#may in my mind is just exam season to me rn

[wawapiggy]

i was confused for several days why everyone was talking about and drawing the lu boys as mers

and then i realized it’s mer-may

[str4ngr]

Im so obsessed w kunigami rn plz

Hi! May I request for maybe a drabble? 🥺

If nsfw is allowed: wild card!kunigami being moody and you take care of him anyway while he’s being slightly insecure 😝😝

If pg: reader being sweet to wild card!kunigami even though he’s spouting out whatever bull$h!t 🤣🤣

Thank you!

kunigami's my fav too

TY FOR THE REQUEST ANONN ☺

sorry this took so long omfg exam season be killa

this kinda gonna be like a continuous thing, so like sfw but then nsfw?? idkidk but ill put a line for when it goes nsfw also like idk how well i characterized wildcard

cw: suggestive, gn reader

Kunigami’s heart hurt, how could it not? He was just barely qualified to continue in Blue Lock, through something like a Wildcard! It wasn’t even his own effort that led him there, but being a place behind last. And how could he explain that to you? The one person that makes him smile when your face slithers into his mind during sleepless nights full of stress and self-doubt. Deprivation made him moody, like a child, tantrums of silent treatment at every turn of his day. Even when you were texting him, if you sent a photo of a ceiling instead of your face, if you texted too slowly, or if you were talking with someone else in a group chat. Kunigami fully acknowledged his pettiness, how even though you hung on every word of his texts, he still acted this way. So how could you fix such a moody man? Simple, you thought. At first. Quickly proving itself otherwise, listening to him talk about his insecurities led to practically nothing, as he wasn’t too keen on giving his lover that kind of impression. Of course, you really wouldn’t have cared if it was something he considered embarrassing, because truly, you loved him too much to care. So you sat through every ranting series of texts, having him babble through the phone as you whispered sweet words gently though the call, sweet enough to make his heart skip a beat. Every time he spoke with you, his shoulders got lighter. But he never stopped acting so sad, cause every cheer of encouragement boosted his ego into the sky. So he would grumble into the phone with you, who always listened and always responded with the upmost optimism. He adored how you dealt with him even though he purposefully acted so annoying just because of his stupid addiction to hearing pretty little voice saying pretty little words of encouragement. He couldn't help but get greedy.

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Greed wasn't supposed to be the trait of a hero, but not everyone was perfect. He missed you, only being able to see your precious figure through the screen of his phone he could barely be on. He missed you, he wanted you, he craved you, but did you feel the same? Kunigami quickly fell victim to his desires. Alone at night, way too late to be up and too earlier to go back to bed, your phone would ring. Not often would he call you, solely because he didn't have much time, leaving you in ecstatic joy as you saw who's name was disrupting your all-nighter. But you were met with a different greeting that the usual pet-name and an exaggerate kiss to make you laugh. Rather all you heard was heavy breaths, constrained and controlled, like a muted groan.

"Ren? Are you there?" You heard the straggle of a groan break through the call, causing your brows to furrow. His breath haggled in his throat, was this a good idea? Would he disgust you?

"Fuck, princess, your voice is too sweet." You words lumped together as your head spun to conclusions. You thighs brought themselves together as you could feel yourself getting aroused. "keep talking, c'mon." you lips parted but all you didn't make a sound. You made the effort of saying his name, pushing through the stuttering,

"Rensuke," He sighed,

"Tell me what you said yesterday," You could practically visualize the position his was in. Phone propped to his ear with his shoulder, hand tightly wrapped around himself as his eyes squeeze shut and his lips tighten into a strong line, trying to hold back his noises.

"C'mon, lem'me hear your pretty little voice."

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ao3 - ScarletEvening

lowkey love this n might fix it up to be a proper fic lmk☺☺

[onyourowndaisymae]

a lesson in hexes and curses

i'm in a satan phase rn and i'm making it everyone's problem. this is a rewrite of chapter 29-12 with satan's dialogue lifted directly from the source material. college may be beating me with a steel chair but thirst never sleeps babey

word count: ~ 1.3k

content warnings: lots o' kissin and such, suggestive themes, dom!satan (my beloved) x reader, teasing, nothing explicit but just to be safe minors dni

your vision blurred ever so slightly as you sat on the plush couch, eyes fluttering shut in the wake of your failed hex. you heard a loud thump nearby as mammon's body hit the floor, subdued by what sounded like a very solid kick to the sternum from satan. when the second born was properly subdued, satan spoke up.

"looks like he's lost consciousness. he should be back to normal by the time he wakes up."

he turned to address you, taking a few steps toward the couch and lowering his volume just a little.

"so, you managed to perform the curse, but your delivery was wild. which means you failed. you need to maintain control at all times. when you recite your incantation, you need to say it clearly and with confidence. keep that in mind next time."

"right... i'll do better next time, i promise." you opened your eyes and gave the fourth born a pitiful look.

he sighed and sat next to you on the couch, the sternness on his face soon melting to subtle concern. if your head wasn't spinning, you might have commented on it.

"now, i mentioned this when we were covering the fundamentals, but when you perform a curse, it takes a toll on your body." his gaze bounced across your body, scanning for any outward damage before continuing. "i'm guessing you feel dizzy. i'll go ahead and fix that for you."

his lithe fingers found the spot between your brows, the pad of his thumb pressing in the spot as if to reach through your skull and apply the spell directly to your aching brain.

"'may the vestiges of the curse that linger within the person before me be eliminated. i am the one they call satan... hear my command!'"

a dreamy sigh left your lips as the thrumming in your head faded away in a matter of moments. now you could hear the calming crackle of the fireplace and satan's quiet breathing next to you-- not blood pounding in your ears, eager to remind you of your failure.

"so, how's that? you feel better now, right?"

you melted a little under his watch. green eyes inspected your face as the questions left his lips, brows furrowed ever so slightly as he triple-checked his work. leave it to satan so save your ass-- again. he'd taken up the arduous task of tutoring you for exam season, sacrificing some of his own study time to ensure you got yours. even if it was lucifer's orders, it still meant a lot to you that he did it, that he navigated every one of your slip-ups with ease (and minimal complaint). you were in awe of him once again. was there anything he wasn't capable of? praise fell from your lips before you could reign in your wandering thoughts.

"satan, you're just so amazing..."

he blinked once, twice, drinking in the pleasant sigh that delivered such sweet words to his ears. when his thoughts finally caught up with the present, a warm flush flooded his cheeks. unlike the past, though, satan did not shy away from your praise.

"well, if that's how you feel, then how about a kiss."

maybe it was meant to come out as a question, but the conviction in his voice definitely made it a declaration of want. not like you'd ever mind.

you tilted your head up ever so slightly, eyes closing, leaning in to kiss him-- satan caught you half way, warm lips meeting yours in an attempt to salvage the dignity lost from an over-eager response to a simple compliment. his hand found the side of your neck, slender fingers cool against the heat of your soft skin. his thumb brushed across your throat, a simple expression of need and want communicated by a barely perceptible squeeze. please stay right here. please be mine. i want you to be all mine. your hand found the front of his sweater and grasped gently at the fabric, tugging him closer-- a request he gladly complied with, leaning into your touch without question. his lips were always soft, untainted tonight by the scowl that earned him his namesake, pressing harder against yours now, dominant yet gentle. you knew home was in the plam of his hand. his free hand ghosted across the top of your thigh, knee to hip, eventually settling on your waist and gripping the fabric of your shirt for support.

your lips parted slightly, allowing him access to every part of you, moaning slightly as you felt his tongue glide along yours. his grip on the side of your shirt tightened momentarily, a kiss goodbye to his sturdy self-restraint, before it slipped to the small of your back and pushed your forward into his chest. a surprised gasp left your lips and got caught against his. satan's lips curled into a coy smile against yours, a chuckle vibrating deep within his chest at the lovely little sounds you made. your eager fingers left the front of his shirt and pulled him closer by the nape of his neck, fingers tangling in golden locks, nails scratching slightly against his scalp.

the kiss finally broke-- the need for air was always inconvenient-- and satan wasted no time pressing his lips against the crook of your neck. your head lulled to the side to give him each and every inch he could possibly want, the promise of more pleasure shaving away any reservations you might have, assisted by his slender fingers still holding your throat. warm kisses led to sucking against your tender skin, now bruising under his guidance. his canine, dull in comparison to his demon form yet pleasurably sharp in this moment, dragged across your sensitive skin, pulling a breathy moan from deep within your chest.

he pulled back slightly, breath tickling your cheek as he spoke. you could hear the smug grin pulling at his lips.

"... make sure you keep it down, okay? we don't want to wake mammon."

he peeked over your shoulder at the body slumped against the floor, and you followed suit. mammon was still out cold right where you left him. his arm was twisted awkwardly underneath him-- you knew he'd be complaining about the soreness when he woke.

you felt your body falling back in the direction of your gaze. you jumped just a little, whipping around only to come upon an intoxicating sight. satan's hand was warm against your sternum-- you must have been to distracted to notice it at first-- carefully guiding your back down to the plush cushions of the couch. he grinned from his vantage point above you, nudging your legs open with his knee and slotting himself cozily between your thighs. his green eyes glittered victoriously, melting you into putty underneath his gaze. he didn't even have to open his mouth to leave you speechless.

your head hit the pillow decisively. satan's grin widened. if you didn't know him, you'd think the glint in his eyes and the curl of his lips were malicious. but you'd been under him like this many times before. his gaze held a sharp mirth, like a thief's eyes landing on a crown jewel-- like a predator stumbling across the most delectable of prey. you shuddered under him, shifting in an attempt to hide the mix of anxiety and impatience brewing in your stomach.

"then again... i guess we don't really have to worry about that. from the looks of things, he shouldn't regain consciousness for a good while."

he lowered himself closer, lips finding your jawline and pressing a few teasing kisses from your chin back towards your ear. his teeth grazed your earlobe, breath hot and heavy and alluring, before he murmured in your ear.

"looks like we have all the time we need..."

[sixosix]

kjahadslkjfh

i cant share my thoughts on the newest chapter rn because its exam season for me rn, but i need you to know that i'm staring and pointing- im staring and pointing so hard- i may not have been fully right BUT lksdlkasjkfdh

hjkghjkhg dont mind am just freaking out over the chapter as a whole

-deadman aether anon

OMG GOODLUCK ON UR EXAMS!!!!! focus on your grades first before thawed 🫶 but thank u for reading anyway im very excited to hear what u have in mind

[tranquilpetrichor]

at ease

cast: yeosang (ateez) x gn!reader, mentions of san, wooyoung (ateez), gahyeon dreamcatcher

genre: fluff, slice of life with sprinkle of angst

wc: 314

warnings: brief mention of stress from exams, not proofread

a/n: enjoy the autumn vibes. managed to write something amongst the stress that is life rn. and always, if you want to help a girl beat the algorithm, reblog!

autumn in korea was a kaleidoscope of vibrant colors, with golds, oranges, and reds accompanying you on afternoon walks. a chill breeze ran through the foliage, making the weather cool but not entirely uncomfortable.

in this crisp autumn air, you found yourself alone with kang yeosang, enjoying a picnic in seoul forest. the rest of your friends—wooyoung, san and gahyeon—had left to get more food. you two were in the midst of the park, which left a comfortable silence only broken by distant chatter and the calls of birds.

not that you minded, of course. with him, thankfully, silence wasn't a barrier to your bond.

the two of you stayed like this for a while. feeling relaxed, you took a pastry from the bag beside you and began to eat it, savoring the flavor.

everything about this day felt so blissful in contrast to the prior days of the week. you tapped yeosang on the shoulder, and he turned to you.

"you know, thanks for convincing me to go on this picnic with you guys. i guess i needed it."

he smiled peacefully at you. "figured you did. you may not think i notice it, but you always stress yourself out, especially during exam season."

"ah yes, exams, the fruit of my hard-earned labor," you quipped.

he laughed, and drummed his fingers lightly on the knuckles of your hands. "don't worry, you've got this. and for the record, i'm glad you're here with everyone. it's good to hang out with you. just make sure to rest, okay?”

“i will.”

he held out his pinky and grinned.

“promise?”

overwhelmed with love, you interlocked your own pinky with his.

“i promise.”

wordlessly, you brought him into a hug. his embrace was soft as the autumn wind and vibrant as the autumn foliage.

it was then, you knew, that you were safe and your heart, at ease.

taglist: @restlessmaknae

[psychelis-new]

Feedback

The reason why i asked about my career is bc I was on a study slump for a while ( like 3 months ) and now exam season and finals are coming and I'm really stressed out, as you pointed out.

In fact there are some other jobs in my mind...I had to choose to study something that would benefit me more rather than something I really liked, so i think it could be one of the reasons for my study slump? As a kid I always wanted to make a living out of art, whether it was painting, writing, photography or graphic design but my country doesn't support these jobs. Therefore it was hard for me to make a choice and be satisfied with it. So a change to my career won't be better nor do I feel good about my current place ( a lose-lose situation lol ).

Recently I noticed that I haven't been paying attention to my needs for some reason and i feel drained. So that is also spot on.

Tbh I just look forward to get back on track rn.

Thank you for answering <3

P. S. I love how we can talk about almost anything in this blog in a detailed way and how much you care about your followers. Thank you.

Okay, in order: yes your slump could be caused by you not being really passionate about what you are studying instead of following your passion. And ofc the stress of going against your dreams and doing something you may not like too much, mixed with the one from finals isn't making it easy. Then: sorry, the message about the art field being your passion was kinda there, but Idk why I focused more on another aspect of your reading and didn't mention it. Anyway: the thing is that living of art, as of any passion, is hard anywhere in the world. But not impossible. There's nothing impossible, it depends on how much you're willing to give, maybe lose, and compromise to have it. How brave you are, if we want to say it like this. You need to plan, find your project/idea, find the way to advertise it and yourself (online now is easier), make your online plan, find contributors/collaborating to show... the fact that you're going against your countries' belief is kinda poetic and could even be on your side? But you need to know that things may be very hard in the beginning and you may need to work a lot on that (unless you find the right idea and moment to show it... it's really anything when it comes to art). This said ofc, you need to find your way inside of you and make your own decision. If you rather start with a more common and supported career to make things a little more stable or for any other reason, remember, as I said in your reading, you have always time to change it and follow your passion later on. So many famous actors, directors and artists have found their call (or could pursue it) later in their life. Nothing is said. You are always in charge of your own decisions and directions. Take care!

And ofc I care about y'all. :)

[just-some-random-blogger]

good morning/day/evening, my lovely angel!! youre soso sweet and cute i cant TT 'i was bummed out i couldnt write' its ok dont worry about me! your comfort is the thing that matters the most! give yourself time. 'i havent written in 2 days' its ok. i cant state but do you think it may be burning out? bc you work really hard and have lots of work beside writing. you really owe nothing to anyone. ill repeat it as many times as i need. bc you do great, you study, do covers, you do a lot. thats more than great! you still worth the world and let down noone. and if anyone have the guts to say otherwise, i can have their tongue. you are the priority. if you dont feel like writing, maybe you shouldnt force yourself to do it to even lessen your minds ability to do it rn. give yourself time. tumblrs nothing when it comes to your mental powers. i dont remember if you say smth about 'kiss it better' later but id talk abt it here. i hope things will get better for you. hope your manifest works really well and ability to do creative things cutie. its very comforting. hope you enjoyed writing it. also the whole concept made me remember the song 'guard you' by young k. its just the most comforting song for me. its released on my bday but for some reason i ignored it for months? ill never forgive this. its really good to have someone to take care of you and 'guard you'. even if im not next to you, remember im always here for you and will always support you. 'i have to keep making art. i cant stop' its great if you cant and feel like it. but please dont force and overwork yourself. you are still you if you currently dont have strength to make art. 'i do love his name' your love for masc feminine names is so adorable TT hes not completely CRINGE meme but not a kind(?) meme either. its difficult to explain esp with how humor here is but yes. 'why didnt you put an episode number' i watched it like.. 2 years ago. you think i remember? im a grandcat myself. i need to do a research for it. maybe at weekends (basically its saturday even here rn but nvm). first epp with matt smith is pretty touching esp with karen gillah and a little drama they have but i also like peter capaldis doctor. esp the beginning of his era. well see. and i never watched davids seasons TT im sorry but its true, cant help you here. 'if i cant write this rn' and hows it? 'poor bb girl witch' nooo she shouldnt feel like it TT the point is she loves her love more than she loves the very daemon. 'sounds tiring' reasonable. ig it can be said abt all my ideas. btw, wfal isnt tiring you? or like a burden? ik you dont like writing long things so im kinds worried now. 'i need a cleanse fic' is it kiss it better? anyway do wild girl! 'but i’ll listen to it later' did you listen to it?... im not making you, just interested ghdjfj. also! ive only learnt abt 'Running up That Hill' by Kate Bush (in another witchy playlist...) and 1) i LOVE it sm her voice and the way of singing is so enchanting? 2) it gives me waiting for a lifetime vibes.. yeah its origin meaning isnt exactly abt it but its the magic of art isnt it? the opportunity to interpret it however you want. and the deal with god pretty much reminds me of the au. 'you’ve got such a beautiful brain' thanks TT take it after my catmom. ive got lots of things to do for the exams but my mental state has only allowed me to watch videos with kitties, cry cats and dogs and listen to this song of kate for the past week. theres the one i cried hardest over (subjectively) and theres the one i cried hardest (objectively). theyre just cute if you ever feel like it. and HEs so tiny i SCREAMED. thats it. just cute vids to bring your mood up. how are you? whats the weather like? hope you are or will soon do great. have a nice day/evening/night! ill try to find an episode and write down some ideas, maybe youll find some inspiration in them. good luck with all the hw and assignments! take care! love you<з *freezy kisses for you to not burn in your weather*

hello my love <3 <3 <3

meow meow muning <3

good morning/day/evening, my lovely angel!! youre soso sweet and cute i cant TT

wait why am i so sweet? what did i do?

anyway LOOOK I GOT A NEW OUTFIT FOR LISA!!!

here she is normally

that's all.

'i was bummed out i couldnt write' its ok dont worry about me! your comfort is the thing that matters the most! give yourself time.

T_T but i love you

'i havent written in 2 days' its ok. i cant state but do you think it may be burning out?

T_T ... i think youre right. T_T

bc you work really hard and have lots of work beside writing. you really owe nothing to anyone. ill repeat it as many times as i need. bc you do great, you study, do covers, you do a lot. thats more than great! you still worth the world and let down noone. and if anyone have the guts to say otherwise, i can have their tongue. you are the priority. if you dont feel like writing, maybe you shouldnt force yourself to do it to even lessen your minds ability to do it rn. give yourself time. tumblrs nothing when it comes to your mental powers.

thank you. this means a lot to me to hear this. you dont know how very much your words mean to me.

i want to write. but i cant. i want to write ideas outside my reqs but also i want to make reqs but also i cant. i dont know

i dont remember if you say smth about 'kiss it better' later but id talk abt it here. i hope things will get better for you. hope your manifest works really well and ability to do creative things cutie. its very comforting. hope you enjoyed writing it.

i dont know if i enjoyed writing it but while rereading it i was like 'damn im really good at writing' i hope i get out of this hitch T_T

also the whole concept made me remember the song 'guard you' by young k. its just the most comforting song for me. its released on my bday but for some reason i ignored it for months? ill never forgive this. its really good to have someone to take care of you and 'guard you'. even if im not next to you, remember im always here for you and will always support you.

omg this was yonks parting gift before enlisting. (i call young-k yonk cos thats what it reads like yonk HAHHAH) im so touched that you feel this way towards me T_T i feel the same for you. lol its so funny you ignored it but ended up loving it HAHAH. i want a hug from you for real i want to cry.

'i have to keep making art. i cant stop' its great if you cant and feel like it. but please dont force and overwork yourself. you are still you if you currently dont have strength to make art.

T_T i want a hug. i dont know if im forcing myself but maybe youre right i should stop T_T

'i do love his name' your love for masc feminine names is so adorable TT hes not completely CRINGE meme but not a kind(?) meme either. its difficult to explain esp with how humor here is but yes.

i have nothing else to say about him so heres him with a dog <3 i love the dog dog <3

'why didnt you put an episode number' i watched it like.. 2 years ago. you think i remember? im a grandcat myself. i need to do a research for it. maybe at weekends (basically its saturday even here rn but nvm).

grandcat T_T it ok i just assumed you had an episode in mind. you dont have to research

first epp with matt smith is pretty touching esp with karen gillah and a little drama they have

i'll watch that!

but i also like peter capaldis doctor. esp the beginning of his era.

ive seen crack edits of jenna coleman and him and i kinda wanna watch his too

well see. and i never watched davids seasons TT im sorry but its true, cant help you here.

LOL HAHHAH thats fine thank you anyway i love you

'if i cant write this rn' and hows it?

T_T i cant write it im sorry

'poor bb girl witch' nooo she shouldnt feel like it TT the point is she loves her love more than she loves the very daemon.

She loves her love for daemon more than daemon himself? or daemon lovers her more than daemon ???

'sounds tiring' reasonable. ig it can be said abt all my ideas.

its not your idea that tiring its the idea of writing that tires me. baby i love your ideas T_T please stop exploding on yourself

btw, wfal isnt tiring you? or like a burden? ik you dont like writing long things so im kinds worried now.

🙄 gee. i literally make mood boards for it, i wonder if its tiring. well ok enough sarcasm, it is very much laborious but its a labor of love. i have not enjoyed writing a... series in a long time. its not a burden. i promise you i will stop writing that fic once i feel like im done with it. i was partially joking about ending i at p5 but i do hope i manage to keep it short T_T asfhs/flhsd

'i need a cleanse fic' is it kiss it better? anyway do wild girl!

it was. but idk if i was cleansed

'but i’ll listen to it later' did you listen to it?... im not making you, just interested ghdjfj.

i listened to the first part of the first song and i ejected i dont remember why but i guess i didnt like the vibe T_T

also! ive only learnt abt 'Running up That Hill' by Kate Bush (in another witchy playlist...) and 1) i LOVE it sm her voice and the way of singing is so enchanting? 2) it gives me waiting for a lifetime vibes.. yeah its origin meaning isnt exactly abt it but its the magic of art isnt it? the opportunity to interpret it however you want. and the deal with god pretty much reminds me of the au.

ive listened to this song before. she does have a very strong and enchanting voice. im honored that my fic reminds you things T_T thats so sweet and so nice of you. im honored to have such an impact on you <3

'you’ve got such a beautiful brain' thanks TT take it after my catmom. ive got lots of things to do for the exams but my mental state has only allowed me to watch videos with kitties, cry cats and dogs and listen to this song of kate for the past week.

you and i are so same. our mental capacities are overloaded. i think i might really just stop writing for a while T_T idk ive got these ideas i want to get out of my brain though

theres the one i cried hardest over (subjectively)

T_T PUMA PUMA <3

and theres the one i cried hardest (objectively).

LOOONG BABY FLOOF <3

theyre just cute if you ever feel like it. and HEs so tiny i SCREAMED.

ive seen this before T_T theyre SO tiny i squishhhhh

thats it. just cute vids to bring your mood up.

thank you they mean so much <3 this post is really cute too. im luv

how are you?

im currently in class not listening because id rather reply to you. dw its a concept ive studied before. my head hurts and im hungry. i also want to pee so badly but i cant leave my desk. i want to read fics to badly

whats the weather like?

its so hot my head hurts

hope you are or will soon do great.

me too i hope you are also well.

have a nice day/evening/night!

i love you i hope you have a nice day too <3

ill try to find an episode and write down some ideas, maybe youll find some inspiration in them.

thank you so much <3 the fact you care enough to do that. T_T thank you.

good luck with all the hw and assignments! take care! love you<з

me too T_T i want to graduate. i dont want to fail. i cant fail. T_T i feel dumb sometimes even though i know deep down im not T_T

*freezy kisses for you to not burn in your weather*

thank you <3 i love you

i also wanted to share this video about wolves. i love it so much. it makes me love nature so much. it makes you realize how important it is to allow animals to stay in their habitats.

also this tiger series. i used to watch this so much. i love tiggers love love love

i love you bye bye my love

xxx

[thomas-the-tank-engene]

Too Late

pairing: heeseung x reader, jay x reader (platonic),

genre: angst :,)

wc: 1.5k

warnings: none hopefully

a/n: this is not based on my life rn im doing so good mhmm ._.

(lmao this is literally me ranting pretty much there is no real fic, but i might write another one depending on what happens within the next week or so, may delete this later anyway sooo...)

summary: you realise your feelings for heeseung are mutual too late

“I didn’t want to be the one to tell you this but someone has to,” Jay spoke, eyes already overflowing with pity. You didn’t like where this was going. Nothing good ever came after a sentence like that. The elder boy glanced around, perhaps waiting to see if anyone else was eavesdropping on their conversation in the small indie cafe, sitting on the outskirts of the city.

“You know, I’m not even supposed to know.” You rolled your eyes, wanting Jay to just get it over with and tell you. He was probably just exaggerating. Jay was definitely a drama queen. It was most likely something small that had nothing to do with you. However, the sincere concern rolling off of him like waves told a different story. He gazed at you like you were a fragile piece of glass. Dread began to build in your stomach. You unconsciously began to play with the sachet of sugar placed on your saucer beside the coffee. Listening as the individual grains danced with each other.

“No one can know I told you this. And you especially can’t do anything. You have to pretend you never heard what I’m about to tell you. Just continue like nothing happened.” Well now you were just tired of waiting, you wanted to know. What information could make Jay this antsy, and why was it so important to you specifically? It seemed as if the noise of the cafe stilled, also interested in Jay’s story of the week.

“Just tell me already Jay, I get the message. It's totally top secret. I won’t tell anyone. My only friends are you guys anyway so who else would I tell besides Hee-ryung.” You crossed your arms, attempting to appear nonchalant, but on the inside, you were far from it. Overactive imagination running wild with possibilities. Jay seemed to cringe at the end of your statement, moving his head around once more. You sighed loudly and finally, he breathed in deep, mouth open ready to let the truth fall from his lips.

“Hee-ryung and heeseung have been dating for three months.”

You tried to show no response, attempting to be unaffected by the news. That was harder than one might imagine. Your heart and mind betrayed you, clearly displaying the negative emotions coursing through your body right now for the older boy to see.

Your very own friend, and the guy you had liked since you were 15, were dating. No matter how many times you had told yourself over the last three years that you were over him, it never seemed to be the case. He’d always find a way to slither back in and make himself at home in your heart.

Was that why Hee-ryung asked if you still liked him a few months ago? Probably. You couldn’t believe she would do such a thing. And why wouldn’t she tell you?

You’d been friends since diapers. But the more you thought about it, the more sense it made.

You’d only decided to tell her less than a year ago. When you finally thought you were close enough friends so that she wouldn’t go run and tell him as soon as she got the chance. She smiled at first, but it felt forced. You didn’t think about it much at the time, knowing it was exam season and she was probably just tired. But she was bubbly and excited before you told her.

And yes, the pair of them were close, people always commenting on the fact that they looked like a couple. However, both denied such claims. Making vomiting sounds at the mere suggestion. But thinking about it now, you remember it was more so him, that would have a negative reaction, while she remained silent. Only giving a reaction if specifically asked. “No he’s like a brother to me, I could never date him.”

Well, that was a fucking lie.

Would it burn less if she told you herself?

You breathed in deep, trying to just listen to what Jay had to say for now. You could think about it later.

“They aren��t telling many people at the moment, but Hee-ryung told me the other day.”

He was silent for a few seconds, causing you to abruptly stand up. The air in the cafe suddenly too suffocating. However, Jay spoke up again.

“That’s not all,” You froze. If there was more, did you really want to know?

Maybe it was best if you didn’t. How were you supposed to act like you didn’t know the first piece of information, let alone more?

Your heart longed to know more. A sick part of you loved torturing yourself with the truth, so, you sat back down, and looked at Jay expectantly.

He bit his lip for a second, sighing loudly as if debating on telling you or sparing your heart.

“Just tell me,” You stated.

“Okay, well apparently, heeseung used to like you too, but he gave up because you're moving soon.”

Well shit.

Clink. Splosh. Slurp. Eeek. Crunch. Crack.

Your head was empty. No thoughts could be formed. But the sounds of the small coffee shop echoed through the void.

“Apparently someone told him that you couldn’t do long distance, so he gave up.”

Clink. Splosh. Slurp. Eeek. Crunch. Crack.

You knew who told him that.

You’d asked her for advice, seeing as she was one of his best friends.

“As much as I love you babes I have, to be honest. I don’t know if it would work. You’re moving away next year, and he’s staying here. I know he could make a long-distance relationship work, but could you?”

“Well, I think that I’d be alrigh-”

“We can't fight what the heart wants, can we? Would you be able to resist your desires while you’re so far apart?”

You didn’t respond after she said that. How could you? What was she accusing you of? Who did she think you were? Unloyal? Certainly not.

“So personally, my guess is that after heeseung decided to get over you, she swooped in and they’ve been dating pretty much ever since.” Jay continued, unaware of the turmoil going on inside.

Clink. Splosh. Slurp. Eeek. Crunch. Crack.

Clink. Splosh. Slurp. Eeek. Crunch. Crack.

Clink. Splosh. Slurp. Eeek. Crunch. Crack.

“Are you okay?” Jay asks hesitantly.

And you decide that you are.

Smiling at the boy, you nod your head. Jay isn’t certain he believes you but attempts to return the smile. In fact, he’s almost put off by your response.

“There’s nothing I can do about it anyway. And they’re both my close friends, so I’m happy for them. Plus, I wouldn’t want to ruin anything. They both mean a lot to me and their happiness should come first.” You felt almost robotic. Like you had to be okay. Like that was a response written by the author in your head.

“You’re allowed to be upset. I would be. She’s your friend.”

Crack.

“Yeah, she was.”

Maybe if you’d been a little bit more observant, you would have noticed. Would you have saved yourself from this heartache?

You recall her bringing him up on one occasion. Jokingly, you had asked for her to tell you his faults, hoping to dull the crush that seemed to burn so bright inside of you.

“If I’m being honest, he really has no faults, he’s just an all-round amazing guy. His only fault is being faultless.”

Well, that was as clear a sign as any.

How could you not see then? That those were not the words of a mere friend but of a fool drunk on love. Too blinded by their obsession for a person to see the truth. Even you weren’t too dumb to ignore the truth.

You knew for a fact he had a crippling addiction to energy drinks, to the point that it was getting concerning. You knew that he wasn’t good at being serious in professional situations. Often goofing around in front of the Senior Headmaster in high school. And you knew that he wasn’t always that nice to his younger brother.

Were you just as much a fool as her for liking him while still knowing his faults?

You’d decided that it was enough torture for today.

“Thank you for telling me. I appreciate it.” You smiled at the older boy, although it most likely appeared as a grimace.

“Hey, any time. And if you need me, or want to rant, or just want some company, I'm only a message away.”

“Thanks Jay,”

Said boy, sensing your need to be alone, slowly got up. He gave your head a small pat before heading off and out of the cafe, into the frost of the evening.

You didn’t want to cry over a boy. That was just sad and pathetic and you were certainly not that desperate. But you couldn’t help the few that escaped.

Maybe if you’d worked up the courage to tell him how you really felt you wouldn’t be here right now.

Sitting at a slightly sticky table in a small cafe, with the sound of teacups chiming and your heart cracking echoing in your ears.

It was all too little, too late.

[nagisasstunningpersonality]

Hello! I was wondering if you had an idea about when events in AssClass happened? Like which month or so? Like, at the end of March we know that Korosensei made his grand escape, and in April he made the deal with the government and stuff. But what about the other events? Such as Irina’s arrival and the Kyoto trip? Researching is getting hectic and I end up more confused than before ;-;

*cracks knuckles*  Right. So. With no real research at all (my manga are halfway across the country rn), I’m going to speak from my instincts or something. This confused me a lot when I was writing TINSITOGS, so I have thought about it a lot! (even though a lot of that timeline is BSed for plot convenience honestly). 

Japan note! Western people, cast the whole “school starts in august/September” out of your minds. It doesn’t exist in Japan. The school year starts in April, when the cherry blossoms are blooming. It ends in March. There’s still a long summer break, and a shorter winter one for New Years.  Karma was suspended for three weeks, I believe? We know it happened some time in second year, since the language “you’ll be starting third year” and the fact that he was defending his senpai. So Karma Time can’t happen after more then three weeks into term, which would put that at the end of April at the latest. It’s unclear whether his suspension carried over the school year or not?  Test time PROBABLY takes place during mid/late May, since it’s a midterm. That would mean that Irina arrives maybe a week or two after Karma at the absolute latest. I think the Kyoto trip probably happens pretty soon afterwards, also in May, maybe? Considering how much other stuff has to happen. 

The series doesn’t really touch on the rainy season at all, skipping pretty much straight to just summer stuff, but we can assume Ball Game Tournament Time - End of Term Time take place between June and July. Japanese summer break starts usually July 20th ish. 

I’ve seen a lot of people throw around “august 8th” for the island arc thing, though I’m not actually sure if that has canon evidence. It seems about right to me, though. The summer festival would have been pretty soon after. 

One solid event we do have is Irina’s birthday, October 10th, which Karasuma forgets and causes the whole reaper arc. We can therefore designate everything that happens before that to September/early October. 

I think school festival time would be almost immediately after, within the next week or so. The university I attended in Tokyo was attached to a high school, and they had their festival on October 12th (with others all having at vaguely similar times), so you can put that in mid/late October. 

We then completely skip to, like, the end of December? Since we’re at the end of the school term, and their final exams. A lot of events happen in quick succession there. But the whole Kayano and Korosensei confession thing happen decidedly at the end of term. 

Karma and Nagisa’s fight takes place, I would say, at the start of January. Mostly because it’s the only way we have enough time to fit in the whole space arc, until we reach the next definite date which is, of course, Valentines day on 14th February. 

We know, of course, that Korosensei’s birthday is March 13th, so you can fill in the blanks there. The class were also being observed by the government for a week or two, I think? 

So basically, in conclusion, Matsui didn’t think about it too well. By that I mean, he was more concerned with making certain events happen in the right time narratively, that actually checking a physical date time line kind of thing. So there’s a couple of places that don’t make much sense, but I think it works at least. 

I know it’s not pretty like this. Maybe I’ll make a nicer looking time line at some point? I hope it helps, anyway. 

[volexis]

tagged by the lovely lois @1642lux, thank you bb! i hope you’re having a wonderful day!

tagging (pls dont feel like u have to!): @amoroushero, @osamusriceballs, @inakou, @millie-mint, @mracleboy, @taiyaaki

preferred name — elle, ellie, anything along those lines 💕

birthday — May 4th, Star Wars Day 😎

where do you live — in a state of constant anxiety 🤩

three things you're doing rn — checking tumblr when i should be doing math homework, grading history exams, writing a short drabble in my mind as i work lmao

fandoms — anime: haikyuu, bnha, jjk, hunter x hunter, demon slayer, the promised neverland

non-anime:  pjo, harry potter (not really but i was heavily obsessed ages ago so i have extensive knowledge on it), tsc by cassandra clare

how has the pandemic treated you — my mental health plummeted drastically during the first few months due to a combination of finals and being quarantined with my parents but now i’ve adjusted pretty well to being in the house all the time so i guess i’ve become a bit of a hermit?? lmao

a song you can't stop listening to — line without a hook by ricky montgomery (it popped up in my playlist and now it’s been on repeat for days oop) and harmony hall by vampire weekend!

recommend a movie — i don’t watch movies too much but here are some of my favorites: dead poet’s society, mrs. doubtfire, spirited away, a silent voice, bruce almighty, and even though it’s not a movie, violet evergarden is absolutely marvelous and you should check it out if you can!

school, uni, occupation, other — school/college/uni, whichever one you’d like to call it

do you prefer heat or cold — cold! i live in a very hot city with little to no seasons so it’s a blessing when a small cool breeze rolls in during february 😔

name a fact others might not know about you — i’m left-handed like ushiwaka! unlike ushi, most of the people around me tend to forget about that until they actually see me writing something down and go crazy about it lmao

are you shy — sadly, yes. i tend to be very reserved when around new people or people i don’t know too well but around my family and friends i’m pretty extroverted! the only exception to these tendencies is when i’m dealing with customer service or people in the service industry (i.e.: ordering food at a restaurant)

preferred pronouns — she/her

pet peeves — people interrupting my thought process while i’m writing or doing literally anything, my lizard brain will immediately forget what i was about do write/do

fave "-dere" type — ngl i had to google these i cannot remember their names for the life of me but imma have to go with a tsundere? i guess?

life rn — this picture sums it up lmao

main blog — this one!

sideblogs — don’t have any as of now but i might make one later on

what you need to know before becoming my friend — i’m terrible at keeping up with messages/texts! if i don’t answer in a while i’m not mad or anything i just literally forgot 😅

also!! i can be v energetic and talkative if i like your vibe so i guess i’m either complete ghosting you for like 6 hours or spamming you with 5+ messages so fair warning... regardless of how much or how i interact with you just know you already mean the world to me and i adore you 🎉💕

[purplesurveys]

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Alphabetti Spaghetti (3/3)

Please believe. - P

How many pages did the last book you read have? I don’t even remember the last time I opened it; but if I have to guess, it’s probably anywhere between 600–800 pages.

What do you like on your pancakes? Soaked in butter, with peanut butter and maple syrup on the side. My dad will also sometimes mix bacon into the batter, and it always turns out delicious.

Do you like small parties or large parties more? I love going to any kind of party, but I like large ones just a little bit more just because it’s easier to blend in and go unnoticed for the most part. I usually feel pressured at smaller parties.

What was the last exam you passed in? I have no idea. Maybe a history exam? I remember taking a Rizal exam right before the pandemic started and I never got the results for that since classes were canceled shortly after. I’ll never know if I actually passed that test haha.

Do you think paw prints are cute? Yesssssss.

How much would you pay a neighbour to do your lawn? We have someone in the village who does that, and my mom usually gives him a tip of I would guess around ₱100.

Ordinary pens, scented pens, gel pens or felt tip pens? Ordinary. The other ones write horribly.

Are you a people person? I’ve grown to be one over the years. I do like my alone time, but I have the most fun with a person or two or ten around me.

Do you put pepper on your scrambled eggs? No. I never use pepper myself, actually.

Who, except yourself, has the nicest pet? Angela’s, at least one of her dogs are. Hailey is super nice and she doesn’t really care what you do with her hahahaha.

What's your favourite piece of clothing? Right now, probably my IVP sneakers since they’re my newest purchase. Other than that, my mom jeans are always super reliable.

What place have you gone to that you never would again? Police stations that I had to visit to cover stories for my journalism classes. Maybe it’s other people’s passion – and I thought it was mine at one point, too – but once I found myself in places like that I slowly realized that I didn’t have the fire for journalism I once thought I had.

What do others seem to have plenty of and you have little or none? Nice photos of themselves. I’m very camera shy.

Is pink a nice colour, an okay colour or icky? I personally love pink, so.

Give me a description of a great film plotline? ...I don’t feel like it :(( I also haven’t watched/rewatched any films in a while, so my memory is a bit rusty.

What do you have in your pockets? Nothing I’m wearing right now has pockets.

Do you listen to podcasts? Not really. I’m part of the minority that finds podcasts a little boring.

Have you ever played Poker? I’d guess I’ve tried playing it one or two times, but I’ve never understood the rules and I probably just did some random moves when I did try it.

Do you have a pond in your garden? No.

How about a swimming pool? We don’t.

Do you like Poptarts? I loooooove Pop Tarts and I wish we had more flavors here :( and that they weren’t so expensive.

Do you write notes on post-it notes? Sometimes; but lately I’ve mostly just been making to-do lists on my laptop. Writing takes too much time considering how hectic my job is.

Quiet darling, shh. - Q

Do you ever use the word quaint? Very rarely. I never really get into situations where that word would be most fitting to use.

Do you know what quantum physics is? I know of the term from watching The Big Bang Theory, but I don’t know what it refers to.

Are you a quiet or loud person? Depends on the people I’m with, my general mood, and my level of comfort.

Do you usually ask a lot of questions? I never do. I feel like that’s a weakness of mine, too. My mind never wanders too far, and I’m only able to recognize good questions when someone else raises them.

What's your favourite quote from a film? “Rome. By all means, Rome.”

Favourite quote from a song? “Now I’m told this is life, and pain is just a simple compromise so we can get what we want out of it.”

Are you quick witted? In what aspect? Not always; but yeah, I guess it comes out sometimes. I’m pretty good at witty or funny comebacks, especially with people I’m comfortable with.

Do you find the word queer offensive? Er, no?

Roses are Red and Romance is dead. - R

Do you listen to the radio often? I used to, since I once drove to school everyday and I liked having the radio on - especially in the morning, since there was a morning program I was hooked to. But now that I’m at home 24/7, I don’t really tune in anymore; I don’t even have the slightest clue what songs are trending rn.

Do you prefer rain or snow? We only get rain, so.

Have you ever ran into someone and injured you or them due to it? Fortunately no, for both circumstances.

Do you listen to rap music? K-Pop groups always have their own rap sub-unit, so yeah I’ve definitely been more exposed to rap these days.

Do you find pet rats gross or nice? Why? I guess it’s cute when they’re pets, since I’m sure they’re harmless. Not so much when they’re big black filthy rats that are house pests and probably carrying a lot of diseases.

Have you ever been to a rave? No. I’d love to experience it once.

Are you somewhat of a rebel? Nah.

How about reckless? Now this hits the spot more, especially when it comes to money lol

Do you prefer red, black or purple dresses? Black, then red, then purple. I don’t wear a lot of the latter to begin with.

Do you know how to reload a gun? I don’t; I’ve never even held a real gun before.

Do you remember your first best friends Mum's name? I don’t think I ever met her mom. Our friendship was super short-lived and didn’t go beyond preschool.

Do you have a good or a bad reputation? Idk, you’d have to ask other people for this I think.

What song do you request most often on the radio? I’ve never requested a song to radio stations.

Do you prefer rice or tofu? I need rice for literally every meal, otherwise it won’t feel filling. I like tofu too, but I only have it occasionally when it comes with some dishes.

Have you ever held a rifle? Nope.

Do you know a Robert? What's he like? I have an uncle-in-law named Robert. He’s very nice, and super intelligent; he’s from New Zealand but currently lives with my aunt and their family in Vietnam. Since he’s from a different country, he has lots of fun stories and different perspectives to share at family reunions, which makes me always want to sit at whichever table he’s at so that I can be part of interesting conversations.

Do you like rollercoasters? No.

Been to Rome, Italy? Nope.

Are Roses your favourite flower? They’re one of them.

So sweetheart, lets fan. - S

Do you feel safe in your neighbourhood? Yeah, I mean that’s kind of the whole point in living in a gated village. I’d be pretty alarmed if I ever hear of a crime happening here.

Whose the Patron Saint of your Country? St. Lorenzo Ruiz. I actually didn’t know that for a fact, so thanks for the Google search and impromptu lesson!

Do you put salt on your fries? Yessssssss, I need my fries to be very salty. Unless it was already seasoned with something else, I’d find it boring if it wasn’t salty enough.

Do you think we are all born the same? In some ways, yes; in some ways, no. I know everyone is born as humans worthy of love and respect, but when it comes to factors like privilege then that’s when circumstances start to get all different.

When did you stop believing in Santa? I never bought it. I used to always get frustrated that I was never allowed to meet Santa (none of my relatives ever played as him), and that he apparently just likes to leave gifts at midnight. Not seeing a Santa made me doubt and eventually I just kinda stopped buying it by the time I was like 5.

Do you think the name Sarah is pretty? Erm, it’s fine but I find it a little common.

Is Saturday your favourite day of the week? Fridays are, but Saturdays are a very close second.

Have you ever watched Saved By The Bell? Opinions? Nope.

What about the Saw films? Opinion? I haven’t, but I know they’re my eldest cousin’s favorite so it must be a good series.

Are you easily scared? In certain ways. I hate jumpscares for one, and I easily get offended by them.

What's your secondary language, if any? English.

Name all the things you can see from where you're sitting? The entirety of my bedroom.

What's the last sentence you spoke out loud? “JAY KAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY”

Have you changed your default settings on your computer? Some of them just to change some aspects of the appearance, but I didn’t do a complete overhaul.

What year did you turn seven in? 2005.

How important is sex in a relationship how important is sex from 1-10? For me, probably like a 3 or 4.

What is your favourite shade of blue? Sky or royal.

Shade of Purple? BTS purple, I guess? Hahaha.

Favourite shape? I don’t have one.

Do you know a girl called Sharon? Nope.

How about Shari? Nope.

Do you shave your arms, legs, pubic hair and/or somewhere else? I shave, but not all of these areas.

When was the last time you were sick? May 2020 was the last time I felt like death.

What's the worst side effects you've had due to a medication? I’ve never gone through side effects from a medication.

What does your signature look like? A very lazy scribble of the first and last letters of my whole name.

Do you like silk? What do you own that is silk? It’s okay, but I never actively search for it. I have one set of silk pajamas but that’s it.

Do you sip or drink hot drinks fast? As much as possible I don’t like getting in contact with hot beverages. I wait for them to cool down considerably before I take my first sip.

How about with alcohol? Sure, I like to take them fast so that I don’t feel the nasty burn on my tongue.

Do you have sisters? How many, what ages and what're they called? Nina is turning 21 this year.

Is your grandmother older than sixty five? Both of them are, yeah.

Do you slam doors often? Nope.

Have you ever slapped someone in the face? For what reason? Yes. Because he had slapped me first. I was in so much shock that my first and only instinct was to hit back.

Do you snack a lot or just eat big meals? I like letting myself go hungry then reward myself with a very generous serving to eat in one go.

Do you smile more often, or frown? Smile.

Are you wearing socks? No, I haven’t worn any in a while.

Do you say sorry too often? Yes.

What's a sound that always soothes you? This. I always play it before turning in, or when I need to calm down.

Do you carry a lot of spare change? How much is on you now? Not so much anymore, since I’ve been increasingly going cashless.

Do you own a swimsuit of the Speedo brand? I don’t think so.

Do you like sunflowers? They have a personal meaning to me, so yes. It’s not my ultra favorite, though.

[shiro-0197]

aw shiro, my love, don't worry about it!! i only hope you're okay and safe :d please only reply when you're free, and don't feel bad about it!! >:(

my day yesterday was okay, i've just been relaxing, and studying occasionally. went out to explore a nearby town too, it's so pretty there. and much colder (since it's a highlands) of course!! Today was great too. I bought doughnuts (they're amazing?? I love doughnuts), and I had instant ramen, but it was SO spicy I nearly died. (Three bottles of water later, because someone finished all the milk in the household *cough* me *cough*) and I'm still just reeling. Sucks having such low spice tolerance HAHA. I'm listening to some old school hip-hop rn, while typing this out :D how were your two days?

here are some i'll be using to teach english :d and that would honestly be much appreciated, he's getting on my last nerve rn. (I included the first few, what do you think?)

thats such a priceless feeling i so totally agree. you're so precious 🥺🥺 i'm sure they're prouder thank you imagine. you're so dedicated!! i'm sure all that extra research you've done will definitely pay off. it's good that you know what the job is roughly like, so you'll be really prepared when you finally do start it. you know that one scene, in the 2nd season of the great pretender? when the chinese mafia boss emphasizes the importance of a translator in literally everything? (like that book award example) i may be getting the thing muddled up, but i found that so cool. like yeah, a book or speech could be absolutely beautiful, but if everyone can't enjoy it due to it being a different language, it would be such a shame. i just find translators really important. sorry, i'm really dorky haha 🥺🥺

awww but i think your personality type is wonderful. a lot of my favourite characters are intj (they're all so precious istg grrrr) yes!! i was in a tooru brainrot yesterday too 😭😭😭 (saw a bunch of couples on my walk, and I was like "if only Tooru was real grrrr") and yes?? there'd be so much to learn from each and every one of them. dedication from hinata, savage lines from tsukki, kindness from yams/yachi, how to be a dork 101 from atsumu. aaaah 😭😭i'm sorry they're all so wonderful.

No pftttt I totally feel you. I saw some people without masks today and I was like "bro wtf" and just really loudly said "I sure hope everyone starts following the rules so the cases don't increase" because I'm a lil bitch like that xD

awww okay!! I'll definitely keep that in mind. Mayo makes everything better, tbh >.< aww that's understandable! I don't have specific preferences but hearing the phrase "soggy cheese" makes me want to cry somewhere :( I don't like nuts in chocolate. I'm very passionate about that? XD ikr??

I'm surprised too, I usually never pass on murder, but I guess you're just special like that 👉👈 sir I'd get married to you as many times as you'd like 😼 oops sorry for being cheesy, but—you like cheese ;)

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I won't ask why, don't worry. Since I kinda feel the same about Malaysia tbh. It's a love hate relationship, I think HAHA but yeah 😣😣 i don't look up to US at all, and it sucks because people generally do. And I'm just like ;-; why (no offense to Americans tho lol)

is that even legal omg they're so chaotic?? XD how cute tho. Angel does stuff like that all the time too, but I'd never know that when I first met her (she has the most perfect exterior, and then when you get to know her; she's the biggest dork) Schools opening on the 20th, I can't wait to see her then :] (I can, however, wait for the exams which are scheduled for the 25th ugh)

peanut butter is indeed yellow, not up for discussion hehe :) here's my favourite hues!! I love gentle, soft hues like these (pastels) , for yellow; I don't have a favourite. they're all wonderful

ahhh no that's so precious of you!! :)) I'm smiling rn.

yeah skdhskdjsk I'M JUST SO GRRR. Whenever someone goes "hey Ari can you ______" and we both respond?? The tension?? In the air?? Bro skdjskks. 😔🤚 You share a name with one of the most precious characters too tho!!;

This is Shiro from Voltron hehe. I love him so much, just like I love you (tho I'm sure we both know I love you more <3)

I share a name with a book character. His name is Aristotle Mendoza, but his crush-turned-boyfriend calls him "Ari" (which has been my nickname since I was 12). Reading it for the first time was the BEST feeling ever. It's also my favourite book, "Aristotle and Dante discover the secrets of the universe".

—Ari :D (no pfttt I love the tag so much. I have my own tag, that's like the best thing ever 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺)

Heyyy I'm so sorry for answering so late!! I know you said not to apologize but..... well hmm no excuse I just feel like apologizing, but either way thank you for your patience!!♡ This is the third time I'm rewriting this, and this time I'm doing this in my notes because fuck it😔

Im glad to hear that!! Highlands are always so pretty. Wish we had those here, but it's only steppe here:( Boring~ ooh, donuts!!! They're really good. I havent much, but I tried them like 3 times and they're so good. I really hope I will get to eat more<3 also WHAT'S THOSE NOODLES' NAME I WANNA KNOW- Are you feeling okay now, though? XD

My days were nice!!! Felt as if I had been hiding three bodies, but I've been feeling better lately. We had online school yesterday so I'm excused from the errands for the half of the day, thankfully. But your messages make me very happy. Though I dont always feel like writing a response (or I get stressed because it doenst save) so very sorry for that😔

Ohh those look so pretty!! I'd totally join to just look at them. The colors are so nice🥺 it looks like one of our olympiad prep slides, though better. I dont have the screenshots sadly😩 Either way I really love the little details like the squiggly thingies or the Ж .... they seem unnecessary but the energy changes a lot without them hehe

I really hope they will be🥺 that'd mean a lot to me. And I'm also really hopeful itll work out. I really don't wanna disappoint my family, which is literally just one person. The less people there are, the more it hurts, you know?

Yeah, that scene meant so much to me!! I dknt remember much, but I was very happy they said something like that, because I've been told being a translator wont work out for me. Now look at me, I'm about to tell them to fuck themselves<3 I was also so surprised to see Laurent know that many languages ..... I aspire to be like him😩 And honestly, I havent though so deep of that but you opened my eyes and now I'm about to float off into the next universe😭 dont apologize though, its very cute!!!♥︎♥︎

Heheh, I guess you're right.. every single anime INTJ is a silent sexy mastermind and I love them . ... YEAH every single time I see a passing couple i cry because I dont have anyone 😡💔 and sometimes when I see people doing something amusing (which includes people failing cuz I'm evil) I just imagine one of the characters doing that and I smile all the way xD Honestly, I'd sell my father on black market for a single day with one of them:( though that may sound like a really low price because his cigarette filled lungs wouldnt cost a lot... I sound like my 7th grade self again I'm so sorry

BAHQHHANEJWJD I HOPE THEY WERE EMBARRASED. I HOPE THEY FELT AWKWARD AND OTHER PEOPLE DID TOO, they deserve it. Like, learn your lesson bitch, it's been a year!

Yeah!!! I love mayo, not to the point where I would gulp it down from the package, but it does make dishes taste good. Same, soggy cheese on itself sounds like a dish served in the ninth circle of hell. You should try nuts in honey!! Like, just straight up dip them in honey. Sounds weird, and it doesnt always taste NEJFJKSKF (depends on the honey)but I think it's worth trying xD Walnuts are the best with honey I think

That was so funny ... TOO FUNNY, I LAUGHED FOR LIKE . 3MINUTES STRAIGHT and I do not laugh when I'm tired. You really are special 😭😭😭😭 cheesy ... HAHRNFJJSF

I'm so sorry for being a bully like that but it's so funny how you left a single U there . Its so mysterious, was it in purpose? Or were you lost in the excitement if messaging me?

I was one of those people, honestly 😭 but mostly because I wasnt aware of its political condition, I guess. Maybe theres more than just politics that's bad about US, but honestly, it has more opportunities than this hellfire. Though now I'm more into Norway and Japan. Really wanna travel there :(

Heheh, yeah, we never really show off to strangers at first. I dont know what exactly I mean by we, but you get my point ♡ Good luck though!! I hope it goes well for you<3

Oh they looks so pretty!! They're really wonderful. Like bubblegum and cotton candy and literally anything sweet... it's so cute !!! And I totally agree, there isnt a bad yellow.

HAHAH, honestly, that reminds me of how there were 4 people with the same name in my class, and whenever the teacher did the attendance thing, they would all stand up. Teachers usually dont say the last names, so we always gotta ask which person they mean if theres more than one person with that name, so yeah.. That happened on accident at first, but then they just did it for trolling xD

OH MY GOD HES SO PRETTY? HES SO PRECIOUS?? HUHHH??? I gotta thank Kuro for this wonderful opportunity of sharing a name with someone like .... him🥺

Oh that's so cool!! Also, he has a boyfriend ... I really need to start reading xD it's so cute though! It sounds like such a good book, I'm glad you share a name with him, hehe!!

I also share my real name with one of the characters in a kids' show, and its SO ugly, I'm in pain. Every time my friends see one of those on TV they go

Which is a pain in the ass, it's so embarrassing...........

Awh, okay!! I'm glad you love it, cuz I do too. Because it's your name.... cuz I love u. That was so lame PLEASEJWJDJSJF I HOPE YOUR DAY WAS GREAT !!! LOVE YOU

[fanishjuli]

content and fandoms (rant)

you known what my favourite part about content is nowadays?

let me tell you, I'm watching Gotham rn. started yesterday, lunchtime. now, it's almost midnight, like 36 hours later and I just finished season one. twenty two chapters that is, like 45 minutes each. it's a really good series, I'm hooked up real bad.

but you know what just came to mind? I've been, since yesterday evening, wishing I could just finish it already. it's four seasons long, and it's about to be exams week, so I probably won't finish it until end of may, if I'm lucky that is.

but I want real bad to just finish it already.

but that's not the interesting part, no, the interesting thing is why I want to finish it soon. it's because I want to go scroll down the Gotham tag here on Tumblr. it's so I can go check the tag over on ao3. it's to see what ships are, if other people like the same ships I think could work together, if people think the same thing I do about one character or another.

the thing I like most about content it's their fandom.

I enjoy watching gifs on my dashboard of my favourite scenes, I like reading theories and make-overs, I'm always the first to reblog when I see some fan art and I can't tell you just how much I like reading fics. fanfiction.

and all that? all that comes from the fandoms. fandoms creat all this, for their enjoyment and for the enjoyment of others. and god that's beautiful.

I've been on a lot of fandoms in my life. I honestly don't think I can count them. but I always love the same things about them; the content.

and yeah, each fandom is different, of course. some fandoms really go well with eachother, a lot of people from one are usually in the other. some not. and that's fine, that's the beauty of it. you can like whatever you want, and I assure you, there's something for you out there. as small as a fandom can be, it's out there. and if it isn't the go make your own fandom! that's the beauty! you can share content like nowhere else, and that's the beauty of it.

and yes, Tumblr may be dying and some fandoms may be dying and whatever all that.

but let me tell you, I've been reading fanfiction for like six years now, and that's not a lot, there are lots who've been much longer, and I've read about so many things, so many fandoms, son far away one from the other they can probably just keep walking straight and meet going around the globe the other way it'd be shorter. but like hell I can tell you I enjoy it.

because the beauty of content, let me tell ya', is sharing it.

[ohoshi]

HIIIII CORAAA !!!!! I really miss you :((( I thought that I would be more active here now that my exams are over but apparently I've gotten used to not being on tumblr so idk I guess I sort of drifted(?) from here which is kinda sad cos I used to be really active here 😔 I'll try to be more active here tho

anyways I've also been busy pc collecting hehe so that's another reason why I'm not really on here often and just wanna say that pc collecting is really not good for my wallet 😭😭 I have a thing for cardboard men now 🙃

also rn I'm not like updated with all the svt content coming out (except for going seventeen cos I watch it with my bro) because I'm currently in my 'nct mood' so I've been focusing more on nct stuff these days. I'm terrible at multitasking so I can like only focus on one grp at a time. also not sure if I've asked you this before but do you have a bias in nct? I have 5 biases :D which are mark, haechan, yangyang, chenle and renjun and honestly I can't even choose my most fav member cos all of them wreck me constantly 😖

anyways how have you been? I hope you've been doing well <33 I'm just lazing around and watching tons of shows like recently I watched youth with you 3 and crash landing on you with my mom so yep that was fun

tbh I really miss sending asks like this to you so I hope I can talk to you more often before sch starts next year and it's gonna be hectic next year so I probably won't be active here a lot too 😣 anyways I hope you have a great day/night and remember to drink lots of water !! sending my love 💞💖💕💘💖

HIIIIIII MEI I MISSED YOU TOO <33333333333333

it's ok you're just not feeling it i guess asdhjasgdhja don't force yourself to be here if you're not feeling it !! but if you want to talk i'll be here hehe <333

OMGG YOU'RE NOW COLLECTING PCS??? whose ??? of a group?? of a certain member? is it just boo's pcs? BUT YEAH AJSDJHASGD I KNOW IT CAN BE PRETTY EXPENSIVE 😭😭😭 but tbh i get it <3 the urge to collect them i mean ajgshdha soemthing about pcs............................. evil expensive things i love so much >:(

OMG YOU'RE AN NCTZEN NOW !!!!!!!! excited ahsgdfasghdfahgsd i was a diehard nctzen last year and i used to have a lot of biases too ahsfdgajs now i am pretty much just a dreamzen and my current biases are jaemin/ten/mark but i still get wrecked by other members lol what did you think of universe?? what are your favorite tracks ??

i've been well!! i'm a bit busier now and i spend most of my day studying jagshdhjs i have exams soon so i'm a bit stressed 😵 but overall i'm fine!!!!!! OMG I LOVED YOUTH WITH YOU help i was obsessed with it ajgsdjafsgh well i mean hsdah i was obsessed with season 1 and then i watched season 2 as well but i didn't watch after that ahdgasjdaghssa IT'S A FUN SHOW THO idk why i always liked it better than kpop survival shows on mnet? like usually i do not watch this type of shows 😭 and ngl i'd keep watching youth with you but i just don't have time rn asfdkjasgdjas it's so cute that you're watching it with your mom 😭😭😭😭😭 oh oh there's one thing i'm watching lmao and it's txt's to do but that's because i have this little routine with bff so we watch it together if we didn't i doubt i'd watch it regularly ahdfsjahgsd lately i've been into some other groups too can you tell MOSTLY THE BOYZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am now whipped for ji changmin don't tell anyone 🤫

but you don't need to miss sending me asks !!!!! YOU CAN ALWAYS JUMP IN MY INBOX AND SAY WHATEVER'S ON YOUR MIND <333333333 oh why will your school year be hectic????? if i may ask 😯 anyways enjoy your break while it lasts <333 *getting up and drinking water*

[teenwolves-ahead]

Oh wow hello

- lemme ramble for a minute, skip further down if you're not interested in what happened and why I went awol - A little while ago (I'm actually not sure when it was now), I logged off tumblr and most of my social media linked to this, deleting friends left and right just because. Well, the reason was my deteriorating mental health, but I didn't realise that until I went to see a doctor. It wasn't even exam season and I was so overwhelmed with people and attention and expectations that I felt that friends I had made here hated me, didn't need me despite anything they said and I lied to make them feel that I was the bitch who was going to leave for no reason. Well, I mean I was and I guess I still am, but the no reason was a lie. I didn't want pity or people offering help. I'm independent and I like taking care of myself in the way that I don't need others to help me. I decided that was what would be best for me. I'm sure you're familiar with my pack. I am the heartless piece of shit who just up and left without a goodbye, who decided that I needed a break and didn't consult with anyone. On top of that, my phone also broke so even if I wanted to I couldn't come back on here or anything. I love every single person I just left, I just couldn't understand what was going on with me and fight or flight kicked in and flight it was. I'm so sorry to everyone. Especially the pack. - real talk, stuff you need to read - I disappeared because of mental health issues but I am back on a part time basis. I am going to be answering questions and stuff, all asks in my inbox, and I will try to reconnect with you all as possible. I apologise for disappearing without a word. However, I will not be as active as I once was, I am going to finish my last year of school and then gonna start all over again. I will finish the Halsey series finally, BUT I AM AFRAID I WILL BE ABANDONING ANY PAST REQUESTS. PLEASE SEND THEM IN TO TALENTED WRITERS SUCH AS ELLIE OR ANYONE PART OF THE PACK OR WHOEVER I DO NOT MIND BUT IF YOU SENT ME A REQUEST THAT I HAVE NOT WRITTEN I WILL NOT BE WRITING IT. I will post a full list of all requests I will e abandoning this week sometime. I am going to university in September, and I am going to start another blog, which will be multi-fandom. I will leave this blog up with a link to my master list and to my new blog. I just need to start this cluttered mess again tbh. Once again, I apologise for leaving, I don't care what I get in my inbox tbh, but I will be restarting things to clear my plate. I'll keep you updated. Halsey series will hopefully be finished by May, but I cannot say for sure. I have so many deadlines I'm quite dead rn tbh, I just missed having you all here tbh. I love you all, thank you for sticking with me, there are things coming soon I promise.

[codango]

I'd love anything (100) with Aone! or 3. 'You don’t have to worry, I’m here.' with anyone from Haikyuu if you're not feeling Aone rn. I'm excited for the drabbles regardless of what you write!

EDIT: It occurred to me, Anon, that you might not have asked this because you knew about my Aone fic on AO3 (That’s not what he’s saying). Hence, a short explanation: I answered your prompt as Chapter 2 of a short fic about Aone falling in love with an OC of mine, Tatsu. Tatsu makes his first appearance in another Haikyuu fic of mine (Wingmen are supposed to be supportive).

I really hope this clears up any confusion I may have caused!

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You don’t have to worry, I’m here (2,432 words)

It began with breakfast.

Aone didn’t think anything of it beyond how the conversation was somewhat awkward. How could it not have been? Breakfast the morning after, with Tatsu and Tatsu’s sister and Tatsu’s sister’s boyfriend, who happened to be the best friend of one of Aone’s teammates, was plenty to be dealing with on its own.

Aone didn’t even realize Tatsu had paid for breakfast until Tanaka started protesting. Loudly, as was his nature.

“You aren’t paying for shit,” Tanaka insisted. He was behind the bar, cleaning up the last of the breakfast he’d made for the four of them in his father’s pub.

“Of course not. I’m paying for an excellent breakfast prepared by a professional chef.” Tatsu shrugged on his coat, not so much as glancing at the cash on the bar. He looked at Aone. “Ready?” So casual. Like friends leaving a once-a-month get-together.

Tanaka ran a hand over his shaved head, clearly exasperated. “Look, you can’t—I mean, I just—not when I—” He waved his hand helplessly at the tall blonde woman bringing the last dishes from their table.

Tatsu raised a delicate eyebrow at her. “I can’t pay for our meals because you’re banging my sister? Need a hand there, Shizuku love?”

Shizuku set the plates down on the bar with a touch more force than necessary. “Always lovely to see you, Tatsu, bye now.” Her face was staining pink.

“But he can’t—” Tanaka tried.

“Let him leave his entire goddamn wallet if he wants to!” Shizuku barked. She shot Aone a look, half pleading, half threatening. “Nice to meet you, Aone-san. Get him out of here.”

Aone did not think for a moment of disobeying. He cupped Tatsu’s elbow, bowed his gratitude to Tanaka, and walked Tatsu firmly out the door. Reaching for his back pocket, Aone opened his mouth to say something about paying his own way when Tatsu put a hand to his chest and stretched up for a kiss.

Visions of last night exploded behind Aone’s closed eyes, and his hand reached for that pale ponytail. He wanted to pull it loose again, wanted to feel it against his face like he had hours before.

Tatsu stepped back, hand still flat on Aone’s chest. His smile was pleased. “I have to get back to the gallery,” he said softly, gray eyes roaming Aone’s face at leisure. “I have a client meeting first thing tomorrow morning I have to prepare for.”

“Oh.” Aone willed his hand to drop from Tatsu’s hair. It wasn’t easy. Of course he had to go back. His work, his life, was two hours away from the college campus. Tatsu was an adult, with responsibilities Aone had yet to know. Of course he couldn’t while a Sunday away. Frankly, Aone couldn’t afford to either, there were exams to consider—

“I can hear you thinking,” Tatsu teased.

“My apologies, Tatsu-san.” Aone bowed his head. “I’ve kept you from your obligations far too long. I can show you the nearest station.”

Tatsu blinked. “I know I should be used to your abruptness by now, but I confess my ego is reeling.” He brushed the back of his hand against Aone’s jacket collar. “You want me away so quickly?” His voice was low, with a tone that sent shivers up Aone’s spine.

“It’s not what I want,” Aone managed.

Tatsu looked up at him. “Do tell?”

“I want…” to take you back to my room. To be lazy with you today. To forget what our Mondays will bring. “…to see you again.” Aone held his gaze firm. “If I may.”

Tatsu’s eyes went wide. “Well,” he said after a moment, “it has been quite some time since someone asked so sweetly for my company.” He slipped his arm through Aone’s, his lean frame pressed tight against Aone’s side. “Show me to that station?”

Aone might have been disappointed that Tatsu really did leave so quickly. If, that is, he hadn’t pulled Aone off to the side for a long kiss and some heavy breathing. If Aone hadn’t felt Tatsu get half hard against him. If Tatsu hadn’t whispered, “I’ll call you tonight,” with his lips against Aone’s ear. Then, yes, Aone might have been disappointed.

As it was, he was staring sightlessly into his textbooks that afternoon before he realized that he had never paid Tatsu back for breakfast.

———

A couple days later, a box arrived at the house. Kuroo delivered it to Aone’s door with his dinner balanced on top. “Kawatabi made curry and way overestimated how much. You can grab a bowl if you drop some cash in the jar next to the stove.”

Aone nodded but wasn’t really listening. He hadn’t ordered anything recently. His mother always sent him an email ahead of time if she was sending a package. He set it on his bed.

Inside the cardboard shipper was a sleek black box. It was stamped with silver in a brand name he didn’t recognize. The lid lifted to reveal, nestled in un-dyed tissue paper, the most beautiful briefcase Aone had ever seen. Soft-sided, it was made of leather worked over so finely as to feel like velvet. He took a moment, exploring the pockets, testing the zippers, admiring the tooled strap, before he noticed the small card in the bottom of the box.

A-To aid in your pursuit of knowledge. Best luck in your studies,T

Aone set the bag aside immediately and reached for his phone. Two hours later, Aone was staring red-faced at the ceiling of his room, wondering if he could make it to the shower or if he had to jerk off right there. He’d intended to make a simple thank-you call. Tatsu’s voice over the phone had a way of making more complicated things happen.

Aone clenched his eyes shut, bit into the flesh of his thumb, and slid a hand down his jeans. At least he knew he wasn’t as loud as Kuroo.

———

Spring came, and so did a selection of fine shirts from a brand Aone did recognize. His father favored the workmanship but only indulged in one a year.

A-Will you be viewing the cherry blossoms with friends?The blue one would be stunning against the flowers.T

Aone went with Kuroo, Azumane, Nishinoya, Tanaka, Shizuku, and two of Shizuku’s friends to a nearby park that weekend. He handed Shizuku his phone and asked her quietly if she could take a photo. She was a little less likely to tease than the others, and he wanted to look as relaxed as he could. Not an easy feat.

“Ohhh.” Shizuku cooed over the first photo. “That blue is amazing against the blossoms!” She held up the phone to take another, and Aone felt himself smile.

Aone sent the photo late that night. Tatsu texted him immediately after. Thirty minutes later, Aone sent another photo of himself wearing the blue shirt. Technically wearing the blue shirt.

———

During one late-night call, Aone confessed to nearly sleeping through a class.

“You’re not getting enough rest?” Tatsu sounded concerned.

Aone wiped a hand over his face. “Practice, workouts, end-of-year projects. It adds up.” He would not breathe a word about how his deplorable sleep schedule was mostly down to Tatsu and his sinful phone calls.

“Ah.” Tatsu apparently bought the excuse. “It’s important to stay organized with your time management in these situations.”

Kuroo raised an eyebrow when Aone wore his new smart watch to practice that week, but didn’t say anything.

———

The team’s house didn’t have a wine cellar. It would never have occurred to Aone to let Tatsu in on this fact. When the industrial wine rack showed up with an assortment of fifty vintages ranging from rare to trendy, Kuroo rolled his eyes and helped Aone clear out some space in the garage.

A- Would love to hear your opinion on the 2004 Kaesler shiraz.T

“Surprisingly floral for something so dry and smooth,” Aone said. He’d brought a bottle to Tanaka’s pub one night, with serious instruction that it was to be enjoyed with intentionality over a careful menu. Tanaka had risen to the occasion masterfully, and he and Shizuku had been fabulous to compare notes with about the wine. The three of them had gotten a tiny bit buzzed from finishing the bottle themselves that night, but what else was to be done really?

“Exactly what I thought. I wasn’t as put off by the bouquet as I thought I might be.” Tatsu laughed. “But perhaps it was where I had it? The Barossa Valley would make anything taste like heaven.”

“It must be gorgeous.” Aone had mixed feelings when Tatsu shared stories about all the places he’d been. It made him feel at once far too young for him and far too excited about all the wonder the world held for him to see.

“It was like nowhere I’d seen before.” Tatsu was quiet for a moment. “We should go someday.”

Aone caught his breath. The statement had been casual. Light. There was too little there to read into.

“Perhaps,” Tatsu went on. “After graduation of course? And if you’d rather go somewhere else first, we should talk about that.”

Aone’s lungs released softly. “The Barossa Valley sounds wonderful.”

Tatsu hummed, low and sensuous and just right for setting Aone’s skin on fire.

———

The last game of the season ended with a sound victory but at the expense of Aone’s shoulder. He’d come down from the winning block, slipped on a sweaty patch of floor, and the ligaments, overworked from three hard matches, let go on impact.

Through the ambulance, the ER, the manhandling required to set a dislocated shoulder, Aone had kept up his impassive face. Inside, his mind was a spiderweb, crawling with worry.

Dislocated joints are always weaker.

The scholarship is no good without volleyball.

The therapy will take time, but at least this happened at the end of a season.

Months of hard work and maybe I’ll be back up to everyone else’s level by fall.

I’m not ready to be done with volleyball.

I’m not ready for this to be over.

I’m not ready.

They sent him home with massive painkillers and dire threats about any activity remotely resembling athleticism for a month. Aone wanted to scream, but Kuroo kept shooting him looks as he drove them away from the hospital. He kept his mouth shut.

“Need anything?” Kuroo finally asked when they reached Aone’s room.

Aone didn’t turn around. “I’m fine.” He struggled to unlock the door with his left hand. Dropped his key on the floor. He stared at it, his throat getting tight.

Kuroo had the key in hand in a moment, pushing the door open, setting Aone’s phone and water bottle next to his bed, turning on a lamp. It was when he began fluffing a pillow that Aone reached out his left hand. “Kuroo.”

“Yes! Right, yeah.” He backed away from the bed, hands raised, grin sheepish. He was nearly out the door when he turned, chewing on his lip. “Um. Just so you know.”

Aone looked at him and tried to focus. It was probably time for another pain pill.

Kuroo ran a hand over his perpetual bedhead. “I called him. Your, uh, boyfriend? I looked up his number on your phone while you were…while we were at the hospital.”

Aone stared at him.

“Yeah, so, anyway, he’s coming? I guess?”

“You guess? What…what does that mean, you guess?”

“Ahahaha, okay, you’re right.” Kuroo edged farther out the door. “He’s totally coming. Said he’d get a train tonight. So. Yay?”

Aone’s mind latched onto something concrete to keep from spinning out of control. “Tatsu-san isn’t my boyfriend.”

Kuroo’s face lost its tension, his expression going flat.

Aone held his gaze and refused to give in.

“…sugar daddy?” Kuroo enunciated neatly.

Aone glared at him.

“Whatever he is, he’s staying in your room.” Kuroo walked out the door. Popped his head back in. “And I know that’s not gonna be a problem. I’m just saying I’ve gone through a pack of ear plugs.”

Aone walked calmly to the door and shut it in his face. If someone was going to lecture someone else about intimate noise, that someone had no business being Kuroo.

He’d had every intention of staying awake until Tatsu arrived. Unfortunately, the pain meds had other plans. When he opened his eyes, the room was dark except for the small lamp on his desk. His shoulder throbbed. His mouth was dry. He tried to sit up, groaning. How was everything in his entire body connected to his shoulder?

“Wait, hang on, what do you need?” A soft voice, a rustling sound.

Aone blinked sleep from his eyes, and there was Tatsu, getting to his feet from the floor. His jacket was folded neatly as a seat cushion against the wall, two or three overstuffed bags nearby.

“Tatsu…san?” Aone croaked.

Tatsu grabbed the water bottle on the desk. “Is this what you want? Do you need something for the pain?” He glanced over the desk, reached for a small pill bottle. “These?”

Aone watched him, silent and glowing inside. The lamp turned Tatsu’s ponytail gold. They’d seen each other a couple times since that night in Tanaka’s pub, always both of them impeccably dressed until they weren’t, both striving to impress the other until they forgot to. Never like this…Tatsu in jeans and a thin T-shirt that was probably never expensive. Aone incapable of dazzling anyone with his body at the moment.

Tatsu offered a pill and water. “You don’t have to move, I’ve got it.” Aone lifted his good hand, but Tatsu frowned. “Just open your mouth.” His voice was quiet. It lacked the tone that Aone knew was meant to arouse, but nonetheless his heart picked up the pace.

“You don’t have to worry.” Tatsu dropped the pill on Aone’s tongue with no sensuality, just care. “I’m here.”

Aone would speak. Eventually. He would get the words out that were crowding his throat. He’d ask the questions that refused to leave his brain—will you? do you want to? could we? am i? are you? do you? please? But for this moment, he scooted over on the bed. Patted the sheets next to him, never taking his eyes off Tatsu, glowing in lamplight.

The way Tatsu’s face softened was beautiful. He settled on the bed, every movement graceful, and curled into Aone’s side without a single jostle.

Aone leaned his head back and closed his eyes, smiling.

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