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mikeywelsh71 · 1 year

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arent yall friends

I don't think

#maybe like acquaintances at BEST #is that how you spell it? idk #id say we're neutral

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liquidstar · 6 months

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a friend who'd wait :)

#im posting this very late because i was sort of weary of how it came out and ended up messing w it until it was like 4am oops.#and i have plans tmrw so... oh well! i did my best and ill put it out while i can!#and i tried to make the scene match barnard's colors lol #finn's ocs #finn's art #i know i said id do more sillay stuff with the simpler screentone only style but i had a couple more of these in me #and this is the first piece im making thats like an actual part of the story too rather than just setting stuff for fun #i wanna write something to go with it too but for now ill just sort of briefly explain the context in the tags here:#barnard has a pretty bad case of OCD and his compulsions have made it difficult to make friends in the past #he was never outright bullied or anything but people just didnt really have the patience to deal with it #he has compulsions that include stuff like walking through doors until it feels right and needing things to be perfectly aligned #which in group settings has lead to people having to wait for him to finish his rituals and join them #they might find it tolerable at first but eventually they grow impatient and hes just... not invited to stuff anymore #but juno is a newer member of the guild who ends up frequenting the same library. hes also kinda a little weird #and they dont become fast friends or anything but just sort of naturally spend time in the same place #though they never plan meetups they eventually fall into a routine. around the same time theyd just both be at the library #and read next to each other. and maybe talk a bit. and eventually they end up walking back to the guildhall together #since theyre going to the same place after all. and juno always waits for barnard outside the door #eventually barnard asks if this bothers him. juno kinda just tells him 'of course it does' without any malice or anything. just a statement #barnard is surprised and apologizes and juno says not to. but the next day juno doesnt show up at the usual time.#barnard assumes hes committed somekinda more by bringing it up. he ends up staying there late reading to get his mind off it & not ruminate #but when he leaves juno is in fact still waiting for him down the hall (see pic) having collected a bunch of books literally abt ocd #he fell asleep bc barnard stayed later than expected. and hes an eepy guy generally. and also one very bad at expressing himself #but now barnard gets that juno's 'of course it [bothers me]' had the implication of 'but its worth it' which no friend has previously done.#and from the interaction juno was also able to understand that this isn't something barnard just does for the hell of it so. he studies.#and checks a bunch of stuff out because he thinks it could help his friend too (theres ocd workbooks and such- i remember working w them)#and thats the point where they became more ''friends'' than ''pleasant library acquaintances''#from there on they also do get into juno's problems. whole other bag of worms. but this specific scene is more about bernard from his pov #sorry about when i said briefly explain. i lied </3 #but compared to the whole sequence im picturing its brief so shhh

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yellowloid · 2 months

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i was not ready to find out amanda knows gabbriette and matty healy and the fact that her mentioning amelia probably means matt is at least amicable with them too? this is the worst crossover i could've woken up to

#like obviously am know the1975 but i imagine they'd be acquaintances at best. working in the same industry and inevitably bumping into >#> each other sometimes. also didn't matty healy say smth stupid about them a few years ago #for amanda and matt (and amelia? wtf) to hang out with gabbriette and maybe matty.......that sounds like a nightmare combination im so sorr #ramblings #idk if this makes sense i just woke up and seeing that story felt like a fever dream

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tbh-entp · 1 year

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I'm starting to realize that my Ne-Fe loop turns on when I'm too social. I start going out, get a little addicted to being charming and how people respond, and then I forget myself and my Ti, and drain myself on saying the right (or hilariously wrong) things at the right moments, and I'm so aware of how people respond to me but idk how I'm responding to myself or how I even relate to what I'm saying-- only that it's clever and well timed and wow I feel terrible. I need to go home and find my Ti.

#entp #mbti #mine #ne-fe #cognitive functions #best to socialize in small amounts #i'm a mega ambivert anyway #so i'm just out here draining myself but enjoying that everyone loves me but idk if it's even me like it is but i'm not connecting on thing #s that are close or relevant to me really #the conundrum #of being an expat totally alone and being scared of the tock clickin g and no one being there when you die to even know that it's happened #so i feel i must be social if not just to survive #but i can only handle so much before losing myself #or so much with crowds of people who are only acquaintances #i need to do things and think about things and really exercise the Ti and maybe also clean my apartment #personality #personality type

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moe-broey · 9 days

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Random small talk event at the yard sard set-up, very nice lady, but ESP when asking "Oh are you still in school? ☺️" I literally never know how to say "Oh I graduated a long time ago. Yeah. I mostly do art now" and she says "Oh to sell?" and so far I'm having a reasonable and effective small talk conversation, when I hit that pitfall and lock up and I worry I'm becoming unfriendly bc I locked up. Because I REALLY don't know how to say, "Nah, I kind of do fuck all. I'm 25 and I do fuck all. For nothing." Like I can see the conversation tree in real time and I know that's the worst dialogue option. And there are no other dialogue options there's just Press B to get the fuck outta there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#MAN........#like it was inconsequential but always. when i have these interactions and esp when i come out the other side thinking #'yeah that wasn't my best work. i hope they don't think i dislike them or that i was inconsistent'#always. i'm just. failing Badly. at even the most basic human rituals.#a lot a small talk discourse fails to understand that it's free dialogue options. if you. have the knowledge of the dialogue options.#but i'm stuck between a quick time event and my knee-jerk reaction to answer honestly (but How Honestly????)#and i'm also observing my neighbor's old man humor and scripts that are always a hit and i'm like. hm. interesting....#if perhaps i can replicate such a thing........#can somebody please for the love of god help me. every day i wake up and i'm autistic.#'inconsistent' ???? inconsiderate. hello #idk maybe both can work. 20 regular interactions in w me things are going swimmingly we're good acquaintances ect ect #i can still just fully forget how to be a person and i clam up and get impersonal and curt.#it's literally no ones fault. i'd dare even say it's not even my own fault. it's just. the autism experience.#also something something there should be more scripts for people who haven't achieved certain milestones in life #an easy way to say 'yeah i barely graduated highschool and i never went to college and i can't hold a job and i live w my dad #and i don't mix my passions w profit bc it's the primary way i regulate myself and it's all about my special interest anyway #AND i'm 25. so. real catch of a guy here tbh'#please for the love of god Help Me.

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uwudonoodle · 15 days

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A big shout out to the night custodian at my local grocery store. I often go to the store an hour or two before close. It's pretty empty, so he starts cleaning the floors. After a few weeks we started to recognize each other, and smile as we passed. One day he stopped me and said he was always happy to see me because my smile was like sunshine. (It was not in a creepy way. He's more than twice my age, and said it in a proud father kind of way.)

Now every time I see him, he's like, "Sunshine girl!", and makes me feel like a million bucks. After a few months of this, my husband came with me, which he rarely does. My friend, upon seeing him was like, "The husband?! You're so lucky. You gotta take really good care of her." And then he turned to me and was like, "He's good to you right?" I assured him my husband was the best.

Anyway, shout out to people who throw compliments and kindness out like free confetti.

#shout out #compliment #talking to strangers #acquaintances #kind people #kindness #custodians are often the best people #better customer service than most of the cashiers #grocery shopping #I hope they give him a raise #I love my grocery store friend #smiling at strangers #as a very plain short fat girl who is usually overlooked or looked ar funny #it's nice to get a genuine compliment #I wish I could be more like him but I'm afraid people would find me creepy #maybe I should try to gas people up anyway #compliments are free gifts

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raelyn-dreams · 10 months

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I think Ryuseitai and Crazy:B should have an event together purely for the Rinne-Chiaki parallels because the !! Main Story really gave us "If I had taken one wrong step, I would've ended up exactly like you" and then just. Never really elaborated when there is so much that could be done with it???

Do you know how often I think about the potential of these two??? I am literally skimming through stories for Chiaki-Rinne mentions its that bad.

#chiaki and kanata would see rinnes kindness beneath it all and i think those three would have such a dynamic #esp bc rinne and kanata are already roommates + chiaki really wants to see the best in everyone #rinne would also look at them and see who he couldve been if the industry hadnt thrown him away and he wasnt raised that way and wasnt jade #like. almost like rinne-aira dynamic but its with people who understand the circumstances but ended up on the other side yknow #adding niki and meru to the mix too there bc they both have parallels to kanata especially and i think its interesting #bc himeru and niki are so set in the ways of their existence even when there is something clearly wrong to others #(himeru truly believing that being kaname is for his sake when kaname wouldnt want that and its hurting meru so badly)#(and niki being so convinced that all he needs is a good meal and he doesn't deserve anything else when he deserves so much)#kohaku i feel like would really get along with the ryusei juniors if he took the time to talk to them. maybe hiiro and aira introduce him #(does kohaku talk to hiiro a lot in-canon??? i feel like he knows him moderately well from aira but are they like. casual acquaintances???)#anyways yeah i really need to see them together for personal reasons #ensemble stars #enstars #ensemble stars music #ryuseitai #crazy:b #crazy b #rinne amagi #chiaki morisawa #raelyn rambles

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tomatoluvr69 · 3 months

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#Spotify #music for when you’re driving to ace hardware to buy mousetraps so you can kick out that mouse like Nick Cave says #and when you get there you give him your best friend’s phone number bc you unfortunately have it memorized and he goes to ace hardware all #the time for work #and the guy on the register squints at you and confirms the very male name on the screen #and you resist the urge to squeak out an excuse and just confirm #and then you stop by aldi on the way back and buy two tubs of Greek yogurt and two bottles of synergy kombucha #bc even though you brew your own and actually have way more than you could possibly handle rn bc it’s so hot in your house #you are a sucker for limited edition flavors and it will cause you to spend $8 on kombucha #so you buy pomelo lemonade and cherry coconut lemongrass #which is the summer flavor named unity or something #and you usually get one every year #but you still feel ridiculous walking out of aldi with two tubs of yogurt and two bottles of kombucha and nothing else even though no one #you know sees you even though west ********* is crawling with acquaintances #and then you get back in your car and you’re proud of the rare burst of executive function which allowed you to finally put the new battery #in your car keys even though you stole the battery from target like two months ago you just couldn’t figure out how to open the damn thing #and the convenience is novel and you think wow maybe I should injure my ribcage more often if it’s forcing me to take care of all these #tiny tasks like buying mousetraps and replacing your key battery and cooking figs in honey et cetera #and you drive down the hill and see low clouds snagging in the blue ridge mountains and feel alright for a moment #and go to the scratch and dent where you buy butter and a couple 33¢ seltzers and a diet ginger ale as a lil treat #and when you get back home you drop it on the gravel road and the ginger ale begins to leak out so you put your mouth to it even though the #thought of what nonsense is on the outside of the can from the manufacturing and shipping process lingers #and by the time you get to the kitchen and pour it over ice in a mason jar it’s fairly flat from the burst of bubbles when you poured it #awkwardly with one hand #and you drink what remains on the porch where it’s a post-rain subdued sky sort of dusk #and you think about how much it’s gonna hurt to leave and how you have no other option because of how entwined you’ve become with someone #who is the entire city and the entire vast forest and possibly the entire ecological region #and then you’re still hungry so you eat some meal prepped overnight oats that were for tomorrow morning. the end #journal

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dihalect · 11 months

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i need to post about palestine on facebook but i'm fucking terrified

#i went to a very jewish college and a very decent percentage of my fb 'friends' are jewish zionists.#i don't use fb often but when i've checked recently‚ i've found a handful of pro-israel posts‚ and they've been well-received.#i have seen one person put a palestine frame on their profile picture. they got a small‚ mostly positive but some negative‚ response.#that's all the reference i have here.#and very importantly: i feel like pretty much anything i say is going to be received as goysplaining.#i think my best bet is to stay away from historical arguments (like‚ yes palestine does actually exist‚ yes it was bad to force them off of #their land in the first place‚ etc)#and also avoid my personal feelings on this re: my relationship with judaism (which is integral to the message i want to send but w/e)#and focus on israel's very obvious current indefensible actions.#however. i feel like i'm doing the movement a disservice if i don't call for a free palestine and explain what that actually means.#but doing that would increase my risk of getting dogpiled from 'high' to 'inevitable'.#and i am not articulate!!! people might try to rebut me‚ and i am very bad at debate!!!!!!! i have multiple anxiety disorders!!!!!!#and people get fired over this kind of thing. i know the chance is small‚ but i don't know if i want to risk my career over this.#my gut is telling me to wait until i'm sure. but i don't know if or when that will happen.#i want to change *someone's* mind‚ but idk if i'll even be able to do that. maybe just my uninformed hometown gentile friends'.#i want to do this before it's 'too late'. but what does 'too late' mean here? my fb friends aren't launching the missiles.#i suppose my goal is to help turn the tide of public opinion‚ in the hopes that that'll affect the politicians/corps at play here.#but maybe i'm more likely to do that by marching. making posters. talking to acquaintances. who knows what else.#just because i don't *see* those minds change doesn't mean they're not changing. maybe those minds are actually more likely to change.#txt

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georgianadarcies · 3 months

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updates, because I live blog everything: saw him for the first time in like a month, first thing he did was go to hug me (kind of a half hug but god he hadn’t done that in so long) and I feel pretty good about most of our interactions, I’m always looking for reasons to feel bad but honestly. for the most part it felt really good. like not because he likes me (because he doesn’t) but because things are finally friendly and good again with us. I’m still me so I’m awkward but held my own in the group setting pretty well I think. I wanted to see him so badly and I did and overall I feel good. things are always subject to change and I don’t want to jinx anything so that’s all I’ll say. it felt nice.

#isabel talks #standing by and waiting at your back door #like at the beginning of the year things. weren’t pleasant between us #nothing was ever said but I’m sure he knew I liked him and he just handled it so poorly #and it was just cold and awkward and weird #and even though they improved this past semester until the end Id resigned myself to things being just. forever awkward and bad #and they’re not perfect clearly #I don’t think I’d say we’re /friends/ but it’s friendly and not just teammates or acquaintances #casual friends at best maybe #but it feels so much better #like from around the time I think he found out up until his breakup there were no hugs. nothing even close #and I’m afraid because I’m going to flirt and shoot my shot (I would’ve flirted more if we weren’t all outside in the dark)#and I don’t want to go through that whole thing again #but……. he’s a risk worth taking I think #and it’ll always kill me not knowing bc I never gave myself a real shot with him #so. yeah #I’m afraid of inserting myself where I’m unwanted but. we’ll see how things go #but I fell back into my bed giggling when I got home and that hasn’t happened in a long long time

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bsdyaoi · 8 months

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I think im just inherently unlikable tbh

#meow.txt #i guess its partly my own fault #i want attention and for people to like me so badly but once i get that i decide i just want to be alone #i want friends but i cant handle that #im best suited to just be an eternal acquaintance i guess #i like the thought of being close to people but its just too annoying and not for me #i feel broken #i want to be close to people but at the same time i want to be left alone #i dont want anyone to know anything abt me #but at the same time i wish there was someone who wanted to know everything abt me #its not that i dont want to put in the effort #i just think maybe i only Think i want that #bc once i have the chance to have that i pull away #no ones ever actually understood me anyway #so i guess it doesnt matter #ill never get what i really want #im not suited for being a person.

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the-trans-dragon · 1 year

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Could a person with mental illness do THIS?

*spends 20 minutes trying to respond to a text, too anxious to commit to a first word such as "Hey" versus "Hi!" versus maybe a unique catchphrase I should incorporate into my personality like "Banjo bonjour!" or, if it would be more logical, "Bonjour banjo!"*

#🙃#its a specific person who i never really decided what kind of relationship we have #maybe she was technically one of my bosses? but we started on the same day and bonded over #trying to adjust super quickly and not make mistakes (or to learn from them very quickly) and then we #had some really nice chats about our lives and families and partners #so its like. we are casual coworker acquaintances and we are Girls Who Are Friends (im not sure if she #knew i was trans and nonbinary. i think she assumed i was a woman. but the way she perceived and interacted with my gender was comfy in a #very specific way that makes me feel Okay Being Seen As A Girl. it still doesnt feel like ME. but i can fit inside it without #contorting and hiding parts of myself. kinda like the pants i bought at goodwill that definitely didnt quite fit but #my wife hemmed them a bit and i could squeeze my butt into them if i held my breath and they were a great pair of work pants for $7 #anyways lol she was like a peer/mentor/cool aunt's even cooler best friend/woman you sat next to at the ER one time and she felt like you'd #known her forever but it was probably just because it was 2:30AM and neither of you had slept and were both lowkey curious if you were gonna #die before getting medical help/drunk woman who accidentally says something you've needed to hear for the past decade. lol #so idk if its a “hello” situation or a “hiya” or a “hey sup” or what. :3 well there went another ten minutes while i #rambled in the tags. okay byyyyyye.#sorenhoots

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anonymusbosch · 1 year

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really truly Feelings about coming back to my hometown and seeing it as an outsider (I only knew it as a child with my motion constrained by school and parents and being under 18) and an outsider (it's changed since I've been away these last 8 years) and an outsider (showing it to my partner and finding it both familiar and unfamiliar, and special and inadequate) and an outsider (my parents and sister have all moved and my childhood home is no longer mine - staying in a building with a door code to learn and furniture still being moved in) and an outsider (my favorite places have changed, moved, closed, repainted) and an outsider (new murals! new buildings! new bike lanes) and an outsider (how the Fuck do the bike lanes on the east bank connect) and an outsider (it's changed [you can never step in the same river twice] and I have too)

#i think I need to make art about this #wanting to show off the things I love about it and realizing so much of that love is for the mundane details and tiny quotidian things #seeing people in the bike lanes and feeling the pang of just Being Around People Enjoying the Outdoors #how much fun you can have for free #at the same time not having lived here at all as an adult #i don't know the public transit here! i biked when it wasn't snowy and when it was snowy i was in school til like 9 pm #i don't know the flashy fun city things i know where me and my cousins would go to have a pretzel and maybe a beer and play board games #i know where u can do martial arts for cheap and fun but that's not a nice day out to show someone it's part of being there for months #years #i know where you can get food at 1 AM but they've moved #i don't know dinkytown or any of the north side #i want to show you how good it was to be a kid here in the summer but we're not kids anymore #i want you to feel the same pang of love when passing my best friend's childhood home #ALSO!!!! saw california friends/acquaintances in the home they bought together with dual software engineer california salaries #living in MN making CA money #a huge huge 3-story-plus-basement million-plus dollar home since that means something here #you're 28 what the fuck are you doing with a nicer house than anyone I knew here ever had #'this is what you get with CA money in mpls' yeah i fucking know actually except I don't make SWE money and I don't live here anymore #i know some local mechanical engineers who have got starter homes at like 300k a few years out of school.#that's like. good for them.#anyway I'm leaving the city today and still just feeling Things about it

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fingertipsmp3 · 1 year

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Gotta love those realisations that cause you to stand stock-still in your bathroom and take a long shuddering breath

#just realised that in.. maybe a year? idk fhe exact time frame. my stepdad will have been in my life longer than my actual father was #and there is no remedying that because my dad is dead #even if i **** ****** to get to him (and believe me the thought has crossed my mind before) i can’t even guarantee we’ll end up in the same #place. i don’t know if there Is a place to go. i like to think my dad is in maybe a field or a nice room somewhere #with our old dogs and his mom and anyone else he knew and lost #and that one day i’ll go there too #but deep down i don’t believe it. i don’t believe there’s a god or an afterlife. i think we just. stop.#and there’s a part of me that’s never accepted that i’ll never see him again even though i know it’s true #and that’s why this is so difficult of a realisation #like i have been fatherless at this point for way longer than i’ve had a father. that’s.. i mean i had to start coming to terms with that #five years ago. so i think i’m just about there now #but the fact that this man. my mom’s partner. who has never even tried to be a father figure to me (and thank god because i would scream #and scream) has now been in my life nearly as long as my dad was… FUCK THAT #calling him my stepdad is honestly an oxymoron because they’re not married and he’s definitely not a parental figure to me #he showed up when i was 17 and has treated me more like a random acquaintance than anything else #which suits me just fine don’t get me wrong #i didn’t WANT another father figure. my granddad stepped up and he’s been great. if my mom had brought a man home during the worst part #of my angsty teen phase (age 12-15) i think i would have stabbed him. so like. robert (not his name) is honestly the best case scenario #if my mom had to find a new man. like in terms of time frame and his approach to me #but i still feel weird about the fact that here is this man and my mom has been with him nearly as long as she was with my dad #i have no further notes. i’m just not doing great tonight. sorry for the word salad #personal

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cherrysnax · 1 year

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@ anon sorry I accidentally deleted ur ask!! to answer ur question though, I think it’s a bad idea because.. i fear rejection i guess and I suppose what I fear more is the opposite

#i have an issue where despite wanting to feel close to people I kinda hold everyone but like two people at arms length #I care a lot about people. even the people I don’t talk to anymore or like ppl I regard as like acquaintances #it’s easier to care from a distance. less of a sit back and watch thing more of a #aw I see a post on Instagram im so glad ur doing well I’m gonna mentally send good vibes and go about my day #it’s #it’s easier being a ghost I suppose #idk whenever I try a restart a friendship it never works #you can’t just rebuild connections #or at least I can’t #maybe im too different or maybe I’m too similar #also whenever I hype myself up to do something I’m afraid of doing it backfires spectacularly. so no actions means no expectations means no #consequences! and I know that makes me a bad person but consider that it’s for everyone’s best interests #this is probably just a weird phase of nostalgia anyway #and you should never reach out simply for nostalgias sake. you will have unrealistic expectations for urself and other ppl ^_^#im content w my mostly happy memories ^_^#should I tag this as #asks #nonnie #? in spirit I guess #I think I have like. one mutual from that time but I’ve changed my name like 60 times bro prolly don’t even recognize me which is for the #best #now… what am I gonna draw today #i guess im also afraid of what it means that I could’ve had more friends if I didn’t uhhh split or assume #that no one liked me in the first place #it already happened w a dear friend and I can never fix it so #why try

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tkbrokkoli · 1 year

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