#liability lorde

[thecoldcoffeecup]

they say "you're a little much for me, you're a liability"

[ourstaturestouchtheskies]

Alice in Wonderland – George Dunlop Leslie // Liability – Lorde

[saadfaisal]

when the clock strikes 12 and you know that after the party your night will not sound like new year's day by taylor swift but instead will sound like liability by lorde.

[brenninthetaylorverse]

okay now somebody tell me why i'm crying to melodrama (liability) on a sunday afternoon?!

[sturid]

hoes be like “Imagine relating to a sad song! I could never” and then crying when certain songs start playing I’m hoes

[thefreakspeak]

Melodrama

I discovered this album in summer of 2021. I had heard a few songs here and there but I hadn’t gotten into the full immersive experience that is the album. It’s one of the major albums that has defined 2021 for me so as the sun sets for the 2021, I want to look back and reflect on this year It could be sunset or dawn:light creeping through the blinds, illuminating half of a young woman’s face as she lies in bed, dark hair strewn across a pillow. She looks towards us, as if she’s been stirred from her sleep, pulled from a bad dream into a reality that’s just as wild and brutal as what her subconscious mustered. Modern existence can be brilliant and colourful and numbing all at once, and Lorde is perhaps the first artist of our generation to articulate this properly. If records about solitude and shifting relationships tend to gloss over the small details of how that changes someone, Melodrama is our generation’s first album that appreciated those nuances. It is wise and yet vulnerable, often violent in its imagery. Melodrama bleeds that semi-masochistic feeling. Of allowing yourself to be in love or happy, knowing the end will hurt anyway. Sure,Melodrama is dramatic (it’s in the title after all), but it also speaks to our generation’s desire to not take things so seriously stupid as fuck, laughing off a pain we feel stuck in. It’s a record for a generation who tweet memes about their depression, in an attempt, maybe, to manifest a cure somewhere out in the ether. But also just because it’s good to extol our emotions for working when they feel mute in daily life. It’s no surprise that the album’s cult following remains strong some 4 years after its initial release. That people see it as an emotional refuge that may take them back to a time and place, while still allowing that meaning to evolve, moulding perfectly to situations in your life that have arisen since. For we spend so much time begging to feel smthn that even pain is a positive sign we’re still capable of feeling at all. Lorde’s sophomore record will always speak to that: “All the glamour, and the trauma and the fucking melodrama” of what it means to be young, bitter, brilliant and lonely all at once.

[borderlinebelle]

Someone in my life, someone that pursued a relationship with me, has put up a boundary and chosen to exit my life because I trigger them.

EDIT: Despite what I wrote earlier in the day while emotionally charged (see below…) I’m choosing to believe this decision is what’s best for the other person, so it will be what is best for me.

Sometimes people leave our lives for reasons that have nothing to do with us and everything to do with choosing to care for themselves first… and that’s okay. I’m trying not to internalize and to instead regroup and keeping moving forward in my search for more genuine human connection.

feel the feeling, sit with it, let it go, stretch: grow forward

🧠

Logically I understand this person is doing what they need to do to keep themselves safe but it’s guttting to have it confirmed that I’m the fucking problem.

baby really hurt me, crying in the taxi

he don't wanna know me

says he made the big mistake of dancing in my storm

says it was poison

I left this friend on read on Monday while I wrapped up a 20 hour shift that went through the night. It was also my son’s birthday so after working those 20 hours I dragged my bones home to sing my son happy birthday. I fell asleep on the couch and then it was Tuesday and I was rushing to work where I got battered a bit by my inability to get things done on time and so I didn’t respond to him until I was walking into my home Tuesday and … I triggered him. My inability to communicate triggered him and for him it was the last straw.

I had probably triggered him a dozen times before. Too chaotic, too childish, too self absorbed, too scattered, too flighty, too much.

He said he thought he had a problem with alcohol and a problem with our friendship. He never did quit drinking but he sure as fuck quit me.

Too much. Too much. Too much. Between the bpd and the adhd… Always too much.

I thought this person was my friend. I … do not understand why I am so delusional in believing I can make an actual friend but it’s exhausting to keep trying.

People, men in particular, will seek me out looking to fill their needs… she’s so full of life, she’s so funny, she’s so pretty, she’s so wonderful, she’s got such a “good heart”.

I try to be open and kind and honest and myself… I stupidly allow myself to be VULNERABLE…. again and again … and then once they’re done with me, it’s directly to the nearest trash. 🚮

the truth is I am a toy that people enjoy

‘til all of the tricks don't work anymore

and then they are bored of me

i know that it's exciting running through the night, but

every perfect summer's eating me alive until you're gone

better on my own

I’m so toxic he can’t even speak to me anymore. 🙂

Everybody agrees.

Friends communicate. Friends work it out. Friends … TRY. Were you ever really my friend? Why not communicate with me? Maybe we both could have grown… but it’s not even worth the fucking effort. I’m not even worth the effort.

The reality of being the manic pixie dream girl is so fucking lonely and gutteral. It’s being the fucking pretty positive ray of sunshine everyone wants to talk to, but the person no one wants once they get to know.

[chaotic-theatrical-weaver]

On who we are and who we are told we are (this has spent MONTHS in my drafts):

"Liability," Lorde / "Liability (Reprise)," Lorde / quote by Laverne Cox / "Novocaine," The Unlikely Candidates / Tumblr post by shoyohnt / Tumblr post by ave-immaculata

[isitovernow-ootw]

something something ashes by escape the stake liability by lord something something better man all too well

[0tr45hm0uth]

So they pull back, make other plans I understand, I'm a liability Get you wild, make you leave I'm a little much for everyone

They're gonna watch me disappear into the sun You're all gonna watch me disappear into the sun

Liability - Lorde

Thanks to @heretoboogie for the song rec!! <3

[runillholdhimoff]

just remembered that the first line of the Pure Heroine album is “don’t you think that it’s boring how people talk” and the last line of the last song is “let them talk” so i’ll be spending 5-7 business days in recovery

[thecoldcoffeecup]

in my head i play a supercut of us

[snowglobetay]

mirrorball girlies are this is me trying girlies are the archer girlies are liability girlies are good enough girlies are you signed up for this girlies are the list girlies are camden girlies are block me out girlies are difficult girlies

[bidamonalbarn]

liability by lorde is probably the most real song ever

[stood-onthecliffside]

hoax (taylor swift) x liability (lorde)

[texaschainsawmascara]

She stands before him, clothes in garments of flaming fire, inspiring terror & making body & soul terrible, full of frightening eyes (…) - The Book of Lilith - Barbara Black Koltuv

Delta Of Venus - Anaïs Nin / Helen of Troy Does Countertop Dancing - Margaret Atwood / 'Fire No 1', 2013 - Logan White / The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Volume IV (1944-1947) / Fantasia / Old Me - 5 Seconds of Summer / not angry - Ikumi Nakada / Labyrinths: Selected Stories & Other Writings - Jorge Luis Borges / Candle 2000 - Vladimir Kush / Angel On Fire - Halsey / unknown / A Burning Hill - Mitski / Liability - Lorde