#many people say he's infp like me... and then u have a few people who will say enfp instead. eh

[hollowsart]

Tfw you apparently (supposedly?) have the same personality type as Sam Raimi Spiderman.

I do not know how to feel about that.

[silverbladexyz]

Hiiii congrats on 100 followers!! I was wondering if I could get a match up? Maybe mentor or sibling figure? Happy either way tho. I know I sent this in a little late so please ignore this if you've got too many requests :)

I use any pronouns, mbti is infp-a, I'm caught up with the manga but I haven't yet read the light novels!

It might take a bit of time but I get along with most people, I really try not to at times but as soon as they tell me even something remotely personal to them I tend to get soft ;; though id say, it's very difficult for me to get along with people who blame other people for their own mistakes and then just sit there crying about it when it's completely on them. If something is your fault and you start to get overwhelmed because of it that's totally okay and I understand, it's just when they blame other people that pisses me off. Those are the kind of people I really dislike but if u give me enough time with them I'm sure I'll warm up eventually. ANYWAY

im very into reading, art and animation, I like to make jewelry and do embroidery, baking and dance, and I play bass. That's all that comes to mind for hobbies I don't really do many extracurriculars in my free time either I use to do a few martial arts but that was a few years ago now :p

Anyway thank you very much ♥️ hope ur having a good week and I hope ur blog continues to grow and thrive :DD

Also fr just ignore this if its too late

Hi anon!!! Thank you for the kind words >.< and it was quite nice writing your matchups, so enjoy :)

The images used are not mine. They belong to their original owners.

Calculating...

Your mentor is... FYODOR DOSTOEVSKY!!!

-Fyodor is an intense mentor; he would be training you nonstop for your missions. He will give you breaks, however these breaks are short-lived. Literally when you've sat down and had a breather, he would start to teach you again

-He likes how you're quiet and observant. Fyodor doesn't really see anything wrong in observing other people before interacting with them; in fact, he encourages it even. He does give you some tips if you're suddenly forced into conversation with someone, because sometimes it happens on missions and he would hate it if you couldn't handle it well

-Fyodor was not expecting your talkative side anytime soon. On one hand he's glad how you don't trust people easily, but on the other hand he's slightly confused on why you kept it hidden for so long. He thinks that with the right training, your energetic side would be quite beneficial in missions

-He also appreciates how you communicate. Fyodor isn't someone who is really in touch with emotions, and he prefers keeping conversations straightforward and logical. Communicating through writing is probably more efficient because Fyodor is a very busy man, so he wouldn't have a lot of time to have a full-on face to face conversation

-Learning new things? Ask and you shall receive. Fyodor has a lot of knowledge hidden in that anaemic self of his, and he will gladly teach his dear student anything that you asked him to. When he's teaching you, he has this way of keeping lessons informative and interesting, so interesting that you never want him to stop teaching. He secretly likes your willingness to learn

-Affection? There is nothing more foreign in Fyodor's vocabulary book. I wouldn't recommend touching him though, because not only would it be awkward, his skin is also cold as ice and not to mention there's the danger of his ability accidentally activating. But compliment him, give him some hand-made gifts, and he will slowly get used to it. It still is kind of awkward for him, but I'm sure he can manage it

-Fyodor also likes your artistic hobbies. I'm pretty sure he would drop you some book recommendations to read in your spare time, and he has really good taste in books. He will look at and compliment your artworks and embroidery, and even listen to you play bass! Needless to say, he is a lover of art and he is secretly happy that his student shares the same love

-Nowww Fyodor will most likely teach you the skills of conversation. Such as how to gather information, how to gain someone's trust quickly, how to manipulate someone even; needless to say, you wouldn't have social anxiety anymore 👍

-He would make one of his subordinates teach you self-defence. Your martial arts experience comes in handy, because being part of Fyodor's organisation is quite dangerous. Even when Fyodor makes sure you don't run into too dangerous situations, it's still better to be safe than sorry

-Apart from your lessons, Fyodor wouldn't really have a lot of spare time to spend with you. So he might ask Ivan or Nikolai to keep you company, but in his (rare) breaks he would be perfectly happy to spend time with you, perhaps even engaging in conversation with you every now and then

-He cares for you in his own way. Your missions have lower risks than the other subordinates, because Fyodor plans it all out and makes sure that there's nothing you can't handle. Even when he's still his own nonchalant self around you, he is secretly more relaxed when he's around you

-Nobody dares to mess with you, because who would want to mess with the devil's student? You definitely get some privileges, because Fyodor’s subordinates all respect you and listen to you. If someone still dares to pick a fight with you then say goodbye to them because they won’t wake up the next morning

-Chess games! You always lose but it’s fun playing against Fyodor. He teaches you a few tips and tricks, and even if you know nothing about chess he still makes it a fun experience. I’m pretty sure that under his guidance, you could become a state chess player

-Fyodor is a very interesting mentor... and he teaches you what he knows so that one day, you will succeed him

And last but not least, your sibling figure is... NIKOLAI GOGOL!!!

-He’s quite a chaotic and interesting brother figure

-Nikolai didn’t really mind your quiet personality at first; he’s already used to Fyodor. He would continue to talk with you energetically, and I feel like he would be the type of person you would click with

-He was pleasantly surprised at your talkative and affectionate side. Nikolai feels honoured that you trust him enough, and he is so going to reciprocate the platonic affection x10. Basically complimenting you everyday, hugs, headpats, even piggyback rides if you asked for it

-He lovessss receiving your handmade gifts. Nikolai basically goes ‘did you make this for me?’ before showing it to everyone and saying how awesome his little sibling was. He also tries giving you his own hand-made gifts, and even when some of them may be weird, the thought’s still there

-I feel like he might like art too. Drawing and painting? You could draw anything and Nikolai would hang it on his bedroom wall. Making jewellery and embroidery? Just tell Nikolai and he would immediately be aweing at your handiwork. He finds dancing very cool and would be down to learning it from you. And baking? Just say the word and Nikolai is immediately getting all the ingredients and equipment for you

-Would totally want you to teach him bass. Mostly so that he could mess around with Fyodor, but he will sometimes be serious and play a piece on the bass. You should advise him to watch Davie504 (he’s an awesome bassist and youtuber)

-Nikolai would also love to teach you anything that you asked for. Such as how to fight an opponent, how to keep a conversation interesting, and even some magic tricks! He loves doing small magic shows for you, especially when you’re upset. He likes it when you laugh, because your laughter is so precious to him

-Please but if you’re upset, he would listen to you rant or cry and afterwards would say a few words of encouragement. Would also give you hugs, but these hugs last longer and have far more deeper meaning. Nikolai cares about you a lot and just wants to see you happy and free

-That one time somebody hurt you, he immediately took care of them. No questions asked. And let’s say that the way that he took care of them was not the prettiest to say the least...

-Anyways, he loves taking you out to places to hang out! Such as amusement parks, circuses, fun fairs, you name it! Nikolai loves spending time with you, and why not spend some time together doing fun stuff? Of course, he also is perfectly happy staying in comfortable silence with you too

-An eccentric but caring older brother otherwise. Nikolai seeks the ultimate freedom for both of you

Sorry that this was kinda late!

[mikareo]

HIII HIII DOVE !!! js saw you were doing matchups,, sooo excited cs i’ve never done this before >.<

࣪˖ ִֶָ𐀔 fandom: blue lock !!

desired gender/age: a guy pleaseee <3 not really picky on age tbh, 16-17 probably

࣪˖ ִֶָ𐀔 personality traits: high achiever & hopeless romantic. really really introverted but chatty and unfiltered around ppl i’m close to ( ngl i say the wildest things ). open minded also a really good listener ‘n really loyal. creative, patient but i can also be pessimistic and mean i think? only happens when i’m overwhelmed tho && i’m an infp and a sagittarius

fave hobbies + activities: drawing, painting, reading books & manga, watching anime, rom-coms and k-dramas, gamingg (literally been on fortnite and valo all week 😭). baking, cooking, listening to music. also love going on runs/walks

࣪˖ ִֶָ𐀔 ideal first date/dream date: all of my first dates are at the cinema which sucks cus you can’t really get to know each other then, so something fun like an arcade or js walking around the mall and looking through bookstores or going to pop-up festivals and getting street food!!

thank youuuu <3 hope this is enough to work with!!

💌 ✮⋆˙ love letter to...y2kuromi!

...this was...so hard...like...i rlly rlly hope you like this character LOL it's ok if u don't tho,, he's a little silly sometimes. i hope ur doing well mimi and that ur weekend was fun!!! i rlly wanted this matchup to be perfect for ur personality set,, n i think you'd get along w this chara nicely :)

[ ꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱₊˚⊹ ᰔ ] your personality matchup results!

congratulations . . .‧₊˚🪩✩REO MIKAGE₊˚🫧⊹♡

⋆⭒˚｡⋆ chemistry analysis . . .

to be so honest, making a decision on who to match you with took me a lot longer than it usually does. i went though so many options— hiori, kunigami, chigiri, nagi— and none of them fit in the way that i wanted them to. whenever i'd try to pair traits and interests, everything felt really forced and that's the last thing i want to when doing a personality pairing; but eventually i landed on reo! i think you and reo fit together very very well, and i'm pretty confident on that!

one thing that you and reo can mutually relate, is your need to achieve. you're both extremely ambitious people and when you have a goal, there's no stopping you until you reach it. reo knows that you understand that obsession and crave for success. he doesn't feel judged when he's overly passionate about something and talks about it for hours on end, knowing that you're listening to every word he says with an open mind. most people think he's crazy for believing he and nagi can be kings of the football world, but you don't think that. you don't think that at all. if anything, you're right next to him cheering him on; while also giving him a few small reality checks along the way.

for the most part, hopeless romance isn't something that reo thinks about. typically, girls fawn over him due to his parent's money, only wanting to become a rich heiress without actually liking reo for his real personality; they prefer his phony one. you, however, introduce him to the truth that there can be love without manipulation or falseness. you show him how little gestures matter and that he shouldn't waste his time on people who aren't patient enough to see him as he really is. there is a potential love story in reo's book and you're the only one who can start the next chapter and help him read on.

now, you have many hobbies that reo isn't necessarily extremely interested in; but that's not an issue. the thing is with reo, is that he loves to get involved in the things his loved ones enjoy— if you have a hyperfixation on a video game, kdrama, or musician, he's right there beside you to listen or watch along. he loves to splurge on you; aka: taking you out on any kind of date your heart desires and buying you anything you have your eye on— and he's such a doting boyfriend that you can't help but love him for his obsession with making you happy. you've taught reo how to love something other than a hobby, and he's going to show you how thankful he is for that every day.

[entropy-sea-system]

whos ur fave octonaughts character :0!! if u have on ethat is

(also adding what mbti I think they r bc mbti is one of my current hyperfixations sort of!!)

When I first watched it (which was a decade ago now that I think abt it..) my fave was probably Peso tbh, I found him a bit relateable and cool I guess and good at reassuring and helping sea creatures! He reminds me of Fluttershy from mlp:fim INFP(?J). Also definitely autistic imo

I think I feel like an affinity towards Shellington bc he seems like me interest wise and a bit personality wise bc I rlly like biology and wanted to be a marine biologist for a bit when I was younger and he seems to infodump a lot and I do that abt similar interests!(there are many benefits to being a marine biologist /ref) INTP and also autistic and adhd

I find Kwazii to be the most entertaining character. He's always up to things and it feels like a lot of the comedy in the show is centered around him. Probably the character that was meant to have the audience's attention more. It's also kind of amusing how he's usually like fearless but extremely scared of the cryptids he claims exist(like Vampire Squid but his own idea of it before he meets the vampire squid). I think he contrasts with Peso, who's usually anxious but is seen overcoming fear or not being afraid when a sea creature needs help ENTP (some would say S but the way he sees cryptozoology and pirate stuff seems more N to me) adhd and perhaps HPD and/or NPD

Tweak is one of my favorite characters too, she's cool and it was fun to see her explain things about the gups, octopod, and other tech stuff! ISTP, also autistic + adhd

I think Inkling's also pretty cool and he reminds me of Bedtime Bear from utm a bit? I also relate to him bc like I guess I like knowing information even if Im like the used to read a lot, now only really reads fanfiction type and I may seem like him personality wise to some people INTP or INTJ, autistic

I also think Dashi is cool! Her interest in photography is cool and I relate to that and also I think needle arts (forgot though if she does that in canon or its a hc someone had tbh) which I also do a bit!! It's also cool how she does things efficiently (not relateable to me but still cool), probably a gaymer, hard for me to type bc I think idk she seems like a Normal type and Ice type in pokemon type personality thing, she seems INFJ or ISTJ, maybe INTP

I used to ship Tweak x Dashi (though it doesn't make sense in canon to me, only as speculation now) and Kwazii x Peso (similar but they interact a lot in canon and seem like foils to each other), and sort of Kwazii x Paani, those aren't really at the forefront of my mind when I think about octonauts now but like I'm plato repulsed so can only really stand thinking of characters as being partners or like just knowing each other exists/working together in a positive or neutral way?

Though Kwazii x Peso x Shellington I hadn't thought of until I saw some posts about it but I guess it reminds me of some of my partners even if I didn't see Shellington as having as many interactions w the other two in canon, But also the way I see shipping changed after realising Im aro and maybe also just as I got older so maybe I just don't have as much interest in canon x canon shipping now as I did a few years ago

Not really a character but I think the octopod's really cool!!! I always loved the design of it and it looks rlly cozy!! The gups are also very cool and I like how they're inspired by sea creatures! I like to think that Tweak maybe consulted Shellington for some sea creature inspired aspects of some of her inventions! Also. Like Kwazii often ending up w damage on the Gup-B totally reminds me of Funshine and the scooters in utm(especially in that comic!)

Favorite sea creature in it is probably siphonophore (I learned a lot of marine bio facts from the show tbh!!) and favorite phenomenon underwater brinesicle thing and the undersea vents r also cool!!

I still need to finish Octonauts Above and Beyond, I started it last year and it was p cool! Some of the octoagents have names that are noun names in other languages that fit the work they do and I thought that was cool too!! (Paani - water in Hindi - he's a hydrologist) (Professor Natquik - Inuit language - it has various dialects and Im not sure which one(s) have this word?- word for drifting snow/ice )

(-Rift)

[mirakeul]

making miracles at mirakeul’s !!!

welcome, dear @sparklingmallow​, thank you for supporting mirakeul’s! your match will be right with you! just step this way, and you’re good to go! pardon me for the long wait, we hope you enjoy your date ! [reader uses she/her]

matchup masterlist || event details [event status ; closed]

"hey, do you want to go to the mall this saturday?" y/n asked her partner, yamaguchi tadashi, in the most discreet way possible.

"uh, sure!" he smiled, the freckles on his cheeks getting more prominent as he blushed. 

"it's a date, then." y/n smiled, waving to him as he went back to her seat.

yamaguchi was blushing as he realized what she meant. y/n was not really one to ask in the middle of the day, let alone in front of their other classmates, but then again, they weren't a typical couple. while yamaguchi was a very introverted person who's much like tsukishima with just them and the team, y/n was introverted in the way that people are wary of her. but that's just her.. face, let's just say /pos. 

saturday came, yamaguchi was fretting over his polo shirt when y/n came. she hugged him, getting flustered after he kissed her cheek. "hi, y/n. you look really nice."

"you too, tadashi." the smile on y/n's face was enough for yamaguchi to be red-faced as they started walking. it was quite hot out so y/n wanted to be in the cool breeze of the mall's air conditioner for their date today, not that either of them minded. 

the two were silent, save for the few chats they had when they saw something interesting. it wasn't uncomfortable, per se, but the two were content with time to themselves.

"let's go grab something to eat?" yamaguchi asked.

"sure," she smiled, holding his hand as they walked to find a food joint. 

as they were eating, yamaguchi noticed the dark bags under y/n's eyes. "are you okay? you have been taking care of yourself, right?"

y/n's eyes traveled to his green-grayish ones. she smiled sheepishly. "i am?"

"why aren't you sure?" his teasing smile surfaced.

"because…"

"you've been reading the new update for my hero academia? and let me guess… fanfiction?"

"it's not my fault there is such good fanfiction!"

"just try to get more sleep, okay?"

y/n smiled as yamaguchi intertwined their hands. "i will. thank you for always looking out for me."

reblogs are greatly appreciated ! keep reading for a personal letter !

letter from you ;

HI HI HI I HOPE I GET IN, THIS IS MY FIRST TIME PARTICIPARING IN STUFF LIKE THIS so AAAAAAA— btw i apologize if i miss a detail i just read the guide once, and i am sleep deprived :D

my nickname's cathy and i'm a straight (is cishet the term?) incoming abm student!

virgo sun, scorpio moon, aqua rising!

infp, altho i think it could be inaccurate or can change in the future

i like animals! i also like learning/researching on different stuff + sharing it to others; used to always give gmorning hugs to my friends back in f2f classes — loves hugs in general; enjoys pyungpyungpOOGSH action movies/shows; tried a bit of drawing and watercoloring anime people since last year's quarantine! also the resident roach killer of the group

90% has an rbf but i'm friendly and approachable 😭 also a private, bottling-emotions-up person that's witty + shy; stays up late reading fics yet sleep in class hehe; can neglect or barely take care of my health

i don't like it when people cut me off, invalidate me and others' works, are inconsiderate/rude/don't sympathize, slow walkers; [heavy] pe activities bc of styoopid vertigo; i also don't like horror movies they're in my head for mONTHS

a patient, understanding, affectionate, reliable best-friend-and-boyfriend package! (no preferred school) never had a partner but imma summarize w that

with our hot weather and my physical insecurity, study, food, and mall dates would prolly be ideal!

sorry if this is too long i dunno how many of those are useful (￣3￣) i'll make a new one if u want! mwa sending hugs! stay safe ^^

letter from me ;

CATHHYYYYY THANK YOU SA SUPPORT LAGI HUHUHUA KAHKFHA AND THANK YOU SA PAGSALI DITO ALJDLKJASKJF NAAAPPRECIATE Q LAHAT NG KIND WORDS MO SO I HOPE U ENJOY THIS <333 MEJJ NAHIRAPAN AQ SA CHARACTERISTIC NA BIBIGAY Q KAY Y/N PERO SANA OKAY LANG HUHUHU i chose yamaguchi kasi honestly, yung ideal traits mo, sabi nga ni dj, nasa kanya na ang lahat char HAHAHHA PERO LIKE BAGAY PRAMIS AGAIN THANK U ILY

[kyutown]

Good evening my liege! 💖 I was intrigued to find out about you while diving deeper into tumblr hell so, I am here with a plead to ship me with nct and svt, of you'd be so kind ✨

Alright so for starters, I'm an infp! I'm a generally well-mannered person with people I meet for the first time, borderline sweet and awkward at the same time. I like not to overinvest in first meetings with people and sometimes I think I am somewhat defensive of myself. My emotions always show on my face, both the good and the bad ones. So if someone does say something that I find offensive or whatnot, it SHOWS. I generally hate rude and offensive people all together, as well as people who are vulgar if we're not well acquainted first.

I'm not good at starting conversations and I usually just tend to listen to my friends talk most of the time. It's not like I have nothing to say but I really like listening to my favorite people ramble on about things they love or generally talk about their lives. Im a pretty good listener and I am always objective, even with my family. I won't hold back and I will give you my honest opinion in every case. I always try to see from all perspectives, maybe that's why I'm often somewhat indecisive.

That being said, I really don't shut up about things I love or my hobbies. I'm usually the mood maker of the group as I hate conflict and tension. I am a very sarcastic and cynical person in general and that reflects on my humor, which can vary from vulgar to very dark and inappropriate. Yes, the type of person that will try to hold in their laughter cause I made a mental joke to a funeral. I love witty, stimulating and deep conversations. I'm not that big on casual chitchat but it's okay most of the time I guess.

I'm the personification of open-minded and im also quite opinionated and I can back up my arguments if needed but I tend to avoid getting into heated conversations cause again, my mind reads it as tension. I love being around friends doing nothing and everything but most of the time, I find alone time to be very healing for my mind and soul. I find authenticity and weird little quirks that people have extremely attractive. I'm somewhat stubborn as well.

I also used to have stress and anxiety issues, not anything serious but enough that I had trouble sleeping at night. It was just a few years ago that I decided to not care about every single thing and have a more of a "fuck that" approach in life and honestly, I've never imagined that it would be so liberating. I regained my confidence, physically and mentally, it was an empowering process! I really do believe that self-exploring and healing is the no1 most important thing that someone can do. Love yourself first and foremost and fck what anybody thinks.

So, moving on xD I am a romantic and soft deep down, even though I try not to show sad emotions when around people. But you can be sure I cry at random rescuing dog videos, or videos with people helping each other. I love humanity but hate it at the same time? 😂 Idk if that makes sense, it is what I feel lol I love to learn new random stuff! I'm currently studying linguistics and uni and I aim to be a translator or interpreter, cause i love languages and the cultural differences that come with it. Hence my undying love for music of different genres and languages! Music relaxes me and I couldn't imagine going on without it for more than 3 days. While I do tend to listen to kpop which is more upbeat and experimental, I also LOVE Latin music and rock. I love love traveling around the world! My hobbies include drawing which I'm self taught, fashion and creative writing! I tend to daydream A LOT during the day and so many ideas pop up in my head. I love exploring other cultures' religions and beliefs as well as mythology. I always found it fascinating. I love plants as well! My room is basically a garden xD I also love mystical but also borderline creepy and gory stuff xD I call skulls "pretty" the same way I would call a puppy "cute" 🤣 I'm aware οf that but I can't help but enjoy the look of horror in people's faces xD

oh, I really enjoy observing people as well! Not in a weird way! Their mannerisms, the way they speak, their features. I also love thriller and horror movies the most as well as dark social drama ones. You know, with murders, suicides etc I like how in even the tiniest ways they depict our society as people and frankly, it's sad but I try to be optimistic and keep a positive approach in life. I also really appreciate stand-up comedy xD

Closing up this huge essay, some last things xD I, and I cannot stress this enough, am unable to flirt. Like at all. I can't even maintain eye contact for more than two Seconds. I wish I was kidding. Sadly I'm not 😂Weird thing is, turns out I am actually able to flirt but I'm not aware I'm doing it?? I'm a master at text flirting apparently lololol. What I am, is also called DENSE AS SHIT when it comes to couple things. True story, if you want to do the freaky with your s/o and you need me to leave the room you better TELL ME RIGHT TO MY FACE or else, we gon be there aaaaall night xD And its actually a remarkable feature of mine, considering how dirty minded I usually am lol

I also think I'm touch starved sometimes, like I really like hugs and cuddling and teasing but I'm not gonna ask for it🥺I'm a night owl and I tend to procrastinate a lot. I can't work efficiently if there's not a deadline, like I need that pressure on me in order to function xD My weak spot is actually to act whiny and needy and cutely in front of me. I can do ANYTHING that u ask me of when this happens. And if I show any resistance, JUST KEEP IT UP. I'm jelly on the floor when this happens. Idfk why, it just works?? My sister is abusing the sht out of this method 😭I can't say I make friends easily, cause I believe I do come off as maybe off-putting or weird at times, plus as I said if you're really cant shove your conversation in my face the first time we meet, imma be just an awkward ball of giggles and smiles and "can I go home now pls" 🤣 My general aesthetic / vibes would be sunsets on beaches, soft grunge, cottage core, lofi and hedge witch aesthetics!

Okay so, I think that's everything and probably way more than u needed, so thank you for reading everything my stupid ass wrote❤️

hi! thank you for responding!

for nct, i think yuta would be a nice fit! yuta also likes rock as his favorite band is one ok rock which is a rock band. i feel like you guys would always listen to music (not always rock) and would enjoy making time go by like this!

for seventeen, i think you would match well with the8! the8 would be the type to enjoy exploring new cultures with you and new religions, he would also love to dress up with you and put together outfits with you!

[iplaymatchmaker]

(2) my mbti is infp-t and the last time i did the pottermore test i got a ravenclaw, so there's that! oh and i'm also quite introverted so you won't find me in rowdy places like a party or concert. i don't do great with people who force me out of my comfort zone, people who aren't decisive and aren't the communicative type (i get anxious trying to guess what they mean and overthink). for the prompts i'd like bonding and fairytale au for cinderella! thank you so much! o(≧▽≦)o -juice

Hello, thanks again for requesting Juice! Once again, sorry for the delay. This is the ikerev part of your ask. I’m sorry in advance for the rushed ending of the second prompt, I didn’t want to take even longer writing an entire fic and thought this was a good place to leave it. I hope you like it!

I match you with

Sirius!

When you first arrive in Cradle you are wary of the army officers, but the warm environment makes it easy to relax and be yourself. You quickly grow close with the Queen, Sirius. Your friendship begins when you catch him watering the flowers in the courtyard. You are surprised at first, considering your first impression of him, but that is quickly forgotten as he rambles to you about the importance of maintaining the garden, even with a war in the horizon.

Despite his busy schedule, the two of you spend a lot of time together, and it quickly becomes apparent that you are compatible. The black army headquarters has always been a lively place, curtsey of Fenrir and Seth, but Sirius is glad to have another cheerful voice around, especially when it’s paired with your friendly chatter.

While you dislike showcasing your worries and insecurities, Sirius is always quick to read you and tries his best to lift your spirits without pressuring you to talk when you’re not ready.

You spend a lot of time exploring each other’s interests, as he introduces you to the ways of Cradle and you teach about him about the Land Reason. At first he tries to blame this on simple curiosity, but the reality of it is, he enjoys listening to you talk about the things you’re passionate about, sometimes wishing he could make your eyes light up the same way they do when you discuss your favorite books, although he won’t tell you that.

You finally confess your feelings, moments before the full moon rises and the portal back to your world appears. Until that moment, when Sirius’ hand wrapped around your wrist, stopping you in your tracks, you thought he didn’t return your feelings. It wasn’t until then that he expressed to you how much he wanted you to stay. “I know it’s selfish, but I want you to stay by my side!” All the pieces fell into place as he wrapped his arms around you, your bodies so close you could feel his pounding heart, realizing he must’ve run to catch up with you. “I will.”

Prompt: Bonding

It was hard to contain your excitement as you walked the narrow streets of Cradle, your hand not leaving Sirius’ as you looked at the shop windows.

“Look at that dress!” You pulled him along, hearing him chuckle behind you, not daring to complain as you dragged him inside the store.

You had agreed on this shopping trip a few days ago, on one of the rare days Sirius was staying in your room instead of the opposite. Your attention had been solely focused on your book for about an hour when he spoke up.

“We should go out on Saturday.” While he was always thoughtful, he didn’t often suggest outings, considering his packed schedule.

“Aren’t you on patrol with Fenrir on Saturday?” you couldn’t deny your excitement at the prospect of spending time with Sirius, but you didn’t want to burden him,

“I have already spoken with him. With Amon gone, there isn’t too much work for us during patrol. He can handle it on his own. So what do you say?”

“Okay!” You nodded, pulling him closer as you set your book aside.

While you enjoyed your time trying new clothes and browsing the bookshelves around the shops, you couldn’t help but feel guilty that Sirius was spending his day off following you doing things you enjoyed, despite his reassuring words.

“Don’t worry about me, I can keep up.”

You decided to take a break at one of the nearby cafes for much needed rest. You tried your best to read him but you had difficulty guessing what he was thinking.

“So, are you having fun?” you were taken aback by his question, considering he was letting you take him around town to all the places you wanted to visit.

“Of course I am! The weather is wonderful today too.” You took a bite of your desert, hoping to successfully bury your worries where he couldn’t see them.

“I can tell when something is bothering you, you know.” It didn’t seem to fool him. You sighed before reaching out to cover his hand with yours.

“I just want you to enjoy today too. This is your day off, we should be doing something you enjoy.” He squeezed your hand, his smile not faltering.

“Seeing you having fun is more than enough joy for me.” You could tell there was something he wasn’t telling you but you decided to leave it alone, not wanting to ruin the day.

“Thanks Sirius.”

By the time you returned to headquarters the sun had set and both of you were exhausted. After a quick shower you found Sirius outside, carefully inspecting a batch of purple and white flowers in the garden.

“What’s that one?” You stand next to him, wrapping your overcoat tighter around yourself.

“Night Phlox. They’ve almost bloomed. They have a very strong but pleasant smell when you plant many of them near each other.” He smiled, wrapping his arms around you, shielding you from the cold.

“What do they mean?”

“They can mean all sorts of things, but the most widely accepted meaning is partnership, harmony and unity. Pretty spot on for the black army, don’t you think?’ you smiled, enjoying listening to him talk about something with such care.

“Yeah.” The sound of the wind against the leaves was the only thing breaking the silence until you spoke up.

“Hey Sirius, why were you so intent on making today all about me?” there was no accusation in your voice, a simple question spoken under the night sky, a time where people can be honest, without hiding their troubles.

“We spend a lot of time at headquarters because of my job, doing things that I’m comfortable with. I just wanted to spend a day bonding over something you enjoy doing.” He tightened your arms around him, placing a quick kiss on his lips.

“You know I love spending time with you, no matter what we’re doing.”

“And I love seeing you happy.” Your eyes locked and an overwhelming feeling of joy spread through you.

“I love you.”

“I love you too.”

Prompt: Cinderella AU

It was becoming increasingly difficult to mask your disdain as ambitious men reached out every few minutes, attempting to make conversation. You could offer them more than a smile and a kind word, knowing that everyone there had an ulterior motive.

“An organized ball where the goal is to woo me isn’t exactly a romantic story now isn’t it?” you didn’t want to deny your father’s wishes, knowing there was pressure as he grew older for you to find a husband, but it was still hard to accept that you would never have the chance to live a fairytale-love story, like those you read about in books.

“What you need is a secure future. This is for your own good.”

You knew that if you were to achieve that goal, you would need to interact with the men at the ball, but the context of the celebration made hard to relax, let alone do so in a room full of people.

“Daughter, this is a ball. Should you not be dancing?” your father’s voice was full of concern, despite his previous incitement.

“Yes, I will do that, father.” Not wanting to upset him, you smiled before setting off towards the middle of the room as the band started playing a quick valse. You looked around for a partner when you felt strong arms around, pulling you along with the other dancers.

“I’m sorry if that was out of line, you looked a little lost.” When you looked up to see the face of your partner, your words died in your throat. He stood quite a bit taller than you and his eyes were a deep shade of purple, unlike anything you had seen before.

“U-um, yeah.” You tried not to forget the steps as the two of you moved along, not wanting to make a fool of yourself, tripping over your skirts.

“So, how come the princess herself finds a moment alone during a ball in her honor?” despite his teasing words, you could tell he felt out of place in the crowded room.

“I’m not sure I’d consider this an honor… “ concern imideately painted his features but you didn’t want to bother a guest with your own issue.

“So, where are you from? I don’t believe we have met before.” You run a mental list of acquaintances from the local noble houses but you didn’t remember seeing him before.

“I’m… “ his voice trailed off, leaving you with many burning questions.

“I’m Sirius, Sirius Oswald.” He smiled, the uncertainty from moments before replaced with a warm smile.

“It’s a pleasure to meet you.” You smiled at him, deciding not to pressure him for answers he didn’t want to give.

“You never answered my question” he spun you as the music sped up, taking you by surprise.

“You didn’t answer mine either.” A playful smile played on your lips.

“I suppose I can’t deny that.” Through the bur around you, you could see that the rest of the couple had left the dance floor, placing the two of at the center of the attention.

“Everyone is looking at us.” A faint blush appeared on your cheeks a you danced together.

“They are looking at you.” He smiled at you, his grip on your waist tightening.

“Are you ready?”

“For what?”

Before you could question him further, you were in the air, your dress spinning around you. Time seemed to slow down, a feeling of freedom flowing through you. From your position you could see the faces of the party-goers but in that moment it didn’t matter. It was just you and him, a scene right out of a fairytale.

When he set you down, your cheeks were flushed, heart pounding in your chest. You barely registered the music slowly fading away as they switched to a softer sound.

“Thank you for the dance.” His hand left yours, while his warmth sill lingered.

“My lady.’ He bowed before turning to leave.

“Wait! Could I see you again?” you resisted the urge to grab his hand, not wanting to make a scene.

“I’m not sure that would be the best idea.” You tried to speak up but your voice was drowned out by the surrounding noise, so you could only watch as he moved further and further away, before eventually disappearing in the crowd, leaving you alone, with only a brief memory to look back to.

Rumors of the charming man who danced with the princess could be heard all around town during the next few days. You tried to keep your head low as you walked around the stalls, looks for the right shop.

When you opened the door, a bell sounded, announcing your arrival.

“Hello. How could I help you?” A tall man stood at the back of the room, watering a patch of white flowers. You looked around the room to ensure you were alone before removing your hood, still unsure of whether this was a good idea.

“P-princess.” He fell into a quick bow, not daring to look at you.

“Hello Mr. Oswald.” He hesitantly raised his head, looking over the cloak covering your dress.

“Just call me Sirius. How did you find me?” an awkward smile appeared on his lips.

“I told you I wanted to see you again. Plus, after you told me your name, it wasn't very hard to find you.” You stepped closer, looking at the assortment of flowers around you.

“So this is where you’re from.” You were only teasing, but he seemed to have misunderstood.

“I’m sorry to disappoint you. I wanted to keep up the illusion but the you came here and..” you were taken aback by his genuine apology.

“N-no, I’m not disappointed!.”

“You aren’t?” You nodded, trying to express your feelings as best you could.

“No, I’m not. Why would I be?’ he run a hand through his hair, messing it up more than before.

“I’m just a commoner. And you’re a princess. There is no reason for you to be interested…” you shook your head firmly.

“I didn’t want to meet you again because I thought you were a noble. I just... I want to feel what I felt when we danced together again.” You were expecting him to laugh at you, but he only looked back in awe.

“W-was that odd? I apologize, I just-“ he didn’t allow you to finish.

“No! It’d not off, I’m just… surprised. I don’t have much to offer to a princess.” he fidgeted with the hem of his apron, eyes glued to the ground.

“Could you perhaps offer me some of your time? I would like to get to know you better.” A smile slowly formed on his face.

“Alright then. Who am I to say no to the princess after all?”

“Thank you.” You smiled at each other, excited to see where this would lead you.

You spent a lot of time together after that, slowly getting to know more about each other. When you introduced him to your father, he was admittedly hesitant at the idea of you not marrying a noble, but when he saw how happy the two of you were together, he couldn’t deny you your wishes.

“You have my blessing. You better take care of my daughter young man.”

“Always, sir. I love your daughter more than anything.” He placed a kiss on you hand, a promise of greater things to come.

“And I you.” Happiness overflowed you as your lips met in a light kiss, sealing the truth of your words.

[vergilboyfriend]

You should do all of them questions and 90 is true

I love you!!!!

1. Favorite instrument?

I work at a music store u can’t just ask me this. When my coworkers play it’s the saxophone or the flute, when the boys in the repair shop are testing repairs and they harmonize with each other or try to outplay one another it’s the bassoon or the trombone or whatever they’re fixing at the moment. When I hear 🎺 give his lesson on Wednesday afternoons it’s the trumpet, and when I think about middle school it’s the clarinet, the flute, the French horn. When I hear the nutcracker pas des deux is the oboe and when I hear edith piaf l’accordeoniste it’s the remarkable human voice. Really my favorite instrument is all of them, it just depends.

2. Favorite fic trope? Mutual pining 🥺

3. Sport you played for the longest amount of time? LMAO I wasn’t a sporty kid but I did ballet

4. Shoe size? 10-11

5. Most recent (good) dream? Uhh I had a dream last night about my coworker 🎹 it wasn’t bad though I can’t really remember what it was about

6. Last person in your DMs? smugg

7. Can you do a handstand? Nooo nooo lmaoo nooooo

8. Unpopular food opinion I don’t like oranges or red meat

9. Conspiracy you believe in? There’s some kind of weird weather dome in my hometown around the military base that makes most storms pass around us

10. Is your hair its natural color/style? Most of it is I dyed the bottom layer of my hair tho so it’s blonde rn

11. state a useless fact all that’s coming to mind is outright lies rn hold on. The inventor of pringles is buried in a pringles can that’s so fucking nasty omg

12. most interesting gossip you’ve heard? Idk I don’t really care for gossip uhhhh have u heard tho rin dippindogs is a huge gay hah she uhh she like men AND women lmao gaaay gaaaay

13. Middle name? Carolyn

14. Sexuality? Bisexual

15. Amount of sleep you got last night? Idk actually I think like 9-10 hrs tho I slept in until 11

16. Opinion on ice cream cake? Tasty!!!

17. Opinion on (cup)cake frosting? It’s depends buttercream is usually too sweet for me in large amounts so I prefer whipped cream frosting

18. Last board game you played? Idk??? We played hunt a killer tho last Thursday me n my family I guess that counts kinda

19. Project you want to start? I need ideas first baby

20. Project you’re working on right now? HAHAHAHAHAHA

21. TV show you’re watching? nothing rn I just rewatch bojack a lot if I watch anything

22. Last movie you watched? Lego batman I think

23. Ever left anon hate? Not legit hate

24. Ever left anon love? Yes all the time. Sometimes to strangers it’s my favorite thing to do

25. Best Disney movie? The princess and the frog

26. Best Pixar movie? Soul or Up I can’t decide

27. Best Star Wars? Um. Empire strikes back

28. Last thing you consumed? Fuit gumy

29. NoTP? Idk I don’t really hate ships unless they’re gross like pedophilic gross

30. story behind your (nick)name? When I was a fetus my great grandfather had a dream that my name should be Carolyn Marie but my parents were huge dweebs so they named me Marina after the actress of Deanna Troi in Star Trek. Idk about my nickname ive just always been Rina/Rin as long as I can remember

31. ice cream order? Lately it’s lemon sorbetto I know it’s SO high in sugar but I love it

32. describe your blog in <5 words I love you

33. how many blogs do you follow? 436

34. Describe your voice it depends usually I sound like a sick child but my customer service voice is really pleasant

35. Describe your smile it’s cute :)

36. What is the place you live known for? LMAOOO LMAO we have a military base nearby and like. I could go on abt that one but also like. There’s a lot of gang violence and a lot of the other consequences of poverty. People from the cities around us see us as “””ghetto””” or violent but it’s just. It’s more than that it’s always more than that. And idk what else there’s nothing really particularly special about this town except that we’re all here and not anywhere else

37. What is the place you’re originally from known for? (if they’re different)

38. pronouns? she/any idc

39. Languages you speak? English

40. first friend you made through tumblr? Idk. I probably don’t talk to them anymore :(

41. Person on tumblr you know in real life? my brother

42. First dog breed you think of shih tzu I have 2 next to me rn

43. room wall color? Purble!!!! The paint color is called grape juice that’s why I picked it!!!

44. Song that’s stuck in your head right now? It’s tricky to rock a rhyme to rock a rhyme that’s right on time it’s trickyyyyy

45. Favorite number? 5, 34

46. Color you associate with your name? Red

47. Favorite jolly rancher flavor?watermelon

48. Pets? 2 dogs rocket and groot and 4 cats loki danni who r from the same litter and we raised from kittens, miss kitty who we adopted from a shelter after my boy blue moon passed away and ben (his real name is Kylo Ren thanks to my mom but I refuse to call him that) he is my little baby and he has 7 toes on his front paws

49. Collections? Hot wheels

50. Character outside of your fandom you’d marry? Girl what lmaooo idk

51. Character outside of your fandom you’d kill? That’s mean :(

52. Have you met any celebrities? NO thank god id have to kill on sight

53. Favorite time period in history? Itslian Renaissance & Romantic Era

54. What time is it right now? 2:35 am oops

55. History or future? Future but like . A good one. Or prehistory

56. Space or ocean? Space

57. Fears? Abandonment

58. Command + v and post. It’s this list of questions u don’t want that

59. Favorite season? Spring

60. Describe your aesthetic. Messy just a mess, neon and old buildings and things, antiques, countryside if there weren’t so many trump pence flags still lmaoo give uppp give up, nature just al of nature and space and places humans can’t touch and places they used to touch but can’t anymore

61. MBTI? Infp but I haven’t taken it in a few years

62. What’s your relationship with your family like? Normal.

63. “Biggest fan” in your tumblr activity? I’m in mobile hold on acc to tumblr it’s akky

64. Favorite musical? Sweeney todd

65. Comfort book? Idk how to read 💔💔💔 wuthering heights tho

66. Comfort movie? Whisper of the heart

67. OTP? Girl idk

68. BroTP? Joey and Tristan yugioh

69. AUs or canon compliant? Canon ig idk

70. Opinion on the person who’s sending the ask? It’s an anon!! But I love them

71. FMK + 3 characters anon didnt leave any characters and I was going to say something very bad but I won’t

72. Dream date? I’ve wanted to do this for a while but ideally it would be after we’d been together a while maybe even engaged or whatever, I wanna go to like a Home Depot or a furniture store and pretend to be married and looking for house paints and furniture and plan what our home is going to look like I wanna do that so bad. But idk for a first/early relationship date i really want to go to the zilker botanical garden it’s one of my favorite places, we could also go to the natural gardener which is a plant nursery in Austin I really love it there too and it’s not that far from zilker.

73. Relationship status? Single

74. Ever dyed your hair? Do you plan to? Yes and perhaps. Maybe

75. Dream job/career? Idk anymore I used to have big girl goals and I haven’t had any in a while. But when I was younger I wanted to be a game warden

76. Favorite band/singer? Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky

77. Something that makes you soft/that you find adorable? My cats

78. The first thing you would do if you won the lottery? Buy a house

79. Are you superstitious? Yes

80. Character you project onto? Shizuku tsukishima

81. Fictional character you’ve had a crush on? Vergil devil may cry. Forever husband

82. Celebrity crush? LMAO

83. Person on here you’d date? my mutuals

84. Person on here you’d marry? 🥺 my mutuals

85. Person on here you’d throw into the void? Smugg

86. Other social media you have? I’ve got a photography insta that I barely use and a Twitter that’s just nintendo switch screenies that’s it

87. Finish the sentence: Due to personal reasons, ___________i will be passing away

88. Bad habit? I find it rlly hard to say no or like to say when and why I’m upset I don’t feel like for the latter I don’t feel like I should bring something that’s upsetting me up because I know I’ll get over it on my own and I don’t really trust myself to be upset about rational things. Idk I’m working on it

89. Three things you like about yourself? I’m hot, I’m kind, I’m resilient

90. Ily and you deserve the world I love you!!!!! YOU deserve it too!!!

[completeotometrash]

Matchup

@Nad-zeta

Hi hi love! Im so excited your doing matchups 😆😆😆❤ so i hope this is not ganna be TMI but here we go😆🔥

❤can i pretty please request an ikesen matchup🥰 i am a aries, infp, Hufflepuff female 🦊 i am shy and difficult to get to know (apparently it took me 2 months to start opening up to my friends, ooops), i tend to bottle up my emotions, my friends would likely describe me as incredibly stubborn, gentle, kind, over dramatic, goofy and fun loving. I am pretty aloof and blunt, i like i will 9/10 times tell you to your face how if feel about you if you ask 🙈once u are part of my inner circle i am playful, teasing, i am an extremely sarcastic person that makes snarky remarks under my breath and my kind of humor is a bit of dark and self deprecating.😂 I love my friends and family and will fight anyone how threatens them, although when it comes to me you can do or say anything to me and i wont do anything (I honestly cant stand up for myself). I swear like a sailor although i am trying to get that under control, however the road rage is real.

i love nature and animals (i love my lil bunnies and dogs), i love working out/going to the gym #gym is life 😂

i enjoy cooking (i am now officially a chef), wine tasting (fancy way of saying getting very tipsy of different wines most nights), spending time with friends (especially if there is tea to be spilt) although i do need lots of alone time to recharge my social battery, i like conspiracies, workingout/gym, reading, writing (Fanfics and im busy with my Masters in nutrition >“<), romcoms, and  sleeping. As much as i love spending time outdoor i also enjoy lazing around the house being a lazy potato. I definitely zone out and daydream all the freaken time

I tend to blush easily which i hate 🙈 My face will give away what i am thinking. i enjoy my own alone time and i definitely dont like crowds and loud sounds (ie you will never find me in a club). I am a picky eater despite my degree in cooking (i basically only eat candy, carbs and protein), i love cuddles although i look like someone that wouldn’t. Ive been told i come across as calm and confident, while in truth on the inside i am really scared and insecure.  I am incredibly awkward when it comes to boys and have been told my sarcastic comments are x100 when i talk to them (oops).

I am very go with the flow, and i never burn my bridges 🙈 i am very forgive and forget🦊, like no matter how badly you hurt me.

🙈 Thanx so much dear ❤ Sorry if this is TMI🔥Cant wait to see who i get matched with 🌈🎀

...............

Thanks for the request, Darling! I love how descriptive you were. Thank you so much <3. I couldn’t but chuckle about how much we have in common :). I hope you enjoy!

When I read everything you said about yourself, there were so many options to match you with. But, the one I believe stood out the most to me as the most compatible, is Mitsuhide Akecki.

I strongly believe this is your perfect match. For starters, one of the key things that stood out to me with your personality was how you express your emotions. It’s definitely no secret that Mitsuhide enjoys getting any strong reaction to his constant teasing. He lives for it. (Prepare yourself for randomly getting messed with at any time). it’s just how he shows his affection for you. He finds amusement how incredibly blunt you are, being quite contrary to his own secretive ways. (At times you don’t sick up for yourself, he would become your backbone and step in.) 

 Much like you, he also has an amazing sense of humor. Sharing sarcastic remarks, or even competing to see who can come up with the best ones would be very common. (Your darker jokes amaze him.) Potty mouth? Hilarious. Drives Hideyoshi crazy so he encourages it. It’s really nothing new to him considering the people he interrogates, and of course, Masamune.

Your kindness makes him feel much lighter. But guilty at the same time, believing he’s tainted you. (He too, secretly gets insecure, so on both side assurance is needed). With you being so selfless, this also makes him feel the need to protect you at all costs, and to be sure your still taking care of yourself, He tries his best to keep you happy, LOVES making you laugh. It’s like music to his ears.

You being creative and intelligent is a huge plus for him! If you would let him, he’d teach you a lot about ancient Japan’s history. He greatly enjoys it, and in this time he would talk to you about and listen to your conspiracy theories. (Has a few of his own he would suggest.) Two incredibly brilliant minds, and not to mention, a genius power couple. 

As he doesn’t acquire a sense of taste, he would still support you and your culinary career. Eating any dish you place in front of him. Would most likely ask slyly Masamune for advice in that field.

He thinks of working out very beneficial, so letting you train with him if you desire or even sitting back and watching you brings him satisfaction. Will give tips to improve your skills. A nice run outside is always refreshing.

The only con I can see is maybe he would go too far with his teasing on occasion, and release some built up rage. But he knows to give you some space and to stay calm. (He will always apologize and diel it down for a while after that.)

Other good possible Matches: Masamune, Shingen, Nobunaga, and Mitsunari.

[koushisun]

hi! could i get a bnha student and haikyuu matchup (if u can only do 1 thats okay) im a bi girl with a very all over the place personality. im pretty intense and quiet when i first get to know people but once i open up and get comfortable im very talkative and like making jokes. im an infp scorpio. my hobbies r watching tv, reading, and working out. im a very loyal person and care about my friends and family a lot and i absolutely hate liars/fake people. in a relationship i like being equals with my partner like where we both take care of each other. i also like a partner that is okay with me going back and forth between wanting attention and wanting to be alone LMAO thank you❤️

hi!! sorry for the long wait! hope you like your match up! <3

I match you with... Wakatoshi Ushijima!

I think this would be a really sweet match!

Ushijima is also a pretty intense and quiet guy, so he gets it. He doesn’t get intimidated or scared off in the slightest!

He would probably also introduce you to Tendou, and y’all would hang out together!

He is a man of few words, but he could listen to you talk for ages! He does his best to make sure you know he’s interested in what you’re talking about, even if he doesn’t know much about it!

Ushi is nothing if not sincere. You never have to worry about him lying or being disingenuous, he says what he means! Honestly, he can be a bit blunt sometimes; he just doesn’t know how to not speak his mind. 

That being said, he is never intentionally malicious or mean! He cares about others and values their friendship, he just doesn’t really sugarcoat things, I guess.

Overall, Ushijima never leaves you guessing. You will always know that you mean the world to him! He’s a good guy who is willing to put effort into all his relationships, especially the special one you two have :)

Alternate Match: Kiyoomi Sakusa!

I match you with... Eijirou Kirishima!

I think Kiri would be a good match for you!

He’s able to get along with just about everyone, and you are no exception!

Honestly, Kiri probably expected to have a relationship more along the lines of what he has with Bakugou, but was pleasantly surprised when you opened up! He loves to chat and joke around with you!

He really likes dad jokes, so be ready for some terrible puns lmao

Kirishima really loves your loyalty and dedication to those you love. He is really loyal himself; he would do anything for the people he cares about! So it’s really important to him that you also care for others

He’s a really respectful guy and is very considerate of your boundaries, so if you want to be alone, he’ll give you space! Though he does love giving you attention lmao

(Also he would definitely be your work out buddy!!!)

Overall, he sees so many good qualities in you, and he loves being around you! <3

Alternate Match: Ochako Uraraka!

[kopikokun]

Hi! Can I get a ship? Im shy at first - unless u meet me arnd my best friends, but im always awkward. im creative (photos/vids) and can overwork myself. my friends call me caring&a therapist but they also say im the maknae that everyone has a soft spot for. they also say im too kind for my own good. im quite affectionate. im introverted and hate large crowds, but love long walks and dogs. i prioritize my friends happiness over mine. i like to think im funny but idk.:) I’m an infp-t and a cancer

— :: 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩 𝐫𝐞𝐪𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐂𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐄𝐃.

Hey, sweetpea! I have a soft spot for cancers since my best friend’s one, and you sound so cute 🥺 I think you’d be best suited with Jeno!

»» ──────　[*:. ☁︎ .:*]　────── ««

— GETTING TO KNOW LEE JENO.

Surprise, surprise, Jeno is a—you guessed it—introvert.

Although he likes being around others, he prefers quiet time to himself.

It was a bit hard for you two to become close, given both you and Jeno’s naturally shy nature. Fortunately—for both you and him—Jaemin, Haechan and Chenle’s extroverted and subconsciously loud personalities manage to always push the two of you together.

Oddly, you guys bond well despite it being slightly awkward the first few times you two talked.

But maybe, that’s why you two get along so well. Both of you are pretty chill and discreet. You try not to bring too much attention to yourselves and prefer quiet surroundings.

Jeno truly gets that soft, cute vibe from you. You’re soft spoken, but you still have a humorous side to you. You’re kind and tend to kep to yourself, and Jeno just wants to be the person you can confide in.

He always notices how you put the other member’s needs before yourself, his included. When you guys get pizza, you’re the one to tend to everyone and make sure that they all have plates and when Haechan’s eyes dart around for a napkin, you’re the one to stand up and get one for him.

That’s why Jeno will be the one who makes sure you get everything as well. He’ll offer to refill your water when you’re out, he’ll cut out a slice for you if you want, he’ll make sure that the others will save a portion of the sides for you.

At first he just did this because he was caring for a dear friend, but since you don’t openly show when you need something, Jeno has had to observe you to find out if you do. Because of that, he finds himself staring at you more often, noticing all your cute little expressions and gestures, seeing your face brighten as a smile tugs at your lips.

What started out as just looking out for you has turned into romantic feelings. Now, even when you guys aren’t eating pizza or having a movie night, Jeno finds that he’s sneaking unnecessary glances at you way too often for it just to be looking out for you.

You catch him staring a few times but you don’t bring it up because you dismiss it as just a coincidence. But one day, he does it way too many times and for way too long for it to be just that, so you start feeling a little shy and insecure. Is there something in your teeth?

When you finally confront him about it, Jeno comes clean about his feelings for you, laughing nervously and twiddling his thumbs.

— DATING LEE JENO.

Again, Jeno is a boyfriend who is always looking out for you.

You’re very in tune with his emotions, knowing exactly when to give him a much needed kiss to lift his spirits.

So, Jeno is always eager to return the favour. He wants to care for you, because he knows you have a tendency to overwork yourself. You don’t show it, but he knows when you’re tired and just want to lay in his arms and cuddle.

Jeno will definitely stand up for you when he feels like he needs too. You’re just way too nice when your ‘friends’ give you these back handed comments and Jeno’s rage only builds and buikds as he watches you smile like it doesn’t affect you.

He won’t exactly lash out at them or start a fight, he’ll just call them out on their behaviour. He doesn’t want you to feel like he’s your knight in shining armour or anything, and he doesn’t want you to think that you owe him anything, so he usually doesn’t say everything he wants to say.

If one day you come home crying though, you better believe he’ll hunt whoever made you fele like that down.

He loves talking long walks with you, just holding your hand and talking about nothing in particular. He loves the feeling of the warm evening breeze in his hair as the Sun kisses his skin, and having you close to him makes his heart lurch.

If both of you are ready for it, he’ll definitely get you a puppy a few years into the relationship. He’ll definitely spoil your dog like crazy, talking in that voice most people use for babies.

When you show him the video you made of your relationship for your anniversary, he’ll melt on the spot. Seeing all those videos of you two together will make him tear up. Kiss those tears away and he’ll smile up at you like you’re the only person in the world.

Affection-wise, Jeno isn’t a PDA typa man. It makes both you and him tok shy to even think about. When you two go on picnics and see couples kissing on their mats, both of your faces heat up in embarrassment.

In private, is another story though. Jeno goes full on with the affection. Constantly peppering kisses all over your face. He loves kissing your cheeks and your eyelids. He’s obsessed with the way your eyelashes flutter as you giggle after he’s bombarded you with kisses.

Simps for you like crazy when you initiate intimacy.

Constantly complimenting you, telling you how pretty you are, how lucky he is to have you and how much he loves you.

Isn’t too much with nicknames. He likes to call you, baby, honey, cutie.

If you give him a nickname... he’ll go into cardiac arrest over how adorable you are.

»» ──────　[*:. ☁︎ .:*]　────── ««

— 𝐫𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐧. | 𝐫𝐮𝐥𝐞𝐬.

[surejo]

( victoria pedretti, cis woman ) hey ! have you seen JOSEPHINE “JO” CORMAC around ? SHE works at the HOT COCOA STAND at big bear resort, but they must be off their shift by now. well, if you do see them can you let me know ? they’re 24 years old & they’ve been working here for TWO YEARS. they tend to be +OPTIMISTIC & +EMPATHETIC, but can also be -IMPRACTICAL & -PASSIVE. the other employees have labeled them THE IDEALIST. thanks a lot ! ( the few nights the stars can be seen, books worn down by dog-ears and marks left throughout the years, the first crisp breeze of autumn, the duality… of t.s. eliot ) 

OK. a few notes before i get started:

1) i hope everyone loves how i literally j copied my ivan stuff. url format? ‘sure jan’ lives on. theme? too lazy to find a different one that’s easy to work with. luv that for me. 2) speaking of this theme i forget if i addressed this on ivan’s blog but tabbed bullets don’t appear tabbed.... so if anything seems like it doesn’t make total sense.... it is supposed to be tabbed™. 3) get ready for drama!!!!! you may ask yourself “but the app looks so tame! there will be no drama!” but you are wrong........ because she loves cats. the t.s. eliot book......... the musical........ even the movie.

ok jo,, is also a resurrected character,,, hence how i already kno,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, that she loves cats. anyway ! let’s begin ! (listen,,,, the intro format will at least be a little different from ivan’s ok im evolving)

QUICK FACTS:

full name: josephine “jo” rose cormac

date of birth: march 6, 1995

*does not perfectly reflect the below big three zodiac chart because that’s too much math

zodiac big three: pisces sun, gemini moon, cancer rising

gender & pronouns: cis woman & she/her

sexual orientation: bisexual ( preference for women bc we luv that for her but we also luv leaving things open to chemistry )

education: bachelor in english - literature that she is doing nothing with

enneagram: 2w1

mbti: infp

various inspirations: eleanor crain ( the haunting of hill house ), dolores price *as a child and towards the end of the book ( she’s come undone ), fox 8 ( fox 8: a story ), “why try to change me now?” - fiona apple (cover), “be still” - the killers

BACKGROUND INFO:

triggers: verbal/mental/emotional abuse/gaslighting, very slight implication of spousal abuse, brief mention of car accident/death & drowning

( ivan and jo’s breakout pop-punk single: “fuck happy backstories!” stream it on spotify ! )

jo......... was born into the wrong family, let’s get that out of the way.

it was pretty clear she was a ploy to save the marriage of her parents ( who have names: lucy and benjamin, luv that for them ). it didn’t seem like they’d ever picked up a parenting book, gone to a parenting class, rly prepped for being a parent at all...... in their entire lives.

that being said, her mom was actually decent at parenting. her major flaw, though? ok, so you know how kids usually have that one bedtime story that they love and want it to be read to them over and over? well lucy complied ! but y’all wanna know what that book was ?

t.s. eliot’s “old possum’s book of practical cats” whfeiuldjkn

anyway ! when jo was seven, after many failed attempts and simple threats, her mom was finally divorcing benjamin for realz. due to his volatile nature, it was becoming very clear that she was the more fit parent and she almost got sole custody ( the only reason benjamin was motivated for it in the first place was the power so?? )! how exciting!

but the keyword is ‘almost’!

alexa, play ‘my heart will go on’ but the off-tune flute version

just as the proceedings were going through, jo’s mother was hit by a drunk driver on new year’s eve. the car skidded onto some ice, minimal damage done... then the ice broke.

jo and benjamin both devolved after that. jo withdrew more into herself and pretty much coped by..... just reading old possum’s a LOT (hate that for her). all mopey, benjamin became much less outwardly violent. the keyword is ‘outwardly.’

ya, instead of j bein like “i will just chill” he was like “i will just make my rage more subtle because in this house, we love intimidation, manipulation, hostility, the blame game, and gaslighting! uwu” managed to convince jo that her mother’s death was somehow her fault, that he was the only person she could trust, that she will never be able to live without someone else, etc., etc.

a few years in and a cycle of many impromptu sleepovers began. luv that for her. hate that for her, but luv that for her. 

there is a lot i cld talk abt here, but it all seems like it cld j be tl;dr’d as: “basically became the surrogate daughter of a bunch of other people”

as for things that r not tragique™, jo was v much a drifter when it came to friends. managed to make a fair amount bc she does not seem like she will put a tadpole in ur hand like ivan. also j a people-pleaser but that’s starting to get into her personality which is another section.

did go to college. luv that for her. has NO CLUE what she’s going to do with her degree, but she can make some really sick niche william faulkner jokes. 

began seasonally working at big bear during the winter break of her last year in college because bitch needed some money!! wound up loving it and was like “i think,,,, i will continue to do this,,,, the people here,,,, r cul,,,,”

still visits benjamin every once in a while. not a way to say that uwu you should forgive ur abusive parent(s) uwu rather that jo.... still has slight belief in him. just to end on something emo.

THE REST IS HISTORY!!!!

TL;DR:

started life out as a saddie, not a baddie. still not a baddie, but no longer as much of a saddie. loves “cats” and there is no irony to that statement. can make good niche literary jokes, but that’s about it.

PERSONALITY/MISCELLANEOUS INFO:

a child. a literal child. a child to the point that she should have supervision when she goes on grocery trips because she falls for marketing ploys so easily. can’t believe she hasn’t fallen into a pyramid scheme yet.

an absolute dumbass. again, can make some great niche william faulkner jokes, but ask her the order of the planets? “...well mars is somewhere in there.”

unironically LOVES cats - both the musical and movie. thinks jennifer hudson’s grizabella is the best. will start sharing random facts about it or old possum’s book of practical cats if she runs out of things to talk about but feels pressured to keep talking. was broken when she first read a different t.s. eliot poem and realized he was actually super dark. the only thing that got her through it was a comparison to batman :\ bruce wayne is old possum’s, batman is everything else.

to take a brief break from fun personality facts, v down on herself bc benjamin’s words rly!! stuck with her!! convinced she is an absolute idiot and does not trust her own memory. v indecisive bc of this and always longs for someone to help her figure things out. tries to distance herself from memories of her mother because, again, benjamin got to her. her love of cats doesn’t help that, but... can you believe that’s her coping mechanism? makes up for it by giving all of her love 2 everyone else!! we love tragedy!! and needing to go to therapy!!

secretly knows her love of cats is weird and dumb. a part of her knows why it’s considered one of the worst musicals ever. but LISTEN. we luv rly weird coping mechanisms!

big dreamer. will develop the most impractical goals. she usually knows they are impractical, but still..... uwu

has decided everyone is good until proven bad! except for,,,, like,,, murderers and rapists,,,,

is #StraightEdge for the most part,,,, literally has a drink maybe three times per year

says “like” a whole lot for someone who majored in english with a concentration in literature and should therefore be more eloquent.

i am not great at these sections!! feel free 2 j refer to her zodiac, personality tests, and character influences!!

literally fox 8. i put the others there bc she’s similar but wow,,,, if u read fox 8 (it’s a short story i recommend it i luv george saunders u can find a pdf online),,,, she is fox 8. 

here u go here is a sample that doesnt need context: "Fox 4 woslike: No ofense, Fox 8? Your ideas are not super praktikal. Dreem, dreem, dreem, said Fox 11. Fox 41 woslike: Fox 8, does this honestly never get old for you?"

OH ALSO. she has a slet. a cat,,,,, named asparagus,,,, whom she calls “gus”,,,,, and y’all know WHY.

recent development: has downloaded tor so she can get on the dark web. why? because she thinks there will be more funny animal videos on there. is shockingly good at navigating it.

CONNECTION IDEAS:

close friends bc we luv that –– roman (nuanced), aylie (nuanced), hazel (nuanced), cleo (nuanced), vic (nuanced), marco (nuanced)

childhood friends whom she possibly had impromptu sleepovers with bc that is v soft and,,,,, y’all i left the city blank for a reason. –– hazel, marco, 

on that note, the person who was like “wait,,,,,,, u know that book was turned into a musical right,,,,,, like,,,,, a musical literally everyone knows” and shook jo’s world

good influence / bad influence –– cleo, vic, 

~*confidant*~

roommate

exes –– ian,

reciprocated pining

unreciprocated pining

someone..... who has accepted..... that she likes cats.... in a way that is not ironic. will see the movie with her. –– aylie, 

an enemy,,,,,, aka this person was like “cats is literally the worst thing in the entire world” and now they r on jo’s very short hit list –– riley

idk!!! im also obvs up for brainstorming!!! luv that!!!

** descriptive connections page is here ( only people who i’m messaging are on it, but i ?? would love to plot w everyone ?? so don’t make the short list make u think i’m trying 2 limit it 2 these ppl auhfoeidla )

LIKE THIS OR HMU TO PLOT !

[rylie-barton]

⌜   CIS FEMALE, SHE / HER   |   the hearse by matt maeson, gryffindor, infp   ⌟    ⏤   meet RYLIE NATALIA BARTON ; a TWENTY TWO year old who kind of resembles WILLA HOLLAND, don’t you think? she originally hailed from NEW YORK CITY where she lived with her parents, CLINT BARTON & NATASHA ROMANOFF (   MARVEL   ), but word is that she’s been making strides to rejoin shield and finish her law degree this past year. she’s always been pretty AUDACIOUS & COMPASSIONATE, but has gotten way more CODEPENDENT & PRIDEFUL since she woke up. maybe her ability of WEAPON PROFICIENCY and power of INNATE COMBAT can help in taking down the dome. you can check out her stat page HERE& her pinterest board HERE.

i was a woman who thought only of dead things                                        ( all the time ). i couldn’t HELP it.

part one of two : the backstory.    (   trigger warnings for talk of death, drug / alcohol abuse.

born on july 21st, 1996, to clint barton & barbara morse. the youngest of three children, lewis and callum were five and nine respectively at the time of her birth. 

her mother and brothers died in a house fire when she was just three months old ; the files concerning the accident are blacked out and encrypted, and the story given to rylie amounts to ‘your mother went missing in action.’ 

understandably, she’s always wanted to know more ; unfortunately, she’s never had the means in which to find anything out.

raised by clint. really loved, but vaguely overprotected. ‘aunt nat’ was in her life from minute one, essentially, a shoulder for clint to lean on and a motherly presence that rylie found she craved. in time, they got married. it never felt anything but natural.

she was raised alongside the rest of the next gen ; troy banner, dan rogers, calder thorson & phoebe stark. they were and remain the closest thing to siblings that rylie has ever had, and as the youngest, she got to annoy them endlessly and still be assured that whatever may have happened down the line, they would always have her back.

as a little girl, rylie’s dreams amounted to little more than being the prima balllerina of her company. if she couldn’t be that, she would have settled for being an award winning pianist. she was a remarkably ordinary little girl, the only thing completely out of the norm about her being the fact that her father had her trained from the time she could walk to use a weapon, and her stepmother had her taught well how to fight. 

her time in school was... tough, to put it mildly. she was homeschooled at certain points, and moved around a lot for others. kids could be cruel, and rylie’s self esteem was never destined to be that good. 

rylie’s lift changing can be pinpointed as the moment that shield enlisted her, along with the rest of the next gen. she was just a LITTLE KID - playing dress up in between recitals, saving the world before she’d ever really even lived in it. they were kids trained for war. how could any of them have ever been well adjusted?

she dropped out of ballet. she stopped attending her piano lessons. the only thing that mattered was working with her team. how stupid she feels, now, to have been so caught up in trying to be an adult that she forgot to have a childhood.

her friends meant EVERYTHING to her. 

she started attending the same school as phoebe because the other girl made a strong case to clint for rylie, so she wouldn’t have to go through another year of torment. she didn’t just LOVE her. she wanted to be her. to compare to the beautiful and intelligent and utterly flawless phoebe stark was something that she always knew would be impossible, but tried to do, anyway.

troy was her BIG BROTHER. he still is. when she was scared of storms, he would stay awake and hold her through the night to help her through. they teased one another mercilessly, but at the end of the day, they always knew just how much they loved one another - it was all in good spirit, and at points, it was what both of them needed. 

daniel, the voice of reason - not just for rylie, but for everyone. she always looked up to him, both as a leader and as a friend. he made good calls. he tried to do right by everyone. it wasn’t easy to do - and looking back, rylie hates how it all rested on his shoulders when he was just a KID - but he did it anyway.

and calder...- she’s always loved him, even when it was difficult. back then, it wasn’t. he was always a stoic, but how much he loved them all was evident. he was her training partner and best friend, always present, even when he didn’t know what to say, or do. 

the five of them were like some kind of mismatched breakfast club, but no one in the world understood what it was like to grow up with heroes for parents as well as they did.

and then PHOEBE died. rylie was sixteen years old. the rest of them weren’t much older. loki attacked avengers tower while their parents were away on a mission, and she tried to protect calder ; it wasn’t anybody’s fault except loki’s that she fell that day, but they all shouldered the guilt regardless. rylie never was the same. 

in the months after, rylie tried to numb the pain, the responsibility. she couldn’t sleep, so she took pills that were meant to help. when they didn’t, she took more. the subsequent overdose was swept under the carpet, the choice to send her to wda alongside the rest of the guys their way of trying to bring some life back to her, after. it was phoebe’s dream they were living, after all. maybe being there with them would help.

believe it or not : it DIDN’T. walt disney academy was living under the threat of the darkness at the time, and rylie was one of many students who fell victim. while on a mission with shield in late 2014, she was shot ; it was a horrible event that weakened rylie more than just in her resolve, and months later, the darkness took hold. under its influence, she hurt people that she didn’t know, and she hurt one’s that she did, too. her freedom was temporary, she and many other students were taken over once more, and troy saved the day by drawing out the good ; but enough had been enough. 

rylie turned to alcohol. the rest was history. she drank to sleep. she drank to get herself through the day. she drank when she was happy, when she was achingly sad, when she was just trying to feel something. she would go on weekend benders that bled into the weeknights when the littlest inconvenience happened, and drunk, she made some truly horrible decisions with some truly terrible people. she kept hurting the people she loved. she kept ruining her relationships. it became a cycle, wash and repeat.

whatever she might have had with emmett wicks, a rock she leant on during the early darkness saga, was gone as quick as it came. rylie got too involved too quick with alexander kaligaris, with disastrous results. we know how unhealthy that particular relationship turned out. 

shield suspended her from active duty in early 2017. she was over the legal limit to drive and still thought she could go on a mission for them, and she could have gotten her whole team killed. she didn’t, but it didn’t matter. they were right to do what they did, but rylie took it personally ; she lashed out. she made bad choices. she had lost the ONLY thing she really had left. her father wanted to pull her from school to try and help, and she point blank refused. it caused a rift between them, for understandable reasons. without her dad, without her family, without many of her friends - rylie just got worse. 

in the summer of ‘17, the school suffered from an earthquake during prom. rylie took a hard fall, and the resulting head trauma damaged her eardrum. it wasn’t her father coming back to support her during the subsequent operation to try and fix it that gave rylie a wake up call. it was her pregnancy, discovered a few weeks later ; rylie always loved, and alex always left. one mistake from the two of them caused a bigger one that spooked her. rylie made the choice to have an abortion. she took control of her own life, for once, instead of allowing it spin even more out of control - and she started attending alcoholics anonymous, almost immediately after. 

part two of two : what u missed on glee.

rylie has been sober for 21 months and counting. it’s as hard for me to believe it as it is for you all, i’m sure ; but she’s been doing BETTER. she’s been back training, brushing up on some old skills that she let get rusty. she’s healthy, too, the sallow look to her skin that everyone got accustomed to long gone. to say it was easy for her, or that she didn’t have moments of doubts, would be... totally incorrect. she’s just been fighting through.

she was one more bad month away from flunking out of her law degree, the last time y’all saw her ; but she’s picked up in the past year, really knuckling down to try and catch up, for one, and do better, for another. she’s still worried that she’s going to have to do an extra year, to finish, but she’s dedicated to doing so if she’s GOTTA. 

her relationship with her father? fixed. clint has always put rylie above all else, and never would have even required the apologies she gave, really. likewise with the relationship she has with natasha. both of them forgive her for her weakness, though it’s unlikely that rylie ever will. we love on ( 1 ) girl with a guilt complex.

the one thing that ISN’T fixed is her hearing, at least not 100%. she has a loss of fifty nine db in her right ear, and that’s probably never going to change. it makes her and her father even more alike, though i’m sure clint would have rathered the similarities not be so much. 

as of right now, she’s prepping for a hearing with the board of directors at shield on whether she should be reinstated as an active agent. she’s passed all of the physicals, and she’s been in therapy for about as long as she’s been sober, working through her issues. she’s still got miles to go, but they’re certainly optimistic. rylie moved past feeling hard done by a long time ago, and now she just... wants to be a part of the agency, again, in a way where she can actually be of help. 

[oceangl1tter]

Postpone the future

future things i'm itching to write about:// - INFP and unrequited love: name a more iconic duo - past lovers as colors of my nailpolish - sappy fiction in which i write a happy ending - how many  flowers can you stuff in your mouth before you throw up and die of indigestion - new year resolutions: TBD ————————————— First glass://

" HOUSE RULES to keep in mind 1. Do not go into any other rooms except for the restroom and my room 2. Bring enough food to be finished up or you take home whatever is left. 3. Do not open my closet/drawers lol its just my clothes tf? o.O 4. Clean up after yourself.... plS/ run to the damn restroom if u feel like yAK 5. PARTY ENDS 12AM sori pplz mama/papa gots to sleep " As a result of breaking the Golden Rule, the first of rules that had been posted in advance in our private Facebook event, we have been declaratively kicked out. R sneaks in a vomit-session before embarking on our expedition to the nearest boba place that would tolerate the ruckus from 4 hobbling pairs,2 observers, other stragglers lost on the way. It's supposedly a 40 minute walk to TenRen but time doesn't exist when you're trying to stop waddling kids from veering into oncoming traffic.The ranking of most drunk to least goes like this:

S E KC Q R MR DY A M JR, V R, JS, KG

Unfortunately, those burdened with not being shit-faced have been assigned the lovely task of cleaning up spilled drinks (a fizzy coca-cola liter erupts two times, same girl, same stumble, twice the sticky), being a branch for others to hang onto, and emotionally supporting the less-fortunate drunks. 

Breaking down the Hot Mess:

S and E pour up as if the red cups in their hands are the equivalent of shot-glasses—this measurement is obviously incredibly off and perhaps the reason why one of  them surpasses their breaking point (the other will throw up the remaining Malibu/ Smirnoff in a public trashcan in Atlantic Times Square) But for now, they're hyper, happy, laughing drunks, prancing along the host's bedroom and clinging along people in their path and tearing themselves off like pinballs.

S: Everything seems to be funny. Affectionate & eerily giggly. The next moment she's crying into the host's bed, facedown, emitting ugly sobs through convulses of her body. J is at her side telling her she can't cry into the host's bed and that she'll find someone else who will make her happy, but she has to get up first. She replies with," FUCK HIM!! I NEED HIM! HE MADE ME HAPPY!" This must've been inevitable. Don't drink in the same room with your ex. Another moment, she's pounding on the bathroom door because she has to pee. We broke the first rule. The host's mom comes out of her room later to see what the commotion is all about. She enters the room. Girl on bed, facedown, crying. Guy talking her down. R, taking a lazy nap on the side. Me, standing up with tissues stained coke-brown, red-faced, with my dumb nosering on looking into the eyes of someone that has known me since I was 10. She's on the phone and looks around the room. Concern or anger? I can't tell. I say in Cantonese that everything is fine. She is fine. I don't know how to say "she's not drunk! ! she's heartbroken" but the smell of the room betrays any statement. Kick-out ensues. 

E: This happened last time and she always proclaims the day after: "I wasn't that drunk!" The girl has lost all principles of momentum and flops on people's shoulders, anchoring her arm around necks. She drinks the same amount as S + the leftover bottle of Malibu. Her layer of introversion is gone as she lunges around the room with cup in hand. On our way to boba in the dark, she strides in zig zags with confident, imprecise steps. R runs after her. 

KC: Her original state is a high-pitched buzz of energy and it seems like alcohol multiplies that tenfold. She whacks S's left eye with her hand on accident. E whacks S's right eye with her foot on accident. She calls E fat and then apologizes. Later, she cries because she is sad. She loves everyone. She loves you. She loves her friends. She loves everyone, especially you. S, E, and KC are trio drunks. KC and I started out next to eachother drinking Calpico. I can't pinpoint when the trajectory split.

Q: She is a flirty, artificial drunk and at this point I'm over it. I saw the same thing unfold in Berkeley except with her boyfriend added into the equation. Not fun. Everyone else ignores her. She lays on the bed texting him.

R: R is a sleepy-drunk and he's knocked out first. I'm not sure how he was able to sleep through the loud singing of the national anthem and random indian music someone put on. I tell wide-eyed observers that this is signs of an alcoholic in the making. He pets S's hair as she cries into neatly folded blankets. On our way to boba I've been tasked with handling his inhibition. I am his crutch for the first half. The second half he is pushing me in an abandoned shopping cart and topples it over a bump in the sidewalk. My backpack, thankfully, protects my head from cracking open like an egg. Later on he grips my balled up hand and tries to unfold my fingers forcefully as if he could peel them out of the curled fist position. His hands feel like demands instead of sheepish drunk maneuvers. They don't feel sweaty but they're not warm either. We can't do this. I am shaking my head and curling my mid-sentences up as if I were scolding some dog. I don't let anyone hold my hand! Not even my mom! I say matter-of-factly. After wrestling it for a few moments he gives up.

New Years pt.1 / 11-12:// —————— J KM A S Q D KC R MR KG

New Years I had decided that I was sick of cleaning up after sick people and decided that it was up to me to be the agent of my own shitface-ness.  I arrive an hour before countdown. Early enough to not be missing out on the fun but late enough to have enough of it. I hadn't gone to this point before of not being able to coordinate the joints in my legs and how they are supposed to move together. I feel like a mannequin moving the different wooden blocks of my body. My cruise through the living room is stop-motion movement at 6 frames per second. I ask KG if that means I have meningitis and if that means I will die because I heard from my sister some girl when she was in highschool shared drinks, caught some virus and forgot how to walk afterwards. I took the shots and I also took shots, so do these shots cancel out?? My heart is beating so fast? Will I die? These are fleeting worries as I engage in a heavily regulated sequence of sitting on the floor, mulling on my phone, and sashaying across MR's house to the beat of the music with a cup of water and Soju in my hands for optimal simultaneous intake. I love MR's floor. I could have a ball in here. Loopy thoughts in my head spill out of my drink. I love that drunk words and actions never mean anything. I'm seated next to D in the kitchen under dim lights when I blurt out that I hate f***ots. I'm laughing and laughing and Laughing and Sipping on my Cup. D laughs along in shock and tells me to stop. I lazily say I must be projecting.

Some in-betweeners: (11) I stop KP and KC from having their New Years Kiss because we are NOT changing teams right now while drunk and/or heartbroken and I slice their SIN with my hands. Checkmate, athiests. 

(11 1/2) 

(12) J envelopes me in a big bear hug he has a knack for doing and I don't understand why he is hugging me when he does not even know me. I'm being consoled as I empty my lungs in gasping heaves. I've been made physically immobile at this point and I don't feel like squeaming out from this embrace like I would usually do. It's more of a crumple. D hovers over us. Sons! Sneezed out of her nose! We do a family hug. It's a comforting one. I shake hands with J in a marriage pact that if in 40 years we still haven't found The One we would just call it a day and get married. D wants to join in, but I tell him I'm not down for threesomes. Letalone incestuous ones. I don't think it will happen but in case it does, it wouldn't hurt to fall back on history. 

He tells me a few more things:

The money he spent, the Blitzcrank plush that he ordered that never came in the mail and was too shy to ask for a replacement.

The middle school cringey rejection song sent to him played on repeat as he ran laps to get swol to win the hearts of others and move on https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W9A52UWmmrE ; The cliche line about learning to love yourself before you love someone else and his backburner recognition that the song I sent that apparently "changed his life" like a cop-out of some manic pixie dream girl concept, might not have been for him. Bingo.

The $5 bill he snuck under one of my frontyard rocks because he thought I was broke. He asks if I ever got it. No I did not, but thanks.

My tumblr he tried to find and couldn't; the one Samantha told him I had but wouldn't give him unless they went out together.

(1) Later that night I'm limping J back to his house as he spits out foams of champagne out of his mouth. M kicks him out of his house because he's done with his shit that he dumps on others—shit that he brought about himself. (2)   (3) (4) —————————————————————————————————-

[notanotherinfjblog]

The types as strangers I wish I had known (version 2)

After I made one post like this already and really enjoyed doing that, have another group of 16 people none of us will ever know.

INTJ: I’ve had several classes with her over the last two years, but we’ve never had an actual conversation. Usually, I see her sit across the room (the tables build a U-form, so you can look everyone in the eye), watching people. What makes her interesting is the way she watches them. She sits there, kind of aloof, and doesn’t move a bit, but her eyes have this intensity whenever she lays them on someone. She listens intently to everything and you can really see the gear-wheels working in her brain as she processes all this information, until she speaks up and suddenly everyone goes quiet. She has this kind of confidence you only get when you really know yourself, and since people often fear people that know themselves, it makes her a bit intimidating.

INTP: I was stuck on a ship that was, for whatever reason, overcrowded with elderly people and there was this one old married couple that somehow stood out. Of all the many people, they seemed the happiest. When she was walking around the ship, I saw him sitting there alone at his table, with his bushy eyebrows slightly raised and a little smile on his face as he was drifting off in his thoughts. I could see him jumping from thought to thought, from memory to memory, and I wondered what he might have been thinking about that made his face beam with wonder and fascination. And then, when his wife came back to him, he returned from his mind palace, and his whole face lit up as he smiled at her. She sat down across from him and smiled back. Slowly, she reached for his hand on the table and he took it, and both of them lost themselves in their own thoughts which seemed to be the same anyway.

ENTJ: I saw her in one of my free periods at university, where she was sitting a few tables over with her boyfriend when an acquaintance of her suddenly came over and sat down. You could see how she wasn’t exactly pleased about it, but she was polite and talked to her - when she got the chance to, her acquaintance talked one hell of a lot. So, while her acquaintance kept talking and I kept watching them, her eyes wandered around the room. And when her gaze reached me, when she looked at me looking at them, I just felt so judged that I quickly looked away. There was this kind of natural authority in her, she radiated it so that, in a way, you felt obliged to bow down to her like you would bow down to your queen. Other than me, her acquaintance wasn’t as impressed by her though. Well, until she interrupted her acquaintance’s talking with a “sorry, we gotta go”, grabbed her boyfriend’s arm and just took off. (I would also like to mention that she was taller than her boyfriend because I applaud everyone that doesn’t follow such pointless gender stereotypes. Good on you. You go, girl!)

ENTP: He is a guy in one of my classes at university and he’s just so interesting to observe. He’s older than most of us, sometimes mentions the way his little daughter speaks, growing up as a Syrian child in a German speaking country, when he wants to emphasize a point (we study linguistics), and most of the time, he is just so desperate to talk. It’s a field investigation class where we work with a native speaker of a yet unexplored language to develop a grammar, and he is in a constant state of dying when he wants to ask our informant a thousand questions, but our professor tells him to wait a bit. Occasionally, he talks over him with the words “I’m really sorry, but this just cannot wait” and asks the question anyway. He always has a theory on how this might work and how that might work and how these twenty mechanisms might be correlated and his mind seems to be constantly buzzing with new thoughts and ideas. He’s probably one of the most enthusiastic and intelligent people I’ve ever come across. And then, he says thank you for every little thing anyone says and does. He says thank you when you asked a good question he didn’t come up with himself, and this state of mind is so beautiful that I always just want to go give him a hug for being this awesome.

INFJ: Sometimes I look her in the eye and I wonder who she is. She is me, but somehow she isn’t. I don’t know how that can be. I smile at her and she smiles back. I try to laugh and she does, too. I feel like she knows me, but why don’t I know her? Why is it so hard to get my head around the fact that the blank face I look at, the blank face I look at every time I look in the mirror - is mine? I look at the little strand of hair that just keeps falling across my forehead, at these cheekbones that for some reason get sharper every day and at the freckles that never seem to fade away. I look at those piercing eyes and I wonder who the people see in me.

INFP: It was a sunny August afternoon and I was melting in my car as if the sun had decided to burn as all alive. The traffic lights turned red and I stopped and kept melting and wondered if you can die of a sunshine overdose. Then, another car stopped behind me, and I decided to observe the driver in the rearview mirror. He was in his 40s, probably, and his curly hair had already turned grey. I looked at him and saw how he shook his head in disbelief. He laughed and shook his head and I wondered what just happened. Did he embarrass himself and he can’t believe it? Did he finally do something he never thought he’d actually do? Did someone confess their undying love for him and now, he’s so happy he can’t believe it? I still wonder about it sometimes, about what might have been the reason that he giggled with his eyes closed and his head shaken in disbelief, and I wonder if he is happy now. 

ENFJ: I was in a restaurant in Luxembourg on a beautiful summer evening when I saw her sitting at this table over there with two other people. They spoke broken English with each other and she had some kind of South East Asian accent, but I can’t be sure. And I saw here sitting there in this chair with the giant backrest that made her look so small while her upright posture and her gentle smile made her appear so grand. She was the centre of attention, of course she was. But I don’t think she knew. Her work acquaintances, I assume, who didn’t know each other that well, kept looking at her, kept waiting for her reaction on their little jokes and anecdotes, kept waiting for appreciation and approval. They looked at her like a child would after it drew a picture for their mother and is anxiously expecting her praise. And she smiled at both of them, listened intently to everything they had to say, covered her mouth with a hand when she giggled and looked from one to the other to share her joy. She was a pure and kind soul, someone with a heart as big as the entire country, genuinely good and free, and I really wished I could have known her.

ENFP: When I first saw him, when I first saw the way he stood in front of me on the train and glanced back at me before he got out, I didn’t know how desperately I could want to see someone again. When I saw him for the second time, when we stood across from each other on the train with a mere meter of unspoken thoughts between us, and looked each other in the eye for a while until he couldn’t take it anymore and looked at the ground and then looked right back up at me again, I didn’t know that it was possible to feel vulnerable and thoroughly happy all at once. When I spotted him on a crowded train for the third time, when I saw him standing there with his blonde hair oozing out from under his bobble hat, I was sure that I had never seen anything as beautiful as him. And then I saw him lean back a bit behind the man with a newspaper in his hand as he spotted me as well, and our eyes met for a while. I could feel my mind escaping, for I did not know how easily I could lose my heart to someone I didn’t even know. And then, he looked back at me over his shoulder before he got out of the train and I sighed, and now I wonder how it can be that the first twenty years of my life suddenly appear this empty to me. I never saw him again. Come back to me, please.

ISTJ: Every time I take the train at 8:06 am, I find him standing there at the exact same spot in front of the one door that will be the closest to the staircase at the station where he must leave. He’s actually the father of a childhood friend of mine, but I don’t think he ever recognised me. And now, whenever I take the train at this hour, I can be sure he will be there, every day, at the same spot, sometimes reading the newspaper, sometimes talking to some work acquaintances, sometimes just staring into space. Every time, I can be sure to see him there with the white hair and the deepening wrinkles around his eyes. I see his daughter in him, I see her kindness and gentle spirit in him, and considering she is one of the best people I’ve ever had the privilege to know, this is one of the greatest compliments I am capable of giving.

ESTJ: It was a freezing January afternoon and the sun was already setting, when she and her friend walked past me at the train station and remained within earshot, so that my nosy little self could listen to their conversation. Apparently, they were both training as some kind of nursery teachers, judging by the topics they were talking about after an exam they just had, but the conversation quickly turned to an upcoming group project. And so this girl went on how badly this project was planned by the teacher and her classmates. Honestly, she laid out an entire plan for why this and that was inefficient and problematic, and how she would improve this and that and basically the entire system if she just had a say in the matter. She jumped up and down a bit as she tried to keep herself warm, and her cheeks turned rosy, and this passionate anger at inefficiency of hers while jumping around in the cold somehow made her look quite endearing.

ISFJ: I was on the tram when this elderly woman and her granddaughter got in and sat down across from me. I couldn’t help but stare at her for a moment. I’ve never seen anyone with a face as likable and adorable as hers. Her face was full of wrinkles, and most of them were deep lines around her eyes that kept going down half of her face. And she smiled. Oh, the way she smiled. Her dimples were so deep and big that I refuse to believe that she has ever done anything but smile. She looked out of the window, watched the people and cars pass by and she smiled. She looked at me and she smiled. She talked to her teenage granddaughter and smiled and patted her on the knee before they left. And for a moment there, I really wished I could have been her granddaughter.

ESFJ: I was sitting in a hallway on a little ferry and there were these three little girls that ran in circles around the ship and played tag. The oldest of these girls was about 8 years old and I loved her with every fiber of my heart. She played with her little sisters whose hair was as light blonde and tousled as hers. The smallest child kept running into the cafeteria and as the eldest, she was the one to run after her, to take her by the hand and guide her back. Then, she said “No, Hannah! This is not what we agreed on with mum!” with an overly dramatic stern face. There was drama in everything she did. She dramatically and deliberately fell to the floor and giggled when she saw the many concerned faces that looked at her. She dramatically stamped her foot when her little sister ran into the cafeteria again, before she sighed dramatically, rolled her eyes, glanced at her audience with a little smile and ran after her sister once again. I really wish for the day that I turn on the tv and see her face again as the actress she’s supposed to become.

ISTP: He sat there on the bus with me, with these round Harry-Potter-glasses, and looked out of the window, sometimes watching the world fly by, sometimes frowning when he lost himself in thoughts. And in a strange kind of way, he seemed just so awake. Like his mind was working on high speed, like he knew exactly what was going on anywhere and anytime and why. There didn’t seem to be anything he didn’t perceive and analyse and understand immediately. He seemed to have figured it all out - except maybe himself.

ESTP: Normally, it’s quite easy to guess the majors of all the people you see running around campus since most people just look the part, but when you first see him, he doesn’t really look like he would be one of the few male linguistics students. He is this big muscular guy with perfectly styled hair who spends his time in the back of the class on the phone or fooling around with some friends, but from what I’ve witnessed, he’s doing very well on his studies and seems to be all around a very nice person. When he overhears some people talk about how they don’t understand some topic, he quickly chimes in and explains it to them as good as he can. Basically, his entire behaviour could be summarised as “I accepted and embraced my insecurities, that’s what makes me confident, let me lure you out of your shell and make you confident as well”. And I really like that.

ISFP: It was 8am when he entered the train that was packed full with commuters such as myself. He stood across from me, with these big headphones over his beanie, with the beard and the kind of hippie winter coat. He looked at his phone, read a message he got and his eyes lit up. With a tender smile on his face, he answered this person who obviously was very very dear to him. Then, when he put his phone away, he smiled at the ground and looked out of the window and there was such love and gentle kindness in these shining brown eyes with the unusually long eye-lashes that every girl would kill for, and I am convinced that whoever it is that holds his heart, must be a very lucky person indeed.

ESFP: I sometimes see him on the bus with his wife and his two little sons. I’m always a bit confused why his wife never sits with him and their kids, so that he has to take care of them alone. I remember this one particular morning when he sat across from me, with his older son, who was about three, sitting on his lap and his younger son in a buggy right next to him. The younger one was very crotchety that day and cried and was thrashing around. The mother didn’t care and the dad tried to calm him down, spoke to him in a soft voice and tried to gently hold him still. But nothing worked and in the end, I saw him cover his eyes. His shoulders were shaking. I think he was crying silently and my heart sank. The older son took his dad’s hand and looked up at him with big sad eyes, and when the dad then uncovered his face, his eyes were so tired. He then hugged both of his sons with a little smile, and got out of the bus with them and their mother.

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BASICS.

FULL  NAME :  Nefeloma Marianela Leocadia NICKNAME :  Neff/Neffie AGE :  24 BIRTHDAY :  January 10th ETHNIC  GROUP :  First Nations; Cherokee, Latinx NATIONALITY :  American LANGUAGE / S : English, Spanish, Tsalagi SEXUAL  ORIENTATION :  Pansexual ROMANTIC  ORIENTATION : Panromantic RELATIONSHIP  STATUS :  Verse dependent, Canonically single HOME  TOWN / AREA :  Born and raised in Newark, New Jersey CURRENT  HOME : Apartment complex in a nice little space pocket PROFESSION :  Artist/Waitress

PHYSICAL.

SKIN : Medium/Deep in color EYES:  Purple, on the lighter side. Almond in shape FACE :  Rounded LIPS :  Slightly plump and almost always with purple lipstick on COMPLEXION :  Acne usually depends on her hormones but for the most part she takes good care of her skin. BLEMISHES :   She’s got a few cause she had a habit of picking at the scars but they’re faded thanks to her taking better care of herself. SCARS :  On her wrists, but faded. TATTOOS :  OH BOY OKAY she has a tattoo of the Capricorn constellation on the back of her neck, A moon and star on her back right shoulder blade, a decorative arm cuff on her upper left arm [ it’s got a square maze pattern, then diamonds, and then stars at the end of beads I guess you can say? I’ll upload pics of them ] , pentagram in a circle with wings on both her wrists, many small designs on her fingers including a cross on a beaded chain on the lower and 3 dots on her upper right ring finger, a zigzag band on her lower right index finger, lower left pinkie has a band with connected U’s that have dots decorating the middle, top left ring finger is a crescent moon, top left middle is another zigzag band and 3 dots) Pics: Here, Here, and Here (Warning this one is a lil n/sfw so open with caution) HEIGHT :  5′7 WEIGHT :  170lbs BUILD :  Curvy and has a little chub around her waist, but has muscles when she flexes. Hidden muscles to be honest, but not super defined. They’re just noticeable enough. FEATURES :  Beauty mark under left eye,  ALLERGIES : Soy beans (soy sauce is okay though) USUAL  HAIR  STYLE :  Long hair down to her butt in a hime cut. USUAL  FACE  LOOK :  She’s got resting bitch face man there’s literally no other way to put it. USUAL  CLOTHING :  This is actually verse dependent along with pre/post dependent. During her adventure she’ll be in this but post-adventure she’ll be in this.

PSYCHOLOGY.

FEAR / S :  Being alone, being replaced, not being good enough, betrayal, being lied to, basically anything that has to do with a negative relationship with someone. ASPIRATION / S :  To get married and have a family while being successful in the work business. It seems simple but it seems so hard to obtain for her. POSITIVE  TRAITS :  Selfless, caring, compassionate, empathetic, determined, if you need her she WILL be there. NEGATIVE  TRAITS :  MAN does she have a temper. She can also be very passive-aggressive, bossy, a bit of a bitch at times, easily pushes people away when she has her episodes. MBTI : The Mediator/INFP-T ZODIAC : Capricorn TEMPEREMENT :  Melancholic SOUL  TYPE / S :  Spiritualist/Creator ANIMALS :  Penguin VICE  HABIT / S : Lip biting, making exagerated faces, playing with her hands/hand movements FAITH :  Agnostic/Pagan. Somewhere around there. She’s more the inner soul type of spiritualist than she is the religious type. GHOSTS ? :  Yes AFTERLIFE ? :  Yes REINCARNATION ? : Yes ALIENS ? :  Yes (She’s dating one in one verse) POLITICAL  ALIGNMENT :  She prefers not to get involved in politics EDUCATION  LEVEL :  Graduated college with a Bachelors in Fine Arts

FAMILY.

FATHER :   Felipe, the man who meant the world to her. He was born in Puerto Rico and moved to America when he was still very young. A very fun loving but hard working man. He’d protect her from her mother’s outburts. MOTHER :   Nadia, a mother who proved not to be much of one at all. Caused Neff a lot of stress and grief to the point of self harm and a suicide attempt after the death of Felipe. Very aggressive and has a complex. SIBLINGS :  None. She’s an only child. Was supposed to have a brother but he never made it past the pregnancy. EXTENDED  FAMILY :  She has a lot of cousins an her grandparents NAME  MEANING / S :  Nefeloma is greek for “Nebula”. Marianela and Leocadia are both spanish names meaning “Beloved Star” and “Bright” respectively. HISTORICAL  CONNECTION ? :   N/A

FAVORITES.

BOOK :  I haven’t the slightest idea to be honest. Probably the House of Night series despite how cliche and slightly embarrassing it is simply because it’s about a First Nations vampire that ties in touches of paganism and that is very much her life. MOVIE :  GOSH I don’t think she has one.  5  6 SONGS :  Cosmic Love by Florence + The Machine, Which Witch by Florence + The Machine, Trip The Darkness by Lacuna Coil, House of Shame by Lacuna Coil, On A Good Day by Above & Beyond, Peace of Mind by Above & Beyond DEITY :  She believes that all exist honestly but her faith doesn’t really belong to any in particular. HOLIDAY :  She likes Halloween and also Yule  MONTH :  April (showers bring May flowers and she very much loves the rain) SEASON : Spring oh my gosh she loves Spring so much. PLACE : Besides the comfort of home? Space. Any place she can see the stars. WEATHER :  Rain rain rain give her rain whether it be a small shower or a thunderstorm. Otehr than that a nice crisp day, sunny but with a breeze. And those cool crisp nights where you can see the stars. SOUND :  Rain, Thunder, Wind chimes SCENT / S :  Lavender and Vanilla, Peach and Cherry Blossom TASTE / S :  Sweet, Sour, and Spicy foods. Anything loaded with flavor. FEEL / S :  Soft sheets, water trhough her fingers, a gentle caress, strong hugs, that serenity of a quiet night ANIMAL / S :  She loves them all NUMBER :  24 COLORS :  Purple, Blue, Black

EXTRA.

TALENTS : Painting and Singing BAD  AT :  Emotional Stability tbqh but it’s not like she can have that TURN  ONS :  Biting (especially on the neck and bottom lip), dominance fights, talk dirty to me *saxophone plays*, suits TURN  OFFS :  Ignorance (when chosen over learning), People treated as objects/trophies, persistence when unwanted HOBBIES : Painting and Drawing TROPES :  Misery Builds Character, The Empath, Enemy Within, I Am Who? QUOTES :   “I can’t tell you to remember me, but I can’t bear for you to forget me.”

MUN QUESTIONS.

Q1 :   if  you  could  write  your  character  your  way  in  their  own  movie ,   what  would  it  be  called ,  what  style  would  it  be  filmed  in ,  and  what  would  it  be  about ?           A1 :   Man I’ve always low-key dreamed about Neff having her own anime or vidja gaem but I feel like it would be called something similar to my url like Cosmic Dreamer and it would be a story about self discovery and self love. Like despite the huge thing she’s involved in that makes her very important what matters most is how she sees herself and the decisions she makes for herself you know? Q2 :   what  would  their  soundtrack / score  sound  like ?           A2 :   Man okay it’s pretty much the music player on the blog. Alternative rock, acoustic, really kind of mysterious vocals. Good stuff. Q3 :   why  did  you  start  writing  this  character ?           A3 :   Neff is my baby and she stands for a lot that I think people can appreciate. She’s got a personality disorder, she’s LGBTQA+, she’s POC, she’s within all the minorities as a ‘main character’ and unapologetically so.  Q4 :   what  first  attracted  you  to  this  character ?           A4 :   Okay so I have an assload of OCs and originally my main fave was a character named Caprice aka Capi. She’s my oldest and longest ‘living’ OC I guess you can say. But when I made Neff she became even more of a breakthrough. Obviously there’s some bias with her being based on me and my experiences and all (even though I kinda hate myself so that’s a bit ironic), but the fact that she’s someone who does what I can’t is a healthy outlet for me for expression. Q5 :   describe  the  biggest  thing  you  dislike  about  your  muse.           A5 :   What I like most is also what I hate most and that is our similarities. Being hyper aware of your bad traits can drive you up a wall. Q6 :   what  do  you  have  in  common  with  your  muse ?           A6 :   Neff is pretty much my life story with added tweaks to make it extra dramatic because I’m a piece of shit : D Q7 :   how  does  your  muse  feel  about  you ?           A7 :   I MEAN I’D HOPE SHE LIKES ME I’M KINDA HER MOM Q8 :   what  characters  does  your  muse  have  interesting  interactions  with ?         A8 :   I mean I think every interaction is an interesting one.   Q9 :   what  gives  you  inspiration  to  write  your  muse ?         A9 :   A lot fo the ‘what ifs’ I ask myself with my own experiences and just things in general. Q10 :   how  long  did  this  take  you  to  complete ?           A10 :   Too damn long.