#me detoxing lol

[jinhyun]

hellooo, my lovies!

as you may have noticed i haven't updated either of my ongoing series since september, and before the year ends i would like to clear things up and set things straight when it comes to them.

back in june i began this mandatory 6 months long apprenticeship in order for me to get my law degree, and tbh i got exploited the hell out of me, to the point that i would only think about work 24/7.

up until like the beginning of august i would still daydream and stuff and i came up with back to december way before that and i was so excited for it, but then i just got more and more work in the middle of august and from then on it never stopped. i was in a constant state of stress and anxiety, and i reached a point i had only once in my life before reached, in which i no longer daydreamed lol. i still don't really daydream anymore nor do i make up scenarios before going to bed like i always used to. i finished the apprenticeship in december 7th but there's still paperwork i'm turning in and my mind is pretty much numb at this point, idk how to explain it.

the thing is, although i've tried to take off from where i left the stories since i'm not working anymore, i can't bc i feel nothing. i no longer feel that spark or get excited about writing. sure, drabbles and those silly ot8 texts i've posted i'm okay with and genuinely enjoy writing, bc they're simple and don't require me to get as emotionally involved as a series does. but when it comes to watercolor and back to december i try and try and i just can't.

regarding watercolor, i haven't decided what to do with it yet but i think it's no news that i lost my excitement about it a good while ago. there's only one part left and then the epilogue, but if i'm being completely honest i'm considering just leaving it there and maybe write the epilogue right away.

as in for back to december, i'm putting it on hold indefinitely, mainly bc i don't know when i'm gonna be hit with the inspiration i used to have again and i don't want to keep you guys waiting. i've tried to finish the third part but it's been months and i only get frustrated when the words won't come to me like they used to, so it's not good for me either. just think of it as if it was discontinued but if i ever feel like writing for it again i will.

i know these are very shitty news but i can't keep pushing myself when i don't feel the joy i used to when it comes to writing stories. i hope it goes away soon though bc i do love writing and it's been my escape from reality my whole life, so this is hitting me really hard lol.

i may come back to btd in the future or i may come back with a whole new story i'm excited about, but for now i'm gonna stick to drabbles (or one shots if i feel like writing something longer idk) and fake texts.

i'm really sorry. i used to be really excited about both stories but life happened, and i thought you guys needed an explanation. i hope you understand<3

[nebulousfishgills]

Let's have a moment of silence for the TAVs/Durges that currently can't be played properly while waiting for the mods to update ✊️😔

[maxbytes]

THE BITCH IS BACK, BABES !!

[sakurology]

daisy dumblr break incoming 🩷

[limpfisted]

growing increasingly bitter over the attention ppl give to astarion rather than wyll rip. its probably time to take a lil bg3 break

[bibleofficial]

saw a starfish on the beach today & was absolutely ENAMOURED - literally 3 of us were just squatting over this tide pool watching him move

[ardentpoop]

“you deserved to be saved” is such a Thing for dean to say to sam after what he did to him w/ the panic room it makes me ill lmao

[sisterdivinium]

I was out for a little while (real life does demand we live it from time to time) and I bring you no offerings apart from the fact that I walked past some bloke on the street who looked like Adriel from head to toe.

Not William Miller, but Adriel: long flowy clothing, pseudo-Jesus aesthetic choices and all.

So that was fun, if weird.

[britneyshakespeare]

i cannot stop thinking about henry vi part 2

[binch-i-might-be]

MORE LAMS FUCKING NOWWWWWW

I don't know what the tone of this is supposed to be but this is generally not the approach that gets content creators to Do The Thing You Want lmao

[paulmccartneyprostateorgasm]

im gonna stop working so much starting this spring i unironically cannot continue to live this way

[quatregats]

My father just sent this to me, completely unprompted, and I have no clue why. But also he's right though

[prozach27]

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[boohoohideyhole]

Lol someone got really pissed over the Louis eye post, like it's not that deep bro I just remembered something funny.

[luxraydyne]

ah. this daily doomscrolling of certain tags in order to add to my now gargantuan blocked list is a compulsive behaviour i have developed in order to cope with an irl living situation currently out of my control isn't it? i'm stuck in an ocd loop aren't i? bollocksss

[inphierno]

Cooking mama carrying my mental health for real