk to me or even send me gif requests (if you don’t mind waiting a bit because sometimes i take my sweet time with those), especially if it’s about the good girls game night prizes (x). i’m not quitting the show or the fandom rn, i just wanna take like half a step back. but i feel guilty about doing that so i need to write a huge post explaining it and giving disclaimers lol

[alexandrablake]

hey! hi! it's me! here is my promised bigass update post!

i don't even know if anyone's noticed but i haven't been active in the past... ever (it's been a couple weeks since my queue ran out but in total i'd say maybe a month and a half since i've actually been "active"). i had/have a lot going on right now and i basically forgot i had a tumblr (swag) and i've barely been on the internet period (also swag). i've missed y'all ever so dearly and mutuals - i will be doing rounds to see how you are doing and say hello and scope your always amazing themes.

now. to get into the meat of things (i am coloring the important stuff because if y'all are anything like me, long posts are awful to read).

as i said, life has been pretty nuts lately, which is really strange to say because in retrospect not much has actually been happening. i'll give y'all a quick rundown of it though.

main thing - i got a summer job about a month ago which is what i've been doing lately. i live in the middle of actual nowhere so working is this whole thing (in addition to it being a whole thing of y'know... working) the management sucks so. i'm not vibing but it's just for the summer so i'm sucking it up

follow up thing - i'm in a weird place in my head rn?? i honestly think it's because i'm so bone tired (even though i am sleeping so much - more on this in a second) so i'm thinking a lot about a lot of things

second follow up thing - i've been sick (swag part two) so i'm just asleep . all the time . i'm starting to think the sleep is a real issue but i'm starting to feel better so who even knows at this point.

so that's where i've been! i hope that's like relatively cohesive because here's what's coming up in the future of the alexandrablake blog!

in my ... leave of absence we'll call it, i did do a little bit of reflecting about what i was doing on this blog and i realized that it's time for me and criminal minds to break up. it's amicable and i think we'll stay friends but we aren't the best people for each other and we've known this for a while

god i need to not take breaks

but yeah. i'm kinda stepping back from cm. i haven't been interested in the show in quite some time and i just cannot feel myself loving it like i used to. and quite frankly, i'm bored of it.

but only kind of! i still have some serieses to finish and i may have the occasional idea in the future and i'll definitely interact with my cm mutuals' creations but my focus is shifting!

i'm not entirely sure what to either! i think for now i'm just going to embrace the "multi" part of the multi-fandom blog i technically am. i will say - the amount of 911/911ls around here is going to pick up quick (stupid fucking firefighters making me feel feelings and fall in love with them)

other things i'd like to note in the form of a list!

i'm probably going to be doing a cleanse of who i follow! i may break some mutuals and i promise this isn't because of you, it's just me trying to get something other than cm on my dash

everything should be tagged for the fandom it falls under!

i still won't be the most active, but please come talk to me! i've missed talking to you guys!

i think i'm going to start editing more than writing because (once again (lets hope its not as bad as last time)) i have absolutely no drive to write

EDIT: i also promise i won’t be offended if you unfollow me / break a mutual / etc! curate your online experience and i promise i won’t be hurt if i’m no longer a part of that anymore!

EDIT 2: also please still tag me in your cm creations! just because i’m not going to be actively engaging with it doesn’t mean i’m not going to support you anymore!

and now comes the time for me to tag some mutuals (and i mean some, i'm literally tagging the first of y'all to pop up in that little box) so y'all can decide what you want to do! i'm not even sure if i'm still mutuals with all of you and i'll check in a sec but for now

@temily (hi grace) @tenemily (hi kayla) @moreidstrobed (hi adam) @qvid-pro-qvo (hi qvo) @literateleah (hi leah) @duchesschameleon (hi charlie) @kateemcgrath (hi abbie) @hotchsbabygirl (hi anj) and even though she kinda knows all this @hurricanejjareau (hi red)

[mysticalmuddle]

there’s new fic in the  ao3 tag and i absolutely cannot read it--it’s my number one squick 😭😭😭 new fic my beloved 😭😔

writing issues and complaints under the cut (not related to the above)

i am having a good time writing this fic, i say. i am having a good time writing this fic, i say, as i grow more and more displeased with my own writing. like, hmm, tried something new and i hate it! hate being bad at things! the idea is good!!!!! the idea is so so so good and i know some people who will become fucking feral for it. however! the writer is bad! the writer’s writing is bad! “write a fic that’s less in total but says more, mystic” i said like a goddamn fool. past!me, there is a reason your prose is purple: it’s because you talk too goddamn much and you/we/i don’t know how to fix it!!!!!!

two oneshots are going well--or they would be if i could stop picking at this! new thing! long enough to write them! :screams into hands:

waahhhh it’s not going that badly but i’m just in one of the chart dips. where’s the chart. i checked my tags and likes but i have lost the chart. but i’m sure it’ll show up in my queue in a few months: it’s the one where you feel like you’re getting worse because you’re noticing problems to address but haven’t actually addressed them yet as opposed to the highs where you’re on top of the world. anyways, that’s where i am. my grammar bad! my dialogue bad! my imagery too much! etc etc ad infinitum 

it doesn’t help, i think, that i’m trying new writing software rn in preparation of poking at actual chaptered wips again. some of it’s handy! but it’s making me real real aware of problems that i didn’t see before

i’m sort of salty about it, but everything changes. maybe this fic will hallmark a new mystic writing era. maybe it’ll kill me before i post it! maybe maybe maybe i’ll just keep screaming into my hands for a little while longer

[jeongcake]

tag question game

i've done this once before but some answers have changed and i cant find the original ;-;

tagged by: @crispy-chan

why did you choose your url?

Taehyung was my first bias, so i wanted something to do with him. i have a nickname (which is also my pen name/preferred alias on tumblr) "Tee" which stems from "teacup" so i just made it "taecup" and added fics because i write fanfics. the ontrack is because "mixtape: on track" is one of my favorite skz tracks and is my favorite mv. im literally listening to it rn

do you have any sideblogs?

technically @/taecup-fics is a sideblog, but @/taecup-incorrect is my other sideblog half my keys stopped working on tumblr for some reason i'm literally copy and pasting rn

how long have you been on tumblr?

almost a year now! i started reading in august and writing a few days later!

do you have a queue tag?

#i am queue

why did you start your blog in the first place?

because i wanted to try a site i thought had more experienced or dedicated writers than... *shudders* wattpad. i also liked the way it worked more, although i think a function for series to be grouped would be cool but idrc

why did you choose your icon/pfp?

i just recently changed it because i decided i needed to stare at my skz bias' faces more lmao. i also chose the color based on each blogs color scheme.

why did you choose your header?

my primary one is because that gif is so funny to me and my fanfic blog's is to showcase all of my lovely biases bc i just cant pick one

what’s your post with the most notes?

i don't remember me, before you | series m.list with 123 notes!

how many mutuals do you have?

i think about 20...? maybe less, im not good with remembering lists

how many followers do you have?

177 as of recently <3333 i'm thinking of hosting an event soon to celebrate them

how many people do you follow?

177 i think

have you ever made a shitpost?

i don't really know what that is 😅

how often do you use tumblr each day?

way too often ;-;

did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

no, and i hope it stays that way!

how do you feel about those “you need to reblog this” posts?

depends on the post's actual importance, relevance, or if i want to.

do you like tag games?

yes!!

do you like ask games?

yes!

which of your mutuals do you think are tumblr famous?

@taegularities (im sorry im tagging you again 😅) and @crispy-chan, and a few more

do you have a crush on a mutual?

no lol not yet 👀

tagging: @runalongwith-skz // @sunshinelixie-lee // @deerecordstudios // @knjsnoona // and whoever wants to participate!

[es-kay-zee]

TAG GAME: INTERVIEW

tagged by the wonderful @sainthwngs thank you for the tag, bub! <3

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1. why did you choose your url?

i was just thinking something skz related, and just decided to spell it out. for some reason i have 'zee' even though i actually pronounce it 'zed' lol

2. do you have any sideblogs? if you do, name them and say why you have them.

i have one, i'm not gonna say the url, but i just use it to rant sometimes so that i'm not always doing so on main

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

i started this blog on january 22 this year, but i've been a reader on here for years

4. do you have a queue tag?

not really, because i don't often queue things, but if i do i kinda use 'queued: i ain't even here'

5. why did you start your blog?

i like writing. and i had all these fics in my mind that i wanted to read but they didn't exist, so i decided i wanted to make them myself :]

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

the current one, because i wanted to do a blue theme, and jisung has been bias wrecking me waaaayyyy too much

7. why did you choose your header?

it just matches the theme and vibe i want rn

8. what's your post with the most notes?

it's backseat! it's a fic i'm really proud of! go read it if you wanna

9. how many mutuals do you have?

i have about 10ish that i've interacted with at one point or another :] and i love every single one!!

10. how many followers do you have?

as of posting this: 561

11. how many people do you follow?

161 people :)

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

i have not

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

far too often

14. have you ever had a fight/argument with another blog? who won?

i haven't. i don't like arguing

15. how do you feel about 'you need to compare this' posts?

i have no clue what this means

16. do you like tag games?

i do! they're so much fun!

17. do you like ask games?

i love them! but i've not gotten much interaction with them in the past so i don't really reblog them any more :(

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

i'm not really a big fan of the concept of tumblr fame so idk

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

i do :D she's not on tumblr anymore but i still have a crush on her and i talk to her quite often :)

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@etherealeeknow @sunshinee0-0 @hyunsluvv @sir3racha @imagineinnie @dom--minnie @bobateastay

[seijch]

ANNOUNCEMENT: NOT A HELLO, BUT NOT A GOODBYE EITHER

omg hi ... im like . ashamed to come back after saying brief hiatus in october and then disappearing off the face of the earth til FEBRUARY but under the cut i will be explaining myself and the following, if youre interested (and a tl;dr at the very bottom if you don’t wanna scroll thru this obnoxiously long post):

the reason(s) i was gone for so long

what i was doing during that time (its just a personal account yall can scroll past this idrc)

the status of those um . halloween requests

the future of this account

i. so . Hiatus .

i know. i know . i probably mentioned it when i made the announcement post, but my mental health likes to go on one of those rides. yknow the ones where you go like up rlly fast then down maybe and then up then DOWN .... its like that. i needed a break and every time i wanted to come back or thought about it, something would happen and i would get stuck in my own head.

a big reason for getting stuck in my head was (and i hate to admit this ... i hate to admit that i have Insecurities On The Internet) my feelings of inadequacy regarding my writing. i love to plot fics, i love concepts and characters and making little headcanons but i dont ... know if i love writing rn. and i thought for the longest time that like . whatever ill just push thru it its fine ill be fine but it kinda wasnt lmao you can kinda see it in my halloween reqs and what become of them when i get to that but i began to feel like nothing i had put out or would put out would hold up prose wise (and normally i dont feel like this im much more “idc its my life im living it” but thats not a rant for tumblr LMAO). i still feel like that -- like im better as a reader than a writer. but . You Know :-)

tl;dr: mental state go brrrrr

ii. anywhere here’s wonderwall

when i left, i was in a steadily decreasing mental and emotional state, made worse by a situation at work that really was a case of petty jealousy on my end and rlly isnt very consequential now despite how much pain and resentment it gave me when it Was a problem so i wont get into it. the tl;dr of november and december was me using work as an crutch and distraction -- i know my job, i do it well, it helped me not think about my responsibilities and obligations and inadequacies. of course, as the holiday season grew busier n busier i was scheduled so often that i moved 88 or so miles (according to my apple watch, which i ONLY wear at work since im never anywhere else outside my house) and fell into a cycle of showering n sleeping at my house before going back the next day. (theres definitely something to be said abt capitalism and “grind culture” here but once again its not the time or place snsjkdfds)

at the turn of the new year, i happened to remember a birthday card i hadnt filed away for safekeeping from a friend of mine that id been horribly out of touch with til that point. i started crying because i realized how out of touch id been in general up until that point. the month of january was great for me: i was focused, happy, and in a much better place than i had been before. the end of it brought me down focus wise and im hoping that enough time away from my distractions will refocus me bc i ... need it LMAO and though ive burned out from that level of productivity and gotten distracted again im ... trying to stay positive which i think is the most i can do 😁👍🏼

media wise, i got real into stardew valley (but burned out bc i played it extensively as a way to wind down after work), the pokemon platinum romhack renegade platinum (still havent finished it bc of school n i played it w the intent to see if i could nuzlocke it ... bitch its so hard but its so fun bc of it), briefly assassins creed: odyssey (im one of those ppl who completes an entire region before i move to the next so you can tell i burned out of that one + wouldnt have the time to properly devote to it even if i didnt), got back into genshin impact after pulling for xiao (after not touching it for like . months), and danganronpa. yes . danganronpa 😐 i Know. i stopped playing it after the second trial of the first game bc i was so hurt by the outcome and picked it up in late january only to get sucked in (thank god i had the foresight to buy the second and third games during the steam winter sale). rn im at the start of chapter 4 if anyone wants to come in my asks and um . talk to me abt danganronpa

tl;dr: I’m Into Danganronpa Now

iii. you realize halloween was three months ago right

i mentioned this in the first section, but i love to plot things. every request is plotted or at least has a solid foundation. i had fun detailing what concept i wanted to go with considering what i was given, and there were some bangers i might touch up in the future. but heres whats going to happen to the requests themselves:

there are two finished requests. one will be posted tomorrow and the other will be touched up (just bc i finished it doesnt mean its good 🧍‍♂️) and scheduled for next saturday. as for the ones i never got around to ...

i will not be finishing those requests. i hate to be That Person, but i feel like we all expected this 🧍‍♂️ what i will do is post all of my notes for each request in batches -- requests that have an @ to go with them will be mentioned in the post proper, but anon asks will be pictured. (there are some asks that came from blogs who are now deactivated but i wrote down all the prompts and remember most of those askers so ill cross that bridge when i get there) there will most likely be an excerpt or two simply bc i think i mightve written a few plot points or interactions in the form of bullet points. i rlly am sorry about doing this but i remember looking at my notion doc with all the prompts and feeling ... like i wasnt measuring up n it wasnt just to myself or to some intangible concept of “other” id constructed but it was instead to those who requested n actually WANTED to see and hear and read my writing and i ...... im gonna admit thats another big reason i avoided this site.

regardless, youll definitely get what i have (and likely more than just my bullet points and illegible handwriting).

tl;dr: im sorry. what i have in terms of plot, concept, and interaction for every request will be posted, but i cant say ill ever complete them and mean it.

iv. so what now?

well i mean . im not entirely sure how sold i am on haikyuu in the content creation department (as a creator n to a lesser extent, as a consumer). as mentioned previously, its no longer my primary focus. it doesnt mean im not into haikyuu anymore; i have a lot of love for those boys but i cant rlly say im even caught up w recent fandom activity and also havent even finished s4 pt2 LMAO thats on my to do list

and despite all that, i still want to share my plots n concepts and snippets and maybe even fics. it wont happen anytime soon. it might not even happen. but i mean . its better than me saying i wont write ever again shjdkfs but either way ill probably use this blog as a personal blog w the occasional ask game for dialogue prompts (those are always so fun i love making up aus to fit like . the most mundane prompts)

as for my works (past and any potential future), ive opened an ao3 acc here n ill be editing n possibly expanding on my old works to post there. tumblr, to me, is The x reader hub, but i figure more x reader fics on ao3 is never a bad thing.

ill be deleting/posting drafted posts to the queue since they were all meant to be queued anyway as well as (sorry again 🧍‍♂️) deleting or answering asks in the inbox. (moots if you get a notif from me saying i rbed your post from months ago ... mind your business) im very hard to get ahold of and its ... a problem. expect an overhaul of the nav n shit to reflect my new direction n also because i feel like i cant tell if my passion for carrd is shared by the majority HSDKLFS maybe its better to read my info in a normal post ykwim .......

and of course . if youve read all this n decided im no longer worth the follow, i sure as hell cant stop you. thank you for wanting to, at some point, hear what i have to say -- it means more than you think.

tl;dr: writing will be edited and reposted to ao3, this blog will be a personal blog with a hint of writing (sometimes)

the tl;dr to end all tl;drs:

im back! i wont be as active as i used to due to a lessened interest in haikyuu in general, but i have an ao3 acc now where all my past work will be edited, possibly expanded, and reposted. any future work will also find itself there. my halloween requests will be posted in batches as incomplete concepts, plots, and snippets of scenes; i wont be promising to finish any of them.

there are still fic concepts im attached to and want to finish, but i cant promise any more writing on my end. this blog will be a personal blog with maybe writing, not a writing blog with my personal thoughts all over it.

regardless if you stick around or not, its been crazy sexy cool (equal emphasis) being on haikyuu tumblr even tho i wasnt around for long ... even tho its not my main focus anymore, im still excited to see what the future might hold 🤝

love, ari 💌

[eurydicees]

queueing this rather than posting so i forget about it and no one knows what/who this is about because i cannot confront my own feelings. i have a queue of about 60 posts so this is a good defense mechanism i swear. this is a completely non cohesive, not grammatically correct ramble, but anyways. putting under the cut bc this got out of hand

i am smiling so so so hard rn. i’m genuinely just. so fucking happy. (which is wild. that’s new.) and it’s bc of some of the comments i’ve gotten on my fics and random other original posts.

idk if you know who you are (but if you think it’s you it probably is) but AHHHHH i’m so grateful for every single thing that you have ever been said to me about my writing and i don’t tell anyone that enough. 

i spend so much time hating my work and thinking it’s not good enough but all of you have given me so much love and encouragement and confidence and i’m so thankful. 

i reread some of the comments every now and then when i’m feeling particularly down or feeling bad about my writing (or anything, really) and it always makes me smile. like. you guys always make me smile. 

my friend asked me the other day what the best compliment i’ve ever been given was (my roommates and i were doing a Bonding Activity thing), and i said it was one of the comments on a fic i wrote years and years ago. the ones in the past few weeks have topped that one. your words matter SO much to me. 

it’s not like i have a particularly large amount of followers-- i don’t actually check the number bc it stresses me out, but i do read the tags people leave, and i always read and respond to ao3 comments-- but the people who do interact with my posts, both on here and on ao3, are just. so so amazing.

there’s like. three specific people i’m thinking of rn and i need you to know that you make me smile every day and i get so excited when you “talk to me” in the tags. i am writing this inspired by those people, but it really does apply to every single person who has ever said anything even remotely nice. 

AHHHhhhhhhhhhh. i already said this but today has been a GOOD day because of y’all’s kind words. 

ok now i’m done being sappy, i’m going to eat lunch, no one is allowed to talk to me about this because it’s embarrassing to say out loud and i am small and shy, i hate this website or something, etc etc 

[dweemeister]

As tagged by @themusicmoviesportsguy! Holy crap everyone, I ramble. Apologies!

rules: tag 9 people who you want to know better / catch up with and then answer these questions

TAGGING (I’m tagging more than 9 because it’s been a while): @derricklogan2, @dog-of-ulthar, @introspectivemeltdown, @maximiliani, @memetoilet, @mundi41, @myluckyerror, @neverwasastoryofmorewhoa, @plus-low-overthrow, @sadisticsunglasses @theybecomestories, and @voicetalentbrendan. Anybody else who wants to do this can do this as well!

last song: From the radio (yes, I listen to RADIO)... “Windy” by The Association. I’m historically terrible at getting lyrics correctly no matter the era or genre - I don’t remember the first time I ever googled a song’s lyrics, but I probably was very excited to correct myself. As might be very understandable in this instance, I thought this song was “Wendy” for a long time. But if the YouTube comments are to go by, more than a few Wendys like this song!

last movie: On a rewatch? The Three Caballeros (1944; my write-up from five years ago is in the link). It’s a fascinating film from its unabashed use of color, a very early melding of animation and live-action, Donald Duck lusting over human women (wouldn’t Daisy be jealous?), and the two charismatic co-leads in Jose Carioca and Panchito Pistoles. It’s no propaganda film, but I guess the movie did its job from preventing former Nazis and fascists from settling in Latin America to escape punishment for their deeds!

As a film completely new to me? Lone Wolf and Cub: Baby Cart at the River Styx (1972, Japan). It’s the second of a six-film series based on the manga Lone Wolf and Cub. I passed on writing a review for the first film, as I will for the rest of the series (at least for now). I’m not the biggest fan of the decision in samurai movies to have the blood spraying out of crumpling bodies like a pressure hose, but I see why this series appeals. Outside of The Mandalorian, I’m surprised that the Lone Wolf and Cub series hasn’t influenced more movies and television - the action scenes are strikingly staged from what I’ve seen so far (the first two films).

currently reading: When it comes down to a presidential election season, this sounds a bit sad, but this is usually the least likely time that I am reading any book for fun. The United States’ and Orange County’s handling of the pandemic has also contributed to this. So other than the numerous news articles and feature pieces, I’ve read several essays on certain films I’m writing on in the coming days. Thankfully (or unfortunately depending on how you see it), there has been a lot written about Elvis movies - the good, the bad, and the mediocre. There’s a lot of mediocre Elvis movies. I’m gonna need help soon from classic Bollywood-knowledgeable friends, though.

currently watching: If you’re reading this, I’m sure you’re pretty tired of the Gargoyles and Gravity Falls spam on this blog in recent weeks. My sister and I finished both recently and I am attempting to complete both series’ summer run in the queue on August 31. After that, both will appear more sporadically. I think the best thing for GF is to cycle it in the queue every summer, similar to how I restrict certain Peanuts specials to a specific part of the year (and how I mostly restrict Over the Garden Wall’s appearances on this blog to autumn, especially October). But that’s the recent past.

Right now, two extremely different animated series. The first is The New Adventures of Winnie the Pooh (thank you to my friend for sharing her Disney+ account). My sister and I haven’t seen the series in ~20 years, and I was curious to see if it has held up. I think, as an extension of the original Disney Winnie the Pooh films and A.A. Milne’s works, it’s exceptionally respectful to young children and the parents that would presumably be watching with them. That’s hard to do. For a late ‘80s/early ‘90s series, the backgrounds are drop-dead gorgeous and you can tell Disney threw a lot of money at this series. The other TV series is Star Trek: Lower Decks. We’re only three episodes in, so no judgments from me yet... I don’t understand people who base their television criticism based on less than half a season.

Currently sitting in the DVR awaiting to be completed is The Little Colonel (1935), starring Shirley Temple, Lionel Barrymore, and Bill “Bojangles” Robinson. This is the film with the famous staircase dance between Temple and Robinson* (who struck up an interracial, intergenerational friendship that lasted until Robinson’s death). Given all the problematic films that are featured on this blog, I’m just curious why I haven’t been cancelled yet.

* Yes, I linked the black-and-white original. I fucking refuse to promote colorized prints of black-and-white films for reasons of artistic integrity (unless the colorization was done in consultation/with the approval of the principal creative figures... the instances of which are close to zero).

currently craving: If you can call a trip to the movie theater a craving, sure! Though it may be a craving, California won’t be letting those open for a while. And I don’t feel safe going to a theater upon reopening. It probably will be many months - maybe *shudder* a year - at the rate things are going.

working on anything rn?: *deep breath* These are almost all long-term things...

Thinking about a career pivot.

An extremely informal consultancy gig I’m doing with an old professor of mine on a documentary film she is spearheading.

Continued archiving of all My Movie Odyssey reviews onto Google Drive (this has stalled lately due to the above). The archiving is being done in the hopes of launching a parallel blog in 2021 (WordPress? something else?) which would contain only my movie reviews - this tumblr would remain (and the reviews will still be posted here) for as long tumblr is a viable medium to attract a new reader or two.

Making mental notes about how to approach this blog’s next marathon (“Women Make Film” - Tuesday evenings from Sept. 1-Dec. 1).

In October, I’ll start making preparations for the preliminary rounds of the 2020 Movie Odyssey Award for Best Original Song. Of course we’re doing it again!

And of course, the Movie Odyssey write-ups.

currently playing: Nothing at this moment, but I do admit having a Civilization VI phase in recent months (I suck and barbarians stress me out - yes I know you’re supposed to take out the scout ASAP). That may or may not pick up again.

[simmancy]

If convinient would you do both. I like how it looks but sometimes it is hard to read.

I could do that 🤔 doing stuff like this is a totally new method for me! I was also thinking about editing the colors a bit anyway, this is REALLY new!!! 

I’ll def go in now and add the dialogue on the posts!!

more answers & feedback from @momtrait @mahrigxld @samssimstuff @glimmerstonesims & @berryconfetti below the cut, please leave more if you have any because I’m REALLY not sure,

momtrait replied to your post “so i have no idea if i’m going to continue the text-on-images thing...”

I really like the text on images!

mahrigxld replied to your post “so i have no idea if i’m going to continue the text-on-images thing...”

I really like the text on images tbh!!

I’m glad you guys like it!!! 

samssimstuff replied to your post “so i have no idea if i’m going to continue the text-on-images thing...”

I like it too but then its not as easy to change things last minute before it posts

This is very true, and it’s definitely why my queue is a lot shorter this week (from 10 posts down to 2-4). I historically change my dialogue at the very last minute and its so hard when it’s on the image.

berryconfetti replied to your post “so i have no idea if i’m going to continue the text-on-images thing...”

I think text on images work best when the text is also inc in the post tbh. For people who speak English as a 2nd language can’t copy/paste to a translator (there’s been some russian stories that look interesting but i can’t read them because idk russian and it’s only on the image). Also vision impairment can make it hard. I’m on mobile rn and it looks really small and it can be hard to get colours right (the blue/purple is hard to see all the words depending on the background). But if you prefer it then you do you because you’re the one having to put the time together to write it so if it’s best for you just do it 

Yeah I noticed that too last night while i was re-reading. I tested the originals out on mobile and it was okay on my phone, but then I last-minute-changed some things, and here we are 😅 dialogue on pictures seriously IS a ton of work, and I like it--and berry sims make it very easy to “color” the dialogue so you know who’s talking--but it’s a TON of effort and I’m very mutable on dialogue a lot of the time.

I’m literally rewriting the next set of posts now because I had a better idea this morning, like, i’m a mess idk how other simblr writers do it.

glimmerstonesims replied to your post “so i have no idea if i’m going to continue the text-on-images thing...”

Usually captions on pics are my (shh dont tell anyone) pet peeve BUT yours are so pretty and look so nice and are so *readable*, the question is will things begin to become unclear about who's speaking the more characters appear, also will that limit you with space in case you ever want to do a coolass monologue, its hard to predict, tbh if i trust anyone to pull off captions perfectly its you tho

Okay I’ll be honest they’re kind of MY pet peeve too, but I had this idea where mostly dream sequences/flashbacks are like this--especially because i like internal monologuing and stuff, and this is my More Serious Story,

ok now im starting to ramble tbh lets back up for a second

So i figure IF i continue this, there’s slight-enough differences in everyone’s “character color” that I could continue doing it as so. Vino is obviously a smoky purple, Luna is white, Dianthus is bubblegum, CC is a different shade of pink... But you’re right, as we get into other characters it’ll be harder. HMM HMM HMM.

Also monologuing, I have at least 3 different “villains” planned currently and one  has a great monologue in Gen 3, (i cant wait til gen 3 happens again)

Thank you for your unwavering faith in me, Nika, I appreciate it... Ok rambling over

[pannacottawarrior]

hey a little update

tl;dr: imma take a break from tumblr for a few days and i doubt my queue is even gonna hold out for two days. taking a break because of the whole ‘Pink Diamond has reasons for abandoning Spinel for 6000 years and you shouldn’t hate her’ thing is hitting really close to home and making me feel sick and other problems and stuff so uh see you in a few days, sorry about the abruptness 

the bad thing about barely anyone tagging characters/franchises on your dash is that eventually when you have that really bad moment when someone posts/reblogs something that talks about how XXX is actually not a bad person for doing XYZ to YYY because they went through abuse or whatever too and you’re the one who extremely relates to YYY and have had someone akin to an XXX in your life doing similar shit they did to YYY

well you just take it really personally when you know they’re really not saying anything about you or the shit you had to deal with

that movie was absolutely lovely! ;w; i enjoyed it a lot!!! Spinel is my new favorite character alongside Amethyst, Sapphire, Garnet and Lapis, and there were so many beautiful shots, animation sequences, character interactions and moments in that movie that made me go ‘!!!!’, i rewatched it a lot over the days because of how closely i related to Spinel and how much i loved her and the movie’s messages and scenes and etc!! 

but with that movie came a lot of people - particularly people on here since i don’t follow a lot of people on Twitter or deviantart jukiloikujyhtg - defending Pink Diamond’s actions and while i do agree she went through shit of her own with the other diamonds, it really does hurt me a lot when i see a lot of posts on the daily defending her actions and people getting mad that other people hate/dislike PD and saying how bad she was for leaving Spinel like that - intentionally or not, it was still bad and that’s all that matters. just because you or i were abused before doesn’t mean it’s okay to treat someone else horribly - maybe it’ll help provide reasons why you act the way you do but it doesn’t excuse your behavior

it makes me think of the people in my life who were constantly trying to get me back together with my ex whether on tumblr or IRL and people who were judging me for being hurt by my ex giving me the silent treatment for 4 months and for feeling like i did something wrong for opening up to her about how depressed i was that one day before she started the whole silent treatment thing

i don’t remember it clearly because it’s not something i like to remember nor want to remember

but it does make me feel sick and depressed when i do come across something vaguely similar (like Spinel being left for 6000 years by PD alone) or when i come across people justifying giving your partner or whoever the silent treatment because it’ll make them ‘change their mind’ in whatever disagreements or conflicts you guys have or because ‘absence makes the heart grow fonder’ or when people get mad at people hating/disliking PD after the movie

you can still love a character and admit they’re flawed - like Spinel shouldn’t make other people suffer because someone treated her terribly but i still love her and despite disliking Pearl a lot - at least i know some people who admit Pearl did wrong in the past but still love her

i don’t have a therapist and i wish i did when i was 16 and dealing with the whole 4 month silent treatment my ex gave me back then so i wouldn’t have been an idiot and stayed because i hoped and wished my ex would say something to me. i wish i had one during the years i was trying to recover from depression (at least i got over my suicidal and self harming tendencies and don’t get as much relapses now yjukiluho) and i wish i have one rn so i can work on getting over my social anxiety and dealing with being reminded of past bullshit i went through 

and with recent events with my loved ones and just the anxiety and stress of getting prepared to going back to uni this month - although i still have a few weeks left - it’s just a lot rn so i’m just gonna step out for a bit

go do some reading, drawing, writing and stuff 

i’ll still be around to finish some replies to friends here of course ;v; i’m still working on my social anxiety and i’d rather not relapse back into avoiding all forms of interaction like it’s the plague again @v@’’ and if i do finish some artwork i’ll be posting them on my art blog, twitter and dA since i do really wanna upload art more often if possible ;v;

other things to mention; don’t feel bad if you have reblogged or posted anything about defending or justifying PD’s actions or explaining her reasons for leaving behind Spinel i know it’s not personal and i’m not demanding for apologies or for people to tag their shit since hyjuykiuloikujyhtf how do you even tag this especially since most people would prolly stop posting about PD’s reasons for treating Spinel terribly after a month or two jukulhoighyjufkygiu

all i just want is a break from at least one place where i’m reminded of the shit i went through and get some good vibes from somewhere else so i can at least focus on dealing with other distressing stuff in my life yjuykiuloi;polikjhg and to give people a heads up that i’m gonna be gone for a bit or even longer depending on if i feel like it; 

anyway see you all in hopefully just a few days

[festiveferret]

Wipdate

Posted:

Sugar and Spice - Stuckony. Alpha!Tony/Alpha!Steve and eventual omega!Bucky. Double knotting, dp, lots of naughty :) Spanked - New Held! Exactly what it says on the tin. Someone Reaching Back for Me - Skinny!Steve is broke and homeless. Tony comes to his rescue. Some Bunny Like You - Steve has a bunny tail and ears. Tony is not okay. A Good Night’s Sleep - Steve and Tony navigate the difficulties with sleeping in the same bed as they begin a new relationship. Free Hugs - Steve is handing out Free Hugs. Tony might just clear out his stock. A Shift in Recovery - Capwolf + Hurt/Comfort (and sort of a bit of ID porn) Rimming Porn - Sub!Tony gets rimmed to within an inch of his life.

Updating:

Yet I Will Try the Last - Truck Stop Hooker AU with hooker!Steve and flashy billionaire, Tony Stark. Up to chapter two! Deep End - D/s AU with sub!Steve needing Dom!Tony’s help before they’ve ever met. Alternate canon timeline. Up to chapter fourteen! Hypothesis - Absolutely shameless tentacle porn. With @franzwantscoffee Up to two chapters of fic and two of art!

Beta Queue:

I have a bday prompt in the queue and a Held!

Wips:

1) My most important thing rn is MTH. I’m trying to get one of them done soon!!

2) I signed up for Marvel Undercover’s prompt event and I’m maybe halfway through my fill for that.

4) I’ve signed up for Stony Loves Steve and I’ll get started on that when we’ve got matching finalized! I also expect to do a lot of betaing for that event again this year. (If you missed you chance to sign up for the exchange, we still need pinch hitters and betas to sign up!)

5) @ashes0909 and I are still working away at Held Season Two! We also have been working on the Firefighter AU, wherein all Tony wants is to slide down Steve’s pole. Lots of Held action coming up. If you have a kink you want to see in Held - now’s a great time to tell us!

6) Yet I Will Try the Last is still on the backburner. I can’t very well work on this or Fangbait 3 or Sugarverse until my MTHs are done. Also backburnered is Symbrock, though I did work on it a bit, and a few collabs.

7) I planned out a multi-chap wilderness survival, abo, kidfic, but I’m trying to be a good ferret and hold off on writing that until more pressing matters are dealt with...

it’s been a good month! I had a two week vacation which was fantastic and Kasumin came to stay this past weekend and we went to Endgame. Gardening season is going to pick up soon, but I should still have time to write plenty in the evenings. 

Thanks for reading! <3

[starlighthan]

about the last few posts i rb-ed in the last few days, let me share some stuff based on my own experience! :D this is about the lack of rbs/feedback problem.

i seriously appreciate comments that i received in my fics like pauwi sa iyo, a rose beside the tall bushes, and returning to balete teaser. those are some of my works that got a good amount of rbs and feedback.

what saddens me is the lack of rbs or feedback in most of my fics. as you can notice, i get around more ~10-20 rbs. the thing here is that majority of them are from me srb-ing or responding to feedback, or from networks bc i've been in more than 10 networks ever since i started writing. so if you deduct a good amount, i barely get any rbs/feedback from ACTUAL READERS.

exhibit a: breather

exhibit b: 16:18

exhibit c: unexpected visits

exhibit d: skz as your sweetest bff ever hc

exhibit e: where we belong

exhibit f: a scientific answer

yes, some of them are less than ten. they were my earlier works. i wasn't in networks yet in that time so there wasn't that much exposure but like i said, a good number of it came from me rb-ing it.

i freaking feel so sad when i check my past works and the ratio between rbs and likes is literally 1:4 or even worse than that. a part of myself admits that i'm not the best in writing but i also want some comments about it or even exposure to get that.

i am very thankful that networks exist. i get some rbs and likes here and there. BUT i just get likes most of the time, seriously.

there have been times that i worry if there'd even be people reading my work. heck, the lack of feedback contributes to the confusion on what should i write, considering that i also want to create something that a good number of readers would like.

if people don't rb a post, nobody would get to see what we made. and what could be the result of that? us losing motivation and inspiration to write. we just want to hear something from the audience but we barely get anything.

there were multiple times of me wanting to not write anymore bc i know barely anybody would read it. but i'm still continuing it since i originally started to write for my own sake, to improve in english as my second language and to show some creativity at least. at this point, i'm just writing for my own. i also wanted to share these to everybody, okay? but it's probably not happening. i just started writing last sept. 2021. pretty recent tbh and atp i got to post a lot of fics already despite that short time. unfortunately, the problem is still the same despite using tags, being in networks now, and having a larger amount of followers (i had 50 around late december, and i have more than 150 followers now apparently).

there are lots of ways to fix this problem. you've seen it in other posts about this. making a side blog, giving us ANYTHING to comment (even if it's one word or emoji, we'd appreciate it), queueing/scheduling posts, and more!!! those are simple things to do, to be honest. pretty easy.

lately, i've been getting more feedbacks and comments not only through rb-ing, but sending me asks. i deeply appreciate that fr, thank you. but i still get the similar rb-like ratio in my recent works even if i received a slightly larger amount of feedback now, it sucks.

for me here, i'd appreciate if you rb and/or give comments. i'm serious. waking up to several tags to my fic makes my day and i get more inspiration to write. if you guys kept on doing that, maybe the writing community would be SO alive rn and your fave writers probably are still here.

i don't know what else to say bc writers have been saying the same things. don't complain if any of us leaves. i might sound a little mean here but you're a contributor to that. watch me announce a hiatus soon, who knows? idk, i've been thinking about that actually but i still want to continue my wips and post them already.

that's all for me, i guess. this was pretty messy, but i hope you get it somehow. i'm not even expecting people to read this.

[zweiherzen-a]

ooc ┊ mooorning y’all, i’m a bit sick and def exhausted lmao but more ic posts coming. got a paper due at noon that I’m just editing and refining rn, but the queue’s properly filled up for that point in time. from now on I might just write things in advance and schedule them to come out once or twice a day, with occasional ic/ooc posts outside of the queue. better for my blog management so i can get things done faster than people can reply to them and all.

to everyone to whom i owe a reply to a starter or months old thread, super sorry – i’m getting around to pumping everything out, hopefully in some semblance of a chronological order with priority to super old threads and starters!

I’m gonna reply to stuff from inactive blogs, too. don’t feel too happy about leaving them hanging when the person went poof and, well, perhaps if they ever return they can see it in their activity and enjoy reading something new from me for a blast from the past.

anyway, that’s the plan for today. cheers, mates.

[namjinsgirl]

so i told myself to not go on tumblr for over a day to try and feel better and no one noticed probably but it didn’t work and i feel really awful and anyways i’m making this ridiculously overly personal post under the cut because ???? idk really i have nowhere else to write this down so. oh and also to say i have a teeny tiny queue that’ll run for like a few days (maybe) and i’m gonna leave again

i need to come to terms with some facts: 1) i can’t force the people in my life to love me 2) i’m not anyone’s priority or #1 but that’s okay and i have to just move on and keep going 3) i need to be grateful for what little things i have and what people have stayed in my life

like a lot of you probably know i’ve been having a godawful time studying abroad in prague. i have 45 days left until i come home. i’m trying to change my flight and leave a few days early but it’ll cost me $350. i’m not rich, i don’t have that money, but my dad supports me and knows how much i hate it here and wants to help me come home anyway because he can tell how much i’m breaking here when i call him on facetime.

i’ve basically spent the past two months wandering around always alone, doing everything alone, eating alone and it just. sucks. it’s not even a matter of being independent, i’m an extrovert and being completely alone with no friends here is terrible. i’m not being overdramatic, i really only have one person to hang out with but she’s a bad friend to me and i barely see her because she has other friends.

so the depression’s gotten worse. like it hasn’t been this bad since high school and i think i’ve cried 4 or 5 times since leaving home? i’m not someone who cries a lot. i cry MAYBE once a year. so the fact that i’ve cried this much here is like a big flashing sign to me that i’m seriously not okay. yesterday i broke down and started crying listening to a song on the metro ride to class. sometimes i’m just walking to class and i just have to stop and sit down and cry. it’s really unlike me.

i’m writing this rn in one of my fave restaurants. i ate breakfast alone, tried to study, couldn’t focus. so then i started writing this but now i’m like secretly crying so everyone around me doesn’t see. they’re all sitting with people, in groups, in company. this is dumb and stupid and i’ve only felt genuinely happy twice since leaving home and i don’t remember the last time i laughed for real aside from watching bts run episodes. but even bts isn’t helping.

um i have a lot to work on. like a lot. i’m really trying. but for any mutuals who might read this, sorry i push you away. sorry i’m bad at replying and communicating. sorry if i’m clingy? to the few of you i’m super close to. sorry. i’m sorry for being angry or lashing out at anons, i’m sorry i don’t respond to all the anons i get who have genuine questions, i’m sorry. to that one anon i got yesterday morning, i’m sorry you feel intimidated by me and that my blog isn’t a safe place for you to express your thoughts anymore. i definitely used to have a different online persona (i guess lmao) back in the summer. i’m just not in a good place right now. not an excuse.

if you made it to the end of this wow, i hope you have a great day wherever you are, um thanks for reading