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lord-squiggletits · 1 month

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Man there's nothing wrong with genderbends as a concept but there's something lowkey infuriating about this fandom's tendency to take canonically gay (or at least, MLM) male characters and genderbend them into women like. Is that not at least a little bit uncomfortable for anyone else here or is it just me

#esp since like for example you never see it happen to any of the female/sapphic characters #could just be bc TF's cast is overwhelmingly male and thus ppl want to even the gender ratio a little #but like. ppl spend more time genderbending male characters into women than they do making content for canon women including the sapphics #discourse #like idk sometimes if the art is really good or if i'm in a really good mood i'm like 'yeah this is fine. i admit i like it'#but then there's other times where i'm like. did you rly think it was a good idea to turn a canon gay man into a woman in your AU #like. really really?#idk it's just one of those things where as a baseline i understand genderbend and even enjoy them myself #it's just in this fandom specifically where the way ppl do it sometimes. feels uncomfortable. or at least poorly thought out #that or it's just me getting annoyed by ppl going 'omg i love TF women' and then making 0 content for them #and then complaining that there's not enough female characters #like okay you literally dont even pay attention to the women who are there and just make fanart of men and m/m stuff #kinda feels like you should either put your money where your mouth is or stop complaining about it #or maybe start supporting franchises that actually have even gender balances instead of inventing representation #that only exists in your brain/friend group and the ppl actually making shows (or watching them) dgaf about

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beatcroc · 4 months

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listen. i love pizza tower with my whole heart & mind. you know this. you Know. but first and foremost i am a character design bitch, and the pizzas are, frankly, very bland. this is not a critique or a complaint, because obviously That's Not The Point and more importantly i would be horrified if anyone tried doing that much animation with anything more complex than what's there. but also it means when i get a taste of some truly whack ass insane design work again it is like fuuuucking catnip

#ive been DEPRIVED......#pizza business is on hiatus i need to play lethal league for 50 hours and make a surely ill-fated cosplay about it #it really is unfortunate fake pep could have been a fun cosplay for the way i wanted to go about it #but for all the schematics i had sketched out it was never a thing i wanted to get up and actually try to Make #and then i wake up the next day after playing llb once and go like oh. ohhhhhh. i need to be doombox irl #and because of that realizing. oh that was misplaced idle thoughts before; i never actually wanted to do fp for real #i was just on that train bc 1. very passionate about the game obviously [and he was kind of my only option to rep pt] and 2.#i think it was a lot of leftover inertia from my PREVIOUS cosplay idea [baozhai from indivisible] that i also never pursued #lots of Makin Stuff drive still existing but not having a place to go.#fp was certainly more doable than baozhai so it was easy to latch on but #still not....really the kind of thing i actually Enjoy making #this one though. ohgghhgh i feel it. i feel the cosmos #i still dont think i'm actually going to complete it. the current projection is that i just make a shitty prototype and then #realize how impossible and unfun this is gonna be and then drop it. [but its fine bc i still got to make stuff and got the idea out]#however. that first pizza comic was also originally a single-image prototype to get the idea across bc #i didn't think i would actually draw out that whole thing either.#so i guess we'll just see what happens. now won't we.#poor fuckin noisette comic 2 man i put it off for so long and then finally get into it and then this happens #ill get back on it eventually this is just something i have to indulge while i have it and get it out of my system #its like evangelion. sometimes you have to write 8k words of analysis. and sometimes you gotta make a really stupid cosplay #anyway hey i should post the fp cosplay schematics huh. i meant to back when i first did them but then didnt. whoops #bweeeaaahh

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dutybcrne · 3 months

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Kaveh definitely wants at least one child of his own. Partially to continue his family line, partially bc he himself loves the idea of having a family of his own. He would however like to move out of Alhaitham’s place before he even dares consider getting a partner to begin with. And the longer he stays there, the more stress he feels thinking about it. He even has sketched out nursery ideas and plans on how to raise them all set to go, if only he'd get out of debt fast enough-

Furina also really wants to have a child of her own. She adores seeing the families around Fontaine, and has dreamed a great deal what parenthood would be like. Nothing brings her joy than when children about Fontaine invite her to join in on the little games they are playing, leaving her giddy and smiling bright as sunshine on her way home. Of course she knows that to be a parent, she really has to get her shit together. One can't just rear a child on macaroni and residual payments, after all.

#hc; kaveh #//Mans is stressing #//He’s like ‘I’m damn near pushing 30; I should have my life together by now aaAAAA’#//Do like the idea of Haitham & Kaveh coparenting though #//Them raising a kid together; be it romantically/qp involved or just like #//Some Full House situation type beat lol #//Haitham does like helping kiddos learn after all. And it would make SO much a lot easier for Kav #//Kaveh would preferably want an even number of kids if he has a partner; so they don't ever feel lonely #//If it's just him & his kiddo; then yeah; he's a little more fine w only one. But he really wants them to have someone to fall back on jic #hc; furina #//She's had thoughts of having children of her own for damn near 500 years #//Which she knew would be Impossible; her role came first and foremost #//But now that she's free from that obligation; the thoughts came welling back up #//It's not entirely why she wants to stand on her own right and get better at so many things; but it is part of it #//She'd love the idea of having her own little family at last #//Though her Salon Solitaire buddies will have to do djbhgjfd #//She doesn't actually know how many she wants tho; maybe one if she's single; but whatever her partner is down for; she would be too #//She would be such a doting mom hjcbffg #//She genuinely wouldn't even mind not having a partner if it came down to it. She will most certainly be able to handle a kiddo on her own #//She thinks that; yet she also most certainly get overwhelmed Real quick at first #//Esp since she'd be such a sympathetic crier when it comes to her babu. & bc she already feels the urge to cry when frustrated #//But she would try her best #//Would absolutely consult with The Gals each and every time she needs anything #//Deffo would be the type to get matching outfits for her and her kid jffghh

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waywardsalt · 5 days

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anyways. holding linebeck gently

#some assorted untagged linebeck thoughts tonight cuz hey why not its been a Day of ups and downs and he’s been there in my mind #sometime this month i do want to make some images of him w/ the pride flags of my hcs so general gay and then mlm and then intersex #general post ph crew rundown theres linebeck and then damien is bi and trans and bellum doesnt fucking care and link is figuring it out #so its half we got it and half man i have other things to worry about #i feel like you put linebeck and midna in a room and they are gay/lesbian buddies mlm/wlw solidarity thats what they are to me #anyways. revisited my post abt possession aftermath effects. you can probably tell i enjoy hurt/comfort/whump #smth darkly funny to me abt extremely sick and delirious linebeck and worried link kinda hanging out in his room #with link being like i bet youll be fine!!! you’re recover youre fine. and linebeck just saying kid i have rabies symptoms #anyways he lives hes fine he survives the magic squid rabies. to calm the characters nerves and my own ive decided that once hes well enoug #linebeck and link decide to visit the fairy queen to get some kinda divine checkup and to get the closure of. linebeck is fine he’s fine #nothing malicious is lingering youre good just. get some more bed rest #i do like the idea that when hes got some minor injury to the degree of some little papercur linebeck is incredibly bitchy and whatnot #and then when he’s in genuine danger of dying he’s eerily chill abt it. while recovering from possession one day when he can walk he just #chills on the deck when theres no breeze just smoking. ofc hes terrified inside but fuck if hes going to be obvious abt it (when lucid)#could tie that to his trauma n whatever ig but rn i dont have the energy to really think on it idk hes had enough bad injuries #and has found that when hes actively distressed crying out and whatnot didnt really get people to help #like its smth he learned early on his brother was there and there was just enough but like yknow. wasnt ingrained ig #thats a different thing to be lumped into the idea of him learning that its fine to be more vulnerable abt what you feel n need n want #prob smth he practices with link i mean damien is good but he needs to learn to listen instead of assume for that first bit #uhhh. earlier today i almost made a vent post but didnt but i think the gist was god i need to stop comparing other loz things to my iwn #bc it never never ends well. anyways. uhhh. came up with a possible post ph story arc for bellum n link #and decided to revive an older one with link and linebeck. post ph is really really just its own thing tbh #ofc meant to be a sorta fan sequel thing but between the disregarding of canon sequel stuff and not really adhering to the feeling n whatno #its just its own thing and i like it. ill prob delete this later

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maybelleteas · 6 days

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how do I get over the feeling of being a bad Bisexual Woman when I used to think I preferred men, had more sexually intense desire for them, and wanted to marry a man but still desired a casual fling with a woman back then when now, since then, after the only sexual touch I've gotten in my 30 years of life is from a woman, I am essentially a febfem wrt a long term situation, and want to marry a woman. I feel like I'm betraying this hypothetical person in my head bc I didn't always feel this way 😭

#biphobia #febfem #i thought i was straight for so long but ive never even kissed a man #i really think i may never have sex with a man #kind of a shame in some ways bc im curious about it- but i could also be wrong #like maybe i will meet a man that i like that much idk #i just accidentally got into some shit on reddit with lesbians not liking me bc of this as some of my friends know jskgdhs #and i tried so hard so long to not offend anyone and i still did #like i made a post about meeting women in the Wild and they found an old post of mine where #i was asking in the bi subreddit a year ago if anyone prefers one sex in the sense their attraction feels more intense- and i genuinely #thought i just felt that way about men??? but when i went out with a woman i realized oh nvm ive never felt this way dating men #i was convinced i wanted to marry a man before overall #even if i was bisexual #which took me a long time to consider myself bisexual #and i didnt wanna yell about it bc it would be rather irrelevant if im only serious about guys bc i DO know some bi women like that #irl. which is fine... anyone can do what they want

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avatardoggo · 4 months

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THIS MAN MADE ME A WEBSITE FOR MY BIRTHDAY 🥹😫😣😳😭🥰

#sooo it’s past my birthday now and FG didn’t get me anything besides a real alt sweet card and a heart shaped box of chocolates which was #nice but he kept insisting that he wasn’t finished making my present just yet so i was like ok cool whatever and i would ask him every once #and a while bc i really thought he was making me like lego flowers bc he likes that type of thing (which is so cute omgoodness idky i love #that sm about him like he likes to build legos 😆😆 so cute!!!) aannnywayyssss he came over the other day to drop off my present so expecting #some box or whatever and he just pulls up with his backpacks but i’m like ok that’s fine it has to be Somewhere right??? and then he pulls #out is laptop and i’m like ookkkaaayy idk where this is going and the. he pulls up the page aND ITS A WEBSITE FOR MY CROCHET BUSINESS AND 🥹🥹#HE MADE IT FROM SCRATCH WITH CODING AND EVERYTHING BC DUH HES A COMP SCIENTIST AND!!!!!!!#he was like i wanted to make you something that’ll you’ll need and would want as well and i was so shOOketh i was using my soft girl voice #and i was looking at him like 🥺🥺🥺 the whole evening bECAUSE!!!! SIR 😭 YOU HAVE SET THE BAR SKY HIGH and he was all shy (so friggin cute)#“do you like it 👉🏾👈🏾🥺 and i was just looking at him like ☹️😣🥺😧 I LOVE IT!!!#he hasn’t finished it bc he needs my input on some stuff before he continues but it should be done by the summer and he’s like maybe we can #work on it together LIKE BABE SWEETHEART DARLING OFC WE CAN DUUUHHHH #i’m honestly so in awe of this man i can’t even #Friendly Giant ™️#FG #mutuals my beloved <3 #vk overshares in the tags

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skitskatdacat63 · 5 months

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Anytime someone out of the loop reblogs any boy king au art, I always just wanna put a huge asterisk like "THIS IS PART OF A PREEXISTING AU, A VETTONSO AU, PLEASE ASK ME ABOUT IT 🙏" cause most people are very surprised to learn how much of a narrative there is sjfklf

#yes he is boy king seb but he is a very specific boy king 🥰#why did i name this au boy king as if hes not emperor #doesnt roll off the tongue as easily ig ;;;#its fine tho bcs hes always boy king in my heart but like. do be aware.#im on a unimaginable level of rpf #like not only is it f1 rpf but it is also ultra specific historical rpf lmfao #BUT HEY IM GLAD YOU GUYS LIKED THE NEW ART #I LIKE IT A LOT IM VERY PROUD OF IT #it was so terrible last night tho cause i really wanted to finish it #but i drank coffee that i THOUGHT was fully decaf #and i had it with ice cream(i am lactose intolerant)#so yeah i was able to finish the art but i also laid in bed in pain at like 5 am #but the show must go on! boy king gets what boy king wants!#as cofi said to me. he truly is the golden child 🥹 i always put the most deranged energy into painting him #ah man tho im sad to have finished this project in just a 3 day span. it was a lot of fun #i think next ill have to draw silly ship chibis of seb harassing nando w the sceptre and orb etc etc #catie.rambling.txt

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urostakako · 9 months

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when i look at my face in the mirror i think i get biased about what i actually look like because. thats my face. and today i realized that i look a lot more feminine than i thought i did and i wish it didnt feel as horrible as it does X)

#man i thought i was fine. i really wanted to be. bc if i want to change my appearance while dealing w all this other shit i might just kms #like its so disheartening. i already look like a straight girl pushover in public but at home i thought it was fine #nobody cares that i keep my mustache. my mom calls me handsome. i get to wear my hair and clothes however i want #but if i really look the same as i do outside of home... ive just been deluding myself.#and even worse i dont want it to bother me this bad.. i dont want it to be a Thing. all of this is hard enough as it is #fuckkkkkkk X)#aricouldyounot #dl

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violetclarity · 11 months

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my best friend is moving in with his boyfriend and I am Not handling it super well so real grown-ups of tumblr, how do you deal with it when a good friend has a long-term, serious partner who you think is...fine?

#I've not had to deal with this before because all of my partnered friends are with people who I either #a) genuinely like as people or b) do not feel bad about disliking #this man is fine? he treats my friend well but I personally would never choose to hang out with him if they weren't dating?#like I don't know what my friend sees in him #and I'm also not sure what he sees in my friend #not in a 'I don't think my best friend is worthy of love' way o b v i o u s l y #but they started dating fairly soon after the partner got *divorced* and it kind of seems like #he just really wanted to be in a serious relationship again but like. with a man instead of a woman.#but my friend also never talks about his feelings so I have no real insight into his pov!!#I'm kind of concerned about his logic but he also processes things way differently than I do and y'know it's not my life #so I'm sure it will be fine #also part of what I am having trouble with is definitely that I never thought this friend would *be* in a serious relationship #and there are some minor betrayal feelings happening (especially bc he's moving an extra 20 mins away from me booo)#(why you'd want to move from a cool place near things to a boring place in the boring suburbs is beyond me but I digress)#but (despite my friend's preferences) I'm going to be seeing a lot more of the partner now that they are living together #and I'd like to get to a point where I actually like him maybe?#that may be too tall of an order. where he doesn't actively annoy me??#the man once tried to devil's advocate brittney greiner being stuck in russia I don't think I can be blamed for being annoyed lmao #that feeling when you think all your friends deserve The Absolute Best In The World when it comes to romantic partners #so you get pissed when their partners don't seem to recognize their amazingness

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gideonisms · 2 years

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grits teeth this anxiety is just an excuse to treat myself better that's all this is telling me. It's just the sign to go on more walks and make myself my favorite tea and read more. Things that WILL feel good and luxurious so help me

#going to win at self care something that is normal to want and possible to achieve #knowing for a fact i'm never anxious about the thing i think i am and i'll figure out 2 years from now what this was about #but still having random intrusive thoughts and judging myself for everything i've ever done is like.#guess i will just stew in this! until unspecified date my brain decides things are better. rolls eyes this shit again #>:/#things that should feel fine do not feel fine i can't tell if they're really not or if i'm just having feelings at random #love to be the sherlock holmes of my own fucking life trying to figure out what's going on when the causes for this in the past have been #everything from actually horrible job to didn't read enough to too much noise in the morning to actual depression to not enough interaction #to too much interaction #like? give me a clue here #am i upset about insert event this fall or am i sad i got a b on a recent paper. hello??#side note this is so funny i put more personal details into this recent paper bc the professor said we should #got a worse grade than my sterile infodumps. back to infodumping it is! experiment concluded #it was also 30 minutes late maybe that's why #she also just skipped grading a presentation i did? like just. wasn't on there #idk man i might just take the b for the class trying to decide if i care enough to email to be like #you have skipped. assignments

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onepiexe · 1 year

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ok i can talk abt work now. i got hired to assist the main person who runs inventory and communicates with the vendors, orders plants and products etc etc. its been hard and mostly office work but insanely rewarding.