#life and stuff

[adhdandcomics]

& then i got vivid nightmares every day 4 a week straight.. !

[teddybearty]

Immortal lovebirds 💕

[jennycalendar]

this is one of those things that is really only going to work as a reference with me personally and maybe 6 other people who i love more than life itself which is why i had to of course buy it immediately

[andbunnyforall]

14.01.2024

told myself i’d get back in the habit of posting during the new year and then guess what!! i didn’t!! hehe anyways hopefully i’ll start posting more.

also!! shout out to my ELA teacher from last year! i still go and talk to her sometimes and i’ve shown her a lot of my writing and she’s helping me enter a writing competition!!

it’s a good year so far :)

🌟🎧🌟: feather by sabrina carpenter!

(i feel so much lighter like a feather 💛)

[9mothsinspace]

I've been thinking about suicide too much and reached the conclusion that maybe studying art really isn't for me. Too much freedom, too much room for insecurity and doubting myself and so little control that it's all too easy to just don't do anything at all. Would I love to be that kind of person who is confident about any idea they have and able to present them? Yes! But all my smol demons tell me that anything I start is doomed to suck, so I can't do the most important thing art requires: the joy in experimenting and trying new things. Does it suck to be 21 and then decide that I need to do something completely different with my life even though I have no idea what that would be? Yep. But I can't see myself dreading and avoiding going to the academy because I feel like an imposter for another 4 1/2 years.

[operafantomet]

10 days in Portugal... was fantastic!

Now I'm back to spam and to answer some questions :)

[starstruckghostdreamer]

"Because I had my best friend by my side. I had you." -Gwen

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I am currently playing Spiritfarer where we follow the journey of Stella guiding spirits onto the other side. This game is such an emotional roller coaster.🎢

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I am not crying, you are 🥲🤧

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Another gem by an indie company.

[kutscene-kestin]

I’m going to need to spend the last few days of February while I’m not at work packing my stuff up to move it back to my place because the renovation is almost done. GW2…might throw a wrench in that. I don’t know if I can refrain from spending all my time playing the new content, nor whether I might be able to somehow pack early.

[vikkisheepy]

Hello my dears! ^ ^

How's life treating you all? I haven't spoken much here in a bit, so I'll tell you what's been up lately.

Maybe it's brain fog caused by a fever I've been having recently, but have you ever felt like MENTALLY you're in a different time of year? It's October right now, but last week had me feeling like I was back in March, and it feels so... bizarre.

(Maybe 'cuz the Spring months are where diseases thrive and spread a lot lmao)

For real though, I just got tested a bit ago and I'm hoping it's just a seasonal flu of sorts and nothing serious. Feeling burnt out, sluggish, and goop brained suuuucks, especially when I just wanna draw stuff maaaan. =_=;

Ah well, with any luck this will blow over soon. October is too much of a comfort month for me to let it be spoiled by feeling unwell.

Love you <333

[pointman74250]

“Not only is the Universe stranger than we think, it is stranger than we can think.”

― Werner Heisenberg

[stagandsteer]

also wanted to say, i know it’s been quiet for…many months now lol. i’ve had a lot going on irl and new jobs starting and ending and starting anew again. but i’ll be here for Hocus Pocus season and try to post more regularly! 🎃🧙‍♀️🕯

[teapartyatsix]

I feel sick realising that I am the one who ruins friendships and relationships. That I am the one who doesn't give enough,who isn't capable of reciprocating the same amount of love.

It's easy to blame others. But deep down I know it's me. I just don't want to make the other person suffer because of my incapability to love. So I bite my tongue and stop myself from getting close to them.

It hurts....it hurts a lot. But this is better for me and for them..and so I endure

[jennycalendar]

so today was as ever a solid day, and at my job they are giving away a FUCK ton of books (pays to work in library, babes) and when no one was looking i took 90 percent of the trashy romance novels

i have so many of these now

[andbunnyforall]

07.11.2023

Oh boy, how I love my life. (I thought my phone died forever and now it’s okay NOW but uhm. I did have a quick mental breakdown over it.)

PICTURED ON LEFT: guess which one of us is gayer? (me on left, bestie on right)

PICTURED ON RIGHT: i love poetry writing!!

[katyspersonal]

(Vent)

I find myself so conflicted. There are just... so many things I want to talk about. I want to talk about how infuriating it is that “feminists” fought so hard to claim that all women deserve respect - only to end up demonizing female beauty and fit-ness as a concept for being “cishet male bait”, or hate feminine characters in general unless they can get indulgence for being lesbians or trans women. How annoying it is that woke clout chasers run around slapping ‘comphet’ and ‘lesbophobia’ stickers on everything when people are righteously unhappy with bi erasure - would those people be content if someone “erased” a lesbian character saying she was just bi all along but convinced herself to be a lesbian out of hating men? BOTH can play this game, lil’ shit. How people come and have a go like ‘but we all are fighting the SAME battle against CIS WHITE MEN’ that makes me feel cringe for being a woman and thus dragged into this “opression” game against my will, I want to wash my gender away like dirt to not be associated with this madness - but when I step away too far I inevitably find legitimate incels that hate women like feminists hate men. When did I crossed the line where chased down stray dogs ended and true wolves started? Where can I hide?

But it is certainly not in my head. And I want to NOT want to talk about any of this, I just wonder - did it really have to get like this? Becoming so tangled with internet and fandoms? Well... I’ve ALWAYS been just an autistic kid more interested in fiction than reality, so maybe my fate is just written by how my brain is built, heh. But there is just boiling anger that I sometimes struggle to contain, it ends up feeling like I am a dragon that simply tried to make a deep sigh - and bam, accidentally everything around got ignited. After this I feel like I did something wrong - despite ‘ranting about things you dislike’ is such a relevant thing that some Youtubers make it their BRAND and get hella followers! But I just feel like now everything ignites, and I should extinguish the coals with memes, reblogged pretty arts, jokes and ‘happy thoughts’. But ‘touch the grass’ or not, but the frustration is always here somewhere, like a permanently smoking volcano. I know rants are okay, but it always feels like after I only BARELY open up about my perpetual annoyance - people already get scared. So what would they think of me if I lost ALL inhibitors and just got it ALL out?

I just want to believe that out there there is a hater (affectionate) so furious that I am no match to them, and me ranting to them will feel like barely a complaint, let alone rant. And it will feel greeeeeeat for a while, because this anger will be out of my mind.

[operafantomet]

Sorry for the hiatus, but I’ve been to Greece and Turkey for a conference. Truth be told, I’m still here 😁 This cat from today’s visit to Ephesus displays my mood well