#might delete later but idk

[localsimpissleepy]

If any of my JD mutuals wants to be friends in JD then here's my profile!

+ Other apps where you can follow me at

[marigoldthegamer]

I'll make a second post on this off of the first reply probably.

It's a strange day, but nice as well. You are only walking home from work, but you find it oddly beautiful with all the trees around you, swaying in the wind. You've finally made it to your apartment, fumbling with your keys at the door like you always do, managing to open it just fine regardless. And there it was. The body of the most YouTube Irish Twitch streamer out there, RTGame.

What do you do next?

[comet-wire]

Fuck not having cable lmao y'all are gonna hear me bitch/j+lh

[mapsareforbraindeads]

something about DID that fascinates me is how often (or rarely) other systems switch. like, my system switches around every few hours during a normal day, usually keeping our host in for at least 75% of the day. cofronters change a lot, but typically this is the setup unless someone splits, fuses, or we experience a Situation. but when i read through other system’s experiences, some of them switch every few minutes and some barely switch at all. a lot of alters always seem to know immediately when they’re out longer than they should be. our frequent fronters don’t have proper access to the inner world anymore due to personal stuff, so a lot of us don’t know much about how our system works currently. but comparing what we DO know with others’ experiences is just really fascinating.

every system is different and that’s something that i love about this community.

[everythingtoony]

Love when my dad yells at me cuz i want summer sausage and he yells at me because “we have to finish the chili”

Im not hungry enough for a full meal because i had 20 nuggets, and sweet and sour sauce

i just wanted a snack i just wanted summer sausage, and he yelled at me, and then slammed his door.

because i “won’t listen to him”.

feels like he won’t listen to me- I wanna know what crawled up his ass cuz he’s been yelling at me and only me for TWO FUCKIN DAYS IN A ROW

this was only our third interaction today. the first was when he woke me up for work and the first thing he did was start nagging me. “you’re room’s a mess, maybe don’t sleep in your clothes, you had earbuds in no wonder you didn’t get up”

UM NO 

Im already in a bad mood cuz you came through my door without knocking, and would not leave until I had to raise my voice and tell you to get out so i can fucking change, and my phone died. there was no sound. at all.

And then he drove me to work and told me that i shouldn’t be mad. he told me “don’t let this ruin your mood.”

Like no no no im gonna be in a bad mood you fucker

then the second interaction wasn’t even a long one, he said hi to me and started talking with my mom

idk what’s happening but im scared and shaky and i don’t want to be around him rn if all he’s gonna do is yell at me.

[trashmuis]

Current state of things, I guess... tw personal stuff but wanting to share

So... I've been home for about 3 weeks

and my fuckin mental health is sufferinngggggg bro like im straight up not having a good time right now ✌

It's extremely difficult to be away from my -still crazy to say this but- husband, and the home we had together. Getting a residence contract in his country is still taking a lot of time and we're not even at the home stretch yet because it might be another 3 months after the last bit gets submitted. Like fr this has been stressful and that plays so much into how both of us are feeling.

I don't really want or like to use this platform as a diary anymore, but I feel like... alone sometimes with these feelings I guess. Especially with a 6 hour time difference, I'm by myself a lot. So i'm venting. I don't want to bother anyone separately for it, I mean, besides like a therapist probably. But idk if i can afford a therapist really anyway. I totally need one though. On the to-do list going forward, even if the search previously has been uhhhh pretty unhelpful 👎

But, um, my confidence is super low rn and being away suuuper doesnt help bc he cant be there for me physically to provide that comfort i need when im being like, absolutely down, and i am so damn hard on myself when left by myself. I need to use coping methods and i'm lacking motivation to even do that.

Genuinely, that's what i really really want to work on now. So that's also why I'm writing this, to the void (which isnt a void, but, no one follows me so whatever.) I feel so fuuuucking boring sometimes. What are my hobbies rn? What is my sense of style? Am I stifling myself??? Yeah. I am. My confidence is at the bottom of a barrel and I am frustrated about that, but my anxiety is way way up, and my depression is making everything feel like a goddamn chore.

I'm so sick of it. I really want to pick myself up and like, work on being a better me. Cuz this year isnt starting as well as I thought it was, bc going home like deflated me so much and it blows, dude. I have some regrets from last year too, and that doesnt help, but i cant do shit until i go back overseas anyway. I just feel like i have nothing going for me at the moment and like im wasting my life 😕

Idk im a fuckin dork but i have fun with stupid stuff and it makes me happy, and i just feel like i NEED something to make me happy rn, bc usually that's my husband and i just... dont have him the way id like rn since we're so many miles apart for at least the next 90 days, if not longer. I'd REALLY REALLY REALLY like to not need to do this one more time. But tbh btw, i need to be a better me for all days, so i can manage on my own anyway. i dont want to be codependent or NEED him when i feel awful either.

TLDR; Mental health issues are brutal. Def feeling that rn. But I'll be working on it.

[heartshapedtrap]

had the absolute worst fucking day at work yesterday🫥 + put my two weeks in today!!🪱

was going to wait until this weekend but there’s only so many issues that KEEP piling up for me to find a reason to stay in this work environment lol🚽

[dxkjf]

they drive me absolutely mad

[solarpunkani]

Hot 4am take but I feel like if we want to get people more interested in making their yards a more habitable space for wildlife like insects, we have to acknowledge that ‘Don’t want bugs in your house’ is still a 100% fair and valid point of view. ‘Loves nature’ and ‘doesn’t want roaches spiders and mosquitoes in the house’ aren’t opposites.

And with that in mind, when we propose to people that spraying pesticides around houses is Not A Good Idea, Actually, I feel like we need to give an alternative asides from ‘deal with it.’

[saltspl4sh]

I keep seeing random parts of the fanbook get translated on twitter and it's so wild. keep in mind I don't have an actual source for any of this it's just what I'm seeing but. list of things that are apparently true

-reigens sister is a bank clerk and doesn't talk to him often

-reigens dad is a government official and thinks he's unemployed

-serizawas wage is 300 yen

-reigen lied about having a passionate romance with two women

-reigen and serizawa did actually go out for drinks

[cloudysfluffs]

kiss kiss!!!! <33333

~kink/nsfw blogs dni please!!!~

[shouty-y]

overwhelmed ✨

[driftwoodwolf]

I am not immune to re4r leon

new print for otakon maybe

[cheaptaxidermy]

super quick + rough animatic i did so the brainrot telling me to animate would shut up

[garfeee]

Joker in drag bcs