#maybe you dont functionally need to put references up at the top but it keeps things organized

[orcelito]

Ooooohhhh I fucking hate coder bros. Talking to me like I'm stupid just bc i put the reference things towards the top (which is literally standard) + completely overriding everything I'm saying just bc he thinks he knows best and im a "~Girl~" so obviously I don't know a thing about coding our how to instantiate classes

Go fuck yourself

[fipindustries]

Mouth Dreams analysis

MOUTH DREAMS

I dont even need to introduce to you the marvelous mash up works of neil cicierega’s mouth trilogy (now quadrilogy i guess). We all know them, we all love them and we all have our own interpretations of what they mean. For some merely musical shitposting, for others clever experimentation laden with phrases, leivmotifs and themes repeating here and there, and for many a deep and rich bounty of lore, hidden messages, subtextual stories and underlying narratives implied across multiple variations of all star, hidden in the meta data and uncovered only after doing spectrographic analysis on the soundwaves of the songs after being played at x0.000003 times the speed. It is usually understood that all the albums together form a unique and rich tapestry, a coherent whole that can be understood in its totality. Im not here to do that.

I came up with my own interpretation of what Mouth Dreams can be read as, independent from the other albums. Think of it as me presenting this entry as the soundtrack of a musical with its own self contained story. It is the interpretation that i chose to go by and i hope its understood the brilliance of these albums lies on how weird and vague and open ended they are such that any number of different readings can be extracted from them. So lets see the one i extracted, without further ado, lets begin.

Yahoo

It is an out of context, in media res, start for the whole story. We hear a voice, echoing in the void, yelling at the top of its lungs, reaching desperately for human conection. One form of looking at this song is that the voice only receives an empty response from its own echoes, but i dont take it like that. The song is too sublime and too beautiful for these, the notes soaring too high, the desperate plead is being answered. Someone is listening to the plead and answering right back, harmonizing.

This whole album is in a way that howl, reaching to others, and we the audience are answering back, listening. But also on another level, this whole album is the protagonist telling the tragic story of his own life to some sympathetic figure who wants to help, perhaps a therapist, perhaps a friend, perhaps a partner, we’ll see. And as the yelling subsides the story starts proper.

Mouth dreams (intro)

We are being slowly taken into the story, entering the psyche of the main character, entering their subconscious, their dreams, their memories and therefore, their past. We’ll see what life they led and how they ended up where they are now and we start right at his infancy with….

Spongerock

Spongebob is a great indicator that we are seeing this person’s early childhood. They seem to be a rambunctious and energetic child. Cheerful and enthusiastic, yet there seems to be some underlying aggression there. The music is a bit to strong, and in comes freddy mercury berating the poor kid “you’ve got mud on your face, you big disgrace”. Who is this entity being so hostile to a poor kid? What lies beneath that image of a happy kid? We are about to see on the next song.

Just a baby

This is where trouble starts. We are treated to a dramatic song about a poor young baby who seems to be having a pretty sad life. Justin bieber, former teen idol, keeps lamenting about the poor baby being stuck in baby jail. This song is very much about loss of innocence. A shadowy figure of the mother is introduced who tells the protagonist to be a good boy. And almost at the end of the song we get a suggestion of what’s so wrong on this poor kid’s life. His mother apparently “shot a man in reno”. We dont know if this is a literal thing the mother did or if this is a metaphor for the mother doing something horrible, commiting some crime, harming someone in some way. While its not clarified we see strong hints of what the mother could have done in the next song

Superkiller

As we worry what may be so wrong with this kid’s mother we come across the title for this song, ominous. Now in the original Psycho killer the killer was clearly the singer, but in here the song is twisted and turned a bit, recontextualized by the beats of “cant touch this”. It seems like this time is the singer the one who doesnt want to be touched by some nefarious figure (the mother? Is the mother a psycho killer?) maybe the kid saw the mother killing people “i dont like people when they’re on fire”. whatever the case might be the kid is clearly strung up and under a lot of stress and we are introduced to the first hint of the insomnia that will plague this persons life who cant sleep because “my bed’s on fire”. The horrible situation in which this kid is living is taking a severe toll on their mental health. How is he going to cope with this?

Get happy

I think everyone can agree that “come on get happy” is incredibly unnerving when mindlessly repeated over and over. A first read might suggest the kid is forced to put on a happy face, to pretend that there is nothing wrong going on with their life. But as the song progresses it could also be interpreted as the kid being tempted to find refuge from the horror by unsavory methods “get happy” as in acquire happiness of a forced and artificial kind, perhaps drugs. But also “we’ll make you happy”. The kid is not running into a rabbit hole on their own, they are being invited. Its possible that the kid is being seduced by a bad crowd to move into seedy circles as an escape from their life.

Ribs

In here we see the kid, probably a young teenager by this point as suggested by the use of marylin manson in this song, falling deep into debauchery. The specific kind is not needed to know, it could be drugs, it could be sexual experimentation, it could be criminality. Point is this is unhealthy and dangerous and depraved, emphasized by the title of the song “ribs” as a reference to the rumor that marilyn manson removed two of his ribs in order to perform autofellatio. Whatever the case it clearly works, the song is actually a great bop, energetic and upbeat, the kid is content with the situation, at least for a while…

My mouth

This song is the coming down from the high. In here we see at full blast how the life of depravity on the one side and their situation at home on the other have turned the character into a hardcore insomniac, their health is severy compromised “My eyes feel like they're gonna bleed

Dried up and bulging out my skull”. Another way to read this song is as we momentarily cutting back to the present. After all, what we have been seeing until now has been dreams/memories and this is a short look at the wreck that the person is as a grown up, stirring awake from their memories and trying desperately to forget or to go back to sleep where they can have a reprieve. As evidenced by the next song

Aerolong

I dont wanna miss a thing is completely turned on its head. As the lyrics clearly demonstrate is the protagonist who cant go to sleep being chased by their memories, specifically the memories of their mother “I don't miss you, babe, and I do want to miss a thing”. As the person is tossing and turning on their bed, unable to sleep they talk about how they dont miss their mother at all and they want to “miss” her as in they want to forget her.

Sleepin’

The character is constantly speaking about how they are “sleeping with their clothes on” this is due to them falling asleep during their everyday life because of their lack of sleep every night, this person is barely functional, their sleep schedule is broken. Also since this song is about the character actually sleeping it also works as a bridge back into their dreams and so into their past.

Aammoorree

Is another vignette about the character sinking into disreputable states in order to escape their shitty situation as a teenager, this time very specifically about being completely drunk and perhaps experiencing romance for the first time. The character is probably at a club or a party, drunkenly hitting on someone, though chances are without much success as the song becomes increasingly more incoherent and we go into a full black out. This gets bad enough that the person finally has to take a look and….

Where is my mom

….stop. It is highly suggestive that in the album the “stop” is part of this song rather than the last one. The person is not only stopping their current alcoholic binge. They are stopping the entire situation and taking a good look at their life, finally confronting face to face what is happening and why it is so wrong. Now “stacy’s mom” was always kind of an inappropriate song due to it being about a child having a crush on their friend’s mom, as sung by an adult. But as it is recontextualized by the instruments of “where is my mind” it takes on a much darker tone. The romantic words are still there but now with a sinister bent. This time the main character asks their friend if they can go and take refuge at their house and when they ask if the mom is going to be there they sound more scared than eager, specially suggested by the way he seems to be stammering the word “pool”, they are nervous and terrified. They also talk about stacy’s mom as “all they want and been waiting for so long”, probably because all they want is a normal, loving mother. Presumably this song is about the main character finally talking about what is going on at his house with a friend, confessing and that confession gives way to realization

Fredhammer

Then realization gives way to anger. During this whole song we see the teenage character finally grasping how fucked up the whole situation is and he gets progressively more worked up with each successive aggravation “Why did it take so long? Why (hoo!), did I wait so long, huh?

Why??? To figure it out, but I did it (huh?)”. From this we transition to the kid actually confronting their mom face to face. The line “So you can take that cookie And stick it up your (yeah!)” can be read as the mother trying to pretend there is nothing wrong or pacifying the kid with empty gestures of motherhood, by making cookies and the kid spitting that back into their face. The kid gets more and more worked up through the song as we seamlessly transition to the next one.

Limp Wicket

This song is pure incoherent chaos but something very important can be rescued out of the chaos. This song uses the lyrics from the “ewok celebration” which is presumably the song the ewoks sing in return of the jedi after the empire was defeated. So in a way is the kid celebrating that he finally confronted their mother and presumably defeated her. This is emphazised by the recurrence of the lyrics ““So you can take that cookie”. Is not specified how the mother is defeated, maybe social services or the police get involved, maybe the kid runs away, either way this song is triumphant. The evil entity that stole his childhood and innocence has been defeated.

Cannibals

This song is slightly different from the rest. It works as a form of victory lap after the defeat of the mother figure, but also as an intermission since it lies smack dab in the middle of the album, and finally as a transitionary song from childhood to adulthood. Is a time skip, we get to see the person grow up in fast forward as the THX song hits its crescendo. This song also makes it perfectly clear that, even though she was left behind, the mental scars that the mother left are still there and still fresh and still very much stopping them from sleeping “She drives me crazy

And I can't help myself”. 

The outsiders

This works as a way to recontextualize us in the life of the character as an adult. Our so called “feature presentation”. It is not altogether clear who these people being introduced are. They could be the people who came to mean something in this persons life as they grew up after trauma, probably multiple foster homes, social workers, friends, bosses, co workers, etc. the fact that they are being enumerated dissapasionatly could indicate how most of his social relationships were basically a meaningless blur for him who grew up socially distant due to trauma. It could also represent the multiple roles that our character was forced to take as they grew up and the multiple things that went through his mind or meant something. There is clearly some desperate attempts to recapture their lost childhood as figures such as “inspector gadget” or “the ninja turtles part three” are named. The song is a fast montage of views and places. That prepares us for the next song.

Johnny

We finally zoom in and take a good look at our main character as an adult. A sad, pathetic figure, hurt and lonely, possibly not very well liked and certainly not respected as we hear boos all around. Despite all this the character is clearly committing themselves to be a good person, to not hurt others like he was hurt and specifically to not commit the same crimes that their mother commited.

Closerflies & Nightmovin

These two songs might as well work as a single piece since they are both more or less about the same thing. We reiterate how this person has been turned into an insomniac due to the trauma that they experienced as a child “When I'm far too tired to fall asleep”. They are delirious and barely coherent, possibly hallucinating as they think about their life in bed. This is clearly hell on earth and it seems like its just never going to stop “Can't wake up in a sweat

'Cause it ain't over yet” but, with neil’s classic sense of humor, the song immediately ends.

Now that could just be for the sake of irony but there is also another level in which it could be read. This suffering stops because something suddenly changes in this person’s life. What could that be?

Whitehouse

“I fell in love with a girl”

As the lyrics say, the main character met someone special and they are deeply in love. But also, because of the past that weighs heavily on him, he is very trepidatious about wether to go on with the relationship or not. He knows he is damaged goods and he doesnt want to drag her down as well, these fears make it so he never fully opens up to her about his issues “She turns and says, "Are you alright?" I said, "I must be fine because my heart's still beating." 

Wah

The use of “war” by edwin starr is a clever reference about how everything is fair in love and war. Now this song is an important departure since it is sung from the point of view of the girl our main character fell in love with. She is a feisty woman who is very clearly trying to establish the terms of the relationship and demanding her partner to open up which the main character, due to his insecurities, takes as a declaration of war and which he deflects by playing dumb, hence the repeated use of the silly “WAH” by wario. 

Pee Wee Inc

The emotional distance from the man is putting a strain in the relationship, so what once was supposed to “feel good” is now this melancholic and unbearable situation. Is no mistake that the song sampled here is “the breakfast machine” from pee wee’s big adventure. After all  a neglected partner can feel like a breakfast machine, an object that is there just to make your breakfast. On top of this you can see that the insomnia hasnt gone away “My dreams, they got a kissing 'cause I don't get to sleep, no”. In a lot of ways the girlfriend is feeling used as just a relief from the man’s suffering but not as someone who is being truly loved.

1000 spoons

We go back to the woman’s perspective. At first it just seems like a simple melancholic situation where she is sad the relationship is not working, but then we see the woman have a full mental breakdown as the song changes and becomes much more deranged and we get to see what is really happening. The man ran away on their wedding day. This is represented by the lyrics “is like rain on your wedding day” because it means the wedding has been ruined. She is heartbroken by this.

Mouth dreams (extro)

Appropriately as the previous song talked about a wedding being ruined by “rain” this song begins with the sound of rain. This is the big emotional climax of the story, the music at its most dramatic. Now i will admit, even for me this is a stretch, im willing to concede most of what i am about to say is essentially built out of whole cloth and me wanting to fit a neat full narrative into this album where there is none, but hey, what is art for?

Essentially the man is about to commit suicide, possibly by jumping off a bridge in the rain as suggested by the song being sampled “drowning”. The fact that this song is named after the album is a way to signify how everything that we have just seen weighs heavily on the man’s heart, his whole life, his memories, his trauma, and he is finally ready to end it all. He jumps.

But at the last second his wife jumps after him and drags him to the shore, the last we see is her trying to perform mouth to mouth resuscitation, as indicated by the song,”love me mouth to mouth now…” he is unconscious and presumably finally sleeping peacefully (maybe dead?) “...cover me with dreams, yeah”.

It might look like he will not survive, as implied by the sinister version of all star encroaching over the song. But as it looks like all hope is lost he finally WAKES UP.

In a way this song is also when we finally catch up with the start of the album where we saw the man desperately hollering for human contact and merely echos responding, except now someone finally answered, and he is finally ready to open up and share his story.

Brithoven

Even though this song is sung by a single person i choose to take it as a dialog between the couple, both of them sharing their regrets about their relationship with each other, her recriminating the fact that she couldnt have known what he was going through “oh baby bay, how was i supposed to know, that something wasnt right here” and him finally admitting that he needs help “My loneliness is killing me”.

Finally they both agree to try it again and give their relationship a second chance “hit me baby one more time”

Ain’t

Part of me is conflicted about this song, i kind of want to disregard it, mainly because i think its kind of a weird way to end an album and also because i just dont feel is a very good mashup really. The lyrics dont mix that well with the song, they are paced in an inconsistent way and overall feel like they never truly click. On top of that it just doesnt fit at all with the narrative that i have been building during this analysis.

There is talk about alcoholism and parent abandoment, this time by the father, a figure that was never mentioned during the album. The last line says “say it aint so” which doesnt particularly seem to reflect on any of the themes i’ve been building upon. Ultimately i think i will just leave it besides and be content that i managed to fit almost all of the album into one story, this process was never meant to be a perfect dissection of the carefully planned story that neil deliberately crafted but rather me having fun seeing pictures in a rorshach test.

So anyway that was Mouth dreams, let me know what you thought.

[violasmirabiles]

Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you want to know better.

i got tagged by @ruskatuska which i somehow forgot to mention first jesus christ why am i like this

1. Name/Nicknames: ali

2. Gender: who tf knows

3. Star Sign: aries

4. Height: 160cm

5. Time: gonna be 1pm in a bit

6. Birthday: march 26 so yall still have time to get me presents 

7. Favourite Band: pink floyd and wigwam are my go to bands to put here but really there are So Many

8. Favourite Solo Artist: also So Many but bowie and kate bush are safe choices

9. Song Stuck in My Head: rufus wainwright - cigarettes and chocolate milk

10. Last Movie: it chapter two

11. Last Show: uhh. god i dont know. 

12. When I Created This Blog: late 2011. like late november, early december. i know it was before i saw paul mccartney in helsinki and that was on dec 12 2011

13. What I Post: whatever fandom shit im into at any given time, bands/artists/music i like, whatever pretty and or interesting and or funny catches my eye. just posted a selfie, i do some of those. some text posts. i do use this blog to vent and i do have a shit brain so yeah

14. Last Thing I Googled: the model of my vacuum cleaner so i could find the right kind of filters i need for it lol

15. Other Blogs: @ihmekukkavesi for my photography, @shineondoc for university hell with some stephen king peppered in there. but it like. its relevant

16. Do I get asks?: sometimes. not super often. but like, i dont reblog those ask memes very often and the one good update this piece of shit website ever did is the chat system so thats good

17. Why I Chose My URL: i mean i wanted something related to my name (it is, trust me), coulda been another species but this one can also be a sneaky reference to a character from a thing im into so . yeah lol. also aesthetic. i mean it looks cool. pretty.

18. Following: a lot of people, many of whom arent active anymore but i keep following them anyway because what if they come back one day

19. Followers: a little under 2300

20. Average Hours of Sleep: eight-ish so thats good

21. Lucky Number: dont really have one of those but if a number is even OR divisible by 5 its a good number. i like 12 more than 10

22. Instruments: i have a 20-year-old shitty electric piano my dad gave me when he needed room for a newer, better electric piano. only in my current place i dont really have enough room for it even though i need it to practice choir stuff independently and just like having it because sometimes i just like to fuck around with it yknow? not calling myself good cos im not im super out of practice cos ive never been diligent abt that sorta thing but i can accompany myself and thats enough. so i keep it under my bed, not the best place, and practice on the fucking floor. cant even use pedals that way and that sucks ass. one day i will move to a bigger apartment and set it up again. i also have a baby blue ukulele with a picture of jack nicholson as jack torrance doing his heres johnny face taped on it. i got it in 2019 from my brother and his girlfriend as a christmas gift and was doing my ba thesis at the time, which i think a lot of the people who follow me know was about the shining. also also i can play guitar and bass but am not excellent at either because i never practice either of those and have neither in my apartment. and i never practice the ukulele either so even though i know a few chords i fucking suck. maybe someday.

23. What I Am Wearing: black leggings. black shirt. one black sock and one white one

24. Dream Job: i want to be able to write in some capacity and get paid for it but thats all i know and if i think too hard on it ill work myself up and wont be able to sleep so im gonna leave it at that  

25. Dream Trip: right now i just want to be able to visit my True Home Town which is not this piece of this place where i live and study and also happened to be born in

26. Favourite Food: yeah. not olives

27. Nationality: finnish

28. Favourite Song: feel like this woulda been more appropriate with the other music/art questions but hey whatever. also how the fuck am i supposed to have a favorite song when so many different gems exist. go listen to the musical box by genesis though it fucks me up every time i dont care what it does to you

29. Last Book I Read: still working on white noise by don delillo im fuckin slow i didnt use to be this slow

30. Top 3 fictional universes I would love to live in: the one where i can fucking FUNCTION, the one where i can Fucking Function and am also some sort of professional™ writer™ , and uhh. yeah idk

im gonna tag @panwriter, @appelssiini, @stokoetopia, @slip-sliding-away and @kukkahattumursu but no pressure or anything no ones gotta do this if they dont feel like it

[elijahfitz]

and introduction.

meet elijah.

hey guys! im lina! im 18 and im in the cst timezone. im currently a freshman in college and ive also been rping for like 6 years now ( i started on the neopets chat boards. if thats not an embarrassing fun fact idk what is ) but i havent rped since this summer since school was and still is kicking my ass. im really into musical theater, marvel & dc, and disney! i also used to be a lifeguard at a great wolf lodge for 2 years so if u want any funny stories about stupid children, or even just wanna be friends, lmk! im also SUPER sorry this intro is so late. i was gonna do it yesterday but then my friends wanted to hang and it kinda went downhill from there. im actually posting this like 20 min before i have a lab practical so i wont be able to reply until late tonight, but like this post to plot or anything!

some fun facts abt elijah:

he was adopted when he was around 3-4? he was abandoned and left on the back of a merchant cart headed to corona, where he was then discovered and then put into the local orphanage since no one was sure where he came from or who left him. all he had was a stuffed bear (named wooly), a basket of water and fruits to eat, and a letter that explained that:

his name was elijah

he was 2 (born on february 28th)

his parents couldnt care for him, so they hoped he would be found by a kind soul who could either take care of and love him, or else get him to someone who could

they loved him and only left him in the hopes that he would have a better life

he lived in the orphanage for almost 2 years and the few months before the 2nd anniversary of his arrival, rapunzel & eugene visited the orphanage that eugene grew up in and fell in love w/ eli, promptly adopting him soon after. he barely remembers anything about his abandonment and time in the orphanage, but always wanted to find his birth parents and let them know how he turned out. he kept the bear and basket in his room but carries the letter around with him in his wallet wherever he goes.

his full name is elijah frederic fitzherbert. he was given the middle name frederic in honor of his grandfather.

but, he much rather prefers eli. doesnt mind formalities but insists on people who know him to call him by his nickname. except he HATES being called “highness” bc he thinks it sounds stupid. he wont get upset per se if u keep referring to him as “your highness” but he will get annoyed

he very much wants to fulfill his role as “corona’s golden boy” by contributing back to his people. he worries for the kingdom more than he worries for himself and is always trying to prove that he is worthy of being a prince rather than just some random kid who got lucky enough to get adopted. most of his days are spent doing modest favors and helping out the townspeople or visiting the villages surrounding the kingdom.

when he’s in the castle you can almost always find him in the kitchen! boi loves to bake and cook. he loves the way food can bring joy to everyone. he often makes goods to give to the townspeople or the kids at the orphanage, where he volunteers at least every 2 weeks when hes not busy w prince stuff.

has an acute fear of disappointment. he feels so much pressure to prove his worth that came from growing up thinking if he did anything wrong he’d be sent back to orphanage, esp since his parents had another child. they wouldn’t want or need him anymore. he mostly got over this when he broke a vase when he was 12 and tried to run away from home, except he fell out the tree that he used to climb out his window and broke his leg lmao. his parents assured him that no matter what he did they would still love him and never abandon him, and his dad also taught him how to climb trees and roofs without dying (much to his mom’s chagrin). even tho hes pretty much over it, it kinda lingers subconsciously. thus, he overcompensates in everything he does and gets overly anxious about small problems

growing up he thought the stories that his dad told him about his past were so cool, despite the fact that he would almost always only hear those stories when he was being taught lessons of what he shouldnt do. he used to run around pretending to be flynn rider and his dad played along, planning play heists for them to do together (think scott & cassie in that one scene from ant man and the wasp) but they stopped when eli hit that age where he thought it was embarrassing to play w his dad. but, it really helped him bond w eugene and help him work on his coordination bc eli is CLUMSY AF

eli legit trips over nothing at least twice a day.

he bonded w his mom through art tho, which eventually turned into aesthetic desserts and meals! thats another reason why he loves baking and cooking so much.

when his 1st sibling was born when he was 5 at first he was jealous. he didnt get much attention at the orphanage due to the fact that there were so many kids and he was just starting to get used to the idea of having parents didnt have tons of kids always trying to win their affection and attention. he thought having a little sibling was the worst thing in the world and would hide from his parents bc if they couldnt find him they couldnt send him away. he hated his sibling.

until he met them. the second he saw their chubby face he was hooked. he swore that he would do anything and everything for them. and that continued when his parents adopted his other siblings as well. he absolutely adores them and acts like the protective older bro role

thankfully, with such a large age gap eli never rlly had to go through any of those petty squabbles that siblings usually have. he was always pretty protective of them tho and would fight when he thought they were being reckless and dumb out of his own fear that if they got hurt he would be an awful big brother (again, fear of disappointment)

he loves to travel bc his mom would always take him to these extravagant kingdoms and on these amazing sightseeing trips

this boy is hopeless when it comes to love. i can imagine lots of ppl liking him on top of all the ppl throwing themselves at him bc royal, but him being completely oblivious and thinking that no one likes him.

he had rlly bad ADD as a kid but its gotten better as hes grown. he still occasionally struggles w executive functioning tho and always gets rlly frustrated when he cant focus or remember

like i said earlier, clumsy af. no coordination. the only athletic ability he ever had was horse riding and running

that said he has a horse named may (short for mayonnaise. dont ask

he likes music a lot. prob learned piano at a young age

he probably is at the party bc royals? idk

EDIT: although (currently) unknown to eli, his true birth mother is maleficent. when eli was 2, his birth father took him away from her and had her suppress eli’s natural born powers. his father realized he was unfit to care for him, so he was the one who abandoned eli.

wanted connections!!

obv his parents and siblings? i mean cmon

one ( or both???? ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) ) of his birth parents!!!!! they dont have to know that eli is their son or mayb they do and are too scared to tell him, but being trapped together will eventually make it revealed

childhood friends! people he met when he traveled w his mom or met at royal social functions? i rlly also want friends that he would hang w at all the royal galas and stuff and they would go do dumb stuff like look sneak out and look for secret passages of make bets of who could dump more crab cakes into the stuffy duchess’ purse when she wasnt looking

people who know him solely through his family

someone who likes eli and eli legit has no clue, no matter how much they flirt and drop hints

people who hate eli! or even just dislike him, which makes him upset bc he doesnt like the idea that there are ppl who dont like him in the world. mayb bc sometimes he gets super highstrung when things arent going how they should b and he like lashed out at them once or something. maybe they hate his parents and on principle hate him. idk

someone who was w eli in the orphanage

past relationships? i feel like hes never rlly had a bad breakup tho, its just that they prob just didnt work out. hes also bi so they can b any gender. hes still looking for his otp

idk, legit anything. send me those plots man

[that1badassbitch]

I just watched Mark's playthrough of Hearts and Hero's and I think If I wasn't so emotionally constipated I'd be crying so I just need to get words out.

I'm so glad he played a game like this one. Because it's so important that he knows what he means to us. He's done so much good for so many people and he is so invested in what he does. He's never failed to see us as people and he's always been so ridiculously encouraging it almost makes me sick. But I feel like he still doesn't really understand what that /means/ to us. Or at least to me. He tries so hard to put out content that's funny and fun and shows appreciation for things we do, and he always says it's more than he deserves but that's why we care so much- because he's not entitled, hes not an asshole (except for the jokes, which he only does with people who know he's joking) who thinks we owe him something. He doesn't think we owe him anything, and that's why we want to give it to him. And it scares me sometimes, because I know he's just a guy and the knowledge that so many people look up to him and admire him and rely on him in dark times would crush me. He doesn't want us to see him struggle, but if he can't lessen his own burden and if he tries to take on everyone else's problems too... It scares me to think of how badly it could end. I know how badly it can end. I hope he knows we're here for him just strong as he is for us. I hope he takes care of himself. I hope his fire keeps burning bright. I hope he never forgets that it's not always what you have accomplished that matters- it's that you have to keep trying. Win or lose you have to keep going, even and especially when you really don't want to. You can't give up on yourself and your dreams and you can't stop trying to help people because of one or two or three times it doesn't go as planned. Even if it doesn't go well a million times, it could be the very next try that makes it all worth it. Don't give up on yourself, and don't give up on eachother.

The game itself was so great. I'm incredibly proud of everyone who contributed to it and I hope they all get to do what they love. And I'm not sure if it was intentional, but every character seemed to me like they had a specific fear association, and all of them resonated with me.

Now I'm usually really really good at faking it. But I'm actually really scared. Of a lot of things. Some make sense, and some dont, some I've traced back to events and some seem to come from nowhere, but I'm scared of a lot of things. The ocean. Horses. Darkness. Confrontation. Public speaking. But each of the hero's from the game had a fear association too- Uselessness. Isolation. Cowardice. Hurting people. Abandonment. And failure. I'm gonna call them by their prepicked names and not Mark's keysmash for ease of reference. Because their fears and how they respond to things both resonate with me.

Purple's insecurity, the negativity the terrorlings used against her, was that she was useless. She wasn't good at anything, she couldn't help anyone, she couldn't do anything right. And that hits me because I'm always afraid I'm not actually good at something and that others are pretending I am so they don't upset me. I love singing and my family has always told me I'm good at it (except my brother but that's what big brothers do) but what says I actually am? I'm a good mimic, I can match a song on the radio if I hear it enough but I can't read sheet music, I've made exactly one original piece, vocals only no accompaniment or acapella tones, and it was exactly as good as you'd expect from a nine year old. I love writing and some people tell me it's good but they're all my friends, would they actually tell me if it was bad? And her response is that she apologizes for everything she thinks she might have done wrong.

Jade was terrified of being isolated and alone. What better game than presentable liberty to get stuck in. They wrote out how alone they felt and how sick of it they were, how they didnt want to be here anymore. But when confronted about it they brushed it off as their own dramatics and skirted around it and played it down like it was no big deal. But it is. It's always a big deal because we arent build to be alone, genetically we're meant to be social, and it's terrifying to think that you're so alone and there's no one there who actually cares, no one actually is or wants to be your friend, they just don't want to be an asshole and tell you to get lost, but it doesn't matter because you isolate yourself, you can't leave me if I push you away first, you can't make me lonely if I make myself lonely, and it hurts so fucking much to be alone.

Peach's negativity was her cowardice. She couldn't stand up for herself, and she just let people treat her poorly because what could she say, what could she do that wouldn't make it worse? And what if they're right? For my friends I would cut a bitch. I almost got suspended for fighting over a friend. My heart was trying to explode my ribcage and I shook for ten minutes after but I did it. But when it comes to me? What's the point? I'm good at pretending I don't care and I'm good at looking unaffected by what people say but I used to be bad at hiding it, and it still hurts. I can't prove they're wrong. And I don't always want to, because maybe I deserve it. If I can't defend myself maybe they should say what they want.

Teal's negativity made her isolate herself. Because she hurt people. Everyone who tried to help her got hurt. Everyone who wanted to care or wanted to help or wanted to do anything, they got hurt. That was all she could do. Like an SCP, she was a danger to people around her and she couldn't be trusted. She didn't deserve to be rescued. I've been there. I kind of still am there. When you hurt people when you try to help, when /they/ try to help, and you don't get any better and you feel useless, like a burden, like you can only make bad things, only do bad things, only hurt people whoncare about you... eventually you want them to stop. If only so you can't hurt them anymore. Don't drown yourself trying to pull me out of the water, don't cut yourself trying to pry me out of thorns. Don't get killed trying to save me when I'm the problem that needs to be solved. It's a dark place to be. And I'm kinda glad they didnt save her. Because when you get that way, only two things will get you on track- butting heads with someone who no matter how hard you push won't let you isolate yourself (best if this is a professional, not a friend, someone who knows how to help and you have to go because you paid for the session or because someone else took you there) or hitting rock bottom harder than ever and finally accepting to yourself that you need help.

Red... Red was afraid of being abandoned. So am I. I'm so reliant on others to be even a half functional human being that being abandoned is terrifying. It could kill me. I try to not get attached so I don't have anyone to lose. It's easy, you don't care about them so when they stop talking to you it doesn't hurt. They don't ask you to hang out, they don't ask how you are, and you go your separate ways. But the backfire is that when you do get attached (it happens, when you least expect, when you let your guard down just for a second) it clings a lot harder and it hurts so much more than you expect it to. I've been pretty lucky I guess- not many people got close to me, and less of them got close and then left me. I was good being caustic and looking like the person you don't want to be friends with, so most people didn't bother. No one tried if they didnt /really really/ want to. But there's a handful that I thought would be around a long time that I haven't spoken to in years, a few who cut ties and haven't tried to talk to me and I haven't tried very hard to talk to them. (Once I had to stay after school and my dad and brother forgot about me. I was there until almost five and had to call my gramps to come get me. I cried, even though I tried so hard not to. I've always been so scared people would forget me.) And on top of that, when Red got stressed and upset, he lashed out. Specifically, he blamed others and he picked at things he knew would upset them, even if he didn't mean what he said, just so someone else would hurt. It's something I try not to think about, but I do it. I bottle up until my frustration gets so high that I pop, and the person I lash out at is usually someone who didn't deserve any of it. I always regret it. Usually as soon as I've done it. But it happens and then I can't take it back. And I always, always target something I know will get a reaction. I know my friends, I know their insecurities, and when I het upset and lash out I throw them in their faces. I curse and swear and rage, and when it clears I feel even worse than before because I know exactly what I've done and there's no excuse, no explanation that absolves me of it. I tell a friend concerned about their weight that they're fat and ugly and only hang out with me because I don't bring it up. I tell a friend who's always worried they're a bother that they're an annoying pest and they should fuck off when they're not wanted. I tell a teacher who can only bend rules so far for a student who's struggling that they're a bitch and I'm sick of them pretending to care because they don't know anything about me and I dont need faked pity, that there's nothing they could teach me and if I had any sense I'd just leave. I hurt people when I'm angry. And I can't take it back when I do.

And Blue- we saw her last, and it was a close tie in with Mark's fear as well- Failure. Blue was afraid that she wouldn't be able to help. That she wasn't good enough. Because sometimes you get it in your head that you have to be good- no, you have to be perfect. You can't fail. You can't afford to. You have to be the best, you can't leave anything to chance, you have to do it yourself, you have to fix it, you have to make things better and save everyone and protect them because if you don't then you don't know if anyone will. Because if you do anything it has to be the best or it wasn't worth doing. You can't make something mediocre, you can't draw just an okay picture or write a C grade essay or try to beat a mission but only accomplish half the goals. You have to do it all. Perfection or Death because how can you live with it if it isn't pefect? How can you go on knowing that you could have done better and you didn't? Knowing that someone else- hundreds of someone elses- were better than you? Why did you do it in the first place if no one is going to remember it or acknowledge it? (Sometimes you can convince yourself it's enough- no one saw you move that worm off the sidewalk but you helped, you didn't score better than everyone else but you were still top 5 and that will do for now- but sometimes it just sits there, nagging. It could be better. You could have gotten it if you tried harder. It doesn't make a difference and you wasted everyone's time.)

But the theme of the whole game was that sometimes, you don't do what you planned, and sometimes it isn't enough. Sometimes you lose, and sometimes you mess up, and sometimes you make mistakes. But that doesn't mean it isn't worth it. And it doesn't mean you can't do better, and it doesn't mean you can't change to be better- a better person, a better artist, a better worker, a better friend. Accept your mistakes and learn from them, and no matter how many times things go wrong, keep trying until they go right, because it's only the end when you give up. It's only over if you let it be. You can't save everyone, and you can't be the best at everything, and you're not perfect, you never will be. It doesn't mean you're bad. It just means you're human. And so is everyone else.

@hearts-and-heroes thank you for making such a great game

@markiplier thank you for being such a genuinely good person

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(1/2) hng so this was a weird thing to take away from ur nsfw hcs (100/10 by the way, i love and theyre perf) but the one ab niles and the choking also made me think ab the diff ways l/n/o handle the trauma theyve been through. (in my personal hc) obvs theres overlap, but leo becomes kinda a workaholic/insomniac, niles is (as in canon)distrusting/often distant w/ def some triggers, and odin/the trio has a warped sense of priorities in regards to their own lives/injuries (listen i have a spiel ab

(2/2)how living a long period of their lives ready to die has shifted their outlooks and while they arent suicidal they have like? A very cavalier outlook on their own lives? ‘Dont do that, you could get hurt’ ‘its cool itd totally be worth it’ ‘not to US dipshit’ and im getting sidetracked and may ask u for hcs ab that later but my original ask was how do u think n/l/o reconcile/help each other w their diff types of trauma? I love ye olde comfort trope (happy holidays FYI! take ur time w this)

Firstly, I totally agree on your points about how these three handle trauma. I hadn’t thought about Leo’s methods too much, but overworking (being 8,000% over prepared for anything/needing that sense of “things are under control”) and insomnia make sense to me, as do Niles’ and Odin’s (which I may have also vaguely referred to before in other asks). (Also I’m glad you like my other hcs, lol).

In terms of how they comfort each other, I’ll start by initially referencing this ask , in which I mention that if Odin’s secret past were to come to light, he and Niles might benefit by discussing their traumas together, as actually verbalizing their experiences (rather than leaving things unsaid as Odin might with Selena and Laslow, who experienced the bad timeline firsthand) and getting fresh perspectives might help. Niles’ and Odin’s pasts aren’t the same (different settings, different monsters, etc), but they can still probably relate to each other in certain ways. (That ask, btw, sorta also references this longer, semi-related ask if you want a larger context, but that’s the gist of what it says). So in a world where Odin is able to discuss his past trauma without giving the time/dimensional travel away (or where it is an open secret), frank discussion would probably benefit him and Niles both. 

I get the feeling Niles’ past isn’t discussed with Leo a lot? In his and Niles’ support, Leo seems pretty uncomfortable hearing about Niles’ past (when Niles is describing it in unpleasant flashes, I mean) and he actually bails kinda early in their C-Support, to the point where Niles apologizes to Leo in their B-Support in case he burdened Leo in some way. (Niles also admits he doesn’t remember a lot of his time before meeting Leo anyway, so that’s something else to unpack altogether.) Leo assures Niles that isn’t true, so he definitely isn’t shutting down that kind of communication entirely. It’s not that he’s unnecessarily unwilling so much as that he’s kinda awkward, I think. He expresses interest in what Niles has to say by asking if he has any pleasant memories of his past at all, which allows Niles to continue talking without diving back into unpleasant material for both of them. Even though Leo’s uncomfortable, he’s probably a decent listener? In their exchange, Leo seems to have the lesser amount of dialogue, often offering two or three word answers. Part of that seems to be a search for words to say, however. He’s probably better when given a heads-up. He and Niles probably don’t talk the same way Odin and Niles do about their traumas though. Leo seems to discuss the present/future worries more than past ones.

That said, I feel like Leo is the type to help more through understanding/making the situation easier for the upset person. Like, if they had to cross a bridge, he might suggest they take the longer way around and would only explicitly ask “Odin, are you okay?” if they were absolutely going to cross the bridge and it was particularly intimidating. Granted, he might not even ask at all if he’s confident Odin will be fine and doesn’t want to draw attention to it. (Leo places a lot of faith in his retainers, which sometimes appears as giving them space and independence in times of stress.)

(Also, I’m not sure Odin would admit to his fear deterring him unless explicitly asked, so that’s probably another conversation altogether too.) Leo might offer slow down or do something more once the bridge had been crossed though. 

But in another example, like, if he were sitting in a room with Niles and Niles was clearly upset thinking about something (maybe the past or another trigger), if Leo asks “Do you want to talk” and Niles says “No,” Leo would sit there in silence with Niles until Niles was feeling better. 

It’s hard to explain, but while Leo is direct in his own way, I feel like if he has all the information on a situation already, he’s not direct/asking questions the same way Niles or Odin might be.

(I feel like I’ve strayed a bit from the “comfort” part of this ask, so let’s get back on track, lol.)

Niles is the first to recognize a panic attack in any of them, including himself, and when Leo has his first panic attack, he’s the one who tells Leo to put his head down and helps him breathe until it’s over and then explains what happened when Leo asks why

When Leo overworks himself, Odin and Niles both take notice and they go out of their way to do more themselves to lessen Leo’s burden. They also either remind him to slow down or try to guide him to bed when he works late into the night too. They take turns staying up with him when Leo can’t sleep; sometimes they both stay up, but one of them has to be functional in the morning, so they try to take turns.

Finding Leo asleep in the library or on top of a book or some other place that isn’t his bed isn’t unusual, but if so, either Niles or Odin usually aren’t far away

There are things Niles Doesn’t Like and places/ways he just doesn’t want to be touched (example: don’t touch his neck too much bc that activates a fight or flight response) and so Odin and Leo don’t do those things and/or back off when Niles seems to be getting oddly fidgety and give him his space when he needs it

that said Niles is pretty tactile in private, so they’re experts by now

His memories before Leo are in fragments (as said in his Supports) so any dreams/suddenly triggered memories of his past make him feel Off for a little while. He doesn’t always talk about it–– Odin and Leo alternate between listening when he wants to speak and giving him space to reminisce depending on his mood. He’ll more often speak to Odin and sit quietly with Leo. It can happen the other way around, but it’s more common the first way.

Odin tries to hide when he’s upset the most? (Niles is super guarded unless alone with Leo and eventually also Odin. Leo also hides it, and while he’s decent, he’s not the best and his retainers see right through him anyway, especially once they’ve been around Leo for a while.) 

Maybe that’s the wrong way to phrase it. That is, while Odin might say he’s not feeling well, he’s sometimes the least likely to say why, especially if it deals with pre-Nohr stuff. 

Odin has a tendency to be vague about what’s triggering or at the very least bothering him, especially since most of his trauma comes from his secret past which is… secret, obviously. The tendency to keep it quiet even if Niles and Leo have already found out about his past still persists.

The main signs that Odin is distressed is that he gets (a.) quiet and (b.) speaks normally and seems reluctant to talk. When the source is obvious (like they’re climbing a mountain and it’s the heights thing), Niles and Leo try to talk to him as a distraction, which usually helps. When the source is less obvious/talking doesn’t help, holding hands to keep Odin grounded in the moment usually works pretty well. 

Touch is pretty good for all three of them most of the time, actually.

Happy holidays to you too! I hope you’ve had a good December!

[trollhunter94]

Coffee, Coffee, Coffee!

Pairing: Human!Castiel x Female Reader

Warnings: Mention of spiders, slight ‘Mother Shaming’, lonely Castiel and movie references.

Words: 1887

A/N: This is for @i-dont-know-how-to-write’s Cutie Challenge, which uses the meet-cute of Loreleia and Luke from Gilmore Girls.

Summary: Castiel is trying to adapt to Human life. After finding a job at a Gas n’ Sip and changing his name to Steve, he thought that he was settling into society. That was until a late-night customer rocked his world.

9:45pm. Monday night. Castiel had just finished cleaning the toilet and was just about to cash up, when the doors opened and the sensors beeped. He looked up to see a person rushing frantically towards him. This overenthusiastic individual reached the counter and slammed their palms on the surface. “Coffee, coffee, coffee” you chanted, like an addict, needing your next fix of caffeine.

“Coffee?” Castiel repeated, trying to process your request amidst the distraction of your crazy entrance. “Yes. Please. I need coffee” you said, leaning on the counter to portray a lack of energy, showing him your puppy dog eyes.

“I’m sorry” he replied with a tentative expression. “I’ve just switched off the machine. Can I offer you something else? Juice or water maybe?”

“Water!” You shot him a stern look of contempt as if he should somehow know that word wasn’t in your vocabulary. “No, you don’t understand. I need coffee. Please?” Your desperation and pleading did nothing to change his position on this subject as he moved to the till, finishing his tasks. “I apologise, but I do not have permission to turn the machine back on”.

You absolutely refused to leave this establishment without a hot cup of liquid life force within your grasp, so you decided to convince this guy through tactical persuasion.

Looking around the store for ideas, you eyed the newspaper stand and a lightbulb went off in your head. Moving to pick up the closest paper, you flicked through the pages to the horoscope section and spread the paper across the counter-top. You asked him with anticipation, “what’s your star sign?“

“I, uh. I don’t know” he replied in confusion. Castiel didn’t know what horoscopes were or even when his birthday was. You picked up his pen before pressing him for an answer. “How can you not know? What Month were you born?” His blank reaction led to a long moment of shared eye contact. Nevertheless, you were determined to win this guy over.

“You look like an Aries” you said confidently as you bent down and began to write on the paper. Castiel watched you with curiosity as he held a stack of dollars in his hands.

You finished writing and ripped a section of paper out, handing it to him over the counter with a wide grin. He took the piece of paper and looked at it for a second before reading it aloud.

“Today you will meet an annoying woman. Give her coffee and she will go away”. He looked up at you with an amused smile before thinking about his options. He put the money into the cash box and closed the till.

You tried an incentive to sweeten the deal. “Hey. You know, if you keep that on you, it will bring you luck. Consider it your lucky charm”. He folded up the paper and shoved into the back pocket of his jeans. “I’m really not permitted to switch the equipment back on. I could be disciplined for that act of defiance”.

“Listen…” you squinted at his name badge. “Steve. Coffee is the only substance that sustains me, without it I’m just a shell. I can’t make any rational decisions. I can’t even function correctly. It’s the Simon to my Garfunkel. The Butch to my Cassidy. Please, put me out of my misery”.

“Okay” he sighed, stepping away from the counter. “But just this once”. He was willing to break the rules, just to stop your incessant chatting. Your mind started buzzing with joy. You knew that you could talk your way out of, or into any situation. “Ah, thank you, thank you, thank you!”

Castiel walked towards the machine with an air of deviance and guilt. You followed behind him, silently celebrating with raised fists at your achievement, only to stop abruptly when he glanced back at you. “What are you doing?”

“Nothing” you replied, lowering your arms with an innocent smile. He squinted suspiciously at you before turning back around and carrying on to the machine.

You quickly felt the urge to pee but realised that the drive back home was too long to wait. “Hey, do you have a toilet here?”

“Yes” he replied. “It’s through the back”. You turned and started to walk before he quickly questioned you. “How do you prefer your coffee?”

“Dark and bitter, just like my mother” you answered, rushing to the back of the store. You could hear Castiel’s chuckle in the distance, which made you smile. Finally. Someone who gets your humour.

A few minutes passed and he had made your drink. As he leant against the counter, a strange but familiar sound could be heard. Castiel moved past the counter and headed towards the window with your drink still in hand.

He watched as the local eccentric, Kirk, chased his micro-pig around the front of the store. “Petal! Come back, please?  I didn’t mean it. The cat came up to me. Petal, don’t leave me!” The pig weaved skilfully between the gas pumps, leading the skinny man in relentless circles.

You emerged from the back, feeling a gallon lighter and relieved. “No joke, there’s a monstrous spider in there. It took a sparring match with a shoe, but me and crazy eyes are cool now. Hey, what’s going on out there?” You stopped at his side and joined him in observing the pig chase.

“A friend of yours?” Castiel turned his head to look at you with a hint of reluctance. “Not by choice” he confessed. “He comes in, twice a day, every day. Just like clockwork. He buys the strangest combination of food, haggles about the price, and then proceeds to tell me his life story”.

“Aww, that’s sweet”. Castiel looked sharply at you now. “No! It is not sweet”. He pointed at the man, “did you know he’s a millionaire? Yeah, worked hundreds of jobs over a period of twenty years. He still lives with his mother, you know”.

You couldn’t help but smile at his frustration. He tilted his head, attempting to understand your amusement. “What? Why are you smiling?” You raised your hands defensively. “Nothing, it’s just that you seem to know a lot about him. Are you sure he’s not your friend?” He just shook his head at you before continuing to watch the chase.

“What about you Steve? Who do you go home to at the end of the day?” His head lowered as his past caught up to him. The thought of his existence in Heaven as part of the Garrison, his adventures with the Winchesters and his fall. Now his existence was menial. No higher purpose to his actions, just living a simple Human life.

You noticed how your question affected him, the sadness or memories associated with his past. “I’m sorry. I don’t mean to pry”.

“No. It’s okay” he lifted his head to give you a weak smile. “There’s no one else. Just me now.” You gave a look of sympathy, placing a hand on his shoulder in reassurance. “Hey, life is like a box of chocolates. Play your cards right, and that may change soon”.

His brows lowered with uncertainty, “I don’t understand”. You quickly pulled your hand back. “Forrest Gump?... No? I’m sorry, I must have misread the situation”. His eyes flicked from left to right as he pondered the meaning of your words. “What do you mean?”

“Well, that’s what strangers do. We flirt with people we like. You know what, forget about it” you said, waving a hand in dismissal.

“No, wait. I can be flirtatious” he argued, straightening his posture. “Oh yeah?” You placed your hands on your hips. “Go on then. Show me what you’ve got”. Castiel stared at you for a moment before pulling the wooden stick out of the cup and running it across his tongue.

The sight of this made your eyes widen with intrigue. “Oh my” you mumbled, not even realising that you were drooling. “I didn’t know it was possible, but you’ve just made that coffee so much more desirable”.

He handed you the coffee, fingers gently touching yours with the exchange. You were surprised at how soft his skin was. “Thank you Steve. You are the most important man in my life right now. The bringer of caffeine and humour”.

This made Castiel smile, cheeks now blushing pink. He fiddled with the wooden stirrer and gazed at you with wide, blue eyes. You couldn't help but become transfixed by the beauty and intensity that shone from his eyes.

Kirk soon ran past the window, interrupting the moment. He stopped to wave at Castiel before running after Petal again. Looking at your watch, you noticed that it was nearly 10pm and began to search for your purse in your bag. “How much do I owe you?”

A feeling of dread washed over Cas as he realised that this perfect interaction was about to end. “Two dollars“ he said, sighing in disappointment. "For both?” you asked with raised brows. Castiel’s face contorted in confusion. “Both?”

“Well, I kinda defiled that newspaper” you informed, pointing to the counter. He looked over before dismissing the proposal. “Oh, no. That is not necessary”. You pulled out the money and handed it to him. “Thank you Steve, that’s very kind of you”. He took the money with a nod of his head.

“I’d better go, Paul Anker will be wanting his steak soon”. Intrigued by this person in your life and their strange name, Castiel asked “is this Paul your betrothed?” You chuckled at his question, glad to know that he was interested in your availability.

“No. He’s my dog. My room-mate, alarm clock and burglar alarm”. His relief was evident as his shoulders dropped and a smile beamed from his face. “That’s uh, that’s great” he said, rubbing the back of his neck nervously. “Can I... Will I see you again?“

“Not if this is the last time you’ll secretly make me coffee” you teased him with a straight face. He squinted his eyes, unsure of what that meant. You began to move away but he quickly intercepted you, standing in your way. “Please. I, uh. Could you at least tell me your name?”

“So, you do like me? I knew it!” you stated with a pointed finger. “As soon as you laughed at my joke about my mother, I knew we were similar”. You raised your arm for a handshake. “The name’s Y/N”.

He completed the handshake. “It’s a pleasure to make your acquaintance Y/N. I would very much like to see you again. Would that be possible?” Thankful that he took the initiative, you nodded your head viscerally.

“Well, I drive past here on the way to work most days. So I suppose I could come by for my morning coffee”. The delight on his face was evident as he nodded, encouraging the idea.

“Okay” you nodded back, looking forward to seeing this man again. “Goodbye Steve. It was lovely to meet you”.

He turned to watched you walk away, feeling a sense of renewed passion for living alongside Humans and their quirky traits. Pulling the horoscope from his pocket, he unfolded it and read it again. A big smile played on his lips as he looked out the window and watched you drive away.

Thanks for reading.

Tags: @uselessace

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People made use of to exchange items and services for various other goods and also solutions before money was produced, and some individuals still barter today to avoid using loan (primarily for tax obligation reasons I am told). A few other wonderful services are a diaper service for fabric diapering mothers, or perhaps a diaper delivery solution for disposables, and spend for the first two weeks or a month well worth of diapering items. Also the colors used in the material should be natural and safe. You may be originally attracted by all the eye appealing shades as well as the fanciness of the outfits, but if your youngster is not mosting likely to like it, it is mosting likely to end up being pointless. Pyjamas as well as bodysuits for little child ladies can be found in all various colors as well as styles, and are made for all kinds of weather. A couple of pieces would certainly do - a set of babies suits, a set of shirts, a pair of jammies. At the same time, you can put a Tee shirts over their pajamas. They will secure as well as insure any cash you take into a financial savings account as well as pay you probably 3% annual passion on your deposit. They know that if you're pleased with your sample, greater than most likely you be come to be a regular customer and also spend money with them. There are truly a whole lot of free offers readily available; you simply require to recognize how to look for them. Or search by chemical active ingredients (see listed here for some instances) and uncover what brands contain it. Next off, you will certainly reach your search results page web page; this is a listing of all products that fulfill your search requirements. Let us take a peek right into what makes these requirements a should for those parents shopping for baby clothing. Likewise, let your very first couple of roadway experiences instruct you what you require to have along. There are numerous very first time mommies available that have a great deal of info to show to you and also they do not want you to be without the details. They want to have gowns with breathable textile and also simple on the body. Is this what we have concerned, - everybody in our region watches the same adverts, the exact same programmes, the same newspaper article each and every single day or evening? Note: After attempting solitary foods, great mixes are potatoes and carrots or carrots as well as peas. And not only will I examine it for him, Ill make it appear like the Elvis of foods, since Im already rather sure that Ill love a hamdog. He likewise refers to his love interest as "this Ethiopian queen from Philly ", utilizing the imperial characterization so usual in spiritual love narratives. If you're truly strapped for cash money, then you can most likely make do with utilizing your bed as a transforming table, yet if you can, this is something I extremely suggest. Its far better to feed infant first thing in the morning, after that permit some play or remainder time in between before giving infant a bath. At a "Pamper Event," a suggestion increasingly popular for mothers who already have a number of youngsters and also as a result the majority of the stuff they really need, they may take house day spa accessories such as a loofah or bubble bath. A fantastic bath-themed gift basket would have some hypo-allergenic bathroom products, like child bathrooms, talcum powder, towels, as well as bath toys.

The significant and also is that many, if not all of these cost-free items, are delivered right to the mom's home. As well as, with that, allows get right down to the core. Do you have the software program you need to obtain begun? At some point you are mosting likely to intend to transport your infant, so you will certainly need to acquire something. Unless you're planning to hold on to them for your following infant, they're simply collecting dirt. With a couple of straightforward abilities, an useful collection of "stuff, " and also simply a little of planning and prep work, youll get on your method! There is a place for TELEVISION in our lives and also it desires all the fastest way of taking in news from around the globe. Taking courses abroad Below, the poet uses the spiritual story to explain the time, area and also emotions that his love was founded on, talking them as if they were in some way implied to take place. Maybe she believed that was her place on the planet and also no-one might fault her if she executed her obligations to miraculous of her ability. I when had a neighbor who notified the world and it's mommy she thought tidiness was following to Godliness and also invested throughout the day everyday cleaning her home. It is believed that from this you really have the alternative to look into everything before you also have to get something. Limited neck lines would difficulty you and even the positioning of switches at weird placements would trigger you problems, so examine these beforehand. At the exact same time the switches as well as other elements in the layout should be carefully sewn. Yet Betty had the money each time I mosted likely to jail This song better highlights using contrasting narratives to share love. This instance better illustrates using introductory language in conversational narratives. The poet feels it is unacceptable for anybody to "call you out your name ", or to put it simply, utilize defamatory language towards his love. Most of the child shower ideas will certainly work for any type of location, inside or out. Do you desire your child to look adorable or amazing with child clothing yet you do not have suggestions on where to try to find them? Expense is a major point you would certainly wish to think about when getting baby clothing. It's very easy, look at an infant apparel store. Clothing care plays a large function in your child's safety. Thus, it is constantly encouraged that you maintain the safety and security as well as convenience consider mind also when you are looking for occasion outfits for your youngster. Also when you have actually acquired a lacy blouse for your small girl, if you end up getting a dimension that happens to be slightly larger than her real size, she will certainly fit in it. And also, parents will certainly be most likely to keep getting clothes to stay on top of the changes in the baby's development - dimension, weight, length, and form. Therefore, acquiring clothes that are somewhat bigger than the actual size of your children body gifts will certainly be excellent as it makes certain maximum convenience for the child.

Nevertheless, these immunization processes will only make their systems solid however it does not give an assurance that microorganisms can't penetrate their method in. So why did she act in this method? The exact same thing can be real with, definitely with tube pregnancies, thats why those 2 can be perplexed. Yes it holds true that child clothing don't last long with children expanding as fast as they do, however taking treatment of a children clothing is still equally as, if not even more, vital. Hip-Hop, you the love of my life which's true This flow is special because it uses both the metaphoric and also contrasting narrative strategies. The presentation of Hip-Hop like stories is an extremely hard task. Which leads us to one of the most popular metaphoric Hip-Hop love story of our time. Children will certainly like this recipe. Thick and also cosy clothing will keep the child cozy from head to toe. Below is a checklist of preferred things that has actually been investigated with several of the largest online merchants of baby products. Right here are a few of the standard things you'll wish to have. Do you intend to provide a present to a brand-new mother without spending a great deal of money? They use it when washing to get rid of smells, soften the materials, and also provide your infant and also kid apparel a fresh and also extra natural fragrance. When you are thinking of your childs convenience, its not just concerning the design of the apparel youre acquiring it will likewise refer just how the thing rests on your babys body. Consider how much you have right into the item. The following time you are re-assembling your package, make sure to add that thing. I prefer to hang around with my friends and family, talking on the phone, opting for lengthy walks or dancing the evening away. With all that having been stated, Ive found a new food that I understand I'm going to enjoy. Soon you'll uncover that having just a couple of great clothing comes to be unwise. I had a good free site a few years ago I saw daily. Utilize your Road Experience logbook to tape-record every people comments about the day. This will certainly serve no great as buying child products indiscriminately will not just be waste of loan however also wild-goose chase and energy which you can place for some positive usage. If passing by car you ought to always make use of a child seat and follow the maker's guidelines for suitable. If your journey restriction is no even more than a one-hour vehicle flight one way, after that look for areas of interest within regarding 40 miles of house. Which is not an issue because similar to kidneys, much like testis, women with one ovary can have simply as numerous infants as a woman with 2 ovaries and also two tubes. Obviously it is a 2x matrix, indicating those very first 2 individuals you reached sign up with get on your very first level. You ought to constantly have two pairs in the evening time, because you never ever recognize when an infant is going to spit up or have a diaper leakage that can require a full garment adjustment.

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***No Story or Character Spoilers***

I dont speak or read a word of Japanese so I couldnt give my thoughts on the characters or story even if I wanted to.  In addition to missing out on the story and character development I also only scratched the surface of the skill(tech) system as well as the sidequest system.  All of that is enough to make me not want to call this a review; I need to play it in English and do the postgame content to have a complete opinion on the game, but as it stands I still have a lot of thoughts about the game after one complete playthrough. So...here are those thoughts:

Presentation:  I dont think I can praise the presentation highly enough.  Its always been the case with Fire Emblems on the same console that they look slightly better than the one before it, and thats no exception here.  The music, color palate, animations, menus, character and weapon designs are all among the best in the entire franchise.  Even though I couldnt understand the words, it was incredible to play a Fire Emblem game with full voice acting.  It really elevates the experience and I’m very pleased we have finally gotten to that point.  No idea if the localization will have good voice acting to make it work, but what we have heard so far has been great and generally speaking I think the 3DS games have done a good job in the area of localizations so I am not too concerned.  If I have one gripe about the presentation its in the fully animated CG cutscenes.  They still look very nice but the animation is a step down from what we saw in Awakening and Fates.

Gameplay other than combat: Fire Emblem Echoes, like Gaiden, is as different from any other Fire Emblem game as it could possibly be while still having that Fire Emblem feel.  There are a lot of things that work together to make the game feel so unique.  In addition to the world map that was in the original Gaiden and brought back in Sacred Stones and Awakening we also have towns and dungeons.  Now, towns and dungeons were a thing in Gaiden but they were the definition of minimal.  Towns consisted of one or two buildings where you talked to everyone and they either joined the party or warned you of a tough enemy coming up, and once in a while there was a chest as well.  Now towns are 4 or 5 screens with many more npcs to talk to and more items to find, as well as a blacksmith (who in Echoes is a cool buff lady instead of the normal gruff guy in most FE games!) in most of the towns.  It must be said that in the original game you could walk freely around the towns and now they are split up into screens and function more like a visual novel.  Some people are upset by this change, but I personally dont really care either way.  Being able to walk around would be slightly more immersive and the visual novel style is slightly more efficient and makes it easier to not miss any items, and I think both those things are valuable. 

Dungeons, on the other hand, are just a straight upgrade.  In Gaiden you walked down a hall and did a fight, sometimes thats repeated x2 or 3 times.  It got a little more complicated near the end in Celicas route and then again at the end of the game, but not much more complicated.  Now they are actually dungeons with secret passages and breakable objects and treasure and enemies that you can ambush or can ambush you.  All the dungeons have a really great atmosphere and feel unique from one another.  I admittedly dont play a lot of dungeon crawler type games, so I dont have a huge frame of reference here, but to me it felt like it was on the simpler side of dungeon crawlers, but not too simple that it wasnt enjoyable.  Aside from the lost woods which is a maze with a lot of signs that I couldnt read, I liked all of the dungeons in the game, and I expect that I wont have any problems with the lost woods once I can understand them better.  The fights themselves are simple and much easier than what you face in the main battles, so its overall just a fun atmospheric break from the main game where you win some easy fights, collect items, and maybe grab a promotion if anyone is ready. 

Oh, I almost forgot, fatigue is a mechanic in dungeons.  But just barely.  At no point was fatigue ever more than the most extremely minor inconvenience.  I really cant understand why they put it in the game.  It usually only even sets in if you stick around in a dungeon longer than normal to grind, so I assume its meant to penalize grinding, but that doesnt make a ton of sense because 1) dungeons are there for you to grind and 2) its not even a big punishment because its so easy to get around via just leaving the dungeon or using one of the ample foodstuffs to cure it.  So basically, its a bad mechanic that was poorly thought out and executed, but it barely matters so its easy to ignore and forget about.

I dont know what it is about finding weapons in a dungeon or picking it up from a castle you gained access to after a hard battle on the map, but it really makes them feel incredibly precious to me.  That feeling is made even stronger by multiple design elements: first, like Gaiden and Fates before it, weapons are unbreakable, so you can keep using them as long as you want and get more attached. Second, as your characters use the weapons they unlock techniques that they can use if they have those weapons equipped.  Last, forging has been added to the game and it uses a tiered system where you keep upgrading until you reach max level and then can upgrade it to an even better weapon entirely, letting you stay with your weapons throughout the game.  And unlike Fates which added a bunch of drawbacks to the S rank weapons to offset their power and infinite durability, the legendary weapons in Echoes are just great. I think its an amazing system.  I didnt fully understand the rings or shields, though I did use them as well, I got more out of having weapons equipped in general, but rings all have big descriptions as to their effects so I will have more to say when the game releases in English. 

I also didnt get a ton out of the skill system.  Since most skills dont double, I dont think youll be using them much on your mercenaries, pegs, or fast cavaliers, meaning typically worse off units like knights and archers might benefit from it.  I mainly used two skills in my playthrough: A very strong double attack from Alm’s personal weapon and a super accurate attack with Atlas using an iron bow which in conjunction with his massive attack stat meant big chip damage.  Ill have more to say about this later, but I am tentatively pretty excited about this system.

Battles in Echoes: The actual combat in Echoes is significantly different than any other FE game.  Three major things really work together to make that true: Theres no Weapon Triangle, Growths are pretty low across the board, and when you promote you are brought up to the class baseline in stats.  These things in conjunction with each other make it so that classes have a far stronger identity than ever before.  Every class is well suited to fighting certain other classes, and you really dont want to send one of your units up against an enemy type that is good against them.  This means that juggernauting is mostly out of the game as you really need to fight with your whole army to be able to deal with all enemy types.  And thats right, I said the whole army.  There are no deployment limits other than in dungeon battles.  This is a pretty big deal and really makes the gameplay different than other Fire Emblems.  The only other main game with no deployment limits is Genealogy of the Holy War, however in that game I almost always found myself either not fielding a few of the units or fielding them and then they never made it to the fighting because of low movement.  In Echoes, I always wanted to use everyone and they almost all were useful in some small way.  This hugely changes the feel of the game for me.  I know a lot of people were concerned about there being no pair-up and how that would diminish the feeling of bonds between units, but this game gave me a stronger feeling of togetherness between my army than any other FE game prior has done and it wasnt even in a language I understood! It was just the game mechanics working to tell that story.  I always had to keep my army in a tight bunch, both to try and keep them all within their three tile support range and to be close by to attack the enemies who attacked their friends. It feels really great to fight with my whole team, even my armor knights, for the first time. 

Compared to Gaiden: I am already a big fan of Gaiden so inevitably I couldnt help but to compare it with the original while I played.  Some of these things might not even be noticeable for anyone who didnt play Gaiden but they mattered to me and I want to point them out in any case.  First the biggest thing to Gaiden fans: all the buffing and nerfing.  Generally, I didnt really notice a lot of the buffs.  Clair and Mae were both a lot better units than previously but otherwise I couldnt tell you off the top of my head who else was improved and how.  Nerfs were a lot more noticeable: Falcoknights and Dread Fighters, while still amazing, are much less impressive than they used to be.  I suppose it makes sense but I cant help but feel disappointed.  Gaiden/Echoes pushes rpg elements and is generally a game that seems to encourage grinding, letting the player have overpowered things at endgame seems like it compliments those design decisions.  Similarly, they nerfed mummies in a major way.  Before they appeared in big groups near the end of both routes for the player to easily grind up the entire party in a very short amount of time if they wanted to do so.  Now they appear randomly, run away from you, and when/if you do get to kill them they barely give any exp unless you are extremely underleveled.  Its a game where grinding could actually be fun but they dont include any way to level up past level 12 or so without it taking a miserably long time.  On the opposite end of things, I really approve of the nerf to warp.  Before you could warp any unit to anywhere on the map and it really lent itself to letting Alm’s half become an Alm solo.  With it now having a much shorter range, its more encouraging to use your entire army and not just Alm, and I think thats a good thing. 

My One Big Fear:  This goes hand in hand with my big complaint from last section, but I think this game might just have the scummiest dlc practice of any Nintendo game.  The original Gaiden gave players easy access to endgame grinding to level up all their units to max very quickly and easily if they so desired.  Echoes changed it so that those enemies now give an insignificant amount of exp and they are selling a new way to grind easily as DLC.  That really sucks.  Theres nothing else to say than cutting something out of a remake and selling it separately is a really really shitty thing to do.  I hope enough people become aware of what they did and protest.  DLC practices have gotten progressively worse since Awakening but this is the worst of the bunch, and I really hope this trend doesnt keep going into the Switch FE era.  I also am very worried about the money in this game.  I did not have nearly enough money to do all the forging that I wanted to do and I am aware that a gold farming dlc is planned.  This would be just as shitty of a practice as with exp if the money situation is as bad as it immediately seems because giving everyone forged weapons would make the game more fun, and that fun is blocked by a paywall.  That being said, I will give them the benefit of the doubt for now because I didnt do many sidequests, and its possible that theres a lot of money to be earned there or elsewhere and I didnt know it.  If in-game gold is actually as rare as it seems and buying a dlc to getit more easily is heavily encouraged then I will be very disappointed.

In conclusion: Theres some seriously troubling aspects of monetization that actually hamper enjoyment of the game, and fatigue and food seem to largely be a waste of time, but that aside Echoes is a fantastic game and a real treat to Gaiden fans and Fire Emblem fans and video game fans in general.  Its all around an enormously fun experience that I know will get even better once I get to play it in English. 

[dpdr-dreams]

hi, i was wondering how i can get diagnosis independently such as online or something because im finding it difficult to tell m y parents about my symptoms. im regularly dissociating and nothing feels real and im constantly suicidal and have intrusive thoughts and do impulsive things like harming myself,,, i need answers

HI anon ! Thank you so much for your ask !

depending what you want from a diagnosis will depend where you go. I’m glad you're talking about your worries about parental involvement into your health, as i actually was referred without parental involvement at all to my child and adolescent mental health service (uk mental health system) ! be it from the issues being sources from home/ worried about parents potential negative outlook to treatment or diagnosis/ family circumstance which can in turn result in a difficult treatment process as you can already be maybe experiencing , but i strongly still advise if there’s a way to educate (if its not a case of safety or worsening mental health obviously) parents, family or gradually open debates on general mental health or provide a way for any parent or carer to then be in a better mindset and moral position to help you when you may need it most or support you along treatment, and if this is not possible find friends you can be open with or a teacher, therapist, social worker/counselor, just someone you can trust ! :). some adult try to think of (especially their) children in the best light so mental health issues can be a little confusing and feel most helpful cover it up (till its over) kinda thing (which any professional will tell you ‘off the bat’ is not how it works with mental health, brain is an organ that requires care on top of that body part being also linked up to your whole body, so is a priority and no care can make things much worse) especially very confusing for a parent or someone who has never experienced dissociation before. thats my step one, step two is back to thinking who to ask! so, for example, if your looking for help with your symptoms or a treatment path, but step one if family isnt working out right now or you don’t feel now is the right time (which i understand, and agree with you if thats your choice trust me aha) i would recommend counselors that can work into your school schedule with our disrupting a school timetable and take notes of symptoms and then transfer them to a phycologist that can privately come in for you to meet with you outside of school, remember often admitting discomfort around parental involvement is often respected and makes things easier! if your not at school or uni/college a local church or temple will have someone you can talk to and they tend to be a lot more private with information, as they won’t, have a name and document attached to you like in a school setting, but can be a more lengthy wait to meet a genuine diagnostic phycologist who can recommend you then for dpdr treatment as unlike a school there’s no laws ensuring time limits for waits, but i can almost guarantee they will know your local centers or services specific to you too during that wait.  ,or if you’re rather looking for the validation of a diagnosis and less of a treatment (which i do not recommend without then digging further for treatment after diagnosis as of the serious nature of dpdr) making appointments with your doctor and use key symptoms and words, bring up dpdr prior if possible, on phone or email etc and prepare your doctor to learn about dissociation before appointment as they will be a general practitioner and likely not even be aware of dissociation so dont let this hold you back from receiving help., use bus routes and learn your transport to your doctors and work out how to get there by yourself or with non-family related transport like friends etc. if being physically present for an appointment doesn’t work discuss with local church/temple or school to write a recommendation for as you said ‘online’ are “skype”/video call or “phone based” therapies and appointments which my university has and i believe is a method being implemented universally around the world atm, although I’m not sure how comfortable most diagnostic doctors are with creating a fully diagnosable profile of a person without seeing you interact in real terms with them and talk face to face but this can help create a profile, speed up the whole process, as less in centre time for a doctor to schedule and limit total of parental questioning visits out of the house without an excuse if your a bad liar like me aha. if your still worried about your privacy? discuss legality of search up on your age and information sharing laws of where you live. but this should in no shape of form limit your ability to get support when you need it, so don't let fear or other people come between you’re health and especially with what your describing its critical to find treatment as soon as possible as it can have longer lasting and faster recovery from damaging symptoms. so step three you’ve found the path of entry to a doctor best suited for you, create a list of symptoms, as i know i certainly dissociate during a session and can’t imagine the bravery it takes to make that first jump for you so to avoid your dissociation limiting your treatment again ill reiterate, use keywords, key symptoms ideally in perspective to how its effecting the main “three life indicators” social life, work and school life, and day to day routine functioning and use depersonalisation and derealisation, dissociation, etc as this helps your doctors more than imaginable in figuring out what’s going on in your head, remember  even the experts aren’t experts  and will need your guidance sometimes to reach a conclusion to help you or recommend you to the right people for you, be honest!. some resources to help you find some words that will ‘click’ better with a doctor and other help dpdr related->  (http://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/dissociative-disorders/dissociative-disorders/#ddd). as i know with my doctors at least they we’re very confused initially and then extra time had to to be spent on rewording my experiences to what they were taught as they were not very well working with dissociative disorders but of course had the basic training as a phycologist. dissociation is terrifying as im sure you know so i recommend finding grounding or ‘time slowing’ techniques that help to slightly regaining enough time to prevent impulses taking over your ability to control your own bodies actions. its key to not panic during dissociation and sometimes sit and accept the sensations even if quite violent or sensory distressing, gaining control when your not there to be in control is something i combat every day and it can feel scary but certain techniques like going limp or short term solutions to keep you from harm is important right now till you get the support you feel you need. i also recommend discussing medication before talking any as many effect dissociation and should be taken into consideration which many doctors forget and EMDR is the best and latest treatment for chronic dpdr ! so make sure this is mentioned in your first appointment as to put you on the waiting list asap i write a bit more on it here -> and dpdr in general to help you or anyone your talking to to understand it all a bit better ive written and used external information to help me put this page together https://dpdr-dreams.tumblr.com/about%20dpdr  

although treatment can vary too , remember they will be trauma-related treatment rather than only grounding technique worksheets as your symptoms are 24/7 dissociation,( some suffer from off and on anxiety induced moments of dpdr , so dont let your doctor confuse these things and put you on the wrong care programme) the treatment list will be, CBT, talk therapies, medication for other emotional health issues you may also be experiencing, but the most important treatment at the moment  for dpdr is EMDR, so as of your long lasting sensations i’d say it would be best fighting for that care plan :).

again if its more you feel you struggle abit to talk with parents but are able to if possible persist! and educate! u can use some of the information i provided to help you make your point to your parents if that’s easier or write down how you feel or the symptoms of a real illness you’re experiencing to your parent, find a way if possible! :)) 

if you feel you need a sense of validation of dissociative experiences i recommend DES like tests online as they’re linked to most clinical tests and can help you label your illness to yourself as it is common in dissociation to feel confused over it all as of the nature of dissociation-> http://www.traumatherapyboulder.com/mental-maladies-and-the-history-of-the-dsm/treatment-of-ptsd-dissociation/the-dissociative-experiences-scale-des/

and of course if you are in a state of crisis or need someone externally to have a talk to about what your going through which i know can happen so easily when dealing with such persistent and uncontrollable illnesses here’s a mix of phone, text and live chat spaces to help you when you need-> 

  The Trevor Project Call 866-488-7386 (24/7) Live Chat with the Trevor Project (Fridays 4:00 PM to 5:00 PM EST)

Crisis Text Line: Text SUPPORT to 741-741 (24/7). Our trained counsellors can discuss anything that’s on your mind. Free, 24/7, confidential.

thanks again for your important ask :) sorry if it was wordy and general or was a bit of a word jumble.of course i have experience with it so if you have more questions, or later questions at any point after you found your pathway and/or plan for care i will be willing to be more specific as i dont know your country and its laws of practice of course, and stay safe anon, seriously hope you the best ! x

[elizabethrobertajones]

Disclaimer first - I'm not negative or angry + very pleased will all the lovely TFW we are getting and one thing I'm disappointed in - Is it just me or is Dean/Cas independent! relationship kinda gone-ish, 80% of all the emotional talks are always on TFW as a whole, never just Dean/Cas, even if Sam isnt there. Dean isn't ever refering to Cas in any emotional way singularly anymore (your OUR best, best friend WE've ever had, glad he cares about US, WE dont leave family behind etcetc) and cas too

Yeah, the big declarations have been all like that but having seen the whole “I love all of you” thing, I feel like they’ve been building up to actually have a family first, which is something I guess is way more important as a long term investment.

Something I’m always coming back to is that horrible isolation of Carver era. Well, I’m currently watching season 7 and at that part where they’ve now finally lost everything and it’s just Sam and Dean and not even the car. Like, Hallucifer and hunting and the Leviathan problem are literally the only constants they have from their old lives. Wow. :P

Carver era sort of puts a bit more of a fragile shell around them by giving Cas back, making Crowley a frenemy, and at least has some outside people like Charlie and Kevin even if they get killed off, but then also the wayward daughters characters who survive it, so there are at least some people to hold them accountable… During that time Cas is their only main constant family and even then terrible stuff is always happening to him and he’s always leaving, so he’s not really around except for little hints of what might be, and Cas picks up so much trauma from that too… 

I don’t know, looking at it from as outside a perspective as I can manage, I think with Mary back, and Cas MEANT to be a member of the family but needing serious integration into the family unit (12x03 with that little conversation showing Mary and Cas are struggling with the exact same thing) the show has to actually believably glue these people back together, and even Sam and Dean have huge splits that have barely been addressed (like Dean apologised for the ridiculous “sam hit a dog” grudge they started Carver era with in like, 11x11, I think? Which means they’d been actually on good terms for like maybe 12 episodes when Mary comes back :P) never mind Cas’s ocean of trauma and Mary being dropped among them out of the blue.

There’s been a real theme of teamwork this season in the big confrontation fights - 12x06, 12x07, 12x10 and 12x12 definitely all had teamwork fights taking down one big enemy together, and I may be forgetting some stuff but it’s more than enough for a pattern that they want to show the characters working together as a large and well-functioning unit - and within that, good dynamics, which they’re still working on especially for Mary, who (as we suspected she would) has only really SOLIDLY bonded with Cas because they’re both outsiders - Dean and Sam fight okay with her by their side but they need to work on interpersonal stuff (and I LOVED the shot this episode of Mary and Dean back to back with a wall between them).

To my eyes the TFW (and Mary) dynamic is clearly top priority and really important for the story they want to tell, and I’m loving the fragile way this family is being built and the exploration of the dynamics (now we’re getting later in the season I’ve seen people comment that Mary and Sam got a bad deal, but honestly for the first like 6 episodes of the season I was contemplating devoting my blog entirely to their drama and just forgetting Dean and Cas completely because I was so into what was going on there, and find it really weird people weren’t picking up on that because I thought all the subtext about Azazel coming between them was brilliant use of the characters and it just all suddenly paid off and I probably yelled louder about a Yellow Eyed demon showing up than I did about the whole “I love you” nonsense. :P There’s a part of my soul which is always going to be seasons 1-2 of Supernatural all on their own >.>)

But I think there’s still a ton of DeanCas this season, just underneath the main message they’re pushing, all the stuff like Dean and Cas just being prioritised when it comes to stuff like of course when the season starts Cas urgently gets back to Dean immediately and the story starts with them together. Of course Sam waits with Lily Sunder while Dean rushes off to help Cas. Of course Dean gets all weird and pissy about Cas working with Crowley and Sam like has nothing to do with this, at all. Of course when they get out of prison Dean is phoning Cas urgently to come get them, and sits in the back of the car with him. Of course he’s the one having the angry feud about caring too much vs being reckless after Cas invites his cosmic consequences. Of course when Cas is dying Dean is the one who rushes over to check on him and subtly all through that sequence is the one with the most focus on ALL the reaction shots, and the centre of the drama. 

And the little things like of course Dean phones Cas here, asks him to stay for breakfast there, is the one to hand him a beer and pat his shoulder, holds on just that much longer when he and Sam haul Cas to his feet (which I think is the perfect 1 tiny moment to demonstrate the whole thing of Dean just caring that little bit more even though Sam and Cas easily and happily could consider each other family at this point)

It’s like… Even when they’re not strictly telling us a story ABOUT Dean and Cas alone there’s just a little bit extra something going on between them, constantly, like, they just drift next to each other, or end up paying way more attention to each other? Like Dean at the diner in 12x12, Cas’s presence and the Mandy thing ends up this itch he has to scratch, he can’t stop bringing it up - weirdness between Dean and Cas derails the conversation repeatedly, and from both Cas and Mary’s POV we see Dean almost, like, fixated on Cas’s presence, while he’s all brotherly and annoying to Sam vying for attention complaining about the wifi, Dean just snores at him and goes back to I think just trying to get a rise out of Cas. 

I wouldn’t say any of this is really doing anything with them because the emotional arc right now is Family and creating a plausible version of Supernatural where it’s not two lonely angry brothers and sometimes people who help them and peripheral people they love but don’t, like… function in this way. Not in this whole promised dynamic of how that group exorcism went down in 12x06, or how Sam and Mary and Dean took on a Prince of Hell to save Cas (and even Crowley proved he has his own strange seat at this table there)… But they’re certainly keeping a sort of ongoing feeling there, that there’s just something extra about how Dean feels about Cas, and as usual, with 12x10 especially, the story about angels and romantic love is repeated and used between Dean and Cas, like, that’s all still there… I don’t know, every time something ridiculously small happens like Cas shows up and Dean rotates his entire body to face him on instinct, I’m like, yeah, we’re still existing in a story where Destiel is a presence.