#kind of resents her parents

[heavenincarnated]

open to : m / f / nb

“ you haven’t told anyone what happened, have you ? ”

[skywerse]

more oc stuff

[meltingcrown08]

The new Mizi comic really does shed light on Mizi’s mentality and I feel so bad for her.

As always, the visual storytelling is truly amazing. The most notable visuals imo is probably the way Sua was presented, the way the mystery boy was presented (if he has a name I don’t remember it sorry 🙏) and, of course, NotMizi

Out of the three, I must say that Sua strikes me the most. It’s notable because Sua has never been presented this way in the main series, only the cute set with Till and Ivan has she been shown with those soulless eyes. Obviously, Sua is not there, but rather it is Mizi’s guilty conscience. It is almost like Sua is staring through her (and with the way it’s framed, the audience’s) soul. In a way, Sua has finally “seen” through Mizi and her “act”. Finally scrutinizing her, finally, dare I say, disgusted with her. Sua is Mizi’s goddess, and was her whole world. To have Sua seeing Mizi in such a state, where the person she loves most hates her, it is like Mizi’s mental state has reached a point of no returning, where even her goddess can’t absolve her of her sins.

The guy gives another perspective on how other children at Anakt view Mizi. He was drawn as a very soft character in the previous panels, with light hair and soft curls. Yet, the contrast of when after he slapped Mizi onwards, he is a faceless, blacked-out, sharp character looming over her. Accusing her of manipulating those around her like toys.

I also find it very interesting that despite the lack of a society, there seems to be heteronormativity in the world of alien stage. Though I guess it makes sense, seeing as there are still humans being born naturally like with Io and Till. The Segyeins seem to look at it in a more “corporate” perspective though, in the sense of “Providers” and “Creations” as a [mating] process and a way to produce more humans than anything. It seems the children made a connection between their feelings and their rudimentary knowledge of mating to associate them together. This is especially seen in the way he says males and females cannot be friends (which is bs imo), as the usage of “males” and “females” seem to be very clinical.

Afterwards, Mizi apologises over and over despite being to one who was slapped, and runs to Sua - her safe space. Mizi was convinced she was in the wrong, because the guy “normally seemed very nice”, and so she must’ve did something wrong for him to have that reaction. Sua seemed to realise that Mizi still has pent up feelings with the way she looked slightly shocked when Mizi was trying to justify his actions, and as such goaded Mizi to slap her. Sua seems to have been used to such things considering in her “family”, she’s almost like a punching bag for her sisters. Maybe she has internalized that was an acceptable way she can “help” others. I don’t think it’s a one-off event either, otherwise I feel like Mizi would have had a bigger reaction to having slapped Sua. Perhaps it’s not physical, but sometimes Sua goads Mizi into lashing out on her instead?

Finally, Mizi’s conjured up version of herself. NotMizi is wearing her round 1 dress, which is not only significant in the sense that that was truly the last time Mizi will be “innocent” as Sua’s death has broken her illusion of the world, but also that it was originally Sua’s dress. The way NotMizi smiles, not malicious, but in the kind innocent wat that made Sua and Till and the guy admire her so only to be followed by a cold calculating gaze was brilliant. She has successfully “tricked” them into sacrificing themselves for her with that smile, and so she will be able to turn away and walk off the stage, alive, while they can’t. In a sense, NotMizi walking off the frame can also be interpreted as Mizi losing her hope, once and for all, with Till’s and Hyuna’s deaths.

I can ramble more about how the comic touch on Mizi’s objectification, how damaging it is for a queer person to be raised in a heteronormative environment (confirmed lesbian Mizi, and the way Mizi knew about Till’s admiration for her, and the way despite writing so many songs and made so many pieces of art for her he still can’t express his feelings for Mizi, and the way such rudimentary concepts of love had robbed both Mizi and Till of their loves was insane) but there’s already so many people who can put it into words better than me. Alien stage fans, we are so back. I want to wrap Mizi in a blanket with hot choco and tell her over and over that it’s just her survivor’s guilt and that she truly didn’t know.

[death-rebirth-senshi]

Parenting and what parents owe and what can be reasonably expected of parents and what amount of grace do you owe to parents and how justified you are in hating them etc. is just a subject I think a lot about. I think there can be different seemingly conflicting answers to all of them sometimes.

[immortalsins]

how to write a message telling my father i'd understand if he didn't come to my graduation. without it sounding like i don't want him there. i really do but i also really don't. i'd say i'd understand if he has to work instead, but the only reason he'd skip is so he doesn't run into my mother. i'd hoped that by this point they'd at least be able to say hello, but i'll spend my graduation day jumping between the two of them because they'll avoid even catching a glimpse of each other

[nonbinary-androids]

I can't believe that they had Tamara make The Single Most Cool and Important Decision in all of the Magisterium series (to betray Call and side with the Assembly) and then they didn't do anything with it. Like they had her pull one of the greatest gaslight gatekeep girlboss moments of the millennium!!! and then had her and Call get back together with no resentment from anyone whatsoever in TGT ):

[ghvstrunncr]

turns the idea that Gortash was, deep down, jealous of Karlach around in my head like a rotisserie chicken--

[penisbilt]

the bittersweet but absolute flood of relief that comes from admitting defeat at living independently, to have to move back in with parents. we tried! we gave it our best shot for almost 3 years! but living like this (being on our own) is just not possible for us at this time of our lives. we've finally proved it to ourselves that we can't do it. it'll be okay to let ourselves rest now

[ceramicbeetle]

the thing about Aelwyn that I think about a lot is that there's a lot to the notion that she, to a certain extent, was so abrasive with Adaine because of how obstinate Adaine is with their parents. If you have based a chunk of your personality on the precept of "The only way to protect myself is to meet my parents' expectations and obey them at all costs", then every time Adaine pushes back against them, there is almost unquestionably a fear-response -- even if you aren't the one who set your parent off, their stress/frustration can fill a room to the point of becoming smothering anyway. And if you don't feel safe getting mad at your parents for being a source of stress/fear in your life, then invariably the only thing you can do is begin to resent the third-party who you perceive as setting them off for no reason instead of playing it safe, like you do.

[lovelyisadora]

I am thinking abt my silly au where marcia gets adopted by alther when she's like 8. And marsilas friends au. And overstrand siblings au. And. Ahdjdbsjdbdifbfjnf. I am thinking.......... She should be loved!!!!! And I do not think she was particularly loved as a kid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love your aus so much 😭😭😭 they give her everything she didn’t have in canon

[hyperfixation-or-death]

Thinking about a Parallels AU where the main four + Camille are all different ages at the start of the show, and all the dynamics are different because of it.

The only main characters who have met at the start are Sam and Victor, and Sam and Bilal.

Sam is fifteen years old, so he's the closest to his canon age.

Victor is nine years old, so he's the youngest by a lot in this.

Bilal is thirty years old, and he's working with his mom on the tests. He also tutors Sam in math on the weekends.

Romane is nineteen years old, and hasn't met any of the other main characters.

Camille is nine years old, and she and Victor go to the same school.

Episode one starts when Sam is supposed to go to tutoring, but ends up needing to bring Victor with him, because their parents weren't able to pick him up from some activity or other.

I haven't figured out how they get to the woods from there; for the sake of convenience, let's say that cat Romane and Camille feed shows up injured, and they end up following the cat to try and help it? Work in progress.

Anyways, once they're close to the bunker, they run into Romane. Assuming we're going with the cat plot device, because I can't think of anything else right now, Romane was also trying to find the cat. The cat is gone now, though, and they're all about to turn back.

Then Victor notices the bunker (the key is in the door, idk), and wants to go inside. Sam and Bilal don't think it's a good idea, but Romane also wants to go inside for some reason, and the four end up going to check it out.

The test goes off, of course, and the timelines split.

Timeline 1 - Romane and Victor are left in the bunker.

Victor definitely blames himself for the disappearances, since he was the one to suggest going in the bunker in the first place. Romane also definitely blames herself for the disappearances, since Victor is nine years old, and she should have known it was a bad idea, but she didn't, and now this kid's brother is probably dead because of that.

Romane ends up talking to Victor afterwards, and realizes that he goes to school with Camille. The conversation turns to that, and Victor mentions that he's not doing great in some subject or other; a subject Romane happens to be good at. Feeling like it's the absolute least she could do for him, she offers to help him with homework after school.

Since Victor is literally an elementary school child, his parents are not sending him to boarding school. They do become increasingly distant and harsh, and Victor becomes increasingly convinced that they don't care about him.

Victor ends up spending a lot of time at Romane and Camille's house. At first, it's just because Romane's helping him with homework. Then it sinks in that no one else understands what happened in the bunker, and that fact starts playing into their dynamic. Then he starts to become friends with Camille. By the time four years have gone by, Victor and Camille are close friends, and Romane sees Victor as another sibling. (She hasn't moved out yet because a. She's attending university nearby. and b. She doesn't trust Herve and wants to keep an eye on her family.)

Then Vanessa Chassangre dies, and Romane is faced with the possibility of losing her sister. She's trying to figure out if she has any chance at getting custody, when Victor shows up to ask if she wants to go back to the bunker. Neither of them have figured out the correlation with the test in this AU, but they still go, out of sentimentality and curiosity and several other complicated emotions.

Test happens again; Victor and Romane time travel.

Timeline 2 - Romane and Bilal are left in the bunker.

Bilal connects the dots between the tests and the disappearances pretty quickly. He tells his mom. Then he tells Romane.

Bilal decides to try and find a way to save Sam and Victor. This time, it's less out of personal grief and more out of a sense of responsibility for what happened and guilt.

Romane graduates high school feeling completely lost. She doesn't know what she wants to do with her life, and she can't shake the guilt over what happened.

Haven't planned it out too well, but Bilal and Romane stay in contact. I'm not sure how it's going to work, but he's able to get her accepted for an internship at some point, and she ends up working with Bilal and Sofia.

The three of them continue to work at the time travel. Along the way, Romane becomes close with both Sofia and Bilal, viewing them as family.

Vanessa dies; Herve tries to take Camille. This time, it doesn't work. Romane has a support net, a steady income, and a future in the physics field. Romane gets custody of her sister.

They figure out the time travel. Bilal decides to go back.

Timeline 3 - Sam is left in the bunker; Bilal travels back to this one; Victor and Romane travel back to this one.

Since Bilal was already an adult before the time travel, Sam still recognizes him. He's clearly aged several years, though, which everyone is very confused about. Bilal has his canonical memory loss.

Idk what happens for the first day, but then Romane and Victor show up to the timeline at the same time they do in canon.

I haven't thought about how the plot changes from there, but the timeline where Victor kills Sam and then disappears after time traveling again doesn't happen. The official explanation is that they're able to stop it from happening the first time; the actual explanation is that I can't keep track of that many timelines in an already complicated AU.

Notes on the AU:

Camille ends up being there for the finale's events, both because she's a little older in the AU and because she's friends with Victor in the AU, so she insists on coming with the main characters.

Victor's emotional conflict ends up being roughly the same, because on the one hand, he's had more of a support net for those four years, but on the other, he's younger with more intense emotions, so it all kind of evens out.

For obvious reasons, none of the canon romantic relationships exist, with the exception of Sofia and Lieutenant Retz.

Obviously lots of things are different with this one, but I can't really think of a lot right now because I'm tired, so I might add to this later.

[3x03spring]

man idgaf about what treville and richelieu have going on (mostly nothing) (they dont like each other but they work together a lot bc of their jobs.) (i guess treville holding onto a sense of honour whilst working with the cardinal is interesting but like that's not. thats not really those two having something interesting going on). lets talk about the king and the cardinal man.

[kazuluvr]

thinking about my s/i getting homesick and burnt out and kini goes and collects ingredients from liyue to cook her favorite childhood foods

[clea-dessendre]

the way lodwyn's comments while making her case during That Choice in shatterscarp really cut deep into juniper's feelings re: being a godlike... juicy.

[snekdood]

i love my gma but man I really wish she didn't take on Every Household Responsibility Ever growing up bc she did for a long time take care of my cat for me, which I think is partially why hes such a loud demanding asshole who thinks hes owed the world because she has a tendency to let people (and sub-sequentially animals) walk all over her .-.

[scootkiddo]

it’s so much worse. the way ellie tells joel to get up and he tries. the way abby seeps the pointed end of the club into his neck. the way the wlf members don’t even bother knocking ellie out because she is already so emotionally paralyzed by grief she can’t even so much as stand.

but more than anything else it’s crawling to him. all she can muster is crawling with nothing but her arms and cuddling into joel with her whole person. her face buried into the man’s which will forever be the last memory of him. it’s like watching a child seeking the safety of a parent who can’t protect them anymore. this isn’t just the death of a protector. it’s the death of home. joel, to ellie, is safety. safety that she spent the last five years resenting until it was too late. he’s been the one constant in a shattered world. so when he’s dying — or dead — she reverts, not in age but in emotional rawness. she becomes a daughter clinging to a father figure who can’t shield her anymore. and it’s not just fear. it’s complete unmooring. there’s no one left to hold the world up for her. it’s the kind of need that children have when everything feels too big, too loud, too dangerous. she needs to be held. but there’s no one to hold her, so she becomes the one doing the holding, even if he can’t respond. and he’ll never respond.

in one of ellie’s most harrowing moments in life joel was there to cling on to her. in yet another, she clings to him. but he’ll never cling back again.