Prompt #21: Repast
“You’re scrawnier than I thought.”
“Elezen are naturally lean,” Aymeric replied amicably, trying not to be put off by the intense, near-predatory stare boring into him, “We do not pile on muscle easily like you Xaela.”
“Hmm,” said his companion.
His companion being, specifically, Aza’s mother. She was tall for a Xaela woman, built like a destrier Chocobo with a brusque temperament to match, and possessing long, grey-streaked hair scraped back into a loose ponytail. She looked young for her supposed sixty years, even with the harsh lines pulling at the corners of her mouth and crinkling the corners of her eyes, and her body still looked strong and sturdy beneath her sturdy hunting tunics.
Strong enough to snap him over her knee like a twig, if Aza’s whispered warnings before they stepped into the yurt were anything to go by. He wasn’t keen to test if that had been an exaggeration or not – not only out of fear of discovering that prodigious strength was true, but because getting into a physical fight with his partner’s mother probably wasn’t the correct way to go about this.
“Aym’s pretty built beneath that armour,” Aza piped up at his side, “He’s Lord Commander of Ishgard’s military force, so he has to be strong for it.”
Aza’s mother, Atani, hummed again, her gaze taking on a shrewd edge to it, “Lord Commander…” she repeated, her voice thick with the accent of the Steppe. She knew Eorzean Common surprisingly well, despite Aza confessing it wasn’t her second or even third language, “Is that like a khagan?”
Aymeric glanced at Aza questioningly.
“Uh, yeah. Kinda,” Aza scratched his cheek in a clearly nervous gesture, “He’s the strongest warrior, leads the Ishgardian warriors into battle. Smart too, and, umm...”
Truthfully, Aymeric would place Estinien and several others above himself in terms of martial strength and intelligence, but he said nothing as Atani, once more, hummed and let the matter drop entirely – just in time for their last companion, Aza’s father, Aruci, to sweep next to their table and set down a large, steaming pot in the middle: the family hotpot Aza promised him when inviting him to the meal.
“Atani, stop intimidating the poor boy,” Aruci chided gently, easing himself down on the floor with creaking knees, “He’s here as our guest.”
“If he finds this intimidating, then he’s too soft, isn’t he?” Atani said idly, then shot Aymeric’s way almost lazily, “Are you intimidated?”
“Not particularly,” Aymeric said truthfully. Compared to Nidhogg, or even Hraesvelgr, Atani’s intimidation was tolerable and like water off a mudpuppy’s back. There was only so much your glares could do when lacking the terrifying jaws of a furious, hungry dragon to go with it, “Mildly threatened, perhaps, but not intimidated.”
“Hah!” Atani leaned back, slapping a hand on her thigh, “Oh, I like this one,” she said to Aza, pointing rudely at Aymeric, “He’s bold.”
“Don’t I know it,” Aza grumbled, but he was looking pleased and incredibly relieved. No doubt he was happy this whole meeting was going so well – and that no one had been stabbed yet, an alarming possibility that was allegedly common with Xaela tribes in these situations according to Aza. It was why his partner had been so insistent he wore light armour for the meal, even if the noble upbringing in Aymeric squirmed at the perceived insult of it.
“You know, Aza speaks very warmly of you,” Aruci said in a surprisingly gentle, placid tone as he began spooning out the hotpot into everyone’s respective bowls. His hands were rough, calloused and gnarled, but still steady and strong. Aza mentioned he was a renowned crafter, and it showed, “Every time he comes home, he’s always eager to share affectionate tales about you.”
“And Bluebird the risqué ones,” Atani added teasingly, her mouth curving into a very Bluebird-esque smile when Aza turned an adorable shade of red, “Oh, come now, my little Coeurl, don’t be shy! It’s good to have a partner that satisfies you both emotionally and-”
“Okay!” Aza said a little too loudly, waving his hands frantically, “Can we please not talk about my sex life at the dinner table?”
“I guess it is a poor subject to start off with,” Atani admitted grudgingly, her focus sliding back to Aym with her smile shifting back into too-predatory, “Instead, why not tell us how you two came together? Aza has been so secretive about it…”
At that, Aymeric and Aza shared a brief look. Their ‘coming together’ had been due to copious amounts of alcohol, Aza puking on his boots after publicly confessing his love on top of a table at a dinner party, followed by a very awkward conversation during the unpleasant throes of being hungover. There had been nothing romantic about it – it had been raw, emotionally exhausting, yet… good, in an odd way.
Of course, Aza avoided him for three weeks afterwards before Aymeric could pin him down and get a straight answer out of him regarding what they were but, well, that hungover, emotional talk had been the real start to their… relationship. Sort of.
There was no pretty or gentle way to explain this, though. It had been a mess from start to finish.
“Um, well…” Aza cleared his throat, his left ear flicking nervously, “Bluebird didn’t tell you?”
“Your sister has a big mouth on many things,” Atani said bluntly, “But even she can be discreet about others. She hasn’t told us.”
“Oh,” Aza looked as surprised as Aymeric felt, “Well, uhhh, so… we got together after a… party…”
Aymeric had to hide a helpless smile behind his hand. Aza was such a terrible liar, and his partner stuttered and awkwardly talked around the unsavoury parts of the story under his mother’s far too knowing gaze.
“…and then we decided to give it a shot,” Aza finished his highly abridged and redacted tale, “And here we are, two years later.”
“Two years later,” Atani echoed, sharing a look with her husband, “Well, you really do seem happy.”
“I am,” Aza said firmly, sitting up straighter and looking his mother straight in the eyes, “I’m very happy with Aym. He’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me.”
Well. Well. Aymeric was suddenly very glad he had a bowl of hotpot to distract himself with at that bold declaration. His heart felt like it was doing something very squishy and potentially medically fatal, unable to stop the no doubt stupid, lovesick smile curling his mouth. There was something so good to hear that, if only because Aza had been so sad and lonely at the beginning, almost lost and hesitant to get attached and love. To hear him boldly declare his happiness now was…
“I can see that…” Atani murmured very softly, and something complicated flickered across her expression.
Aruci settled a hand over Atani’s, giving it a squeeze, “We’re happy for you, Aza. You’ve come a long way since we first took you in. We’re both proud of you.”
Atani gave herself a bit of a shake, motherly warmth filling her expression and chasing away the shadows that had lurked there, “So very proud. I always knew you had the better taste in men than your sister-”
“Mom,” Aza protested, his face was bright red at this point and his eyes suspiciously teary.
“-I mean, he’s leagues better than that Felyx,” Atani finished with a roll of her eyes, “Do you know Felyx, Aymeric?”
Aymeric knew Felyx very well. Bluebird had delighted in telling him that Aza’s fellow adventurer used to be a ‘fuck buddy’ when his relationship with his partner had been new and tentative. Looking back, he suspected Bluebird had been testing him, gauging his jealousy – Aymeric didn’t care. Aza wasn’t the disloyal sort, and whatever was between him and Felyx was no longer sexual. He had simply filed that fact away as an interesting piece of trivia and never thought about it in depth again.
“We’ve met,” he said simply, “He gets around, from what I hear.”
“He’s not that bad,” Aza grumbled, “Just because he’s open about being poly-”
“Your sister wanted to marry him,” Atani said flatly, and Aza choked on the rest of his words.
“W-W-W-Wh-” Aza coughed and drew in a deep breath… if only to shriek; “What!?”
“Huh,” Aymeric said, trying to see it and failing. Bluebird, wanting to marry someone? It boggled the mind.
“Hah! I see Bluebird didn’t tell you that story!” Atani chortled, slapping her thigh, “Aruci, love, tell Aza about that disaster.”
“Oh, come now, let’s not embarrass her. She’s not even here to defend herself-”
“You have to tell me!” Aza breathed, looking torn between morbid fascination and utter delight, “Please, Dad!”
Aruci sighed, and groaned when Atani playfully ribbed him, but he gave in with a, “Well, three years back…”
“Three years!? That recent!?”
“Let him finish,” Atani scolded.
Aymeric leaned back slightly, relieved that focus had shifted from him to this humiliating tale of Bluebird’s ill-advised marriage proposal. The hotpot was good, he found, his gaze drawn to Aza as his partner drank in the embarrassing story about his sister, admiring how openly happy and relaxed and carefree he was. He looked younger, happier, basking in the presence of his family, adopted or not…
He felt an odd twinge, then – not quite longing but… a realisation that he was missing something he never truly had. Lord Borel had been a good guardian, but he had never been a father. Kind and affectionate, yes, but his love was not unconditional, and there was always an edge of political posturing when it came to Aymeric. He had long made peace with the fact that he had been a chess piece on the board that was Ishgardian politics, and that he never really knew what a proper family was.
But this… hmm. It probably felt a little like this.
Yes, a little.
Content with that, Aymeric settled in, finding contentment in being accepted into the small circle that was Aza’s family, if only for today.
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Sick and Tired || Para
WHO: Benji Karofsky (@benjikarofsky) and Franco Del Rio (@southsidefranco); Mentions Benji’s family [brother Dave, dad Paul, and unnamed mother]
WHERE: Franco’s trailer
WHEN: 11th April 2019 (Backdated)
NOTES: Ever attempting to be a good boyfriend, Benji comes to take care of Franco while he’s sick, leading to some fluff, so deep discussion, and a heart-to-heart
TRIGGERS: Abandonment and divorce. Very vague mentions of: self-harm, drug use, ‘gay bashing’, and homophobic microaggressions
BOLD: Benji
ITALIC: Franco
WORD COUNT: 5818
Franco did not feel great. His throat was sore, his eyes were red and stinging and he felt like death. He had gotten up only to unlock the door for Benji when he would arrive and then crawled back under the covers, his body soaked with sweat, his hair wet for the same reason. He wasn't sure what was wrong but he assumed it was flu or an infection and the drugs had lowered his immune system meaning he'd gotten hit hard. He'd made sure he gotten a hit only an hour or so ago and if he was tired, which he had been all day, he's just blame the illness. Knowing Benji was coming, he'd managed to through a zipped jacket on before getting back under the covers.
"Franc?" Benji called, walking through the front door of Franco's trailer, recyclable bags full of groceries and other supplies to help with Franco's cold in his hands. He made way to the kitchen area and set the grocery bags on the counter before walking into Franco's room. "Oh... Babe..." he cooed, walking up to the bed and gently cupping the side of Franco's face. "You're burning up, Babe... Did you take your temperature?"
Franco coughed as he sat himself up a little, his body shaking but his skin damp, "Hey babe" he said, his voice weak from the pain in his throat, "No, I don't think Dare has a thermometer here or anything so I kinda just went for calling myself sick" he said with half a laugh, "I probably stink, I haven't left the bed at all today, not even too smoke".
Benji placed his hand against Franco's forehead for a second, then gave him a soft kiss. "You've definitely got a fever, Babe," he confirmed after he pulled back, "But that's okay. I'll take care of you. ...Have you taken any medicine yet?"
Franco tried to nuzzle into Benji's hand but it was gone before he got a chance, "Yeah I feel cold but I know I'm really hot and it's a really funny feeling" he mumbled. He smiled at Benj and nodded, "No, I didn't know what I could take and I don't really do medication or drugs..."
"That's okay," Benji responded, smiling at Franco; Benji found something oddly tame and cute about Franco being sick. "Give me a sec." He left the bedroom and grabbed a bag from the kitchen area before coming back into the room. "Paul used to get sick all the time, so you have to trust me on this, okay?" He jutted a thermos out to Franco to take, a small pill capsule balanced on top of the lid.
"The thermos is Theraflu mixed with regular tea and honey. It'll help with your throat. The pill is DayQuil. Take that too, okay?"
Franco looked at the pill and shook his head, "Nope... Nu-uh... No pills" he said moving it too the dresser, "I don't do pills" he explained, "I'll drink the crap in the flask but no pills Benj, I just can't". His eyes felt heavy but sleep kept evading him, "It's so fucking hot" he breathed.
"Okay," Benji conceded, "No pills. Understood." When Franco mentioned he was hot, Benji tugged at his boyfriend's blankets, trying to cool him down a bit. "Oh, Babe... You're wearing a jacket. You have to take that off. You're gonna overheat," he explained, starting to unzip it.
Franco knew he should fight a Benji taking his jacket off but he didn’t have the energy for it and he was burning up in it, “The blankets gotta be pulled up” he breathed, “I’m naked under my jacket” he said with a half giggle.
"You're naked, huh?" Benji teased, unzipping the jacket the rest of the way. He placed his hand on Franco's chest and playfully winked, but then helped Franco slide the jacket the rest of the way off and pulled the blanket back up. "Since you're sick, I'll behave, but know I don't want to," he teased. "Do you want company? Or do you want penicillin?"
Franco smiled a goofy smile and held out his hands for Benji to hold, "If I didn't feel so rough, I'd be letting you touch but I'm sticky and sweaty and ugh" he said. He thought about the question, "I wanna be a spoon... But a little spoon"
Benji nodded, climbing onto the bed. "Little spoon? I can do that." He wiggled his way under the covers and wrapped his arms around Franco, bringing his head to Franco's shoulder and cuddling him close. "You're not sweaty. It's your natural pheromones. Mmm," Benji hummed, breathing in his boyfriend's scent, "And I like them."
Franco intertwined his fingers with Benji's as be curled his body a little bit, "My whole body aches" he complained, "And my head feels like it's gunna split in two".
Benji nodded, "I know, Babe. I'm sorry..." he cooed, hugging Franco a little tighter. "But you didn't want pills, so I'm not sure how to help other than just holding you until it passes." He admitted, kissing his neck.
Franco nodded, "Can't do pills. Not after what happened". He rolled so he was facing Benji and gently nudged him onto his back, resting his head on Benji's chest, "I ache" he repeated, his voice heavy from tiredness, "Can I sleep"
"Of course, Babe," he wrapped his arm around Franco and cuddled him close, letting his hand mindlessly move up and down his boyfriend's torso. "I'll be here when you wake up, okay?" he whispered.
Franco found he fell asleep easily in Benji's arms and he stayed asleep for a few hours as his body worked on repairing him but, when he woke up, still in Benji's arms, his body seemed to be sweating more and his head was still pounding. He woke up with a loud cough, "Babe" he said, his body still half asleep, "Babe"
"Shhh. Still here," Benji cooed, running his arm down Franco's torso. He turned his head slightly to look down at Franco on his chest. "Feeling any better?" he asked, running his finger through Franco's hair. "There's an ice pack on the side table. I tried to put it on you while you were sleeping, but it kept falling off. There's also a bowl of penicillin there if you wanna take a few sips. Just made it."
Franco smiled into Benji's chest but shook his head, "My head really hurts still". He looked over at the ice pack, "It's too cold" he breathed, pulling the duvet up around his sweating body. He didn't look at the penicillin though but rolled onto his back, groaning as he did, "When did it get cold?"
"Baby, if the ice pack's too cold to use, then you have to at least take off the blankets. You're gonna overheat if you do nothing," Benji responded, cuddling back up to Franc. "Do you wanna take the blankets off?"
Franco shook his head but in the same action, rolled the blanket of his body, his torso shimmering with sweat as he moved himself into a sitting position, his back leaning against the wall behind him. He brought his hands into his lap, "You come to look after me?"
"Of course, I did, Babe." Benji sat up as well and cupped Franco's cheek to pull him to a kiss. As he pulled back, he leaned over Franco to grab the thermos of tea, but stopped short when he saw Franco's arms. "Oh, Franc..." Benji whispered, his voice cautious, but still full of concern. "I care about you so much. Please tell me you're not hurting yourself..." he murmured, his finger tracing next to one of the scars on Franco's arm.
Franco kissed him and then followed his eyes as they found his arm and Benji started tracing the marks. He gulped and shook his head, "No" he breathed, "They are scars from the kidnapping" he spoke gently, his sickness making him let his walls down a little more then normal, "They are called track marks or scars and it's from the amount of drugs they put in my system".
Benji couldn't help but frown as Franco explained what happened. "I still can't completely process that that happened to you... I'm so glad you're okay," he responded, still tracing his finger around the tracks. "I'll see if there's any remedies for scar marks in the pile of stuff my mom left when I get home, okay? It sounds like something she would've had..."
Slowly, Benji leaned down and kissed the scars on Franco's arm, then placed a trail of kisses up his arm until he reached Franco's lips. "Just remember: they're healing. Just like you," he added, before pulling Franco into a deep kiss.
Franco shrugged his shoulders, "Yeah, I never thought something like that would happen too me and I really wouldn't be here if it wasn't for Darius coming in and saving me with Charlie's help". He watched as Benji continued to trace the marks, guilt flooding his brain as he knew he was doing this to himself now and then as he kissed the marks he smiled a small sad smile.
He kissed Benji back but pulled back to have a coughing fit, "Sorry, so romantic when I'm sick" he breathed, regaining his breathing after it, "I don't wanna lose them, they kind of tell my story for me and people generally don't ask" he added, referring back to what was said before the kiss.
Benji shrugged, his hand still cupping Franco's face. "I don't always need romantic. I just need you." He finally let his hand drop and reached over to grab the thermos. "You're healing emotionally and physically with or without the scars. If you wanna keep the scars, that's your choice to make," he explained matter-of-factly. "You've been asleep for hours. You have to drink some of this tea or you're gonna dehydrate."
Franco nodded, "I need you too babe" he agreed, his hand reaching for Benji's spare hand, "I mean, physically I'm pretty much there but mentally, I don't know. It doesn't seem to get better", another lie. It had gotten better but only because he was drugges most of the time. He nodded and used his empty hand to take the flask, drinking a small amount, "Can't I just have some water" he moaned as he continued to drink the tea.
Benji couldn't help but giggle softly. "So whiny," he teased, rubbing Franco's side as he drank. "Water doesn't rehydrate you fast enough. You need other liquids first. Then you can have all the water you want," he explained. "Do you want gatorade? I bought some."
"I don't like being sick. I never get sick" he complained again, "I know but I like water sometimes". He heard the word Gatorade and his eyes widened, "Yes, I want the Gatorade" he said, practically jumping forward, "Please"
"Understood!" Benji replied, unable to hold back laughter--Franco's reaction had caught him off-guard. He hopped out of the bed and grabbed two Gatorades from where he had stashed them in the fridge. "Red or blue?" he offered, holding up both. "I'll put the other one on your head to hopefully cool you down a bit."
Franco smiled at the bottles, “I want both” he said, almost childlike, “And I can get up and stand outside to cool down” he suggested, even though he had no energy to get up, “Then I can smoke a cigarette”.
Benji smiled, then playfully rolled his eyes, "Okay, Francie... Well which one do you want first?" At the mention of getting up, Benji shook his head and climbed back onto the bed so he was sitting on the blanket, but in between Franco's legs . "Nope. No getting up until you've had more liquids. I don't want you passing out. And definitely no cigarettes... I don't mind you smoking usually, but not before you feel a little better. You're coughing enough as-is."
Franco smiled, "Francie... I like that but I want the blue gatorade first". He watched Benji sit between his legs and his lips dropped into a sulky pout, "But I want a smoke" he breathed, "I haven't had one all day and I thought you cared" he pouted more.
Benji rolled his eyes, then kissed Franco's pouted lip. "I'm not letting you have a smoke because I care. Smoking is bad for you all the time, but especially when you’re sick. I have to put my foot down somewhere." He gently leaned his forehead against Franco's and smiled. "And don't think that cute little pout is just gonna make me melt into a puddle and do anything you want, either," he teased, giving Franco a pout of his own.
Franco nodded, "I guess you are right and one day, I'll quit smoking and I'll be really healthy but today is not that day" he smiled against Benji's lips and sighed, "My face really should be what makes you melt and do everything I ask... Including food? I need food?"
Benji pursed his lips at Franco, giving a cutesy smooch sound. "You have to have some penicillin first. Then, if you stomach it well, I'll make you something more hearty. Whatever you want."
Franco nodded and reached over for the Penicillin but he honestly felt so weak, he nearly dropped the container, "Babe, I'm not feeling up for it" he admitted, "Maybe I won't be having something hearty after all"
Benji frowned but nodded, scooting back a little so he could grab the package of crackers next to the bowl of soup. "Wanna at least try a saltine?" he offered, putting the square up to his boyfriend's lips. "You have to get something in that stomach of yours, Babe. You're exhausted enough."
Franco leant his head forward and took the square, chewing it slowly and savouring real food, "It's good" he breathed but as soon as he followed, be started coughing again, one hand grabbing at Benji from the pain it was causing and one hand reaching for his Gatorade.
Benji grabbed the Gatorade and placed it in Franco's reaching hand, rubbing his boyfriend's back with his hand to try to help soothe his coughs. "They're probably a little too dry for you right now," he explained, still rubbing Franco's back. "I want you to eat more though. We just need to make sure you have gatorade to chase it." He kissed Franco's ear, then pulled back. "I bought a bunch and it's in the fridge, so don't worry. Drink as much as you want."
Franco managed to control the coughing with the help of Benji and the Gatorade and slumped back against the wall, "I'm sorry" he breathed, "I never get sick and never rely on any one but look at me". He leant his head against Benji's shoulder, "I'm so hungry".
"Shhh," Benji cooed. "It's okay to rely on me, Francie. I'm your boyfriend. That's literally what I'm here for." He slowly picked up another cracker and put it to Franco's lips, the bottle of gatorade already uncapped and ready in Benji's other hand. "Chew," he whispered.
Franco nodded, "Boyfriend" he whispered, the word still so new too him, "It'll take some getting used too" he admitted. He took the cracker and ate it slowly, chasing it straight with the Gatorade, "I'm still sleepy".
"Boyfriend," Benji repeated softly with a smile, hugging Franco close. "A couple more crackers, then I'll let you sleep more, okay?" he offered, putting another cracker up to his lips.
Franco rested his head on Benji and nodded, "More crackers? But they make me cough" he whined. He sighed, "I don't think I should sleep more. I won't sleep tonight otherwise".
Benji smiled down at Franco. He couldn't stop himself from seeing the cuteness in all his child-like complaints. "You have to eat something, my Motek," he explained, putting the cracker to his lip again. "Just keep drinking gatorade in between. It'll help. ...Wanna watch a movie on my laptop?" he offered.
Franco pouted again but took the cracker and ate, chasing it straight down with the Gatorade. He sighed and as he did, started to cough again, the Gatorade nearly slipping from his hand, "I think I'm sick" he breathed, his breathing ragged, "Like really sick".
“Yes, Babe. You’re sick,” Benji confirmed, rubbing his back through the cough. “That’s why I’m taking care of you!” He took the Gatorade out of Franco’s hand and placed it back onto the night stand. “How about we watch a movie or something on my laptop and just lay down, huh? The more you can relax, the better.”
Franco sighed and looked at Benji with puppy dog eyes, "Please can I have a smoke?" He asked, "I've not had one all day and I really need one babe*.
Benji had to avoid Franco's eyes to keep himself from falling for his boyfriend's plea. As much as he tried to be immune to it, there was something about Franco's pitiful, sick little face that made him melt. "No, Franc," Benji eventually replied. "It's bad for you. You should be happy I even let you smoke when you're not sick."
Franco pouted and dropped his fist in a tantrum like manner and let out a groan, "Babe, I'm craving it right now and if it were my place I'd smoke right here, please" he practically begged.
Benji frowned, "Franc, you can barely eat a saltine without coughing your lungs out. And you're too tired to pick up a bowl of soup." He kissed Franco softly, trying to calm him back down. "I know it's frustrating, but this is for the best, okay? No smoking right now."
Franco huffed, he'd never been denied a cigarette before, "Fine but if I ger grumpy, you have yourself to blame" he said, his tone showing he was not happy, "I'm bored" he whined
Benji simply nodded, not trying to make Franco any more upset than he already was. "How about a movie or TV Show? We can watch it on my laptop and cuddle?" he offered.
Franco side eyed Benji and huffed once more before taking a sip of his drink and looking at the soup, "If I eat some of that can I have one?" He asked, "And if you say yes, can you help me eat some of that? And then we can watch the movie?"
Benji sighed dramatically. "If you have this bowl of soup, I'll let you have a smoke," he conceded. Normally, he'd be content with Franco being a little upset with him, but he knew he needed to get his boyfriend to drink the soup if in order to get better and he wasn't going to be able to get there until Franco got what he wanted. He leaned over to get the bowl and placed it on Franco's lap. "Deal?"
Franco grinned for the first time all day and nodded, "But you have got to help" he said looking down at the soup and then up to Benji, "How'd I get so lucky?" he asked out of the blue, using a spare hand to find Benji's, "I don't really deserve someone like you".
Benji playfully rolled his eyes, but still kept Franco's hand in his. "You're just saying that because I'm finally gonna let you smoke. Stop it," he replied, pouting slightly. He brought the bowl to face-level, then spooned a bit of the soup. "Here comes the train," he teased, putting the spoon up to Franco's lips.
Franco shook his head, "I said help me with the soup, not treat me like I am a child" he laughed. He took the soup of the spoon and swallowed slowly, not wanting to cough it all back up again, "And I said it cause I meant it Benj".
Benji smiled, leaning forward to give Franco a soft peck. "Stop it with the 'deserving' stuff. You deserve everything good that happens to you in life. If you feel like one of those things is me, then that's wonderful too. But know you deserve it." He offered Franco the spoon, still holding up the bowl so it was easier for Franco to eat out of.
Franco shook his head, "Oh if only you were right this time around" he breathed, "I just haven't ever been perfect and then theres you who is pretty much the closest I'll get to perfection". He took someone more soup and savoured the taste, "So good" he moaned
"It's penicillin!" Benji replied, unable to hold back a giggle. "Of course it's good. We've been perfecting this since the Dark Ages. And that's not an exaggeration." He purposely ignored Franco's claims that he didn't deserve him, replying instead with a simple, "Finish your penicillin so we can watch a movie."
Franco shrugged his shoulders, "They never gave me pain meds in the form of soup before" he smiled, "And other then Dare, no one tried to spoonfed me them either. It's why I was in the hospital for so long, I refused the medication". He continued to eat the soup but after about 7 spoons, he shook his head, "I feel really full" he admitted.
Benji nodded and leaned over to set the bowl back down on the table. "Does your throat feel any better? Everything not gonna magically get better with a few sips, but I wouldn't be surprised if your throat was at least a little less dry now," he explained, cupping the side of Franco's face in his hand as he stared at him lovingly.
Franco smiled and nodded, "Yeah it's not as dry but I feel a little sick now" he admitted, "Nothing to do with taste, I've been feeling nauseous all day" he breathed, leaning into Benji's hand.
"I know, Motek," Benji cooed, running his hand down Franco's face. "There's a trash can next to the bed if you need it. I'm hopeful the nausea will pass though. The penicillin won't do much good if it's not in your stomach. ...Do you wanna try laying down?"
Franco looked down at the floor next to the bed, "Please Benji, I have far too much dignity to throw up in front of you". He looked at the night stand and sat up, flinging his legs over the side of the bed and grabbing his cigarettes. As he stood though, he fell backwards, landing back down on the bed, "Help me" he practically begged
Benji stared at him for a second, his arms crossed. "Franc... this is why I didn't want you to try to go smoke. You're not well enough yet. If you can barely eat soup and you can barely stand up, do you really think I should help you go smoke," Benji reprimanded, moving Franco to a more comfortable position on the bed instead of helping him get up like he requested. "...Can we at least raincheck the smoke break until the movie and you've rested a little more?"
Franco sighed but felt emotions in him rising and frustration building, "Please" he begged, his eyes glistening with tears, "I need to have a cigarette babe, please" he hates begging but his cravings were strong.
Benji stayed with his arms crossed for a moment before sighing dramatically and finally conceding. "...Don't ever say I don't care about you," he grumbled, putting Franco's arm around his neck so he could pick him up and walk him outside of the trailer. He gently placed Franco down on the second step outside the front door then leaned against the doorframe, his arms back to being crossed. "I'm giving you 5 minutes, Franc."
Franco sighed a breath of relief and held onto Benji until he was sat down on the step. He instantly pulled his cigarettes out and lit one whilst he shivered on the step. His body was still really warm so the cold air would cool him down but his body shivered in the wind, "Judge all you want, we all have a vice".
"Uh huh... And what's mine?" Benji questioned, looking down at Franco with his arms still crossed.
Franco shrugged his shoulders and smiled, "Me?" He asked playfully, looking up at Benji, his arms wrapped around himself as he continued to smoke
Benji scoffed, then looked at Franco to tell him he was wrong, but after a second of thought, he realized he had a point. "...Fine," he replied, his arms still crossed.
Franco raised an eyebrow, "Really?" He asked, "I'm a vice? I can take that" he grinned. He finished his cigarette and tried to push himself up, "So, am I the bad thing that's really good for you?" He added before admitting defeat.
Benji rolled his eyes and scooped Franco up, purposely choosing not to respond to his boyfriend's comment. He carefully carried Franco back into the trailer and set him back down on the bed before climbing onto the bed and laying next to him. "Okay. Which movie do you wanna watch, Francie?"
Franco pouted, "Don't avoid my question" he breathed out, "I wanna know your answer. You like me to answer questions right?". He thought about then movie and then what he just said, "Why don't we get to know each other, like actually open up a little".
Benji sighed, cuddling close to him. “You know how to push every button I have in order to get what you want. That makes you a vice, Babe,” he admitted. At Franco’s suggestion, he nodded, “Sure. How should we do this?”
Franco smiled and nodded, "I don't try you know. I just, I'm pretty much an ass". He looked up at Benji and shrugged his shoulders, "You ask me a question and no matter how hard the answer, I tell you it. Then I ask you one".
Benji nodded, then thought for a moment before coming up with a good first question. "...When did you know you wanted to date me? Like, what was the distinguishing thing?"
Franco sighed, "Probably when you said you wanted to go for coffee with that guy. I thought we'd had a good time and then I was a little crushed. It was then I knew I had feelings for you that weren't purely sexual". He thought and then asked, "What made you actually want to go on that first proper date?".
"A lot of things," Benji admitted, "I was trying to get over Topher, obviously. But I also felt bad that I was just using you for sex and wanted to do something new with you. But I also felt, like..." he paused for a moment, unable to formulate his thoughts, "something. I don't really know how to explain it... Like, that there was more about you behind the walls. Parts of you that I would like. ...that's why I decided on a date. And why I wanted a real one. I think I subconsciously knew that something good could come out of it."
He looked down and gave Franco a peck on his forehead before he asked, "...Do you think I'm a good boyfriend?"
Franco smiled at Benji's word, "You really felt something? Even about me when I did nothing but try and push your buttons". He snuggled into Benji's arms and smiled, a sigh of contentment leaving his lips.
Franco smirked, "I suppose you're alright" he joked but he turned his head and nodded, "You are good too me and good for me, both things I really needed right now". He thought and then asked, "Am I helping you move on?"
"You are," Benji replied, mindlessly running his finger through Franco's hair as he spoke. "It's... hard to get over someone you've loved for that long. ...And you trying to beat him to a pulp definitely didn't help things--" he sighed lightly-- "but it is slowly getting easier. Because I'm not at the 'just move on'-stage anymore. I like you, Francie. I really, honestly, like you. And I like our relationship."
He paused for a moment. "...Do you think I could help you stop smoking?"
Franco sighed, "I didn't want to hurt him, I wanted to hurt something which is why I kept punching the wall but I saw red and only thought about how he could take it like a Serpent could". He smiled at the words that followed and looked for Benji's spare hand, linking their fingers together.
Franco shook his head, "I don't want to give up Benji" he admitted, knowing it was that and the heroin that kept him going, "I like smoking and I don't want to stop for anyone. If they hurt you, you go back tenfold". He thought about his next question, "Would your family disapprove of your choice in me? Being a gang member and all".
Benji shook his head lightly, "Doesn't make it okay, Franc..." he reminded softly, obviously not wanting to talk about it anymore.
"But Franc, it's so bad for you... And it's bad for me too, y'know... I just hate that you're doing something that you know is hurting you just because it feels good... there's other things you can do. Things that are healthier for you," he sighed lightly before continuing, "I'm... I'm not gonna force you. Just know that quitting is better for you. And if you ever decide to, I'll be here for every step."
At the mention of his parents, Benji paused. He had never thought about it before. "Paul won't care," he explained, unsure what else to say there, "he tries to be supportive, but raising two gay sons... it all really goes over his macho head. Knowing him, he'd probably think it's normal for gay guys to date gang members," he joked. "As far as Dave... I don't know. I mean, he’s my brother. I'd like to think he'd accept it since he cares about me and my feelings and everything, but... you never know. I don't know."
He shifted slightly, "...If I asked you to, would you come to synagogue for Shabat one Friday?"
Franco shrugged his shoulders, "Maybe not but I would have tried to fight literally anyone at that point".
Franco shook his head, "And I'll quit when I am ready OK? Please don't try and convince me otherwise" he said, almost begging.
Franco listened to Benji talk about his family and sighed, "Paul is your dad right? Why don't you call him dad?" he asked, his mind full of questions about his family, "Like, your brother should understand about being gay and if he's gay, he'll see how attractive I am and be jealous" Franco tried to joke, "What about your mum?" he asked.
Franco paused at the question and shrugged his shoulders again, "Erm, I mean I could try but I would probably just burst into flames before I got through the door".
"Because he..." Benji shrugged, "Because he doesn't get me. I wouldn't be surprised if he was a fucking queerbasher when he was in school. And like, sure, he's tried to be better now, having two gay sons and all, but..." he waved the end of the sentence off, deciding to explain another way. "Unlike Dave, I was born in a transparent closet. The moment I was able to walk, I wanted to dance--dance ballet--, and Paul never found a way to connect with me. He and Dave, they could at least bond over sports, y'know? But me and Paul... nothing. And he tried... I guess... but it... was never the right stuff. Like the only reason why I know Krav Maga was because he forced me to take it. I wasn't allowed to do ballet unless I did them both."
At the mention of his mom, he looked away. "I don't know anything about my mom. All I know is that she was Paul's second marriage and that she was Jewish... They didn’t last that long. She packed up her shit and left Riverdale. Haven't heard from her since. No letter, no call, no visit... not once my whole life..." he let his thought trail off and crossed his arms, too upset now to comment on Franco's joke.
Franco listened hard and then he looked up at Benji and shifted, deciding to envelop the man in his arms and hold him instead of the other way around, "Hey babe" he breathed, "We can stop talking about this if you want" he breathed, kissing the side of Benji's head, "It really sucks to grow up without a family. I mean, I was lucky I had mine up till I was 18 and then I ran away from them and I never looked back". He held Benji close, "Come on, you mean so much too me, I don't like to see you sad".
Benji leaned into Franco's arms, but kept his own crossed, upset with himself for accidentally opening up old wounds. He took a deep, shaky breath, then turned to Franco, ignoring the stinging in his eyes. "Maybe we do the movie now," he replied, it more of a plea than a question.
Franco watched Benji and gulped, “I upset you didn’t I?” He asked, his own smile fading as he kissed Benji’s head again, “I’m sorry, but I don’t wanna watch a movie. I just wanna lie down cause I feel sick again”.
"I'm not upset with you," he replied, taking a deep breath. "We can stay here... That's fine. Let's just... change the subject."
Franco moved himself away from Benji and back to the pillows on his bed, resting his head down as he rolled onto his back. His body has started to shiver and sweat again and he felt sick as he clutched his stomach, “Tell me something good” he breathed through the pain.
Benji sat up a little, then looked down at Franco, giving him a soft smile. "Something good? Hmm..." he thought for a moment, then smiled, "We've been dating for 2 weeks now. That's a good thing."
Franco watched Benji, anything to distract him from the nauseous feeling in his stomach and his eyes widened a little, "2 weeks? You mean it's been three weeks since you came over and fucked me and called me an asshole on your way out the door?"
Benji rolled his eyes, "I mean... I was trying to focus on the happy part of it, but, I mean... that's technically true..."
Franco shrugged his shoulders, "The happy part? The first couple times we met, I am sure we hated each other and that was some hot hate sex" he laughed, "How it became this, I don't even know" and he moved a hand from his stomach, grabbing Benji's hand and smiling, "But I am glad it did".
Benji smiled back, giving Franco a soft kiss on his forehead. "I'm glad it did too, Motek."
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