#libing things are my favorite

[elizakai]

are u a libing thing? not ai? cuz that’s what happy

:)

:))

yk what

that is happy :))

i laugh breathe eat sing create and love like a creture so i think i’m a libing thing

[walaumalistulog]

When does grieving really end?

I lost my father eight years ago. Matagal-tagal na rin. He suffered from the complications brought about by heart failure. I was 16 that time, you know, ang edad kung saan mas malupit ang mundo sa'yo: kung tama ba ang career path na iti-take mo, kung ano ba talaga ang sexuality mo bilang tao, kung mago-open ka ba ng bank account para maging financially independent ka, or simpleng red pa rin ba ang favorite color mo.

I saw him suffered right before my eyes. Nakita ko kung paano niya i-exert ang lahat ng Joules ng efforts niya para lang makahinga. Buto't-balat. Halos nagtagpo na ang balat sa kalamnan, at hindi alam kung alam pa ang salitang 'mabuhay'.

Eventually, sumuko rin siya. Hindi kinaya, in short. Wala nang maibugang lakas para manatiling buhay. Though, tinapat na kami ng doktor niya na malabo pa sa sabaw ng sinaing na maka-survive siya. Lagi akong humihingi sa Panginoon ng isang himala, na paggising ko, isang araw, maging normal na ang lahat. Maging worthy of a biblical story ang kaginhawahan ni Papa na capable ang Panginoon ng imposibleng mga bagay.

Nung namatay ang Papa, never ako umiyak. Umiyak ako, pero walang nakakita so technically, hindi counted. Hindi maaaninag sa itsura ko na nagluluksa ako that time---hindi mugto ang mata ko sa kakaiyak, hindi ako mukhang puyat, at never kong ipinakita sa mga tao na nagluluksa ako.

Dumating ang araw na ihahatid na sa huling hantungan si Papa, okay lang. Eventually aware naman na ako na ganoon ang kahahantungan. Ililibing din siya. After ng libing, panay ang mensahe ng pakikiramay ng mga taong hindi ko naman kilala: "nakikiramay ako, hijo," "mabuting tao ang tatay mo," o 'di kaya ay "magpakatatag ka,"

Dumating 'yung puntong gabi na at kaming tatlo---ako, kapatid ko, at ang biyuda kong nanay---ang natira sa bahay. Hiwa-hiwalay kami ng mga kwartong tinutulugan. Tahimik ang paligid, ngunit hindi ang aming bahay. Yaon na yata ang pinakamalalakas na iyak namin sa tanang buhay namin. Ang tahanan ang siyang dapat maging kanlungan ng pagtahan namin, ay hindi naging akma sa kanyang ngalan.

Ang weird lang kapag namatayan ka: minsan okay ka, minsan hindi. Madalas iniiyakan ko ang pagkamatay ng Papa, minsan hindi, ngunit hindi siya nawawala sa isip ko araw-araw.

May mga pagkakataong akala mo, okay ka na sa mga nangyari, ngunit mapapaisip ka pa rin kung bakit kailangan mangyari ang mga nangyari.

Minsan kapag napag-uusapan ang yumao, wala nang lungkot, pero parang may kurot sa puso---na parang ang lapit ng isang tao sa'yo dahil nararamdaman mo ang pagmamahal nila, ngunit malayo dahil hindi ito tanaw ng dalawa mong mata.

Ngayon, walong taon na ang lumipas. Kapag napag-uusapan, parang wala na lang, pero parang laging may kulang. Nalulungkot dahil ang mga pangakong binitawan at mga pangarap na pinaghirapan, ay hindi na mapagsasaluhan.

Tanggap na ng puso mo, pinaglipasan na ng pagkakataon, ngunit hindi mawawala ang dusa.

Napagtanto ko na grieving will never really end; things will just become less sorrowful and a little easier to accept. Hindi talaga mawawala ang pagluluksa, talagang likas sa atin na pagtiisang maniwala na magiging mabuti ang lahat.

[bulkyphrase]

Steve Rogers Very Rare Pairs

One of my favorite romanogers writers has recently started a Steve/Frigga fic that I absolutely adore, so I thought I would put together a list of some of my other very rare pair faves.

Untitled Steve Rogers/Jason Wilkes story - there's nothing for this couple on Ao3, but this very fun ficlet by @starstruckmyths made me fall in love with the ship.

Red, White and Blue, Blue, Blue by determamfidd (Hank McCoy/Steve Rogers, Teen And Up Audiences, 4,232 words)

Summary: (or, The Origins of 'Oh My Stars and Garters') Written for a kinkmeme prompt. Steve draws the people he knows. He draws them over and over, trying to draw the place he fits in. He has hundreds and hundreds of sketches, and he usually gets them right. Until the day Fury tells them that the representative from the X-Men is here, and Steve can't draw him, can't pin him down at all.

The rest are below the cut!

A Ghost Should Be So Practical by elise_509 (Logan/Steve Rogers, Explicit, 11,826 words)

Summary: Logan doesn’t hear what happened to Steve until they find him in the ice 70 years later. By then, Steve’s just Captain America to him, and Captain America doesn’t mean a thing to Wolverine.

blue, purple, orange, black by Ebenelephant (@ebenelephant) (Nebula/Steve Rogers, Teen And Up Audiences, 3,280 words)

Summary: The sky over Terra is blue. - or, the Man out of Time and the last Daughter of Thanos hold hands and watch the sun set

Cupid Clint by vassalady (@vassalady) (Nick Fury/Steve Rogers, Teen And Up Audiences, 1,422 words)

Summary: What Natasha actually says is, “Steve was the ex-director’s boyfriend.” What Clint hears, however, is very different. “Steve’s the director’s ex-boyfriend.” In which Clint decides to get Steve and Nick back together even though they weren't dating in the first place.

Body to Body by quigonejinn (Pepper Potts/Steve Rogers, Teen And Up Audiences, 3,243 words)

Summary: In March, Steve goes home to his old neighborhood. The fic in which nobody dies.

Chef Boy-Ar-Do-Me by MysticMoonhigh (Steve Rogers/Chef Boyardee, Explicit, 1,097 words)

Summary: Chef Boyardee and Steve Rogers get a little bit saucy

wired in by introductory (Steve Rogers/JARVIS, Explicit, 470 words)

Summary: "«Captain Rogers, if I may be of some assistance?»"

wonderful electric by introductory (Steve Rogers/JARVIS, Mature, 1,739 words)

Summary: "So, you and JARVIS, huh?" says Tony, trying for casual. "And to think it took you a week to master an iPod. I mean, JARVIS is a real catch -- course he'd be, it runs in the family -- but I was sort of under the impression that your tastes ran more towards, uh -- " "Organics," volunteers Bruce. "People," says Tony.

Yes Means Yes by Cluegirl (Steve Rogers/JARVIS, Not Rated, 940 words)

Summary: Ask Box Fic -- BeautyTruthandStrangeness asked for Steve/Jarvis. This is her fault.

Glitter & Gold by PandasaurusRex (@xcaptain-winghead) (Steve Rogers/JARVIS, Mature, 1,048 words)

Summary: "Captain Rogers, I can't help but notice that you seem agitated, and your vitals are rising. Is everything alright?" Oh, God. Steve felt his cheeks flush, the heat spreading under Irish complexion in a rosy shade of pink. He had a feeling he was projecting, but he could have sworn that there was a teasing lilt to J.A.R.V.I.S.' voice—a knowing lilt—and it just made Steve squirm that much more as his cock filled out the rest of the way. Damn it.

Interdimensional Incidents by copperbadge (@copperbadge) (Steve Rogers/Sif, Mature, 10,002 words)

Summary: When Steve Rogers saw Sif of Asgard chop a Frost Giant's head off, love was sure to follow. It's just your typical Boy Meets Goddess story.

Taking Liberty by justanotherStonyfan (Steve Rogers/Statue of Liberty, Explicit, 18,018 words)

Summary: Somewhere between Pygmalion and Ghostbusters 2 lies the best night of Steve's life (or, the one where Steve gets pegged by the Statue of Liberty's 12" strapon) The how doesn't matter, the why doesn't either. The point is, the Statue of Liberty is alive, a couple of inches shorter than Steve, and very interested to find out just how much Steve can take. Literally.

You Only Live Twice by babesrgrs (Steve Rogers/Steve Rogers, Not Rated, 8,504 words)

Summary: Returning the stones leads Steve into taking a more pro-active role in the 2012 alternate timeline than he probably should. Returning the stones leads Steve into taking a more pro-active role in the life of his younger counterpart than he probably should.

New Dawn by babesrgrs (Steve Rogers/Steve Rogers, Not Rated, 7,500 words)

Summary: The future as Steve knew it: fighting flying aliens, fighting Hydra again, fighting for Bucky, taking himself as a lover, fighting a corrupt government... Wait - what?

[peggyao3]

Peggy's Masterlist

All of my fics are x AFAB!reader (reads like an ambiguous OC), include explicit sexual content, most are fairly dark and explore complex and morally grey relationships, some include dub-con/non-con themes ‼️

Finished ✅, Ongoing ✏️, Ao3 only 🔺

-> PREYD 🩸

Feyd calls his pet to his chambers for a monthly feast.

[Oneshot, dub-con, blood/period kink, 2.2k] ✅

-> NIGHT CRAWLER 🍼

Feyd-Rautha welcomes a nocturnal visitor in his chambers, who is plagued by the symptoms of her artificially induced condition.

[Dub-con, lactation kink, breast feeding, 9.7k]

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3 ✅

-> RELIC 🌌

✧Dreams are messages from the deep ✧

A woman from the unknown comes to Feyd in his dreams and his nights become his days as he flees to the dreamscape to escape the nightmares that haunt his waking hours.

[Lucid Dreaming, Vulnerable Feyd, Female Rage]

Series Masterlist ✏️

-> HERE COMES THE SUN 🌞

Feyd-Rautha is the center of attention for an entire planet, but it counts for nothing because his favorite concubine isn't paying attention during the fight. How dare she ruin his birthday?

[Jealousy, Mutual Pining, Marriage Proposal, 6.8k] ✅

Part 1, Part 2

-> HOLY SEED 🙏

Feyd so badly wants to plant his seed deep inside his wife's belly.

[Breeding Kink without Breeding, Switch Feyd & FMC, 2.5k] ✅

-> THE ART OF EMPATHY 🪴

After the fall of House Harkonnen, an innocent poison flower is planted in their evil heart to teach them the art of empathy.

[Bene Gesserit FMC, Soft!Feyd, Redemption, 6.3k] ✅🔺

-> KALEIDOSCOPE ⚔️

In a fight for freedom or death against the na-Baron Feyd-Rautha, his woman figures out how she feels about him. A poor devil wrapped in the skin of a beast.

[Gore, Blood for Lube, Mutilation, Public Sex, 2.7k] ✅🔺

-> CARDINAL SIN ✝️

You follow a trail of corpses to the rainbow room and find a bloodied angel.

[Blood & Corpses, Fucking in the Rainbow Room, 4.2k] ✅🔺

-> YOU & ME 💑

“There's a second facility…” Dr. Brenner wheezed.

“And what's inside of this facility?”

“A woman… One woman.”

“What is she capable of?”

“…Anything.”

Henry’s eyes blazed up with fresh hope. Greedy, frantic wicked hope. “I need to have her.”

[Stockholm Syndrome, Quantum Physics, 37k] ✅🔺

-> HURTS LIKE A DISEASE 💔

An apathetic sociopath meets an insecure overthinker with anxiety.

After an embarrassing incident at the cafeteria of Hawkins Lab, a man named Peter Ballard takes morbid fascination in your displayed insecurities and anxiety, because like him, you don't seem to fit in with the other humans and society. From now on, he wants to study and observe you. Unfortunately, you agree.

[Mental Illness, problematic relationship, 55k] ✅🔺

-> LOCKED UP, CAN'T GET YOU OFF MY MIND ⛓️

When Dr. Brenner came to the conclusion that 001’s powers were uncontrollable, he decided to dispose of the useless subject who was proof of his failure as a scientist. Isolated in a cell on the minus third floor of Hawkins Lab, 001 is locked up to rot and be forgotten. You are hired to be his prison guard, his nurse, his orderly, responsible for 001’s health and well-being. The full-time job goes well for many years, until eventually your morals start crumbling away…

[Power Imbalance, Forbidden Romance, Switch!Henry, 41k] ✅🔺

-> RUNNING IN THE NIGHT 🌃

You are a master of lucid dreaming, able to create all kinds of wondrous things and go on the most fantastic adventures in your sleep. One night, you receive a mysterious call in your dream. From then on, you find your mind being invaded by an uncanny, clingy, pushy intruder night after night, who tries to convince you that he is not just a product of your imagination, but a real person with telepathic powers.

[Lucid Dreaming, Toxic Lovers, Jealousy, 50k] ✅🔺

-> OH, ASHES... 🌪️

On a stormy day, the ashes had whispered to you for the first time. Like shadowy fingertips, their call for help had ghosted over your heart and mind. Now, three years later, you finally fully accepted the quest that had been given to you – To liberate the ashes’ home dimension from the plague that had infested it, by summoning the surprisingly human parasite back to its own birth realm and taking him under your wing.

[Burnt!Henry, Modern Setting, Master/Servant, 44k] ✅🔺

-> PEGGY'S PETER PORN COLLECTION 📚

A collection of smutty oneshots. Every chapter is a complete story. Porn with plot, porn with no plot, plot with porn, but there is always porn! <3 There will be dark themes, kinky shit, AUs and madness. So, beware! Warnings for each chapter.

[BDSM, Stockholm Syndrome, Sex Toys, Angel!AU... 104k] ✅🔺

-> MILKY EYES 👁️

The unseeing gaze of the mysterious boy named Ominis seems permanently glued on you, and as weeks turn into months, you feel like he begins following you around the castle. Between unease and anger, you feel something else, so you confront him in a deserted hallway after dark.

OR: Who the hell is Mark Markson? And what does his cabbage have to do with it? And most importantly, why are you and Ominis clapping cheeks all across Hogwarts?

[Strangers to Lovers, Ambiguous Encounters, Dominis, 81k] ✅🔺

Please beware, the fics below this point are REAL old and shitty in comparison 😔

-> LOOK WHAT YOU MADE ME DO 🔪

Danny Johnson is your best friend. But little do you know he wanted to be so much more than that from the day he first met you. Eventually you say something that gives him the final straw - He will make you love him back, one way or another.

[Dub/Non-Con, Best Friends Trope, Jealousy, 11k] ✅🔺

-> BUNNY ON THE RUN 🐇

You're just an average girl who likes reading smutty fanfictions about dangerous psychos and serial killers and all of sudden you find yourself face to face with a serial killer in real life. Luckily, fanfictions have perfectly prepared you for situations likesuch.

[Dub-Con, Knife Play, Anal Sex, Outdoor Sex, 4k] ✅🔺

-> TAKE A DIRTY PICTURE FOR ME 📸

An accidental boob slip gets you into a heated up situation.

[Dub-Con, Non-Consensual Voyeurism, Light BDSM, 9.5k] ✅🔺

-> MIRROR MIRROR ON THE WALL 👊

Frank and you are college freshmen and roommates but not only do your personalities clash, you end up getting into heated disputes on a daily basis. One day you come home late and catch him red-handed masturbating. Unfortunately, Karma is a bitch and Frank gets his revenge on you just a little later.

[Room Mates, Accidental Voyeurism, Hate Sex, 11.5k] ✅🔺

-> A FRENZIED ENCOUNTER 🏔️

You spawn in a place that you've never been to and encounter a man that you have never seen before. But he is not who you think he is.

When he finally gets a hold of you things get more heated up than you ever imagined they could.

[Dub-Con, Knife Play, Blowjobs, Playing Chase, 6.3k] ✅🔺

[dumbwhoreo]

Alrighty then! Hrmmmmmm. Whats your favorite thing to wear being nb? I imagine your wardrobe potential opens a lot! :3

-🍀

Ah see you'd think but I'm broke and libe with parents z so my wardrobe consists of sweatpants t-shirts and a few hoodies. Plus boxers

[angelcolored]

A Post About My New Favorite D&D Character

So I'm currently in a D&D campaign with some friends in a fantasy!AU of Stardew Valley, and in the campaign I'm playing as my new favorite D&D character, Rize.

(Art by @finchminch my wonderful DM)

Rize in an Eladrin, with skin the color of mahogany bark, and hair that from a distance looks in color like a spider's web. Their parents, along with about a dozen other Eladrin, left the Feywild a few years before Rize was born. They libed in a small, self-sufficient community for a few decades, but when they suffered a few harsh growing seasons and winters, a greedy corporation (Joja, for SDV fans) saw their opportunity to exploit their community, and offered to employ their workers, offering them resources in exchange for more-or-less giving up their way of life.

The corporation recognized Rize's talents in hunting, tracking, etc and saw in them an opportunity. They told Rize that they wanted to 'save' other communities, but some 'evil' people stood in their way, and asked Rize to... take care of those people.

Rize then spent most of their young adulthood working as a hitman in a society they knew next to nothing about.

(More art by @finchminch !!!)

After doing Joja's dirtiest work from the shadows for years, Rize stumbled upon an awful secret that made them question everything they'd done. They ran, and recognizing they couldn't return home or risk harm coming to their family, fled to a small farming community to try to turn a new leaf and start over... they moved to Pelican Town, and tried blending in as a simple farmer.

(Farmer!Rize art by @finchminch I love this sketch btw)

Things went fine,, for about a month. Since then, Rize has stumbled headfirst into trouble during a nearby cave-in, met a whole crew of colorful characters who banded together to save the life of their friend, and they've been slowly revealing to this new group that they're not the humble, peaceful farmer that they want to be.

In gameplay terms, Rize is a Rogue - Mastermind, level 3 right now. I LOVE this character and I love the way that as we olay the game I get to watch them evolve from thinking they're just a living weapon, to being a careful planner and strategist who does their best to solve problems before they ever have to draw a blade. The campaign is fun and my friends' characters are amazing, we get to explore lots of very real world themes like jealousy and trauma and love and death, while also cracking jokes and throwing punches at our bard for making stupid puns all the time. I've never felt this connected to one of my OC's before so I wanted to write up a post about them and share their story!!

[harleenfleck]

“His darkest day”

Arthur Fleck x Reader Fic

Summary: You are with Arthur in a beauty relationship for a long time, you’re in love with him, remember warmly all those beautiful moments that lived together, until you see in your mailbox a terrible farewell and heartbreaker letter, causing you to run to save your Arthur.

Warning: Angst (looooooots and looooooots of angst), hurt/comfort, mentions of suicide, mentions of self-harm, and a little bit of fluff (Just a little).

Words: 3.4k

Notes: Well my clownies! Last night I had a really angst dream, becoming nightmare. I’m thinking about this strange dream, and my two neurons made synapsis and I said “Why not?”

So, this is my first fic in English for this fandom (And in general, omg). I want to say thank you to my two neurons, my weird mind for having that weird dreams and the Collins Translate for help me to translate some things I don’t how to write in English HAHAHAH

There will be some misspellings on purpose but cause it's something Arthur wrote.

I'm sorry if I make some grammatical, spelling or writing mistakes, English is not my native language, and I may translate this fic into my native language (Omg will be fun to do)

Hope you like!

...

Another long day came to the end.

You’re so tired, really was a long and heavy day in the work. But that does not really matter, because your mind was in another place. A happy place.

You’re in the subway, thinking about in the only human to whom your heart belonged. Arthur and you were dating for 1 year and 2 months, you knew him perfectly, and honestly, was the best year of their’s life’s.

You closed your eyes and your mind traveled to the day you and he met.

It was a little funny because that night you were dating another guy, which you thought might he will be a good couple. But things were not so, that idiot had leave you standing at the place of the date, in Pogo's Club.

Angry and disappointed,you feeling like a fool, the place was full of people, full of couples. You wanted to disappear. The owner of the club announced the list of comedians who would show that night. While you were drinking a glass of wine, you thought it best to leave the place, why keep humiliating yourself like that?

“H-hello” A shy voice you heard, you look up and see an emeralds eyes into a gentle face.

“Hello” You replied his greeting respectfully, and why not? smiled at him too.

The man seemed to be debating to tell something or not. In the end, he did, stuttering by the way. “I-I’m sorry, I-I just arrived here and all the tables are full, and I w-was wondering... I’m asking me if y-you don't mind, if...”

“Sit here? Of course not! you can sit with me”

He, more confident, took one chair and sat next to you. You looked at him well, looked at his curly hair, the shine on his eyes, his blue sweater, his hands, and again, you looked his face. You blushed a little when you realized he is was attractive. “Have you come here before?” You asked to him, and he took a little while to respond, because he didn't think you were really speaking him.

“Eh, yes, once a week” he responded, shy again, you smiled for that.

“Oh, I see. This is my first time here”

“Really? It’s a great place here”

“Well, I hope so, I want to have a good memory from this place. My date never came”

“What? Somebody stood you up?”

“Yes, a stupid idiot, but I don't want to talk about it, it makes me angry, better will be to enjoy the moment” Seeming to understand, he stopped asking questions about it. "My name is y/n" You introduced yourself, and he blinked. His gaze got confused, but in the end, he did what you did." Arthur, my name is Arthur"

You smiled at him again, you looked at a notebook was in his hands. "What is that?"

“Oh, it is, it's a journal, I use to make annotations and observations... It's just..." Grieving, he wasn't so sure to complete the sentence, fearing it would be ridiculous "…I want to be a comedian, and I need to learn things…"

He bowed his head, waiting for a rejection from you.

But that was so interesting to you the fact he studied whatever was necessary for his training. You found it fascinating the way he prepared for his dream.

"Seriously? That's great!”

He raised his head, a little incredulous, were your words really true?

"Do you really think that?"

“Yeah! I mean, there are people who are getting ready, but you're putting dedication! And that must be recognized"

Arthur was surprised, it was the first time he told anyone about his dream and they didn't laugh or mock it. Hours passed, even though the stand-up shows ended, you two kept talking about a lot of things, until almost the owners of Pogo's kicked him and you out there.

Definitely the best thing that could happen to you was to be stood up.

It didn't take long for you two to start dating, you had to be the one on the initiative because you knew Arthur could be very shy, but that something you understood perfectly. He didn't used to relate with others because when he did, he got rejection, taunts and punches.

You learned everything from him, even the smallest details, the little scar on the top of his lips, the scent of his hair, his favorite cigarette brand, his dark yellow jacket, his little cards.

You learned his weaknesses, his strengths. His scars in his soul. You learned his illnesses, his condition, his medication.

Anyone would have advised you "No, with him no y/n, just look at him, he goes to psychiatrist, he was locked on Arkham, he uses seven different medications, that relationship will be difficult and problematic for both, more for you" and you would have completely ignored it.

It was something you already knew, something Arthur actually warned you at the beginning of the relationship "I don't want you to feel obligated to be with me, I know I'm a mess, and I don't want you to carry my demons".

But everyone deserves to be loved, Arthur should not be the exception to that rule.

And you love him, and you were willing to give him all the love he deserved and needed.

You blinked and returned to the present, the subway reached your destination. You went down and walked a couple of blocks to get to your apartment.

While you were arriving in your mailbox, you were thinking of making a call to Arthur, he should have gotten home in that hour. Days earlier, you noticed him down and depressed. You knew that's what he meant when Arthur warned you about him. But you were by his side, supporting him. You couldn't change it, you couldn't fix it, you couldn't do better, it would be amazing if it was that easy, if your love fixed all his problems, but it wasn't so.

When you opened the mailbox there was only one letter. You didn't pay much attention; you took it and closed the mailbox.

Once in your apartment, you dropped your bag on the couch and took off your jacket, you headed to the phone and called Arthur, on the other side he was just on standby. He didn't answer the phone. "Maybe it hasn't home" you thought, and you worried for a moment.

Arthur was so helpless, the wicked people of Gotham used to take advantage of that and attack him. Many times, you've had to heal his lesions. You're afraid that was the case.

You wanted to distract yourself from that terrible thought, so you looked at the white letter and realized that letter was from his. It had your name written, you recognized his handwriting.

You opened it instantly, and you regretted not to open it before.

“My dearest, y/n

I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm really sorry to hurt you…

You're the most amasing and purest perzon I’ve eber met, I don't know why you were with me, I don't know why you did it, maybe I'll neber know, you're beautiful, you're special

And I’m really sorry to tell you in thiz letter

But I can't do it anymore, my dear, I can't do it anymore. So much darknes inside me, so many negative thoughts. I'm tryin to fight all that awful feelings, I tried to just think of you, cause you're the only one who bringz me peace and love.

You're my one and only one, y/n

But I can't, I can't fight with the pain. My only exit is to give up.

Forgive me for makin you know in this letter, it's so cowardly, but I don't want you to find any other way and hurt you more...

What the fuck am I sayin? Shit, I'm really sorry, my y/n

Please don't stop libing for me, don't let this stop you. I love you, and whereber I am, I'll take care of you, I'll alwayz take care of you. I promise.

Arthur”

You got paralyzed, you were in shock. Tears came out of your eyes and ran down your cheeks.

It couldn't be possible.

"No... Arthur no..."

You ran to the phone back, typed the keys and waited for me to response it. Silence again.

“No, no, no, no, Arthur no, you can’t!”

And to your mind came the worst thought you could have. Maybe he wasn't responding because he wasn't here anymore, maybe he wasn't responding because he was gone.

“NO!”

You took your bag and ran away.

You ran down the stairs and left your building. You got to the bus stop, and fortunately it was coming. You got on the bus and sat down. crying in front of people, and they were staring at you. Judging you. Feel pity for you.

You still had the letter in your hand, you read it, looking for something, anything damned that told you something, that made sense. The pain in your chest is agonizing.

You thought about the last days of him and you together, looking for some sign that would warn you about what he was going to do. Some sign that said “I'm going to commit suicide”.

Crying, you only remembered that he was sad, you remembered that you hugged him for hours, stroking his hair and giving him small kisses on different parts of his face. You remember when he had a laugh attack you took his hand, hugged him again, and told him everything was going to be okay.

Really you wanted to promise.

You thought you should have done more; you should have made him understand that you'd always be with him. You should have told him more you loved him.

"Shit, no, please don't" you cried again on the bus, you were so afraid.

Stay with me Arthur, stay with me, stay with me, stay with me. It was the only thing you could think.

After an eternal trip, the bus arrived at that stop bus you knew so well. "STOP THE BUS! STOP THE BUS!" You screamed hysterically; people turn over to see you again. The bus stopped and you only can say “Thanks” and get off the bus so quickly.

You ran and ran and ran to those that eternal stairs. You remembered how funny It was to Arthur that you couldn't climb them fast, that you always got tired before you got to the top, and how much you envied him for putting up with all that workout.

Every memory was as if a knife stuck your heart in.

This time you had to tell your body that it shouldn't stop, no matter if you hadn’t a physical condition, you shouldn't have stopped. You ran up, with all the energy you had.

Stay with me Artie, don’t leave me, please don’t leave Art, don’t leave

It was the only thing you could think of, the only thing that gave you hope, it must have been alive, it still had to be. You stumbled and fall, hurting your knee. No, it wasn't time to check your own injuries, you had to get to Arthur, you had to save him.

You got up and went back up the stairs until you reached the end. You ran again to the address of his building. You looked at the building from afar, the lights in his apartment were on. Could that mean a good thing?

You walked into his building, and you got the idea again that you had to run into the stairs, you couldn't risk using the junk elevator in his building.

In that elevator that when stopped Arthur and you took advantage to give himself long and charming kisses.

Please Arthur, don’t leave me

You went up the stairs until you got to the eighth floor. You ran to his apartment door.

And you stopped abruptly.

A cold shiver you felt, paralyzed. That torment was so horrible. You were afraid to come in, you were afraid to open the door and find Arthur lifeless.

As soon as you thought about it, you wanted to die with him, you didn't want to see his dead body, you didn't want to be at his funeral, crying in his coffin, you didn't want to bury him in a cemetery.

He are your whole life; he are the love you always dreamed. You didn't want to lose him.

With more fear than you could stand, you took the doorknob and turned it. You pushed the door slowly and you came in the same way, you were so afraid to find his body.

There was nothing in the living room, there was nothing in the kitchen either, or at least what you could get to see from the kitchen. You looked down the hall, empty.

He'd probably be in his room or in the bathroom. And you didn't have the courage to get to the room or the bathroom.

You looked down and, on the floor, you found his jacket. Your feelings were overflowing in your eyes. Seeing his jacket on the floor for you was the meaning he was already gone. You crouched down and took her jacket, hugged it, it had his scent.

Everything was so quiet, everything around you was clouded. Everything stopped makes sense. You cried with sorrow. You felt lonely, so lonely. Your heart broke.

And in the midst of your crying, you moaned his name.

“Arthur”.

You were hoping that just saying his name, give you the strength you needed in that moment.

You hugged his jacket harder. You didn't want to live without him, you didn't want to do all your plans without him. You felted you are nothing without him.

“y/n?”

Your breathing was cut into a deep drowning and you regained the air your lungs needed. And somehow, your soul returned to your body.

He was there. He was still there.

The voice came from the room, without thinking and while hugging his jacket, you went there.

You walked to him, and you saw him.

Arthur was sitting there, sitting on his bed, without his shirt, his eyes were swollen, and you could see a few small cuts on his wrists. Your heart broke again, but you tried to hold on.

“What are you doing here?” He asks so confusedly and fearful.

“What you think?”

And you couldn't hold it anymore. You went to him and you hugged him. He hugged you tight, too. You both cried.

"I’m so sorry, y/n" Arthur cried "It wasn't my intention, it wasn't my intention to worry you"

“Art…”

You couldn't even talk. And as weird as it was heard, you were happy, happy that you could hug him one more time.

You looked at him and without losing the opportunity, you kissed him deeply. He needed love at the time, he really needed it, and you'd give it to him.

“Art, sorry”

“What? Why?”

“I'm sorry if I haven't shown you all my love. Arthur, I was so scared, I was so afraid to lose you…"

You couldn't help crying in front of him. Just moments ago, you thought he wouldn't be with you anymore, that still hurt, even when he was in front of you. And Arthur couldn't help feel so guilty when he saw you cry.

“Please forgive me, y/n, forgive me…” Feeling embarrassed, Arthur tried to explain himself “I couldn't stop feeling bad, I couldn't. I just wanted to stop feeling so bad. I'm sorry if you're worried, y/n, I’m sorry”

And without his body warning him, his condition came afloat. You knew that when those attacks happened, he needed you more than ever. You cuddled his hair, gently put his face between your neck and your shoulder. He laughed for a long time; it was the first time he laughed too long with you. You waited patiently, caressing his back.

“I…I tried" He was finally able to talk "I made me a few cuts... But I thought of you, I thought of us, and I couldn't go on..." You felt his warm tears fall on your neck, and yours came out of your eyes again "I didn't know if I kept going, I couldn't after I thought of you. And you came, y/n. You came here and saved me…”.

He raised his head a little and saw you in your eyes again. "If you're angry with me, I understand. If you want to leave me, that's fine, you don't have to stay with me, not after I put you through on this”

You gasped. You couldn't believe what Arthur was telling you.

“Art, what the fuck are you...? No! I'm not leaving you for this "

“But y/n, I don't... Just look at me, I'm a fucking mess. I worried you, I made you cry, you don't deserve this, I definitely don't deserve you"

You took his face with both hands and looked him in his eyes. "Arthur, I wouldn't be angry with you for this, I'm not going to leave you too. Stop believing in that”

“But y/n”

“But nothing, Arthur… I love you; I really love you…”

“Y-y-you, are you sure y/n? are you sure about…?”

“Yes, Arthur, you know I take love seriously; I'll take ours seriously too"

A couple of tears fell from Arthur's eyes, he looked down again "Do you really love me? Even when I'm a... A freak?”

Arthur looked at the wounds on his wrists. Did you really love him despite that?

“My darling, you’re not a freak. I love every part of you, even those that others consider bad”

Arthur felt he was going to die of love. He hugged you back. "I’m sorry y/n"

"I forgive you, my Arthur. I'll always be with you, never doubt that"

As he hugged you, Arthur felt safe, felt like he was in home. Only you could make him feel that way. He had been so alone in his life that as a result of that attempt to attack his own life he feared losing the only good thing he had left: you.

You went to the bathroom for a medicine cabinet, you healed those cuts that he made himself.

“y/n?” Arthur asked, still embarrassed.

“Yes, darling?” You responded calmly.

“C-can you stay with me tonight?”

You couldn't help smile at him

"Of course I do, my Artie" And you saw him smile. The smile that melted your heart. You took off your shoes and uncomfortable clothes, staying in your underwear. Arthur asked about the injury to your knee, you told him it was an accident at the work, you didn't want to make him feel bad. And oddly enough you started to feel your body tired and hurt after running all over Gotham.

Both went into bed, you hugged him and he hugged you again, and returned to give him little kisses all over his face. “y/n?”

“Yes?”

“I love you too”

Both smiled, you kiss his lips, kissing him deeply again. You still kissing his face until he could sleep.

You knew it was going to be hard, you'd been warned, but with Arthur you weren't going to give up, you weren't going to leave him alone.

You remembered that everyone deserved to be loved, even him. You would love him, despite the difficulties, even though he might fall into pieces from time to time, you would always be there for him, to heal his wounds, to help him get up, to love him in his darkest days.

[biderboy]

💫 - i hope these are still open! if not, then i am so so sorry for sending this in!!

~

fandom: harry potter (marauders era pretty please!)

facts/info:

i’m actually really really self conscious even though i constantly say things like; ✨ “i know i’m just so hot.” “and that’s so sexy of me.” “i’m just too beautiful for this world!” ✨ (i promise i’m not stuck up/self absorbed! i think this might just be me trying to cover up my insecurities,,, but not everyone gets that rip)

i’m a pretty good pranking partner hehe! i always think a prank through and make sure that me and whoever i’m pulling a prank with don’t get in trouble at all. (if we do get caught, i pull out Plan C and come up with an excuse to get! us! out! of! there! asap!)

pickup lines are my favorite, i love them so so much!! i will drop pickup lines at the most random times ever and if someone says one back i swear i will melt. (the pickup line competition had begun 😈)

i am a very very accepting person haha! i also love to hear all about people and their libes! the good, the bad, the happy, the sad, everythinggg!!! i will accept them with open arms no matter what (unless it’s like against my morals and basic human decency) BUT!!! i don’t push people to open up, things take time and i am perfectly willing to wait as long as it takes 🥰‼️

i am very very very protective towards the people i love! if i see someone picking on a friend or just being yucky, i will not hesitate to step in and call them out. it is never, under any circumstances, okay to hurt the people i love.

i’m a pretty sarcastic person and i love puns!! (i especially like how they seem to annoy certain people 😈) i have a very mixed sense of humor so catch me laughing at a cute innocent pun one day, then me laughing at like the darkest of jokes, and THEN me making a dirty not pg-13 joke out of nowhere ✋🏾😭 i also like making fun of myself a lot so be prepared for that ❤️ i also tend to be so dramatic to the point where it’s comedic and then someone once told me that it genuinely makes them laugh and that just? made me?? so happy???

sexuality+gender preference: i am bi with a pretty strong preference for guys 💓

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thank you thank you so so much in advance! and oh gosh uh this is quite long... i’m so very sorry if it’s too much! i kind get carried away when i’m excited 😩‼️

CONGRATS ON REACHING 700 BTW‼️‼️

your energy is swag asf and i smile everytime you pop up on my dash 💞

THANK U BESTIE UGH ! 😩🥰

i ship you with frank longbottom but also remus lupin <3

[agentofship]

My rewatch AoS 1x11 to 1X15

I am very late for the rewatch so I thought I’d keep doing my rewatch review in blocks of five episodes (or whatever seems relevant). So here we go. With TAHITI, we're starting to get a glimpse of what the rest show is going to be since from that moment on. Except for Yes Men (who still gives an important moment information about May at the end) who really should have been in the first part of the season, every episode will be connected in a more or less big way to the main plot of the season. Like Yes Men who's completely independent or Seeds whose main plot doesn't seem linked until the end when we learn that Iain Quinn was linked to it, this first part of 1B makes the transition between the happy Bus days and the darker tone of the last seven episodes that will continue on in season two. So here's a few thoughts about separate episode: The Magical Place I absolutely love that first scene with the team working together perfectly, each using their own talent, it was perfect. Still love it when people call Fitz "sir" in season one, it's just so funny since he's so tiny 😄 May is really smart in that episode. Everyone did exactly as she had planned without even having to tell them (because she knew FitzSimmons and Ward would help Skye escape) and thus also remaining in Hand's good graces. Agent Skye mini May is adorable! But she really is as smart and ressourceful as May, she just needs to be trained in combat and badassness now! I know it's a very unpopular opinion but Raina annoys the crap out of me with her too sweet smiles and exaggeratedly sexy voice. I mean she's obviously really at getting in men's heads, including Coulson but I just find her… annoying. She gets more interesting after she turns, too bad she didn't last longer after that. Love the Coulson rescue mission, again that was some very good team work. And love the reunion scene, although I know at least Skye wanted a group hug. Love May's side smile and "Nice Jacket". "Bet there's no flower dresses where she's going!" "Amen to that, sister." Love that :D "Disengage bracelet" Coulson's dorkiness really is one of his most endearing traits. Seeds First of all, a big thank you for giving us enough FitzSimmons content for hundreds of FitzSimmons Academy Era fics. Love that FitzSimmons scene where they present each other's work mirroring the scene in the Pilot when they introduce each other, it's adorable. Also love the way their speech is so well rehearsed, it's perfectly flawing between them and I bet even that joke Fitz does was written on paper. "Potential can sometimes be dangerous…" Oh Fitz, you're going to remember that one quite bitterly in a few years. FitzSimmons are so proud of their Academy and being such stars there. I love their competition with Ward and Simmons' "Did you have one of these in ops? Did not think so." Yep, cannot imagine Ops having something so fun! SciTech would have definitely been more my kind of place (except for the fact that I didn't study science at all :p) "My room was just like that." We know it's a lie but it's cute, it's Fitz's slightly awkward way of trying to connect. We know he has trouble making first contact and it looks like he's also kind of thrilled of being someone's hero or even a father figure of sorts. Coulson saying "You're talking, it's weird" is the best. That's some pretty dangerous info we're getting on Skye. They really took their time giving us bits of information all through the first season to focus on it in season two. Love the little robot on the bar at the boiler room, never noticed that before, need to include it in a future fic, it's adorable! Too bad Donnie ended up as he did, he really wasn't a bad person and deserved a redemption arc. Again, May is such a freaking badass. And all this without a single superpower! T.R.A.C.K.S Although there will be some criticizing, keep in mind that this episode still remains one of my favorite episodes of the season and the show as a whole. Love the plot, the humor, the action, the different POVs and that's also some top notch drama at the end. So, first of all, the accents. Even I, a person who only some distant italian relatives, can tell that Ward's one is awful. But at least, he's not supposed to be Italian so that's understandable. But that conductor sounds like a mix between Mario and Jen speaking pretend Italian in IT Crowd (hilarious episode by the way, you should look it up if you haven't :D) Then, that train. You should read @valentinaonthemoon‘s post here about it if you haven't because she points out all that is wrong with the train and its route. But seriously, it's so weird. It's all too big and pretty. I have never seen a restaurant carriage with actual cute little wooden tables and chairs and actual room to walk between the table. And what the hell about the actual bed? I've taken a night train to Venice once, even first class wasn't close to looking like that! Anyway, now moving on to all the good parts. May is the definition of badass in this episode. First casually walking on a moving train and then taking of all the bad guys with the knife they stabbed her in the shoulder with. And I also love the little Philinda moment where she lets him help her but didn't let Ward. Love Fitz summing up every cliche Europeans have about Americans "They have some good shows. Lots of nice teeth." and "Someplace affordable with big portions." His pretend relationship and real friendship with Skye is very very sweet in this. I love all the teasing but also the way he insists she takes the gun and tells her to be careful. Jemma is, once again, very heroic in this. Once more, she takes the conscious decision to sacrifice herself for his friends and Fitz in particular. Of course, that grenade wouldn't have killed them but she didn't know that. So really, during the pod scene, when Fitz is faced with the reality that only one can hope to make it to the surface, his decision is easy. And I think it's not only because he loves her and couldn't bear to live without her anyway, but also because she did twice already and he thinks that's it's his turn now. He's just less lucky about the consequences it has on him. (And ironically, Ward provoked it instead of being here to save the day… but I digress). I love Fitz's reaction after Jemma falls. He doesn't run to her because he's stunned and frozen at the idea that she might be dead. His sigh of relief when Skye tells him she's alive is everything. And also the line about her little face is adorable, especially since I only learned recently that it was ad libed by Iain! I didn't remember how heartbreaking Skye was when she tries to call for help and has no voice left at all. For a moment, she must have thought she was going to die all alone in that scary dark room. I mean, I never was really worried because they weren't going to kill her off but still, that's gut wrenching :s But Jemma for the win though! She's not even a medical doctor and so many people are alive thanks to her! And well, of course, THAT HUG! I mean all of FitzSimmons hugs are wonderful but this one is just… I love how it parallels the one from 4x21 where they don't talk and he just has to reach for her shoulder for her to finally let go and cry in his arms. At first, she doesn't fully hug him because she's afraid of putting blood on him (which is very Jemma-like of her) but then she lets go and he doesn't need to say a thing because it's his presence that comforts her the most. Also, FZZT was the moment he realized his feelings had changed for the first time but this feels important too. This is the first of many hugs and the moment their relationship becomes more physical (not in the sexual sense of the word, just physical). As much as I like to imagine they spent their Academy days falling asleep in the same bed every week, I feel like until now, their friendship was very intellectual with only quick very tame physical displays of affection like the touch of a hand or shoulder. Even that kiss on the cheek seemed something wild in the way he reacted and she hesitated before doing it. After that, we'll see more hugs and more daring touches, culminating into the pod scene. (and then regressing and slowly progressing again in season two B and and three) Because being on the field had taught them how hard things could be and they're like each other comfort blanket for a time, thus the need to be physically closer. T.A.H.I.T.I I love how FitzSimmons are sitting so close together on that couch. I think they both need the comfort of each other's presence because they are the only constant in their ever changing world. They really should have let Ward blame himself here. The way May beat the crap out of Iain Quinn was very satisfying. Love Coulson's progression about Tahiti. "Turned out not so magical" and in the next episode it'll be "It sucked". Well, at least he got to see the real, beautiful Tahiti 😞 Awww Trip. I didn't like him all that much the first time. I mean I found him okay and all but only on the second rewatch that I grew to like him. Other than the fact that he could actually get "Witches weekly's most charming award", he really is just a genuine nice, easy going, good guy. Too bad it made him the perfect candidate for shock value death 😞 Love, love, love that scene with FitzSimmons looking through the files. It's stunning and blue light definitely suits Fitz. I also love him during the mission. We know he's kind of scared and he still doesn't like being on the field but he's brave and funny and adorable. "Not afraid, not yet…" "To certain horrible death? Absolutely" Classical sassy Fitz! One thing that had always bothered me during this mission: Couldn't they use non lethal weaponry to "attack" the base. I mean they're protecting a shady secret but they're still (mostly) agents of SHIELD. And they'd been left to die and be buried under all that rock. I get that Coulson wanted the truth and to save Skye but still … I absolutely love the way they decided to handle the Kree reveal. Make Coulson look terrified and let us imagine all the most horrible things and then only in the end the horrible mutilated corpse. Feels a lot like what Hydra did to Skye's mother by the way and very, very evil :s Yes Men I enjoyed this one more than I thought I would despite it not being the strongest episode and it has a lot to do with Sif being a badass. So, first of all, with all the super advanced technology they have, would an Asgardian really be impressed by a bike?!! Skye saying: "I must look awful". Honestly, makeup department guys? They did a really good job when she was close to death but now she doesn't even look a little pale. She doesn't a little circle under eyes and doesn't even look tired at all. And look at her hair! That's not the hair of someone who had been forbidden to leave her bed for days! Fury is already missing, it's getting serious! Sif is so freaking badass and really aces the super hero landing! Also, she's so extra, like she casually throws a car to provide cover. I love her connection with May and I would totally watch a spin off of them kicking ass together. I like the phrase about people being dangerous when they are controlled and how it's another hint at May's backstory. Okay, so I love Sif throwing a car during the fight scene and I love Coulson calling Sif "your ladyship" but seriously, didn't SHIELD have enough women fighters? Honestly! Jemma is totally right about being mad at Coulson about wanting to know more about GH325. Coulson has a good reason for keeping it in house but he should just tell them for god's sake! At this point, we can see that he's still struggling between the whole following the rules and doing things his way because he no longer trusts SHIELD completely. "Ward is not the man you knew. He will not hesitate to kill you." "He might try but he wont." Yep, yep, yep, you don't know how right you were, May! "Because yes, I am that good!" Fitz was cocky and cute there but really not that wasn't a smart move telling Coulson about Lorelei without knowing if he'd been swayed as well. Libido does take a bit of his genius away :p "He's always getting knocked out, isn't he?" Mmmhhh … okay but how freakishly strong is Coulson if he can knock him out with only one punch? "You were saying?" Honestly, they should have copied that collar to use for all the villains and their long boring speeches. And finally dun, dun, dun! They really did a good job making us paranoid and making us think May could be the villain.

[peace-coast-island]

Diary of a Junebug

What’s on my playlist?

A Reason to Believe Again - Eden Estevez After hearing a sneak peek at Festivale, I was instantly hooked! It was a labor of love from Eden that she’s been working on for three years. Eden has always been a talented musician and poet, but for whatever reason, that has always been overshadowed by other things. It wasn’t until after reaching a breaking point in her life and picking up the pieces afterward that Eden turned to songwriting to express herself. 

Eden’s biggest strength is her lyrics, which perfectly accompany her haunting and melancholic vocals. But even underneath the sadness and weariness, there’s determination and hope - a mix of emotions far too profound for someone as young as her to experience. This is not an album you can just play as background noise, it pulls you in with every note and changes the mood.  

Now Spinning - Clarry Kayode An album I’ve been hyped for since Clarry began working on it. There were some issues here and there that pushed the project back, but it’s finally out and the wait was worth it! Enlisting JB Lesedi as a producer and going for a more world music direction really helped turn this album into a league of its own! 

With Sunrise Summer topping the charts, Now Spinning was sure to become a hit! Electronic pop, dance, and traditional South African music - Clarry goes all-out on her debut! The tracklist consists of many original songs plus a few traditional tunes that Clarry grew up listening to. Also many of the songs are in English and Zulu. The songs are fun to dance and listen to, especially on a dance floor! I can’t wait to hear what Clarry has next in store for us! 

The Fire’s Embers Awaken - Libe I met Libe a couple years ago because I was curious about this album. Like Eden, there’s something deep about their lyrics - and in Libe’s case, one that tells a story. It’s an interesting journey, but that’s for another time. This album is basically like a sneak peek of Libe’s diary during that journey. Even if you don’t know the full story behind the album, you pretty much get the idea from the songs. 

Lost in a Dream of Exile is my favorite, the verses in Hebrew (Libe’s native language) expressing loss and desperation while the chorus (in English) is about fighting back and carrying on. Then towards the end Libe does what a review describes as a melismatic wail, basically harmonizing in a way that expresses deep emotions from the heart - one that words can’t describe exactly how they feel - and it works perfectly.   

Where Are You Now? - Indie Cortichomi A classical/baroque pop crossover album. I’ve been getting into Indie’s music lately and it’s worth checking out. I don’t really delve much into classical music, but I know enough about it to appreciate it. The album is a mix of instrumentals and vocals - the instrumentals are short enough and enjoyable to listen to without making it draggy. The sophisticated arrangements and Indie’s angelic vocals make a winning combo! 

Highlights include Spring in Bloom’s flute melodies, the lyrics of A Poem of Remembrance, and the title track as a whole. Pretty much the entire album from production to many of the instruments are done by Indie herself from her home studio - an impressive feat! Perfect for listening to when you want to relax and take your mind off things.

[shirosucc]

🎄 howiday tag meme :3c 🎄

i was tagged by @jllusive, @red-paladin, @flusteredkeith, @ragingviolins, and @sunburntkeith !!! tysm for the tag babes, hope u all have wonderful holidays 💞🎉

rules: tell us your holiday favs and tag 10 people!

🎄 🎄 🎄 🎄 🎄

name/nickname: lia

gender: female

favorite cold weather drink: hot chocolate, spiked hot cider, white chocolate mocha with extra whipped cream (i need whipped cream or else i cant stand coffee cus im a fucking uhhhh baby)

white or colored holiday lights: i love colored holiday lights bc they’re festive but i like white holiday lights better bc of the aesthetic™ and year-round utility

favorite winter sport: ice skating! i suck ass at it and i bruised my tailbone badly the last time i went but..........u win some u lose some

# of blankets i sleep with: one comforter and one or two fleece blankets

preferred holiday confection: this is so weird and vague but my mom makes some BITCHING madeleines

what i’m currently wearing: big sweater and no pants cus it’s cozy season bitch

preferred snowy weather activity: mulled wine and chick flick sessions under 10 layers of blankets w/ my best friends whom i miss very much rn. alternatively, when it snows at cornell we like to sled down libe slope on old boxes/cafeteria trays

last thing you baked: chocolate chip peanut butter cookies!!

homemade gifts or store bought gifts: homemade gifts are acceptable if you are under the age of 15 or i deeply and sincerely appreciate your craft. i will love and treasure it either way but i definitely prefer store bought when real thought and consideration is put into it

favorite christmas/holiday movie: love actually bc i once hooked up with a dude while high with it playing in the background and it was a really transformative experience

open presents morning or eve: morning??? of course??? i’ve heard of parents letting kids open one (1) present on christmas eve as a prelude to christmas morning but is there

favorite holiday song: all i want for christmas is you and also every ariana grande christmas song ever is a bop and i will hear no counterarguments on this

i’m.....pretty sure all of my friends have been tagged already but i’m gonna tag @phaltu, @pining-keith, @stargazershiro, @kcgane, @sh-ro, @iamofficiallywhelmed, @galraknives, @redbeantofu, @relent, and @justicelawoffices !! feel free to ignore as always if you’ve already done this/don’t feel like doing it lol

[que3rmong0us]

My Thoughts on Lady Gaga Coachella 2

Scheiße: AMAZING Perfect incorporation of live instumentation LoveGame: Her voice has matured so much! So glad she is still demanding that everybody out their fucking hands up! John Wayne: YOU’RE SO SASSY! Sounds awesome from her band! “PUT YOUR HANDS UP HIGH AS YOU CAN!” Just Dance: !SHE Changed it up a bit AND made the bruidge WAYYY BETTER. Heroes / Born This Way (Intro): YAASSSSS THIS IS WHAT I LIVE FOR!~ GIVE ME THE EXTENDED 12″ DANCE ROCK INTRO!!!!! Born This Way: FUCK ME UP!!!!!!!!! YESS INVIGORATE ME WITH ACCEPTANCE!!! GUITAR + SYNTH IS THE BEST! Born to be BRAAAVVEEEEEEEE! 

“IT’S EARTH DAY TODAY YOU KNOW!!!!”  YAAASSSS!!!

VENUS!!!!: HER VOCALS ARE STUNNING! (Please tell me to put my hadns UPPP!) 

PUT YOUR V’S UP; LET’S GO! 

(YAAASSSSS!!!!) HER VOICE IS DEEP ENOUGH FOR “TAKE ME TO YOUR LEADER” YOU’RE SO GROWN!!!!!! GOODDD! The GUITAR! in the back of her planet lineup is amazing! THYE BASS AFTER THOUGH!!!! GAGA ENDED ON LIKE A 7TH NOTE A-Yo Intro: THE INTRO!! SLOW! Works me up rEAL gooD! Oh SSHHHH she’s talking. 

[GAGA] Moved to cali, out of new york, where I was out of sorts... up into hollywood and I’m wearing leather; and people say “It’s too hot for leather!”. 10 years later I’m WEARING LEather in the desert at Coachella! I haven't changed much but brought a little of my NY to caLI. Instead now when people don’t like what I wear I SAY 

“A-YOOO!”

A-Yo: The band sounds GREAT here! The live guitar is so amazing and the slight improvisation of her band is so refreshing!~ {LOCK ME UP AND BREATHE IN! MIRROR ON THE CEILINNAAAAANN!} Her vocals are SO STRONG!! YASS. Drummer added some tambourine! I love her band sO! MUCH!

Sexxx Dreams!: OH MY GOD I NEED TO DOWNLOAD THIS BOOTLEG AFTER IT’S OVER~!! Her band was SPOT ON!~ (Outro) : WOAH TRIPPY!

Telephone: OH MY GOD! THE BRIDGE WAS FANTASTIC! Could feel the jomp!~!!!   {(All the little monsters in live chat say she sounds better!!!)} SHE IS SINGING WITH SUCH GREAT ATTITUDE!~ ALEJANDRO!@@@@@: The band is SEDUCING MEEEEE! It’s PerSONGAL! TO ME! THIS TIME~!~! (LMAO @ GAGA TRYING TO SYNC WITH HER BCKNG VOCALS) She sounds as great as she ever has. I am really getting vibes from the monster ball (she performed like every song of it anyways!!!)) DFONT CALL MY FCUKING NAME@!!!! 

[ Not sure ifIM hIGh or that she!totallyforgot her,own lyrics]

THAT POWER GUITAR IS AMAZING!!!

I wrote this next song about my favorite thing to do. I dislike bullies and to me, when someone is a bully they just have to fake it. Since I was young, I learned you know, scare em first. when i met my fans, my fans would [IMITATES FANS SCREAMING] “!AHHHHH!” . I WROTE THIS SONG TEETH : LET’S SHOW EMM!!!

RIGHT INTO TEEETH!!!!: YAASSSS OHMY GOD!@ THE REBIRTH OF ME!!! “THAT SHIT’S UGLY” IT HAS BEEN SSSSOOOOO    L  O  N GG   SINCE I HAVE HEAR THIS LIVE!@ IT IS perFeCTTT!!! [FUCK they finally turned her backing track down (THANKS I LOVE HER MIC FEED THA BEST)] “Come on! Stop that!”

[FANS SCREAMING I LOVE YOU] “I LOVE YOU TOO!” {SCREA<INGNGN!!!!!} It’s really hot out here! I’m gonna put on a hot pink sweatshirt!!!!” SHE IS GONNA SING THE CURE AGAIN {OBVIOUSLY} [FUCK IT UP GAGA FUCK IT UP!!] 

THE CURE; “PUT YOUR HANDS IN THE AIR” YAAASSSSSS OH GOD!!!! She is PITCH AD LIBING as USUALL “HANDS UP EVERYBODY LETS GO!” amazing band performance by everyone, she sounds great! “I WANNA SEE EVERYBODY’S HAND IN THE AIR ALL 100,000 COME ON LETS CARRY EACHOTHER!!!” SHE I SS PURE LOVE!!!

Edge of Glory: It’s acoustic, her piano sounds the best!!! THANK GOD!  “Ive been worried about (lists off coachella things) but  HER FRIEND HAS BEEN STRUGGLING WITH CANCER  AND SHE DEDICATES IT TO HER (SONIA?).  Her acoustics are amazing and now it’s time for me to step outside me patio for a pax; I have gaga streaming from my phone for ease.

[TRANSCRIBED FROM MY JOURNAL

 listening from the patio]

She’s crying! ‘I’m sure there’s superfans in the audience!” (IT’S mE!)

RIGHT INTO Speechless: KICK MY ASS! I’ve always been there!Her strings are so beautifl! “BUB-BLE DREEAAAMMM!” FUCKED UP FRIENDS! “I wrote this years ago about something else and now it’s about my fans!” SHE IS CRYING! HER PIANO IS FLAWLESS! “LET’S GO! Million Reasons”: 

“I wrote this in my living room with 2 bottles of wine and Hillary” 

OH MY GOD YAASSSS WINE-OH! It’S THE nEWW ONE! THE MILLION REASONS ACT 2 REMIX! She sings it so well AND NOW THE CROWD IS SINGING IT SO LOUD! THE DROP! LET”S GO!!~ YaaSSsSAAAASYYYSSSSSS!!! ILY SO MUCH,”Good one good one” “words seem better; cut through all this worn out leather”

TRAP APPLAUSE!!!!@!@@: GUITAR! HER BAnd IsS peRFeecCT! AND THE STRINGS COME IN TO HAUNT! DRUMMER IS KILLIN IT !  ”MAKE IT REAL LOUD!   P-P-PUT YOUR HANDS UP!” {Fuck! I’ve never heard it like this before!} [FANS CHANTING GAGA GA GA Ga Ga Ga ga g a g  AHH.. POKER FACE!:..AAHAAGAAAahhhHYHHHHH] SHE RAPS GREAT! YAAASSSS GAGAAA!!! Bad RoMANCEE!!!: SCREAMING! 

‘PUT YOUR FUCKING HANDS UP!  PUT YOUR PAWS UP! PUT UP YOUR MIDDLE FINGERS UP, WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU WANNA PUT UP!~”

I WANNA PUT UP MY DICK!!! “Hands up Coachella! Let’s GO!” “HANDS UP!” Move that bitch bABY! GUITAR!! OOOooooooooHHHHoooOOOOOOO!!! YAAAASSSSSSSS

“I wanna thank my label , my manager, thanks to my dancers, and to my wonderful band, mom and dad!” ....

God now that it’s over OMG

[malteseboy]

translated from @funwithlanguages‘ post

Maltese verbs do not have an infinitive form, verbs are shown in the past 3rd person singular masculine.

to be

the present form of “to be” in Maltese works with the personal pronouns and they act as the verb also!

I am - Jien(a)

You are - Int(i)

He is - Hu(wa)

She is - Hi(ja)

We are - Aħna

You are - Intom

They are - Huma

there is - hemm have - kellu do - għamel go - mar want - ried can - seta’ need - kellu bżonn think - ħaseb know - af say - qal like -  għoġob speak - tkellem learn - tgħallem understand - fehem

Conjunctions

that (as in “I think that..” or “the woman that..”) - li and - u / w or - jew but - imma because - għax / għaliex though - għalkemm so (meaning “therefore”; e.g. “I wanted it, so I bought it”) - għalekk / allura if - jekk

Prepositions

note that some don’t have a fixed translation, and are mostly fused with the definite articles & personal pronouns as part of the grammar rules

of - ta’ to - għall- from - minn in - fil- / ġo at (someone’s house for example) - għand at (a time) - fil- with - ma’ about - dwar / fuq like (meaning “similar to”) - bħal / tipo for - għall- before - qabel after - wara during - matul

Question Words

who - min what - xiex (if you want to say for example “what boy?” add the suffix x’ to subject word: x’tifel?) where - fejn when - meta why - għala / għaliex / għalfejn how - kif how much - kemm which - liem / liema

Adverbs

a lot - ħafna a little - ftit well - mela badly - ħażin only - biss also - ukoll / wkoll very - ħafna too (as in “too tall”) - wisq too much - iżżejjed so (as in “so tall”) - tassew so much - ħafna more - iktar / aktar less - inqas as.. as (e.g. “as tall as”) - daqs most - l-iktar least - l-inqas better - aħjar best - l-aħjar / l-aqwa worse - agħar worst - l-agħar now - issa then - imbagħad here - hawn there - hemm maybe - forsi always - dejjem usually - normalment often - spiss sometimes - kultant / xi drabi never - qatt today - illum yesterday - ilbieraħ tomorrow - għada soon - daqt almost - kważi already - diġà even - anke enough - biżżejjed

Adjectives

those with link change depending on gender and amount

this - dan that - dak good - tajjeb bad - ħażin all - kollha some - xi no - ebda any - xi many - ħafna few - ftit most - aktar other - ieħor same - l-istess different - differenti one - wieħed two - tnejn / żewġ a few - ftit first - l-ewwel next - li jmiss last (e.g “last Friday”) - l-aħħar last (meaning “final”) - l-aħħar easy - ħafif hard - iebes hard (difficult) - diffiċli early - kmieni late - tard important - importanti interesting - interessanti boring - mhux interessanti beauiful - sabiħ ugly - ikrah big - kbir small - żgħir happy - kuntent sad - mdejjaq busy - għandu x’jagħmel (lit: he has stuff to do) ready - lest favorite - favorit new - ġdid old - qadim right (meaning “correct”) - korrett wrong - ħażin true - veru

Nouns

everything - kollox something - xi ħaġa nothing - xejn everyone - kulħadd someone - xi ħadd no one - ħadd Maltese - Malti English - Ingliż thing - ħaġa person - persuna place - post time (as in “long time”) - żmien time (as in “I did it 3 times”) - darba friend - ħabib (m) ħabiba (f) woman - mara man - raġel money - flus country - pajjiż Malta - Malta city - belt language - lingwa word - kelma food - ikel house - dar store - ħanut office - uffiċċju company - kumpanija manager - maniġer coworker - kollega job - xogħol work - xogħol problem - problema question - mistoqsija idea - idea life - ħajja world - dinja day - ġurnata year - sena week - ġimgħa month - xahar hour - siegħa mother, father, parent - omm, missier, ġenitur daughter, son, child - bint, iben, tifel (m) tifla (f) wife, husband - mara, raġel girlfriend, boyfriend - għarusa, għarus

More Verbs

work - ħadem see - ra use - uża believe - emmen seem - deher come - ġie love - ħabb leave - telaq return - irritorna give - ta take - ħa bring - ġab look for - fittex find - sab receive - rċieva buy - xtara try - pprova start - beda stop - waqaf finish - lesta continue - kompla wake up - qam eat - kiel drink - xorob happen - ġara feel - ħass create - ħalaq meet - ltaqa’ ask - saqsa reply - wieġeb read - qara write - kiteb listen - sema’ remember - ftakar forget - nesa choose - għażel decide - iddeċieda be born - twieled die - miet kill - qatel live - għex stay - baqa’ change - biddel help - għen send - bagħat walk - mexa dress (put clothes on) - libes desire - xtaq dream - ħolom ride - rikeb smile - tbissem win - rebaħ lose - tilef dance - żifen sing - kanta open - fetaħ close - għalaq gather - ġabar

Phrases

hello - ħello bye - ċaw thank you - grazzi you’re welcome - ta’ xejn / m’hemmx imniex excuse me - skużani sorry - jiddispjaċini It’s fine (response to an apology) - tinkwetax / mhux problema please - jekk jogħġbok yes - iva no - le okay - owkej my name is - jien jisimni what’s your name? - x’jismek? nice to meet you - għandi pjaċir how are you? - kif int? I’m doing well, how about you? - jien tajjeb/tajba, u int? sorry?/What? (if you didn’t hear something) - xiex? how do you say _? - kif tgħid_? what does _ mean? - xi tisser _ ? I don’t understand - m’inhiex nifhem could you repeat that? - tista‘ tirrepeti? could you speak more slowly, please? - tista‘ titkellem iktar bil-mod, jekk jogħġbok? really? - vera? I guess that - naħseb li It’s hot (talking about the weather) - xi sħana It’s cold (talking about the weather) - x’bard

[michelleeishere]

1.Do you want a boyfriend or girlfriend?

BOYFRIEND

2.When did your last hug take place?

LOLITA CAFE AMD MOVIES

3.Are you a jealous person?

YES I AM

4.Are you tired right now?

EXTREMELY

5.Do you chew on your straws?

YUP

6.Have you ever been called a tease?

NO

7.Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?

NEVER

8.Do you cry easily?

YESx100000000....

9.What should you be doing right now?

PAYING ATTENTION TO MY KOREAN LESSON

10.Are you a heavy sleeper?

NOT REALLY

11.Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months?

ABSOLUTELY

12.Are you mad at someone right now?

NAH

13.Do you believe in love?

YES

14.What makes you laugh no matter what?

MEMES

15.Who was the last person you talked to?

MY CLASSMATE

16.Do you get butterflies around the person you like?

ALWAYS

17.Will you get married?

HOPEFULLY

18.When was the last time you smiled?

YESTERDAY OF YESTERDAY??

19.Does anyone like you?

A LOT :)

20.Do you secretly like someone?

NAH, I NEVER HIDE MY FEELINGS FOR OTHERS

21.Who was the first person you talked to today?

MY NEW YORK

22.Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?

MY BESTIES

23.What are you NOT looking forward to?

BEING ALONE

24.What ARE you looking forward to?

HAVING A GROUP OF REAL FRIENDS IN UNIVERSITY

25.Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?

MY NEW YORK HAS

26.Suppose you see your ex kissing another person what would you do?

IDGAF LOL

27.Do you plan on moving out within the next year?

I’M LIVING FAR FROM HOME ALREADY SO..

28.Are you a forgiving person?

ABSOLUTELY

29.How many TRUE friends do you have?

MY HIGH SCHOOL FRIENDS

30.Do you fall for people easily?

I DO

31.Have you ever fallen for your ex’s best friend?

NEVER

32.What’s the last thing you put in your mouth?

A CAKE

33.Who was the last person you drove with?

MY MOM

34.How late did you stay up last night and why?

1AM CAUSE I WAS TOO DEPRESSED TO SLEEP

35.If you could move somewhere else, would you?

I WANT TO BE WITH MY FAMILY MORE

36.Who was the last person you took a picture of?

MYSELF

37.Can you live a day without TV?

I’M LIBING EVERYDAY WITHOUT A TV

38.When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?

JUST FEW DAYS AGO

39.Three names you go by...

(I DON’T GET THIS?!)

40.Are you currently in a relationship?

I AM

41.What is your all-time favorite romance movie?

CLUELESS 1995

42.Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?

I DON’T

43.What’s your current problem?

DEPRESSION & LONELINESS

44.Have you ever had your heart broken?

MANY TIMES

45.Your thoughts of long distance relationships?

IT’S OK

46.How many kids do you want to have?

ZERO

47.Have you ever found it hard to tell someone you like them?

NO, I NEVER HIDE

[1-h8-them-blog]

"A" letter for you

ALEXANDRIA @alexumasa MASANGKAY, Hello. Hi. Uhmm. Sorry kung ganun nanaman inasal ko. Alam kong mali ako dahil pinairal ko nanaman kadramahan ko. Nag matigas nanaman ako. Simpleng bagay nagpaka sensitive ako. Sorry kung naaapektuhan kana sa mga nangyayari sakin. Sorry if I’m taking you for granted at nagiging self centered ako. Yes, No excuses lahat to. Kung ano mang kasalanan ko sayo. I DEEPLY APOLOGIES. I know. Sorry is not enough para matumbasan ko yung ginagawa mo para sakin ngayon. Nahihiya na ko dahil sa ganitong ugali ko. I’m just MISSING YOU SO MUCH. You know that You’re my happy pill right? My stress reliever. My saviour because I’m the dansel in distress? Oo tama baliktad. Ikaw ang lalaki sa relasyon natin. Di lang dahil boses babae ako dahil mas maarte pako kesa sayo physically and mentally (germophobic ka lang). I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH and THANK YOU for being there even though bihira tayo magkita (minsan nahihirapan ako). Aaminin ko Nagtampo dahil di ka nakapunta sa burol o libing ni lola kung saan di ko kinaya yung lungkot. I understand naman kung bakit pero at some part of me is nag hahanap padin ng kalinga mo. Paano? Alam ko sasabihin mo sa chat sa call dinadamayan mo ko pero iba yung nakikita kita ng harapan (demanding ba?) Sorry kasi The fact na nakita na kita sa mata. My negative thoughts, problems and other things na umiikot sa isip ko *poof* nawawala. Makita ko lang yung perfect smile showing your inperfect teeth drives me crazy. pakiramdam ko nag sabi kana agad ng cheesy lines kaya napapangiti ako ng todo na halos hindi maalis sa mga labi ko (Kahit naman sa video call nakakaakit smile mo). Then sa part na maguusap na tayo nabablangko ako. I dont even know how to start or how to talk to you. Pakiramdam ko napipe ako ng ilang segundo (kaya inaasar nalang agad kita once na mautal ako or sometimes kaya puro “pogi ako” bukang bibig ko) hehe. My favorite part is when you start hugging me. Hugging me na para akong stuffed toy na nawala ng ilang taon sayo. Na kahit mainit kahit na kinakain ko na buhok mo na kahit malagkit ako yayakapin mo padin ako ( may reklamo nga lang dahil malagkit ako). And you know what. Kissing you to the lips, forehead, left and right cheeks and the chin is HEAVEEEEN!!! Your taste makes me high like a drug addict (pero di ako drug addict. Tatay ko oo natokhang na nga ihh). It makes my mind blown away for a minute. Then talking to you. Explaining my thoughts cracking up some corny jokes or telling some conspiracies about this world (Konsepto ng iba’t ibang bagay) and insulting you asaran nating dalawa. It makes me realize more that “She is the right girl for me. She is the one. We will make dreams for our future.” Kaya sobrang sakit sakin pag nasa oras na tyo na uuwi kana. Na iisipin ko na babalik nanaman ako sa pag gangbang sakin ng mga negative thoughts and other panget na mas panget pa saking bagayu sa isip ko. O.A. ba description ko? Sorry yan lang talaga nafe feel ko. MANIWALA KA MAN O SA HINDI. Still I’m sorry for making you feel not knowing your worth. I DO KNOW YOUR WORTH. Ikaw si Alexandria Masangkay na nagmamahal nagpapaka selfless at nag papaka martyr para sakin. I DO LOVE YOU TUKMOL!!!. Sobrang tanga ko lang dahil di ko malaman paano ipapadama sayo na you’re worthy for me. But again I disappoint you dahil sa nag rant kana about sa inaasal ko. I’ve realize na I’m not worthy to take care of your fragile and sensitive but strong little heart of yours. Again i’m sorry sa mga kasalanan ko. Pinakita ko na napaka tanga ko sa lahat ng aspeto ng bagay. I’m not wondering anymore kung bakit ganun ako tirahin nila tita about my decisions in life. Dahil tanga talaga ako. Useless nga ako. Polusyon sa mundo. Cancer ng lipunan. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! ALEXANDRIA GABON-MASANGKAY. Thankyou for being the best girlfriend for me! And being part of my miserable worthless life. AGAIN I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. Di ko alam paano tatapusin to. I hope na pag nabasa mo to. Mapasaya ko umaga mo. 😍😘😍😘😍😘 Nagmamahal, Juan Miguel “Abno/Paboy/Bebeboi” Cruz

PS: Di ako nag post dahil sa post mo. Kahapon ko pa balak gumawa neto nakatulog lang ako nun :—( PPS: BE HAPPY! J3y.3hm_Dh1zi.Ocho! Ppps: Tag na kita. Gusto ko mabasa mo to. I LOVE YOU 😍😘😍😍😘 Pppps: Madami pa kong gusto sabihin kaso lang words is not enough para ipaalam sayo kung gaano ka kaworthy gaano kita kamahal at especially gaano ka KAGANDA!