Tumgik
#leaving a gaping hole
lotus-pear · 1 year
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media
never forgiving bones for fucking up this scene
3K notes · View notes
crandairy-juice · 2 months
Text
Tumblr media
mizukage rin nohara and her helpful office assistant, hound! yes she has an isobu paperweight :)
for @yellowocaballero’s recent roleswap au which is Great
155 notes · View notes
sanjiaftersex · 3 days
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media
this ace and sanji parallel of feeling undeserving of love, your honor
Tumblr media
46 notes · View notes
nebulaedaniel · 2 months
Text
screaming crying i truly cant listen to dodie anymore
9 notes · View notes
anna-scribbles · 2 years
Note
emilie agreste and rose quartz.. the same
I THINK ABOUT THIS ALL THE TIME
#the. what's that one post about characters who aren't in the story but are in every part of the story#the way emilie and rose are both so revered in their narratives#and leave such a gaping hole#i find stories about the absence of someone so interesting#ive spent so long trying to decide how i would characterize emilie if I were ever to write her#and eventually I made a list of things that adrien is that he got from his dad and things that adrien is that he definitely did NOT#get from his dad#and then i decided to attribute THOSE things to my perception of emilie#and I love the idea of borrowing from rose quartz's complex of becoming whatever the people around her wanted her to be#so that they all elevated her but had different ideas about who she actually was#& how she was actually so deeply insecure and doubtful about who she really was#that she decided to leave#very emilie to me.#think a lot about how adrien impulsively reflects what people want from him#(he's a mirrorball girl if you get what I mean)#and how he's just so universally adored#how he doesn't have a strong sense of self because he is always performing just as much as he is experiencing.#his expression of self is always at least somewhat impacted by who's around him and what they want or expect from him#and he didn't get that from gabe. gabe doesn't model that at all.#so I think it would be interesting if he got it from emilie#because she WAS universally adored. the same way adrien is.#look at what she did to adrien. to nathalie. to gabe. everyone who knew her loved her so completely#but she's also someone who would leave them all behind#I think that emilie taught adrien the idea of self-sacrifice as an expression of love. I think she taught him how to hate yourself#and be loved by everyone else#I think emilie messed him up too.#anyway YES tumblr user mari-monsta. yes I do think about that#ml#anna rambles#thirteen
194 notes · View notes
tyrannuspitch · 4 months
Text
i am once again thinking about how in thor 1 they cast loki and laufey to have an outstandingly plausible family resemblance and then made one of them put on five (5) hours's worth of makeup to cover it up every day
5 notes · View notes
svtskneecaps · 10 months
Text
i still haven't gotten real baghera and rivers interactions have i........... like the barest of interactions......... a drought........... i was so fucking curious...... i am still so curious............ twenty minutes of conversation and i would be fed forever............ i'd never ask for anything again.... baghera wasn't even there when bolas was doing the whole hostage situation she was off doing her own thing.......... i'm so curious........... i want to know..... what would the dynamic be........ how would they interact............ i'll never know.............. crying...........
#qsmp#if they've interacted somewhere and i just missed it somehow i will be punching the table#and i mean like a conversation bc i have a vague memory of baghera introducing herself to rivers maybe????#but like a CONVO not just hi bye YOU KNOW#you know what i mean. you know.#i'm pretty sure there are tags on my blog from pre-rivers saying:#'god i hope rivers can join (...) i'm so curious what her and baghera's dynamic would end up being'#and i sincerely hope the answer isn't 'nonexistent lol' please 😭 don't do this to me#literally one twenty minute conversation so i could chart a trajectory i'll never ask for anything again#this is a personal curiosity i'm just very interested in people and how they interact and the myriad of dynamics that form it's fascinating#rivers and baghera's personalities are really interesting to me in their own ways#what can i say i like throwing ingredients into the test tube and SHAKING THEM TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS#shut up vic#block game brainrot#there are no metaphors it's just 4 am and i'm grieving the gaping holes in possible interactions#also i just watched a slimecicle qsmp vod those always leave me somewhat unhinged. you get it. you understand.#long tags#((also rivers who speaks french and baghera who's picking up spanish SCREAMING can i hear ONE person on this smp who isn't a native speaker#say something in french that isn't PETITE BITE or VOULEZ VOUS COUCHEZ AVEC MOI))#((i don't even have a personal stake in that battle tbh i'm not a native french speaker but sometimes i try to think of someone outside-#the 'french' w their translations box set to french and man. i come up empty. and it makes me bummed))#((i get why i think but i'm still a bit bummed. would be nice to see the french speakers hearing a nonnative speaker in their language))#((i think it would be funny if rivers spoke french to one of em. etoiles esp would be funny))#(((if anyone's curious i'm avoiding specifics abt rivers bc i'm terrified of being wrong bc My Spanish Is SHIT)))#(((i certainly have thoughts but rather than Be Permanently Wrong On The Internet i will hold them in my chest and one day Die)))#damn these really are long tags hahahahahaha 4 am..............................#anyway tl;dr i will never not be curious how rivers would interact w the smp as a whole i get very excited seeing her log in that's the pos#((and if anyone's worried no i don't message in twitch chats and i deactivated my twitter a year and a half ago lol))#REMINDER THAT IT'S FOUR AM SORRY IF THE TAGS ARE UNHINGED AND FULL OF BAD TAKES I CAN'T BE HELD RESPONSIBLE
15 notes · View notes
guardian-angle22 · 19 days
Note
Oh reading it back I see how it sounds! I meant "no need to apologize" as like an "I understand you were/are grieving and I love you & I was waiting for you to come back to me/you/us (even though i've been frustrated)." I agree and think he will apologize. I also kind of had an idea of maybe 2-3 episodes less, but I love angst and we'll see how it plays out! -anon from b4
[follow up to this post]
Oh, thank you for the follow up clarifying - that is how I read it initially. I just put that part in there about the apology cause I feel like we've had some problems in the past with the lack of apologies shown on screen... from both characters! 2.12 comes to mind and then some things that took place during the initial s4 arc... even the breakup arc didn't have either of them actually apologizing to each other. For whatever reason, the writers just don't like to show them to us. They just hop and skip right over it.
Tumblr media
but yes! I love angst as well and I'm remaining hopeful that they won't drag this out too long considering we have a short season.
6 notes · View notes
navramanan · 9 months
Text
yeom mijeong put it into words so well for me. i'm a good person i won't ask to be loved. asking for love implies you're difficult to love because you're a bad person, so you ask for it. being a good person makes you lovable enough to be loved by someone, so a good person doesn't ask to be loved. a good person is just loved, without having to ask or beg for it. i'm a good person, so why should i ask to be loved? i'm a good person, why am i not loved.
#thinking thoughts are being thunk idk#is this something?#i had difficulties interpreting that mantra so i can understand it#and this is how i understand it#i think yeom mijeong might not agree with this but to me this also applies to people who claim to love you but dont make you feel loved#by putting their words into action. by showing they love you by showing they care for you#so the way i see ''i'm a good person i wont ask to be loved''#is i wont ask for your affection i wont ask you to show you care wont ask you to show up for me#am i not good enough of a person for you to do that without me asking for it?#i understand it's a thin line between communicating your needs and not asking to be loved and simplying wanting to be loved#i also believe there's some bare minimum things you should do. especially after i've communicated with you that theyre important to me#as a baseline to see you do care for me. you do think about me. you do want to see me to talk to me to spend time with me#and you acknowledge it. but leave it there. and continue your inaction#and i'm left in a horrible fucking position bc ur important enough for me to not want to cut you off for this reason#i'm left to sit in that position bc i only have very few people i cherish in my life and most of them act this way#if i were to cut them off i'd be left rotting away by my own#which is better. that or to live with a couple people you know love you but dont show you they do so you have this gaping hole inside you#idk this is just me doing a whole lot of yapping#nesi rants#my liberation notes
13 notes · View notes
lisanees · 2 years
Text
the owl house, a childrens show which the creators had to get their rep in under fucking disney of all people, managed to have a sapphic couple kiss and declare their feelings and display multiple pride flags in the most recent episode
doctor who can’t even manage to acknowledge the sapphic relationship they’ve been dancing around in the final episode, let alone a kiss or expression of feelings, 13 just drops yaz off who is suddenly totally fine leaving her with little to no fanfare beyond getting ice cream together, not to mention tegan’s “my husbands” and not even a reference to nyssa
bbc and/or chibnall you absolute cowards
56 notes · View notes
lcerys · 4 months
Text
also ― since i was talking about his survival verse, while by the end of the dance (spoilers for the book f&b btw. i regularly talk about the book and it's in my rules, but still -) there are mentions of eggs hatching to make attempts to claim a second dragon so it's left implied that it could be attempted (although it's never confirmed as no more eggs hatch and there are very few dragons left alive), i genuinely cannot imagine luke either wanting or trying to claim another after a.rrax's death. his thought process is very much : he had a dragon and he got her killed, if it's an au where he's alive and she's not. he has ? absolutely no desire to bond with another dragon and no intention of getting yet another dragon killed because he knows that if he were to succeed ( which also: he thinks the odds are low enough he doesn't particularly want to try ), it'd be for the war so... he straight up doesn't want to.
4 notes · View notes
a-reality-dream · 4 months
Text
Clancy is actually a no-skip album
6 notes · View notes
myname-isnia · 8 months
Text
It's that "spend hours sobbing my eyes out in bed for several reasons, including but not limited to the fact tomorrow is Monday, the fact my social battery has been completely drained and won't recover anytime soon, the fact my landlady is due to show up tomorrow evening and will likely piss me off again, the fact I've had the urge to write since Friday and ended up not writing even a single fucking word, the fact exam pressure keeps rising and I still don't know what to do with my life after I'm done with school, and the fact I'm both completely overwhelmed and so terribly lonely at the same time" kind of Sunday evenings
#I'm so fucking exhausted. both mentally and emotionally#I spent the night at my grandma's and then my friend came over and spent the night the following day#and I don't count it as a day off unless I don't go anywhere or see anyone#so you could say I didn't really have a weekend#idk how I'll go to school tomorrow. I think even one person talking to me would make me fucking explode#and yet. despite all that. I feel completely alone#because no one I know irl can provide me with the comfort I so desperately need#spending time with people is all a big distraction from my depressive thoughts#and the second everyone leaves.. I feel more alone than ever. so completely and utterly lonely#I try to fill the void with my imagination. lose myself in my oc verse. and it helps sometimes#but when I'm not feeling particularly inspired or can't some up with anything good... I just end up feeling worse than I did before#everything I do is to distract myself from my mind because the second I'm left alone with my thoughts..#they go to a very dark place very quickly#like now. when my wrists itch and I can't stop crying and know full well that I'll go to bed in a few hours wishing to never wake up#and I'm left with nothing but a gaping hole in my chest. aching for arms to fall into and a shoulder to cry on#despite knowing it's not something I'll ever have#so I grit my teeth and bear it and hold on. for whatever reason#I don't know why I haven't give up yet. it's all arbitrary reasons like 'my friends would be sad if I was gone'#even in matters like these all I end up worrying about is what other people would think. not my own feelings#well. nobody has anything to worry about concerning me anyway. I'm too much of a coward to do anything#if I wasn't I wouldn't have lived to see my 14th birthday#and yet 4 years later I'm still here. wishing for an instantaneous way out that didn't involve me raising a hand against myself#because I really don't know how long I'll be able to take all this for. I don't have much left in me#I'm holding on by a thread. one too close to snapping. I'm scared of how few reasons I can come up with to keep going#I don't see a future ahead of myself. no college or uni or job or relationship or anything that might be worth staying around for#any attempts to imagine what life would be like after graduation are just.. dark and bleak and empty#I haven't got a single clue what I'm going to end up doing. maybe that's why I see so little worth in trying to figure it out#nothing in this world will make me truly happy. I don't have a future#and if I don't have a future... I don't have any reasons to stick around any further#if only I wasn't so much of a coward
2 notes · View notes
soonhoonsol · 8 months
Text
you ever feel so sad whenever someone leaves your life?
2 notes · View notes
chocolix76 · 9 months
Text
I'm so excited for this weekend. I have this week's chapter of Anima Sola finished and next week's chapter halfway completed. We're reaching the end of the story and things are getting juicy...
4 notes · View notes
allthebestcowgirls · 1 year
Text
overall i loved the finale... i need to work out my thoughts on what they did with shiv and it feels so open to me idk if it's satisfying but maybe that's just bc i don't want to say goodbye. but yeah i really enjoyed it and im glad we got some nice moments
14 notes · View notes