#like the amount of times i've watched this video is unhealthy

[lexusdiaries]

ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ YOUTUBE'S FAVOURITES ; w.l

synopsis: Instagram!AU. A brief look through Will's (WillNE) and YN's (@yn.org) relationship through the years.

contains: Fluff, Public,established relationship, Reader is an influencer.

a/n: Terrible username for YN, i'm horrible and picking usernames.

@yn.org

@yn.org

look at him, he's menacing, evil! he doesn't even deserve to he tagged. he's horrible.

1,836 likes 97 comments 500 shares

@yn.fan: THE 2ND PHOTO!!! 🥺

@willne: i didn't even do anything 😐

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: you did. you told me to turn off my show for the racing, unbelievable.

╰─▸ ❝ @ynxeditz: GET HIM TOLD YN

╰─▸ ❝ @eloisezzl: i love them <3

╰─▸ ❝ @cchaza: stand your ground yn!

@yn.org

@yn.org

he looks so proud of himself in the 1st one. annual august willne dump for u guys <3

9,739 likes 2,638 comments 6,836 shares

@batmnlyvs: you guys are adorable 🙁

@yn.fan: when are we gonna get a yn dump on his page?

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: never. he hates me

╰─▸ ❝ @willne: ???

╰─▸ ❝ @tswiftdailyphotos: LMAOOO i love her

╰─▸ ❝ @sidemenfanxs: HELP 😭

@willne: no need for that last photo lass

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: there was <3

@yn.org

@yn.org

got some bts of his newest video, go watch i make a brief appearance - i wasn't allowed to be in the full video 😕

12,637 likes 936 comments 7,000 shares

@willne: i never said you weren't allowed, you're fibbing now

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: i never tell lies

@stephentries: you've replaced me

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: well it's not my fault im better

╰─▸ ❝ @stephentries: vile.

@yn.fan: YN IN WILLNE'S VID?? OH MY GOD I PRAYED FOR TIMES LIKE THESE.

╰─▸ ❝ @stupid1d1ot: SAMEEE

╰─▸ ❝ @poppyhornet: we need more of her!!

@chrismd: yn's everywhere but her own channel 💀

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: yeahh shut it you 🖕

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.fan: PLEASE POST ANOTHER VIDEO. IM STARVED OF CONTENT 😕😕😕😭😭😭😭

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: stay tuned next week <3

@willne

@willne

watch the newest willne video, and i'll post more yn content (if i have to)

6,827 likes 482 comments 1,000 shares

@yn.fan: bros finally posting her

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: i know took him long enough

@yn.fan he loves me guys

╰─▸ ❝ @willne: let's not go that far

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: fuck you 🖕🖕🖕

@willxynfan: only watched for yn

╰─▸ ❝ @willne: dont blame u mate

╰─▸ ❝ @yneditz: yn second channel appearance when???

╰─▸ ❝ @pligsj: preach

@yn.org

@yn.org

finally made my 2nd channel debut, only took him 2 years

700 likes 74 comments 251 shares

@willne: probably the best video on that channel now

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: aren't you sweet

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.fan: I LOVED THE VIDEO! WE NEED MORE YN!!!

╰─▸ ❝ @user17382: PLEASE MORE YN

@jamesmarriottyt: i've been suspended. 💔

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: no u can come back next week, idk how u do it every week and not punch him

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.fan: LMAO

╰─▸ ❝ @sidemen.272: jimbo mazza fighting willne (not clickbait)

@yn.org

@yn.org

contrary to the publics belief, we do actually love each other sometimes <3 @willne

7,916 likes 694 comments 719 shares

@willne: ❤️❤️❤️

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: 💞💞💞

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.fan: there so sweet :((

╰─▸ ❝ @:eloisezzl: i love them an unhealthy amount

╰─▸ ❝ @lia9472: if they break up ill never believe in love again. ☹️

@cchaza: ships edits finna go crazy after this

@jamesmarriottyt: they grow up so fast!

╰─▸ ❝ @yn.org: said man desperately tries to deny the old alligations while commenting this publicly.

╰─▸ ❝ @jamesmarriottyt: alright.

@authurteevee's 2024 original work, any reposts, rebloggs, or translations are not permitted.

[aslibekroglu]

ERTAN SABAN & DEVRİM ÖZKAN

[glaciertea]

Masterlist here~

Tales the Songs Weave

>>Ch.2

Summary: Miguel O'Hara is a leader. A leader who doesn't let anyone or anything distract him from the tasks at hand.

He's focused, unwavering, and ruthless.

But what happens when he abruptly pulls away from his territory and wanders into an unknown playing field he hasn't faced in forever?

Many say love holds no bounds, but how much will he be willing to break for you?

Word count: 1.5K

Chapter 1: You're A Natural, Living it so Cutthroat

My name is Miguel O'Hara.

I'm this dimension’s one and only 

Spider-Man… at least I thought I was… 

but I'm not like the others. 

“...el.”

I do things that others won't be able to do.

“...uel!” 

I've seen things that others will never see.

“...iguel!”

And I've given up too much to stop now…

“MIGUEL!”

A familiar voice sprung him out of his inner reflections as he snarled, snapping his head back at the figure below.

Jess crossed her arms over her growing pregnant stomach, glaring at her brooding boss. Her neck slightly craned, wondering why his platform must be at the highest point instead of closer to any subordinate that has the pleasure of communicating with him. 

“I'm here to give the reports for today's anomalies that were captured.”

Miguel twisted his body towards his dozens of monitors cascading, entrapped all over. A grunt escaped his throat as his eyes darted from screen to screen, typing away at whatever was tossed onto him. 

His second in command sneered, rolling her eyes at the permanently irritated man. 

Though it gets to a point where one is used to his tendencies. This is just who he is. The burden that copious amounts of spiders have to compromise with.

“Also, there's been a recent increase in anomalies as of late. Rampant even. We were wondering if we could get any input on that.” Jess clicked at her watch, sending the information to her ill-tempered leader, wanting to get this over with as much as him.

“Later.” Miguel refused to gaze behind him.

“Actually, I would prefer now so we can get a semi-head start on th-”

“I said later!” Miguel barked, going over the notes he received.

Jess scoffed, resting her hands on her hips. She wasn't going to allow him to speak to her in any sort of way. Jess is one of the few with the ability to pierce through Miguel's ‘bullshit.’

“As I said, I'm going to need that info ASAP. Presumably after you're done with those documents. Thank you.” She drolly spoke.

Before Miguel could offer a rebuttal, Jess was already making her exit out of his space, refusing to deal with him anymore for the time being. The man twitched as his claws dug through his metal desk. There's never any rest for the wicked, yet this is the life he must heed. The precedents he exposed to himself and those underneath his wing. 

He doesn't enjoy this harrowing cold stature, but it's the only manner that will get things done. 

He inhabited the lifestyle he was forced to construct. Harboring all the burdens so the others won't make the same mistakes he committed. The sins that constantly dangle over his head every single second, of every minute, of every day.

That perpetual reminder of what and who he is. 

Miguel lingered at his workstation for another hour and a half, as he found unhealthy comfort being close by it. If he never unoccupied his space, work will always be completed in functioning order. He begrudgingly issued data and charts towards Jessica, mostly as an excuse for her not to return and harass him any further. 

His tasks were going smoothly. No interruptions, no trivial disturbances from the other heroes. All was fluid sailing on his end. 

And that was very off-putting for him, but he decided to brush it off.

Ten minutes passed by as Miguel decided to view the footage of him and Gabi, the main reason why any of this exists in the first place. His main reminder to abide by is to focus on the main goal at hand. 

Keeping the multiverse safe. 

A miniscule smile began to form as the video rewinded and began to play… until the orange iridescent screens dimmed off. Silence rang throughout his area. Then a shattering crash of glass sprinkling surrounded the air.

“Lyla!”

The tiny hologram teleported in the air, casually waving her fingers as if she hadn't witnessed her creator violently hurl a computer at the wall. 

“Heya boss, what's the fi- hey, hey whoa!” Miguel's claws went to snag Lyla as she rapidly flickered several feet away from him.

“Isn't that a bit unnece-”

“¡¿Qué carajo pasó?!” He rammed his fist down onto the heavily abused desk.

“Uh, did you forget? Undergoing system maintenance today.” The A.I. brought up a digital calendar with a date circled in pink glitter marker and heart stickers surrounding it. 

Only a scowl etched across his already disdainful face. This wasn't helping Lyla's case at all. Lyla tapped her nail on the date, only increasing Miguel's fury. 

“The twelfth? Which is today?” She gestured toward the number.

His expression didn't waver. He should have been one of the first to be alerted about this. 

“Why wasn't I advised?!” Miguel hissed enough for spittle to fly out. 

Work needed to be done. Required. He doesn't have time for any delays; he must be the one to upkeep the endeavor of the headquarters. The multiverse. Everything. 

Lyla shifted her glasses near the bridge of her nose, raising a brow. “You were. In fact, you were the very first to attain that scheduling because you appointed the date, Miguel.”

He made an effort to recall, but the more he dug, the memories refused to pop up. Prepared to refute and prone Lyla for her attempts to gaslight him, she came equipped with several angles of Miguel hunched over, deep within some tasks as usual. 

The displayed date in the top left corner was a week prior, as a cautious Spider-Byte scrolled up to the high-rise platform. The teen announced her presence, only to be greeted with completely nothing. Spider-Byte clearly struggled to flag down his attention until a jeering ‘what’ sprang out of him. 

"We're still on for the system shutdown on the twelfth, correct?” 

Hushed. Nothing. 

“Yo, are we still on for the-”

Miguel hollered out for Lyla to jot down the time frame for it as the assistant saluted and disappeared.

Miguel dismissed an agitated Spider-Byte who threw her arms up, murmuring underneath her breath as she vacated the area, clearly refusing to deal with him any longer.

Lyla blipped the feed away and leaned back, crossing her legs as if she were pretending to be seated in a chair.

“So, you have the rest of tonight unofficially officially off just like the others. So… have fun!” Lyla retreated, abandoning him in solitude. 

That made sense as to why Miguel wasn't disturbed for the last duration of his work period. No one was essentially able to commute to the HQ. He remained static for a few minutes. The solemn, stagnant atmosphere was the only element left. There was an occasional whirring of a machine, but there was nothing else.

This isn't something to get used to. Something he wasn't used to.

He slumped himself on the metallic flooring, desolate. When duties aren't demanded, he doesn't exactly know how to handle the implanted turmoil racing deep in his mind. 

He pulled his watch near his face as it only presented his world, the time, and a missed alarm flashing. He pressed the tiny button as a message flashed, warning about the upcoming stoppage. Nearly thirty minutes ago.

Dropping his arm, he observed the bleak, dark-red area. His isolation chamber he relished in a sense. Second nature. But there was a commodity brewing within. A path beckoning him to stray away from his natural setting into an unaccustomed world. 

Gradually, he stood up before dropping off the edge and landing with a solid thunk.

He pressed through the wide corridor that led into his ‘office,’ past the contained anomalies, who thankfully are under a backup program, so they couldn't escape with ease. Stepping into the elevator, he tapped the down arrow, leaning back against the cool glass. 

Was he truly going to do this?

He trudged out until he reached the usual bustling facility, now still with a couple of spider stragglers reserved in their own bubble or quickly converging with one another before moving on with their business.

Some blissfully greeted him as Miguel nodded in acknowledgment when he passed by. Some curious ones eyeballed him, astonished to view him casually teetering around, but chalked it up due to the seemingly night off all the spiders “dolefully” received (many honestly are grateful; relieved for it).

However, numerous heads did rotate dumbfounded when Miguel… treaded out of the establishment with no warning or announcement. 

Clearly, this was one for the books.

Miguel allowed the chill breeze to graze across his face and curly locks as he compelled himself towards a direction. 

Where exactly was his destination?

Usually he appoints on having everything to the point, narrow, clear, and straight cut. But now? He's aimlessly roaming Nueva York's evidently pristine streets, allowing his legs to carry him to an unprecedented location.

He was out of bounds with the routine. Highly so. There undoubtedly had to be a reason for this particular circumstance for him willingly abandoning his homebound post.

• • •

For the puzzled ones, there's a meaning behind a reason. An answer to a question. A cause pursuing the effect, and Miguel surely didn't expect any of it. 

Even the most natural of ones can slip into the most foreign of fates.

[many-but-one]

I really admired you and looked up to you. Parts of our system were influenced by your journey to do the same. Our gatekeeper watched many of your videos and found them to be helpful. However, due to your association with a certain person, and after what I've been hearing about them influencing other systems to think they have a ramcoa history when they don't, I don't trust myself anymore. I don't know if I'm a real survivor anymore, maybe I was just led to believe I had that history due to the amount of information I was taking in from various sources. I wish I could still trust you, but I don't know if I can anymore. I also don't think it's a good idea to go into such graphic detail about your trauma. It caused me to do the same and feel that it was okay to do so. And I kept triggering other alters due to that. I kept pushing and pushing through it. And I did make progress with certain alters, but I think it really put me in an unhealthy state of mind too. I don't think I was ready to be dealing with that. Now we have a fight-reponse alter who will stop at nothing to ensure we deprogram and become free, even if at the expense of other alters and our overall wellbeing. He only cares that we keep fighting, that we tell our therapist information about our system and get her to believe us and help us, even though it's a lot for some alters. He's become a very dominant member of the system now, and has even tried to hurt persecutors before they can hurt us.

Hi anon,

I am assuming you are talking about the Legion system. Yes, I was friends with them for some time. About a year or so. However, I’m no longer friends with them and do not associate with them. I’m not sure why you think my association with them has anything to do with them trying to make people believe they have ramcoa when they don’t. I wasn’t involved in their interpersonal business with others. I apologize if this makes you feel like you can’t trust yourself or is making you go into denial, but I fail to see how this is somehow my fault.

Blaming me for sharing information about ramcoa and my trauma and saying you think it led you to believe you had something you may or may not have is not my fault. I educate about ramcoa in efforts to help others who have it. I make it very clear on both my tumblr and my tiktok that I don’t do armchair diagnoses. So you came to this conclusion yourself, and you coming to that conclusion by watching my content or reading my content has nothing to do with me. I’m not trying to influence anyone to do things that are unsafe in therapy (like deprogramming too fast), and just because you saw me talking about my trauma history made you do the same does not mean I forced you to do so. Placing all of this blame on me, an internet stranger who is well within their right to talk about these subjects, is incredibly unreasonable.

I understand you may feel betrayed by the situation that happened with Legion, but imagine how I feel? They were my best friend and I lost them to TERF ideology, even though I tried to warn them not to go down that path. And I have learned a lot of things from other people that I never knew about them, because I don’t really interact with much people online, so I was never aware of their actions outside of the ones they did with me. Learning that I was friends with someone who did some shitty stuff that I never knew about has been devastating.

However, blaming me or even Legion for how your system has chosen to heal is absurd. Because I tell people deprogramming is possible and share info on ramcoa and how to deprogram, suddenly it’s my fault that an internet stranger’s system is going about things in a way that is causing them distress? And trying to tell me not to share my trauma because it made you decide to share your trauma too? No, I didn’t make you do anything.

Don’t tell me what I can and can’t do on my healing journey. Educating the best I can and sharing The Horrors (which are always properly TW’d for the record, so you are allowed to scroll away if it’s not something you want to see) has helped our system heal, grow, and find community. I won’t apologize for doing so, but I am willing to apologize that you feel that it made you take actions that weren’t the best for your system’s healing process. However, placing all of the blame on me for this is immature and ridiculous. You are responsible for what information you take in and what you do with it. In the past, I have made it clear that my information is not a diagnostic tool and I’m not a therapist. What you do with the information I share is completely out of my control because I don’t know you and I am not your therapist.

That’s all I can really say here. I am a bit appalled that you’ve not only come to the conclusion that all of your problems in therapy/system healing are somehow my fault, but you’ve also decided to try and tell me directly that this is so. Your actions you take in healing aren’t something that I can control.

If I can offer some advice here—slow down. Help your protector alter who is trying to speed run this understand that speedrunning the healing process will only cause more problems. Help parts understand that trying to go gung ho into the healing journey before everyone is ready to go that direction will only cause more problems. And lastly, if you think consuming my content has been detrimental to your healing process, block me. Because I’m not going to be silent about ramcoa or what I went through. I will never be silent again.

[safetycar-restart]

Hi Shels how are you? Hope you’re having a good day!

I have some thoughts on little!george, specifically little George loving calming relaxing video games (like animal crossing for instance). The thing is, he’s so little he can’t actually play any games by himself :( and big George just thinks they’re silly and childish and isn’t interested at all. But little!george, oh he loves them so much. The music is so calming and relaxing, he could just fall asleep to it.

So the solution? Sitting against reader (his back against readers chest) and watching you play the game. He can fully enjoy it without stressing or worrying about actually making decisions-you control the game, he simply cuddles in like a good boy and enjoys it. Maybe he gets involved a little bit, helping you pick the right furniture for your in game house, but mostly he just enjoys relaxing with you, occasionally giggling at the little “beep boop” sounds that the animals make. It is the perfect way to fully relax little!george and he loves it so much

OH MY GOD I LOVE THIS!!!! SO MUCH!!! I've been wanting to discuss littles more and I love relaxing video games myself (I have an unhealthy amount of hours in slime rancher) so this is just amazing.

Firstly, maybe it starts because George likes to put lets plays on for himself when he regressed on his own? Cause little!George HATES being alone and he feels less alone when he can watch someone play a video game! Only relaxing ones though, cause scary video games are scary!! Way too scary!!

(Oddly enough, little!Lando loves scary video games? Well he loves cuddling with you while you play it)

Maybe it's actually Lando who gives him the idea?

So when George starts regressing around you, he already has a few channels he likes watching. Of course he still feels lonely when he watches them (he wants a cuddle buddy!!), but it's much better.

Originally he plans to not tell you anything about this, because he's well aware that's pretty odd and even a little embarrassing, but then he's little and cuddled against your chest, having the best time and he really wants to share the cute videos with you!!! You can't quite workout what he's asking, because he can't speak properly when regressed but eventually you understand that he wants his laptop. He puts on the playlist that big!George had made and asks you to watch with him.

You agree of course, and he has the best time!! Though sometimes the players choose things he doesn't like and then he gets all pouty, unhappy that he can't help them choose.

You offer to get him a switch and animal crossing, because of course he deserves that.

Originally he agrees and it's great, but then he tries to play and he gets all confused! The buttons are weird and complicated and how is he supposed to remember what does what? He's too small!!

You start to play to show him what to do, but then he starts suggesting things and cuddling into you and oh god this so much more fun! You've honestly never seen him so happy before and so relaxed.

So you just let him lay between your thighs, his back to your chest and he's so happy! He's so comfy and the characters are so cute and he even gets to make suggestions! He absolutely LOVES the interior design expansion cause he can help you design the homes!!

It's definitely one of his favourite activities ever.

Also, even though he's not big enough to play animal crossing on his own, you know who is? Mick! You and Mick have a little animal crossing island together that you play with George and George loves it!!

[prettyinpunk]

a ridiculously detailed catalogue of matt's guitars for my show*! aka a collection for people who have maybe an unhealthy obsession with Manson guitars

*4/14/23; in order of how excited i was to see them! this isn't necessarily a ranking of how cool i think these guitars are! this ranking is based purely on the amount of deadly chemicals released by my brain upon seeing them.

#10 Matt Black FR(Matt Black Whammy)/Chrome FR(Chrome Whammy)

i'm pairing them first since they're almost identical in build(though the MBFR is in drop D) and i was expecting to see both of them/have seen them used in past shows :)

Chrome Whammy also gets used the most in this era and both of them have given me so much grief when trying to identify these guitars. the dark chrome finish looks SO much like the Matt Black FR under certain stage lighting and it's nearly impossible to tell them apart by hardware, there've been so many times when i confidently think oh hey he's using the Matt Black Whammy but no its Chrome FR. and vice versa. even at certain points during the actual concert i was second guessing myself, they make me feel delusional.

used for: MBFR: Psycho; Chrome Whammy: WOTP, (Interlude)Hysteria, Compliance, Thought Contagion, KOC

#9 Matt Black 3.0

i was excited to see her with visible wear and tear from the obvious, so much so that i specifically took a picture of the broken headstock foregoing any attempt at pretending matt was supposed to be the subject of the picture.

used for: WAFF

#8 M1D1 Stealth

even knowing i would see her, i just got so excited about the kaoss pad. as one does. its a special little joy to see hardware thats so uniquely Muse. like in what other performance are you going to get to see a kaoss pad in a guitar(or bass)!

this picture is a screenshot from my video because ngl most of my image capture for SBH was spent filming dom. for a friend.

used for: SBH

#7 MB-1 Blue(Blue Steel/Blue Beast)

i just think she's sooooo pretty, the blue is such a beautifully rich shade and i love the gloss finish, as much as i love the play on "matt" with the matte guitars, i'm weak to pretty shiny things. it was also so exciting to see her because i really wanted them to play Resistance and when i saw matt with the MB-1 Blue i knew they were going to! (barring the fact that they were alternating every night and i knew that night it was Resistance's turn, for some reason i was still worried we wouldn't get it lmao) i did accidentally call her Bluebell at the time though. which i don't think has been used at all this tour(🥲).

TIRO, Resistance, Madness

#6 Oryx

somehow i neglected to take a picture of her specifically??? i'm really kicking myself because i didn't get any closeups during WSD or KOBK but the whole time i was holding my tongue from talking about her during the show 😭 because who in their right mind wants to hear some random screaming fan yelling about how the Oryx is matt's first Manson with 24 frets during the show 💀 i did get to see him use it earlier this year at my last Muse show which is why i've put it before my #5. but she is so unique and interesting, there are so many cool fun facts about her! i don't know how i didn't get a good shot, i was probably too busy headbanging.

i did get this pretty cool picture from KOBK though 🥲

used for: WSD, KOBK

#5 MB-S Prototype(Verona Sky)

to finish off the trifecta of newbies(2022/2023 additions, barring remodels)! suuuuch a beauty and makes watching Verona just that much more magical! a brand new Manson special for the WOTP era for the most tender moments of the show <3. both Verona and TDS instrumental have a dreamlike energy live, which to me is elevated by the MB-S in her beautiful sunburst orange and strat-style shape. matt was pretty far from us while perched on will's shoulder so i didn't get a great pic of it but i tried! its just such a gentle, almost pensive little moment in the set between two heavy bangers(WAFF/SBH) which i love, it feels oddly intimate in spite of being in a full arena as matt coaxes each note out of the MB-S and it echoes into the open space.

here she is pre and post-confetti shower(she did not come through unscathed)!

used for: Verona, TDS(AR)

#4 Red Alert

since there are three red guitars in use for Uprising this tour, i really didn't know which one we were going to get! the last time i saw them in january, matt used the MA EVO Sustainiac Satin Fire Red, which is fun, but like the other Fire Red, has a matt(e) finish. i was really hoping we would get to see Red Alert and we did!!! she looks like cherry candy i need to take a bite. uh, that is to say. she's very pretty and my eyes sparkle in her presence. and she has a special name which is always important to me. i wouldn't say Red Alert ranks higher than some of the other beauties on this list in terms of how cool i think they are, but since there wasn't a guarantee we'd get to see it, it ranks highly here!

used for: Uprising

#3 Mirror 2.0

notoriously a nightmare to get a good picture of live, what with the whole... mirror finish and all, here she is!! our beloved veteran of the lineup, Mirror Manson <3. what a joy to see her, even though she's not the original. i couldn't confirm which Mirror he was using at the time since they're almost identical, but the fuzz factory knobs are slightly further apart than the OG, and 2.0 is fit with a MBK-1 on the bridge rather than the original Mississippi Queen P90s. not sure if Chrome Fuzz is in the rig for this leg, but theoretically she also had potential to be used here in place of the Mirror, so another happy slight surprise there for Mirror enjoyers. it really is another special little joy to see and hear Plug in Baby with such an iconic guitar, and especially when we get to play call and response with the fuzz factory!

used for: PIB

#2 Chrome Whammy 2.0

now i know it seems like an odd choice to put her here especially considering i had Chrome FR as my #10, but let me explain.

YMMFLIH is one of my favorites on WOTP so as it is, i was already losing it from the moment matt sat down to play the intro(WHICH IM CRAZY ABOUT). about halfway through the second verse, i regained enough mental consciousness to realize matt was using the new Manson Origin Etch pickups on the bridge!!! this was a huge surprise since MuseWiki isn't updated and i had been totally drooling over the pickups on instagram for weeks(months??)(<- still has never touched an electric guitar) so getting to see them in person and being used on stage was SO EXCITING!!! unfortunately by the time i realized, i wasn't able to get a clear picture of the bridge since matt was playing the final chorus. thus began the search for my new white whale.

after the concert, i scoured my pictures and videos for a shot of it, confident that i saw it during Halloween and on the Chrome Whammy. i looked at every picture i had, but found that all my pictures of the Chrome Whammy just had the MBK-2 humbucker on the bridge, so i thought maybe i made my usual mistake and thought it was Chrome when it was actually Matt Black. i checked my pictures of her too and it was the same so at that point i felt like i was going completely mental. i checked every video and picture from the Muse instagram with manic obsession and could only find a tiny glimpse of it in one of the mini clips from a concert reel.

i went back to MuseWiki to see if i could find it there and thats when i realized. it wasn't Chrome Whammy. it was Chrome Whammy 2.0.

live reaction to this realization:

in hindsight i should've realized the guitar matt was using for Halloween had a humbucker on the neck instead of a single coil Sustainiac which is a dead giveaway, hence the above reaction. the problem still remained though, i had no photographic evidence. though MuseWiki reminded me it was 2.0, it still says the bridge is a MBK-2 and the pictures remain un-updated. i had confirmed for now that i was not delusional, but i still didn't have a picture and i wanted so desperately to talk about it. but then my savior appeared right under my nose. my dear friend @domwhoreward found this picture from one of her shows and i was FINALLY VINDICATED!!! HERE SHE IS IN ALL HER GLORY!!!

used for: YMMFLIH

anyway. that brings us to...

#1 HOLOFLAKE MY BELOVED

words cannot describe how absolutely insane i went when i saw her!!! Holoflake is my favorite guitar currently in use(though it's very close with the Black 7-String 2.0), i just love the glittery, glossy black finish so much, it's so pretty!! not only that, but the only song it's being used for this tour is MOTP, the one song i wanted to hear MOST out of all the songs on rotation and one of my favorite muse songs of all time!! it was such a personal moment for me because if they hadn't played MOTP, we wouldn't have gotten to see Holoflake at all. this was my most special moment from my show, i think the guy next to me probably wished i was dead though. this is once again a screenshot of my video since i spent most of it in a manic panic screaming crying and throwing up. its a miracle i was even still alive after that. or anyone within a 5ft radius.

used for: MOTP <3

[cemeterythings]

Hi I wanted to ask you a question :) First of all, you're genuinely one of my favourite AMV creators on all YouTube (your dollhouse AMV and GOT Gold are my favourites of all time, I have listened to them an unhealthy amount and the songs don't work without your montage anymore) but I've noticed more of your videos are not playing which is a real shame. Specifically, your Lions inside AMV isn't appearing and I wanted to know, have you deleted it? Could we still watch it somewhere? Thanks so much!

Hi. Thanks for watching still! I'm not active uploading new stuff but I sometimes just log in and watch my old stuff and hide/unhide videos I don't like as much. I don't delete them, just hide them. so if there's specific videos you remember that you cant watch anymore let me know and i can share the link to it. Here's lions inside:

[powerofmettatonneo]

YouTube Videos that make you FEEL Things

So I spend an unhealthy amount of time on YT. It is my main source of entertainment, and like any form of art, it often makes me feel emotions. Most of the time, they just make me feel simple things like a dumb Reddit video making me forcibly exhale at a meme. Occasionally, I find a video that makes me feel more complex emotions, like an incredible piece of animation or a really good song. Rarely, however, I find a video that makes me FEEL Things, that reshapes how I view certain aspects of the world, and I want to talk about these videos and explore how they make me feel. I guess this is a new series of mine or something, and to inaugurate it, I'm going to be talking about a video by @patricia-taxxon , one of my main inspirations for doing this.

The video in question is a video essay called "On the Ethics of Boinking Animal People". If the title of the video is off-putting to you, don't worry, it was for me too, although for potentially quite different reasons. I am, myself, a furry, and quite the degenerate one at that. Because of this, I actually avoided the video for around a month after first being recommended it due to concern over how judgemental videos with titles like that tend to be, but I really shouldn't have been. I had watched quite a few videos by Patricia before, and I should've known how different her views on this topic would be after watching her also outstanding video "Art, Furries, God". It was after watching that video for the third time that I finally bit the bullet and watched the main topic of this post when it showed up in the sidebar, and man, it was a downright transcendental experience, especially since I was watching it on Christmas Eve of all days.

Despite the title, I'd characterize most of the video as being about the philosophy of being a furry, with the sexual ethics simply being the framing device and (as the creator herself puts it) clickbait. The first half didn't really make me feel anything other than interest and mild amusement, but the second half absolutely destroyed me. I am autistic, and there is literally an entire section devoted to "the autistic" and how similar the interactions between furry/anthro/non-human/whatever the fuck you call them characters and humans are to autistic and allistic interactions, and like, that's one of the major themes of my writing. What Measure is a Non-Human? (my Pokemon fanfiction) is literally an allegory for the disability rights movement in general and the autism rights movement in particular. Her description of Lieutenant Data from Star Trek felt like a gut punch because that's literally me. However, if that was all, I wouldn't be writing this post right now. This video would fall into the category of "feeling complex emotions" instead of "reshaping how I view certain aspects of the world". That categorization comes from the next segment: Doggy Interlude.

In this section, Patricia talks about what it's like being a dog. To quote directly from the video for context:

"I identify as a dog. I don't care if you're the kind of person who doesn't really go along with role play, calling me a human being is misgendering me."

Now, I do not identify as an animal myself, but as she was describing how she wants to be treated, I finally "got it", so to speak. To quote someone in the comments section:

"I've always tried to be respectful of my friends who identify as nonhumans, but it never really... clicked, for me. I guess it's not something I've experienced. This video honestly helped me understand the idea way better, so thanks!"

The combination of this realization and the description of the sensory aspects of being a furry from earlier in the video broke my fucking brain. I felt emotions in that moment that I don't think I've ever felt before. I made a comment on the video but I guess I used one too many swears because YouTube wouldn't let me post it, so I'll try to paraphrase the relevant parts here: This video makes me want to bite something and shake it so viciously it gives me whiplash (I actually was biting my hand at this point, which is not something I usually do), it makes the fur on my back raise, it makes my ears flatten against my skull and then dramatically pop back up. The shear visceral desire I felt to be able to do those things was simultaneously surprising and overwhelming. I still don't necessarily identify as a non-human, but holy fuck if there was a procedure to turn me into a foxboy I would straight up commit murder to get it.

The final section of the video is titled "Transcendental Furriness", and this had the most straightforward relatability. I also relate to the themes of Nascent, and her description of her fantasy involving meeting Shoukichi is my exact type of ideal romance. The phrase "I'd say the real weirdos are the one who managed to make it through life without being made to feel inhuman in some way shape or form" made me tear up.

All that being said, I highly recommend this video. There are so many parts I agree with that listing them all would be committing plagiarism. This is why I didn't actually address the titular question in my post, because I have nothing I feel that I could add to it. However, I would also like to say that agreeing with most of it doesn't mean I agree with all of it. I found most of the symbolism section to outright contradict my personal aesthetic preferences, but that's simply a harmless difference in opinion. The conflation of "human" and "person" upset me as an advocate for the personhood of certain animals, but I can recognize it as a fairly harmless semantic difference. I don't bring these up as hate or even really as criticisms, but to show that you don't have to completely agree with a piece of art to be profoundly affected by it.

[opinated-user]

A while back I made a vent post discussing the harm I think hypercritical media analysis youtubers can have on their audiences, particularly young ones. It wasn't a very well worded post, but L*ly was mentioned and she actually reblogged my post, telling me to watch simpler media that's hard to nitpick, and then talking about how she's financially incentivized to make content that's angry/inflammatory, and how she tries to enjoy lighthearted things in her free time.

That response left me with some mixed feelings, but ultimately nothing to write home over. However, in the tags of the reply she wrote this:

This was an incredibly condescending reply imo. She immediately jumps to the conclusion that my dislike of her is something 'bad actors' have pushed on me, not a dislike that I forged myself, discrediting my dislike of her. In my vent I wrote that i resented youtubers like her for encouraging vitriolic attitudes in her audiences, and that's cuz I was in her audience. The majority of her content, as well as what she's famous for, is how cathartically angry she can be. People watch her content so they can watch her rip different media apart, and here she is calling me an addict for applying the hypercritical attitude she uses to attract her audience in my own free time because she was among the youtubers I watched as a child.

Obviously, this kind of harm is by far not the worst that Lily has done, but it's telling that even in the relatively small amount of harm she's caused me, she distorted the situation by jumping to conclusions about the kind of person I am, the kind of media I consume, reinforces the idea that there bad actors out there spreading narratives around her, and fails to recognize that her vitriolic attitudes can have a harmful effect on her audience.

Following up on my last ask, I've seen the results of the narrative she tells her audience that the people who criticize her are bad-faith actors. I received a reply on my vent post to the effect of "this mf has never seen a L*ly video in their lives, have they" and then that person blocked me. If that person hadn't immediately blocked me, I would have replied to them and told them that I had actually watched one of her videos a few days ago. That exact kind of reaction is the vitriolic attitudes instilled in an audience that I was criticizing in my own vent post.

Alongside the seriously wrong things she's done to members of her audience, the angry and critical attitudes her content encourages is really unhealthy.

i remember that post of yours and the way LO responded to it absolutely felt so obviously deflecting from any responsability. she didn't even had to respond to your post at all since you were only talking about your own experience as someone who watched her, nor did she need to expose you to the rest of her fans to keep bothering you as well. if a youtuber i was talking about on such terms directly shared my post, i'd think that they're deeply insecure so they needed to "shut me up" whatever way they could. her tag is full of critical people but she decided to share your post because it was an easy response to give and she could use you as an example to build her own narrative where youtuber can never harm their audiences. "was just gonna block this guy but decided instead to call him an addict, insist that people who think youtuber can such a strong effect on them are bad actors and even if people do get harmed in any way it's because they developed an addiction and need to work on themselves, therefore the youtuber has no fault whatsoever nor has any responsability" would have been a more honest response from her. the fact that some of her fans are so deeply convinced that LO can't do no wrong ever and anyone who say she does are "bad faith actors" is worrisome, because that only reinforce for them the notion that the "only" person they can trust is LO and that opens the gates for so much abuse apologia.

[angeldiaries777]

trigger warning mental health, online addiction. personal stuff!!! i don't want to post anymore. part one of two.

i don't want to try so hard anymore. going to be real here for a sec i don't like my life. i don't like who i am. i don't like this app. i don't like this world or any of the people in it. i do need help. i need a lot of help. i don't like this blog anymore. its not fun. its not carefree. its just something i do now subconsciously with zero effort. its not me. its not cool. i don't like it. i'm not enjoying it at all. since i deleted quite literally every other app this is where i go on for everything. and thats just toxic. i am not having fun like i said a thousand times before. i just want my thoughts and things i liked at the time to be docutmented somehwere on some account because i know i will forget. i am very miserable in my life and with myself. i know that i need to stop using this app as much as i do and same with a few others and certain accounts on websites i just have nothing left in me. i've always posted online. ive always interacted online. i've always been obsessed with watching content and consuming media books movies shows music etc etc. and i'm feeling fatigue from it. idk how many more fucking lana del rey gifs i can reblog till i lose my fucking shit for good and end it all. everything that inspired me is dull. the relationships and parasocial relationships i form with celebrities characters and people online is just plain unhealthy. especially when its causing me to ignore the ones i have in real life. i need a break. i need a break from all the media i consume. i need a break from music and from tumblr and from everything else that is slolwly rotting my brain. the attachment i have to these apps is unhealthy. the amount of time i spend on my phone or ipad or literally any other device is actually sickly. i need a break from looking at or even just holding my phone for so many hours a day. i need an actual sleep schedule and i need to not wake up at 4am and have my first thought be to open tumblr or to save pins on pinterest. i got rid of so many physical items and cut off so many people but the actual thing hurting me the most is my addiction to the internet and to media. i need to stop posting. i need to stop interacting i need to stop watching videos and movies and listening to music at the rates that i do. it is unhealthy at best and detrimental to my life and health at worst. its like those interventions they have for people with alcohol or other addictions. ive known this about myself for a long time and it only worsens the more time passes. i have issues!!!!! i have real issues in my real life that will not be solved by venting about it to my 8 followers. i need to stop. i need to sit alone with my thoughts without a podcast or an album playing in the background. i need to see what my life is like and who i am without all of this. without the things i thought i liked. the things i thought were keeping me alive and sane and healthy were actually the most destructive. i need to stop relying so heavily on things that don't exist. all these pictures and people are fake. i"m not a character or a stereotype. im a fucking person. whenever i got a negative comment i used to lay awake thinking about that. its not okay anymore. its affecting my life way too much. i don't want to think of the world and only think of what i see online because i don't love my reality. i don't want to be sad anymore. i don't want to know what that person across the world thinks of that topic or what kim kardashian had for breakfast. i want to actually live my life again for what it is and not what i wished it was. because truth be told i am very blessed in sooo many ways and i take it for granted so often. i am so much more than that sad face emoticon on somebodys phone screen. i don't want to see the same pictures of bella hadid on every fucking app with the same generic text and font over it. i don't want to consume copious amounts of self help content anymore whilst refusing to actually do any of that self help when im clearly not qualified and clearly need professional help.

[kenthenugget]

I Don't Get Tangents (Art Rant)

During my formative years as an artist back 2017 up to early 2020, I can remember watching a ton of art related content ranging from DeviantArt cringe video's to tutorials on how to draw manga to general art community topics like tracing and so on. But up until mid 2021, I had never heard of tangents. And even now, I still dont fully get it.

If you don't know, a tangent is pretty much when lines intersect in a visually non pleasing way. There's a great blog that goes into this which I'll link here:https://schweizercomics.tumblr.com/post/11966164633/the-schweizer-guide-to-spotting-tangents

Let me be clear by saying that I do know what tangents are and what they mean. I'm not an idiot. And its not like I don't understand why they're bad but at the same time I don't get it, if you know what I mean. I've seen examples of tangents where it does a good job at illustrating why its bad but there are some where I just cant see it. Going to the post I linked, I had a difficult time discerning what the tangents were for examples 2 through 5 until someone pointed them out. Even then, I still didn't find anything wrong with them despite the tangents. And if I'm being honest (and I mean no shade at the creator of the post), it does feel nitpicky. Because you wouldn't know it was a tangent unless someone pointed it out.

I guess in general, tangents are not to big of a deal, which is probably why I never heard of them until recently. It is something that can be easily avoidable, especially if you're not that skilled of an artist. But for someone like me who is a perfectionist, tangents act as some sort of curse. Especially when it comes to digital art.

I honestly feel its a lot harder for tangents to form in traditional works than it is for digital ones. When you're creating a complex illustration on paper, the backgrounds, characters, and other objects are on the same surface. As opposed to digital where you can separate those things via layers, and this is where tangents often tend to form for me. Since everything is separated, I'll tend to work on those elements separately when inking. And its not until then where I turn on the character or background layer, I see tangents forming. And only when its inked do I notice these and not when I'm sketching them. Maybe that has to do with the pencil brush not being as thick and bold? Im not sure. This has happened to me constantly, ever since I began separating my backgrounds from the layers my characters are on. Tangents just form and there's nothing I can really do about it, unless I revert to drawing everything on the same layer. And its a problem when it comes to comic pages as well. Particularly with speech bubbles and sound effects, which is a whole other can of worms entirely.

Now this doesn't mean I hate everything I've drawn in the past year or two, but noticing these tangents really bothers me. That these images are immediately deemed bad because of one or two tangents caused by separation of elements on layers. And like I said, all of this feels very nitpicky, as in you wouldn't notice it unless you were actively looking for it. It honestly feels like tangents are a fuel for perfectionism, an unhealthy amount of it at that. Its partially why I try not to let it bother me and do my best to avoid it.

No one is perfect, and that's okay. I don't think something as small and hyper specific as a tangent should bring an illustration down. Hell, I'm pretty sure art created by your favorite artists have one or two tangents in them that down make them bad because of it. Im not really sure how to end this but I don't try to be perfect as an artist because no art is perfect. And if it was, is it really art anymore?

[system-of-a-feather]

Your ramblings about final fusion are so so so SO welcomed. We aren't aiming for that ourselves, but seeing how you talk about it makes it seem so much less scary.

-Erytheia (they/it) 🧪

God I just got done watching that video and the amount of which Jess explained about approaching life and shit and getting away from being as trauma driven is such a fucking mood. It's rich and beautiful shit and she touched on a lot of the reasons we kinda decided that probably final fusion is going to be out piece of cake.

It's also why we've decently moved this blog less to be explicitly trauma focused and have openly just kinda shitposted and media-ed up and rambled about whatever the fuck we want cause honestly, the more we go towards final fusion and integrating our system in general, the signficantly less we really feel the need or importance to really think and worry about our trauma as much or as chronically.

Honestly I think a large part of it is that as a system we've really strongly found healing within one another and while we are definitely not anywhere near final fusion - just the steps we make towards it is beautiful as fuck honestly.

Like I like to joke that I 100% know my destiny is to be "eaten by XIV" cause the meme is that XIV only talks about fusion in terms of eating parts and we have both agreed to fuse whenever we get to the point that we are both managed and healthy enough to not fuse into a really toxic and unhealthy middle ground of our worst traits but rather our best and honestly, the day I can healthily be both me AND XIV is the day the world is fucking ours.

I'm currently slotted to eventually probably fuse with Lucille, and XIV with Aderis in the future when the time comes, and as it is, we are both vaguely learning our respective roles and dynamics as the two of us sort out our subsystem shit and honestly like

I've been heavily learning a lot from Lucille more than ever since working with the subsystem because whether I liked it or not I was very much put in a Lucille position within the subsystem and MAN did it give me perspective. Honestly at some point when I actually master this role, I'll probably fuse with him cause the two of us have been a duo for at least 8 years and arguably split off as two halves of a whole itself and honestly

If I could have 2% the serenity, intelligence, and emotional intelligence Lucille has, I have no fucking clue how much easier, happier and more enjoyable my life would be. I respect Lucille so fucking much. I always have and only increased from there. He is great, I am great. Combine two great things and good gosh whatever comes out the other end of that is going to be something far better than either of us could imagine seperately and I am SO fucking excited to become that when the time comes.

XIV jokes about it as "being a warlock; you absorb other parts and obtain their power as you ascend to a higher truer and more final form" but it REALLY do be like that in vibes.

XIV is like... three parts fused together I think. Maybe four I forget, but like fusions a great and wonderful feeling and its such an exciting and welcome unknown.

I have no fucking clue what I would be like if I fused with any of these parts (well I do with XIV cause we temporarily fuse occasionally and its always not the best as a long term thing XD) but I do know we will have better perspective, better engagement, and more access to our individual skills and I think thats so fucking cool.

Like do you know how much of a fucking god tier caretaker I could be if I fused with Lucille (main caretaker, ex primary protector, biggest emotional intelligence and therapist in the system) while also still being the ever passionate bubbly monologuing shounen protagonist energy I have that lets me have the special ability to make any part in the system work with us using the power of FRIENDSHIP? Like bro, I would LOVE to be Lucille AND me. That sounds so great the power would be immeasurable >:o

Like look fuse Anime Glasses Boy Who Actually Has Empathy with Shounen Main Character Protagonist Friendship Man and bitch is OP as fuck man.

Also like, we used to joke about the real reason me and Lucille with fuse is when we properly get into research and need to both have the interest and passion on topics AS WELL as coding skills cause Lucille is MUCH better at coding than me but I'm much more passionate than him

ANYWAYS rambling aside, fusion is beautiful and if someday our system and fuse into one mega Feather with all our powers combined, then good god do I think we'd be unstoppable and sexy af /lh /j

-Riku

[krishnasangani]

Welcome to MY Blog

Hi, I am Krishna!

Everyone does many things for good health: eating healthy food, drinking water, and working out. But sleeping, for some reason, is low on the list. Ever since I started college, I have noticed that my sleeping habits have been unhealthy. I am a night owl person who has early morning classes. During weekdays I would only sleep for 3-6 hours due to the college workload, binge-watching Netflix, late-night video calls with my friends, etc. This has also led me to drink an enormous amount of coffee, which has not been good for my body. My sleeping schedule has been so unhealthy and disorganized that it has become overwhelming and stressful. I have been having difficulties catching up with my academics and other requirements lately. Usually, my solution is to drink a significant amount of coffee, but that's something I would like to change because I've been obsessed with coffee to the degree that it has caused me to sleep less. Therefore my goal is to change my sleeping habits and limit the amount of coffee I intake. 

It is essential for me to change this habit because I would like to have a healthy sleeping lifestyle so that I am energized and active throughout the day. In fact, according to the Community Health Network, “quality sleep is vital to our physical and mental health.” In fact, the body and mind need sleep due to the following reason 

Reason 1: It helps the brain function

Reason 2: Keeps emotion in check

Reason 3: Reduces disease risk 

Reason 4: Keeps weight under control

For more information about it please check out this website: https://www.achn.net/about-access/whats-new/health-resources/4-reason-why-sleep-is-good-for-your-health

Check out this poster below to understand more deeply of why you need sleep.

With that being said the possible advantages and disadvantages of modifying this behavior 

Advantages: 

Managing time 

Balanced sleeping schedule 

Focused on academics 

Healthy lifestyle

Reduces stress and improves my mood 

Better mental health

Being more productive

Disadvantages: 

No drinking coffee every day

Sleeping early 

No binge-watching Netflix or talking to friends late at night

Difficult to maintain this habit

However, this behavior modification is not my first attempt. I have tried changing it, but it did not help because I needed to put in all my effort and take it seriously. Although this has made me realize how important changing my sleeping habits is, it will give me long-term mental and physical benefits.

Baseline Data

I have started logging down my sleep schedule and coffee consumption since mid of January 2023. I will be tracking my sleep hours daily using Health and SleepWatch Application. However, these apps are not 100% accurate, but they help me analyze the average base of my sleep hours. When it comes to coffee consumption, I will be tracking it by taking pictures and noting down the time I drink coffee every day. I will be updating weekly overhear with my updates and progress regarding my sleeping schedule and how it has made me change throughout.

[lividria]

i swear every time i get into a game that has an actual community it'll feel like i just woke up on mars because i usually dig really deep into a game's lore, history, trivia, unused content, etc. and THEN i'll find stuff from the community and i don't even mean for that to happen it just works that way and it always plays out the exact same way without fail besides for when there is no community

like, a week or two ago i remembered OFF exists, watched a whole playthrough of it, have been listening to it's OST an unhealthy amount (I'm doing it right now, Unreasonable Behavior is so good), i go onto tumblr, first OFF post i see once i add it's tag to my feed is someone's art for an AU where all the characters all like hang out at a cafe together or something and everything is chill, which is like the antithesis of everything i had just experienced related to the game and i couldn't help but laugh in confusion once i realized what i was looking at

i go in the discord server for iconoclasts after obsessing over the game for like a year and annoying the fuck out of my friends about it, literally the only fanmade character i have seen is a chemico contra member who's also a phlebotomist, i had to google what a phlebotomist is and like... i didn't look into their lore by ctrl-f-ing or whatever so i'm probably missing something, but how do you come to this conclusion (actually i think i know, they mentioned they actually became one at some point after making this character which is really funny actually)

i start watching videos about pikmin after finally beginning to slowly come off one of the most intense hyperfixations i've had in my entire life to the point i had played through all 5 games in the series and dedicated weeks and entire days to trying to figure out the lore before giving up because it's nintendo lol and spending a roughly equal amount of time trying to come up with intentionally terrible ideas for more games in the series only to accidentally get WAY too into it (see my alph wraith post lol), i am greeted with Fiddlebert, and a later a dub of an AU where the player character is actually a wraith and is hiding it from the rest of the rescue corps (this post is still probably one of the funniest jokes i've ever seen) and the entire thing scarily resembles the type of shit i'd write if i was given this premise to work with down to the mention of an innocent child being consumed that's first brought up with a doodle of them saying "Oh boy I sure do hope being alive!" while holding The Goo THAT'S EXACTLY HOW I TREAT HORRIBLE EVENTS IN MY STORIES WHEN I'M TALKING ABOUT THEM

i look at the tag for ultrakill on tumblr and feel like i just got sent to hell myself with the punishment of being stuck in a permanent state of confusion due to the sheer contrast to the source material all the fanart has, same goes for most of the posts about it in general actually, i go in expecting like blood & violence and instead i'm greeted with gabriel & v1 making out. drawn by 50 different users. (i don't even need to link anything here just check #ultrakill you'll see)

and this isn't even touching on all of the ships i've seen that are utterly incomprehensible to me because. like. why magolor and the snowman enemy? why kingsly and puddle??? i thought alph didn't like louie? wait also what do you mean at least two people's headcanon is that louie is trans? (ok i couldn't re-find some of the things in this paragraph and i'm too tired to conduct an in-depth search but you could probably find it if you looked)

i'm not hating on anything i brought up here it's just a bunch of funny examples i think about a lot now that i've seen them, you guys go do whatever you want even if i don't get it go have fun lol, i just love the feeling of pure confusion when i walk into the room and get punched in the face with a complete subversion of my expectations because it feels like i'm missing SO MUCH CONTEXT and i never get used to it i love it i love the internet

[plantvgreviews]

How I Do My Reviews

Hey there!~ My name's Plant and welcome to my video game reviewing blog. Here's a little information about me to help you understand who I am;

I'm 22 years old at the time of this post. (May 17th, 2024)

I'm from the US.

I've been playing video games since I was a kid. (Earliest gaming memory was PS2 SoulCalibur 2.)

My main way of playing games are on the PC. Thus, majority of my reviews are going to be on the PC ports of games. (specs for nerds: Intel Core i7, NVIDIA 3060ti, 32gbs of ram. It's no push over.)

I like a wide variety of games and media. (My main Spotify playlist contains Paramore, Led Zeppelin, RATM, Foo Fighters, but also Kendrick Lamar, Lil Nas X, YOASOBI, Bloodywood, Britney Spears, Johnny Cash, Guilty Gear and DMC5 OST, Veggietales and Clowncore.)

I don't believe in judging one piece of art/creative work to another one. (It's an unhealthy practice to judge a game for something that it isn't trying to accomplish.)

Since you clicked to keep reading, I'm guessing that last point confused you. Think of it this way; I'm not going to give games the typical rating between 1 through 10. Instead, I'll be judging games based on something that they all have in common. Their price tag.

Gaming is expensive now-a-days. AAA titles are starting to go for $70USD, and a lot of games aren't worth their price tbh. Then on top of that, there's a plague of dlc for games that raises the price point even further. Battle Passes, Micro transaction, "Surprise Mechanics", etc, etc. I want my reviews to inform people what games, imo, are and aren't worth the amount of money that companies are asking for.

How to Take the Scores I Give

In each of my reviews, I'll give a price point that I think the game is worth in comparison to what the Steam/Epic Games asking price is. In the case of games with dlc and battle passes, I'll give a _base game_ price score. Then I'll factor in the dlc.

(Also, the price point I'd give the game isn't bound by a maximum. I can and will give scores that are higher than the asking price on online marketplaces.)

Example:

Say I was reviewing "Buck Up and Drive!". When I come to the scoring part of my review, I'll show you how many hours I have in the game.

(Specifically for this game, it was released on itch.io before the steam release. So my hours are higher, maybe ~10 hours in total.)

Then I'll show you the base game price point.

From here I'll let you know what I think is a good price is in comparison to what the asking price is.

In the case of "Buck Up and Drive!", I'd give the game an 8/8. It's filled to the brim with personality and is an incredibly fun and re-playable arcade racer to pull out when you're waiting for friends to hop online. Plus you get a very interesting and unique 1v1 fighting game on top of the main experience. For a fun little 'balls to the wall' arcade racer, this game is definitely worth the asking price.

("Buck Up and Drive!" doesn't have dlc, so I'll give a second example to show how dlc effects the overall score.)

Example 2

I'm not someone who grew up with Dragon Ball or Dragon Ball Z. In fact, I've only watched DBZA. And that was rather recently. However, Dragon Ball FighterZ is an unbelievably great game. The look and feel of the iconic Dragon Ball aesthetic is present throughout. The dedication of the art and thematic resemblance of the franchise is something that comes once in a lifetime. Even though DBFZ came out in 2018, it still holds up to this day.

Well... kinda.

Since DBFZ has incredible visuals and sound design, I doubt it will age in that department at all. 20yrs from now, we are still going to look back at this game in awe of what ArcSys has created. So i'm going to skim over this for the sake of making this example review brief. But know, I'm giving the game full points in the design department.

But that's when we get to gameplay. This is where I have some opinions that some people might not like. (But my opinions are my own preferences and they won't impact the score.) DBFZ is a 3v3 tag based fighting game. For the people that don't understand what I said, here's a breakdown; In the character selection screen you have to pick 3 characters to be on your team. Each character has their own moves they can perform in game. With 3 of those special moves being usable as assists. Assists are performed by the characters that are not in play at the moment. This opens up the tool box substantially of what any player can do with any character. If your main character has a bad poke option, you can bring a Goku with a beam assist to cover that option for you. (There are tons of Youtubers and other fighting game pros who can explain this better than I can. I recommend you take their word over mine. Also cause I'm trying to make this detailed enough to show what a full review would look like. but not too long to bog down the intro post to my blog.)

I, personally, don't prefer tag fighters. I feel like it raises the ceiling that's needed to _really_ start playing the game. But I do like playing them, even though I'm bad at the tag mechanic. I just gravitate more to 1v1 fighters. This isn't enough to remove points, cause again, it's my opinion and the tag mechanic is implemented well in DBFZ.

Actually playing the game, all special inputs are typically a quarter circle + a button (or an assist button for a super). There are some double down inputs, but the buffer is good enough to not make them scary to perform in game. If combos are a concern for you, there is a global auto-combo that every character has. It's not the best option, but when you're learning the game or a new character, it's nice to have.

*BUT* we have to talk about the online play. Fighting games don't just rely on good netcode to be successful, they demand it. If a fighting game as bad netcode, no one is going to play it. Sadly, DBFZ has some really bad netcode. You will be playing in about 9 to 13 frames of delay on a great connection. But if you're playing with someone across the country from you, prepare for the slowest slide-show presentation of your life. At best, DBFZ's netcode is tolerable, at worst it doesn't work. This has heavily taken a toll on the player base of DBFZ as newer games have come out with better netcode, or in most cases, rollback netcode. (Here's a really detailed article if you don't know how delay or rollback netcode works. Thank you Infil. Papa Bless 🙏)

There was a beta for DBFZ's fabled and elusive rollback update, and it was glorious! So I definitely wanna make a more detailed and through review when that finally comes out. (Also Optimum internet has been shitting the bed every twenty minutes for the past 5 months. So I'll have to wait until that's fixed too. I don't wanna review a game on the prospect that something out of the game's control is causing a problem.)

Conclusion:

Dragon Ball FighterZ is a great game that I have put 133 hours into. With more to come once rollback is added.

But I think the price of the game is a bit expensive for what is currently offered. For a game released at the beginning of 2018, $60USD is a bit much. Never the less there being a 'FighterZ edition' and 'Legendary Edition' costing more. Especially with the jank netcode.

I'd give the base game of Dragon Ball FighterZ a 25/60. The netcode being garbage delay based is really hurting the overall product. And many of the base edition characters are good but missing 20 of the 44 characters is a massive downside. For fighting games, you kinda need the whole roaster. These two problems should lower the base cost of the game imo.

However, if you're a new player picking up DBFZ for the first time, I recommend buying the 'Legendary Edition' because it comes with all the necessary dlc (extra characters) for a cheaper price than buying the base game and dlc separate. The 'Legendary Edition' is $110USD while the base game and 3 fighter passes + Android 21 (Lab Coat) is $145USD.

So to quickly calculate how much dlc is in Dragon Ball FighterZ, I'll start with the 'Legendary Edition'. Then add in how much is left out of the bundle.

What's left out of the 'Legendary Edition' appear to be the Anime Music Packs, the SSGSS Lobby Avatars, and the SSGSS Goku and Vegeta Unlocks. (The last one doesn't even make sense because you can play the story mode to unlock them for free. But that $3 dlc leaves out the other character that is unlockable by playing the story mode?! Idk, Bandai is dumb as hell sometimes.)

Which brings my final price to about 75/145. So much inflation to this game that honestly doesn't need to be there. So many of the dlc characters are just another version of Goku, or Goku fused with Vegeta. I understand _why_ they did it, but I wish that some other characters got a spotlight. (Chi-Chi, Mr. Popo, Mr. Satan, and Dende would have been really cool additions to make the roaster feel more like Dragon Ball and less like Goku and friends.)

Dragon Ball FighterZ is still one of the best fighting games on the market today. Please don't hear me say that it's only worth $75 out of $145 dollars, and think that I don't like this game. I love it! But if you're a new player wanting to hop in and train before the rollback update. I'd say to wait for big sale.

Anyway, yeah that's how I wanna do my reviews, okay bye!

[bitchkay]

My stomach's literally in knots from this episode I'm not okay

I literally as the credits were rolling I was having a moment remembering how I used to watch Attack on titan during grade 9 religion class to hype myself up for season two to drop, I had started reading the manga at that point, during that class too; or even before that, watching Attack on titan in elementary school and showing my friends clips of it cus I thought it was so cool and I wanted to share that with everyone no matter how much they probably didn't want to see it or thought the scenes were too gory, but I was so excited about it. I remember I got my phone taken away during the time part 1 of season 3 aired and I would sneak behind the couch to watch the new episodes and return it to where I was hidden. I got out of the loop with Attack on titan after that but I remember going on crunchyroll and seeing a whole roster of episodes I hadn't seen yet on season three and I got so excited about it and binged every since one of them. I was still in grade 12 when season 4 part one aired and I remember binge watching every episode from season, episode one all the way to the end of season 3, including all the ovas and movies, an unhealthy amount, I didn't eat nor sleep only watch day and night leading up to that first episode of season 4 and making a reaction video of it. I read the manga right up until the last chapter and chapter 139 was released the day before a new episode of season was was aired so I was out of sorts when I made my reaction video the next day. Last year while part 2 was airing I was getting ready to leave the country but still kept up and watched the first episode the day before I left and kept up watching even while I was gone, every week until I came back. When i did come back i was swamped with work for college(cus I was gone for a month oopsies) and missed some episodes and i remember watching them during one of my classes and my friend recognized it was Attack on titan and I was so happy cus I could talk to them about it. I remember when season 2 was announced, my sisters were so tired of me but I was so happy, my favorite thing was coming back after what was a 4 year hiatus, even being relatively to to it I was bouncing off the walls cus I didn't thing it would continue. Just thinking about how far it's come, how far I've come, makes me wanna hurl knowing the story is finally over, the ending finally getting animated. Like I'm actually sick to my stomach.

I started Attack on titan when I was about 11 and I'll finish it when I'm 20.