#lovely footage thank you to the op <3 doing god's work

[copia]

sleep token rituals 8/? 𝅘𝅥𝅯 source — @twilighttowayvision — "I want to have you to myself, for once..."

[beatsboy]

7.28.24 / day 35 of romanticizing my life until i love myself again

it’s almost 2am, i woke up about an hour ago from a 5 hour “nap” after going to a queer day market to support my friend selling their art, and it was really cute and i was honestly super social as i have not had that much social interaction lately (getting used to living alone and having to actively go out and seek social interaction has changed my capacity when i do have it so much, like crazy not feeling drained every time i leave the house because i’ve already been like 5 people’s father/therapist/cleaner/etc before getting to the place i’m going to be supportive/present for someone else) but god damn it was so f u c k i n g hot and tbh i’m very proud of myself for making it as long as i did i only made it thanks to the ice cream vender who put my ice pack necklace (shoutout to my mom who has these for menopause and told me about them) in her cooler so it could get cold again and the lemonade vender who gave me a giant cup of ice to hold against various parts of my body to stay cool af and i got to talk about the music video, and future music videos, the more we talk about this stuff, the more motivated i feel to work on music i want to get to the part where i get to be the thing i’ve been building mostly in my brain for so long

originally, we were going for summer release, and then everything got all fucked up with my roommate situation and moving but i think it was meant to happen this way; this project is better suited for the fall, regardless, and clearly brat has taken over this summer in terms of music, on all levels, especially in the hyperpop scene there are still brat parties going on in la, smaller artists are still reaping the benefits of this album (though not getting much credit, as per usual) love seeing the dare dj a petal supply remix of a brat song and getting all the credit, it’s fine we can continue letting cis white dudes get the credit for queer artists, it’s fine i was literally at a brat market today, where everyone had brat merchandise it’s hard for any other music to break through the brat noise in pop/hyperpop right now, not to mention, boypop is kind of fucking freaky, so i do think sept/oct release would be good for the theme

i rewatch the assembly of the first minute or so of footage and literally cannot believe that that is me these are the movements i practice in the shower, in the corner, in my room, when no one’s looking, movements, expressions, i rarely actually see and the thing is, when i do see, i often shrink from them when i tried to practice performing like this in front of a mirror, i always lost it, the authenticity of it, the commitment, giving fully into the performance, the character, the self that’s the only way, in my opinion, to perform, because any level of restraint pulls you back to reality, that i am just a human, an insecure boy, going through puberty for the second time in his life of 27 years, afraid that he hasn’t done enough in his short time on this earth and wishes he’d taken a life-altering journey to a faraway planet where pop music was the harbinger of liberation instead of a stint in rehab and a coke addiction

anyway, market was fun, although so so hot, and after not going out all weekend, especially after thinking i was going to go to the rave on friday night and not, i really needed some socialization, with friends, and new people, and really needed some real time spent out of my apartment i got a really cute trucker hat that says “gay son” that i’m obsessed with and a really beautiful zine made by a trans guy about his gender journey (originally to raise money for his top surgery, which he had evidently already had, as he was standing there, fearlessly, with his shirt off) i honestly didn’t want to spend another $10 (i literally still have to make my rent in the next 3 days but telling myself i got this) but i think i just feel this intense awe when i see other trans guys post op shirtless, so free in a way i cannot imagine being so, naturally, i was blinded and overcome with this feeling, so i paid the $10 for the zine, and of course i do not regret it at all another vender had a kitten cafe with two 2 week old kittens inside (pictured) because they were too young to be left alone and while i was worried about them and the heat, they were quite cute

after being at the market for over 4 hours, af and i came back to my place, where i made us greek wraps with ground turkey and homemade tzatziki and cucumbers after we walked to h mart to get fresh tortillas i showed them the latest version of “boypop” which is so close i can taste the final mix (and am a bit mad i didn’t work on it today, but it’s fine, i was exhausted) they noticed the automation, the changes i’ve been making, i feel like i’ve actually been moving forward in my work this past week instead of just hyperfixating and going in circles, which is a danger i face in the finishing phase it’s hard to let go of a project, to let it be done i still listen to “king” and think of different harmonies i could record now with my current voice and i can sing whatever i want live, but the recording is done, the mix is done, there are no more changes to be made

i think, in the same way that i love people for their potential, and not always for who they are right now, i see a song as it’s potential, which is why i can imagine so much more than what is actually in front of me, and translate that symphony in my head into the daw, and i also why it’s so hard to let go, to stop, to step away from the infinity of changes and evolutions each project could still face sometimes it feels like i could just work on something forever and as i learn new things it will keep getting better and better, but at some point, i just have to let go

when i was a kid, my dad told me that an artist’s first album is always the best because it’s the cumulation of only their best works at the time, but then they just have to keep creating and they slowly get worse and worse i don’t know why i let this stick with me, more insidious influence from my father on a career i hadn’t even chosen when i knew him, it was just some dumb musing from a middle-aged man making himself feel smart by making a comment about maroon fucking 5

his birthday was 2 weeks ago i wonder if it makes him sad, on his birthday, at the age of 66, knowing he’s grown to be the kind of man who would offer back his relationship to his child, who has grown to hate him more than he hates himself, at a price, who has grown to be a man who can put a price tag on anything, even his love and support knowing he is one of the only people left in this planet, soon including even TSA agents and the DMV, to call me that name to wonder if i will ever come back, if i will ever call, if i will ever reach out, if i will ever show up and say i’m sorry dad you were right all along i got off the path and i sold my body and i want to go back to my normal life with a check for $5000, crying, and return to his control (i won’t) he tells my brother that it’s on me, ball’s in my court, if i want to come back that’s all i have to do, say sorry and pay the fine my terms have always been more simple, which i have communicated let’s talk, with a therapist present you two (parents) schedule (since they have crazy schedules) and i will be flexible (even though i too have crazy schedule) “he said he’s willing” my mother claimed, but it never came to fruition, of course not i blocked his number at first, i had to he wouldn’t stop calling, threatening me, telling me i’d made my mother sick with my behavior (becoming financially independent after realizing i was being financially/emotionally abused) i responded to his emails for a while, but they got worse, so i stopped then, his dad died, and i unblocked him just to call and give my condolences i left him unblocked after that. he could have called any time he wanted, but he didn’t i would know if he’d even tried

i wonder if my dad, too, ever sat alone in his first solo apartment journaling about his thoughts and reflecting on the ways his actions impacted other people mostly i hope not, because i don’t want to know if he did good things before he went bad, i want his fate to feel impossible for me to come to i already know that he read the tao te ching and the four agreements, things i’ve read as a young adult, that have brought me peace, that have taught me ways to move through the world, that don’t make sense when i think of him, and it makes me uneasy i don’t want to envision him being a morally good person and suddenly turning it makes me fear that i could still face the turn, when i want to believe that i have avoided it, that i am not capable of becoming a man like That

but, in truth, we are all capable of becoming like that, of selling out to some idea worse than what we believe in because it’s easy, because what we’re doing now is hard, because the rat race is tiring on the ground because our bodies are tired because maybe our fathers were right and the world’s a hard place and maybe i won’t because i know he wasn’t right, he never was, he was a professional bully who practiced on his wife and children but it is in every decision we make, daily, hourly, minute by minute, that determines who we are, and in ever decision, we can make the turn, we can cave and be cruel, we can give in and take the easy route, knowing that each of those decisions pulls us closer to That which we fear becoming the evil you fear lies as much in buying all your furniture on amazon as it does saying something cruel to someone who doesn’t deserve it just because you’ve had a stressful morning as much as the goodness you chase lives in being friendly to the coffee employee who’s taking forever on your drink when you’re late because it’s not their fault and their morning is just as important as yours as much as it lives in buying from local artists every decision determines how you move through the world, connecting each step and choice like a river, that is where you find where you’ll end up, which ocean you end up submerged in, which fish you will find yourself swimming into the dark night with and i crave free, calm waters for when i my end

[iznightwing]

TUA Season 2 Spoilers

So, this is my immediate reactions to the new season of The Umbrella Academy. Please enjoy

Episode 1

They all got stuck in different parts of early 60s Dalas, TX

Threat of nucular war

"The Swedes" are our main(?) protagonists for this season it seems

Diego(1963) is in a mental asylum because he's trying to stop JFK's assassination.

Vanya(1963) has some minor amnesia

Luthor(1962) is a mobster???(idk)

Allison(1961) is married, helping with the civil rights movement

Klaus(1961) stole a guys truck and fighting with Ben

Ben(with Klaus) is still a ghosty boi(😭)

Five(1963) as to figure out how to stop the fuck apocalypse ****again**** that they ended up bringing back with them

Episode 2

Handler is alive, but she got demoted

Luthor works for Jack Ruby apparently

Luthor still hates Vanya -_-

"Dad should have left him on the moon" jsjegdidu Five's fuckin savage

Diago and Lila(new character) escape the mental hospital

Allison's husband just got arrested for "assault and battery"

Diago is still trying to get Lee Harvey Oswald

Klaus is literally treated like a Hippie Jesus but he doesn't like it

They have fottage from JFK's assassination, which isn't for another 6 days, based on the show's timeline

FUCKING REGINALD IS IN THE FOOTAGE?!?!

Luthor found where Vanya has be- OH SHIT HE HAS A GUN

Luthor doesn't realize Vanya has amnesia

He wants to apologize to her???

LUTHOR DON'T DO IT

SISSY(new character) PULLED THROUGH

2 of the 3 guys sent to kill the Hargreaves are just throwing a knife at each other while the other one cooks??

Five and Diego are going to search for Reginald

Allison's husband is getting suspicious because she almost used her power in front of him

Lesbian vibes coming from Sissy and Vanya

Five being vulnerable makes me soft

Reginald has (a) mannequin family(ies)??

Pogo!!

Reginald just fucking stabbed Diego I-

Episode 3

Klaus seriously is just Hippie Jesus

Lila saved Diego's life

Vanya run girl!

Yaasss queen! You use thos powers!

Well, Five found Vanya

Luthor is trying to find Allison

Klaus and Allison reunited!!

Handler changed her appearance??

Allison is a strong independent woman, and ain't none can tell her otherwise

Daaamn klaus and Ben just used his ghosty self to get Allison's husband out of jail

Five tries to help Vanya get her memories back

I'm fairly certain Lila has a thing for Diego

THEY MADE OUT! I WAS RIGHT

Okay, they're doing more than making out

Luthor found Allison's address and met her husband. Can you say **awkward** !

Allison ain't taking no shit my dudes

DAVE!! AAAHHH

Klaus is being the awkward gay

OH FUCK OUR IS BOY HAVING SOME PTSD

KLAUS IS TRYING TO SAVE DAVE FROM GOING TO VIETNAM!

I think Ray(Allison's husband) is mad at Allison...

Vanya and Five went find Luthor

Shit going wrong at the sit-in

Oh shit Allison just made Ray scared of her by using her power

Klaus managed to get Allison out of all the chaos

Luthor just purposely lost a fight??

Lila what the fuck are you doing??

Lila, what are those keys for??

LILA YOU FUCKING WORK FOR HANDLER?!?!

MOM?!?!?!

Episode 4

FIVE WAS THAT YOU?! I SWEAR TO GOD IF IT WAS-

I don't know how I feel about this my dudes

Vanya and Luthor bonding??

Jack Ruby just fired Luthor??

Vanya and Five just had a fight

Klaus is not the best person for moral support

"He stabbed me" "I'm surprised he waited this long, Diego. We've all had the urge" jdjdgdj savage Five back at it again

So Reginald is part of a "shadow government"??

OH FUCK DAVE NOOOO

Allison, honey, you can do better babe

Oh nooo Klaus is going back to the dunk side

Welp, Klaus' followers found him

Diego, Lila and Diego doing a sneaky

Allison and Luthor have reunited!!

More sneaky

GRACE! BUT NOT A ROBOT!

Oh nooo! Harlan come back!

HARLAN NOOO

VANYA TO THE RESCUE!!

Well, Luthor just got evicted

LETS GO LESBIANS

Well, Luthor's high on laughing gas, thanks to Eliot

Ooo fight scene to KISS niiccceee

Welp I think Diego feels betrayed

Five knows ancient Greek apparently

Episode 5

BABY POGO

Pogo was apparently sent to space

That moment you realize Reginald treated Pogo more like a son than he did his own children

Diego and Five are onto Lila

Allison and Klaus are have a heart to heart

As I stated previously, LETS GO LESBIANS

Oh nooo

Luthor, you're just going to get your feelings hurt

Told you soooooo

"Dude, that's rough" I- they literally missed the opportunity to use "that's rough buddy"

Handler, what are you planning?

Now Diego doesn't trust Vanya -_-

ALL THE SIBLINGS ARE TOGETHER YAY

The Swedes are just living their best life in this random women's home

Damit Klaus

God damit Luthor

Don't follow her damit

AAAAHHHH BENNNN

Klaus calling out all the in*est shippers

"The only thing the Umbrella Academy knows about love... is how to screw it up" I didnt need called out like this Klaus

I love some quality sibling bonding

Well that guy just went boom

I lowkey like this cover of Billie Eilish's "Bad Guy"

Five figured out Lila and Handler are working together

Vanya trying to confess her love to Sissy I- baby nooo

Vany, baby, it's all gonna be okay

The swedes are down to two. Poor guys

Idk how I feel about this version of Adele's "Hello"

Klaus is confronting his followers

Allison decided to tell Ray everything

Episode 6

Allison, run baby!

Ooo how sweet!

Seriously Handler. What are you planning?

So luthor, Diego and Vanya are going to talk to Reginald

Klaus' followers won't listen to him

Allison got Ray to believe her. Yay!

Ooooh booooyyy, pooh shhhiiittt

BINGOO!

oh shit, what the hell??

Oh my god, Dave come baaaaccckkk!!!

"Unharm my wiener" oh my god

I think Luthor let rip in the elevator, lol

Reggie wants proof

And with that proof comes a mess of fruit

So, Ben can possess Klaus

Diego doooonnn't

Vulnerable Five gets me every time

Nooooo not Eliot

Sissy, it's gonna be okay baby

Oh noooo

Oh fuuucckkk

Episode 7

I have a bad feeling about this

Well that was... interesting

Klaus is being Ben's wingman and letting him possess him to talk to a girl

I don't like Carl's attitude

I knew Handler was gonna pull something

Diego just threatened an old lady because of a misunderstanding I-

Istg, I want to shoot Handler in the head again

God damnit Diego

Ben, enjoy yourself baby, but don't abuse your brother's trust

Fuck off Carl

Allison, honey, please go with Luthor

Ben, you're doing great sweetie

Diego knows that Ben is able to possess Klaus

Vanya, please don't fight with your brother

Diego, please lis- GOD DAMIT LILA

Allison, baby, its going to be okay

Sissy, what are you doing?

Backstreet boys to a fight scene. Nice

So vaccuum extensions can be a weapon

Klaus, Ben, stop fighting!

Okay, so that happened

Shiiitt

Vanya, don- SHIIIIT

Episode 8

So Vanya is the russian baby from the opening of the first season

"You've had your possession privileges revoked!" "I regret nothing!"

Oh shit, he's gonna- ope, he knows it was Handler

Diego, don't let them treat you like that man

Grace, please be careful

Grace, don't believe him

So, five is going to look for himself. Literally, not figuratively

Sissy, don't listen to him

DON'T HURT HER YOU ASSHOLES

The FBI be assholes(for legal reasons this is about the show only)

This won't end well

Lila, please. Control yourself

Five apparently doesn't trust himself(the old body version of himself)

Diego, don't fuck up

Fancy shmancy machine

Sooo, Vanya causes this apocalypse too??

Past five wants to "kill" present Five??

Brain food. Ha

Ray, just listen to your wife

Uuuuhhhh Harlan??

Episode 9

Allison, please be careful baby

"You look like Antonio Banderas with the long hair, I just thought you should know"

Common Klaus, I know you can do it baby

BEN!!

"Because I'm him, and that is exactly what I'd do if I wanted to kill me!"

"I'M THE DADDY HERE!!" Gejkzudh I'm-

743??

Carl stop it!

Sissy, POP OFF

God damnit Lila

Five. For god sakes

Oof, I felt that through the screen

"Dancing with myself" is a completely appropriate song to go with this fight scene

Ben, be careful baby. I know your dead, but still

Vanya, baby, it's gonna be okay

Ben noooooo

Shut the fuck up Carl

OH SHIT

Lila knows the- GOD DAMNIT IT WAS FIVE

Don't listen to her Lila!

Okay, so that just happened

Diego is still trying to stop the assassination

Five sent old Five through his rift to 2019

Well, Diego got duped

Reginald didn't know about the plan of the assassination??

WHAT THE FUCK?!

UUUHHH

Episode 10

Okay, so we open up with Ben's funeral

Wow Reginald

Klaus apparently convinced Ben not to go to the light?

So now they're all wanted by the FBI

Guys, please listen to Vanya

Okay, so he was scared of the light, it wasn't Klaus that got him to stay

"Anyone makes a fat joke and I'm outta here"

Oh- oh no

Harlan, baby, please listen to Vanya

Uuuuhhhhhhhh

So Diego can control the direction of more than just knives. Okay then

Hell yea baby, Vanya saves the day

WHAT THE FUCK

OH SHIT, FIVE

Nooooo

Phew that was close. Why is it always Allison that almost dies?

Don't listen to her Harlan!

Listen to them Lila!

NOOOOO

WHAT THE FUCK

YASSS BITCH

Harlan, it's okay baby!

Yassss

Way to go Herb!

No Sissy, go with herrrrr

I have mixed feelings about all this

And theyre back home

Apparently Reginald is alive??

THE FUCK

[kari-izumi]

001-Yugioh 002-Sheith 003-Renji Abarai

I probably should clarified one per ask lol :p

I'm gonna break this off into three separate posts since i have people outside of V/D who are in one of the other two fandoms who have Sheith blacklisted and because line breaks never work for me on an OP from mobile. I'll start with Yu-Gi-Oh (and legit thanks for the variety in fandoms BTW!)

001 | Send me a fandom and I will tell you my:

Favorite character: Seto Kaiba, without a doubt. Even for all the other interests this blog has shifted towards and the volume of VLD content that damn near came close to dethroning it, Seto Kaiba is still my #1 tag.

Like, he's overcome so much and I'm really glad current fandom sees that 1) he's a teenager (the youngest in the group, in fact!) 2) he's a survivor of abandonment even before the adoption and 3) that even though he's not murdering people these days over cards that abuse doesn't just go away and that he's trying.

He's my disaster son, and I live him :)

Least Favorite character: Gozaburo. We know why

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon):

Violet/Pup/Kaijou

Prideshipping

Silentshipping (don't @ me over it, I've heard all the howls about it over dialup)

Wishshipping

Buddyshipping

Character I find most attractive: huh. I don't get much into that aspect of the characters for this fandom, but if I had to take a stand, I'd got for Kaiba after his ab game got turned up to 11 in DSOD. NICE 👀

Character I would marry: I thought about this, but tbh that's a blank for me

Character I would be best friends with: Yugi ❤️ cuz he's best friends with everyone!

a random thought: I can never figure out exactly what Pot of Greed does

(😉)

An unpopular opinion: L!ttleKurib0h's bad charicature of Tea went a long way towards fostering the irrational hatred this fandom has of her. There's a whole lot about the guy in general that doesn't sit right, most of which has been lost time time and aren't mine stories to tell, but nowadays most of the ppl who hate her usually came by the Abridged series before actually watching the show and not because she got in the way of their yaoi ship of choice.

My Canon OTP: we have none

My Non-canon OTP: Nakamashipping, which is the name for Yugi/Honda/Jou/Anzu

Most Badass Character: Jou, by a long shot. Somewhere in the depths of this blog was a post on how much of Jou's fighting ability and strength was downplayed or removed in DM and it's a shame he, like Renji, got put in to solely comic relief category.

Most Epic Villain: honestly, are there really any "badass" epic villains in this series? Like, they're either cartoonishly evil like the way early antagonists pre-Duel Monsters or victims of circumstances beyond their control. Yu-Gi-Oh really doesn't have a Sosuke Aizen or a [insert JJBA villain of choice here]. Even the Kaibas' adopted dad was just more crazy and given a few panels in the manga.

Honestly, I've never given that any thought before now. 🤔

Pairing I am not a fan of: Kaiba/Pegasus. I have a hard time thinking Seto is going to push aside him using Mokuba in his plans to revive his wife anytime soon, but it's not a hill I'd die on tbh. Truthfully, it's hard for me to hate ships these days.

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another): Do I have pick just one?

I could pick the usual ones of Honda, Anzu, Ryou Bakura (and I was tempted for the last one)

But honestly, I think the one who gets shafted most is Yugi himself. You know how in OItNB where Piper stopped being the focus by mid season 3 and thank God cuz really? It's like that for Yugi after Duelist Kingdom where he just takes a backseat as Yami/Atem gets all cool story.

And even Shounen Jump shafts hi, too. I think it was a post by @engelchenyugi who pointed out that the Jump Force game identified Atem as Yugi in game play footage. That's just...really bad coming from the official publishers. Yugi Mutou might be the most misunderstood and underrated protagonist in their entire library, and I'm saying this as a Bleach fan who's had to hear how supposedly "boring" Ichigo is because he doesn't fight for an overarching goal.

Favourite Friendship: All of them...? But mostly Joy and Yugi for being soft bois who openly love one another.

Character I most identify with: for all the love I give Kaiba, I'm gonna have to go with Mokuba. Poor kid gets dragged along into his brother's reckless ideas and has to sit back until he comes back into reality. Sounds like the story of my life *sigh*

There's a reason this icon hasn't changed in all the time I've had this blog beyond just laziness

I promise I'll finish that one fic one day

Character I wish I could be: hmmmmm, maybe Honda, cuz his family is probably the only normal one in all of canon, even if they don't question that he disappears for that whole weekend where Duelist Kingdom took place. Hey, look, it's the same canon where Kaiba got a dog collar slapped on his and Joy's mom left him with an alcoholic, Mr. Honda gets some slack here 🤣

That's all for that! And if others want to send more, the meme is here! :)

[joshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh]

Welp, 22/7 episode 12 aired. And it was exactly what I expected while also being not at all what I expected.

So the Wall speaks specifically so it can give us some exposition dump about the nature of the 22/7 plan. More specifically it tells the girls that it did everything it did just to observe some idols and how they’re perceived as objects of worship and shit, and that it has the results it needs so that’s why it made them disband, and now it can move on to the next phase. And then it tells them that it’s pure coincidence who ended up being picked and it was all random, etc. So it seems like the Wall was evil after all.

Right?

So Nicole begs to stay as a group, Wall says no, then Miu hits it with a fucking chair, recaps each girl’s episode again which is getting fucking tiring at this point, states how much they’ve grown as a group because of it, which is blatantly bullshit since you’ve just been showing us flashbacks the entire show, and then everyone gangs up on the Wall and they break it, bust through, see that it’s full of photos of them from their childhood so now they know they weren’t randomly picked, and they can walk up a set of stairs and give a performance because hey the Wall actually spit out orders to Gouda to have this final performance happen and the girls have to come but also don’t force them. So in essence the Wall played the role of the villain in this one specific scene for this one specific purpose, meaning that, as I and I know many others predicted, 22/7 were given the opportunity to overcome the Wall and continue as an idol group on their own accord.

If you’ve been keeping up with my thoughts on the show, you’re probably not surprised to here me say this, but I don’t think that worked one bit. Because at the end of the day, if everything’s illustrated by the Wall, and they even had the photos of the girls from their childhoods in the room to clue them in that the Wall was just playing a part, then the girls didn’t actually do anything to overcome the Wall - to earn this moment of victory.

Fuck the Wall.

I cannot think of any plot device in any anime, no, piece of fiction I hate this fucking much. 22/7 hasn’t been great anyway so even without the Wall it wouldn’t make the show necessarily good, but having the Wall drags the show down so fucking far that it’s unbelievable. If we get any follow-up that just doesn’t have the Wall anymore then thank god they can act independently but then they’ve still got the most contrived bullshit plot device garbage ass fucking shit ass backstory in the world. Fuck the Wall, once more.

And to rub it in real hard...

Yeah that’s right! The Wall, after being smashed to fucking bits, still has the fucking gall to demand that the remaining 3 members join.

And they’re here and they’re cute. But fuck the Wall for not even dying and letting me be happy with that.

Honestly I couldn’t even be satisfied with the girls beating it up just because of how contrived and bullshit the whole scheme was, plus much as I love Miu and it’s nice seeing her get to smash it with a chair the bullshit she spouts about how much 22/7 means to them as a team is so fake, talking big game about how everyone “always” acts in this way that’s so crucial to the group as whole, Jun is everyone’s little sister, Akane’s so happy after a live, fucking Ayaka loves 22/7 the most? God piss off you piece of shit script, you’ve earned none of this. Fucking none.

Anyway their live was also lame, they play Muzui, and playing the OP as the ED doesn’t really work if you played it as the OP in the same episode like normal. Plus it uses some footage from the OP and the lighting’s not nearly as stylish as Rikaisha was in the Akane episode so they didn’t even close with their best live.

Also, after their live, Miu gives us a cute smile, and we get

This shot, as if to say Miu remembers the backstory with Nicole now. Whatever.

And this shot, as if to convey that Nicole and Miu are the best of friends and the whole show’s about them and every other girl means nothing. Which isn’t even really false honestly but god do more, please?

But to at least end this post on a positive note, since despite its numerous hiccups I did enjoy 22/7, let’s go out the way we always have.

Shit tons of Miu photos.

She is adorable, and the saving grace of the show.

[mirkwoodshewolf]

Chapter 1; A reunion two years in the making

*Author’s note*

Now that the introductions are out of the way, it is time to finally begin the first installment of Mother Raksha. Now just to clarify the first 6 chapters revolve around the events in Infinity war, then the rest of the story will take place during End Game. I hope you all enjoy the first chapter of this returning series and hope you all won’t hate me for the end result of what I have in store for you.

Taglist:

@psychosupernatural

@plethora-of-things

@ixchel-9275

@waddles03

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It all began at mine and Rauri’s wedding.  It was a beautiful ceremony, Rauri and I stood before our friends and family under a beautiful archway and said our vows to each other, to proclaim our undying love for one another and finally become Mates for life.

        Once we said our I do’s and were officially pronounced husband and wife by the King of Wakanda himself, our reception began.  It was a wonderful reception.  Dancing, singing and everyone was in harmony with each other.

        Until reality came knocking at the door.

        Stepping out of the shadows after my mother threw her spear to protect me and Rauri, Bucky, T’Challa and I were in shock to see who it was standing before us.

        “Do you know him my love?” asked Rauri as he held onto my waist.  It had been two years since I’ve seen him, and I couldn’t believe that right here and now he was standing right before us.

        “It’s Steve”.

        T’Challa and I ordered both Dora Milaje and Chimeras to stand down and we both walked right up to him.

        “I—would have brought a wedding gift had I known what the date was” he started. Before he could continue, I immediately embraced him tightly.  His chest softly rumbled as he chuckled before wrapping his arms around me tightly, even picking me up to slowly spin me around.

“Steve, my God look at you”. I separated from him to take a good look at him.  I placed my hand on his cheek feeling his beard. “It suits you” I said.

“Thank you, been trying to grow it out for the past 2 years, sorry about intruding on the wedding”.

“Ahh don’t worry, you only just crashed the reception, now had it been the actual ceremony, then we’d have a problem”. We both laughed, and Steve said.

“Ahhh (y/n) you hadn’t changed a bit”.

“Steve”. We both turned to see Bucky walking towards us now.  I stepped aside and let the two brothers hug each other and Steve said as they separated.

“How you been Buck?”

“Good, all thanks to this She-wolf right here”. Bucky said as he brought me in to him and kissed the top of my head.  T’Challa then came up and he and Steve shook hands as Steve said.

“Your highness”.

“Mr. Rogers”.

“May I ask what you are doing in Wakanda interrupting the reception of Rauri and (y/n) Williams?” Okoye piped in.

“That’s the thing,” he then turned towards me and said, “New York has been under attack, our kind of attack”.  At that moment I knew exactly what he meant.

We were now in the throne room and up on screen, it showed footage of New York under alien attack.  It showed buildings of fire, winds blowing at high speed until finally it showed a couple of aliens.  

One buffed out almost like he was an alien version of the Hulk, and the other lean and thin like a pencil, in a way he kinda reminded me of that squid on that kid’s show SpongeBob mixed with Voldemort.

“When did this exactly start?” asked my mother.

“Not even a half hour ago”. Said Steve.

“Do we know what they want?” asked T’Challa.

“They’re after the Infinity stones”.

“Infinite what?” asked Dean.

“Infinity stones, the greatest power known to any man. My future brother in law has the Mind Stone, it’s what gave him life over 3 years ago during the battle with Ultron” I explained to my Texas bear brother.

“What else do we know?” asked Rauri.

“Last we know, Vision and Wanda were last heard of in Edinburgh, Scotland. If these creatures are after the stones…..”

“They’ll be tracking down Vision first and kill my sister to get to it”.  Steve soon came into my line of vision kneeling before me and he said.

“I know you gave up being an Avenger for a greater cause, protecting Buck. And you just got married, had I known from the start, I may not even be here but—”

“Oh, there’s no question, I’m going with you”.

“(Y/n)—” Rauri started but I turned to him and said.

“That’s my sister out there. I haven’t seen her in years and I’m not gonna let some alien bastards kill her, don’t tell me if our roles were reversed that you wouldn’t do the same if it was Connor before he had gone mad that was out there in trouble”.  Rauri and I stared each other down.

Finally he submitted to my stronger gaze and he came up beside me and cupped my cheek and kissed me.  My eyes shut and as he separated from me he whispered in Gaelic.

“Promise you’ll come back to me?”

“I promise my love” I answered back.  I turned to Steve and nodded once to him.

“Five minutes; be ready to leave at that moment”.

I was in the bathroom washing away my makeup as well as running my hair through the shower head getting rid of the curls and picking out the flowers from my hair.  Once I came out dripping wet, Shuri was now in my room with a silver case. I walked up to her and she opened up the case to reveal my Mother wolf Raksha suit.

“Time to give this bad girl a full test run”. I got on the suit, latched up the boots, adjusted the shoulder pads and then finally placed the wolf-shaped helmet over my face.  Once the whole suit was on, I told the suit to go on since it was connected directly to my mind.

The suit then began to fill in the gaps of any remaining part that showed skin till it almost appeared like T’Challa’s Black Panther suit, and should I go into my wolf form, the suit will appear around me like the armor on the border tribe’s rhinos.

I turned to Shuri and she smirked at me and held out my weapon.  A special spear that with a simple twist, I can make become anything like a dagger, knife, sword, whatever, so long as I thought it and twirled it, it would change forms.

“Mother wolf Raksha is ready” she said with a proud smile.  I looked at her and I held my hand out and she took it and we both shook on it.

“Get the chimera’s their armors while I’m gone”.

“I’ve almost completed your husband’s, he’ll get a test drive later this afternoon”.  I smiled at her before leaving my room.

Standing right by the familiar quinjet, Steve, T’Challa and Bucky stood there. Once Steve saw me, his jaw almost dropped to the ground as he beheld my new Wolf suit. 

“Wow, new suit?” Like T’Challa’s mask, mine came down revealing my face.

“Yep, Shuri and I have been working on it for a while, now it’ll see it’s chance in a fight for the first time”.  I turned to Bucky and I walked right up to him and embraced him, and he did the same for me. “Look after Rauri and the others for me, won’t you?”

“You got it Wolfie”. We looked at each other and he leaned his forehead against mine and I drew my strength from him.  I then turned my attention to T’Challa and said to him.

“Don’t think this means you’re getting rid of me that easy your highness”.

“Believe me (y/n), I couldn’t get rid of you even if I tried”. I smirked at him before I crossed my arms before him in the Wakandan salute and he did the same for me.

“Give my love to mom, won’t you?”

“She knows you do, but I will tell her you send your wishes to her”. Steve then led me up the ramp of the quinjet and as the doors closed, I then knew my fate had been sealed.  Steve took the controls and soon we took off out of Wakanda.

Along the way, I asked Steve what all had been happening in the world since I had taken my new task of protecting the world and letting the government believe that I had ‘died’ in Siberia during the accords.  He told me that after he left Wakanda after bringing Bucky and I there, he snuck into the Raft prison and broke every one of Team Cap out of their cells.

In order to protect their families, Clint and Scott made deals with the government and agreed to go into under house arrest. While Sam, him and Natasha had been basically around the world but mostly they kept close around Europe and once Wanda had broken out and Vision had came into the picture, but instead of turning her and the others in, he went along with them and he and Wanda had been living together ever since in Scotland.  

“So will it just be you and me going in after Mama Bear and Vision or will we have backup?”

“Sam and Nat have agreed to come help with this rescue op. They were supposed to check in on us regularly but for the past few days we hadn’t heard anything from them. We’re hoping you could help track them down for us”.

“Hey I’m your nose”. I praised.

By late afternoon, we arrived on the other side of Edinburgh.  As Steve and I left, we both walked into a motel room and Steve said out loud.

“I’ve got her!” Soon coming out of the shadows were Sam Wilson and Natasha Romanoff.  The past two years had certainly changed the both of them, Natasha had changed her normal orange hair to a bleach blonde and her suit was now a little more bulked up than her normal catsuit.  As for Sam, he had started growing a beard much like Steve, he appeared more gruffer than the last time I saw him, his eyes a bit harsher now but once he saw me, his eyes softened.

“Well I’ll be damn so it’s true. And she shall rise up from the ashes like the phoenix”.

“More like Wolf ghost” I said. Sam held his arms wide open and I hugged him as he patted my back.  “Damn girl let me take a good look at you”. I then spun around for him playfully and that’s when he caught sight of my arm. “How’d you end up like tin soldier?”

“A good story for another time,” my eyes then turned to Nat and we both stared at each other.  The last time we met we didn’t exactly see eye to eye, that was until she turned Double agent and allowed me to escape with Bucky and Steve onto the quinjet for Siberia.  “Hello Nat”.

“Hey (y/n), come here”. I walked up to her and she embraced me motherly and when she took my left hand she then caught sight of my ring.  “Ohh well at least we know you’ve been busy, check out this rock”. It was then Sam came in and said.

“Damn girl! You got a husband in these two years?”

“Yes, in fact we were just having our reception when Steve came in”.

“Wow really Steve? You had to drop in on our girl’s wedding day? You are cold hearted” teased Natasha.  Before Steve could say anything, I interjected and said.

“Alright you guys, we can talk about this later. Right now, we’ve got a tracking situation to take care of”.

“She’s right” said Steve.  It was then Nat went over to a drawer and took out a plastic bag that held a denim jean jacket.

“This is one of Wanda’s jackets she bought, we tried to preserve her scent as best we could, hopefully it’s enough”. She then handed me the jacket and I brought it up to my nose.

I was then hit with my big sister’s lavender body wash that she always used, mixed with a bit of perfume that she’d splash on herself for dates with Vision.  A whole lot of memories were coming back to me as I inhaled my sister’s scent. After one more inhale, I took the jacket away from my nose and began sniffing the air.

“I’ve got it”. I then left the motel with my old teammates following right behind me.

As it began to get dark, I could smell Wanda’s scent getting stronger and stronger by the second as I kept sniffing the air, but I suddenly stopped as I began to hear something about a mile away.

“What is it (y/n)?” asked Natasha.

“Quiet!” I hissed quietly as I kept hearing.  The sound of booming like someone being collided to a building, I could also hear the sound of mystic powers being unleashed but the sound that caught my attention was the screams of a male in agony.

I then sniffed the air and I caught two more scents coming right in the same direction as Wanda and I allowed my wolf eyes to phase as well as my fangs come out.

“What is it?” asked Steve.

“Company, and they’re right where Wanda’s scent is coming from”.

“They already found them”. Stated Sam.

“But they haven’t caught them yet, alright here’s the plan”. Steve then proceeded to tell us the plan to get Vision and Wanda safely out of the battle while also unarming the aliens and getting them to talk.

*3rd Person POV*

Wanda and Vision ended up cornered by the train station.  The children of Thanos stalked towards Wanda ready to kill her but she stood before Vision and readied her hands with her powers ready to defend the love of her life, even if it killed her.

As a train passed by, something was standing in the shadows.  Proxima Midnight squinted her eyes as her attention went on the figure and Wanda turned her head to see a familiar silhouette.  Once the train had passed, Proxima threw her spear right at the figure but he leaned away and caught the spear in his hand, he then stepped out of the shadows and it was revealed that it was Steve Rogers.

Wanda and Vision looked at the Captain with hope in their eyes.  Soon the sound of sparks echoed through the station.  Proxima and her husband looked up and soon a giant armored wolf leapt from one of the magic shields and tackled Proxima and the two of them rolled across the floor, crashing through a large mirror, and tables until the wolf pinned down Proxima snarling viciously baring her fangs.

Sam soon followed behind (y/n) and fired bird bogies to distract the male figure while Natasha soon came behind him. Steve tossed Nat the spear he had from Proxima and skillfully slide under the Corvus’ sudden attack and managed to stab him right through the ribs. Growling at him as she forced the spear further into him making him hiss and roar in pain.

She then rolled over and flipped back up before kicking him right in the chest sending him to the ground.  Back with Proxima and (y/n), she managed to get a good bite out of Proxima’s shoulder, but she was suddenly kicked in the gut and was sent rolling along the ground.  

Before (y/n) could get up, Proxima leaped in the air and forced both her legs onto (y/n)’s spine. Had it not been for the Vibranium suit, she would’ve successfully broken her spine, but she still felt the force of the double jack-hammer kick.  She watched as Proxima raced towards her husband and called back her spear and just before she could kill Natasha, Steve stepped in with the male’s spear and stopped Proxima’s attack.

Both him and Nat worked together to try and bring her down and it wasn’t until Sam came in and flipped skillfully to defend himself but also knock Proxima down with a kick sending her right to the ground next to her husband.  Sam and (y/n) both came in with either guns or fangs bared snarling and ready to attack.

“Get up” Proxima snarled.

“I can’t” said Corvus.

“We don’t wanna kill you, but we will” Natasha said coldly.

“You’ll never get the chance again” sneered Proxima. She then activated something and soon the two of them were beamed up back onto their ship.  The four Avengers watched as their captives disappeared and soon the spear Steve used had beamed up with them and soon the ship took off.

*My POV*

Once the two aliens left, I phased back into my human form and my helmet dissolved revealing my face and I turned toward Steve and Nat and they just looked at me with the same look I had.

Confusion, anxiety and anger.

We walked towards Vision and Wanda who was kneeling beside him trying to get him up on his feet.  He looked to be in seriously bad shape as I saw a few stab wounds on his body, when I knew that was almost impossible.  

He was supposed to be the next level of Ultron, at least that’s what he originally was, until he was reprogrammed and thank god he was. If he had become the next level of Ultron, I don’t think any of us would be alive and I wouldn’t have met Rauri.

“Can you stand?” Sam asked as he walked up to Vision and both he and Wanda helped him stand up.  As he began to short-circuit he managed out weakly to Steve.

“Thank you, Captain”.  Steve looked at him for a moment before stating.

“Let’s get you on the jet”.  When Wanda turned her attention to me, I finally got a good, long look at her.

Her hair was now a strawberry blonde, her hair was much longer than I remembered, at least past her chest, but her eyes were ever the same.

“Hi Mama Bear”. I said happily.

“Hi Wolfie” she stated happily, tears forming in her eyes.  As she spoke, I noticed that her accent seemed to have faded away, it wasn’t as thick as when I first met her and her brother, but I had never been happier to hear her voice this time in reality instead of a dream. A throat soon cleared, and Natasha said.

“Why don’t we continue this reunion in the jet?” We all agreed and I got into my wolf form and said through my collar.

‘Get him on my back, I can carry him better’. They all looked at me in shock and I said, ‘It’s the collar long story short I’m like Dug from UP, now come on get him on’. Sam and Wanda carefully got Vision on my back and I finally got to repay my debt to him for him saving my life back on Sokovia when the city was about to explode in midair as I walked Vision to the jet with Wanda right by my side helping him keep steady.

Once we got on the Jet and Sam took the controls, as the ramp and doors closed up Natasha scolded Wanda like a mother would her own child.

“Now, I thought we had a deal? Stay close, check in. Don’t take any chances”. She then walked back to her seat.

“I’m sorry, we just wanted time” stated Wanda. She then turned towards me and I walked up towards her.  We then embraced each other tightly and I felt tears well up in my eyes as I whispered.

“Oh, I’ve missed you soo much Mama Bear”.

“I’ve missed you too Wolfie”.  Her head leaned up against mine and I felt her kiss the side of my head and we refused to let go of each other for a long time. Knowing that this was 2 years too long for us.

“Where to, Cap?” asked Sam.  Steve stayed quiet as he didn’t look to either of us until he finally said.

“Home”.

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all of @howdydowdy‘s most loveliest tags for my fanfic, you are so wonderful i don’t know how i deserved the good luck to find you ;A;

1. #OH MY GOD!!!!!!!#it's here!! i'm gonna lose my whole entire mind!!!!!#well i hope everybody's ready for me to scream about every single installment as it comes out because this is the most important thing now#i didn't even know turnip!ah yuan was gonna be in it THIS IS THE BEST SURPRISE!!!!!#i feel so honored that my tags had anything to do with inspiring this incredible au but this is absolutely so much better#even in this short installment i'm getting such a good feel for the three characters who have made an appearance so far!#excited to see your lwj!!!#'the only thing his viewers enjoyed more than his content were the occasional take-downs Wen Qing was dishing out in the comment section'#ahahaha you are so funny#PLEASE EVERYONE LOOK AT THIS AMAZING FIC! I'M SO EXCITED FOR IT!!!!#i don't know all the things that are gonna happen but i have a general idea and guys it's such a good au#op is so creative and brilliant!!!#the untamed#ah yuan and his two dads will be the death of me#fic#these are a few of my favorite things

2. #second! installment!! time!!!#i feel like i'm a reader in dickensian london waiting for the new chapter to come out in the magazine#except there's less pollution and i don't have to put coal in an oven#why are those my associations with dickensian london? idk don't worry about it#jiang cheng makes an appearance! okay so i have never really understood him but i've been reading a LOT of fic#and i'm starting to get the picture i think#this is like...just the right amount ominous to get me super excited to see what happens next#WYD JC????#also wwx's characterization is just *chef's kiss*#<3 <3 <3 love u op you're too good to me#puns

3. #ohhhh shit everybody lwj is here! things are happening!!!!#i love all the sibling feels lxc gives me always#in every single fic i read he's like 'lwj i found another boy your age please be friends with him i love you so much'#oOoOoO the shoot will be four whole days i wonder what can happen in four days you guys...#like maybe...mister stoic guqin falling in love with disaster farmer man????#STAY TUNED#you know what just occurred to me is that lwj needs an emotion translator#i'm thinking like luther the anger translator for obama in those key & peele sketches#except it's just someone interpreting all of lwj's stoic faces#i mean lxc can read his faces so you'd think he could do it but idk if lxc himself is emotive enough#i'll have to think about it more

4. #this fic is the gift that keeps on giving#slowly introducing new characters...now we're meeting my sweet baby wen ning...i don't deserve this happiness...#also wei wuxian's carefree chaotic energy is just to die for#and what's this? jiang cheng appears on the horizon? narrowing his eyes at a tumbleweed that rolls across his path#his spurs jingling menacingly as he stalks ever closer?#hold on to yer hats cowboys i smell some Plot approaching#the untamed#fic#(okay also 'explosive arts & crafts projects' ahaha you are the best at these descriptions)

5. #oooooooo things are really coming together my dudes...#more jiang cheng content! okay he is really growing on me. grouch with a heart of gold. huge schemer. just wants to make fun of his BIL with#his brother but feels like he has to prioritize his ~responsibilities~#he loves wwx and understands what motivates him and at the same time just wants him to like. chill#the air quotes ahaha#that wwx makes them and that jc hates it#also i think my favorite image from this is the fact that one of the draws of the tv show is that all the cultivator hosts are handsome#which means that when lxc needed someone to cover for him he just went to the producers like#'no worries my little brother is also super hot so he should meet all your requirements'#'is he personable? no. does he speak in complete sentences? also no. but are the viewers gonna go batshit over his face? absofuckinlutely'#and the producers were like 'oh yeah dude say no more'#this is so fun i'm really enjoying these updates!!!

6. #not the city centre itself but a nearby mound#which sounds unusual and ominous#honey you got a big storm comin'#lwj is getting there early...oh fuck the suspense...#also 'either this is just how show business works or no one really knows what they are doing' why not both lwj??#ahaha i am cackling and steepling my fingers imagining how this is all gonna go down#babe i'm glad you decided not to give me spoilers because it is so fun watching things unfold

7. #i'm just imagining the perspective of the film crew showing up and it's a barren wasteland#they're like...wtf kind of establishing shots are we supposed to take of this??#don't worry guys the cutest child on the planet lives here. just get some footage of him frolicking in the turnip fields#the audience will lose their effing minds

8. #i love jc's logic like 'no one can find out about this or it'll be bad for the family. how to accomplish this? better get a film crew'#also i love how he's lowkey bitter that no one wants to interview him AHAHA jc you peach#and he's like 'maybe i'll watch the show. JUST TO MAKE FUN OF WWX FOR NO OTHER REASON'#wow i'm like becoming really fond of this character op!!!

9. #AHAHA love this image of lwj staring after nhs as he traipses down the street#'fancy birds? tf kinda innuendo is that??'#also lwj deciding to wear all white so that people won't approach him ahaha damn where is my equivalent outfit??#MATCHMAKER LXC STRIKES AGAIN!!!!!#did lxc even have to go out of town for real or was it all a setup to get lwj and wwx in the same place??#wouldn't put it past him tbh#lwj is so perfectly taciturn here i love it#and not just because he's not personable or something it's because he's having FEELINGS#also because wwx never shuts up lol#'he is doomed just like before because even this unknown wei wuxian he wants to be close to and find out who he is'#ughughguhgghhghhh how are you finding and pushing all my buttons???#hot DAMN i am HERE for this!!!

10. #i've now read this three times and i love it more every time!#you have such a way with words and i love how you're getting into wwx's head#it can be hard to relate to him with how dense he can be but you make it all seem incredibly plausible and realistic!!#i love him like 'wonder what it would be like to share a hotel room. it's totally normal that i'm thinking about this'#and like. you show how he got there in his thought process and it makes total sense!#also: lwj as eye candy YES EXACTLY#nhs is the perfect choice for a tv interior designer expert. that is SO what he would be doing in a universe with tv about interior design#okay and MOST IMPORTANTLY we have come to the part in the gifset!! this is the best crack that ever caught feels omg ilysm#demonic blood pool WEI YIIIIIIIING#wen ning being all yeah goth guys and blood pools two great tastes that taste great together#i love everything about this and it was so worth the wait. very excited for the next installment!!!

11. #you are LITCHRALLY killing me with this sharp characterization!! how are you nailing all their voices!!!!#nhs just in it for the hashtag drama that's so spot on omg. breaking all the rules HE wrote just so he can torture jc#all 'are you seeing this??? ARE YOU??' poor nhs and jc having to watch these two lovesick fools make googly eyes at each other#for YEARS and not REALIZE it well it's your lucky day mr. fan man because soon the whole world will see this UST and validate you#okay but what i love the most is jc the masochist being so uncomfortable he has to keep turning off the video ahahahaha#wangxian out here romancing so hard that jc needs a barf bag. or therapy. or selective amnesia.#you ever get secondhand mortifying ordeal of being known? that's what's happening for jc here#it's mortifying watching other people experience the ordeal of being known. this is the hardest i have ever related to jc#it's like oh fuck. lwj loves wwx and it's so obvious. oh my god. i'm so embarrassed.#wwx is so gone for lwj and it's right there on his face for anyone to read. i'm in agony.#ALSO 'jiang cheng can feel his head get hot and he drops the phone on the table like it personally betrayed him' THANK U FOR THIS#everything about this is the best and my favorite#ahhh i'm so excited for the next chapters and so glad they're already up so i can read them right now!!!!

12. #lxc shooting lwj pointed looks every time the jiang sect comes up in conversation for the past 13 years!!!!! he would!!!!!!#i love the way you describe wwx through lwj's eyes. the love just shines through#also you are so insightful about his character but what else is new??? you're the character breakdown QUEEN#OH MY GOD AH YUAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111111111#i am writing these tags as i read or that would have been the first tag it's SO important#i mean my tag isn't important it's incoherent but AH YUAN IS IMPORTANT!!!!!#you really want me to die. you really want me to be all the way murdered.#this image of lwj just standing there with impeccable posture one arm behind his back the other holding a sword in the air randomly#with this squirmy lil bab clutching at his clothes and reaching up on his tiptoes#okay dang i didn't know there was gonna be action! intrigue!! an ambush!!!#this fic really has it all#bamf!wwx and rescuer!lwj#battle couple ftw#NOT TO MENTION DRUNK!LWJ!!! SELF SACRIFICING!LWJ!!!!!#how am i supposed to live knowing lwj Did That#ughghughghgughgh#'at least i made him happy.' at least you made him happy???!?!?!?#just let me live for a second!!!#just one second though then i'm gonna read the next chapter

13. #awwww jiang 'I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU I'VE JUST BEEN CUTTING ONIONS' cheng gets a tear in his eye#they are...a fambly.....#my man lxc coming thru for the people!! title of my upcoming inspirational children's book: Lan Xichen Takes a Stand#op you made me love jiang cheng. i'm in it now

14. #omg i forgot that you had written this and sent it to me weeks ago so when i read it just now i was like...obviously that's what happened???#i had already just fully incorporated it into my understanding of these characters in my head and forgotten how it got there#so this was the BEST surprise#i can't believe you. putting ah yuan and bunnies in the same chapter because you love drowning me in cute#soft domestic adoptive dad content???? ugh i literally need to lie down and go into a coma.#just a lil coma. to recharge my feels.#i don't know what you could possibly be putting in the 'extra' but i am. vibrating with excitement!!!!#this is one of my favorite fics ever and i'm forever happy that you came up with this amazing idea and executed it so well#I APPRECIATE AND ADORE YOU!!!#HEART EYES EMOJI#these are a few of my favorite things#the untamed#ah yuan and his two dads will be the death of me

15. #OH MY GOD NHS MASTERMINDED ALL OF IT#this is so perfect i'm in awe!!!!#of course he did!!!!#also 'he had been very invested in this romance he had even painted themed fans for this' ahahaha#these schemes! these machinations!! he got lxc out of the way! he put the idea in jc's head! ahhhhh!#mr. fan man

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What do you guys think about the names Dustin and Darcy for my protagonists in Let's Go?

Cos i really wanted to play the co op mode thing by myself, just so i can pretend this role in the plot is filled by two siblings and have a bit of fun roleplaying that. But i dunno yet how the co-op works and whether you'd be able to customize the avatar of the second player or if its just the default trainer? Or can you only play co-op if you have two separate games? Im planning to buy the other version anyway once i get more money, so it could be fun to play my first version with sibling one and then the second playthru is sibling two's turn to shine!

Oh and the whole reason i wanted to do this is cos i wanna try out the customization features to make some ocs now that there's no competitive online stuff unless you pay a subscription fee (LOL NO THANKS). Like..i always felt like i HAD to make my character me in xy/sumo/usum, otherwise its like lying online? But of course i cant actually make me because theres no nonbinary option or even remotely ambiguous outfits for either gender. And you cant have wild hair colours while i dye my hair 24/7 irl lol. Its silly cos like 95% of the gym leaders and other characters ingame have anime hair colours yet the player has to be normal? So yeah i cpuldnt really enjoy making this innacurate defanged version of myself yet i didnt feel like i was allowed to just make up a new character either. Closest i could do was give myself white hair like my old trainersona when i was 12, lol. I mean i guess thats my 'real hair colour' underneath the dye right now, if you think about it that way?

OH GOD PIKACHU CAN HAVE A LITTLE TUXEDO AND BOWLER HAT HOLY FUCK IM SORRY TO INTERRUPT THIS BUT I WAS WATCHING THE IGN REVIEW AND THEY SHOWED PIKA BOWLER HAT PLEASE GO GOOGLE THAT VIDEO JUST FOR THAT 1 SECOND OF NEW FOOTAGE OF MY BEAUTIFUL CLASSY BOYE

okay where was i

Yeah! I think sibling trainers could be a good and unique way to handle a rival! Like having them be your sibling already establishes that rivalry. But it can be a soft and nice rivalry! I wanna go with that fun version rather than the full on angry exaggerated sibling rivalries you often see in kids media. Like i know that some people legit dont get on with their siblings and some people can even have a very gary esque full on rivalry thats sorta 'love to hate' or like..tsundere pretending you hate them. But personally i never had experience with that, i can never relate to those 'tfw u hate ur sibling and theyre always an asshole but lolll u love them anyway' posts. I only got to live with my little sister for a little while due to the catastrophe of abusive parenthood that was my childhood, and i lost contact with her forever when she was very young so i doubt she'd even remember me. *sigh* But like i don't think i only love her so much because i miss her! People say newborns and toddlers are the most bratty so like you'd think if i was gonna ever find her 'annoying' i would have done it back then. I was always just mega proud of her and whenever she'd be 'bratty' i'd be cheering her on and trying to protect her from mom. And when she'd try and pull pranks on me or practise play-fighting or whatever i was just like 'lol thats legit funny' and taking play-falls so she felt better about herself. Like we didnt have much power in that household so i felt like encouraging her pretending to be a wrestler would help her feel like she had some sort of control in some part of her life i guess? And just i wished i was allowed to roughhouse and run around and be all 'unladylike' and just enjoy BEING A KID when i was a kid, yknow? I always had legit fun being with her and legit enjoyed it and was legit proud and legit never annoyed. I just dont understand 'yeah she's annoying but i love her anyway'. I was only ever her rival as a play-rival to help encourage her to like.. Enjoy the things she enjoyed. Feel like someone else cared. I only ever acted like 'ha ha baby stuff yeah sure i hate hanging out with my sister" cos i thought i was SUPPOSED TO. I always felt so guilty doing it and so dissappointed cos id rather hang out with her than be a boring stereotypical teen tbh. I dunno, maybe this isnt typical for siblings and its just a sign of how badly we were raised? I was just real fuckin lonely and absolutely loved having a family member who loved me for the first time since my grandma died. Same reason i always used to act all 'i am too cool i totally am not soft for my lil sister' around my lil sister's dad. I really wanted him to love me too! I used to say swear words at him cos i thougjt he would thibk i was Cool And Adult?? I have soooo many cringe moments from that phase of my childhood. Man it hurts to think that i never actually did get to become that positive influence that protected my sister from my mum and let her know she was loved. Cos i was sent to live with my dad when she was like 5ish? And never saw her again and now im too scared to try and reach out to her again because 1: she probably doesnt even remember me, 2: theres a chance she believes my mum saying i was some horrible asshole who abandoned the family, 3: even bigger chance that contacting her could mean my mum finding me again and big fuckin risk of further abuse. Plus the awkwardness of introducing my trans self when she'd remember me as her sister and all. Sigh! All i can do is hope that her cool dad eventually got custody of her, and that he didnt turn out to be a secret bastard like when i met my own dad. He seemed good, but then again i was just a lil kid and my dad seemed good at first. Sighhhhhh...

SO UMM YEAH WOW I MADE MYSELF SAD

Anyway the point is that whenever i write siblings i'd rather write 100% unapologetic super loving love cos its wish fullfillment for me. This is also why in/cest shipping is a massive beserk button for me, good wholesome family relationships are REAL FUCKIN IMPORTANT and how DARE you corrupt that shit! Some people would fuckin KILL to have that wholesome family!!

Anyway lol thats why i'd like a Wholesome Rivalry for these sibling ocs! Like they challenge each other to contests along the way just for fun, and they react all 'wow my sis is the BEST' when you beat them, so hard feelings at all. And you dont JUST do rival stuff but also sometimes just hang out and have fun cos you missed each other. And if anyone threatens your sibling then THAT is the only time you see the Serious Sibling Power! Rival moments: ha ha lol bet ya cant beat me ooo im a scary villain LOL I CANT KEEP A STRAIGHT FACE HAHA! Giovanni punches your brother: *stony cold death glare from hell as tricksy prank sis turns into an unstoppable vengeance engine* Oh, but also the only other time they'd be serious is in their final battle together! Like most of the 'rivalry' is just competing to make the adventure fun and to help each other get stronger. But if sis/bro ever actually legit said they really want to fight to find out who's the best, and its like..important to help their self confidence, then i think bro/sis would respect that and go all out. Taking a fall and letting them win would be the most disrespectful thing of all! Oh, but i do think there would be one kind of battle like that during the story? Like in one of the more low stakes faux-rival fights the sibling actually does try and let you win, and the challenge is to try and lose against all odds. High stakes super failure battle!!! Imagine the evil team in the background like 'wtf' as these two run the most aggressively slow race of all time! XD

Oh and i kinda thought about different personalities for the two of them based on who you pick? Like i did like that aspect about brendan/may in RSE compared to other 'unpicked option becomes rival' characters in later games that didnt even have one personality let alone two. It just sucks that the personalities they decided to give them were 'female rival is super self concious and thinks youre better than her because youre a boy' and 'male rival is super ego and thinks he's better than you because he's a boy'. Boooo!

So instead of that the personalities i was thinking for these two would be less sexist lol. Male sibling Dustin is basically Wally so far? I need to develop him a bit more to make him a bit distinct, i mean its not like every single shy dude is identical. I'm thinking maybe mix him with all the wasted potential in Brendan? Like in the game they slightly hint at him having the ONE non stereotypical trait of liking cute teddy bears, and that made me think about how much better his whole plot would have been if it actually criticized his sexism and said that he only behaves that way cos he's overcompensating for being bullied for being 'feminine', yknow? And then in the manga they actually DO write him as super feminine, and even as a contest star who loves fashion and dressing up his pokemon! But then GAHHH they present it as some sort of fuckin 'character flaw', like he's shown to be selfish and superficial because of it. And the backstory is that him and the female protagonist used to be 'normal' until a traumatic event. Brendan was a Natural Fighting Prodigy until he saved his female friend from a wild pokemon and was so traumatized that he never wanted to fight again, while she wanted to learn to fight so she'd never need to be protected again. But this is not only presented as Wrong Ways To Be Gender but also like.. Fighting their natural instinct which still comes through?? Like male protag hasnt fought in YEARS yet whenever he's forced to fight he's just magically better at it than female protag who's been practising all these years to become his equal. Ha ha silly girl you can never achieve that! All you get is this patronizing 'well if you just tryyyyy girly things im sure you'll like it' plot and then you get rescued by him in the end because OF COURSE you do. Sigh! I cant believe they made me hate that pairing even more than the games did! So yeah i dont really wanna write Dustin as a jerkass who's secretly got synpathetic motives of internalized homophobia/sexism, cos i feel thats a plot very specific to my perceptuons of Brendan and id basically just have to make Dustin a clone of him and he wouldnt be able to shine on his own merits. Instead i'm just thinking of writing him as a 100% sensitive soul, and he still faces predjudice for not being that bigoted idea of an 'ideal man' but really the fact he doesnt bow down to their demands proves that he's the bravest person here.

And then I'm thinking maybe the female sibling Darcy is the older one and is a bit "gary ish"? Like eitjer way you still have a friendly and loving siblingness, but she's a bit more of a sass who is tsundere about admitting she loves her bro. But i dont think she's the cold or grumpy sort of tsundere, more like a trickstery tomboy? Bombastic loki jock sis! She can only be a bit abrasive with her bro cos she wants to teach him to be tough even when she's not there to protect him. But sometimes she can mess it up and make him feel like he has to change his personality in order to be tough, rather than letting him know she supports him in being "unmasculine" and just wants to help him find the confidence to stand up to people who bully him for it. Like she feels like she is 'weaker' than him in the sense that she worries too much about what people will think if she expresses her real emotions, yknow? Like theyre both suffering from toxic masculinity! He's suffering from the standard form where men who are too 'soft' are beaten down into that mould. Ans she's suffering from the problem where 'masculine' girls feel like they have to be '100% masculine' in order to be allowed to be themselves at all. Like back when i was a kid and before i came out as trans i always used to try and pretend to like sports ans like..cliche macho shit where you Cant Admit You Care About Your Friends and also i wasnt allowed to like ANY feminine things at all. I had to either follow the stereotype of femininity entirely or follow the opposite stereotype, i wasnt allowed to just reject stereotypes and like what i actually like. So yeah me realizing i wasnt really a girl has led to me embracing more 'girly' things than back when i thought i was one! So i think Darcy would have a similar arc but like..the cis equivelant? Just finds people who arent such judgmental pricks and stops having to conform to either of those stereotypes in order to keep fake friends who dont really give a shit about her. She can have a plot about both forced feminine and masculine stereotypes being equally limiting, rather than that shitty 'being masculine is a prison uwu every woman will be happier embracing her love of makeup' shit. That dominant narrative just made me feel like i was somehow wrong about myself whenever i didnt like 100% Of Sports All The Time, i must be somehow girly if i liked even ONE girly thing yet i needed hundreds of proofs if i wanted to be masculine. And like i wasnt just allowed to be neither! I wasnt allowed to like parts of both! I wasnt allowed to BE GODDAMN TRANS!!! So yeah i dunno if i'd go whole hog and make this character a trans man or a nonbinary person tho? I think she's just actually a cis girl who happens to be sporty and brash and likes a lot of 'masculine' fashion and hobbies. And she's just been made to feel self concious about it, as if she cant possibly REALLY be that unless she likes Every Single Boy Thing and wins at Every Single Challenge. Does anyone else remember that shit too? The girls have to win Every sports game against the boys in order to be 'one of the boys' but if you lose even one of them it somehow proves that you're inferior. Even though the boys lost 50 billion games to you and that doesnt prove theyre inferior! Like man she has sooooo many 'gary rivals' in her school life, thats why she loves going on this adventure with a kind brother rival who actually respects her! So her resolution would just be her staying the same but being more confident about it and saying fuk u to those fake friends. Same as her brother's plot, just they both face different specifics to the way this sexism affects them, yknow?

Oh but yeah when i did finally learn about LGBT stuff and realize i was trans it was Big Amazing cos even in the rare stories about Its Okay To Be Yourself it still left me feeling weirdly empty when the girl decides that yes she does wanna be a girl in the end. So i get that these plots might come off as queerbaiting if i write them badly? I need to make sure to make it clear that these characters 100% want to be seen as this gender and its just other people being fuckfaces and trying to define what their gender has to mean. I think maybe i'll try and mitigate this potential misunderstanding by adding different sorts of lgbt content. And, well, also cos i just want lgbt content in all of my stories because i am lgbt, of course! I'm 100% sure that Darcy is gay, and i think also maybe possibly Dustin is trans? Like, his plot is about being mocked for being a 'feminine' boy, but its also even more personal for him because he's a trans boy and he feels like he needs to change his personality in order to pass/he isnt really real because his personality doesnt fit the stereotypical image of a man. Like if you'd looked at the two of them back when they were identical twins, you probably would have expected Darcy to end up being trans if you were the sort of person who believes those basic ass stereotypes about 'boys who play with barbies and girls who play with trucks'. Or i mean maybe its the other way around and Darcy is a trans girl who still has a 'masculine' personality according to stereotypes? Or even both of them are trans and both face being told that they arent real because they dont fit the perfect stereotype of a trans person according to cis perceptions? Or maybe i'm overcomplicating things with all of this and it'd just muddy the message i guess. I might just keep it to them both being cis but also both of them like girls. And i can always apply my trans and other LGBT headcanons to other characters along their adventure.

Anyway LOL im rambling too much!

[medea10]

Medea Saw Pokemon: I Choose You

As you all should know by now, I am indeed a Pokemon fan. And have seen nearly any and all Pokemon episodes, specials, and movies up to this date. And that includes making sure my ass is in the movie theaters to see a Pokemon movie on the big screen. I did it for the first, second, third, fourth, fifth, and whatever number the Victini movie was. So seeing this movie was a definite must. And just my luck it came out on a Sunday (my usual day off from both school and work).

Being the ever so anxious fan, I arrived in San Francisco an hour early. Guess I got lucky with public transit. No worries, the theater is allowing people to come in early. And when I entered, they were playing Pokemon Generations.

Um...why? Okay, I understand that you want us to have the feeling of Kanto. But the movie we’re about to watch involves Ash and Pikachu. Not (DOTDOTDOT) Red. But luckily, it was only the first 3 episodes of Generations.

And I can’t say no to seeing Lorelei. Her and her happy tats were on the big screen. And that’s a big plus in my book.

Aside from that was an AMV (I’m calling it that) to the tune of the first OP song featuring footage of the past 19 movies. And of course advertising the first 52 episodes being available on Blu-ray.

So the movie begins a little bit like the first episode. Except we now know the trainers battling. They’re the ones from the first movie.

You member? Well their names are Neesha and Corey.

The two on the right. Not the other dude. They were on the screen fighting as Ash stayed up late watching in anticipation for the next day as he’s going to become a pokemon trainer.

Well a lot like the first episode, dude oversleeps and breaks his alarm clock, causing him to be totally late to Professor Oak’s and run around town in his pajamas. When he got there, yep, all the pokemon (Bulbasaur, Charmander, and Squirtle) are gone.

We saw the back of Gary’s head. And that’s all we see of him. Hope you enjoyed that Gary fans.

But as a shock, we actually saw an image of the other two Pallet trainers. We still don’t have names, but they look like Marina (from the episode Bye Bye Psyduck) and Tierno (from Pokemon XY). I’m not saying they’re them, I’m just saying they look like them.

So Ash gets Pikachu.

Usual shit, shock, walk, try to catch Pidgey, fail, hit Spearow, flock of Spearow come attacking, Ash and Pikachu are beat-up, get in the pokeball, no, Ash makes declaration to Spearow, Pikachu attacks, sky clears, enter Ho-oh.

And then Ash receives the Rainbow Wing from Ho-oh.

Which I am pretty sure is the reason why Ash never ages. I’m pretty sure Ho-oh’s Rainbow Wings are the fountain of youth in this universe.

AND THEN WE GET THE OPENING! It’s a lot like the video that the Pokemon Company has been showing all week with the footage of Ash and Pikachu. Except they played quite a bit of the song and even see footage of past movies like Lugia and Slowking from the second movie, Lickylicky and Torterra from the 10th movie, and a few backgrounds from the Victini movie.

Now for the rest of the movie that is going to go down a much different route. Be prepared. I’m not holding back. So spoiler warning. This is your one and only warning. GTFO if you don’t want to see...

So Ash goes about by doing some similar things including capturing a Caterpie and battling gym leaders. Well the only gym leader he battled was Erika of Celadon City.

Yeah, pretty much dressed like this usual attire. And I am pretty certain that she is NOT voiced by original voice, Leah Applebaum.

And to add it off, this is Ash’s 3rd gym battle. Who were the other gym leaders he beat?

Oh well, Ash ends up at a Pokemon Center where he actually calls his mother. And boy is she mad. She’s been calling all over Kanto to make sure her baby is okay. Then Delia mentions Ash being like his father.

...

...It took so much of my energy to stop myself from yelling in the theater, “WHO IS HIS FATHER?” Dammit Delia!

Team Rocket’s there...and they do nothing.

But he soon hangs up on his momma when he learns that a legendary pokemon is prancing around. It’s Entei from the Johto region. So Ash starts running around trying to see if he can battle it. But not before running into our new female, Verity.

She comes from Twinleaf in Sinnoh. And has a Piplup. And thank the fuck Christ it isn’t as annoying as Dawn’s. So I’m not praying it gets hit by a Draco Meteor. She wants to battle Entei too and they both fight over it until they end up in a world of trouble with a rogue Onix. Luckily Ash saves the day by being his usual reckless self.

Then they meet the other kid lurking around in the Pokemon Center earlier.

Sorrel from Veilstone in Sinnoh. THIS DUDE COMES FROM THE SAME TOWN AS PAUL AND CONWAY. SOMEONE GIVE ME MORE TO GO ON! Anyways, he leaves because a storm is coming.

While Ash and Verity are running to shelter, they see a Charman...oh fuck, I know where this is going!

Yeah, Charmander...the stray pokemon. Well we’re about to meet the douche that ditched it on a rock. Well...who knows? He could be a little better than Dami...

And he kicked Charmander.

Yeah, I fucking hate you now.

Nope. I have no likeness, compassion, or anything for Cross. He could cure cancer, kick Donald Trump in the testicles, and bring peace in the middle east, and I will still hate his fucking guts.

So Ash and Verity save the little Charmander by hiding in a cave. Surprise, it’s the same one Sorrel is hiding in. He ends up saving Charmander with some medicine, and Ash nurses him like a baby throughout the night.

This night in the cave is cold and so the trainers want to put the pokemon back in the pokeballs. Well...Pikachu hates pokeballs and still refuses to go in. And with that Verity and Sorrel’s pokemon don’t want to go either.

We learn a little more about these two mystery characters. Sorrel wants to become a Pokemon Professor and meet rare legendaries on his journey. And Verity has a mother that’s a very powerful trainer.

But wait, there’s more! There’s a scene where everyone else is sleeping and Verity is going through her photos and stops at one of her...mother?

Wait, wait, wait! I know this chick has Cynthia’s long hair and it looks so much like her...but I can’t remember, does she have an Empoleon in the games.

Fuck it, her mother’s Cynthia, I guess.

And we learn that Sorrel once had a cute little Luxray that watched over him when he was a tyke. And then one day he got hurt in a snowstorm. And Luxray shielded him until help came.

And the Luxray froze to death.

Dammit movie, you’re trying to break me. But I’m not going down that easy! BUT FUCK, YOU HAD TO SHOW LUXRAY SMILING EVEN IN DEATH! HOW FUCKED UP ARE YOU PEOPLE?!

Retelling of Ho-oh tale, Burned Tower, the three legendary doggies, moving on...

Ash, Verity, and Sorrel survive the night. And Ash ends up catching Charmander.

Entei sighting.

Caterpie evolves.

Verity sees Suicune.

Charmander evolves.

Marshadow stalks.

Team Rocket does nothing.

Ash wins several battles.

Here comes Kicky McDoucheCross. He battles Ash and Charmeleon. Cross uses his JOHN CENNNNNNNNAAAA (Incineroar). And much like the Ash we all know and love, he uses a not fully-evolved pokemon against a much powerful evolved pokemon. And loses.

And much like Ash, he ends up brooding after losing. You know how those go. Ash has many of these moments like when he lost to Gary and Paul and Wulfric and Richie and Brawly and TOO MANY TO FUCKING COUNT!

So he ends up having a pretty bad mood swing and taking his anger out on Verity and Sorrel. And even Pikachu when even he disagrees. And then Ash said something I NEVER thought he would ever say.

“I should have chosen Squirtle or Bulbasaur.”

OW. DAMMIT MOVIE. OW. Nope...no tears. No tears Medea, fight it!

So Ash is alone and falls to sleep. All the while his rainbow wing starts to taint (as it does if the person holding it has a tainted heart). Ash wakes up in...a normal world?

WHAT?!

There’s no pokemon. He’s going to school. Like a regular kid...

NO WAY!

OH MY GOD, AGATHA IS TEACHING AND PROFESSOR OAK IS OUTSIDE AND IN CHARGE.

Pokemon...have you been tracking me and my story Romance 101. Granted, it’s been around for over 10 years...But that’s so OH MY GOD!

Thankfully this world dies when Ash remembers Pikachu’s name. And not a moment too soon. Jesus “Tap Dancing” Christ. No more Pokemon in School shit! Ash wakes up, he’s sorry for snapping, the feather is back to being all rainbowy. We’re off to a mountain to see Ho-oh.

But then...

Pink Butterfree. FUCK!

Stop trying to make me cry, movie.

Yeah, Ash’s Butterfree saves the Pink Butterfree from a Fearow. They do courtship dance. Butterfree must go with his ho on the go and leave Ash. They fly away. Ash cries.

Phew...no tears. Okay movie, I’m done with you trying to kill me with feels. You’re worse than a Key Animation anime.

We see Raikou.

Okay, back to journey to the special mountain. They meet an old coot named Banji who’s been a Ho-oh enthusiast for the last 20 years. Ash is ready to be the one to take the feather to the top and summon Ho-oh.

And then Crossfucker comes AND RUINS EVERYTHING! Oh he totally did. Ash and Cross battle and thankfully the results were different from last time as Charmeleon evolved into Charizard and beat Cross and his JOHN CENNNNNNAAAAAA!

But FuckaCross doesn’t take losing well and said he saw Ho-oh once too. But he wasn’t blessed with a feather. So he takes Ash’s feather. And it becomes tainted. And Marshadow appears and just makes shit worse as he gets the pokemon from the area to fight everyone.

This was intense. Like 1st movie intense. There was strangling, biting, and explosions of all kinds!

And this just totally wrecks Ash and Pikachu. Overkill. So once again, Ash is telling Pikachu to get in the fucking pokeball and stand there as these powerful pokemon unleash their attacks on him. Pikachu refuses and ACTUALLY SPEAKS?!

IT SPOKE.

IT FUCKING SPOKE.

IT WANTS TO BE WITH ASH. THAT’S WHY IT REFUSES TO GO IN THE BALL.

And just like the first movie Ash brushes with death. Except he dissipates leaving Pikachu sobbing into Ash’s hat.

ALMOST...You almost got me movie!

Ash returns from purgatory.

And here comes Ho-oh to calm everyone down. And Ash finally gets to battle with Ho-oh.

Except we don’t see it. We just know they go back to the Pokemon Center and he mentions battling Ho-oh.

Well it’s time to go on. Verity’s gonna go home to Mama Cynthia. Sorrel is going to search for the legendary birds Articuno, Moltres, and Zapdos. And Ash continues his journey with Pikachu.

Then the ending credits. We see Brock. We see Misty.

OKAY POKEMON, LISTEN UP!

I’m fed the fuck up with this shit. Every single solitary time I have hopes of seeing Tracey Sketchit, you guys fuck it up for me. Like the line cuts off when Oak brings him to the phone or he’s away with the Waterflower Slut-Brigade, or fuck if I know. Because he sure as fuck wasn’t there in those two Kanto episodes of Sun and Moon. If you fuckers don’t show my anime husband in the next five seconds Imma quit this whole...

OH MY GOD!

AM I SEEING THINGS?

A MOMENT LIKE THIS

SOME PEOPLE WAIT A LIFETIME

FOR A MOMENT LIKE THIS

FOR TRACEY TO FUCKING SHOW UP

OHHHHHHH I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS IS HAPPENING TO ME

GLALIE-LUJAH! PRAISE ARCEUS! HOT DIGGITY DAFFODILS! TRACEY SKETCHIT! MY LIFE IS FUCKING COMPLETE! HIM. THERE. ON THE BIG SCREEN.

THEY REMEMBERED YOU. I’M SO HAPPY I COULD CRY.

I’M CRYING OF HAPPINESS! I’M CRYING OF HAPPY TEARS!

NO, FUCK YOU ROBBERT LOGGIA GIF!

TRACEY WAS ON THE BIG SCREEN! THIS NEVER HAPPENS. NOT SINCE MOVIE 4. HE HASN’T BEEN SEEN SINCE 2013. NOW, HERE HE IS!

*inhales*

Okay, so aside from that we also see May, Max, Dawn, Iris, Dento-fruit, Clemont, Bonnie, and Blushy McIdiot...whoops I mean Serena. We see some pokeballs (and a Voltorb) in the credits. Sorrel and Verity for a sec. Team Rocket...again with the nothing.

The End.

Phew...this movie. GO SEE IT. Yes, Gen “Wunners” I’m talking to you. Look, I know you’re sad that this retelling of Ash’s beginning doesn’t have Misty and Brock. But I’m begging you to just look past that imperfection and actually WATCH the movie. I’m almost upset at the fact that the movie theater I went to was nearly empty during the screening. I saw more people at the Victini showing than this. And this movie is so much better than the Victini.

You know what? For years, I’ve always imagined how Pokemon would EVER end. And if it did, I would always imagine it with Ho-oh, Pikachu actually speaking, and Ash either dying or brink of death. And this movie shocked me and gave me all three. I’m at a complete loss of words. I was so hooked on this movie.

The one miss for this movie goes to Team Rocket. Ash never sees them. They literally do nothing. And other than Meowth, we don’t see another pokemon from them except in the credits where we see Wobbuffet. What was their point of being in the movie? This movie would have been perfect if they weren’t in it.

Voice wise, Sarah Natochenny, you KNOCKED IT OUT OF THE PARK. I know I was never a fan of you voicing Ash. I mean, Rica Matsumoto is literally tops. And then Veronica Taylor, I will never forget. But your performance here was wonderful. Kate Bristol, Suzy Myers, Michele Knotz, I’m so happy to hear you all. Jimmy Zoppi...*sighs* all I hear is Weevil. No matter who you voice. Meowth sounds like Weevil. James sounds like Weevil with a cold. Professor Oak sounds like Weevil if he was an old man. I’m never going to get over that.

Shipping wise...AH-HA! Gotcha there, it was Pikashipping. And nothing else!

Music wise, I know they only kept like one original BGM and everything else was tampered. I mean it was okay. The opening still brings back nostalgic feels. The ending theme, kind of sweet really.

Sorry for being all ranty with this entry. But I didn’t want to wait 2-3 years to tell people how I really felt about this movie when I review Sun and Moon. Plus I just saw this movie like 4 hours ago. So I’m still pretty hyped.

I don’t give number scores with my reviews so please just go by what I say here. See this movie. There are 3 more days in the U.S. where you can find a theater to watch this. If not, wait three weeks and watch it on Thanksgiving weekend on Disney XD.

Phew. Now if you’ll excuse me, it’s been a long day and I earned myself some pizza.

[buckygirl-fanfiction]

Sparks Chapter 3

Pairing: Bucky(POV) X Reader(POV) ft. other members of the avengers team

Word Count: 1.2K

Summary: y/n visits Bucky to thank him for saving her life. She catches a glimpse of his scars and tells him that he shouldn’t be ashamed of his past. Hydra moles lurk

A/N: This is a story about two people building a great friendship and then slowly falling in love. y/n is a strong, independent, and smart scientist. She meets Bucky when she wakes him up from cryo sleep and they become friends. This is going to have all the angst / best friends falling in love / fluff / drama / & eventual smut ;) that I can possibly fit in it. This fic is going to be looong! So far my document is like 66 pages. So editing is hard If you catch any grammatical or formatting errors let me know.

July 4, 2016

Bucky’s POV

I catch y/n before her head hits the floor. Crap. Medical bay. I hook my arms under her legs and behind her back lifting her up. I carry her towards the elevator. On our ride down to the medical bay she comes to and looks at me with a raised eyebrow. “Hey,” she says. Then looks down at her abdomen. Slowly she peels her sundress up to get a better look at her wound. It’s still bleeding. She pulls her skirt back down. “That’s gonna need stitches… like eight stitches,” she sighs speaking surprisingly calm for someone who has just been attacked and stabbed with a hair pin. She wraps her arms around my neck and rests her head on my shoulder. “I’m just gonna take a small nap here okay” she nuzzles into the crook of my neck and says, “your hair’s soft,” before losing consciousness again.

…

“What the hell happened,” Cho asks with Wanda right behind her.

“I don’t know Axelrod attacked her. she was wounded,” I reply. Cho runs into the examination room to see what’s going on.

“Axelrod her boss?” Wanda asks, “The head of Stark Bio?”

“Yeah,” I reply. Running a hand through my hair.

“I’m gonna go find Tony and let him know what’s going on,” Wanda says as she turns walking towards the doors.

“Wait for me,” I say quickly looking back into the examination room before running after Wanda.

…

Hungover Tony isn’t pleasant to be around. “She said evil scientist?” he asks rubbing his face sitting in the corner of the briefing room fiddling with his iPad.

“Yes, she was quite drunk at the time and being attacked. So excuse the lack of detail” I reply

“Can’t our evil scientist enemies let us have one night of fun,” Tony sighs.

Cho walks into the room. “It’s a flesh wound she’s fine they stitched her up. Don’t know when she’s going to wake up.”

“Did she mention anything about a evil scientist?” Tony asks. “Preferably something specific like a organization name.”

“What?” Cho asks walking towards the table with the metal boxes set on it.

“Evil scientists,” Tony replies, “there are quite a few out there.”

Cho looks through the boxes, “where did you get this?”

“Axey’s office,” Tony replies. “We think it’s what y/n found before he went all Axe murderer on her. There are no cameras in there so I have no idea what happened. I’m trying to piece it together with the corridor footage”.

“This is from Hydra. That base you guys raided a while back. y/n did the catalog and inventory. This is from the Winter Soldier Program.” Cho says looking up at me.

“What?” I say.

“Why is it that we always end up here. Back at Hydra?” Tony asks exasperated.

“Axelrod was doing your post-op right?” Cho asks looking at me. “After he took you out of cryo. During your meetings did he inject you with something?”

“No,” I reply.

“Well, clearly he was planning to. I think he was trying to reboot the program. You’re evaluation meetings would have been perfect for it. No one would have found out. No one would have suspected. Thank God y/n found this or else we would have had more than one double agent on our hands,” Cho says looking at me.

…

July 6, 2015

y/n’s POV

Two days later

“I can’t believe he broke my necklace” I say. “That was my favorite necklace”.

“You almost got murdered and you’re worried about a necklace”. Wanda says looking at me wide eyed.

“Key word almost. I know how to handle myself.” I say sitting up from the hospital bed, “Any updates?” I ask, “about the whole hydra thing?”

“No, Tony will do his thing and let us know.” Wanda replies. “What happened exactly? The last thing I remember before Bucky calling us down to the medical bay was you texting us about Sushi”.

“We were watching fireworks.” I say, “then I went to drop off some paperwork and discovered my boss is a double agent working for hydra. I was pretty wasted during the course of events. So it took me a while to process and I got stabbed.” I say facetiously to Wanda.

“No I mean why were you watching the fireworks with Bucky in the labs?” she asks.

“Oh because I think the sound bothers him and I’m a nice person so I offered to keep him company.”

“Huh,” she looks at me with a raised eyebrow. “Good thing he stuck around. As tough as you are I don’t think you could have taken that guy out alone”.

….

1 week later

After a entire week of some much needed R&R I walk back to Stark Tower. Today’s my first day back and i’m already feeling a lot more healed up. The cut on my neck from where my necklace was ripped is very faint and well the stab wound is still healing but hurts a lot less. Wanda has been keeping me in the Hydra investigation loop but it doesn’t look like there’s been much progress. I walk through to the elevators but before heading up to the labs I make a short stop first. To the floors with agent apartments. I wander around until I find Bucky’s room right where Steve said it would be. I wanted to thank him. For you know saving my life. His door was slightly open and I peered in to see the man shirtless doing pull ups on a bar in his living room. I rolled my eyes at a thought that flew through my mind and knocked on the door.

Bucky’s POV

I heard a small knock on my door and let go of the bar and walked over to answer it. To my surprise it was y/n. “Hi,” I said a little taken aback. Why was she here?

“Hello,” she says looking up smiling at me. “I just wanted to stop by and thank you. I wouldn’t be here if you hadn’t been there”.

Shes thanking me? I should be thanking her. If it wasn’t for her my brain would be scrambled up again by Axelrod and no one would know. “Uh come in,” I say gesturing. She walks into my living room and takes a seat on the sofa. I follow her and sit down across from her. “I should be thanking you too” I say at a loss for words. “Well, you’re welcome,” she says with a smile on her face.

Her eyes float down to my chest and she furrows her brows. She probably sees the scars. I grab the shirt next to me and put it on, “sorry for the indecency,” I say quickly covering up.

But the look on her face is more of worry than of disgust and almost like she could read my mind she says, “You shouldn’t be ashamed of your scars. They show remind you where you’ve been, what you’ve survived, and how it’s shaped you for the better.” She smiles pointing down at her own abdomen, “Plus they look badass.” I couldn’t help but laugh she’s definitely interesting. “Anyways,” she says standing up. “I gotta go Cho and I have to look through years of Axelrod’s work to try and find something.” I show her out and find myself quite thrilled at the prospect of making a friend like her even after 100 years.

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Film Crew Appreciation PSA

Respect & love the actors.

But also the directors.

But don’t forget the producers (all of ‘em!)

Don’t forget the Cinematographers & Directors of Photography, and their camera ops who make those dope shots happen!

Don’t forget the 1st AC, who makes those dramatic focus pulls happen.

Don’t forget the 2nd AC, who makes sure those slates are right and shots are logged so they know they don’t lose footage or reeeeeeeally fuck up sync sound!

Don’t forget the sound mixer, who lets the director know whether they got the right sound for that scene before they leave location.

Don’t forget the boom op, who is killing himself offscreen to hold that mic as close as possible without being in your shot so that you get good on-set audio and don’t have to watch potentially disasterous ADR/”dubbing” which draws you out of the movie.

Don’t forget the costumers, who arrive early at set every day to steam out those suits, and who always have back ups, and who make your actors look exactly how they need to for that shot. On that note, don’t forget the make up and hair artists, who work with the director from the beginning and actually put HUGE amounts of thoughts into every look for every shot, every scene. GUYS. NEVER FORGET HAIR AND MAKEUP. This goes for the ridiculously talented people in SFX makeup and practical effects as well!

Don’t forget the script supervisor, who is basically set mom. 

Don’t forget your 1st AD, who is the director’s right hand man. Who makes sure everything gets shot (and works with the script supervisor to make sure you don’t run over time!). Oh, and they’re probably (almost definitely) the one who has placed every single extra in the background to look natural and to walk on screen at the right moment so that you never notice the 100s of people walking down the street behind the lead actors are all people who have been paid to be there and walk behind the lead actors without staring at the big set of film equipment in front of them. 

(Along those lines, thank the extras who come out on set and normally sit around all day doing nothing until they are called for, and then being ready to go when it’s time. Real troopers, and it’s also a fantastic way for people interested in film to check out how things work on sets before they even get to PA level.)

Don’t forget your 2nd AD, or the 2nd 2nd AD, both of whom make sure that set paperwork is in order, everyone is where they need to be, lunch is taken on time, PAs are doing their jobs, and just generally makes sure problems disappear before the 1st even has to hear about them. 

Don’t forget the dolly grip, making sure that tracking shot is smooth and perfect. Likewise, steadicams are heavy and difficult to navigate and learn to use. Give a HUGE shoutout to the steadicam operators in the films you watch (hint: if it’s a major studio production, odds are there are at least one of each!)

Don’t forget the grips, who move alllllllll that shit that needs to be moved on set. Don’t forget the gaffers, who are in charge of lighting and pretty much anything electrical on set.

Don’t forget the DIT who is checking that footage as it comes in. The one who lets you know you’ve got a dead pixel or a corrupt card or a boom in the shot before you spend the rest of the day thinking you got a shot that you simply don’t have. Digital Imaging Techs save movies every day.

DO NOT FORGET THE PAs WHO ARE GETTING YELLED AT AND STANDING FOR 12 HOURS STRAIGHT AND WHO ARE RUNNING FASTER THAN THE SPEED OF LIMIT AND DO THANKLESS WORK FOR NOT A WHOLE BUNCH OF MONEY (IF THEY ARE ON THE GOOD SETS WHERE THEY ARE GETTING PAID AND NOT THE DOZENS OF OTHERS THEY HAVE TO START OFF ON JUST TO GET EXPERIENCE) AND WHO NEVER COMPLAIN ABOUT ANY OF IT AND WILL GLADLY LET YOU USE THEM AS A FOOTREST OR BE YOUR PSYCHOLOGIST/RANT-LISTENER BECAUSE THEY KNOW EVERYONE STARTED SOMEWHERE AND THEY GOTTA EARN BEING IN THIS FUCKING INDUSTRY THE HARD WAY LIKE EVERYONE ELSE.

Don’t forget locations, who troubleshoot with location owners and make sure they’re happy and takes care of more on set than you can imagine.

Don’t forget the casting director, who spent hours combing through hundreds of headshots for every little part, even that one waitress with one line in scene 57. 

Don’t forget craft services and catering teams, who keep us fed, but also bring cakes on the last day of filming, who also make sure the first aid kit is well stocked, who remember the sunscreen and the bug spray when you’re in the woods, who make runs to the store when the ice melts, who will always take care of you.

Don’t forget the stunt team, who take the punches and hits and bruises and keep going.

Don’t forget, of all things, the snake wranglers in the woods making sure you don’t get killed by a poisonous snake.

DON’T FORGET ART DEPARTMENT, WHO ARE MACGYVERS AND CAN MAKE ANYTHING OUT OF NOTHING WITHOUT BREAKING A SWEAT. 

Don’t forget set design and dressers, who are responsible for every single thing that is not a person or a prop on that screen. Along those lines, thank the greens team (actual department. Check those credits, dawg.) for working with all the plants you see on screen. And along those lines, thank the animal wranglers and trainers who keep those 40 sheep in the background from getting frisky in your shot.

Don’t forget those teamsters, who make sure those actors & above-the-lines get to and from set safely after a long day filming. 

Don’t forget production coordinators AND UNIT PRODUCTION MANAGERS and all the people in the production office AND ALL THE DEPARTMENTS’ PAs and the crane operators and production designers and please, for the love of GOD, never forget to check out the screenwriter(s) WHO ACTUALLY CREATED THE SCRIPT THIS STORY IS BEING CREATED FROM. 

AND THAT’S ALL JUST PRODUCTION AND PREPRODUCTION. DON’T FORGET POST!

Don’t forget the editing team, even though they are perhaps the most forgotten department people ignore, despite the fact that they are the ones that hold the director’s hand and assure him that his movie is in the footage, and then put it all together and make the story happen from raw sound and footage.

Don’t forget the scores of men and women in the VFX department making sure you question where their graphics end and reality begins.

Post-sound & foley artists, who create the audio world to go with the visual images. The people who make the sound sound effortless are the best. If you don’t notice their work, it usually means they’ve done it right, but go ahead and give them a high-five as well. 

Guys, never forget the MUSIC aspect of films. How much work goes into scoring and creating the soundtrack.

Don’t forget the marketing departments, y’all. The ones who deliver the films, who make those dope ass trailers, who create those posters and viral campagins and taglines. Don’t forget how much work goes into marketing and distribution, because we make make the movie from development through post, but THEY ARE THE ONES THAT MAKE SURE YOU GET TO SEE IT.

I’d say tl:dr;, but the the thing is, you guys should read all of this. There are so many more positions than these, and they all have even more jobs than I was able to list here. And every single one of them does their job because they love it, and every single one of them give 110% to make each individual film a success. Each one of them plays an intergral part in the production of your favorite movies. So please, idolize the actors and directors because yeah, they’re talented and amazing and the most visible. But stay for the credits, too. Check out the IMDb page for the film. See every single person that went into making this film. Google any of the positions you don’t know and learn a bit about what they do on set. You’d be surprised just how much goes into filmmaking. And then, once you’ve done a little research, give those crew members some of the love you have for their creation as well. This has been a friendly PSA from your friendly neighborhood screenwriter/set PA. <3