#lmk if you’re interested in that

[t1red-twilight]

thinking about how spencer knows you like his hands

he’ll do the obvious things, like hold your hands and hold your face, but he’ll also draw attention to them when it’s not really needed.

like he’ll point to something, pop his knuckles, just draw attention to them in general. he KNOWS what he’s doing, bro.

he likes to do it around the team and see you turn red (oops)

[angelnumber27]

$4/$100 for my medications 🫠

If anybody wants to or can help please please do!

cshapp is $juliagw

Dm me for PayPal or venmo <3

[puppyeared]

Get sillay

Xīn Yá (left) belongs to me, Little Sailor (right) belongs to @crow-cap

Song: piranha creeper creek from super mario 3D world

[month-of-july]

every day i fight the urges (posting about the terror and tma overlap in my brain)

[mollyrolls]

molly!!! super random thing but idk if you've ever heard of the game neko atsume but I was playing it like a loser and thought I saw a cat named molly and I went "omg MOLLY!!!!" (I'm dyslexic. the cat's name way sunny. BUT IT'S OKAY BECAUSE YOU'RE ALSO MY SUN <3) but it just made me want to stop in and tell you you're so cool and idk I just think everything is like perfect about you <3 like your name and pfp and everything!! or I can't tell if yk I just associate you with them so well and I love u sm so then I automatically also really love them yk??? sorry this all happened just bc I MISREAD A CAT'S NAME AS YOURS BUT!! I think it's okay bc it means I got to stop in your inbox <3 I hope you have the best week ever!! and ily ily ily <3

(this could be us if u will accept my humble hand in marriage <3 and also silly akaashi!! and bloody nose akaashi? 😳 apologies I was going thru my pinterest board again and saw it and thought it must be shared although I'm sure u've seen it before!! have a wonderful day tomorrow <3)

hi ness!! <333

i haven’t heard of that game! but it doesn’t make you a loser lmao i’m always in need of game recs so i’m gonna check it out. TF YOU MEAN IM YOUR SUN 😭😭🫶🫶 you are so sweet i feel violent and that’s all you!! i love your blog so much it always has such a loving and warm atmosphere it’s so so nice

you are always welcome in my inbox 🫶 OR MY DMS pls reach out if you need anything. i’m here for you in any way i can be

and yes!! i accept!! ness is my wife y’all sorry you’re too late!!

bloody nose akaashi 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 he makes me genuinely insane in the head

i hope you’re doing okay!! hope school is being kind to you and may you have an incredible week <333 so much love to you wife

[fluffypotatey]

YOU'RE RIGHT WHAT IF THIS IS A TWISTED IRONY OF GETTING WHAT YOU WANT. MACAQUE HAS THE POWER TO KILL WUKONG OR MK FOR REAL THIS TIME??? but he doesn't want to. what if he's forced again. what if this power has the potential to destroy him to be removed/stopped from affecting others?

….so about Wukong’s death flags— *gunshots*

[reshramlove1ob]

Haven’t had a doll update in a while huh? I haven’t had time to make any dolls due to how busy I was with other stuff.

So, I was originally going to make the ramshackle cast next. Unfortunately, I was looking closer at their designs and I don’t think I’m skilled enough for their hair yet, that is to say, I’m not skilled enough with the sewing machine. I could do their hair with hot glue, but it ultimately makes them less soft and worse in quality, and I want to be able to make them high quality. So what, I thought to myself, I can just make someone else!

I have no fabric. I am in a fabric crisis. No green. No red. No purple. Nothing. It’s all patterned and neutral.

WHAT AM I GOING TO DOOOOO?! I thought in despair!

Then, a light from heaven above was blessed upon me. I was filled with the grand idea! Why not make small dolls? I still have *some* red and green and purple, they can be babies for the-

*gasp*

*runs and grabs my babies*

ACE AND AMON WILL BE COMING IN DOLL FORM SOON!!

[oddlittlestories]

Um so would people be interested in a House MD flash fiction game? I’d put out some prompts; and it’d either be a general ask game or for inbox trick or treating.

For a general ask game, there’d be a general header like “Lifechanging road trip” and you’d pick a character or a pair of characters.

For the trick or treating. You’d send an ask like “trick or treat!” on Halloween and give me a prompt. And maybe there would be one version for trick and one for treat, and I’d pick which to write?

[sportsthoughts]

Sorry if I missed this lore drop previously, but how'd you get into the Pens? I love your gifs and positivity that you bring to the lb!

Buckle up anon. I thought about one line answering this but I enjoy the phrase 'lore drop' so much I think you deserve the deep dive. It'll take a while to get to the pens but you asked for lore so...

I have been sportsthoughts on tumblr since 2015 ish - maybe slightly earlier - and this has always been a sportsblr/sports rpf-y type blog in various iterations.

This blog was originally used for liveblogging UK Premier League and La Liga football matches. I have always been a huge football fan (my childhood team is Arsenal - north London forever ❤️ etc etc) and when I moved away to university at 18 none of my new friends were into sports and I really missed watching games with my family.

Finding other likeminded fans online who were also watching games and liveblogging them was such a beautiful experience and I have amazing memories of 2015-2018ish when I was a very active football blog, spent a lot of the time in the Arsenal/FC Barcelona communities here and had some beautiful trips to Barca.

I do have a sideblog where I still dabble in that space but in truth I very rarely liveblog football anymore because nowadays it's returned to being something I watch with friends and family so I'm not on my phone during games.

Here's where the pens come in - sort of. I've scrolled back through my AO3 bookmarks and can see in 2015 I also got into sports RPF for the first time. There are some incredible football RPF fics out there (let me know if you'd like some recs!). Somehow - probably through raiding people's bookmarks - in early 2015 I ended up reading a Sid/Geno fic called And Never Been Kissed and I was absolutely hooked. At the time of reading this I had:

1. Never watched a game of hockey in my life (side note, I don't think I can understate how little hockey coverage there is in the UK. Even the most ardent sports fan would probably not be able to name a single NHL player or team. Not even Sid! Not even Gretzky!)

2. I had no idea, nor any desire to look up who these people actually were. It was just like reading really well written original fiction.

For the next 7 years I thoroughly enjoyed hockey RPF and created (in my mind) entire personalities and appearances for Sid and Geno, along with all the other 'characters I came across regularly in hockey fic. Sid, I got pretty close to the mark. Geno, not so much. One day I will try and find some reference pictures for what I thought they looked like because it’s quite hilarious. When I re-read fics I love from during that time I laugh because I remember my Sid and Geno and how different they were from reality.

So, hockey was sort of in my life from 2015 but exclusively in the form of fics. I would scroll through the actual hockey bits of works because I didn’t understand the rules and why every single fic was an AU where professional sports people were allowed to fight each other mid game.

At this point I’d left university, and because I no longer liveblogged football games, I found I really missed sports fandom. Another sport I grew up watching and loving was Formula 1 so when lockdown hit in March 2020 I started liveblogging F1 races to pass the time (and still do sometimes - now over on @vroomlive). I loved/still love F1blr, but it didn't quite fill my fandom itch because:

1. We joke about it, but F1 is a deeply unserious sport run by a dire organisation (Liberty Media). They change the rules every week and it's managed badly to the point of being comical. There have been a few major cock ups over the years (including the 2021 championship literally being taken away from the rightful winner and given to someone else. To put this in hockey terms: imagine a completely valid goal being overruled in the last 5 minutes of the Stanley Cup final and then the ref deciding to give the other team a 5 on 3 powerplay Just Because) all of this is quite disheartening for long term fans - and has resulted in quite a fractured and angsty fandom.

2. There are only about 20 F1 races a year - so it's just not a sport that's on regularly. I love sports, and I want to watch sports all the time - so a sport that only gave me content every third weekend or so just wasn't really enough for me.

At this point, when I was feeling rather sports fandom bankrupt, the wonderful work of Sid/Geno writers and the influence of the tumblr dashboard converged. I worked this out by scouring my AO3 bookmarks - in April 2021 I read a Sid/Geno fic called Game Plan that I fell head over heels for. I’m still not quite sure what about this fic grasped me so deeply but I started reading a lot more hockey RPF.

Around the same time an F1 blog I followed started posting about Mat Barzal All. The. Time. I had no interest in this man and did not know he was a hockey player but over the course of about a year I became vaguely exposed to hockey content on Tumblr through that blog, and at some point in early 2022, saw Sid on my dash for the first time. I don’t remember the exact post but I remember seeing the name, doing a double take and thinking oh Shit! That’s Sidney Crosby from fanfiction! I was flabbergasted because in my mind Sid was in his early 20s tops, so seeing this early thirties, bearded, fat bottomed man on my dash and realising that that was Sid was such a shock. 

My hockey lurker era lasted from mid 2022 to early 2023 and I spent a lot of time, um, lurking. That sounds so creepy. I suppose I had never thought about actively joining a fandom before because my fandom engagement (one direction > football > f1) had all happened really organically so actually choosing to join a space as an adult was quite an interesting process.

By summer of 2023 my husband’s job changed again meaning he works away from home most weeknights and suddenly my late nights were extremely free because I’d hang out with friends and then go home at 10/11 to an empty house which I hated. I really found myself wanting to make fandom friends and have an at home hobby I could do late at night before going to bed so taking on a sport that happened 12am-2am (timezones!) seemed like a good fit. 

Alongside this on a totally separate track was my longstanding interest in fandom - most of my professional work/research is pretty standard psychotherapy stuff but I’ve done a little bit of work over the last few years looking at sex therapy (not as sexy as it sounds) and I have a real interest in the role that fandom and especially shipping/fic plays in shaping and expressing sexuality. It’s a bit of a back burner research topic for now but I suppose over the years researching fic and expressions of sexuality via fandom and shipping has just made me fall in love with fandom itself a little bit.

Plus having lurked around the edges of hockeyblr for a while I was just like, yeah, I really want in on this, this seems like an awesome community. The reason why I chose the pens was pretty straightforward - I felt like I knew Sid and Geno and after exploring the real life hockey, I, like most of us, was quite struck by who Sid is as a person and was just completely enchanted. Another side note - hilariously, when my husband first saw a picture of Sid last year he immediately said “Oh, he looks like me!” - do with that information what you wish. 

I really eagerly awaited the start of the 2023 season and without sounding too soppy, had already fallen in love with you guys before I ever watched a live hockey game. Every fandom has its difficult corners (pensblr included!) but I can honestly say - especially after the chaos of spending my teenage years knee deep in 1D fandom and my early and mid twenties in various parts of sportsblr - being part of this space has been the most lovely, fun, friendly, lighthearted, positive and beautiful fandom experience I’ve ever had. I feel like it’s the goldilocks zone of all the previous fandoms I’ve been in and I love it.

So yeah! That is the extremely long winded answer to your question, anon. I hope this is the ‘lore drop’ you were looking for lol

TLDR: I stumbled my way through sportsblr until I accidentally ended up here and I’m never leaving.

[lichtecht]

uli song

[philsmeatylegss]

*Types into search bar*

“How to still be an active fan of a creator when previously being an obsessive fan for most of your teens because they were one of the few good things keeping you from killing yourself in middle school so now trying to become a more casual fan feels like a betrayal and I cannot get into new fandoms because the high I got in middle school from the extreme emotion switch cannot be replicated both because I’m literally twenty and I’m far from suicidal so now and I love these creators with my whole heart and still engage with all of their new content but I want to move on while also still being a fan but I just can’t?”

[tenkodyke]

✨Congratulations to Sakura Ogami on winning the Trigger Happy Havoc favorite character bracket! ✨

With one vote, Sakura beat Chihiro in the final round of the bracket, earning her the title of favorite Tigger Happy Havoc character. Thanks to everyone who participated!! I’m open to running more polls in the future, so keep your eyes open!

[goldenhypen]

oh boy help i just remembered that i still have a so many dark blood event reqs that haven’t been touched yet 😭 it already took me a month to get out all that i did and then plus me going on hiatus for like another month didn’t help so like are y’all still even interested tbh? 😭 if i’m being completely real, i’ve lost motivation to write over the past little while and so there’s no inspiration flowing currently and like i also don’t like giving you guys smth i’m not happy with. ugh i’m in a dilemma like on one hand if i discontinue it it’ll feel v incomplete (esp w me thinking that i was so smart to leave jake for last <//3) and i’d feel like i’m also letting ppl down for taking the time to send in reqs and being excited about it and then never fulfilling that would just be <//333 but then on the other hand, if i discontinue the event, i’d def feel a lot a lot of weight off my shoulders, more free and can have a fresh start w everything. cuz ngl i think i am gaining inspiration,,,, but for other fics and ideas,, not dark blood requests. basically it’s putting my well-being, happiness and inspiration (for a lack of better words T-T) over others,,, and ngl it’s part of my beliefs and values to put others before myself so like <//3 like doing the dark blood reqs is still writing and i find joy in writing,, it’s just that when it comes to requests, sometimes that happiness becomes forced yk? help y’all i’m actually T-T

[moghedien]

Got the alphasmart I’m gonna mod with a mechanical keyboard in

It needs cleaning, and if I can’t get the permanent marker off I’m gonna probably spray paint it too, but it’s in overall good shape

Typing on it feels absolutely horrible though and really makes me appreciate the Neo2 I already have

Also I wonder if I can potentially give it a bit of a better screen too…

[sootnuki]

i haven’t shown it much here but i’ve been hyperfixating on h*r for over three months and seeing anything relating to it makes me feel as if i’m about to explode in the microwave

[fluffypotatey]

Okay I talked enough about Macky, time to balance it out but s4 y’all like that was DEVIOUS they showed the Specific Macky Scene where he’s tied up in the unalivement by his own shadows (I think) it’s like the only similar thing so like, Wukong remembers that? for a split second with the melting blue face it almost seemed like Macky was crying, also oof, he sounded more distressed than angry, well anyways and then we have even MORE evil stuff like the DIALOGUE “you’re nothing” “what have you done? “Monkey! No violence!” and that last line? It’s so much closer to the ear, and when Wukong goes “no!” right after that ohohoho that was SOOO on purpose, and can we PLEASE talk about the special where he gives that hero speech because daaaaang I love them turning it on our heads like that bc Wukong is well, he ain’t lying, in fact I’m bouncing up and down how it’s Ink MK he’s talking to and the fact this is their way of representing Wukong battling against his own mind. “I know you don’t really believe that.” Okay but he’s TRYING and I both love that and relate to it. And when he calls everyone his friends MMMM Wukong’s key characterization can sometimes be so subtle but if you CATCH THE VIBES you can think so hard about it, like they REALLY just had to crush him like that in the middle of that speech? and then how he has to bring it all back in a shower of gold and power, yeah buddy, I still don't think you're okay! I love Macky whump as much as the next person, but boi do I love Wukong's entire hero/mentor/flawed humane character dilemma too. hook line and sinker, you can pull me in with him kicking butt and you can pull me in with the angst and excitement from that heroic visage, one can only be trapped as the legendary savior until I start cackling over fourth wall breaking their lives and sad little situation, oh buddy does the narrative praise you! what an untouchable hero you are. get up, again again again- you can't retire :D this is "past catching up with you" done RIGHT. because it's just him. becoming a different person, maturing, and nobody is here to drag him down to hell. it's still just himself. and everything he was never able to fully work through, the idea of him everyone still holds when they see him, and, most of that stuff came after the journey, so he got new issues as he became "the good guy" the hero for centuries, what a polished stone monkey right? but the consequences of all those experiences on his new personality...nobody would see some of those things as a problem. like his accepted loneliness when MK thinks to see the fireworks with his friends. the serene smile as Wukong just looks away. yeah okay, you became the great sage, you got wisdom pal, and it's such a smiling sad look on you!

stop reading my mind 🤧

NO BUT HIS SMILE!!!!! HIS SMILE IS ALWAYS HAS A TOUCH OF SADNESS!!!! THERE IS A WEIGHT THERE!!!!!

he makes all these off-handed comments like they are jokes and moves to a different topic so fast that you forget about them—BUT NOT ME I REMEMBER!!!! THEY ARE BURNED INTO MY MIND AND THEY HAUNT ME

because it was never just an “off-handed” comment. no, no, no! lmk doesn’t play by those rules. even the tiniest details or throwaway jacket style is picked carefully for foreshadowing purposes.

AND WUKONG IS FULL OF THEM!!! HIS LINES, HIS MANNERISMS, HIS FUCKING OMISSIONS!!!

*ugly crying* this monkey is killing me 🫠