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[lover-of-mine]

I absolutely love your 911 color theory, and I’d love to hear your thoughts on the fact that in 8x11, Tommy and Buck are dressed almost exactly like they were in their breakup scene in 8x06

This is gonna be very simple because I think the intention is very clear. Tommy is in the same exact outfit, Buck is still in green. The whole interaction is an extension of their breakup. The breakup is still happening because at that moment Tommy is honest about who makes him so sure Buck is gonna break his heart.

The addition of the jacket for Buck is interesting because the jackets end up working almost like protection when it comes to symbolism in the show and the plaid with Buck specifically is usually used as an indication of him locking down his feelings so he won't have to face them head-on. Paired with the green and the overall "something is wrong" implication of the color with Buck, it is still a bad sign for them all around.

And the morning after, Tommy is still in the same clothes, obviously because of the nature of the situation, but that Buck gear up is kinda tragic.

The shirt is too big, the pants are scrunched up in a way that makes them seem too short. I talked about the fit of Buck's clothes in relation to his bisexuality in another meta but the fit of the clothes plus the fact that he's in grey adds another layer. Buck and Tommy never had a matchy-matchy blue and green couple scene (post on the blue and green here) and even the scene with Alli was blue and green, she was in a pale blue, and Taylor too.

And it was always interesting to me that Tommy never got that, and the lack of bright colors in the scene, since everything is neutral-toned, adds so much more to everything, especially since Buck was very sepia-toned in the relationship, that's not a reconciliation at all, it's more of the same issue and they didn't add anything to create any hope there. We don't have shadows to create the illusion that one of them is hiding something, it's morning, they are in a spot that was always continuously used for honesty in the past. It's the breakup without any illusion that they can come back from this.

[chapollynh]

I finished DS9 and here's my first offering to the fandom.

The show is just SO GOOD!! I wanna talk about it so bad, so I will spam the tags quite a bit... My bad. Also, the people who said Bashir would get better - you were right, he became a lot more fun! Plus he's got a teddy bear, that's peak character right there.

[red-talkin-graves]

I don't know how to put it into words properly right now but I think there's something very poetic about the narrator and LQ both being represented by a crow or raven.

A man so desperate to prevent the end, so afraid of death that he'd prefer a world without change, is seen as a symbol of that very death he feared. On the other side of the same coin, the being he crafted to kill death is also very similar to a crow or raven. Both the creator of the construct and his chosen champion of eternity appear as symbols of death, and the "death itself" they've been set to defeat looks like just a princess. A normal human, an ordinary person, a consistent and everyday part of life.

Something about bringing about a world absent of death or change being a form of killing that world in itself, becoming the reaper you tried to defeat. Kill her and you've "saved" the world from death, but will always live as a representation of it.

[xxplastic-cubexx]

what is your favorite thing about charles and your favorite thing about erik? separately, as in what you like most about their characters :]

a devious question this one is, my friend!!! it's hard enough for me to explain my thoughts cohesively, but having to pick ONE thing i particularly love is difficult. with characters like charles and erik, theres been so much done with their characters over the decades and so they have so many components to them that make them so interesting and fun to observe. BUT I TRY FOR YOU TODAY. under the cut i kinda ramble and the size of this text box makin me anxious

i think if i were to be simple and broad, what i enjoy most about charles is his determination to help others, even if he isn't really thanked and/or if people don't even like him. ofc, this isn't to say he hasn't done wrong- to be honest, the fact he does wrong/questionable things at times is another aspect of him i really enjoy, maybe because- broadly speaking- he's meant to be altruistic (intent vs outcome and all that). i don't know if that's super exciting to most people, but it is for me

as for erik, my reason for liking him is easier to explain tbh. To Be Simple And Broad, his progression from villain to antihero over the decades has been fun to observe (as much as i have so far anyhow) and analyze. i think to be a bit more specific, him using his rage and pain as justifications for his villainous actions is definitely what compels me the most: hurt people hurt and the sort, an idea i've always found interesting (something something vicious cycles and the like). yet now, he recognizes this wasn't really. A Just Thing To Do and is beginning to change that, which i enjoy

[red-moon-at-night]

The impeccable drama of a Judgment of Paris interpretation that chooses to have Aphrodite disguised in the appearance of Helen and say "Grant me your apple cast from gold ... Take me as your reward" is so SO incredibly good what a galaxy-brained idea

AND THEN all of the tension and conflict created between Paris and Helen through him constantly referring to her as "Sweet Aphrodite" and "goddess"... Like it starts off very endearing for Helen in Perfect Stranger ("He called out a name meant for me") but quickly turns sour in Paris In Court and Any Fool Could See - Paris has precisely 0 brain cells and is quite possibly the densest lead role I've ever come across. His naivete and optimism is actually quite scary (especially at the beginning of Any Fool Could See) and the constant kneeling and devotion towards Helen is just *chefs kiss*

Helen becomes less of a person and more of a symbol of love (to Paris) and war (to everyone else). The line delivery of "I become the object / Of such bitterness / And fear" in Hell Or High Water tugs at my heartstrings. Sheila Parker's performance throughout the musical absolutely elevates Helen's character, her vocals are AMAZING honestly.

There's layers to it I'm not going to be able to put into words or do justice right now but that's okay. TL;DR: "One goddess / One human counterpart". It's such a fun twist on that myth!!

[spinnysocks]

Idk about you but “If I don’t succeed, I’m worthless” and “I don’t deserve forgiveness” screams Kiburi to me

He wants to beat Makuu cuz he wants to feel good enough and he doesn’t believe he can be redeemed cuz of what he did

oh absolutely. i headcannon that, during scar's army, kiburi's self worth is entirely dependent on beating makuu. i realise now i've never talked about my ideas, so here's my rambles!

in LSCL, he's still determined as ever to take down makuu after being banished. though, as the weeks go by in scar's army, with his float going hungry while they continuously fail their missions, it takes a toll. he doesn't feel better about himself by making sure his float is fed (sam's idea <3), he doesn't feel better about himself by proving himself to the army, the only thing that determines his worth in his mind is beating makuu.

i haven't exactly decided why kiburi is so hellbent on beating makuu in my mind. i've seen plenty of ideas and i like quite a few of them; i like to see what all the market stalls are selling rather than setting up my own, y'know? i like to explore all ideas. one of my favourites is that makuu was the asshole before kiburi, and in retaliation against makuu's bad leadership (at first since makuu redeemed himself), kiburi indirectly became an asshole himself. he doesn't think he can be better than what he is. as long as he's better than makuu, that's the only way he can be worthy.

everything else is a persona, crafted from his ‘crocodile ways’ and attitude towards makuu. i don't believe kiburi was born to be a bad guy (same for the rest of the outlanders) but he ended up walking that path. whatever happened before LSCL, he sees makuu as the bad guy. nothing and no one else is as important to him in that sense. i don't believe he cared so much about trying to kill simba, opposing the army leaders, betraying janja or scar's death because his one goal isn't being an asshole, it's doing everything in his power to go against his one enemy. iirc, all the other army leaders have individually opposed pridelanders or the guard on purpose. there is no episode where he bothers with, idk, attacking the clipspringers or the baboons or something, only when assigned to do so with the other leaders. kiburi doesn't care about actively disrupting the circle of life, just about beating makuu. everything he does is his path to that.

i'd like to point out that kiburi only ordered his float to kill simba after the idea was planted in his head. he didn't bring up about ruling the pridelands at all until he talked to ushari. i also believe that kiburi, as the only one confirmed to know about the plan to betray janja, went through with the backstabbing because scar promised that he would have the chance to beat makuu if the army won. if i take his canon material, i don't think he cares for the other leaders. i mean, he barely cares for himself, which is clear since he chooses to live in the outlands in a tiny watering hole (once again sam's idea <3). he doesn't move to somewhere better, like the backlands, because he's hellbent on beating makuu at this point. as i said, it is the only thing that will make him worthy of anything.

when the outlands are being reformed by jasiri, he would definitely believe he doesn't deserve forgiveness. it takes a long while for him to stop caring about beating makuu - which could be something jasiri helps him with, but it would be an extremely touchy subject that he'd walk out of a lot. jasiri can't understand why he thinks he's only worthy if he beats makuu, but she helps. the light at the end of the tunnel for him is when he processes that he doesn't have to beat makuu to feel worthy. even after all that growth, he wouldn't want to be forgiven for all he's done. especially if he went from someone who just wanted to show makuu how much of an asshole he was into someone who became the bigger asshole in the end. it's like he wakes up one day and thinks “oh shit, i became worse, didn't i?” and that line of thinking makes him believe he shouldn't be forgiven. he doesn't even know why jasiri talks to him, considering he tried to kill her. slowly though, he grows and learns that he can find peace in what is. i like to think that his self-worth comes from his float too, and maybe he finally can feel better by making friends rather than enemies. coughs at janja and kiburi having an angsty time before becoming bffs

TLDR; i believe kiburi actually has no self-worth and his ego is a facade </3

also shoutout nikki's ask on a similar prompt :]

[wikiangela]

seven sentence sunday

tagged by @diazsdimples @theotherbuckley @hippolotamus @daffi-990 💖💖

after waaay too long - the alive shannon fic is baaaack! my beloved <3 finally got through a scene I was stuck at (more or less, it'll get improved when I edit lol) and made quite a bit of progress! so here's a few sentences from the ladder truck bombing! (Buck's POV has been fighting me so hard, Eddie's is always easier bc he just takes over and does his thing, and Buck apparently doesn't wanna cooperate with me lol) this is very rough and needs lots of editing - but at least I'm finally making progress so here it is 🤣

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It all happens so quickly he barely remembers the actual explosion. But he knows that there’s a split second, somewhere between sitting in the ladder truck, and lying on the ground, covered in blood, ears ringing, in excruciating pain and unable to move his leg – there’s a second between all that where he genuinely thinks he’s going to die. That’s it, the end, without so much as a chance to say goodbye to Maddie, to Bobby, to Hen and Chim, to- to Eddie and Christopher. To anyone he loves. For a second he’s convinced he’ll never get to talk to any of them again, that he won’t get to talk to Bobby, eat his delicious cooking during a family dinner, that he won’t get teased by Hen and Chim for something dumb he does for a hundredth time in a week. That he won’t get to see his sister heal and find happiness and love again, that he won’t get to see Chimney treating her like she deserves, like Buck knows he will. He’s scared he won’t get to hang out with Eddie, the best friend he’s ever had, that the short time they had together was all he’ll ever get. That he won’t get the privilege Eddie’s already granting him of watching Christopher grow up, of being there for him whenever he’d need him. A split second, and he thinks his life is ending, that’s it for Evan Buckley, leaving this world forever, not even leaving a mark behind, probably getting forgotten by everyone but his family, sooner or later even them. For a second he thinks, maybe it’s okay, maybe it’s better that it’s him than anyone else.

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[meownotgood]

thank you btw if you're still sticking with me despite my new bg3 brain worms. obviously I still love writing akis but right now the csm fandom is quite slow. plus after over a year and 100k+ words of aki it's nice to write something different for a bit lol

[roboyomo]

yk. About the whole thing with kenix having Insane 🫵🏳️‍🌈 fans in the past.

I think it's ironic that some of them wanted to step on him. And then you look at his character right now and it's just about how he hates being seen as someone below others and wanting to be seen as equal to other people. Oh how the turns have tabled www

[dolphinrostrums]

love when i wake up to see an update happened to make a few vencord plug-ins break, but i check the vencord updater tab and see there's already fixes for my favorite ones just waiting for me to update <2 i love you vencord i love you customization of personal experiences i love you not giving massive corporations that are enshittifying their products money they don't deserve

[starsandgutters]

been thinking about merkev SO much this week but I cannot find the time/energy to write and I’m so sad I’m getting writing withdrawals

[boostrific]

i think i dislike booster as the blockhead get-rich-quick schemes guy mainly cause like. Hes always been the pawn in another mans game. getting backed into the corner by the fixers. max + the jli initially. even via ted tbh like with club jli.

none of these were things he himself started but things he was egged into and eventually gambled on. and personally i think thats a really important distinction to make, in regards to both his experiences as a result of his fathers addiction (resulting wariness + hesitance /to/ gamble) and his hereditary gambling addiction (ease of which he goes along with it despite the fact)

And i haaaate that that relationship with gambling has been extrapolated into a reflection of his intelligence. gambling is an addiction not a gauge on somebodys intelligence. Hes not even stupid he went to college twice. Hes gotten out of jams even ted had given up in i.e the bialya jailcell scene. He had started an entire global technology conglomerate like brother. Coem on

sorry it all feels so disrespectful to his relationship with gambling. Does anyone even care about him. Looks down. Kicks the rocks at my feet

[deepfriedtrout]

If they were given more of a moment in a less-high stakes situation with no sort of bad blood, do you think Sonetto and Schneider would look at each other and think to themselves, oh my god she's just like me fr fr (being immensely gay for Vertin)

[birthofcaeneus]

benji headcanons!!!! what are his favorite foods...whats his favorite movie...his preferred love languages??? :3c

AAAAAAAAA EEEEEEEEEE RUNNING AROUND IN MY MIND PALACE UMMMMMM 🙈

I feel like he’s a street food and comfort food guy. Like, burritos, shawarma, cheesesteak… I think he’d love eating from a good food truck or like a bodega. Also matzo ball soup, but just Grandma Dory’s matzo ball soup. Debating if he has her recipe but never got it quite right since he’s not really a cook, or if it’s one of those things where she didn’t really have a recipe, so it’s not written anywhere, and he has to recall it by memory. I could see the second one tbh, since he’s very observant and took special interest in recalling details about her.

Actually, related to that, I think he has a sort of selectively good memory? Like, he’ll remember some things from ages ago in surprising detail that you definitely forgot about, but something he did or said only a day or two ago, he would have completely forgotten it happened. I think it’s more that the details of other people to him are much more important than anything about himself.

For some reason, the favorite movie question is so easy to me! I feel like he’d love The Big Lebowski! He’s definitely a Coen Brothers fan. To me. His favorite bit of trivia is that Bill Murray did those godawful Garfield movies because he thought one of the Coen Brothers was directing it. He thinks that’s fucking hilarious.

For love languages, oh my gosh, DEFINITELY quality time and words of affirmation. It doesn’t really matter what you two do, he’s just glad you’re there, and he’ll tell you that he’s glad you’re there. Also physical touch, he’s a big hugger. Physical closeness and being in your presence is very important to him. I think something like long distance would be nigh impossible for him. Even if you’re just sitting around on the couch next to each other, he wants you there.

Actually! Related to that, Kieran said himself (here) that he can’t see Benji in a relationship because relationships mean challenges. They mean work. It means challenging each other and working together, and Benji has never been in that kind of relationship. He works better as a transient figure, someone who comes into your life briefly, changes you in some deep way, and then leaves. He’s quite literally THE manic pixie dream guy (I also headcanon him as having bipolar/manic depression and ADHD). So honestly, it’s kind of a miracle and a blessing if you stick around long enough for anything resembling an intimate relationship with him from both your ends (yours because his closest relationships have only ever been family, his because to him, any sane person would have distanced themselves a long-ass time ago). He’d be very apprehensive about putting any labels on things or making any sort of huge relationship signifiers because if he does, it’ll all go to shit, so he’ll keep things light. Playful flirting, totally platonic (it’s not but shush) cuddling, maybe a little kiss on the head and cheek if the mood strikes, but more than that with a longtime friend is… well, that’s scary.

That tidbit in the interview also confirmed Benji for disaster bisexual, so YIPPEE HOORAY!!!!!!!!!!

✨Dividers by cafekitsune.

[set-wingedwarrior]

I know it happens often to see writers during a long fic to complain at some point about the first chapters because they got better in the meantime and they look bad to them now.

But this is the first time where I saw this happened when the writing actually got worse

[hamable]

I’ve known about the Walrus vs Fairy debate for about 11 minutes now and I’ve never been more angry in my life you’re all wrong and I’m taking it personally.