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Sandpiper's Crew!!

[Bird One]

Each leader of the Aves- all of the five and the various other members who've been assigned as such- have their own crew under their care. Apart from this, there are various members who work in the in-between routes and act as messengers or guides or informants, as well as those Aves that publicly criticize or sing or write books against the people in power. Some Aves just do continuous check-ups of the families Wren and Sandpiper have shifted and the safehouses and the spies positioned in court. Some others act as messengers between Caladrius and neutral groups of people, often non-human.

(Dijkstra has no idea about any of this. Sandpiper takes pains to look like an incompetent fool whenever he has to deal with the spymaster, and hasn't disclosed how big the movement has become. Even the members themselves don't know everyone else- the full length and breadth of the Aves' influence is known to Shani and Shani only.)

But!!! Much thanks to @zeebee823 and her amazing analysis of the birds, here's the first member of Sandpiper's crew, the ones who work in getting innocent families out of the line of fire:

[Codename: Nightingale; Real name: Marzanna]- She's a half-elf ex-student of Jaskier's, and was the first person to sign up with the Aves.

She'd just set out as a bard before the fighting broke out, and got rescued from a prison camp when the Five (on their first mission and Panicking) stormed it and knocked out all the guards. She took one look at her batshit insane role model of a teacher and insisted on joining immediately.

She got her codename mostly because of her love and talent for reed instruments and her complex whistling tunes. Said whistles are used to alert her crew about guards, backup, blockages, or if she sees a particularly hot person nearby.

Nightingale prefers the charges who aren't overly scared or hesitant so she can move faster and double back for her crew. She'll often leave booby traps and weapons beforehand along the way for everyone, just in case things go tits up.

Fiercely dedicated to her old teachers and the cause; will kill if needed, although usually Sandpiper or Black Heron will step in for that because in their eyes She Is A Child. Nightingale is twenty-three.

She has a few daggers, like everyone, but mostly she has a lot of rope. Whether it's for scaling walls or trees or throwing bolases at cart wheels or keeping unconscious guards secured or having a good time, Nightingale always has rope.

She's bold about everything in life except her poetic works- Nightingale doesn't share them very often, but when she does recite them, she often reduces everyone to tears.

[conoscenze]

self-esteem // part two.

As the title says, this is a continuation of this post, in which are featured five out of the ten muses of this blog. (Number may grow in the future.) Not much else to say!

POSSIBLE TRIGGER WARNING FOR MENTIONS OF MENTAL ILLNESS, EMOTIONAL & MENTAL ABUSE, AND IN GENERAL COPIOUS AMOUNTS OF SELF-LOATHING. Nothing except the latter goes much in detail. Enjoy!

Fujunko, I’d say, has a very normal situation. While she did grow up bullied and isolated from others due to her family situation, she has always been a strong child because of her grandmother’s support. She thinks of herself as pretty okay, average even, and truth be told she lacks a proper conception and opinion of herself because she is always more focused on what she does, rather than who she is. Fujunko is modest and humble, and is aware of her faults and that she should fix them. The prospect of that doesn’t weigh for her, it instead fuels her determination further because she knows she’ll be an even better person once she might succeed. Perhaps the only thing she is a little self-conscious about is her sexuality, or more specifically the fact that she has always lived in an environment that is full of sexualization as well as other things related to sex. For example, not many people know she lives in Kabukicho because she is well aware of that district’s reputation. Along with that, even without having visitors coming over, she prepared a special spot where to hide her hentai manga and porn magazines. Fujunko is conscious of her sexuality and how active her libido is, and she’s not truly ashamed of it---perhaps it’s more of a situation where she would rather not risk looking like a complete pervert. Being degraded to just that would be greatly inconveniencing.

Min-Seo defines her self-worth based on others’ opinions. Ever since she was young, she has always been influenced by the judgement of others, the prime example being her own parents. Self-made people that base one’s worth through what they can achieve and how they can handle business: from the very start Min-Seo was expected to fit in that archetype as well, she was pampered and educated to retain that mindset much like her father and her mother. The moment Min-Seo decided to direct herself towards something less academic, but rather more artistic (cooking isn’t exactly seen as something material, in her family) they turned their backs on her. Maybe she could’ve been able to pass not too unscathed had they just done that. Instead they decided to stick their fingers and salt into the wounds, considering Min-Seo is not a hard read: it’s obvious how she constantly craves approval from others, no matter about what. Her parents were disappointed, and decided to make her understand to what extent they felt hurt. Victims of a crime she never committed in first place. She thinks that acting according to her own personality and morals is wrong in itself. A lot of times Min-Seo doubts her actions, questions her worth, wonders about her existence in itself. The weight that her parents’ expectations have on her back is far too much for her to handle without breaking. Min-Seo can persevere, but one thing is for sure: she will forever be scarred by her own lack of assertiveness. This is her conviction. The way she constantly puts herself down for every little thing may come across as attention-seeking, and it wouldn’t be wrong to think so. In a way, she is craving of attention and validation, even though she constantly denies so if directly asked. She wants to be looked at for who she is, but she is too scared to disappoint others in doing it. Thus, she is content with superficial reassurances and compliments---they satisfy, even if a little, her need for that bit of positivity while not digging in too deep. Because who likes a loser that’s constantly fretting over the future and her own identity?

Marzanna is another complex case, mostly due to the fact that her ego made, for the most part, an incredible shift. Its timeline can be divided very neatly: pre-Nev, the time previous to her “punishment”; and post-Nev, the time spent living in the human world with her reborn appearance, which she dons to this day. It wasn’t exactly a drastic change, as it came gradually with its own time, but the differences between before and after are rather striking. Impressive as they are quite scary. However, as a deity, Marzanna will always retain a sense of superiority. Obviously, pre-Nev she was much more cruel, merciless, violent---a goddess of Death and Winter true to her name. But going along with the myths, even then she possessed a very intricate personality due to her double-nature as a goddess of Harvest and Rebirth. You could say she played “both parts”, even if her nature was still prevalently more inclined to be the vicious Marzanna all humans worshipping her cult feared. That respect and terror in her regards constantly fuelled her ego and pride, hence why she rarely took kindly to those who critiqued her ways and manners (which were basically non-existent). After all the whereabouts in the Underworld, there was a change. Marzanna, the first time she came out of her “cocoon”, did not seem like Marzanna at all. Though it took her time to settle comfortably in her new body and her new life amongst humans, she managed to prove not only to Veles and Perun, but also to herself, that she was capable of being better. Of real emotions other than bitterness, anger, and spite. Marzanna became humble, she felt humble, and wanted to be kind to others without expecting anything in return. This doesn’t mean that she forgot who she was and what she did---Marzanna remembers everything very clearly. And, an important note, is that her “rebirth” did not erase the being she was before. Marzanna is gentle---but she still is prideful, she still can be fearsome, she, of her own will, can hurt others to her liking. The difference is that now her patience is much broader and more difficult to abuse of, seeing as she has learned how to properly control herself. If you bring into discussion the matter of self-worth, though, Marzanna will state with confidence that she doesn’t think of herself as neither too worthless, nor worthy. She is right in the middle. She would be telling the truth. There are certain things she is especially self-deprecating about, such as Jarilo and Vesna and her past wrongdoings, but they don’t feel so heavy that she needs to chastise herself because of them. Rather, she believes acknowledging them will help in avoiding further mistakes that may bring to those very same terrible choices. So, in short, Marzanna has decent self-esteem, and considers herself not exactly the best person, whilst not belittling her own efforts. She strongly believes in self-improvement, and despite not liking enjoying the memories about the things she has done and said, she doesn’t deny having acted upon them out of her own free will. While she is kind around humans, she still retains a bit of sense of condescending superiority, as perhaps remnant of her once-fiery pride. She’s not the kind to abuse of her nature, however, preferring to conceal it.

Annaliese is confident, it’s not difficult to tell. Although her past is rather bizarre---between neglectful, bigoted parents, a difficult life in the orphanage and a quite null life before the one in the convent---she seems to have come unscathed out of most of her experiences. In fact, one could even dare say that no matter how bad a thing could be, she will make the best of it and treasure the good part of her experience. Annaliese is a simple woman with a rather picky mind, because while she does not necessarily forget the horrible things said and done to her, they don’t affect her. They literally wash off as easily as rain. Is it in her nature to be so simply careless? Most’s insecurities (at least in the case of this blog) stem from the fear of other’s judgement and opinions, and they can augment following more events worth of a great shock or a trauma. For some reason, this does not apply to Annaliese---she has a stable view of herself, which is nor exceedingly high nor stratospherically low. It could be her airheadness playing a part as well, considering she’s not too aware of her own flaws and faults: but when met with confrontation about them, as long as it’s reasonable, she is willing to listen (hoping the other party will be kind enough as to explain properly what they mean). Annaliese considers hostile approaches annoying and useless to deal with, and perhaps this way of “shrugging them off” came with the stern teachings of the orphanage she grew up in, which was handled by the clergy. It is very stereotypical, and mostly true, for religious people to be obstinately stubborn about their beliefs. This could apply to Annaliese, who is outright unwilling to communicate with someone who is not able to take on a calmer attitude. Annaliese thinks of herself as decent, and doesn’t really take to mind her flaws nor her merits. She almost only acts on instinct, meaning she doesn’t use her head all that much. This means any ill judgement is typically rejected without batting an eye, and without giving thought to it---almost as if it was never heard in first place. This also means that if she feels unjustly attacked, she will act upon personal pride to try and defend herself.

Momoko is... complex. That, in itself, is not the correct word to describe her situation with self-esteem. Let’s start with the fact that Momoko has a very distorted view on many things, varying from common knowledge to specific psychological matters such as love, affection. She also has a very hard time dealing with what’s real and what’s not, as she constantly lives in a hazy and confused status that’s constantly oscillating between reality and hallucinations. It’s enough of an example to mention how her dreams, as described by her, almost exactly resemble her daily life. Sometimes, her brain---high on medications---creates hallucinations out of nowhere, be it auditory, sensory, or visual. Momoko lives her life constantly on edge because of this. To understand exactly why she ended up living in this perpetual state of uncertainty about what’s real and what not, you’d have to know what happened in her past. Considering that, as of now, it’s for the most part concealed and vague, we’ll try to explain without having to necessarily explore that specific aspect. As a first, Momoko thinks mostly two things about herself: “I’m a miserable piece of shit” and “But at least I’m better than the cockroaches”. She considers herself a despicable, lowly being, without a doubt. But at the same time she contradicts her own belief, by stating that she is superior in comparison to what she calls “cockroaches”. It’s a rather interesting paradox, as well as huge. She hates herself whilst not truly hating herself---confused as her own perception of reality is. Momoko judges others for anything simply because she can, and because she doesn’t feel the need to repress hostile and rude thoughts. It took her some time, and a lot of pressure from her medics, to understand that it’d be best if she kept comments to herself---but when she’s alone, or in a scarcely populated area, she doesn’t refrain from commenting under her breath any and all evil things she can think of. It’s efficient for distancing others from approaching her, is her conscious thought. Subconsciously, she is feeding her own ego, which is dramatically starving for some sort of validation. Momoko feeds her own self-esteem however she can, and since only anger runs through her veins, she will fuel her confidence with hatred towards others. Acting out based on her impulses and pleasures (such as hurting small living beings and being a disturbingly active member of the darknet community) doesn’t truly feed into this illusion of hers, it’s useful to fulfill a sense of utility. Momoko is conscious and makes use of her own intelligence, despite the fact that it doesn’t make her feel good about herself. Her own self-worth isn’t based on her skills. Then if her pride is based on her hatred towards others---the “cockroaches”, as she calls them (though it’s not exclusive to other people); what is her self-loathing based on? A very good question. The most clear-cut answer is her unveiled past, of course, and the events that occurred in her middle-school years. But since we cannot explore that part of her timeline yet, a possible answer could be... her self-consciousness. Momoko has never been particularly subject to bullying---nor to others’ judgement. In fact, while she was often picked on, she just as perpetually fought back with teeth and nails. Momoko always had a strong confidence regarding herself ever since she was a kid. So, one would be curious as to why she would grow up to resent herself to the point which she literally can reach starving points of two full days, one would be dying to understand what is pushing her to risk her (so far) untainted criminal record with all the illegal actions she follows on her own accord. Momoko is conscious of her actions. She knows what she does is horrible. And she doesn’t feel an ounce of guilt. Time and time again she’s bared strong self-fulfilled conviction in her own actions, and rarely does she feel like she is in the wrong. Even when presented with proof, it’s hard to convince her that she might be the one at fault. Then what is it? What is the cause of her self-hatred, if not aforementioned self-consciousness? Could it be something rooted in that so-mysterious event that caused her whole life to go downhill? Honestly? Momoko does not know. She hates herself---because she is human, that much is obvious. She doesn’t feel remorse when she acts vile, and that’s when she feels good about herself. Having emotions is the bane of her. She hates feeling. Perhaps this could be the reason. It’s her own nature as an emotional human being that she despises the most.

[conoscenze]

🎵 🎵 one for Salice, one for Marzanna!

music association — @hyacinthsgirl — accepting.

YOUR HEAD IS LIKE A HAUNTED HOUSE // QUEENS OF THE STONE AGE

TonightI’m gonna put up a fightI’m gonna get a reaction that I likeBurn the daysI reject your displaysI demand satisfaction or the knifeTo trip the light fantastic, one takes wire on the shinsPetty disguises worn like skins, a distinction, niceDrink the Kool-Aid and swallow the pillYou say that you don’t and you won’t, but you willBusted

Your head’s like a haunted housePeepin’ at your mumbo jumboOutta sight, go bump in the nightScrewacideWith posterior so superiorAin’t in a race for second placeCircumstances in my pantsesCumming for actionGirl, I’ll blow your mindThen you will blow mineWe’re subleem, sublimeGoin’ for a ride

DESCENDING FROM THE SKIES, SHE APPEARS AS A GODDESS // SYRUFIT

Sing praises of her heavenly descent!Spread the word of her heavenly descent!Sing praises of her heavenly descent!All be in awe of her heavenly descent!

Release thy thought, sing thy lyricsBe lured by the cherry blossoms, and the fall colored leaves; burst into lifeRelease thy thought, sing thy lyricsBe lost in forgetfulness, know true sleep

Waking unto life at the end of the very last of humanityHer hopeless, helpless heart was yetA soft silk cocoon.Not knowing even her own self nor body, day after day passed byBlossoming upon tens of thousands of generationsNow simply she floats through the pitch darknessBut when that day comesCountless clouds will rise,Countless clouds will raise a fence around this land’s filth

[conoscenze]

CHARACTER SHEET. Repost, don’t reblog.

BASICS.

FULL NAME.    Marzanna. NICKNAME.     Morena Slavik (human alias), Lady of the Winter, Baba Yaga. GENDER.     Genderless, female-presenting. HEIGHT.    178cm / 5′10″ ft. AGE.     Ageless, appears in her early / mid-thirties. ZODIAC.     Not applicable. SPOKEN LANGUAGES.    Multilingual ability, with propensity for western Slavonic languages. Has a slight Polish accent.

PHYSICAL CHARACTERISTICS.

HAIR COLOR.      Dark, intense carmine red. EYE COLOR.     The upper half is black, whilst the lower half is stark white. SKIN.      Pale skin, with cool, rosy undertones. BODY TYPE.     Mesomorph. Hourglass figure with broad shoulders and long legs. DOMINANT HAND.      Ambidextrous. POSTURE / BODY LANGUAGE.     Confident, straightened back, very expansive and open (tends to hold her hands out and wide), always exudes glee with her movements, gesticulates a lot. SCARS.     She has scars of indistinguishable cause scattered on her back, though they are barely perceptible and seem to have largely faded over time. TATTOOS.     None. MOST NOTICEABLE FEATURE(S).     Her eyes, quickly followed by the peculiarity of her bigger freckles, which appear star-shaped.

CHILDHOOD.

PLACE OF BIRTH.     Unknown. HOMETOWN.     Unknown, presumably somewhere in Poland. SIBLINGS.     Nine brothers, whose names and whereabouts are unknown. PARENTS.    Perun, the God of Thunder, and the most important deity of the Slavic pantheon (father, unknown status).

ADULT LIFE.

OCCUPATION.     Unemployed; occasionally works part-time as a baker in towns she visits. CURRENT RESIDENCE.     None. She is a nomad. CLOSE FRIENDS.     Marzanna has had many close friends through her lifetime, though as of now the only person fitting of that label is Chris. RELATIONSHIP STATUS.     Single. FINANCIAL STATUS.     Poor, homeless. She is fine living like this. DRIVER’S LICENSE.     A long time ago, though she barely drives anymore. CRIMINAL RECORD.     Clean (formerly, as for actuality...). VICES.     Envy, wrath, lust.

SEX & ROMANCE.

SEXUAL ORIENTATION.     Pansexual. PREFERRED SEXUAL ROLE.     submissive  |  dominant  |  switch  |  top |  bottom |  vers. LIBIDO.     Mid-low. Marzanna’s libido only ever spurs when she feels greatly attracted to someone, and even then, it doesn’t happen often. TURN ON’S.    Brattiness (in which she’s the tamer). The right amount of manhandling. Marking (bites, scratches, hickeys, etc.). TURN OFF’S.    Anything that includes being caged or overall restrained (she will make an exception for having her hands tied). Blindfolding. Humiliation (on the receiving end). RELATIONSHIP TENDENCIES.    Marzanna is extremely fickle, and on top of that, she has a lot of difficulty restraining her own desires. Though she has gotten more control of her instincts and impulses over the years, it’s hard for her to not go straight ahead and try and get what she wants (or who, in this case). She is very passionate, a burst of emotions when it comes to romantic commitment. Will still treat her partner as an equal, except they’ll be lavished with an extra dose of affections and attentions, as well as thrice the playful teasing. Can get jealous---doesn’t like when things she considers “hers” are toyed with by others.

MISCELLANEOUS.

CHARACTER’S THEME SONG.     Fortune by Dead Can Dance. HOBBIES TO PASS TIME.     Baking, cooking, taking photos of odd flora, hiking, exploring the woods. MENTAL ILLNESSES.     None. PHYSICAL ILLNESSES.     None. LEFT OR RIGHT BRAINED.     Predominantly right. She is more impulsive than she is logical. PHOBIAS.    Being ultimately forgotten, losing her immortality. Meeting the deities of her pantheon again. Being caged and / or constrained. SELF CONFIDENCE LEVEL.     Though she is very conscious of her many wrongdoings, Marzanna carries on with solid self-confidence that she has long moved on from that violent past. And she did, it’s not wrong. But she is still hesitant about accidentally falling into her previous reckless behavior. VULNERABILITIES.     Her mysteriousness (which is as beneficial as it is suspicious), her kindness (which can be easily be abused of, though you shouldn’t dare in first place), her own motherly instincts, which lead her to pursue various decisions and / or attitudes which she wouldn’t usually allow herself to indulge in, and the fact that she is, to some extent, still easily swayed by her instincts.

TAGGED BY: @duskwilt (thank you!!) TAGGING: anyone!

[conoscenze]

DATING STRENGTHS AND WEAKNESSES // QUIZ.

STRENGTHS.

Generosity (86.7%) // You are a giving person by nature. Others will see this quality in you and recognize your kind nature. Take care not to let others take advantage of you.

Adventurousness (75%) // You are willing to try new things and be spontaneous. You want to get out there and really live, and you will attract people with a similar love of life.

Kindness (72.7%) // You treat other people with empathy and goodwill. This positive trait helps you stand out and draw people into your warmth.

Varied Interests (71.4%) // You don't limit yourself, and that's a dating asset. Your varied interests make you available and interesting to a wider range of people.

Flirtiness (62.5%) // Flirting is a good way to break the ice, and you are a pro at it. Being flirtatious will open up many dating opportunities.

WEAKNESSES.

No significant weaknesses.

[conoscenze]

✚, ★, △, ⊗, ☾, ✜, ☠, ◊ ( for Marzanna! =D )

symbols — @rogue-valor​ — accepting.

Send ✚ for one of my muse’s prized possessions.

Marzanna doesn’t own much, considering that she has no stable home to live in. Those few things she carries on her huge backpack, though, are definitely important to her. Among this small number there is a, at first sight, small booklet, which when opened actually expands into a much larger size.

On the first picture of said booklet, which serves as a cover, is written “Photographies du Morena, la fascinante Bohémienne polonaise, de E. L.” and, as the name easily implies, it’s a collection of small photographs dated ca. 1890-1900, likely all set in France. Not all of them are exactly clear, nor are they the highest quality, but examining them well it’s easy to make out that the protagonist of most pictures is, in fact, a rather uninhibited Marzanna. There’s not much difference, physique-wise, the sole exception being (of course) different clothes, contemporary to those times but still very humble, and longer, wavier hair, usually kept in a messy bun. At times, she’s in company of other people, be it men or women—casual, fun scenarios, or even more risqué ones. There is a great variety of pictures, costumes, and settings alike. It could also be described as a gift from an artist to their muse.

If asked who the photographer behind the camera was, she will simply reply that they were a friend.

Send ★ for a talent headcanon.

She can play the pan pipe, despite the fact that she typically only plays it if someone explicitly requests her to. Not because she finds it otherwise unpleasant to do—but with time, she has gained more fondness for the guitar, is all. Nonetheless, Marzanna can be called a decent musician. A detail worth noticing is how every animal in sight seems to disappear whenever she blows notes on her pipe.

Send △ for a sex headcanon.

According to her dominant disposition and the tendency to want to leave a mark on things she considers “hers” (sexual partners included), Marzanna very much enjoys scratching, biting and giving her partner hickeys. Not strong enough to painfully hurt them or draw blood (unless they’re into that), but just about enough to let the signs that she’s been there, so to speak, linger for a few days.

Send ⊗ for a phobia headcanon.

Besides the fear of being ultimately forgotten and thus completely lose all those qualities that make her a deity, Marzanna is absolutely terrified of feeling confined, restrained and / or trapped. This mostly relates to the punishment she underwent in the Nev before her “rebirth”, which was a very traumatizing and straining experience in itself. What she considers as “restraining” is being grabbed by the wrists out of nowhere and without clear purpose, for example. When stuck in a situation that gives her this specific sort of pressuring anxiety, she becomes unexpectedly impulsive, snappish and irritable, if not outright angry.

Send ☾ for a sleep headcanon.

Marzanna is typically an early bird, but she is at the same time a very late night owl. Her sleep schedule isn’t the healthiest for sure, however it is not a concern of her to fix it. She mostly re-gains lost hours of sleep during the afternoon, since the early hours till dusk.

Send ✜ for a fear headcanon.

Aside from the phobias mentioned above, Marzanna is hardly scared by anything that doesn’t personally affect her. Little to no things shock her, as she has already seen and done much more terrible things, most likely. That and she’s become desensitized with most things that could be perceived as generally scary. She is also the goddess of nightmares, after all.

Send ☠ for a death headcanon.

She knows Death well and she is constantly preparing herself to properly dance a waltz with it the moment she dies—because, at some point, she will, like all living beings. Dying doesn’t scare her because she is very conscious that it is merely part of the cycle of life; hers is just a larger, far more extended one, hence why she can’t allow herself to forget that her life is bound to end at some point.

Send ◊ for a headcanon of the mun’s choice.

When she’s feeling particularly intense emotions of any kind—happiness, sadness, anger, lust, to make a few examples—Marzanna’s eye color becomes plain white, and it is so bright that staring too much into it might cause eye strain. This is something she is not entirely conscious of herself, so that is mainly why she never bothers to hide it.

[conoscenze]

japanese voiceclaims.

As the name says, a compilation of Japanese voiceclaims! Obviously I only assigned these to Japanese-speaking muses. Keep also in mind they’re not stark perfect examples, but are good references just to have an idea of what their tone of voice / timbre might sound like when speaking the language.

Fujunko (Sawashiro Miyuki)

Kaede (Mizutani Yuko)

Momoko (Park Romi)

Marzanna (Inoue Kikuko)

Phoebe (Kuwashima Houko)

Karmina (Koshimizu Ami)

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MUSE BODY LANGUAGE.

bold / italicize what you apply to your muse. REPOST. DO NOT REBLOG.

TAGGED BY:  @dawnscene (thank :3) TAGGING:  anyone who wants to do it!

DEFENSIVENESS.

arms crossed on chest  //   crossing legs   //    fist-like gestures    //    pointing index finger    //    karate chops    //   stiffening of shoulders    //   tense posture   //    curling of lip    //    baring of teeth

REFLECTIVE.

hand-to-face gestures    //    head tilted   //    stroking chin    //    peering over glasses    //    taking glasses off — cleaning   //    putting earpiece of glasses in mouth    //    pipe smoker gestures    //    putting hand to the bridge of the nose   //    pursed lips    //   knitted brows

SUSPICION.

arms crossed   //    sideways glance    //    touching or rubbing nose    //   rubbing eyes   //    hands resting on weapon    //    brows raising   //   lips pressing into a thin line   //   strict, unwavering eye contact  //    wrinkling of nose

OPENNESS & COOPERATION.

open hands   //    upper body in sprinters position    //    sitting on the edge of a chair    //   hand-to-face gestures    //   unbuttoned coat    //   tilted head    //    slacked shoulders   //    droopy posture    //    feet pointed outward    //    palms flat and facing outward

CONFIDENCE.

hands behind back    //    hands on lapels of coat    //    steepled hands    //   baring teeth in a grin   //    rolling shoulders    //    tipping head back but maintaining eye contact    //    chest puffed up / shoulders back    //    arms folded just above navel

INSECURITY & ANXIETY.

chewing pen or pencil   //   rubbing thumb over opposite thumb   //    biting fingernails    //  hands in pockets    //    elbow bent / closed gestures    //    clearing throat   //    “whew” sound    //    picking or pinching flesh    //    fidgeting in chair   //    hand covering mouth whilst speaking  //    poor eye contact   //   tugging at pants whilst seated   //    jingling money in pockets    //    tugging at ear    //   perspiring hands    //    playing with hair   //    swaying   //    playing with pointer / marker    //    smacking lips    //   sighing    //   rocking on balls of feet   //   flexing fingers sporadically

FRUSTRATION.

short breaths   //    twitching eyelids   //    “tsk” sounds    //    tightly-clenched hands    //     fist-like gestures    //    pointing index finger    //    running hand through hair    //   rubbing back of neck    //    snarling   //   revealing teeth / grimacing    //     sharp-eyed glowers with notable tension in the brows   //   shoulders back, head up - defensive posturing   //   clenching of jaw / grinding teeth   //   nostrils flaring    //    heavy exhales

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I’M A VERY BAD INFLUENCE.

  •  Mark the ones your muse has done.   •  Use your result as your post title.   • Please repost and don’t reblog!

[ X ] consumed alcohol [ X ] slept in the same bed with someone of another gender [ X ] slept in the same bed with someone of the same gender [ X ] kissed someone of another gender [ X ] had sex [ X ] had someone in your room other than family [    ] seen porn [    ] bought porn [    ] tried drugs

TOTAL: 6

[    ] taken painkillers [    ] taken someone else’s prescription medicine [    ] lied to your parents [ X ] lied to a friend [ X ] snuck out of the house [ X ] done something illegal [ X ] felt hurt [ X ] hurt someone [ X ] wished someone to die [ X ] seen someone die

TOTAL: 13

[ X ] missed curfew [ X ] stayed out all night [ X ] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself [    ] been to a therapist [ X ] received a ticket [    ] been to rehab [    ] dyed your hair [ X ] been in an accident [    ] been to a club [ X ] been to a bar

TOTAL: 19

[ X ] been to a wild party [ X ] been to a Mardi Gras parade [ X ] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night [    ] had a spring break in Florida [    ] sniffed anything [    ] wore black nail polish [    ] wore arm bands [    ] wore t-shirts with band names [    ] listen to rap

TOTAL: 22

[ X ] dressed gothic [ X ] dressed girly [    ] dressed punk [    ] dressed grunge [ X ] stole something [    ] been too drunk to remember anything [ X ] blacked out [ X ] fainted [    ] had a crush on a neighbor

TOTAL: 27

[ X ] had a crush on a friend [ X ] been to a concert [ X ] dry-humped someone; been dry humped [    ] been called a slut [    ] called someone a slut [    ] installed speakers in a car [ X ] broken a mirror [ X ] showered at someone of another gender’s house [ X ] brushed your teeth with someone else’s toothbrush

TOTAL: 33

[    ] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper [ X ] seen an R-rated movie [ X ] cruised the mall [    ] skipped school [    ] had surgery [ X ] had an injury [    ] gone to court [ X ] walked out of a restaurant without paying / tipping [ X ] caught something on fire [ X ] lied about your age

TOTAL: 39

[ X ] owned / rented an apartment / house [    ] broke the law in the police’s presence [ X ] made out with someone who had a GF / BF [ X ] got in trouble with the police [ X ] talked to a stranger [ X ] hugged a stranger [    ] kissed a stranger [ X ] rode in the car with a stranger [ X ] been harassed [ X ] been verbally harassed

TOTAL: 47

[    ] met face-to-face with someone you met online [    ] stayed online for 5+ hours straight [    ] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight [    ] watched TV for 5 hours straight [ X ] been to a fair [    ] been called a bad influence [    ] drank and drove [    ] prank-called someone [ X ] laid on a couch with someone of another gender [    ] cheated on a test

TOTAL: 49

If you have 00 - 10 … write [ I’m a goody-goody ] If you have 11 - 20 … write [ I’m still a goody-goody ] If you have 21 - 30 … write [ I’m average ] If you have 31- 40 … write [ I’m a bad kid ] If you have 41 - 50 … write [ I’m a very bad influence ] If you have 51 - 60 … write [ I’m a horrible person ] If you have 61 - 70 … write [ I should be in jail ] If you have 71 - 80 … write [ I should be dead ] If you have 81 - 90 … write [ I got a ticket to Hell ]

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[Marzanna] 💗 👠 💍

sex + romance — @duskfloret — accepting.

💗 Has my muse ever been in love?

Though it could seem unlikely for someone such as her to fall in love, given that she consistently avoids meddling with romance, she has been in love. More than once, even. However, there’s only one among her few lovers that she dreads and misses the most; Jarilo, the Slavic god of fertility and springtime. In fact, she is still not over him.

👠 What was my muse’s last serious relationship like?

I haven’t defined as of yet the individuals that Marzanna has dated during her lifetime (who, exception made for Jarilo, were all mortals), so all I can give is a very broad answer. When Marzanna ends up dating someone, she will stay by their side till the end of their lives. If she has to wait for years, she will; she has plenty of time left, anyways.

Considering her fickle and difficult nature when it comes to anything romantic, it’s a given that when she loves someone, she loves them. She takes the deal very seriously, and will do her absolute best in making sure her partner is comfortable, happy, and tranquil. A single con may be that she can be a bit too impulsive and passionate---discussions happening because of this recklessness of hers (especially evident when emotionally involved with someone) wouldn’t be an odd thing to be.

💍 Has my muse ever had a one-night stand?

When she was first beginning to integrate within humans’ realm, it wouldn’t be daring to say she did in fact have quite the number of flings. With age Marzanna turned more sensual than sexual, so as time went by, she cared less about one-night stands and more about the emotional bond. In short, yes---most of her experience comes from the lot of one-nights she had in her younger years.

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Small detail: considering Marzanna’s blood is technically silver-colored, she doesn’t blush like humans typically do (with colors such as pink and red). Whenever her temperature grows hotter, she actually becomes paler, or in some cases her skin takes on a grey-ish sort of hue.

This is very much subject to change, though, character building-wise.

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Marzanna fun fact: though she absolutely adores animals to their very essence, the feeling is not mutual at all. Wherever she tends to go, birds, mammals, reptiles of any kind tend to avoid her---and it’s not so difficult to guess why. Animals are beings more sensible and receptive to her nature as a Goddess of Death (despite being also one of Rebirth), so, out of distrust and fear, she’s almost always dodged at all costs.

She can’t exactly be angry at the lot of them, because she had been hostile to animals as well during her younger years, but she can’t help feeling sad about the whole ordeal. Considering cows are her favourite animals (due to various reasons, but mostly their gentle and tranquil nature), she is greatly hurt by the fact that she can’t get close to them, as her being within vicinity would cause utter panic and could also possibly be harmful to them.

The only species willing to approach her is that of wolves. It’s mutual respect, so to speak, but not so intense she’d want to play with them as she would with a normal dog.

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TAROT CARD PERSONALITY.

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DEATH.

You can be a bit intense and find yourself drawn to dark and mysterious things. You’ve been through a lot and have probably seen your fair share of endings, but probably cope with it through humor. On top of that, you are surprisingly easygoing — you’re open to change, try not to let past baggage weigh you down, and seek out new experiences.

THE DEVIL.

You’re a hedonist through and through. You're not great with moderation. Instead, you prefer to chase your own pleasure, follow your instincts, and take risks. People might find you to be intimidating at times but no matter what, there’s no denying you have a certain allure.

THE SUN.

You have a natural vibrancy that draws people in. How could you not? You’re positive and optimistic, enthusiastic and warm, energetic and fun. You can be a bit arrogant and have a hard time dealing with more serious situations, but there’s no denying you can make people happy.

THE HERMIT.

You’re an introspective person who’s content with their own company. But even though you’re introverted, you’re not a loner. People often seek you out for advice or even good conversation because you’re thoughtful and analytical, and you’re happy to help them out — in small doses.

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THE BODY IS JUST A SHELL TO THE SOUL // AESTHETICS.

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bold - always / often italic - sometimes / somewhat

BODY.

Long legs. Short legs. Average legs. Slender thighs. Thick thighs. Muscular thighs. Skinny arms. Soft arms. Toned arms. Muscular arms. Toned stomach. Flat stomach. Flabby Stomach. Soft stomach. Six pack. Beer belly.  Lean frame. Slender frame. Muscular frame. Voluptuous frame. Petite frame. Lanky frame. Short nails. Long nails. Manicured nails. Dirty nails. Small waist. Thick waist. Narrow hips. Average hips. Wide hips. Big feet. Average feet. Small feet. Soft feet. Slender feet. Calloused feet. Calloused hands. Soft hands. Big hands. Average hands. Small hands. Long fingers. Short fingers. Average fingers. Broad shoulders. Underweight. Average weight. Overweight.

HEIGHT.

Shorter than 140 cm. 141 cm to 150 cm. 151 cm to 160 cm. 161 cm to 170 cm. 171 cm to 180cm. 181 cm to 190 cm. 191 cm to 2m. Taller than 2 m.

SKIN.

Pale. Fair. Rosy. Olive. Dark. Tanned. Blotchy. Smooth. Acne. Dry. Greasy. Freckled. Scarred.

EYES.

Small. Large. Average. Grey. Brown. Black. Blue. Red. Green. Gold. Amber. Magenta. Violet. Hazel. Unnatural color (black & white). Doe-eyed. Almond. Close-set. Wide-set. Squinty. Monolid. Heavy eyelids. Upturned. Downturned.

HAIR.

Thin. Thick. Fine. Normal. Greasy. Dry. Soft. Shiny. Scruffy. Frizzy. Curly. Wild. Unruly. Straight. Smooth. Wavy. Floppy. Cropped. Pixie-cut. Short. Shoulder length. Back length. Waist length +. Floor length. Buzz cut. Bald. Jaw length. Vermilion. Carmine red. Candy apple red. Mohawk. White. Platinum blonde. Golden blonde. Dirty blonde. Ombre. Light brown. Mouse brown. Chestnut brown. Golden brown. Chocolate brown. Dark brown. Jet black. Ginger. Auburn. Dyed red. Dyed any “unnatural color”. Streaked. Thin eyebrows. Average eyebrows. Thick eyebrows. No eyebrows.

TATTOOS / PIERCINGS.

Full sleeve. Thigh tattoo. Shin tattoo. Wrist tattoo. (Lower) Back tattoo. Hand / finger tattoo. Foot tattoo. Neck tattoo. Face tattoo. Chest tattoo. Shoulder tattoo(s). One tattoo. A few here and there. Multiple. No tattoo. Monroe piercing. Nose piercing. Septum. Nipple piercing(s). Genital piercing(s). Industrial piercings. Earlobe piercing. Prince Albert piercing. Eyebrow piercing(s). Tongue piercing. Lip piercing(s). Navel piercing(s). Tragus piercing. Angel bites. Labret. Stretches out ears. Navel piercing. Inverse navel piercing. Cheek piercing(s). Smiley. Nape piercing(s). No piercings.

COSMETICS.

Light eyeliner. Heavy eyeliner. Cat eyes. Mascara. Fake eyelashes. Matte lipstick. Regular lipstick. Lipgloss. Red lips. Pink lips. Dark lips. Bronzer. Highlighter. Eyeshadow. Neutral eyeshadow. Smoky eyes. Colorful eyeshadow. Blush. Lipliner. Light contouring. Heavy contouring. Powder. Matte foundation. Shiny foundation. Concealer. Wears make up regularly. Wears makeup from time to time. Never wears make-up.

SCENT.

Floral. Fruity. Perfumes. Aftershave. Cocoa. Moisturizer. Natural soap. Shampoo. Cigarettes. Leather. Sweat. Food. Incense. Marijuana. Cologne. Whiskey. Wine. Fried food. Blood. Fire. Metal. Rain. Grass. Ocean. Autumn leaves. Baked bread. Freshly baked cookies. Smoke. Campfire. Lavender. Trees. Pumpkin Pie. Musk. Rose. Gingerbread. Peppermint. Oak. Honey. Lemon. Vanilla. Coffee Cake. Mint. Rawhyde. Chemicals.

CLOTHES.

Jeans. Tight pants. Overknee socks. Tights. Leggings. Yoga pants. Skirts. Tight / formfitting dress. Cardigans. Blouse. Button up shirt. Long sleeved shirts. Band-T-shirt. Sports-T-shirt. Turtleneck. Sweatpants. Tanktop. Cut off t-shirt. Designer. High street. Online stores. Thrift. Lingerie. Maxidress. Sun dress. Tie. Tuxedo. Cocktail dress. High slit dress / skirt. T-shirt. Loose clothing. Tight clothing. Jean shorts. Sweater. Sweater vest. Khaki pants. Suit. Hoodie. Harem pants. Basketball shorts. Boxers. Briefs. Thong. Hotpants. Hipster panties. Bra. Sports bra. Crop top. Corset. Ballerina skirt. Leotard. Polka dot. Stripes. Glitter. Silk. Lace. Leather. Velvet. Chemise. Patterns. Florals. Neon colors. Pastels. Plaid.  Black. Dark colors. Fur. Faux fur.  

SHOES.

Sneakers. Slip-ons. Flats. Slippers. Sandals. High heels. Kitten heels. Ankle boots. Combat boots. Boots. Cowboy boots. Knee-high. Platforms. Bare feet. Loafers.

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MUSE PREFERENCES.

open curtains / closed blinds. stray dog / house cat. people / pets. outside / inside. half - empty / half - full. TV / radio. sing / dance. shoes / sandals. cash / credit. hike / drive / fly. casual / elegant. centre / corner.  sword / shield. air-plane / boat.

fizzy / flat. garnished / plain. extra salt / extra pepper. spicy / mild. record player / digital media. opaque / transparent. white lies / complete truth. blunt / subtle. loud / silent. books / music.

familiar / new. youth / experience. spoon / fork and knife. knife / baseball bat. space / ocean. bow and arrow / blow dart. love at first sight / slow burn. freckles / dimples. long lashes / long fingers. soft lips / sensitive neck. slow dance / intimate conversation.

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[conoscenze]

bold what your muse can do. italicise for something they can do to some extent. repost !! do not reblog !!

bake a cake from scratch   /   ride a horse /   drive a submarine   /   speak a second language / dance  /  catch a fish /   play an instrument   /   throw a punch  /   build a deck    /  ice skate /   unclog a drain  /   program a computer /   change a flat tire  / fire a gun /   sew  /   juggle   / play poker /   paint   /  fly a kite  /  sculpt  /   write poetry   /  change a diaper   /  sing  /   shoot a bow and arrow   /  ride a bike   /   swim /   sail a boat /  do a backflip   /  play chess /  give cpr /   pitch a tent  /   flirt   /  stitch a wound /   read palms    /  use chopsticks  /  write in cursive calligraphy   /   use an electric drill  / braid hair /   make a campfire  /  make a mixed drink /   do sudoku puzzles   /  wrap a gift /   give a good massage /   jump start a car  /   roll their tongue /   do magic tricks   /   do yoga   /   tie a tie /   skip a rock  /  shuffle a deck of cards  /  read morse code  / pick a lock  /   fly a plane   /   train a dog / cat  /   fix a car   / apologise /    write a business letter /   write in a second language /   say the alphabet backwards /   read music   /   cook complex meals   /  change oil   / paint nails   /  draw   / socialise   /   march   /   take apart a gun   /   drive a rig   /   operate a tank  / climb a tree /  rock climb   /   tie a cherry stem /  basic first aid /   draw blood  /   put out a fire

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