#like the VoTE convo before the fight really gets going

[daylighteclipsed]

Are there any Soriku / sasunaru parallels in particular that make you lose it?

Okay there’s at least 15 that have been rattling around in my brain for months, but this post would be a mile long. So I’m gonna pick out the 7 that slapped me across the face the most upon first going from Naruto to KH. Let’s start with this one cause I sorta mentioned it not long ago:

My Riku / My Sasuke

If I had a nickel for every time a usually cheerful protagonist searching for their broody best friend who tried to kill them snapped because some slimy scientist who likes to play god spoke possessively about their best friend, I’d have two nickels. Which isn’t a lot, but it’s weird that it’s happened twice.

Screenshots cannot do this justice. You have to see Sora literally bent over shaking in rage to understand why this is a remotely applicable comparison to Naruto going 4-tailed Kyuubi mode on the bridge… I hit the 10 pic limit, so iykyk… Also interesting how both boys have a demon form that’s triggered by rage, though Sora doesn’t have Rage Form yet in CoM.

The Dark Margin / The Valley of the End

Honestly, what beats finally starting to share your feelings and understand each other after so much conflict, which is meaningfully reflected by the setting — a place where two opposing but complementary forces meet and reconcile? Saying, “I love you,” without having to say it? At peace with dying because you’re finally together? Nothing. Nothing beats this. Together at the end of the world. Together at the end of this life, to walk side-by-side into the next one.

Yin and Yang, babey

Naruto and Sasuke quite literally possess the powers of Yang and Yin, respectively, to save the world. They get these sick sun and moon tattoos. Their chakras — yellow, hot, bright/purple, cold, dark — also reflect this dichotomy. Sora and Riku have the whole Symphony of Sorcery, which is very day, sky, warm/night, ground, cold — visual representations of their complementary heart songs. Their [light and darkness are] Eternal Session. The Gayblade.

What’s nice about Sora and Riku is that it’s more obvious that they work in yinyang, though. During Eternal Session, for instance, they switch between who uses light and dark abilities, whereas Naruto and Sasuke’s chakras are strictly light and dark, respectively.

Taisetsu [na hito]

“When a person has something precious to protect, that’s when they can become truly strong.” Riku and Naruto actually share this parallel — becoming strong to protect their precious people (Sora and Sasuke). This is a core aspect of their characters and respective arcs. It’s pretty self-explanatory.

But this theme applies to Sora and Sasuke, too, as the ones who first show Riku and Naruto this strength of heart — they “save” Riku and Naruto, literally and figuratively, and this is part of what drives Riku and Naruto to return the favor when it’s Sora and Sasuke in need of saving.

Additionally… Sasuke has to kill the person most precious to him to achieve ultimate power but can’t no matter how hard he tries because he loves Naruto more than anything. This is the final tie to his heart, his humanity, that he just cannot sever… Sora spends all of CoM trying to find his most precious person. His memories are completely scrambled by the end and, amidst the chaos and lies, he clings to a singular truth, the only tie he knows is real — a promise to protect his most precious person. A promise, as it would turn out, he exchanged with Riku… Naruto and Riku are the final ties to their hearts and selves. That’s what I’m saying.

Riku and Sasuke laughing

…because of Sora and Naruto :) The two’s earnest foolishness, like making a funny face or still caring about a childhood rivalry on their deathbed, breaks through Riku and Sasuke’s doom and gloom, and for the first time ever we see them laughing! Despite everything that’s happened, everything they’ve done, there are truly some things that never change and some bonds that are unbreakable… It’s unconditional love, Sora and Naruto’s stubborn refusal to treat their beloved friends any differently, that warms Riku and Sasuke’s cold hearts.

Kakkoii

A Japanese term used to describe someone as cool/handsome/good-looking… and the word both Sora and Naruto use when they let slip that Riku and Sasuke are attractive.

Sora does this when he remarks that he’s not as handsome/good-looking as Yozora (though the clothes kind of match), to which Goofy is quick to point out Yozora looks a lot like Riku. In the EN dub, Donald simply agrees — but in JP, Donald actually teases Sora, “Very good-looking, huh?”

In early Shippuden, after Sai is introduced to the team, Sakura remarks that Sai looks a lot like Sasuke. Naruto, who wants nothing to do with Sai, is quick to scoff that Sasuke is way better looking than Sai, before he realizes what he said and quickly tries to backtrack.

It’s also worth noting, in earlier concepts of Sasuke’s character introduction, Naruto’s initial reaction to Sasuke (in this case, after being saved by him) is blushing and thinking, “Sasuke kakkoii…”

“Your hearts are always in tune, so they’re free to sing.” / “I know your heart, and you know mine.”

Homoromantic quotes that more or less mean the same thing… and more or less reveal how both pairings can sense/feel each other in different worlds, dimensions, etc… things that make me crazy. The Naruto series uses chakra connections, while KH has connected hearts. Naruto/Sasuke and Sora/Riku take those connections a step further… basically giving you the series’ equivalent of soulmates.

Each relationship is also the heart of their series. They embody the themes, the messages. They are the emotional core. They are what the story is about… And that story is undeniably a love story, regardless of what kind of love you see it as. ❤️ While there are many parallels between Soriku and SNS, they are by no means the same. But I adore both relationships.

[actuallyprobablyafaerie]

list of things that made me scream in pjo episode 3

Percy picking grover because he trusts him not to betray him!!! THEY ARE BEST FRIENDS OK

Luke still comes off as so likable and inconspicuous that whole convo he had with percy and the shoes i just

GROVER AND THE CONSENSUS SONG I CANT

annabeth staring at the different flavors of candy in the gas station and not being able to pick and just buying all of them. Thats the annabeth we deserve

ANNABETHS KNIFE APPEARANCE ALERT and a fury is IMMEDIATELY killed

uncle ferdinand foreshadowing……………

When annabeth and percy start arguing in the woods and grover tries to change the subject by talking about his uncle and they both completely ignore him. I LOVE GROVER SO MUCH

the bickering in this episode is ON POINT by the way

like the stuff theyre arguing about makes sense. Yes i would be concerned about those things too

ESPECIALLY since theres such a focus put on trust (esp after percy learns that someone is going to betray him) and percy and annabeth are arguing about stuff theyve lied or havent told each other about???? Sorry that might be skipping ahead a bit but GOD is that the good stuff

i love that they changed how the three of them ended up going into auntie em’s because before it was a little concerning that none of them figured out it was medusa. Plus having a fury outside just adds to the tension a perfect amount i think, because it really traps them in there

all the discussion about the gods and what medusa talks to percy about in the kitchen - YES MAKE ME HATE THEM!! All of this is adding up to lukes motivations making so much sense in the end

ALSO!! Them harkening back to sallys line in the first episode when she tells percy that not all heroes look like heroes and not all monsters look like monsters - they brought it back so perfectly. Percy wanting to trust medusa because of what his mom said, medusa calling Poseidon a monster, ALL OF IT is so good

When theyre down in the basement and grover puts on the shoes and then just fucking. Flies away and disappears into the darkness yelling a little. and annabeth and percy just kind of helplessly watch him go before being like - welp i guess that plans not working. That was peak comedy

them using annabeths hat on medusa and then using it to kill alecto THEY WERE SO SMART FOR THAT!!! Also percy just the invisible severed head was a hilarious concept to me

when percy suggests burying the hat in the ground with the hat on to make sure no one bad finds it and annabeth just!!! Agrees!!! And then grover has to be like no that hats important to her its a gift from her mother!!! And then percys like well we’ll find another solution then. That whole scene was good yes i liked that

also annabeth revealing that grover was her protector too and percy asks about it and grover just changes the subject and doesnt answer. He is the KING of avoidance

also grover finally interrupting annabeth and percy when they start fighting and giving his whole speech about getting along. That wouldve felt a little cheesy and preachy and out of place from anyone else but considering grover tried to get them to sing the consensus song a few hours earlier i fully believe that he would say that

I AM IMPERTINENT

Why the fuck wasnt there a lin manuel maranda jumpscare warning. I couldve used one of those

but actually all the jokes in this episode were so on point. Like percy calling drachmas chuckie cheese tokens. And him arguing about voting on the bus. Anyways

10/10 episode i will be rewatching like eight times before next tuesday.

[bonesandthebees]

And then there’s the meeting. And the fun in this is trying to figure out if they know that Tallulah’s infected or not. Also, I respect the decision to have half the people be absent via excuses, because that’s still a lot of characters to manage. Also, it’s so obvious all these people are parents because there’s constantly people trying to check in if Tallulah is okay, too.

[“Wilbur’s a good person,” Quackity finally said, his voice ringing through the room. “I think we can trust him.”] This is probably based on the Wilbur he knew before + the clear care he can see for Tallulah. Aside from that Quackity only says this once he catches Wilbur’s eye and probably sees how cared he is. And again, it’s giving past lovers vibes all over the place even though Wilbur got out before any of that happened. And Phil’s having a blast with it.

Still, some of the other’s a hesitant, because that sentiment doesn’t really make sense. Quackity should be angry at him. Leaving him should mean he can’t be trusted. Quackkty should be fighting this the most, but he’s not. So they want some extra questions. They already know that Tallulah isn’t his (at least, some of them do and it’s obvious he’s too young to be her actual dad even if he looks like he could be).

And I love Wilbur’s dialogue alternating with to flashbacks to show what actually happened and which parts he’s omitting. And Tallulah being abandoned might set of a few more people. Even if the reasons Wilbur gives are plausible, she’s still very much hiding her eyes and hasn’t said a word. All of them have kids with the same infection running around.

So after Baghera asks if they are infected and it becomes a bit more obvious that Tallulah is (or that Phil can’t confirm she isn’t), the mood shifts. It’s clear they have one priority: protect the children. That means their own children, but that’s also very clearly extending to Tallulah. And actually, I don’t think they are onto her being infected. They would trust Wilbur more if they knew. But then again, if Tallulah was a normal kid, they might be more inclined to let her go. Unless they are afraid that Wilbur would abandon or kill her if she became infected.

This escalates very quickly when Wilbur panics about being found out and offers to leave. Bad the offers of trade supplies for Tallulah, which is entirely misreading the situation. I’m sorry, but a man cradling his child that closely is not trading near for the world. I do understand not wanting him to leave, because even if he doesn’t know about their infected children, he could then sent other people their way who would find out and be aggressive. (again, rip Tilin)

(5/6)

-🌲

lol yeah there were so many characters man I wanted to include everyone but I just could not do it

the group doesn't know that tallulah is infected in that convo. some of them, like phil and quackity, are at least somewhat confident she is. the others have no clue because they haven't been around her enough to make a judgement, but they're assuming she's not just for the sake of things bc it's better to assume she's not and be wrong than vice versa.

yeah even though quackity has given wilbur his vote of confidence quackity isn't the most... stable person. he's not always rational and while everyone there cares about him, they also know his judgement has been off since tilin died. plus, quackity hasn't known wilbur for years now. as much as they want to believe what quackity's saying, they don't put a ton of stock into his words.

by the point baghera asks if they're infected and bad offers to trade supplies for wilbur giving tallulah to them, no one knows if she's infected or not. it's a possibility, but again, they're assuming she's not for the sake of the argument. the reason they're so hellbent on taking her in is solely bc they don't want to see a kid get killed out there. it doesn't matter if she's infected or not, she's a child being taken care of by one young guy who clearly doesn't have the best survival skills. the last thing they want is to let the two of them go, and then a few days later find their bodies out in the middle of the forest.

but yeah. of course wilbur wasn't going to go for that. but they can't tell him without knowing bc if they do and he reacts badly, he could tell other people about the camp. so either they let him go without telling him anything, or they tell him and depending on how he reacts, he either gets killed or gets to stay. the group is very worried about the safety of the kids.

[bananaapplewaffle]

Book 6 Part One: The Watchman of the Underworld

Buckle in besties, we're going for a ride.

Also beware that there are Book 7 spoilers in here because my thoughts are jumbled in here.

Awake Again | Let the Search Begin | Briefing at Night | A Swift Fight 

“Am I in the clouds?”

AM I FUCKEN DEAD

Oh no just dreaming

Did I call you over

OH YEAH LITTLE BRO IS GONE

Wait a minute…

Hmmm dreams tied to these memories…

Oh damn little bro got me good

It highkey took too long to get to this conclusion.

Like 2 + 2 = 4, yes the black stones were blot accumulation. 

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“Exceptionally rare” he says

It is NOT his true nature

TELL’EM DEUCE

CROWLEY WATCH YOUR MOUTH 

YOU ARE UPSETTING ME AND MY BESTIES

Sidenote: THE FAN IS FICING MY HEAD RN

HE WOULDN’T

Ace I’m bout to beat you up—

WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT'S ONLY BEEN SIX MONTHS

THERE’S THE FRIENDSHIP MUSIC

WHAT IS THIS KINGDOM HEARTS

It’s not but my fic is! 

I want to go find my little brother

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HE DIDIN’T MEAN TOO

IT WASN’T HIM IT WAS THE DARKNESS 

…

Oh my god this fucks with my whole timeline what do you mean Book 5 and Book 6 basically take place at the same exact time

Like I knew this, but having a character say it to me is just uggh

I really do not believe Malleus is here.

Like I have had this feeling that this whole time he’s been OBed

And everyone is asleep due to his power

Like to be real

It could be a case of:

Yuu had to leave and he didn’t want that so this happened and everyone has just been stuck in a timeloop

Malleus knows, but he’s waiting for someone to realize and save him

ORTHO PLEASE

NON LETHAL METHODS 

AKSLDJSDJSAKDL CROWLEY

That was a good read lol

Oh we got underground and secret passages?

BABY BOY

OH SHIT HE’S FUCKED UP 

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I WANT TO SEE HIM NOW

Post-Mortem for SDC | Taking Responsibility | A Performance Fee 

And here’s where I lose my shit

Because we’re about to go from worried sick to 

“Yeah no I can talk” cannot actual talk and is avoiding something

IT’S BEEN A FEW DAYS

NAH NAH NAH

A FEW DAYS

I’D BE ON THE VERGE OF A BREAKDOWN

IS GRIM OKAY

“Beytraying your trust” he says

You literally tried to kill someone

Almost killed us and the innocent bystanders

And oh yeah

TRIED TO FRAME EPEL’S FAMILY FOR IT ALL

BITCH YOU ARE NOT GETTING AWAY WITH THIS

Also let’s be real, you didn’t do that because you realized we would lose

You did it because you had the opportune chance to do so

Like fuck apologing to this group as a whole

Your first apology needs to go to fucking Epel

And fuck if it weren’t for Jamil and his UM as well as Malleus shit would have been big fucked

I mean the shit was highkey rigged let’s be real

The dwarves being cute is what sold the audience 

Like regardless of this being a one vote win

It is not the same as Sans v Reigen

Rook was not Mob

Chile lemme gon head and stretch my legs before getting back to these BOLOS (if you know you know)

Alright y’all back to these Bolos

And yes, I did lock all the windows.

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Jamil speaking from experience

Unless their hard work was to in fact bumble around on stage

Then ion get it

GIRL THAT IS IN THE PAST

GIRL NOT US GETTING NEIGE’S SOB STORY FROM THE MFKER WHO TRIED TO KILL HIM

GIRL I GOTTA GO

…that’s stupid.

Just because he’s seen hardships does not mean that you should give in and hand over victory

That’s honestly a slap in the face

God I hate the name NCR Tribe

I’m changing that in the fic

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Aw you got Epel riled up now

KALIM REALLY SAID “THIS IS TRULY THE GHETTO”

Believe me it was worse when we got here

Okay so in the end we got 30,000 Mandol/Thadmarks

LET ME GET MY MFKEN MOUSEKETOOL

Alright time to take another break before shit hits the fan

Current Thoughts: The fan is ficing, and I am becoming less upset about this convo, as long as I keep it in the fic’s universe lol

A Sudden Entry | Alarming Abductions | Emergency Instructions | A Suspect Bargain | Aggressive Invitation 

YOU GOT MY COUNTRY BOY GOIN COUNTRY 

WHAT THE FUCK 

GIRL

I KNOW THAT AIN’T MY MFKEN HOUSE

THE FAN FIS FICING 

MY HOUSE

OH LAWD THEY’RE HERE

Wait are these actual people and not just robots? 

LOOK AT THEIR LITTLE CHIBI MODELS

They have fucking oars

Okay…they’re kinda doing damage

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Girl not another battle

Side Note: Mini Waffle is staring at me very intently

MY FUCKEN HOUSE

BABY 

BABY BROTHER 

WE’RE FUCKEN GOING IN ACE

Damn they’re all dead

Damn Ace is Double Dead

Call that Dimmadead

Mini Waffle is losing her shit 

Please hold while I give her pets

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And now I watch as everyone else get’s fucking got

ONLY A FEW MINUTES

THEY GOT GOT GOT

Welp

TIL that Riddle’s VA is also Tanjiro Kamado (Demon Slayer) and Elan Ceres (MSG: Witch from Mercury)

I figured he was Tamjiro from the scream alone lol

This mfer set the whole grounds on fire

All that and for what

Malleus is not even on this plane of existence

OH NO ITS TIME TO GET HONEY

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I swear Leona just be knowing shit

And thus Ruggie was finally made Vice Housewarden

And then these two

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What kinda shit

Y’all need him there to do the shit

But y’all can’t tell him where his parents are

Girl they out there with Malleus

On another plane of existence

And finally you, Cfrowley

Gather the Housewardens he says

Did you mean Kalim? 

And by extension Lilia because we already know Malleus is nowhere to be found

Sharing Information | A Packed Flight | Uncertain Plight 

Oh shit he’s actually here for once

Probably not for long tho

And here’s Lilia also just knowing shit

Makes sense I guess 

Sebek’s bout to fucking cry

They really said here’s the rest of the cast sans the freshmen

Oh shit here comes the exposition 

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WAIT

I WAS HERE???

Mfken Idia

Riddle please

THREE HOURS??

Could not be me

They would have to knock me out good

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Them: How does Leona know so much??

Leona: Don’t worry about it

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GIRL WE IN THE DARKNESS

So y’all bitches went to therapy is that what you’re saying

I’m gonna beat this game’s ass

Azul that is not what you should be worrying about here

Tbh y’all

Wish they put his hair up in a ponytail

And that’s all for me rn

Grudging Compliance | Historical Guidance | Lupine Reliance | An Abrupt Collision 

Riddle please

WELL

Idia: I’m the BOSS

Me, immediately: “i’M tHe BoSs”

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The Age of Who

…

Lilia: “There is no shortage of historical narratives that have been twisted to suit someone’s agenda.” 

And then my responses are:

Twisting historical narratives, huh…

(For some reason, I’ve got butterflies in my stomach.)

Interesting… 

Rook is not fucking pleased

Something the fuck is up

Highkey him being so suspicious really makes me believe that he does has some kind of Fae origin

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I got fucked up, Jack. 

Don’t worry tho :) 

Please note: The fic is fanning and I am taking mental notes that I will soon forget.

Anyway, MC is def wound tight. 

“I don’t give a fuck about me! I’m more upset about Ace and Deuce still being unconscious. The Overblot victims are gone and Grim! I haven’t talked to him in a week now, and when I seen him he was in that fucking cage!”

Bitch do I look perfectly fine

Do I? 

On the last day?

Yeah fuck it

IS IT BECAUSE I’M BLACK, CREWEL?

SKSKSKSKSKSKSKSK

That is a joke for those who can not read the tone. 

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Girl it really was because I’m black

WAKE THE FUCK UP BESITES

WE GOTTA GO SAVE THE WORLD 

Well, not yet but soon, but now

Deuce did not help my fucked up roof

Oh god

The country is coming out y’all

Jack you got to be talking to Epel here

Cuz I literally cannot do SHIT in this world

Funny that they sent me to Pomefiore knowing good and well Heartslabyul is the correct choice.

But plot reasons ig

A Rash Decision | In Hot Pursuit Defiant Dispute | A Heartfelt Salute

Rook what is the real reason

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I feel like

Epel’s VA is struggling to be angry 

Like one wrong move and the voice is shot

For what reason did we flashback to Mickey

Like, “His Majesty gave me permission, let’s fucking go!” 

They really want me to make moves while I am literally the deadest weight but okay

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What the fuck, Epel

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This mfker said

“Your friends truly are your power.”

:) 

Ignorance is bliss

We fuckin hungry dawg

Shout out to reusing Camp Vargas Assets 

Time to learn about Rook’s UM

NEXT TIME ON DRAGON BALL Z KAI

Planning a Route | A Helpful Presentation | Overblot Explanation 

For what reason did we have to do that little animation

Girl that coulda been an email

What Disney thing is this villa transporter thing from

Wait wait wait wait

HE’S GOT TO BE RICH

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Back to the boys

Vil is not please with the attire

Oh girl no

We are not about to go through each of them

Oh Honey is pissed

Oh girl a video

I’m already not paying attention

I had to kinda pay attention because I couldn’t pause it :( 

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You know good and well woulda taken that seriously

Especially with what Leona said 

The bigass Not Heartless

So…Grim could actually be a fucking Phantom…

Alright

YOU KNOW

HIM EATTING THE FUCKING BLOT STONES MAKES A LOT TO SENSE

SO THAT BRINGS ME BACK TO THE WHOLE

WHO’S FUCKING RIBBON IS THAT ACTUALLY 

They really said

“Here you go, Alie! Some info to use for your Grimsonas!”

WAIT

WAIT 

WAIT

BROOOOOO

 

WHAT IF GRIM WAS YUU’S PHANTOM 

AND THE REASON WHY YUU HAS NO MAGIC IS BECAUSE GRIM “ATE” IT ALL

AND THAT’S WHY HE WOKE UP ALONE WITH THAT RIBBON

BECAUSE THAT WAS YUU’S

AND THAT’S WHY HE WANTED TO GO TO NRC

BECAUSE THAT’S WHERE YUU WAS 

So who the fuck is the snitch…

Is it fucking Crowley

Is he the fucking snitch

Contract Negotiation | VR Simulation | Virtual Aggression | Analysis Session

Oh lawd here comes Azul

Oh lawd here comes his specialty 

Reading contracts

I mean Leona I feel like you could scrap no magic, but that armored guard is in the room

And Ortho

Who will fucking kill you

Leona ain’t reading shit

I feel like Jamil is skimming

Because there are three people at the table who will read the whole thing top to bottom and say something if it needs to be said

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…

At the end of Black History Month…

Separate the whites from the colors…

This is a joke. 

…

Is this not just COM

I just barely won that wtf

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What the hell

Vil what the fuck

How did y’all bitches just forget that y’all are in a simulation

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So Riddle’s a glass house

Whew Azul is not suited for Mage role

Kinda more so what they have Tidus run in the beginning on regular sphere grid (Using this as an example because I’m currently playing through FFXHD)

Hmmmm Vil’s is interesting 

Mutual Concern | An Expected Turn | Data to Discern

I wonder how Leona and Jamil’s results are gonna look like

WHEW IF I DIDN’T KILL ORTHO ON THAT TURN I WOULDA BEEN DEAD MESELF

SKKSKSSKSK

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AND THAT’S WHY LEONA SAID NOTHING AND JAMIL APOLOGIZED 

Hold on, I must remind myself who is Honey

ALHAITHAM?? (ion even have my dub on JP lol)

IRA KINGDOM HEARTS????

CYRUS ALBRIGHT???

BARBIE IN THE PINK SHOES????

I GOTTA GOOOOOOOOOOO

God you really gotta be making the correct choices on this

Not even a match up is enough, you gotta be getting weaknesses

…Oops let’s run that one again

There we go

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Okay time for the results!

Listen

Jamil is Kalim’s retainer 

Enough said there

That’s my Honey!

That’s Jamil for you!

Like tbh Idia

Yeah if this game was an RPG, I’d fucking play it

Hello?

River of what?

HELLO???

I’m sorry— what in the Naminé Kingdom Hearts did you just say to me?

All Alone | Waters Unknown | Attack in the Base | A Mysterious Case

I’m coming for you lil bro!

IT’S OKAY YOU DIDN’T KNOW BABY BOY

YES YOU ARE 

I’M COMING TO GET YOU

I’m deadass about to start crying

GRIM

STOP

IF YOU CRY, I CRY 

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Who the fuck are your siblings

Also if the clan is really all that big

My Rook, Trey, Sebek cousin’s crack theory may be onto something lol

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WHAT THE FUCK WHY ARE THERE 5 OF THEM

Oh wait there’s five of me

Nevermind

I wonder…

Oh okay

I thought they would count it as a loss if I won the battle

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Now y’all know good and well I woulda went down like

“They fucken got me”

…GIRL WHY IS THE OCEAN SCREAMING

GOT MY ASS

GIRL 

IM BOUT TO GO SEE MICHEAL

AT A TIME LIKE THIS???

Oh girl I’m seeing Meg

Olympus but underwater 

Cool

A Mind Boggling Story |  Uncharted Territory | A Sense of Satisfaction 

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

“Me and the boys looking for classmates”

NO IDIA WE’RE LOOKING FOR 

BEANS

We truly are on some goofy games here

I just wanna see Grim

Okay don’t knock on the power of friendship Idia 

That’s how Sora fucked up Xigbar

Or should I call him by his actual name

Oh?

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WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT

I WANT ONE NOW

Ah

So the Island of Woe and Kingdom of Heroes are connected

…

Tied to the darkness

Hello?

There are what?

HELLO?????

Y’ALL BITCHES ARE JUST DROPPING IT HERE

Rook was ready to commit kill

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Rook really like 

“I wasn’t being a good enough stan. I need to be more toxic!”

Is Kingdom Hearts on the game list?

DON’T BULLY HIM

YOU KNOW

WHAT IF

WHAT IF CROWLEY WAS CALLING GRIM OUR FAMILIAR FROM THE START

BECAUSE HE ACTUALLY WAS OUR FAMILIAR

ONCE UPON A TIME

ONCE UPON A DREAM MAYHAPS

A State of Inaction | Extra Demands | Impromptu Plans

HUH

A THOUSAND YEARS YOU SAY

AS IF

I DON’T KNOW 

A MFKER WHO COULD PUT PEOPLE TO SLEEP FOR A THOUSAND YEARS COULD CAST IT

HUH

It’s probably a Blessing then…

Huh so the Titans were the OG titans

Sidenote: Crazy how this and KH is like 

“OLYMPUS IS VERY IMPORTANT” 

Mfker didn’t even show up in DDD but you best believe the ost did

One song, one scene

…oh

That’s why Idia is like this

…

What happened to Ortho when you left…

Don’t worry, Idia.

People die and Yuna dances.

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Oh god here they go

He looks so fucking tired

What’s Elysium?

Oop

Who dat?

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THAT’S JUST FUCKING CUBES

ITS JUST KINGDOM HEARTS

God if you’re not already a fan of Kingdom Hearts, you really should get on that

10,000?????

…

So some of them have been in containment for over 1,000 years but haven’t faded at all, huh?

This mfker is already asleep

Its fine if the baby suggests it

Anyway! I’m all caught!

I’ll see you all at the end of March!

CUZ AS I WAS DOING THIS THEY FUCKING DROPPED THE MARCH LIST

FUCKING LEONA TSUM TSUM BEFORE FAIRY GALA LEONA 

IM GONNA DIE

AND THEN BOOK 6 AT THE END OF MARCH

I STILL HAVE TO DEAL WITH GENSHIN 3.5 WHICH UPDATED TODAY

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[kyonkyonswife]

three - let's play rich man poor man!

'let's play rich man poor man!'

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'The Culture Festival is coming up next month, and things are suddenly getting busy at school.'

"It's official," Yuki announces while writing something on the whiteboard. "Our class has voted to operate a rice ball stand. Next, I'd like to hear opinions on what fillings we should use."

Tohru raises her hand and stands up. "Yes! How about tricolor rice balls? It would be fun to have three fillings in one rice ball! And a good deal!." She explains while smiling.

"That's cute. I like it."

"Seriously? We should drop that idea, Yuki-kun!"

"Yeah, what if she suggests a tuna, kelp, and pickled plum combo?"

"Ugh, how gross!"

I was about to stand up and fight this bitches for hating on Tohru's idea but Uotani beat me to it. She had brought a steel pipe to school and had slammed it on those girl's desks which scared the shit out of them.

"The 'gross' things here are your personalities, morons."

"Yeah, I agree with Uo-chan, all you stupid bitches care about is trying to get Yuki's attention." I sarcastically said while rolling my eyes.

The girls were too scared to even hear my words but it was alright since Uo-chan was handling the situation.

"Don't bring steel pipes to school!" One of the girls said scared.

Out of nowhere, Kyo interrupted the convo which is I'll have to thank him for that later.

"How about battle rice balls?" Kyo asked while crossing his arms.

"Battle?"

"One-on-one matches, first to score an ippon wins. The only rule is 'no killing.'" Kyo said with a determined look before standing up to continue expressing his idea. "Weapons are allowed. People fight for their rice balls, even if they bleed, even if they lose an arm!"

"Idea rejected." Everyone said which made Kyo yell. "What's with that attitude?! I'm cooperating and giving my idea!"

I was trying to hold in my laughter because of Kyo. His idea may be weird as fuck but at least he's cooperating.

"What if we mix in some duds?" Yuki questioned. "Maybe people who buy three could choose one more for free, but some of the choices are duds?"

"Idea accepted!"

'Damn these girls and guys have no chill when it comes to Yuki.'

"Why'd you accept his idea?!" Kyo yelled.

"Yours was too weird, Kyon-Kyon."

"Don't pout about it, Kyon-Kyon."

"Don't call me 'Kyon-Kyon'!"

The minute Kyo said that I knew I was going to start using that nickname for him now just to tease him.

"Don't be mad, Kyon-Kyon."

"Yeah, Kyon-Kyon don't get mad at them." I turn around to face Kyo to tease him.

"Look, cats!"

"What the heck?"

Out of nowhere a bunch of cats latched onto an irritated Kyo or should I say Kyon-Kyon. Many questions were being thrown from left to right for Kyo.

"When'd they get here?"

"Where'd they come from?"

"How cute!"

Kyo stood up which caused the cats to fall but I'm pretty sure the cats are fine since they always land on their feet. Anyways Kyo kicked the classroom door open and ran out of the class with cats still attached to him.

"Forget this!" Kyo yelled while running out of the classroom as everyone stared at him.

"Wait, Kyon-Kyon! What's with those cats?"

"Very odd," Hana-chan said while standing up.

"Don't worry, you're way ahead of him in oddness," Uo-chan said to Hana-chan. "He's hot-tempered, though, huh? The polar opposite of our prince."

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At the rooftop of the school

I climbed up the ladder to find Kyo laying down with cats surrounding him still.

"There you are."

Kyo seemed to not notice my presence which is why he jumped when I spoke up.

"You really like high places, don't you, Kyon-Kyon," I said with a smirk while still climbing the ladder.

"Don't call me that." He scoffed.

"Meow."

"Oh, hello, kitty," I respond to the kitty as I pick up the gray cat while finally sitting down after climbing the ladder. "So cute. Cats love you, don't they."

"Whatever. They just show up around me." Kyo explains as the cats continued to meow around us. "It happens to all of us with our animals."

"Woah, that must be fun!"

"Like hell it is!" Kyo exclaimed. "Do you want something, or what?"

"Tohru was worried about you but insisted that I should go check up on you, which is I'm glad that I did," I explained while hugging the cat. "Anyway aren't you going to join us on the Culture Festival project?"

Kyo turned away, "You don't need me. Everything'll go find as long as Yuki's there." I looked at him in surprise. "He's always been smart, good at organizing stuff, and good with people."

"Everybody naturally respects his talents and trusts him." He continues to explain. "I'm the one who started martial arts first and now he's better at it than me."

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Flashback

"I knew it. Rat children are always special."

"Yes. Too bad the same can't be said of Cat children."

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End of flashback

"It pisses me off. Not like I have a choice. If I could be like him... I would."

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Timeskip

"Let's play rich man-poor man!" Tohru says while holding the cards.

"Go to freakin' Yuki for that," Kyo says.

"But Sohma-kun isn't here."

"Way to spoil my fun." Uotani expresses. "You seem so dumb and unorganized, I figured you'd make an easy mark." Kyo seemed to get more and more pissed off as Uo-chan kept on talking. "A real man never runs away from a fight, you know. Pathetic!"

Those words finally got to Kyo which caused him and Uo-chan to argue. "Fine, you're on! Try not to cry when you lose, Gangster Girl!"

"The loser's gotta do everyone's cleaning duty!"

"Ah, what a pleasant maelstrom of waves," Hana-chan said while closing her eyes.

'I wonder where Sohma-kun went...'

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In the library

Yuki's pov

"I'm sorry," I said to the girl in front of me. "I'm just not interested in dating anyone right now. So I can't be what you—"

"No, I don't want to hear this! Yuki-kun!" The girl says before lunging at me for a hug.

Before she could even hug me I stopped her by putting both of my hands on the side of her face.

"Er, I'm... um..."

"You're nice, Yuki-kun, but you're closed off to other people, aren't you?"

I looked at her in shock as I removed my hands from her face.

"Everyone says it! 'Yuki-kun is special!' 'A normal girl isn't good enough for him!'"

The girl ran away from me after saying that.

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In the classroom

"Revolution!" Kyo says as he places down 4 cards.

"You underhanded jerk!" Uotani yells.

"It's allowed in the damn rules!" Kyo yells back.

"Hmm, Revolution turns strong cards weak, so..."

Hana-chan speaks up, "Secret technique: Revolution Reversal."

"HEY!"

"She got you, carrots."

Outside of the classroom door, Yuki had just come back from the library only to see Kyo and us having fun playing rich man-poor man.

"Nice work, Hanajima-san."

"Looking lame there, Kyon-Kyon."

"Shut up! We're just getting started!" Yelled Kyo.

Yuki kept on staring at us through the door but none of us realized it.

'You're closed off to other people, aren't you?'

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After school

"Rich man-poor man, eh?" Said, Yuki. "I know the rules, but I've never played it."

"I only learned it from Uo-chan just recently," I said. "You should join us next time, Tohru was looking for you after all."

"So he ended up the poor man, I see," Yuki said as we both look at Kyo who was mopping the floor.

Tohru had already left school due to work so it was just me, Kyo, and Yuki.

"Uh, I feel bad please let me help you Kyo."

"No. A loss is a loss." Kyo says. "But I'm going to win next time, got it?!" Yells Kyo. "I'll beat you, too!" Kyo says while pointing at Yuki.

"Don't you ever get sick of saying that?"

"Winning against you is my mission! My goal!"

"Having to deal with that is my annoyance. My misfortune."

"That condescending attitude of yours pisses me off!"

"That simplistic thinking of yours pisses me off."

"I'm going to make that ugly face of yours cry 'uncle' one day!"

'Ugh, they're fighting again. I don't think the fact that they're rat and cat is enough to explain why their relationship is this bad.'

"Hey! Aren't you embarrassed to just come out and say that?!"

'Come to think of it... Did Kyo-kun mean that if he can beat Sohma-kun, he'll be included in the zodiacs? Which would mean...' I started to wonder. 'The cat and the twelve would become the thirteen?!' I thought with a smile on my face. 'That would be wonderful!'

"I'll beat you into the ground!"

"Get ready, you cold-blooded rat!"

'You know what I ain't even gonna stop him again since school's over.'

Kyo tried to punch Yuki but ended up getting kicked in the face.

"Watching you make my blood boil." Yuki expresses as he walks out of the classroom.

"Sohma-kun.."

"Dammit. Why can't I win?"

"Are you all right? You didn't bite your tongue or anything, did you?" I asked with a worried look on my face.

"I'm not an amateur!" Yelled Kyo. "Just forget me and get out of here!"

I went into a state of shock? Let's just say that it was that same feeling as before whenever he does this.

"No, I mean... umm..." Kyo says. "It's just uncool how I keep losing, you know?"

"Huh?"

"Never mind! Just go home. You've got work today, right?" Kyo tells me while standing back up to finish cleaning up. "His moves were a lot rougher than usual. Maybe he's in a bad mood..."

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At work

"Goodnight."

Lost in my thoughts I walked through the hallway, 'Sohma-kun is so considerate of other people, but maybe that makes him bottle up all his feelings inside. And so...'

Since I was so lost in my thoughts I missed a step which caused me to fall down the stairs.

"Ouch!"

'It's dangerous to think while you walk.'

Out of nowhere, I hear a giggle in front of me. I see that it's a young boy with blond hair and sunglasses-wearing a very interesting hat.

"Good evening," I say to the boy.

'Who is this? They're in the building so late at night...'

The boy looked down at my bag since I forgot to close my bag which caused all my notebooks to fall out.

"Y/n?"

"Huh?!"

"Y/n Honda?" Questioned the boy.

"Y-yes, that's me..."

After I answered the boy out of nowhere he just started speaking a foreign language that I did not understand one bit.

"I-I'm sorry! I don't speak English!" I waved frantically in front of my face.

After I said that the boy kissed me on the cheek which caused me to blush, hard.

"Um, I, um—! Good night!"

I quickly grabbed my bag and ran out of the building as fast as I could. Since I ran out a flyer of the school culture festival flew out of my bag and onto the floor where the boy was.

Once I was finally out of the building, I took a few deep breaths.

"Honda-san? What's got you so flustered?" Questioned Yuki.

"I told you already to call me Y/n, anyways there was a strange for—"

"For?"

"Sohma-kun?"

"Hi. I hope work went well."

"Did you come here to walk me home?"

"Yep. It's dangerous for girls to be out this late."

"Thank you very much! You and Kyo-kun are both so kind to Tohru and I."

Yuki looked away, "Well, shall we?"

"S-Sohma-kun!" I called out as I ran towards him.

"Um... If you happen to have any pent-up worries or anything, please tell me! Like they say, telling someone your bad dreams brings good luck, so... If you're comfortable with me, I don't mind you hitting me with all the wor—"

"Stop flirting and go home, youngsters!" A drunken said as he walked into me which caused me to fall into Yuki's chest.

"I meant that, but I may be adding to your worries."

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On the bridge

"Back when I lived at home, it felt like I was in a cage, with the main family and Akito always watching," Yuki told me as we walked across the bridge.

"I longed for a normal life surrounded by normal people." Yuki continued to explain. "That's why I applied to a coed high school and left home. But I haven't really managed to leave the cage."

"I'm still living in a Sohma house, and I can't interact well with normal people. I think I'm subconsciously keeping my distance so people won't get too personal with me. But Kyo isn't like that. His stranger anxiety is intense at first, but he's the type who attracts people to him once he gets used to them and relaxes. Always has been."

Yuki stopped walking which made me also stop. "Even if he can't be one of the twelve, he can interact naturally with normal people. That's better if you ask me." Yuki expressed as he looked at his hands. "I wish I could be like that, too. That's why he gets on my nerves. When I see Kyo wanting to join the same Sohmas I want to get away from, all I can think is, 'what's wrong with me?'"

"Sohma-kun, you have the power to draw people in, too," I tell him as I kneel to talk to him. "Lots of girls say they like you, and that you're a kind person."

"I'm only being kind because I want them to like me," Yuki says before walking again. "It's the same as one kid giving the others candy because he wants to play with them. I'm only nice for my benefit." Yuki stops walking before continuing what he was going to say.

"Maybe I'm a phony," Yuki says as he looks up at the night sky.

'So Kyo-kun is jealous of Sohma-kun, and Sohma-kun is jealous of Kyo-kun, and that's why they resent each other. But from my point of view, they're each so great in their own way... so why?"

"Sohma-kun..." As I was about to finish my sentence lightning interrupted me which scared the shit out of me. The rain started pouring heavily once the lightning struck.

Yuki had transformed the minute it started raining which caused me to turn around in embarrassment.

"This isn't good."

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At Shigure's house

"This sudden typhoon means strong winds through tomorrow morning."

Yuki and I finally arrived home. We both grabbed towels to wipe off the rain that was in our hairs. He opened the door to the dining area which revealed Shigure sitting there watching tv.

"Shigure, is there a weather report on?" Questioned Yuki.

"I'm watching it now. They're saying it's a sudden typhoon."

"A typhoon. Oh shit, Tohru's still at work."

"Well, this typhoon isn't going to go away any time soon," Shigure said while taking a sip of whatever he was drinking.

"Yeah, she'll probably go to Uo-chan's place since it's nearby her work."

Yuki walked to the other side of the room to check out the weather.

"Whoa, you're soaking wet!" Shigure exclaimed.

Yuki walked out of the house holding something. Me being curious, I decided to follow him.

"Sohma-kun!" I called out to Yuki.

"Y/n-san, it's dangerous out here!" Yuki says while turning his head to face me.

I was walking down the path with my hands in front of me to balance myself.

"This is nothing!" I said with a smile. "During the last typhoon, I spent the whole night outside my ten holding—" As I was about to slip, Yuki grabbed onto my wrist which prevented me from falling.

"Are you okay?"

"I'm sorry." I apologized while his hand was still on my wrist. "But Sohma-kun, is there something wrong?"

"Come with me." Says Yuki as he leads me somewhere.

"Where are we going?" I asked as we continued to walk until we reached his garden. "It's a farm."

"More like a vegetable garden."

"Did you plant it?"

"Mm-hmm. This is my secret base."

"You're protecting your base from the typhoon! That's magnificent! I wish Tohru were here though, she would have loved to see your garden." I said with a smile.

"Allow me to do my humble best to help!" I say as we both grab the cover and cover up the vegetables.

"You're a kind person."

"W-What?! Oh my gosh!" I said shocked as I let go of the cover. "Nobody's ever said that to me before!" The cover was about to fly off but luckily I quickly grabbed onto it.

With one hand on to cover while waving the other one I continued to talk, "Oh, but actually, maybe it's a phony kindness to make me seem like a good person!"

"No, in your case it's innate."

"But my mother once told me to believe instead of doubt," I told him while still holding down the cover. "She said people aren't born with kindness. All we have when we're born are desires, like for food and things. Survival instincts, basically."

"She said kindness is our hearts growing inside us, just like our bodies grow." I continued to explain. "And that's why different people's kindnesses take different forms."

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Flashback

"It's easy to understand desire because everyone has it from birth." Mom said to Tohru and me. "But each person's kindness is pretty much handmade by them, so it's easy for others to misunderstand it, or assume that it's phony. But Y/n and Tohru..."

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End of flashback

"It was exciting to think that there were all different shapes of kindness, like round ones, or pointy ones," I said. "Sohma-kun, your kindness is like a candle. It lights up. When it does, it brings a happy smile to my face and Tohru's, mainly Tohru's. That's what it's like." I say with a smile. "Wait, was a candle a weird analogy?"

"N-No... Actually, I'm kind of ashamed." Yuki explains. "Boys shouldn't complain like that."

"I'm happy you did. Because I feel like the more you tell me about yourself, the better friends we can become." I expressed. "That was rude of me to say..."

"No, not at all."

Suddenly the cover starts to fly again which made Yuki run beside me to help hold down the cover.

"I'm sorry. I'll continue my mission to protect the base!"

'But Y/n... I want you to believe in people.'

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Flashback

"Doubting is easy, Anybody can do it." Mom told me and Tohru as she kneeled to our height. "You can be the kind of girls who can believe in people. I just know..."

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End of flashback

'...That will help someone.'

Many hours have passed by now and the typhoon was finally over. Yuki and I stood near the crops as he held the folded cover in his arms.

"We defended it to the end!" I happily said.

"We took a beating doing it, though." Said, Yuki.

"Is anything ready to harvest now?" I asked Yuki.

"Well, the chives might be..."

"Chives! Chives, chives..."

"Y/n-san," Yuki calls out to me while kneeling to pick out the chives. "I'll try rich man-poor man next time."

"Sure! But were you not interested before?"

"It wasn't that. I just lost my nerve a little because everyone was so lively." Says Yuki as he stops picking the chives. "But I'll work on that." Yuki stood up before continuing what he was going to say.

"So that I can learn to interact with people, even if just little by little."

"Don't worry! Hana-chan and Uo-chan are incredibly good people!" I tell him. "I glad Tohru introduce me to them. I'm proud to call them my friends!"

"Plus, I know they'll love the chance to defeat a strong opponent!"

"Mm-hmm," Yuki says as he turns around to face me.

When Yuki turned around to face me while having the biggest smile on his face. The sun was shining behind him which made him look beautiful.

"I won't lose." Said, Yuki.

'I feel like that's the first time I've seen his true smile.'

Yuki then started to walk away but then faced me again before saying, "We'll have to take baths when we get home, or we'll catch colds."

'If the day comes when he can smile like that at school, he may get even more popular!'

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Back at Shigure's house

Kyo walks into the kitchen, "What's all this?!" he asked me. "Are you planning to start a rice ball business?"

"Oh, good morning," I say while still forming the onigiris. "I'm experimenting with them to get ready for the culture festival. You're up early, as always."

"No, this is a normal time." He says before standing beside me. "Were you at the farm with Yuki all night?"

"Ouch, that's hot. Anyways yeah, we defended the vegetables from the typhoon." I say to him still forming the onigiris. "I'm particularly proud of that one. What do you think?" I ask him as he picks up one of the onigiris to eat.

He takes a bite out of the onigiri before throwing it away and spitting out the rest of it. He quickly runs to the sink to grab a drink of water. I just stared at him in confusion.

Once he was finally done drinking the water he questions me, "What are these?!"

"Leek rice balls," I told him. "Did it taste bad?"

"I hate chives!" Yells Kyo. "What's wrong with salmon or octopus onigiris, anyways? Forget it, I'll make my own." Kyo says as he starts to make his onigiri.

"Kyo-kun, that's amazing!"

"Huh?"

"You're so good at shaping the rice!" I praised him. "That's great! And unexpected!"

"I made my food while I was training. But making something isn't the same as making it taste good."

"Really? I think that someone working hard at rice ball training would be very jealous of how good you are at it."

"Nobody does training like that!" Kyo says as he finally finishes making his onigiri. He walks to the dining area and turns on the tv before sitting down. "Where do your ideas even come from?"

'But that doesn't change the fact that it's great... Why doesn't he realize it?'

"Maybe it's on your back."

"Huh?" Kyo says as he turns his head to face me.

"If a person is a rice ball and what's great about the person is a pickled plum, then maybe your plum is on your back!" I tell him. "Maybe everyone in the world has plums on their backs of all different shapes, colors, and sizes. But since they can't see their backs, they can't see the plums they have."

"They think they don't have anything— that they're just plain white rice. Even though it's not true at all— even though they do have a plum there." I explain. "Maybe the reason we get jealous of others is that other people's backs are easy to see.

"I can see it. It's plain as day, Kyo-kun. You have a plum right there on your back." I tell him as I walk towards him and sit behind him while he was still facing me. "Sohma-kun is great. And you're great, Kyo-kun."

"Seriously, where do your ideas come from?!" He exclaims before turning away from me in embarrassment. "And why plums?! Use something better for your analogy!"

"I'm sorry! Should I have used salmon instead?!"

We hear the front door open which meant that Tohru was finally home. "I'm home!"

"Welcome back Tohru, I hope you were alright yesterday," I say before getting up to turn off the stove as the kettle started making noise.

"I'm going to head upstairs for a bit. If you need anything I'll be in our room, y/n."

"Alright, if you get hungry there's onigiris down here."

"Hey," Kyo says as I turn to face him again. "You've got one on your back, too." He says before turning to face me. "A plum. I can see it."

"Really? You can?" I ask as I walk towards him.

"Only a little one, though. A really, really little one."

"Little ones are delicious!"

"Good morning," Yuki says as he walks into the kitchen.

"Sohma-kun! Good morning."

"Y/n-san, didn't you get to sleep at all?" Questioned Yuki.

"Nope! There were so many great things to think about plus I was worried about Tohru, I just felt too awake."

Yuki turned to see all the onigiris on the table, "What's all this?"

"Rice balls with chives," I say before continuing. "Kyo-kun says he doesn't like chives, though."

"They're not edible."

Yuki grabs an onigiri and stomps to Kyo. He grabs his nose and shoves an onigiri in Kyo's month which caused Kyo to make a disgusted face. "Eat."

'Is their bad relationship just a lost cause? But if they could each understand the other's good points, maybe they could get along..."

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In Y/n's mind

Yuki and Kyo grabbed onto each other's hands.

"I guess I didn't understand you. Sorry about that." Yuki genuinely said to Kyo.

Kyo with a winking face said, "Right back at cha. Sorry."

Yuki and Kyo suddenly got close to each other and held both of their hands together.

"Let's cherish our friendship for the rest of our lives!" The duo said together. "Yeah!"

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'Somehow that's a scary thought.'

Some ringed the doorbell which interrupted my thoughts. I quickly ran to the door and opened it.

"Yes, hello!" I say as I look around to see if anyone was there.

"Excuse me..." A voice from near the tree said.

"Yes?"

"Excuse me..." A girl appeared from behind the tree. "Is it true..." The girl looked up. "...That Kyo-kun is here?"

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“Losty Aone” / “Losty Mountain Man🏔” Series:

Outtake Collection #7:

TALKING STAGE OUTTAKES (Right Before Series’ Part 1)

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A/N: sooooooo. Prepare for the feels in this collection. Tumblr said it was too long because I have too many paragraphs—bye🙄 so this will be 7 and next will be 7.5. Please keep in mind they are apart of the same collection as they work well together. I strongly recommend to listen to “Always Be My Baby” By Mariah Carey for the entire read, but if repetition annoys you then just do it for the last outtake in 7.5 which is the confession. It tied for the most fluff votes. If anyone is up and reading this hopefully the next part will be up by the time you finish.

This outtake starts off funny and fluffy but ends angsty, serious and I dont wanna spoil. Fluffville Af, but maybe a bit of a rollercoaster. I poured a lot of heart into this collection, though, so I hope you enjoy it:

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One Day After You Noticed Aone and This Baby Doesn’t Know How ACT ☀️💋

“Hello?”

Futakuchi answered his cell phone grumpily as he half-slept.

“Futakuchi. It is Aone.”

Kenji rolled onto his back, wiping his fallen bangs out of his face. “I know. You’re the only person who calls me at 4am. Did you have another wet dream about Y/N?”

“No.” Mountain man answered hurriedly, but then he faltered. “Well, um, actually—yes—and Y/N looked phenomenal...—But that’s not the reason I’m calling this time.”

Futakuchi yawned. “You know, I miss the days back in elementary school when you’d call me because you had a bad dream ... hah....remember Monster Twoosie that lived in your closet?”

Sitting up on his bed, Aone whipped his head to the right to look at his closet. Getting up to close the closet door, he scolded his friend.

“We don’t speak of him, Futakuchi-san.”

Kenji let out a tired laugh. “What is this about then? I thought you’d sleep like a baby knowing that Y/N has finally noticed you.”

Aone returned to his bed, covering his legs under his camouflage blanket. “I’m extremely happy. I can’t stop thinking about her approaching my desk and smiling at me throughout lunch and her taking my phone to put her number in it. It’s not a daydream anymore and it’s just.......” he raked his brain for the word.

“A lot?”

Aone was happy he didn’t need to speak in full sentences to a best friend who could practically read his mind.

“A lot for me, yes, thank you Kenji-san. Usually, when two people are starting to get to know eachother, there is interest on both ends and they just work their way up from there.”

“But there is attraction on both ends for you and Y/N.”

“No. I already know she is the girl for me, and Y/N just figured out who I was yesterday. We are in a very unconventional position.”

“Yes but she’s also the most lost individual—aside from you—that I have ever met, so, what’s your point?”

“How do I get her to like me back?”

“Aone, just be yourself. A lot of girls already like you.”

“I don’t care about the other girls, I care about Y/N. I’ve been myself the past 2 years and she has never even noticed me, so clearly that does not work.”

“Y/N hasn’t noticed anyone, Aone-san.... ask her to name all her teachers I bet she can’t”

“She noticed the outfielder on the baseball team....”

“Right—she noticed that he was a tool. And I won’t let you conveniently forget that he approached her—which you refused to do for two years.”

“That is.............................a fair analysis.”

“Anyway, like I said, just be yourself. If Y/N doesn’t like you then she doesn’t deserve you anyway. Serves her right for being a bimbo the past two years....”

“Kenji-san....” Aone warned in a frightening voice. He hated when anyone had anything bad to say about his crush.

Kenji just laughed through his fatigue because he knew that warning was coming.

“I digress. Now as far as being yourself goes, for starters......how was your texting convo tonight?”

Mountain man was confused.

“Texting.......conversation?”

Kenji’s tired eyes flew open, stunned.

“Y/N gave you her number. She put it in your phone. That’s what you said.”

Aone grunted in agreement.

“So you didn’t text her?!”

“I didn’t know I was supposed to.”

“Holy fuck Aone I’m seriously gonna—“

“There.” Mountain man interrupted his friend.

HUH?! Kenji now felt like he’d just seen Monster Twoosie, because his entire body paled. He spoke slowly as to not lose it:

“Aone.....What do you mean by...............................................there?”

“I just texted Y/N.”

“AT 4 O’CLOCK IN THE MORNING ?!?!?!?!”

Kenji yelled so loudly his parents screamed at him to go to sleep before they take away his tv. He quickly quieted down.

“What did you text her?!”

Aone paused, retrieving the message. He read it aloud: “Good morning, Y/N.”

Futakuchi groaned loudly, gripping his bangs on top of his head.

“I am gathering that I should not have done that?”

Kenji groaned again in response. “No, but I did tell you to be yourself. We’ll see how Y/N feels about you being yourself.”

🏫 AT SCHOOL 🏫

“Aone!”

Mountain man was collecting books from his locker, Kenji next to him leaning on the next locker, when he heard his name being called by his favourite voice ever. The middle blocker looked over in the direction of the voice and gulped.

Kenji nudged him. “Be yourself.” He whispered before you approached.

Aone couldn’t get used to you actually noticing him. He fantasized about it so much when you’d call your cheer friends name, that it just seemed so surreal now that you were actually calling him. On top of that, you looked so beautiful today. (You may have tried a bit more this morning for him) in your school uniform, light but perfect makeup, and a bright smile.

When Aone heard your voice call his name he had to fight back a deep blush because it brought him back to his dream last night where you were calling his name like that—only it was much more breathy and the two of you were in much more.....intimate circumstances.

“Hi, Y/N.” the blonde managed to say as he looked down at you. “You look beautiful today.”

Beside him, Kenji cringed and looked away. He couldn’t imagine being such a simp.

“Aw, thanks!” You beamed. “I just wanted to say thank you so much for that sweet good morning text. When I woke up to it, it completely brightened my day!”

Hidden behind the locker, Kenji’s jaw dropped.

Aone’s heart tightened at your words. “You’re welcome.”

You smiled. “Would you like to have lunch together again today? My treat this time.”

You had no idea how much you made this man’s life by saying these things.

Aone nodded, blushing and unable to speak.

“Great. Can you come down here for a second?” You bent your index finger at him as to say come hither and this big blushy baby bent down to your level, confused.

With him now in reach you leaned in to press your soft lips on his cheek. “I forgot to do it yesterday, but that’s for defending me against that snitch Tsume. See you at lunch!” You skipped away to your next class happily.

Mountain man, on the other hand, was just completely out of commission.

Kenji’s eyes were very wide seeing the whole thing happen and he moved to the same side Y/N was just on. Grabbing his friends shoulder he pulled him up because he looked weird still frozen bending over to meet your height when you were gone.

“I guess Y/N likes you for who you are, Aone-san.”

Aone just stared in the direction you disappeared in. Your platonic peck on the cheek made him feel like he was floating.

“Let’s go, we have study hall.” Kenji patted his friend’s shoulder.

Aone called for him to stop, so Futakuchi turned back around.

“What’s wrong? What is it?”

“I don’t think my legs work anymore, Kenji-san.”

hahahahaha poor baby

Needless to say Kenji san was not impressed to have to wait at his best friend’s locker with him for 5 whole minutes until the shock of you kissing him wore off

You really affected the white-haired bb even when you ignored him so Kenji wasn’t that surprised that this would happen

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Weeks Into The Talking Stage - The Date Tech Boys Attend Katana’s Big House Party! 🥤🎉

“I swear to God if Katana doesn’t leave me alone tonight.......... You owe me, Aone-san.” States Futakuchi grumpily as him, Aone, and Kogenagawa shuffled out of their Uber. They stood in front of Katana’s huge cottage: lit up brightly with glow strobes and pictures of her taped up on the logs like a billboard in downtown Los Angeles.

“I appreciate you two for coming, sincerely. You are good friends.” Aone bowed to them.

Kanji bounced on the balls of his feet, the complete opposite visual of the crabby Justin Bieber look-alike.

“Oh no problem!!! I would have never been invited to a cheerleader’s party if you two weren’t my friends! Y/N inviting you to this is MASSIVE, Aone-senpai! I’m soooo happy I can experience this—hey! I think I see that hot cop cheerleader from before. Maybe she wants to thank me for my donations—!” The big boned setter started walking toward the party but Kenji gripped the back of his shirt, reeling him back in.

Kenji glared at his underclassmen.

“Must I warn you every time?! Play. It. Cool. Don’t stare at the birthday girl’s chest and for the love of God please leave the cop girl alone or we will never bring you to another party again.”

Pouting, Kogenagawa agreed, grabbing a red solo cup from a tray that a waiter was walking around with.

Aone grabbed it out of his hand before he downed it, all while scanning the crowd for his beautiful crush.

“No drinking. You’re underage.” Aone commanded, pouring it out in front of him.

“Right.” Kenji nodded.

The giant setter’s pout deepened. He crossed his arms at Aone.

“Thanks Mom.”

He then stuck his tongue out and Kenji.

“And thanks Dad. What would I do without you two? Besides HAVE FUN, of course!?”

“It scares me to even think about it....” Kenji murmured back, ruffling his setter’s hair who started freaking out because he worked hard on it.

Just then, Takanobu gasped a bit because he finally spotted you in the outdoor crowd on the porch. You were dressed in a long sleeve skin tight bodycon dress that showcased all your curves. And the dress was short. (If you remember correctly from his wet dream This man loooves short skirts on you.):

(You May or May not have chosen something a bit on the sexy side to get the attention of the boy you were starting to enjoy the company of.... and who you invited to be your date tonight—)

The look of you alone made Aone lick his lips and shuffle because had the air outside gotten 10 degrees hotter, randomly?

“Dowwwwn boy.” Kenji murmured when he realized his friend had spotted his crush and was very excited. He had that same look when he saw Y/N in that genie costume, and it was one of unadulterated, innocent, unidentified, lust.

“Aone, you can’t stare at Y/N like that anymore. She notices you now.”

Aone tried his very best and he was able to peel his eyes away from you and back to his best friend. “I wish it were easy.” He stated with a frown. “Especially when she looks like that.”

You were over with a group of popular kids, a red solo cup in your hand filled with red bull, chatting and adding to Katana’s stories when out of the corner of your eye you spot a tall white haired beauty on the outskirts, probably just getting here: Your date. Your heart skipped a beat as you interrupted the boy who was speaking to the group.

“He came, he’s here!!” You gripped Katana on the arm.

“Ow, Y/N!” Katana ripped your hand off her. She fixed the tiara on her head. “Of course he’s here, no man is dumb enough to deny a date with you, Y/N.” She returned to her conversation dismissively.

Kusa walked up the porch steps to give you and Katana hugs. She looked so beautiful!

“Looks like your man Aone brought Kenji-san too.” Kusa said to the two cheerleaders.

Katana almost did a spit take with the contents in her solo cup. Quickly, she scanned the crowd, seeing her ex, she now gripped onto your arm and pulled you through the crowd.

Soon you were faced with your mountain man, who looked amazing dressed in a sexy dark green, might you add. You rubbed the arm that Katana had just been gripping as you stood in front of them.

“Are you alright, Y/N?” Aone asked, looking concerned as his eyes scanned your arm.

He is so flipping sweet!

You nod.

“I know that parties aren’t your thing so I wasn’t sure when I texted you an invitation. But.....you came,” you breathed a sigh of happy relief.

��You asked me to.” He responded, unaware of how romantic that sounded to you or anybody with ears.

He is so oblivious to how gorgeous he is, you thought.

Aone turned to look at your best friend briefly.

“Happy Birthday, Katana. This is from the three of us.” Aone handed Katana a card that had a hefty gift card inside of it to her favourite makeup store (Y/N’s idea after Aone sweetly asked what he should get her).

A/N: AONE IS HUMAN GOALS - DON’T @ ME.

“Kenji you got me a gift??? That is SO SWEET!”

Futakuchi rolled his eyes. “It’s from the three—“

“Come inside with me and I’ll open it!” Katana grabbed the volleyball captain’s hand and pulled him into the swarm of people, towards the house.

Aone almost felt bad bringing his friend to his clingy ex’s party because he needed him there—until he looked back down at you smiling up at him—after which he couldn’t feel anything else but happy even if he wanted to. You made him so unbelievably happy.

“Oh and Um, Y/N, I know this isn’t your birthday, but this is for you.” Aone handed you a card as well.

You hesitated, confused.

Blushing, Aone explained quickly, really hoping that his fight to get you this wasn’t going to make you think he was creepy. “I just thought that.... if we gifted Katana a Fenty Beauty gift card, she’d best enjoy shopping with you—her best friend. So I-I got you a gift card, t-too.” He finished sheepishly.

Bursting inside with butterflies, you gave your date a finger curl again, which he now knew meant to lean down so that you could kiss his cheek. This time you pressed your lips to his cheek a little longer than the last time, and although it was a sweet gesture, Aone felt the blood begin to rush down to his nether region.

You pulled away just in time.

“Thank you. That’s very kind of you, Aone.” You whispered in his ear.

Aone flushed, standing back up to his height hurriedly.

“My pleasure.” He replied shakily.

And was it ever. Because of Aone’s long brewed feelings for you, even your two simple kisses on his cheek kept him awake at night, sometimes recalling the way your soft and perfect lips felt as he showered in the mornings gripping his cock.

He was so happy to be given a chance it was like his increasing hormones and already strong romantic feelings were fighting for dominance now that you were physically interacting with him, albeit minimally.

For the past few weeks you two have been taking your budding friendship/romance incredibly slow, Aone too afraid to push further than you were willing to go, and for you: that just being the speed you take. You two spoke in class, had some lunches together, Aone offered to carry your books and walk you to cheer practice.... things like that. You were just getting to know eachother and you’d even let him take you out on a romantic dinner date last weekend. You always took it really slow with boys until you felt that they were important enough, which is why your ex-baseball player got frustrated with you last year. But that wasn’t Aone. He believes that he would gladly accept just this if that’s what you wanted, though he desperately wanted more. He wanted to call you his.

To you, everything was going extremely well and you were beginning to kind of start looking forward to seeing him in the halls at school as 3rd year rolled around. You may have an itsy bitsy crush on the volleyball player....but you didn’t know for sure. The most you two had ever done was kiss him on the cheek twice, which Aone was MORE THAN HAPPY with.

“You look so handsome, by the way, green is your colour.”

Aone looked away then, snapping out of his day dream about your kisses on his cheek but unable to relax when you complimented him. He couldn’t believe you were giving him all this attention. You were so perfect and someone as perfect as you didn’t choose guys like him.

Well, you hadn’t chosen him yet, Takanobu reminded himself sadly.

“Thank you, Y/N. And you look.....um.....w-well.........” His eyes fell to your mouth-watering curves in that dress. You could tell he very much liked your appearance.

You laughed, deciding to tease him.

“I look...’um?’ That bad, Aone-san? What? Tell me.” You poked his stomach, not dismissing the fact that his stomach was actually rock hard muscle.

Fuck.

Aone shook his head, trying to clear his thoughts and pretend he hasn’t been crushing on you forever so he could speak clearly.

“No, not bad. Quite the contrary.” His face softened as he looked back at your face. “I’m trying to tell you in the most respectful way that you look......that you look like the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen.”

On instinct, your face broke out into an ear splitting smile. Aone felt like he’d won the fucking lottery seeing you smile like that at him.

“Thank you, Takanobu! Care to enjoy the party with me?” You reached your hand out and the middle blocker just stared at it for a few seconds, still shook from your dazzling smile. Luckily, Kanji was still there so he pushed Aone inconspicuously from behind, allowing him to snap out of it and take your small hand in his large one.

Aone had to take a deep breath when you turned away to lead him into the crowd because the feeling of your hand in his made him feel utterly complete.

He was falling harder n faster than ever before.

And there were no brakes.

He just prayed you’d start falling, too, and soon.

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🌹 Episode 6 Recap 🌹

(Click below the cut for a full summary)

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Previously on... 𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓑𝓪𝓬𝓱𝓮𝓵𝓸𝓻

With only 7 contestants remaining the ladies along with Devonte moved into a tropical resort on the beautiful island of Sulani. After a group date, one-on-one, and a beach party it was time to say goodbye to one more lady leaving us with the Top 6. ~

Things really heated up as the ladies had a day to mingle with Devonte in their new abode. Romantic relationships holding more weight than friendships at this stage meant that each of the fan favorite votes counted for one direct romantic interaction. The votes played out with Johanna, Tuesday, and Rosabel receiving 2 and Haylee, Delphine, and Regan receiving 1. No love for Pearl as usual. Johanna first got some time alone with Devonte, both of them being very flirty and stealing quite a few kisses with each other (Devonte even sneaking an illegal rose to her). Regan was partaking in the hookah bar when Devonte went to speak with her, hopes of a first kiss still lingering on her mind. She still didn't get her kiss but at least the flirting went better than it has in the past between them. Afterwards he had a lightly flirty convo with Tuesday before sharing some sweet cuddles on the couch with Delphine. He spent some time conversing with Haylee, just throwing in some flirts before Rosabel swooped in and stole the attention away, even dragging Devonte upstairs to have sex on the balcony. Bold move. Even if Rosabel didn't seem too satisfied afterwards which resulted in Rosabel actually getting into an arguement with Devonte where she denounced his friendship. Lastly Devonte threw one more bone to Pearl, trying to start a light conversation that went nowhere as usual.

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Up next was a group date with only the 4 lowest scored this time - which ended up being Pearl, Haylee, Delphine, and Rosabel after their fight the night before. The five of them headed out to The Modern Pool to stay cool and continue building their connections. First of all he wanted to sort things out with Rosabel after their whirlwind last encounter where they bonded over some cloudgazing as they so often did. Next he went and joined Delphine and Haylee in the hot tub where they had a nice chat, the other girls soon joining. The producers curbed Haylee's efforts to WooHoo with Devonte before they at least took some time to themselves chatting in the hallway. Delphine stole away next and it was her who ended up getting the one on one time with him at the end. Being on their own now, Devonte and Delphine hung out in the hot tub for a bit before WooHooing in the sauna and rounding out the night with a friendly dance battle, Delphine receiving a rose of course before heading home.

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The next day was the one-on-one date that ended up going to Regan, who had a lot of one-on-one time from group dates thus far but never her own date until now. They went to the Sulani Diner for some beach fun and food. While conversing over drinks Regan started coming on very strong with the romantic interactions, yet again making things awkward between the two. They moved to building a sand castle together before sitting down to have drinks and ice cream and try to smooth out the conversation. Clearly that worked as they proceeded to have a lovely rest of their evening where Regan finally got her first kiss out on the dock before Devonte gave her a rose.

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It was time again for another party, this time a beach party out on the shores of Sulani. Everyone was having a great time partaking in various beach activities. Devonte tried some conversing with Pearl, even trying to flirt with her before the conversation eventually petered out and Pearl ran to the water. A few of the other girls like Delphine and Johanna noticed the flirting though and were feeling a bit jealous. He spent some time with Tuesday and Haylee each before pulling Rosabel aside. Their hot and cold relationship of the week continued where their romantic interactions towards each other did not seem to be clicking like normal. Even so, Devonte realized the conversation with Rosabel still flowed the most naturally out of all the ones he had that night which resulted in her receiving the last pre-ceremony rose once again. Rosabel even confessed to Devonte that she loved him, with the first L word drop of the season, shocking everyone - Devonte most, who wasn't quite sure how he felt about such a strong admission so soon.

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Thus the rose ceremony was upon us. Delphine, Regan, and Rosabel all went into it knowing they were safe, leaving 4 ladies' lives still in the balance. The first rose went to Haylee it turns out, her bond continuing to grow fairly strong throughout the week. Up next was Tuesday who had slowly been building a romantic connection and rising in the ranks. Seeing Devonte act somewhat flirty towards Tuesday struck some jealousy with Haylee and Regan along with Delphine and Rosabel this time. It seems a lot of the ladies were realizing just how much they cared for Devonte, and the jealousy was getting more and more rampant. That left Pearl and Johanna in the bottom two. No one was very shocked about Pearl, she had been comfortably sitting near the bottom since the start and had not been showing much effort nor succeeding when she did at any point this week. Johanna however was always a front runner but found her self close to elimination, a shock to everyone but understandable since she seemed to keep pulling away from him whenever noticing that he was into some of the other girls as well, something she would have to learn to cope with better if she wished to stay. Johanna did receive the final rose in the end, the connection still present but hopefully a wake up call to Johanna that she would need to work harder and be stronger if she wanted to win. Finally it was time for Pearl to leave the competition. After countless close calls, our remaining mermaid finally flopped and got cast out to sea, deservedly so after not even thriving on her home turf. Devonte wished her well as she left with a friendship, but nothing close to the romantic connections that were being formed with all of the remaining ladies.

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Now we are left with our Top 6 women!

Eliminated Episode 6:

🥀 Pearl

[ts-akhmim]

Rites of Passage

TJ: Bodhi – I don’t know that much about you, but I’ve heard you are a crackhead, so I guess I’m ok having saved the experience of playing TS with you for a different time. It would have made the original tribes a lot more interesting to say the least, lol.

AMIR: I am so angerry we didn’t get to play together!!! I wanted to work with you back in Survivor Cutthroat and when I saw you were cast on this season i was excited to play with u again and was robbed of the opportunity AGAIN!  u were also the only person on this cast that i have played with previously so the familiarity was lovely, so anyways u were robbed even tho you got like a 35 in the first challenge luv u always

AUTUMN: I wish we had gotten to play together longer! I’m glad we’re in another game together because I think you’re a cool guy and I appreciate your humor, honesty, and just candor about everything. I know in the moment the vote felt very hurtful but it was purely about the challenge and wanting Thoth to be as strong as possible moving forward (little did we know what was coming lmaaaaoo)

TJ: Trace – Another person I never got to meet in this game, but everything I heard from the Brains that I did get to talk to was that you were a super nice guy and really respectable. Sorry this season didn’t work out for you; I think we all know we can just blame Thoth for being a cursed tribe!

AMIR: We never got to meet :(  may b in the afterlife

AUTUMN: I hope you’re well! Honestly your death felt like true Survivor because the target was someone else but once Devon and I found out that you had made an alliance with everyone except us, I flipped it and said you had to be the one to go. I think the game would’ve been completely different had you stayed because there’s no way you would’ve let me get this far and once I realized you wanted me on the bottom, I was like ok Trace is the real deal he knows I’m trouble hahaha. You’re a great guy though and I hope you understand it was just game

TJ: Isaac – The third person I have never met in this game (I feel bad, Autumn is going to be the only one of us three who can actually say anything about these first three). I know you brought an interesting dynamic to the tribe based on the tribals I had watched, so kudos to you for being able to make an impact on the tribe. Another person I think we can just blame Thoth and not really blame anything gameplay wise, lol.

AMIR: Bane of my existence but also taken way too soon from us smh, you didn't deserve to be on cursed ass thoth, rip in peace’s sweet bottom

AUTUMN: You’re so sweet and wholesome and I really miss our conversations. I was being dumb and naive when you told me Scott and Duncan were a duo because I was an alliance with them and Devon. So I very much wanted to believe we were rock solid but YOU KNEW!! You called it before anyone else and for that, I stan. That alliance is literally the reason you want home and I just didn’t want to turn on them at the time. But in hindsight you were right about a lot of things and I appreciate your kindness and maturity about it all even though you were lowkey robbed

TJ: Austin – I never thought that we would reconnect after a few years away from being on the same site, so it was a great surprise to realize that you and I had actually played a couple games together in the past. I wish we had more than 24 hours together to maybe see what a future in this game could have been like. You are just as genuine of a guy as I remember you being, so that was really nice for me to see.

AMIR: Hello king of dairy queen, we honestly never talked too too much but you always were really nice to me and everyone else on hathor, and even after you were voted out, you were kind and left so gracefully

AUTUMN: You were so fun to talk to and if it weren’t for Devon’s mist I would’ve saved you lmao. I almost wish that twist hadn’t happened because had we met at a normal swap, I think our good vibes could’ve turned into a great alliance and we got along super well. It was nice getting to know you in the time we had though and I hope we get a chance to really play together one day

TJ: Lovelis – I can’t apologize enough for having to vote you off both as early as I did and how I did so. I’ve played now two seasons of the Challenge with you, but I found that I built a better bond with you this season than those two seasons combined, and then it just snowballed into this giant series of unfortunate events the tribal we had to go to and there was nothing that I could do. I’m genuinely so sorry for not being able to tell you what was going on and hope there’s a small chance you may understand sometime down the line.

AMIR: I never got to meet you unfortunately but I always thought your name was pronounced Love-El-Leez and then someone said “Loveless” and i was shookums

AUTUMN: SIR WHERE DID YOU GO??? I love that you don’t give a single fuck though haha because mood and I love dramatic exits- do you boo

TJ: AJ – Other than a brief convo during the Osiris vote, you and I never really got to meet. From what I did see, you seem like a really nice person and one that I think got voted out way too early. Hopefully I can verify that myself in another game if there is one in our future, but I wish we had been able to meet and see what could have been!

AMIR: You are so funny and and one of my fav people from Hathor 1.0 when it was such a simple time, also your winter bells score was inhumane and you had a great presence to be around, i just had a hard time ever trusting u and ya hehe

AUTUMN: ROBBED KING!! We didn’t really get to meet but thank you for sticking up for Adam on Hathor and for being honest with him. Although it led to a crazy divide amongst the beauties that lasted the whole game lmao (cmon impact!), I think that takes character to step out on a limb for someone especially when it risks your game. Merge would’ve been so much more iconic with you since I’m rooting for everyone brown haha. I hope we get to talk more after the game!

TJ: Connor – You seem like such a great guy and I wish I had spent more time trying to know you on Hathor. One of the things that always scares me in these games is when I can’t get a read on someone. I never was able to get a solid read on who you were and what you were capable of, and for that, that made you the person I was most threatened by in that circumstance. 

AMIR: 

AUTUMN: SIS I MISS YOU!! That tribe was BLAND after you left lmaaaoo I couldn’t wait for merge. Even though we didn’t talk a ton, I feel like we really vibed towards the end and just talking about Survivor seasons all evening. I screenshot your rankings and I reference them all the time/ they’ve been a fun conversation starter at merge. But anyway you’re hilarious and messy and iconic and I’m glad we got to meet. Also, you’ll be glad to know I finished Cagayan, I am neither Tony trash nor a Spencer fan, and I’m watching Pearl Islands now

TJ: Dan – Seeing you on the cast and on my starting tribe was almost like a little sigh of relief. Knowing someone and trusting that they aren’t going to just randomly screw you over is the greatest feeling in that initial stage of this game, and it sucks that it wasn’t able to go too much further than that since we got through an easy tribal at Brawn and then we got swapped onto opposite tribes. You and Drew brought me into this crazy world that is TS, and I hope I can complete that initial season now with a win here.

AMIR: Oh my gosh has it been a long time, I really haven’t seen you around or spoken to you in about 3 years, so seeing you in this game brought back a lot of nostalgia and memories from being in this community during like 2016 looooool, but it honestly was really nice to reconnect with you and see where we’ve gone in life since leaving here, wishing you the best (‘:

AUTUMN: Girl what happened??? I mean ok yes a part of me was relieved that you wouldn’t be able to kill me haha but you were robbed and we really could’ve fucked shit up. Had a different Apis member been over then instead of you, whew we would’ve done damage together on Hathor. It’s all good though- I hope everything is well with you and that you’re taking that well deserved break. All these back to back orgs we’ve been doing is getting OLD haha

TJ:  Scott – When I saw the cast reveal, I was so excited to meet you. I really thought I would be a Brain and that we would be on the same tribe. We would have worked so well together, and I hope in some alternate universe you come back to ORGs and we find each other in another game to play. 

AMIR: Scott !! Oh wow I have thots when it comes to your vote out, I did know u were getting voted out and I’m sorry, but honestly, you were just too good!! Our whole tribe was loyal to you dead ass, and I felt like if you got to merge, you would run the game using the brains and the beauties. U were just too damn likable during the game and I hope U understand why I did it

AUTUMN: Wheeeww Scott. I’m still gagged by that tribal that was something else. It was hard to see you go out like that because you truly deserve the best and have such a kind, amazing spirit. To the point where I would’ve had a hard time ever voting you or even getting anyone else to do the same so. Yes you were robbed but please don’t internalize it cause you were playing an amazing game (even had the boys confronting me about all the tea you shared haha/ gave me some messes to clean up) so please please please play again because you will WIN

TJ:  Liam – Of all the names I wrote down this season, yours was by far the hardest. Emotionally, I had really grown close to you and I felt awful for the situation you were in. Everything I told you that whole round and before that was 100% genuine. I just wanted to see the fight you had that first Brawn vote when I wanted to save you over Lovelis. You are one of the kindest dudes I’ve ever met in these games, and I have so much respect for you, your priorities, and how you carry yourself.

AMIR:  We never really got to talk much at all, but the few times we have talked you were always very sweet, I hope you are doing well. Autumn: Ok I do actually love you I swear haha. You’re a very sweet, compassionate guy and I could tell you were going through a lot which I 1000% get. But once merge hit, I knew shit would hit the fan really quickly so I basically got everyone to target you because most people didn’t know you too well and all the other Apis boys went with it because they were terrified of being the sacrificial brawn (since 5 of y’all made merge). I hope things are going better for you and I hope not having to worry about this wild ass game helped in some way. You thought you and I were tired back at pre-merge- girrrrrlll that was nothing hahaha

TJ: Jordan – If you told me Day 1 that you would be the person I would strategize the most with and become the closest ally too, I would have laughed in your face! I thought there was no freaking way that our personalities would click. And then I got to know you, we bonded over Survivor, and then a genuine friendship formed in this game. We made a F2 pact during the swapped Hathor tribe and I would have stuck to that to the end of this game. You are a great player and fun influence for these games, and I hope I made you proud throughout this merge.

AMIR: Oooof! Okay we did not leave on the best terms, you, similarly to dan, bring me a lot of nostalgia and you remind me of what it was like being in this community years ago. I never really got a chance to meet you in a personal way and get to know you at all until this game and I loved that we were able to reflect on the past and look back together, but unfortunately, by the time we did finally get on the same page, it was a little to late for me strategically. We got to connect over c*rcle and going to Ryerson and you’re honestly a real cool guy. I’m sorry for doing you dirty and I was happy to hear that you felt better the day after everything happened. I still stand by my decision and do not want to come across as a suck up, because I felt like you were after me prior to that point, and while I did feel a person connection after one call, my head still said that betraying all my allies for your plan was not smart for me. I truly do wish u the best and really hope u give me a chance outside the game, because that call we had did truly matter to me i swear I’m not evil looool Autumn: There’s so much I could say here but I’m gonna go about it like this: hi, I’m Autumn Hill and everything I do in Survivor is purely based on of strategy. I’ve always wanted to play with you just because of all the things I’ve heard about you but I knew we were too cracked to ever really work together. So I said yes to that alliance to appease Duncan and to keep an eye on you/ figure out how to take you out from the inside. There’s been a running joke all game that I just woke up and decided to kill you lmao and I swear that isn’t true. Yes I had been taking notes on you the whole game but no I was not waiting to specifically kill you at Final 11. I literally just wanted you and/or TJ to be captain because neither of y’all had done shit the whole game and it was already Final 11. Did I KNOW y’all would wile out and you would dig your own grave? No but I was really hoping you would hahaha. So you openly targeting me made it easy for me and then you snapping on everyone before tribal sealed it. I hope you don’t still hate me but I wouldn’t be surprised if you do even though I don’t think it’s justified because it’s literally just game and you had no intention of going to the end with me anyway. And I’m sure you’ve been praying I walk into jury but that has given me so much motivation to do the opposite you have no idea

TJ:  Duncan – Regardless of how our relationship in the game ended up, you are still someone that I enjoyed getting to know and genuinely connected with you during the Hathor swap. You are such a smart and genuine soul, and that’s not something that’s always easy to find in these ORGs. If I screwed something up between us, I’m genuinely sorry about that and would love to talk it out afterwards.

AMIR: *wendy_williams_with_the_hat_over_her_head_gif*  you did not deserve what happened to you in this game, i hope you believe me when i say I was super super happy to see that you’ve been cast in this game, and assumed from the moment of cast reveal that we would be working closely together. We connect well, we had a lot of important conversations and both being gay poc and our experiences and I always felt that we would be great allies. Unfortunately in the game, the round where you were getting voted out, I actually wanted you to stay but all my closest allies did not and I felt like being a leader in that round was not what's best for my game. I was upset to lose you way earlier than I wanted to and I hope you know me not warning was never personal, and i really hope you’ll want to be friends afterwards b/c I definitely do Autumn: My bb :( I STILL LOVE YOU BUT YOU KNOW HOW I AM!!! I can’t be tamed lmao and I just felt really suffocated by our alliance and paranoid about us having been together the whole game. Devon lowkey came between us on Thoth and I felt like you were jealous that I was close to someone else so when you got Devon to vote me back on Thoth I was really shook. Idk it felt like a warning shot, that you and Scott would basically dangle me off a cliff for no reason so I knew what had to happen. Then the alliance with Jordan and TJ happened and you didn’t fuck with Ali and Adam and I was like oooop I need to cook something up. Then I really started aligning with other people at merge (Jakey, Amir, Augusto, etc.) and I was like ok I need to cover my tracks. And Idk there were just a lot of weird moments where you voted TJ captain first but wanted me to convince everyone else to do Adam, you protecting Jordan during the immunity challenge and cutting Augusto’s rope only for you to force Devon to cut Jordan’s rope, lying to Adam about targeting him- so I just couldn’t do it anymore. I knew I was trying to go deep in this game and I felt like we couldn’t go any further together so I put the vote on you and it became unanimous since a lot of people were hurt by all the lies you told. So whew that’s the tea but you always said if I ever killed you, I better win and here we are lol and I hope I continue to make you proud

TJ: Devon – Ah, Slithers! I was so excited to reconnect with you because there was so much unfinished business between us after Guyana. There was so much we could have done that game, and I was glad to at least get a small taste of that in this game. I wish we had met before merge so that we didn’t have to throw something together right at merge. Your elimination was a blessing in disguise for me, because it was that round or the round before that I started becoming weary of the fact you were telling things to others you said you had only told me, so maybe it was good? You’re a strategic genius and I truly think you’d win if you came back one more time.

AMIR: Oh my god Devon you were always a confusing one for me, I felt quite close to you for a lot of this entire game and for a good portion of it, I actually felt quite loyal to you. When I met you at one world, we instantly clicked as people and I was excited for you to get back into the game and we were tight from that point on. At merge, things started getting complicated and at some point, I truly did start to get intimidated by your social game and how calculated you were about every single decision. I definitely was not the driving force behind your vote off but I also did not do much to try and stop it, overall tho, you protected me a bunch of times in this game over and over and I’m not ignorant to that and I’m thankful for that time we had as allies and friends mr 95% top Autumn: Girl what the fuck hahaha. I have half the nerve to leave the message with that but you’re lucky I still love you. To this day I have no clue why you turned on me and I was always loyal to you. So many people talked shit about you but I continued to give you the benefit of the doubt and forgive you. And I genuinely wanted to go to the end with you, Amir, and Augusto (or you, me and Ali) and had you actually believed me, you would be sitting here instead of me. But then you tried it and got the whole tribe to lie to me and if that wasn’t bad enough, you were coming at me for believing you were the rat (even though you, Amir, and Augusto were intentionally covering Kendall’s tracks) and saying you had my back no matter what. So between that and realizing that you were intentionally trying to put me on the bottom of the tribe is why I put a hit on you. I was truly never coming for you until you gave me a reason. So yes I was in my bag about it then but it’s all good now and I’m now back to thinking you’re a sweet, funny guy who deserves nice things. I miss the good ole days on Thoth ugh when we just call and laugh and make fun of everyone but alas. ALSO THANK YOU FOR CUTTING THE WRONG ROPES!! It’s one of my favorite moments of the game and it makes my day every time I think about it lmao I really need all the laughs I can get these days. Unless you actually have been rooting for me this whole time and you cut your allies’ ropes intentionally??? I can’t wait to finally hear that story hahaha

TJ: Ali – I need to start by apologizing for not replying the last hour-ish before your elimination. You are such a high caliber player – potentially the highest of caliber – that I didn’t want to give you any more information to possibly spook you and change what you and Jakey had talked about. You were someone I knew from the getgo that I couldn’t let you get far, and yet you cease to amaze me in your ability to be so freaking likeable and get far in these games. I will never forget doing the name scramble with you and I truly wish every challenge could have been that.

AMIR: WHHEWW weeeee i have so much respect for you, you have no idea. Like okay I never had met you but I knew that you were a godly player due to bbpokemon, but I never judge based on placements, but playing in this game with you confirmed that. Tbh tbh we were never gonna work out as loyal allies because you scared the absolute shite out of me as a player and had a damn toybox of powers, but i am glad that this game gave me the opportunity to get to know you as a person and ive come to really really like you. You were a force in the game but also super nice and respectful to everyone the entire way through and i can only admire that, and after like literally years of just hearing about you i get why everyone loves u

Autumn: I CAN’T DO THIS. I cannot cry over you twice in this game I really cannot. I cannot articulate the guilt I felt watching you die when you didn’t have to. I go back to that moment where you gave your negator power to Adam in case you died and it crossed my mind to tell you to play the idol on yourself because I just had a weird feeling. And like- we were right we knew we wouldn’t be able to do this whole game together because Auli is too powerful. But I just thought we had more time together. You really are like a brother to me and when you died, Adam and I called and he did all the talking for a good 15 minutes because I was on the other end just crying. But! This means you’ve joined the elite cause the only other allies I’ve MOURNED are Ned and Eddie. I just love how you are literally the nicest person but constantly have everyone shaking in their boots. Like the way all these people had a hard-on trying to get you out like 3 rounds in a row is just so powerful ugh. King of living rent free in everyone’s minds! Idk it would’ve been too good to be true for us both to go to the end but you  are truly a legend and I’m grateful for literally any time I get with you and I REALLY wouldn’t be here without your idol sis so your spirit really did live on

TJ: Jakey – Day One I really thought that you and I would be at the end of this game together. And even throughout that entire merge, despite a few ups and downs we both had, I really saw us sitting here together. It sucks that we got blindsided together and I didn’t have that chance to save you, but I am so glad that we were able to connect the way we did. Our dynamic in having information from both sides of the house was perfect for both of us, even if it was your downfall. I was not kidding when I told you after Jordan left that I still had your back and that I wanted to get us to the end. 

AMIR: I am so glad I got to meet you in this game because you literally became one of my fav people ever in the span of a month, and you know I love you. You’re someone I plan on being tight with for a very long time and have come to care about you so much, and we ended up calling like every single day for hours. You not being in the game anymore always did feel weird afterwards since you were essentially my other closest ally in terms of how you knew just about everything about my game and were kind of like a sounding board for me. I didn’t fully trust you sometimes, and I often think back to a “what if” and if we both could be here rn if my ass decided to take that risk and fully commit to this alliance and 100% trust you, but when this game is over, our nightly late night calls are probably going to be the main thing I remember and I am so appreciative that I got the chance to get to know you and become as close we did ❤️

Autumn: LMAO now see when you do clownery… I have so much respect for you and you are truly brilliant but girl you do too much haha and you know I’m OLD. I can’t do the back and forth and watching someone play both sides and have this je ne sais quoi energy about fucking everyone’s games up, allies included. Fam if you had waited to kill Ali ONE MORE ROUND, this game would’ve been yours. You had Amir and TJ whipped, you would’ve had me, Adam, and Kendall powerless, and Augusto would’ve kept chilling. But no I had to avenge Ali so me and Adam got to work and came up with a bunch of lies and truths to get you out and the kids ate it UP. But anyway, you’re still my son, you will bounce back, and I’m rooting for you in everything you do.  You’re hilarious and perceptive and cracked and I told all the POC’s every round you were the only white boy I would actually vote for hahaha and I mean that

TJ: Adam – My biggest personal regret is not getting to talk to you more and at least get to know you more on a personal level. You always seemed so sweet and we talked about a decent bit, but I don’t think I ever put my best foot forward to build that connection since we were never on the same side. You are such a kind, sweet guy and I wish more guys were like you. 

AMIR: Hello hunty, I think out of everyone in this cast, you are the first person I had ever met and it goes way way way back...like 2014 back. Our relationship is this game was…. ICONIC and messy to say the least. I was always a huge fan of your blog back then, and never thought we’d both end up on the beauty tribe. I honestly saw so much potential for us being super close allies, and at some point, I considered you my closest ally during day 1-2. The issue was the creation of an alliance without you in it, and then that alliance targetting you and you getting word of it which just kinda set us on the wrong foot from the very beginning because you didn’t trust me and I was anxious about that. It was literally all just shitty circumstances because bible i literally wanted to work with you so bad. We eventually set things straight again, but due to alliance lines, previous mistrust, and the people we were both working with, we ended up being on opposite sides and never were able to work out on a strategic level despite the fact that we always meshed well on a personal level, it was unfortunate but also kind of an iconic rivalry/alliance thing that was going on

Autumn: MY BABY!!! When you died I was just numb and I miss you so much. That happening right after I finally won immunity was just cruel and my system short circuited. We had a million alliance chats and just like that the house was empty and it’s just been quiet all the rounds since. Tbh I was triggered cause I was ALONE alone in Crossroads so when you died I was just sitting at Final 5 with the idol like awww shit here we go again haha. You are one of the funniest, kindest, most loyal, and most authentic players I’ve ever met and your social game is TOP SHELF sir. Watching you lie and finesse and manipulate people round after round actually cleared my skin. In my mind, I always referred to you as the Mad Hatter because you always had tea and you always had something brewing on the stove haha. I miss our conversations so much and I really wouldn’t be here without all the trust you put in me and for being like “giiiirrrl you need to get on the blog RIGHT NOW.” You know I can make hoes mad all by myself haha but it was at its best when you were by my side

TJ: Augusto – I want to mirror what you said about me in your goodbye message. You are so pure, you are so likeable, you are such a king when it comes to the social game. I didn’t think our games would gel that much coming into this game, but once we got over the little hump that was the first couple rounds of merge, I really clicked with you and enjoyed meeting you this game. I wish we had followed the plan and you’d still be here over Amir, but ‘tis the game.

AMIR:  This is probably the hardest one to write because you have been my partner in crime and my closest ally since day 1 in this game, and I truly did want to go to the end with you and Kendall. You kept me sane for like the majority of the game and I 100% could not have made it here without you. I am not going to diminish the impact that you had on this game and how big of a factor you were in my survival. I have never lied or kissed ass when I said I believed you played one of the strongest games by far. As a person, I love you and you know I mean that and have enjoyed your friendship a lot over the past month, and really really hope we’ll be friends after this game. The game does not feel the same without u there and i miss your dumb gay memes that make me cackle, and im sorry for how things ended up, I truly felt like at that point, it was me going home or u, and i chose to pick me. I don’t want to dwell but I also don’t want to invalidate how badly I screwed you over and how you get to be mad for it. i cant wait 2 talk to u after the game  

Autumn:Lmaaaaooo listen. That whole thing was one of the most cracked things I’ve ever done in my entire org career and Iiiiii don’t wanna get into it here but I will so that miss Amir can’t take credit for it hahaha. Basically…. what had happened was… I was very much going to idol Amir out but he randomly came into my pm’s after TJ won immunity and begged that we work together and that I spare him if I had the idol even though he had just killed Adam. And it took a lot of convincing but I thought about how well positioned you were to go to the end with anyone so I said: yes Amir but I’m killing Augusto which means you’re going to tell the beauties you have the idol since everyone has to vote me. Meanwhile TJ was talking to me and being very straight up that it was between me and Amir/ it was based on who had the idol. So I threw Amir under the bus and said everyone was giving the game away to him and that TJ was no better for always talking shit but never doing anything about it. And he kept trying to corner me into saying I had the idol and that “everyone was still concerned” so I got tired of going back and forth and was just like lemme go address everyone in the tribe cause I’m not doing this all day when I know I’ll be at Final 4 no matter what. So that’s when I gave a monologue in the tribe chat about how everyone should be honest with me and that there’s no point in lying when I’m essentially a sitting duck. Then you and Kendall admitted to voting me, which allowed me to a) play the idol correctly and b) split you and Amir. Tbh I just felt like you had the best spot in the game because the whole round it like never crossed your mind that you could die and I was like oop hold my beer. Meanwhile you had talked shit about Amir’s game to me more than once so I started twisting the knife on him and when you weren’t talking to him as much, Amir really got paranoid and was like they’re gonna kill me soon I just know it I’m all in. So that’s the tea. But! You know it was strictly game because I adore you and I legit called you more than anyone in this cast haha. I just got spooked about you getting any deeper in the game. You have a great heart and I hope we can still be friends after this because you’re an amazing person and I’ll always be here for you

TJ: Kendall – You haven’t even been gone for 24 hours and I already miss your lunatic history facts! I never expected to meet someone in this game who I truly understood and care about in this game, and that’s exactly what I found starting very early in that merge with you. You are so freaking quirky, but so am I so I get it completely. I wish everyone in this game got to see how amazing you were and how you were completely robbed from being able to make the finals with me. I truly think I met a friend for years to come with you, and I’m so grateful for that. (Also ps, apparently we had a flirtmance going according to the other two… I wasn’t aware of this, lol).

AMIR: This is interesting because I kinda already messaged you yesterday right before the vote with everything I have to say, in the end, you have the right to feel how you feel and your reactions are 100% valid. I apologize for lying to you and blindsiding you, It was not an easy decision and I own it, and even writing this right now is quite difficult because I want to talk about the hilarious and amazing times we had together and make it a cute rop, but I know the wounds are still fresh and I know you said you are not happy with me rn and I would not want to act oblivious to your current emotions. Maybe if I make it to jury or FTC, you will be able to say everything you want to say to me and we can move on from there and pick up where we left off,

Autumn: Sis I don’t even know where to begin with you haha. Because we were never allies or even friends lmao but we always had mutual respect for each other the whole game and just tried to stay out of each other’s way. I do genuinely believe you get a bad wrap for no reason and people talked a lot of shit about you for no real reason. And I love that both the women in the game were despised but for different reasons haha. You were playing a good game tbh and even though I really considered sitting beside you at the end, it frustrated me that you (like Augusto) felt like you were guaranteed to be at the end and you were essentially the prettiest girl at the dance and meanwhile I had to fight for my life every single round since Final 6. So I was like ok if sis really wants to go to the end, then she’ll pull up and meet me at firemaking haha. Amir went back and forth about the whole thing and legitimately told me he was voting me earlier that day but I got in his head and I said you know damn well they will clip you at Final 3 no hesitation so unless you want this whole game to have been for nothing, you need to just send me to firemaking and if Kendall wins she wins and if I win I win. So, it was strictly strategic for me because there was no way for you, me, and Amir to all make final 3 and you and TJ were very transparent about voting me lol. But anyway! Thank you for your humor and patience and constant forgiveness throughout this game and your incredible knack for manipulating men. I salute you and I’m glad we got to meet

Amir: Tj tj tj oh wow oh wow, I literally feel like our relationship is like the disappointed dad (you) and me being the rebellious child who keeps promising to straighten myself out and then keeps up my fuckery. Anyway, it was a pleasure playing this game with you, you were kind to everyone, had a huge underdog hero arc, and you were probably the person who was onto my antics the most. Somehow after every vote, you’re like “I hate u but I get it so I still like u” and it was just a very wholesome hilarious relationship that I’ve had this whole game. You had me shaking during that final “autumn take me” riff raff and you deserve to be sitting in this spot just as much as I do

Autumn: Oh boy- not to be dramatic but killing you, my favorite adversary, wasn’t nearly as satisfying as I thought it would be. Listening to you talk last night made me realize how much heart you had put into the game and I felt really compelled to give you a chance to vouch for yourself at FTC just out of respect. But I know how allies get and I didn’t see a whole pocket of jurors voting for me over you when they had probably been rooting for you the whole game. So once my laptop died last night haha and I was sitting with my notes, it came down to a) leveling the playing field amongst the jurors, b) trying to picture what jury would really value, and c) how persuasive you are. If you could do aaaaaall that off the record to save your game, I knew you were gonna bring it at FTC. But it’s not the same without you. I have no one to tease, no one to call out, no one’s business to air, no one’s game to undermine lmao- it’s too quiet, everyone’s dead. The reason I love our relationship so much is because we think very similarly so our elaborate multi-round game of cat and mouse game gave a lot amusement and frustration but most importantly focus. We are literally the movie Catch Me If You Can and you’re were always watching me scam everyone and do the most and no one wants to listen to you so you take it upon yourself to chase me yourself round after round. And I was always watching you and egging you on and doing everything I could to throw you off my tracks haha. You’re my Tom Hanks and I’m your Leo and a lot of people made it easy on me but you never did and I have a lot of respect for that. You never miss a beat and you have fantastic instincts so after all this time, I can finally say I am a TJ fan, fedora and all

[venomsinn]

I know I’ve been gone for a few months.  Here’s the situation.

As I've been gone from here for months, this is going to be a rather long post.  I'll put a tl/dr at the bottom for those that don't have the time.

A few months ago, my partner and I moved into a house with another lesbian couple and two cis dudes.  Rent was cheap, they seemed genuinely nice and we needed something quickly so it seemed like a great situation.  They gave us this story about the landlady being very lackadaisical about getting everyone on the lease, and that only the initial two people (the lesbian couple) were actually on one.  As much as it should have, that didn't raise any red flags for me at the time because of the rest of the situation (they did take deposits from everyone, they were very reassuring and seemed like our whole situation wasn't a problem and worked with how they operated as a house; ie, quiet, paid rent) As my partner and I are both disabled, we work together at a non-traditional job: food deliveries.  We've made rent every month, but we are home often and sleep late into the day. We also are both very socially anxious and shy and keep to ourselves.  They let us know that they did the same and that that was fine.

Anyway, two months ago our truck got towed.  We weighed the worth of the truck against the cost to get it back and the fact that it needed new tags soon, and decided instead to look for another vehicle.  After much browsing on Craigslist we found something that looked like a reliable choice and was willing to come down a little to our price range.  My partner went to test drive it a few weeks ago and decided to buy it, intending to make back the rest of our rent from food deliveries during the rest of the month.  We went out that night and right at the end apparently threw out an axle.  Car unusable to make more money, and all of our money put toward the car.

We had pretty clearly gotten screwed, and as this was two weeks before the end of the month, we let our housemates know that we might be a bit short of rent because of this emergency situation that had come up.  They asked how much, we let them know it'd be about 40 dollars.  We paid them the rest on the second.   Everything seemed fine.

Today, we got a text from one of the women, I've included it below.

"Hey [name]. I talked with the other roommates and we have decided that we feel like you and [name] living here isn’t working out for us. Asking us to cover your rent with no notice is irresponsible and unacceptable. We lowered the rent for the both of you to help but y’all don’t seem to have stable incomes, have not communicated, and we feel uncomfortable signing a lease under these conditions. We all have suffered from different traumas and whatnot in our lives and want to be understanding but we feel like there are red flags. Y’all have not been straight forward. Y’all have even yet to finish paying the deposit for your room. Our kindness is not weakness. It would be ideal for y’all to be gone by the end of the month. I will send you your deposit in the form of check or money order once a new roommate has moved in / paid, and y'all have texted me your new address. If you still need a job I suggest applying to Fantasy for Adults Only on Burnside. Good Luck."

So first of all, none of these talks and communication between the other housemates were things that we were aware of going on.  We weren't invited to any of them.  As far as they had let us know at every interaction, everything was fine.  So how can we be expected to communicate and supply information if we're being withheld from convos? Secondly, it feels like this was an exit strategy they had in place since the beginning, just decided they didn't like us for some reason, and collectively voted us out without giving us a chance to defend ourselves.  This "not liking us for some reason" is further solidified by the completely unnecessary "go work at the adult store" since your job isn't real, because that's where tr*nnies belong.  Again, we have a job and have paid rent every month.  We've been up front and vocal about every issue we've had.  

So now, both of us just feel completely unsafe.  We have no legal ground because they kept it all off paper, so we can't ask for more time and frankly, we're outnumbered, don't feel safe, and will not being staying here past the end of the month.  We have a lock on our door but have a closet that connects to another room, which also seems suspicious.  

Right now, we're trying to put money together to fix the car so we can live in it and do deliveries until we can get a place just for us.  I've had to do it before.  It sucks, especially in winter.  It's going to be cold, uncomfortable, and we'll likely get fucked with by more than one cop for parking somewhere to sleep.  But thankfully this time we have a method to make money, so it hopefully won't be for long.

Above and beyond that, my doctor fucked me over on medication and withheld them this month until I could come see her, which is grossly irresponsible considering the meds I'm on.  I have to wait til the car is fixed to get there, which will be the end of the month.  So unmedicated, my days are crippling suicidal depression, hallucinations, migraines every day, and panic attacks.  At night it's all night terrors and flashbacks.  There's not really any escape and I'm at the end of what I can manage.  And as if that weren't enough, I'll have to fight next month to get my food stamps back.

I know I constantly have to ask, but right now, anything helps.  Money to put toward the car or just to have while we're living in it, resources we can call to find help finding a house, a place to shower and do laundry, a place to store our stuff while we're homeless and someone to help us move it there, encouragement, solidarity... I'd even take prayers at this point.  Thank you for reading and blessed be.

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[ts-2020-olympics]

EPISODE 1 - “My Legs Were Not Qwoperating” - Kathy (Part 1)

One world ! 24 other players ! I 

I'm too old to be here but... it's happening! I made it on Tumblr Survivor mom! Determined to not be first boot!

Also I'm aligning with Jordan Pines because I love chaos and these newbies won't know what hit them

Well this is certainly something. I'm going to try out seeing who pms me without me saying anything. I'll pick up the activity tomorrow, so it doesn't really affect me, let's see if anyone takes the initiative so I don't have to. If I get dragged into a majority alliance then that's cool. I don't think that this group is great in terms of teamwork as of yet, but we'll see. There's so many tribes our chances of going to tribal are pretty slim, even if we suck. We're kindof underdogs, so sucking might not be excusable. 

First day of surviving the Survivor survivorship...survivor. These forms are going to take some time to get used to, but I'll manage. Got conversations from Beck and Sammy so far - might scope the field, see what's out there. Or, I can lay low and do what I need to do for my team until merge hits. 

i actually really like the people on my tribe and i'm excited because i have hopes for us. i've also made some nice friends so far and i'm hoping that pays off later but even if it doesn't i'm glad my first day in a skype survivor org has been positive! woo!

Fuck this complicated ass first challenge 

Hello! Guess whose back? It me! Anyway, it’s been a fun first night. Things are going okay. I am worried a little bit about the One World mess, I don’t want to come off too social right now but at the same time I need to secure a good place. So here is the breakdown analysis of my tribe: Chris Stoner: hello ???? I didn’t know they let stoners into the Olympics, didn’t we drug test? I haven’t spoken to him much but we did play Crossroads together although not really together. Anyway, fun to see him. Don’t know if I’d work with him but I guess that’s to be determined. Karen: KARENNNNN! I wasn’t expecting to see them here but now that it’s happening I am very glad to have someone who I have worked with before around, and a solid foundation of working together. Right away I felt like I had someone who had my back and I hope I’m not misreading that, because Karen and I always seem to work together until a certain point. Hopefully we can work together longer than usual this time! Kevin: uhhh soooooo love Kevin but we don’t have the best track record? He was in Circle with me we had a little fight where I may have called him a racist for being mad at Asya anyway it SEEMS as though that’s not an issue anymore and I think we might be able to work something out. I don’t wanna have to vote Kevin out before Stoner or Tommy. Tommy: ok no offense to this man but he is so hard to talk to so far. Every conversation feels flat and even though we are talking about subjects I could go on about for a while, it feels like the convos are going nowhere. I feel like there’s a sort of slight bond between Karen, Kevin and I but then Tommy and Stoner are kind of...hopefully who they’d want to kill off first, I’m probably wildly misreading every situation rn. Outside of my tribe I’ve talked to Juls who I am going to take under my wing as my daughter and she will win this season if I don’t get to! I love her so much she reminds me of my old school Skype babies and I feel like a cool mom when I talk to her I’ve also talked to beck briefly, KING love him bc he’s dating Asya and I don’t necessarily want to bond based on that. I also know beck is a good as game player bc I’ve watched him play so......I’m gonna be nice and observant and maybe we can establish a threat/threat symbiotic relationship. I also talked to Jacob C. who I love so much and he and I have been comparing some notes. He’s already told me Sammy has an idol that he can only use for three rounds so heh heh heh. OH SPEAKING OF SAMMY I love that man he’s such a doll and I really hope we can work together if I get far. At this point I love this cast but I really feel like I am not gonna vibe with the newbies, they’re like very....quiet in the PM’s but loud in the one world chat? I find that backwards. I’m hoping the newbies I do like will be able to  get rid of the newbies I don’t like so that when we merge the newbies I do like will help me get rid of the returnees I don’t wanna work with. That’s what we are manifesting, 2020 vision yeehaw. 

Showmance, eh? I might play dumb, surprise them all later? I could play the role of disposable pawn while possibly orchestrating things behind the shadows. Could be a long, long shot, but it could work. 

AAAAHHHHH IM HERE HI MOM IM ON TV IM SO EXCITED AND I CANT WAIT FOR EVERYTHING IM ALSO SCARED AS FUCK CUS EVERYONE KNOWS HOW THESE THINGS WORK AND I DONT 

omg okay this is all so crazy i love it i can’t stop shaking AAAAHHH dhdkshHSJDHEVSJbokayOKAY so like i LOOOVE my tribe we’re the fuckin best tribe here cus we’re all so cool like we’re the FRIENDSHIP tribe and being able to make friends is a useful skill in this game like no offense but being the “dominant” tribe or “champions” tribe or whatever tbh it’s pretty unskinny bc that’s a target on you forever whereas my tribe we’re all friendly and trusting!! 💖💞 xoxo lets hold hands all the way to finale and have fun! 🌈✨

okay i forgot to talk about strategy lol anyways yeah I looOOOVve everyone on my tribe and that’s great but also sucks because there’s only 5 of us, it just takes 3 votes to send you out so I wish there was some oblivious cocky dick on our tribe we all could hate so we’d have an easy first vote like that guy Billy.. why is he on the respect tribe¿? anyways i love everyone but I think Will and I are becoming the closest we talked for a lil while last night yknow things got a little steamy 🥰😩 (you’ll have to pay for ts all access for that footage 😘) we bonded really well and I think for this first vote if we lose, Will and I are definitely gonna be voting together.

Alright, so here we are at the 2020 Olympics.   I came in as a last minute replacement, so I feel like I have to prove myself more than some others who applied weeks before hand and made the cut.   As well, got some past players, and past winners, which makes the competition stakes that much greater this season.   Then, to top it all off, at the One World style camp, so can talk to everyone which is definitely a nice touch.   Now, regards to my tribe, I honestly like the people on my tribe, and find that we're going to be a solid crew.   Here is my actual impressions on my tribe mates thus far though: Beck - Probably one I recognize most, just due to being in a discord org vl with her, definitely seems like a friendly gal, and when time is right, I feel she could end up being my closest ally on the tribe Ben - Probably one so far who I have talked the most too, and I feel like we're connecting alright thus far, so going to keep building up a bond with him and his route could end up being as my first ally of these Olympics. Kathy - Haven't spoken one on one with her yet, just in the tribe chat somewhat and main chat, which she definitely seems like a cool person, and hoping to get to know her a bit better, but terms of this game, hard to say if we'll be on same side or not. Bailey - Speaking with her a little, but kind of same lines as Kathy currently with her, just not sure if Bailey will end up being an ally who will be with me, or someone who will be against me. Overall, time will tell how this game goes, but hopefully it goes well for me and I come out with at least something worth while.

HOLY SHIT I FOUND AN ADVANTAGE OH MY GOD!!!!! I GOT AN ADVANTAGE ON DAY FUCKIN TWO OF MY FIRST SURVIVOR EVERR HOLY SHIT!!!! okay so it says i can get an extra vote IF at the next tribal i decide to NOT vote and save that vote for later so i’d have an extra vote. Now the hard part is making my first tribal an easy vote so i can save my own.. hopefully i’ll be able to do this! i’m so scared ohmygod

okay i’m in a serious predicament... so I may not vote at the next tribal meaning there’s only 4 votes. While looking at the cast reveal i discovered something.. Nik is a drag queen, Eve also does drag as well... what if they applied together from some drag community or are bonding because of that. That’s 2 votes together already on a tribe of five.. that’s dangerous especially when I’m not allied with either of them! If they vote together and i don’t vote... they’d have half the votes already and may get rid of my ally Will! I’m hoping to god they don’t know each other but if they are aligned then Will or I could be out! I want this advantage but i don’t know if i can take it.... fuuUUUUCK

I’m really enjoying my tribe and I think that the people in this game are super awesome! However with that being said, I can definitely see who could potentially be an issue down the line and I’m keeping my eyes peeled for them!

whoa. this game is a lot. I managed to message everyone on day one because I just rely on my social abilities. I tried to be as relatable as possible to everyone but literally some people were dead fish. Some newbies have asked me for advice already and they said returners are intimidating so I said "I mean only the returners that won" hahah and they were like "oh yeah so true" sorry I threw y'all under the bus. But ummm kathy is playing and we are from the same hometown so I am hoping we end up on same tribe sometime soon. I love juls too!! OH AND JACOB IS MY RIDE OR DIE. we had a tribe call and I was so uncomfortable because I felt like I had nothing to add to the conversation. my fav 2 on my tribe are Jacob and Caeleb tho! umm okay last thing I searched for the idol....AND BIH ON DA FIRST TRY I GOT ONE BLSFSI only good for next three tribals I attend tho. I told Jacob. it was in a yellow condom. okay sorry this was very choppy I just wanted to get it all out.

This tribe seems to be working fine together, while I'm still terrified of losing, I think we stand a fighting shot. This cool little band of misfits would be a cool sight. I've kept my quiet for the first day, time to ramp things up just a tad. I've talked to Landen and I feel pretty alright about him, and given this tribe is as small as my will to life after playing QWOP, we only need one more! Landen's probably talking to everyone, so I just need to seal the deal with him. I think my challenge performance will suffice for being enough to keep me around, but I need a bit of a backup just in case. If we go to tribal, there's not a "stay UTR" option. It's either I'm in an alliance and I'm calling some shots, or I'm being (in)directly blindsided. But, I picked my strong suit in flash games for a reason fellas. The one world chat has quite a bit of activity. I'm quite and that's fine, if we swap I can readjust. If we go to tribal I'm sure I'll become just a tad more popular along with the other 9 that go. tldr:I'm winning duh

Ayo, tribe energy looking DOPE AS HELL BAY BAY! We all seem to be getting along pretty well, seeing as our communication during this challenge is pretty dope! No bad personalities in sight. I gotta wonder though, how nervous do I have to be? I know for a damn fact if I start talking more to these people they gon' be fallin' as hard as underage kids seeing the hottest girl in school enter their club. Thing is though, I'm fresh meat coming into this, so any pre existing relationships in this game are like dust mites to me. Can't see em' but GOD DAMN they annoy me. Nonetheless, I gotta work my magic in case we go to Tribal. I ain't letting anybody take out a rookie, especially a rookie who has somethin' to prove, and someone who at his best is the damn king of the world. See me work bay bay!

[yobaba30]

~ Tim Wise

1/ If the Dems blow this election it will not be because they were "too far left on policy" or because they "weren't left enough." It will have little to do with policy at all. They are making a mistake caused by traditional consultant theory that does not apply here...

2/ And by listening to influential pundits in liberal media who also don't get the unique nature of Trumpism, relative to normal political movements & campaigns...this election is NOT going to be won by talking about all your "great plans" for health care, jobs, education, etc..

3/ And the reasons are several...Let me begin by saying that I have experience confronting the kind of phenomenon we see in Trumpism, and far more than most. Any of us who were involved in the fight against David Duke in LA in 90/91 know what this is and how it must be fought...

4/ So before explaining what the Dems are doing wrong right now, a little history...In 1990, white supremacist David Duke ran for U.S. Senate in LA, and in 1991 for Governor. He lost both times but both times he won the majority of the white vote (60 and 55% respectively)...

5/ I was one of the staffers of the main anti-Duke PAC at the time & ultimately became Assistant Director. In 90, even though our Director Lance Hill, myself & a few of our founders wanted to focus on Duke's bigotry, ties to extremists and appeals to white racial resentment...

6/ ...after all, that WAS the issue--it was a moral struggle against racism--we had mainstream Democratic consultants who warned us against focusing too much on it. They said that "played into Duke's hands" and allowed him to set the agenda....

7/ So sure, we could discuss his ties to Nazis & such, but we shouldn't make a big deal out of his contemporary racist appeals, per se, bc "lots of voters agree" with those appeals...they even encouraged us to talk about utterly superfluous shit like Duke paying his taxes late..

8/ Or Duke avoiding service in Vietnam, or Duke writing a sex manual under a female pseudonym (yeah he did that)...although Lance held firm that we needed to talk mostly about racism, we did end up talking about some of that other stuff too, sadly...

9/ I say "sadly" because doing that normalized Duke as a regular candidate. Attacking his generic character or bill paying habits (or even discussing his inadequate plans for job creation, etc) treated him like a normal candidate. But he was/is a NAZI...

10/ And none of his voters were voting 4 him bc of jobs, or tax policy or support for term limits, etc. And none were going to turn on him over late tax payments, Vietnam, etc. Indeed throwing that stuff out there & downplaying the elephant in the room (racism) seemed desperate..

11/ It allowed people to say "well if he's really this racist, white supremacist, why are they talking about all this other stuff?" It actually undermined our ability to paint him as the extremist he was/is. And as a result, the threat he posed was not clear enough to voters...

12/ And this didn't just allow him to get votes he might not have gotten otherwise; it also depressed turnout among people who almost certainly disliked him but didn't think he could win or would be all that big a deal if he did. In fact I recall convos with "liberals"...

13/ ...Who said they weren't going 2 vote bc after all Duke's Dem opponent was just a shill for the oil and gas industry, and that was just as bad, blah blah fucking blah...because some lefties can't tell the difference between corporatist assholes and actual literal Nazis...

14/ But we bore some responsibility for that because we got suckered into playing this conventional game and "not playing into his narrative." Anyway, Duke gets 60% of the vote, black and white liberal turnout is lower than it should have been and Duke gets 44% of vote...

15/ In the Governor's race we dispensed w/ all that bullshit. We talked about Duke's ongoing Nazism and the moral/practical evil of his racist appeals. We discussed how that moral evil would have real world consequences (driving tourists and business away, rightly so, from LA)..

16/ Because it was wrong, and it was not who we wanted to be, and it was not who were were. We were better than that and needed to show the rest of the country that...

17/ Now, did this flip any of Duke's 1990 voters? Nah, not really. Indeed he got 65k MORE votes in the Governor's race than the Senate race. But it was never about flipping them. We knew that would be almost impossible...

18/ To flip Duke voters would require that they accept the fact that they had previously voted for a monster, and people are loath to do that. Our goal was not to flip them, but to DRIVE UP TURNOUT among the good folks, many of whom stayed home in 90...

19/ And that is what happened. The concerted effort of the anti-Duke forces (not just us), challenging Duke's "politics of prejudice," and making the election about what kind of state we wanted to be, drove turnout through the roof...

20/ 28,000+ registered on one day alone, between the initial election and runoff (which Duke made bc of the state's open primary system), with tens of thousands more overall: most of them, anti-Duke folks...

21/ When it was over, Duke had gotten 65k more votes than in 90, but his white share went to 55 (from 60) and overall to 39 (from 44) because the anti-Duke turnout swamped him...So what does this have to do with 2020 and Trump? Do I really need to explain it?...

22/ First, trying to flip Trump voters is a waste of time. Any of them who regret their vote don't need to be pandered to. They'll do the right thing. Don't focus on them. That said, very few will regret their vote. They cannot accept they voted for a monster or got suckered...

23/ Duke retained 94% of the folks he got the first time out (and got new people too), as Trump likely will. So forget these people--or at least don't wast time tailoring messages to them. And policy plans for affordable college don't mean shit to them, nor health care...

24/ Their support for Trump was never about policy. It was about the bigotry, the fact that he hates who they hate...Second, as for the "undecideds." ...Not many of these but seriously? If you're still undecided at this point about this guy...

25/ Then there is almost no way to know what would get you to make up your mind...I doubt it's a plan to deal with Wall Street though, or infrastructure, or tax policy...

26/ If anything, I would say crafting an argument that this is an existential crisis for the nation--and making it about Trump's bigotry and who we want to be as a country, would be far more effective in inspiring them to make up their minds...

27/ And what I know for a FACT is that this message--that Trumpism is a threat to everything we care about and love about this country--is what will inspire the Dem base to vote...and THAT is what this election is about...

28/ I'm not saying the Dems don't need policy ideas, but focusing on wonky, look-how-much-I've-thought about-this stuff is not going to move the needle in 2020...

29/ What the left never understands is: we need to stop approaching elections like the goddamned debate team, and start approaching it like the right does, like the cheer leading squad...

30/  The right knows psychology and we know public policy and sociology...great. The latter does not win elections...

31/ People who say the Dems should ignore Trump's race baiting because its some genius political strategy calculated to distract us, are idiots. He is no genius. And if you downplay it you NORMALIZE him. If you make this about policy, you NORMALIZE him. He is a racist...

32/ He is a white nationalist.

He is an authoritarian.

He and his cult are a threat to the future of the nation and world because of their hatreds.

His movement betrays the country's promise.

THAT is the message that will drive turnout. Not debates over marginal tax rates...

33/ Or how we are going to fund schools...And anyone who says we should ignore the race baiting to talk more about Mueller and Russia is an even bigger fool...that's like talking about Duke and late tax payments or other corruptions...it might all be true but is not the point...

34/ Not to say the House shouldn't impeach over that stuff. They should. But the 2020 candidates must craft a message that is not about that.

Trumpism is the threat to America, more than Putin.

And Putin didn't birth Trumpism.

Conservative White America did...

[survivorunfinishedbusiness]

Episode #3 - “I Stand For The Flag, I Kneel At The Cross” - Amanda

https://survivorunfinishedbusiness.tumblr.com/post/175489103003/immunity-challenge-3

Moral of the story, never trust a weeaboo goombitch

Audaux or whatever that fucking tribe's name is is dead to me. They are worth nothing. SCUM. Scum is what they are. Liars. Their word is worth nothing in this game and neither are they. Unlike them I've got an idol. Time's ticking. And sooner or later their times gonna be up.

im overwhelmed

https://survivorunfinishedbusiness.tumblr.com/post/175491921028/announcement

Amanda is removed from the game.

I’m not a Christian but I know who Monique Heart is. “Therefore whatever you have said in the dark shall be heard in the light, and what you have whispered in private rooms shall be proclaimed on the housetops.” Luke 12:3

oh wow. This game really took a turn for the worst huh. Nicholas left, Dani exploded, one world and a swap happened, tea was spilled, my closest ally was removed from the game, and Athena is ending after this season. I would like it to be known that I had absolutely no idea Amanda was so problematic and would not have gotten so close to her had I known! I'm taking this whole night kinda hard because it's like a punch in the face for me, not only because it hinders my game but also because it's so sad that I had gotten so close to Amanda these past few days and it's honestly super tragic what happened. I literally had no idea she was problematic and I had grown to care for her. I'm def just gonna take the night off and try to gather my bearings before I try to focus on the game or anyone else in it for now. Today has been insanely exhausting. Tomorrow is a new day and I fully intend to play just as hard (if not harder) as I was before, but I'm probably gonna have to start back at square 1. Wish me luck!!

So, tribal went exactly as I planned, and the swap happened... just as planned. However, Amanda wasn't something I had planned or even considered happening. Like, it's crazy when you think you know somebody, but then it turns out they are actually a 180 of what you think they are... Naturally this throws the Night Owls into serious haywire, and honestly, it might as well be a new game only with less allies at this point.

Well, Dani as it turns out is the Abi-Maria type, you know "fuck with me, you're dead." Good news is that I'm on a different tribe. Bad news is that I went in that tribal with 6 people willing to work with me, and walked out with 2.

https://youtu.be/BKWTR3cUibk

As time goes on, I'm slowly feeling a bit better about my tribe, but we'll see how I'm feeling when/if we go to tribal. Bodhi surprisingly seems less upset than Dani, almost makes me glad I got him instead of Dani. (Though having Colin and Timmy would have been ideal for me.)

Hi hosts I haven't made a confessional yet. honestly last night was wild like. i was drinking because i'm on vacaytion and that's what you do and like i started drinking like RIGHT when ryan sent the letter so i knew this was gonna be an interesting night so i kept on doing it and i was definitely gone. so yeah my tribes cool i like dani a lot. hopefully her drama will keep us alive. i don't know who's from what tribe but i do know anna and i are the only ones from talio on a tribe of 8 so that's really cute!

Okay so... last night was a hot mess. We tribe swap but then get put on One World with a scary pairs challenge, but then everyone fights Amanda Lynn for blindsiding Nicholas, THEN she gets exposed and quits the game. Omg Dani’s mind... So now I’m on a new tribe so let’s assess them! Super happy Andrew is with me. My closest ally from the old tribe that I can trust. Nathan and Nicole are here too, but they seem like a tighter duo with each other than us. I just hope they don’t do any shady business. Super happy to be reunited with Bodhi, we were a duo in B.B. pokémon but it might be known with Julia on this tribe. Speaking of Julia, don’t think we’re on good terms. She doesn’t like me so I’m not gonna bother messaging her. I played furby with Colin, we didn’t talk much there though. He tells me he lead the blindside against Nicholas and Kori was with him too so they’re probably working together. And then there’s Isaac, don’t have an opinion of him. Let’s just hope this phase of the game goes swimmingly.

https://survivorunfinishedbusiness.tumblr.com/post/175509590398/immunity-challenge-4

OK WOW THAT AMANDA LYNN DRAMA I THINK SORTA SAVED ME! I WAS PAIRED WIHT JAKE! IN THAT PAIRED UP WHAT EVER CRAP TURN LEFT TURN RIGHT BULLSHIT! and well i was most definitely going to turn right on his ass. Bc i know for a fact he was lying to me i know he was also turning right. IM NOT DUMB JAKE! sooo i was shook! bc like i didnt know all that wud play out. BUT THEN QUEEN JAY B. EXPOSED AMANDA LYNNS ASS! WHICH GETS HER PRETTY MUVH REMOVED/WALKED FROM THE GAME! which means no dumb pairs! sooo now we r on this one world tribal beach for like no reason ! ahah. but yeah i pretty much trust no one on my tribe like at all. BESIDES DANI A FUCKING QUEEN ! DANI I FUCKING LOVE YOU TO THE MOON AN BACK! <3 well im on the ugly audax tribe now. and i need to make  a video DR about other stuff   

ali and emily TY TY FOR PUTTING ANNA on my tribe after the swap! SHE  IS A GODDESS ON THE UNDERWORLD <3 (mean this in a good way) she is definitely a slytherin sooo cunning! ME AN HER BOTH BEING POTS AND VILLAINS OF OUR GAMES AND BEING ON THE SAME TRIBE <3  wow ty for rigging us together <3 SHE IS MY QUEEN! LIKE i hope she is bein genuine wiht me right now bc i want to work with her sooo bad!

Before my first tribal https://youtu.be/RfsGDjeD9_w   After my first tribal https://youtu.be/NDCkPgw75II 

https://youtu.be/M4bMaLxzwpY  Update on what I said about Blake though: we both like the same shows so that’s amazing because they’re Netflix shows which are my favorite.

Ali won't tell me where the idols are. That fucking snake this is why I told the hosts I refused to play with him.

Well, now that the Amanda fiasco has been said and done, I feel good about AJ and Julia in my tribe, meanwhile I still have Colin and I'm trying to work on a potential 5th, if we can get 5 that's a majority in a possible vote, and then I can move through this tribe fearlessly.

I dunno how I feel about the challenge, because it feels like one that if I'm in, I could definitely drop the ball, and as a result be the target, which would SUCK like majorly.

Hi My name is john coffey And yes I drink coffee.

https://survivorunfinishedbusiness.tumblr.com/post/175523828513/immunity-results-4

Talio wins immunity, sending Audax is sent to tribal council.

I'm a little late with this confession but Amanda got removed cus sis, she's homophobic, bye.

17 more to go.

So theres some annoying beef going on between Timmy and Dani and I mean I might as well be annoying and call them out about it in the tribe chat. It's the last season of Athena we gotta spice shit up.

So much is happening, I wanted Dani out, Dani wanted me out, Mo was trying to instigate stuff in the tribe chat. Once the challenge results were posted Ryan was messaging me saying that we should keep the 4 of us who were in the challenge safe because we need strong competitors and I agreed. Then after that I heard from Anna that Dani was saying my name, which is fucked up because she (Dani) had just said last night that she wants to put the past behind us. But honestly, and this is going to sound really stupid, after the Mo thing in the tribe chat, I'd much rather have him gone. The way to do that is to work with Dani and just let everything out into the open. Especially since Mo said, both in PMs and in the tribe chat, that he is trying a more assertive and bold strategy. Don't reveal your strategy, that's stupid. So Dani and I have been talking and we want Mo out because that seems like the best idea right now because he is trying to personify that there is an issue between us. I can get Anna on board and she seems like she would agree to it based on a small talk about it and Dani said she got John. But also John hasn't responded to my last message so....that's something. Trusting Dani could be what gets me out of this game and I really could be booboo the fool, but sometimes risks need to be taken. I'm just hoping that I can convince Ryan that this is the smarter plan, or maybe he can talk some sense into me and then Dani goes. Either way I don't want to be the one leaving tomorrow and I'm going to try everything to make sure that that does not happen. But right now it is 1am and I can get nothing accomplished this late, so that will have to wait until tomorrow where hopefully I don't wake up to a tribe chat on fire.

ofc my tribe loses. Tribal council loves "ana" ;) @ emily anyway dani and timmy are fighting which makes it sooo easy to just sit back and vote one of them BUT i really like timmy. and Dani is close to Blake and Ryan who I have an alliance chat with so I don't think they will vote her. Naturally I threw out the idea to keep BOTH of them for the drama and since Dani is going to go after Colin, Kori AND Timmy she will make such a great meat shield even in the future. So I threw out Mo's name. We were originally not going to vote anyone who competed in the challenge but Mo took literally so long, 5 minutes longer than the person on the other tribe and Ryan had gotten him a beautiful lead. Ofc I was 2 minutes slower but hear me out. Apparently in the jeopardy challenge he had bad internet or something and flopped and let everyone down. So thats kinda 2 in a row. Don't get me wrong, I think he's a super nice guy and I get why everyone loves him BUT him and I's convo's seem to run dry. Compared to people like Blake or Ryan who I want to talk to all the time, I don't see myself working with him closely in the future. So we will see. Looks like its gonna be one of those three!

it's me again. SO last night mo was like stirring the pot or something and tried having like an intervention with dani and timmy. or like, relationship therapy i guess. BUT it seems like little mo's fun backfired because mr timmy came to me this morning and it appears he and dani have kissed and made up and now they want little mo out. gay gagging! anna's on board i think. and it doesn't seem like vindicta is united. i know john said he didn't really connect with everyone so that's good. and timmys gonna pull in RTP so we can vote out mo. so that's fun!

The numbers to get Mo out seem to be there so I am thrilled! We don't need someone who is going to try to cause drama just so they can then hide in the shadows. The difficult part comes next and that is telling Ryan that Mo is the target, but I am hoping that will go well because the numbers are already there, and I'll phrase it in a way that is me asking him rather than saying it is already happening...even though it is.

Kori is literally.... like... insane. Every single time I'm on a call with him and one other person he offers a 'voice chat' alliance to f3. We've had one with Timmy since night 1, made one with Nathan yesterday, and he also offered one to Isaac. It's literally too much I'm screaming. Straights are WILD.

LAST MINUTE DR.... I WON IMMUNITY WOOOO BUT I THINK THE FIRST TIME I DONT IM GONE GBVFDJGNVFD

https://survivorunfinishedbusiness.tumblr.com/post/175556933558/tribal-council-4-audax

Mo is sent home by a vote of 6-1. You can watch his preseason interview here.

[elizabethrobertajones]

Ok so if all four of them are gonna be in a *cowboy themed* motel in 13x6 they're gonna have to split up 2 and 2 right??? So I'm really gonna need Dean and Cas to share a room and then have a convo that's reverse of the "Talk to me" one in S8 where instead they talk about how they both did feel suicidal but how they've both overcome it. ~For reasons unknown~

That would be great mirroring, and it’s always good to compare the fun episodes where things seem back to normal to 8x08… However… Sorry, but this is a bummer reply, I’m just not good with leaving off things like this :P

I sort of feel though that neither Dean or Cas got to completely overcome things in their respective paths through dark other worlds… Cas said he’d just keep fighting and even if the standing up was an important part, he acknowledged he was going back with a sense of hopelessness that he’d get what he truly wants - and that’s just how it was in the Empty, while it sounds like he may have forgotten the experience so it’s for now a metaphorical state he passed through and we got to see it vocalised and it probably means roughly where he’s up to. But the despair of resolution, the fact need/want has been called out for US to know it’s a major theme but Cas of course hasn’t actually talked face to face with any Winchester, let alone Dean, to resolve need/want, which is the core of his depression, thematically… He’s come back with levelled up determination and a will to live, which is great, but there’s so much work to do before he feels happy even if he DOES remember the Empty. I’ve written ridiculously long things tracking his arc so I’ll just say that this was a great step forwards for him but in no way actually resolving anything. 

For Dean as well, Billie sent him back but it was with the “work to do” order/motivation that’s made Dean and Sam power through a lot of their worst times, and like how in the Empty nothing new was actually said about Cas, it just brought everything up that was troubling him so we’d get a sample of how he feels, that was just repeating the theme for Dean that he started this season on - that at best he’s going to feel like a guy doing his job, because someone more important than him told him he had to and he can’t stop now. 

Billie’s words are the sort of advice he got in season 7 after Cas (and then Bobby) died, from Bobby, Frank and Eliot Ness, all of which was a variation of the same sort of nihilism about doing the job because it’s the job and you’re the one who does it. I’m in most agreement with the meta I’ve seen that Dean didn’t go into that whole mess looking for a reason to die, he just was in that state Bobby described: 

BOBBY:I want to talk about your new party line.

DEAN:Party? What are you talking about? I don’t even vote.

BOBBY:“The world’s a suicide case. We save it, it just steals more pills”?

DEAN:Bobby, I’m here, okay? I’m on the case. What’s the problem?

BOBBY:I’ve seen a lot of hunters live and die. You’re starting to talk like one of the dead ones, Dean.

DEAN:No, I’m talking the way a person talks when they’ve had it, when they can’t figure out why they used to think all this mattered.

I’m picking on this conversation because it’s the most detailed but also because it’s the one Dean has WITH Bobby so in no way shape or form can it be about Dean losing Bobby, except that of course this episode gave Dean and Sam both a private conversation with Bobby about where they were at, so we could have a good last moment with him each, and also to gauge how they’d react to his death (Dean with this massive depression caused by losing Cas and his betrayal to pile on top of) and Bobby’s last advice apply after as well. His advice being:

BOBBY:Come on, now. You tried to hang it up and be a person with Lisa and Ben. And now here you are with a mean old coot and a van full of guns. That ain’t person behavior, son. You’re a hunter, meaning you’re whatever the job you’re doing today. Now, you get a case of the Anne Sextons, something’s gonna come up behind you and rip your fool head off. Now, you find your reasons to get back in the game. I don’t care if it’s love or spite or a ten-dollar bet. I’ve been to enough funerals. I mean it. You die before me, and I’ll kill you.

Cheery. 

But this is essentially what Billie does for Dean. She reads him, sees he wants to die, and he tells her that he doesn’t matter, so she reassures him that he has a job, that he is important, that he’s in this cosmic position of responsibility. It would almost be encouraging, to know you’re not meant to die that day, that there is a reason for you to be alive. But not for Dean in the state he was in then.

Cas coming back is GREAT and of course it’s going to make Dean wildly happy. But he’s been feeling this way about the job a long, long time in ways that aren’t to do with Cas at all but is just his underlying major trauma that you can see coming from a hundred miles off in season 1:

from 2x09:

DEANI’m tired, Sam. I’m tired of this job, this life … this weight on my shoulders, man. I’m tired of it.

[…]

DEANI just think we should take a break from all this. Why do we gotta get stuck with all the responsibility, you know? Why can’t we live life a little bit?

Or this speech from 2x20 I contractually have to quote at least once a month as a card-carrying Dean!girl:

DEAN All of them. Everyone that you saved, everyone Sammy and I saved. They’re all dead. And there’s this woman, that’s haunting me. I don’t know why. I don’t know what the connection is, not yet anyway. It’s like my old life is, is coming after me or something. Like it like it doesn’t want me to be happy. Course I know what you’d say. Well, not the you that played softball but… “So go hunt the Djinn. He put you here, it can put you back. Your happiness for all those people’s lives, no contest. Right?” But why? Why is it my job to save these people? Why do I have to be some kind of hero? What about us, huh? What, Mom’s not supposed to live her life, Sammy’s not supposed to get married? Why do we have to sacrifice everything, Dad? It’s… Yeah…

(And, side note, it really annoys me when people make 2x20 about brotherly wuv, platonically or not, because THAT is why Dean decided to go un-wish this life, not because of anything to do with AU Sam, who he still trusted he could find his Sam in >.> I’ll just keep repeating this until I stop stumbling over the idea… :P)

He’s had similar smaller moments like this but season 2, 7 and now 13 are his grief seasons, so I’m most interested in these parallels. Like, just in general. Specifically in season 2 because he was dealing with John’s order to save Sam or kill him, which of course is a dynamic that Jack could horrifyingly repeat for him if Dean gets attached to a kid with the same horrifying destiny. Specifically in season 7 Dean was dealing with losing Cas and it immediately struck him to the core, that even while Cas was still Godstiel he was having mirrors with his season 2 self after losing John:

DEANSounds good. You got any leads on where the demon is? Making heads or tails of any of Dad’s research? Because I sure ain’t. But you know, if we do finally find it - oh. No, wait, like you said. The Colt’s gone. But I’m sure you’ve figured out another way to kill it. We’ve got nothing, Sam. Nothing, okay? So you know the only thing I can do? Is I can work on the car.

[… five years elapse]

SAM: So, what? Try to talk to him again?

DEAN: Sam.

SAM: Dean, all we can do is talk to the guy.

DEAN: He’s not a guy. He’s God. And he’s pissed. And when God gets righteous, you get the hell out of the way; haven’t you read the Bible?

SAM: I guess…

DEAN: Cas is never coming back. He’s lied to us, he used us, he cracked your gourd like it was nothing. No more talk; we have spent enough on him.

SAM: Okay.

DEAN: Hand me that socket wrench.

Dean didn’t lose the car this time, just had Miriam deface it with “Bitch” on the window and the car was washed and shiny in a couple of episodes. But it’s metaphorically a similar process and I guess all they had time for when 13x01 was about taking time in a very different way, by giving Dean like 10 minutes at the end of the episode all about how he was grieving Cas. 

Anyway, I think there’s a lot of thematic overlap in what it means for Dean right now, with Billie’s reminder of his position on the cosmic ladder, to John’s order about Sam, to Dean’s responsibility to deal with Cas and the Leviathans, which eventually crystallises into his mission to kill Dick - and though Dick kills Bobby, finding out who is the head leviathan in 7x09 really just seals the deal of who Dean needs to personally kill to deal with everything, and the Bobby thing was just an extra motivation to fall into a revenge mindset, but it also about what happened with Cas (and when Cas comes back, he has to help kill Dick for the same reason it all happened to him and he was connected to it and responsible). 

We really haven’t seen anything yet, but I think getting Cas back is a temporary fix at least to a bigger issue, which is Dean’s burden of the world, which Chuck lumped on him in 11x23 and made me very, very excited that Dean’s duty to save everyone was hopefully going to get some microscopic treatment and maybe one day some sort of resolution. I don’t think Billie’s comment was a pick me up, and it reminds me of how Cas started picking on Dean on Heaven’s behalf in 4x01 - telling him they had work for him. In 4x02 Dean complains a lot about how he hates being singled out and it’s absolutely horrifying that he was saved for unknown reasons. And those reasons turned out to be being Michael’s vessel and one of the 2 grenade pins needed to be pulled on the planet being destroyed.

(Which we have some handy visuals for and reminders of in the AU world right now :P) 

I’d hope in the long run Chuck’s orders end up being destroyed as much as John’s were, because the parallel is 1 to 1 except bigger scale, and Chuck telling Dean the world has him to protect it literally in God’s own place is an absolutely horrifying unfair burden than broke him in season 5 and can be directly equated to how season 2 broke him when Sam, who was basically his whole world at the time, was lumped on him with the same burden. In the mean time, Billie’s adding to the weight on Dean, although long run she’s neutral, commenting on it rather than ordering, and seems to have some confidence that he has a purpose and will fulfil it, I can see Dean struggling with it in just the same way he took Cas’s comments in 4x01. 

So even if he seems happy to get Cas back, the root problem of his depression, his sense of being worthless, is still truly about how he defines himself as a hunter and the guy who is supposed to save everyone - who will trade himself for a house of random ghosts he feels he LET DOWN by not investigating well enough sooner. Because he has sole responsibility to fix the planet.

The job is killing Dean literally and metaphorically, and the grief of losing all his loved ones as they do it is just an additional awful, awful part of it. Not getting Cas back immediately thanks to Chuck in 13x01 just confirmed how alone Dean is in the world to him, and he directly mentioned the line from 11x23 when reaching out to Chuck… Getting Cas back and Cas returning seemingly on his own steam is going to be a nice turning point, and good for uplifting Dean, but the core problem remains and since 11x23 I’ve been pretty certain that Dean’s endgame is NOT to be a hunter… Billie also now makes me think he has some purpose to fulfil, and ideally, fulfilling it would let him finally get off the cosmic ladder and be who he wants to be without obligation. 

About all I can really speculate about that hopeful endgame would be that Sam seems to be lumped in with Dean on this, but Cas is literally outside the system based on how he got himself back from the Empty without Chuck’s interference, OR except for in thematic “rewards” or dramatic irony from just missing him really hard, Dean didn’t actually bring him back by DOING anything, and Jack, who is also outside the system in some ways, did instead. But that’s all a huge mess right now :P Need more data. 

So anyway, to go back to Dean and Cas next episode? I think they will have a lot to talk about but it has to be immediate character stuff about their actions and desires. They are both really good for each other and going through very similar emotional territory so I hope they get honest and tell each other how they’re doing, but I don’t think they’ll be talking about overcoming anything. I think if it does mirror 8x08 it MAY be a reversal that Dean admits how bad he was doing without Cas, and Cas is still too uncertain about what happened to him or with a link to make it directly about Dean to reciprocate the sentiment… For all the good communication lately I’m not entirely sure if Dean and Cas can absolutely knock down all the walls. 

And I seriously fear dramatic interruptions to their reconciliation just because of the extremely vague episode descriptions we have after 13x06, which seem to  be concealing exactly what happens in that episode… I’m really expecting silly cowboys for like the middle half of the episode, with the first quarter for reconciliation and getting onto the job, and the last quarter or five minutes for shit to completely hit the fan in some way, probably about Jack, and probably involving Cas since he’s specifically not mentioned in the episode descriptions *even though they just got him back*. 

I’m not worried or wanky about this, I’m just bracing myself for the next round of drama and what its subject will be. If Cas is fine and hanging out with the Winchesters still for 2 episodes and it was redacted spoilers for the sake of 13x05′s last 5 minutes that’s awesome :P But it sounds like time to brace yourself not to expect everything to be fluffy or resolved, either with plot stuff, or emotional arcs. We’re only 5 episodes in so the drama needs to keep on happening, and there’s no way Dean and Cas can or should overcome their arcs about their depression when it’s been set up so interestingly, just because they’re hanging out again.

But it WILL make them feel a lot better in the short term. :D I’m really excited for what they WILL say to each other, I just feel like in some ways we’re really starting to put the cart before the horse on identifying what stories are being told and what moments are being offered to tell them, and assuming the stories are over just because something really dramatic happened. I’m seeing it a lot with all sorts of thematic threads, that just because they’re becoming obvious or surface level or have had a really dramatic moment all about them, they’re being wrapped up as we speak. Instead I think it’s got to all be set up for the rest of the season, where this is all important stuff to know, but the real work hasn’t even begun yet :P

[survivorreelsmagicwithin]

Episode 2 - “Y'all. Vote me out fr cause I'm inactive as fronk” - Joshua (through Autumn)

I hate flag-making challenges. I will not be helpful at all, and I hope that someone else can take the reigns and lead us to victory. I honestly feel safe going into a tribal council, but I do not want to test that theory.

Next morning

With Chips and Jules working on the crest designs, I feel confident that we will do well in the challenge. Maybe not the best, but definitely not the worst. I still have the same anxious feeling that my tribe is not active enough for my taste, but I will just have to live with it for now. Besides, at least this is not immunity because that we increase my anxiety by so much. But, I keep forgetting to search the idol hunt which is my bad, but it is just so hard and long that I do not really feel like searching all the time lol

ART CHALLENGE <333 i love these challenges. Jess made my picture 110% better and its super cute. The note that she wrote with it is also hella cute and I love the whole HP aesthetics bc i never got to go to real hogwarts ;-; but i'm sure most of yall can related. The boys weren't too helpful but nick was better than jacob who is sick. Nick was way more active aka jacob said 3 sentences the entire challenge sooooo…. if we lose idk I might just save jacob anyways bc pregame relations.

Won reward, but now we have to win immunity again. I really hope that this reward helps us continue to survive. I don't want to have to vote anyone out. We've been getting first, but I really just want to survive this challenge, its known to be hard.

I think I have been stuck with the second most challenge inept tribe in the history of my ORG career. I literally said so many answers in my version of the story and Jules just fucked it up. And then they got the girl's name wrong. And then they started mixing up characters. I know I did well, but fuck these people. God. Now we need a tribe to get 0 which is very unlikely. I will just resign myself to tribal. I hope and pray that these people have some common sense and do not want to vote me out

Listen. Listen. Listen. I dang knew this story was going to be Harry Potter based. I knew in my brain and in my heart that I shouldn’t have been the one to start that thing. What do I do? Start the dang thing. Oh well. We did alright. I would be shocked if we won tho but if we don’t I’ll be relieved. I def don’t feel confident enough but I really had a lot of fun with my tribe. I really miss this and really hope that my time isn’t cut short! I feel really good about my tribe mates sincerely. And that’s kind of scary! I would hate to see any of us to go and how it’s going to affect the bond we have if we vote someone out. In this moment with Max sitting out, it may be him who goes if we go to tribal. I hope that isn’t the case. I’ve got my fingers crossed for us. Huff Puff strong!

Honestly Jules dropped the ball sis!! But it’s okay, I love her. She’s really nice and I know she tried her best. Plus she’s in an alliance with me and Owen, so we should have the numbers against Joanna or Miguel if we go to tribal. Personally, I’d prefer Joanna to go. She’s kinda domineering, but she’s also an asset in challenges thus far. She is organized and direct. I’ve also talked to her a bit more than Miguel, so I guess I don’t really care who goes.

I’m happy I didn’t fuck up the reward comp and the shit that I drew got us a win!

I really hope I don't bomb that challenge, I answered everything that Kevin talked to me about.... I think!  The rest of them tried very hard but I am SOOO glad that I asked to do my part at the end because my memory of repeating things is horrendous but I'm usually pretty good at bullshitting test answers... too bad I got some of the multiple choice stuff wrong.

I think that if we do lose I am still in a good spot on this tribe and hopefully I won't be in danger.  I feel like I'm on everyone's good side and Max kind of just disappeared so maybe we could just vote him out this round? Idk.

Hopefully we don't have to worry about it.  I smell a swap coming up pretty soon and I just hope I'm either with Owen or with some of the people from my tribe.  I have no idea if they know anyone or are close with anyone in the other houses.

I'm still feeling the closest to Lily and Kevin but I have been talking to Landen a good bit too these days so hopefully we'll be safe or we can all just agree on Max.

16 minutes later

OOOOOH IS LANDEN PAVING THE WAY FOR A MOVE TO SEND MAX PACKING???

He just told me that me, lily and kevin are precious angels that must be protected and that he likes Max when he's around too so that sounds like something... HMMM...

I can't get cocky, I always go home when I get cocky. But I like this.

my host chat saw this first (shout-out to Drewie and Dennis): Y’all I’m an idiot. I thought I only knew 2 people in this game (Owen and chips). Then I remembered I also know Jess, Autumn, and dan. Literally love and respect each of you my brain just don’t got the strongest memory no more. I’m so sorry!!!! I literally just told landen I only know 2 ppl. I’m just gonna try to not remember it happened.

Ugh.....I need to get it together.

I love my tribe talking to each other now that we have to!! Everyday I'm like damn either I'm on the bottom or I'm not the only one with piss poor social game. Ok so... the moment the hosts said we got 1 point, I started getting ready for tribal lmaaaooo. No sense crying over it either because all the tribes basically just had to show up in order to beat that

Like how could we not go to tribal with a score of ONE? That shit's embarrassing hahaha. That's like when your teacher passes the test back to everyone sitting around you but not you so you KNOW it's bad. But you know what? It's all good cause I'd rather us take the L now and get it out the way and we can all laugh about it cause losing won't be funny after long. The real question is: will Gryffindor do this the easy way or the hard way caaauusse we all know who the weakest link is. I just wanna see if someone puts two and two together without my prodding. Chips already said we voting together right and I'm like yes sir. There's no better place than being on the same page

WE WON OMG!! Jules basically gave me nothing, which is fine, i understand, but i'm so impressed that we pulled that off. Absolutely killing these reward challenges really helps!

"Y'all. Vote me out fr cause I'm inactive as fronk."

Tonight we learned Joshua is a feminist selfless man that I stan because he's volunteering to go home without me having to put his name out, which I was going to do. Like imagine if every guy had that kind of self-awareness, to recognize why he should be the vote and then embrace it instead of wreaking havoc. And wanting to see others succeed more than yourself? King shit! He knew when to hang it up and did just that. Like the number of times I've seen a vote get complicated for no fucking reason because everyone wants a fight to the death. Enough- I'm old, tired, and cannot exert too much energy at once. We got a long game ahead of us, not to mention quarantine. So from the bottom of my heart, thank you Joshua. We need more players like you and I appreciate your service

im back back BACK AGAIN with another confessional! not much has changed but a few updates for the sake of these being required :) 1. max has become even more inactive, he's not reached out to me personally since the first day and any time i messaged him after that he's sent me nothing back that i can build a convo off of, so we just have stopped speaking. Luckily this challenge only required four people and everyone else SHOWED UP!! or at least spoke about their availability, while he did not. However in his defense he said he was having some issues at home and i feel for him but his inability to connect has been an issue before he spoke about anything in our tribe chat with us. I'm trying to give him the benefit of the doubt but this point my relationships with the other 3 are leaps and bounds ahead of where I am at with Max. Maybe he can pick up some speed if we continue winning challenges but, it's not looking too hot. SPEAKING OF CHALLENGES, well first we lost reward AGAIN, but we won immunity.. AGAIN! thank goodness for not being first or second boot, i always love being able to avoid these early tribals and if i can get to a swap without seeing one that would be ideal, but also if we do go and maybe vote out max? wouldn't be the worst thing. Moral of the story we won and thats exciting! however.. if we didn't.. the first big push of strategic talk came up with landen when he hinted at being frustrated with max's lack of presence which I also share. I do believe if we lost me and landen could have most definitely picked up ruthie and lily to form a four against him, if he even came to tribal. That would be my ideal situation and if we continue on this tribes hopefully it gives me a nice cushion to fall on if we do lose so i dont have to entirely blow up my social game within the first few rounds by voting out someone i've built a connection with. If max can go and the remaining four hufflepuffs can make a swap I would feel good about that, and maybe in the right circumstances we could work together on the swapped tribes because i genuinely like all of these people (yes max too but in this specific scenario he wouldn't be included bc... well..) anyways to close this off i still absolutely ADORE lily, she is fun and our conversations are really good, and same goes for ruthie, hopefully i dont have to see either of them or myself go home before we can really start playing because i think we could do some damage. :) ok anyways this was longer than i thought it would be goodbye

I'm still not over the fact that I was able to answer 7 of those questions right. I have the memory of a plastic fork.  I also love that we are SAFE!

I do kind of hope things get spicy and we swap this round and become two tribes of 9. That'd be cute. I don't want VI to get bored and crack on me. BUT ALSO I think I have solid enough relationships with almost everyone on this tribe... so who knows?!

Also... these hoes really out here trying to search for an idol in PUBLIC. IN PUBLIC. WHAT ON EARTH IS GOING ON HERE?

Dear diary, seems like we keep winning challenges, which is great but tbh i feel like every time i give a disadvantage to my team because english is not my first Language, and so far its been a vocabulary test and a listening and speaking test. I mean I knew I signed up for school but damn. Give me some macarena  or drinking tequila challenge and I'll crush it

bippity boppity boo im back again with almost no content kdfasjhdskjfh

Ravenclaw working smarter and we keep winning, period!!! Thankful that y'all put Dan and I together....bc truly we will be unstoppable in these competitions. I kind of want to lose soon though to see how things would shake out, but I don't really have bad blood with anyone. Joanna seems passionate enough in the tribe chat and the challenges, even if she's dry in PMs. Miguel still won't give me anything other than a "how are you," but I hope the best for him in life lol

Still love Jules and Dan, and we made a three person alliance, but I haven't talked with either of them much one on one since it happened.... I really need to step the social game up eventually, but right now, I'm coasting, and maybe that's what I need before I find the time and resources in this game to strike!!

The idol hunt is hard but Dan seems onto something. Honestly he's gonna be a big threat sooner or later so he's sticking around as long as I can keep him! The last two games I've been in I've seen "goats" get dragged to the end and locked in final 3 positions, and then these perceived goats have ended up winning. so I want the big players in this game to rise to the top and fight it out in the end!

let’s say i am como we dice.. fed up with a lot :flushed: a lot meaning joshua starting to get on my nerves a bit! he’s genuinely sweet n all but.. the way he complained about us losing by putting down others work HHH pissed me off. which is why i will be voting him out hehe.. but so far my misting has worked because no one wants to vote me out! mwah

Slytherin killed the memory challenge. We thought we were all gonna flop bc all of us thought we sucked at memory stuff. um well we knocked it out of the park? Ravenclaw got 4 and huff/gryff got 1. We got 7 so oops. I do hope things turn out well for Gryffindor but no one I really know/care about is in that house so I'm not too worried. I hope they continue to lose or even hufflepuff since ravenclaw has 2 of my friends in it.

I have been TERRIBLE with confessionals but only because there's really not been much going on? I have an alliance with Dan and Owen, and even though I wrote off Joanna I was DEFINITELY wrong in doing that. Miguel is sort of the outlier. Our team is kinda iconic though? We've done so well on all the challenges. I might be the weakest link? More to come.

it's pretty sad but the whole tribe has agreed to vote max if we lose, basically he's just never around because of what's going on at home and like thats sad but... we gotta do what we gotta do *shrug*. I'm really feeling good about Hufflepuff moving forward, i've never bonded this much this easily with EVERYONE on a tribe and i just feel like if we keep winning or even if we lose and have to vote out max, we could be a great group for the future. especially i feel great about working with kevin, we dominated eve's game after eve came between us in 2020 that dastardly witch... :P (juuust kiddin. love ya!) but now we could totally do well in this game too i think.....

lily and ruthie are just so sweet and we really bond talking about pretty much anything,, especially lily is a great conversationalist and i just find it so natural to talk to them both. i'd love to work with any combination of people from hufflepuff in the future, hopefully i start sucking a little less at all these challenges. i think i did pretty great on memory :D

So here is the summary of what has happened since last time

We had a reward challenge that was drawing. Mine sucked. Apparently 3/4 so no reward.

We played Telephone. My team didnt realize that details are the most important parts of that and didnt share then with Autumn so Autumn didnt share them with me. Then I didnt know them when asked about them.

We scored 1 point and lost. Since I still have no alliance I'm scared that it could be me. So I kind of got an idea how everyone was feeling.

Juls let me know she wanted to vote Joshua and- it's not me so that's fine!

Then I was talking to Autumn about it and - OOP! Josh asked to be voted out. So unless he plays an idol I'm supposing he is leaving after asking to go.

woo my tribe won immunity!! we are safe! i’m glad bc i’m forming good relationships with ppl on my tribe. i think we all get along rly well so i hope we keep winning. the challenge was fun and i slayed bc i’m skinny mwah

Ya know what’s refreshing? Being on a tribe that actually wins!!! The last three games I’ve played I’ve been on flop ass starting tribes.

Now we’ll lose every challenge

10 minutes later

This sickening bitch just found a hidden immunity idol!!!! Good until f6 L A D I E S!!!!!!

HI BARBS SO I WAS GROUNDED SO I MISSED THE CHALLENGE BUT MY HUFFLEPUFF BABS SLAYED SM SO IM LIVING

CONFESSIONAL 2.1 —

Not much strategy has happened this episode, just simply tribal bonding! We are SlytherWINNING, getting reward and immunity this time! How wonderful.

Regarding my tribe mates, I love all three. I pray, pray, pray we make swap, i do Noh want to be a dirty bad guy and have to vote one out.. yet. Haha.

I was drunk during immunity, one full glass of rum & coke, so I am shocked that we won immunity. Honestly, I feel silly admitting I was drunk to my tribe because... if I can do that when drunk, imagine if I was sober. Competition Beast, duh.

I also gave up my run this round for the tribe to use. Was partially social, partially I just do not understand how to do the Hunt, so I might as well help the greater good. Either way, it comes off positively.

Hoping for a smooth journey for a little longer!

x nick

Joshue has basically quit at this point so I have no fear going into tribal

[survivesalem]

Rites of Passage

Liam:  We Never Met :(

Jessie: your name keeps trying to autocorrect to Chernobyl idk why I’m sure you were a lovely person!

Jay: You were so robbed in this game, I hope you have the chance to play another and have a full experience.

Liam:  We Never Met :(

Jessie:also didn’t get to know you ♥️ heard you self voted but like I kinda wish I got to meet everyone

Jay:  Pepe the frog

Liam: We Never met #CanadianQueen

Jessie:a fellow Canadian who I also never got the chance to Meet ! 

Jay: I didn't get the chance to meet you but I bet you're rad

Liam: Strategic King! Super intelligent! King of Kentucky & Dairy Queen

Jessie: One of the most down to earth people I know we will get to play again together sometime soon I hope 

Jay: When I saw you on the cast I was excited but also worried because I had to vote for you in Atomic and I was worried you'd be mad. But you deserved to do way better than you did in this game

Liam: We didn’t have the opportunity to meet but I heard you were a force to be reckoned with!

Jessie:  fellow Canadian robbed early due to going after my aly actually so sweet love your cosplay lipsync you did in atomic

Jay: One of these days we'll actually be able to play together lmao. I think you're wonderful and wholesome but you're also very strategic so when we had the chance we had to take it.

Liam:  #AlaceForever!!! Sweetest of hearts

Jessie:  we never met but maybe a future game ?

Jay:  Totally swap screwed, if you had made it to merge I'm sure you could have done some damage. It really feels like forever since we talked even though it's only been like 30 days.

Liam: Your personality was super eccentric and I STAN! We had a small period of time getting to talk but when we did you were funny asf!

Jessie:  such a chaotic individual you were the first one to call out the tribe throwing and I thought you were joking . Would of been fun to see you pop off on people again

Jay:  I don't think we have played together before this game so when I saw you were playing I REALLY wanted to work with you. Unfortunately there were other circumstances this season that prevented it, but you were still an icon of this game while you were here. ILY and thank you for all the love you've given me during my times in Atomic.

Liam: Future Broadway STAR! Always had a positive energy and just icon all round

Jessie :a fellow nerd who got cut when Dylan was suppose to go you were done dirty.

Jay:  Soooo we never really spoke and that's definitely my bad but I don't have much to say other than I hope you had a good time this season!

Liam: Probably the smartest person on the cast. Your brain is POWERFUL! I love our nerdy talks about ATLA! It was sad to see you quit tho :(

Jessie:  when you quit the game I told you I hope everything’s turn out okay because your a lovely human I meant that

Jay:  I also didn't talk much with you, and I don't know why you wanted to leave but I hope you're doing alright now

Liam: The man, the myth, the legend, the kiwi! It was great to have an ANZAC with me and you were the perfect shield MWAH!

Jessie:  we became friends after atomic and I’m glad  we did . You are such a interesting person and I loved our convos .

Jay: AHHH MAC I miss you so much, you and I were tight from the start and getting to meet and play with you was a treat. I'm very excited to see you again after the season.

Liam: Board Games king!! Let’s play monopoly one day pls! I feel the worst about voting you out :(

Jessie: you are a very smart individual and you knew what was going on. Your intellectual game convos your last few rounds reallly made me think about things .

Jay: You and I didn't talk too much and again definitely on me because you seemed wonderful from the times we did talk or during tribal.

Liam:  Gizmo & I had our ups and downs… Our relationship was rocky at points but overall I did like him as a person and his passion for this game and also your passion for teaching & science!

Jessie: a quiet soul but you managed to not get first merge boot which is impressive . I saw you and Cameron as a duo . Sorry we didn’t talk more 

Jay:  You were a strategic FORCE in this game, but unfortunately everyone knew it. You played hard and I really respect that. When we talked towards the end of your time in the game, I really regretted not talking more to you sooner. I know you weren't in the best place when you were last in the game and I hope you're doing better now.

Liam:  Robbed of Pripyat and now robbed of Salem!!! You were the biggest threat @ F6 so unfortunately I had to cut you! Stoner King! Happy Birthday for Sunday my dude!!!!

Jessie: oh Brien I could say lots of nice things about you high key . Your one of the people I was friends with the start of the season and you were gonna win ♥️ your such a sweet human and I’m glad we got to play together . 100 percent your loyalty by giving me that steal a vote I’ll never forget.

Jay:  Omg Brien you're the best ilysm, voting you out was the hardest vote for me to cast all season, but I hope you can understand why I had to :( but other than that, you were one of my top allies and talking to you on call so much really reinvigorated my love of playing these games. Hope you get player of the season~

Liam:  RAFFY!!! The Bottoms really snapped this season and Raffy was the ultimate power bottom! He played a really smart game from the bottom and I was really impressed by his game overall.

Jessie:  fellow witch, your energy was definitely contagious I loved the vibes you gave off . You weren’t afraid to pop off when need be. Even though your mad I wanna be friends after this game 💕

Jay:  Raffy I have SO much respect for you. You never once gave up this season, you had fight even when you were on the wrong side of the numbers. Getting to play this entire season with you, whether we were working together or not, you made it exciting. It was really great to see you again after a few years, a real throwback.

Liam: Giraffe Icon!! I wanted to be honest with you @ the final 4 tribal and say I voted for you! 

Jessie: you were always trying to make moves until you got voted out I applaud you for that . If we connected sooner you could of been sitting here I do believe 

Jay:  Welllll it's an understatement to say we weren't so close this season. I think it's impressive how far you made it while constantly being in the conversation to go, so you definitely did something right. I think in your next game if people give you more of a chance, and I'm definitely guilty of not giving you a chance sometimes and I'll own up to it, that you could do some real damage.

Jessie:  when we first met during tribe swap I didn’t think we’d get along I thought you seemed really quiet but eventually we talked and got over that hurdle . 

Liam: The purest of hearts thank you for your loyalty and your overall kindness <3 forever love you

Liam:  Where do I even start?! I loved our lil Nerdy Conversations from day 1 and just your overall attitude you're such a queen and you deserve the best from life ilysm <3

Jay: Jessie omg I know we had a slow start but I feel like our relationship really blossomed the longer we were here. I think you played this game hard and I hope the jury gives you the credit you deserve, keep on being your wonderful self 💜 

Jay:  I WISH we got to be on the same tribe premerge because I wish our relationship could have started sooner. It's wild that we didn't really talk too much before we aligned cause you and I worked together SO WELL! This game wouldn't have been the same without you, I can't believe it's your first game ever. You killed it.

Jessie:  day one ride or die . I’m forever greatful for our convos in this game I could probably write a really long paragraph and I might after this game. This is a real friendship that I got from this game and I’m excited to be nerdy friends after .

[survivenovascotia]

Episode 9 - ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  - Keegan

So I talked to Coco, and both of us agreed now is not the time to flip. It was a pretty obvious choice, my last confessional was just me over thinking things but what else is new? I don’t feel bad about sticking with my og tribe (which is a strategy I usually hate) because we haven’t really had a crucible? or a split? Like it’s not like I know I’m on the bottom from previous votes, there were none. So there’s no reason for me or anyone to flip.... i hope.

We voted Darcy out, and now the hard part begins, trying to get Mac to believe I might still work with him. Ideally what I want is a “let’s protect each other until it is time to flip” scenario, but thats a hard sell, and is also very risky

Darcy was blindsided and voted off. Which is quite upsetting. Darcy was a great person and a close ally of mine. On the plus side Livingston was very much left out of the majority vote which means that he’s fully on our side now. I hate saying that. “Our side” “Their side”. I don’t feel like I entirely fall into a specific side at the moment. Heather and I have had great conversation and a bond of mutual trust. Even though we didn’t vote together we’re watching each other’s backs. And that’s 95% the reason I didn’t panic play my hidden immunity idol. Mac told me he also has an extra vote so that’s incredibly useful to us. Part of me is hoping Heather wins immunity again and sends me off to Oak Island. I’d like the opportunity to pick a third advantage in this game. On an interesting note Kyle is saying that Austin doesn’t feel comfortable and wants to make a move. I’m not sure I trust that so early on in the merge and so soon after immediately voting someone out. It could be a trap. And I’m back to being annoyed at Kyle. He told Livingston and Darcy to message Heather the moment she said things were quiet to Kyle. If she didn’t suspect the three of them of being a tight group she certainly did after that. I’m seriously questioning the gameplay of some of these people. It’s bizarre.

So this morning Kyle whips out a whiteboard and starts planning shit. Calm down there. Anyways, he made a colour coded chart about “cross tribal relations”. Kyle and Livingston are connected with Coco, Dan is connected with Austin and Eric, and I’m connected with Heather. Mac has no connections apparently. So his brilliant plan is for us to win immunity and send Glo to Oak Island. So far so good, I’m down with that even though I flopped massively in the challenge and won’t be winning at all. And then he hits me with “Are you good to vote Heather?” So instead of voting of Stephen or Evan who we don’t have a relationship with, you want to vote off the one person I do have a relationship with? All this partly hinges on Austin flipping and voting off Heather because apparently Austin told Kyle he wants to make a big move. I don’t buy it but believe what you want to believe. The other big part of this plan is relying on Dan to butter up Austin and make him flip. But really why would Dan even work with us in the first place? The Kevin’s Revenge group was formed entirely to get rid of Dan and the others already out. Why is Dan suddenly with us again? If I was Dan I’d be running for the hills of Musquadibeeboo or whatever that tribe was called. All of this has shown me that it’s really Kyle who has to be voted off. He’s playing really hardcore and he has Livingston in his back pocket. That’s not a relationship I want to power through this game. So my next step is to have a nice conversation with Heather about all of this. Let her know she’s being targeted and figure out how to stop this. Also Mac mentioned he also has an extra vote and wants us to both use it to help us out this tribal but... I don’t want to use mine yet. I don’t think I need to use mine yet. We’ll have to see what happens with immunity but Coco promised me that if he wins, he’ll send me to Oak Island which would actually be great. I’d get to sit out of this messy ass vote and keep both of my advantages intact.

So tribal last night went pretty as planned for what seemed like it was going to be messy. That morning it seemed like I was going to be the one to get votes, but I guess that I was able to take the target off my back by talking to everyone on the other side and telling Livingston I was aware of the plan for me to receive votes. Evan ended up getting their 5 votes, while the 7 of us that are in an alliance voted Darcy out. I would say that while I didn't call the shot this vote, that I can call it a good move on my part because the actions I took resulted in me not being the target. Now it's time for me to do the challenge and hope I win, because I could use a round of safety. 4

So... drama happened. Heather called the Chatty Trio, and said apparently Austin through her name out? But Austin had already said that the other alliance was trying to vote her out? Idk that convo didnt go anywhere cause we were interrupted by Krackd Kyle leaping gracefully into the cool waters of wtf territory and giving his immunity to heather. What??? That is not smart! The only two ways that would work in his favour is if he is trying seperate himself from his alliance and form a bond with heather (bit late). OR he already has immunity from an advantage and is trying to cause drama. Thats more likely, and it does worry me, cause if Austin is trying to flip on us, he might aim for me now that heathers immune. Now i’m not as threatening as heather, I like to think I’ve played a solid sorta utr game so far in that i haven’t been overly social or strategic, but who knows. Right now I think Livingston or Keegan is the best vote, but I am looking for future flipping opportunities and Keegan has been social with me. God, this is a tough game.

So I didn't win immunity which is annoying, but I wake up and there's a bunch of messy shit that I don't understand, like why Kyle gave immunity to Heather and why theres a rumor about Mac. Honestly I'm tired of these people because they are only extra for the sake of being extra. I don't know about the other players but I'm not voting for someone because they are the loudest player. I'm gonna figure this out and hope I'm not targeted again because I don't know where I'm at with people atm

Today is the day when we finally blindside Austin. I've been waiting so long for this moment but now I know the time is right. I feel like so far I've been cruising by, but now is the time to put something on my resume, get control of this game, and take a threat out. Now, I just need to convince 6 other people to do the same thing.

Coco is completely on board with the Austin plan, and so is Kyle, Keegan, and Mac. Now it all comes down to Heather. I discussed the plan to her before and she wasn't completely down with it, but after I told her I had an idol she was considering it more. However, the craziness of today's vote took a huge toll on her mental health to the point where she's considering throwing it away! C'mon Heather!

Kyle taking charge of the Austin blindside is something I'll have to deal with. It was 100% my idea since day one, but I have to keep the truth lowkey, because if I don't, I could be next on the chopping block.

Darcy went home. I’m hurt. I want revenge. I’ll get revenge. FOR NOW, Austin’s going home because me n him are snakes and I’m the Snakiest snake so he gotta go. Me and Glo have a “mutual therapist” bond where I’m the Psychologist and we give each other some intel. I think I can outsmart Glo, I absolutely love Glo with all my heart but I can’t let her get to the end. She’d win easily. I told Keegan about my extra vote then less than 24 hrs later and then Coco said apparently I had a double vote. I obviously lied about having it and make myself seem like I don’t have anything. Oops.

Fuckkkkkk I feel I'm def the one going home.heather is telling me evan and coco have flipped on me which would be really shitty bc I thought I was close with them . I know for a fact heather is against me so that sucks . I dont know what else I could really do but I'm gonna fight til I'm gone . Atomic survivor gods be with me

I had a video confession about this round but it wont load and it would be a whole lot to type khjkh

I think this is my first confessional this episode and all I have to really say is: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Heather comes to me late before tribal starts by asking me, "What if Kyle is just using me you and Coco so that the 5 of them could send home whoever they want in a 5-4-3 vote (assuming Mac plays his double vote advantage)" I thought about it, and it made sense; why would Kyle want to blindside Austin so much? Why would Kyle take orders from someone other than himself? So my backup idea that I proposed to Heather is that she switches her vote to Livingston, so that there's three possible outcomes; a 5-5-2 revote Livingston goes home; a 5-4-2 vote and Livingston goes home (basically Heather is voting for Livingston to counter Mac's advantage), or everyone just sticks to the Austin plan.

Kyle is desperately trying to get Dan to vote for Austin late, but I really don't want that. I need Dan to vote for Livingston, despite myself voting for Austin. This is because we need Dan in case the 4 OG members from the other tribe minus Dan plus Livingston decide to pick off whoever they want in a 6-4-2 vote. We can't have that; we need it to be 5-5-2. I am desperately trying to sway Dan last minute to make sure I don't get blindsided.

So..... ugh. I’m voting out austin. I hate to do cause i love the guy and trust him with my game, but coco and evan, the silent shady ones, have flipped for no others reason than a slight change in the wind. Seriously, dumb. This is really annoying cause I wanted to get livingston and kyle out before i flipped. But now I have to work with an alliance that only 1 quarter of have spoken to me about the vote. Not good. Hopefully i can have some sort of honest reputation (me! honest! aint this a turn out for the books) and convince them next round that im a better ally than shady evan. However this just means theyre gonna keep voting us out, so maybe we just piece together our broken alliance next round.

It's always the people scared about flipping that flip. 9-2. I was the only one voting to keep Austin when it should have been 6-5. Not one person told me to vote Austin or that Austin was the vote. Not even very last second without explanation. I didn't know my loyalty meant jackshit but here we are. All I gotta say is nice eric is gone, and everyone's about to see a new face. Prepare yourselves.