#life and stuff

[marigoldbaker]

realized just now that I have not taken any updated pictures of my apartment! and i have so many online friends who haven’t seen it! the people need to know.

[begitalarcos]

Hey guys

I thought I would give you a little update on what's going on with my health stuff. I had my 3 month follow up appointment with my neurosurgeon on Monday, and it turns out I have re-herniated the L5 disc in my back and now the L4 disc is slightly herniated there’s also nerve encasement from scar tissue and a whole bunch of other horrendous stuff I have to deal with.

This news was fairly upsetting since early January I was told to “Tough it out” and then asked in this meeting why I did that and never called him… apparently he received additional MRI info from my scan (they injected a dye which takes clearer nerve images) that didn’t show up till February some time, he had called or faxed this info to my family doctor but no one ever called me. Also when I called my family doctor about it later in the day he had no copy of this new info and no fax/email was found either. So f*ck me I guess right?

So I'll be needing surgery again, and at this point we (my dr & I) have discussed and decided that the best course of action is a spinal fusion. Not exactly thrilled about it (my husband had a bit of a breakdown and my mom thinks I should be suing someone) but it’s likely the best course of action considering what's going on right now. Additionally, I also have irreparable nerve damage… because I’ve been “toughing it out” and in doing so - have made things worse. The numbness in my left leg has spread to my heel and my kneecap so walking is not only difficult now, it’s also very very painful.

On top of that I was diagnosed with clinical depression (again) and the new meds I was on gave me crazy heartburn, insomnia and hot flashes. So now my therapist has me doing a full detox. It’s gonna be hell in my head for awhile 😞😮‍💨😔

I really want to thank everyone who has sent me messages, texts and letters even and all the incredible support from people who have donated to my GoFundMe as it has been a very anxious and stressful time for me and also our financial situation is not great as I'm sure you all know by now.

I do hope that with this surgery it will help me be somewhat pain-free again at some point. I really really hope so… I’m trying to remain optimistic.

It hasn't been scheduled yet but my surgeon is trying to get it rushed to have it done ASAP, so likely this or next month. Not really sure what’s gonna happen but hopefully it all turns out well.

Much love

- B

I included my GoFundMe link if anyone is able to help out - even just to reblog. 💚❤️💚

[adhdandcomics]

& then i got vivid nightmares every day 4 a week straight.. !

[operafantomet]

Have you ever experienced a time where you got bored or tired from Phantom?

All the time! Hahaha.

For me the cast or the production is of importance. I have seen the show enough times to have experienced a lot of variations in role interpretations, visuals and directing. This both in replica and non-replica productions. If there are periods I don't really feel the production(s), I do other stuff.

That said, I am always intrigued to see a new cast or new generation add their ideas to the musical. I am curious enough to give most a chance. But if I don't like what I see or hear, I'm out for a while.

There's also times where the musical kinda peaks in interest, good or bad, where I feel I need a break. This happened around the 2004 movie release, around the world premiere of "Love Never Dies" and the following RAH celebrations, and with the re-launch after covid. If it's too noisy, too busy, too many opinions I don't really engage in the productions themselves, rather what got me into it in the first place: Maria Bjørnson's design, costume nerding, or looking back at great productions of the past. Or, again, I do other stuff.

For this reason I also do different things on different platforms. My Tumblr is for POTO and musicals in general. My Instagram is for dress and fashion history, with some occasional glimpses of my life. My Facebook is highly private. There will be periods one or two is more quiet than the third, depending on what I feel like focusing on.

I also think a break now and then is a good thing. It can be intense. But I keep returning to POTO. Always.

[maggie-chaos23]

First day of school over! Totally didn’t roll both my ankles, bruise my shin, get a sore throat, injure both my wrists from crocheting, realize my favorite white sweatshirt had a big ahh stain right on the center of it, and find MULTIPLE bug bites all over my body the day prior!

I’m fine👍👍👍

[lobsterminator]

you guys have no idea how much i love the fact people look at the stuff i’ve reblogged or made and go ‘yeah that’s like worthy’

I’m at a point in my life where i’m trying to find myself, i have so much stuff i want to do and so many memories of me doing said things, i for example remember a moment where, when I was 9, i planned an entire space mission to Duna and back in Kerbal Space Program, i did presentations for literal hours on space and black holes and astronomy, sadly middle school happened and let’s just say i met very bad people for the lil’ guy i was back then (i might have autism i’m going to see a therapist on the 28th, i definitely have adhd tho) and i want to do it again, to talk to people about all the cool shit i know, and my friends are genuinely wonderful people for listening to my sometimes 2 hours+ ramblings about whatever crossed my mind at the time AND FOLLOWING AND REACTING TO IT YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST IM SORRY I CAN’T TELL YOU IN FRONT (because i’ll cry).

i’ve finally started writing (occasionally) after 4 years of ideas and thinking ‘damn that’d be cool’ thanks to someone challenging me to make a book and pushing me to go to a writing club the first saturday of october (if you read this you’ll probably recognize yourself doofus), and i realize i have a genuinely impressive collection of art and stuff i’ve made for at least 6 years now

i like the color purple 💜

On multiple occasions people told me i had feminine traits and all the time i brushed it off but i’m so happy people did (i don’t think i identify as any gender genuinely i just go by he/him by force of habit and because i still feel generally alright in my body (my brain sometimes does not understand gender and that lead to some complications and misunderstandings with a non-binary friend of mine, french is also weird and i speak it like english where in my mind everything is gender neutral)) Someone once butchered my name (accidentally) and called me Eline, and i found it so nice you have no idea, i don’t know why but i appreciate when people call me different pronouns than he/him but it’s still nice being called that.

I’m ginger (sometimes(don’t ask)) and french, do whatever you want with that information

enough rambling i don’t make sense goodbye and have a wonderful day, night, solar eclipse or whatever else ✨✨💜

[kuebiko-writing]

Terrible news. Writing requires complete focus!

Well, at least for me it does. This was a (very late as usual) realization for me. I'm almost always multitasking or doomscrolling or listening to the thoughts constantly running through my head.

I realized this when I stopped mid-scene and started daydreaming of a random scenario in my life. I'm living in unfortunate circumstances which contributes to my lack of ability to be present, but this is getting bad. With this in mind, I've deleted Instagram from my phone and I'm limiting my Youtube time to long-form videos only. The brain rot of shorts and reels are not to be underestimated!

Our brains aren't meant to multitask. Focusing on one thing at a time is a good idea.

[thedivinemissema]

Hello, happy end of the year. I hope someone you love is keeping the candles lit for you if you're in the dark part of the hemisphere, and that you're enjoying summer in the other half.

This is just to say hi, I'm still here. Life is odd. Perimenopause is hitting me so hard that my doctors are baffled, and I have hot flashes and terrible sleep almost every night. While I haven't had it diagnosed, I'm pretty sure from the fact that my teeth are decaying alarmingly fast that I have osteoporosis in some form. I spend a lot of my time each day managing my health, but so do many of us on here. A year ago, I didn't have these problems at all. I also finished school, which was a slog the last semester because of the aforementioned not sleeping because hot flashes, but exciting to be done. All of the health changes have made me put off the idea of going to grad school for a while.

Tell me about your year this year, your life now, or what you're doing for the rest of the year. We often just flounder without community, so I want to know what you're up to, or if you just want to say hi.

[freckledjoes]

time to gif a beautiful man~

[vikkiarts]

Heeeyy creechurs!

I'll get back to posting art here I promise lol

Been mostly accomodated to Blue Sky is all

[marigoldbaker]

perfect spot for my jaheira print i think

(thank you @by-izzmizz for such a wonderful contest!!)

[moonblossom7]

went out to check the mail today and the sunset was beautiful and you could see the moon and it was crescent shape and it was pretty and there was birds chirping and it was lovely

[namraniilife]

guys we’ve been going back and forth with sexual jokes now what. he’s never done this before 😭

[operafantomet]

...still massive computer problems, for those wondering about my absence... I can charge by old backup computer, and it last for half an hour or so, but I can't use it when charging. Which means I have small slots for doing Tumblr related posts, and I just... gave up on the whole thing, TBH. Ah well. Just wanted to let you know.

[lazzarella]

When Uncle Jim said something like ‘let’s not become the adults we hated’ to his sister in Moonlight Chicken that hit hard. It’s something I have to check in with myself about, from time to time, and more frequently the older I get